Oh right, art. I was going to post that here again. Uhhhhh here’s an art dump of a bunch of art from the last few months!
First, we have a new Terraria rendition of my armor!
It even comes with an (actually decently) animated plume!
I also got onto another mod team for Ragnarok! I made some helmets for Calamity’s god slayer and silva armors: godslayer getting bard wnd silva getting healer. The mod is meant to be a mod to bring calamity and thorium progression together!
I don’t know how well they’ll show up because I’m making this on mobile. If they suck I’ll reblog with better quality
I also redid my Hallowed armor in the paladin’s pack! I’m no fan of Calamity’s artstyle, but their new auric tesla armor has definitely helped me with shading plate armor!
Next is something not from Terraria: my aasimar redemption paladin Adena! Outfitted in ornate plate armor, she’s willing to lay down her life if it means saving the life of another (this is totally not due to the dm traumatizing her with campaign events)
Her armor is also in my Terraria texture pack as alternate hallowed armor, which replaces ancient hallowed armor
Squire and Valhalla Knight got replaced with the Countess and Dragon Commander from Dungeon Defenders 2!
Finally, here’s some extra sprites from a bit longer ago that idk if I posted here or not!
Cadence and shining armor redesign/hcs!!
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first and foremost i hc cadence and shining as t4t!
Cadence:
- rose gold since her armor was too similar to celestia’s
- pink!! bc love!!
- blue accent for contrast but also so she would have all the trans flag colors like shining!
- full flank cutie mark like all the other alicorns
- fluffy with shorter ears to follow my Pegasus hcs
Shining Armor
- trans flag colors in his cutie mark
- i wanted to make him a short king
- I think his white coat looks a bit off and also sticks out from his family a bit too much.
- stubble and spots for flavor!!
Oh man, what a journey this has been. 20th entry of this and still feels like I'm keeping for my sanity. Like there's a part of me that wants to see me doing good and it's doing whatever it can to keep me at bay. And if I'm being honest, I want to hold on to that.
I want to see myself doing good.
i still feel guilt for losing that good friendship that was starting to blossom. I feel terrible for misreading everything and now I feel awful of my own sexual needs. It didn't helped my case at all and I'm still wondering what I've been doing wrong. My therapist says it's the fact that I feel exposed and I say it's because I've been a little too honest. Maybe we're both right.
The truth is that since I've discovered I'm a girl, I felt like I dropped my armor and started to feel more comfortable with myself. I forgot how to defend myself not bc of incompetence but bc I'm tired of it. I'm tired of this constant war of me vs the world. I want peace. And since I dropped my armor and my weapons and life keeps hitting me with everything, the impacts feel a lot harder.
Like walking into a warzone with nothing but my clothes on. No protection vest, no sidearm at all. Just me and my will to live.
Not only that but I also discovered that my ex was not only my bf but my protector too. With him I felt the comfort of someone protecting me from harm. I was a knight that discovered that she prefered to be the damsel in distress waiting for a knight in shinning armor. I got tired of fighting and I want for someone else to take the heavy toll for me. Someone that talks sweet to me and swears nothing but loyalty to me.
Yes yes, very classic (and patronizing) of me but I think it's true. To some extent at least. I need to find the balance between the knight and the damsel and become both, if I'm to survive this crisis. To become my own hero and survive, for whenever my true love arrives to take my heart and offers me nothing but what I can also offer in return: loyalty until the end.