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On Board
Pairing: Daryl Dixon x Reader
Warnings: mostly fluff!!!
This was written on my phone donât judge me đ¤Ł
It was a hot summer day in Virginia. The group had decided to scavenge today for supplies for Alexandria. Life was better since you all had made it to Alexandria. There had been some hard times, but you all persevered and made it through.
Rick was now in charge after Deanna got bitten, succumbing to her injuries when the walkers attacked your safe haven. It took awhile to clean up the mess that was made but it was your allâs home. Life was finally feeling a little normal.
Some of your allâs group lived together. Rick, Michonne, Carl, Judith, Daryl, and you. In the other house was Abraham, Rosita, Eugene, Tara, and Sasha. Carol didnât sleep much these days, her attitude changing from meek and quiet to strong and outspoken. Of course the lovebirds Maggie and Glenn stayed together.
Daryl, Rick, and Abraham were loading a vehicle, getting ready to go on a run. Michonne was joining them. You and Rosita would take turns going. You werenât weak, but Rick had handed you Judith in the mean time to get your mind off things, trying to bring a little joy to your day.
Judith loved you. You watched her in your free time when there wasnât scavenging or other work to be done. Rick insisted that you needed to watch her because she was very fond of you. It was a good feeling that your fearless leader trusted you with one of his most prized possessions, one of the people he was closest to.
âHi Judith.â, you baby talked her, causing her to smile. âWhatcha doinâ sweet girl?â
You kissed the top of her head, holding her close. She rested her head on you, pacifier in her mouth. Michonne smiled at the sight, coming up beside you before she brushed her hand through Judithâs soft hair.
âThink you could get used to that?â
âThis?â
Michonne nodded.
âMaybe.â
Daryl eyed you as he was loading up a vehicle. Truth be told, watching you with Judith was one of his many weaknesses. Hardly anything got to Daryl Dixon but this was one of those things. It almost made him want to have a child of his own with you. But he worried he wouldnât be a good dad. His dad was shitty growing up. And his mom wasnât much better. Merle and Daryl had a very hard upbringing.
âWe just need to convince Daryl to get on board.â, Michonne smiled at Judith as you continued to hold her, shielding her from the sun.
âI donât even know if Iâm on board.â, you joked. âEven though Judith here does make it pretty convincing.â
Judith giggled lightly as you tickled her. It was beautiful to have a child around. She brought light back into your allâs lives. Even on the darkest days.
âLook Judith, itâs Uncle Daryl.â, you smirked at him as he came over to the both of you.
âAw, whatâs my pretty girl up tâ?â, Daryl eyed her. âWant Uncle Daryl to hold ya?â
Judith reached out her small arms causing you to scoff playfully. âReally Daryl?â
âSorry sweetheart. Sheâs made her choice.â
Daryl smirked. You rolled your eyes as Daryl took her out of your arms. Michonne watched for your reaction as Daryl interacted with Judith, causing her to smile and laugh. You couldnât help but do the same, watching the man you love.
Daryl was hard and cold at first, but as you got to know him, that changed. He opened up to you and showed you the soft side of him you never knew was there under his hard exterior. Things changed, you lost people, and you all became closer.
So close that you all had began a relationship. This world was cold but he made it better. He was the first thing you woke up to and the last thing you kissed goodnight. As long as he was with you, the world would be tolerable. Things would be okay.
Michonne and Rick had began a romantic relationship, much to everyoneâs surprise. Almost as surprising as when the group found out about you and Daryl. You watched Daryl bounce Judith, he was practically a natural. Rick and Michonne kissed, signaling their departure was near.
âReady Daryl?â, Rick asked as Michonne climbed into the vehicle.
Daryl looked at Rick, this question bringing him out of his daze. âYeah.â
Daryl came over to you, leaning over to kiss you with Judith still in his arms. The kiss was slow. You knew why Daryl did this but you didnât want to admit it to yourself. He was afraid he wouldnât come home. This could very well be your last kiss.
âI love ya, Y/N.â
âI love you, Daryl. Be safe, please.â
Daryl nodded. âDâ my best sweetheart.â
âWrap it up Romeo.â, Abraham joked, laughing as Daryl glared back at him.
Daryl flipped him off, causing him to laugh even louder.
âDaryl,â, you scolded him softly. âNot in front of Judith.â
Daryl sighed, apologizing to Judith before kissing her on the head. She just smiled up at him.
âAlright pretty girl, time tâ go back to Aunt Y/N.â, Daryl moved closer, handing her off to you.
You all shared one more kiss and he told you heâd be home soon. Rick came over and kissed Judith goodbye, telling her the same thing. You helped her wave goodbye to her daddy and the rest of the group as Daryl took one last look at you before getting in the car. You watched the car pull out, stopping at the gates before someone unlocked it, a trail of dust following them.
Looking at Judith, you shifted your focus to her. âJust me and you Judith. Letâs go inside and take a nap.â
Carl stayed back to help keep Alexandria safe. He was in the house, grabbing some water. He greeted you with a hug and you told him you were going to try and put Judith down for a nap. You told him youâd make dinner in a few hours.
Being a typical teenage boy, he acknowledged you silently and left the house with his gun.
Hours passed and dusk began to set in as you tried to focus on anything other than Daryl and the group. A knock came to the door, throwing you off. Judith was playing in the floor with her toys. You quickly ran to open the door, finding Carol.
âNeed some help with dinner?â
âThatâd actually be great.â
Carol came in and began helping you make a casserole. She had became quite the cook since being at Alexandria. Once it was finished, you placed Judith in her high chair and called Carl to come eat. He had taken a huge interest in Enid, a teenage girl at Alexandria. Maybe love was in the air.
Once dinner was over, Carol helped you clean up. It was easy to get Judith to sleep after her bottle. She was out like a light.
âWell, I guess Iâm going to be on my way. Need anything else Y/N?â
âIâm good Carol. Thank you.â
She waved it off, saying it was no problem. You sat in peaceful silence, feeling even better now that Carl was home. This was in stark contrast to being out on the road for so long. Tiredness was sitting in and before you had known it, you were fast asleep with Judith in your arms on the couch.
How many hours had passed? You werenât sure.
âSweetheart.â
You jumped easily, startling yourself out of your sleep and quickly opening your eyes to see Daryl standing above you.
âSâ alright, sweetheart. Just me.â
Judith barely stirred as you immediately relaxed your muscles.
âYou scared me.â
âI know. âM sorry sweetheart.â
Daryl took in the sight of you sleepy and holding a sleeping Judith before he sat down beside you.
âIs everyone okay?â, you asked softly.
Daryl nodded. âAll safeân sound.â
âThank God.â
âWant me to take Judith and put her to bed so we can lay down?â
âIf you have to.â
Daryl chuckled softly. âYouâre exhausted. Whatâd yâall do today?â
Gently, you let Daryl take Judith out of your arms. She barely moved, snuggling into Darylâs chest.
âNapped, played, and made dinner.â
âBusy day.â
âWhat about you?â
âKilled some walkers, found lots of supplies. Just another day in paradise.â Daryl smirked, joking.
You nodded before he leaned in, kissing you.
âCan I ask ya somethinâ?â
Your heart dropped into your stomach.
âSure, whatâs up?â
You were awake now, sitting up.
Daryl sighed, trying to muster up the courage to ask you. He was afraid of the answer but he needed to know. His perspective on life had changed lately. Maybe he could have a good life after all.
âI was wonderinâ â, he began, looking down at Judith before looking back up at you.
Your look begged him to continue.
âWould you ever want one of these?â, he motioned to Judith.
âAâŚ.baby?â, you question and he felt like he had fucked up.
âItâs silly, ainât it? Nevermind.â, Daryl sighed, looking away.
You grabbed his chin softly, bringing his face to look up at you. âThatâs not silly, Daryl.â
Darylâs face relaxed. You ran your thumb over his stubble.
âYes.â
âYes?â, Daryl repeated, making sure he had heard you correctly.
âYes.â, you confirmed.
âSure, yâwanna a little Dixon runninâ around?â
âIâd love nothing more.â, you whispered lightly before you and Daryl shared a kiss before Rick and Michonne walked in.
âAre we interrupting something?â, Rick laughed.
âMaybe weâre both on board.â
You knew Rick wouldnât have any idea of what that meant but all Michonne could do was smile.
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â§Ë° Bring The Lion Out | Pogues & Rafe
pairing - the pogues x cameron!reader, rafe cameron x sister!reader
warnings - violence, language, attempted assault
summary - a fun day at the beach quickly took a turn when the the baby of the group gets cornered by a couple of kooks who donât have good intentions. luckily she has her friends and siblings who will do anything to protect her.
authors note - i am going to be using the name audrey again for this fic, obviously this fic is not at all related to my last one about rafe. using audrey is just easier for me instead of y/n, mainly bc it is my name lol and i can just type it mindlessly. but obviously feel free to use whatever name you want and imagine the character anyway you want! her nickname is going to be baby, kinda like baby in dirty dancing, so thatâs what most everyone is going to call her! i hope you all enjoy!!
requested - yes!
not proofread!!
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summer in the obx was nothing less than magical. the weather was hot during the day, perfect for getting a nice tan, and cooler when the sun went down making thin blankets or sweatshirts your best friend.
audrey âbaby�� cameron has always loved summer. in the past she would spend her time surfing with her sister sarah or going on jet ski rides with her brother rafe. then sunset boat rides on the druthers with her family always ended the night.
but this year was different. ward was dead and rose took wheezie and disappeared off the face of the earth, not answering any of the many phone calls both sarah and audrey made. luckily she still had sarah and rafe, who miraculously made up and are closer than ever.
audrey has still had a hard time though, being pretty much shielded from all the drama that occurred over the past couple of years, she was blindsided by everything. for the first couple of weeks she had never felt more alone.
realizing that they had to step up for their little sister, rafe and sarah did everything they could to help her grieve the family they once had. the pogues had taken audrey under their wing as well, all of them always having a soft spot for the now 16 year old who had only been 13 when this all started.
sarah was still living with john b, but rafe had bought his own house on figure 8 after selling their family home, none of them wanted to live there anymore with the false memories of the fake family they had. audrey had moved in with him and rafe did his best to make sure it was perfect for her.
the biggest surprise to audrey was that rafe was actually pretty friendly with the pogues now, to the point that they all hang out together pretty frequently. which audrey is thankful for, especially because this meant he was spending less and less time with topper and kelce who she hates.
today was one of those days, the waves were supposed to be perfect and jj had challenged audrey to a surfing competition. so rafe threw the boards into the back of his truck and the brother and sister duo were on their way.
when they arrived at the beach it wasnât very crowded, much to audreyâs delight, there were a few teenagers further down the beach but that was about it. sarah and the pogues pulled up right beside them and everyone got out, setting up their spot for the day.
âhope youâre ready, baby. those waves are calling my name.â jj teased the younger girl as he waxed his board
âno, i hope youâre ready. donât want you to get embarrassed about getting beat by a 16 year old again.â audrey fired back making kie laugh and pat her shoulder
âyou got it, baby.â kie ruffled her hair, ignoring the look of betrayal on her boyfriends face
âhey! youâre supposed to root for me!â jj pouted and kie just shrugged
âbabyâs obviously the favorite.â john b said as he walked up behind audrey and wrapped his arm around her shoulder
âright, just how many years of friendship? right down the drain.â jj mumbled to himself
audrey smiled at his dramatics and walked over to sarah who was sitting in a lounge chair underneath the umbrella. the 16 year old carefully sat down on her lap and sarah chuckled shaking her head fondly and adjusting into a more comfortable position. sarah looped her arms around audreyâs waist and pulled her back against her chest.
âcan i help you?â sarah twirled a strand of her sisters hair
ânope, youâre just comfy and iâm waiting for your husband to finish waxing my board.â audrey closed her eyes at the feeling of sarah playing with her hair like she used to do when they were kids
âalmost done, jeez!â john b called and the girls giggled
âhow are you feeling?â audrey asked and sarah smiled using her other hand to gently rub her slightly swollen belly
âi donât have morning sickness anymore, so i feel great.â sarah sighed heavily luckily at 20 weeks the worst of her morning sickness had passed
âi still think the baby should be named after me, audrey jr is perfect. we can call her aj for short.â audrey wiggled her brows
âhey, we still donât know if itâs a boy or girl.â sarah reminded her and audrey just shook her head
âitâs a girl, i just know it.â audrey smiled
sarah just smiled fondly at her sister and began to quickly braid her long hair so it wouldnât be in her face while she was surfing. at some point kie and pope had flopped down beside them under the umbrella, pulling out the snacks and drinks they had packed for the day.
cleo was standing with jj and john b, criticizing the way they handled the boards. and rafe had gone back to his truck to grab his own chair and the bag that had their towels and some sunscreen in it.
the weather was perfect today, a soft breeze cut through the humidity and the cloudless sky was a bright blue color. audrey found herself wishing that she could spend every day like this, sitting on a beach with her favorite people in good weather.
âboards ready for ya, baby!â john b walked over to them holding audreyâs board on his hip
âthanks, jb! last one inâs a rotten egg.â audrey jumped up taking her board before running towards the water
she laughed hearing jj curse and chase after her, the cool water made audrey tense for a moment before her body became used to the temperature and she paddled out.
kie, pope, and john b joined shortly after audrey and jj while cleo and sarah built a sandcastle and rafe sunbathed. the waves were perfect, just as they had predicted.
the group caught wave after wave, and eventually kie deemed audrey as the winner of her and jjâs little competition.
âno way!â jj complained flopping back onto his board
âsorry j but baby had ya beat.â kie patted his chest
âdonât be a sore loser bro.â pope chided him and jj scoffed
âi am no such thing!â jj held his chest in offense
âbullshit.â pope coughed making the others laugh
jj just narrowed his eyes before lurching forward and knocking pope off his board into the water. audrey laughed wiping the water that splashed onto her face from her eyes, while kie just shook her head at their childish behavior.
jj and pope popped their heads up out of the water and quickly knocked the remaining three off their boards making them join them in the water.
ânot cool.â john b splashed jj, who was responsible for knocking him into the water
feeling her stomach grumble in hunger, audrey pulled herself back up onto her board. intending to swim back to shore and eat one of the peanut butter and jelly sandwiches cleo brought.
âiâm heading in, iâm starved.â audrey announced and the group gave her a thumbs up
âiâll come with ya, need to check on sarah.â john b said ignoring the whipping sounds pope and jj made
the duo paddled towards the shore, john b waving at a couple other surfers who recognized him. audrey huffed out of breath as she made it to the beach, struggling to prop her board on her hip.
âneed some help?â an unrecognizable voice asked from her left
audrey lowered her board and saw 3 boys she didnât recognize standing there, but from the looks of their ray-bans and vineyard vines swim trunks she knew they had to be kooks.
âuh, no thanks. i can manage.â audrey gave them a polite smile
âcome on, that boards like twice your size. we donât bite.â the same one said
âunless you want us to.â another one smirked
âreally. iâm good.â audrey clenched her jaw becoming uncomfortable
as she went to walk away one of the guys grabbed her board, stopping her.
âhey, weâre trying to be nice here and help you out. the least you could do is not be a bitch about it and let us.â the first guy spoke again
âexcuse me?â audrey gaped at him, shocked that anyone would talk to another person like that
âyou heard him, so be a good girl and let us help ya out. maybe you can repay us tonight, we love to share.â the third guy said
feeling alarm bells ring in her head, audrey knew she needed to leave. she dropped her board and turned to walk away, but was stopped when a strong hand latched onto her arm and pulled her back into a chest roughly.
âwhere you going, huh?â the second guy asked
âlet go of me!â audrey exclaimed, jamming her knee into his crotch making him curse and drop his hold on her
âfucking bitch!â the first guy scoffed, pulling her hair making audrey yelp
before anything else could happen, yelling was heard and suddenly audrey was ripped away and rafe tackled both remaining guys to the ground.
audrey fell to the sand and looked up to see rafe and john b ontop of two of them punching them in the face. the third guy tried to get up but was punched in the face by cleo sending him back to the ground.
âaudrey!â sarah exclaimed dropping to the ground beside her sister and pulling her into her arms
the others made hurried onto the beach when they heard the commotion and pope and jj hurried to help john b and rafe while kie immediately ran to sarah and audrey who were now joined by cleo.
âhey, are you ok?â kie asked touching audreyâs knee
âyeah. iâm fine.â audrey winced and touched her head that was tender from where her hair was pulled
âjackasses.â sarah seethed rubbing her hand up and down audreyâs arm
it took both john b and jj to pull rafe off his guy, whoâs nose was all bloody and most likely broken. the other two guys in similar shape.
âyou so much as glance in my sisters direction again and iâll fucking kill you.â rafe threatened and the three guys immediately ran away
the boys turned back to the girls and rafe knelt down in front of audrey, grabbing her hand and giving it a soft squeeze. his jaw clenched when he noticed the hand shaped bruise on her arm.
âare you ok?â rafe asked pinching her chin to get her attention
âyeah. just a little freaked out, but iâm ok.â audrey nodded
âwell those sons of bitches wonât bother you anymore, baby. scared them so bad iâd be surprised if they ever show their faces again.â jj chuckled
âbetter not, or iâll cut em.â cleo flipped open her knife making audrey smile
âno one messes with baby.â pope pushed cleoâs hand down
âdamn straight.â john b nodded squeezing her shoulder
âthanks guys.â audrey smiled, feeling so incredibly lucky to have friends who care as much as hers do
âletâs not let them ruin our beach day, we have hours of daylight left.â kie said moving to stand
âyeah then tonight we can have a bonfire and roast marshmallows.â sarah smiled before looking at her little sister. âhowâs that sound, baby?â
âsounds good to me.â audrey grinned
âgood, now itâs time for lunch and you need to eat. iâll get you some tylenol too for your head.â rafe grabbed audreyâs hands and pulled her to her feet before wrapping his arm around her
audrey chuckled at his care, which was a stark contrast to the way he was a couple of years ago. the group headed back over to their spot and continued with their beach day.
they ended the night back at rafe and audreyâs house, utilizing the large patio with a fire pit and comfortable chairs placed all around it. as audrey held her marshmallow over the fire, she looked around and realized just how lucky she is to have these people in her life.
to have people who care and will always be there for you.
#outer banks#rafe cameron x sister!reader#sarah cameron x sister!reader#the pogues#the pogues x reader#rafe cameron#sarah cameron#john b routledge#jj maybank#kiara carrera#pope heyward#cleo
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My name is Shahad Dahlan, I am 30 years old, and my husband is Hassan Al-Badrsawi, 34 years old. .
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We live together in a story filled with both hope and pain, a story that began many years ago in a small, warm home that represented security to us. Those walls, despite their small size, contained everything: our memories, our hopes, and our dreams. But, in a single moment, we lost everything đĽş
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#sabi's words#today is the very last day of summer and.#i hate it here#I hate how it passed I hate how I felt the entire time I hate what I did with it which was. Nothing#I wasted it totally and entirely#Just lying in bed playing games reading shit#I shouldve been preparing for my ma program but I did jack shit#Well I did study for 4 weeks but. Let me not get into that#I hate myself so much rn gosh I've had so much hatred in me today
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a lil speedpaint for the summer solstice! time: ~1 hr 30 mins :)
#just remembered the solstice is today and hey that means i can make a companion piece..!!#furry#furry art#artists on tumblr#digital art#original#this was VERY fun. what a good time#i had planned to draw more after i posted my last art BUT i got violently sick a few days after posting LMAO#im good now tho đŞ#hope yall are stayin safe in the summer HEAT. see ya next post!!!
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Happy First Day of Summer from The King of Summer! Summer Kamen!!
#osomatsu san#mr osomatsu#karamatsu#summer kamen#my art#spice.ososan#AHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAH I WAS POSESSED TO MAKE THIS#sable#but also#max#i hope u guys in particular like this#but uhhhh yeah i was lying in bed last night thinking abt how today is the first day of summer and how doing a summer kamen piece wood b fun#and here we are#i had an exponetially fun time making this#i struggled with if i wanted to do blue lines or colored ones and i think the blue just looks right#and its very minimal shading if none at allâŚ.. wah#happy summerrrrr#good summer#hahahahhaa#hehehe
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yesterday at 29.5 years old I watched as many videos as I could find from my high school marching band, choir, and theater run crew days and realized I barely have any memories of my junior year of high school (13-14 years ago btw) other than feeling badâ˘ď¸
#i know i was bullied by people i considered friends and theyre all super christians now which is so discordant with who i am lol#it was def a lonely year but i also like forgot the marching band show (it was p cool)#i literally cried my eyes out when i found the 2011 marching band vids#i was like there's little lost baby me and just wanted to hug her#and say itll be okay youre gonna go through things good and bad that you cant even imagine rn#also looking back im like wow most people were in choir OR band OR run crew#very very few ppl were in all of them and possibly nobody else was in all of those when i was?#i found a kid i guess 8 years younger than me who posted all his jazz band and choir and theater vids from my hs#and thats the only other person i can think of that genuinely got involved in all of those things#being a jack of all the performing arts and master of none was lonely tho#i didnt quite fit into any of the cliques bc i was half in half out of everything#its so insane how much i changed when i got to college (two weeks/14 days after my hs grad bc summer session...)#and that change was not instant#i was a swirly mess figuring out who i was for the first two years of college#i mean life is just a swirly mess of figuring out who you are#but like i got to college and realized i barely actually resonated with anything i was doing#and let go of and then relearned to love things like choral singing and playing flute#choral singing in college was so much better than high school bc it was for fun for everyone instead of the choral girls whole personality..#also the 'best' singers from my high school mostly aren't even in music today or doing any singing outside of karaoke...#at least i wrote a whole ass ep last year???#and ive written much more music that i havent released#idk rambling tags make it sound like the identity struggle never ends but dissociating and forgetting portions of ur life doesnt help lol#t#okay bye
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#today i suddenly remembered that dress + tshirt is a combination that exists and allows you to wear summer dress in winter + not get cold.#really cool innovation.#today i am going to lidl then cleaning out my food cupboard well my one shelf in my shared cupboard then im going to draw hopefully#and because i did some revision yesterday i don't need to do much in the way of studying today which is good because the questions are exce#based and my screen time over the past few days has been diabolical and my eyes are crying and might explode if i look at a computer today#so im going to try to be hashtag offline today.#< says this while literally on tumblr#if i put some red in this outfit id be very sofad core actually. noted for future reference#anyway happy sunday everypony#^ there's a typo up there i meant excel#we worked on paper last semester but now we're doing some accounting on excel i was worried at first like oh nooo i have to learn a new#program but then i remembered im literally a gamer.not the best gamer it has to be said but i mean i 100% pw on the psp so i think i can#s rank microsoft excel.
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Iâm reminded of that post about how goths and people who wear only lots of pink are actually the same because âwearing only one colorâ is a specific choice in opposition to just looking Normal
Iâm flying to a friendâs wedding today, and I recently acquired from my neighborhood free page a very pretty vintage suitcase in like a brocade upholstery texture in all of my good colors, so of course I needed a coordinated airport outfit Ă la Midge Maisel. You guys donât know me, but I usually dress very put together, in what my sister calls Outfits, with a capital O to distinguish it from just wearing clothes. And since getting a full time job Iâve been slowly adding to my collection of vintage and 50âs-vibes clothes, because I just really like that aesthetic (my bridesmaid dress for the wedding is a vintage tea dress I got from Etsy. The fabric is in great condition but I had to reinforce pretty much every seam with my sewing machine, because the structural integrity of the original thread was breaking down, so that was an interesting learning experience).
All of which is to say that I Dressed Up for the airport in a vintage-y outfit that coordinates perfectly with some of the colors of my suitcase, and my hair is curled, and I have a vintage leather purse that my grandma gave me that matches her watch that Iâm wearing and the shoes she bought me last summer at the same vintage store that my skirt came from, and a teenage-ish girl with whatever you call the 2023 teenage equivalent of emo/punk vibes, like the dark maroon mullet and not a lot of makeup and dark comfy clothes but like, very on purpose, told me I look cool when I walked past on the way to security
And like, she Gets It! We have different fashion goals but I think we put a similar degree of intention into the way we look compared to just wearing regular clothes. Which is cool! Itâs validating. Not that I really need validation, but itâs always nice to get compliments, of course. And the way I dress is really not terribly distinctive most of the time, other than being Outfits and a little dressier than maybe the norm is, like I think most people who see me one time in passing would see that I look Nice but not necessarily see it as a cultivated Look. But punk mullet girl gets it.
#struggled with not sounding *too* pretentious here#I donât feel pretentious but I have a hard time talking about like. specific choices and things in any detail#like to my friends I just said what happened with a picture of my outfit and was like âand she gets it!â and they were like âyeah!â#but to strangers I have to go into much more detail to get the point across#even though really itâs not like Iâm putting all of that into it every day I just get up and go âi want to look nice todayâ#in accordance with my personal fashion preferences#and then having to explain those preferences like âmy name is alagaisia midge maisel darkness way and Iâm wearing vintage whateverâ#i do look so cute though#i got these shoes last summer and then lost the heel cap off of one of them the very first time i wore them#finally took them in to have them fixed last week so I could wear them to the wedding#needed a deadline so that I would actually get around to it#i hate flying itâs really a testament of how much I love my friend that Iâm flying#instead of driving ten hours to Nebraska#but it made more sense and to make sure i wonât be late or run into car trouble or anything#and Iâll stay looking nice right away instead of getting gross and sweaty in the car or having to change for bachelorette activities#i only know the bride so Iâm definitely going to make a very specific impression on all of these strangers lol#i joked with my dad about adopting a trans Atlantic accent for the whole weekend just for shits and giggles#turns out you cannot do it over the top. have you ever listened to JFKâs âwe choose to go to the moonâ speech#itâs very silly sounding#we had a good time saying things one might say at a bachelorette party in a goofy voice#âwe cho~ose to ohdah thihs maiule strippah⌠ahnd the othah things.. nawt becahse it is easyh..#but becawhse he is hahdâ#highly recommend#mine#personal
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Hiatus
I am going on hiatus for a bit more. I really really hoped the stuff that have been going on lately were already "sorted out" but, uhm... they aren't. I need to take a bit more time offline once again, and try to work things out.
Thank you for your patience â¤
Wren
#EDIT: I've deactivated my IG for a bit because it wasn't helping at all. I'll be back there but I need time#wren text tag#somehow issues from mid July/early August have managed to get worse. Like I'm not even surprised bc I'm used to it but GIRL . What the fuck#âit's finally summerâ+âcan't wait to draw!â * gets 3 hiatus in a row * maybe drawing or summer isn't really meant to be đ¤¨đ¤#I hate having to log-in to post a hiatus message and then dissapear again when I'm supposed to post my doodles n have fun#Feels like one of those jesters that appears at luncheon to entertain the royal court and then they go missing for the rest of the month#bc I'm trying very hard not to hide in my shell + having a bit more presence here to post my artwork#and somehow I fail at both like fucking heck. How can you be so bad at this.#but in short I won't be here to answer stuff and being silly or whatever people expect me to do#because if you're here for the silly stuff. MAN. I'm am sorry but I don't feel silly at all.#Somebody once said âthe horrors are never ending yet I remain sillyâ but I forgot the âremain sillyâ part#And if you're here for drawings. I don't even have time and I don't feel like drawing at all. Idk which one is worse#The bakery hangs up the ��closed todayâ so people know they have to go to buy bread somewhere else. Same here. But it won't last a day#idk why the bread analogy. Guess I'm a birb after all#this is also the closest thing to a vent post I will ever write and I managed to say nothing at all. Vagueposting about vent. Good job Wren#tw: vent#tagging in case somebody like me needs to have some tags filtered#the hiatus will go on also a bit longer because the last few weeks my mental health suffered a lot and I know my limit#also this post was queued. If I see I can still be active before publishing I will delete it otherwise see for yourself#also queue doesn't work ig like I programmed this for 9 pm hopefully it will be up by then and not any other random time
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staying up as late as possible tipsy playing bg3 because thats just the sort of week I've had i cannot even lie rn
#i have work at 10am tmrw and start school on Monday#and this week so far have gotten into a bad crash and totalled a car my family has had for 10 years (didn't severely get injured#but its fucked me up a bit mentally) then had work every single day (i work part time and generally do not have a shift more than two days#in a row at the most) and then today i did not have work but did get broken up with (not for any fault of either of us and we still very#much are in love with each other and want to be together which almost makes it hurt worse bc it's entirely due to circumstance)#(oh btw the crash was actually on the way to help with her moving in to college last weekend)#i have had No Fucking Break the entire week. and have work tomorrow. and then im jumping right into a new school year.#gonna be so honest? not very fun way to end off the summer and it's definitely not reassuring that im already burned out#before school even starts#just me rambling again#vent post#i know i will make it through and that things will be good again it's just been such a shit week :((#doesn't help that I haven't really interacted much with people or gone outside either#too busy for that
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feeling very unwell forever
#*clenching my fists until they bleed* i am capable of letting things and people go#i was so very close to messaging them and i shouldn't but i miss i miss i miss every damn day i'm so great at it!!#you don't want the same thing so it's for the best!!!!!!!! fucking drill it in your brain!!!!!!!!!#was looking through pictures of the summer for an art project today and surprise it made me upset#'not everything has to last forever' WRONG good things should never end i will cling on to everything forever#im working through some stuff here no worries it's fine
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First day of summer vacation !!!!
#camera talks#YIPPEEE#yes I woke up at 6. I canât sleep in unless Iâm the most sleep deprived Ever sorry <33#also I wanted to say happy last day to my siblings (they have a final half day)#anyways Iâm Not going to do much today itâs going to be hot and Iâm tired#(but also I get so boreddddd not doing things -> the only good thing about having a full time job)#I am hanging out with zeta tomorrow and then going to a science center with a friend on Friday (!!! Iâm so excited !!!!)#and then work and then school traveling trip (also very excited for this :D)#very busy summer in fact. lots of work but also concert and a show in August so idk guys Iâm happy <3#doing welllll#recovering from yesterday#maybe Iâll share some bap things today. Iâve been working on some stuff and I want to talk about bap in general#and also need to cast Blair before the fall hmmm
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animorphs! one minute it'll make me cry and the next we're back to goofin' it.
#em's animorphs summer#whee!#I think it may also be a crying for very little reason kind of day today but also we're nearing the end of animorphs at last#and thus everything's ratcheting up to something big and no doubt sad. here we go :(
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I think I've been possessed by a gnome
#im all of a sudden VERY info fermentation and pickling and other types of food preservation#im literally making plans rn at 4am for how i can get to the grocery store while my family is out later today#specifically so i can get cabbage to make sauerkraut#im also planning a mid summer garden so i can have fresh homegrown stuff to can this fall#when i say sudden i mean like within the last two days#all i can think of is gardening and fermenting#i also want to lean how to make mead#rambling
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eepy
#it feels very weird to be back in my dorm for the summer#last summer was so bad. I was so lonely the whole time it almost killed me#and Im feeling that start to creep up on me again even though I hung out with a friend for hours yesterday#and im talking with online friends basically all day#but idk. I called my mom today and she was looking at facebook the whole time I called her (i could tell)#and I always feel so so worthless no matter what I do#I try so hard but I just!! cant connect with people! in a meaningful way!#I want to be in an active groupchat. a friend group thats always buzzing#to hop in vc and not feel trapped by my own problems with socializing#people reach out to me and i thank them and dont really come back (because im introverted and also because I feel so annoying all the time#people say im nice but sometimes I do genuinely wonder if thats all i am#like i am nice! but thats it. no one wants to talk to me beyond that because im also insufferably awkward and annoying#but in brief exchanges hey at least im nice!#sigh. i dunno#I have no self confidence and I feel guilty for doubting the people who are nice to me#or not trusting when they say they like having me around#because I just. I cant believe it. I dont get it. I dont like having me around and Im ME lmao#as I say so often in my head#if it makes you feel any better im constantly crushed by guilt and shame đ#shut up me
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