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How to say “I love you” in Blue Lock
I don’t really want to play soccer, but being with you isn’t a pain, so it’s fine.
Now that I can fight without you, being with you is even more fun
And then there’s this asshole...
I made it this far because of you. Since you allowed me to play soccer freely, I’ve grown this strong on Bastard München. But I can’t climb any higher that way. I figured that out in this match, I no longer need the freedom you give me. Forget about me, Ness. Find yourself a new king. It’s easier for me to live in restriction.
#come to blue lock#we have all kinds of couples here#the pair from the classic misunderstanding soap opera#the sweet best friends to lovers#and now the doomed “I want to be loved but I don’t think I deserve it coz I’m a piece of shit and I only know how to be a piece of shit…#...and your loves makes me feel things I don’t know how to feel and it’s fucking me up so I’m letting you go” asshole#and his confused ex-boyfriend who doesn’t understand why they broke up#i hate them#they make me so ill#but to be honest I’m seeing a pattern in these love confessions#and so I still have hope for kainess#kainess#nesskai#nagireo#reonagi#bachisagi#isabachi#nagi seishiro#mikage reo#bachira meguru#isagi yoichi#michael kaiser#alexis ness#episode nagi#blue lock love#miyamiwu.src#blue lock
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ohhh my GOD this took so much time but WOOOO BATTLE SPRITES!!!!!!!!!!! HELL YES!!!!!!!!!!! i was Also able to mod them actually In Game which is SO exciting i feel so proud of myself
ANYWAYS UM!!!! heres king lucas hes fine and sane and normal i promise <33333 will yap more about him in the eventual au masterpost once i get this aus loop design drawn :]
party menu | in love and time au tag
#in love and time au#im fucking. giddy im five seconds from exploding#theres certainly things id fix about these sprites theyre not perfect but i already spent so much time on them i dont wanna. heart#anyways im So hyped about being able to put em in game this opens up so many opportunities#maybe i could make more sprites and then make a short video or smth-- *shot for getting ahead of myself*#claus mother 3#lucas mother 3#ness earthbound#paula earthbound#ninten mother 1#mother 3#earthbound#mother 1#mothscribbles#one day ill post at a normal hour. that day is not today#also please ask if you want this spoiler tagged#for like. idk the king#i think the rule in my head is that anything past act 2 will get spoiler tagged but acts 1-2 will be fairly free game??#but im up for whatever yall want
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Reasons why Louis de Pointe du Lac is a messy af deranged as anything dude (despite hiding behind his sad boi exterior so we don't remember his messiness):
He beat up a priest cause he was chatting shit about his dead brother
He was turned on by killing a guy during his vampire initiation
He said that he would rather kill a child than part with his money
He set his house on fire
He ate a child (Claudia) after basically starving himself for 4 years living off only animals
He stood and watched Claudia kill Lestat before dumping him in a swamp
He set Lestat on fire
He ditched Claudia for Armand despite only knowing him for 2 seconds
He set the Theatre on fire
He drained Daniel, not caring whether or not he actually died, and then just left him half dead
He denied Lestat help cause 'he got himself into this mess, he can get himself out'
He said he likes it when his victims struggle when he kills them
He didn't give a single fuck when Marius killed Arjun and said they were 'disturbing his reading'
Feel free to add more if I've missed any. I probably have.
#i love him so much#my messy deranged boy#if anything the fact that he hides his fucked up-ness behind his sad boi exterior makes him more fucked imo#cause it's like he doesn't want anyone to remember that bit of him#and is instead like 'no i'm not fucked in the head. i'm normal. i'm just a sad boi'#and i support that#he has done wrong i won't deny that#but as he should#he should be a messy bitch#i stand by everything he's ever done and will do#louis de pointe du lac#vampire chronicles#tvc#my vampire chronicles
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me writing syat rn
#whose idea was it to make them wait 90k words to fuck (me)#who is now paying for the pent-up-ness of one joel miller (you guessed it - also me)#how much smut is too much smut#asking for a friend#freya speaks#personal#delete later#fic: seeyouatthree
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u mean to tell me graham is SO insecure he cant handle having ANY imperfections or flaws and HAS to be on top or else he completely loses all mental stability
AND overworks himself to the point of PASSING OUT FROM EXHAUSTION after battling the toons because hes so desperate to win
AND is so invested in hustle culture that he disregards his physical/mental health and bases a lot of his self-worth on being the best employee
AND has burnt himself out as a result (based on his disciplinary records)
YET THERES AN INSANE LACK OF GRAHAM ANGST IN THE COMMUNITY?
#toontown#toontown corporate clash#ttcc#graham payser#graham ness payser#pacesetter#BULLSHIT I SAY#guys im in such an angst mood lately AND I CRAVE GRAHAM ANGST SPECIFICALLY#theres sm potential for it this guy is so fucked up dont u see...#ik hes silly and fun to poke at#but URGHHHHH I NEED ANGST#ive wanted this since i got into ttcc .#as soon as i saw graham being super cocky and overlyconfident i was like. wheres the insecurity ur DEFINITELY insecure#and he is bc he cant handle having any flaws or imperfections#and feels like he NEEDS to be perfect and bases his self worth on PERFECTION#DO U NOT SEEEE HOW FUCKED THAT IS#UGHHHHHHHHHHHH#i hope this all makes sense .#not enough ppl talk abt this and it makes me feel like im insane
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logic vs. creativity: vague kainess theory (spoilers for ch 242-243)
after reading their backstory chapters, it's interesting to see how different they started out in comparison to how they act and how kaiser treats ness currently.
in particular.....
when they met, kaiser's intent was to team up with ness so he could play better, specifically he wants to aid ness's creativity.
but earlier, in ch218, we see kaiser talking in a way that seems contradictory to this.
now, he specifically doesn't want ness's creativity.
their dynamic in general is also much different, much more unhealthy, than how we see it in their backstory. I don't think anything actually happened between the two of them that caused kaiser's change in view or that caused him to start treating ness so much worse, I think it's their own team and noa's team philosophy that caused it.
bastard munchen is based solely on logic and rationality, contrary to ness's creativity and his belief in magic, and I think joining the team might be the worst thing that happened to his and kaiser's relationship.
I suspect noa/the team might have ended up treating ness's mindset similarly to how his family did, from "there's no magic in my house" -> "there's no magic/creativity on this team." I imagine that's what changed kaiser and ness's dynamic. Kaiser can't aid ness anymore, because he doesn't align with the team philosophy. Instead, the team revolves around kaiser, who will go along with the team philosophy, and ness is reduced to being the one to aid kaiser instead, since he's the only person on the team he cares about. They still have the same goal together, but ness's creativity can't blossom at all anymore due to their team, so he only plays for kaiser and what he tells him to do.
#their insane fucked up dynamic really makes so much more sense now when you think about it ......#i hope theres another backstory chapter or a flashback during the next match or smth#because i really want to see what it was that changed their dynamic ............#i want to see the conflict between ness's magic and the team of ultimate rationality...... its so interesting#kainess#bllk#blue lock#blue lock spoilers#bllk spoilers#michael kaiser#alexis ness#ness blue lock#kaiser blue lock#noel noa
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The Bridgerton boys really are all hoes.
Anthony - the ‘so intense it makes him stupid’ hoe
Benedict - the ‘hoe for a good cause’
Colin - the ‘self-absorbed, dumb of ass’ hoe
#in this rewatch my oldest sibling senses light up like a fucking christmas tree every time Colin opens his mouth#like honey you need to be taken down a peg or six and I volunteer to do the honors#benedict’s hoe-ness just makes him sweet#like yeah you funky lil bisexual sweetheart embrace your hoe ass#i sympathize with (but do not excuse) anthony bc the weight of being the one chaotic sexy to rule them all truly is a calling#anthony bridgerton is everything chaotic bisexual eldest children strive to be:#filled with YearningTM and RAGE#but literally most of anthony’s decisions got me muttering ‘hoe don’t do it’ and then me suffering as i watch the hoe in fact do it#colin’s currently (circa early S2) just a fucking douche canoe bc he is still a teenage boy#he just needs someone to take him out at the kneecaps#and again I’m volunteering#benedict’s hoe-ness does no harm to anybody and mostly manifests as an adorable ‘clueless but ready to learn’ himbo air#Colin’s ignorant and anthony’s just comprised of rage and spite at this point#bridgerton#bridgerton brothers#no comment on gregory bc while I’m sure he’ll develop his own strain of hoe-ness I won’t make assumptions#anthony bridgerton#benedict bridgerton#colin bridgerton#bridgerton siblings
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n*loth not being able to bag anyone over the (human term) age of 25-30 at most is the only logical and real conclusion to me because it can be just explained away as him wanting to prove and control everything and anyone (Cus he's a man!) but being stuck in that demographic because his unbearable and vile personality is a force that nobody can look past once they've outgrown the possible fear and idolization period of anyone but also n*loth in particular.
#text#i think even younger ones that possess the same nasty traits can be slammed back 'In their place' (in his mind) by him just bc his -#- abilities and power alone (alt. name the factors that make him 'Cool') that dumbs them down insanely in comparison#maybe by this i mean like; ild*ri. despite the animosity she could still feel very foolish and is conscious of her wuss-ness#if that makes sense#cause no matter the disrespect anyone might have for an older capable person the reality is still reality#tbh i just think he doesn't like to sweat it much and still aims for the younger ones bc it's easier than it would be for someone that's -#- 30+ years old#and once he's proven his point he doesn't find any merit in sticking with older ones cause their interests or anything they offer -#- don't matter to or interest Him personally#i think an older demographic is just more boring to him and he would rather spend his time being metaphorically sucked off for his greats -#- by someone that already finds themselves 'lesser' than him and always will for a long time#than someone that is defiant of that fact#basically the more power imbalance the better#in his mind there will always be one unless he certainly knows someone is his equal (or better than him) but he likes the add-on of an -#- age difference too#keeps it in a safe zone with less problems for him#sorry for spitting again my brain just started machine-gunning thoughts for no reason#also i said before that he's an innocence fan. might not be a total puritan but there's something there#it's kinda like him not wanting to be with a dusty ''OLD'' person that's seen a lot anyway#i'm like barely able to hold myself back from opening my mouth to mention t*lvas where i'm making a point about n*loth's brain where he -#- isn't even needed to prove it#but like#him voicing dislike of n*loth general nauseating character and actions but still sucking up to him while n*loth can probably feel -#- that dislike anyway is cute to me i like to view it as an object being thrown into the wall over and over#where n*loth is proving his own worth to other people by drilling their brains out with proof. not that he needs to#but he would like that to be perfected a 100%#and t*lvas is capable of being molded into that state ....... probably#silusvesuisuis you didnot just confess to wanting to see t*lvas be slammed into a wall you fucked up demented beast you're sick#actually can't believe i forgot to mention this but he's literally so immature idk what he has anything in common with actual mature people
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this could be kuwameshi if you guys would like. take my hand and trust me
#yyh spoilers in tags#like major spoilers ok#which ig i dont usually tag but whatever#the if i had to choose between the world and you it's you thing happened. and it was KUWABARA like hhhhgghh#yusuke makes him forget his honor code sometimes and i need you guys to see that with me#bc it makes me wanna fling myself into the ocean over and over again#kuwabara literally is like you need to be alive bc otherwise im nothing idek who i am. please let me punch you#and he wails this multiple times#and yusuke would burn down the world himself if he thought it'd help his friends we all know that#and doomed by the narrative? mmm with the ever escalating world ending nature of being a spirit detective thats kinda there#throw in the sudden demon-human age gap post yusuke death 2 and you've got some narrative dooming in a way#but not enough for me to well and truly call them doomed by the narrative#yyh#yu yu hakusho#kuwameshi#kazuma kuwabara#yusuke urameshi#ofc i can handle you at your worst thats basically you all the time is Very kuwa to yusuke#and maybe we can figure out what the hell ur problem is over dinner sometime is Very yusuke to kuwa#actually i should draw that. or make it a textpost or something#but like turning up the protectiveness/possessiveness thats already there with them in line with the whole#'ive watched you die' trauma they Both have means that like. i think they would Need to have each other around for a period of time#in the wake of sensui's bs perhaps. and then yusuke cuts it all off and they start to get a bit healthier about it. hm#i think about them all the time it's like if typicsl shonen rival/bestie homo-ness was kind of scary and painful#like they love each other but the ways they hurt each other and hurt over each other drive me fucking insane
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A lot of people say kainess is incredibly one-sided (on ness' part) but I think Kaiser did want to keep him for a while because that was the only thing he wanted — for "something that lasts" and to "love and be loved". The only thing that'd really last is for someone that truly loves you that would keep coming back even if you push them away and/or abuse their affection.
It was because Ness kept coming back and the fact that he went through the same thing as him — not getting any love and affection as a child (guess he related to him?) — that kaiser decided to keep him. but after he realized that restricting himself and being uncomfortable was the key to being the best then he went and let him go — which means Kaiser can't really "love" because that'd mean being comfortable with something > then he goes searching for something to keep and love again which means he's at peak desperate condition > when he finds it he has to let it go because he'd be comfortable > cycle repeats.
#reaper rants ◇#i love rambling about kainess they make me so fucking ill#kainess#michael kaiser#alexis ness#blue lock#bllk#i hate them sm#someone write fluff about them pls im gonna die#i refuse to believe kaiser didnt have even a BIT of connection with ness#like . he didnt completely dump ness#it was a breakup#it was a divorce#shhh#idk im thinking about them too much#ya know all kaiser needs is a realization that he CAN love and CAN be human#if he just fucking tried#this mf#and ness needs to stop obsessing over him#god fucking damnit he needs to have SOME sense of self respect#and yk in the end ... this is happening because of the both of them's fucked up self perception#interesting
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On the topic, I think Rise does a wonderful job of displaying the sensory needs of neurodiverse characters because they don't limit them to one extreme or the other; another reason why their portrayal is so wonderful.
Donnie probably shows the most examples of this range, for obvious reasons. He doesn't like unexpected stimuli—and that can be something as small as unexpected touch. He has a preference for his flavorless juice. His lab, from what I've been able to glean, appears to be lit mostly from the glow of his computer screens or his tech. Otherwise it's usually kept rather dark.
On the other hand, Donnie loves noise (as long as he's in control of it, of course). He blasts techno music until it's impossible to talk without shouting. He falls asleep to Shelldon's affirmations: also absolutely blaring.
As for Mikey, this one's a lot more speculative lolol. We see a lot of examples of him seeking out sensory throughout the series, the most memorable for me personally being when the boys are interrogating Warren Stone and he's just. Playing with absolutely everything on the playground, rapidly switching from one thing to the next. But for someone who loves runs around—and very much enjoys doing so—it's a bit surprising to me that he so willingly rides Raph's shell so much. I could see that being his safe space of sorts, for when things get too exciting and Mikey can feel it starting to overwhelm him. Just an area to take a breather.
It's wonderful to see both because it allows the characters to have sensory needs without it becoming a one-dimensional gag. It's no longer a trope, but rather an aspect of their identities. Yeah, Donnie not always reciprocating affection can be made funny. Yeah, Mikey not sitting still can be made funny. But the joke is never the character themselves because they focused on writing a complex, actual person; not the simplified, easily-digestible idea of a disability.
#i see in a lot of media the same thing that some people do where a character has a favorite food and it becomes their whole personality#except it's an aspect of nd-ness#it's a hard line to follow: for Donnie you can see that a lot of his personality is colored by his autism#but it's less of an argument of 'oh he's a person BEYOND his disability' and more the fact that#his autism is an intrinsic part of himself that has doubtlessly shaped his identity because it influenced the way he views the world#how MUCH has it influenced him though#and shit: does it even fucking matter if it was a lot? spoiler: it doesn't#i think it comes back to the idea that people have a hard time with anything that's not an extreme#either this character is entirely independent of their disability and have no connection to it#or their disability makes up their whole personality#because some people still see things like autism and adhd as inherently bad things rather than just another thing that makes someone up#who knows. i don't pretend to speak for everyone.#rise donnie#rise mikey#rottmnt#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#fluffy cooks a headcanon#fluffy writes an essay
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Using Lorenzo and Charles' interviews as reference, I'd love to see any assumptions of what Kaiser and Ness would answer here
#i'm 100% sure they'll get character profiles at some point#maybe more in depth ones like the ones in the egoist bible#since these are meant to be read as interviews to the characters I wouldn't put it past Kaiser to exaggerate or lie in his#like using his answers for those questions (the morning routine/luck rituals/etc)#as reference he totally makes himself sound more put together than he actually is#even if he still sounds kind of fucked up like where's his manager. Can he say that.#anyway#i have ten million guesses for ness' favorite movie.#i could see him liking matilda. & the first 5 hp movies. & narnia. fantasia even. the first fantastic beasts movie. the wizard of oz. etc#can you tell im procrastinating/too into this#ALSO#both lorenzo and sae add comments like#'doing bad things is not ok right?' and (on the topic of school subjects and getting bad grades)'don't be like me'#which i read as both using their ng11 status to give out advice & also as something they've come to think as they've grown#would love to see a kaiser comment in this same wavelength#anyway 2 feel free to rb or reply with thoughts....... i'm curious if anyone'll get them righr#right*
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thinking about the dark side of cesare fanning the flames-- or at the very least just not doing anything to stop them-- of the unholy love/desire he and lucrezia felt for each other when he just playfully chased her around the garden after discovering she was watching him fuck another woman, or when he planted the idea that he'd be the only one to care for her heart, or when he implied the love between them was comparable to the love of God, calling it "as all-consuming and pure as the love of God"....an idea she later reflects in season 3 when she says "one touch of your hand and God comes rushing back" (also in the same scene "whatever it is, it overwhelms".) like, yes, okay I do believe lucrezia is probably the one that shifted their relationship into sexual terrority (not on purpose though!!), but cesare is older by a few years. he would've understood it to be wrong before she did, and he could've sat her down at any point in season 1 or 2 and told her "hey, this isn't how brothers and sisters are supposed to feel about each other. we can't lean into whatever this is, okay?" and then made an actual effort to let her go instead of just half-assing it before then immediately beginning the build up of the already thick sexual tension between them until it was unbearable and she was left thinking her husband didn't care about her because he wouldn't sleep with her, so she climbed into cesare's bed and convinced him they should just get it on because no one else could understand them and people already it whisper about them anyway, so "why deny ourselves the pleasure?" very sick and twisted of him. I kinda hate him for it actually. because if he hadn't gone and created this "ideal lover" in lucrezia's head that only he could fit the mold of, she might've found actual happiness with someone else!! 😡 😡
#text#the borgias#lucrezia x cesare#otp: we are the unholy family#mel talks#I've been sitting on this thought since the end of april btw#but didn't quite know how to approach sharing it on here#this is gonna be a little relevant to the fourth chapter of the fic i'm working on btw!!#are we ready to discuss this as a fandom? idk but i'm throwing it out there for y'all to chew on anyway#but also to be clear i kinda love it??#it's hard to say really if him saying anything would've made a difference#given his speech in 3x04 seems to only hold them back for half a sec#but he didn't even try!! until after they crossed the line!! so fuck him honestly!!#but also idk it just kinda adds a layer of toxic fucked up-ness to their relationship so from a storytelling pov it's fun I think#also to cesare as a character so yeahhhh <333#love you my twisted dark prince#my roman empire#btw I don't mean to victimize lucrezia!! I just meant to point out that there's potentially some grooming behavior going on on cesare's par#and *I* find it makes their dynamic extra fascinating!!#save me toxic sibling dynamics!!
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Lil aside. Fully believe Liam is trying to play Orym as a pretty even keel guy with some worries and a lot of loss in his past. I gotta admit tho. Orym often seems real fucked up. He’s got so deep rooted and suppressed issues.
“Replaying Otohan stabbing Keyleth in his head again and again.” Sir?!? You are not ok?!
Remember the petty stabbing of Yu?
#critical role#cr spoilers#critical role spoilers#Sry#it just makes me feral#This man has like some normal fucked up-ness so next to really weird magic fucked un-ness? Sorta seems boring and bland but he’s not.#Don’t fall into comparing them#Chet I think is the most got his shut together of them. Just in deeply strange ways. He’s not gonna pop#I still think Orym might pop#edit to correct some spelling Bc I am so bad at editing.
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Yk if u like a character you don't always need to polish them from their uglier side. Stop making your fave better than they actually are.
Start making them worse, instead.
#unpopular opinion#probably#but if you gotta make a character ooc at least dont make them boring better versions of themselves yk#fuck them up#blue lock#bllk#michael kaiser#alexis ness#itoshi sae#isagi yoichi#shidou ryuusei#make them bite and bleed#bachira meguru#ooc can be interesting when its not extreme and i think we should start having fun with it
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I can make any main fnaf character a spanish speaker
#The aftons? EZ mrs afton mexican. Henry? Hangs around the aftons a lot and picked it up from them. Vanessa? Spanish mom. Gregory?#Argentenian. Cassie? Dominican. EZ#And this way i can make them all talk in different dialects at each other#Ebvery1 is bullying ness for her spanish accent. Also ness cussing out will in spanish thinking he can’t understand but then he responds in#Spanish and scares her is funny as hell 2 me#‘HOW THE FUCK DID U KNOW THAT I THOUGHT U WERE BRITISH’ ‘MY WIFE WASN’T :}’
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