#trauma fucking sucks

[tobi-the-minnow]

There is no rhyme, there is no reason.

What you did is consitered treason.

To betray my trust when i show my heart makes me hope you'll fall apart.

I hate you, i loathe you, i helped you live.

To hurt my pride is greedy, to use my body while im needy is increadibly, truely seedy.

Hold your toung watch your back.

I'll keep my eyes peeled for another attack.

I see you now while i was blind then.

I'll never let this happen again.

[urdtarah]

i really hate how hard it is to heal from the past

[stump-not-found]

congrats me on writing 70k words

[shittysawtraps]

when your friend says “i’m becoming the joker,” reply, “well, i’m becoming jigsaw” to one-up them. do not elaborate on what this means

[trying-to-jew]

Constantly torn between my desire to convert and the crushing weight of knowing that I won’t be able to exist in the wider fandom spaces that I love without being constantly reminded that Jews are always guilty until proven innocent post-Oct 7.

[akumeoy]

gamers against weed would probably have some asinine compromise rules like you're allowed to tell people to kill themselves unless they request to be put on a publicly accessible list of people who you're not allowed to suibait. the list has four people on it, two of which have since been banned for telling each other to kill themselves. the list is still part of the "required reading", alongside an exhaustive list of political figures it's okay to express appreciation for ironically, but not unironically.

[cyarskaren52]

[thepeacefulgarden]

[brotherwifesam]

we as a society don't talk about s9 wincest enough anymore

sam feeling "worthy" of deans love again after s8, him and dean getting back into a dynamic that they haven't had in years and feeling more at home in the bunker

then realising dean has violated his autonomy in a way he could never even imagine, how much time did he spend thinking about his lapses in memory, whether there were times him and dean were intimate that gadreel put him to sleep for, how many people his hands have killed

and he doesn't even get the space he needs to process this trauma because he gets sucked back into the overarching plotline and is guilt tripped by dean

[tobi-the-minnow]

Mortuus es sine me.

You would be dead without me.

You would be worm food.

You would have starved.

You would have choked on your pills.

Fuck you.

how dare you make me regret being a good person?

How fucking dare you haunt my mind palace with your wreched stinch?

How fucking dare you?

Im done with you, your lies, your false care.

And you

fuck you for warpping me into what i am.

How dare you make me a perfect mirror of your insecurities?

I am nothing like you, i care about people, i pay attention to the ones i love, most important, I can say words you would never dare to say.

Fuck you, both of you.

[cyarskj1899]

Mind you people say Kanye is acting out to this very day cause he lost his mom years and years ago. Megan hasn’t even gotten a fraction of that grace!

everyone cares about mental health when it comes to Kanye and excuses his antics. You can find articles about his guilt surrounding her death in 2023!!!

but Meg must take full personal responsibility regardless. Megan lost her mom even younger than he did. We don’t see black women as human.

[spaciebabie]

at first getting diagnosed with cptsd was like, "yay my trauma has been validated (it always was valid)!" and i really thought that was going to be it, but then i started to do research as i do whenever i realize i have something and learned that!! the way i experience socialization is!! quite horrid actually!!

[crumbleclub]

michael: do i really have trauma, though?

jeremy: dude. your dad is literally a serial killer

michael: yeah, but he didn't serial kill me

[lord-squiggletits]

I'm not completely opposed to making Pharma a weird guy in general pre-Messatine, the main issue I have with it is that a lot of that type of fandom is less "what if he was just a weird little guy" and more seems to be written with the implication that Pharma went crazy because he was just always a little crazy (or a little evil, or a little heartless, etc). Basically, to me it downplays the fact that Pharma underwent massive trauma for two years straight that other characters barely survived for a few hours/days and instead frames Pharma snapping as some sort of... I don't know, genetic/fated downfall because he was just weird, he was always off, is it really any wonder Pharma ended up Like That because I mean there was always something a little weird about him.

It just seems to accidentally imply that Pharma snapping under the pressure of years of torture was some sort of moral failing or sign of him being weak/immoral. You know, Pharma was always kind of a little creepy/insane/evil deep down which is obviously why he killed people. If he were just a normal, not-weird, good person then he would've been mentally strong enough to Not Go Insane. Like uhhhh it just seems kind of fucked up to imply that the reason some people are unable to cope with long-term trauma and have violent/unhealthy coping behaviors is because there's just something innately wrong with them, and then try and look back on their whole life trying to contextualize how they were actually unstable and evil all along instead of just accepting that like. Normal people (tm), yes normal and good people, can be put in situations where they're slowly turned into broken monsters because they had no escape and no good choices.

And also it's equally fucked up to imply that like. Whether or not you can deal with psychological torture without snapping is some sort of function of how innately moral or mentally strong you are. Incredibly victim-blamey to basically go "well the reason Pharma went insane is because he was just always cracked in the head, unlike our good buddy-pal-friend-hero Ratchet who's the perfect doctor and a good Autobot who's never done anything wrong which is why when he's an asshole/hurts people he's not nearly as destructive or Weird About It."

It's not that "Pharma was always kind of crazy" can't be done, because anything can be written well with enough thought. But I think in terms of writing, it's a very difficult and nuanced line to balance and most people literally just can't do it without implying that trauma victims/mentally ill people are evil or something. And Pharma is already unfairly villainized enough as-is, and in canon his trauma was already downplayed in favor of "haha crazy doctor chainsaw go brrr look how weird and quirky and craaaazyyy he is." So it's one of those things where 1. Most people just aren't good enough to write it and 2. "Always a little crazy" Pharma is already oversaturated enough in the fandom anyways and it's enough of a battle to get people to recognize that he's a tragic character and not just an evil asshole.

[audreyrose7]

Honestly, if Christians could just fucking MIND THEIR OWN BUSINESS I really wouldn't care that much what they did, or didn't do. If they weren't CONSTANTLY trying to control others under the guise of love, I wouldn't care, everyone should be able to worship or live however they think best. I'm just so fed up 🤷

[trans-axolotl]

there's a part of me that gets really scared every time it's this cold out because i remember being 16 years old outside like desperately trying to figure out where i was gonna sleep that night and how the cold just made everything fucking worse