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still. after all of it. mostly, i want to be kind

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i like dates. i like quality time. i like reassurance. i like spending time together.i like reciprocated energy..

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obsessed with like, Jason who absolutely refuses to reconcile with the bats. he wants no part in that family and will not talk to them under any circumstances. but he's legally dead with no friends and sometimes he gets sick of being completely by himself and wants to have company. so.

Bruce: hey Alfred have you seen my-

*comes into kitchen to see Alfred calmly preparing dinner while Jason Todd, Killer Red Hood, silently does paperwork while sat on the corner of the kitchen counter*

Bruce:

Bruce: uh-

Tim, doing homework at the table: don't mention it. if you acknowledge him he'll leave. he just likes being around people sometimes.

the bats have to start treating him like a stray cat, letting him go to them and acting completely unbothered by his presence because if they even make eye contact with Jason he'll jump out the window and they 1. won't see him for a month and 2. will start to see a lot more murders cropping up around gotham.

eventually it gets to the point where Dick will come to dinner to see the rest of the family wordlessly ignoring the brick shithouse of a man who is just sat on the floor of the dining area reading a book and he has to just. take a breath and pretend Jason isn't there. calmly stepping around him without acknowledging him. Alfred will silently place a plate of food by the guys elbow while speaking to Damian about school. When they decide to move from the table to the tv room for a movie night none of them can even look around when they hear him eventually follow just to sit in the corner of this room instead.

Bruce: I'm concerned, this is abnormal for Jason. what if he's been drugged with something? or he's trying to gain sensitive information?

Damian: actually he used to do this a lot after he came out of the Lazarus pit. he liked to sit in and watch me train, and occasionally we'd find him sat by grandfathers feet while he ran meetings. Mother says it's important to let him settle, because it's likely that he's simply craving human intimacy on his own terms for once.

Bruce, crying: oh

Jason still refuses to say a word to any of them unless it's in costume, and even then it's the same old 'i'm not your son! i'm not one of you! fuck off!' shtick like normal. they just have to accept him sneaking into the house every now and then too.

one time Tim needs Red Hoods info on a case he's working and since Jason's been sat on the floor against the wall of the bat cave for the past 45 minutes just. staring into space and vibing. he risks sliding the file across the floor towards him before pointedly turning back to the batcomputer, the info he needs marked clearly. five minutes later it's wordlessly slid back, info filled out and Jason refusing to acknowledge Tim's existence again. it's the only way he'll communicate with them.

after a while it gets to the point where Jason will straight up go to bludhaven and break into Dicks apartment just to silently sit in the corner of the room and Be Around A Familiar Person. Tim comes back from his lunch brake at WE to find him sat on the edge of his desk, working through a case. They work in silence for the rest of the day and when Tim leaves Jason just follows. They get a batburger together but the second Tim slips up and asks how his day was he's off like a shot. Damian regularly eats lunch at school on the roof while Jason plays mario kart on a DSI next to him. Batman will be 4 hours into a solo stake out when civilian Jason will silently slide up next to him with a crossword. they never talk. Jason still makes it clear that he's pissed at Bruce. Bruce doesn't know what else to do but let him be and hope eventually, with enough time, things will progress even further.

Dick, whispering so Jason won't pick up on the fact that he's being perceived: are you sure this is normal

Damian: is anything about any of us normal

Tim: he's got a point. at least we know Jason's watching us. I did this shit all the time before I was Robin, and none of you ever noticed me.

Dick:

Tim: sometimes its comforting to be in the same room as people you're familiar with, even if you can't handle interacting with them.

Dick, crying: ok

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black mask having a dart board with red hoods picture and homicidal fantasies about him while jason just bats at him like a bored cat with a string is glorious, peak dynamic, even better that jason’s just using him as a middle man

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Good to see Babs leading a team with all the younger bats that are part of the "Barbara Gordon appreciation club". It's what she deserves.

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I’ve never viewed Jason’s reactions to his trauma as ‘pit madness’ just a genuine reaction to what he had gone through. Trauma can’t boiled down to something so simple. People like write off his actions they don’t like as being pit madness and it’s such a copout. After going through extremely traumatic experiences often times you genuinely feel like you’re loosing your mind and feel out of body for YEARS. Why is it so hard to just say yeah he did some fucked up things but he went through some shit so it makes sense. His anger and outbursts are a lot more relatable than some people realize. PTSD is such a valid part of Jason and calling it pit madness just nonsense

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rubbing my penis

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DOCTOR WHO (2005) 1.10 The Doctor Dances

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“I know what it’s like to be afraid of your own mind.”

— Dr Reid’s/ Criminal Minds

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I love existing in the Jason Todd fandom because so much of it is just people desperately trying to give Jason a win for once in his miserable life and then people who read comics patting them on the shoulder and reminding them that there is no wining for him ever

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What is freedom?

Does the best kind of freedom come with abandonment? Even though it still stings? aches and claws at your heart, until blood pours out with no escape? What is freedom? Is it happiness or emptiness? numbness or peace? isn't serenity beautiful for the deceased. What, is freedom. Im not asking anymore but I'm now stating. Freedom makes your heart blind though your pulse is racing. You can do whatever you want yet you are still on a tight lease. Unable to let go of because you're

not the one with the keys. You're limited, in a world full of limited things. Freedom isn't really freedom. Even freedom is a prison. Even the trees are tied to the ground. Even the lost, is never found.

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what I know, Fatimah Asghar

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Strength is light ☀