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Review/Ramble on Yingdu and Overall Thoughts
Okay, first of all, I think the fandom needs to chill a bit, especially on Twitter/X, because some people are overdramatizing the criticism from others. Criticizing a piece of media doesnât mean you hate it, nor does it mean itâs badâit just means it didnât fully meet your expectations, and you have a different opinion. Itâs as simple as that. Of course, I believe criticism should always come from an objective standpoint, not just for the sake of complaining.
Having said, letâs start rambling!
Yingdu had an amazing start. Those first few minutes, transitioning from the basketball game straight into the scene of Cheng Xiaoshiâs death, were so well done. Overall, the first episode was fantasticâthe perfect mix of drama and tension. It answered some of our lingering questions before bringing us back to the Season 1 format, where they tackled individual cases, only for it to all build up to the arcâs main conflict. I wonât go into every single episode since that would make this way too long, but I had to highlight episode 1 because it was my favorite.
There were several aspects of these episodes that I really enjoyed. Cheng Xiaoshi and Lu Guangâs bond was portrayed so wellâevery little moment between them, every dialogue exchangeâit perfectly showed why these two are so willing to risk their lives for each other. I looked forward to seeing their interactions every week, and I was never disappointed.
Xia Fei was also a great addition, and Iâm glad they didnât kill off his character like many people theorized, because he has so much potential. I really enjoyed his complexityâheâs a spy, but he has his own morals and values. He dislikes Liu Xiao, yet he has a close bond with Vein despite his odd personality. Heâs clearly intelligent, and I think that will really shine in Season 3. He already seems to suspect something, and I have no doubt heâll get to the bottom of it. Right now, heâs angry and confused about what happened to Vein, convinced that someone killed him. But how will he react if (or when) he finds out that Vein was the one who initially killed Cheng Xiaoshiâone of his other friends, and probably the only truly innocent one? And donât even get me started on how heâll react when he finds out that Lu Guang tried to kill Vein or that Vein is still alive. Iâm excited to see where this goes.
That said, I was a little disappointed that we didnât get to see much of Vein and Liu Xiao. We mostly just saw what we already knewâtwo shady guys with their own agenda, pretending to be friendly. As an introduction, it was fine, but considering how much attention the promotional material gave them, I really thought weâd see more. Still, I donât have a huge issue with it since theyâll obviously play a bigger role in Season 3. Liu Xiao, Vein, Li Tianchen, and possibly Xia Feiâa group of unstable individuals as antagonists⊠well, good luck, Lu Guang!
Now, something that does bother me about Yingdu is the inconsistencies between its plot and what weâve seen in Seasons 1 and 2. For me, this was the laziest part of the writing, because no, Link Click isnât flawless. In fact, no piece of media is. But in Link Clickâs case, some of the flaws were painfully obvious. With every episode that aired, I kept thinking, âokay, this has to be an alternate timelineâ, because so many little details just didnât fit with the main storyline. The most obvious one is how Cheng Xiaoshi awakened his powersâhe did it on his own, yet in Season 1, it was shown that he didnât know he could do this. That makes absolutely no sense unless he has selective amnesia, which is definitely not the case lol. As for the inconsistencies with his parents, that could at least be explained by the promise he made to his mother to ânot get involved any further.â He clearly remembers that promise and is likely just keeping everything he learned a secret.
Speaking of parents⊠Damn, Cheng Xiaoshiâs parents are awful lmao. I hated how his father acted like he was the victim, justifying his actions with, âyes, I abandoned my child, but now I take care of other children to make up for my mistakes.â Thatâs just⊠bad parenting. I actually made a whole analysis about it in another post. And then thereâs Cheng Xiaoshiâs mother. The way she dismissed her sonâs feelings and abandonment issues with a casual âoh yeah, it was wrong of me not to say goodbye, but who cares? Thatâs in the pastâ felt so off. The entire scene with her was weirdâthe humor felt misplaced. I was expecting something more emotional, more dramaticâanything but this. But based on what Iâve seen, almost no one liked her, so if the creators were hoping weâd find her eccentricity endearing, this introduction definitely wasnât the best. Since Season 1, weâve been repeatedly shown how deeply this abandonment affected Cheng Xiaoshi, and this is the reunion we got? It was⊠underwhelming.
Now, something I really, really loved was how they handled Lu Guang in this arc. From start to finish, it was just so goodâhis reaction when he first saw Cheng Xiaoshi again, his nightmares and PTSD, the way he carefully planned everything to manipulate events and create change. But my absolute favorite part? How morally gray he is. He planned and actually succeeded in killing Vein, eliminating the threat (though heâs definitely going to freak out when he finds out Vein is still alive). That cold smile? The scene where his hands moved like he was pulling the strings of a puppet? The way he said, âI hope weâll never see each other againâ? PERFECT. Iâve always said I wanted Lu Guangâs motivations and actions to not be entirely good. He comes across as someone selfish, willing to sacrifice others if it means protecting the people he lovesâbecause he has the power and the knowledge to do it, and he wants his happy ending. Such a good character, I swear.
Of course, I wasnât expecting every single question to be answered in Yingduâthat would be ridiculous lol. But Iâm satisfied that the plot is finally moving forward. They gave us a piece of the puzzleâCheng Xiaoshiâs parents, the origin of his powers, the antagonistsâ apparent goal (some sort of notebook?), and hints at what we can expect in Season 3. That said, my biggest fear is that Link Click will lose its essenceâthe powerful message from Season 1 about how they shouldnât intervene in the natural flow of time, no matter how painful it is, because the past and future should be left alone. Based on what Lu Guang said about the butterfly effect, we can argue that time itself is like another characterâa force that, no matter how much they try to change things, always corrects itself somehow, some way. Honestly, Iâm not entirely sure what kind of ending I want for Link Click, but right now, I just hope it makes sense, that it isnât forced, and that it unfolds naturally.
And⊠thatâs all I have to say for now.
#link click#shiguang daili ren#cheng xiaoshi#lu guang#shiguang#vein#liu xiao#xia fei#yingdu spoilers
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So I've been complaining for a while that 911 has nothing exciting going on anymore, but there is actually one thing that I am super curious to watch play out. Not even just in universe, I'm curious to see how the show handles this:
How are they going to resolve the Christopher problem?
If the rumors are correct the actor moved away and he is mostly leaving the show. We've had a situation similar to this before with Harry and his actor, but despite the similarities there are also differences that will be difficult if not impossible to navigate.
Harry left to live with his dad. Everyone in the Grant family was on board with this because they all had a good relationship to each other and Harry had already stayed with Michael during covid. It made sense that Harry would want to stay with his dad and stepdad.
Christopher left LA not because he wanted to stay with his grandparents so badly, but because he didn't want to stay with his dad. He didn't leave because he loves his grandparents that much, he left because he was angry with his dad. Eddie was not okay with this decision, but let Chris go anyway because he felt it was the right thing to do. Ramon and Helena don't officially have custody of Christopher or any other form of guardianship agreement (afaik), so even legally this could get complicated.
Harry left the show in a way that was satisfying storywise. I was sad to see him go, but David had this huge opportunity and of course Michael went with him. Harry going as well was okay because it was a happy parting of the ways even if I miss all three of them.
Christopher left in a way that needs a resolution. There is still conflict here and the only way to end this in a satisfying way is to reunite Eddie and Chris. Ideally not 3 seasons from now, but asap. It has already been 8(?) months.
(This entire plot is madness btw. Like. Even when you have a bad argument you don't just let your child move 800 miles away from you permanently. Especially when the grandparents in question have a history of trying to get guardianship. After the summer break at the latest Eddie should've put his foot down about this. But I digress and they probably had to do it like this because Chris' actor wasn't available.)
My point is: There are 2 ways this can go.
1, Eddie and Christopher reunite in El Paso. Eddie leaves LA, Ryan Guzman leaves the show, a notoriously angry fanbase will send death threats to the showrunner and producers like they never have before. You know, fun stuff.
("Not all Buddie fans", I know I know, but there is a significant portion of shippers in this fandom who have become very fond of online harrassment and bullying, icluding death threats and suicide baiting. Need I remind you that only recently the 911-bts account was bullied offline? They were completely neutral on the ship question and only posted about official info, they really didn't do anything wrong and yet, here we are.)
2, Eddie and Christopher reunite in LA. Chris comes back, they talk things out, work on their relationship. Sounds better, right? Yeah, tiny problem though. How?
How, if Chris' actor isn't available? Do they just have Eddie talk about Chris without ever showing him again? What about Chris and Buck's relationship? They throw that out the window too? I imagine recasting is quite difficult, how many child actors with CP who fit the bill can there be in LA?
Besides, don't get mad at me, but Christopher kinda makes up 80% of Eddie's personality. He's the single dad, that's his constant. What else does he have? The panic attacks, the military trauma, the anger issues - all of those things are stuff the show brought up once for rather short arcs and then never again. If you look for things that are always true about Eddie there's two of them: He's a single father and he's still hung up on Shannon.
They can't drag Shannon's corpse around forever (though they do try). Take Christopher out of the equation too and forget about Chris himself, what is this show going to do with Eddie? He has never shown any ambition to further his career in any way. He doesn't seem to have close ties to any of his relatives outside of Pepa. Like. Dude has two sisters and he never even mentions them. Carla apparently also left the show. He doesn't really have other friends outside the 118 (he hasn't talked to Linda since season 5 and Tommy left the show too). And even within the 118, who is he particularly close to other than Buck?
They could of course actually go for Buddie, but is that a good idea right now? Eddie still hasn't worked out his Shannon complex, Buck is not over Tommy yet and it doesn't solve the Christopher problem.
So yeah. Very curious about how they'll solve this pickle. I'd love to hear some other people's thoughts about this.
#911 abc#911 discourse#<- i guess?#eddie diaz#buddie#christopher diaz#911 speculation#idk this has been bugging me for ages and i have yet to come up with an idea how the show could salvage the situation#long post
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Chapter 8: The Shadow to my Flame
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It was well past midnight when the party died down and Ashe could leave. She decided to go to her cabin. She needed to get out of the Forest House and then she could make sure Samli was okay.
Getting through the ID-sone took ages. With many people from the ball going inn and out, the guards kept extra attention to details. She was eventually let through.
It was now over 36 hours since she drank the faebane, but her powers were still not back for full. She tried to winnow, but she only got about half the way before she plummeted face first into the ground.
Ashe groaned as she got up and started walking. It was fairly good weather, so she wouldnât usually mind walking, but right now she was too exhausted and in too much pain.
After a while she winnowed again and got almost all the way to the cabin. She only had to walk about a 100 meters.
She opened the door to the cabin, walked in and closed the door. She took off her shoes, laid down her small bag beside the door and walked into the living room.
She just wanted to lay down and sleep until she had to go back to work.
She walked towards the couch, sent a small flicker of her powers to start fire in the fireplace and was just about to faceplant onto the couch, when she saw that she wasnât alone.
She let out a scream and grabbed the closest sharp object. A gardening tool.
âWhat in the cauldron are you doing here?â she screamed at the intruder.
âIâm making sure you can be trusted,â Azriel answered. He held his hands up in the air. âAnd I left you your newest payment.â
He pointed to the kitchen table and Ashe saw a small envelop with her nickname on it. Except it didnât say âFlameâ it instead stood âWildflameâ.
ââWildflameâ? Really?â
Azriel shrugged at her. âI found it fitting.â
Ashe relaxed a little but didnât let go of the gardening tool just yet.
âWhat do you meant checking if I can be trusted?â
âI do it with all my new spies. I just went through your home to see if I can find anything about you having other allies. You passed the test.â
Ashe felt herself stare into his soul. What the cauldron did he think he was doing breaking into her home?
âIf I passed the test, then you can leave? Right?â
Azriel relaxed his wings just a little. He moved his head down as his lips turned into a smug smile. He could definitely sense Asheâs annoyance. Thatâs why he acted that way. Ashe was sure of it.
âNot quite. Iâd like to know more about you. If you get into any trouble, itâs easier for me to get you out if I know more about you.â
Ashe hated that it made sense. For some reason, she didnât feel the need to protest. Through all the letters they had exchanged, Ashe had gotten the impression that this male was kind to the ones that deserved it. Even though she was stupid to let her guard down so easily, she was too exhausted to care.
âCan we sit as we speak?â
She didnât wait for him to answer before she walked over to the kitchen table and slumped down into a chair. She leaned forwards on her elbows to make sure her back didnât touch anything. The kitchen table was round and had four chairs. Azriel took the chair that was opposite of Asheâs. She felt a lot calmer than what she would have if he was right next to her.
âAsk away,â she told him.
âHow old are you?â
â160, you?â
â304. Do you have any family?â
âNot that I know of. You?â
Azriel spent some time wondering if he was actually going to answer you questions or not.
âI have my chosen family. I speak to my mother once a while,â he explained. âIâm a bastard. My father and stepbrothers were abusive. I killed them. You?â
Ashe felt some shivers. His voice was very grave, but at the same time, his eyes were extremely kind and soft. She didnât know what to think about him.
âI got dumped at the servant quarters as a babe. No one knows who my parents are. I have lived and worked as a servant since.â
Azriel nodded.
âHow do you have this cabin then?â
âThord and his mate lend it to me. They are getting old and are running a farm, so they didnât have the energy to wander out here as often. Iâve been taking care of it since I was fifteen.â
âYou started working as a servant as a fifteen-year-old?â
âNo, I was ten when I first started, but we must work for five years before we start getting days off. At fifteen I started getting two days off per week.â
Azrielâs eyes widened a little.
âYou know thatâs not normal, right?â
Ashe nodded. Of course she knew the servants were treated as shit. She had been physically punished two times that week. She tried to hide the fact that she was in pain, but sitting at the table made it harder and harder.
âWhy do you stay working there?â
Ashe had to think a long time before she answered. It was many reasons why she stayed. Itâs the only place she had ever had as a home. Getting jobs in Autumn was extremely difficult and she had no talents that would make it easier for her. She knew that Samli and Thord would take her in, no questions asked, it she needed it. But they were already struggling having enough money, if Ashe would join them, they would have way too little. Those reasons felt too personal to share.
âI have multiple reasons, but being a servant at least helps me understand whatâs going on in the Court.â
âWould you say you know the High Lord and his family?â
âI know some better than others.â
âWho?â
Giving out that information felt more dangerous than anything she had told him before, but at the same time, she needed this work or alliance to save people.
Ashe tried to sit up straight to make it easier for her to control the information she was sharing, but her hurt back made it too hard.
âIâm often in charge of the Lady in the evening. I do her hair and makeup and escort her to and from dinner. She sometimes takes interest in me by asking me questions, but itâs usually a silent affair. Eris is my friend. He saved me from a soldier about ten years ago and he has since kept the soldiers away from my room.â Ashe spent some time thinking. She didnât know how many details she needed to share. âI also used to have school with Lucian. He is only two years younger than me, so we had class together until I had to start work. I havenât spoken to him since he escaped to the Spring Court though.â
Azriel nodded again. You knew about Erisâ complicated history with the Night Court. And even though you knew far from the entire story, you hoped Azriel wouldnât judge you for what your friend had done.
âDoes anyone know youâre working for us?â
âNo.â
Azriel showed just a small sign of relief.
âGood. Then I only have one question left.â Ashe felt relived too as she heard that. Then she could finally sleep. âWhy are you in so much pain?â
Fucking hell.
How had he noticed? She had been doing her best to hide the pain!
Ashe couldnât help the sigh she let out.
âWhen they couldnât find Thord, the soldiers and High Lord thought his mate got him out. Thatâs against the law, so she was waiting for a punishment. I wasnât going to let her get hurt because of something I did. So, I volunteered to take the punishment and they let her go.â
âWhat was the punishment?â His voice was calm, but he looked angry. Ashe didnât know if he was angry at her or at the High Lord, but it made her scared anyway.
She didnât dare to look him in the eyes as she spoke.
âI had to drink faebane and got 31 lashes. The last six was given by the High Lord himself and he sat the whip on fire.â
Ashe looked up at him and saw the softness in his eyes. She saw how his hands folded into strong fists. She saw the scars and immediately knew that they came from fire. She had her own scars all over her arms, legs and back.
Thatâs when she realized he wasnât mad at her and that made her relax even more in his present.
âDo you have money to visit a healer?â he asked and then did a big swallow.
âHe told me not to see a healer. I donât think he likes me very much,â Ashe answered truthfully. She felt the embarrassment and humiliation spread through her body. She felt so stupid and weak. Azriel opened his mouth and was about to speak again, but Ashe had enough. âYou said that was your last question, so please leave.â
Azriel closed his mouth quickly and gave her a short nod. His hazel eyes looked directly into her amber eyes and then he disappeared into the shadows once more.
Ashe had slept for fourteen hours. The pain was still very much there, but she managed to stand without much trouble.
She went to Samli for dinner. She had tried to cover her pain, but nothing got past Samli.
Out of the two of them, Thord was the calm one. Samli was fuming at her. Even though she spoke with gratitude, she was so angry at Ashe for stepping in. Ashe tried to explain that she had promised Thord that she would protect her, but that only made Samli angrier.
After they had been fighting for about thirty minutes, the screaming died down and they sat down to eat. Samli spoke about how she tried to live her normal life, but that it didnât work without Thord. Ashe could see the visible longing in her eyes.
Samli had never been good with feelings, or at least that is what Thord told Ashe. When Thord and Samli first met, Thord had refused to acknowledge the mating bond. He thought Samli was too pretty for him. Thord was after all a lesser faerie, and through his entire life people had called him ugly. When Samli eventually managed to get Thord to talk and he had explained his thoughts, Samli had yelled at him for almost 45 minutes and told him how stupid he was to think that he, the most beautiful fae she had ever seen, could be ugly.
Ashe saw how badly Samli was doing. The house was a mess, and it didnât look like food had been made there for days. Ashe realized that the next thing she had to do was to get Samli to Thord.
Ashe had brought along the money Azriel had given her. Even though, she knew Samli was too proud to take it, Ashe gave it to her anyway. When Samli refused, Ashe laid the money in the entrance of the house before she left.
Ashe arrived back to her cabin, ready to pack her bag and go back to the Forest House and then sleep. She needed to sleep so badly. Her body felt so heavy.
She walked through the front door and into the kitchen. She was going to pack some extra towels and clothes, since her wounds were leaking through multiple clothes a day.
However, something on her kitchen table caught her eye.
Where the envelope with money had laid earlier, it was now a bottle and jar both with a letter attached to them.
Ashe picked up the letter that was on the jar.
Apply two or three times a day to the lashes. It with help the wounds grow and cool down the burn marks.
Ashe recognized the handwriting as Azrielâs. It made her feel looked after and safe, but also freaked out that he had been in her cabin again without her knowing.
Ashe then picked up the letter that was one the bottle.
Sorry for freaking you out by sneaking into your cabin again, hope this wine will calm your anxiety.
Ashe couldnât help the laughter that left her as she read the note. She picked up the bottle and took a small sip. It was strong, but just what she needed.
Then, she suddenly felt more ready to go back to the Forest House.
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Found an excuse to draw some of my favorite OP boys (êáŽê)âĄ
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#too many that could fit any of these but I needed to make up my mind đ„čđ„č#Zoro Ace & Law forgive me TT đ#one piece#one piece fan letter#monky d luffy#vinsmoke sanji#donquixote doflamingo#charlotte katakuri#marine brother#one piece king#one piece marines#six fanarts#luffy#sanji#Op doflamingo#op katakuri#king the wildfire#one piece fan art#my art
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nickel and balloon would be so much more interesting if people explored the way nickel became everything awful that balloon used to be but so much worse ironically all in the name of "protecting" everyone from that history repeating. and not softboy tsundere yaoi or whatever is going on in those tags rn
#meeple.txt#inanimate insanity#iii they could so easily make me hate you.#nickloon arc was the worst thing to ever come out of iii#unnecessarily long and stupid and hilariously poorly written#i actually feel insane seeing how many people just accept it at face value as The Canon#i know it Is canon but i dont care. Heartâ€ïž#we need to bring back the fandom energy of collectively rejecting the shitty writing#nickloon arc did not happen its ok. take my hand#in my heart nickel digs himself a deeper hole of denying he did any wrong and everyone at most tolerates him#fits his character built up by s2 so much better and parallels other characters too#somewhere deep in his head i feel like he knows hes wrong. but by god it should not have been that easy to ''fix'' him#hes going to deny it until it kills him bc that means facing any regret or deeper feelings he doesnt wanna deal with#and that means admitting he made mistakes which is a huge blow to his ego#and his Cool Tough Leader personality#hes not gonna give that up so easily#and i dont think its in character for him to change within the timeframe of the show tbh . at least with the time they have left now#thats like a post canon Maybe to me#the only way ill accept it really
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Unfortunately relatable. I grew up in the church and have a lot of Christian trauma from that. I show up for special occasions for my parents⊠sometimes. But itâs uncomfortable from the moment I step through the door. Bigoted pastor, the self-righteousness disguising the prejudice, the political comments from the altar. Shots at young people left right and center as if the hell on earth wasnât caused by the same older generation 90% of the congregation belongs to..
I miss being young in the choir and the youth groups and not struggling with it. Itâs wild to look back at the younger version of me who was unshakeable in his faith and honestly just saddening.
I was texting my sister today about it and she said
âI 100% think ALL of us have a ton of religious trauma and everyone else in the family just doesnât realize it cause theyâre still drinking the kool-aid.â
I ran out of tag room and didnât want to delete any đ seriously not lying I could write a book about all my thoughts and experiences
#I relate to all of this so much#and itâs so sad how many people truly have religious trauma#I still find myself lucky and privileged cause I know there are stories MUCH worse than mine#itâs really hard cause my parents still think Iâm a Christian#honestly at this point I have no clue what i am#even if I end up still being a Christian that doesnât help or heal all of the years of church trauma#but the hard part is still acting the part for my parents#growing up I always tried to fit into the good Christian girl mold#cause I know thatâs what my parents wanted and I didnât want to disappoint them#but once I started smoking weed and they found out? it went all downhill from there#their perfect angel fell from heaven#and I feel like ever since I havenât been really their daughterâŠ. Iâve just been living on the outside looking in to everything#it hurts looking back at all the years I spent brainwashed into believing that was the ONLY faith#it genuinely makes me sick to my stomach thinking about the fact that I went to a pro life rally#the thing I was talking to my sister about was how mental health was never talked about in the church#when I started dealing with it and went to my parents or the pastors or any adult really and told them what I was dealing with#wanna know what the first thing they would ALWAYS say? well have you prayed about it? the way they treated mental illness was that it was#YOUR fault cause God is punishing you for somethingâŠ. that you need to pray or go to church so then God will eventually take it away#and the thing is I donât necessarily blame my parents (which kinda sucks cause I want to blame someone)#but honestly itâs just the environment they grew up in too⊠like Iâm 99% sure my dad has dealt with depression his entire life#but wonât get diagnosed or anything cause they always believe faith has something to do with it#which makes me incredibly sad cause I just think about how much my dad has suffered and how he didnât need to#^^ I was typing this out when I was late to my family gathering hahaha but then I think my sister called or something so I had to stop#sorry this post is all over the place - I swear I could write a book about religious trauma#yesterday went ok surprisingly but today? TODAY is going to be so much worse#sure Iâll make a post about it later but I guessssss I should go to bed now? itâs 2am and I have to get up at 5:45 đđđđđ#and I have a fuuuuull day of fun Christian festivities while Iâm dealing with all of this bottled up and unresolved crap from my past#please donât get me wrong I love my parents and like I said I donât blame them - they did their best#it just really sucks wondering what my life would have been like if I didnât grow up in the church or in a super religious family#I wonder if when I told my parents I was depressed if they would have instantly brought me in to get help
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25 Laws of power for women
Conceal your goals especially the ones that are appealing. Losing weight, reinventing yourself, marrying wealthy. Instead talk about your altruistic goals - to help children, invest in education, this will chase insecure people with vile intentions.
Do not give anyone your source of power: Was is a book that changed your life? a mentor? a movie? Never give up your secret to success. If forced to do say allude to God, the universe, the a random phenomenon
Use the patriarchy to your favor; we live in a world that is, only associate with men who have power, use that power for good.
Never appear too perfect but be selectively vulnerable when needed. Only share something that you will be comfortable saying. You might say âI forget my keys all the time,â âI donât know how to perfectly park a car â. But never disclose something you are not comfortable with just because you are afraid of being perfect.
Maintain distance in relationships. Friends are the best and you need them. But if you feel that they are becoming too dependent, see them at your own will. But also the reverse could be the case. Your friend may keep a distance, and that is the way of life. You have got to move on from it.
Develop your own style that makes you unique, beautiful, and elegant. Avoid trying to fit in the crowd of people who claim to care less about their style yet have too many opinions about other womenâs style
Avoid male friends at all cost, you will have male colleagues, male bosses, male acquaintances, business partners. Keep it that way. You do not want a Truman Capote divulging your secrets to the world. Do not keep a man who does not fit your standard.
You do not have to win at every game. Pick and choose what is best for you and leave room for others. And step down if you have attained that level of success, do not let the society do it for you.
Trust people but remember that we are all humans. So trust with discretion!
Confuse people with kindness; people are not always comfortable with beautiful and intelligent women. That power is too intimidating so confuse them by being genuinely generous, curious, kind, and passionate.
Keep your strong opinions to yourself.. if you support a movement, a way of life, do so silently.
We all have dirty laundry, wash them privately, donât expose yourself. Remain silent when people try to attack you or shame you. Whatever is not confirmed is not true. You are the only one who knows all the truth about you.
Donât attract pity or praise: People who pity you do not help you, in fact they might think that you are weak and could mock you at their annual gossipping meeting. And if you are doing things for the sake of praise you are wasting your time.
Choose yourself all the time; never put any oneâs feelings above yours.
Trust your own intuition if you feel someone is being malicious towards you, giving you back handed compliments then you should let them go
Never speak bad of another woman. Do not lazy around gossipping. Keep your hands clean and your conscience clear.
Avoid women with low self esteem they will bring you down. For some reason they do not like seeing other women who are doing better than them
Be careful who you seek validation from. Not everyone needs to be pleased. If they are in no way capable of contributing to your life in the ways you prefer, then donât ask them for their opinions or please them.
Do not compete with other women, if you do you are only putting them on a pedestal. You are making the the standard by which you measure your progress. If you do compete, begin digging your grave.
Do not give unsolicited advice, do not share the inner workings of your mind, If your mouth is very charitable you better start journaling.
Be well-rounded and interesting. It attracts people. It also keeps you busy because you are continually improving and learning. An idle mind is an easily subdued one.
Avoid women who want to live vicariously through you; they want to know who you know, shop where you shop, befriend who you befriend, wear what you wear.
Pay attention to the source of your discomfort; get rid of them. You tell them your dreams and they remind you of all your hindrances. They ask why are you dressed so fancy as though fancy isnât subjective. They undermine you interests and goals. They will also be quick to bring you down because they are afraid of your potential.
Do not fear power or please power. When we see powerful people we try to hard to befriend them, to be close to them but you need to be comfortable without them. Donât push yourself in the name of friendship, do not try too hard to be in their inner circle. Your independence of mind is the most important. Instead become a powerful woman, aloof to the presence of power but aware of its importance. Be an ingenious and intelligent and use your creativity to uplift yourself. When you do so it will be hard to ignore you. Even the powerful will become an ally.
Enjoy moments of solitude. Use that time to develop yourself, improve your body, learn new skills, create with your mind, read widely, become more elegant, then launch yourself.
Remember the most powerful women are the most intelligent. Inspired by Robert Greene's 48 Laws of Power. Use at your discretion.
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âș PAIRING: choi seungcheol x female reader
âș GENRE: stepdad au, smut
âș SUMMARY: your stepdad shows you how blissful life would be if it was just you and him.
âș CW/TW: stepcest, infidelity, age gap, reader can be carried by cheol, mentions of drugging, daddy kink, spanking, cockwarming, fingering, oral sex (f), unprotected sex, mirror sex, having sex while someone else is in the same room, creampies, squirting
âș WC: 6.5k
NOTE: PLF MASTERLIST. donât like, donât read. thank you to my oomf @wonustars for beta reading <3
Seungcheol is conscious of the fact that heâs been acting out of character ever since his wife returned from visiting her parents. Maybe heâs being too obvious about no longer wanting to stay married, but he doesnât care. Not when making you happy is the greatest joy in his life.
âCheolie,â you say sweetly as you gently tug on his hand to get his attention. âLook at this one! Itâll look so good on you!â
Youâre giddily pointing at one of the many necklaces on display. Itâs exactly the type of jewelry he likes to wear, and his heart tightens with affection at the fact that you know that. Unlike his wife.
âSir, box this necklace up for me please,â he says to the employee attending you two without looking away from your smiling face.
âThe priceââ
âItâs fine,â Seungcheol waves him off without any hesitation. âIâll pay whatever price.â
Even the man blushes when Seungcheol brings your intertwined hands to his lips to place a sweet kiss on the back of your hand. His love for you is so clear, and he thinks itâs extremely sweet that your boyfriend(?) bought every single piece of jewelry you said will look good on him without any hesitation.
âWhat about you, sweetheart?â Seungcheol says as he tugs you closer. âDo you want anything else?â
You tilt your head with a thoughtful hum. The cute bracelet and matching rings were enough for you, but there is something else you want. Something that only Seungcheol could get you and would mean more to you than the things you picked out.
âWill you choose something for me?â
Seungcheolâs heart stutters at the way you blink up at him, eyes shining with affection and anticipation. Thereâs no way he could ever say no to you, and the more he thinks about it, the more he likes the idea of you going around wearing something he chose for you. So he pulls you to the opposite end of the counter where the more expensive items are at.
After youâre done, Seungcheol savors the walk to the car. Your hand in his feels so right. Itâs almost like his hand was made to fit with yours. Even on the drive home, Seungcheol doesnât let go of your hand. Heâs not ready to yet. Knowing that heâll have to let you go and act like you didnât spend the day together is getting harder for him. Having to hide everything he feels for you is bothering him more and more as the days go on.
âWeâre home!â You call loudly as you walk into the large foyer.
âYouâre back!â
Your mom rises from the couch when you step into the living room. Immediately, she goes to hug your stepdad. You stifle a laugh when Seungcheol obviously dodges her kiss and it lands on his cheek instead. Your mom frowns but doesnât say anything. Instead she focuses on all the shopping bags in her husbandâs hands.
âWhatâs all this?â She glances up at her husband before looking back at you. âDid you ask Seungcheol to take you shopping?â
âHe offered,â you say casually, trying not to sound smug. âSince weâre spending next week at the villa.â
Your mom sighs and looks at her husband pointedly. âYou didnât need to buy her so many things.â
âItâs okay. I donât mind.â Seungcheol says sincerely. âItâs the first time weâre going away together as a family, so I wanted to spoil her a little.â
Your mom frowns, but doesnât argue. âFine, but Y/N, at least help your stepdad with the bags!â
Seungcheol waves his wife off, assuring her once again that itâs no problem. You shrug insouciantly when your move gives you an irritated look. Itâs not your fault her husbandâs love language is acts of service (not that she would know). Instead of lingering downstairs so she can nag you, you follow your stepdad upstairs.
A warm feeling tugs on your chest when you see him set down all the bags beside your bed. You wonder what it would would be like to live every day like thisâa life where itâs just you and him. The fleeting thought pushes you to go and hug him from behind.
Seungcheol smiles when you lean your head against him and tighten your arms around his waist.
âThank you for my gifts, Cheolie.â
The words are spoken sincerely and with no trace of lust. Only with pure, unadulterated affection. It makes him smile wider. âYouâre welcome, baby.â
You two stay like that for a while until your momâs voice calls for her husband. A petulant frown takes over your face as you reluctantly step away from Seungcheol. Itâs times like these where you wonder how much longer you can keep doing this. Sharing him wasnât (that much of) an issue for you before, but things shifted drastically after the weekend you two spent alone. Now, Seungcheol feels more like yours than he ever has.
What you donât realize is that your stepdad feels the same way, only his feelings are ten times more intense than your own.
That night, Seungcheol lays in bed and goes over his plan to make sure his wife doesnât get in the way next week. He plans to have fun with you and only you. Itâs the perfect opportunity to show you what a life with him will be like. By the end of the week, he knows youâll want nothing more than to start a life where itâs just the two of you.
âMom, itâs not a real vacation if you work the entire time,â you say with a sigh.
As usual your mom waves you off with a disinterested hum. She types away on her computer, only pausing to take a sip of her coffee. âI just need to answer a few emails.â
âYou said that an hour ago.â
Even though itâs such a nice day out, your mom refuses to go anywhere. The most sheâs willing to do is sit out on the terrace and work. It makes you wonder why she suggested this vacation in the first place.
âWhy donât you go keep Seungcheol company?â Your mom suggests without looking up. âHeâs inside watching a movie.â
You sigh again and head to the living room where your stepdad is. Licking your lips, you go over and join him on the couch. Seungcheol smiles warmly when you sit down next to him. He wraps a strong arm around your waist to pull you closer. His hand slowly trails up until his fingers are teasing your nipple. The thin sundress youâre wearing makes it easy for him to get it to pebble.
âYou look so cute, princess,â Seungcheol says as he roughly squeezes your tit. âDid you wear my favorite dress on purpose?â
The devious smirk you give him makes him groan quietly. He yanks up the hem of your dress, exposing your plush thighs and bare pussy to the cool air. Seungcheol licks his lips. âFuck. You just wanted me to see your cute little cunt, didnât you, brat?â
âYes,â you say as your body burns with need.
You spread your thighs, bearing your dampening cunt completely for your stepdad. Seungcheol goes to cup your pussy, thumb slowly rubbing dizzying circles on your clit.
âYouâre already so wet,â he groans in delight. âWhat a little slut.â
You mewl as he slowly sinks two fingers into your clenching hole. A loud whine gets stuck in your throat as Seungcheolâs fingers venture deeper into your needy cunt, eagerly seeking out the spongy spot that always reduces you to a moaning mess. You rock your hips slightly as you turn your head to bury it in his broad shoulder.
âDaddy,â you whimper as his fingers flex deeper into your soaked pussy. âMake me cum.â
âNasty girl,â Seungcheolâs smirk is wolfish as he sinks a third finger into you. âYou that desperate for me?â
Your cunt throbs and releases more juices as his long fingers scissor you open. Arousal pools in the pit of your stomach as your tight walls flutter around his fingers. They slowly pick up the pace, reaching the spot that has your eyes rolling to the back of your head.
âYesâfuck. It feels so good, daddy,â you whine brokenly as your tight walls suck on his fingers.
âYouâre going to get us caught if you keep being loud, baby,â Seungcheol groans as his thick cock strains against his sweatpants.
You moan softly when his fingers slide deeper inside you to press against the sensitive spot that always makes your brain shut down. He laughs in his throat when your eyes shut and your mouth drops open in a silent moan. The sound of your arousal gets louder with every passing moment. Seungcheolâs eyes are dark as he grabs your leg to hook it over his own to spread your pussy wider for him.
âGod, just look at how wet you are,â Seungcheol uses his free hand to grab the back of your head and force you to watch as he plays with your squelching pussy. âDripping all over my nice couch.â
âCanât help it, daddy,â you whimper as you watch his long fingers penetrate your tight hole. âIâll lick it clean later.â
Seungcheol lets out a low groan, cock throbbing at your filthy words. Youâre both entranced with how your cream is coating his long fingers, noticeably creating a ring where his wedding band is. You canât deny that you love how your juices stain the metal. Itâs like youâre claiming his as yours.
âNasty little slut,â Seungcheol growls as he works your pussy open. âYou like daddy fingerfucking you while your mom is on the terrace?â
You close your eyes and nod dizzily.
âKeep your eyes open, brat.â
The demand is followed by a harsh slap on your cunt. Your loud cry mixes in with the lewd sounding smack. Seungcheol quickly stifles your cry by smashing his lips onto yours. He swallows all your moans and mewls as he forces his tongue into your mouth. The way his tongue massages yours is enough to push you over the edge.
Your pussy clamps down on his fingers as your orgasm rips through you. Seungcheol groans into your mouth as you gush all over his fingers. Your soft cry sounds so hot, even if it is stifled by his mouth.
âThatâs it, princess,â he murmurs adoringly as you grind into his hand. âFuck. Itâs so easy to make you cum.â
You whine when he slowly pulls his fingers out of your soaking cunt. Your pussy flutters when you see sticky strings of arousal clinging to his long digits. Seungcheol gives you a filthy smirk before he sucks on his fingers, groaning lowly at your sweet taste.
âCan I have your cock now, daddy?â You bat your eyelashes in the way that always gets him to do what you want.
Seungcheol immediately pulls down his sweats enough to let his cock spring free. It pulses with need as he goes to lay you on your back. Your dress is pulled higher to completely expose your messy pussy.
âBe good for me, baby,â your stepdad hisses as he rubs his leaking tip between your folds.
Your cunt clenches around nothing as Seungcheol collects your arousal on his cock. He smirks down at you before slowly easing into you. His groan makes you clamp down on him.
âGoddamn,â Seungcheol groans when he finally bottoms out. âPretty little pussyâs always so fucking tight.â
Impatient as ever, you start to grind up into him, using his cock like a toy. Seungcheolâs eyes gleam with fondness as your juices smear all over his pelvis. He starts to move, hips grinding into yours. You moan quietly as his thick cock stretches and fills your needy hole.
âHarder, daddy,â you whine like the brat you are. âMake me cum all over your big cock.â
Seungcheol growls quietly. He loves how nasty and needy you get whenever your momâs around. As always, he canât deny you or himself that pleasure. Your stepdad starts fucking into you roughly, making your pretty tits bounce in your dress. He roughly yanks down the material, loving how hard your nipples are. He swoops down to suck and bite on them, hips never stopping as he fucks his thick cock into your aching cunt.
âDaddy!â You mewl, arching your back and forcing your tit deeper into his mouth.
You love how heâs fucking you like some mindless animal. His cock is drenched with your cream, completely coated to the hilt. You cry out when his leaking tip hits your sweet spot, repeatedly ramming it over and over again.
Seungcheol nips at your nipple before moving to give the other one the same attention. His heavy balls slap your ass with every thrust, and he can feel his orgasm quickly approaching.
The sound of the glass doors sliding open startles you, but not enough to tell your stepdad to stop. Seungcheol slows his movements, but makes no move to slip out of your pussy. He releases your nipple with a too loud pop and slowly straightens out. You cover your mouth with your hands, pussy clenching as you hear footsteps fade into the direction of the kitchen.
âHoney, whereâs Y/N?â
Seungcheol eyes flicker down to you, cock throbbing at the sight of you all fucked out underneath him. All his wife has to do is walk in his direction to see her lovely daughter stuffed full of cock with her pretty tits out. Sheâd see the remnants of his spit on them and know he was licking and sucking on them like heâd never done to hers.
âShe went upstairs. I think the movie bored her.â
Luckily, only your stepdadâs head and shoulders are visible from over the back of the couch. Youâre completely hidden, which is why Seungcheol slowly starts to drive his girthy cock into you. Youâre sure that if the movie wasnât playing, your mom would be able to hear the lewd squelching coming from your pussy.
âOkay. Well, Iâm going to have to jump on a call in a bit,â your mom says dismissively, clearly not too interested in your whereabouts. If only she knew. âIâll be out on the terrace for a while.â
âFine,â Seungcheolâs voice is a bit strained as his wife comes out of the kitchen with a fresh cup of coffee. âJust make sure you tell your boss that this is the only call youâll take this week.â
His hips have stopped moving by now, but the fact that you can tell your mom has come closer makes you clench down on his cock. You stifle a whine as you carefully grind on his dick. Your clit bumps against his pelvis, making your eyes cross from pleasure.
âYou know I canât do that,â your mom sounds disapproving as she looks down at her phone. âThe company needs me. No one knows more about this proposal than I do.â
Using the distraction on her phone to his advantage, Seungcheol grabs your hips and pulls you down on him as he gently thrusts forward. The fat tip of his cock slams right into your sweet spot, and you can barely hold back your moan. Light tremors rake through your body as your stepdad keeps fucking you while his wife in none the wiser. His hands slip down to your thighs before he presses them into the couch to keep you spread for him.
Fuck. Itâs such a filthy sight that he almost wishes his wife would see it. That way she would see for herself how much better you look taking his cock.
âOkay. Just let me know when youâre done working. Y/N wanted to go to the beach later.â
His heated gaze stays on you as his wife mumbles a dismissive agreement. Seungcheolâs cock throbs as his wife walks back out to the terrace, sliding the door closed with an audible click.
Seungcheol lets out a dark laugh and immediately goes back to pounding your hot cunt. He grabs your hips and pulls you to meet his rough thrusts. Loud squelching and skin slapping fills the large room as your ravenous stepdad uses you to get closer to his orgasm.
âGod, baby. You get so tight when you think we might get caught.â Seungcheol groans loudly, knowing his wife has put in her earphones by now to focus on her meeting. âYou like the idea of your mom catching you fucking her husband?â
You nod through an impetuous moan. âYesâfuck. I wonder what sheâd do if she saw how much better you like my little pussy.â
âFilthy little brat,â Seungcheol groans fondly as he keeps pumping his leaking dick into you.
âYou like it too, daddy,â you moan as his frantic movements grow rougher. âJust knowing your wife might walk in and see you stretching me out on your big cock turns you on.â
Seungcheol moans, unable to deny it. He starts to rub fast circles on your raw clit, eager to get you to cum on his cock. He gives you a filthy smirk when you tighten around him again.
âAre you gonna cum for me, baby? Cream all over my cock so I can fill you up like you want?â
Your stepdad fucks into you harder when you moan out a desperate yes. He rams his cock deeper into your pussy until youâre nothing but a moaning mess. Filthy noises mix in with the forgotten movie as Seungcheolâs thick cock spears into your messy hole. His fingers play with your sensitive bud, quickly driving you over the edge from how good it all feels.
You wrap your legs around him, pussy convulsing as you cream all over his dick.
Seungcheol groans out your name, sloppily fucking you through your orgasm. Your pulsing walls grip his cock tightly, effectively milking him for his hot cum. He shoots thick ropes into your pussy, filling you to the brim. You happily take it all, loving how it drips down his cock with every needy grind. He slaps your pussy playfully before capturing your lips in another nasty kiss.
You gently nip at his soft lips, not wanting to separate from him yet. âLetâs go upstairs, daddy. We need to clean up before lunch.â
Sometimes, you wonder if your mom cares about you at all. In the morning, you wake up to a text saying sheâs cutting the vacation short because an emergency came up at work. You almost think youâre still dreaming until you rub the sleep out of your eyes and read the text again.
Itâs not disappointing, not exactly. From the start you knew she didnât actually want to go on vacation. It was just another attempt to save her failing marriage, but as usual, she put her career first.
You roll out of bed and go to the master bedroom. Right away, you can tell your mom is gone. All her stuff is gone, and you wonder just how early she got up to catch a flight back home. You pout when you notice that Seungcheol also isnât in the room. Since your mom is gone now, you had planned to wake him up with some head. Just as you contemplate your next move, you hear noise coming from downstairs.
One thing you never thought youâd see is Seungcheol standing at the stove, shirtless and only wearing pajama bottoms. Heâs cooking something that smells delicious, and the fact that he looks so hot doing it just makes it even better.
You quietly walk up behind him and wrap your arms around his chiseled torso. âMorning, Cheolie.â
âMorning, baby.â He says fondly.
Your stepdad shudders when you place a soft kiss between his shoulder blades. He basks in your touch, glad that you donât immediately pull away from him now that youâre alone.
âIâm glad sheâs gone,â you say after a while. âThat way I can have you all to myself.â
Seungcheol knows heâs blushing, and heâs glad that you canât see it. His heart pounds as he hums in agreement.
âWe can do whatever you want, baby. Just tell me and Iâll make it happen.â
You grin against his back, already planning the perfect day with him in your head.
After you two have breakfast, you and Seungcheol head to the beach. Itâs a beautiful day out, and you love that you can openly hold his hand and be affectionate with him to your heartâs content.
âLet me put sunscreen on you, princess.â
You lay on your stomach, humming in delight when your stepdadâs big hands smooth down your back and legs. He really works the cream into your skin, making sure no place goes untouched. Once heâs done, you grin at him.
âYour turn.â
Seungcheol feels like heâs in heaven. Heâs lying on his back with you sitting on his lap in the tiniest bikini heâs ever seen. Youâre rubbing sunscreen all over his chest and torso, cooing about how hot he is every thirty seconds. He sees other men looking at him with pure envy, and that just makes the experience all the more sweeter. Because he belongs to you, and itâs clear that everyone on the beach knows it.
You spend most of the day at the beach, building sandcastles and playing in the pretty ocean. Being with Seungcheol makes you feel alive and at ease. Heâs so easy to be with, and you can tell he feels the same way.
When you return to the villa, Seungcheol tells you to shower and get ready because heâs taking you to one of his favorite restaurants. The way you run upstairs while squealing with excitement is so endearing to him. He yells a reminder to use the bathroom in the master bedroom since thatâs where youâll be staying for the rest of the week. He laughs heartedly when you respond with yes, daddy!
Seungcheol has never felt more lucky than he does now with you on his arm. You cling to him as youâre escorted to a secluded table with a fantastic view of the city. Seungcheol pulls out your chair, eyes trained on the glittering necklace around your neck.
âYou keep staring,â you say teasingly as your stepdad goes to sit down.
âItâs because you look incredible in diamonds,â he says honestly. âIâll have to get you matching earrings next time.â
Your stomach flips in excitement. Not because heâs talking about getting you something incredibly expensive to go along with the diamond necklace he bought you, but because he says it like you deserve nothing less.
âYou donât look so bad yourself,â you say, eying the necklace you picked out for him.
âMy girl has incredible taste.â He says with a flirtatious smile.
The words make your heart stutter. Itâs the first time heâs said something like that without being in a sexual setting. You donât hate it. Actually, you like it a little too much.
âWhat kind of wine do you prefer?â Seungcheol wonders as he looks through the menu.
âChoose for me,â you say. âI want to know what you prefer.â
Seungcheol tries to contain his smile as he tells the waiter to bring a bottle of red wine. Itâs hard not to feel like a giddy schoolboy when you make it clear the relationship you two have is not just one sided. His heart soars every time you demand to know more about him.
The rest of the night feels like a beautiful dream, one that neither of you want to wake up from.
âLetâs go upstairs. I want to fuck you properly.â
You laugh excitedly as Seungcheol leads you up the stairs. Heâs playfully biting at your neck and letting his hands roam your body. It feels so blissful that you barely register that youâve made it to the master bedroom.
Seungcheol spanks your ass before heâs desperately yanking your dress off. You go to take off the expensive necklace youâre wearing, but he stops you.
âLeave it on.â
You feel arousal drip down your thighs as you go to lay on the bed. Seungcheol quickly takes off his own clothes. His eyes are locked on your body, staring at you like youâre his prey. Youâre no better. Like always, you canât take your eyes off of his girthy cock.
âSpread your legs for me, sweetheart,â Seungcheol demands as he gets on the bed. âI need to taste you.â
You do as he says, eager to feel his tongue slipping through your folds. A loud moan cuts through the air when he buries his face in your pussy. He places open mouth kisses on your lips and clit, eager to make you fall apart on his tongue.
âFuck, daddy,â you moan at you use your hands to hold yourself open for him.
Seungcheol fucks his tongue into your fluttering hole, moaning at the taste of you. He quickly loses himself in your taste, slurping up every bit of your arousal. You clench down on his tongue as he messily licks back up to your clit. You writhe underneath him as he sucks your pulsing bud into his hot mouth. Eagerly, you grind your clenching cunt into his mouth.
âSo fucking sweet,â your stepdad groans as he slowly pulls back.
You cry out when he gives your pussy a harsh slap. The wet smack sends tingles up your spine. Your pussy is pulsing as you stare at Seungcheol with hungry eyes. His lower face is completely covered with your juices, and heâs never looked hotter. You moan when he slaps your cunt again. It hurts so good, and you arch into it when he keeps doing it. Each slap is harder than the last, and by the time heâs done, youâre gushing all over the sheets.
âRoll over for me, baby.â
You do as he says, pussy clenching in eagerness. Heâs always so rough when he takes you from the back. Seungcheolâs eyes are dark as he yanks you toward him. Just when you think heâs going to tease you, he sinks his cock into your pussy.
âTake daddyâs cock like a good little princess.â
You let out a wanton cry when he harshly bottoms out. His leaking tip slams right into your g-spot and forces more juices out of your hot cunt. Your eyes roll to the back of your head as you deepen your arch.
âFuck me, daddy!â
Seungcheol growls in his throat before he pulls his cock out of you halfway only to slam it back into your clenching heat. Arousal gushes from your pussy at his rough movements. You can feel your juices dripping down your thighs and onto the sheets. A quiet whine escapes you when Seungcheol grabs your hair and pulls your head up to make you look into the mirror across from the massive bed. The sight is so filthy and hot that you start to lose yourself in the pleasure of it all.
Your stepdad starts pounding into your tiny pussy, fat cock stretching you out just how you like. As your eyes roll to the back of your head, your hips start to move on their own accord, rocking back on him to get his dick deeper inside of you.
âThatâs it, baby,â Seungcheol groans, drilling his cock deeper into your squelching pussy. âWork that hot little cunt on your stepdadâs cock. Fuck. Get it nice and wet for me.â
You move your hips more eagerly, eyes rolling to the back of your head as Seungcheol hammers into your sweet spot. Heâs relentless, fucking you like youâre nothing more than a hole.
âKeep your eyes on me, brat,â Seungcheol commands as he gives your ass a hard smack.
He meets your eyes in the mirror and smirks. God is he fixated on you and the way you look while heâs splitting you open. Your diamond necklace dangles with every rough thrust, and it makes his cock twitch and throb. As always, Seungcheol was right. You look so lovely getting fucked in the diamond necklace he picked out for you.
âDa-Daddy,â you gasp out.
âSo fucking tight,â Seungcheol groans, fucking into you harder than before.
The sound of skin slapping together gets louder, and so do your filthy moans. You watch Seungcheol in the mirror, loving how hot he looks while he destroys your pussy.
âYouâre so fucking hot, daddy,â you whine as you spread your legs.
Seungcheol hums approvingly and starts snapping his hips into you. He slaps your bouncing ass, pistoning his big cock in and out of your dripping cunt like a madman. Youâre completely gone, moaning and mewling like itâs all you know how to do. It makes him go harder, fucking into your tight little pussy with no mercy.
âTomorrow, weâll do this outside.â Seungcheol decides, cock throbbing at the idea. âIâll fuck you out in the open like the nasty slut you are.â
You slip your fingers down to rub your pudgy clit, loving his filthy words and how much they turn you on. Seungcheol lets out a dark laugh when he notices.
âLike that? Yeah, I bet you do,â he groans, taking his eyes off the mirror to watch your pretty ass recoil against his pelvis. âDirty little brat. Iâm gonna cream your little pussy until you canât take anymore.â
âFuck, daddy,â you mewl. âYouâre so dirty.â
Seungcheol laughs as he drills his cock deeper into your cunt. His heavy balls slap your clit and drive you closer to your climax. All your stepdad has to do is give you one last thrust to push you over the edge. You yell out his name as your pussy gushes with your orgasm. Your stepdad groans loudly at the feeling of your tight pussy squeezing his dick.
âThatâs it, princess. Cream all over daddyâs cock like a good girl.â
You bounce back on him, eager to get him to stuff you full. âCum inside me, daddy!â
Seungcheol moans your name and fucks his cock deep into your cunt before releasing his hot load inside you. Your pulsing walls milk him for everything heâs worth. Thick ropes of cum flood your little pussy until itâs leaking onto the soiled sheets. Slowly, Seungcheol pulls his cock out of your messy pussy. He loves the sight of his cum dripping out of your pretty cunt. It makes him ravenous all over again.
âGet up.â
You lick your lips and follow your stepdad as he gets off the bed. A squeal escapes you when he presses you against the wall. Seungcheol kisses you hotly as he pulls you closer to him. You barely notice as he goes to pick you up. He effortlessly throws your legs over his bulky arms before he teasingly drags his dripping cock over your messy cunt.
âGuide me in, baby,â he says as he presses wet kisses on your jaw. âLet daddy slide into your tight pussy.â
You whimper, pussy dripping with revived arousal. Lust clouds your mind as you go to do as he says. With one hand on his broad shoulder, you grab his cum covered cock and guide it to your soaking entrance. His bulbous tip nudges your pussy before he sinks you down on his throbbing cock. His hips flex as he slowly starts to fuck up into your little cunt.
âGod, baby. Your cute little pussy just keeps sucking me in.â
Your nails dig into his shoulders as he fucks his cock against your sweet spot. Lewd squelching fills the room as your stepdad bounces you on his cock. Your eyes roll to the back of your head as his big dick stretches you out for the second time. The slight pain from his thrusts make you clamp down on his cock tighter.
âDaddy,â you mewl almost pitifully. âYouâre gonna break my pussy.â
Seungcheol laughs. Not only because you sound so fucked out, but because you rock your pussy down to meet his unhurried thrusts. Youâre addicted to his cock, and he loves that you can never hide it.
âYou can take it, sweetheart,â he coos, eyes fixed on the way your bouncing tits make the diamond necklace look even prettier.
âFuck,â you moan when he starts to fuck you harder. You gasp and moan when his hands go to grab your ass.
âPretty little brat,â Seungcheol groans as he kneads and squeezes your ass. âYou always look so pretty when youâre stuffed full of cock.â
He keeps thrusting into you until youâre cumming all over his cock. It makes him laugh in delight. âThatâs it. Cream all over daddyâs cock. Fuck. Give me another one, baby. I know you can.â
You cry out as Seungcheol keeps bouncing you on his cock while he fucks up into your aching pussy. Youâre drunk with pleasure, not bothering to stifle your wanton moans as you get split open with every rough thrust. The room reeks with the smell of sex, and it makes your pussy throb in delight. It always ends up this way, and you love that thereâs always evidence left behind of how badly your stepdad is addicted to your tight little pussy.
âCum again for me, sweetheart. Give daddy what he wants.â
Seungcheol smirks when you let out a fucked out whine. âWhat? Did daddy already fuck you dumb?â
Your pussy tightens and drips with more juices as you nod stupidly. Once again, your stepdad laughs meanly like he couldnât be more proud that you canât even respond to him properly.
Seungcheol squeezes your ass before he walks you back to the bed. You clamp down on him with every step he takes. A petulant whine of protest gets stuck in your throat when he pulls out of you with an obscenely wet sound. He tosses you on the bed before joining you.
âDumb little brat. You can't stand not being stuffed full of your stepdadâs cock, huh?â
You give him a smirk, a little more lucid now. âJust like you canât stand not having your cock buried in your stepdaughterâs pussy.â
Seungcheol places your legs over his shoulders and forces his cock back into your needy cunt. You cry out in pleasure, happy that your goading worked.
âYouâre right. Thatâs why Iâm gonna have to stay buried in your hot little cunt all week. Keep my little brat nice and full.â
You moan and grind your hips to meet his ravenous thrusts. âFuck yes. Please, daddy. Thatâs all I want.â
Something about you begging so prettily and nicely always gets Seungcheol off. âDonât worry, baby. Iâm gonna creampie this sweet little hole the entire time weâre here. Thatâs what a good stepdad does, right?â
âYes, yes, yes!â You cry, feeling another orgasm creeping up on you. âYouâll be a good stepdad and stuff my needy pussy, right, Cheolie?â
Something inside him switches when you use that endearing nickname. Youâve never used it during sex, but he doesnât hate it. He absolutely loves it because it feels so much more intimate.
âYes, baby,â his deep voice makes your toes curl. âIâm gonna give you a nice hot load. As many times as you want.â
Your eyes roll to the back of your head at his filthy promise. His cock throbs and twitches inside you as he moves one of his hands to rub and pinch at your puffy clit.
âCum for me, princess. Need your tight little pussy to milk me again,â Seungcheol coos softly.
You pant wantonly as your stepdad hammers his cock harder into your hot cunt. His fingers keep working your sensitive clit as he spears his thick cock deep into you. Itâs all too much, and before you realize it, another orgasm crahses into your body.
âDADDY!â Your scream is loud as you arch your back, pussy gushing and clenching around Seungcheolâs huge cock.
âFucking shit. Thatâs it, baby. Such a good girl for daddy.â Seungcheol groans as he fucks into your squirting cunt while your walls milk him for all heâs worth.
A feral noise leaves him as he buries his cock to the hilt, girthy length pulsing inside you as thick ropes of cum shoot into your pussy. Seungcheol fucks his spunk deeper inside you, leaning down to place gentle kisses all over your face.
âTaking it so well,â he murmurs adoringly, cock throbbing with pleasure. âSuch a good girl for me.â
Seungcheol captures your lips in a heated kiss as his cock releases the last bit of cum. He pulls away and gives you one last affectionate peck before he sits up. His cocks slowly slips out of you, and Seungcheolâs eyes get impossibly darker when he sees his cum slowly tricking from your pussy. You love the possessive look on his face so you clench your pussy to push out more of his hot cum.
âThis weekâs going to be perfect.â He sighs contentedly.
You hum in agreement, making grabby hands at him. Seungcheol smiles sweetly and goes to cuddle you how you want. You sigh into his chest, letting the exhaustion take over.
âLove you, Cheolie. So much.â
Seungcheol presses a sweet kiss to your hair, basking in the feeling of having you in his arms. âI love you too, baby. More than anything.â
âSo, howâs your vacation going?â
Seungcheol hums against your scalp, holding back a groan when you unconsciously clench down on him. You two decided to spend the day by the pool, which led to you wanting to cockwarm him. So now, heâs laying on one of the pool chairs with you on top of him. Your bikini bottoms are pulled to the side as his big cock pulses inside of you.
The fact that he can lull you to sleep while his dick is inside you is so endearing to him. Itâs one of his favorite things in the world, and once he hangs up his call heâll fuck you awake, just how you like.
âAmazing,â Seungcheol doesnât bother to hide the bliss in his voice. âThanks again for calling my wife into work.â
Jeonghan laughs deviously. âI owed you one. You helped me pull off my plan.â
Seungcheol laughs along as he thinks back to the pills he gave his friend for his own nefarious agenda. âIt took you longer than I thought.â
âYou of all people know that plans like ours take time. If anything went wrong, I wouldâve lost everything.â Jeonghan sighs as he thinks back on how long it took to perfectly orchestrate everything. âAnd you know I would never let myself be a bad guy in my little girlâs eyes.â
Itâs true. Heâs sure Jeonghan would rather die than have his stepdaughter think less of him.
âSeungcheol,â Jeonghan says after a beat of silence. âWhatâs the next step? I can only keep your wife busy with work for so long.â
Seungcheol grins when you cuddle deeper into his neck. Youâre close to waking up, so heâll have to cut his call short.
âDonât worry,â he says with a devious grin as his hand smooths down your back. âBy this time next year, my ex wife wonât even be a thought.â
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A Puddle in Running Shoes A.H.
summary: your boyfriend finds out you have a praise kink and is having way too much fun with that information
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pairings: aaron hotchner x fem!reader
warnings: some suggestive content, hotch being a menace, reader having a praise kink, end suggests something may happen but nothing explicit in this one folks im getting my libido under control swear, also count how many times r refers to hotch's face as stupid im crying
wc: 1.9k
You hated running. Noâloathed it. Detested it. Despised it with every fiber of your being. If there was a stronger word, one that captured the burning, irrational rage you felt whenever someone suggested going for a jog, Spencer might have known it, but you couldn't bring yourself to care enough to ask. Simply put, running was not your thing.
But when Aaronâyour boyfriend and somehow the most persistent man aliveâasked you to join you on a run, you couldn't exactly say no. He didn't begâAaron Hotchner did not begâbut his version of asking, that soft it'd mean a lot to me paired with an encouraging smile, was close enough to begging in your book. Besides, you figured there'd be some sort of reward when you got back home. Aaron was good at those.
So here you were, contributing absolutely nothing to your marathon-obsessed, fitness-loving FBI boyfriend's training. Sweat coated every inch of your body, your legs felt like lead, and your lungs burned with every ragged breath you managed to suck in. The sun blazed overhead, making you feel more like a roasting chicken than a willing participant in this so-called fun activity.
Aaron, on the other hand, looked like he'd stepped out of a fitness adâshirt clinging to him in ways that felt outright scandalous. Even the sweat on his face somehow made him look even more attractive.
He was at least ten paces ahead of you and every few steps, he'd glance over his shoulder, probably checking to make sure you hadn't spontaneously combusted or snuck off to find an air-conditioned cafe. Honestly, both were real possibilities.
Aaron's pace slowed until he was running beside you, throwing you a smile so unfairly handsome it made your legs feel weaker than they already did.
"How are you feeling?" The question felt retoricalâanyone, profiler or not, was sure to be able to read you like an open book right now. "Still alive, or do I need to start figuring out the best way to carry you home without breaking any traffic laws?"
"I think I'm alive," you managed between gasps, wiping sweat from your brow. "But if carrying me is on the table, I'm not above playing dead to make that happen."
"Not necessaryâI'd carry you anyway, if only to reward you for keeping up this long. You're doing great."
You foot caught a crack in the pavement, nearly hurling yourself into it, but Aaron's hand was there quicker keeping you upright as you tried to ignore the terrifying way your body had reacted to his compliment.
"Okay you can't just say stuff like that while I'm trying to run," you blurted out, avoiding his gaze. "You're trying to kill me, I swear."
You planted your hands on your hips, still trying to catch your breath, secretly relieved to have a breakâeven if it almost involved a face-first meeting with the sidewalk.
"Stuff like what?" He tugged at your ponytail and you swatted his hand.
"Nothing," you said way too quickly, shaking your head like you could physically toss what you said aside. "Forget I said anything. Let's just... keep running."
You quickly realized your mistake as soon as you started jogging again. You would never willingly suggest to keep running. Unfortunately, Aaron was actively aware of this, moving to come up beside you. You didn't need to look at him to know he had the stupidest smirk on his face.
He didn't say anything at first, to your immediate relief, just kept jogging beside you. The silence stretched on, his calm breathing only seeming to make your wheezing sound worse.
"You're breathing too shallow," he said after a moment, his tone completely casual like he wasn't even winded. "Try to take deeper breathsâmatch them to your strides. It'll make it easier."
You glanced towards him out of the corner of your eye before attempting his suggestion. You had no intention of letting him know that it worked. His ego was far too substantial for that.
"See? You're a natural," he said, shooting you a sidelong glance. "Atta girl."
Your brain flatlined and you almost tripped over your feet again, every rational thought replaced by static. What was wrong with you? You vaguely remembered reading somewhere that people with unresolved daddy issues were prone to developing praise kinks. Was that what this was? Whatever the reason, hearing Aaron talk like that shouldn't make you feel all gooey inside, but here you were, a puddle in running shoes.
"You okay?"
"Yeah, yup, fine!"
You stared at the ground so intensely, it was a miracle you didn't bore a hole into the pavement. Your voice had betrayed you, far too shaky and way too rushed, and you knew Aaron was probably filing away every bit of your reaction.
"Hey," he said softly, his hand brushing against the back of your neck as he spoke. "Stop staring at the ground. You'll run better if you keep your head upâit'll open your chest so you can breathe easier."
His hand lingered for a second too long than what your body could handle, leaving you completely flustered and fighting every urge to do exactly the opposite of what he said.
"There you go," he murmured, a small, approving smile tugging at his lips. "That's good, honey. Just like that."
His voiceâhis god forsaken voiceâwas like a jolt to your system, and not in a good way. Or maybe it was a good way, which was the problem. It was bad enough to hearing it out here, on the jogging trail, but your brain decided to replay it in an entirely different inappropriate context: one that involved you, him, and a bed.
Your face burned, and you couldn't tell if it was from the exertion, or the very real possibility that your body was too receptive to those words. And now, not only were you fighting for every breath, but you were trying to figure out if the dampness between your legs was entirely from sweat. Surely it was sweat. Right? Gods, you hoped it was sweat.
You stopped so suddenly that Aaron jogged a few steps ahead before he realized you were not longer beside him.
"Okay, I'm calling it. I'm done. Can we please go home now?"
He jogged back to you, an easy smile on his face, and placed his hands on your shoulders as he reached you.
"Alright, we can be done," he teased, thumbs brushing lightly over your collarbones. "You survived, and you did great. I'm proud of you."
He leaned down then, pressing a soft, lingering kiss to your lips that made the ache in your body a little easier to ignore.
When he pulled away, you barely managed to keep standing.
Aaron let out a low laugh, his hands squeezing your shoulders. "Alright. What's going on? What's wrong with you?"
"I don't know what you're talking about," you said over your shoulder, practically power walking towards the car.
Aaron's laugh deepened and you ignored the funny feeling curling in your chest.
"Sweetheart," he said, gently tugging your elbow to slow you down. "Come on, talk to me."
"There's nothing to talk about, I'm fine!" You avoided his eyes as you tugged your elbow free. "I'm just tired, and, uh, need a shower."
AÂ cold shower, your brain screamed, but you shoved the thought down.
"I know, I know you're tired," he said, lips curving into a smile, "but that's because you actually pushed yourself. I'm proud of you for sticking with it."
You were pretty convinced you were you were about to go up in flames. Your obituary would read death by too many unnecessary compliments. When your heart inevitably gave out, Aaron would have to explain to Rossi and the others how his dumb smile and sweet words had resulted in second degree manslaughter.
But then you saw itâthe smirk. The one that said he absolutely knew what he was doing.
"Oh my gosh, you know!" You groaned and threw your hands in the air. "You know, and you're enjoying this!"
Spinning away from him, you stormed to the car, and slammed the door like it might shield you from his stupidly smug face.
You barely had time to exhale before the passenger door swung open, revealing Aaron, casually leaning against the car.
"You know," he said lightly, his tone far too casual for your liking, "slamming car doors isn't a great habit. You could hurt yourself."
"And you know," you snapped back, pointing at him, "torturing your girlfriend isn't a great habit either!"
He leaned in slowly, his fingers brushing against your shoulder as he grabbed your seatbelt. As he clicked it into place, his face lingered close to yours.
"I wasn't trying to torture you, baby. Just wanted to give you the chance to admit itâthat you liked it."
Before you could muster a reply, Aaron's hand slid up to cradle your face, his thumb moving along your cheek. He leaned in, capturing your lips in a kiss that was so deep, leaving you no choice but to sink into it, even as the faint remnants of your annoyance tried to surface.
By the time he pulled back, you felt like you were under his spell. Then, without another word, he shut your door and headed to the driver's side.
"That's not fair," you muttered, crossing your arms and pouting as you stared out the window.
Aaron's hand found the back of your neck as he backed out of the parking spot, rubbing gently into smooth circles.
"I don't mean to be unfair," he said with a small smile. "I just needed to hear it, because sometimes people don't even realize what they need until they say it out loud. And I wanted to make sure I didn't misread anythingâthough I'm rarely wrong, as you know."
"Trust me, you remind me every chance you get." Your tone was dry, but you were well aware that the twitch in your lip was giving you away.
"Alright, smartass," he said, chuckling as his fingers pressed a little firmer into your neck. "Now tell meâhow does it make you feel when I say those things to you?"
You groaned, burying your face in your hands. "I don't know, okay? I just... like it! Do I have to explain it?"
"You don't have to explain it if you don't want to," he said, "but I'd like to know what it is you like so much."
Aaron's hand moved from your neck to your hand, his fingers sliding between each of yours while his eyes stayed glued to the road, a thing that only came from months of familiar motions.
You let out a long breath. "I don't know. I just like hearing it. It makes me feel good. Special, I guess."
"You are special, sweetheart." His eyes flicked to you before returning to the road. "You're my best girl."
Your stomach flipped violently. You shifted again, trying to disguise the way your thighs pressed together tightly as your face burned hotter than ever. The debate earlier in your head was officially overâabsolutely not just sweat, you thought miserably.
Aaron let out a soft chuckle, fingers brushing over your knuckles. "Something I said?"
You swatted his shoulder, your glare losing all its bite thanks to the flush all over your body. "You're enjoying this way too much."
"I can't help it," he murmured, voice dipping just enough to get you on edge. "But don't worryâI'll take care of my best girl once we're home."
You slumped in your seat, muttering something unintelligible that made Aaron chuckle again. And even though you wouldn't admit it, you found yourself smiling, already dreading and anticipating whatever he had planned when you got home.
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Being at BYU after my mission was weird. Like. Bad weird. Everybody was still acting like missionaries but they had nobody to teach so it all turned into the holier-than-thou bs that missions always degenerate into over time. Just the forced establishment of some weird social hierarchy where value is based on how devout you are, with people digging and scratching and clawing their way around humanity in order to become even more devout.
And this bullshit was actively killing me. The attempts to stay Good Enough were scraping the remnants of my humanity out of my husk like a spoon scraping the last bits of watermelon from a rind - I was doing what I had always done, be Mormon, do what Mormons do, be as good a Mormon as I could be, only it was breaking me. Instead of healing me, making me whole, taking away my burdens, it was pulling the life out of me in exchange for nothing. I was just being squeezed dry of everything I had to offer and being given back shame and isolation and rejection because I didnât do it first, or fast enough, or with a willing enough heart, or whatever the hell they could come up with.
But despite myself, because most people smarter than me AND dumber than me would have left already, I found myself trying over and over and over again to make it work with no success.
One day, I snap. Iâve had enough. I need answers. Iâve looked everywhere and done everything I could by myself, and nothing had come of it, so I went to talk to a faculty member. A teacher at the school. He taught religion classes and his lessons were powerfully and inspiringly honest, earnest, and filled with raw humanity. I figured if I could get a straight (ha) answer from anyone, it would be that guy. He wasnât involved in the Mormon rat race. He wasnât playing the stupid âIâm Worthier Than Youâ games that were so pernicious on campus. He was being real and open and vulnerable and I needed that from someone.
So I go into his office and I lay my cards on the table. I figure if Iâm gonna get helped, I need to be honest. I share with him my weird feelings about dad leaving the church on my mission. About my siblings leaving the church. About my own doubts and hurts. I tell him about how hard it is to be in limbo like this without knowing what to do or where to turn. I tell him I need answers.
And he listens. And then he starts with the usual Mormon apologetics bullshit. And I say ânoâ because Iâm done with that. That doesnât fly with me anymore. And he sees and hears me say no and he puts a hand on mine, makes direct eye contact, and says,
âYou know, you donât have to go to church, right?â
I, being a person who was hurting, interpreted that as âif you have questions that I canât answer you should fuck off.â I got defensive immediately and he again listened, put his hand on mine, and said,
âNot what I meant. You can stay if you want, but I want you to know you can leave too. Take a break. Give yourself time to heal. This isnât supposed to hurt this much, and if it hurts you can take a break and come back when it feels good.â
Iâm actually getting choked up just writing that out. Nobody had ever said that to me before. When I talked about my dysphoria to my parents, they said teenagers are supposed to feel like that a little bit. When I talked to people about my difficulties at church they had always told me that it was a sign that church was working. That I was doing it right. That growth was supposed to hurt, that excising the Natural Man from me was supposed to be difficult, that I was supposed to be feeling this anxious and sad and scared. I had never ever ever been told that pain and suffering were signs things were going wrong. I had actually explicitly been told by many many many many many many many many people that it was good, that the hurt and the heartache and the constant feeling of never being good enough and never being able to fit into my own skin or love myself in any meaningful way was desirable. That it was something they envied.
Itâs not supposed to hurt. Some things can, and should. My parents were right that some body concerns were normal (although we later found out my specific concerns were more abnormal lmao, I got that tgirl swag). My family and friends were right that challenging myself with difficult assignments and ambitious goals was supposed to feel uncomfortable.
And at the same time, THIS was not supposed to hurt. I was not meant to have this gaping throbbing aching hole in my Me that never let up. It wasnât supposed to hurt. IT WASNâT SUPPOSED TO HURT.
I donât know when exactly I started crying, but I was crying the whole rest of the day. It was the first time in a while I had to actually take a Valium to clam down. It wasnât supposed to hurt.
He also told me that if it ever stopped hurting I could always come back.
I think that was the day I really left. Others might say otherwise, I still tried to make it work for a few more months after that, but the idea that it wasnât supposed to hurt really changed me.
If any of you are reading this - there are things that are supposed to be difficult. Things that are supposed to hurt. But if your faith or your beliefs about the world or yourself leave you feeling like youâve been hollowed out at a minor mistake or setback, if your failures and setbacks leave you feeling raw and numb frequently, if the company you keep or the places you stay leave you feeling constantly inadequate with out hope or help, then Iâll tell you the same thing that professor told me:
You can go somewhere else. You can do something else. And you can always come back when you want.
But itâs not supposed to hurt.
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More roomate!au thoughts because, again, my brain never stops. When you move in with them, dont expect to be able to do anything by yourself ever again (unless its housework and their away), your car needs fuel? Dont worry Simon will go with you and fill it up for you and dont even think about trying to pay for it yourself, you tried once and Simon just glared at you so you tucked your card back into your purse. You need to go get a few supplies for college, Price and Gaz are joining you and giving their opinions about the best laptop to get or the best stationary (they fill out enough paperwork that they know the best ones). You're cooking them dinner, Johnnys right by your side following your every order and helping to wash up while you go relax on the sofa waiting for whatevers in the oven. And you will want for nothing, you see a pair of shoes you want while out shopping but their outside of your price range, they arrive at your door a week later just after the boys deploy, you see a pretty necklace on TV and comment on it, Johnnys there behind you fastening it just before your next night out. You lament that your mattess and bed are uncomfortable, a new one arrives the next and it just so happens to be big enough to fit all 5 of you on it.
Yeah, the boys would 1000% give you princess treatment
My mind is still on that drabble so i absolutely love this so so so very much god yesâŠ.
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It doesnât end there, of course. God, they do so, so much for you.
Itâs Simon who stands right outside the bathroom door when you get sick late at night, trying to be quiet and not bother anyone yet when you tell him he should go to sleep, youâll be fine, he doesnât even let you finish your sentence.
âDonât need sleep,â he grunts, pulling you against his body. Despite your protests, his warmth alone makes you melt. âJusâ tell me what you need.â
Itâs Gaz who gifts you with a surprise spa day kit after he notices how exhausted you look during your exams, gently pushing aside your laptop. âYou look knackered, lovie,â he murmurs. âLet me take care of you, alright? You always spoil us when we return anyways, this the least we can do.â
Itâs Johnny who immediately knows your day has been shit just from listening the way you shuffle in, shoulders slumped and head downcast.
âSomeone steal yer sunshine, hen?â
âDonât wanna talk about it, Johnny,â you mumble tiredly, yet you have no energy to refuse when he leads you to the couch. âBad day. Iâll just go to my room-â
âNah, none oâ that,â he shakes his head, taking your bag. âSit down, aye? Iâll fix you up something warm.â Though he makes sure to drap a blanket over yours shoulders before he goes into the kitchen, muttering about food.
Itâs Price who goes hand in hand with your safety. All of them do make you feel safe but John is just- a bit different.
Once, you were being followed after you finished shopping and like an idiot, youâd forgotten your usual pepper spray you carried. You knew you were being followed because you could feel the eyes constantly on you and you circled the same area several times. Your hands are shaking when you text him, praying to every god-
- john
- Yes, love?
You are too afraid to even crack a smile at his serious punctuation.
- someones following me idk what to d
You donât wait for him to reply. Just nervously, with too many typos, you tell him where you are and if please can he come or any of the men-
When John appears by your side in no less than five minutes, he just pulls you close to his side.
âCome on, sweetheart.â He ushers you along. âBlokeâs been dealt with. Give me your backs, yeah? Next time tell me or any of the muppets to join you.â
Too late you notice the blood splatters on his knuckles.
Also, remember when I said the original ad had been because they wanted someone to keep the place tidy when they are away? That doesnât apply when they are home. If they see you cleaning or cooking, they are helping- nu uh, no complaints allowed, they are not about to let you slave away when you have four very capable men at your beck and call.
Hell, once it was Johnny who saw you scrubbing the kitchen floors and he just picked you up and placed you on the counter, tsking at you.
In a few hours, John returned to find all of them cleaning the kitchen; Soap was now dusting, Gaz vaccuming, and Simon wiping the counters.
And you were bundled in the couch corner, cozy and cute.
âWhatâs all this?â He asked, an eyebrow raised, and you shrug.
âShe was tryinâ to clean.â Johnny grumbled from the corner.
âAnd you didnât stop her sooner?â
âBloody stubborn bird,â Ghost was the one who replied this time, not even looking up.
You opened your mouth to argue, but the look John fixed you with made you shut your mouth with a click.
âGood girl.â
The warmth on your cheeks was definitely not from overworking, at least.
You mention needing new clothes? You wake up to Simonâs credit card on your nightstand with a note ordering you to use it. âStrangelyâ, you canât find neither your own card nor your wallet.
You also canât find him, but Kyleâs there and oh wow! He has nothing to do so he will in fact be joining you (and making you model the dresses and outfits and send pictures to the others so you can be drowned in compliments)!
Also i like to hc that john(s) are both huge coffee lovers and they do in fact have those huge, fancy coffee machines yk? They are insulted when they see you drink the cheap, shitty, tasteless instant coffee you are surviving on and from then on, you will wake up every day to warm, fresh coffee made for you <33
Anyways gods i love them sm can you tell đ©đ©
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" BOUND TO THE THRONE "
đ đđđđđđđ đđđđđđđ â an all-powerful sovereign who bends entire empires to his will but becomes dangerously unhinged when it comes to you, stopping at nothingâmanipulation, imprisonment, or warâto ensure you never leave his grasp . . .
đTrigger Warnings: Obsession, power imbalance, emotional manipulation, implied captivity, threats of violence, and possessiveness.
The grandeur of the imperial palace was breathtaking, with its golden halls and ceilings that stretched so high you could swear they touched the heavens. But you werenât here to admire its beauty. You were a lowly palace worker, tasked with cleaning and maintaining this vast kingdomâs heart.
Your role was simple, insignificant in the grand scheme of things. Or so you thought.
It started innocently enough. A glance here, a word there. The emperor, revered as a god among men, seemed to have a habit of lingering near you. His piercing gaze, sharper than any blade, often found you in the crowd of workers, no matter how much you tried to blend in.
At first, you convinced yourself it was paranoia. Why would someone as powerful as Emperor Kael, ruler of the largest empire in the world, take an interest in someone like you?
But then came the gifts.
An expensive bracelet placed neatly on your work desk, a necklace far too extravagant for a mere servant, and silken robes fit for royaltyâall delivered anonymously. You didnât need a note to know who they were from.
It was unnerving. You tried to refuse, even leaving the gifts in your quarters untouched, but it didnât stop. If anything, the emperor seemed to grow bolder.
One day, while polishing the marble floors of the grand throne room, you felt itâthat familiar, suffocating presence.
âYou work harder than anyone else here,â his deep voice echoed, making your hands freeze mid-scrub.
You slowly turned to see him standing there, his imposing figure framed by the grand throne behind him. His regal robes flowed as if the very air bowed to his presence, and his golden eyes locked onto yours with a mixture of amusement and something... darker.
âYour Majesty,â you stammered, quickly lowering your head. âIâm simply doing my duty.â
âIs that all you think you are to me?â he asked, his tone calm but carrying an undercurrent of something dangerous.
You dared to glance up, confusion etched on your face. âIâm not sure what you mean, Your Majesty.â
He stepped closer, each stride deliberate, until he was towering over you. His gloved hand reached out, tilting your chin up so your eyes met his.
âYouâre more than just a worker,â he murmured, his gaze intense. âYouâve captivated me in a way no one else ever has.â
Your breath caught in your throat, panic bubbling up. âYour Majesty, Iââ
âDo you know how many nobles have tried to win my favor?â he interrupted, his thumb brushing gently against your cheek. âHow many have offered their lives, their wealth, their everything to stand where you are now? Yet none of them matter to me. Only you.â
His words sent a chill down your spine. This wasnât admirationâit was possession.
âYour Majesty, I am unworthy of such attention,â you said, trying to step back, but his grip on your chin tightened ever so slightly.
âYou donât get to decide what youâre worthy of,â he said, his voice low and dangerous. âThatâs for me to decide.â
You opened your mouth to protest, but his other hand reached out, brushing a strand of hair from your face.
âDonât you see, Y/n?â he said, his tone softening, though his eyes remained as intense as ever. âYouâre mine. You always have been. Iâve watched you, admired your dedication, your kindness. And now that I have you, I wonât let anyone take you away from me.â
Your heart pounded in your chest as you realized the full extent of his obsession. This wasnât loveâit was control, a twisted desire to claim you as his own.
âYou canât force me to stay,â you whispered, though your voice trembled with fear.
He chuckled softly, his hand moving to cradle your face. âCanât I? I am the emperor, Y/n. No one disobeys me. No one touches what is mine.â
Tears welled in your eyes as his words sank in. You were trapped, bound to him not by choice, but by the sheer weight of his power.
âDonât cry,â he murmured, his lips brushing against your forehead. âIâll take care of you. Protect you. Youâll never have to lift a finger again. Just stay by my side, and Iâll give you the world.â
But all you wanted was freedom.
As he pulled you closer, his arms wrapping around you like a cage, you realized there was no escaping him. He was your emperor, your captor, and in his eyes, your savior.
And he would never let you go.
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Hey lovely !! <3 could we see Spencerâs bombshell! Reader going into labour at the BAU but trying to downplay it like Pam did on the office !! (So sorry if youâve already done a request like this) <333 have a lovely day âșïž
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âSpencer?âÂ
Spencer groans into his pillow.Â
Your hand slips onto his stomach. âSpencer, can you wake up?âÂ
âNo,â he mumbles, lifting his head off of one of the many pillows of your bed. He thought his bed at his apartment was comfortable, but Spencer has never slept so well as he does in your new bed, in your new home, with you warming the sheets beside him. What a miracle to live with you, the rush to get everything done before your due date complete.Â
You make a strange noise, hard to see in the dark as he opens his eyes. âWhatâs wrong?â he asks.Â
You struggle into a sitting position. Angel, he thinks sympathetically, youâre fit to burst, your baby bump as big as itâs going to get and awfully heavy. He sits up with you, putting his hand behind your back. âBaby?â he prompts.Â
âI think,â âyou sound meek, not yourself, each word said reluctantlyâ âthat Iâm having real contractions.âÂ
Spencerâs head isnât working. He takes a few seconds to hear you, and then another few to realise what youâve said. âAre you sure?âÂ
âTheyâre really painful.âÂ
Braxton Hicks (which youâve had, and not enjoyed) arenât usually really painful. Theyâre also irregular. âHow many have you had? Has it been long?â he asks.Â
âMaybe five. Theyâre likeâŠâ You take his hand. âTheyâre like, they go on for ages. Iâve never felt anything like it.âÂ
âSo youâre in labour,â he says, grasping your hand back. âDefinitely. Let me get my watch, I need to time your contractions. Are you okay?âÂ
âOh, no,â you say, shaking your head. âIâm not in labour. Iâm going in to labour.â Â
âItâs the same thing,â he says. He has boxes and boxes of mental knowledge explaining the difference, but heâs too excited to catch your strange tone. âIâll be right back.âÂ
He races from the bed to the bathroom where heâd left his watch. You should be having contractions far apart at this point, around fifteen to twenty minute gaps, but it could be much further or far sooner, and Spencer doesnât know when you had your last. He needs to time them properly so he knows when to take you to the hospital.Â
âGood thing we packed your bag yesterday morning, huh?â he asks, sliding back into bed with a huge smile on his face. âAnd you showered last night, youâre ready to go. I have all our things in the trunk, but Morganâs gonna have to come and do the car seat, I forgot all about it.âÂ
You shake your head again.Â
He worries itâs from pain. âIs it starting?âÂ
âNo, no, Iâm not having any. I think itâs just cramps, actually.âÂ
âWhat?â He puts his hand on your bump. âThatâs what they feel like, honey, itâs cramps, itâs your cervix contracting, it feels just like a cramp.âÂ
âNo, I donât think so.âÂ
Spencer cups your cheek, his fingertips sliding softly to the corner of your eye, his thumb by your nose. You look younger without any makeup on, younger still with your creeping frown. âHey,â he says, his voice half breath, hoping youâll look him in the eye, âhey, whatâs going on?âÂ
Your eyebrows start to pinch down. âItâs not labour.âÂ
âIs something wrong?âÂ
âIâm not having her.âÂ
âShe had to come out some time,â he says, attempting to be funny and lighten the mood.Â
âI really think itâs fine. Iâm just having those Braxton Hicks again, itâs too far from my due dateââ
âAngel, itâs a week away. We knew it could happen now.â He strokes your cheek again. âWe donât have to go yet. Let me time a couple of your contractions and see what weâre working with.âÂ
âItâs notâŠâ You duck your head. The catch of pain gets you, and Spencer checks his watch. Four minutes past four in the morning, the longest hand at five seconds. Then he looks for your hand again to hold in his, his own panic backseated by your denial. âTheyâre not that bad,â you say stiffly.Â
âThatâs good, honey, but theyâre going to get worse. Remember what we said, huh? The pain will get really bad, but thereâs nothing to be afraid of. We have a plan.âÂ
âItâs not real.âÂ
âBaby,â he says, tugging your hand imploringly to his chest, his voice having descended to a place it so rarely goes, âwhat are you scared of?âÂ
âThat I canât do it,â you say.Â
âIs your contraction over?â he asks, noticing the laxening of your fingers.Â
âYeah.â
Heâs silent for a few seconds.Â
âIs there anything in the entire world that you canât do?âÂ
You sniff.Â
âSeriously. I canât name a single thing you canât do. This isnât different. Itâs going to be scary and painful, and itâs not something I want for you, not really, but youâre about to have a baby.â He rubs your thumb, ducking his head in the hopes that the movement will make you raise your own. âOur baby. Weâve waited such a long time.âÂ
âNine months.âÂ
âThirty nine weeks and two days. That's two hundred and seventy five days waiting. This is a good thing,â he says, meeting your eyes the moment you raise your head. âThe waiting is over. This is the fun part.â
ââCos our girl is coming,â you say.Â
He grins. âExactly! I know youâre scared, but thinking you canât do it? Of course you can. And Iâm gonna be with you the whole time.âÂ
âYou promise?â
âOf course I do.âÂ
You wipe your eyes with the backs of your hands. Spencer lets his palm fall onto your thigh. It really is going to hurt. Itâs gonna be pain like youâve never felt before, and heâs terrified of everything that could go wrong, but whatâs important now is making sure you know youâre going to be alright.Â
âYouâre going to be a beautiful mom,â he says, rubbing your thigh, softer from time spent resting. âIâm so excited I canât describe it. This time, the day after tomorrow, we could be here with her. Weâll be putting her down to sleep in the nursery in her newborn onesie we picked out, theââ
âLittle rabbits,â you say, the hint of a smile on your lips.Â
âI canât wait to see her face.âÂ
âHer little fingers.âÂ
âHer nose, her eyesââ
âYou said babies have their moms hands.âÂ
He smiles. âI have my momâs. Can you imagine? And we get to find out today.âÂ
You let him touch your stomach. âI know what youâre doing.â
âYou always do.âÂ
âIâm so scared.âÂ
âSweetheart, let me be the scared one.âÂ
âYouâre not gonna dilate ten centimetres!âÂ
âYouâve probably already done one,â he says. âJust nine more to go.âÂ
His joke doesnât land. To his horror, you end up sniffling and locked up with panic. He rubs your back in long sweeps, feeling younger than ever kneeling in bed at your side, minutes droning on. Heâs pulling your head into his neck thinking heâs completely out of your depth when you say, âItâs starting again, Spence.âÂ
He checks his watch. âThatâs eleven minutes.âÂ
Your contractions will get worse soon, and closer together. You probably donât have long until it starts, and labour might go on for hours. To do this, you're going to have to believe That you can.Â
Spencer takes your face into his hands and looks you right in the eyes. âYou can do this. I know you can.â He pecks you gently. âAngel, if anyone in the world can do this, itâs you.âÂ
You take a deep breath. He watches your nerves turn to determination, turn to love. âI know.âÂ
âIs there anything you need me to do before we start getting ready to leave?âÂ
You give a soft smile. âKiss for luck?âÂ
Heâs gonna need it.Â
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BAKUGOU KATSUKI â.á THE FIRST FALL OF SNOW
Pro Hero Great Explosion Murder God Dynamight in the publicâs eye, is finally on his way home. The moment he clocked out, he was Bakugou Katsuki.
The apartment door swung open, and Bakugou trudged inside, every step weighed down by the exhaustion of the day. His back ached from the relentless action-packed hours at work (somehow, during the holidays, villains were at their peak action), and the chill of winter clung to his skin, even through the layers of his winter gear earlier. Heâd been looking forward to collapsing onto the bed and shutting the world out for the rest of the night.
He let out a grunt of frustration, yanking his scarf off as he called out, âIâm home.â
Bakugou was greeted by your voice. Too chipper, as if you had something planned.
âPerfect timing! Go change into something warm; weâre going out!â you said, a spark of excitement lighting up your tired features. You had on your favorite scarf and coat, your cheeks flushed from the cold air that mustâve blown in while youâd been waiting for him.
Bakugou frowned, rubbing the back of his neck. âYouâre kidding, right? Itâs freezing, and I just got home.â
âIâm not kidding.â Your smile widened, undeterred by your husbandâs gruffness. âYou need to relax, and I need to check out the sale on the market. Weâre going downtown, just for a little bit. Please?â
âNo,â he scoffs.
âCome on, Katsuki,â you pleaded. âYouâre always working, and Iâve been stuck inside all day. Just a quick trip downtown to relax. Please?â You pouted slightly as you repeated the request, though your tone remained playful, knowing it would chip away at his defenses.
âCanât we relax here? You know, like normal people?â
âNormal is boring. We can relax after we go out and see the town. Please? Iâll make dinner when we get back!â
Dammit, you knew how to pull at his strings.
Bakugou groaned, tugging at the tight fabric of his jacket. He hated the cold, hated the thought of walking around aimlessly in weather that bit at his skin. But as he looked at youâyour hopeful expression, the way your eyes sparkled with the promise of something simple yet specialâhe sighed, already knowing he couldnât refuse.
Knowing heâd already lost, he crossed his arms. Heâd always had a soft spot for you (you mustâve put a curse on him once he gave you his valid âI doâ at the altar, he thinks), and no amount of exhaustion could override the tug in his chest when you looked at him like that.
âFine,â he grumbled. âBut youâre carrying the hot chocolate if we get any.â
Your grin was instant, and you tugged at his arm. âDeal. Now hurry up and get dressed into something warmer before I change my mind.â
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The streets of Musutafu were already in the holiday spirit, and it was only the first of December. The glow of streetlights reflected off frosted windows, and the faint scent of roasted chestnuts wafted through the airâit was a scent to appreciate. Bakugouâs hands were stuffed deep in his pockets, his scarf pulled high over his face, as he grumbled every so often about the cold or his aching shoulders.
âThis better be worth it,â he grumbled, kicking a stray piece of ice off the sidewalk.
âIt is worth it,â you countered, practically skipping beside him. âYouâve been so stressed lately, and this is exactly what you needâsome fresh air and a change of scenery.â
âIâd rather have fresh air from our bedroom.â
You shot him a playful glare. âYouâre impossible.â
âYeah, and youâre a pain,â he shot back, though his lips twitched upward just slightly.
Itâs also a good thing that not many were wanting his autograph or a picture because Bakugou was not in the mood to entertain anyone aside from you.
You led him to a small square near the center of town, where festive decorations were strung across trees and lampposts. Children bundled up in cute, thick winter clothes ran around as their fits of giggles filled the air, and vendors sold warm snacks and drinks from cozy stalls. You tugged him toward one of the benches, your excitement bubbling over.
âLook at this place! Isnât it beautiful?â
Bakugou looked around, taking in the bustling scene. He begrudgingly admitted to himself that it wasnât half badâbut heâd never say it out loud. Instead, he just shrugged. âItâs alright.â
You rolled your eyes. âYouâre impossible to impress.â
âNot true,â he said, smirking slightly. âYou impressed me.â
âOk, sap,â you snorted, though you were quick to hide how it made you feel all giddy. âAnd did you know thatââ
And Bakugou could only listen to you with his brows slightly knitted to an unamused expression, though he didnât want to burst your bubble even if he was exhausted.
Without even noticing at first, the first snowflake fell, soft and delicate, landing on your scarf. You stopped mid-sentence, glancing up as more began to drift down, tiny, icy kisses from the sky. Bakugou paused too, his eyes narrowing as a flake landed on his nose.
âItâs snowing,â you murmured, a note of wonder in your voice.
Bakugou squinted up at the sky, unimpressed. âGreat. Now itâs even colder.â
You ignored him, stepping slightly into the open square, your head tilted back as you let the snowflakes land on your hair and cheeks. Your face lit up with childlike wonder, and for a moment, Bakugou was suddenly reminded how lucky he was to be married to you.
Bakugou watched you silently, his hands still stuffed in his pockets. You looked radiant, the soft glow of the snow reflecting off your skin, your cheeks flushed from the cold. Your lips parted slightly as you caught a snowflake on your tongue, and you laughed softly at the sensation.
His chest tightened, his earlier complaints fading into nothing. The aches, the cold, his uncomfortable winter clothesânone of it mattered. All he saw was you.
You turned back to him, your smile warm and teasing. âYouâre just going to stand there and sulk, or are you going to enjoy this with me?â
He huffed, walking toward you. âIâm not sulking,â he muttered.
âSure, sure.â You reached out and grabbed his hand, lacing your fingers through his. âCome on, Katsuki. Isnât this beautiful?â
He looked at you, at the way your eyes shimmered with glee, the way you smiled despite the cold nipping at their noses. âYeah,â he said softly, surprising even himself. Heâs most likely referring to you rather than the scene before him, more likely. âIt is.â
âWait, are you actually admitting you like something?â
âSo? I like you, and weâre married. Itâs not that shameful to admit the obvious, dummy.â He grumbled, though his hand tightened around yours.
âNot that! I meant itâs snowing; isnât it beautiful?â
âCould care less about shaved ice falling from the sky.â
âBoo, youâre no fun,â you stuck your tongue out at him, and Bakugou did the same, which made you laugh.
You two stood there for a while, watching the snow fall around you, the rest of the world fading into the background. For once, Bakugou wasnât thinking about work, stress, or anything else. All he could focus on was the woman beside him and how, for the first time in a long time, everything felt just right.
And even though Bakugou still hated the cold, he found himself thinking that maybe, just maybe, winter wasnât so bad after allâbecause it meant moments like this. Moments with you.
It mustâve been Christmas magic to see you during the first fall of snow, taking his breath away with how you looked, and he wouldnât trade it for anything this damned world had to offer.
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texas sweet
summary: joel is your friendly neighborhood dad of the year, so why is his driveway empty on father's day? better yet, why do you feel the need to make up for everyone elses absence?
tags: 18+, smut, handjob, desc of joel mastubrating, a "massage", neighbor!joel x f!reader, massages, general cheesiness, soft!joel, pathetic!joel, almost(?) sub!joel, reader gets blueballed (sorry), biting, joel whimpering, joel being a proud girl dad, no-outbreak, ellie and sarah exist, tommy is mentioned(!!), joel is a southern gentleman, mention of reader having parents, no desc of reader but she can fit between joel and the couch, dilf!joel (yum)
-> part. ii here!
a/n: my first joel fic ever... i would like to thank every person who has written no-outbreak!joel or pre-outbreak!joel. i freaked it.
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Moving to Texas was not the plan, or even the âblessingâ your mother claimed it would be. Being the one who took over your grandparents home after they moved to a seniors facility? Fantastic! Amazing, even. Leaving your job, friends, and boyfriend, back home? Horrible. Heart wrenching and annoying.Â
Austin, for the most part, was lonely. Long distance didnât end up working between you and your boyfriend, your friends just got busier with their jobs, and it wasnât like your parents could just drive 14 hours to see you every weekend. Co-workers were nice, but honestly who really wants to hang out with people you already spend 40 hours a week with? Maybe you were jaded, or picky, which was what your mother also claimed, or maybe your whole life was uprooted for what felt like no reason.
What you werenât picky about, was the view from your bedroom window. Youâre not a peeping tom, or a perv, but it isnât your fault that your dilf-y next door neighbor is so easy on the eyes.
No, moving to Austin was not a blessing, but Joel Miller was.
Joel was the neighborhood guy. Need an oil change? Joel. Need your fence fixed? Joel. Block party? Joelâs yard. Itâs like he doesnât know how to say no to anybody, that southern politeness deeper than the drawl that lies in his voice. When you had first moved here he had helped you move your couch through the door, all smiles and polite nods. He barely introduced himself before he was asking if you needed any help, and he had called you âyoung lady,â which made you giggle. Such a giving man, but of course he was. A single father to two daughters? âNoâ wasn't in his vocabulary.
Sometimes, you think if your dad was as good a father as Joel Miller was, maybe you wouldnât be fiending after him with such ferocity. Watching him with his two girls, Sarah and Ellie, was something that tugged your heartstrings no matter what. Sarah wasnât around a lot anymore, apparently she went away to a fancy college. You had helped her pack all her stuff into Joelâs truck, but quickly went inside when you saw him getting misty eyed, you didn't want to embarrass the poor guy. Ellie is younger than Sarah and still lives at home. Honestly, you didnât know much about her apart from the fact that she was adopted and that sheâs in high school. Sheâs always happy to chat, but sheâs also always going somewhere, which leaves Joel lonely sometimes.Â
Joel seems better suited for loneliness than you are though. His brother Tommy comes around pretty often, though they seem fairly opposite. Tommy truly is sweet, has always chatted with you during block parties (even if it may be for nefarious reasons when heâs had too many drinks,) but he looks like⊠a fuckboy. Without fail, every time he rolls up to Joelâs house, heâs blasting some shitty new country music and wearing Pit Viper sunglasses as he carefully parks his spotless truck. Despite their differences though, they get along just as well. Your summer evenings are often interrupted by the sound of their laughs and the crisp sound of the two cracking open some cold ones.Â
So why is it that when Fatherâs day rolls around, Joelâs driveway is empty?
You arenât watching on purpose, you just happen to glance over that way a lot. The only action you see from his house is Ellie leaving for her friend's house sometime after noon, like usual on a Sunday. No signs of Sarah or Tommy. Part of you figured that maybe Sarah would make the lengthy drive down from her school, or maybe that Tommy would show up at some point, but nobody does.Â
âNot creepy,â you assure yourself as you go upstairs to peer through your bedroom window to see if anyone is there. You could totally look through the kitchen window that directly faces his backyard, but you fear the day heâs looking right back at you.Â
Looking outside, you see nothing. Joelâs grey-blue truck sits unmoved in the driveway, his plants are watered though so you guess he came outside at some point. The thought makes you feel a bit sad, the image of Joel and his soft eyes watering the plants, whistling to himself and trying to tell himself it doesnât matter that nobody came. He probably really doesnât care at all, a lot of men arenât very sentimental or emotional about days like this, but you care.
Heâs a good man, a good father, and a good neighbor. Seeing him be underappreciated on what is basically his day is ticking you off for some stupid reason. When 3pm rolls around you decide that you have to do something for Joel, it feels wrong not to.Â
Which is how you end up in line for the register at Home Depot. You sat in the parking lot for 10 minutes racking your brain, trying to think of things that guys like, but came up with nothing. Joel is a contractor, so heâll probably find some use out of a 50 dollar Home Depot gift card, but it still feels too impersonal. Joel literally fixed your toilet when a date you took home broke the handle off the tank mid-vomit. Heâs too nice to just hand a stupid gift card with âHappy Fatherâs dayâ scrawled across the mini paper envelope. He deserves something thoughtful, something gentler than a gift card for (probably) his job.Â
âŠWhich is how you end up waiting in line for the register at the supermarket. You have a bouquet of flowers in your hand, with a Home Depot gift card shoved in your jacket pocket. It feels utterly ridiculous to give Joel Miller flowers, to pick out which colours you think heâd like and get the florist to wrap them up neatly with a bow, but you have a good reason. At some point in the past week you had seen a post about how a lot of men never receive flowers. It resurfaced in your head as you picked your brain again, making you wonder if Joel had ever received flowers. You know that he was married once, but that was when Sarah was little, itâd probably been 10 or even 15 years since he had any gestures like that made for him.
Not that this was for romance reasons. It was for fatherâs-appreciation-day reasons. Of course.
Maybe you shouldnât be so invested in your neighbors emotions and life, but itâs too late now. You carefully pack away the flowers in the back seat of your car, snuggling the gift card into the ribbon that holds the flowers together.Â
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And if you thought that standing in line at Home Depot, or at the supermarket was bad, itâs so much worse trying to work up the courage to knock on Joelâs front door. You canât figure out how to hold this bouquet of flowers behind your back without dropping them, so you just awkwardly knock on his door with one hand, flowers in the other. At least the gift card is managing to stay in place where you tucked it, but you wish you told the florist not to write his name in cursive.
Your repeating thoughts of âIs this weird? Am I weird?â are interrupted when he opens the door.
Joel looks⊠normal. He doesnât look sad like you thought he might, if anything he looks more confused at you being there. His brown hair is tousled slightly and heâs wearing pajama pants, even though he smells fresh. Joelâs eyes meet yours and he tilts his head quietly, as if waiting for you to go on, but what do you even say? Oh shit thatâs rightâ
âHappy fatherâs day,â your voice comes out shyly. You shove the flowers at him a little abruptly and he blinks in surprise, accepting them. Itâs awkward for a second, the way his eyebrows shoot up as he notices the cursive lettering of his name written on the envelope.
âTheseâre for me, darlinâ?â He asks curiously, still looking over the flowers.
A stammering of âumâ and âyeahâ leave your mouth pretty quickly and he smiles. Youâre pretty sure he says thank you, but you just kind of stare at him awkwardly. A beat passes between the two of you as he admires the gift. âYou uhâ You donât think of me as your dad, do you?â Joel asks. Oh fuck. You hadnât thought about the fact that maybe that was what he would take away from this. All of your thoughts had been consumed by worries that heâd think you were trying to hit on him, but here he was thinking that you thought of him as a father figure. Which you didnât. Your dad is fine, no need to replace him, at least not at this point.Â
âNo, no. Oh my godâ Sorry,â You choke out, half laughing. Itâs a quiet moment on the porch for a second, just the two of you standing there. Maybe you should explain your thought process.
âItâs just that youâre a dad and likeâ not to sound like a weirdo freak but nobodyâs been at your house all day and it made me sad for you. Not that I pity you but,â your voice trails off as you fear youâve made this worse. Joel seems a bit surprised at this, mouth opening slightly but then transitioning to a soft smile.
âAnd what if I told you that I wanted everyone tâleave me alone today?â He asks you slyly. And oh god, that is so much worse than him mistaking this gesture for flirting or pity. You never would have thought that maybe the guy who does everything for everyone probably just wants to be left the hell alone for a gift. Your heart drops in your chest, taking all the blood in your face with it. Embarrassment floods you with a force you didnât realize possible, stuttered apologies leaving your lips as fast as you can. Joel shakes his head, laughing quietly as you sputter âsorryâ repeatedly, like a broken sprinkler.
âIâm jokinâ, sweetheart. I appreciate this,â he says. The crows' feet by his eyes shouldnât be as charming as they are, but combined with that rumbling laugh and smile⊠he could get away with anything. He plucks the Home Depot gift card from the ribbon and huffs a laugh, like heâs impressed.
Well thatâs⊠something? It made him smile right? Maybe feeling bad for Joel was better than feeling stupid in front of him. You step back, towards the stairs of his porch, but he shakes his head. âYou were really this worried?â He asks, admiring the flowers. That makes your heart bloom in your chest, seeing how much he really liked this. Joel didnât seem much like a flower guy, but you saw the way he kept his yard neat, with tulips in the spring and his lawn trimmed squarely. Shyly, you nod in response to his question. It feels silly to worry for him like this, you donât know if he considers you a friend the way he is in your head.
âSâawful sweet,â he tells you. Something about his presence is so big, a balance of hospitality and intimidation all at once. Maybe itâs his big stature, broad shoulders and thick arms, a body built for work. Or his voice, the strong timbre of it, humbled in southern twang. Joel is a force of warmth, a heat that canât be contained. His heart shines through his golden skin, forcing whoever he looks at to have a spotlight. Thatâs where the intimidation lies, in how he makes you feel like thereâs a halo over your head, all his attention right there.Â
Heâs so hot you donât even want him to look at you.
But there he is anyways, smiling as he admires the gift again, dorkily leaning in to dramatically huff the flowers. His mouth is moving but you're deafened by the sensation of a blush on your face. You thought it was just a silly little crush, because who wouldnât find Joel attractive. Heâs handsome, hard working, and just an all around traditional man. But this attraction⊠It's like your crush on him has given you tinnitus. His lips are moving and you arenât registering the words. Wait shit, heâs speakingâ
âDarlinâ?â Joel calls. He looks at you, head tilted, and still fucking smiling. The way his eyes glimmer, the crows feet that squeeze them into a smile⊠Why is it so hard to hear him?
âI asked if you wanted to come in,â he repeats.Â
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Youâve never been inside Joelâs house, but youâd never thought about it either. Being in it, now, it all makes sense. Photos of his daughters are framed everywhere, their achievements plastered on the walls in shines of silver and gold. Itâs hard not to imagine Joel hunched over his kitchen counter, tediously cutting pictures out to place them in frames. He was only an idea before, an idea of a man, and now he has become one wordlessly. All it took was stepping inside his house, smelling him everywhere. Life dances in the jackets that are tossed over dining room chairs, the toolbelt dumped by the shoe rack at the door. The picture of Joel you held in your mind begins to come alive, the movements in the details of his life stealing your breath. He is more than a good man, he is a great one.
And now, you have to strike up a conversation with him.
Joel grunts as he sits down on the couch beside you, placing two glasses of water down. He places his glass in front of the can of beer sitting on a coaster, distorting the label to nothing but warped blue and red. Is he hiding that he was drinking? Why is that cute?Â
A pause hushes both of you as Joel gets comfortable, sitting down. Heâs paused a show, but it just looks like it was whatever movie was playing on the local TV channel.Â
âYou must be so proud of them,â you say, eyes glazing over the pictures of Sarah and Ellie. You can tell exactly which photos were taken with a camera and which were taken with his phone. One picture of Ellie, maybe when she was 13 or 14, is from her soccer tournament. Sheâs smiling, holding up a ribbon for MVP, and Joelâs thumb is in the bottom corner. Itâs strange to realize that Joel has basically been a father twice over, but also admirable.Â
He talks for a little while, rambling about Sarah and her time up at college, and also how Ellie has been doing better in school this year. You always had a feeling Ellie was a bit feistier than Sarah was, but to hear how proud Joel is of her anyways makes your heart flutter. His love for them was so unconditional, so why werenât they here today? You ask him, a half smile crossing his lips as he hears your question.
âSarah called me âround lunchtime, one of them video calls. Had lunch with my girl and got to catch up with her. Sheâs so damn busy, yâknow that? Always studying and,â he catches his breath, realizing heâs blabbing again. A reddish tone creeps up his neck in embarrassment.
âPoint is, she called. Was nice of her, I miss her lots,â He finishes quietly.
Your eyebrow raises. He didnât mention Ellie. Joel huffs.
âIâm 99% sure sheâs over at Dinaâs making me a gift, but itâs fine that she forgot. Iâve been on her ass about homework, fairâs fair.â
He looks cute when heâs begrudging, one side of his mouth sliding to the side so part of his cheek puffs over it. You nod, making a comment in response. The conversation is so smooth you forget what youâre saying as soon as youâre laughing.Â
This is easier than you thought it would be. Joelâs always been friendly, obviously, but you just assumed he would be more closed off than this. Even if itâs just rambling about his daughters, or Tommy, or the jobs heâs been managing and how annoying his clients are, itâs something more. Something more than the passing glances and small conversation youâve had before.
You talk a bit about your own life, how tough the move to Texas was, how lonely it can be. Joel doesnât seem as receptive to this, but thereâs an understanding in his eyes that you can feel. Heâs a tough clam to slide your knife into, and you doubt youâll feel his tongue today. The eager blabber he has for his family and career doesnât extend to himself, and it seems youâve hit a wall with him. Or maybe youâve hit too close to home. âSorry,â you say, feeling a little weird.Â
This whole day has felt like youâre pulling against a lead Joel wasnât even holding in the first place, like youâre always doing too much. But just like the rest of the day, he isnât holding the rope around your neck. Heâs surging forward with reassurances blooming out of his mouth, Texas sweet to the bone.Â
He shakes his head, telling you that itâs fine, he gets it. A joke about being a single father, a smile directed at you, consoling. Vaporub for your congested anxieties.
âIâm sorry darlin,â Joel starts, and fuck is he sending you home? Is that your cue to leave? You did too much, he was just being nice.
â-- I didnât even offer you water when you came in. Dâyou need somethinâ to drink?â He asks.
God, doesnât he get tired of being this nice? Your neighbors warned you that he was a grump when you first moved here, dirty liars.Â
âOh, sure, uh. Water would be good, thanks,â you reply.
Youâre only half paying attention to the grunt he lets out when he gets up the first time, your eyes busying themselves with the way his cotton tee stretches across the muscled planes of his back. But, after he hands you the glass of water and groans when he sinks back into the couch, you notice.ïżœïżœ
You down the glass like youâre parched, but really your mouth just needs to be full right now. The sound of his groans are bouncing in your ear canals as your neck flushes red with each gulp of water. If he notices, he doesnât say anything.
âBad back?â You ask after you catch your breath.Â
He hums in response, talking about how it comes with the job he has. âAll that lifting in my early yearsâŠâ as if heâs a thousand years old. Joel mentions that heâs been to the chiropractor a few times, thanks to Sarahâs begging and pleading.
âI donât know, I think itâs gimmicky. They get you on the table and the guy feelinâ you up acts like heâs Christ himself,â Joel says, rolling his eyes.Â
The idea of Joel, shirtless and face down, grumbling as some guy works his hands over his skin. The idea of Joel groaning in relief as someone else works those knots out, God you wish you were a chiropractor, you wish you could put your hands all over him.
Greed hardens over your mind like a shell, and the words tumble out of your mouth before you can stop them.
âI couldâ I could help, maybe. My dad used to have a pretty bad back and I kinda figured out how to work knots out.â
Joelâs eyes widen, looking over to you with mild interest. For the first time today, around Joel, you donât feel like youâve overstepped. In fact he looks interested in this offer. A beat passes between the two of you, hesitation caught in his throat it seems.
Itâs probably super fucked up in his head, his younger neighbor coming over and offering to rub him down. But your mind is still greedy, coated in thoughts of his skin under your palms, and that southern rumble thatâs given you dilf earworms.
He looks like heâs about to say no when you speak again.
âYou donât even have to lay down, or take your shirt off. Could just lift it up,â you offer.Â
Joel still looks like heâs going to say no, the left side of his mouth raising to make up some reason. You canât let him, not when youâve been this ballsy. Walking out of here now would make this infinitely more awkward.
âItâs your day, Joel,â you supply him with a reason to say yes. The reason might be silly, might be a last minute add-on to his fatherâs day, but who cares.
Apparently not Joel, since he pulls his shirt up to his shoulders, the fabric scrunching around his broad frame.
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You feel a little stupid, slotted behind Joel on the couch. The two of you are basically shoved up against one another, Joel wriggling to give you access to his lower back. He hasnât said anything yet, no reassurance that this backrub is any good. You think youâre doing well, you feel the knots loosening. It might be better this way, him not making noise. The groan you heard earlier was more than enough to push you into a frenzy.
Your hands work further down, where his waist begins to pull in. Looking closer you can see where the softness of his tummy is, a fatherly badge of honor. Continuing your movements, you gently press your thumbs into the flesh there, and earn yourself Joelâs first noise.
Not a grunt, groan, complaint, or cuss. A whimper.
Your voice clashes with his, both of you talking over each other accidentally.
âAre you okayââ you ask as his voice flounders again, a âDarlin--â leaving him out of his own volition.
Pulling your hands away you begin to pull his shirt back down his back, mortified. How could you claim you were good at this and then hurt his back more? Joelâs been through enough today.
âPlease donât stop,â Joelâs voice grabs your brain again, forcing your focus.
Heâs sliding his shirt up again, just by rolling his shoulders as he hunches over, waiting for you to continue. His face is in his hands, and his ears are pink. Itâs the first time heâs asked you for anything tonight, you canât refuse him.Â
Placing your hands back where they were, you begin to massage again. It seems like his lower back is the main problem, with the way heâs grunting into his palms. As your hands work away the aches he begins to swear to himself.Â
âFuck,â he grunts as your thumbs dig deep, soothing a pain he hasnât felt eased in years.Â
This is good. Pride spreads in your chest, knowing he feels better. Your hands work away, and you get laser focused on untangling these massive knots in his back. Eventually you break your focus, switching to softer rubs and small scratches up and down his back.
Tearing your eyes away from his skin, you realize the throw pillow that was beside you earlier is gone. The yellow corner of the cushion peeks at you from where you saw Joelâs belly earlier, over his lap. A thick forearm is crushing it into himself there, the veins in his neck pulsing.Â
Flames lick up your face, onto the tips of your ears and down your neck, heating your spine. Is he aroused right now? âJoel?â You ask quietly.Â
He shakes his head, voice tight.
âIâm sorry, I donât know whatâs wrong with me. Justâ it just feels nice,â he admits.
Your hands pause. Okay, so heâs admitted heâs hard. What do you do now? Keep rubbing his back and blueball the poor guy? On Father's day? That seems mean, and awkward. Everything about this is awkward though, so it couldnât really get worse.
âI could⊠I could help it feel better,â you offer meekly.
Youâre not scared of a dick. You arenât. Your voice is quiet because it seems like he is horribly ashamed of this, probably feeling guilty.
Joel rubs a hand over his face.
âYou donât have to, you can just go,â he says, but his voice betrays him. Need is sewn in his tone, a desperation.
Part of you wonders how long itâs been since someone touched him like this as you reach around, palming the front of his jeans. The hiss he lets out tells you itâs been awhile. How wrong that is, an attractive man like Joel being forced to get his own rocks off.
Getting the button and fly of his jeans down is difficult when you canât see, even worse when your brain is making up images of Joel masturbating. Heâs so shy when heâs being touched, does he bite his sheets? Bite his other fist in the shower? Poor boy, he deserves this.Â
His hips lift off the couch to help you shove his jeans and briefs down. Joelâs bare ass slides against you and he cringes. âIs it okay if you donât look?â He asks.Â
You hate that he seems so insecure, but youâre not going to push him. Nodding into his skin, you press your face to his back, resting your cheek near the blade of his shoulder. Heâs heavy in your palm, warm skin with veins your fingers can trace over.
Telling him that heâs big feels redundant, youâre sure he knows that about himself. Neither of you seem very sure about what youâre doing, the shuddering breaths from his chest matching your hesitant grasp around his cock.Â
âAre you okay?â You ask again.
Joel nods into his hand, asking you to please touch him.Â
Admittedly, itâs a dry hand job, but Joel doesnât seem to mind. The flick of your wrist is fluid, even if your arm is cramping from being wrapped around him. Joel lets out these little noises, grunts and whines. His hand is covering his eyes while the other one rests lightly on your forearm, like he wants to know that youâre still there.
Need is exuding from him, making his desperation take over his need to really give a shit about how submissive he might be appearing. He shudders particularly hard as you squeeze on the upstroke, voice choking.
âShitâ shit, please,â he gasps, âplease can I spit in your hand?âÂ
Itâs a little surprising, but again, you canât refuse him. You say âyeahâ into his skin, closing your eyes as you feel him spit into your hand. Itâs filthy, his saliva on you as he guides your hand to jerk him off. Joel uses your palm to slick the head of his dick, teasing himself on your skin.
Itâs the first time youâve seen him be selfish all day. Part of you wants to call him a good boy, but part of you also knows this might not be normal for Joel. Hell, this isnât normal for you either.Â
Instead, you ask him if itâs good. A rasped âyes,â emanates from him between a low groan and a curse. Your head lifts from his back as he begins to shudder, his orgasm creeping closer. Listening to him is so good, youâre a mess between your legs, where your core nudges his ass.
Without a thought, you sink your teeth into the meat between his shoulder and his neck. Not enough pressure to bruise or hurt, just to let him know youâre there. There was no intention to push him over the edge, but your little bite does. A guttural groan is forced out of him as he comes into your hand, stringing sticky between your fingers.Â
âFuckâ fuck Iâm sorry, oh my god,â he pants, shivering.Â
Your head is shaking again, reassuring him that it was okay, that heâs okay.Â
âItâll wash off,â you joke, feeling the stick of him on you.Â
â
Joel does help you wash it off, once heâs done redressing. Heâs clingy though, arms around your waist and chin hooked over your shoulder as you wash your hands in his kitchen sink. Heâs definitely sleepy, eyes blinking slowly when you peek at him while you dry your hands.
You step close to him, your damp hands meeting his dry ones. The awkward spirit of the evening has been killed off, his shyness melted away.
âUsually Iâd offer to return the favor but⊠I have to pick up Ellie from her friendâs house now. Iâm really sorry, darlinâ,â he admits.
Shaking your head, you push away the negative feeling that surfaces. How are you supposed to go back to being neighbors after that? But also, what did you really expect?
Joel leads you to the door, legs a bit shakey. A smug feeling joins the negative ones in your chest at that, but itâs not enough.Â
âI really do apologize,â Joel says again, âbut this just gives me an opportunity to see you again. If youâd like, obviously. I think I owe ya dinner.âÂ
And there he is, not holding your lead but reassuring your heart. He wants to see you again.
Your eyes meet his in the dim light of the hallway, catching those sweet eyes in your own. He looks so hopeful, so apologetic too.
âIâd like that, but you donât owe me anything. Itâs Fatherâs day,â you point out.Â
Joel rolls his eyes. This Fatherâs day excuse is a little overused between the two of you now, but itâs still cute to him since youâre the one saying it. He opens the door for you, slipping his own boots on and grabbing his keys.
âFine,â Joel says, âbut when Pretty Neighbor day rolls around, you let me know.
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HIIII!!! I just wanted to say that i really love ur writing! I've read ur traitor series and I can't wait for part 4! I'm a new author, and english isn't my first language, so it's sometimes very hard for me to write bcs i'm stil not that good, but ur fics have helped me improve<3đ!
thank you so much!𫶠im glad youâve enjoyed the series! and speaking of part four, here it is :)
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simon didnât turn to watch you leave the gym.
he stood there, eyes forward, mask clenched in one fist. he could feel the blood drying on his skin. he made no move to wipe it away.
he didnât blame you for your angerâ he couldnât. he understood the rage. had felt it himself a time or two.
but he couldnât take everything lying down.
did he deserve your wrath, your fury? yesâ and he knew that. there was no making up for what he did; he realized that, but why couldnât you understand?
heâd never fully taken his walls down around you, and that was no fault of your own. he was a guarded man, and his past gave him every right to be.
he had been burned and broken too many times. heâd seen the people he loved murdered because of him.
he swore he would never let that happen again. he put those walls up, and you knocked some of them down.
but there were some youâd never gotten through, at least, simon told himself you hadnât. there was always something he was holding back, a piece of himself he wouldnât give freely. he told himself it was because he couldnât stand to love you so deeply and then watch you leave.
but really, it was because he needed an out. he needed a way to justify his leaving if something ever happenedâ and thatâs what got him here.
simon trusted the 141 with his life. he trusted his captain with his life. price had never led him astray; john knew his face well before any of the others. well before you.
and when someone you trust so deeply, someone youâve followed for years, tells you that the person you love has betrayed your team?
you canât help but believe them. and thatâs what simon did.
the evidence was coincidental at first. wrong place, wrong time. but then, everything started to seem like more than a coincidence. pieces of a complicated puzzle were fitting together. things only you and the rest of the 141 would know were leaked.
and all the signs pointed to you.
and although he didnât want to, simon couldnât help it. the second price had confided in him that you may be the rat, simon began to distance himself. you had been confused, but he had offered no explanation.
price was the one to question you first. it was a heated conversation in his office, consisting of him showing you the evidence and you becoming furious at the accusations.
johnny came to you next, buttering you up with his flirtatious and unarming words before asking if youâd leaked information.
then there was kyle, who pleaded for the truth. he told you that a case was being built against you, and that if you came clean now, things wouldnât be so bad.
simon never tried to talk to you about it. the other men would tell him what youâd said, but he had never gone to talk to you himself.
maybe it was pride. simon wasnât trusting, not after his past. he had let the 141 in, had let you in. and now you were a suspected traitor, and he was angry at himself. angry he hadnât seen it sooner; angry heâd let you in at all.
but maybe it was hurt. hurt that youâd done this to him, to the team, after knowing everything theyâd been through. after stitching up wounds on the battlefield and taking bullets for one another. after sharing simonâs bed and whispering you loved him.
all he knew was that he trusted price. and as evidence built, so did the distance between the two of you, until you were tied to that chair.
and simon had taken his hurt, his anger, out on you. he wasnât proud of it, and he knew now that he was wrong. but he was still a little angry. angry because you couldnât see his side of thingsâ not like he could see yours.
so, he was an ass. he didnât apologize. he snuck flowers to your bedside but kept his distance. he told you to watch your tone because you were still part of the team, and speaking to price like that was only something an outsider would do.
and he told you that heâd spared your life because he had. anger had consumed him, and truthfully, you were lucky he hadnât done worse.
even if heâd smothered his feelings for you with rage, he still harbored love for you, and thatâs why some part of him held back.
he knew you would probably never forgive him. he had made his peace with that.
but he couldnât stand the fact that you couldnât understand why heâd done what he did.
the creak of the gym door opening broke simon from his thoughts. he pulled his mask back on before turning around and making his way to the door.
it took one firm knock on the door for price to answer.
the door clicked open, and price sighed when he saw simon, scrubbing a hand over his unruly beard before letting the taller man in. price turned, walking back to his desk chair, while simon closed the door behind him and locked it.
âthis is a bloody mess,â the captain said, falling heavily into the chair. it squeaked at the sudden weight, old leather crinkling and crackling.
âdoc came and saw me earlier, âfore she left for the night. told me about some new injuries, and yelled at me for letting that happen.â
simon didnât speak. priceâs eyes met his, and he sighed again.
âfuckinâ hell, simon. what the fuck did you say? doc said she had to stitch up both their hands.â
âdoesnât matter what I say,â simon spoke, eyes still on the captain âthey wonât fuckinâ listen.â
price shook his head. âthatâs not true, ând we both know it,â he sounded tired as he spoke, dark bags under his eyes. he paused for a moment, then spoke again.
âspoke to laswell after you left earlier. she said sheâll try to speed up the transfer process. tryinâ to avoid more fuss, and im not fightinâ it any longer.â
âtheyâre part of our team,â simon spoke, tone rough.
price shook his head. âthey are, but I canât keep doinâ this. canât keep pushinâ off transferinâ because of you lot. it may be better for us, but not for them.â
the room fell quiet. simon inhaled, exhaled. his fists clenched at his sides before quickly unfurling once more.
he didnât have a right to be mad at you for leaving, but he was.
âlaswell say anythinâ else about thaâ transfer?â simon asked.
price leaned back in his chair, arms folded across his chest. ânot much. no word on where or with who, but even if she knew, doubt sheâd tell us. for their sake.â
simon gave a small nod and made to turn, but froze as price spoke again.
âshe did say she didnât know if it would go through. theyâd have to pass another eval.â
they both knew what that meant. if laswell said that, then she didnât believe the transfer would happen. kate wouldnât outwardly say it, but price had known what sheâd meant.
pushing the transfer through wouldnât matter if you couldnât pass a physical and psychological evaluationâ and laswell didnât think you could.
although he wouldnât admit it, price was unsure, too. torture was something that took an incredibly devastating toll on the mind and body.
but torture at the hands of your team? there was no telling the damage that that would do to someone. to you.
an honorable discharge was more likely. and, if that was the case, then your rage would likely grow tenfold.
you career, your livelihood, taken from you by the hands of the men you trusted the most. your family, cutting you up and pushing you out.
damned by your team and your country, regardless of everything youâd done for both of them during your service.
you were just another cog in the machine, one that had been damaged and discarded, and a discharge couldnât make that any clearer.
he thought back to what you had said in the gym earlier, before youâd left.
âyou should have killed me.â
maybe he should have.
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