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belt move: success WE ARE EP.4
#we are the series#we are#thai bl#phumpeem#pondphuwin#pond naravit#i coloured the shot inbetween (yall would notice the difference in colouring in the og scene too) and it looks like a crime doc from the 80#so i might post that for fun later but yeah it does NOT fit this set at all so its alllll a focus on ponds face#enjoy <3#managing to sorta match the first shots with the second row is one of my proudest moments in recent sets ngl#petri gifs#userminty#userspring#usersufa#i need everyone to stop for a second and think about how phum felt butterflies putting on drunk peem's belt on and then started wishing to#try it out again when peem is sober and awake#he realised it was a perfect flirting move and im sure he was all giddy over it#im not normal about this at all actually#pinned post
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Fig's line "I don't think I'm an artist, I think I'm just a good friend" has not left my head at all. Just...
You're Fig Faeth and your horns came in over the summer and you pick up the bard class as a form of adolescent rock 'n' roll rebellion, and it works! It's exactly the outlet you need! You give a guy you just met drumsticks and you start a band and it's good enough that within a year and a half you're touring. You are, in every sense, good at being a bard.
And then, finally, your junior year, you start to take it seriously. Your art goes from an outlet and a form of rebellion to a practice. A discipline. (Can rebellion exist within a discipline?) Your classmates know what they want to do with their work. They all have a thesis statement. And yeah, there's cohesion in the music you make, but you've never had to think about why you make it. You've never sat down and dissected what it is about bass that speaks to you. You've never poured over your lyrics to pick at any deeper meaning. Why should you? You don't play music for a grand design, you do it to... huh, why do you do it?
(Your art is the one form of self-expression that feels as safe as Disguise Self does, because even if you're pouring your heart onto the page and then screaming it in front of thousands of people, it's not like you're really making yourself known. You can sing I'm lonely, I'm scared, I'm furious, and your fans will sing it right back, and there will still be the distance between performer and audience to keep your heart safe.)
Now you're being asked to look inward to explain the artistic choices you're making, and you can't help but recoil at that, because you'd rather do anything than look inward. Meanwhile, your classmates have no problem with it, so you start to wonder if you're a real artist at all. Can your art be authentic if it only exists to bolster a thesis statement? Has your art been unauthentic this whole time because you've never really thought about a thesis statement before? Is that what makes it art, and not just the next track on somebody's teen angst playlist?
You can't think about yourself— acknowledging your own existence makes you want to puke. So if your music is an extension of yourself, (and it is, even if it's just because the spotlight reveals only what you want it to,) you can't think about your music. You can't. You have to. Your grade depends on it.
You're Fig Faeth, and you keep multiclassing because you'd rather be a good friend than a great artist. If introspection is what great art demands, then fuck it. You must not be a bard at all.
#Dimension 20#fig faeth#fhjy#Idle Chatter#my last two years of college were when I started to get more and more nauseous about my own art#because I wasn't being taught how to make the art I wanted to make#the whole curriculum's focus was on gallery art#which infuriated me! I wanted to make art that didn't have to involve twelve layers of meaning and metaphor to be considered good!!#so I drove myself into the ground time and again trying to make (miserable) work that I thought would fit the criteria of a Real Artist#anyway it's been 4 years and I'm just now picking at why I don't enjoy creating anymore so Fig's whole arc has hit home in a major way#ALSO. AAAAALSO. THE ADHD STRUGGLE WE SEE WITH BOTH FIG AND KRISTEN. LOVING SOMETHING BUT STILL STRUGGLING WITH FOLLOW THROUGH#BEING TOLD YOU'RE NOT DOING ENOUGH WHEN IT'S SO FUCKING HARD JUST TO GET WHERE EVERYONE ELSE IS AND NOT UNDERSTANDING WHY IT'S HARD FOR YOU#it was easy and now that the rubber's hit the road it's hard for you but not for others so it must be YOU that's the problem#you must be lazy or stupid or just not suited to this after all even though it's part of a pattern that has been happening all your life#if you were good enough or cared enough then surely the discipline would come easily to you! the way it comes easily to all your classmates#SCREAMS I gotta stop before I write a second essay in the tags. I'm so normal you can trust me to be normal about D&D characters
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If I was in charge of casting voice actors to Mouthwashing, I would play around with how the game make the player believe that Curly is the one who crashed the ship by casting an actor know for constantly playing villains as him, while Jimmy would be cast with an actor who constantly play heroes.
While I think this is interesting I think a point of the game is that Curly looks and acts like a guy who you couldn’t imagine doing what he did initially.
You get the glimpse of him in the past and while it does give some reasons why he might of done it, you can tell he still wouldn’t. Inversely, while we chalk Jimmy’s behavior and its deterioration on the stress of the situation we learn he’s always been kinda “unpleasant”. I think having like actors that portray that would make sense as it’s the whole joke and deconstruction of the “untwist”. We begin to mistrust Jimmy but we don’t have proof he crashed the ship until near the end.
If anything I think it’s stands more to cast Curly with a typical hero and Jimmy as just some guy. A big part of Jimmy’s character is that he’s supposed to be completely average and sorta plain in comparison to everyone but especially Curly. Despite what people want to say he is designed to look average; a 5/10 mediocre and that’s his biggest issue rather than being a complete failure. He’s just moving along another part of the formation. His job a bit overshadowed even as he’s not even the main pilot. Casting an actor who plays those Everyman common roles only to turn out the reason everything is so bad fits with the theme rather than the typical good guy playing bad role and vice versa.
I think having a typical hero actor for Curly is also very important for the reason he’s incapacitated. These actors are the biggest billed, a reason people go to see the movie so having him basically be cut out of the picture and it forced to follow some joe shmoe is pretty on par for the game. If anything casting Swansea as a typical villain makes more sense as the game winds him up to be more unstable or violent when it’s just not the case, the same with the idea of casting an actress that place ditzy roles for Anya only for us to see how competent she actually is. Not to drag it on but even Daisuke as an actor in mostly silly roles only to be tragic.
I think the casting should play with the idea these are the characters under the lens of a person who fundamentally does not understand them and sees their most annoying aspects to himself vs anything else. Curly is the typically hero to him, Anya some dumb nurse chick, Swansea an untrustworthy grouch and Daisuke some kid. It’s a nice subversion to have them played by those types but not fit the role at all.
#because I can only assume we also have Curly’s parts where we’d clearly see he’s not malicious at all#like the game never makes you try to distrust curly more so realize we put too much faith and trust#into Jimmy without thinking or giving excuses because we had no idea what he’d done until much later when it was too late#basically the viewers/players perception is supposed to have been the same as Curly’s regarding the pre crash events#but I think it breaks something by making Jimmy look heroic cause the point is he never is and that there are overt and subtle signs from#the beginning but it’s easy to overlook not because he doesn’t fit any of the bills but because he’s just under the radar#he’s average mundane normal enough and having a normalish guy turn out to be a monster#is so much more compelling because even then he is not like a hammy mastermind unrepentant villain#he’s a coward that refuses to acknowledge the consequences cause he can’t comprehend the guilt#so I think everyone should be played by the parts they portray as the story twists and untwists the roles already#mouthwashing#mouthwashing game#ask#anon
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Ok but why is Natsuki the only character to get one pair of casual clothes. Like her Sayori and Yuri get their weekend outfits but those two also get another outfit in extra artwork (the overalls and the black dress) and while Monika gets nothing in game her twitter gives her both her white dress and sweater outfits. So everyone gets like an indoor and outdoor outfit but Natsuki apparently owns nothing else and just wears a shirt skirt combo forever. She is the universe’s least favourite child just give her something please
#I’m not counting the Halloween or anniversary arts those are special occasions#I don’t think I missed anything though#like in the picnic art they gave everyone new outfits but they specifically didn’t change natsuki’s and just used her weekend outfit#it feels kinda intentional does she just not own anything else#like whether it’s outdoor clothes or stuff she’d wear inside the house they had multiple opportunities to show both but she wears one outfit#and that one tweet where her and Yuri bake a cake they specifically change her outfits in between pics but not Natsuki I’m not insane#I feel like I’m making a conspiracy but I don’t know why it’s like this#it’s weird trying to understand her fashion sense too cause it’s like the only reference we have to what she wears normally#I’m half convinced she actually can’t afford any other clothes but since they’re fun promo arts in the side storyverse they don’t address it#and that’s also weird because I don’t think she’s that poor especially in the side stories she could afford at least one other shirt#or maybe she just really likes that one fit#ddlc#doki doki literature club#tempestmothtalk
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Frame switching when you're speaking other languages is such a thing because:
English (native): Swears like a sailor (actually, a sailor is more cleaned up). Dry, sarcastic, sardonic humor
Spanish (second language): 🤓🤓🤓
Hebrew (third language): What is a swear word? What is sarcasm? I have become nice jewish boy.
Italian (fourth language): My Italian ancestors have possessed me. Mambo Italiano is the energy of the night
#multilanguage#hebrew#personal thoughts tag#if you met me in real life you might think i'm a completely different person but that's half true#the energy i have on this account is an aspect of my genuine personality#i like to think that i am not nice but i am kind#though i do try to be nice it doesn't always translate well#but to monolingual people: if you learn a second language don't be surprised if you feel like a different person speaking it#it's a totally normal thing. it doesn't mean very much in the sense that you're not being a horrible Bad person#everyone changes aspects of their personality to fit the roles/expectations/people they are around. humans are social creatures#but yeah. my spanish sounds like i'm about to go ermmmm ☝️🤓#speaking italian has made me closer to my italian ancestors. they must have been insane i think
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thinking about cass having comphet
#just having a distorted view on society and all its unspoken rules#fitting yourself in the expectations that are put to be ‘normal’ in the eyes of the world#doing what everyone else does in being into men but feeling an emptiness that you cant quite understand#thinking it has to do with lack in your upbringing and you keep trying but you feel deeper connections to the women in your life#not knowing what to make of that and not grasping why you ache for her but not for him#wanting so deeply to be viewed as perfect and pushing for that male love bc that will solidify that image but it never feels right or enoug#so many thoughts (especially if you throw steph dying in there like the forever rotating it in the brain)#cassandra cain#dc#batgirl#black bat
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We have finally finished this project, and thus, The World's Worst Dating Sim is finally DONE! Just in time for April Fools Day. Now, with our six new contestants, choose, uhh... who's dateable? Or not dateable? This last batch was determined almost entirely by People Telling Us Who To Add, contains multiple AUs, and is... hmm. "Unconventional" may be a good term? Half of these are probably undateable but you can still shoot your shot.
As previously, it can be a platonic date if you want, you just can't be neutral. Deadlander Lambda belongs to @cordycepsbian and has been moved into our studio for duration of this poll. Profiles below the cut.
(we're linking the first poll here)
Deadlander Lambda - Maybe - Deadlander - Good question - At least a little bit
This, uhh...
...is this safe? We don't think this is safe. ..."Already had kids before"? What do you mean it's a parent?
...well, we can't get it out of the studio, so it's an option now? We guess? This... really doesn't seem like a good idea.
Rogu - He/him - Ant drone - Very rude to ask a gentleman that, don't you think? - I wouldn't worry about that.
A charming mystery from somewhere only described as "a faraway land", though he wasn't quite scheduled in this lineup, we think we can make an exception. This silver-tongued bug seems to be able to say just what's needed to get under your skin... and from the look of it, he's angling to take you somewhere private.
...come to think of it, haven't we seen that face before? On a poster, maybe? Well, it's not a surprise he's been modelling for things, he's certainly got a pretty enough face for it, but why do we feel... nervous, all of a sudden?
Carmina - She/(scribbled in)it - (illegible) - (illegible) - (illegible)(scribbled out with "No longer relevant" written in its place)
...where is she? She was meant to show up hours ago. What on earth could have held her up this long?
Pebbles - He/him - Moth ("iterator") - Juvenile (estimated) - Unclear
Right out of surgery, this one. While we're not sure if it's entirely responsible to include this one, and we certainly don't speak whatever language he's speaking... he's cute, isn't he? And looking for a home? Well, maybe if you're the sort of person who might want to rescue a domestic moth in a bad situation...
Wereweevil Vi - It/its (wereweevil form) - Wereweevil - 19 - Aro
Pre-existing hangups mean that you can only date this one in wereweevil form. Good luck.
Kina - She/her - Mantis (big) - Haven't asked - Also haven't asked
Well, we assume that you can do less lethal than the bandit who people mostly know thanks to her former job as a corpse disposal unit, but some people might be into that sort of thing, honestly. Are you, perchance, also a mantis?
#our art#bug fables#finished#watercolor#ocs#other peoples ocs#deadlander lambda#monsieur scarlet#carmina#five pebbles#wereweevil vi#kina#valentines#or we're tagging it as such for organization its actually an april fools poll#we treat the two events with about the same gravity so it fits#for clarification purposes: five pebbles is several centuries old and would be very offended at being called juvenile#however he is less than an inch tall and built like a stick and doesnt speak bugnish at all#so he spends most of his time lurking beneath furniture and trying to bite people with his new mouth. much to the hospitals distaste.#although the wereweevil is vi or at least an aspect of her it is not a terribly sapient one#it is hungry and afraid and desperate and lashing out in search of any pack#in search of ANY connection it can find#and the only way it knows how to do that is by violently mauling everyone and everything in its path so uhh good luck bucko#wereweevil vi in normal form has way too many hangups over intimacy to agree to an outing and must be approached like a feral cat#we know about the normal timeline and we added extra years so that she has the time to acquire more problems#thus ends our FAQ. good luck#EDIT: typo in the tags. ough
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should i try and play along with/incorporate zombie motifs given all my scars and the way i limp sideways bc of scoliosis and the literal muscle rot or should i just go ahead and kill myself
#im as good as dead anyways. surely this wont lead to further dehumanization. yknow the kind that comes with being disabled. by default#cant walk normal cant have a straight spine cant be taken seriously cant be indepedent brother what semblance of a chance do i have#i genuinely feel soulless. whats the point of trying to be yourself when youll be forever at the mercy of someone else#people told me they can identify me by the fucking sound of my footsteps. bc of the way i walk. i literally cant even pretend to be normal#hehehoohoo maybe if i embrace something like zombie imagery i will hate myself less! >remembers everyone thinks theyre goofy#im just another dead weight to have its head blown off by someone whos abled. in this way i truly identify with zombies! how fitting#im so miserable. sometimes i wish i was delusional or i could zone out and pretend like this isnt gonna be my life forever#and that it is guaranteed to only get worse from here no matter what. i need to be shot i need to be shot i need to be shot
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#not to be a bummer dude but like#gen z really is the lonliest generation and we're so screwed#it's so hard to meet people that want to make friends & people are judgemental but at the same time everyone is lonely it's so strange#any time there's an event people flake & like. genuine closeness in friendships is rare#i feel like all i do is listen to my friends or my sister and try to help but the second i talk about myself no one cares#i feel like it'll be hard to find people (or god forbid a partner) who genuinely like me because i'm so...out of place#i've always felt that way my whole life. too 'weird' for normal people & too 'normal' for weird people & generally a piece that doesn't fit#people would look at my insta like 'oh why do you only have 10 follwers' & it's like. sure you might have hundreds but do you talk to them?#do you know them?#i feel like even close friends these days hang out like once a month/every other month#i feel like. idk i want deeper friendships and relationships but everyone around me wants to drink and smoke and fuck and flake#my deepest hope is that it's an early 20s thing and not my generation's thing but knowing me we're just fucked#also there are the online friendships which i really appreciate but there's always gonna be that question of like#do you like me because i make the content you like? would you hate me if you met me irl?#and like. no one is under any obligation to like me or cater to me but i dunno. it's just kind of a bummer#post ovulation clarity goes crazy i hate it here#rose.txt#tw vent
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jing yuan and yanqing are giving zhongli and xiao if the latter’s canon relationship was Actually fanon’s made up father figure/adopted child dynamic
#idkkkkkkkkkkkkk who looks at zx and is like 'you know what. this is a healthy parent child relationship'#like girl by fitting them into father son boxes you are actively making their relationship imbalance Worse#if you do that and dont shy away from it i respect that but if you say dad/son makes their relationship more wholesome or whatever like WHY#now i wont deny shippers might do that too but i see the dad son version so much i think im just averse to it by default#also because i think father son makes people actively Try to make their relationship something that its not and it erases a bunch of subtlet#subtleties in it. it's the nuanced r/ship -> entirely unproblematic and flavorless r/ship that i hate#also the number of people who'll block if you ship zx. like damn thats crazy you guys really think theyre father son (fake)???#at their peak they're like. 4000 year old guys who have too much history and repression and some weird entanglement of 'nah im bothering him#too much' and 'gotta protect him w my life' complexes. and then this devolves into theyre never gonna kiss until 3000 more years have passed#listen they just Contain Multitudes idc if you dont ship it just dont make it into dad and son and we will be so gucci#jing.yuan and yanqing are like different i think mostly bc yanqing is actually like a minor and jing yuan is also a normal ish person#plus the light cone and the abouts?? yeah this is an actual like adopted parent/child thing#also good or bad news i caved and am now playing hsr. the plan is to pull yanqing and then go on infinite hiatus in the game 👍#JWKFLJWEK i dont think theres really any draws for me besides him. personally neutral on turn based combat and the open world isn't giving#the only saving grace i have rn is 1) ive gotten to the part where bron.seele is real and man theyre gay 2) trailblazer trio 3) tall female#mc 4) everyone has way better emoting abilities than genshin 5) su.shang's really cute <3#the story doesnt really interest me though its like cool but not mindgrippingly interesting#tbf i think genshin is the same way storyline wise (at the beginning) but the difference is that turn based combat isnt really my thing LMAO#ramblings!#zhongxiao#if you want to filter it out ??
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anyone else have a playlist of just a few songs that in the context of the dragon prince emotionally wrench them like a lot or just me 😃
#1 the moon will sing: viren pov on virrow#2 never love an anchor: virrow or terridia or rayllum god its flexible really#3 weird fishes/arpeggi: claudia s6 but also viren end of s5 really it fluctuates between the two#4 i bet on losing dogs is aaravos bc everyone he ever cared for died while he was trying to help them and im not ok about that#5 yeah yeah yeah i need to make a whole ass animatic for it at some point um but just. imagine#i knew it in my heart with him getting betrayed —literally stabbed by the novablade haha oops knew it in the start bc future vision or what#6 change is ezran and aaravos bc im delusional but also fits like themes of redemption in the show in general like it could be viren idc#+ i am an unforgivable steven universe lover (oxymoron)#7 pale machine is aaravos learning to love again like a normal person :’)))#8 evelyn evelyn as soren and claudia those poor traumatized children#but also thinking specifically about when soren leaves in s3 :(#but it fits lots of moments in their dynamic really#the dragon prince#tdp playlist#hahahah normal#self spaghettification#mine#Spotify#magefam#aaravos#virrow#but really yk its up to ur interpretation
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guys what if i told you ive been thinking about dess and actually i think dess/chara might be able to work out in the drkau...like ive been doing some thinking into dess and her reasons and why she does what she does and how she cares about people and im starting to nail down the role i want asriel to play, and. and.
guys i think dess is actually going to be able to change. i think dess figures out how to change but asriel never does....
#chatter#its about like. okay azzy's big thing is normality right.#ive decided hes our monster representative for the prophecy#(which i could make a whole post on but these tags are not the place)#which means dess ISNT which means dess isnt stuck by that#which means like. god this needs so much context i dont have time to give but.#in order for asriel to change he has to come to terms w the fact that a lot of things are his fault#like if he had reacted differently dess maybe stays#or at least doesnt take kris with her#and DESS comes to terms w this. dess is aware that she sorta fucked kris's life#and no shes not their mom but she does love them and care for them#and eventually would start to realize like. i have to be there for them#it wont be perfect but i can TRY even if trying is really really scary#and its this idea of like. what dess-chara-kris-frisk have#is family that could NEVER fit into what society sees as 'normal'#but they have each other. and they want to try. so they make something good#vs asriel chasing normality and pushing everyone away and at the end of it all like#that cant make you happy. all it does is make you Alone. and i dont know if he like#changes. cause hes so deep in he cant admit he was wrong cause then what was any of this for?#anyways let me remind you that noelle is our main character--#(though tbf since azzy is her brother and has a huge impact on her life its fair he gets a focus too)#I LOVE MY OWN AU <3#drkau
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she's starting to get into tarot now too, and I think I get prickly about her picking up interests I already picked up for myself (or tried to) because like. I have very very little self, between how I grew up and how sick I've been. she gets to have a career and a passion and a self and a gender and all this shit I don't. so it bugs me when she starts to step into these surface level things because I don't really. have anything else.
#especially right now with her just having left and new years looming and the va stuff and all.#hell compared to the average person I barely even have memories#it's just not fair.#she gets to pick things up and drop them again at her whims#plus she actually has the financial and physical ability to try new shit so easily#it's not her fault.#(it's a tiny bit her fault given she directly decides how much money she gets vs I get)#(but she doesn't not deserve these things.)#like. I'm physically unable to shuffle cards.#I've been actively and repeatedly trying to get a card shuffler that will fit tarot cards.#but I can't fucking get one for the life of me.#so I can't actually use my deck even though I really want to.#meanwhile she got a beginner deck with the cheat sheet right on the cards and she's already like 'I wanna table at a ren faire :)'#it's like the craft fair last year when afterwards she was like 'oh I'd like to sell my crafts at pike place I think :)'#and she went into my field way after me but she did it the normal way so everyone believes she's even more qualified than she is#while no one will believe I know anything because I don't have letters.#it bothers me. it bothers me a lot. but it feels stupid to bring it up over and over.#I mean like. I do have a me. but it's not the same as a self#idk how to explain it#and a lot of it is. nebulous. and hard to reach. and often discouraged
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#THIS MANHATTAN MAN BY THE ALTOGETHER AS A LMANBERG SONG YOU WILL ALWAYS BE FAMOUS!!!!!!!!!!#sorry it came up on shuffle and. FUCK man miss lmanberg like a mf!!!!!!!!#that tubbo tweet should go on the new pinned if i ever get around to doin that#also know theres more fitting lyrics i just didnt include them bc im trying to not be 1000% insane#ya got the core which is Missing Lmanberg Hours and reminiscing#but also the. 'everyone around is in a rush just to be found without ever getting lost' OUGH.#SOPRRRYYYY sorry im. ill be normal i prommy
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as someone who knew nothing about the books or show until i watched it last year on a whim, i was a belly x conrad girlie. i still am, but man, with season 2 already foreshadowing how much theyre soulmates, i feel bad jeremiah doesnt get a fair and fighting chance as belly’s love interest. every time he is, it’s just an afterthought. and it makes the “love triangle” a lot less intriguing bc, well, theres nothing to be intrigued about!!! theres no pining, we all know — even jeremiah himself — that she will always have conrad as number #1. justice for jeremiah and belly to have a fair love story actually
#whats the fun in a love triangle if everything in the show is pointing towards bonrad lol. cmonnnnn#its to the point that every time a jeremiah x belly moment or scene comes up my bonrad self goes out the window and i root for them#but then watching gavin and lola actually act out those scenes - try as i might - i just cant...... i dont believe it#like idk if this is just me but i also feel like gavin and lola just dont have chemistry#again as someone who didnt read the books or have a vested interest in waiting for the show to come out last year#so i wasnt predisposed one way or another#and like. normally i would go for jeremiah and belly bc hes the healthier fit. but i just dont feel any sparks btwn them the way chris#and lola do. and on a larger scale i feel like gavins chemistry w everyone isnt strong either??#i thought he and sean were great last season but idk. it feels like he doesnt jive w everyone as well#you can see it more in the scenes where theyre improving or riffing in the background#and watching the cast interviews it feels that way too. but not for lack of trying on gavins end#just my observations#tsitp#belly x conrad#belly x jeremiah#lola tung#christopher briney#gavin casalegno#mytext
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