#tumblr vent save me

[iadored]

a term i've heard too many times this week is "book ban," all things it's rooted in, and all things that follow. friday i went to a concert and, very oddly, i felt renewed when i left. was it because i went alone? or because the last band was surprisingly good? or some other factor altogether?... i'm not sure, but i do know that the morning after felt magical. it sounds naive and innocent, but it's been a while since i've truly believed things will get better, especially considering the selfish political world right now, but the week that's followed has been blanketed by such a belief.

foolish of me to think a bad thing can only have bad effects, but sometimes i forget. a loud argument between me and my dad is nothing new, but a careless laugh to my angered face is. very violent thoughts overcome me sometimes—when i was young and angry i'd slam my palm against the wall till i'd feel pins and needles—but in that moment i wanted murder. i'm not so unstable, but i am capable of taking away a father's daughter. maybe not physically, but i think emotionally will hurt even worse.

anyway. book ban this, book ban that. i'm torn between crying and screaming all of the time now. my pessimism is addicting to hold onto, but since friday i've heard several educated people speak on all the things i'm fearful of with loud voices and friendly smiles and barely now, as i sit in my car eating whataburger to avoid my house, do i realize defiance is that magical feeling taking over. i can very well defy with my own voice, my own words, and my own person. i am capable of evil but much more than that, i am capable of good. and i think i need to be reminded of that sometimes

[portaltohellx]

[deathly-sweet]

Words by me

[angryvampire]

Why does my brain chooses THE WORST MOMENT to remember about it?? 😭

@olavored i should have listened to you and not have watched it 🤦

But at least thinking about Sun Wukong helps me calm down :'D👍

[wetsnifflesneeze]

NOT SNZ

trying so hard to be kind to myself. it’s actually my New Year’s resolution 🫢. it wasn’t planned that way i just realised around new years that i had to do better. as in i have to be patient with myself and loving and understanding. it’s hard to be okay with just surviving some days and not feel like I should have been better. it’s hard to not compare myself to others. it’s really hard to stop thinking about what other people might think of me.

i think I love to focus on the negative after something doesn’t go perfectly but it’s certainly not going to fix me or make things better. there are positives too. i am trying to distance myself from anyone who makes me question and doubt myself. this makes me feel guilty sometimes, incredibly guilty. but i need to give myself that space. i want to nurture my relationships but only the ones that don’t make me feel bad. i want to think about how i feel and write it down. i will write it down to get it off my chest. i want to try therapy again to understand my feelings more and more importantly how to cope with them in a healthy way.

[viasdllhouse]

waiting for his text quite literally all day just for him to ask for nudes then disappear again 🧍‍♀️

[trenchcoat-full-of-snails]

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[six-six-cicada]

dont you tell me how i feel.

[spilledink66]

We fixed things yesterday... I just feel different; I guess my body doesn’t feel the same. I’m questioning if maybe I was the problem in the first place.

[lakesparkles]

Sorry for coming here just to complain all the time

But things in my personal life aren't great at all. I honestly prefer to pretend everything is fine and keep drawing and stuff... But it's becoming hard to ignore

[maudiemoods]

In the booth straight up jorking it. And by "it" I mean. My fuvking torch

[artifex-nb-2000]

Daddy?

am I broken??

Mommy?

can I be saved??

Stop it please I get it

you had it worse

you have it worse

I am your child

you are supposed to help me

not make it worse

please

Mommy!

I want to be saved!!

Daddy!

I don't want to be broken!!

be my parents help me

I beg of you

I don't know how long I can hold on

I need you

N.B

🌻

[kingskyless]

shares this animated video i made for no particular reason whatsoever

[malewifehenrycooldown]

woke up. briefly decided to check tumblr. Saw a community that vaguely interested me. Saw posts that made me deeply uncomfortable. Went on a brief blocking spree. Then saw someone who had an icon featuring a character that means a lot to me. Made my skin crawl. Blocked the user and his side blogs. Now headed back to bed to sleep in.

[jameslongforjimshortforgabriel]

guys I can't take it anymore I like her so MUCH i just wanna LOOK AT HER and BE WITH HER and I just thinka bout KISSING her bcs she's SO GODDAMN PRETTY and I just can't stop LOVING HER but at the same time I DON'T KNOW HOW TO DO THAT do you see my problem

[femb0td111ary]

A siger jeg skal hoppe ud foran toget

Jeg ved ikke hvad jeg vil

Jeg tror ikke jeg har lyst til at dø

Selv hvis du synes jeg er psycho

Jeg er psycho

Ad ad ad ad

Klammo

Jeg må ud

Man kan hoppe

Eller man kan gøre, leve

Du lyder meget som A på det seneste

Jeg ved ikke rigtig hvem af jeg der taler til mig det meste af tiden

Men jeg er sorget

Det er du også

Undskyld

At jeg gør dig bange

Det er mig for tiden

Lige nu tror jeg du ville være glad hvis jeg hoppede

København H spor 8

Vil du sige det igen?

Så jeg kan ignorere dig igen igen igen igen

Og leve videre, skyldig, for det resterende

Jeg skal ikke dø idag

Jeg skal bare stige på

Jeg elsker dig

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