#to be heard

[sinitsakv]

I've wanted to draw this since the trial chapter came out, but I finally did it just today :_)

Also, I can't draw people, I don't draw them at all, so please don't try to look at their bodies :)

From the fanfic "To Be Heard" by @astrachigo

[astrachigo]

To Be Heard update

Ah, man. I didn't alert you guys here, have I? Ooopss The production on the next TBH chapter has started!! I would also like to start a Sonadow fic sometime around for the Sonic fandom, I wanted to write one for a while, but I will also be working on TBH, obviously. I'll just be switching between the two from time to time. As for TRB, I am not sure when the next update would be out, I am sorry. I am feeling insanely disconnected to the fic as of now, so when I'll be returning to it, I am really not sure. But hey!! To Be Heard!! Getting an update after months!! YIPPEEE SUNSHINES AND RAINBOWS ASTRACHIGO IS WRITING

[arana-aranehn]

Astarion

*watching him be sexualized and fetishized by the bg3 community*

... Please. Please stop.

[random-xpressions]

Do they hear?

Even if they did, do they understand?

Even if they did, do they love?

Even if they did, will that last?

Random Xpressions

[coffeegnomee]

sometimes I feel like Pentar is possessing his own character's body.

[findinecho]

Newbie.

I created this burner account just to write my feelings out in hopes of being seen. the least that i always expected.

[ithinktoodumb]

Would you miss my presence?

I wish to leave…

I wish to leave these walls we call home.

It doesn’t feel like home.

It hurts me; being judged, then being pampered and the being judged for wanting to be loved truly

I’m just a kid. What do you expect me to do?

I tried working at bettering my academics, it only got worse. It only gets worse.

I tried a sport, but you stopped me. My academics matter more you said.

I tried,and I tried, and I tried… and I did good sometimes. I was the best sometimes- but you only found faults. You questioned my ability. You said “oh the play must be easy”, the shock where you went “really? You did good?”

You tried being a nice parent, you tried following what the books told you- how to parent, what teens want. You read them all. But you forgot to read me.

You occasionally bust out claiming you’re proud of me, of who I am, of what I do or what I did. And those instances are where I’ve either put the dishes inside or organised the house. I don’t understand if that’s sarcasm you use or the lines from books you randomly remember to use.

And that hurts me more, because you never have appreciated something I truly loved doing. You tried supporting me, you tried, but you failed. You blamed me again. I’m the root of all cause, you said.

“Not everything’s meant to revolve around you”, you yelled. I could see the disappointment in you.

I tried explaining, but tears ran down my face. Caging my mouth, stopping me from expressing myself. Communication has always been an issue among us. Why? I didn’t know. But I need you to understand, I require things to revolve around me, i need you mum and dad.

I miss how things were before. When all our schedules matched, when our time together was more important than grades; when we understood each other.

We live under the same roof, and yet you know nothing about me. You still think I like art. You still get me the Vada form that one shop. You still think I’m popular in school.Ma, papa, that’s not me anymore.

I’ve grown. Time flew and you missed seeing me rise. The office work seemed more important and now you’re imposing it on me. But I don’t want school to be most important for me. It’s you. You’re my most important. Please don’t take you away from me.

I love you guys, little brother you too.

But I keep thinking…

Ways to end this pain, this change, this life.

I don’t want it. And even if I try I can’t keep it.

I’m sorry I didn’t reach your expectations. I’ll do better.

Don’t you wish little brother was your only child?

I ponder on that a lot… I see you guys happy, way happier than you are now.

This would have been my final goodbye, on an app none of you know of. It would have been lost in the archives… but I’ve decided to live.

I did survive the last six years, two more won’t hurt.

In those two years I’ll take you guys to travel all across the world. We’ll visit every place we can possibly think of.

And back to India would be our last adventure together. That’s when I bid goodbye.. somewhere cold, unaware of my environment, I’ll be washed away in the waters and be one with the sea.

You taught me swimming, but this time around I would choose to not do what I was taught and do what I’ve wanted to do for the past eight years.

Ill drown.

I’ll drown, thinking about every moment in my life that has bought me joy. And I know that those moments would be you guys…

I love you all, truly

You’re my favourite humans and I didn’t do what I did (tried to end my existence)because of you. I just had to.

———————————————————

I got yelled at, and this went on in my mind. I need help. My suicidal episodes keep flashing before my eyes.

[chiuroad]

台灣兒童福利聯盟-春季刊封面插圖 / 兒童表意權

[ruerock]

im sure someone already made a post about it but i came across a ublock origin add-on that blacklists around 950 AI websites and disables AI overview ☝️ so u can be free from seeing AI in your search

[powpowhammer]

faded blue house portrait hanging on the wall at the local urgentcare

[astrachigo]

To be Heard has finally hit 1000 Kudos! Thank you all so so much for your support, it means so much to me ♡♡ More chapters very soon <3

[marlynnofmany]

If that doesn't have potential for some fairytale nonsense, I don't know what does.

[larkiethings]

shaking my head while playing neko atsume so people know that I don’t support outdoor cats

[vaindumbass]

love all the cute dungeon meshi pride art but chilchuck would not be caught dead wearing any sort of pride merch. you think that man is going to give out any personal information? for free?????