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Reblog and write the opposite of your URL

thatwasnotveryravenofyou → itisextremelypigeonofthem

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i like these guys

black line art under the cut because i couldn't decide which looked better

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I would love to write something (more like i would love to write a fanfic) about Kaiser's issues with physical contact and how it would translate during sex... how sex is considered the socially acceptable norm in a relationship and how Kaiser strives to appear more human, so he may force himself to fit into that box.

More analysis under cut, cw for childhood trauma. Its not too graphic but yk.

...The way I feel like he would dissociate halfway through it, the second it feels too much. He goes on autopilot, his brain working its ass off into still mantaining his suave, flirty mask on while he is probably giving his partner the 300 yards stare.

Kaiser would prefer touching than being touched, but I wonder if he would still experience that as a "duty", as something he must experience as a human.

He may fixate on his partner's breathing pattern, on their heartbeat.

On how turned on and eager they are. And on how much Kaiser wants to hurt them.

Is this how his father felt like? Towering onto a worthless creature. Powerful. Miserable.

No matter what, Kaiser's brain would inevitably go there. His trauma is so familiar to him and its something he cannot escape for now, not when he is having sex.

Not when a caring hand on his skin feels like iron burning his flesh.

Not when his own fingers secretly seek the thrill of clawing at someone's throat till it snaps.

He attempt at sex once. Maybe twice. There's a part of him who craves that closeness, but for now it feels like bathing in boiling water. To be honest, Kaiser may hate himself enough to find comfort in that type of self torture, but at the same time this would mean to get perceived and seen by someone else.

For someone like him, who has spent years carefully crafting his public persona, being seen equals death. It means no more control on how he is being perceived. It means they will know.

...So yeah. Kaiser would be miserable while having sex and methinks it would be cool to see it in fanfic.

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it sucks that you can only die once and its permanent.. imagine the kinda sex we could be innovating if that wasnt the case

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hey you kind of set off my prey drive. wanna get out of here ? you first

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new url because I need the world to know I'm THAT edgy

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Everytime you repost uncredited fanarts on tumblr an angel loses their wings

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"imagine if you were dating Sae-"

to each their own, but I'd rather imagine Shidou dating Sae.

can't imagine ruining a perfect couple like this. can't. won't.

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https://archiveofourown.org/works/49911148

here’s the fic !!! (this is @zentriii’s main)

!!! Thank you so much!!! :D i will read it asap!

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You don't understand I need ryusaekai to have slumber parties where they bond over shittalking about people.

Realistically it's kaisae the mean girls coded of the three. ...To be honest, it would just be Kaiser who keeps on ranting for hours. Sae just "hmhm"s every once in a while, half interested, half focused on the excel sheet he is currently messing with.

"You get me? Like how dare he. How fucking dare he! After all I've done for him, and he has the guts to—"

"Sit!" Ryusei is the one interrupting him this time. He is lying on his stomach on the fluffy carpet in Sae's living room. Legs dangling in the air and dressed in his pink pajama, he is currently dragging the stilo on the screen of his old Nintendo DS to pet the ugly 3d model of a chihuahua.

"Could you not?!" Because of course Shidou would be playing Nintendogs in the middle of Michael's beautiful speech.

"Huh? I needed to feed Eyesocket, you go on with your disney villain-like monologue, I'm listening."

"Disney villain-like monolo– wait, did you actually name that ugly ass dog 'Eyesocket'...?"

"You are ugly! She is beautiful, don't listen to him babygirl, he has shit taste in dogs..."

"Ugh, whatever... loser."

Shidou suddenly turns to Kaiser, showing him an all fangs grin: "Oh?"

Sae sighs, looking at the beautiful histograms he was making and ultimately deciding to focus on his partners instead:

"I want to know how Mihya's story ends" he says, shifting the focus onto him. Ryusei bats his eyelashes: "I actually want to hear the end of Micchan's story as well! Ah, and I got some gossip too! On Yocchan though~" to which both Michael's and Sae's ears perk up, although for different reasons

Kaiser then scrunches up his nose and relaxes back onto the sofa: "Ok, so, as I was saying, this fucking asshole–..."

...and back to monologuing he goes.

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idk how i feel about this one but i usually end up liking my stuff more after waiting a few hours, so ill trust that

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he's my favorite character he deserves to get his back blown out and his pussy ate :((((

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You don't understand I need ryusaekai to have slumber parties where they bond over shittalking about people.

Realistically it's kaisae the mean girls coded of the three. ...To be honest, it would just be Kaiser who keeps on ranting for hours. Sae just "hmhm"s every once in a while, half interested, half focused on the excel sheet he is currently messing with.

"You get me? Like how dare he. How fucking dare he! After all I've done for him, and he has the guts to—"

"Sit!" Ryusei is the one interrupting him this time. He is lying on his stomach on the fluffy carpet in Sae's living room. Legs dangling in the air and dressed in his pink pajama, he is currently dragging the stilo on the screen of his old Nintendo DS to pet the ugly 3d model of a chihuahua.

"Could you not?!" Because of course Shidou would be playing Nintendogs in the middle of Michael's beautiful speech.

"Huh? I needed to feed Eyesocket, you go on with your disney villain-like monologue, I'm listening."

"Disney villain-like monolo– wait, did you actually name that ugly ass dog 'Eyesocket'...?"

"You are ugly! She is beautiful, don't listen to him babygirl, he has shit taste in dogs..."

"Ugh, whatever... loser."

Shidou suddenly turns to Kaiser, showing him an all fangs grin: "Oh?"

Sae sighs, looking at the beautiful histograms he was making and ultimately deciding to focus on his partners instead:

"I want to know how Mihya's story ends" he says, shifting the focus onto him. Ryusei bats his eyelashes: "I actually want to hear the end of Micchan's story as well! Ah, and I got some gossip too! On Yocchan though~" to which both Michael's and Sae's ears perk up, although for different reasons

Kaiser then scrunches up his nose and relaxes back onto the sofa: "Ok, so, as I was saying, this fucking asshole–..."

...and back to monologuing he goes.

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My old man is a bad man but I can't deny the way he holds my hand and he grabs me he has me by my heart he doesn't mind I have a las vegas past he doesn't mind I have a LA crass way about me he loves me with every beat of his cocaine heart swimming pool glimmering darling white bikini off with my red nail polish watch me in the swimming pool bright blue ripples you sittin sippin on your black cristal yeah light of my life fire of my loins be a good baby do what I want light of my life fire of my loins gimme them gold coins gimme them coins and I'm off to the races cases of bacardi chasers chasin me all over town cause he knows I'm wasted facin time again at rikers island and I won't get out because I'm crazy baby I need you to come here and save me I'm your little scarlet starlet singin in the garden kiss me on my open mouth ready for you my old man is a tough man but he got a soul as sweet as blood red jam and he shows me he knows me every inch of my tar black soul he doesn't mind I have a flat broke down life in fact he says he thinks it's what he might like about me admires me the way I roll like a rolling stone likes to watch me in the glass room bathroom chateau marmont slippin on my red dress puttin on my makeup glass room perfume cognac lilac fumes says it feels like heaven to him light of his life fire of his loins keep me forever tell me you own me light of your life fire of your loins tell me you own me gimme them coins and I'm off to the races cases of bacardi chasers chasin me all over town cause he knows I'm wasted facin time at rikers island and I won't get out because I'm crazy baby I need you to come here and save me I'm your little scarlet starlet singin in the garden kiss me on my open mouth yo I'm off to the races laces leather on my waist is tight and I am falling down I can see your face is shameless cipriani's basement love you but I'm going down god I'm so crazy baby I'm sorry that I'm misbehaving I'm your little harlot starlet queen of coney island raisin hell all over town sorry bout it my old man is a thief and I'm gonna stay and pray with him til the end but I trust in the decision of the lord to watch over us take him when he may if he may I'm not afraid to say that I'd die without him who else is gonna put up with me this way I need you I breathe you I'll never leave you they would rue the day I was alone without you you're lying wit your gold chain on cigar hangin from your lips I said hon you never looked so beautiful as you do now my man and we're off to the races places ready set the gate is down and now we're going in to las vegas chaos casino oasis honey it is time to spin boy you're so crazy baby I love you forever not maybe you are my one true love you are my one true love

You are my one true love

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TRIUMPH

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why must the guard dog characters unquestioning devotion to their master be born from trust or some shit cant they be manipulated into it. raised into it. brainwashed even