#trust me im still mad about

[nyasmodei]

seeing the shitstorm of the announcement and then doki’s (previously selen) tweets about how the internal bullying affected her, makes me want to demand for answers. right now. "harassed by affiliated livers"? who are these little fucks that do not deserve their platform? that masquerade as a ‘family’ while bullying a co-worker into extreme measures, enough for her to be hospitalized?! I need their names. why was selen terminated, while they get away with a slap on the wrist?

I cannot support any NIJISANJI EN talent in good faith anymore, because I am now unable to trust if they're the one that forced her into taking a horrible decision, of which she is thankfully recovering from.

I have 5 kamioshis still in NIJI, but I won't talk about them, because I refuse to support a company named anycolour, which chooses the colour black.

this kind of profit driven dogshit management should NOT be given a pass ESPECIALLY when it's in an industry where people form interpersonal relations with each other, and amongst the community. there should be a "people first" mentality in organisations like this, which heavily depends on PR and HR relationships.

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please support @/dokibird on twitter and twitch! girl deserves it after all of the things she's gone through.

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I will continue to talk about non–NIJISANJI vtubers I like, but I'm sorry Enna, Doppio, Millie and Fulgur and Reimu, unless your company decides to release a statement regarding the parties who took part in the bullying and rectify their EN branch management, I won't be supporting you anymore. this definitely sucks because I love them (platonically) with all my heart, but I couldn't care less about an agency that treats it's very much human employees as products to be sold, marketed, and then thrown away once it's served its purpose, which is very obvious if you see the current starte of NIJI ex–ID.

[blueskittlesart]

i saw something about two incest reveals? What on earth have i missed??

detective conan <3

[angelpuns]

Me patiently waiting for a way to make comics about the shitty things that happened in 2020-2023 but unsure of how to go about it in a way that will make me feel better smh

[aroaceleovaldez]

i hope this doesn't sound like a silly or weird thing to send you, but i'm autistic and have long thought of nico and a handful of other riordanverse characters as autistic and i love your posts about why nico in particular seems intentionally autistic-coded. but i've been thinking, if rick did intend for any of his characters to be autistic, why wouldn't he say so outside of the text at least? i can't think of a good reason why not, when he goes out of his way to be explicit about so many other characters' various marginalized identities and has confirmed things like reyna being asexual outside of the original text. so it gives me this nagging sort of doubt that maybe rick just made nico come off as so extremely autistic coded by accident, somehow. if it wasn't an accident i do kind of wish he'd say so because there's next to zero explicitly stated autistic representation in, like, any media so it'd be nice to have here even if not strictly necessary. either way though, like i said, i love your posts and i agree with you 100% about autistic nico! some others i like to think are autistic are annabeth and leo.

(Most of this is gonna be kind of a tangential ramble to your point and i apologize in advance just bear with me)

This actually touches upon something I've been meaning to do a write-up on recently, which is: depending on the coding, that is our explicit statement. In most coding, actually, that's kind of the point. (Also something something Death of the Author.)

You may have noticed a recent trend across media of characters saying things directly rather than expressing them in a natural way, and often this includes incredibly stilted dialogue of characters explaining things in very politically correct, wikipedia-esque descriptions and terminology that make absolutely no sense for the characters' personalities or mannerisms. This is born out of the idea that if something is not stated in explicit terms, no amount of evidence below an outright direct exact statement will ever count - if two characters of the same gender have an explicit kiss and wedding on-screen, it doesn't matter because they never said the word "gay," etc etc.

In PJO, prior to more recent books, we get plenty of examples of characters explaining parts of their identities without direct statements. Percy never needs to say in outright terms that he has PTSD from Gabe - and it doesn't make sense that he would! He's 12! He's never been diagnosed for that. He probably doesn't even know what PTSD is really. But we, the audience, know without a doubt he has PTSD, because it is clearly expressed to us. That is coding. Tyson is coded as having down syndrome. Nico is coded as being autistic. It doesn't make sense for Nico to turn to the camera and explain that he's autistic and what that means, because he definitely never got diagnosed for it and probably doesn't know what that means cause the diagnosis literally did not exist when he was growing up - and heck, autism terminology was still kind of getting sorted out back in 2007 when TTC was published, so it's unlikely we could have feasibly gotten any exact terminology wink-wink-nudge-nudges short of something like how Percy outright mentions other students called Tyson the r-slur in Sea of Monsters. And in fact we see that same exact style of coding with Nico later on in the series. Nico never turns to the camera and says word-for-word "I am gay, I am mlm, here's me wearing my exact pride flags" (until TOA/TSATS, which... did the exact thing i mentioned about characters speaking like theyre trying to get a good grade in therapy, or giving a powerpoint presentation). But it is never unclear that HoO is telling us outright that Nico is gay. It's not just hinted at. It's there, in your face. But entirely because no one ever outright says "gay" specifically it's technically still only coding. We know he's gay, we know the characters have trauma/ptsd, etc etc. We don't need it spelled out - that's just kind of condescending. It's like if you said describing a character with "eyes like moss" means they were "green-eye coded."

Nico being autistic-coded isn't hidden. It's not a secret. It's very overt. If you know what autism looks like, well, yeah, there he is. Even if you only know very vague 2007 media presentation of autism, Nico in TTC is easily recognizable enough as autistic because that's the point. Tyson is easily recognizable as being coded as having down syndrome and it's very clearly very intentional! It's just never spoon-fed in exact terms to the reader because it's not necessary! You've already been told the information necessary to tell you what is up with this character, so just plainly going "oh they're [x] in exact terms" is very much telling-not-showing and feels redundant. And while there are places for that kind of thing, most of the time it's very unnecessary. Sometimes coding is subtle, sometimes it's obvious, and yeah there are times where writers code characters unintentionally, but the textual evidence is there, and that's the whole point.

And that's what Death of the Author is about - it doesn't matter what the author intended at the end of the day, because if it's in the text it's in the text. You can look at author intent to try and figure out what that text means, but the text is the text. A Separate Peace is a very classic example - author John Knowles denies there being homosexual subtext, and meanwhile one of the protagonists living in 1942 puts on a pink shirt while saying he doesn't mind of people think of him as gay. What the author says after the fact doesn't matter - if it's there, it's there. So Rick saying anything outside of the books is completely irrelevant. And Rick talks about this a lot - he actively tells people that his statements outside of the books are just his own thoughts, but what's in the books is what's in the books, and if the text supports it then that's all the evidence you need.

Nico specifically is a case where yeah, he's clearly autistic-coded. It's very obvious and very obviously intentional when he's younger, and as the books progress it remains a background trait of his but is still notable (except for when it gets forgotten in TOA/TSATS like everything else, including the adhd/dyslexia, but i digress). It's a clear pattern within the first few books that Rick is intentionally including. It doesn't make sense, especially for the year the book was published, for the reader to be directly told in explicit terminology that Nico is autistic, because the reader is already being told that Nico is autistic.

And yeah, Rick doesn't mention Nico being autistic-coded outside of the text, but he also doesn't mention Tyson being coded as having down syndrome. He also said one time that Percy doesn't have PTSD at all, which is very incorrect starting from book 1. Again, Death of the Author. Whatever Rick says outside of the books does not matter, because he already said it in the books. And there's plenty of other stuff in the books that Rick doesn't touch upon, particularly relating to character identity - did you know Leo is Native? Sammy mentions that the Valdez family is Native in Son of Neptune but we don't get any specifics and then it's like never brought up again anywhere. That happens all the time in the series - and outside of the series - Rick can't possibly address every single point to confirm/deny everything from the books. That's what analysis is for! And that's why my blog exists 👍

[girlivealwaysbean]

sometimes my bestfriend is like an angel in disguise istg

[the-kipsabian]

remember when i put on a whole fucking clown show thinking kip feuding small time with nick wayne would lead into something else than a match at rampage that would end with the heel winning due to cheating tactics and this whole thing never to be spoken of about again?

LMAO YEAH GOOD TIMES

[red-dyed-sarumane]

we're back from comiket i was so prepared for it to be like vomas where i bought way too much but i didnt end up getting anything. even getting in around 12 after the whole entrance line parade thing the limbus booth already stopped taking orders for the day & by the time i remembered the kamitsubaki fanartists were there they were sold out of anything i wanted. amazing event if ur into recent anime, games, or vtubers unfortunately i really only cared about 2 things so it wasnt really my type of event. still cool to go to tho

[absolutelyzoned]

honestly kind of scary how ive always been afraid to talk about personal things. especially to my parents.

[mariatesstruther]

i was today years old when i found out some of y’all dont like ellie’s studio-shed situation. confused

[mirkwood]

dont u love it when you have a crazy ass neighbor who puts her ex to come and threaten ur mom <3 don't u fucking love it.

[our-lady-of-mcr]

everytime i think im done ranting i remember something else LMFAO this one is extra long i hit tag limit god mf damn

[sillypilled-friendcel]

i wish financial abuse and forced dependence weren't like. only seen as bad when a spouse does it??? lol.

[femmefitz]

I live my life in an impossible state of "constantly angry at my mother" and "cannot ever be angry at my mother because I need to protect her". Anyway. This is a large contributing factor to why we will never be having the conversation about how I felt growing up.

[yiangchen]

why is it so fucking hard to get over the people that have hurt you the most??? how can you know how terrible they are for you and still want them???

[arsen1cs4ng0]

thing from last night. yeah val is being edgy again sorry about that

[maythray]

trying so very hard to eat but i went out to grab a dish to eat ofd of and found my roommates agaid left them all dirty inside of the cabinet. like whats your fucking issue WHATS YOUR ISSUE can you die please. for me.