#today ive only eaten lunch

[midnights-wish]

I think we can all agree that getting used to my old eating habits is going pretty well when I'm going grocery shopping and I don't buy my favorite chocolate bar - not because I still have some of it left, but because I didn't think of it.

[butterflies-and-bumble-bees]

i should not be allowed to go into places where money can be exchanged for goods

[technicolorxsn]

ive eaten so much fucking fruit today

[switchysyphus]

Another hunger fantasy

Iv been thinking about this new reality where consuming food is only allowed during specific times. Maybe it’s illegal to eat outside of the designated times or maybe there is a spell that doesn’t let food go in your mouth outside of the food times.

You can only eat breakfast between 7am and 9am. Perhaps this works great for working folks, everyone can have a filling breakfast before they head to work but what if they have a long commute and have to be out of the house by 7am to reach work on time? Or if they accidentally snooze their alarm and sleep in a little longer, oops no breakfast for you! Maybe on the weekends it would be the hardest, why would anyone wake up early just to eat? Weekends are for being lazy and sleeping in like I just did, it’s past 10am now so in this world no breakfast for my tummy.

Lunch can only be eaten between 1pm and 2pm. Maybe you have a boss who likes to schedule meetings during this hour because they have a hunger kink or maybe you get so busy you forget to eat during the hour. If you are studying maybe the only available class you need to graduate is being offered at that time! There would be lots of hunger y tummies by now if it was forced to skip breakfast and lunch!

A snack is only allowed between 5pm and 5:15pm but what if you are commuting home during this very short window? Or maybe you reach home by 5:10 but desperately need to use the bathroom! What would you choose food or the bathroom for those 5 minutes you have to spare?

Dinner is only from 9pm to 10pm. If you chose bathroom and were forced to skip all meals today it would be torture to have to wait till 9pm! Maybe you are exhausted from the day and decide to take a nap but end up sleeping till a little past 10 or just decided to sleep early tonight. Just imagine how hungry you would be if all those situations kept your poor tummy empty for more than 24 hours!

[megjameswrites]

today (in a day, part 3)

(part 1 here; part 2 here; part 4 here; part 5 here; masterlist of works here)

Daryl x pagan!reader

Terminus, after the fall of the prison

CW: none, slight angst but with a nice fluffy ending for you all... for now

Summary: In a train car in Terminus, I wondered if someday, I'd ever get a chance to tell Daryl Dixon that the magic rocks he loved to tease me about really did work, after all.

I woke from the nightmare with Daryl's name on my lips and the rawness in my throat that told me I'd been screaming. The others were gathered at the end of the dark train car, politely ignoring me and my sleep issues.

Except for Maggie. Her sympathy would have been painful if we hadn't been in the same position days before, both of us searching for someone we cared about. Both of us fighting back hopelessness that they were lost forever.

I turned away from her all the same, shoving a shaking hand through my hair and focusing on my breathing. My hand came up automatically to my neck, reaching for the necklace that wasn't there. It dropped away again, and I closed my eyes against the tidal wave of pain.

We'd been happy. We'd been safe and settled and in a place protected and defensible. And then the sickness had hit, and it'd been terrifying. That had been bad enough, especially sending Daryl, Michonne, Tyreese, and Bob off for medicines at a place that hadn't been worth the risk. Especially when I'd gotten sick, too, sometime after Glenn and Sasha but before they'd gotten back.

Then everything had seemed like it would be ok; Daryl riding in at the rescue at the last minute, when everything went to shit and we were all about dead from the disease and our friends turning. He'd come up the stairs at a dead run, and the last thing I remembered before passing out was my necklace sliding from under his shirt to swing free as he bent over me, my name sounding distorted and far away.

I'd come to in C block, hooked to an IV and significantly better, and then-

Then the Governor had attacked. The prison had fallen.

And the last I'd seen of Daryl was a walker at his neck, while the rubble from the bridge collapsed around him. Then Maggie had drug me screaming away, to help her try to find Glenn.

It seemed like life had turned into a nightmare I couldn't wake up from, ever since the moment I'd handed Daryl my necklace wordlessly and kissed his cheek. He'd promised, I thought as I stared at the wall of the train car, waiting for my hands to stop shaking and my heart to settle down again. He'd promised he'd be back, and everything would be fine.

He had something to tell me when he got back, he said.

We never got around to whatever it was he wanted to say. I wondered- I hoped- it broke my heart to think that it might have been what I'd say to him now, if only. If only.

If only he'd come in, crossbow tanging, to save the day again. To get us out of here. Just one more miracle, I pleaded to the universe. Just one more. Just give me him back, one more time, and it didn't matter if I died here in Terminus and got eaten for lunch.

If I could just say what I needed to say first, today could be the day I died.

I woke up more gently this time, Glenn touching my shoulder. Light filtered in from the cracks and holes in the wood, and outside, something was happening. Gunfire filled the air, sounding like it came from all around us at once. I got to my feet, joining the others in a huddle at the far end of the car.

"What do we think?" Maggie whispered.

Abraham looked serious, concentration all over his face in the dim light. I closed my eyes, drawing in a long slow breath and trying to block out the echoes, to pick one sound and concentrate on it to figure out the direction it came from, the way Daryl had taught me.

I was shit in the woods and always would be, I knew, but this- I could isolate my senses. It was similar to what I did when meditating anyway, but trying to orient a sound in all the chaos outside was hard.

Abraham started to speak, but Sasha shushed him. "She's the best at this. She can figure out where a pin dropped in field of snow, I swear."

"I'm not that good," I muttered, but I'd already figured it out. "Heading toward us. Getting closer every time… they're herding people." Disgust curled my lip. "Someone figured it out and is fighting back. I hope they win."

"They win, we starve in here. Unless your magic ears or magic birds can figure out a way to peck that lock open," Abraham informed me.

"Skeptic," I muttered. He was right, though. We were locked in. I didn't much care. "No magic nothing. The birds are just omens; I'm not the Raven Whisperer. And they were right, weren't they? 'Thirteen beware, it's the devil himself'. Fucking Gareth qualifies, don't you think?"

"Maybe. But my hairy red ass doesn't have faith in any of your nonsense."

I flashed him a small smile, not in the least offended. "Don't worry. I don't have much faith in your hairy red ass, either."

That had the lot of us laughing, a surprising skill we'd almost forgotten in recent days. Then the gunfire ceased, and Gareth's voice sounded outside the train car. It was too muffled to make out words, even with my eyes closed and concentrating hard.

I reached out a hand blindly as another voice answered his, a voice that felt familiar. The words were barely understandable, but it couldn't be who I thought it was. There was no way.

"My son!"

In the pause, Maggie's hand gripped mine back tightly. My knees went weak, the world swimming through my closed eyes, and I forced myself to breathe.

"I'll go in with him!"

More muted, muffled words from Gareth, and then-

The door cracked open, a groaning noise that had me wincing, opening my eyes automatically like it could make the sound lessen. It did, in a way, but now half-blind, I watched as a figure walked in, slowly, reluctantly.

An impossible figure, one that had me drawing in a gasp even as my eyes watered against the light. I'd know that walk anywhere, and so would the others shifting and stirring around me.

Before I could recover from the shock of seeing Rick come in, he turned and another form appeared in the blinding light of the open car door, even as Gareth's voice called more clearly, words understandable this time.

"Now the archer!"

My legs went out from under me, and it was only Glenn catching my elbow that kept me on my feet.

The archer. The words rang in my ears, time slowing to a crawl, and there he was. Impossibly, unfathomably, miraculously, there he was. Not just the archer, I thought in a dizzying haze. My archer. The only archer who mattered.

Daryl was alive. Daryl was alive, and he was here, coming through those doors like I'd begged the universe the night before.

Michonne was next, more miracles, and Carl followed, and darkness slammed over us all again as the door was shut. The locked clicked into the sudden silence, and I fought to breathe. I wanted to run over; to fling myself into his arms and see if I was hallucinating.

I waited for the nightmare to send me screaming back into reality.

Rick stared into the corner where we stood, and he started to smile. "They're going to be mad when they find out," he said softly.

And then Daryl's eyes met mine.

He crossed the car in three strides, between one blink and the next, and his hands were on my cheeks as he stared into my eyes, searching my face while I searched his right back.

"Hey," I managed. "What'd you want to tell me?"

He blinked once, wordless, and I felt my courage starting to wane. All those promises to the universe, to myself, that I'd say what had been on the tip of my tongue for so long but I'd bitten back, not wanting to lose the friendship with my crystal-finding, snarky friend- they fell away into the voice that said not to rock the boat; that this was enough, just having him alive.

To risk it now, and be wrong, would be worse than these days had been. Today wouldn't be the day I got him back just to ruin a perfectly good friendship with my unrequited feelings.

His lips crashed into mine, his hands locking at the back of my shirt as he hauled me up to my toes and crushed me against him. I heard the sound I made dimly, from far away, too caught up in the warmth of his body, in the brush of ragged stubble against my skin, in the taste of cigarettes on his lips as they devoured mine hungrily, desperately, wildly.

He kissed like he fought; like it was the difference between life and death.

"Told her," Maggie said, voice smug. "Pay up, Rhee."

"With what? We're in a train car."

Oh. Yeah. We were, I reminded myself.

"Leave them alone," Maggie chided. "It's been a long damn time coming."

After that, I tuned them out. Daryl's mouth left mine; he released me just enough to stare into my eyes again, his purer and deeper than any crystal I'd stared into. More beautiful, too. More haunting and haunted.

"Daryl," I whispered. "I-"

"Hang on," he interrupted me. "I- hang on."

Stunned, baffled, I waited as he released his grip on me, taking a step away and turning, hands scrubbing over his face. He let out a jagged huff of air as cold hit in the absence of his arms around me. Instantly, I felt bereft. Tears threatened, tears of relief, tears of grief; I didn't fucking know.

Then he turned back, grabbing my hand and pooling something into it, spilling from his hand to mine like liquid. But it wasn't.

It was my necklace, the crystals clattering faintly, the chain flowing over my hand and slipping between my fingers. I shook my head. "No. You- you need-"

"Baby," he whispered, voice cracking. "Put the damn thing on. I- I found- I added somethin'. Hope ya don't mind."

I frowned, lifting it to catch the faint light. There was my obsidian, my rose quartz, the bloodstone he'd brought me, and- I squinted. "What is that?"

"It's a- a ring. On the chain, so's ya don't foul it up on nothin' wearin' it on ya finger."

"I- what?"

"Shit," he muttered. "I'm fuckin' it up. I don't- I thought ya were dead."

"I thought you were dead, too," I said softly, the fear rushing in again. I could see him being bitten, clear as the moment it happened, and only the soft touch of his hand on my cheek brought me back. "I was- Daryl, I-"

"Shhh," he urged, stopping me with a finger against my lips. "I gotta- lemme just- shit. Ain't good with words. Or feelings. Just- remember ya tellin' me about rubies, and I found that awhile ago, out on a run, and I been trynna work up the courage to ask- to tell ya-"

I blinked when he went silent, ducking his head and hunching his shoulders. Rubies. I'd told him how much I liked rubies, but I wouldn't wear one unless I was in a relationship, because to me it was the stone most representative of romantic love. It was associated with heart and root, with passion and vitality and love for life, but sometimes personal meanings shape more of a stone's properties than widely accepted ones.

To me, rubies were love. They were intense emotions, deep connections, fiery passion.

He'd gotten me a ruby. He-

"Daryl, are you trying to tell me you love me?" I finally managed, the words somehow finding their way past the dam in my throat that tried to hold them back.

I met his eyes in the still silence, frowning as I noticed the bruising around his eye for the first time. "Oh my god, what-"

He grabbed my hand as I raised it to his eye to sweep his hair away and figure out how bad the damage was. "Shit. Stop that. Eye's fuckin' fine. Baby. Yeah. That's what I's trynna say, and- well. I- I love ya."

My heart stopped and started again. I disengaged my hand from his, gently, and pulled my necklace into place over my head, so the stones settled against my heart. Then I looked into his anxious eyes, moving closer as I fiddled with the rose quartz I'd worn for so long. "Remember back in the quarry, when you asked me if these really worked? And I said I'd let you know someday?"

His lips turned up in the faintest of smiles. "Yeah."

"I just found out today that they do. Daryl, I-"

I didn't manage to get the words out all the way because he was kissing me again, soft and sweet this time. Like we had all the time in the world, he pulled me gently to him, fingers threading through my hair.

I kissed him back, content. Even if we never had another, I had what I'd needed. I had this. I had him. I had today.

[faunabel]

waugh it seems my acid reflux(?) has decided to randomly act up. i used to get it so often but it hasnt happened in a few years. i wonder what triggered it. well my stomach hurts so i hope i dont get sick. no medicine to take for it 😔

explaining below cut bc its gross stuff + talking abt being sick

so ever since i was a little kid i've had this issue where i'd suddenly start burping the taste of rotten eggs? absolutely vile btw its the worst thing ever. and i'd always end up getting sick. it started happening pretty often at one point. a trigger for it was lots of different foods eaten in a single day. two other triggers ive noticed as ive gotten older is sugar&acid so stuff like sour candy, and sleeping on my stomach. i used to be a stomach sleeper but i stopped a few years ago which seems to have helped a lot. also as i got older i didnt get sick quite every time but still more than half the time. oh and ive also graduated to where i can finally drink lemonade without getting violently ill. for a while there even just a couple sips would get me sick off it within hours.

really not sure what triggered it today? i had chinese food for dinner. uhh i had a soda hours prior? maybe the acidity and sugar from that did something. i did eat three meals yesterday when usually as ive become an adult i can only stomach two. hmm 🤔 i had tuna salad for lunch and some leftover chicken for breakfast. way more than i normally eat.

i dont think ill get sick today thank god but i am wary of eating in case it exuberates the problem. my stomach is very unhappy with me rn it keeps grumbling at me.

[sosuigeneris]

I went for my lipo-B12 drip today.

It was painless, I was done in 35-40 minutes, I did some work and took a work call, it was absolutely seamless. The doc has advised me to stop my 16-8 intermittent fasting. Instead, I need to focus more on cardio (10,000 steps daily), have a protein shake right after to prevent muscle burn instead of fat burn. For lunch and dinner I can’t eat rice, only a salad, flatbread from specific grains and vegetables (I don’t eat meat). 4L of water everyday. No sugar. I can have my black coffee in the afternoon. Fruits can’t be eaten alone (apparently it causes a sugar spike and crash) so they have to be eaten after a meal like lunch or dinner. I have to be in a calorie deficit for 6 weeks, which is how long my treatment will last, and I’ll go in for my iv drips every week.

I’m really looking forward to the end results and I’m going to stick to this. Ive told him that I want my body fat to be 18-19%, he said 20-22% for my age is better and for the next 10 years. I was a little annoyed because I remember being 21% and still not having my dream body. But he’s the doc, he’s the professional so I’ll listen to him and see how this goes 🤷‍♀️

The pricing of this is super decent as well. My entire treatment costs $300. When I had scheduled a cool sculpt consultation, they had given me a price of around $3000. This iv thing seems much more reasonable.

-Cherry🍒

[akaakeis]

gnawing at my nails rn i miss my bf (i dont have one) how do u pick like,,, one person to selfship with bc⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️

like there r so many options ushijima i dont even know who's my favourite character rn ushijima like guys☹️⁉️⁉️

BUT I cant wait for savyaku😼😼😼😼😼 SOCUTE

goshiki is my babey though he is sososososososososo cute and i would want him irl and i bet i could even pull him irl toooo

yk what this type of starting is called! a HOOK sentence cuz u got HOOKED and now ur reading this long ass ask. WAIT FUCJ mattsun guys hear me out here ANYWAYS. HRU SAV!!!!!!!!!!!! its 4am for yew rn right!!

anyways.. its 4pm havent had lunch yet am so fucking tired but soft rice.. soft white rice.... i want to sleep but rice....... call me basic but soft white rice is the best fucking thing in the entire world right after u. teacher gave my english composition an 80 i think ill end up on the news. i just stood up abruptly and the world went 🌀🌀🌀🌀 should i be worried..!!!!

THERE WAS AN OWL ON OUR ROOF THE OTHER DAY SO COOL i almost started writing akaashi hurt comfort (???) at school today but i didnt get time and now im Too Tired :(

im reading and the mountains echoed by khaled hosseini and erm. the plot is so questionable at times like wdym the guy was in love with his chauffeur wdym she tried to kill her sister and changed her mind last second so it was only paralysis but its ok bc she killed her fr next time. wdym this one girl dated her moms ex and then married her friend's ex like guys.. guys i have Questions..

IDK IF U READ JJK MANGA BUT U SHOULD READ JJK MANGA

i cant wait for ur birthday #weirdkidthings Im So Funny Guys Im So Funny

im going to sleep so hard tonight grrgrgrhrgrg i had ice cream on the way home from school YUM and then math kid era p2 i finished this one thinf before everyone else even started and the teacher asked if i did it qt home cuz wtf. ew now i remember her using her nail to create indentations in the paper and i feel nauseous my skin is crawling

WHATEVER eRmmrmrm im sitting on the stairs rn hashtag procrastination ahahahahah ive been writing this and zoninf out for the past 7 minutes yyyyyippeeee

im so tired guys let me sleeeep

my parenrs were supposed to find baby gender today but the little shit kept its legs shut and didnt let them see (just like me frl)

correction im lying on the stairs rn ..

honestly me x goshiki would be Bomb why is he so unpopular all his fics are mid or questionable so far,,,, anyways. konoha is so beautiful i would want him excpet i have like no grip on his character so #tweaks. i hate andrew tate so fkn much. i cant wait till i turn 16 idk i feel like life will be significantly cooler then. anyways bb i take my leave gotta go eat lunch

i hope youve eaten by the time ur reading this!!! stay hydrated and safe and dm me to be silly together whenever >:]]]]] i hope u have a WONDERFUL day sav!! ily <3

look at my man hes so gorgeous btw

alina... bf... :D alright then! umumumummm honestly there were many characters that i wanted to do a selfship with but i didnt want to be self shipping with the same character that someone im following consistently self ships with LMAO cause i feel like it gets weird for me at that point cause all the hcs in my head get mixed up? ANYWAY i just think of selfships with any character im hyperfixating on at that very moment... in fact my selfship very well may change!!!

anyway since im replying after you decided on yuulina... NOYA AGHHH U GUYS WILL BE SO CUTE TOGETHER!!! IM UR NO 1 SUPPORTER THIS IS YUULINA SUPPORT CENTRAL‼️‼️‼️

savyaku sounds so funny i need to thank of something that sounds better stop rn 💔 BUT I LOVE HIM SO SO SO SO SO MUCH IM SUPER EXCITED TO DO SOME SELFSHIP STUFF :))

u would so pull goshiki irl 🙂‍↕️

HELP thanks for the english lesson lina 😭 those terms always make me shudder because they were drilled into my head in my college comp class it was horrifying. and NO not mattsun i do NOT approve of that at this point in time!!!! AND IM OKAY!! tired as hell and i have 3 projects to work on <3 (i stacked my classes this year, im not proud.) IT IS NOW 3 PM AS I ANSWER THIS ASK SO SORRY IT TOOK ME LIKE 12 HOURS WOAH

honestly u were probably tired because you didn't eat but i digress... AND SOFT WHITE RICE HAS MY HEART IT MAY BE AN ASIAN THING?? and awh stawp😋 ARE WE TALKING ABOUT THE ENGLISH TEACHER THAT YOU CORRECTED IN CLASS? THE ONE THAT CANT SPEAK AS WELL AS YOU?? insanity 😨 i may end up on the news as well. AND YOURE PROBABLY HUNGRY AND DEHYDRATED GO EAT AND DRINK WATER IF YOU HAVENT ALREADY WHAT??? PLEASE TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF!!

WHAT AN OWL ON THE ROOF THATS SUPER COOL!! bro i love owls :( and ugh i get what u mean i feel like sometimes the time just slips away... but its okay! you'll have time at some later date <3 make sure you rest enough!!

guys what my jaw just dropped?? THOSE WERE THE MOST RANDOM PLOT POINTS YOU COULDVE LEFT ME WITH. NOW IM JUST CONFUSED? KINDA WANNA READ IT NOW (my readlist has 100+ books on it)...

AND IVE READ SOME OF IT BUT IM NOT UP TO DATE RN I HAVENT HAD MUCH TIME TO CATCH UP RECENTLY

im excited for your bday too!! im trying to math away the time differences in my head so like i would dm at 12 pm the day before your bday so i would catch u at midnight i THINK.

i hope u are having an AMAZING sleep rn alina!!! and u are so smart <3 barf ur teacher needs to stop doing that thats lowk unsanitary? in my book

HELP ME NOT THE JS LIKE ME FR 😭😭 hopefully u guys are able to figure out the gender soon!! im so excited for you guys <33

goshiki is under appreciated as a character honestly and i think its cause of his fuckass haircut 😭 NO OFFENSE TO YOU WHATSOEVER IM SORRY!! HES CUTE BUT THE HAIR IS NOT FOR ME. when i saw him shirabu AND tendou i was like "what the HELL is wrong with shiratorizawa they are all fucked" no they werent they had semi and ushijima BUT THAT WAS FIRST IMPRESSION ANYWAY also konoha UGRHSHSBNDMSJABD hes so!!! so!!! yeah!!! i love him sm... also how did we get on the topic of andrew tate hes such a weird guy i dont like him 💀 AND SO REAL im excited to be 16 <3

AND I HAVE!! make sure u eat something nutritious before school! and drink some water!! i hope your day is lovely <3 ily!!

[deathmetalunicorn1]

Hi! Ive been interested in your RoR work for the last month and since ur asks are ready im literally wondering how RoR gods would take care of child!reader

Like: How they found them, when their family / friends found out I wonder 😳

You can just do their daily lives if this is too much.

I really want thor to be in this rn i wonder how he takes care of a child (If u want too but thats really prefered)

-A & T.

-Eve straightened your shirt for the day, “Are you ready for parent’s day, Y/N?” you beamed up at her, nodding, “I am Mama Eve!”

-Since your family was so large, you called everyone by their name, like papa, big brother, big sister, mama, and grampy, but that one was for Zeus only.

-Your kindergarten class was having parent’s day again, having two a month, so parents could see how their child interacted with others.

-Since you had so many parental figures, you couldn’t bring them all, not after the first time when you did when Loki and Raiden almost got into a fight with another father after he insulted you, calling you an orphan leech, since your family was so wealthy, mainly due to half of them being gods and the other half being famous people of history!

-Now they took turns, drawing lots ahead of time, only two going at a time, not that you minded, mainly because your friends, your other classmates, didn’t care that you had such a big family, as many realized it meant lots of love for you and even more birthday cake!

-For today, the winner was Thor, and you’ve been looking forward to it ever since he won.

-You ran downstairs and squealed as Nikola swept you up into his arms, “There’s my favorite Y/N!” you giggled, hugging him as he carried you over to your spot at the table, sitting you down between Poseidon and Jack, both men greeting you warmly as you stood on your chair, pecking them both on the cheek.

-Once you were sitting down, Rangriz brought you your breakfast, toast with a fried egg on top and cherry tomatoes and apple juice, and you chowed down.

-Brushing your teeth was next before grabbing your bag and saying goodbye to everyone, joining Thor at the door.

-You held onto his hand, making him hunch over for a while as you chatted happily, “And after lunch we get free time!” he smiled warmly down at you, you being one of the only ones he shows his real emotions to, agreeing.

-Thor was well received by the kids, who all remember him and greeted him warmly, making him smile as he greeted a few of them in return.

-The children showed their parents the newest art project, with you not being an exception, showing Thor your crayon drawings of your family, just the heads, and he chuckled softly, patting your head, “Loki will want to put in on the fridge.” Your bright eyes nearly blinded him from his praise.

-Once lunch was eaten, you and Thor both having a packed lunch from Eve and Parvati, sitting together under the big tree, having a mini picnic with the other parents and children.

-Snorts of laughter were heard from your family when Thor walked in, your backpack slung over his shoulder and you passed out in his arms, your clothes covered in grass stains and dirt, you had a lot of fun after lunch.

-Parvati changed you into some clean clothes before letting you sleep for a bit.

-When you got back up and found yourself at home you ran downstairs to greet everyone, giving each of them a hug, Thor included.

-Ares then spoke over to Loki and Kojiro, “Do you guys want to go out and get a T-R-E-A-T?”

-You turned, your eyes narrowing up at him slightly, you weren’t good at spelling yet, something they all knew and you were quick to catch the grins on the faces of the other two men, as they knew you would be excited, but didn’t want you getting wired beforehand.

-Adam rolled his eyes lightly, finding it amusing, “Don’t tease Y/N.” Loki just snickered as Kojiro came over and picked you up, smiling as you hugged him around his neck.

-After getting ice cream, something you were super excited for, you rode on Ares’ shoulders on the way back, telling them about the fun stuff you got to do at Parent’s Day with Thor.

-Kojiro was grinning up at you, as he went last time with Hades, and Ares and Loki were both hoping to be the next ones chosen to go.

-You helped Parvati make dinner, using cookie cutters to cut carrot slices, grinning at her and Durga, who was making sure you weren’t going to fall off the stool.

-Bath time was a gamble, there were days you didn’t want to take a bath, other times you didn’t want to get out, and rarely, you behaved, for the most part.

-Shiva was your bath wrangler and you had fun as he gave you rubber duckies to play with, to keep you distracted, he was one the few who could give you a bath without getting soaked, only because he had experience with Ganesha.

-After your bath and brushing your teeth you ran to Odin with your story book, wanting him to read to you tonight and he chuckled softly, pulling you up onto his lap and read you the next chapter in your story book.

-When Adam came to collect you, you were already dozing, your head bobbing lightly and he tucked you in, letting you hold his hand as you asked him questions, “What’s a hedgehog?” he was always amused with your late night questions, “A little animal covered in little spikes that eats bugs.”

-He tried not to laugh at your disgusted face, as you hated bugs, answering your other questions as you slowly nodded off more and more until you were out.

-Adam pecked your forehead and pulled your blankets up, before turning your light off and left the door cracked, just a bit, “Goodnight, Y/N.”

[atomiclime]

Istg BOYS DONT CARE ABOUT FOOD

Ok am i the only person who has noticed boys just dont fucking eat... like they do and when they do they eat heaps but theyre just so impartial about the whole thing...

Like when i was in recovery and i would have lunch and ask if they wanted to get something they would just always be like "oh i guess" like they just dont think about food

I will give some convos ive had that make me feel like a fatass after talking to my male friends (i want to make it clear this was when i was in recovery ok so in alot of these i am eating)

#1 -

Me: hey i noticed you haven't had lunch today

Guy: *just shrugs* idk i guess im not hungry right now

like it doesnt even really occur to me my brain was just like oh its lunch time so i guess i eat. am i that fat that i always have to be eating

#2

Guy: dont you have like an eating disorder or something (that comment fucking killed me but i was trying to be normal)

Me: yea

Guy: tbh i feel like if i cared about being thin i would probably have an eating disorder like food is just so.. idk its just there like idk why its such a big part of peoples lives. Idk i feel like people just wanna have disorders cause is it even a disorder its literally just hey i should lose weight like is it really that deep

Me: ... i guess not

like it doesnt even occur to him that food is important enough to even have a disorder over,. Like im over here dying because im not eating and hes just like 'eh i havent eatne in days... what a shame'

liks shoot me

#3

Eating dinner with some friends

Me: hey you havent had dinner yet and everyone else has eaten

Him: idk im not really hungry tbh

Me: Yea but like all youve had all day is water you didnt even have lunch

Him: idk im just not really hungry today i guess

KILL MEEEEEEE

[idontwanttostop]

Okay so iv been kind of busy and wasn’t able to post the last couple of days. Today was an okay day I should have worked out more but it fine ig

Breakfast: Egg whites, 1 orange, and coffee + creamer

Lunch: salad w/ chicken

Dinner: 1 orange

Cals Eaten: 530

Cals Burnt: 330

Total: 200

I finished everything except the coffee, I only took like two sips then didn’t want it anymore so I problem only had like closer to 100cals

[gallivich]

17 jan

2025 #4

Hiiiiiii allll im fucking struggling to keep my eyes open rn like jesus cheist and its only like 8pm im tweaka leaka leeking OK HI TUMBLR. ABOUT MY STUPID BAKA DAY. Jokessss swear i wanna hang out with my friends sobad but im too scsred to ask !!!! But actually tbh no i dontncoz im busy over the wekeend then we have school then we have onesingle day off vut i kinda wanna sleep the whole day. Soolike im lying maybe? I do wanna sneak outta school at lunch to go to shop. I might monday with friends. Cheeky im jsut fuckingbegging for a detention aint i!!!!

Oh my god i havr the worst stomach sche EVER ive jsut eaten enough food to feed afamily of fucking four no joke man. I FEEL SO FUCKING FAT RN im so blosted somehow and i NEVER get bloated. Jesus. Anyway. I wish i was like aninfluencer but chill. Like caitibugzz. I wish i was caitibugzz on the low (not appreciating her mention in dream crashout atm) like i need community so bad i CRAVEEEEE maybe i need to join a new fandom. But like notjing hits like being in a fandom like for a celeb IT FEELS SO PERSONAL AND IT FEELSNLJKE EVERYONES FRIENDS YAKNOW nad i fucking love it (speaking ofim gonna now watch compliagion of duncanyounot fandom vids lol PEAK CHRISTTT MY STOMACH) . I wanna make tier liets so bad rn but my eyelids are ljek fucking weights man Omg i was jsut reminded of twosoulsonebod ijbol ok GOD WHY CSNT I FORM COHERENT THOUGHTS RN ok im locking in.

Fun fact when im in maths and i actually locked in i draw a little lock in the corner to indicate i tried ghaf day. NO ONE GAF. Sorry.

Tmrw im going to city snd i should be excited BUT I RLLY DONT WANNA GO LIKE I KNOW ILL HAGE FUN BUT I WANNA SLEEP FOREVER sleep thr weekend away pls i miss my dchool friends. Gofd im so picky tjo i hate evrryone at my schl everyones so annoying apart from like a certain very few yaknow like i wish i could jsut like everyone but YKNOW IM NICE TO EVERYONE i just dont like them. Best feeling when opps get sent to head of yesr like ooohhhh ur in trouuublleeee :P

1 yr anniversary to one of my tiktok accounts and i frel bad coz i abandoned it sonce liek september schl got me so fucked up BUT TBF ITS MY FJRST TIME GOING EVER JESUS CHRIST I NEED TO GO TO BED SO BAD IM FUCKING FALLING ASLEEP RN

Goodnight tumblr today boring as shit jopefully ill have more to say tmr coz ill actually be doing stuffz bye !!!!! Song and gif very personal this lovely friday GOODNIGHT

a dream with a baseball player - faye webster

[missvelvetsstuff]

Guarded Heart

Bucky Barnes x Reader

MobAu

Chapter 22

Notes: sorry this took so long. I've been home for a week but everyone keeps interrupting my creative process. Anyhow here it is and we're almost at the end, last chapter is already half written so hopefully won't take too long.

Warnings: lite angst, swearing, a hint of dirty talk. I think that's it.

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"She's awake and asking for you"

Bucky felt his stomach drop at the thought of talking to Y/N right now. After the anger that washed over him as he found his room empty when she ran away to confront Zemo, then seeing her weak and barely coherent before she collapsed when Zemo was shot, Bucky wasn't sure he could keep himself from yelling or crying, either seemed likely but he-

He looked up as Y/N's mother interrupted his internal dialog, looked at him sternly. "Don't you go upsetting her, James. Stress will only extend her recovery time."

Bucky looked at the floor like a kid being chastised by their mother "Yes ma'am. I'll be good."

"You'd better. If you hurt her you'll see what a mobsters wife can do."

Bucky looked over at his own mother who was looking at him, arms crossed over her chest, nodding.

He headed up the stairs, anxiety racing through him.

When he arrived at his room he could hear singing, weak and off key but it was a song he recognized.

"Countryyyyy roooooads, taaake me hooooome, to the plaaaaace I belooohoong. West-"

She looked up at him, standing in the doorway with a goofy look on his face, and stopped singing.

Reaching her hand out for him she smiled, looking every bit as drugged up as she was "Jamie! Come sit with me."

How could he refuse an invitation like that. He sat on his bed, facing her and gently took her hand trying not to mess with her IV. "How are you feeling, doll?"

Her smile grew and she squeezed his hand "Awesome. Best I've been since the hospital."

Bucky smirked "Helen must have given you the good drugs."

Her eyes grew wide "Oh no, no, Jamie. I don't do drugs." She whispered loudly "Am I gonna get in trouble?"

He chuckled "Don't worry sweetheart, I'll keep your secret."

She looked at him shyly "Could you just hold me for a little bit?"

Bucky smiled "Of course, sweetheart." And pulled her into him.

"I'm gonna rest right now but we still need to talk" she slurred her words a bit as she curled into him and fell asleep. He relaxed and enjoyed her warmth next to him before dozing off himself.

Within a few days she no longer needed strong pain meds and was recovering well.

Bucky brought her some lunch "How are you feeling today? You look much better." He smiled warmly at her.

She shrugged "Improving, I guess. Getting bored of the same view. A little stir crazy."

They sat quietly for a moment before he spoke "You know, Y/N, you scared the Hell outta me. I wish you wouldn't rush into dangerous situations without thinking things thru."

She bristled "I wish you would listen to me and treat me as an equal. It wouldn't have been so dangerous if you hadn't blown me off."

Bucky felt his temper rising and tried to push it back down "You were in no condition to deal with Zemo. You had barely slept or eaten since your father died and you haven't taken proper care of your wounds since you lost your arm. What kind of fiance would I be if I just let you rush into a very dangerous situation like you did?"

She scoffed "Let me? If you let me? What are you my master? It's not your place to let me do anything, we're supposed to be partners and this won't work if you can't accept that. Besides, it wouldn't have been so dangerous if you had listened to me and backed me in the first place." She concentrated on her breathing to try and calm down.

Bucky sighed "Your father made me swear to protect you. I was trying to do the right thing, finally."

She shook her head "Is this some sort of sporadic protection based on your moods?"

Bucky shook his head "No, dammit Y/N I-" he took a deep breath and let it out slowly "I'm sorry. I don't know how to convince you of my sincerity. I'm trying to do better and I was worried about you. Which is why you will be under my personal care until Helen clears you."

She sat back and tried to relax again for a moment before her eyes filled with tears

"I'm sorry, Jamie. I know you didn't want me to go but I had to deal with Zemo myself. He's stalked me ever since I left him and I needed to see him go down." She looked around nervously

"He is gone, right? I don't really remember much after sneaking out."

Bucky considered telling her he was dead but there had been enough deceit since they agreed to marry so he stuck with the truth

"Zemo isn't dead but he was injured. Loki has him. He wants to make sure there aren't any other plots in the works. Zemo won't be getting anywhere near you again."

She nodded and visibly relaxed, then giggled "Good. Loki will take care of him." She squeezed his hand "Are we going to be ok? You sure you still want to marry me?" She paused "I mean knowing that I expect an equal partner?"

Bucky nodded and smiled softly at her "We're alright. I'd rather have a strong partner than some meek little wife. You scared the Hell outta me and I won't pretend I wasn't pissed but it's done now." He looked at her earnestly "Just please don't go off half cocked and throw yourself into trouble again."

She grinned at him "I can't promise I'll try but I'll try to try."

Bucky chuckled "Did you just quote Bart Simpson at me?"

She shrugged and smirked at him.

He ran a hand thru his hair "This is non negotiable. You're going to stay here and heal. Stop fighting me when I want to take care of you."

She huffed "Fine" leaned back and winced "Ugh, my whole body aches." then looked around "When can I get out of here?"

Bucky shook his head "Not any time soon. You're on bed rest until Helen says otherwise. I'll chain you to the bed this time if I have to, so be good."

She stuck her tongue out "I'm so much more fun when I'm bad."

He laughed again "I have no doubt, doll but being bad will have to wait until you are better."

"Do you think we should delay the wedding?" She looked around his room and smirked at him "I don't think we can fit everyone in here."

He shook his head at her, smiling "We'd better wait. I'm not marrying you until we can consummate the marriage." And winked at her.

She felt her face heat up and looked at her own hands, trying to ignore the heat in her core.

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Over the next 3 months Y/N followed Helen Cho's instructions to the letter. Including physical therapy to adjust to life with only one arm.

She was able to spend some time with her horses and did some riding with her mother leading her around the arena on Daisy. She had some challenges getting her balance but they took their time, a couple of days a week, and slowly she regained her seat.

Y/N and Bucky went on a number of dates, getting to know each other. Mostly staying in at her parents house which had a gourmet kitchen, formal dining room, screening room, music room, library, pool and tennis court. Not to mention the backyard with its plush lawn, pond/waterfall and gazebo decorated with fairy lights.

She introduced him to her horses and promised to teach him how to ride after the wedding.

They both felt the same pull to the other but were hesitant after everything that they had been through.

After a number of their dates they were both feeling more relaxed together, sitting together on the swing next to the pond when Bucky turned to face Y/N and reached for her hand "Y/N, doll. I'm so glad that you gave me another chance. I've really enjoyed getting to know you and feel like I'm falling deeper in love with you every day." He looked in her eyes hopefully "Can I kiss you?"

Y/N felt her whole body heat up and nodded "Yes, please. I thought you'd never-"

Bucky leaned forward silencing her with his lips firmly on hers, his right hand gently cupping her cheek, his left hand around her back pulling her closer to him. She tried to hold back a moan but it came out and he used the opportunity to slip his tongue into her mouth. She opened up for him and felt his moan when their tongues met, fighting for dominance until she softened up for him. He pulled her into his lap where she could feel the beginning of his arousal and wiggled against him which caused Bucky to groan deep in his chest and pull away, hands gripping her hips to hold her still.

"Y/N honey you can't do that. Don't tease, I might burst. I want you so bad, doll." He leaned his forehead against hers, trying to catch his breath.

She smiled and tried to move again then whispered in his ear "You have me, Jamie."

His hands tightened on her hips "I thought we agreed to wait until the wedding. We can't-"

She kissed him again, more passionately, running her hand through his hair then pulling, hard, exposing his neck to her. She gave him a look and nipped at his neck before pulling back.

"We did and we will. I just don't want you to forget what you are waiting for. In case your mind wanders or someone else catches your eye. Can't have you straying."

Bucky looked at her in shock before kissing her again "Are you kidding? How could I forget?" His voice lowered "I still remember how sweet your pussy tastes, how tightly she gripped my fingers. I wouldn't dare risk losing you again and for so much more than your sweet, tight-"

She pushed him away after a chill ran through her "Ok I get it."

"Doll, no one could ever compare to you and you always keep me on my toes. I'm all yours until you get sick of me."

She smirked at him "I guess you need to learn how to keep me on my toes then, Jamie."

Not long after that nite, Helen and the physical therapist gave the ok to start working on her prosthetic. This involved time in Tony's lab which would have been more interesting if he didn't insist that she touch nothing.

After a few meetings Tony almost had it ready and Y/N was getting bored sitting in his lab. "Tones! What are you doing? I didn't know this was going to take all day."

Tony rolled his eyes "Well, it's not like a new pair of shoes, you know. A prosthetic has to be fitted and attached properly, especially one like this."

He walked over to her with her new arm. It was a soft ashy grey with threads of gold like Bucky's.

"It's physically almost identical to your arm. Obviously the color doesn't match but I thought the softer color would be nice. It was tough getting the fingers as slender as yours but I think we did a decent job." He fussed with the piece on her shoulder for a minute before attaching the prosthetic.

She smiled "It's beautiful." She paused, surprised "I can feel you touching it, not just the pressure but the warmth of your hand." Her smile grew as did her eyes, which were leaking a bit "Tony, how did you do that?"

Tony smirked at her "I'm a genius, that's how." Then he mumbled "And Princess Shuri of Wakanda helped."

"I'll have to send her a thank you card, or a diamond necklace or something." She was looking her new arm over when something glinted in the light

"What's this?" She muttered as she stared, then looked up at Tony questioningly.

Tony grinned "Barnes brought it over a few weeks ago. I think the diamond goes well with the vibranium, don't you?" He looked scared when she didn't respond right away "Shit. You did want it, right? I mean you are still marrying him right?"

"I love it, Tony. All of it." Y/N hugged him until he was rasping for her to stop. She pulled away, looked down at her new arm "Yeah, so I guess I need to learn my strength. Sorry Tones"

They spent the afternoon going over the arms features, attaching and detaching, learning all the details.

Tony sighed "You still need to have physical therapy to teach your brain how to regulate your touch, it'll take time but you'll get there."

She looked at him seriously "Will three months be good?"

He nodded "As long as you keep up with the physical therapist and work on it, that should be enough time but this will be a lifelong deal since there will be updates.

Why? What's in three months?"

"We haven't sent the invites out yet but the wedding is in three months. I need to ask a favor."

Tony looked shocked "Another favor? Do you know what went into creating this arm? How much time I-"

She giggled "Of course I know but this is very important and I don't think anyone else can help me."

Tony sighed "Alright, lay it on me."

Y/N looked at him earnestly and whispered "Would you give me away?" Her voice cracking on the words.

His eyes grew wide "Me? Are you sure? I'm just-."

"Just my godfather and one of the few people I know I can trust and depend on. Please Tony?"

He hugged her "Of course, sweetheart. You know I'm here for you, always."

After her talk with Tony, Y/N went to his penthouse to find Pepper and Morgan, they had plans for lunch and dress shopping.

Since she knew it would take time for Y/N to adjust to her new arm Pepper ordered in and had one of her favorite designers bring in their latest wedding fashion.

When they couldn't find anything Y/N liked they all sat down and tossed ideas around until the designer produced an old sketch of a dress that Y/N loved. They made a few changes until it was perfect, then took her measurements and left with an appointment for a fitting in 3 weeks.

Y/N sat back on the sofa and looked at Pepper "I guess we're off." She forced a small smile "I'm really doing this."

Pepper took her hands "Hey, if you need to take more time or just cancel the whole thing-"

Y/N shook her head "No. No, I'm alright. The last year has just been a lot." She smiled a real smile and told herself and Pepper "It's gonna be good. I'll be good."

@bigphattygyal @cjand10 @lokiandbuckysdoll

Chapter 23

@kimomoraba @avery199 @mishkatelwarriorgoddess @esposadomd

@sebsgirl71479 @calwitch @hhiggs

[amnesiahxze]

its 3pm and ive only eaten 116c today and i had breakfast and lunch : ) i feel like for two meals this is like really low and i feelso cute and good in my body : 0

[ellieeatsnot]

BIG RANT(?)/PERSONAL UPDATE

august 18th; i was at my lw (125lb) and suddenly my life suddenly flipped. out of control i binged about 4k cals before my horse training session. then, proceeded to keep eating till 5k cals. the following week was a spiral of binging and starving. i walked for 2 and a half hours just to binge on a whole 10 pack of sugar cookies the following week.

i spent 2 weeks of my life binging uncontrollably. until i made it a goal to learn how to p// and i continued to b//p for 2 and a half months, eating up to 7k cals and p//ing 3-4 times a day. i would wake up and see my bloated stomach. my face unrecognizable due to the throat and eye swelling. i managed to maintain 130lbs for a month but after that mia fully took over. i felt miserable and constrained in my ed and even was tempted to get help (i didn’t).

i spent my birthday in las Vegas, anxious and exhausted as i traversed the city in stomach pains due to the acidity in my stomach. uncomfortable in my body due to my weight gain. every meal i would have to rush to the bathroom just because i simply couldn’t keep it down anymore. i spent the majority of my time binging rather than being present.

i got back from my birthday trip, struggled to feel content with myself still as i tempted to regain control but just to fall into the binging cycle again. i went to parties and got high. and honestly i don’t really remember those nights.

around the first week of november i had another major b//p session. i bought $30 worth of food, just to spend my evening barley able to do my piles of college work because i would have rather eaten and purged my heart out.

however, i am happy to say that was the last time i p//. i spent november absolutely miserable but trying desperately to hold on and keep going. i relapsed in $h and was taking 400-600mg of Diphenhydramine (benadryl) every night. i had zero motivation to do the thing i love most, ride my horse, and zero intentions of getting better. i just wanted to disappear or something tragic to happen so i didn’t have to keep up the life i was currently living.

that’s the first time ive ever had depression kick me in my ass that hard. i cannot imagine how intense it is for people who have no choice but to experience that on a daily basis.

while being unable to do much else than get my college work done, i ate and ate. i made a promise to myself that i wouldn’t p// and so far ive stuck to that. because i started eating normally, it got easier and easier to not crave all the things that have now become major fear foods for me. pizza, ice cream, candies, cookies, rice, etc.

i would say that the last two weeks have been really good. my college quarter is over till the holidays end. i started packing lunches so i could know the calories i was eating and know that the food would actually fill me up.

i’ve only had one hiccup with my mental health when it felt like i had made friends with another person who just used me. but since then ive talked to her heavily about the subject and i feel so much more secure in our friendship. i honestly couldn’t ask for a better friend.

this week has been really really good. yesterday i was able to talk to my best friend about the personal feelings i was having about our friendship. then after that i had an amazing ride on my horse in a new place and i literally couldn’t be any happier with his progress. today i hung out and worked on a project with another friend and i feel super productive. happy with how it’s turning out.

i feel appreciated and supported for the first time in forever. it’s such a relieving feeling. like i can finally relax and continue moving forward.

another thing i should mention; now that my eating is manageable, ive started to slowly lower my intake again. i probably won’t go as hard as i did this summer since that caused my major b//p cycle. but i’m going to work on getting my maintenance down to 130lbs again. yesterday for lunch i had an apple and almonds. today just an apple. my dinners have been on the larger side. but slowly i know that the craving for those will dwindle too. im just not going to force my body to be hungry. if i’m hungry i will eat. i think i want to prioritize no bloat and cleansing my body of sugar.

[crushingcasanova]

hi there honey !! im sorry if im tired .. its because i am. my day started at 7 am , and i sang till .. basically 5:40 pm!! we got a few breaks but … not many. on top of that , I couldn’t microwave my lunch so the only things ive eaten today are an apple and a lil bag of chips .. </3 but it’s nice to talk !! <33

those are alll good musicals .. i especially love phantom of the opera. i am the hugest fan! i really hope one day ill have a phantom to my christine .. also , you’re been in heathers?! that’s amazing!! im sure you’d make an amazing heather chandler (*^▽^*) or anyone .. in any show .. ever :3 id love to hear you sing , dear!!

i am super duper normal i swear … :,) im so sorry this is short , ml. it’s been a long day. ill do better tomorrow!

-🎭

No worries, dear! I only just got home, so it's okay mwehehe. I hope your voice is okay :0 seems like we both had quite a long day! Make sure to eat soon please, something nice and warm and filling :) I'm so phantom coded I can't lie ... I love him so much, I used to write a lot of analysis on him! I think there are some posted on this blog somewhere, but most were comparisons, so they might be stuff I only sent to friends... I also was in heathers, yeah! I was actually JD for the most part :D Heather Chandler is cool too, though, so she'd be so fun to play. I will say, I'm only like a mezzo soprano though, and I have a big preference for lower songs like JD, so she'd be challenging. Don't worry about it being short! Any message from you is fun, no matter the length :) I hope you are having a lovely night, and I'm sorry this took a while for me to get to!