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The one that got away; Sal realised that if he hadn't buried his feelings, he could have had Tommy all along. But he meets Buck and sees how happy they are, and he mourns what could have been.
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Things were going well for Sal. Professionaly speaking that is. He'd finally made Captain at the 122 and had a great team of people under his helm. It had been a rocky start when Captian Nash had transferred him out. It took him months of acting out and a whole bucket of denial before he finally admitted to himself that he was the one the blame. That he had wanted to be Captain of the 118 and his behaviour toward Nash had come from resentment and jealousy.
Six months after leaving he found out Gina was getting remarried and thinking about moving to the other side of the country, taking the twins with her. And then he found himself being given an ultimatum by his Captain after a turning up to work with alcohol on his breath: go to therapy or go home. Permanently. He'd chosen the former, and 5 years down the line it could happily admit that it was the best decision he'd ever made.
His co-parenting relationship with Gina, who chose to stay, was better than it ever was when they were married. He even attended her wedding!
There was, however, one thing from his past that still haunted him.
Tommy.
There had always been something there between them. Something that they both thought was just friendship. That all changed one night after a particularly tough shift when Tommy had invited him over to his place for some beers. Gina was thinking about moving closer to her parents and Sal was devastated at the thought.
"It's just.. my girls are my world. If Gina takes them away I don't know what I'll do." He placed his head in his hands and tried to sniff away the emotion. Tommy slid closer to him on the sofa and placed a comforting hand between Sal's shoulder blades and rubbed gently.
"It'll be okay. Gina knows how much you love those kids." He said. Sal sniffed again.
"I don't know, Tommy."
"Look at me." He told Sal. Sal sniffed again and lifting his head to meet Tommys gaze. "You might be a crappy husband but you're an amazing dad."
"You really think that?" He asked; his eyes wet and pleading.
"Yes." He answered. Tommy's eyes were soft and his reassuring smile was easy. Sals heart was hurting and he was terrified of losing his girls. He knew he could rely on Tommy to give him some comfort but he needed more. He needed security. He needed a promise that it would all be okay. He needed something to be wrapped around his insides, to really feel it would all be okay. As he thought about it all, he found himself looking at Tommys lips. He hadn't done it consciously but he was doing it. Without warning an idea popped into his head that shot fire into his organs. But without the level headed-ness of sobriety, he acted before he could analyse the thought.
He leaned forward and kissed Tommy. Tommy kissed back without hesitation. The kiss was big and wet. Drunken. Sal pushed his body forward, tipping Tommy back onto the couch with him on top. It was a big mistake. The quick movment sent a massive wave of nausea through Sal and he grabbed at his mouth.
"Woah!" Tommy called out pushing Sal back up and reaching out for the empty popcorn bowl on the table, shoving into Sals lap just in time to catch the repeat of Sals dinner and beer. Tommy got up to use the bathroom and get Sal a glass of water and by the time he came back into the living room Sal was already passed out on the couch.
The next morning, in the vice grip of a hangover, Sal had said he didn't remember anything from the previous night and Tommy didnt remind him. But the truth was he remembered it all. He remembered the feel of his lips on Tommy's, the electricity that surged in his stomach at the touch, the way his heart felt like it was going to explode in his chest. All of it. But he was too confused, embarrassed and terrified to address it.
Until a week later when he'd gone to Tommy's to watch a pay per view fight, and when Tommy had laughed at something Sal had said - something that he couldn't remember anymore - and his face had crinkled with that big smile, he'd kissed him again. Only this time he was sober. Tommy once again had reciprocated. This kiss however was different from the last. It wasn't drunken and all over the place. It was slow and gentle. Tentative. It happened a few more times that night and everytime Sal felt like he was floating.
They began seeing eachother in secret. Over the next year things got deeper between them. Within a month they'd agreed to not see other people and 6 months in Sal had been the first to say "I love you." Tommy had beamed and said it back.
Every so often Tommy would approach the subject of going public. But Sal always shut it down.
"I get this is new for you, and not for me. And I don't want you to feel pressured. But, I love you and I want us to be in a normal relationship. One where I get to take you out and show you off." Tommy had said one night, as they lay in his bed in a post coital haze.
"I know, and I love you too, Tommy. But I'm just.. I'm not ready. I'm from a big, traditional Catholic family, you know that. It's gonna cause a lot of shit. Shit that I'm not ready to deal with." He'd argued.
Tommy knew it wouldn't be easy for him and he'd probably lose family over it. And he knew how much that would hurt Sal and so he backed off. But the longer their relationship went on, the harder it got for Tommy. He was feeling like a dirty secret. He began resent Sal for it.
And then the fight happened. The fight that changed everything.
They'd gone to a bar after shift with a few other members of the 118. Tommy tried to sit next to Sal at the table and Sal had responded by scooting around to the other side. Tommy tried to ignore the shitty feeling it gave him. Until Hen had pointed out a gorgeous woman standing at the bar.
"I'd sell my own mother get a piece of that." Sal told her with a laugh. Tommy's stomach sank at the comment. His heart broke. In that moment he realised that Sal would probably never be ready to be with him. Not entirely. Not like Tommy needed. Sal knew his comment probably hurt Tommy and for the next moments avoided his eyes. Tommy, however, stood up.
"Im actually really tired, so I'm going to head home. I'll see you guys tomorrow." He told them and left the bar, not giving Sal or anybody a chance to respond.
Two hours later Sal showed up at Tommy's.
"I really can't talk to you right now, Sal. Please, just go home." He tried to close the door but Sal, though 2 inches shorter than Tommy, was actually a little stronger and pushed past him at the door and walked into the kitchen.
"Sal, I'm serious." He told him, firmly.
"I know why you're mad, Tommy and I'm sorry."
"What are you sorry for?" Tommy asked.
"For making those comments in the bar. I shouldn't have said that in front of you." Sal said. Tommy scoffed.
"Sal, you shouldn't have been saying them at all! And you wouldn't have if Hen, or anybody else, knew about us."
"You know why I can't! And we can't keep having this same fight." Sal argued back.
"I do know why, Sal. And I get it. You know I do. I've been there. But I can't.. I can't live like this. I can't spend another day feeling like your dirty little secret. It's breaking my heart."
Sal ran a hand though his hair. He knew how he was making Tommy feel and he hated it. It broke his own heart to know he was doing that to Tommy. But he was terrified of losing everything if people found out. His parents, the girls.. he couldn't lose them. But he didn't want to lose Tommy either. He loved him.
"I just.. I want to be.. I want to tell people, Tommy. I want to be the man that makes you feel good and not the man that makes you feel bad. But-"
"You're not ready." Tommy finished. His tone full of realisation. Sal was never going to be ready. He could stay with him and hope that one day, someday, Sal would feel he was ready. But there was no guarantee that that day would ever come. And Tommy couldn't hold out hope any longer.
"Im not ready." Sal repeated looking down.
"I can't be someone's secret, Sal. Even if I do love them. I'm sorry." Sal looked up to see a tear rolling down Tommy's cheek.
"Wait, are you.. are you breaking up with me?!" Sal said incredulously.
"Im sorry, Sal. I can't do this anymore. And I'm not going to force you to come out, because that would be a really shitty thing to do. But that means my only option is to walk away. I've worked so hard over the last few years to become someone I'm proud of and I can't go back to hiding in the closet. I'm sorry. I just can't."
"Tommy, please, " Sal pleaded. He stepped closer to Tommy "I promise i-"
Tommy stepped back.
"No, Sal." His voice was low and shaky. He was using everything within him to hold back more tears that were desperate to fall. Sal held his gaze for a moment, hoping it would change. Eventually Tommy's eyes moved away. Sals heart broke. He wanted to say something. Anything. A thousand things to beg Tommy to not do this. But he couldn't. That fear of coming out was far too deep rooted. He simply turned and walked out of Tommy's house.
The next week at work was excruciating. Seeing Tommy everyday and not being able to talk to him or touch him was almost physically painful. Tommy had tried to speak to him, to make sure he was okay but he couldn't handle that. He snapped at him, sniped at him and was generally being a bastard. They'd had another new captain, Nash, and Sal was not making a good impression on him by behaving the way that he was. It all came to a head after a shift when Nash had reprimanded him for putting them in danger on a scene. Nash had fired him. He'd changed his mind the next day and instead chose to transfer him to the 122, but for a while Sal thought he whole world was falling apart.
5 years later, and his life was entirely different. His work and home life were exactly what he'd wanted them to be. With one exception. He was alone. He'd dated here or there over the years. Including men once he'd accepted that he did in fact like men, too. But it never worked out. They weren't Tommy. Losing him was the biggest regret of his life.
He and his team had gone out for drinks one evening at a random badge and ladders bar. He'd left the group the get another drink and stood at the bar. Movement in his peripheral vision made him look to the right and his heart almost stopped at the sight of the man standing at the bar.
"Tommy?"
"Sal." Tommy's faced crinkled with that big smile he always loved. He moved closer and immediately hugged him, slapping his back with a large hand. He still smelled the same, Sal thought. "It's good to see you."
"Yeah, you too."
"So how's things?" Tommy asked.
"Uh, good. I made Captain at the 122"
"Thats great. Congratulations!"
"Thanks. What about you? You still at the 118?"
"No, I transferred out. I'm at Harbour." He told him.
"You flying again? I know you always wanted to do that again since you left the army." Sal remembered the night they were lying in bed and Tommy had told him how much he had missed being in the air.
"Yeah. I definitely missed it."
"Well I'm glad you're happy there." Sal smiled.
"Hey, Howie and Hen are back there, why don't you come and say Hi." Tommy suggested. Sal contemplated it for a moment.
"That's alright, I'll leave you guys to it."
"No way. I know they'd love to see you. C'mon." He held Sals arm and pulled him through the crowd. The feel of Tommy's hand on his bare forearm felt exactly had it did 5 years before. He wanted that feeling tattooed permanently on his skin.
"Guys look who I found!" He called out as they approached the table.
"Deluca?" Hen questioned with a smile. "It's been a while." She stood to hug him.
"Yeah. How are you? How's Karen?" He asked.
"Good. We're both good."
"How's things at the 122?" Chim asked. Tommy grabbed Sals shoulder.
"Sal, here made Captain." Sal noticed an element of pride in Tommy's voice. He was still proud of him all these years later? A warmth filled his heart. He'd convinced himself that Tommy still hated him.
"Hey thats awesome, congrats." Chim exclaimed.
"Sorry about that." Buck walked up to them. "That was Maddie on the phone. She wants us to babysit Jee-yun on Saturday."
"Let me guess.. our neice wants us to take her to the zoo?" Tommy asked with a fond smile.
Our neice?
"Are you surpised?" Buck asked. "You can't say no to her. She's got her uncle Tommy wrapped around her little finger. She knows you'll give her anything she wants." He laughed.
"And I wouldn't have it any other way." He said. Buck smiled at him fondly and pressed a chaste kiss on Tommy's lips.
Sals heart broke all over again. He knew logically that Tommy had more than likely moved on. It had been 5 years. But there was a part of Sal that still held on to hope. That hope was now blown to smithereens in a painful blast to his heart.
"Oh, this is Sal. Old 118. Sal this is my boyfriend Evan." Buck reached out his hand to shake Sal's.
"Buck. Everyone calls me Buck."
"It's, uh.. Good to meet you." He scanned the man in front of him. He was taller than himself, and leaner though still muscular like him. He had dirty blonde hair also like him. Tommy definitely had a type.
"Im starving. We should order food." Buck told Tommy.
They sat back at the table as to scan the bar menu. Tommy arm was across Bucks shoulder as they pointed to things and discussed what they were going to order. There was a domesticity to their body language. An easy closeness. One that Sal had Tommy once had a long time ago. Tommy was happy. Anybody with eyes could see that.
The last little piece of hope hidden deep inside Sal's heart floated away.
#tommy kinard#911 abc#911onabc#911#sal x tommy#tommy sal#sal deluca#saltommy fic#saltommy#tommy sal fic#911 prompt#saltommy prompt
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9-1-1 ▸ 2.09 hen begins
#911edit#tommykinardedit#chimneyhanedit#saldelucaedit#911 abc#911#tommy kinard#chimney han#sal deluca#cnomadedits#tw: homophobia#i went back and rewatched hen begins bc of all the spec#thought this scene was interesting in light of it all 👀
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911 + would you fuck your clone meme
this version is made by someone who loves bucktommy 🥰
#911 abc#911edit#evan buckley#tommy kinard#eddie diaz#bobby nash#karen wilson#shannon diaz#hen wilson#sal deluca#chimney han#athena grant#taylor kelly#maddie han#mine#911 memes#memeedits
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9-1-1 is a The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants reboot, actually.
#yes i am being silly but like??#sal deluca#tommy kinard#eddie diaz#evan buckley#911#911 abc#911edit#my gif#anztag#usernolan#useraimz#parallels*#911gifs
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We're really overlooking the potential of a Karen Wilson (genius rocket scientist and apocalyptic doomsayer wife) and Tommy Kinard (nerd about everything mechanical and the cynical black cat boyfriend) friendship.
#Karen Wilson#Tommy Kinard#You will never convince me that Hen didn't bring Karen along to drinks one night#because well Karen already knows Chimney so it's really just Tommy and Sal she's meeting#only to be completely surprised when Karen and Tommy hit it off over nerdy stuff#which is like#1. the most Hen's ever heard Tommy say in one go#2. when Hen learns just how much her new girlfriend has thought about the end of the world
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9-1-1 -> 2x9 ❝ hen begins ❞ / 7x3 ❝ capsized ❞
#911edit#911verse#911net#anztag#hen wilson#tommy kinard#sal deluca#henwilsonedit#tommykinardedit#cowboycoven2#cinemapix#cinematv#usersource#tvandfilm#chewieblog#tvarchive#tvedit#dailytv#filmtvcentral#kedits
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Sal Deluca: Kidnapped
Evan Buckley: Kidnapper
Tommy Kinard: Kidnapping Enabler
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read this first
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Bobby knocks on the door frame.
From his chair right next to the bed, Sal Deluca turns around and his eyes narrow. "Nash."
"Deluca." He nods at the other man. "Still nothing?"
"Still fighting," says Sal. He returns to stare at the unconscious and battered form on the bed. The machines hum and whirr and hiss and beep, taking readings of different functions.
With their masks on, Bobby can't read Sal's expression as well as he wants to, but the fact that Sal has been here every day during the short visiting hours for Tommy says a whole lot. Bobby takes a few steps into the ward.
"Is it okay if I talk to him for a while?" he asks.
Sal grunts assent and stands up. "I could do with a visit to the gents and maybe grab a coffee." As he passes Bobby, he asks, "How's the kid?"
"He'll make it," Bobby answers.
Once he's alone with Tommy, Bobby takes the seat Sal vacated. Almost buried under the wires and tubes and bandages, Tommy looks terrible, like he'd gone too many rounds with a prizefighter and lost all of them. His eyes and nose are bruised and there are lacerations across his face that are scabbing over. His skin is a mottled purple and yellow. His cheeks are hollow and his stubble thick; his head is wrapped in bandages after the most recent operation to drain fluids accumulating in his skull.
That's not even looking at the rest of him. By the grace of God, at least his right leg, spine and pelvis are intact; his left shin and both his arms are broken as well, and his ribs and clavicle fractured. Bobby's not willing to think just how damaged Tommy's insides are.
Turns out being swiped by a semi driven by an obsessed woman and then tumbling down a slope in a truck is bad for your health.
"You probably saved his life, Tommy," Bobby says aloud. "You pushing him out of your truck before it rolled down the hill meant he didn't have as severe injuries as you do."
Hsssst. Bip. Hssst. Bip.
"He's... he's woken up a few times now. Four times. It seems like he's lost some of his memories, but every time he wakes up, he asks, 'where's Tommy?' We haven't told him." Bobby clears his throat. "Tommy. You're a good man. You were good for him when you started dating and I know you didn't break up with him because you stopped caring for him. And knowing Buck, he was good for you too." A stray tear creeps down his cheek and Bobby swipes it aside.
Hssst. Bip. Hssst. Bip.
"Buck, he cares so much for you. So much. If you're in there, fighting to come back, fight harder. I'm not one for laying guilt trips on others, because Lord knows just how much wrong I've done. But you have to come back, okay? You must." Bobby takes a deep breath and reaches out to hold Tommy's cold, limp hand. "I don't think Buck will survive losing you. He won't. So I need you to come back to him."
Hssst. Bip. Hssst. Bip.
Standing up, Bobby prepares to leave. Sal is standing by the door, inscrutable behind his mask.
"Tell the kid that Tommy's here in ICU," Sal says.
Bobby hesitates. "Why?"
"My boy Tommy needs something to fight for. You want him to fight for Buckley? Let Buckley tell him so himself." Sal returns to his chair and settles in, ignoring Bobby and taking out his phone like he has nothing better to do than wait.
#tommy kinard#sal deluca#bobby nash#bucktommy#pq writes#ICU arc#tevan#sal has loved tommy like a brother from tommy's first week
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Eddie and Sal's pictures were chosen by Buck
#bucktommy#evan buckley#eddie diaz#evan buck buckley#911#911 abc#sal deluca#tommy kinard#tevan#kinley#kinkley#911 meme#my edits
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118 daily drabble (day 15; defend)
@118dailydrabble
notes: bucktommy; bobby pov; catching up with the old 118
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It's been about 15 years; Bobby's glad Tommy can finally laugh about it.
Tommy has one arm firmly around Buck and one finger pointing at Sal. "I'm from LA. When the hell would I have seen a live chicken?"
"You think that's helping your case," Sal replies.
"Evan, I was defenseless. It was just me and this chicken, and Maurice had a knife."
"This was your dance." Sal wiggles in the booth.
Buck leans into Tommy, whispering something that has him turn fire engine red.
"Bobby, don't listen." Buck doesn't miss a beat: "Was that the last time he ran from a cock?"
"I love him," Sal says, as Tommy laughs and gets apologetic kisses on the cheek.
#911 fic#bucktommy fic#118dailydrabble#drabble#my writing#my fic#tommy kinard#evan buckley#sal deluca#bobby nash#maurice the chicken
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"Little Beast" by Richard Siken
@evansboyfriend your post has opened my third eye and my hand slipped
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One evening down the saltommy rabbit hole and Ive written a purely unadulterated smutty fic about them:
Say It Again
'He grabbed Sal by the shirt and pulled him into a filthy, deep kiss. For those first few minutes, he'd been somewhat hesitant to respond, allowing Sal to lead the way. But now his brain had accepted that this was happening. It was real. What it meant could be figured out later, but right now, Tommy wanted Sal, and Sal clearly wanted him. So he leaned into it'
#tommy kinard#911 abc#911 buck#911#911onabc#sal deluca#saltommy#tommy sal#sal deluca tommy kinard#Tommy kinnard smut#911 au
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Bad Beer and Naked Rodents
Thank you @xmidhel for beta reading!
also on AO3
“You know,” Sal drawls, twisting the cap off another beer and handing it over, “for someone with an above average IQ, you’re dense as fuck.”
Tommy glares but accepts the bottle without protest. It’s his third. He takes a long sip and shudders. Bud Light. Why did Sal have to be such a fucking stereotype? But he was too tired to complain. He was too tired to do much of anything right now.
“He’s not wrong,” Lucy said to his left and Tommy directed his glare towards her instead. Like Sal, she wasn’t impressed.
“What? You know it’s true. There you are, genuinely happy for the first time in…” she pauses to think, “for the first time since I met you, actually.”
“Ever” Tommy supplies miserably, sinking further into the couch cushions. Something pokes into his right kidney and he reaches underneath himself, pulling out a small doll with messy blue hair, a pink ruffled dress and a … horn?
“Unicorn Barbie,” Sal exclaims and snags the doll from his hand. “Thanks man, you just saved this household a lot of sweat and tears. Look, babe, he found her!”
“Uncle Tommy to the rescue,” Gina says dryly, without even looking up from her laptop where she’s furiously typing some email that’s probably important and Tommy feels a pang of guilt at intruding on her peace and quiet unannounced at 9pm on a week day, Lucy in tow. He’s unable to dwell on it, however, because Lucy pipes up again.
“Let’s circle back here for a moment, your life was going great, you were happy, your hair was even starting to look good-“
“Hey!”
“Don’t interrupt me, Thomas. My point is, you got scared of commitment for three seconds and tell Evan Buckley, Evan Buckley, to go off to frolic on Grindr? I’m sorry, but do you know how stupid that is? Do you have any idea what happens to guys like Evan Buckley on Grindr?”
“Say his name like that one more time and I swear to God.” It comes out with far more venom than intended and he cringes internally. Why does he have to be such a bitch? It’s a credit to their love for him that none of his friends even bat an eye.
They’re not gentle either, and Tommy’s kind of glad about it. He doesn’t deserve gentle. Not now, maybe not ever again.
“What happens to guys like him on Grindr,” Sal asks curiously and then frowns. “And what do you know about Grindr?”
“My cousin wanted to try it out but he’s super paranoid about technology stealing his data, man’s still got a Nokia. So we set up his profile on my phone. He decided it wasn’t for him 10 minutes in but I kept the app and sometimes I go window shopping when downtime gets too long.”
“Why am I not surprised in the slightest,” Tommy mutters into his beer. Lucy is undeterred.
“Anyway, Gabe’s no hag either and similarly baby-faced as Buck so every time I open the app they’re on him in minutes. Seriously, it’s like The Walking Dead and some of the messages I get are borderline illegal. And don’t get me started on the dick pics. They’re not even nice-looking dicks most of the time.”
“Is there such a thing as a nice-looking dick? I’ve always found they all look a little like mole-rats.”
Sal, who’s been fiddling with Unicorn Barbie’s hair in a futile attempt to get out some of the knots pauses and makes a pitiful little sound staring wide-eyed at his wife who’s still neither looking up from her screen, nor is she pausing her aggressive typing, and Tommy’s both impressed and a little scared of that level of multi-tasking.
“Don’t worry, bud, Gi loves your dick. You’ve got three little monsters to prove it.”
Sal shoots Lucy a look so dirty Tommy almost laughs.
“I love the man attached to it. It’s still a mole-rat, though.” A beat of silence, then Gina looks up from her laptop for the first time in two hours, finding her husband’s eyes across the coffee table. “I love mole-rats.”
Lucy snorts, but Sal looks so pleased even Tommy has to smile.
“Still, though,” Lucy picks up the previous topic again, “are we sure it’s a good idea to throw Buck into a world of mole-rats and creepy old dudes wanting him to call them ‘daddy’?”
Tommy decidedly does not look in Sal’s direction. He loves Lucy and Gina but this is a topic one only discusses with one’s very best of friends.
“A world of disappointment, more like. Buck’s had Tommy now, anything else will just be a let-down.” The dirty grin spreading on Sal’s face tells Tommy he’s about to be in trouble. And he’s right.
“We didn’t call my boy here Nine-Inch-Nail in high school for nothin’.”
“Okay, first of all, that is such a lie,” the grin goes impossibly wider, “and second, I am not 9 inches, okay?”
Three sets of eyes wander down to his crotch and if it wasn’t these exact three people, Tommy would be so uncomfortable right now. As it is, he simply huffs and shoves a throw pillow into his lap, crossing his arms like a petulant toddler.
“I’m 8.6.”
Silence.
Then all three of them burst out laughing. He tries to hold on to his petulance, but he only lasts about ten seconds before the corners of his mouth begin to twitch and he finds himself joining in against all odds.
“As I was saying,” Sal hiccups after they’ve all calmed down again, “Buck doesn’t need any other mens’ mole-rats. He only needs Tommy’s giant mole-rat.”
Tommy groans.
“God, I hate you.”
Half past midnight Gina pulls the plug and throws them out. Sal tries to offer him the guest room, but he declines. As much as he loves his best friend’s daughters, he doubts he’ll can be Fun Uncle Tommy in the morning and he hates disappointing them.
As they wait for their Uber to pull up, Tommy feels strong fingers wrap around his wrist and a moment later he’s pulled into a tight hug.
“Don’t fuck up your life like that, Tom, not again. You were finally so happy. And I like you happy. ” Sal’s voice is quiet next to his ear, but there’s a softness to it that is usually reserved for his daughters. Tommy feels his throat close up and he buries his face into Sal’s shoulder.
“I just don’t know how not to, Sallie,” he admits and hates how forlorn it sounds.
How forlorn he feels.
“You trust him. I know it’s the most terrifying thing to do, believe me I do. But you gotta.”
Sal pulls back to catch his eyes, but keeps hold of Tommy’s shoulders.
“This man is the best thing that’s ever happened to you, Tom, and if you give up on what you have now, you will regret it for the rest of your life. But in order to keep it, you need to let him in and you need to trust him to know what he wants. It’s not your place to decide that for him.
And I know you want to let him set the pace, but you can only do that as long as you’re able to keep up. This relationship is about the both of you and if things are moving too fast, you have to tell him that. It’s not fair to either of you if you don’t.
And Tommy, you have to talk to him about your shit.”
Tommy opens his mouth to protest but Sal shuts him up with a shake of his head.
“No buts. Buck isn’t stupid. Do you really think he hasn’t clocked by now that you have trauma? I’m not saying you gotta tell him all of it at once. But you need to start somewhere.”
Sal pulls him back in roughly and presses a kiss to his temple.
“I’ve seen the way that boy looks at you. He wants to take care of your heart so badly. Let him. Let him love you. All of you.
And if it all goes to shit anyway, you know that I’ll be right here. I always will be.”
Tommy bursts into tears.
It’s 3am when he finally finds himself knocking at the same door he closed behind himself for what he thought would be the last time less than ten hours ago.
It’s telling that it takes Evan just under half a minute to open it. It’s more telling that his eyes are red-rimmed, and he’s still wearing the same clothes.
Evan’s terrible at hiding his emotions, doesn’t even try to most of the time. It’s one of the many things Tommy loves about him.
Right now, he seems to experience all of them at the same time.
Hope, when he opens the door. Relief, when his eyes fall on Tommy in the hallway.
Hurt, anger, fear, concern, fondness, and finally back to hope.
He’s silent. Waiting.
Tommy takes a breath.
“Hey.”
“Hi.”
They look at each other, the insecurity and fear hanging between them like a cloud of vapor, so thick Tommy can almost taste it.
But there’s something else, too. Smaller, more fragile, and yet persistent like a moth chasing the light.
It’s the same thing Tommy’s seen in Evan’s eyes earlier.
Hope.
For a time, neither of them moves, as if they’re scared, that if they do it’ll spook and leave them alone in the dark again.
A minute passes. Two.
Somewhere in the building a baby begins to cry.
Evan steps aside.
#911 abc#evan buckley#tommy kinard#bucktommy#bucktommy fic#bucktommy fanfic#sal deluca#lucy donato#gina deluca#this is actually terrifying i haven't posted anything i've written in like a decade#totally did not accidentally put the title in wrong at first
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9-1-1 2x09 — “HEN BEGINS”
#genuinely crazy they did this… and then years later… ‘wait tommy’s gay?’ ‘he doesn’t advertise it but yeah’#CRAZY!!!!#my gifs#911#911 abc#911 2x09#tommy kinard#chimney han#sal deluca
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SAL DELUCA + the face of a man who's about to report his boss
#i know it was probably chim but in my heart sal was the one who called gerrard a hemorrhoid in his report <3#also there is so little sal content but the way tommy would not leave his side for more than one scene is driving me nuts#and that scene was in bba btw cuz in 2x09 they are truly inseparable ugh#sal deluca#henrietta wilson#vincent gerrard#911#911 abc#911edit#911 2x09#my gif#anztag#usernolan#911gifs
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9-1-1 -> 2x16 ❝ bobby begins again ❞
#911edit#911verse#911net#anztag#hen wilson#tommy kinard#sal deluca#howard han#911 abc#cinemapix#cinematv#usersource#tvandfilm#chewieblog#tvarchive#tvedit#dailytv#dailytvfilmgifs#filmtvcentral#kedits#back with another og 118 post <3#love all their reactions in this scene#prev to last gif hen and tommy in sync hehe
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