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thehalftrollscholar · 1 day ago
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I found this in my drafts and am kicking myself for never posting it.
Thx for the tag @cave-cryptid
Are you named after anyone? My first name is from my great uncle, who my Mom was really close too. My middle name(which people usually call me because it’s shorter) is my paternal grandmother’s step-father’s surname.
When was the last time you cried? Last week when I missed a college exam and was having an existential crisis. I’m better now.
Do you have kids? No, but it’s one of my main goals in life.
Do you do any sports? I’m on the school archery team, went to states last year.
Do you use sarcasm? Yes, it’s a family tradition. And I’m proud of it.
What’s the first thing you notice about people? Any identifying marks. Growing up the older brother of three sisters I was taught to always watch out for people who gave the wrong vibe. Dad always told me I should be able to describe anyone I saw with at least three detailed features.
What colour are your eyes? Hazel, tends to turn more green when I have strong emotions.
Scary movies or happy endings? Scary movies with a happy ending. The scarier the middle the happier and more deserved the ending feels!
Any talents? I’m a pretty decent writer, good at improv and character acting. Good at chess. I’m a good swimmer. I’ve been told I’m a good public speaker.
Where were you born? Under a lovely little bridge in Missouri. Next question!
What are your hobbies? Reading, writing, blacksmithing, wood burning, hiking, used to do competitive ballet/tap. DnD is a big hobby of mine. Forever DM. Violin is one of my favorites.
Do you have any pets? A red heeler mix(cattle dog if you don’t know breeds), an adorable black cat, 25 guinea fowl/chickens, and three little sisters.
How tall are you? Barely 5’5 with size 13 shoes. And two of my best friends are like 6’3. Of course we’re all dorks. Lot of hobbit jokes.
Favourite subjects in school? Literature, though world cultures are a close second.
Dream Job? I’d love to be an author and travel the world. I’d also really like to go into international law and business. That would help fund being able to travel and write.
Or a trophy husband.
15 Questions 15 Mutuals
@kaiarchives tagged me in this game that I haven't had the pleasure of seeing before, so that's exciting. The rules are: Answer the 15 questions and tag 15 of your mutuals.
1. Are you named after anyone?
No.
2. When was the last time you cried?
Last Sunday. I don't think it was for any particular reason, I just had a headache and was feeling down.
3. Do you have kids?
No.
4. What sports do you play/have played?
I played a bit of a football as a kid and a bit of volleyball for school. I also did range shooting in my tween years.
5. Do you use sarcasm?
Quite a lot. I've been trying to cut back and be a bit more genuine, but my habit for being sarcastic and my generally low moods have given me a bit of Resting Bitch Voice, so people don't always pick up on it.
6. What's the first thing you notice about people?
Facial shape I think. Before I learn someone's name I generally remember them by the shape of their jaw and cheeks.
7. What's your eye color?
Blue, but it's a kinda greyish blue.
8. Scary movies or Happy endings
I like scary movies with happy endings. Give me protagonists who face down with the worst of humanity or the nasties of the world and come out alive and swinging, if not a bit traumatized.
9. Any talents?
I'm told I have a way with words. In general I don't believe in talent in the "innate skill" way though.
10. Where were you born?
Oslo, Norway.
11. What are your hobbies?
Writing, reading, movies, video games (mostly strategy and roguelikes,) I used to sing in a choir and I kind of want to get back into that.
12. Do you have any pets?
No. Haven't really had the opportunity to, but I'd like to get a dog someday.
13. How tall are you?
178 cm, so... what, 5'10?
14. Favorite subject in school
Language and it's not close at all. Social Sciences as a second place I suppose.
15. Dream Job?
Author. Give me a way to live from writing and I'll churn out books at a brazen clip. It might drive me crazy, but it'll be worth it.
As for the tags: @frostedlemonwriter @shay-puppitty @longwuzhere @indigostudies @an-elegant-void @mjjune @marlenadutch @fire-but-ashes-too @meerawrites @sparrowrising @silverslipstream @floweryprosegarden @the-secondborn-of-seven @chishiio @a-had-matter
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glossdebut · 3 days ago
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PRICE OF FAME | MYG ★ 02
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✧ PAIRING: yoongi x fem!reader
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✧ SERIES SUMMARY: You were about ready to give up, your career nowhere near what you dreamed it’d be when you started at eighteen, bright-eyed and naive. Reality for you these past few years has consisted of pouting at a camera, ignoring whispers of your name at company events, and ensuring that the stupid, tiny designer purses they keep forcing on you can at least carry a flask. But now, you’re helping a friend in need. For the first time in a long time, it feels like you’re doing something worthwhile with your life. Too bad Min Yoongi, the newest thorn in your side, seems insistent on stopping you.
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✧ SERIES TAGS: enemies to lovers, slow burn, angst, smut, fake/pretend relationship (not main couple), rockstar!yoongi, model!reader, guitarist yoongi, singer jungkook, bassist taehyung, drummer jimin, manager namjoon, yoongi & maknae line are in a rock band, reader & seokjin are best friends, yoongi & hoseok are best friends (sope duo ftw), yoongi has a tongue piercing, reader is a brat
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✧ CHAPTER WARNINGS: aqua uses her journalism degree to write a fake article, lots of yoongi pov, MC lore drop, extremely brief descriptions of sexual acts, some questions are answered but not many, sope cameo! also seokjin cameo! do you detect a hint of hyyh yoonkook-ism? because you should! EVENTS TRANSPIRE! (see series masterlist for series warnings)
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✧ CHAPTER WORDCOUNT: 5.2k words
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✧ AUTHOR’S NOTE: damn i always drop early don't i? here's a pre-holiday gift for those of you who celebrate thanksgiving. thank you to tanni @yooniivrse for beta reading SO FUCKING FAST LOL <3
p.s. from here on out updates are going to be much slower. we’re getting to the Real Plot now and i have to use my brain a little bit more. plus i want to make time to write other, shorter things! so be sure to check out my other fics if waiting for this becomes unbearable lol
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CH. 02: A HIT IS HARD TO RESIST
Love in the Spotlight: Is "Burn The Stage" Singer Falling for a Scandal Magnet?
It’s the love story that’s rocking Seoul—and leaving fans divided. Jeon Jeongguk, the smooth-talking, chart-topping frontman of “Burn The Stage,” has been the subject of intense speculation after rumors surfaced that he’s been secretly seeing one of South Korea’s most talked about models, YLN YN. And while Jeongguk’s millions of fans would do anything to claim him as their own, it’s YN’s wild reputation that’s making this relationship one to watch.
The dating rumors of the two surfaced online when YN was seen on the balcony at Wasteland during the final show of the Burn The Stage’s world tour. Eyewitnesses claim that after the show, the two were spotted backstage together, sharing a private moment.
While Jeongguk’s image has been polished and pristine despite his rock star persona, YN’s name is frequently linked with controversy. From a string of public feuds with fellow influencers to rumors of reckless behavior, she has garnered a reputation for attracting scandal wherever she goes—a trait at odds with what fans have seen from Jeongguk. So what could possibly draw the two together?
Some fans are already sounding the alarm, warning Jeongguk that dating someone like YN could tarnish his squeaky-clean image.
“I don’t know why Jeongguk would choose her,” one concerned fan commented on Instagram. “She’s trouble, and he’s too good for her. His image will be ruined if this is true.”
Despite the criticism, others are rallying behind the couple, suggesting that Jeongguk may be the one to help YN change her ways. “Everyone has a past,” one fan posted on X (formerly known as Twitter). “Maybe Jeongguk sees something in her that no one else does. People can grow and evolve.”
While neither Jeongguk or YN’s companies have released an official statement on the matter, YN hasn’t been shy about fueling the rumors. In a recent post on her Instagram, she shared a photo of herself wearing a Burn The Stage hoodie, captioning it, “i guess i’ve got good taste 👀” which has sent fans into overdrive speculating that she’s sending a not-so-subtle message about her relationship with Jeongguk.
“You’ve gotta be fucking kidding me,” Yoongi groans to himself. He can’t read any more of this drivel. The wooden table in front of him suddenly looks all too inviting, perfect for him to bash his skull into.
You’re everywhere, completely inescapable for the past week. Apparently, Yoongi’s bi-weekly breakfast with Hoseok is no exception. The first one they’ve been able to have since the tour, too. God forbid he wants to mindlessly scroll on his phone for a second while he waits for his friend to return, because there you are, taunting him. 
After the concert, Yoongi had been so annoyed by seeing you again. Pissed off at the circumstances. Ready to do anything in his power to extricate you from Jeongguk as fast as possible.
The past week has dulled his rage considerably. The endorphins of playing live have died, as have the potent emotions that come with them. Yoongi’s logical adult brain has set in, leaving him with only a headache.
“Woah,” Hoseok says, snorting as he slides a coffee into Yoongi’s field of vision. He slips into the booth across from him, taking a sip from his own cup with an amused look on his face. “You look much more homicidal than I left you. What could’ve possibly pissed you off in the last five minutes?”
Wordlessly, Yoongi hands Hoseok his phone, the article still displayed on the screen. Hoseok silently reads the first few paragraphs, and when he scrolls back up to look at the photo attached, his eyebrows shoot up in surprise.
“Oh?” he says, zooming in on your face. On Yoongi’s phone. The audacity. “This is the Innisfree girl, right? She’s dating Jeongguk?”
“Allegedly.”
“Is her skin really that nice in person?”
“Not the point,” Yoongi hisses, snatching his phone back from Hoseok’s grip and hastily closing the article to get your dumb face off of his phone. Dumb, poreless face.
“Okay, touchy,” Hoseok says, raising his hands in surrender. “Please explain the point.”
“I don’t trust her,” Yoongi says, tapping his foot under the table. “The relationship is bogus. She’s after something, I just can’t figure out what it is.”
“And you’re basing this on…?”
“Intuition,” Yoongi says flatly.
“Right. Because your intuition is never wrong,” Hoseok says, tone laden with sarcasm. “Need I remind you that you weren’t the biggest fan of me when we met?”
“I thought you were annoying,” Yoongi agrees. He takes a sip of his coffee to mask a smirk. “Who says I was wrong about that?”
“I’d probably be hurt if you hadn’t essentially bought us couple rings last year,” Hoseok says, waggling his eyebrows. “You want to fuck me so bad it makes you look stupid.”
“Aish, they weren’t couple rings,” Yoongi complains. “Stop saying that. The wrong person is going to hear you and think it’s true.”
“Your ears are pink!” Hoseok exclaims triumphantly, pointing at the evidence. “Your mouth says one thing, but your ears always give you away.”
“I’m going to kill you,” Yoongi grumbles, pulling his beanie down. “Stop changing the subject.”
“Right, right. Sorry, hyung, you’re just so easy to tease,” Hoseok says, not even bothering to stifle his snickering. The bastard. “Jeonggukie’s new lady love. Go. Wait, do you want to fuck her?”
“What?” Yoongi sputters, eyes widening because what the fuck? “No—what? Look, it’s not just intuition, okay? I’m right about her. And you saw what the article said—drama follows her wherever she goes. Maybe she thinks dating Jeongguk will rehabilitate her image, or something like that.”
Yoongi had been so confident that wasn’t the case, since you’ve maintained all of your brand deals even in the midst of your many scandals, but maybe he was wrong. He still doesn’t know why you’re doing this, and it’s like the closer he gets, the less he can see.
“I don’t know,” Yoongi groans, rubbing his hands over his face. “She’s also just a bitch.”
“Okay,” Hoseok concedes, crossing his arms. “If you say so. She’s a bitch who you don’t want to fuck. What are you going to do about it?”
Yoongi shrugs. “I have that dinner tomorrow night. I was thinking of talking to Jeongguk after or something.”
“And telling him that his girlfriend is the devil? I’m sure that’ll go over well.”
“I’ll figure it out,” Yoongi sighs, rubbing a hand over his face. “Jeongguk is a stubborn kid, but he knows I wouldn’t ruin something good for him. If I word it right, maybe he’ll listen.”
“You’re not wrong. For whatever reason, Jeongguk trusts your judgement.”
Yoongi glares at him. “Go fuck yourself, Hob-ah.”
“Whatever, hyung,” Hoseok says, rolling his eyes. “Let’s talk about something else, please. I haven’t seen you in months.”
Yoongi relents easily. He doesn’t really want to be talking about you either, not when it feels like an ice pick is being jammed into his temple. 
He’ll just have to figure out what to say to Jeongguk later.
★ ★ ★
“Wow,” Seokjin says around a mouthful of jjapaguri. “He really hates you, huh?”
He’s fresh out of a long shift at the hospital, but he still headed straight to your apartment at the promise of food and celebrity gossip—his two biggest weaknesses, especially when the food doesn’t have to be made by him and the celebrity is you.
“Seems like it,” you sigh, using your chopsticks to push your noodles around aimlessly. “Normally I wouldn’t care, you know? Like, get in line, asshole.”
“But you care.”
“But I care.”
“Because of Jeongguk,” Seokjin says knowingly.
You drop your chopsticks and groan, stifling the sound by covering your face with your hands.
“Yes,” you concede. “But not because of that. I just want to help him, you know? He got me through a really rough spot last year. I’d feel like shit if I agreed to do this for him and then it ended up blowing up in our faces because of me.”
“Mmm,” Seokjin hums, chewing thoughtfully. “I’m sure the fact that you’re in love with him is a big motivator, though.”
You pick up your head, glaring at him. “Love is a big word, Jin.”
A very big word, you think, picking up your glass of wine to take a long gulp. God help you.
“A fitting one, too!” he says gleefully. “Come oooon. No judgement here. He’s hot. Not as hot as me, of course, but I have to give credit where credit is due.”
“Yes, you’re a god among men,” you mumble, rolling your eyes. “I don’t love Jeongguk. Not like that, at least. Do I need to remind you of the whole reason I’m doing this in the first place?”
“Yeah, yeah, the secret girlfriend,” Seokjin says, waving a hand dismissively. “Whatever. You’re spending a lot of time with him, is all I’m saying. The tides may turn in your favor.”
Wow, and you thought you were delusional.
“Fat chance,” you deadpan, polishing off your wine. “Especially if Yoongi is as persistent as he’s making himself out to be.”
“What’s his beef with you, anyway?” Seokjin asks, snorting to himself as he picks up a piece of steak with his chopsticks. Hilarious. “I feel like he’s going a little far for it to just be protectiveness, you know?”
Right. When you’d given Seokjin the rundown via text, you’d left one pretty substantial piece of information out.
“He said, um,” you start, picking at one of your nails nervously—a habit that Hyerin would smack you on the back of the head for, if she were here. “He said that he knows… more than I think.”
Just like that, all of the humor drains from Seokjin’s expression. “Meaning…?”
“I don’t know,” you say, your voice wobbling just a bit. “I don’t know, but if it does mean that… It makes the idea of rolling over and doing what he says pretty enticing, not gonna lie.”
“Fuck that,” Seokjin says firmly, your eyes widening in response. “If he’s the type of guy to use something like that as blackmail, then he’s a piece of shit. I don’t care if he is trying to protect Jeongguk.”
“He can’t know, though,” you groan, fully resting your head on the cool marble of your kitchen countertop now. 
You’ve been wracking your brain for days now, trying to figure out if it’s even possible for Yoongi to know anything. You’re pretty confident the answer is no, but there’s no way to be one-hundred percent sure without confirmation from the man himself. And you’d honestly rather die.
“Nobody knows except the people involved and you. You’re the only one who didn’t sign an NDA, and I’m pretty confident you’ve never met Min Yoongi. Not to mention you just wouldn’t—”
“Share that information? Hell no, I wouldn’t,” Seokjin interrupts, scoffing. “Okay, well… Regardless of whether he knows anything, he honestly just sounds like a dick and I think you should kill him.”
You snort, lifting your eyes to look at him from where your head rests on the counter. “Maybe that can be plan B,” you offer.
“Fine, then what’s the plan A?” Seokjin counters, crossing his arms and raising a conspiratorial eyebrow at you.
Fantastic question, one you’ve been thinking about the answer to since you abruptly left the afterparty that night. It’s not like you can tell Jeongguk what’s going on and risk having to tell him the whole truth. You trust Jeongguk, but…
No, it’s not an option. You don’t want anyone else to know. So, if Yoongi’s going to insist on being a problem for you, you might as well return the favor. It’s only fair.
You grin, lifting your head and leaning closer to Seokjin.
“I’m going to make his life a living hell.”
★ ★ ★
Yoongi hasn’t touched a cigarette since he was twenty one years old.
He picked up the nasty habit at sixteen, when one of his friends doled out African Ice Jacks amongst the group, bragging that his hyung had bought the pack for him. As soon as the lighter was flicked on and the bittersweet taste of bubblegum and tobacco filled Yoongi’s lungs, he was hooked.
It was stupidly easy to get his hands on cigarettes before he was of legal age, even when his friend’s hyung couldn’t supply them for whatever reason. All of the adults around him smoked, including his parents. 
It felt as though cigarettes were an extension of his hand, felt wrong when he didn’t have the option to light one up. During school hours, Yoongi’s fingers would twitch on his desk as he waited for his last class to end.
He was a fucking anxious, wound-up kid. Smoking was the only thing that helped, sometimes. If he had a shit day, at least he could have a cigarette.
When the band got signed, though, things changed. Despite the fact that the majority of the population in Korea smoked, celebrities were vilified for it in the media. For whatever fucking reason. Yoongi didn’t care much what the media had to say about him, but he reasoned that it would be pretty stupid to let his dream die over Ice Jacks. So he quit.
It was hard at first, but it’s been five years now. After so much time, it’s rare that cigarettes even cross his mind, even when others smoke around him.
Sitting across the table from you now, though, Yoongi’s fingers twitch just like they had when he was in grade school staring at a clock.
He and the band started frequenting Yoojung Sikdang long before there was any real hope for fame. It was their chosen spot after every practice. The ajumma who owns it knows their names, remembers their orders by heart. Over the years, the only part of the restaurant that’s changed is their autographed photos on the wall. They’ve celebrated every single milestone here, big or small, just the five of them. Alone.
Wrapping up their first world tour should be no different. It’s their biggest milestone yet, and all Yoongi wanted was to eat ssambap with his best friends. Remind himself that none of the fame matters as long as they still have this.
But here you are. Of course. Encroaching on everything Yoongi’s built, everything he holds dear to his heart.
The only time it’s ever been more than the five of them here was the night they signed their contract, accompanied by two label executives. Even if you’re allegedly riding Jeongguk’s dick, no way are you that fucking important.
Yoongi would laugh if he wasn’t so pissed off. You are such a fucking pest. He just can’t shake you off.
“You don’t like what you ordered?” Jimin asks you, snapping Yoongi out of his thoughts.
Yoongi’s made an effort to keep to himself for the majority of the dinner. No use in ruining everyone else’s night—it’s still a special one, after all. Besides, he’s still trying to be an adult about things. You may have ruined his plan to talk to Jeongguk tonight, but it’s not like he’s going to cause a scene in front of a restaurant full of people—
“Oh, I’m just not very hungry,” you say. Yoongi’s eyes narrow.
All you’ve been doing all night is burrowing into Jeongguk’s side, barely touching your food. Lipgloss still perfectly in place. Normally, Yoongi wouldn’t care—he’s not paying for it. He wastes food on the label’s dime all the time. At Yoojung Sikdang, though?
“Why did you come, then?” 
The words come out of Yoongi’s mouth before he can stop them, sharp and pointed. He’d fully intended to keep his mouth shut, eat his food, and then go home. Maybe buy a pack on the way. But now they’re out there, and Yoongi can’t bring himself to care. Certainly not to feel bad.
For the first time since you’d walked in on Jeongguk’s arm, you make eye contact with him. On purpose this time—challenging. Yoongi’s not a little bitch, so he stares back. 
“Because Jeonggukie invited me,” you say, faux sweetness dripping from your words as you lean your head on Jeongguk’s shoulder. Eyes still fixed on Yoongi. “I figured it would be okay, since you all gave me such a warm welcome last time.”
Yeah. Yoongi’s buying that pack of cigarettes. 
“You’re always welcome to come out with us,” Taehyung coos, like he thinks you’re the cutest thing in the world. Knowing Taehyung, he probably does.
Everyone seems to be in agreement on that front, too, except Yoongi who rolls his eyes as he shoves a ssam into his mouth. Whatever.
“It’s gonna be hell getting you out of here, though,” Namjoon adds from Yoongi’s left. He leans over to glance at the crowd of people peering through the front of the restaurant, cameras at the ready, desperate to get a glimpse of you and Jeongguk. Not that you’re making it particularly hard.
“We’ve never had a crowd like that out there,” Jimin says, in awe. “I’m not surprised, though. Those articles about you two have been getting tons of clicks.”
“Ah,” you say. If Yoongi didn’t know better, he’d think you sound almost sheepish. “That, um. That might be my fault. I told my manager I was coming here. She must’ve tipped someone off.”
Of course.
“Anything for a photo-op, right?” Yoongi sneers, unable to help himself. It’s such an easy shot, after all. You’re being so transparent.
“Hyung,” Taehyung says, eyes wide as if he’s appalled. 
“I’m sorry, Yoongi-ssi,” you say, tilting your head at him. That little flash of a challenge is still in your eyes, and Yoongi doesn’t like it one bit. “Do you have a problem with me being here?”
Yoongi scoffs, sitting up. When he speaks, it’s laced with bitterness. “We just don’t normally come here with guests, that’s all. I guess I didn’t get the memo that that’d suddenly changed.”
“I invited her, hyung,” Jeongguk says. “She’s my girlfriend.” He wraps his arm around you protectively and, fuck, you’re good. You’re so good at making Yoongi look like the asshole.
“I get that, Guk-ah,” Yoongi tries, his voice considerably softer now. “But, come on… Here? And the mob outside, I mean… Do you really think that was just a harmless mistake?”
“What are you implying?” Jeongguk grits out. He’s angry now, that much is clear, and it’s Yoongi’s fault. 
You have him trapped. He’s surrounded by landmines, unable to come up with a single response that could possibly defuse them.
“Come on, guys,” Namjoon says, glancing at Yoongi pointedly. “We’re here to celebrate.”
“If Yoongi-ssi is uncomfortable that I’m here, maybe I should go,” you say, making to get up.
Jeongguk reaches for your arm, stopping you. “No,” he says. “Yoongi-hyung, you can either get over it and stay with us, or you can leave. You’re the only one who doesn’t want her here.”
Un-fucking-believable.
“Are you serious?” Yoongi scoffs, looking around at everyone. Is this really happening to him right now? This is his band!
The table is deadly silent. Everyone refuses to meet Yoongi’s eyes except you and Jeongguk, who raises a challenging eyebrow at him. It’s immediately apparent to Yoongi that he’s not winning this one. That somehow, he’s ruined the night meant to celebrate him and his friends.
Bitterly, Yoongi laughs. “Fine.”
No one protests when he pushes his chair away from the table and stands up, and that stings much more than Yoongi would like to admit.
He catches your eye as he grabs his jacket off the back of his chair, anger flaring at how pleased you look. 
“Have a nice fucking dinner,” Yoongi mutters, before turning on his heel and walking towards the door. Leaving his friends to face a crowd of photographers and fans that you called.
As he walks out into the cold, dodging the phones being shoved in his face, all he can think about is the way Jeongguk had looked at him.
★ ★ ★
You met Jeon Jeongguk a year ago, give or take a few months. You just remember it was cold.
Less than twenty-four hours after a particularly nasty breakup with a guy you didn’t love but liked enough, you were back on the clock. Zipped into something tight and expensive, wearing the best waterproof mascara money could buy.
You hated those events to begin with—the galas, end of year ceremonies for awards you were no longer viable to win. They were torture for you. But the sting of being freshly single only made things worse, so you had decided to make the most of it.
You may not have been able to win a KMA, but you were well within your rights to treat the KMAs themselves like your own personal dating pool. No better way to rid yourself of your ex like getting with someone new, you thought.
Which is where Jeongguk came in, devastatingly hot in his tailored suit. You’d ran into him on your way from the bathroom—much like you had with Yoongi, now that you think about it—and you instantly found yourself wondering what it would be like to kiss a guy with a lip ring. Jeongguk, as it turned out, was very interested in showing you. 
You were both a little drunk, but the attraction was real. Instant. 
One very handsy cab ride later, and you were in his apartment, grinding on his lap as you experienced first-hand just how little of an obstacle a lip ring can be if the man who has it knows what he’s doing.
Things were going so well—Jeongguk’s tongue exploring your mouth as you felt his cock stiffening beneath you. But it all came crashing down as soon as his hand slid under your dress.
The fact of the matter was, you’d just been dumped. Regardless of how strongly you did or didn’t feel about your ex, you’d still been dumped and it still hurt. As soon as Jeongguk really touched you, it became all too apparent that you wouldn’t be able to go through with it. Luckily, at the slightest bit of hesitance from you, Jeongguk’s hand immediately retreated from under your dress. 
He was sweet about it. Really, really sweet. Valiantly ignored his erection and offered to listen instead, which made you laugh. Comforted you even though you hadn’t thought you needed it. Let you sleep in his bed anyway. When you left the next morning, kindly offered to be your friend, because you clearly needed one.
You’ve been friends ever since. 
Not in the same way that Seokjin is your friend, of course. Seokjin is your best friend, has been since you were both kids. But Jeongguk just… He gets the industry, in a way that Seokjin never will.
Which brings you to last month.
Last month, when Jeongguk called you nervously in the middle of his tour schedule. Asked you to be his fake girlfriend in guilty, hushed whispers.
You didn’t need to know why. You were always going to say yes. 
But Jeongguk explained anyway. He explained that he has a girlfriend, a real girlfriend, who isn’t from your world. That he hasn’t been able to see her nearly as much as he’d like to because he’s terrified of the backlash she could receive from being connected to him romantically.
You read between the lines—you have nothing to lose, at this point. There isn’t a day that goes by where someone online doesn’t have something to say about you, reputable or not.
He explained that in order to maintain the lie, no one in the industry could know the truth, not even Jeongguk’s bandmates. According to him, they wouldn’t understand why he felt the need to go to such lengths. You didn’t completely agree then, but having met Yoongi now, you get it.
His girlfriend knows about you, he’d told you. She knows who you are, knows about that night last year, and that she still agreed to let him ask you this. She doesn’t see you as a threat.
It stung, a little. Of course it did. You and Jeongguk may be friends, but you’ve always felt a hint of something else there. Maybe it was the kindness he’d shown you when you met. Maybe it’s just him. But you never said anything, convinced it was one-sided.
Clearly you were right.
Still, you want to do this for him. You care about him, and just because you can’t maintain a stable relationship doesn’t mean Jeongguk doesn’t deserve a chance at one.
You think, if Yoongi knew, he’d feel the same.
★ ★ ★
Five years down the drain, Yoongi thinks. Ashes his cigarette. Oh well.
Honestly, it’s not even really about you, although Yoongi would love to pretend otherwise. If he pins it all on you, it makes his mission to get rid of you all the more noble. The label breathing down his neck. The impending deadline of an album he doesn’t know if he can write. Dongsaengs that don’t know how to stay out of trouble. If it’s all your fault, it can’t be his.
This—the smoking—was bound to happen, with or without you. You just helped the process along.
He’s perched on his windowsill, puffing his way through cigarette number two, when his phone buzzes next to him.
Namjoon doesn’t call him nearly ever. Yoongi has a way that he likes things done, and Namjoon is probably his only friend that actually respects it. Emails for work. In-person or texts for personal shit. Video calls never. Phone calls only if Yoongi needs to hear it now and there’s no other way.
Yoongi picks up.
“Joon-ah?” Cautious. He likes phone calls the least because phone calls mean trouble, like someone is in the hospital. He’s gotten that call before, more than once.
“Hyung,” Namjoon says. “Do you have a minute?”
Namjoon wouldn’t be asking that if someone was in the hospital, so Yoongi allows himself to unclench. Just a little. “Yeah, I have a minute.”
He hears rustling on the line, like Namjoon is fidgeting. But Namjoon is always fidgeting, so that could mean nothing.
“I figured, given the events of tonight, that it would be a good call to warn you ahead of time. I would’ve come by your apartment, but I’ve got meetings all morning tomorrow and it’s late. I didn’t want to wait until next time I see you though, so…” Namjoon starts, trailing off. 
Yoongi works his jaw. “Spit it out, Joon-ah,” he says, because Namjoon is shit at delivering bad news. He’s always beating around the bush, trying to soften the blow. It’s great for the kids, but it makes Yoongi feel like he’s about to have to bury his first-born or some shit. Yoongi likes clear, direct.
Namjoon knows this, so he always gets it right on the second try.
“YN is going to the Jeju house with you guys,” Namjoon says. Clear and direct, but the absolute last thing Yoongi wants to hear right now. 
“You’re fucking with me.”
“I’m not.”
“She has literally no fucking reason to be there, Joon-ah,” Yoongi grits out. The cigarette secured between his index and middle knuckles has burned down to nothing, singes his fingers. He hisses and flicks it out the window. “Is she going to help us write an album? Is that it?”
“Hyung—“
“No, she isn’t. She’s going to distract my lead singer the whole time and make the whole point of the trip fucking impossible,” he interrupts, because once he gets started he can’t stop. “Who signed off on this? Doesn’t she have a job? Isn’t there a goddamn camera that needs to be smoldered at?”
“Yoongi-hyung,” Namjoon says. He’s using his manager voice, and Yoongi shuts up instantly. 
Namjoon uses this voice on the kids all the time. Realistically, it’s not a big deal. It’s his job. But he’s never had to use it on Yoongi before.
He deserves it, though. Yoongi knows that. He knows that he’s been insufferable ever since you showed up, and he doesn’t like it either. He’d wanted to talk to Jeongguk, to have a heart-to-heart with him about it, but that’s proven impossible given that you’re always around. And Namjoon is their voice of reason.
Yoongi tries again.
“I don’t like her,” he explains, keeping his voice level. “I don’t think she has Jeongguk’s best interests at heart. I’m just trying to look out for him.”
The line stays quiet for a long moment, like Namjoon is taking special care in choosing his next words. It would make Yoongi nervous, but that’s just what Namjoon does.
“Hyung, you need to leave it alone,” he finally says.
What the fuck.
Yoongi could have foreseen plenty of responses from Namjoon. He’s been on the receiving end of Namjoon’s sage advice more than he’s proud of. Yoongi worries a lot, and Namjoon is particularly good at quieting those worries, particularly when they pertain to the kids. And they usually do. But he sure as shit wasn’t expecting to be blown off like that.
“Joon-ah, Jeongguk is gonna—“
“Jeongguk is a grown man. He’s fully entitled to make his own decisions, and you need to respect that if you don’t want to lose him.”
Lose him? Is Yoongi going insane? Is he fucking missing some integral piece of this puzzle that everyone else seems to have?
The notion of losing Jeongguk is completely absurd. How could he lose Jeongguk over something like this? Jeongguk, the college freshman with the huge eyes who followed Yoongi around like a puppy. Jeongguk who sang so softly when Yoongi asked, who beamed with pride when Yoongi told him he had something special. Jeongguk who dropped out alongside Yoongi, took a risk because he trusted his hyung to take care of him.
It was Yoongi and Jeongguk before it was anyone else, and Yoongi has never let Jeongguk down once, won’t allow himself to. This is the thing that’s going to change that? 
“What are you even talking about?”
“Just… leave this one alone, Yoongi,” Namjoon sighs. “She’s coming whether you like it or not, and you need to at least pretend to play nice.”
Yoongi doesn’t appreciate being treated like a child who’s the cause of his parent’s headache, not by Kim Namjoon. The label dickheads are one thing, but the one person Yoongi has entrusted with everything for the past five years? Before that, even? Fuck that. Namjoon doesn’t talk to him this way, and that’s not about to change because of you.
“Namjoon-ah, if you’re going to blow me off, at least put my cock in your mouth and do it right,” Yoongi spits, hanging up before he can think better of his words.
Fuck.
Yoongi hasn’t bitten Namjoon’s head off like that in a long time. It doesn’t feel good to be back in old patterns like this. Yoongi knows why he doesn’t trust you, but he doesn’t know what it is about you that makes it so—urgent. Like he’s a wild animal primed to bite. To hurt. Yoongi isn’t that guy. 
If what Namjoon said is true, if Jeongguk really is at risk of slipping through Yoongi’s fingers, he has to get his fucking act together. He has to try harder to handle this like an adult.
So, you’re coming to Jeju. Fine. Yoongi can be civil.
Even if the only way for him to be civil is not to speak to you at all.
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cantareincminor · 3 days ago
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Round 2: Fandom Wrapped (Writer Edition) 2024!
Thanks again to @kattyelf for the template. A blank one can be found at @twiyorbase for anyone who wants to do their own!
Detailed reflections under the cut.
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This is a long, introspective post. Forgive me if I sound self-absorbed in all this reflection.
The past year has been a unique one. The last long fic I completed was more than ten years ago in the Aladdin fandom. I dabbled in shorter, more stream-of-consciousness fics after that, but hadn’t written or posted a fic since 2016. Then I got into Spy x Family in 2022, devoured tons of fics, and slowly, nervously considered writing again.
There were many reasons I stopped writing. Being busy with real life responsibilities, naturally. I got married and had kids. I had a highly stressful career. With so little time on my hands, I feared that if I tried to write after such a long hiatus, the result would be stilted and disappointing, and I would have “wasted” my precious free time feeling shittier about myself. I’ve had some version of this mindset my entire life: if I can’t do something well, then I shouldn’t bother.
I have @whateversawesome to thank for encouraging me to try my hand at writing again. After the mole hunt arc was published, an idea struck me quite suddenly—what if Yuri had died or been critically injured in Shellbury? How would Twilight deal with that guilt and how would the identity reveals unfurl in such an extreme scenario? Could Yor ever forgive him? 
For months I shied away from writing it. To do the idea justice, I knew it would have to be a long, complex fic. And I continued to have mixed feelings about my last long fic in the Aladdin fandom—regretting parts of the premise and the ship dynamics and the characterizations and just overall feeling ashamed about my writing. I didn’t want to fail—write myself into a corner and abandon the fic or something like that. Right now, on the other end, I still look back on Orpheus sometimes and wonder how the hell I managed to write it. I reread my favorite passages and wonder how I came up with those exact words.
If it may help any writers, I would be happy to share a copy of my brainstorming doc and outline of Orpheus, where I kept track of unresolved plot points, options to resolve those plot points, notes to self to go back and add foreshadowing, and calling out unexpected events in each chapter that I did not plan ahead for. It is a very long doc. But I wanted to remember everything I was thinking at the time as a gift to my future self, in case I ever attempt a big project like this again and feel paralyzed.
Orpheus allowed me to explore themes and beliefs I suppose have been marinating in my heart for years. For anyone who is still interested, below are some of my thoughts and personal experiences around the main themes.
Forgiveness
Forgiveness and redemption are always what I reach for in my serious fics. I think I fumbled it in my Aladdin fic (or didn’t really get to the redemption part), but I was able to explore it more thoroughly and with more integrity in Orpheus, with an additional decade of life experience. 
I think forgiveness is a difficult and fascinating theme to handle because it is so highly personal and often carries memories of deep hurt for ‘victims�� or shame for ‘perpetrators’. I was grateful when readers sometimes shared their personal beliefs and experiences with it in their comments. In order to treat this theme with respect, I wanted to convey that forgiveness should not come cheaply. That is not to say it’s bad to be merciful and quick to forgive—those are amazing virtues. But the act of forgiveness comes at a cost and can be incredibly painful. The cost does not simply vanish due to good feelings or an act of the will.
Someone can either withhold forgiveness and make the other person pay the cost—in Orpheus, this would have been Yor rejecting or taking revenge on Twilight and leaving him to feel horribly guilty about Yuri’s injury for the rest of his life. Or they can choose to forgive and pay the cost themselves. In my own experience it feels physically painful. It feels like extreme grief. This is what I wanted to portray, the devastation to the spirit, as well as the catharsis that can follow. Because after the cost is paid, what we gain is healing. The ability to move on and no longer feel like we’ve swallowed glass. And the mending of a relationship, if both sides are willing. In the case of Yor and Twilight, it makes their relationship even stronger, like a broken bone healing stronger than before. And it adds weight to the trials they would face together after that moment.
Forgiveness of self / Perfectionism
Of all the conflicts in the fic, “Twilight vs. himself” is the last one to be resolved. Even after the man has been forgiven by the people he loves, he still struggles not to hate himself. To find his life to hold any value outside of being a highly competent spy. I think many people go through some version of this struggle. I certainly did and still do sometimes, with regards to work and career.
I chose Orpheus as the title to illustrate the journey of someone who carries an enormous burden on their shoulders. Trying to save the person they love and having to follow a strict rule of never turning around or they will lose it all. All the while, the temptation to look back is incredibly powerful. Twilight bears the burden of WISE’s expectations as their top spy, the hero who has stopped nuclear missile launches, who will supposedly prevent the next war from breaking out. He also carries the expectations of his newfound family which call him to turn away from the ruthlessness of his mission. To look back at them, and not abandon them for the sake of world peace. And finally he carries the guilt of what happened to Yuri, and the pain of keeping all the secrets resulting from Shellbury.
In Orpheus, Twilight harbors both a very low sense of self-worth as well as a highly inflated sense of self-importance. He sees himself as a discardable tool who has done unforgivable things for his missions, with no right to love and be loved. But at the same time he sees himself as the lynchpin to maintaining the fragile geopolitical peace. Responsible for never screwing up, ever. Responsible for the fact Yuri was shot, even though he tried his best to spare him. He’s an unreliable, self-absorbed narrator, and the other characters around him also parrot his guilt back at him throughout most of the fic. Until the end, where I try to address the illusion of control and how a good portion of his guilt is unrealistic and undeserved. 
Unfortunately for many people who carry this kind of burden, no one tells us that it’s okay to turn around. That we are indeed not responsible for more than our own choices, and we certainly cannot be responsible for circumstances outside of our control. I’ve worked jobs where I’ve been asked to do the impossible. My first job out of college, the expectations were incredibly high. I got no training and was thrown into a project in a foreign language and an unfamiliar industry. I pulled so many late nights that in the second week I fainted on the way to the office. And I was told this was normal. That in order to succeed like everyone else, I would figure out a way to solve each problem thrown at me, no matter how impossible.
And what sucks is when you start succeeding. You pull off miracle after miracle and then people start expecting it of you like it’s normal. The reward for success isn’t a break. It’s more work. Harder work. And you buy into that unrealistic narrative that you should be able to do it or something must be wrong with you, you must be broken and can’t perform like you used to. And when you finally break, you get spit out and discarded like an outdated machine. They find the next, younger miracle worker to buy into the narrative.
Knowledge vs Wisdom
This is an easier one. Funny that Twilight’s agency is called WISE in canon. But what is wisdom? The ability to discern between right and wrong, to utilize knowledge effectively for the greater good, to know how to truly live life and live it well. 
Twilight strikes me as the kind of person who uses knowledge as a weapon, not too dissimilarly to Yuri who literally states “knowledge is power.” Twilight hoards knowledge like building an arsenal, so he can always be prepared for any problem. And this is how nations treat knowledge (intel) in the real world. Constantly trying to gain an information advantage on the enemy. 
But how does one know if one’s strategy to use all that knowledge is right? In Orpheus, the Ostanian state exhibits little wisdom in its pursuit of endless knowledge, experimenting on children and prisoners and animals to gain an edge over its rivals and amass more power for those at the top. At the same time the competition and backstabbing between the various arms of the state are almost childish in their motivations, the epitome of foolishness. Knowledge on its own does not build trust or confidence��but it can build hubris and confusion and distrust. 
One unexpectedly fun part of writing Orpheus was the dynamics between Garden and WISE. While there is distrust at the start, the leaders and members of both sides demonstrate wisdom in how they navigate the partnership and grant trust to each other bit by bit. And this feels very counterintuitive to spies who build careers off of lies and masks, as they find that truthfulness can unlock results so much faster than subterfuge. At least when it comes to dealing with Garden.
On a final note on this topic, I find it interesting that in canon Donovan Desmond claims it is impossible to know what other people are thinking and therefore human beings can never trust each other. And yet the highest form of knowledge (second only to knowing God), in my opinion, is to truly know another person to the depth of their soul. To know a person completely, and to trust and love them regardless. This is what all people yearn for, even people like Twilight who have made a fortress of masks around their true self. And this kind of knowledge is what requires deep wisdom to wield well.
Sigmund Authen’s gift of the Tree of Life plaque and the accompanying wisdom quote was an unexpected event I did not plan in my outline for Chapter 33. So was Barbara’s advice to Yor in Chapter 34, which I will end this long ramble with:
Before the two left, Barbara turned and patted Yor’s arm. “I know what it’s like to be married to a brilliant man, dear. Don’t feel discouraged. They don’t need their brilliance and worldly achievements so much as they need our love. I know it can be exhausting sometimes, but I’ve stuck by my Siggy this long through thick and thin. What he didn’t mention amidst all that blather about wisdom is that even wisdom isn’t the final goal of all of mankind’s striving. Love is. What is a life full of wisdom and philosophy if it doesn’t help you find love and keep it? In my simple little mind, that’s what wisdom is for. Goodnight, dear. Thank you for having us over.”
And that's a wrap for my 2024!
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shoezuki · 3 months ago
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got to a good point to stop writin for the night so heres a Very Small blurb
im kinda like. consciously describing sampo as kinda gross rn. because like hes absolutely not in a good state rn hes not Pretty. hes grungy and unwell. im tryna describe gepard Seeing the state hes in but being smitten regardless
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feelo-fick · 4 months ago
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it can't be too hard right?
it's easy not to think about things, he tells me i don't think all the time! wait...
a scene from a fic that i have no clue if ill finish, let alone post, but look i made fanart of my own thing that doesnt even exist :D
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phanzon · 1 month ago
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Speakith and I shall deliver. I'll have chapter 3 of Puppeteer done soon
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meownotgood · 8 months ago
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stupid ass wizard.......... I totally fucking lied about this being under 20k btw
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andromeda-nova-writing · 3 months ago
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If you have been paying any attention, I’m a big lifelong Beyoncé fan. September 4th is her birthday so I’m using writing as another excuse to listen to her music on repeat. Give me a character and a song from this list. I want to see what I can come up with. (I recommend every song on this list btw. But that might be obvious lol)
CUFF IT
Crazy In Love
BODYGUARD
Love On Top
Baby Boy
MY ROSE
DAUGHTER
ALLIIGATOR TEARS
Pray You Catch Me
Sandcastles
Jealous
I Miss You
Start Over
Sweet Dreams
Flaws and All
Freakum Dress
Resentment
Listen
Poison
TYRANT
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bluevelvt · 1 year ago
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obikin where a good handful of padawans end up having a small crush on their master in the way of having a crush on a hot teacher where you know it can’t really go anywhere but it’s still there, anakin is one such padawan
obi-wan is somewhat aware of this, he’s not oblivious and he was once a padawan and there were definitely “who has the hottest master” talks with other teenage padawans, so he’s not judging anakin for being a little too into sparring matches where obi-wan ends up pinning him to the ground
he has also known his padawan would be and is attaractive, but it has always been in the context of “that girl we met on our mission was clearly flirting with you” and similar sorts of teasing
once the aotc kicks off and anakin reunites with padmé, he’s thinking “this could be an absolute disaster, but i really like her and i can actually be with her” and the he has crush on obi-wan fades away
skip ahead to anakin being knighted, where he is no longer obi-wan’s padawan but his equal, his brother as obi-wan says
this changes things, as much of the resentment(? don’t know how to best describe it) anakin had towards obi-wan is gone and obi-wan feels like he can truly be friends with anakin now that he doesn’t have to be his master and guide him
their bond becomes much closer and after anakin has his lada wan braid cut, grows his hair out, and starts looking like a jedi knight and not a padawan, the way obi-wan acknowledged that anakin is objectively handsome has changed into a much more subjective “fuck, he is really attractive”
and obi-wan just starts noticing more things about anakin that he found charming in him before but now it’s in a different manner and he feels like a silly teenage padawan with a crush now and not anakin
anakin has had a similar kind of realisation, where the things he loves about obi-wan haven’t really changed and has only grown to appreciate more and certain things he didn’t like before have started to grow on him now that they are equals in their relationship and he was still going to think obi-wan is hot no matter what
eventually, the crush he had on obi-wan starts to pop back up, even stronger this time and unlike before where obi-wan was unattainable, it’s slightly more possible that anakin could actually be with him
so they’re left both secretly crushing on each other, feeling like their sixteen again and trying to avoid thinking about it but hey… they’ve been a somewhat unusual pair with a very close bond so maybe, just maybe, something could happen
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unladielike · 1 year ago
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To be honest, I could bring myself to get with the times and add an 'Affiliated with' and 'Mains' section on Vivian's Pinned Post like all the youngins on here, but I'm cursed with the affliction of threads on this blog rarely extending past two notes due to the fact I have abysmal luck when it comes to pulling roleplay partners that won't vanish/deactivate on me, so realistically speaking, @illholy, @spiritpyro, and @dis--parity would be the only ones I could say I'm affiliated with... while my mains would probably be a constant '???', just because I'm uncertain on who even considers me a main at this point.
I mean, I'm fine with not being considered an affiliate in return, especially since Judith is permanently a part of Vivian's default canon verse for example regardless, but mains wise, I don't wanna assume stuff or be presumptuous... so for the longest time, I opt not to update my Pinned Post. Like, perhaps one day, Vivian would end up being important to more muses, but she tends to not receive much engagement compared to other blogs, I'm unconsciously all, 'God, who even wants this trash girl as their main?'.
Granted, I know I should probably be more confident about my OC since I've been writing her for ages now; only... even after all the time, I still can't help being self-conscious about Vivian, since I get the sense I'm the black sheep of the RPC and I know her personality can be a lot.
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soldiersscream · 4 months ago
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It's been a long and busy weekend at work.
I've done two things on here and I think I gotta nap so I can do it all again tomorrow
I have decided that I would like to win the lottery and never have to work again thanks.
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eddsworldstuck · 6 months ago
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i am once again jumping around in writing and wrote part of a chapter in act 3 while writing more of A1C1
and i am not okay
it was very cathartic tho
...i wrote it at 2 in the morning
on my phone
...do i need to mention again that this AU was revived to be a representation of my grief and help me process it, after playing both persona 3 portable and reload made me think about its core theme quite a bit?
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anyway have this doodle from last month from my doodle psd cause it's cute and to offset the sadness (guidesprite duo cause they both merged with their guidesprite when ascending)
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also the height difference is pretty accurate (heightcomparison.com)
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thefandomcassandra · 1 year ago
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Schrödinger's Cat Ch. 1: Tides of Time (ft. ANRI AI) — Orange_Oyster
Content Warnings for This Chapter: drowning, vomiting, explicit gore
Junpei woke up coughing and sputtering, trying to clear his lungs of the liquid that was choking them. He hit the ground on all fours, shaking like a small animal, and wheezed and whined. His breathing was ragged and stuttering but surprisingly dry. The only liquid he'd managed to eject were thin splatters of spit, the remnants dripping down his chin. His nose ran and he scrubbed at it with the back of his arm.
His heart rate slowed to something close to normal and he closed his eyes to try and get his bearings. Okay, Junpei. Where the hell are you?
The last thing that he could remember was the feeling of something sharp entering and exiting his body. He had keeled over, his legs suddenly not listening to him any longer, and plunged into the moon pool. Water had flooded his lungs as blood left him just as quickly, saturating the water around him in pink and brown ribbons of his life. Everything had gone black around the edges as blood loss and oxygen deprivation squeezed the last bit of his consciousness away and he had passed out. Or, more likely, died.
But he was on dry land with no water in his lungs and no stab wound in his back so maybe...
Maybe that was some horrid bad dream! Yeah, that seemed real likely. Whatever nonsense death prophecy that he had just woken up from was a dream and nothing more.
So where was here?
Satisfied with his not-death, Junpei stood up, wiped his palms on his jeans, and looked around to try and orient himself. 
He was in what appeared to be some kind of sleeping quarters. There were two three-tiered metal beds with incredibly thin mattresses and starched sheets tucked military style around the corners. There was something that looked like a utilitarian stove with a teapot on top. By that was some kind of accordion door.
On the other side of the room, near a round window, was a folding table and two folding chairs with threadbare cushions. By the table was a sink and small corkboard. Directly opposite from the window was something that was standing against the far wall covered in a sheet and, between the standing object and the sink was a metal door with a large red 5 painted on it in thick, dripping strokes.
The whole place looked eerily familiar and also incredibly ominous. Both of those things were not good in the slightest and Junpei was still trying to orient himself so he didn't have time to figure out if he'd been kidnapped for murder purposes or miscellaneous purposes.
Just as he was about to consider laying down on one of the uncomfortable-looking beds and sleeping off what was obviously a waking nightmare, there was a horrid creaking and cracking noise. It was coming from the window! The glass was fracturing, spiderweb cracks ejecting polygonal chunks of yellowing glass into the room as water began to leak and then pour in.
"Oh shit!" Junpei looked around the room, trying to find a way to escape. No way in hell he was dying here. Drowning in what was obviously the economy bunks of what was apparently a ship on the ocean seemed like a genuinely embarrassing way to die.
His first thought was to try the door. There was this weird electronic device next to it with a card reader and lever but when Junpei poked at it, nothing would move or respond to his prodding.
Oh great. It's a death trap puzzle room. He'd been kidnapped for murder reasons.
His second thought was to start tearing the room apart. If this was some kind of puzzle trap, there had to be a sporting chance of escaping before he drowned. Where was the fun in killing your victims before they got good at convoluted point and click adventure game logic nonsense? Ergo: there had to be some kind of keycard or whatever lying around to open the door.
On the bed near the stove was a blue briefcase with a keyhole and number lock. That was irritating but not unexpected. Why would anything be simple? The next course of action had to be finding the blue key for the blue briefcase.
From there he threw open the stove door and found a screwdriver with a red handle resting on coal-crusted metal. He gingerly picked it up and shoved it in his pocket because who doesn't need a screwdriver? After he closed the door, he looked in the teapot.
"Jackpot!" Inside the metal cookware was a blue key. Now he needed the number code unless he wanted to brute force the damn thing open; not that he had time to do that. The rushing water was already getting a little too high for his liking, lapping the more absorbent parts of his shoes.
If he survived but had wet socks he was going to be pissed. Death was better than soggy socks any day.
Throwing the closet open revealed a red briefcase. That meant he needed a red key and, yeah, another code. At least things were consistent.
There was a weird memo with shapes and an arrow in blue and red under a pillow. That probably had to do with the briefcases, obviously, but it was hard to tell what. It probably wasn't a complete clue. Junpei waded against the current to the sink by the broken porthole—because this was a ship and ship windows were portholes, right?
On the corkboard was another shape and color memo, which Junpei pocketed with the other one for scrutiny later. Below the corkboard but above the sink, sitting on a damp-looking wooden shelf, was a picture of some old ship in a frame. It looked modern. Not like super modern, but like last century definitely-probably-a-cruise-ship modern. Big and metal with smokestacks and sharp contrasting values.
The picture wasn't in color so he could only judge the design by shape and monochromatic value at best. It wasn't bad looking but it also wasn't something Junpei wanted to die on.
If he was going to die, it'd be doing something halfway interesting, not a sinking abandoned cruise ship from decades ago.
"I wonder..." Junpei flipped the picture frame over and felt rewarded for being nosey. On the backside of the frame were crosstip screws and he had a crosstip screwdriver! Perfect tool for a murder puzzle room! Fair and square, just like he figured.
It was more than a little weird how Junpei had yet to freak the hell out about how he had been kidnapped. Thus far, he had tries to puke ocean water, realized he wasn't drowning, tried to get his bearings, realized he was going to drown if he didn't escape, and somehow found two keys, a hint paper, a picture frame, and a screwdriver—oh, wait, scratch those last two. The picture frame lost its value the second he extracted its innards and the screwdriver, as useful as it might have been in literally any situation, broke. Tip snapped right off.
"That's just planned obsolescence. Cheap way to make extra money selling tools." As fun as it was to snipe and talk to himself as if anyone else could hear him, he was wasting time being cute. Besides, it looked like the back of the photo had the key for the color and shape puzzle. That's a win for Junpei.
He tossed the now-ruined remains of the screwdriver to the side and walked past the door to the standing thing covered in a sheet on the other side. He tugged the sheet off and saw a standing mirror with a red key taped to the frame. He yanked it off and stared at his reflection with scrutiny.
He was starting to develop a bit of a headache between his temples. It was a digging, ever-present pain that spread fire across his nose and the back of his eyes. Maybe it was the whole 'wake up and cough until he realized he wasn't drowning' thing but he felt like hot garbage.
"Oh I look terrible." It was fine if he said it aloud because it was true. He was pale and sweaty, his hair matted down in places against his skin, and he had massive dark circles under his eyes. He felt like shit too but that wasn't the point. The point was that, staring in the mirror, tracing the scruff on his chin with his eyes, and thinking really hard made him realize that he remembered how he wound up here.
Someone in a gas mask broke into his apartment and gassed him into unconsciousness and that was...damn. Kidnapped for murder reasons and he knew the face of the bastard who did it and their motive. Kinda? If a gas mask counted as a 'face'.
Still, whatever was going on was infuriatingly vague. What the fuck was a Nonary Game? Aside from the obvious 'game where he put his life on the line' as ol' Gas Mask had been kind enough to tell him. And why him? What had he done to deserve this?
He didn't have time to worry about the why and self-pity and so on. He needed to get the hell out of this room before it flooded. His socks were getting wet and he hated it. Time to use that irritation as motivation!
Comparing the two color and shape papers to the key on the back of the picture of the ship, Junpei unlocked the blue briefcase and was rewarded with a really nice file folder, a calculator, a pen, a notebook, and a handful of blue key cards. Not willing to miss out on any kind of hint or information about how to use the key cards, he cracked the file open and started reading, sitting on the bunk next to the briefcase with his feet pulled on the mattress to keep them dry.
The one file in the folder was on something called 'digital roots'. It was some kind of math thing that just involved adding together numbers and reducing them down to the ones digit by continuing to add them. Wasn't a complicated process, all things considered, and Junpei was pretty sure he could do digital roots in his sleep, but the calculator, notebook, and pen went into one vest pocket and the file folder went under his arm for the moment.
"I should invest in something with larger pockets," Junpei mused as he unlocked the red briefcase and got the other key cards, leaving the picture and two code papers in the briefcase as he walked to the door. "Imagine if I could keep my notebooks in my pockets? No more backpack! Rain wouldn't be so bad anymore." It was wistful thinking. Nobody made pockets that big.
There was nowhere the cards could be used except the card reader by the large door out of here. Looking at the intimidating 5 on it, Junpei's headache flared and he winced. No time for pain though; he had to use the keycards to escape.
Swiping one of the red cards caused the machine to beep but it didn't react to any of the other red cards so he swiped a blue one and the display flickered to life. Junpei stared at it and tried to puzzle out what they wanted from him but...it was obvious wasn't it? The file on digital roots wasn't just there for kicks. 1, 6, and 7 had a digital root of 5. He swiped each card and pulled the lever, which opened the door and let him finally leave.
Panic and relief filled his lungs like the white gas in his apartment but with an opposite effect. It energized him, gave him the energy to tear out of the flooding room and down the now-flooding hallway on his own two feet. He scrambled towards the stairs as fast as he could go, trying to not slow down too much. If he escaped that room only to die by drowning anyway he was going to be so, so angry. All that effort for nothing.
He skidded a little as he tore the door open into what looked like a grand staircase. Panicked by the wave of water rushing towards him, he dashed up the stairs like a frightened animal, using his hands to give him an extra boost to continue up to the next floor, only stopping mid-step when he found himself staring at a group of seven oddly familiar people.
There was a large mountain of a man wearing a teal beanie, an older gentleman with hair like a lion, a reedy dandelion looking guy who was sweaty as hell, some punk guy with white hair and a scowl, a tall, handsome dude in a regal looking coat, a pink girl in Harajuku fashion, and a woman in so little clothing Junpei was worried she might freeze. Junpei was certain that this group saw him tear up the stairs like a man possessed and hoped they didn't think less of him for it. Would be pretty embarrassing to have to introduce yourself as 'that guy who ran up the stairs like a thing from a horror movie' but considering his pants legs were soaked and he looked harrowed, he was probably fine. They would understand.
"No time for introductions. Sorry kid." The woman pushed past him, the rest following her as she tried to go down the stairs. Junpei would have considered it rude but, really, it seemed like that's just how she was.
The punk pushed past Junpei as well, but stopped to glare at him. His skin crawled like he was being dissected by the punk's gaze. Then the punk continued downward.
"There's nowhere to go upstairs," the older gentleman said. Junpei looked up the stairs and frowned. "The two doors on the A-deck are locked."
"Uh—!" As if he remembered he could talk, Junpei called out to the older gentleman and the other two who had descended the grand staircase. "I think D-deck is underwater by now! Be careful!"
The older gentleman looked back at him and nodded.
On the stairs, the girl in pink had the handsome man's wrist in her grip, dragging her with him. He was smiling faintly as she did so, almost as if this was a normal way for them to interact. He tilted his head as if he was listening for something but he spoke up, his voice refined and careful. "That's the ninth one? All of the cards are in play now." The pink girl holding his wrist nodded and made a noise of affirmation. The two of them walked past him with no worries.
The mountain in the beanie and the sweaty guy got to the landing and passed Junpei on the stairs. The dandelion guy startled at every movement, his glasses fogged where they touched his skin. When Junpei looked at him, he made a quiet noise of fear. Junpei's nose wrinkled in confusion but he didn't try and stop him as he went down.
The mountain, on the other hand, stopped to call back to Junpei. "Th' hell are you doing? C'mon down to B-deck with everyone else!" Loud seemed to he his default volume but his tone wasn't unkind. Rather, he seemed almost worried and protective, like he was trying to make sure everyone made it.
"L-like I told the others: the D-deck is underwater."
The mountain didn't seem to care. "Good thing we're not going all the way to D-deck then." With one hand, as easy as moving a glass of beer on a bartop, the mountain pushed Junpei down the stairs.
He stumbled and caught himself on the railing, his extra momentum causing his legs to skid slightly. He frowned at the mountain but the man had caught up to everyone else sitting on the B-deck landing, grouped up in a clump looking at something. There was an air of tension choking the crowd and Junpei was worried that, if he didn't hurry up, he'd miss something important.
Just past them were two large metal doors and, while he could only make out one of them, what he saw made his blood run cold. A large, red, painted 5. Just like in the room he woke up in. Junpei could barely breathe.
"Oh..." It wasn't a word so much as air escaping his lungs in horror.
"They're exactly the same," the punk hissed.
"Agreed." The older gentleman nodded, rubbing his chin in thought. "It's similar to the one I exited out of to reach the main hall."
Everyone clamored to admit they also had similar doors, though the older woman was having none of it. "Sure, we all had doors like this. We don't have time to talk about it!"
"You think I'm just chatting?" The punk snarled and gestured at the 5 door. "If I could will the damn thing open I would." They seemed to already have beef, or it might be a clash of personality. The punk and the older woman both seemed rather abrasive.
Thankfully, as strange as that might sound, the mountain moved the punk with as much care as he had Junpei. The punk grunted as he was displaced but the mountain reared back and bodied the door. The wall rattled, a metal sound that made Junpei's teeth hurt. The mountain pulled back and tackled the door again. And again. And again. He was gonna bruise his shoulder if he kept that up.
"You're big but that's a metal door, man," Junpei called out. "I don't think that's the way to open the actual door." He had walked down the stairs to B-deck to the landing and looked at the other door. It had a big red 4 on it, like the 5 door. He tugged on the handles but it didn't budge. The only clue they had to how it worked was the familiar scanner next to it with a lever on the side and a digital display above it, like a clock but blank.
If their only way out were these unopenable doors, then what did that mean for their survival? Even if this was a fucked up murder puzzle, calling it the Nonary Game implied some level of fairness. There shouldn't be unsolvable puzzles and there shouldn't be unopenable doors. Then he remembered that there was one floor down that wasn't under water. The C-deck.
Junpei turned to head down the stairs to the C-deck but someone caught his eye: an eighth person standing by the clock near the grand staircase. He hadn't noticed her there before and she hadn't spoken up or run to B-deck like the other seven had. Instead, she had calmly walked down the stairs, long after everyone else had.
She couldn't have been any older than Junpei himself and she was achingly familiar. Before he realized it, Junpei was running towards her, his voice caught deep in his throat. His chest ached, he was desperate to reach her and make sure she was real. He needed to see if she was alive. It meant more to him than anything else, even escaping.
She, too, looked as if she had seen a ghost. Frozen on the stairs, it was only when he was close enough to reach that she moved to meet him on the landing. Her foot slipped and she failed to catch herself on the railing but Junpei was faster than gravity. She only fell against his chest as he tried to not move too quickly.
For all he wanted to touch her, to hold her in his arms, he didn't want to upset her. Every move Jupei made was careful and stiff. He only held her shoulder to set her back upright, eyes drinking in every detail of her face. The flush in her cheeks, the light in her eyes, the breath escaping her lips all signs she was alive.
Then his brain caught up with the rest of him and Junpei had the sense to look embarrassed. He cast his gaze to the stairs behind her and chuckled slightly as he let go of her shoulders. "Uh, sorry about that, I—"
"You're crying." That caused him to look back at her. She gave him a soft smile and laughed a bit. Her laughter was wind-chimes on a summer day and it loosened something in his chest.
"O-oh. Am I?" He reached up to rub at his face and his hand came back wet. "Huh." Why had he run to her? Why was he so concerned if she was alive? Who was this person to him? Did it have to do with his weird dream about drowning? "Again, uh, sorry."
"No need to apologize." She smiled again. "I guess part of you recognized me after all these years! You care about me."
"Who—?" Even as he started to ask her who she was, he figured it out. He hadn't seen her in years and yet...maybe he truly did just know her, without effort. After all, Akane Kurashiki was his best and only friend growing up. "Akane! What are you doing here?"
"Oh, you know," Akane tucked a lock of hair behind her ear and beamed, "probably the same thing as you, Jumpy."
He hadn't heard that nickname in years. It knocked a peal of laughter free from his chest and he felt so light. Then the reality of their situation hit him and a stone dropped into his stomach. The Nonary Game. Getting kidnapped. Before Junpei could say anything else, their kidnapper and captor, their game master, decided to give them a hearty welcome.
The voice that came out of the antique PA system was warped and distorted, same as it had been when they spoke in Junpei's apartment. "Welcome aboard." Everyone, even the punk, the mountain, and the older woman froze, their eyes turned upward to the brass trumpet mounted in the corner of the B-deck stairwell. "From the bottom of my heart I welcome you to this, my vessel."
The silence and tension were thick enough to cut with a butter knife. As their kidnapper spoke, Akane's hand snaked into Junpei's and he could feel her trembling slightly. He squeezed her hand. She squeezed back.
"I am Zero, the captain of this ship." Now they had a name for their captor: Zero. "I am also the person who invited you here." Invited?
Junpei snorted derisively. "Invited my ass."
The punk, however, leaned toward the trumpet and yelled loud enough that Zero probably could have heard him at the prow of the ship. "Fuck that! Get your ass out here so I can beat it! None of that cowardly gas shit either!"
"Why are we here?" The older gentleman was much more measured than the punk and Junpei. His voice was low and calm, though projected, and his posture was defensive instead of aggressive.
"I mean to have you participate in a game," Zero answered. It was unclear if they could hear everyone or if this was just a well-timed recording, but either way, their response caused everyone to freeze in place. Nobody seemed capable of breaking through the spell Zero's words had cast over them. "Some of you, I know, are familiar with this game. The Nonary Game. It is a game where you will put your life on the line."
It was a murder kidnapping. A murder puzzle kidnapping. Junpei should have been horrified or shocked, but it was almost like he knew this already. Zero's information, while upsetting, wasn't new to him. He knew about the Nonary Games and the stakes of it.
His head hurt, a burning pressure against his eyes. Akane looked at him, worried, and squeezed his hand. That was an anchor, her cool skin against his striking. He squeezed back and offered her a soft reassuring smile.
"The rules of the Nonary Game can be found upon your persons. They are simple rules. Read them." Zero was very no-nonsense. Couldn't even say please.
"What are they talking about? Rules?" The older woman looked at everyone else as if they might have a satisfactory answer for her.
Thankfully, the punk had stuck his hands in his pockets, searching for whatever rules Zero had left everyone, and pulled out a folded sheet of paper. "Holy shit."
Junpei, realizing he probably had one as well, patted his pockets down and found an identical paper in his back left pants pocket. "Oh hey." Zero put that in his pants? That felt like an invasion of privacy or something. Touching his ass was a step too far, even past drugging and kidnapping him.
"Well it appears as though our host is at least gracious enough to not leave us in the dark." The older gentleman pointed to Junpei. "Do you mind reading that for us? So we can all have the same information."
It was a weird ask, all things considered. If everyone had the same sheet with the same instructions, why would he need to read it out loud? Then Junpei remembered the handsome man was blind and how little clothing the older woman was wearing. Between the two of them, they probably didn't have or were unable to read their rule list so...it was only kind to let everyone know what was expected of them.
Junpei unfolded the paper and tried to make sense of the printed instructions as he read them aloud to everyone, enunciating as clearly as he could. "On this ship you will find a handful of doors emblazoned with numbers. We will call them the numbered doors. The doors in front of you are a pair of the same." The 4 and 5 doors loomed at them, their red numbers not so much emblazoned as slapdash, but it would be rude to correct their host. Not that Junpei thought Zero was actually listening to them in the first place. It was probably something automated on a timer.
He continued reading, "The key to opening these numbered doors are the numbered bracelets that each of you possess. Should you total the numbers on your numbered bracelets and find that the digital root of that number is equal to the number of that door, the door will open." Junpei had been trying to keep his voice neutral as he read so he didn't color the objective rules in any way but it was hard to not become excited at the prospect of getting off this ship. "Only those who have opened the door may pass through. There are, however, limits. Only three to five people can pass through one numbered door. All those who enter must leave, and all who enter must contribute."
Junpei realized he hadn't even bothered to look at the watch on his left arm. Even during his initial escape, in the room he woke up in, he hadn't noticed it. It was almost as if he was already used to its weight and presence on his wrist. As he looked at the number, thinking about the rules Zero had given them, he realized how simple and ironclad they were. Two people could not go into a numbered door alone, which meant that no direct murders or collusion could happen without a third person witnessing. Everyone who entered had to put some effort into whatever came beyond the numbered door itself—likely something similar to the room he'd woken up in—which meant that there could be no dead weight. Everyone worked, everyone made their way to the final exit, and if Junpei's math was right, it was highly unlikely that any one person would constantly pair with one other person the whole time. The necessity of the numbered doors requiring a digital root meant that eventually pairs would be split and everyone would have to get along.
Judging by the variety of personalities in this group, Junpei figured it would be hard.
He continued on, mind racing as he tried to make sense of the absurd position he'd found himself in. "The purpose of the game is simple: leave this ship alive. It is hidden, but an exit can be found. Seek a way out. Seek a door that carries a 9." His words rang out in the B-deck. Even though he was keeping his eyes down on the paper, he could see Akane's hands shaking in his peripheral vision and the way the handsome man's face was drawn and ashen.
"There is one last thing I must tell you." Zero broke their lull, everyone staring at the trumpet in the corner with bated breath. "As you have no doubt surmised: this ship has begun to sink. On April fourteenth, nineteen twelve, the famous ocean liner Titanic crashed into an iceberg. After remaining afloat for two hours and forty minutes, it sank beneath the waters of the North Atlantic." What the hell was Zero on about? What did the Titanic have to do with the Nonary Games? "I will give you more time. Nine hours. That is the time you will be given to make your escape."
Just as Zero said that, the clock by the staircase rang out nine times. Everyone's attention was there, every bell a rising death knell. They had nine hours. It was nine o'clock right now. That meant that, in order to not drown as the ship capsized, they would have to be gone by six in the morning.
"Nine?" The mountain's head was cocked as he listened to the clock tell the hour.
"Nine PM," Junpei said. When the mountain looked at him weird, he added, "There was a porthole or window or whatever in the room I was in. I couldn't see outside so it has to be nighttime." Or it could be that the porthole was under the water line, but even ocean water refracted light. If it was daytime, the light would have shone in regardless. 
"A deadline of six AM tomorrow, hm?" The older gentleman said what everyone was thinking.
That, apparently, was Zero's clue to finish their spiel. "Now, it is time. Let our game begin. I wish you all the best of luck." Then the white noise cut out and the trumpet fell silent. The only sounds were the gentle lapping of the water in the D-deck and the creaking and groaning of the ship itself. It sounded like the screams of the damned, drowned souls clawing at the hull. It was an eerie sound, a mausoleum of metal on the water.
The silence was broken by the punk yelling at the trumpet. "Hey! The hell is that supposed to mean? Get out here you insincere piece of shit!" Junpei's head throbbed, the pain behind his eyes flaring up with every loud noise.
While the others weren't yelling like the punk was, they were upset. The mountain was standing rigid, his shoulders hard angles, eyes darting this way and that as if looking for something. The older gentleman was staring at the floor, his brow furrowed in deep thought. The older woman had her hands on her hips, one hip cocked, and was frowning so hard Junpei thought she might hurt herself. Akane had her arms wrapped around herself and was staring at Junpei as if she was waiting for him to act first. But what could he do?
Barring his first instinct of 'sit down and do nothing and die about it', his second instinct wasn't much better. Should they really play along with Zero's plans and engage with the Nonary Game? If this was some kind of murder kidnapping, aside from the slowly sinking ship, there had to be some kind of murder trap in one—if not more—of these numbered doors.
That's not even accounting for the weird specificity of their nine hour time limit. Could Zero control the speed at which the ship sinks? If so: why? Why nine people? Why nine hours? Why nine doors? Why nine at all?
What was Zero playing at? What was the point of all this?
And, the little voice in the back of his head asked, why is Akane here? It can't just be happenstance. You can't just meet your childhood friend again out of nowhere on a murder boat. That's statistically improbable.
It was the older gentleman who broke the heavy silence. "Well, standing around sulking won't do us any good. We should get going, before another hour is up."
Junpei stared at him, confused. He understood what he was suggesting but...
"You want to open the numbered doors?" Akane voiced Junpei's thought for him.
"You can't be serious?!" The older woman moved forward towards the older gentleman, her posture aggressive. "You're going to just do what our kidnapper told you to?"
"You misunderstand me." The older gentleman pulled back from her and shook his head. He seemed a little irritated she was misunderstanding him but Junpei couldn't tell what the older gentleman thought he was saying. "I'm suggesting we look about for an alternate route. We've only just gotten here. None of us have actually tried to find any other exit."
The older lady seemed confused but Junpei was moreso. He had been the odd one out, the only one of the nine of them still on D-deck. What had they done that he hadn't been privy to? "Huh? You guys searched A-deck already?"
The mountain scratched the back of his head. "We did search around but we were in a hurry coz of the loud noise. We might've missed something."
"I think C-deck should still be okay, despite the water. D-deck, like I said earlier, is submerged. That's where I woke up." Junpei ducked his chin at the stairs. "We could search there?"
"Sure. Why not." The punk, calmer now that he'd given Zero a verbal lashing, seemed amicable. The older gentleman seemed to like Junpei's idea as well.
C-deck was, blessedly, not under water. The stairs leading down from C-deck to D-deck were covered, the surface calm, but that didn't assuage Junpei's fear about the ship sinking.
Even if the water isn't rising, the anxious part of his brain screamed, even if the surface is mirror still, that doesn't mean the ship isn't sinking. It very much is. Zero said so and, thus far, Zero hasn't lied.
Zero kidnapped everyone and is forcing us to play in this...this Nonary Game, the angrier part of his brain snapped back. Why the hell should we trust them to be honest? That's gonna get everyone killed.
He assumed he wasn't the only one having this line of thinking because, despite most everyone standing a fair distance from the water-filled stairwell, the handsome man was knelt down with his hand in the water. Next to him, the girl in pink looked anxiously between the handsome man and the water.
"Good news," the handsome man said as he stood up and wiped his hand on his pants leg, "the water is still so that means that it is likely that Zero sealed the breach."
"So we aren't sinking?" The mountain wasn't ready to relax just yet.
"We were given nine hours to complete the Nonary Game so we can assume the water will remain this still for nine hours. The moment it is six AM, the seal will open and the ship will capsize with whoever remains still inside." He was very, very calm for someone saying shit that ominous.
"That's...good?" The mountain still refused to relax. "Or, it's good if true."
The handsome man smiled at that. "I might be presenting this a little optimistically but I am fairly certain that I am right." The girl in pink nodded in agreement.
The punk, however, didn't consider this good news. "Man, that blows."
"Unless there is a way to access the floors below D-deck, assuming they're not submerged as well, we only have A-deck and C-deck as alternatives to the numbered doors." While he was telling the truth, nobody liked what the older gentleman was saying.
"Well let's look at C-deck since we're here instead of just assuming the worst?" The punk jerked his thumb behind him, at the whole of C-deck. Junpei looked at what little this deck had to offer.
"Yeah," he agreed. "The metal doors there, the ones on the far side of C-deck? Those might be promising."
The older woman crossed the C-deck and stared at the door. "Well they're not numbered, despite mirroring the ones a floor higher, and there's no authentication device." She leaned forward, grabbed the knob of one of the doors in her hand, and tried to twist it. It didn't move so she rattled it a bit, then let go and turned back towards everyone with defeat written all over her face.
The mountain tried the other door and found it immovable, even for him. "Damn, both of them, huh?"
The punk, however, had found something interesting. "Hey, check this out." Everyone—including the mountain and the older lady—trailed after him and found a door that looked like the other two.
The older gentleman rattled the door. "Locked as well."
"We'll see about that," the mountain grimaced at the door. "Hey, old man, help me out." The older gentleman seemed to realize the mountain was planning on using brute force and, despite his age, tried to help. While the mountain yelled in exertion and both men yanked on the door, it didn't budge, leaving them panting.
The older woman had withdrawn from near the door when they tried to force it. She sniffed and demanded, "Let a girl know when you're going to start shouting. Scared the shit out of me." Her hand was trembling where it rested against her chest.
"Sorry." At least the mountain apologized.
"It's very well made to not have moved an inch," the older gentleman noted with a degree of awe.
"Well why not use your brain first, idiots." The older woman tapped something below the doorknob of the door. It was a circle with a dot in the middle, but she wasn't indicating that. Just the keyhole beneath it. "We need to find the key before this—" she rapped a knuckle against the door, "—will open."
"A key." The punk didn't seem convinced or all too enthused.
"Yeah. Unless you wanna try picking it?"
He rolled his eyes at the older woman. "I just don't think it'll be that easy to find the key to this specific door. It's not gonna be in a chair cushion or anything." She didn't like that.
Regardless of their conversation, Junpei was more interested in the symbol above the keyhole. There had to be a reason it was there and, above all else, it had to have a meaning.
"What does this even mean?" Junpei asked aloud. It wasn't to any one person in particular, which is why he was startled when the girl in pink answered him.
"Here's another one!" Junpei walked to where she was standing by the double doors and tried to see what she meant.
"Man," Junpei sighed. "More doors."
"Elevators, I think." The girl in pink indicated the glowing buttons to the right of both sets of doors and the round cages that covered the actual door mechanism. "Don't those look like elevator call buttons?"
They did. Junpei pressed one and nothing happened. He frowned.
"You think they're not powered?" Akane asked. Junpei jumped a little but pretended like she didn't unintentionally sneak up on him.
"Maybe this card reader is the key." Junpei pointed out a card reader that had a lever like the verification devices by the numbered doors and a strange symbol carved into the face of it. It looked like a weird letter.
"It looks like someone took the letter 'h' and stabbed it." Junpei gestured, trying to show the two girls what he meant.
"Oh, no." Akane giggled. "It's the celestial symbol for Saturn."
Celestial symbol... "Then the other door? The one with the keyhole?"
"The Sun, I think." Akane tilted her head in thought and nodded.
"Oh! I think there were some like that on A-deck!" The girl in pink seemed to realize.
"I don't remember seeing anything like that." The older woman frowned.
"I haven't been up there so I couldn't tell you." Junpei didn't think any of them cared but he felt the almost compulsive need to speak out anyway.
"Well since we're talking about it, we might as well give A-deck another look." The older gentleman began walking up the grand staircase and everyone else followed. The girl in pink stopped to make sure she was holding on to the handsome man's wrist again, which struck Junpei as both odd and normal in equally conflicting amounts.
When everyone reached A-deck, the girl in pink pointed out two doors where the stairs let out. "Those. The left one is where I saw a symbol like the one on C-deck."
It was a circle with a cross in it, dead center. Junpei couldn't deny that it was remarkably similar to the Sun symbol downstairs. "Yeah, it does kinda match."
Akane, who was actively peering over Junpei's shoulder, smiled. "This is the Earth symbol. The lines here are the equator and the prime meridian." She knew a lot about celestial symbols.
Junpei tilted his head back and stared at the ceiling. It was a large metal dome held shut with rivets. "Oh."
"It looks as though we're barred from going that way." The older gentleman sighed.
"Man," the girl in pink groaned, "but climbing out the top of this ship would've been so cool."
"Yeah but imagine the amount of explosives we'd need to crack it open." The punk pointed out. The girl in pink stared upward and grinned as if she was thinking about what he was suggesting.
Junpei looked around as well. Arched windows were sealed with metal plates and rivets. Nothing quite like the porthole down in D-deck here, it seemed, only sealed windows and covered domes.
"Sealed windows and locked doors," Junpei murmured aloud as he continued to look around for some kind of non-numbered exit. Still, he knew deep down that they had to play by Zero's rules or not at all and it made him angry and bitter.
"I'm sure we'll find the keys for the locked doors somewhere." The girl in pink looked surprisingly upbeat for their situation.
"And what if they lead in circles or to nowhere? What then? That's not an exit." The mountain grimaced at the thought but, really, someone had to say it.
"I doubt it." The handsome man shook his head. "If there was no point to them, they wouldn't exist. And we know there is an exit, the door marked with a 9. So why not try the two doors we know we can open?" He was referring to the 4 and 5 doors.
A heavy feeling of dread and grim acceptance seemed to smother everyone. Everyone, that is, save the older woman.
"I've already said that I think we shouldn't mess with the numbered doors." She placed herself between everyone else and the stairs leading down to B-deck, arms out as if she was blocking their path. "I don't want to play along with Zero. I don't think it's a smart decision."
That sparked a loud and spirited back and forth.
"Might as well try the doors," the mountain pointed out.
"I am in agreement there." The older gentleman nodded. 
"Are you listening to me?!" The older woman countered.
"We should at least try," the girl in pink pleaded.
"It could be a trap! We should stay put." The older woman rebuffed.
"You wanna drown?!" The punk snapped at her.
The only people not participating in this row were the handsome man, Akane, Junpei, and the dandelion, who had been quiet this whole time. Junpei's headache intensified. He wanted everything to be quiet and cold and cool. He'd have to settle for quiet.
"Shut up!" Junpei hadn't been very loud but he was shouting. That seemed to get everyone's attention. Even the argument ceased as the participants stared at him. Their eyes felt like hot coals against his skin. He swallowed and exhaled out his mouth. "Before we argue more over if we're going to go in the numbered doors or not, we gotta do one thing first."
"Oh?" The girl in pink cocked her head. With her pigtails, she looked like an inquisitive cocker spaniel.
"Swap information. Names, mostly. Whatever else you're willing to divulge. Just so I can stop mentally calling everyone by epithets. It's giving me a headache." Another sigh escaped him, hissing steam through his teeth.
Nobody answered. That was fine, he hadn't expected any of them to willingly show their hand or anything, but it still pulled his guts into a tangle. He hated standing there, being looked at with disdain and distrust.
Then Akane voiced her opinion. "I agree with Jumpy."
That caused the mountain, barely suppressing a smile, to ask for clarification. "Jumpy?"
Akane blinked. A flush of pink crept across her cheeks. Junpei was certain he was blushing too. "Oh, uh, right. Sorry, I'm talking about him." She pointed directly at Junpei. "His name's Junpei, but I call him Jumpy. We've been friends since we were kids."
"Hey," the mountain kept her from saying anything else, concern and worry weirdly evident to at least Junpei. "Part of the reason nobody's saying anything about themselves is coz Zero's probably listening. If they are, then they might use any personal information they hear against us."
Akane blinked in surprise. "Huh?"
"We don't know if Zero grabbed a bunch of random people off the street or if this was planned out. Any information they know is information they can use to hurt us, y'know? Leverage our families against us, ransom us to get whatever they can. Any information is dangerous."
"We still need to know each other's names," Akane protested. "Having conversations will be really hard if we don't have names."
"So we use code names." The mountain looked proud of himself for suggesting that. "Each of us pick our own. I'll be Seven."
Junpei's first instinct was to nod at him because his code name made sense. His second instinct, the stronger one, was to run his mouth. "Why Seven?"
The newly christened Seven grinned. "Coz of my bracelet number." He held up his left hand, revealing the number on the display as 7.
"Damn, that's a smart idea." The punk seemed impressed with Seven's plan. "Then just call me Santa." As if he expected people to ask him follow-up questions, he continued with a smirk. "Three in Japanese is 'san', right? And that way I can be San-ta. Santa. Like Santa Claus. Works, right?" He seemed so proud of himself.
The older man looked as if he was understanding something about Santa. "So your bracelet number is—"
Santa held out his left wrist displaying the digital number 3. "Good job, grandpa. It's a three."
"Okay, I'll go next. My bracelet is number one. Ergo, I think Ace is a fair code name for me." The older man—Ace—held out his left wrist to reveal the bright 1 on its face.
The older woman chose to go next. "Call me Lotus. I'm sure everyone knows that the lotus flower has eight petals. Of course that means my bracelet number is eight." She held out her left wrist, the 8 visible from even where Junpei was standing.
The handsome man was quick on the draw, following Lotus before anyone else could speak. "I would appreciate it if you would call me Snake." He held out his left wrist to show his 2. "My bracelet number is two. I figure the card motif for Ace leaves dice for myself. Snake-eyes seems especially relevant considering I am blind." Everyone but the girl in pink seemed surprised by this information. Well, her and Junpei.
"You can't see?" Ace's brow furrowed even deeper as he stared at Snake.
"I knew it," Lotus hissed, even though she seemed just as taken aback as everyone else.
Junpei, however, was mulling over why he wasn't thrown off by the revelation that Snake was blind. He hadn't known that, had he? But it wasn't a surprise and, really, it made sense because the girl in pink kept holding him by the wrist and—
His headache flared and he had to take slow, deep breaths to get the pain to lessen.
Thankfully, the girl in pink volunteered to think up a code name. "My turn! I want to be Clover. Like a four-leaf clover? A good luck charm!" She idly showed everyone the 4 bracelet on her left wrist. "I've got bracelet number four."
Junpei figured that he was numerically next. "Okay so I've got bracelet number five and—"
"Why bother?" Lotus cut him off. When Junpei didn't seem to get why she did that, she waved her hand at him and Akane. "We already know your name is Junpei. It's pointless."
Junpei couldn't help but feel a little disappointed. He wanted a cool code name and all but, well, not having to think up something relevant to the number five was a bit of a gift from Lotus, whether she intended it to be or not.
Akane frowned. "Then you should call me by my name too, since I gave Jumpy's away." She fidgeted with her sleeves, nervous. She didn't really want to do this but she felt obligated.
That wouldn't do. "What's your bracelet number?" Junpei asked her. She held out her left wrist, showing off the 6 bracelet. Junpei gave it a moment's thought, then found something. "June."
Akane stared at him with wide, startled eyes. She looked like a baby rabbit being gently scooped up by their human caretaker.
"June?" Ace seemed confused.
"Sixth month of the year?" It wasn't a question, more of a clarification, but being put on the spot made Junpei nervous. He turned back to Akane, meeting her eyes. "So you're June." He wasn't asking and she seemed confused.
"Jumpy, you—"
"Is that okay?" He tried to give her his most charming smile but it must have looked silly because she snorted.
"...Yeah. I'll be June." It was a slow, almost reluctant agreement but she did it anyway. Now Junpei was the only one who didn't have a code name. That was fine. Learning to answer to another name would've been hard anyway.
He tried to keep telling himself that so he didn't get jealous of Seven or Santa of all people.
"So to recap: one is Ace, two is Snake, three is Santa, four is Clover, five is me, six is June, seven is Seven, and eight is Lotus." Everyone nodded as Junpei repeated their numbers and names, pointing to each of them in turn. "All that leaves is—"
"The guy with the glasses and the wild hair," Seven finished for Junpei. Everyone looked over at him.
He was sweating still, dark stains forming in his armpits, and his glasses were patchy with fog. His hair, still a wild puff like a dandelion, was sticking to his forehead and neck in places. He looked pale and twitchy, his eyes flicking across the room every couple of seconds. He seemed almost moments away from passing out.
Santa closed the distance with him and bent forward, sneering a little. "You haven't said a thing this whole damn time."
He gaped a little and made a strangled noise.
Clover slowly walked towards him, pushing Santa back a bit. She placed her hands on her hips, cocked them, and eyed the man suspiciously. "What's your number?"
"Uh..." It was the closest to words they'd gotten from him yet but it still wasn't actually words.
"Are you listening? I asked you a question." Clover snapped at him, still not entirely in his space.
He licked his lips nervously, panting a bit, and finally spoke. "W-w-why are you e-even asking? There are nine people a-a-and you know - you know who one through e-eight are. I'm the - the only one left." His voice was shrill and dry in equal parts, like a styrofoam on styrofoam and pine wood on a campfire. He sounded like he was seconds away from throwing up or passing out.
Clover sighed like she was coaxing an answer out of a small child. "So you're nine?"
The man fixed her with a dull gaze and answered, "Yeah." Then he held out his left wrist to show everyone his bracelet. The digital display showed a 9.
Clover stared at his bracelet like it personally offended her. "And your code name?"
"C-code name?" He repeated.
"What do you want us to call you? We got ours so you should too, unless you wanna be like Jumpy over there." It was a personal dig but June was the one who seemed hurt.
"I don't - I don't need one."
"Why not?"
"Because I'm n-not going to - to stay here. ...With y-y-you." He took a shaky breath in, then exhaled slowly, like he was trying to calm down.
Clover just glared at him like he was something vile. "You've got a plan?" She asked sweetly, her tone not matching the simmering look in her eyes or the set of her shoulders.
"Y-yeah."
"What's that?"
"Y-you sure you want - want to know?"
"Yeah?"
"O-okay. Let me sh-show you. Here's my - my plan!" He stepped forward, closing the distance between himself and Clover and snagged her with his left arm around her waist. For all that he talked like he was terrified, he moved with a blinding purpose and seemed to express no regret.
"What the hell do you think you're doing?!" Santa snarled at the man, lunging for him. He only stopped when the man pulled a small knife from his pocket and pressed the point against Clover's throat.
"Stay back!"
Clover stifled a squeak of fear as the knife pressed hard enough to hurt, but not enough to break skin.
"I-If you get any closer, I'll - I'll cut her open!" The wild look in his eyes let everyone know he wasn't joking. Clover was in legitimate danger.
Santa backed up a little bit but the man's grip didn't loosen. He didn't relax. He just smiled.
Even though he had a hostage, he still looked anxious. His glasses were now nearly obscured with fog save a couple streaks where the lenses touched his cheek and nose. Sweat was soaking the collar of his shirt. He looked like he was barely hanging on.
Junpei still pitied the man. He didn't deserve what was going to happen to him.
"Clover! Are you alright?" Snake's question was soaked in fear, his concern seemingly out of place.
"Yeah," Clover's response was hoarse, "I'm fine."
"What the hell's your problem? What do you want?" Junpei's voice shook. Not with fear, but with anger. 
"Like I s-said! This i-i-is my plan!" The man's knife arm shook.
"What the hell are you gonna do to her, you sick sonofabitch?" Seven, back behind even Santa, took a step forward. His face was drawn in furious concern, his eyes trained steadily on the knife the ninth man had in his hand.
"N-nothing, if she d-does what I - what I tell her to." The knife point shook where it touched Clover's skin, the ninth man's sweaty hand unsteady despite his bold words. "Then I'll - I'll let her go." Then he backed up, dragging Clover with him. She let out a soft squeak of fear and backed up with him, unwilling to let his knife draw blood. "Th-that's right. Follow me." For all his bravado, he looked terrified. His sneer pulled at his mouth, pulling out the tension that would indicate how deeply afraid he was. This was an act of desperation, planned or otherwise.
What about the Nonary Games was so awful that this man would take a hostage to avoid it? Should they be worried too? Junpei didn't have time to think as the ninth man dragged Clover back to the wall, everyone following at a distance so he didn't stab her. When he reached the wall near the numbered doors, he startled and glanced around at everyone, eyes wide behind his fogged glasses.
"V-verify," he demanded. Clover looked confused.
"Huh?"
"L-look to your left. The device on the wall." The ninth man waited for Clover to look where he was telling her, then continued. "Place your hand on - on the scanner panel. Th-the round part."
"And if I don't?" Junpei's heart leapt into his throat. Now was not the time to be obstinate, Clover.
Thankfully—or not, it was a strange situation in the first place—the ninth man also seemed to find her sass stupid given the position she was in. "W-what the hell do you th-think will happen?" He dug the point of the knife into her neck, drawing blood, and she grimaced in pain. "I would - would slit your throat! I could kill y-you any time I wanted but I just - I just want you to v-v-verify!" Clover glared at him, refusing to budge. Her eyes flicked out at the crowd, to Snake, and then back to the ninth man. "Just do it!"
"Fine." Clover stretched her left out out towards the scanner for the 5 door and placed her palm flat against it. It took a couple seconds because her back was to it but when she managed, there was a beep and an asterisk appeared on the display.
The scanner and the device seemed to function in the same way the keycard reader had in the room Junpei had woken up in. More than likely, it needed a digital root to open the door and, seeing as it was the 5 door...Ace was next on the list. But why did the ninth man know how the doors worked? Junpei was only guessing himself.
"G-g-good. You're done." The ninth man let out a heavy breath, shoulders sinking as some kind of tension left him. His grip on the knife and where it pressed into Clover's neck didn't move, however, and his eyes flicked from person to person until he stopped on Ace. "You. You have the number one bracelet, r-right?"
Ace leveled his gaze at the ninth man, his face betraying nothing. "Yes," he said calmly, "I am." Ace must have come to the same conclusion Junpei had because he didn't ask any follow-up questions of the ninth man.
"C-come over here and verify your number, like this - this little brat did." When Ace didn't move, the ninth man's composure slipped and he shouted, "Don't y-you care about what happens to her?"
Ace frowned and held his hands up as if he was soothing a wild beast. "Okay, okay. Calm down. Here I come." The ninth man jerked his chin towards the scanner but didn't move otherwise. He kept his grip on Clover tight, the knife as steady as his nervous clutch could hold it. Without prompting, Ace placed his left hand on the scanner and the device beeped again. Another asterisk appeared on the digital display. If Junpei's math was right, the only number the ninth man needed to open the door now was his own.
"B-b-back up!" He shifted his grip on Clover and commanded Ace, who did as he was told. One step, then two, then three. All the way back to the group, hands up as if he was at knifepoint himself. He didn't need any prompting from the ninth man, well aware of what was being demanded of him. Then the ninth man's terrified expression morphed into something gleeful. He laughed and laughed, then leveled his gaze on everyone. "Th-thank you for being so cooperative. I hope you enjoy this hell without me."
Without looking at it, he placed his left hand against the scanner panel. A third asteriks appeared on the display and he pulled the lever. The 5 door opened with a metallic groan, like something dying. The ninth man's smile widened. "I d-don't need you anymore!" He shoved Clover towards the group, causing her to stumble. She fell to the ground as the ninth man stepped through the 5 door into the hallway beyond. He sneered at everyone and waved, a mocking farewell. "Keep her. Have a good one. I'll see you l-later. Goodbye..." The door swung closed with the same noise as before, cutting the ninth man off from everyone else.
Snake ran out to Clover, kneeling down to help her back to her feet. "Are you alright?!"
Clover reached up and wiped away a bead of blood on her neck where the knife had pressed too hard. She was staring at the ground, a mix of frustration and disgust on her face. "I'm fine." She didn't sound fine but she leaned against Snake, seemingly relieved by his presence. He rested his head on hers, also relieved.
Junpei ran towards the door and swore, angry that none of them could have prevented Clover from being taken hostage. "Bastard!" Santa, Seven, and Ace came up behind him and the four of them tried to force the 5 door open to no avail. When they realized it wasn't moving, they all let go, panting heavily. "Dammit!" Junpei kicked the door, wincing as pain shot up his leg.
"Do you hear something?" Lotus asked.
Junpei looked back at her. She looked uncomfortable, her head cocked slightly as if she was trying to focus in on whatever noise it was. "What?"
"There's a...beeping?" She frowned and pressed her ear against the door. Junpei and everyone else there followed suit.
Behind the cold metal of the door was a steady electronic beeping.
"You're right..." June's voice was soft and concerned.
"What is it?" Santa seemed horrified by the noise, like it was an omen of some kind. Junpei was feeling the same way about it.
And then, muffled by the metal and probably by distance, the voice of the ninth man could be heard. "Shit! Why isn't this stopping? Goddammit!" The beeping remained constant, the fear in his voice rising. "You - you lied to me!"
Junpei stared at the door. "Lied? Who lied to you?" He wasn't sure if the ninth man could even hear him between the beeping, the metal of the door, and the rushing of the ninth man's own heart in the face of fear and betrayal.
On the other side of the door, presumably having run all the way from wherever he had been before, the ninth man banged on the door. The noise was desperate and Junpei winced, sympathetic pain rushing through his own fists. "Th-this wasn't supposed to happen! This is wrong!" The ninth man sounded like he was crying. 
Whether out of shock or a sense of self-preservation, everyone stepped away from the door and looked at one another. Ace was the first to speak, his voice loud enough that the ninth man could hear him. "What is happening in there?"
The ninth man beat his fists against the door again, in spite of the futility, his voice cracking as he screamed out to the people on the other side. "Open the - open the door! Please! I'm begging you! Help me!" Junpei could imagine the ninth man sliding against the smooth, cold, unfeeling metal of the 5 door, clawing at a surface that would not yield as he desperately tried to escape. "Let me out! Let me out!"
Against his better judgment, Junpei felt another pang of pity for the ninth man. Sure, he had taken Clover hostage and used her for his own selfish needs, but he didn't deserve to die for it. None of them deserved to die. "Dammit." Shaking his head, he stepped to the device and stopped. The digital display, which before this mess had read 'VACANT', now said 'ENGAGED'. The room behind door 5 was occupied, not unlike a toilet, and nobody would be able to verify, even if their digital root was five. Junpei looked back at the door and the other people, panicked and horrified understanding obvious to everyone.
The ninth man banged on the door again, faster, harder. "There's no time left!" Again, he sounded like he was sobbing. Something was happening and he couldn't do anything about it. None of them could. "Listen—" his voice, still shaking, was deathly serious, "I was - I was lied to! He lied to me, put me in here!"
Being manipulated didn't excuse the ninth man from taking Clover at knifepoint, though.
"He killed me!" The seriousness had left the ninth man's voice, replaced again by panic and terror. "It was him!" Then he started screaming, wordless and terrified.
There was an explosion on the other side of the door that rattled everyone, physically and emotionally. Everyone had dropped to the ground, covering their heads, and when they stood up, what had happened seemed to finally sink in. Junpei felt ill and it seemed as though the others did too. Lotus had a hand pressed against her mouth, eyes wide as she stared at door 5. Even Ace, who had been so calm to this point, was pale.
The device at the door beeped. Junpei looked at it and saw it read 'VACANT' again. With the ninth man dead, the door was considered empty again. They could go in.
"Why don't we try and open it?" Seven suggested. Junpei swallowed bile and nodded at him. They needed to make sure they understood the rules, even if they had to see a corpse to do so.
Junpei placed his left hand on the scanner, verifying his number. He motioned for Seven to do so as well, then called to Snake. "Hey Snake? We need your number."
Seven placed his large hand on the scanner and verified his number, then made way for Snake, who peeled away from Clover and walked to the 5 door. After Snake verified, Junpei checked his math and, satisfied that the digital root was five, grabbed the lever. "Ready?" He didn't know what was going to be on the other side of the door—probably whatever remained of the ninth man—but he wanted to make sure he wasn't dragging Seven and Snake into a situation without their permission. They both nodded at him, concerned but willing to brave this unknown. Junpei pulled the lever and the door opened wide again, the hinges screaming like the ninth man's ghost still was clawing away at it.
A wave of rancid air tore out, the metallic smell of blood and cooked meat, acrid sourness burning his eyes. Junpei slapped a hand over his mouth and fought his body's attempt at retching. He couldn't make it worse. He tried to not turn away, staring down the open doorway at the remains of the ninth man.
Lotus and Ace both uttered oaths under their breaths. Lotus eventually turned away, shaking, while Ace just stared, his face ashen.
Seven tried to remain as even-keeled as he could. "That's...awful."
"He...exploded." Santa could barely speak, his voice a harsh whisper as he took in the carnage.
The inside of the door, along with the hallway behind it, were painted in dark red blood. Chunks of flesh and organs were scattered along the way, pulpy remains of the ninth man the only testament to his existence aside from their memories of him.
June let out a shriek of horror and collapsed to the floor. Junpei turned and tried to catch her before she hit the ground and behind him he could hear the door groan shut. The smell cleared but everyone was still unsettled by what they had witnessed to really talk about it. Plus, Junpei was too worried about June to bother with being nauseated. He knelt next to her and tried to support her and as he wrapped his arm around her, he recoiled. She was hot enough that he could feel it against his skin.
"You're burning up!" Junpei wasn't sure why. She had been fine earlier. Why is this happening now?
June seemed as though she couldn't answer, her body wracked with shaking. Her breath came in short gasps and she leaned into Junpei's arms.
"Okay," Junpei took a deep breath, exhaled, and smiled softly at June. "Why don't we take a break. You can rest, we can talk about this, alright? Can you stand?" June nodded and Junpei supported her as he stood up and walked her to a chair. She sat down and placed her head in her hands. Junpei didn't know what to say to her to make it better.
"Are you okay?" His voice was low, caring, quiet. He didn't want to frighten her any more than she already was.
June nodded, a tear dripping off her chin and onto her lap, darkening her clothes. "Why did this happen?" Her shaking, no longer feverish, was simply just her sobbing. Her voice was choked and wracked with grief and horror. Junpei didn't have a good answer for her that didn't boil down to 'Zero wanted this'. All he could do was just try and support her, make sure she was okay.
Junpei turned to look at everyone else, "Do any of you know what the fuck is going on?" He didn't feel the need to elaborate what he was asking, certain everyone knew what he meant. "What the hell is even happening?"
Nobody answered. Everyone was busy looking at the floor, faces twisted in expressions of horror and deep thought. Lotus, Seven, Snake, Clover, Ace, and Santa kept their thoughts to themselves. It made Junpei frustrated but he understood. Everyone was terrified. Nobody knew what to do. Nobody trusted anyone enough to give away their hand. Junpei turned back to June, irritated.
It's not like he wasn't keeping secrets himself. Akane...June was...well he couldn't fault them too much. But still...
He let June continue to cry. She needed to let it out. After a while, the clock ticking away in the background, she slowly stopped. The clock rang out ten times. They were running out of time. They only had eight hours now.
"Ten o' clock." Ace's words were grim. Like everyone else, he didn't want to think about the deadline they had.
"Fuck! I'm done with this!" Santa jumped off the stairs where he had been sitting, his fists clenched. "Are we just gonna sit here and just let Zero win? We've only got eight hours left! Let's fucking go!" Nobody answered him, their faces just as blank and empty as Junpei felt. Santa's frustration turned to fury as he looked for someone, anyone to look at him and agree with him.
Lotus was the first person to speak. "I'm not going to end up like...that."
"The ninth man?" Santa bristled.
"Of course." She stared at the 5 door, eyes nearly lifeless, seeming to replay the grim scene behind the metal.
It's not as if Junpei himself wasn't haunted by it. The way his lower torso was just...chunks, his upper body folded over the mess that his stomach used to be, what remained of his face painted in his own gore. He had been framed by what remained of his intestines, the pinkish yellow spires of his ribs like the fingers of death grasping out of hell for him. His glasses were shattered and splattered with blood, a couple feet from his prone corpse. It was going to haunt Junpei every time he closed his eyes.
Santa's eyes were dark. His mouth was a thin, pale line, the color leeching from his lips as he thought about it. Still, he didn't seem like he pitied the ninth man. "I think he fucked up." When everyone looked at him in confusion, he elaborated. "He did something wrong, set off some kinda trap, that's why he died. I'm not gonna be that stupid. I'm gettin' out of here." 
Something about that made Snake break out into laughter. He leaned against Clover, pressing a hand against his face.
"What the hell is so funny?!" Santa closed the distance between the two and grabbed a fistful of his jacket. Even though Snake was blind, Santa was obviously trying to intimidate him.
"Oh, nothing," Snake eked out between laughs, "you were just so...confident. I just couldn't resist."
"What's that supposed to mean?"
"I think you've misunderstood what happened to the ninth man." Snake shook off Santa's grip, smiling at him, though there was something mirthless about the situation. "His death was not because of a trap. Or, rather, not in the way you would imagine."
"Huh?"
"He broke one of Zero's rules. That is why he died. If you think about it, it is very simple." At Santa's silence, Snake continued. "Or maybe I am asking too much of you. Think back to what Zero wrote on that card you had. Namely: what they said about the number of people."
"They said 'only three to five people can pass through one numbered door', right?"
"And after that?" Snake prompted.
Santa frowned, deep in thought. Junpei could almost smell the smoke coming off of him. Junpei, however, got what Snake was trying to say.
"'All that enter must leave and all who enter must contribute', right?" Junpei hadn't meant to say that out loud but it didn't matter. It was the answer Snake was looking for.
"Very good, Junpei. A gold star for you." It almost felt patronizing as Snake tilted his head at Junpei as if to indicate him. "The ninth man, however, broke that rule. He entered a numbered door by himself. Therefore he was executed." Executed was a kind way of putting it, but yes, Snake was probably right.
Seven didn't seem to like what that was implying, however. "If Zero knew he broke a rule, then they're probably watching us right now."
"I highly doubt that," Snake refuted.
Seven blinked in confusion. "Well why not?"
"The execution system is likely entirely automatic. You weren't aware? Zero doesn't need to monitor us." Snake seemed so sure of himself and yet...
"What?"
With something that almost seemed like pity—or resignation—Snake shook his head and waved his left hand about in the general direction of the two numbered doors. "I suppose I will tell you. I waited long enough, hoping Zero would spare me the trouble. It is beginning to seem increasingly unlikely." Even though he was blind, it was likely that Snake could feel everyone's confused—or in Santa and Seven's case, irritated—stares.
"Do you know something?" Ace asked.
"I know a great many things, actually."
"What is it you know about the rules of the Nonary Games?" Ace pressed, being more specific. Snake's response was to pull a card from his jacket pocket and hand it to Ace with an almost delighted smile. Ace took the card and frowned. "What's the point of giving me this?"
Santa cut in, stepping close to Ace and snatched the card from his grasp. Then all his frustration turned into confusion. "What the hell?"
Seven took the card next, plucking it from Santa's grasp as if he was pulling it from a rolodex. It didn't take him long to understand what Santa and Ace hadn't. He passed it to Lotus who passed it to June who handed it to Junpei. That's when Junpei remembered what was so weird about this card. It was in braille. The only person who could have read it was Snake.
Junpei passed it back to Snake who graciously took it with the same smile he had given Ace. Or, no, not a smile, a smirk. He had been playing with them.
"So aside from making fun of us, what's the point of that card?" Lotus put her hand on her hip and gave Snake the most scathing look she could muster. If he could see her, he would have been sweating. As it was, he was immune. Lucky.
"I found it in my pocket when I woke up here. I can only assume it is a message from Zero."
June squeaked out, "W-what does it say?"
As if he hadn't just made fools of them, everyone but Junpei and Clover surrounded Snake, desperate to learn whatever information Zero had given him. Clover was still sitting on the stairs, rolling her eyes as if she was just disappointed with the whole exchange and Junpei hung back because he didn't want to crowd him.
"Hold on. If you will give me a moment, I will read it. No need to force me." Everyone backed up a bit to give him space, even though Santa looked like he was seconds away from grabbing Snake's tie and strangling him with it. When he seemed to feel everyone had calmed down enough, he began to read, fingers gliding across the raised bumps on the card. "Bracelet number two, since you are not blessed with sight I shall bless you—and only you—with information. I shall tell you of the function of the RED, of the DEAD, and of the bracelet. The RED is the Recognition Device. It will verify your number. Beside every numbered door, you will find a RED. The DEAD is the Deactivation Device. It does exactly what it says. Once you have passed through the numbered door you must use the DEAD to stop the detonator in your bracelet."
Before anyone could cry out in horror or ask him any questions, Snake continued on, trying to power through the information Zero gave him so everyone would know what he knows. "But perhaps you are wondering 'What does this detonator detonate?' I am afraid this might be something of a surprise. I have placed a small bomb inside of you, and the people whom you are about to meet. You swallowed it while you were unconscious. I have no doubt that by the time you read this note, the bomb will have passed your stomach and found its way into your small intestine. In other words, you will be unable to regurgitate it. I suggest you do not try."
Nausea curled through Junpei but he could recognize the truth in what Zero was saying. If they swallowed bombs when they were knocked unconscious at midnight yesterday, then they weren't going to be able to vomit them back up. They just had to deal with them as they were...a threat to their life if they didn't play by Zero's rule.
"As I mentioned before," Snake continued, his voice level and nigh unshakable in the face of such horrid information, "the bracelet on your left hand contains a detonator. Think of it as a remote fuse, or timer, for the bomb in your body. There is only one condition which will cause it to detonate. That condition is that you enter a numbered door. Once you have done so, the timer will activate, no matter who you may be. You will have eighty one seconds. If, after that time, the detonator has not yet been deactivated, it will send a signal to the bomb in your body, instructing it to explode. In order to deactivate the detonator, every person who verified their number at the RED must also verify their numbers at the DEAD. Once all numbers have been verified by the DEAD, you need only pull the lever at its side and the countdown will cease."
A cold chill ran up Junpei's spine. Because the ninth man had verified Clover and Ace but hadn't brought them in with him, he was short two numbers for the DEAD. Thus...
"Anyone who does not verify their number at the RED will find themselves unable to verify their number at the DEAD. That is to say, if you should pass through a numbered door without first verifying your number at the RED, in eighty one seconds you will be dead. You must also keep in mind that the numbered doors will close automatically after nine seconds have passed. So long as the door is open, the DEAD will not function. You would do well to remember this. Lastly, let us discuss how to remove the bracelets. There are only two ways to do so. One: you escape from this ship. Two: your heart rate reaches zero. In other words, once the bracelet is taken outside the confines of the ship, or detects that its wearer's heartbeat has fallen to zero, it will shut down automatically. There is no other way to remove your bracelet. If you attempt to force it off, or disable the detonator, the bomb within you will immediately explode." Snake frowned at the card in his hands and took a breath, giving everyone a second to process this information.
"This is all the information which I can impart to you. How you choose to use it is for you to decide. If used wisely you can eliminate those who might be a danger to you. For a time you would be able to control your fate. I wish you the best of luck." Snake finished, unable to see the way almost everyone else was eyeing him with suspicion, and pocketed the card. He smoothed his pocket and waved a hand. "That is all."
It was extremely useful information and the fact that Snake had willingly shared it with everyone when given the chance made him look really good. Not that Junpei needed any assurance that Snake was on their side. While he seemed aloof and sharp around the edges, he actually cared about making it out of here. If he didn't, he wouldn't have said anything.
Junpei might've been the only one who felt this way, however. Seven and Santa were both shoving their fingers in their mouths, trying furiously to force themselves to regurgitate the bomb that absolutely wouldn't be possible to throw up. Lotus, June, and Ace were all frowning, uncomfortable looking, touching either their bracelets or their stomachs. Only Clover, Junpei, and Snake were seemingly unaffected by this news, though not happy. Clover looked a little ill, Snake looked like he was in a cold sweat, and Junpei did actually feel like he was going to hurl. Seven and Santa making horrid gagging noises and half-accomplished retching sounds didn't help settle his stomach.
Junpei took a deep breath and exhaled, swallowing the spit that had collected in his mouth, then looked out at everyone. "Alright, one more time: does anyone know anything about Zero? Anything?" Nobody said a damn thing, all of them looking at one another, waiting to see who would talk first.
Surprisingly, Santa said something. "I...actually saw them. Zero, I mean. When I got grabbed. I didn't see their face, though. Son of a bitch was wearing a gas mask." Everyone else startled a bit, seeming to recognize that description of their kidnapper. Everyone.
Everyone had seen Zero in a gas mask.
Santa looked confused. "C'mon everyone, gimme some kind of reaction. Surprise, maybe?"
But Lotus surprised him by admitting, "I saw that too."
"I did as well," Ace added.
"Me too. I couldn't see inside the mask." Clover said, tugging on her sleeve nervously.
"That mask was really scary," June confessed.
Santa frowned as he did the math. Thankfully for him, Junpei had already realized. "All of our abductions were the same then." Everyone was silently enrapt as he spoke. "We were taken from home, at midnight. The person claiming to be Zero had a mask on. There was white smoke, then each of us passed out. We woke up on D-deck in a room with a three level bunk bed." When nobody contradicted him, Junpei turned to the odd man out. "What about you, Seven? Is that right?"
"Me?" Seven was a little slow to answer, his face contorted as he thought really hard about something. "Uh, yeah..."
Junpei let it go. It wasn't Seven's fault, after all.
"Hey, I gotta question," Santa spoke up. When everyone looked at him, he tilted his head at Snake and Clover. "Why the hell were you taken from the same place?" The way he was smirking at the two of them seemed to indicate he was insinuating something. Junpei fought a grimace. It wasn't like that.
"You ass!" Clover snarled at him. She took very poorly to his assumption, apparently, and Junpei couldn't blame her. "That's my brother!"
Santa was taken aback. "Brother?"
"Yeah!" Clover gestured at Snake with her hand as she sneered at Santa. "What kind of freak are you, assuming something like that?"
"Now, now," Snake seemed like he was trying to calm Clover down, speaking carefully to her, "I'm sure he did not mean anything by it. We were keeping quiet about it, after all."
Santa struggled for a response, opting to just shake his head and sigh.
"Are there any more questions regarding me and my sister?" Snake seemed, if not annoyed, at least a little defensive. Though it seemed more for Clover's sake than his own.
"Uh, yeah?" Seven was confused, admittedly, but still had questions.
"Why? There are other people who have connections. Those two, specifically." Snake pointed between Junpei and June.
"Oh, you mean Jumpy and me?" June perked up.
Ace, at least, understood what Snake was getting to. "You did say that you were childhood friends, didn't you?"
"You went to school together?" Lotus seemed to not buy that. Junpei didn't blame her, but he also couldn't help but feel a little irritated at her pressing. Now he knew how Snake and Clover felt.
"Yeah..." June looked at Junpei as if she was waiting for him to take the lead.
He felt a little put upon and uncomfortable but he nodded in agreement. "Yeah." There was no reason to lie to them, after all. Snake and Clover had explained their relationship. Honesty allowed everyone to work together better.
"You think we can figure Zero out this way?" Santa seemed disinterested in their relationship as a concept and more as some kind of tool to suss out what was going on.
"Huh, you're...not wrong." Seven seemed like he figured out what Santa was trying to say. "If we draw lines of connection between the victims, we can sniff out the perp. Easy."
"Does any of this ring a bell?" Lotus asked both Junpei and June.
June blinked at her, confused. "Huh?" Junpei, however, remembered what she was asking them.
"Oh, uh, I don't think so. We were friends in elementary school, really. I don't think either of us knew anyone with the means to buy a ship this big." Or someone who could or would set up a murder puzzle game on said ship.
Lotus looked put-off by how quickly he answered. Even June, who until that moment hadn't understood what she wanted, seemed surprised and a little amused. "Oh, no, Jumpy is right. I don't think there were any particularly rich people who attended our school."
"Well we can't assume that Zero is a rich individual." Ace's matter-of-fact theory caught everyone off guard. "I would say it's more likely that the people running the Nonary Game are a large organization and Zero is simply the representative."
"What kind of organization would do this?" Seven seemed unconvinced by Ace's theory. "That's just an investigation waiting to happen. One person can hide their tracks better than four or more."
Ace shrugged. "It could be the military or maybe a research group. Perhaps this is even some kind of psychological experiment. A stress test for human ingenuity and problem solving."
"If it is an experiment, it's fucked up." Santa waved a hand towards door 5 and the mess behind it. "A man is dead! What kind of data will a dead subject get you? Jack and shit." The thought of the ninth man's demise hung heavy over everyone, immediately bringing down the energy in the room. Santa continued through gritted teeth, "Whoever Zero is, they're fucked in the head. This is hell. We're in hell."
Despite the time limit they had, the need to consolidate information and try and figure out the who and why of their kidnappings ate through a fair amount of ten o'clock. Conversational topics ranged from alternate routes out of here to even just waiting it out and calling Zero's bluff. Junpei was aware of time passing but he couldn't shake the feeling that it didn't matter in the end. They would finish their discussion and then move out. It would be fine.
Thankfully, Santa had enough of everyone wasting time chatting. "Oh my god, okay. Shut up. All we've done for the past half hour has been talk. We need to go." He threw his hands up in frustration. "We need to get the hell out of here. You wanna drown? I don't! We've wasted an hour and a half talking and fucking about. I, for one, don't plan on wasting another goddamn minute." The energy in the room went from tense to electric and, unlike the last time someone suggested they go through the numbered doors, nobody argued with him. Not even Lotus.
In fact, she agreed with Santa, even if it seemed to almost pain her to do so. "You're right." 
"Very well then. I suppose we only have one avenue of action," Ace said.
"Man, I hate havin' to jump when Zero says 'jump'." Seven grimaced at the numbered doors.
"Better than sitting around with our thumbs up our asses," Clover rolled her eyes, even though she seemed uncomfortable with the thought of going through the numbered doors as well. Her bravado was just that: a front.
"At least Snake's card gave us extra information about the rules of the Nonary Game," Lotus said.
"Agreed. So long as we follow those rules, we should...most likely be alright." Snake changed his wording mid-statement. The uncertainty of what he was saying wasn't lost on anyone but it wouldn't do them any good to dwell on the possibilities.
"So...who's going to go in which door?" June asked.
They could only have a maximum of five people in one door, a minimum of three, and the digital roots they had to reach were four and five. Between the eight remaining people, they could feasibly go in both doors with those limitations but it would be an uneven split and that couldn't guarantee that whoever was in whichever room would move on first. And there was the issue of who would be going in door 5, past the remains of the ninth man. That in and of itself would be a trial.
Lotus was quick on the draw. "I am not going in door five." Junpei didn't blame her, really. He'd only opened the door and the sight and smell nearly put him out of commission. 
"Now is not the time to be selfish—" Ace started but Lotus cut him off.
"Call me whatever the hell you want, I will not be going in that goddamn door!" She was firm enough that Ace backed up a little. Smart man.
Before Ace could say something that might get him smacked, Junpei agreed with Lotus. "I don't think I can go in there."
"Me neither." Santa sneered at Ace, daring him to challenge his decision. "I just bought these shoes. If I get blood and guts on them, I'm gonna be pissed. They weren't cheap."
Ace, obviously outnumbered, shook his head in defeat. "Alright. I suppose that means we have our groups?"
"Yeah." Junpei did some quick math in his head. With him, Lotus, and Santa going through door 4, that meant that the person they needed to make a digital root of four was June. That left Ace, Seven, Snake, and Clover to go through door 5. While he didn't like that Clover was going to have to be subjected to the ninth man's remains, he also didn't know what lay behind that door. Door 4 was something he knew well enough to...
His head hurt.
"June," Santa snapped, getting her attention, "you're with us. Everyone else should be a digital root of five."
Everyone did the math in their head or on their hands. Like Santa said, that was how they had to divide the group if they wanted to all go through the doors. And, as selfish as it might seem, it did mean Junpei could spend time with June—with Akane. He hadn't seen her in so long and he was so worried she might get hurt.
If Lotus was going to be selfish—and Santa—then Junpei could as well. He just wouldn't make it as obvious.
The group going into door 5 decided that they would go first, just to test if the RED and DEAD systems worked like how Zero said they did. Junpei was certain this was more of a way to assuage their fears but he couldn't fault anyone for worrying. It's not as if they had concrete evidence Zero wouldn't fuck them over or anything. All Junpei had was a gut feeling and that wasn't going to keep everyone else from thinking they were going to just straight explode because the Nonary Game was unfair.
One-by-one, Snake, Clover, Seven, and Ace verified their bracelets at the RED. Then, face set with grim determination, Ace grabbed the lever and looked back at the group going through door 4. "Now then. Goodbye."
Lotus met his eyes and, in a soft and concerned tone that Junpei hadn't heard her use before, only said, "Good luck."
Ace didn't respond, only pulled the lever. The door swung open like the mouth of some starving beast, already having devoured one of them. The rancid smell of the ninth man's remains wafted out and everyone held back vomit as best they could, all of them wrinkling their noses and covering their mouths. Despite their hesitation over navigating through his remains, all four of them couldn't afford to waffle for too long.
It was Snake who finally pushed them to move. Being blind, he didn't need to worry about seeing the carnage—though the smell was likely just as bad, if not worse—so he stepped in the hallway, past the door, and began to make his way down the hallway. As he walked through the blood and gore, his shoes making wet noises and kicking up the viscera, he turned back and tilted his head at his companions. "Are we going? We need to hurry."
"Your shoes—"
"It's fine." Snake cut off Clover, his voice sharp. "Do you plan on dying like he did? We cannot afford to waste time."
"Right, sorry."
As if they remembered they only had nine seconds before the door closed—and eighty-one seconds before they suffered the ninth man's fate—they all entered the door before it swung closed. Everyone left behind scrambled to press themselves against door 5 so they could make sure that group was okay.
"How's it going?" Santa shouted. "Did you find the DEAD?"
Junpei could hear the ominous beeping of their watches. His stomach sunk into his feet. "The detonator."
"Like the ninth man." Lotus sounded like she was going to be ill.
"Do you think they're okay?" June asked. She was tugging on her hair, a nervous habit she apparently hadn't gotten rid of since Junpei had last seen her.
Though it hadn't been in response to any of their questions, Seven did say something. "There it is!" Thank god for his extremely loud voice. Even if he wasn't intentionally shouting, being able to hear Seven through thick metal and across a hallway was actually a relief. "That's the DEAD, isn't it? Get over here so we can authenticate!"
The beeping of the detonators stopped. It seemed like Zero hadn't been lying to Snake. The DEAD did deactivate them, preventing them from blowing up. Everyone let out a breath, even Junpei, who was surprised he was so tense. 
On the other side of the door, the group there also were sighing in relief. "Well, looks like we're in the green." Seven chuckled, trying to make light of what had, until that moment, been a life-or-death situation.
Now that they weren't deafened by their own heartbeat, Junpei got close to the door again and yelled out, "You guys okay?!"
Clover was the one who answered. "Yup! The DEAD works!" She had some lungs on her. Even with the metal and all, she wasn't too muffled. "Speaking of: lemme tell you what you're looking for. The DEAD looks like the RED but blue! Like the RED, you verify your numbers and pull the lever."
"Thanks! That helps a lot!" Junpei shouted back. It already had, judging by how June, Lotus, and Santa seemed to have released some of the tension in their body.
"We should move on now. Be careful!" Ace's voice was just as clear as Seven's. Maybe they'd put all the screamers in one group.
Junpei stifled a snort of amusement, instead choosing to just reply to his warning. "You too!"
Content that the RED and DEAD system worked like they were told, the four of them walked to door 4 and gathered their nerves. Junpei was the first one to authenticate, somewhat relieved when the asterisk appeared on the display. Santa, Lotus, and June followed suit. Before he pulled the lever, he looked at everyone there, trying to gauge their emotions. "Ready?" They nodded at him and he pulled the RED's lever. Like door 5, the metal doors swung open, screaming like they were starving. "Let's go!" The four of them walked in the door and made their way down the hall as they swung shut behind them, trapping them in the numbered room.
Junpei looked down at his left wrist, to the bracelet. The beeping that had preceded the ninth man's death had started up and beneath the blue number 5 on the display was a red skull that flashed in time with the noise. The detonator was active. They needed to find the DEAD as soon as possible. Junpei didn't want to waste any time standing around. Eighty-one seconds wasn't anything to sniff at, but it was still a minute and some. That wasn't a lot of time.
"Where the hell's the DEAD?" Santa was panicking. So were Lotus and June. Junpei wasn't calm, but he wasn't as upset as the others.
"How the hell would I know?" Lotus snapped back.
"We need to find it!"
While they were arguing, Junpei was running as fast as he could. The DEAD wasn't by the entrance, so it had to be further in. Behind him, June, Santa, and Lotus seemed to understand what he was doing and followed quickly. They ran like their lives depended on it. To be fair, their lives did depend on them running quickly, but it was astonishing to watch Lotus tear down the hall in heels like that. She wasn't falling behind in the slightest. In fact, she was very close to overtaking Junpei, even with his head start.
The hallway they were in had about nine or eight wooden doors on either side. While the others looked at the doors, unsure if the DEAD was in any of them, Junpei wasn't even straying from his path. The DEAD was at the end of this hallway. Santa rattled one of the doors, swearing loudly. June tugged on a doorknob in a panic. Lotus was kicking one of the doors, also swearing.
Junpei finally saw the DEAD and called out to the rest, "Down here! I found it!"
They rushed over and each verified their bracelet. Then, panicked, Santa yanked the lever and the DEAD beeped. The beeping stopped, the red skull went away, and the four of them stood there, panting heavily. All of them were so exhausted, the panic having turned their bones to jelly. Junpei scrubbed sweat off his forehead and wiped his hands on his pants, trying desperately to dry them off. Lotus leaned against the wall by the DEAD, trying to take weight off her feet. June was doubled over, breathing heavily and Santa was next to her, glaring down the hallway at the door they entered through.
When he finally caught his breath again, Junpei took in the area they were in, looking for the way out. Near the DEAD was a set of ornate double doors. On either side of the double doors were two smaller doors, identical to the ones that didn't open in the hallway. Junpei tried the double doors and they didn't budge. Then he noticed the keyhole and the symbol above it. It looked like the male symbol.
"Oh," June leaned over his shoulder and peered at the symbol, "that's Mars!"
"Looks like the male symbol..." Santa peered at it as well. "But it's another one of those annoying doors, huh?"
"I think there's a bunch of other doors and keys and cards, all marked with celestial symbols. We've seen Saturn, the sun, Earth, and now Mars." June brushed her fingers against the burnished brass of the plate that had the symbol on it. She looked thoughtful, her lips pursed as if she was connecting dots only she could see.
Junpei turned to the other two doors, the ones on either side of the Mars door. "Do you think these doors will open?"
"What do you mean?" Lotus had gotten her breath back. She fixed Junpei with a confused look, eyes flicking to Santa and June as well. "The other doors didn't open."
"Well, yeah, but those weren't close to the DEAD." Junpei made a gesture, drawing a line from the door they entered in to all the way down to the DEAD. "I don't think we'd be put in a dead end. It's not fair."
"You think this shit is fair?" Santa's question was barbed, an arrow of frustrated disbelief. "You think Zero cares about being fair?"
"Zero gave Snake actual information." Junpei wasn't sure why he was defending Zero—that was their kidnapper after all—but he knew he was right. "If they wanted us dead, they wouldn't have told us about the RED and DEAD. They wouldn't have told us about the time limit. They wouldn't have made it so both doors could be opened if we had eight of the nine of us—especially considering that nine wouldn't change the digital root of whatever group it was in. If the Nonary Game wasn't fair, we wouldn't be alive."
"So?! Who's to say that this fucker isn't just toying with us?'
Junpei placed his hand on the Mars door. "This. The keyhole is like the ones on A-deck. We're probably supposed to find the Mars key somewhere in here, so the most logical place is in one of these rooms. The ones further away were barred, right?" Lotus and June nodded. Santa didn't respond, too frustrated to speak. "These two are the most likely to be open. There's no harm in trying and, if I'm wrong, we can back up the hallway and try the rest of the doors."
"Who died and made you the leader?" Santa sniped. In spite of his complaining, he grabbed the doorknob for the door on the right. Junpei went for the door on the left. Lotus rolled her eyes but drifted to the right. June moved closer to Junpe. "Let's see if you're right. One...two...three!" At the same time, both Santa and Junpei turned their respective doorknobs and pushed their doors.
Junpei stumbled into the room beyond the door, startled by the lack of resistance. He turned back to see Santa standing in the open door frame. He resisted the urge to smirk at him—and probably failed.
Santa grimaced then rolled his eyes. "You're right this time." All the bite was gone from his voice. "Alright, let's see what we can find." Lotus pushed past him and went into the room, disappearing behind the wall. Santa just sighed and followed her, the door swinging closed behind him.
Neither of them shouted so it was probably safe and the door probably didn't lock behind them. That relied on a lot of uncertainty, mind you, but it was all Junpei could think about as he turned to face June in front of their room.
"You ready?" She nodded and he walked in the room with her behind him.
The room—B92, judging by the plaque on the outside of the door—was a single bed, single bath living quarters. There was a bathroom behind another door down the short foyer to the left. To the right was the rest of the quarters, including a couch and coffee table, a display case, and another door that led to a bedroom.
In the sitting room, Junpei could only stare at the antique furniture in the cabin. It looked so...extravagant. And the whole place was sinking. "What a waste," he sighed.
"Hm?" June looked over at him, then at the display case by the bedroom door. "What's a waste?"
"All this." Junpei waved a hand about the room. "It's so nice and it's going to be under tons of water when we're gone."
June looked about at the furniture and then asked, "Do you think we could sell any of this for some good cash?"
That caught Junpei off-guard and he snorted. "Do you want to carry any of this for however long this Nonary Game lasts?"
June stifled laughter and shook her head. "Not really."
"Me neither." Junpei stared at her, unsure why it was that being in her presence was comforting. He hadn't seen her in years, so why was she so important to him? What about Akane Kuroshiki was compelling enough that being in the same room as her made him feel at ease?
He didn't have time to be a mushy idiot about his childhood friend. He had to find a way off this damn boat in one, unexploded piece.
Something on the coffee table caught his eye and he picked it up. It was a box of matches. Or, rather, a box of match, as in singular. If he was going to use this for something, he had to make it count.
Speaking of fire and the like. "Are you okay, June?"
"What do you mean?" She blinked at him, obviously confused.
Junpei stepped forward and pressed the back of his hand against her forehead. She was cool again, or cool enough to not be in danger. Not like before. "Your fever. I'm glad it's gone away."
"Oh," she blushed and pulled from his hand, playing with her hair. "Uh, thank you. I'm feeling much better."
"I was worried." Junpei slid the box of match in his pocket and started rummaging in the display case, looking for any kind of key or clue or maybe some dynamite.
Behind him, June made a soft noise, then asked, "Why do you think Zero chose you and I?"
That was a really good question. Snake and Clover were siblings so that's their excuse. They lived in the same place and everything. Junpei and June hadn't seen each other in years. Nearly a decade, even. What were the odds? Slim to none.
"No clue." He stood back from the display cabinet and closed it, looking for anything else that looked suspicious. "How about you?"
"Do you think Lotus was right? That maybe someone we went to class with is Zero?"
"Uh," it was a good question. When Lotus brought it up the first time, Junpei had dismissed it purely on the basis of them not knowing anyone quite as rich as to buy a whole goddamn boat. If Ace's theory was correct and Zero was just the face of an organization running the Nonary Game, then all bets were off.
As much as Junpei would have liked to say something reassuring, he couldn't. All he could think about was how, if it was someone they both knew, someone from school, Junpei wouldn't know. He barely remembered elementary school, his school memories full of college woes and high school embarrassment.
"I dunno." 
June seemed to pick up on his concern because she walked alongside him as he went down the foyer towards the bathroom. "As awful as this is, I'm glad you're here Jumpy. It's nice to see a friendly face."
"You too." Junpei finally noticed the weird abstract painting by the bathroom door. It gave him pause as he stared at it, trying to make sense of the monochromatic blobs. "Hey, June? What do you think this is supposed to be?"
She squinted at it as well, leaning forward so she could get close. Then she backed up and tilted her head. "It looks like some kind of elephant demon sucking a person's brain out."
That was not what he was expecting but it seemed very much like something she would say. She always had a strange sense of humor and a wild imagination. He tilted his head and squinted, trying to see what she was talking about. He couldn't.
"Your mind is a truly fascinating thing." That got a laugh out of her. Something in his chest loosened.
There wasn't anything in the bathroom of any worth. The shower was normal, the shower curtain was normal, the water didn't work, the toilet bowl and tank were completely normal. A boring, normal bathroom.
Junpei wheeled out of the bathroom and back to the sitting room of the quarters. The sitting room didn't have anything else for him but maybe the bedroom? He opened the door and, like before, June followed behind him. The bedroom was a small thing, L-shaped with a made bed, wooden vanity, and nightstand in it. There was nothing in the nightstand, unfortunately, and when he had finished rummaging around by it, he turned around to see June staring at whatever was in the picture frame above the bed.
"What's up?" He walked behind her and peered at the picture frame. Instead of a picture or painting or something, there was a map of a large ship. The same ship they were likely on, though it looked like it specifically was a map of B-deck. "Oh."
"It's the ship's interior!" She pulled it from the frame and passed it to Junpei, who gave it a quick look.
"Nice find. That will come in handy. Especially because look!" He pointed at where they were behind door 4 and traced where the double doors at the end of the hallway led into a hallway near a stairwell. Then he backtraced towards the area that door 5 dumps out. "Both doors lead to the same place."
"Oh! You're right!" June pointed as well. "They all end up in this one hallway by the stairs." Then a strange look crossed her face. She leaned back and hummed softly.
Junpei folded the map up and slipped it into the file folder he had been carrying the whole time. "Hm?"
"It's a big ship."
That seemed like an obvious statement. "Well, yeah. Has to be to be full of puzzles. Can't do that on a sloop." That earned him a quick snort and a wry glare that didn't carry any bite to it.
"Looks like a cruise ship to me." June waved a hand at the furnishings of the bedroom. "Look at how nice these quarters are."
"If it is a cruise ship, it's purposefully retro. All these things look like they belong in a museum." 
June seemed to lose herself in thought for a second before she reminded Junpei, "Didn't Zero say something about the Titanic?"
Junpei did but...no, wait. "They wouldn't have said that without having a reason to." Zero was too purposeful, too measured to just...say something for no good reason.
"I think this ship and the Titanic might be related, or at least similar." That made sense.
"You think it's a replica? The Titanic also had sister ships. It could be one of those." 
"That's true. Still...why else would the furniture be like this?" She patted a hand on the bed, the firm mattress bouncing under the pressure. "One thing about that first theory is bugging me."
"What?"
"Well, with how terrible the Titanic was as a maritime incident and with the curse and all, why would anyone want to replicate it?" Wait, back up.
"Curse?" He hadn't meant to sound incredulous but...that was a step too far for him.
"Didn't you know? There was a mummy onboard the Titanic when it went down." June looked deathly serious as she said this. "The Priestess Amon-Ra was aboard. Stolen from a pyramid in Egypt, her mummy was supposedly responsible for the misfortune and death of any who handled her. Did you not know about this?"
Against all odds, he actually did. "Yeah?" The word was barely audible, almost a deflating exhale. He did actually know what she was talking about. "She was frozen solid, right?"
"Yeah!" June seemed almost as surprised as he was, though hers was less pained and confused and more genuinely delighted. "She hadn't saponified. She was still as lively as if she had laid down in the coffin moments before. And her body didn't thaw at the proper temperature either. Even at room temperature, she was frozen. A woman who wouldn't melt."
Wait. "Wasn't she from Egypt? That place is hot as hell. How didn't she melt?"
"Who knows? Maybe it's just a property of ice in the desert." That seemed more like a crackpot theory than the whole priestess mummy situation. "Who can say?"
"You're an interesting one, June." He meant it fondly and it seemed like she took it that way. She was beaming, almost seconds away from laughter. "C'mon now, let's get back to searching. If I can't find anything, I'll go see if Lotus has killed Santa across the hall."
"I hope she hasn't. Santa isn't that bad." Junpei raised a single eyebrow. She amended, "I think Santa isn't all that bad. Just...rough around the edges."
Junpei rolled his eyes at her but decided to not say another thing. Instead, he poked around in the dresser beside the bed. Empty. He moved on to the vanity. "Bingo." A key. There was probably nothing left in this room for him to find. Junpei looked at June. "I'm gonna...go across the hall, okay?"
"Be safe!"
What was Zero going to do? Kill him on his way through the hallway? But Junpei kept that thought to himself and just waved back. "I'll do my best."
Across the hall was a nearly identical room that Santa and Lotus were searching through. Or, rather, Santa was searching through. Lotus was leaning against the foyer wall by the bathroom, staring at the picture on the wall. It was missing several parts of it like it was some kind of slide puzzle.
"Any luck?" She asked Junpei as he came in.
"Found a couple things. Plus a map. Both numbered doors dump into the same hallway." When Junpei mentioned the map, Lotus perked up. He pulled it out of the file folder and handed it to her, tracing the path he showed June earlier.
"Zero." The way she said their name made it sound like some sort of oath. If there was any woman cursing anyone, it wouldn't be an eternally frozen mummy. It'd be Lotus. Junpei shivered.
Lotus handed back the map and Junpei tucked it back in the folder under his arm. He was actually really surprised that he hadn't dropped the damn thing yet with all the running he'd done. "Anyway, what's going on here?"
"Jack and shit!" Santa said as he rounded the corner. "Everything is either locked or missing pieces."
"Well it is a puzzle room. We just have to find the keys and pieces." Santa glared at Junpei when he pointed that out.
"Well then what's the lovebird suite look like?"
Junpei tried to not blush. "Looks like it's identical to this one save a few details." He waved a hand at the picture.
"I hope it's not some kind of 'spot the difference' nonsense." Santa shook his head. "I don't have the patience."
"Lucky for you, I'm your gofer. You can stay here and sit on the couch while I do all the heavy lifting." Junpei was joking, mostly.
"Ok." Santa didn't seem to realize that. Junpei didn't have the energy to correct him.
The bathroom was identical except that the shower curtain was missing. Toilet—bowl and tank—were empty, no soap, no water. In the sitting room of B93, Santa was reclining on the sofa. Lotus was still leaned against the wall by the bathroom, seemingly unwilling to sit in the same room as him. Did something happen?
Junpei wondered, for just a moment, if his comment about Lotus killing Santa hadn't been just speculative exaggeration.
This display case wasn't empty. Inside were a few nice looking pieces of pottery and glasswork and a single tile with a blobby looking black and white pattern on it. That was probably part of the picture in the hallway. Junpei moved to open it but Santa called out, "It's locked."
"I've got a key," Junpei tried the key from the vanity. It didn't fit. Behind him, Santa laughed mockingly. "Ha ha. At least I'm doing something."
"Well, between the empty bathroom, locked display case, and dark-ass bedroom, what else could I do?" Junpei looked at the bedroom when Santa said that. Like he said, it was dark enough that looking for something inside of it would be a hassle.
"Did you try the light switch?"
"'Did you try the—' do I look like an idiot?" Junpei held his tongue. "They don't work, genius. There's this candle here but without matches it's pretty useless."
Lucky then that Junpei had a box with one match in it. He struck the match and lit the candle, coughing as the sulfurous smell of an igniting match wafted into his face. Then he turned and gave Santa a smug smirk.
"Puzzle solving must be so easy when the solution is light candle with match."
"The matches were in the other room. There was also a key. The rooms are paired for a reason, they're halves of a whole." Junpei picked up the candle by the stick and entered the bedroom. It didn't give off much light, but it was better than nothing. He set the candlestick down on the vanity and then, to spite Santa, tried the switch.
No dice.
Well he had gotten the map and a key from the bedroom in B92, so the bed and the picture frame would be good places to check in B93. The candle didn't help much with determining details so whatever was in the picture frame above the bed was swathed in shadows. It didn't look useful or like some kind of puzzle. On the bed, however, was a folded cloth. Junpei picked it up and it rapidly unfolded to reveal it was a shower curtain with a hole in it. He struggled to fold it back up so he could carry it to the bathroom but as he was doing so, the candle burned out. The room got darker.
"That lasted." Lotus was standing in the doorframe. She seemed thoughtful. "Did you find anything?"
"Shower curtain with a hole."
She grimaced. "Pervert."
He hadn't been the one to cut the hole in it! She was just being rude. Junpei bit back on his reply and just headed back to where the light from the sitting room poured in. The candle hadn't lasted terribly long despite how large it had been. Junpei looked at it and realized that, not only had the wax melted very quickly, but the candlestick's spike was shaped weird. It had teeth and was a little too long to be just to hold a candle.
Oh, duh. It was a key.
Speaking of—Junpei pulled the vanity key from his pocket and put it in the lock for the vanity in this room. It turned and inside the vanity drawer was a tile like the one in the display case. Jackpot.
The vanity key had served its purpose, as had the match and box, so Junpei left them in this room and grabbed the candlestick key and tile. The tile was just small enough to fit in his pocket so, between the file folder under his arm, the shower curtain gripped tight in one hand, and the candlestick key in the other, he still had enough hands to continue solving puzzles.
"You look like a little kid bringing in groceries." Junpei shot Lotus a dry look. "Don't give me that look. You're carrying too much. I'll take the shower curtain to the bathroom and hang it up. That way you don't drop anything important."
He handed her the shower curtain and watched as she turned round the corner and into the bathroom. Then he walked over to the display case and inserted the candlestick key and turned. There was a click and Junpei could pull the sliding door back to get at the tile.
Man, this puzzle shit was easy.
Sliding the second tile into his pocket with the first, very careful that they didn't hit together too hard, Junpei closed the display case and set the candlestick key on the coffee table, where it had stood when it was just an unlit candle. As he stood up, he saw Santa glaring at something small in his hand. It looked like a bookmark. Then Santa shoved it at Junpei.
"Here." It wasn't an unkind gesture, just an abrupt one. Gift giving didn't seem to be Santa's forte, in spite of his code name. Still, the suddenness of the action and how genuinely sullen he looked threw Junpei off-kilter for a moment. He gaped at the bookmark in his face.
It had an accurate watercolor drawing of a four-leaf clover on it and a red ribbon tied in a loop through a hole in the top of it. Overall it was a nice bookmark.
"Huh?"
"I want you to have this," Santa reiterated.
"No, I get that. It's more...where did you get this and why?"
Santa rolled his eyes. "It was in the couch cushions, against all odds. Won't be much use but, hey, any ship in a port." A poor choice of metaphors.
"Why don't you hold onto it then? My pockets are full of puzzle solutions and keys and shit." Junpei pulled the corner of a tile out of his pocket to show Santa, who just rolled his eyes.
"You know what I hate the most?" Oh boy, another out-of-nowhere conversation about something weird. After June's tangent about the Titanic and the Priestess Amon-Ra, he was pretty worn out from conspiracy theories about curses and so on. He didn't interrupt Santa though. Some small, headache-induced part of him wanted to hear him out. "Four things: hope, faith, love, and luck."
For a second, Junpei didn't understand what the hell Santa was on about. Then he realized it probably had to do with the clover. He tilted his chin at the bookmark and raised an eyebrow. "Yeah? What's the bookmark got to do with it?"
Santa seemed to reconsider how he was phrasing what he was about to say for a moment. Then he sighed. "It's what the leaves stand for on a four-leaf clover. Hope, faith, love, and luck."
"Pretty pessimistic of you."
"Take the damn thing. I don't wanna be anywhere near it." Santa shoved it at Junpei again.
Junpei refrained from mentioning how, if he had it, it was still going to be near Santa. Instead, he took the bookmark and put it in the file folder so it wouldn't get crumpled. "Thank you."
His thanks seemed to throw Santa off-guard a little. "Uh, yeah. Yeah." There was a long, awkward pause. In the background, they could hear Lotus struggling with the shower curtain. She was swearing softly. Maybe he should help her...
"Hey, Santa?"
"Huh?"
"Is that the only reason you hate the clover?"
Something flashed across his eyes, something dark and heavy. "Nah. I mean, it's not the only reason I hate it. There's also the number four."
"What, like the Four Horsemen?" Junpei snorted.
That seemed to lighten the mood a little. "C'mon, that's some Dark Ages shit. I'm a modern man with modern values!"
"And modern superstitions too, it sounds like."
"You're putting words in my mouth, Jumpy." Hearing Santa say that nickname, even in jest, set Junpei's skin crawling. He did his best to not let his discomfort show on his face. "I don't like four coz it's half-assed. Middle of the road number. Nine is way better anyway."
Well that wasn't suspicious at all. "Yeah?"
"You know anything about gambling?" Change of subject it was then.
"Like in casinos?" Junpei was willing to play along.
"Yeah. In baccarat, nine is the king. Top hand. It's called Le Grande. Four's a piss poor number, only coming out above three, two, one, and zero. But a nine is a guaranteed win, more or less." Santa rubbed the back of his head as if he was ashamed of knowing shit like that. Junpei, on the other hand, found the fact that he could pull card game rules out of thin air fascinating. All he had rattling around in his head were test questions and trivia that only got used as a party trick while drinking with classmates. And math, which was helpful at the moment, but when would he need to know digital roots outside the Nonary Game?
"Actually, the Nonary Game is a lot like baccarat." Lotus, apparently having finished fighting the shower curtain, was standing between Junpei and the door to the hallway, looking contemplative.
"Huh?"
"Of course, baccarat doesn't use any of the stupid digital root junk, but the importance of nine is shared. In the end, a hand is only as powerful as the one's digit."
Santa seemed surprised about the conclusion she was drawing. "Huh...you're right."
"Having nine in the Nonary Game is a winning hand. The door we need to leave though is a nine isn't it?" Oh, she was right.
"Oh." Santa got it too. "Oh it is!"
"That's probably why it's called the Nonary Game too. Nine and all." When both Santa and Junpei only gave her a blank stare, she sighed. "Nona. It means 'derived from nine'. Like Nonary. In the same way, every other number has words like that as well. Una, as in unicorn, is one. Bi, like bicycle, is two. Tri, like triangle, is three. Quad, as in quadruped, is four. Quinti, sext, septim, octo, and nona."
"Neat linguistics lesson, but what does that have to do with this?" Santa gestured at the room, probably the whole ship.
Lotus just sighed and shook her head. "How many people were originally captured?"
"Nine?" Santa still looked confused.
"How many hours do we have to escape?"
"Nine." In spite of Santa's continued confusion, Junpei understood it. He gaped at Lotus.
"And what's the door that will give us our freedom?"
"The ninth!" Santa finally understood.
"The Nonary Game is a game of nines, hence nona." Lotus folded her arms.
While Junpei and Santa digested this information, the boat settled. The sound was almost alive, like some kind of gigantic organism filled with smaller, less-important organisms bustling around, trying to save themselves. It made Junpei think about bowerbirds and remoras. It made him think about anteaters and ants. Zero was laughing at them. He could hear it in the sound of creaking metal. He swallowed heavily.
"I'm gonna go see what the shower curtain was for." Junpei excused himself.
"Good luck," Lotus waved at him, a lazy flap of her hand. "It's just a random hole."
Nothing was ever truly random in the Nonary Game.
The hole in the shower curtain aligned with a tile on the back of the shower. Third across, fifth down from the far right. That didn't seem like nothing.
Junpei left the bathroom and opened the door to the hallway outside. "I'm gonna go see something in the other room."
"Don't die!" Santa said. He was being cheeky but, really, it was the same kind of response June had given when he came over to B93.
"No promises." Junpei figured that was, as before, the best answer he could give in response to something like that. If Zero wanted to whack him in the hallway, there was nothing anyone could do about it.
In B92, June was sitting on the couch. When Junpei came in, she leapt to her feet and ran to see him. "Did you find anything?"
"The rooms are nearly identical save this," Junpei pointed to the picture. "I'm looking for one more tile to finish the picture on that side and I think it's in the bathroom."
"Do you need any help?" She bounced in place on the balls of her feet.
"I don't think so?" That seemed to disappoint her. "But I'd welcome the company!" She brightened up again.
In the bathroom, Junpei counted the tiles. "One, two, three. One, two, three, four, five." The green one with the stripes. Junpei worked his nails under the edges of the tile and wiggled it free. On the back of it was the final piece of the abstract painting.
June looked as excited as Junpei felt. "Is that the last one?"
"I think so. You want to come over to B93?"
She shook her head. "Thanks, but no. I think four people in a room this size is a little cramped. Just call for me when you find the Mars key." When, not if. June had a lot of faith in Junpei. It made him feel...nervous and excited. He didn't want to disappoint her.
"Will do." He hurried across the hall and started placing the tiles in their proper place. As strange as it seemed, June's weird comment about it being an elephant demon sucking someone's brain out helped Junpei figure where they should go and how they were oriented. When he finally finished the painting, he stood back and admired his hard work. The painting, frame and all, slid down to reveal a small niche and...
"The Mars key!" Junpei snagged it from where it was sitting on the hidden alcove and turned to show Lotus and Santa. Both of them looked relieved, though Santa's gaze kept flicking down to the painting, his face crumpled in thought.
"What is this supposed to be?" He was speaking to himself but Lotus and Junpei both heard him.
Lotus stared at the picture for a moment, her expression a mirror of Santa's. Then her eyebrows shot up in surprise. "Oh. I think I've seen this before."
"You have?"
"In a book." Huh... "There's a British biochemist named Sheldrake. This picture was in a book talking about a theory he had."
"A theory?" Junpei asked. Something about this conversation, about the name Sheldrake, was familiar. It was familiar in the same way that the puzzles in this room had been easy to solve, almost as if he had done them before. His headache, ever-present and painful, flared up again but he fought back a wince. They didn't need to worry about him.
"Yes. Morphogenetic field, which relies on the theory of morphic resonance." Lotus waited for him to ask her more questions.
Junpei was suffering from a case of deja-vu. And an excruciating headache.
"Haven't...haven't you already said that?"
That surprised her. "What are you talking about?"
"Morphogenetic fields. Morphic resonance theory. Haven't you already explained that?" His head hurt so badly. He wanted to cry.
"No?"
"What are you on about, Junpei?" This time, Santa was the one pressing him.
"The morphic resonance theory is about storing information in the morphic field." Junpei gestured at the picture. "There was an experiment about using the morphic field to transmit information across space and time. It had to do with how many people understood that this was a heavily filtered picture of a dog. Before the solution was aired on British television, the percentage of people who knew the solution was sub-ten percent. Afterwards, using a sample of people who wouldn't have access to British television programs, the percentage of correct guesses doubled."
Lotus stared at him like he had grown a second head. Junpei could barely see, his head hurt so badly.
"Junpei," Santa's voice was low, quiet, measured, "Lotus hasn't said any of that before. Are you sure you're okay?"
Junpei pushed past them, into the bathroom, and emptied his stomach in the toilet. The pain was almost blinding. He laid his head against the cold porcelain and thought, trying to make sense of what had just happened.
What did they mean, she hadn't said that before? He had heard her. She had talked about Sheldrake, about information stored somewhere in the aether, about the experiment. She had mentioned how, supposedly, the morphic field was like a database of behavioral patterns and unspoken information that people could subconsciously access. She also said it was likely the TV experiment had falsified data for more impressive results or that their control group wasn't really all that controlled.
But both of them seemed like this was the first time they had had that conversation. Both of them looked like he was saying something insane. 
What was going on?
The more he thought about it, the more parts of this day weren't making sense. The ever-present sense of deja-vu during every puzzle and conversation. The dread and relief he felt when he saw June for the first time and how he had cried. How he had known the doors in the hallway weren't anything. Why he was so sure Zero wasn't fucking with them regarding rules and the fairness of the Nonary Game.
Why did he know all this? Why did it feel like he'd done this once before?
Eventually, panic slowly leaving his body, mouth sticky, nausea passing, he tried to flush the toilet. Nothing happened. "Right. The tank is empty." He just lowered the lid and left the bathroom, closing the door behind him. Turning to Lotus and Santa—who had stopped talking as he exited the bathroom, exchanging worried glances—he gave them a weak, ill smile. "Sorry about that."
"Are you okay?" Lotus didn't move to check up on him, but her shoulders tensed up as if she might have wanted to.
"Yeah, uh, I think so." Junpei tried to sound casual. He failed, his voice scratchy from hurling. "I've had a headache for the last hour or so and it finally caught up to me."
"What about what you said? About the whole morphogenetic field, or whatever?" Santa pushed.
"Deja-vu?" Junpei shrugged. "I thought we'd talked about this but I guess it was something June had said earlier about the picture that made me think that." They exchanged a look but didn't press him. "We've got the Mars key now. We should grab June and go through the door. I wanna get out of here."
Without another word, the two of them followed Junpei into the hallway. Junpei stepped into B92 and gestured for June to follow him. "We got the key."
"Are you okay? You look sick." June laid the back of her hand across Junpei's forehead. It felt good. "You're a little warm."
"I threw up a bit," Junpei admitted. "It's fine. I just have a bad headache."
"Do we need to rest?"
"No." He didn't mean to be so harsh but... "We have the key, we should move on."
June nodded and followed him into the hallway. With everyone there—probably exchanging glances and unspoken questions about his health—Junpei opened the Mars door and walked through.
There was a large hallway, like the map said. What the map didn't show was the large metal grate that barred them from crossing to the other side, by where door 5 let out. Junpei let Santa struggle with the grate for a bit while he looked at the elevators to the right of the doors they just went through. There wasn't any kind of keycard reader, like there had been out on B-deck by the grand staircase, but also the buttons weren't lit. They wouldn't be able to use them. That just left the door across the hall.
The...kitchen, right? That's the kitchen. He knows that's the kitchen.
Why does he know that's the kitchen?
"Dammit!" Junpei heard Santa kick the grate and hiss in pain.
"Did you try asking nicely?" Lotus asked him.
"Shut up." They were getting along well, just like before.
"The elevators aren't powered." June had pressed one of the buttons. "Do you think there's a keycard reader for these on some other floor?"
"The only other floor they'd go to is C-deck and I don't know where these would even let out." Junpei mused. He hadn't moved from the door he was standing in front of.
"Well if the elevators don't work, we came from back there, and the hallway is closed off, this door is our only choice." June walked over to Junpei and the kitchen door. Lotus and Santa followed suit.
"Not much of a choice, is it?" Santa griped.
Junpei didn't even bother waiting. He just threw the door open and entered the room beyond.
It was a kitchen. Galley, really, because that's the ship word for it and all, but it was what he assumed it would be. What he remembered it was.
There were counters covered in things, stacks of various plates on a service counter across from an empty sink, a grill that still had a coal fire going in it, an abandoned stove with pots on it. Set into the counter, by an area that had cutting boards and rolling pins on it, was a keypad on what might have been an oven. There were two doors that looked like extensions of the kitchen and one door with a keycard reader next to it on the other side of the partition that divided the service side of the galley from the cooking side. That was probably the way out.
Junpei's head hurt but he kept himself together. He couldn't fall apart just yet. He was only experiencing severe deja-vu. It didn't mean anything. He took a deep breath and exhaled through his nose.
"Damn. I was hoping this would be easy." Santa looked at the clutter. "It's another puzzle room." His gaze wandered back to Junpei, as if he was indicating that he should get to solving. It was...relieving to be treated like that, as strange as it might sound. Santa choosing to, once again, leave the heavy lifting to Junpei meant that he wasn't holding his strange outburst against him.
"Well the exit's over there," Lotus pointed at the door with the reader next to it. 
"Where's the keycard?" June asked.
Junpei knelt down and pointed to the oven. "My money's on in here. We just need to find the combination."
Lotus sighed heavily. "All right, I guess we should split up. Just don't hurt yourself. I'm not bandaging you up if you cut yourself on a rusty knife or something."
"Thanks mom." Santa laughed as Lotus swatted him with the back of her hand. Junpei was too lost in thought to really make any sort of comment about it.
June gripped his arm and gave him a worried look.
"I'm fine. I'll...be fine. Thanks." Junpei patted her on the hand and smiled, hoping she bought it. She didn't seem convinced but let go and nodded. "Let's get to looking."
Santa was looking at half of the galley, peering at one of the two doors like it personally offended him. Lotus was on the same side as the entrance door with Junpei, looking at a paper on the service counter. June tried the door nearest Lotus and Junpei and seemed surprised when it opened, so she went in.
Junpei tried to collect himself as he walked over to Lotus. "What're you looking at?"
"This," she pointed at a voucher on the service counter and read it aloud. "Appetizer nine, meat dish ten, soup A, seafood dish F."
"That's..." Junpei didn't know what he wanted to say, but looked at the plates stacked on the service counter and tallied them up in his head. "Is that supposed to be this?" He gestured at the plates.
"Well these here," Lotus pointed to the square plates, "are the appetizer plates. That's nine. These," she pointed to the deep plates next to the appetizer plates, "are soup plates. That's ten. These," she pointed to the shallower, bigger plates next to the soup plates, "are seafood plates. There's fifteen of them. And these," she pointed to the stack of plates that had a higher lip than the seafood plates, "are meat plates. There's sixteen of them."
"Wait, but..." Junpei looked at the note again. Appetizer plates made sense. Nine. But soup, seafood, and meat were using numbers, and wrong ones too. Unless... "Do you think these three are using hexadecimal?"
Lotus looked at the note, then the stacks of plates, and back again. "You're probably right. A in hexadecimal is ten in base-10. Base-10 is the numerical system we normally use." Junpei nodded at her, letting her know that, yes, he knew what base-10 was. "Hexadecimal is base-16, so it goes one through nine, then A, B, all the way through F, then ten is sixteen in base-10, and so on and so forth. So if you compare this voucher to base-16, it's correct."
"Huh." Junpei looked at the lock on the oven, then back at the plates. "Zero really likes math."
"Who wouldn't? Numbers, even if they're in good old base-2, are reliable and simple. One plus one always equals the same thing every time." Lotus smiled fondly. "They're consistent and I, for one, like consistency, don't you?"
Base-2...isn't that binary? That's what's used for programming. No wonder Lotus liked math.
"I'm more of a fun facts guy than a numbers guy, but yeah, I can understand it."
Lotus rolled her eyes at him and waved him off. "Go figure something useful out."
"Yes ma'am." Junpei gave her a sarcastic salute and walked from the service counter to the door June had gone in. Inside the room was a pantry filled with very large cheese wheels and other metal shelving units covered in cloth. June was looking at the cheese like she was debating cracking a wheel open and eating it. "I don't think any of this is any good."
June jumped and let out a started squeak. "Oh! Don't do that!"
"Who's the jumpy one now?" Junpei teased.
June pouted at him. "Not funny."
"It was, a little bit." Junpei turned his attention back to the cheese wheels. "But you have to admit that I'm right. About the cheese, I mean."
"Well, not really."
Junpei shot her an exaggerated scandalous look. "Oh?"
"There are some cheeses that, until the rind is broken, can actually keep for decades." June smirked at him.
Junpei just chuckled. "Yeah, but not centuries. If this is actually the Titanic or whatever, this cheese is from, what, nineteen twelve? Later than that, even, because cheese is made through like...fermentation or whatever. This is ancient cheese. I don't think it could survive the ravages of time."
June leveled her gaze at him, mock sternness broken quickly by her laughing. "Fair. Still, I wonder what the insides of these wheels look like?"
"Dust, probably. Mold. The faintest hint of powdered milk."
June laughed again. "Maybe. Who knows? I certainly don't want to open them, even if I could." "I guess that makes them Schrödinger's Cheese then. They're both cheese and dust until observed by someone." Now he was just showing off.
Something strange—not quite sad but not quite angry—flashed across June's face. As quick as it appeared, it was gone, and she pointed to a wheel on the second-highest shelf. "Oh, look. There's something back there."
Junpei craned his neck to look and, yes, there was. The two of them moved the wheel and found that it was a bottle of oil. "Well this will come in handy." Especially if any hinges needed lubrication.
"It can't hurt." June held her hands out. "You want me to carry it? You did so much in the cabins that I'd like to help." He handed it to her and she held it in both hands. "Thanks."
"No problem. I've only got so many pockets and if that leaks, I'll never get it out of my jacket. Or my pants." He tried to make light of it but he genuinely did appreciate her offering. He'd been feeling like he'd been carrying the weight of the ship on his shoulders this whole time. Knowing that someone else was willing to bear some of the burden meant a lot.
Junpei looked at the other shelves. Most of them were filled with canned goods and other preserved items. Pasta, powdered milk, spices. All in bulk. He flipped up a sheet and found one of the shelves had a small, wooden box on it next to several unlabeled, rusty cans of something.
Oh.
Junpei opened the box and revealed a rusty knife. Didn't he see a whetstone by the sink? He grabbed the box and put it in his jacket pocket, aware of how bulky and awkward it looked. As he turned back to June, ready to leave the pantry, he noticed she seemed lost in thought.
"What's up?"
"Oh, nothing," she said. It was very obviously something. "Just thinking about Futility."
Junpei had an inkling of what she was talking about. Same as he knew what Lotus was going to say about the morphogenetic field test. She wasn't talking about rusty knives or cheese that wasn't cheese or puzzles that lead to puzzles. "The book?"
June looked confused but delighted. "You know about it?"
"A little bit, yeah." That was an understatement. He remembered her talking about Futility. He just..didn't want to upset her like he had Santa and Lotus. Keeping his headache and precognition to himself seemed the best way to do just that. "I know that it's very similar to the way the Titanic sank, fourteen years before it happened. People think that Morgan Robertson predicted the whole deal."
"That's a lotta bit!" She didn't seem too offended that he knew things. That was good. "While the similarities between the events in Futility and the sinking of the Titanic were eerily similar, there are two other novels that bear striking resemblance to various events. Both of these, however, were written by Wlliam Thomas Stead."
"Oh yeah." Junpei remembered Stead. "But weren't his stories only superficially similar? Robertson's Futility, while probably coincidental, was closer to the actual sinking of the Titanic in terms of overall details, although he could have changed the details to up sales."
June frowned at him. "Sure, he could have changed details, but Stead's works were more interesting. You see: Stead was a passenger on the Titanic. It's said that he was possessing his past self to write down what happened as best he could, and that's why his works bear resemblance to the Titanic."
"Automatic writing, right?"
"Yeah! Of course, there's no proof, but isn't that interesting as a thought? That the future could be so traumatic that you send an aspect of yourself to the past, if only to warn you."
"He still got on the ship," Junpei pointed out.
"Yeah." June deflated a little. "Some things just can't be changed. They're fixed events."
Unsure of what to do after that, Junpei nervously looked at the door, then back at June. "I'm gonna go sharpen this knife. Are you good in here? I don't think there's anything else to find."
"Oh, I'll be out in a moment." June smiled, less sincerely than before. That strange look, the one that reminded Junpei of how he felt when he woke up on the D-deck, crossed her face again. "Just remember what Lotus said. Don't cut yourself."
"I won't." Junpei smiled, mostly for her benefit, and left the pantry.
Sharpening the knife took more time and effort than Junpei would have assumed. To be fair, he wasn't sure exactly how to perform upkeep on cooking utensils and the knife was very rusty. Still, the fact that he had managed to get an edge on it anyway, in spite of how genuinely ruined the blade was, was a feat in and of itself.
As he was sharpening the knife, Santa came up alongside him and watched him for a moment. Then he asked him, "You feeling better?"
"Hm?" Junpei stopped for a second so he didn't hurt himself—and to rest his poor arms—and looked at Santa. "Oh, yeah. I think puking helped."
There was a period of silence, then Santa said, "The door over there, the freezer I think? The bolt is jammed. It's rusted shut."
"Well lucky for you, June and I found some oil." Junpei wiped the blade of the knife off and checked the edge. It wasn't going to gut anyone, but it probably could cut through cooked meat with some effort. Good enough. He didn't want a dangerous knife out and about. Not with Zero around. "June has it."
"June has what?" June came up behind him as well. Junpei put the knife back in the box and latched it, shoving it back in his pocket.
"The oil. Santa says the bolt on the other door is jammed. You wanna check it out?" June nodded and the three of them walked over to the other door. Lotus followed behind, even though she wasn't doing anything.
Like sharpening the knife, oiling the bolt took effort. Cooking oil was not industrial oil, nor was it any kind of mechanical lubricant. It was just slimy and slick and, when Junpei was done wiggling the bolt free of the plate, he wiped his hands on his pants, leaving dark streaks.
So much for keeping them clean.
Grabbing the door handle, Junpei pushed it open. Past the door was a freezer filled with shelves of meat and other frozen goods. None of them were edible, probably, and the whole place was bitingly cold. On the wall opposite the door was a cabinet and there was some kind of hatch on the floor. Junpei shivered, his breath coming out in puffs of white.
"F-fuck it's cold." Santa looked around, bare arms wrapped around himself. Goosebumps raised on his skin and he was hunching over to try and keep from shaking too much. Why he had decided to come into the freezer was beyond Junpei, especially since he and June were better dressed for not freezing to death. That's why Lotus had stayed outside when...
Wait.
Just as Junpei remembered why all them being in the freezer was a bad idea, the door swung shut behind them and there was a snapping sound. The pipe by the door had burst and the water—warm in the pipe—had frozen over the knob, making it impossible to open from either side.
Santa lunged for the knob and drew back, hissing in pain. The palm of his hand was a bright pink, the freezing cold metal having burned him on contact. "Lotus?!"
On the other side of the door, Lotus tried to push it open. Then she slammed into it with her full weight. Junpei heard her suck in air. She probably hurt herself too. "It's not opening from this side!"
The door swings open, Junpei remembered. If the ice freezing it in place is keeping it from moving, then even Lotus tackling the damn thing wouldn't make it budge. Hell, even if Seven tried it wouldn't go anywhere. They had to make their own way out.
How though...
While Santa yelled at Lotus through the door—her saying something about how she genuinely couldn't help them and him shouting about how they were gonna freeze to death—Junpei opened the cabinet and started searching for something, anything to help.
Slabs of meat weren't useful, save the extremely hard chunk of frozen chicken, which could be used as a bludgeoning weapon, but something else in the cabinet caught his eye. A large bag of something extremely square shaped that radiated cold.
"Dry ice." Junpei pulled the bag's knotted handle and carefully dropped it to the floor. The freezer was already cold as shit. He didn't need to suffer dry ice burns on top of that.
"H-hey," Santa startled Junpei. "Isn't dry ice just frozen carbon dioxide?"
"Yeah?" Junpei tried to wrack his brain for any information he had about dry ice. All he was getting were a recipe for a dry ice bomb and the fact that dry ice is a sublimate. The former was useful, if he could find the things he needed. "It's got specific needs to become a l-liquid." Even with his vest and long sleeves, the cold was starting to take its toll on Junpei. He knelt down and used the frozen chicken to start smashing the dry ice block into smaller, more manageable chunks.
"The sublimation point of carbon di-dioxide is negative one hundred and n-nine degrees fahrenheit. In order to m-make it a liquid, it needs to be under pressure, like diamonds a-and graphite." June, in spite of the cold, seemed proud of herself.
It would've been a more impressive fact if they weren't freezing to death, trapped in a freezer. "Queen of Knowledge st-strikes again, huh?"
June's amused smile turned into another thoughtful frown. "Oh, h-hey Junpei?"
"Yeah?"
"Do you remember w-what I said ab-about the mummy?"
Santa looked as confused as Junpei felt. Junpei, however, was connecting dots. "About how sh-she wouldn't melt?"
"Mmhmm." June wrapped her arms tighter around herself and jammed her hands in her armpits. "I just remembered s-something interesting about that." When nobody—not even Santa—stopped her, she began to explain. "So there's this type of i-ice. It was sup-supposed to be something in a science-fiction book, but it was ice that had a melting point of ninety-six degrees fahrenheit. It's a p-polymorph of standard ice. They called it ice-9."
While the conversation was familiar, it was the repetition of nine that really caused Junpei's stomach to leap into his throat. There was just no escaping nine in the Nonary Game, was there?
"S-so what? Do they know wh-what caused it?" Santa asked through chattering teeth.
"No. It just h-happened. Something about the structure of the ice was different and that's wh-why its melting point is higher. Kinda like glycerine."
Junpei did remember this one better, even though ice-9 should have been the one to stick out to him more. "Nineteen twenty, right? Wh-when glycerine started crystalizing all over the world when c-cooled to sixty-four degrees fahrenheit or lower?"
"Y-yeah." June nodded at Junpei.
He stood up and looked around for anything else to help with his dry ice bomb. There was a piece of pork on the metal shelving that had what looked like a tag in it. That had to be something useful. "What's th-that got to do with ice-9 and th-the Priestess of Amon-Ra again?" Junpei shoved the pork in his pocket—he was giving up on keeping his clothes clean at this point—and continued searching the shelves.
"P-probably the same phenomena," Santa offered. "L-like ice-9 deciding to freeze with the structure that allows it to h-have a higher melting p-point, the glycerine crystallization happened the s-same way."
"Morphogenic fields." June made a noise of confusion so Junpei explained. "Lotus was...there was this b-biochemist. It's about in-invisible fields that carry information. If it ex-exists, then who's to say humans are th-the only ones who can store or r-retrieve information using it."
"B-but if ice-9 is the same, why haven't the oceans f-frozen over?" Santa asked.
"Salt." June's answer didn't seem satisfactory, but Santa didn't press her.
Instead, he chose to focus his confusion on Junpei. "Wh-what are you doing?"
"Dry ice bomb." Junpei lifted the hatch and let out a hissing, "Yes." There was an empty bottle and some rope—cold to the touch but not frozen stiff—in the hatch. He started shoving chunks of dry ice in the bottle using his shirt sleeve as a glove.
Santa looked at the dry ice, then the door. "Do you plan on b-blowing us up too?!"
Junpei wrapped the rope around the bottle so he could hook it on the door handle then removed the cap. "Hop in th-the hatch. We can use the d-door to shield us. It's big enough."
"You're f-fucking crazy." Santa still got in the hatch, helping June step down as well. Junpei added the warm water to the bottle and, as the ice began to turn to gas, capped it off and tied it to the doorknob.
It was a really good thing he had been so gentle. Just one tap and the bomb would have probably taken his hands off, at the very least. Junpei picked up a chunk of dry ice left over from making the bomb, hunkered down by the hatch, and threw it against the bottle. The second that the ice left his hand, he ducked into the cellar and pulled the door down. A deafening sound rocked through the freezer. Junpei threw the hatch up and rushed to the door, sliding a little on the ice-covered floor. The door handle—now free of ice—moved in his grip and he shoved the door open, ecstatic to be free of the freezer.
"Oh thank fuck!" Junpei leaned against the wall, shaking his hands to try and get feeling back in his fingers. Behind him, June and Santa rushed out as well, their faces bright pink.
Santa slammed his hand down on the grill and started screaming. It seemed like an extreme reaction to nearly freezing to death but also...Junpei couldn't blame anyone for acting odd. He was probably the worst offender today. Santa swore and kicked the grill, pulling his hand off. Now his skin was pink for a different reason.
Lotus, who had been leaning against the service counter, looked at them with surprise. "What the hell was that noise? Is Santa okay?"
"Bomb and probably?" Junpei's first instinct on escaping was to assume that Lotus had purposefully closed them in the freezer, but the smarter, louder part of him—the part that knew things that hadn't happened yet—knew that if she wanted them dead, she could have just bolted the latch shut. She didn't, she just also didn't do anything else to help.
"Fuck!" Santa swore one last time.
"Feel better?" Lotus asked. He shot her a scathing look and she just held her hands up defensively. "Just asking."
"Shut up. I'm gonna go stick my hands in the sink."
"Yuck." June grimaced.
"Well, better that than let my hands hurt forever." Santa walked off and June followed him, probably to try and warm her hands up too—or make sure he was okay.
Junpei turned to the grill and threw the pork on it. Lotus, confused by his actions, came over and looked at the slowly cooking meat. "Hungry?" Her tone was teasing and light.
"Not for this." Junpei poked it with a barbecue fork, testing to see how soft it was. "There's paper in this. I figure I can cut it out if it's not frozen. Plus, I don't know how old this meat is. I'm not taking chances." One side was pretty cooked so Junpei flipped it over. It did smell good, kinda. Junpei poked the meat again. Still a little cold in the center.
When he figured it was done enough he skewered the meat on the barbecue fork and walked it to the area with the cutting boards. Then he began to work on removing the piece of paper with the kitchen knife he sharpened.
He'd done an okay job getting the edge back on the knife but it cut like a pair of safety scissors through cardboard. It took Junpei several moments to finally work the paper free and by then his hands were covered in meat grease. Maybe he should also submerge his hands in the sink water. Yuck.
The paper read: C + 10 + F
Of course hexadecimal was going to be important. That's why the voucher with the plate numbers was there. C was twelve, ten was sixteen, and F was fifteen. Twelve plus sixteen plus fifteen was forty-three. Junpei punched it into the number pad lock on the oven and was rewarded for remembering something Lotus told him. The oven opened.
"Hell yeah." Junpei pulled a blue and black keycard out from in the oven. It had a familiar symbol on it. "Hey June? Isn't this the symbol for Saturn?" He stood up and handed it to her as she walked over.
June looked at the card with wonder in her eyes. "Yes! Do you think this is the keycard to leave?"
"I don't see anything else we could do, so probably." Junpei wiped his grease-covered hands on his pants again and grimaced. These jeans were never getting clean after this. Ever. "Why don't you give it a try?"
June and everyone else walked over to the reader near the door and she swiped it. The light flashed green, it beeped, and she grabbed the door and threw it open. Finally, they'd managed to escape the kitchen.
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paimonial-rage · 8 months ago
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I was thinking about this while helping my friend beta something yesterday like… I vaguely remember that at one time, I felt (punctuation) periods were too harsh. They had a sense of finality about them. They were too loud and vibrant. Commas were more comforting to use. They felt softer and not as exact. And then I look at my writing now and there's nothing I love more than a period. I love how sharp it is. I love its finality.
Like I can't understate enough how much a period makes a statement. Like that's what it's supposed to do, yes, but it's more than that. It tells the audience that what precedes is true. It's a fact. And when you yield a period properly, it emphasizes and highlights what is stated. It stands out. It's final. It has weight. It's such a powerful thing that it's addicting to use.
#thoughts#personal#writing#i should be putting this in the main post but the main post has a vibe that i don't want to interrupt#the way to properly wield a period is by varying the lengths of your sentences#a good key to remember is that long sentences are meant for providing information#*long sentences are not meant to stand out*#when you want to highlight something that is key you use a short sentence#making it short makes it clear to the audience that the statement is meant to hold weight#however it is important to keep variety in the lengths of your sentences#a short sentence after a short sentence does not stand out as much as a short sentence after a long sentence#think of it like this#if you have two short people standing next to each other they look normal#if you put a short person next to someone really tall it makes the short person look shorter than they actually are#their shortness really stands out#this is called juxtaposition#i can make a whole essay based off of the importance of juxtaposition too HAHA#periods can be loud but i highly recommend trying to learn how to use them#one of you said you like hearing my thought process when i write so i hope you find this one interesting!!#now i'm gonna speak more off the top of my head but i feel that ppl that dislike periods are very sensitive to the flow in their stories#there is a flow to a sentence when you use commas and periods tend to disrupt that flow#a period/short sentence is too abrupt and jarring#at least that's what i assume they feel#however imho i feel ppl that feel this way are overly sensitive to the flow they perceive exists in their sentences/paragraphs#i have to tell myself this constantly that things that flow seamlessly aren't always a good thing#imagine your writing like an orchestral piece. are they always flowy and legato? or are there moments where the music jumps or changes?#and what do those sudden jumps do? they wake the audience. they catch the audience's attention. they add variety and interest#imagine an orchestral piece that the tempo never changes. the volume never shifts. every note bleeds into the next#you get put to sleep!#so a period may seem abrupt in the scheme of the sentence but look at it from the view of the whole paragraph. it may be better than u thin
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firstelevens · 11 months ago
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#32 from the prompt list for Des/Ian (the most beloved cricket boys) 🏏♥️ (is that a cricket bat emoji?? Who knows??
32. things you said right after hello
Ian doesn’t even really know where he’s headed when he leaves his flat; he just knows that he needs some air and maybe something with too much sugar in it. After two hours of back and forth with a head teacher, the deputy headmaster, and the parents of a student who frankly should never have gotten in trouble in the first place, he just wants to sit on his own for a while.
The neighborhood is still a little unfamiliar, but he has the vague memory of a coffee shop just off the park, and it doesn’t look too busy when he makes his way inside. There’s a couple working at laptops in the back corner, and a very tall, broad-shouldered man by the counter, right near where the pastries are displayed.
He’s only taken a couple steps towards the glass case when the other man notices him, immediately taking a few steps to the side.
“Sorry,” he says with a small smile, “let me just get out of your way so you can see.”
“Oh, that’s–” Ian starts to say, but the man is already well clear of the glass. He doesn’t look at all put out, but part of Ian feels bad. Anyone that tall has probably spent a lot of time ducking out of the way so others can see, and there was something so conciliatory in how he moved out of the way that Ian suspects other people aren’t necessarily polite about asking him to do it.
He’s supposed to be looking at the cakes in the display, but he finds his gaze drifting up to the mirror behind the espresso machine, taking in the other man’s face while he’s distracted by his phone. Ian has already acknowledged that he’s attractive and decided to move past it when he sees the man beam delightedly at something on his phone, and he’s man enough to admit that it makes him a little weak-kneed. Surely people with smiles like that shouldn’t be allowed to just break them out without warning.
The man glances up and Ian immediately snaps his gaze back down to the display case, finally looking at the pastries that he’d left the house for in the first place. He doesn’t know what makes him do it—he didn’t leave the house with the intention of chatting up a stranger in a coffee shop—but he suddenly wants to start a conversation, and he’s been too distracted checking out the other man to register literally anything about the shop that they’re in.
“How do you reckon a matcha cake pop would be?” he wonders out loud, for lack of anything else to bring up.
It takes the stranger beside him a moment to realize that he’s being addressed, but then he directs one of those sweet smiles at Ian and says, with a little shrug, “Matcha better than the birthday cake one, I bet.”
Ian feels his jaw drop slightly, his eyebrows going up in surprise, and after a moment, the other man wrinkles his nose a little bit. Regrettably, it just makes him cuter.
“You’re right not to laugh; that wasn’t my best work.”
“No, no,” Ian says hurriedly. “It was perfect; I’ll be tormenting students with it as soon as I get the chance.”
“The highest honor.”
“Of course,” says Ian. “Who, uh– who should I credit when they inevitably yell at me for it?”
The other man looks surprised for a moment, but then his face clears and he smiles again. “I’m Desmond,” he says. “Or just Des, really.”
“Hi, Des,” says Ian, smiling back before remembering that he should probably introduce himself, too. “I’m Ian.”
“Hi, Ian,” says Des, picking up the coffee that the barista has just set on the counter. “It’s nice to meet you.”
“Likewise,” Ian says, and decides that just sitting there on his own is overrated, actually.
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deadgit · 2 years ago
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I wasn't making as much progress on my rimster fic as I wanted, so I decided to set the audacious goal of finishing in 3 months. This puts the finish line exactly on the Ides of March. Make of that what you will.
To get into the spirit of things, I spent this evening making a timetable - and not writing.
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