#though i can recognize that how i think is silly. nobody in this game follows human gender presentation rules bc they are not human
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watching a new outer wilds analysis and trying very hard to not get silly mad at inaccuracies in the video
#wind howls#encyclopedic knowledge of outer wilds in my brain.#its especially silly when it comes to pronouns bc most people who play the game will use the wrong pronouns for the characters but#its even sillier when people try to use they/them on characters who explicitly have different pronouns used on them#though i can recognize that how i think is silly. nobody in this game follows human gender presentation rules bc they are not human#so in a way it is interesting to see how people will refer to some characters with a specific set of pronouns#based on appearance or dialogue. i find it very interesting and im trying to keep it to the interesting level#bc otherwise i get annoyed. but thats a me problem bc this game is my favourite in the whole wide world
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Sabosan Modern AU in which Luffy hosts a party in his house because Ace and Sabo are both out for the night and he thinks it's a great opportunity to turn it into fun (because he hates having the place to himself. It's boring and lonely). It's just the usual six people (East Blue crew + Vivi) but they always have so much fun anyway. So the thing is- They're drunk. Wasted. And they don't even get in trouble anyway, they're just playing silly games in the safety of their home and there's nothing wrong with that, surprisingly. It's impressive how they manage to get in more trouble when they're sober. However, Sanji is going through a rough time. He's been quiet all night and everyone knows something's wrong with him because he has been in a mood for the past week, but he's Sanji, so, he won't talk. Something something, Zoro and Sanji fight like usual but this time Sanji is drunk and honest and everything hurts, so he ends up genuinely feeling like shit and going upstairs to ignore everyone because he can't handle all of that right now. Nobody follows him because again, they're all drunk and they don't even know what to do with that and it'd be surprising if they even noticed the fight because, again, drunk and playing games. And since Sanji has always been and always will be in a romantic teenage coming-of-age movie ever since WCI happened, Sabo just casually, randomly, comes back home because of inexplicable reasons (the reason being he fought with Koala in their college dorm for setting on fire one of their books while saying the educational system is a scam and she kicked him out for the night). So the guy sees all this party they have and just goes "I'm too tired for this. Just don't break anything and God, please, don't go into Ace's room" / Usopp: Wait, why? / Sabo: You don't wanna know.
So Sabo goes upstairs to his room, hoping to get some sleep or work done (work being planning his next riot, not studying. Imagine Sabo studying, pffft) but instead, he finds a blond sitting on his bedroom floor on the verge of a panic attack, drunk, crying and begging Sabo not to kick him out because he doesn't want to go back home. Sabo has no idea why the hell he's saying that because he doesn't want to kick them out, especially Sanji, now that he's saying all of these incoherent things about being afraid to go back home. Sabo recognizes what's going on because he has gone through this himself and they also have to deal with Ace's panic attacks a lot. So he helps Sanji calm down and ends up reassuring him that no, he's not going back home tonight. He can stay all he wants. And Sanji keeps crying and whispering things and names Sabo only knows because of magazines and the news ("Vinsmoke Ichiji, next in line to preside the executive table at Germa Enterprises!" / "Commonly known as a heartbreaker, Vinsmoke Niji was recently seen on a date with one of Charlotte Linlin's daughters!" / "Accused of problematic commentaries, Vinsmoke Yonji addresses the discourse by saying, and I quote 'Who the fuck cares?'"). So, alright, Sabo is not fond of the Vinsmoke family and at first he wasn't fond of Sanji either for the same reason, but he's different from them and he has known ever since two years ago the guy came over with lots, and lots of food only because Luffy wasn't eating properly. But Sabo now knows the rich family isn't just full of shit socially but also inside, and seeing Sanji so anxious and weak about it makes his blood boil. Now is not the time to get angry, though, so he just stays by his side and waits for him to calm down, offering him a shoulder to cry on. The guy is drunk and having the breakdown of his life and the only thing Sabo can do right now is be there for him, even if he wishes he could just go over to their ridiculously huge house and burn it down. The things Sanji talks about aren't pretty. They make him want to throw up.
Sanji ends up falling asleep and Sabo takes him to his bed so he doesn't sleep, well, on the floor. Sabo goes downstairs instead. Besides, he has to clean up the mess the others made anyway.
So Sanji wakes up in a random bed, recognizing the room, and wanting to die from the hangover he's having right now. But he remembers everything, sadly, and he wants to die from embarrassment because he just vented to his friend's brother like it's nothing. They get along, but not that much to do shit like this. He wants to try and sneak out of their house before anybody notices, but of course, Sabo does. It seems the guy has a power for these things. But Sabo is extremely nice, actually, and it isn't that awkward in the end. They're alone because the others got up earlier to go home and Luffy went with them too to spend the rest of the day with Zoro (wow, who could've guessed). Sanji doesn't want to go home but he needs to get the fuck out of here because he feels like he's intruding, especially since Sabo has made breakfast (normal, regular breakfast. Nothing too special but it's way more than what he expected from these siblings). He has to finish eating and then he'll go home! But then Sabo offers him a shower and- Okay. He'll go home after having breakfast and showering! But then Sabo tells him to, please, stay, and be my guest, it's a bit boring here on my own and I want an excuse not to study. And how can Sanji say no to the guy who has helped him so much? So he stays. And one thing leads to another and it's already nighttime because they actually have a lot of things in common and they have fun together- But Sanji needs to go home. Now. Because if the news finds out about him being away for this long it's gonna be a problem and his brothers will be twice as annoying.
Sabo finally lets him go but- But there's something in his eyes when he does. He's worried sick. He's so concerned for him that it's aching inside of Sanji's heart too. Sanji wants to stay the same way Sabo wants him to not go. Almost begs him to. But he can't. But Sanji knows, then, that if he ever needs somebody to talk to, Sabo isn't that far from home anyway.
#then his brothers beat sanji up one day and he can only ask sabo to come pick him up#i want this thing to end with sabo beating the shit out of the vinsmokes thank you#this is all so clichĂŠ but tell me sanji isn't clichĂŠ look me in the eyes and tell me sanji wouldn't be in a dramatic teenage movie#one piece#black leg sanji#revolutionary sabo#sabosan
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biting u!!! gimme ur 4 Kanna headcanons :3
(if ur willing to I wanna hear ur Jackson headcanons too /nf)
realistic: kanna has a bunny plush :] she had it before she found her hat, and coincidentally, it was named bucket !
not v realistic but funny: went through a phase where she kept dyeing her hair different colors,,, like a year before the death game she had it dyed red
heart-crushing and awful, but fun to inflict on friends: following up on the last one, her parents were a little confused as to why kanna suddenly wanted to have a different hair color,,, at some point she said it was because people always asked her why she was a blonde (sorry i've been infected by the greenblings natural blonde disease) and the rest of her family wasn't. nobody rlly questions it when its obviously dyed.
unrealistic: once got stuck on the roof of her middle school. how it happened even she doesnt really know . the story changes a little every time you ask LOL
4 silly headcanons ask game! (jackson hcs under cut)
realistic: i think he can play guitar :] sometimes wenna jackson & maiko go camping and they always ask him to bring the guitar. he takes requests for songs but usually he improvises for fun <3
not v realistic but funny: he owns like 50 of the same green shirt that he always wears. sometimes he wears a different color though and no one recognizes him ever
heart-crushing and awful, but fun to inflict on friends: i was thinking about [spoiler] [spoiler] [spoiler] and i just. maybe one time maiko or wenna heard him crying in the next room. the door was locked & either wenna didn't want to disturb him or maiko didn't want to get in trouble for being up so late, but neither of them wanted to just leave him so they. sat outside. in the hallway. jackson came out the next morning and saw them sleeping on the ground :(
unrealistic: the scar on his face is because he did something really stupid once like. threw a heavy book in the air and it hit him on the head LOL
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The Football Player (Part One)
Based on this request:Â âBucky is a football player and you are a fan of the team but you're also really shy. Secretly Bucky also developed a crush on you. He sees you getting mocked by some idiots and he gets in between to stand up for you. Later then he asks you for a walk and he kisses you.â
masterlist / part two
According to every ounce of common sense still left in your body, you should be paying attention. Youâre in school, might as well actually learn something, right? You have a test next period, and if you were smart or wanted to pass at all, you should be focusing right now, tracking every single word that your professor is saying. The only problem is that youâre not doing this whatsoever. No, your gaze is instead directed out the window, where a certain football team is just beginning practice.
Itâs not like you were intentionally trying to get distracted. You had come to the classroom right on time, pencils lined up and notebook out, ready to start the day. Your gaze just happened to accidentally shift to the window instead, and when you saw number seventeen in red and gold, well, how could you focus on math at a time like this? Youâd seen James Barnes around the school many times, but he never ceases to amaze you.
Honestly, even talking about him tends to light a fire behind your cheeks. Youâve seen this movie dozens of times before: shy, studious girl falls for the football player, hijinks ensue. However, this isnât a Hollywood blockbuster. Bucky is a star member of the team, and youâre just a fan of your schoolâs football games. Whenever you do icebreakers in class and youâre forced to describe yourself in one word, you always reach for âbookishâ or âsmilingâ. Certainly never âsuperbly athleticâ or âon Buckyâs radar in any wayâ. Those arenât even one word.
However, you never quite seem to let yourself be brought back to reality. Time and time again, you don the red and gold colors of your school- Mid-Capital University, or MCU, ready to go cheer on the team and your favorite player especially so. In fact, thereâs a game tonight, youâll be going with your friend. No matter how many times you laugh at yourself, though, you canât shake your crush. You doubt itâll be going away anytime soon.
The night is young, the shouts loud. You cheer with your friend and the rest of the school as the football team runs out onto the field. Their manager, a Mr. Stark, watches from the sidelines, yelling directions or complaining about how much the equipment is going to cost. The team jogs over to their captain, Steve Rogers, to huddle up and discuss final strategy. Steve is a senior, and youâve heard rumors that heâs chosen Sam Wilson to take his place as captain next year. Heâs Buckyâs best friend, so youâve heard, although they pretend to fight often enough that youâd think they were rivals.
Bucky is here as well now, eyes glinting from underneath his helmet. Heâd had long hair for the longest time, but when heâd cut it over the summer there had been more than a few desolate sighs from the cheerleaders. You had to smile at that- at least you werenât head-over-heels enough to give up your crush based on his hair. You werenât that bad yet.
As you watch, the team takes their position. Theyâll be playing their rivals tonight, the Hydras. Steve heads to the back, Bucky and Sam on either side of him. Further along the team, you can begin to recognize other players- Scott Lang, a kid whoâs scrawny off the field but seems to grow twice in size the second he puts on his gear, Peter Parker, the freshman who managed to make it on the team within his first few days, and Natasha Romanoff, the one girl on the team whoâs got a death stare promising sheâll tear any objectors to shreds.
The whistle blows, and the teams are off. You watch with bated breath as Bucky darts left, right, catches the ball from Steve and takes off down the field. Apprehension grows across the student body until at last- touchdown, your school! You rise with the others, cheering in unison. Maybe youâre just being silly, but you could swear Bucky looked at you with a smile just as he started off back towards the line.
The rest of the football game is a breeze. Your school wins easily, and Bucky definitely did his part to secure the victory. The next day, everyone is still buzzing over the catches and near misses with their friends, not wanting to miss a single moment. You suppose itâs still on your mind, which is why youâre frozen in your tracks when your new lab partner sits down beside you in biology.
Itâs Bucky. Of course it is Bucky. Of course, the one time you have to have a new lab partner in class, your teacher manages to have the terrible luck to place you with the one person who reduces you to a blushing mess every time he steps within ten feet of you. Bucky slings his backpack down beside his chair, offering you an easy smile like a flyer, free of charge.
âIâm Bucky.â He says, and you remember yourself. âI know. I saw the game, you were really good. Iâm Y/N, uh, by the way.â Buckyâs smile grows even wider when you mention the game, if thatâs possible. âYou saw the game? Thatâs so nice of you.â You feel like you canât form a coherent thought. âYeah, I went with my friends. Your team won.â You want to slap yourself in the head- of course he won, he was there. Youâre stating the obvious.
But Bucky doesnât laugh at you, or act like youâve said anything strange. He just nods, shoulders slumping slightly as he thinks about last nightâs game. âIt was hard. I guess every time you go against your rival school the pressureâs just ten times worse. It took a lot to just run out on the field.â
He stiffens slightly after he says this, like he wasnât intending on sharing that secret just yet. However, youâre just grateful that youâre not the only one saying whatever pops into your head. âI canât blame you. If itâs worth anything, though, I thought you were great.â Buckyâs beaming smile is back, brighter than ever. âItâs worth a lot from you.â
Maybe this sudden seating arrangement wonât be that bad after all.
Your friend catches up to you the second you leave the biology room behind. She looks back and forth between you and Buckyâs retreating form, something in between astonishment and a teasing grin lingering on her face. âTell me I didnât just make that up. Tell me youâre actually the lab partner of the one and only Bucky Barnes, the guy youâve been crushing on for, like, forever.â
You shove her slightly, although you canât help but smile. âItâs true. I donât know how, but itâs true. Guess the bio teacher really liked me that period.â Your friend loops an arm around your shoulders. âItâs not just him who really likes you. Did you see the way he was looking at you? All through class, he kept stealing glances. I think Bucky Barnes has a crush on you.â
You stop in your tracks. âThatâs impossible. He would never.â Your friend crows in victory. âBut he did! You donât stare at somebody like that unless youâre hopelessly in love with them. Itâs the same way you stare at him.â Indignation rises in you like a spring. âI donât stare at him. I just observe, casually.â Your friend snorts. âWell, you casually observe him a lot. Honestly, I just see this as a success. If you can get the star football player to fall in love with you, then I think I can win the lottery or something.â
Even after your laughter rises and dies away, you canât help but think about what your friend said. Surely itâs impossible- Bucky would never so much as talk to you outside of class, let alone have a crush on you. But your friend wasnât exactly lying. You had seen Bucky out of the corner of your eye, the way a smile lingered on his lips when he glanced over at you. That wasnât just nothing, right? Honestly, this whole lab partners deal might be more pressing than you ever thought possible.
The only way to move on is to go through the next day, and the next. After that, however, you have biology again, and that means finding your place next to Bucky Barnes and pretending like your heart rate isnât skyrocketing the second he smiles up at you, saying heâs glad to see you again. Your friend keeps stealing glances your way, eyes wide and thumbs raised in an expression of impressed awe.
As it turns out, your friend isnât the only one to see something between you and Bucky. You make your way out of the bio room, unable to hide a smile, although your happy outlook disappears the second somebody blocks your path across campus. This somebody just happens to be Mandy Fleming, bottle blonde junior who thinks she owns the school, and her entourage of preening followers.
Mandy folds her arms over her chest, considering you. Her lip purses. Evidently she finds something lacking. âYou know, I donât think weâve had a proper conversation in a while. We need to make a few things clear.â You force a smile, trying to step around her. âCan we do it later? I have places to be.â Mandy curls her lip. âI donât wait. This canât wait. See, youâve developed the unfortunate habit of spending too much time around Bucky Barnes.â
You raise an eyebrow. âWeâre lab partners. What, you want me to ignore him?â Mandyâs eyes narrow. âThat would be preferable. Next class, youâre going to go up to the professor and tell him you want to switch partners. Make something up about wanting to be closer to the board or something, Iâm sure heâll believe it.â You can barely listen to her. âAnd why would I do that?â Mandy takes a step closer. âBucky is mine, not yours. Iâm going to need you to back off.â
You stare at her. âYou want me to switch lab partners all because a boy youâre not even dating is sitting next to me?â Mandyâs head rears back. Youâve obviously struck a nerve. âListen here, honey. This isnât an issue about me, itâs an issue about you. What, did you really think Bucky would ever even give you the time of day? Youâre a nobody, a nothing, somebody not even worth a fraction of his time. Honestly, Iâm doing him a favor by getting rid of you. He doesnât want to see you, not for a second.â
With every word, you can feel your confidence plummeting. Mandy notices this, a smirk burning even deeper into her lips. Sometimes, you swear she can smell fear just like an animal. âYouâre worried because you know Iâm right. Youâre pathetic, really, and Bucky Barnes wants nothing to do with you.â Just as you feel like you want to go back to your dorm room and never see the light of day again, a voice rings out from behind you. Itâs a voice you recognize instantly, and one that Mandy does too, as she shrinks back the second she hears it.
âYou couldnât be more wrong.â Bucky steps forward, taking a place next to you. Mandy forces a smile. âI, uh, donât know what youâre talking about. Y/N and I are just having a little chat about homework. We had homework, right, a textbook reading and-â Bucky cuts her off coolly. âI heard every word. If you think Iâd want to choose you over her, youâre wrong. Sheâs a hundred times the girl youâll ever be.â
Mandy stammers, fishing around for words but coming up with nothing. Itâs almost cathartic to watch. âNow, if youâll excuse us, Y/N and I have somewhere to be. And if I hear you trying to talk to her like that again, believe me when I say that this wonât be the worst Iâll say to you.â Bucky offers you a hand like a proper gentleman, and you take it, letting him steer you away from Mandy and her followers, who are still gaping at your backs.
The second youâre out of earshot, Bucky turns to you, apologies and regret written all over his face. âIâm so sorry about that. Itâs all my fault- sheâs been trying to flirt with me all semester, and I finally gave up and rejected her, and now sheâs taking it out on you. I wish none of this ever happened.â You manage to force a smile. âTrust me, itâs fine.â
Bucky looks at you, concern still lingering in his eyes. âAre you sure? I can talk to them again if you think theyâll bother you.â You laugh at that. âDonât worry about me. Iâm perfectly alright.â Bucky smiles at that. âWell, if you are perfectly alright, I was wondering if you were busy this Saturday. I saw this new park that opened, and it looked really interesting, but if youâre busy or something we can totally do something else, or nothing at all, whatever you-â
You cut him off, unable to hide a smile at his rambling. âI think that sounds excellent. Iâll see you there?â Buckyâs face lights up. âIâll see you there.â He gathers his courage one last time, then leans forward to kiss you. He flashes you one last perfect smile before disappearing around the corner, leaving you with a smile and the memory of his lips on yours. When you look up, you see scores of jealous girls staring at you, but for once, the attention doesnât bother you. Why should it? You have Bucky at last, and he doesnât want anyone but you.
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Do You Believe In Life After Love? PT. 2
Arkhamverse!Jason Todd x Reader One-Shot
Word Count: 2K Warnings: Explicit Language and Angst
Author's Note: I have emerged victorious from my second round with the enemy known only as...The Cringe...it was a glorious battle and I FUCKIN' WON IT. Enjoy that I have now edited two previous stories to read better for y'all! -Thorne
Her cowl was discarded somewhere on the penthouse floor, but she couldnâtâve been bothered to even care about it since most of Gotham either knew who she was now, or they strongly suggested they did. Even if they did know, they still treated her with the same respect as when she was unknown. She moved automatically to the bar as she unclipped the cape from her shoulders, letting it fall with a thud in a heap of leather as she poured herself a generous glass of bourbon. Setting it on the table, she undid her gauntlets, one coming off, and then the other.
She picked up the glass and walked around the bar towards the couch and coffee table. A flashing red light caught her eye and she looked over, seeing the landline blinking on the side table. As she swirled the amber liquor around in her glass, her fingers pressed the button on the answering machine. Her eyes turned to the heavily tinted windows, and she stared at the city below the penthouse as the machine spit out its usual tone.
âYou have one new message, Friday, December 19th.â A sigh sounded through the line, followed by a soft and barely cheerful voice. â(Y/N)? Itâs me, DickâŚcalling forâŚthe seventh time this week.â He let out another sigh, and this time, his voice betrayed his feelings. âLook, I know itâs been hard on you since BruceâŚdiedâŚbut I really think it would be good for you if you got out of Gotham for a while, even if it was just coming over to BlĂźdhaven for a few weeks.â The line went silent, and after a moment, his voice picked up. ââŚI really miss you sis and I know that youâre suffering from the weight of keeping Gotham in check. Let Lucius carry it for a while and come spend Christmas with meâŚLook, I have to go to work now, but please think about it (Y/N). For meâŚand for Bruce and AlfredâŚthey wouldnât want you to keep all this upâŚsoâŚjust gimme a call back and weâll plan something, okay? I love you sisâŚbye.â
The mention of her departed father and butler made her heart tighten so painfully in her chest that it seemed to stop her from breathing and (Y/N) looked down at her glass, seeing a diluted reflection she didnât recognize staring back.
Lately, it seemed like every time she caught her reflection as Batgirl, she appeared less and less like she remembered, image darkening with every passing night she was out on the streets alone, fighting with no backup, with nobody in her ear telling her where enemies were or encouraging her for a job well done. She could tell that the woman who wore the cowl and the woman who was the cowl were starting to become one instead of two different people, much like her father appeared sometimes. And while it had been his thing when he was alive, it wasnât her. She was somebody outside the cowl, but now? Now she didnât know who was Batgirl and who was (Y/N) Wayneâand the divide between was only it was getting worse as it closed closer and closer to the line.
She finally remembered how to breathe and inhaled deeply, shoving it aside and looking back out the window. His image caught in her eye before she focused on the skyline, her voice firm as she said, âYou know, I have to wonderâŚwhen you kill someone, do you ever get a little voice in your head that tells you itâs wrongâŚArkham Knight?â
(Y/N) spun around, turning her attention to the man standing beside her coffee table, dressed in a suit that was armored similarly to his earlier one a few months back, though the colors were different, and he wore a dark jacket with white leather patches along the shoulders and arms. The helmet was different too, instead of mimicking the ears of her fatherâs cowl, his was simply rounded and crimson in color, though she bet that his visor input ran on the same tech her fatherâs did. Her eyes briefly fell to the red bat symbol painted across his chest, and for a moment, everything seemed to fade until the anger came back to her.
She clapped a hand to her chest, her voice cheerfully fake. âOh, silly me, I forgot! Youâre not going by Arkham Knight anymore! Youâre going by âThe Red Hoodâ!â Her voice lost the fakeness, replaced by a hard edge and she leaned back against the window, suppressing the urge to shiver from the chill, her eyes dark. âWhat do you want, Jason?â
He stood up straight, his head tipping upwards, and she couldnât see his eyes, but she knew they were trained on her. âI wanted to see you.â
(Y/N) scoffed, a smile crossing her lips. âWell, you saw me. Now fuck off.â
Jason sighed. âThatâs not what I mean.â
âOh, so you mean you wanted to see how I was doing after you ruined mine and the lives of the people I cared about?â He said nothing, and she leaned over, finger running along the button of the answering machine. âYou wanna see me, Jason? Well how about you listen to this?â
She hit play, and a message came through. â(Y/N) Wayne? This is Vicki Vale. I really would like to talk to you about whatâs happened in the past few months, and with your dadââ
(Y/N) hit the next button, and another voice filled the room. â(Y/N), this is Jack Ryder. Listen, I know youâve been hounded by reporters since itâs been revealed that your dad was Batman. I want to talk to you aboutââ
She hit stop, glowering back at him as she pointed to the machine. âEvery. Day. Every day I get the same messages over and over and over again. (Y/N) Wayne are you Batgirl? We should talk about it! Your dad was Batman, so you must be Batgirl! How are you going to pay for all the damage and destruction your dad did all these years? How are you going to answer for what heâs done? How can we trust Wayne Enterprises anymore? Whatâs it like having to pick up the pieces of a broken life after your dadâŚafter your dadâŚâ
(Y/N) brought a hand to her face, covering her mouth. The tears ran down her cheeks, cascading over her hand, and she glared at Jason, her voice raw with emotion. âEverything thatâs happenedâŚis all your fault.â
He took a step towards her, shoulders squared as he placed a hand to his chest. âYou canât blame this all on me, (Y/N). Bruce was the one who activated the Knightfall Protocolânot me.â
Her lips wobbled as she countered hoarsely, âAfter Scarecrow revealed his identity because of events that you put into place.â She placed the glass on the table, spreading her arms. âSo, have you gotten your revenge, Jason? Does it feel better to know that you succeeded in killing my dad? In killing Batman?â
He looked away and something wrathful inside (Y/N) snapped; she picked up the liquor glass and chucked it as hard as she could, missing him by an inch as it hit the wall. It shattered into a million shards as the amber liquid trickled down the wall, and her words came out enraged. âANSWER ME DAMNIT!â
He met her eyes and his Adamâs apple bobbed as he swallowed thickly, hands flexing at his sides. âI didnât mean for all this to happen,â he said, and she barked a laugh full of disbelief.
âWhat did you think was going to happen, Jason? Reveal who Batman was, kill my dad, and everything else was just gonna work out in the end?â She pointed to the street below. âI canât walk ten feet out of this building without being hounded by press and reporters about everything.â
She shook her head, feet carrying her past him towards her bedroom. âYou get off scot-free with anonymity and I get stuck cleaning up a giant shitstorm. Figures. You can find your way out.â She hadnât made it a step past him when a hand shot out and curled around her bicep, pulling her back.
(Y/N) thrashed, trying to yank her arm away from his grip. âLet go of me!â
Jasonâs grip tightened, and he grabbed her other arm. âNo!â He leaned close to her, his voice firm. âWeâre not leaving this alone anymore. Weâve been circling one another since that night, and Iâm done playing games, (Y/N). Weâre talking about this.â
She huffed in disbelief, staring at him. âThere is nothing to talk about, Jason.â (Y/N) waved a hand between them. âWhat we hadâŚitâs gone.â
âAre you sure it is? Because as much as you seem to hate me, you canât stay away from me whenever weâre patrolling Gotham together.â
She narrowed her eyes. âOkay, firstly, I follow you to make sure you donât kill innocent people. And secondly, Iâm pretty damn sure what we had is gone. I think about punching you more than I do anything else.â
He hummed, staring down at her and she was starting to get the urge to right-hook him when that familiar smugness set in his gaze. The same smugness he used to pull with her a few years ago when they were together. A memory flashed of Robin and Batgirl arguing, her annoyed and him smug as hell.
âI donât believe you,â he countered lightly.
âI donât give a flying fuck what you believe, Jason. The truth is we arenât together anymore.â She started squirming again. âNow let go of me and get the hell out of my penthouse.â
He fell silent and simply stared at her before responding quietly, âTell me you donât love me or that you donât need me anymore and I will.â
(Y/N) froze and her eyes went wide. âExcuse me?â Her voice was a whisper, as Jason released one of her arms, his gloved hand coming up to caress her cheek.
âYou can tell me that weâre done all you want, (Y/N).â His hand left her cheek, rising to pull the jacket-hood from his head and yank the helmet off. He tossed it on the couch and Jason gazed at her, his teal eyes boring into hers. âBut until I hear you tell me that you donât love me anymore, Iâm not moving from this spot.â
He held his head high, looking down at her. âSo, tell me. Tell me you donât love me anymore and Iâll go.â Jason searched her gaze. âIâll go and Iâll never come back.â
(Y/N) stood there, the breath in her lungs frozen as they watched each other. After a moment, she lowered her head and murmured, âI donâtâŚI donâtâŚâ She stopped, swallowing thickly, the tears that had swelled in her eyes threatening to run down her cheeks. âOh, fuck itâŚI canât do it.â
(Y/N) brought her hand up, covering her eyes even though the tears were already streaming down her cheeks. âI canât tell you I donât love you becauseâŚI still do love you.â She lowered her hand, gazing up at him. âAnd I never really stoppedâŚno matter how furious Iâve been at you.â (Y/N) went slack against him, letting him wrap his arms around her. âDamn you, Jason ToddâŚdamn you.â
His breath was hot against her ear as he chuckled lowly, tightening his grip. âI know.â
She pulled back a bit, looking at him teary eyed. âThis doesnât mean everything is okay now. I still want to beat the ever-living shit out of you.â
He huffed. âI know you do.â
Her voice turned watery. âIâm still pissed, and youâre still pissed and weâve gotta work through that to get better.â
Jason nodded. âWe will, (Y/N).â His hands cupped her cheeks, and he brushed his thumbs under her eyes, wiping the tears away. âI love you.â
(Y/N) nodded, burying her face in his chest. âI love you too.â
Do you believe in life after love?
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Star Trek Secret Santa 2020
A fic for @saritaadam for @startreksecretsanta for the prompt of âTOS Sulu, Chekov, and Uhura on their own adventures.â Thanks to @that-one-curly-haired-chick and @wreckx for looking it over for me.
âIâm still not sure I get it, âChekov whispered under the latest round of applause and laughter.
Sulu was already prying the Russianâs communicator out of his hand and sliding it towards the middle of the table. âNot much to âgetâ here, pal. Just hope you arenât unlucky.â
Moments ago, when Chekov had been hovering in the doorway of the recreation room to see a group of senior officers huddled around a ring of communicators on a table, his first impressions were those of a cult. The deck officer who glanced up and immediately asked âYou in?â did little to assuage that. Yet Chekov was smart enough to know that you could hardly afford to alienate other crewmembers in the early days of your first assignment. If the four hundred something people on this ship were all members of some secret cult, well, it was time for him to learn its laws.
Luckily, Lieutenant Sulu had recognized him and immediately waved him over to sit by him, persuading the others to let him have one round to watch before joining in the fun.
Unfortunately, Chekov was still confused as to what this fun was.
âIs this something for all in Starfleet? A game everyone plays?â
Sulu smiled and shook his head. âOnly weâve got Uhura. Itâs basically a free show, Pavel. The price is justââ His words faded as the bosun whistle on the wall panel sounded.
âKirk to Sulu.â
âShit.â Sulu groaned.
Uhura rose gracefully to a chorus of cheers and groans, which quieted as she reached the panel.
âKirk to Sulu.â
âNyota, be kind,â Sulu begged before he was promptly shushed by the rest of the table.
Uhura gave a wink before extending a graceful finger to the comm. âSulu here.â
Chekov blinked. The last round that heâd witnessed, heâd assumed Uhura was just answering comms in silly voices for fun. Knowing that her voice was now a perfect impersonation of Suluâs. . . well, apparently that was the price of the show.
âSulu, regarding our course to Agaron PrimeI. If we were to make a stop at the Canopus first, how much would that delay our arrival?â
The table exploded into a muted explosion of giggles as every eye turned expectantly towards Sulu, who had sprung into action. Two fingers, then six, then four. A jabbing finger. Eight fingers. His hands held close together, then spread far apart.
Chekov looked at him as if heâd lost his mind. Uhura kept her cool gaze. âDid you say Canopus, Captain?â
Two, six, then four fingers. Three jabbing motions. Eight fingers, A decidedly frustrated and sarcastic spreading of the arms.
âYes, Canopus. How long, Sulu?â
A pause. âIâm sorry sirâŚIâll need time to work that out.â
âHmmm. I see. See that it doesnât take you too long to find a calculator, Lieutenant. Kirk out.â
âTWENTY SIX SOLAR DAYS,â Sulu burst out as soon as the red light on the wall dimmed. âITâS FOUR POINT 8 LIGHTYEARS, AVERAGING 5.4 WARP, CALCULATED IN THEIR LOCAL TIME, THATâS TWENTY SIX SOLARââ
âDonât tell her, laddie,â chuckled Scotty as the rest of the table burst into laughter. âSounds to me like youâve got a call to make.â
Sulu slumped in his chair and dejectedly sipped his drink. âOne more round. The captain already thinks I canât do warp equations at the ready. Five more minutes wonât damage my reputation any further.â
âIâd spend that time practicing your charades,â Uhura added lightly as she came behind Suluâs chair. âNo sun? No days? Iâm not a mind reader, you know.â
âJust a life ruiner,â Sulu muttered darkly, but his mouth twitched as he brought his glass to his lips again.
âI do think that Iâve only one more round left in me, so before you allâ" Uhura frowned as one of the communicators on the table buzzed with its whistle. âIs thatâŚPavelâs?â
Chekovâs heart sunk. âDa.â His shiny communicator stood out in the ring of dingy dull devices. âYes, itâs mine.â
Everyone else reached out to pocket their device, murmuring in surprise as Uhura stayed put behind Sulu.
âThatâs not fair to me, heâs only just got here!â
âYouâve had seven days, Nyota! You mastered Klingon barroom slang in half that time.â
âWe do tell everyone youâre the best at this, you know.â
Uhura crossed her arms. âIâll have you know Klingon barroom slang is quite easy to pick up once youâve mastered one particular expletive. Iâve hardly gotten to spend any time with Pavel so far!â
âYes, give the lady a break, please. Itâs not like I have any noticeable accent to copy,â Chekov added helpfully, wondering why so many people broke out into snickers again.
âSorry, Nyota. Your own rules, after all,â said Sulu firmly, gracefully reaching across and holding the communicator over his head towards Uhura.
âSore loser,â Uhura muttered, but opened the communicator anyway and took a deep breath. âChekov here.â
A mutter of approval circled the table at the reveal of Uhuraâs first Russian accent. Not half bad, Chekov admitted to himself. She did sound like she came from St. Petersburg instead of Moscow, but he could take that up with her later.
âEnsign Chekov, this is Mister Spock.â
Whispers of excitement now. Sulu glanced over in time to see Chekovâs mouth beginning to open, and quickly slapped his hand across it. âRules, Pavel.â
âYes, Mister Spock.â
âEnsign, I am calling regarding our latest discussion that we had about theââ
Uhuraâs eyes met Chekovâs, which were widened in shock. Hurriedly, she cut Spock off. âDa.â
âYou know to what Iâm referring?â
âYes.â
âAnd you are prepared?
ââŚDa.â
A muffled scream came from behind Suluâs hand, and other officers had to lean forward to keep Chekov from thrashing out of his chair. Uhura grimaced. âVell, actuallyâŚâ
âAll can be arranged in more detail the next time we meet, Ensign. I look forward to seeing you at 1900 hours. Spock out.â
Sulu quickly withdrew his hand before it could be bitten off as the Russian threw himself out of his chair and gestured wildly towards the whole table. âCRAZY, ALL OF YOU. INSANE!â
âI tried to keep it neutral! I said âDa!â Uhura offered defensively.
âA WERY IMPORTANT âDA.ââ Chekov broke down into a string of Russian which, if Uhuraâs face was any clue, followed a drastic line of thought.
âPavel, PavelâŚâ Sulu awkwardly stood next to the frantic ensign and grabbed his shoulder. âI know you just got here, and Mister Spock can seemâŚwell, heâs a lot at first. But whatever you promised, Uhura can help you with it.â He looked up to meet Nyotaâs glare. âUhura and I can help you with it.â
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   Sulu broke into what he hoped looked like a nonchalant jog as he followed Chekov down the hall. Uhura was keeping a much more leisurely pace behind, taking the time to greet every crewmember they passed.Â
   âPavel,â Sulu hissed after having to apologize to the fourth redshirt that Chekov nearly plowed into. âYou said that you--Uhura--agreed to present your research to Mr. Spock tonight. We can help you finish, youâve got plenty of time!â
   Chekov slowed in front of a laboratory door, nervously looking up and down the corridor, and even taking a peek into an adjacent Jeffries Tube. Uhura gracefully ducked her head to hide her smile. âResearch is done, only....too much.â
   âPavel, I donât--â the door whooshed open and behind him, Sulu heard a particular Klingon expletive.
   âPavel, youâve only been here a few days!â Uhura cried in dismay, looking at the parts spread across the floor. âThis looks like you spent months dismantling this!â
   âWell, I guess I canât make fun of Riley for his lab accident anymore,â Sulu said lazily, picking up a piece of circuitry to inspect. âRemind me to never introduce you to him.â
   âThis is serious!â Chekov was practically vibrating between the different corners of the room. âI was finishing my research and the machine was slow, so I try to improve it, but then it jammed, and I thought if I took it apart I could find problem--â
   âYou know who would be best equipped to fix this?â Sulu murmured to Uhura. âOne Mister Spock.â
   âOh, hush,â Uhura scolded over Chekovâs wounded cry. âThereâs always Mr. Scott. He was just with us, I can go--â
   âNo, no, no!â Chekov pleaded, his eyes wide. âNo senior officers. Nobody important. I cannot risk having the first thing on my record be a demerit!â
   âOr an invoice,â Uhura added lightly.
   âThanks for the compliment, Pavel. But neither of us are engineers.â
   âSpeak for yourself.â Uhura plucked the circuit out of Suluâs hands. âIâve done emergency surgery on my array to at least hide most of the damage here.â
   âFix it enough so that some other poor soul will come and break it next. Sneaky.â
   Chekov looked as though he were about to faint. âItâs not my intention to--â
   âWeâre just kidding, Pavel. Grab a hyperspanner. If weâre going to let Mr. Spock in here in time, weâd better hustle.â
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   When Mr. Spock entered the environmental sciences lab at 18:58, he found a more sociable scene than he was anticipating.Â
   âLieutenant Uhura. Mr. Sulu,â he nodded. âWhat brings you to this part of the ship?â
   âJust getting to know the new Ensign, sir. Weâll be out of your way now. Uhura, would you like to join me for dinner?â
   âOf course, Hikaru.â Uhura grasped Chekovâs hand for a moment, before placing it firmly on the center of the console plate, giving it an extra press before leaving to follow Sulu. âSTAY confident, Pavel, and good luck.â
   Sulu waited until they were a whole corridor away before letting his head roll back with a sigh. âHeâs going to be trouble.â
   âAll the good ones are.â Uhura and Sulu reentered the same rec room as before just as a bosun whistle sounded from the wall panel.Â
   âUhura! Iâll wager my Enolian spice wine that you canât fool whoeverâs on the other end of that one!â
   Uhura only paused for a moment before shrugging and making her way over. Sulu shook his head, dumbfounded. âYou never learn, do you?â
   âBe a dear and fetch my dinner and Iâll share some of the wine with you.â
   âYes, maâamâ Sulu saluted and made his way over to the replicators. He was about to punch in his order when he saw a figure duck behind a receptacle. Curious, he peeked around.
   Captain Kirk was hunched over his communicator. âEnsign, you sound unwell. Should I call Sickbay?âÂ
   Kirk looked up to glance across the room and immediately met Suluâs gaze. He smirked, put a finger to his lips, and winked before speaking again. âYou really sound congested, Ensign. Donât make me make this an order.â He then leaned away from the communicator to whisper to Sulu, âKeep quiet about this and Iâll keep quiet about the spice wine.â
   âAye, sir,â Sulu whispered back and turned back to the replicator. The new Ensign might be a handful, but he would fit right in on this captainâs ship.
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Confirm or Deny (4)
SYNOPSIS: Youâre a member of the rising group FRNZEE. Youâve been dating Namjoon for years when Dispatch releases an article exposing your relationship. Your company confirms the relationship. Big Hit denies it.
PARTS: ONE | TWO | THREE | FOUR | FIVE
PAIRING: Namjoon x Reader
GENRE: Romance, Angst
WARNINGS: Strong language
WORD COUNT: 4819
AUTHORS NOTE: Finally - so sorry about the long wait! Fall was an extremely busy season for me both work and personal wise. There will only be one or two more parts left depending on how I choose to wrap the story up but there wonât be toooooo long of a wait for it this time. Please make sure to like/comment/reblog if you enjoy the story! Thank you! â¤ď¸ (P.S.- this is totally unedited so any mistakes are my own)
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âAre you sure that this a good idea?â Ji-na asks from the doorway, arms crossed over her chest as she watches you pull a sweater over your head. âThings are still bad, Y/N. They're still pulling vandalized advertisements from-â
From everywhere.
Since you've become the laughing stock of the k-pop industry, fans (ARMY mostly, you'd wager to guess) have begun making you into the clown that they obviously believe you are. All around the city, advertisements featuring your group have been vandalized wherever they're posted â soju posters in restaurants, fashion billboards in the train stations, album promotions on the side of city buses. The damage can be as little as a small mustache scribbled above your upper-lip to something as extreme as animal feces being smeared across your face.
âI'm aware, Ji-na. The company makes it a point to send me every video and photograph of every reported incident,â you tell her, unable to restrain the edge in your voice. âI just want to support you. I want to be there ⌠I can't hide in this building for another minute.â
Ji-na's face softens. âWon't it be difficult for you, though? To watch us perform? To watch us stand on that stage without you? We already know that you support us â you don't have to make yourself uncomfortable to show it.â
You pause, your fingers stilling on the laces of your shoes. She's absolutely right â it was going to be uncomfortable. More than that, it was going to hurt insanely bad. You were aware of this, you were prepared for this. But as masochistic as it was, you needed to be there. Just to be in the building, surrounded by the frantic bustling of groups and managers and stylists ⌠if that would make you feel normal â even for a minute â you would take the tradeoff.
âI want to go, Ji-na,â you stress, rising upright and turning to face your concerned friend. âPlease just let me be there. I need to be there. I'll be okay â I promise.â
Her eyes roam the expanse of your face for what feels like minutes, searching for any kind of twitch or frown or quiver that might expose a wariness on your face. But when she finds nothing, she slumps her shoulder with a sigh of finality, giving up and nodding with an accepting smile.
âWe leave in ten minutes. You know the drill â hat and face mask on. Be ready or we go without you,â she warns, a finger pointing in your direction. You're not given a chance to respond before she's turning on her heel to exit the room.
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Pulling into the parking garage of the KBS building, you're overcome with an overwhelming sense of nervousness. Lifting your hand from your lap, you're startled to see your own fingers trembling.
âUgh, I need soju right now. I'm so nervous,â one of your members cries from the backseat. There's a chorus of agreement among the residents of the van. You'd like to join them because you also feel like throwing up, but you know it's not for the same reason.
This parking garage ⌠this cold, dimly lit, nothing-but-concrete parking garage ⌠how does it immediately trigger so many memories? Like the time that BTS invited you to the taping of their debut Music Bank performance and told the crew that you were one of their makeup artists so you could hang out in their dressing room â you remember a game of hide and seek in this garage before their performance that ended with Taehyung falling directly onto his face and bruising his chin. The real makeup artist had to apply four layers of foundation to cover the red and darkening splotch of skin. Or there was the year that FRNZEE and BTS were promoting at the same time. After having an argument with Seokjin, Namjoon had convinced you to sneak away from your group and the two of you hid out in his company's car with the tinted windows for almost an hour.
Out of everything, you definitely did not expect a fucking parking garage to conjure up thoughts of Namjoon.
It's been nearly one month since he abruptly ended your relationship. You want to say that you've been a strong, independent woman â that you took the breakup in stride and were moving on with your life.
That'd be a very laughable lie, though. You were â and still are â the definition of a hot mess.
You've sent texts â oh, god, you sent so many texts. You've left voicemails, of both the drunk and sober variety. You've sent emails asking him to return your texts and voicemails. You've even written a few letters but you're positive that instead of the mailing the parcels as requested, your manager probably shredded them.
Namjoon was yours for almost ten years. Ten fucking years. How could he just be done with you so quickly? How could he just stop all form of contact? Did these past ten years not matter? Did he fall out of love with you?
Maybe since he's Grammy nominated now, he knows he's capable and deserving of being with someone more beautiful than you, more talented than you, more successful than you.
Someone else. Not you.
A sharp pain in the palm of your hand makes you wince. You look down to see that at some point during your self-deprivation, you've gripped hard onto the charm of the necklace that Namjoon had given you. Designed for you. You let it go and exhale a breath to expunge the gross thoughts from your head. There's a massive part of your heart and your brain that's telling you how much Namjoon loved you, how much he respected you, that he would never do that to you. But the small portion of your broken heart and your fizzled brain are louder, screaming and screeching that you aren't good enough to be the leader of BTS' girlfriend. In a dark, dusty corner of your self-esteem, he always seemed to be too good for you. And now your insecurities have been unleashed on the possibility that it was absolutely true.
He's embarrassed of you. The other boys are embarrassed of you. They literally don't want to be associated with you.
What else are you supposed to think?
âAlright, girls, it's time!â your manager yells from the driver seat, his loud claps startling you. âRemember that you need to pose for some photos outside before you can go in. If you want to fix your makeup, do it now and be quick, please. Y/N, you'll be standing off to the side with me. Make sure your mask is pulled up, okay?â
Your sigh is exaggerated as you watch your members pull their compacts from their clutches, reapplying lip tint, pressing eyeshadow pigment onto their lids, fixing flyaway hairs. They're dressed casual but they look beautiful. They look like idols.
It doesn't escape you that as you're pulling your hat down and your mask up â you don't feel anything of the sort.
You follow behind your manager as the girls trail ahead, strutting out of the parking garage and into the designated photograph spot. A large crowd of people behind barriers excitedly call out member names as they get into position, prompting rehearsed giggles from the girls. You don't realize you're whimpering as they perform the group greeting until your manager pats your shoulder.
âTry not to look upset, okay? I'm sure some of them have already recognized you and they'll be scrutinizing your every move,â he whispers in your ear. You nod once to affirm that you've heard him, keeping your eyes locked on the group.
They pose silly, they laugh among themselves, they look like a complete group. They look perfect. They ⌠they don't look like they miss you at all.
âShe's here! I knew it!â a voice screeches not far from where you stand. You lift your head, craning your neck to see what member the excited fan was yelling for. There's a group of girls in school uniforms loitering the side of the building but their attention isn't on the group, instead on a large trash can that sits against the wall. Everyone in the vicinity startles when one of the girls knocks it over, scattering bits of trash and discarded items across the entire lot.
You turn to face your manager. âIsn't there KBS security here? Are they going to allow them to garbage pick right in front of the talent?â
He shrugs. âI don't know. That's not my problem though. We're gonna wrap this up and go instead in just a few-â
âStay away from Namjoon, you delusional whore!â
You don't have time to search for the source of the threat before something is hurled into the side of your head. You cry out, nursing the sensitive patch of scalp as you glance down at the offending object. A half-eaten, dirty apple?
âWe won't let you get away with it!â another voice shrieks. The voice is followed by a flying cup â a large tumbler that you might get at a coffee shop â that smacks you right in the center of your face, the remaining contents of the cup soaking your gray sweater in dark brown splotches. Your manager shoves you behind him as he begins to scream.
âDon't any of you move a muscle! You will be sued for assault â I promise!â he warns. On the other side of the lot, the cameras that had been capturing your members are now turned on you. You watch as more girls surround the fallen trash can, filling their arms with garbage to use as weapons. Nobody stops them.
âWe should sue her for slander! She tried to ruin Namjoon's reputation with her lies!â
There's a brief cheer of agreement before more garbage is being pelted in your direction; a broken hair brush, empty snack containers, more half-drunk coffee cups that have soaked not only you but your poor manager. He's lost his grip on you, stepping forward to push at any of the girls who dare to come too close. Unfortunately, this leaves you wide open.
Banana peels, cigarette buts, more fucking coffee cups â doesn't this country ever finish their damn beverages? â discarded makeup, used tissues ⌠they hit you with precision. You curl your body into the wall, a feeble attempt to protect your face. You tilt your chin up to glance at your group; the spot where they stood is clear now and when you look farther down, you see their backs as they rush into the building.
They left without you. All of them. Even Ji-na.
They left you here. To be drenched in garbage.
Your manager is still fighting off a horde of the girls, screeching into his cell phone for help. When one of them gets a good grip on your hair and yanks you to the ground, the group of photographers finally realize the seriousness of the situation and begin to chase them off. Above you, though, is two of the meanest faces you have ever seen. One has your ponytail in a dangerous clutch and the other sneers at you from behind her phone, another cup in her hand. They glance at each other briefly before the cup tips, dousing you in more questionable liquid.
You're not a weakling â you could fight back. You could kick her right off of you. You could kick that phone right out of her hand. It would be so easy for you.
But this ⌠this is it. This is where you break. There is where you realize that you don't have anymore fight left inside of you. You don't have the heart or the willpower or the mental resolve to get back up on your feet right now.
âThat's enough!â a deep voice booms. âGet your hands off of her right now!â
Before the girls can even react, they're being pulled from you. Because your hair is still wrapped around her fist, you're yanked upwards with them. You holler in pain, smacking at her hands for release. It isn't until a large man wearing a KBS security shirt forcibly grabs her hand from your hair does she let it go.
With vision blurred by tears, you watch through watery eyes as the girls are shoved into police cars. When did those get here?
âOh my god, Y/N. Are you okay? Where are you hurt?â your manager asks frantically, his eyes roving your form for any scratches or bruises or blood. âI'm so sorry â I didn't see them sneak behind me. I thought ⌠I thought you left with the other girls. I motioned for them to bring you ⌠I thought ...â
Oh. It makes sense.
Even your own group is embarrassed of you.
You open your mouth to speak but your chin trembles too violently to form any words.
âCome on, we have to meet the police at the hospital. I'll call another manager to watch the girls here on the way.â
His arm wraps around your side, noticing your wobbling legs. You take only one step forward before he notices something on the ground. âOh! Isn't this your necklace? You were wearing it earlier.â
It's broken, the chain completely snapped in half. The moon gem is scratched and scuffed from where it was probably stepped on. You don't remember feeling it break loose in the scuffle but in all fairness to yourself, you stopped feeling anything after the fifth piece of garbage hit you in the face.
âNo, that's not my necklace. It's just garbage. Leave it.â
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An hour and twenty-eight minutes is all it takes for news to spread that troublemaker FRNZEE member Y/N was assaulted by BTS fans at the taping of Music Bank. The incident even made the afternoon news. When your manager attempts to turn the hospital room's television off, you refuse, keeping your eyes locked onto the humiliating videos that are now being broadcast to the entire country.
âThe doctors said to keep your stress levels down, Y/N. You've lost thirteen pounds in less than a month and you haven't even been dancing,â he pleas, sinking down onto the chair next to you. Stressed. Stressed, stressed, stressed. It's a word that's been thrown around multiple times since you've arrived but you know what it really means. You know what it's code for, what they don't want to outright tell you.
You're having a fucking breakdown.
âThe company is releasing a statement today. Soon, probably within the hour,â he tells you hesitantly.
You roll your eyes. âLet me guess â I'm on an extended hiatus from all group activities to work on my mental health?â
âPretty much word for word,â he confirms solemnly.
You scoff, feeling another rising pressure on your chest. You didn't do anything. You haven't been doing anything. You've been hiding out in your dorm like a hermit crab for over a month just as they wanted you to do and you're going to punished because a group of psychotic sasaengs attacked you? Â
âThey're going to kick me out of the group, aren't they?â you ask, your voice small. Your manager is silent and the sound of nothing only makes your chest throb even harder. âI ⌠I don't- I don't understand ⌠what did I do to deserve this? I worked just as hard as anyone else. I did what they told me and laid low. Those girls are going to get a slap on the wrist and I'm going to lose my group? Is this what's going to happen?â
Your manager sighs heavily before breaking his silence. âI'm sure everything will work out for you, Y/N. Please don't worry too much about it.â
Blinking back the pooling moisture behind your eyes, you divert your attention to your phone. Although your manager's phone has been ringing and buzzing non-stop since you arrived, yours has not. The media doesn't know your personal phone number so you didn't expect any messages from them but ⌠what about the group?
âWere the members' phones taken away in their dressing room?â you ask hesitantly. Please say yes, please say yes.
Your manager shakes his head. âNo, not that I know of.
âOh,â you exhale. Sensing the dark shift in your breath, Manager glances at the screen of your phone on your lap. When he sees the text display âNo new notifications,â he immediately realizes his error.
âDo you know what? My texts have been kind of delayed. Maybe we just don't get good service here. Let me take your phone downstairs and see if the messages come through, okay?â he talks so fast that you can barely make out the words that he's throwing at you. He doesn't offer you any chance to argue before he's quickly shuffling out of the room, your phone in hand.
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âThat's a wrap for now, Namjoon. Great job! Take an hour to eat and rest and we'll have your new wardrobe ready when you're finished,â the director of photography suggests, lifting his camera from the tripod. It's been an extremely long morning of photo and video shoots for next few chapters of BTS World â the group's successful mobile game. Namjoon bows respectfully before turning to rush to the catering table. He has spent the last hour so hungry that he knows everybody in the room could probably hear his stomach grumbling. After fixing himself a plate of assorted foods â kebabs, kimchi, sliders and some french fries â he sighs in relief when he's able to drop himself onto the sofa.
âNamjoon,â his voice is called but not loudly. Mouth stuffed with fries, he glances up to where Yoongi stands in front of him, phone clutched tightly in both hands.
âWhat's up, hyung?â he garbles through his food. He fights to swallow it down when he notices Yoongi's furrowed brows, the corners of his lips tilted downward in a worried frown. Something has happened. âWhat's going on? Are the boys okay?â
âIt's not the boys,â he mumbles and Namjoon swears he hears a crack in the elder's voice. Yoongi stares at the screen of his phone for a few hard seconds before hesitantly turning the screen, holding it at Namjoon's eye level. âYou need to see this.â
Namjoon is confused at first â the video begins with FRNZEE â minus Y/N, of course â engaging in silly poses in the parking lot of the KBS building. Loud voices and cheers for specific members infiltrate the audio but that's normal â there are always fans present when idols arrive to music show recordings. He's one second away from questioning his hyung on why this particular video has him so upset when it happens. There's indecipherable screaming before the shaky camera pans away from FRNZEE to the side of the building where a group of people are whipping garbage at somebody. The person in question is huddled against the wall with her hands around her head, her howls and pleas for them to stop cutting through the shouting. When the cameraman gets closer and closer, Namjoon's stomach drops to his knees when he realizes who the cowering, defenseless victim being attacked with garbage is.
The plate of food falls to the carpet.
âNamjoon -â Yoongi begins but he snatches the phone of out his hands, holding it close to his face as if the nearness of the video will make the contents stop. The video just keeps going. Nobody stops the attackers, nobody pulls you away from the scene. He's so close to Yoongi's phone that his nose brushes against the screen, his eyes wide as he watches somebody yank you by the hair. The screech of pain that follows pierces Namjoon who emits a tearless sob of anguish.
The finale of his heartbreak comes when one of the girls is violently pulled off of you by a security guard. In the scuffle, the necklace â his necklace, the one he spent months designing just for you â is ripped from your neck.
âPick it up, pick it up,â he chants desperately, eyes trained on the small, neglected piece of jewelery on the ground by your feet. And then the video ends. The last frame it freezes on is you â hysterical, bruised, bloody and dirty â leaning against your manager for support.
When he lifts his head in shock, he's surprised to see the other five members next to Yoongi, eyes downcast and phones in their hands. They've seen it too.
âI did this,â he wheezes in disbelief. There's a painful swell in his chest and his heart is beating so hard that he can almost hear it. âI did this to her. This is all my fault.â
âHyung, no,â Jimin admonishes, rushing to join Namjoon on the sofa. He wraps a comforting arm around his shoulder, squeezing. âYou didn't do this. Those terrible girls did this.â
âThey're ARMY though,â Jungkook's voice is almost a whisper. âThose are our fans that did this. To Y/N.
âNo, I did this,â Namjoon snaps, shoving at Jimin's grasp and rising to his feet. âI denied our relationship to the public. I got her pulled from the comeback. I broke up with her. This is all on me.â
He's suddenly overcome with an overwhelming need to see you. To touch you. To know that you're okay with his own eyes. To get down on his hands and knees and beg for forgiveness. Maybe if he wouldn't have broken up with you, maybe if he would have just answered one of your many calls or texts, maybe ⌠maybe this wouldn't have happened. Maybe.
Before he realizes what he's doing, his jacket is already on his shoulders.
âNamjoon, where are you going?â Jin sighs.
âWhere do you think I'm going? That's my fucking girlfriend that they attacked. I need to see her.â
âShe's not your girlfriend anymore,â Yoongi corrects softly. Namjoon feels a hand pull at the sleeve of his jacket, guiding him back toward the sofa. âAnd unless you're planning on getting back together with her, it's a very bad idea for you to visit her.â
Lowering himself back down onto the cushions, he drops his head into his hands. Does he want to get back together with you? Without a fucking doubt. You were his Sweets â the love of his life. But he didn't deserve you. No, you deserved someone who wasn't a coward, someone who would give you the world without any hesitation.
Namjoon was only somebody who broke your heart and your spirit. And now his fans â his fans, they supported him, they fought an unwanted fight for him �� were breaking you in his name.
How could he ever expect you to want him back? How could he ever let you take him back?
âI heard that she's in the hospital, anyway. You know that place is swarming with cameras. You'll only make it worst,â Hoseok adds.
Namjoon's head pops up, his bottom lip quivering. âHospital? Was she seriously injured?â
âI don't think so, hyung,â Taehyung murmurs, lowering himself to wrap his arms around his neck from behind. âI heard she's only getting a few bumps and bruises checked out. It's mainly to record evidence so they can sue the fans.â
âThe fans ...â Namjoon trails off. He's suddenly assaulted with visions of cackling girls whipping things at you, menacing snarls on their faces as they yanked you by your hair. These fans ⌠he doesn't know them but he hates them. He feels dirty, knowing that people like them are devoted to him, to the group. âCan somebody get me a pen and some paper? I need to put an end to this.â
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âManager said the girls are getting sued to the fullest degree. They might end up in a juvenile detention center for a few months,â Ji-na prattles, watching you with nervous eyes as you purge the contents of your closet, holding garments to your chest to examine in the mirror before tossing into one of two piles â keep or donate.
âThe international fans have been really, really supportive. Even the BTS fans overseas have been rallying for you,â she continues, her eyes firm on your back as you study a stain on the sleeve of a dress. When it's clear that you're not going to respond, she sighs, dropping her chin onto her hands. âHas management spoken to you about this? How long are they going to have you on hiatus?â
Ji-na gets an answer this time â not with words, but with an empty suitcase being dropped onto your bed.
She sits up immediately, alarmed at the sight of luggage. âY/N? Why do you have that? Why are you packing? I thought you were just organizing your closet.â
You fold a blouse, laying it down neatly. And then another. And another.
âY/N, will you just fucking talk to me?â Ji-na screeches from her side of the room, launching herself off of the bed. She reaches out to slam the suitcase shut just as you're about to stack more clothes inside. âWhy are you packing? Where are you going?â
You sigh â the first sound that Ji-na has heard you make since you got back from the hospital.
âI'm going home,â you say matter-of-factly. Ignoring her hand on the suitcase, you pull a duffle bag out from underneath your bed and begin to pack it instead.
âWhat do you mean? You are home,â Ji-na says confusedly.
âNo, I'm going home, Ji-na. I'm going back to Daejeon,â
âLike ⌠for good? Were you kicked out of the group?â she asks, shifting her body closer to you in an effort to distract you from shoving more garments into your luggage. âPlease tell me what's going on.â
âNot that you care but I'm on an extended hiatus for my mental health. The company doesn't think it's a good idea for me to stay here right now so I've been sent home until they can figure out what to do with me. I don't know how long I'll be gone. I don't even know if I'll be allowed to come back. The good news is that I'll be gone so nobody has to worry about delusional little Y/N to bring them down anymore â I'll be out of your hair by tonight.â
âNot that I care? I â I can't even ⌠why are you acting as if I'm happy about this?â Ji-na snarls, her hand smacking down onto the suitcase in frustration. âOne of our members is leaving. One of my best friends is leaving â how can you accuse me of being glad?â
âAren't you?â you drawl, arms crossing over your chest. âI'm a disgrace, remember? A laughing stock to the k-pop industry? Aren't you happy that you I won't be sullying FRNZEE's reputation anymore?â
âThat's your insecurities talking, Y/N. Do not put words in our mouths. We would never leave a member behind-â
âYou already did!â your voice is loud and shrill and it startles Ji-na who stumbles a few steps backward. âToday ⌠when I was being attacked, all I wanted was for somebody to whisk me away. All I wanted was somebody to take my hand and pull me inside that building. But you â all of you â you just left me there. Even after Manager told you to take me!â
Ji-na opens her mouth to defend herself but she can't find the right words.
âWe ⌠Y/N, we didn't purposely leave you there. It was ⌠it was fucking chaos. There was screaming and there was a crowd and we weren't able to even see you properly over all of the people recording. We just â we, I mean, I don't think-â
âCan you just leave me to pack? I'll come say goodbye to everyone when I'm finished.â
âY/N,â she murmurs through wet, blurry eyes.
âPlease,â you squeak, your plea breaking as you try to hold on to your composure. You just want to wait until she's out of the room before you allow yourself to fall apart.
Eyes trained on nothing, you wait until Ji-na's sniffling and soft footsteps are completely out of earshot before you slump to the floor. Glancing around the room, you study everything â the color of the walls, the placement of the furniture, the softness of the carpet. You want to believe that you'll be back here again soon but in your heart, you know that this is the end.
It feels like just yesterday you were blowing out the candles on your birthday cake, wishing for an everlasting happiness that included your boyfriend, your group and your music. And now, just months later, you've lost all three.
Where do you go from here?
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rambling time :)
Hmmm I realize now why Urianger is actually leaving the party at this point. Itâs to force Thancred to actually do something concerning Minfilia. Heâs served primarily as her emotional support up until now, with Thancred... idk he gave her a headpat a couple of times. His optional dialogue there was âI will talk to her. When the times is right.â You dumbass the time has been right for an eternity.
Oh and now we get death baited again. I was genuinely afraid the first time that they really killed Thancred. He seemingly had enough death flags for it, unlike with Yâshtola whose apparent death came from nowhere. God... and the hiding his very soul stuff... I wonder if thatâll make a return later. Certainly is convenient, not to mention dramatic. But man this really was bait, he just like, turns up fine later. Kinda dumb ngl.
Wtf Iâm tearing up about Minfilia prime again... god...
Oh... OHHHH I understand whatâs going on in this vision now! Gâraha is reading Count Edmontâs book, and this roegadyn man is Biggâs descendant... Huh, thatâs funny. Two of the stories from Heavensward got muddled. A hero rides in astride a white dragon to save a little girl... The WoL riding into Ishgard on Midgardsormr, and Vidofnir saving the little girl. Fun detail.
?? Did Emet-Selch just SMILE at the WoL? His eyes crinkled. Do his eyes crinkle anywhere else??? Nobody else even saw that I think it mightâve been genuine, even if itâs just to see that the WoL hasnât fallen apart yet. Like, he smiles in other places. Thereâs the mocking smiles, and the one last genuine but sad one near the end, but I canât recall seeing one like that.
Ah. I think this is it. Heâs explaining the Sundering.
I love this line and the delivery...
His logic makes sense. It IS relative, in this case. It of course doesnât excuse the killing of millions and whatnot... itâs simply that the Ascians canât accept things as they are now. A world without Zodiark is wrong. I wonder if theyâd ever accept things as they are now if they werenât tempered.
Itâs silly that the game first explains the true nature of Ascians nowadays in some optional dialogue... the unsundered Ancients can raise fragments to become Ascians themselves, presumably anyone... though only fragments of the Convocation of Fourteen can rise to their respective office, through use of those... memory stones, or whatever they were. Iâll get back to that eventually.
Oh. You can also ask about Emet-Selchâs true name here, and thereâs foreshadowing that you may one day learn... mannnnnnnnnn why do they have to kill him though??? The Hades fight is cool, though heart breaking. They bring back every other character, even Asahi to an extent for godsakes... The trailer, iirc, had a voice over from him so... maybe... maybe if we get more into the WoL being Azem... I dunno. I want to hope.
Ohhghhg I regret eating right before this bit with Vauthry downing... meol... ugghyhhh the noises this is awful I can feel my stomach turning :( That whole business... itâs not surprising the story moves past it quickly. Still funny though that they never outright acknowledge that all that was literally cannibalism.
Ah. AH!!!! Thereâs the line!!!!
So... he recognizes Azem even now. Huh. And what follows... he thinks the WoL would have liked it, Amaurot or however you spell it. Heâs being... nice. Oh. That is... a sly proposition. Heâs suggesting that the WoL just let things happen, that if they survive theyâll become whole. Of course Emet-Selch would want that, to have his friend back...
And now we come to the silliest plot point in the expansion. Really? Just make a giant Talos? Just like that? Even with an entire nationâs people working on it organizing everything and putting together the materials and all should take an eternity.
Duuuude I hate Mt. Gulg. Also this stupid audio effect they have on Vauthry, the echo is too much it hurts to try and understand what heâs saying, even with the text.
Ohhhhhhh myyyyyyyyy gooooooooooood Gârahaâs deception is so bad but... it still hurts....... and Urianger... this is the most intense he sounds in the entire game... that âDo not interfere!â. Gâraha!!!! You idiot!!!!! Gggghg. OH MY GOD THATâS HIS RING HAND! HEâS REACHING TOWARDS HIM WITH THE HAND THAT BEARS HAURCHEFANTâS RING.... UNINTENTIONAL BUT GOOD!!!!!!! And finally his hood..... god.... Iâm gonna cry again I can nbarely type./.... his inspiratyion...... and HIM EMET-SELCH!!!!!!!! GGGGGGGGGHGFHGH NO. THIS SUCKS SO BAD@!!!!
Ohhhhhh this story is evil. That it should be able to make you feel bad for disappointing Emet-Selch....... I mean itâs true. You werenât strong enough, and others pay the price.
Seeing all of this... I wonder if Endwalker will attempt to top this level of relevance the WoL has. Suddenly... they are the existential threat. I mean again I suppose they could if they let the WoL take on Hydaelynâs power as Zenos suggests. I do still hope that happens.
Ah... and again his ring hand to touch Ardbert..... cute... Hey wait why isnât the WoL allowed to have any real heart to hearts with any of the Scions. Let them be friends :(
... ... wh. Why have they said the same thing? Emet-Selch says to the WoL before they depart, mocking how the world would react to the WoLâs affliction, âThere is no hope. We are finished. Mankind is finished.â And. Gâraha says this to Urianger once he arrives originally, to convey peopleâs reaction to the final calamity that befell the Source. I... suppose... Emet-Selch was watching? But that doesnât make sense, they discuss other information here he doesnât know. Itâs just to draw a parallel, then? Oh. I see. Gâraha then expounds on it and makes it something hopeful.
Oh also. It would have made infinitely more sense for it to have been one of Cidâs descendants to assist Gâraha in traveling back in time. I can only assume that SE knows their fans well enough to know there would have been a crowd upset at what that implies with Cid, with how much they play around with the rivalry between him and Nero. Very funny thing to notice.
I canât get out of my head what must have been the WoLâs original plan to reach Emet-Selch... take an Amaro over open water, then just dive in and swim around until the find him.
Ohhggh... I love Urianger his apology is so cute... heâll stay by the WoLâs side for as along as he is able, if theyâre willing to forgive or at least set aside their displeasure... even if theyâre a danger to those around them...
Ohh and Alisaie!!!! This is why ShB is so good they actually CARE about the WoL itâs so nice... Oh right, and Urianger actually acknowledges their poorly thought out plan and thinks itâs silly. I donât remember this from the first time, that swimming that far would probably make them die from exhaustion anyhow.
I saved this as a draft when my internet was being stupid hoping closing firefox would help. It did not. Anyways i came back to close this up and also note. I have been playing GNB terribly wrong for a while now. Youâre granted a bonus damage ogcd after every move of your cartridge combo, not just the last one. Iâm so stupid I thought it was like, an option of which one to use, but no. GNB is confusing, the combos are like... barely combos you can interrupt them to do whatever and return to them later. Iâm looking at the optimal opener and i can feel my brain melting how the hell do I remember this??? I mean I donât have to yet, Iâm not at 80, but jfc. Idk if Iâm ever gonna be able to raid like, properly lining up skills during battles sounds too difficult for me. I have a pea brain when actually fighting things case in point that one raid where it makes you do simple addition and division. It made me think 6+4 was 12. Itâs hard enough for me as is to not let too many ogcds drift, at least not too bad...
Anyways. going to keep playing but I can wrap this up.
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     Hidden Histories   -   Chapter 2   -   Wait for it   Â
The alternate happy ending to Hidden Histories - Â There Is No Future for Us as a Pair, the one where Katherine Howard and Catherine Parr meet during the early days of Annaâs marriage, they keep making plans and the king keeps messing them up.
Disclaimers/notes from the first chapter are even more valid for this oneâŚheavily fictional, with one big change in 'history', obviously.
Being part of Maryâs household makes exchanging letters with the Queen if not easier, certainly quicker. Not only the physical distance to cover is less, but correspondence between royal households is common, frequent, and more efficient than anything private that Catherine had ever been able to arrange when she had been in Yorkshire. It is not unusual for Catherine to send a letter one day, receive Katherineâs reply the next one and send a new one the day after.
Catherine sees the flourishing in Katherineâs letters, both in penmanship and in content. Her missives almost unrecognizable from the first ones they had exchanged, where the efforts clearly put into them couldnât fully make up for the dreadful handwriting and spelling. Their letters are a mix of mundane topics and more intellectual discussions. After Katherine remarks in one message that Henry appreciates Catherine taking the time to share her knowledge and education with Katherine and wishes to thank her for it, Catherine is glad that they had employed from the start a sort of coded language. Discussions about pastoral literature would have surely appeared less innocuous had Henry known that every mention of a desired bucolic life was meant to stand for Katherineâs desire for a life away from court and that discussing lives devoted to God, free from âearthlyâ duties, was a way to talk about lives without husbands and wifely obligations. Still she knows that nobody would ever believe the Queen capable of such subterfuges. She seems to be the only one aware that Katherine is much more than the stupid vapid girl they believe her to be at court, apparently unable to see beyond her looks, as stunning as they are.
And then one letter arrives that makes Catherineâs blood run cold. Almost lost among descriptions of clothes and plans for a trip, a throwaway mention of Katherine revisiting a conversation they had in the past and asking Catherineâs opinion on what the character should have done when âthe ghosts of the past came back to haunt him, demanding their tollsâ.
âI am not sure I understand your reference. Is it about the story we discussed that warm afternoon in the royal gardens while my dear sister Anne attended to the Kingâs beloved sister? If so, my opinion is that the protagonist should have chosen disgrace over death. It is possible to come back from ruin, especially with friendly help, but one cannot come back from death. A chance of redemption, no matter how small, is always preferable to the certainty of death.â
Catherine pens her response as quickly and as carefully as she can.
She hopes Katherine will understand.
She hopes it wonât come to it.
But of course, hoping never did Catherine Parr any good. Itâs Mary who brings her the news that Katherine has been stripped of her title and is currently held waiting for the Kingâs decision after being questioned.
The courtâs preconceptions about Katherine reveal themselves a blessing in disguise. Katherine plays the naĂŻve girl, manipulated and caught up in games too big for a silly little girl and nobody doubts it for a second. She admits having been pre-contracted with Francis Dereham and the King gets to appear both as the victim of the situation and magnanimous, as he sends her away in disgrace but sparing her life. Â
For days Catherine is in turmoil, having no news about Katherine except that she has been banished. With the queenâs household having been disbanded, she is not surprised by her sisterâs visit, as it is likely that she will join Maryâs household. What she doesnât expect is Anne bringing her news about Katherine. Knowing of their close relationship and having a soft spot for the younger girl herself, she had directed the former queen to a family property in the north of the country.
Their epistolary exchanges resume, albeit at a slower rate and even more carefully than before. Catherine asks Mary to be dismissed from her service. She is friendly enough with her to disclose that her husband is not getting any better and that she knows she will be named her step-daughterâs guardian after Nevilleâs death and put in charge of his affairs until her majority. To manage his affairs, sheâd have to return northâŚwhat she leaves out is that up north is where the disgraced former queen, and that she plans to finally bring Katherine to her.
She has already thought about everything. It will be far enough from court that most people wonât recognize Katherine, the lack of portraits of the former queen circulating helping with that. Katherine is a common name as long as she goes with Lady Katherine without mentioning the surname. And even if - when? - Katherineâs presence at her house were to be discovered and questioned, she will say that she took her in out of pity, in the name of their old friendship. And yes, she was sent away in disgrace, but a demotion from Queen of England to lady-in-waiting for a lesser house (barony, after all, is the lowest rank of the peerage) isnât disgraceful in itself? And if His Majesty had seen in his immense benevolence to spare her life, shouldnât Catherine follow his enlightening example by providing that lost soul a mean to support her life rather than seeing her squandering the gift His Majesty has so generously given her? Laying it on thick, she knows, but Catherine wonât let her pride getting in the way, not after everything they already went through and managed to overcome.
Catherine genuinely mourns Neville when he dies, but she canât help herself: she is finally seeing her dreams on the verge of becoming reality. Twice widowed, guardian of a teenage girl, she should be allowed some respite, right? She just wants to live peacefully, taking care of her family and friends, and pursuing knowledge. She doesnât ask much, does she?
But once again her plans are thwarted by the King, newly single and ready to make an unsuspecting woman his wife. Just her luck. So she has to write a letter to Katherine, once again ending things before they could even start.
Catherine had built a future in her mind with Katherine, but now the hope is gone. She doesnât have a choice. She never had a choice. They never had a choice. If Henry says itâs you, then itâs you. Nobody knows that better than Katherine. And yes, if she could speak up, without holding back, she would tell him that there is no way she is giving up her girl, her work, her dreams for him. But of course, she canât say that. Not to the king.
So she sends the letter to Katherine. Tells her goodbye. Marries the King.
And then finally. FINALLY. Henry dies. Not a minute too soon.
Catherine becomes the one who survived (as a wife, since both Anna and Katherine are still alive but not wives anymore), but she almost wasnât.
She supposes that she had become too confident. She had published two books, the second one being the first to be published in English by a woman under her own name in England. The first one, though anonymous, had been published by the Kingâs printer. Henry knew of her interest in religious matters and as he had permitted her to publish, she thought he approved. Until she gets the news that an arrest warrant had been drawn up. She takes her own advice and a page out of Katherineâs book: she plays stupid and lies to save her skin. Of course she would never dare to think that she knows better than the King, she only debated with him to distract him from his pains and to learn from him. She is just a woman, after all. Humiliating but convincing enough that she becomes the last wife of Henry VIII instead of being added to the list of discarded consorts.
Among the good things coming from the Kingâs death, there is the fact that nobody expects a dowager queen to remarry again. In fact, she thinks it would actually be frowned upon. Â After Edwardâs coronation she is more than happy to retire from court to a property left to her by Neville where Katherine is waiting for her.
When Catherine had married Henry, she had brought her stepdaughter with her since she was her guardian, but she still had been in charge of the properties left to her by her second husband. Nobody at court was surprised by the regular correspondence she entertained as they had quickly learned she was quite an hand-on person if allowed to be and they correctly assumed that she wanted to be informed and involved in the running of those places. And if the majority of the exchanges happened to be with one particular property...They had no way to know that the household there was headed by a most trusted woman and had been recently joined by a certain Lady KatherineâŚwho didnât take long to win the other woman over. It never takes long, for better or for worse. Catherine remembers receiving a letter praising how quickly Lady Katherine was learning how to properly lead a household and how she would make a very good wife for a lucky man. She had replied that no talks of marriage would be entertained, for any reason, ever, and that she was to make it clear to anyone approaching the topic.  She doesnât know whether she knew or suspected the reason, or even if she knew who Katherine was (which would have made it clear why she could never get married - again), but the topic was never brought up again and Catherine was content with that.
And even more content when finally, seven years after Catherine had first proposed the idea to Katherine, their dream of living together becomes reality.
 Not many details are known about the last period of Catherine Parrâs life. The Dowager Queen maintained good relationships with all her stepchildren, raising Elizabeth and receiving visits from Mary and even Edward, despite the busy life of the young king. Despite various invitations, she never returned to court, choosing to live the rest of her life in quiet retirement in the same place where her tomb now rests, the only English queen to be buried in a private residence.
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I rambled a bit in the end notes on Ao3 if you are interested, but probably the only thing you might care about is the final question...would you like a fluff family reunion?
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Doing yearly writing reviews isnât really a thing. But once you start doing âem, it doesnât feel right to stop, you know?
Seeing progress in other arts is of course a lot easier than seeing progress in writing, but I think there is some forward movement for me, especially when I also consider my compilations from 2017 and 2018.
In regards to 2019, Iâve selected various kinds of writing for this post: analytical essays, opinion pieces, news articles, creative fiction, and maybe some works that canât be categorized so easily, too. It was a very difficult year on many fronts; I dealt with job struggles, financial insecurity, destroyed relationships, medical hardships, seemingly endless cyberstalking and online harassment.Â
But there were good things, too. New friendships. New passions. New outlooks. I feel like Iâve learned and grown a lot more in these past couple of months than I have in a long, long time.
The end of 2019 is more than just the end of one year. Itâs also the end of a decade. But I think the best advice Iâve received all decade comes from this year:
â Sometimes, you have to say yes to saying no.
â If you canât do something well, do something poorly!
â The best option may be to simply not engage.
â You donât have to apologize for disappointing others.
â Your worth isnât measured by how much you âaccomplish.â
â You have rights: the right to have your needs and wants respected, the right to make mistakes, the right to determine your own priorities, the right to not be responsible for the actions or problems of others, the right to express yourself, the right to be human. Itâs not selfish or narcissistic to stand up for your rights.
And, since it is the end of the decade and all, hereâs also a comparison between one nerdy fandom essay from August 2010 and another from August 2019:
2010 (with added spaces because yes, this really was just a huge block of text originally):
Also, in my own opinion, nobody really gave a damn for Xion all that much save for Roxas. I mean, yeah, Axel cared a little, but in the end, he got totally mad at her, got mad any time she was mentioned, got mad whenever Roxas worried about her, got mad when she showed up at the clock tower. She was his friend, yeah, and he didnât want her to go, but in the end, he would have chosen Roxas above her anytime.
The other âmean villainsâ didnât really care. Luxord didnât care, Demyx didnât care, Xaldin got exasperated once at her, but overall didnât care, Xigbar didnât care, Xemnas outright said he didnât care, Saix was rather cruel to her, but really, in the end, he didnât give a damn for her. The others werenât around long enough to have an impression on her. I think even Riku didnât really care all that much for her, in all honesty. He just wanted his best friend back. Â
Also, you have to keep in mind that we played the game through Roxasâ perspective, and itâs in my personal belief that he fell in love with Xion. And if youâre in love with someone, when she gets into a coma, or goes missing, or ignores you, youâre gonna be upset, and talk about it. So Roxas did.Â
But you know, he doesnât actually do a lot of it until the end of the game. Before that, itâs all about the THREE of them. He loves his friends (even if he doesnât know it), and he wants them to be together forever, but when Xion goes missing or whatnot and they canât ALL have ice cream together, he gets upset.
2019:Â
Iâve written more on the subject here, but to keep it short, Ryuko only tries to take Nuiâs life when sheâs convinced herself that sheâs a monster, and her development is less about her becoming less okay with killing people and more about how she wonât let her anger and rage control her. What makes Ryukoâs attitude so different in the end isnât that sheâs reconsidered her thoughts on murder but that sheâs composed. Come episode 22, Ryuko ainât saying that sheâs gonna kill anyone to sound tough or to intimidate. She keeps her cool even against her worst enemies.
But thatâs just what I think! Maybe Iâve interpreted the character all wrong. But Ryukoâs freak-out after she goes berserk and hurts others in episode 12, her devotion to defending even people sheâs just met⌠I just struggle to see her as someone whoâs actually a-okay with killing. The fact that Ryukoâs perfect fantasy in episode 20 depicts her as a sweet girl without any of the violent tendencies that she has in reality also points this way; not to mention, Ryuko outright admits that her picking fights and causing trouble are bad things when remarking on her childhood in episode 8.
And Ryuko? She doesnât want to be bad. All the poor girlâs ever wanted is love, and I canât imagine sheâd ever think that getting angry and killing people would get her a lot of that.
Progress may be slow, but it does happen.
At least, I think so.
Image Texts
January 2019
And personally? I find that sweetness just absolutely, utterly charming. When I understood what the rap was trying to communicate, I couldnât imagine listening to the song without it. Heck, even before I understood, I found the âwithout rapâ edits empty and barren. No matter how âsillyâ the lyrics might come off, the unabashed cheese is fantastic. The rap section that I was once âmehâ about legitimately became my favorite part of the song.
Plus, I really canât stress enough how sad the song is when itâs purely Ryuko. The official [nZk] remix replaces Senketsuâs rap with a reprise of Ryukoâs first verse, which recounts how she and Senketsu met. And itâs tragic! She says, âBut Iâm all alone,â and she is. Senketsu isnât singing with her, no matter her claim that she can hear his voice. Considering what happens to Senketsu in the end, his absence in the song hits even harder.
Full post:Â https://marshmallowgoop.tumblr.com/post/182361051017/oomoj-marshmallowgoop-the-rap-is-good
February 2019
The focus then shifts away from Ragyo, but Kill la Kill ainât at all done with building the audience up yet. As the scene moves to the following day, viewers are met with quick, close-up shots of Uzuâs note to Ryuko, timed right to the beat of âBlumenkranz.â Uzu wants to duel, and we soon get to see his full request in an engaging low-angle shot where Ryuko looks up to this sign looming over her. The weight and gravity of the situation is effectively conveyed: the smooth transition from Ragyo to here, as well as the music and shot composition, let us know in no indirect terms that this fight isnât something to be brushed off. Uzuâs duel is a big deal, and itâs very much connected to Ragyoâs expansive empire.
And the tension just keeps growing. Ryukoâs reaction to Uzuâs note is presented with a dramatic canted, high-angle shot. The cameraâwhich is just slightly tiltedâpeers down at both Ryuko and the sign, communicating a sense of danger and unease. Viewers already know that the upcoming battle is important, but here, we also understand that itâs not going to be easy.
Full post:Â https://marshmallowgoop.tumblr.com/post/182841724817/all-the-discussion-around-episode-6-of-kill-la
March 2019
Kill la Kill the Game: IF is currently being featured at the 2019 Game Developers Conference that runs until March 22nd in San Francisco, and a flurry of new gameplay videos are now available for viewing. Notably, these videos feature full English subtitles for the character dialogue for the first time since EVO 2018 last year and never-before-seen stages, such as what seems to be the Fiber Castle in the Kiryuin Manor.
Full post:Â https://marshmallowgoop.tumblr.com/post/183766224117/kill-la-kill-the-game-if-gameplay-footage-from
April 2019
I mean, Kill la Kill ended over five years ago now. Thereâs been fairly minimal new content ever sinceâan OVA in September of 2014, a few pieces of merchandise here and there, a small crossover with Grand Summoners last year. And then, not even 11 months ago, out of seemingly nowhere, there was confirmation for a full-blown Kill la Kill video game. That we now know will be released in just 14 weeks!
Lots of jokes were made about the announcement for a game so many years after the series finale, but, like, seriously, as a longtime Kill la Kill fan, itâs hard to wrap my head around. Ever since the show ended, Iâve dedicated over half a million words to writing about it, spent tens of thousands of yen on books and Blu-rays and CDs, devoted nearly 60 GB to my own GIFs and edits. Iâve loved this thing to death. Iâve always found more and more that I want to write and create from this series, but I never really imagined nor expected that weâd ever get much more official content from the original creators themselves. And now we are getting so much more, and???
Full post:Â https://marshmallowgoop.tumblr.com/post/184228103137/kill-la-kill-the-game-if-releases-on-july-25th-in
May 2019
Kiznaiver: Oh, I was so excited to love this show! I was lucky enough to see an advanced screening of the first two episodes, and I was totally hooked. It was drop-dead gorgeousâand probably the prettiest series Trigger has ever put outâand I was very intrigued by the plot and characters. I remember just coming back to my hotel room at like 3:00 am after the premiere, utterly filled with excitement. I mean, Kiznaiver  was directed by Hiroshi Kobayashi, the episode director behind the two episodes that got me hooked on Kill la Kill (episodes 5 and 18)!
But⌠my excitement quickly died. The story tried to develop way too many characters in way too little time, and I never enjoyed the romantic pairing of Katsuhira and Noriko, finding it shallow, undeveloped, and nonsensical (in a bad way), which⌠kind of ruins a lot of the series when thatâs arguably the heart of the whole thing.
Kiznaiver is still super, super pretty, though. That last episodeâs animation got me shook.
Full post:Â https://marshmallowgoop.tumblr.com/post/184700944732/so-have-you-watched-the-other-stuff-studio-trigger
June 2019
I do recognize that many, many matters do not warrant conversation. I do recognize that the phrase âIâm just trying to have a conversationâ can beâand has beenâutilized as a means of directing criticism away from inflammatory, unacceptable, inhumane remarks. I in no way feel that hateful, discriminatory comments should be promoted.
Simultaneously, however, âconversationâ should not automatically be a dirty word in the field of analyzing and seriously engaging with fiction, and thoughtful reactions should be supported and striven for. Nothing in fiction is ever black and white. There are so many nuances and complexities to the storybook realities of our media. I want commentators and critics of fiction to be passionate about listening, considering, and rethinking those nuances and complexities. Isnât that why we do this work at all? To share our own point of view and open ourselves up to others?
Full post:Â https://marshmallowgoop.tumblr.com/post/185289615202/we-need-to-change-the-way-we-seriously-discuss
July 2019
Initially, I was really bummed by this lack of development. But as I thought about things more, I⌠didnât mind so much. If this dream or universe or whatever is something that Satsuki âexperiencesâ before the events of the anime, of course she wonât grow as a character here. Maybe this game is kind of the Kill la Kill prequel Iâve been begging for for over half a decade.
And as much as I didnât get anything, I thought the ending bits between Ryuko and Satsuki were so good.
Like, I suppose Ryukoâs absorbing the Life Fibers or something?? But wow, pretty.
And the part where they talk before Satsuki disappears? Thatâs my kinda anime bullshit. Itâs the kinda anime bullshit I wanted from the OVA between Ryuko and Senketsu.
Full post:Â https://marshmallowgoop.tumblr.com/post/186648065467/goop-plays-kill-la-kill-the-game-if-satsuki
August 2019
That book, Log. 2, is a fan doujin from Kotaro Nakamori, who worked as an animator and animation director in Kill la Kill. Thereâs a bunch of assorted fanart in there, and I wouldnât be at all surprised if Nakamori is a fan of Urusei Yatsura and wanted to make a little crossover between that series and Kill la Kill.
Personally, though, as someone not too familiar with Urusei Yatsura, I kinda just saw the image as oni-Satsuki (with oni being demon/ogre-like creatures in Japanese folklore). Oni are traditionally depicted wearing tiger skin loincloths, and Lum herself is definitely basically a space oni. So, I saw the cover and got super excited about oni-Satsuki because I love oni a lot, haha.
Fun fact: character designer Sushio has also drawn Kill la Kill characters as oni for setsubun, a celebration thatâs held on the last day of winter (February 3rd). During setsubun, you might see folks dressed up like oniâwho get beans thrown at them in an effort to bring in good luck and chase naughty demons away.
Full post:Â https://marshmallowgoop.tumblr.com/post/187228888187/do-i-see-satsuki-wearing-lums-outfit-in-your-last
September 2019
Though I donât see it much anymore, I remember lots of comparisons between Ragyo and the villains of Saturday morning cartoons back in the day. She was described as a generic, two-dimensional âevilz for the sake of evilzâ baddie and criticized for her simplicity.
And though I did admittedly agree to an extentâI craved a lot more depth and insight, particularly in regards to her haunting line about âstill having something of a human heartâ whilst brutally attacking her own daughter in the final episodeâI also found Ragyo to be a remarkably compelling, powerful, and horrifying villain even without tons of backstory and explanation. Perhaps my write-up on her first scene in episode 6Â best details why; this woman has such a presence, and the visual language of the series amplifies that presence spectacularly. Ragyoâs intimidating and scary without the audience even needing to know anything about her.
And⌠Iâd say thatâs a good villain. Thatâs exactly what a villain should do.
Full post:Â https://marshmallowgoop.tumblr.com/post/187987858537/on-ragyo-kiryuin
October 2019
And, though there are no visuals, so I canât be sure if itâs an âOcean of Lightâ or not, the fourth Drama CD also has the same kinda deal happening. In the CDâwhich takes place immediately after Ryuko learns the truth of her originsâRyukoâs pain manifests as an explosion of light that knocks both her and Senketsu unconscious and pushes Senketsu away from her. The sound effect here is familiar, and Iâm personally convinced that this is another âOcean of Lightâ moment.
Which brings me to the âlightâ part of the terminology. Light is often associated with good, yes, but light is also associated with heat, and heat is associated with pain. In the Drama CD, Ryukoâs light is so hot that Nui even remarks that Senketsu âalmost burnedâ from it, and when Mako embraces Ryuko after swimming through her âOcean of Lightâ in episode 12, Ryukoâs touch scorches Makoâs skin.
Iâve already written an essay on the symbolic and narrative use of fire, warmth, and heat in Kill la Kill (that you should totally read because itâs actually maybe Kinda Good, Maybe), and relating to that, I see the âOcean of Lightâ as a physical representation of Ryukoâs fiery spirit. That fire can be used for good, and that fire can also be painful, but no matter what, that fire is a part of Ryuko.
Full post:Â https://marshmallowgoop.tumblr.com/post/188247077227/i-always-wanted-some-explanation-you-are-smart
November 2019
She looks around her cottage. Her eyes find the walls and the furnishings. Her eyes find the scratched floors and stained wood. She does not voice it to the once-emperor, but she had never been able to remove the stains from the attack. Her son's blood has painted the brown wood red. It is a reminder of what she cannot remember. It is a reminder of the past she has forgotten. Â
âThis home feels so desperately lonely,â she admits. âI do not know who is missing. But it is not complete.â Â
The man is quiet. He did not expect to find himself feeling sympathy for the woman's plight. Perhaps she is a fool, to have given her heart to a demon. But kindness ought not be punished, he thinks. Or has he grown so cold that he believes it should be? Â
December 2019
đ Michiru and Shirouâs relationship may be the focus, but Nakashima emphasizes that Michiruâs relationship with Nazuna is also involved in the story in a big way.
đ Nakashima stresses the importance of depicting teen girls realistically. Two women screenwriters are on board: Kimiko Ueno and Nanami Higuchi. Both wrote for Little Witch Academia. Ueno also wrote for Space Patrol Luluco, and Higuchi was behind the production reports in Trigger Magazine (and, interestingly, wrote the script for the anime adaptation of BEASTARS).
đIn regards to Michiru and Nazunaâs relationship, producer Naoko Tsutsumi (also an animation producer for Kiznaiver and Little Witch Academia) provides input as well. Nakashima says that they greatly value and take to heart the opinions of the women creators.
Full post:Â https://marshmallowgoop.tumblr.com/post/189928986922/otomedia-winter-2020-bna-brand-new-animal
#shut up goop#goop makes a (kinda) personal post#ramblings#writing#on to 2020!#right before the new year in my time zone as per usual lol#image texts under the cut#kill la kill#kingdom hearts#brand new animal#kiznaiver
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History Repeats Itself AU
It all started on that one Christmas Eve. At age 17, when a strange duck dressed all in purple appeared at McDuck manor. She claimed to Webby that she was a distant relative and said her name was Violet. Webby, of course, having a complete encyclopedia of the McDuck tree didnât really buy it, but didnât question it.
âSo.. whereâs Dewey?â
âI donât know. Probably outside somewhere.â
âWhy arenât you with him? Arenât you guys like.. together?â
âYeah we are.. Iâm just.. I just wanted some time to myself today.â
âOn Christmas Eve? Thatâs boring! Câmon, lets go find Dewey!â
That was âVioletsâ main goal. To find the blue duckling. Webby followed the young ones enthusiasm and they went on their quest to find him and when they did, he does his Dewey thing.
âHaha! Caught ya gorgeous!â
âDewey! Iâm not in the mood for one of your games right now!â
â....Dewey..?â
There he was. In the flesh. Not that heâd recognize her at his age. His main concern was getting Webby out of this funk.
âWould you do me a favour and get us down.â
âNo.â
âExcuse me?â
âI said no. Not until you tell me whatâs wrong.â
âNothingâs wrong!â
âYouâre such a bad liar Webby! I know somethings bothering you.â
âHow could you possibly know that!? I havenât been with you all day!â
âThatâs how he knows somethings wrong! You two have been together for over a year now! And even before that, you guys are best friends, of course Deweyâs gonna know when somethings bothering the girl he loves. Thatâs why he set this all up. He just wanted to spend Christmas Eve with his girlfriend but you were too caught up in your own brooding to notice he was trying to help you- and I have to apologize to my family when I get home.â
âYou set all this up.. for us?â
âWell yeah.. this is kind of our spot anyways.â
âAwh, Dewey Im so sorry.. Iâve just been so busy with something I donât have, that I forgot the great guy I do have.â
âItâs alright, Iâve been there too, Angel.â
Seeing them both happy and in love brought a smile to âVioletsâ face. This wasnât something she saw often, and it made her slip up.
âThat was some quick problem solving back there Violet. Your parents are lucky to have a such bright daughter.â
She then jumped into his arms hugging him tightly, sheâd never had this chance before.
âUm.. okay.. this is happening now.â
âSorry itâs just, Iâve never been able to spend Christmas with both my- cousins on my great aunt nephews brother side- yes, that was it.â
Dewey and Webby exchanged a look.
âYouâre nameâs not really Violet, is it?â
âUhhhhhhh..â
It didnât take long for Dewey to connect the dots. The girlâs determination to find him and wanting to spend Christmas with both him and Webby, he figured it out. But he knew that meant something else. He couldnât worry about that now though, who knows when it happens? Before he and Webby sent her off, she left Dewey with this small bit of information.
âDad-... Dewey!â
âYeah?â
âItâs Skye.â
âWhat?â
âMy name is Skye.â
Skye thought she could handle it on her own, with the help of her cousin Troy too, but she was wrong. Hiding it wasnât right. Even with her good intentions.
The look of betrayal and distraught on both her twin brother and younger brotherâs faces made her heart snap. She didnât realize what she was doing until it was too late.
âSkye! What is up with you?!â
âWhy are you being so strange! In case you havenât notice this isnât exactly the best time!â
She clenched the jacket and bag close to her.
âBecause it belongs to Dad!â
âWHAT?!â
Chase, her twin, was furious.
âHow do you know this belongs to Dad?!â
âUh.. Iâve kind of been.. doing some research on him by myself.. only a little bit. I just looked him up in the Archives and when we made that stop to Ithaquack I spoke to the goddess Selene and god Storkules- aaaand this isnât making my case better.â
âHow could you not tell us about this!?â
âI was trying to protect you both in case Dad did something bad!â
âYeah Okay! Or you just kept to yourself because youâre insecure about your place in this family! Typical Skye! Heâs our father!â
âNo! Itâs not like that Chase! What happened was I didnât tell you because I didnât want you guys to get hurt, then with all this new information and holes in the story I couldnât tell you because I didnât want you to hurt me! Iâm sorry okay!â
âYouâre only sorry because you got caught!â
While her twin called her out on her actions, her little brother stayed quiet, steadying his breath as he held his fatherâs jacket close. It was his dadâs. His fatherâs. The man he never met. Their father was around for the first two years of Skye and Chaseâs life. Danny on the other hand, never knew his father, and having this piece of clothing in his arms, made him feel several things.
âDanny... are you okay?â
âYou kept a secret about Dad... nothing about that is okay.â
Desperation. Ambition. Impulsion.
It was the last bit of information she needed. It was now or never. The truth about Dewey Duck.
Her eye was on the prize and nothing and nobody was going to hold her back. Not even her families cries.
Her cousin, Troy, who was with her since the start of the investigation pleaded to her first.
âThis is insane Skye! Get back here! I know you want to learn about your dad but this isnât the answer youâre looking for!â
Danny was next.
âI get it Skye! I want to know what happened to Dad too but you canât risk all of us just find out what happened to someone we lost!â
Her Uncle Huey grabbed the walkie talkie, holding his son, Troy, close and pleaded to his niece.
âSkye sweetheart please, you have to get back here! I was in a similar situation to this a few decades ago! If your father was here heâd be telling you the same thing I am now! You need to get back here!â
Her twin, Chase, spoke out last.
âSkye, I miss Dad too, and I want to know where he is. But think about this. Mom and the others had to deal with losing him when it happened, and they pulled through together! Donât you see? Our family is incredible! Weâre enough! Let this go!â
Gritting her teeth as anger boiled her blood, she chucked the walkie talkie away.
Let this go?
No.
That wasnât an option. Not when she was this close. And without knowing the truth about her dad, it would never be enough.
Louie looked on at his niece and watched as she slowly turned into Dewey when he was desperately seeking an answer about Della.
âShe really is her father..â
The plane hit a snag and caused the duo to fall onto their bodies. Louie almost falling off the edge, and Skye crashing into the propeller. She looked up and saw the last piece. It was right there. She stood up and reached for it.
Louie pulled up close behind her. Begging and pleading.
âSkye please! I.. okay! I canât protect you as much as I thought! Okay I said it! How can I get you to come back with me!â
Skye looked at her uncle, her hand crushing the paper, and her glare instense. She opened the paper up and her eyes scanned it. They widened as they looked over the image conveyed in front of them, a glimmer of sadness, tears forming in her eyes but she refused to let them fall.
âYou want me to come back?â
âYes! What can I do?!â
Skye held the paper up and into her uncleâs view as she yelled.
âTell me what happened to my dad!â
Webby knows her babies are hurting. Sheâs been there. Losing Dewey was the hardest thing she ever went through. But her children are what kept her at bay. She needed to stay strong for them.
Itâs what Dewey wouldâve wanted.
When everything happened, Webby cut off ties with everyone and took her kids. She watched on her own as Danny hatched, and helped when he learned to walk and talk. Skye and Chase, despite both being two, helped as much as they could.
They all grew up with little or no memories of their father and it hurt Webby everyday to wake up with no one next to her. This wasnât suppose to happen.
He promised her he wouldnât make the mistake his mother did.
He swore heâd be there to see his children grow up.
But he lied.
Possibly.
Webby didnât know. She had a constant clashing in her chest. Her husband made her have all these mixed emotions. She was angry and furious but she was also hurt and sad. She knows Dewey. She knows he loves her. He would never abandon her like this. There was more to the story, she knew that. But she didnât know what.
She thought keeping her children away from the McDuck family would make them not want to be apart of adventures but silly her. They have her and Deweyâs DNA in them. Adventure is in their blood and core. Nothing was gonna stop these three rascals.
Letting them see their Uncle Louie, Uncle Huey and Aunt Shelly brought a new happiness to their lives, and she knew that.
But she never told them about their father. She wanted to but.. she was afraid telling them about him meant sheâs accepted heâs truly gone. And she didnât want to accept that. A small part of her believes heâs still out there. Somewhere. And thatâs because of her kids. The lights of her life. The reason she looks forward to the mornings. All of them inhabit something from their father. And she took note of that every single day.
When she saw how distraught the truth made them, she had to tell them the rest.
âI get it youâre all upset. We were too. We all miss Dewey very much. But you three need to understand your Uncle Louie didnât just give up on him. Louie tried everything to get him back. But if he tried anything else,heâd be broke and lost.â
âBroke and lost?â
âHe really did try to get Dad back..â
âWell whatever Uncle Louie tried, it doesnât matter, Aunt Shelly. Weâre sticking with our true family. Right mom?â
â...No.â
âW-What?â
âYour Aunt Shelly is right. Louie did everything in his power to find your father. And to no avail. I donât know exactly what he tried but thatâs his brother. He wouldnât leave him behind.. I walked away from this family before and that was a big mistake. The McDuckâs are always stronger when theyâre together. I just.. I forgot that for a moment. But not again. We all need to stick together. Come here my babies.â
Tears welled up in her eyes, as they did in her two sons, who jumped into her arms and she held them tightly, allowing them to sob and let their tears out.
She looked up at her daughter, tears in her eyes.
Skye tried her best to keep her composure but she felt herself slowing falling apart.
âSkye, sweetie, I understand. Youâre hurt. Youâre sad, scared, and confused. Your father meant more to me than anything. I know what this is like. And itâs okay for you to be upset. Let yourself cry.â
She sniffed and looked down at her boys.
âIf your father was here right now, heâd be incredibly proud of the three of you. Awh Danny, if he saw how your hair is when itâs zooshed back, heâd call you his mini him! And Chase, you were his little buddy, champ and warrior! The things you had him chasing you around for! And Skye, you were his baby girl and little princess. I never saw him have so much fun while teaching you how to walk. He was protective of you even when you were in your egg. I guess he knew the beautiful duckling youâd become. You three meant the world to him, and I know heâd give up his life if it meant youâd three are happy.â
Her daughter looked up, tears falling down her cheeks and ran into her mothers arms. She felt her brothers embrace her and the four of them all cried.
They all loved each other. And they all loved him. They knew if he was still out there, heâd be proud.
âWeâll stay strong for him.â
8 years.
He has spent 8 years alone on that orange rock, Mars that is.
Now being on another planet would usually sound like an exhilarating opportunity for Dewey but not when it meant heâd miss so many milestones and life on Earth.
When he first crashed, it was the week his son was suppose to hatch and he missed it.
Dewey did have his hands full at the time, as he had to deal with his right leg being crushed and unable to get it out. He looked around and had no other options.
Hey, Scrooge and Donald did say he reminding them of Della.
With his right leg now amputated, which he did so with the help of Dellaâs book, and Oxy-Chew on his side, still only Black Licorice flavoured, thanks Gyro.
Dewey has one goal. Get back home.
He missed his sonâs hatching, he missed Dannyâs first words and steps. He missed Skye and Chaseâs birthdays and Dannyâs too.
He missed anniversaries with Webby.
Man did he miss his wife.
Other than his kids, she was the only one in his thought.
âWhat was I thinking!? I just left Webby! And with three kids to raise! On her own! Ugh.. some husband and father I turned out to be..â
Was what he said on his first transmission.
Everyday he looked at their family portrait. Which was him holding Skye in his arms, Webby holding Chase in hers, and each of them placing one hand on Dannyâs egg whom was placed in the middle of them.
His children and his wife, they were his motivation. He had to remind himself of that. He needed to get back to them. He needed to get back to her.
Each transmission Dewey tried his best to remain postive but it became harder as each year went on. Things became bleaker and he began to doubt that there was a way for him to get home.
During the 8th year on Mars, Dewey broke down. Collapsing on his knees, the tears he very rarely let fall, were pouring out like waterfalls as he sobbed into his own arms.
âIâve tried everything! And nothing!â
He felt hopeless. He was stuck. Nothing he tried worked. And he didnât know what else to do. He looked down at his wedding ring and choked back his tears. He couldnât even begin to imagine the kind of state Webbyâs in. 8 years of raising their kids on her own.. he felt terrible. He wants to be there for her but because of his own stupidity heâs stuck here.
A static sound caught Deweyâs attention. He looked over his shoulder and saw the tv heâd been working on the past few months. He walked over and placed his goggles on, connecting the wires and adjusting the satellite. He saw the picture appearing and heard the sound.
It was a live new casting.
âAnd all the magic in our town has gone away as Lena and Aurora De Spell have returned to normal and been reunited with Duckburgs saviors! Louie Duck and his family!â
Deweyâs eyes scanned the screen. He saw his younger brother in his green suit, smirking at the camera with his arm wrapped around Lenaâs waist whom was in a dark purple gown and her hair had a light pink stripe in it. On the left side of the screen he saw Huey in a red shirt and white vest, with Troy whom was in a similar outfit as his father standing in front of him, and next to Huey he saw Shelly with a short low ponytail, a light blue sweater over her turquoise shirt with a blue skirt. Then on the right side of the screen he saw,
âWebby...â
She looked just a beautiful as ever even with the slight tired look in her eyes. He couldnât help the small smile that reached his beak at the sight of his wife.
That smile slowly turned to a gape as he looked down at the three small figures standing in front of Webby.
Pink, Purple and Blue.
They were cheering and smiling at the camera. They all looked so familiar.
Dewey slowly placed his hand on the television and it hit him.
He gasped while lifting his goggles up and backed up to get a clear view of the trio.
â...Kids?â
-
They say history repeats itself because we donât learn from the past.
But what if we do?
And we just make those decisions again hoping for a different outcome?
Or to make sure certain events happen?
History will always find its way to repeat itself.
And it hit the McDuck family in the hardest way possible.
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Ascent - Bill SkarsgĂĽrd
Title: Ascent
Warning: 18+ voyeurism/masturbation/language
Description:Â A collection of scents and scenes strung together by strange sequences of secrecy and surveyance.
A/N: DAMNIT YOU GUYS. This is my 3rd time posting this fic. It will no longer include the image of the sexy Bill look-alike wanking because wE cAnâT hAvE NiCe tHiNgS. Also, please donât ask me to send the image because I canât be sure of ages and I wonât be dinged for providing pr0nz to potentially underage people. Iâm so sorry. I tried!
ISO: Quiet roommate; preferably female. Males acceptable too if you're cleanly. Split rent loft in quaint & upscale Rosewell neighbourhood with everything included. 1200 upfront first and last and then rent can be negotiated. E-mail. Do not call/text.
I only had 900 dollars on me but I figured if I e-mailed the person that had put out the ad and set up a time to meet the following week then I could earn enough in tips to cover the rest. Easy as that. Breathing became a little less laboured once I sat back on my futon and realized that I wasn't quite as fucked as I initially thought. Then I wondered how in the hell somebody could use the words quaint and upscale to describe the same neighbourhood. Which one was it? Quaint or upscale? How could it be both? All I was sure of was that I had to find a roommate quickly. The new landlord of my apartment building had decided that I had something to do with the junkies shooting up in the storage unit behind the building, as though I had knowledge of it the whole time and failed to make a report of it, therefore, making me part of the problem. But it wasn't just that; this guy was a jackass of ultimate proportions- a seedy little rich momma's boy that had inherited his parents' sense of self-entitlement and strings of real estate offices spanning across the city and surrounding counties. We did not click at all upon first meeting when he made his rounds to see exactly what kind of tenants he would be dealing with. In fact, the moment I opened the door to my apartment and he peered in to see the apparent cluster-bomb that had gone off in my bachelorette pad, he set his sights on destroying me, or at the very least, evicting me. If only I hadn't answered the door in my stained sweatpants and wrinkled t-shirt from a decade ago when my taste in music remained under-developed. If only I hadn't had the day's worth of crusted mascara stuck in the inner corners of my eyes like black boogers. If I had thrown my hair up in a semi-cute messy bun, rolled down the waistband of my stretchy pants and tossed on my only reputable sweater maybe things could have gone differently. But I didn't. Instead, I let him catch a glimpse into the trash-covered world of crooked posters, laundry and pizza boxes. His prissy, Gucci-wearing ass got one whiff of my body odour and my fate was sealed. Whatever though, shit happens. Even if Millennial pretty-boy newbie landlord hated me, I didn't quite hate myself. Sure, I had had better times in my life but there had also been much worse. I was just going through my annual depression when the Summer was long gone and the scent of leaves rotting in the gutters rang in the impending frost. Who wanted to do anything but sit around and play video games or watch TV for six straight hours after work? Certainly not I. I e-mailed the guy living in Rosewell because I had been through that area once or twice and remembered that it was one of the nicer neighbourhoods; its remnants of old city charm and decadent architecture still intact. That's when I gave it a second thought. 1200 for first and last month's rent was not that much, considering the location. My brain caught up with me and I recognized that there would probably be dozens of people replying to the listing and that my chances were diminished to almost nothing. Oh well, I read on and circled more potential ads with the tip of a fresh permanent marker that was starting to give me a headrush. By some grace of luck, I received an e-mail back the next day from the person that had put out the Rosewell advertisement. It dawned on me that I also didn't know whether he or she was a he or a she or a they. It seemed mundane to ask but the person didn't include their name in the reply and their email address was an obscure reference that I wasn't sure I understood. My imagination decided to take a jog and came upon the silly little notion that perhaps this was one of those things when serial killers lure in unsuspecting victims with promises of rent so cheap in a gentle neighbourhood where nobody would think to look for a body. It was classic of me but I couldn't pretend like I wasn't thinking about it. At least death would help put a stopper in my rut. I didn't know what to expect, walking up to the building with a face sectioned off into quadrants- each with their own tiny glass door and artful wrought iron laced balcony. What kind of a person lived inside? Was it a peppy university student with a small dog and a knack for pulling off an active-wear-is-all-I-wear look? Could it be another snotty, uptight rich boy like my fuck-bag of a landlord? Or perhaps it was a nice older lady that fancied her wine and lived in an effortlessly baroque den, lined with books and trinkets from her travels abroad. Either way, I just hoped they approved of me since I had taken the time to shower, put on a bit of makeup and dress like the clothes I owned weren't questionably clean or variably dirty all the time. The door was painted black and nobody could see through the glimmering panels of stained glass that made up an intricate checkerboard of red and blue with two cantaloupe roses coiling up and away from each other, petals agape and ready to fall. I gave the door a good look over with a smug grimace that was just a feint for my awe. The place was definitely too nice for me but I soldiered on and smiled when I heard the door being unlocked. A man opened the door and the scent of wood and something else immediately wafted out like a ghost casually passing by. Not only was he a man, but a looming sculpture dressed in a sagging brown wool sweater that threw me off from my rehearsed speech. He was tall, pale and had such striking eyes behind his glasses that I couldn't quite meet them without feeling some hint of discomfort. It was like somebody had tossed a limp rug on the statue of David the way his knitted sleeves hung loosely around thick veiny wrists. "Hi. Bill," he motioned to himself. "Won't you come in?" "Um, yeah. Sure." The mud room was painted in tarnished blood orange and was home to a wooden rack full of men's shoes. There were trainers with hints of dirt on the toes and soles, leather dress shoes with the fancy gold buckles on the front, more dress shoes, stylish suede ankle boots, and beaver fur lined moccasins. I could taste the transition from the cool Autumn air to the musky inside of the home. The floors were all wood, the banister leading upstairs was carved from another expensive type of tree and the shelving units were solid oak stretching from floor to high ceiling. Every wall was home to some kind of meticulously placed decorative object. But there were also family photos to lend the place a warm and happy glow. Or it could have just been how the sun shone through the clear bay windows. I was led through the house, past a large cupboard tucked beneath the staircase and a small writing desk that was home to a  vintage typewriter cased in filigrees of polished silver. It was then I noticed all the framed book pages lining the walls. We entered a kitchen and I was blown away by how roomy it was compared to the tight, warm front that made up the mudroom and what I had determined was a living room that had been converted into a reading room. There was no TV but there was a chaise lounge with a stack of old books reaching up to a cascading hand-carved armrest. "This is the kitchen. The fridge will be mostly yours. I just use the bottom shelf and the crisper on the left. I just ask that you keep your section clean." "Right," I nodded. "The stove is gas, the fireplace is gas... Everything is gas in here. Um... It gets kind of cold in the winter because the electric baseboards don't really work. If you turn them on it makes the whole place smell like burning sawdust. So... You can use a plug-in heater in your room but... Just wear slippers on the floors." "Oh, okay. Good to know." "Uh... Yeah. The laundry room is through there. I also keep my bike back there. There's another rack mount for a bike if you have one." "No, just my car." "Hmm," Bill pondered with a grimace. I bit my lip and hoped that he wasn't biting his lip from derision. He took in a breath through one of the daintiest noses I had ever seen on a man and adjusted his glasses for a moment before pulling them off completely to wipe the lenses on the hem of his brown knit sweater. "Parking can be kind of a bitch around here," he warned. "Yeah, " I chuckled. "I probably pulled around the block six times before something opened up." "You'll have to get used to that... Or just get a bike like everyone else." With a forced laugh, I attempted to hide the odd sense of shame that he had instilled by suggesting that nobody around these parts bothered with silly things like motor vehicles. Fuck, that could mean he was some sort of health nut that would turn his nose up if he saw the types of meals I made for myself and how lazy I could get. Aside from his alarming curtness, Bill seemed to be calm and easygoing. The house was a wooden ladder of a place; stacked with his worldly possessions and Scandinavian accouterments. It was easy to conclude that he was a single man that kept to himself and I did my best to show him that I fit into the same category. Although, it seemed as though he had already decided that I was moving in. He referred to everything as his, mine or ours and led me through the rest of the house like both our minds were already made up. "Here's the room. It's right next to mine. You have an en-suite bathroom. Toilet kind of acts up once in a while and the shower drain is prone to clogging but it's all easy fixes. Oh... And the walls are kind of thin. I ask that if you have guests over in the evening to keep the socializing downstairs. I suppose I can't really stop you from having people in your room but... I do enjoy my quiet." "That's okay. I don't really hang out with too many people," I said. Bill strolled into the center of the empty room, the soles of his shoes hitting the floor echoed off the bright white walls. He had his hands shoved into the pockets of his trousers as he spun on a heel to face me. His shoulders drew up to his ears and for the first time, he cracked a smile. It didn't last long and was accompanied by a shrug of closure. "What do you think?" He asked. "It's nice. I like it. A lot. It's very... Homey." Bill nodded, "yes. So will you take it?" "Uh... You don't have any questions for me? Or anyone else to show the place to?" His full lips set into another grimace as though my question scratched the scab off of a wound that had yet to close. Swallowing hard, I immediately began to regret my inquiry. I should have just been grateful that he saw fit to trust me without so much as delving into my history. "To be frank, I'm not really interested in knowing a lot about you. The less we know about each other, the better. I just need a quiet tenant that won't bother me much and you seem like a sensible woman with your own distractions." "Oh." "I don't mean to sound insensitive." "It's okay. I get it." "You have a job, of course?" "Yes." "Well, that's all I need to know. Just make your rent payments on time and we'll get along." "Not a problem. Sounds good." The entire moving process took a little over a month to complete. I gave my notices where they were due, rented a small truck to pack my things into and drove it across town after handing the keys to the fuck-bag landlord who seemed more than thrilled to watch me departing. Bill had already given me keys to the house and when I arrived the first of the month he was nowhere to be found. Luckily, my possessions didn't extend further than my bed, wardrobe, futon and a couple of side tables that had collected more dust than I thought. After hauling up the ripping black trash bags I had stuffed full of clothes, I tried to decipher a way to get my bed up the winding stairs without scratching the wood or getting myself stuck in a corner. It would have been easier if I had another set of hands and I wanted to clear the halls of all my things before Bill came home and saw the clutter in the front hall. Something told me he was not a fan of mess and I had left a heaving trail all over the mudroom, halls and stairs. With my bed frame already stuck on the first few steps, I decided to sit down and reevaluate my strategy. It was definitely a two-person job that I would not be able to complete on my own. "Fuck, " I cursed as I pulled out my cell phone to make a call to the only person I knew that would be willing to give me a hand; my cousin. On the third ring, I heard the sound of the door opening and footsteps coming through. I was sat on the stairs pouting, my cell clutched to my ear and my breath hitched in my throat.  Bill looked up at me from the first-floor landing through the rails of the staircase and smirked at me. "Need some help?" He asked. I immediately terminated the call to my cousin before he could pick up. Shooting up from the fifth step up, I smoothed out the front of my shirt and tried to make it seem like I wasn't about to burst into tears of frustration. "Um, yes. Sorry. I thought I could do it by myself." "No worries," Bill said as he lifted the edge of the bed frame that was hanging off the first step. We dislodged the frame and slowly carried it upstairs but not without a few grunts of effort and sighs when we finally made it to the top floor. Bill's arms were bulging with the strain and when he helped me gently lay the frame down on the floor I couldn't help but stare at the muscles I never knew he had. We had only had a handful of encounters and each time he had been wearing baggy clothes that veiled the true form of his body. Bill helped me bring everything else I had upstairs and once the last of my belongings arrived he evaluated the mess that I would have to organize myself. Half my clothes were spilling out of bags and my furniture was yet to find a proper place. "Well, I'll leave you to it. Unless you have anything else?" "No. This is it. Thanks for your help." "No problem," he nodded with a small pointed smile that brought out a sweetness in his face before exiting the room. I heard the sounds of his footsteps drumming down the stairs but before I had the chance to get to work unpacking, Bill came back. When I looked up at him he had a peculiar look on his face that I couldn't read. It may have been a cross between uncertainty and embarrassment. "You um... These were on the stairs," he showed me what he had clutched in his hand and the moment I realized that the black material in his hand was a pair of my underwear, I paled. "Oh my god," I laughed uneasily. "I'm so sorry. They must have fallen out when I was dragging the bags up the steps. My panties looked crumpled and insignificant in his large hand as he dangled them between two fingers for me to grab. When I caught them I stuffed them in my pocket immediately and blushed even harder than I had when he had come home to see me flustered on the stairs. "It's all right. Could be worse things to find," he pointed out. "I guess so," I chuckled. Bill smirked at me, eyes darting to the pocket that contained the stray panties and gave me one last glance before leaving me to stew in my mortification. Once I was certain Bill was gone, I took the panties out to evaluate just how embarrassed I should have been. The last thing I needed was for my new roommate to have already discovered a pair of my dirty underwear on the floor. They were generic and made of stretchy faux lace that covered next to no ass cheek but I would have considered them to be a good go-to pair nonetheless. Based on visual inspection and a quick sniff, I was assured that everything checked out and Bill hadn't had the displeasure of picking up a pair of my period panties with the permanent stains in the crotch. If anyone had to have found a pair of my underwear I was glad it was a sexy pair and not ones that I had been hanging onto since high school. But because it was a man that had found them, I felt a strange yearning for approval. I thought about what he could have been thinking about for a long time as I set up my bed and unpacked my necessities. It was going to be weird having a roommate.
~*~
Bill was a strange man. Bill had an office in his room and a writing desk stacked with papers and manuscripts. Bill was a writer. When I asked him if I could read something he had written he said nothing. He only peered at me warily over his wire-framed glasses. We were in the kitchen at the same time and I figured it friendly to strike up a conversation. I had seen all of his papers and looked at all of the stuff he had in the house by then and deduced that he had to have been a writer. All I got from him was a gentle shrug of his stately shoulders and a mumble that I couldn't hear. "You're a writer, aren't you?" I continued. "Yes. I suppose, in a way I am." "Ever had anything published?" Bill rapidly shook his head and muttered, "not here, no. Back home... In university. But not here." The subject of him being a writer seemed touchy so I left my line of questioning at that while I boiled water to make tea. I couldn't help but watch him on the other side of the kitchen preparing his lunch because he was comically lanky yet carried himself with graciousness and poise. His side profile was vexing to me as well. It was then that I realized that Bill was not just commonly handsome, but sculpted in a way that I wasn't used to seeing. With a cute boyish nose and arrestive eyes that shone light green through the lenses of his glasses, I felt that old familiar pang of a crush plunging its way from my chest to my gut and all the way down to my groin. He didn't speak much and I hardly ever saw him because he was always in his room with the door shut. I had a feeling that me bringing up his writing had alarmed him into keeping the door closed at all times. It must have been an adjustment for him to go from living alone to having somebody sleeping in the room right next to him. I tried not to make much of the crush but the times that I did see Bill I always tried to stare for as long as possible. He was a mystery to me; a person living in the very same quarters but with a totally separate life that I had no windows into. Bill had pictures of him and a lot of other people that looked kind of like him so I tried to piece together what his family was like without asking him personally. The family photos were all in chunky brass frames and placed in a strategically sporadic way on the wall shelf. There were many books and three different runs of encyclopedic information stacked side by side with their brightly dyed leather spines displaying a prestigious title and the volume number, but it was the pictures that intrigued me most. By the looks of it, Bill had a lot of brothers and a sister. The longer I analyzed each shelf the more I managed to paint a picture of him for myself based on his belongings. There was a photo of Bill next to some other men of similar heights and facial structures, all dressed warmly and huddled together, each with his own version of a charming smile on. It was amusing to see pictures of him smiling since he had hardly tossed more than a crooked smirk my way. I wasn't sure if Bill was standoffish or if he thought me a slob because of the first day I arrived. The house was cleaner than any place I had ever had by myself and I gathered that he liked to keep it that way. I remembered what it had said in his ad about cleanliness. Maybe I had disgusted him. He had been so sold on having me as his roommate but that was weeks ago and he hadn't tried to engage me much since. It didn't weigh heavily on my mind for long. After all, even though I was the crusty definition of a bachelorette, I could put it together that trying to fuck my roommate that I didn't know was probably a surefire way to complicate things beyond repair. And the place was nice. I wanted to stay and I wanted Bill to like me.
~*~
I walked into his room when I knew for certain that he was gone. I don't know why the sudden urge overtook me and steered me to his bedroom door. I opened it and a waft of his scent came over me. It was like fresh cotton and chopped wood or an old book that had been kept in pristine condition. His writing desk beckoned me so I went without hesitation to cast my eyes over the papers on its surface. There were some printed pages full of words with hand-written notes scribbled in the margins. One of the most eye-catching pieces was a mostly blank white page that had been the last of the bunch to be placed upon the altar of his creative expositions.
I can't get enough of the scent that she left behind.
After reading that one line, I snapped out of my mindless intrusion and left his bedroom at once. Why I had gone in there in the first place was a mystery and I was overcome with guilt that pushed me in the direction of avoidance. I felt somehow he would know that I had gone into his room without permission.
~*~
A man from work had asked me out on a date and I stood in the shower vigorously washing the shampoo out of my hair. I was already late and had to scramble to put together an outfit out of what little clean clothing I had. There had been no time for me to do any laundry so I made do with an old sundress that I had worn the shit out of the Summer before, a pair of black nylon leggings with a hole in the crotch and the only pair of underwear that I could find that wasn't stretched out from me wearing them. I had laid out everything on my bed and bustled around trying to find my good face moisturizer and the only high-end lipstick that I had been coveting for the better part of two years. When I got dressed, I had somehow lost pieces of my attire along the way and rushed around looking for the underwear that I had dubbed acceptable to wear out on a date. My phone went off with a notification from my date saying that he was circling around the block again because he couldn't find a place to park. I quickly messaged him back and told him I would be down in five short minutes. Forgoing the panties, I hiked on my nylons and hoped that the skirt of my dress would manage to cover me enough all night that I didn't accidentally flash my pussy while getting in and out of his car. The date was boring and I didn't find myself connecting with him as we had at work. Maybe it was because we were co-workers or maybe it was because he was smiling too much at me the whole time, but I decided to put an end to the night after a dessert and the last of a bottle of cheap wine. When I got home, I shut the door and pulled my vibrator out of my empty underwear drawer.
~*~
In the morning on one of my days off, I stood in the kitchen making myself a pathetic breakfast of two pieces of toast with a slice of tomato and chunks of a too-ripe avocado splattered between them. First I was focused and calm and then suddenly I felt like something had materialized behind me. When I turned around, I let out a gasp as I noticed Bill standing next to me with no shirt on, his hair a mess and his eyes half-closed. "Sorry," he breathed through his nose. "Need a glass, please." I got out of his way and watched as he opened the cupboard that I had been standing in front of and took out a clean glass to pour water into. My eyes were drawn to the burgeoning of hair from his armpits when he reached to the top shelf. Without saying a word, he filled his glass from the tap and then walked back upstairs casually sipping his water. I don't know how he had managed to sneak up on me without me hearing the floorboards protesting beneath his feet but it had happened and my heart continued to race until I heard him enter his bedroom right above the kitchen.
~*~
I had tossed my laundry into the dryer and let it run while I left for work. When I got home my laundry was all folded and put back in my basket. My jeans and work pants were on the bottom, my shirts the second tier and then several pairs of my panties had been folded neatly in halves and placed on top. "Um... Okay," I whispered to myself, lifting the basket off the dryer that was still rumbling full of Bill's laundry.
~*~
A nap was on the immediate horizon for me when I got home from work. I kicked my shoes off as soon as I got in the door and made right for my bedroom. Bill must not have heard me climbing the stairs as I hadn't heard him come up behind me the week before because his door was open and what I saw halted me in my place and robbed me of the abilities to breath or think. There he was, laying on his bed naked with his right hand wrapped around his dick. But it wasn't that he was stroking himself that caught me completely off-guard, it was what he clutched to his nose and mouth with his other hand; the pair of my panties that he had discovered on the floor all those weeks ago when I first moved in. Rooted with panic and intrigue, I covered my mouth and watched on from the third-to-last step at the man taking deep breaths of my underwear while he pulled on his cock and massaged his balls. When I heard a faint groan leave his mouth I felt my floodgates crashing open. The tingle I felt budding from my clit grew so strong that my hands went numb and my face turned red-hot. There was no way that Bill hadn't heard me coming in the door and ascending the steps. But if he knew that I was there watching him play with himself, he didn't acknowledge it. He was in his own world of pleasure, getting high off the fumes that I had infused into the fabric of the underwear he was meddling with his fingers. I wanted to watch him shoot his cum from the tip of his cock but I was so scared that he would see me that I cowered back so that if his gaze did travel beyond the walls of his bedroom, perhaps he wouldn't catch me staring. Another long, deep moan left him and the sound of it somehow filled every sense I had. It was as though I could smell what he was smelling, feel how he was feeling and the taste left behind in my mouth was wetted with saliva being over-produced by my own sexual appetite. I pictured him kissing my clit, pushing my legs back and using his tongue to bore into me, letting it run down, down, down so he could taste every inch of me. A gasp nearly escaped me when I saw him push the crotch of my stolen panties into his mouth. His head dropped back into his pillows and his slow, languid strokes of his cock turned erratic. "Fuck!" He emitted after spitting the panties out and dragging them down his body to wrap around the base of his shaft. "Fuck, fuck, fuck... Mmm, my god." After a minute of every muscle in his body flexing, it looked like he was inches away from coming and I leaned forward with my hand out on the last step to balance myself so I could watch the end result. It took a bit longer than I expected but I watched on unblinkingly until he finally managed to pump out an orgasm that ripped through his body and exited him in a glorious spurt of cum. Then there was another spurt and another, all landing in a perfect sticky mess over his stomach and chest. The sun coming in through his window glittered over his spackled body while a dryness hardened my tongue. I gawked as he moved to mop up his own mess with my black lace panties. What he was going to do next was as much a mystery to me as the last ten minutes I had spent as a voyeur. His cock laid over the top of his thigh and shrunk with each passing second while he rolled my panties up into a ball with his fist. All of his muscles relaxed and he sank further into the bed, closed his eyes all the while my stolen cum-soaked panties remained clutched to his chest like a cross. I could almost smell the musk permeating from the open door. Slowly, I descended the stairs one by painstaking one.
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fictober - day twenty-eight
Prompt #28: âEnough! Iâve heard enough.â
Fandom: BBCâs Doctor Who (NuWho)
Rating: PG
Characters: The Twelfth Doctor & Missy
Words: 1972
Authorâs Note: set in the vague vicinity of s10, but before Bill is a main fixture in the Doctorâs life.
>>Right Enough
Missyâs been lying indisposed on her blue suede couch for one hundred and twenty-nine thousand, six hundred and seventeen seconds when the Doctor finally decides to grace her with his presence. Normally, she doesnât mind his absenceâher couch is deliciously extravagant, after all.
Normally, however, the Doctor doesnât wait an entire month between visits.
âWhereâve you been,â she asks, feet still propped up on the arm of the loveseat and eyes pointedly closed.
He putters about in the background, probably checking to make sure she hasnât gotten into any mischief (why he bothers, sheâll never knowâitâs not like there are any alive things in here. If she really wanted trouble, sheâd just walk out of this laughably secure vault of his, kill a city or so of humans, and be back before tea).
âWhy?â HIs voice echoes from across the room. âJealous?â
âNo.â
She probably said that too quickly, but he doesnât call her out on it.
âOh good; we wouldnât want that,â he says, instead. âCome make yourself useful and help me move this furniture out of the way.â
Missy pries her eyes open and rises from her reclined position, as languidly as possible to make up for her earlier transgression. âHave we decided dining tables are a symbol of oppression now, too?â
The Doctor doesnât take the bait, which is a tragedy because Missy had an entire monologue at the ready if he had. She drops her heels to the ground and stretches, spine cracking in response, and then takes out a contact mirror to inspect her hair. Itâs a perfect disaster: loose ends flying every which way, fuzz clinging to the hairs along her scalp, and a tangled mess near the top. In all, itâs exactly the way she likes it.
She pokes randomly at a few curls anyway, mostly as a delay tactic to annoy the Doctor. Also, because if it looks like sheâs looking at herself, it wonât look like sheâs looking at him. She would never be caught doing something as caring as that.
The Doctorâs currently up on the platform in the middle of the room, hoisting chairs off of it with the kind of manic energy Missyâs only ever seen in three-year-olds (and, perhaps, herself). Something about the emotion seems wrong this time, thoughâa bit frayed around the edges, a weariness and desperation in his eyes.
She snaps the contact shut and strolls over to the dais. âYou look tired.â
Sheâs made sure to infuse her words with as much derision as she can manage, but the Doctor grins anyway.
âYou know, I once brought down an entire administration with that line.â He scurries behind the oak table and grabs hold, gesturing for Missy to do the same on the opposite side. âWell, sort of. In essence. Technically the full thing was âdonât you think she looks tired,â but the sentiment was there.â
âManipulating political structures for your own ends, were you?â Missy grabs hold of the lip of the table despite herself, and they start to carry it off to the side of the room. âIf I didnât know better, Iâd think you were trying to flirt with me.â
âYou would be so lucky.â They set the table down, missing the Doctorâs toes by inches, to Missyâs disappointment.
He grins that maddening grin of his again. âCome. Iâve brought you a present.â
He all but leaps back up onto the now empty platform, nearly losing his balance in the process in what Missyâs fairly certain is evidence of a limp. She eyes him suspiciously.
âYouâre deflecting.â
âI know, and Iâm doing it wonderfully.â He pulls a small blue box out of his coat pocket. âHere. This is for you.â
Missy eyes him with even more suspicion. She canât imagine liking something thatâs making the Doctor this pleased, but despite her better judgment she steps over to him, accepting the proffered box.
âI hope you know if thatâs not a key to that door of yours, or at least someoneâs severed head, Iâm going to be incredibly disappointed.â
âWell. We wouldnât want that.â The Doctor slides his hands into his tattered coat. âYou might want to stand back when you open it. Bigger on the inside, you see.â
Missy starts, wondering what could possibly be so important that the Doctor would risk giving her access to dimension collapsing technology, even if he was planning on taking it right back. She pulls at the silver ribbon holding the box together, and, once freed, lifts the lid.
âTurn it over,â the Doctor says.
âReally, Doctor.â Missy starts tipping the box over. âIf you wanted me at your mercy we couldâve arranged something moreâdear Gallifrey!â
Three polished, glossy-finished black legs and a pedal rack slide out of the rim of the box, and after it the large wooden frame theyâre attached to. Before Missy can fully catalogue whatâs happening, an entire grand piano has fallen out and landed with surprising softness on the floor.
Missy stares at the instrument with something between anger and allurement, and runs her hand along the open lid. âWhy have you brought me this?â
The Doctor shrugs, wincing a bit at the movement. âI canât just bring gifts for an old friend?â
Missy catches his pained expression and in a fit of rage, heaves the pianoâs lid off its post and then slams it down to cover the strings. âNo, no, you most certainly can not. Not when youâve been who knows where for who knows how long and then saunter back in here withâwith this.â
âIs that concern I detect?â
âDonât change the subject,â she snaps, fingers drumming on the pianoâs surface. âMy only concern is that youâre jeopardizing the deal thatâs keeping me alive.â
The Doctor holds her gaze for an uncomfortably long time, perhaps searching for that thing he keeps calling âhope.â She glares back with just as much fervor, because sheâs not about to give him any of that tonight. Not when heâs just spoiled her favourite dining spot for something so paltry as an apology.
Eventually, the Doctor just sighs. âSomeone needed help, Missy. Thatâs all.â
âMust have been an awful lot of someones if itâs left you this desperate,â Missy scoffs, and sheâs pleased at how mean that is. âI mean, a piano? Really?â
âA piano,â he agrees, picking the empty box up off the floor and tucking it back into his pocket. âI thought perhaps you would enjoy a more constructive outlet for your⌠creative tendencies, shall we say.â
Something snaps, and she finds herself climbing over the piano so she can get into his space.
âYou canât lie, Doctor,â she says. âNot to me. This is just your overblown way of trying to convince yourself you didnât break your stupid oath by leaving me.â
âWhat was I supposed to do?â To her delight, something of that pain she knows all too well breaks through his eyes. âJust let them to die?â
âFor Rassilonâs sake, Doctor! I donât know how you havenât noticed this yet, but someoneâs always dying!â
The Doctor pales and takes a step back. âThat doesnât mean we shouldnât at least try toââ
âWould you like us to look up whoever it is you saved?â Missy cocks her head, then glides off the dais towards her couch. âWe can do it so easily, you know. Any database in the universe, and weâll find their cause of death instantaneously. Thatâs what they are, Doctor. Pre-packaged, instantaneous death.â
âMissyââ
âAre you really that thick?â She doesnât understand how a being that smart can be that willfully naĂŻve. âNo matter what you do, nobody lives in the end. I donât know what itâs going to take for you to realize youâve done enough for those silly, ungrateful, walking meat sacks you call friends.â
âEnough?â
Missy freezes mid-tirade and glances up at him, baffled by why out of all the words sheâd said to them, heâd chosen that one to fixate on. She swallows, suddenly unsure of herself even though sheâs not quite sure why. âIâve heard enough from you. Yes.â
The Doctor comes down the steps, wearily: one slow assent to gravity at a time.
âEnough,â he repeats, shaking his head. âYou donât think Iâve heard enough, too? After all these years of travelling, these⌠these faces, these bodies. Scars.â
âI like this game where you make all my points for me. Makes things so much simpler than our usual give and take.â
âYou donât understand,â the Doctor says, and itâs said so sadly and kindly and so unlike anything Missy would ever say. âThatâs all right. I wouldnât expect you to. Not yet.â
âThen make me.â
Sheâs spoken too quickly again, and this time the Doctor picks up on it. He looks at her with an expression she doesnât recognize, and eases himself down into the chair across from her.
âI know Iâve done enough, Missy,â he says eventually. âHow could I not? Iâve heard enough, Iâve seen enough, Iâve felt enough. Lost enough, even. More than enough enoughs for any one person.â
He clasps his hands in front of him and stares at his gnarled fingers. âYou see, what you donât understand is that itâs not about how much Iâve done, or havenât done. Itâs not even about atonement. Itâs about how much thereâs still left to do.â
Missy shifts on the couch. âHas anyone ever told you there are other people in the universe that could do these things instead?â
He chuckles under his breath, and itâs without mirth, but not without life. âDo you see that instrument up there?â
âYouâve not left me with many other options,â Missy says, and sheâs not sure that he isnât just changing the subject again, but she follows his gaze.
She doesnât know much about human designâwhy would she?âbut it doesnât take an expert to know time was spent in the pianoâs craft. The soundboard is a mixture of mahogany and rock maple, the white keys are cast in their original ivory, and the black cut from ebony wood. The strings are steel in the treble and copper in the base, and each hammer is delicately covered in red felt.
Itâs beautiful.
âMusic,â he says quietly, âis not something that needed to exist. A piano, even more soâwhat with its complicated strings, and its hammers, and its pedals, and all its nonsense. It couldnât even have the decency to decide what kind of instrument it wanted to be.â
âBut these humansâŚâ He smiles. âThey canât help themselves. There was something in them that told them it was important, even though it wouldnât feed them, or clothe them, or shelter them. It wouldnât give them anything they needed. But they knew they had to do it, anyway.â
He stands and straightens his coat, and starts making his way towards the door. âThatâs what itâs like, Missy. When you do something to help others, even though you get nothing in return, because deep down, you know itâs right. Thatâs allâjust right.â
Missy regards him for a long moment, then shakes her head. âYou are the strangest man Iâve ever known.â
The Doctor laughs. âAnd yet, you know me.â
She waves her hand dismissively over the edge of the couch, and he disengages the lock with his screwdriverâthen heâs back in the world and out of hers. She sighs. Heâll be back eventually, with more of his strange ideas, she supposes. But for now, she is alone.
Missy stares at the ceiling and resumes her counting, and itâs peaceful, and familiar, and safe.
She reaches second two thousand, seven hundred and thirty-six before she trades off running her fingers across suede to cautiously tracing the ivory keys. Sheâs never played the piano before, or really any instrument. Missy thinks sheâll be able to learn, though.
It feels right.
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Yandere!Purge!Izaya Orihara
(Kinda thrown together? I pieced this mess together based on the ending of the blurb. I hope youâre okay with that! I decided if I was gonna sit around doing nothing because of my wrists I might as well try to write! After all, âtis but a scratch! I also apologize if the tags are sparse. Theyâre kinda limited and I donât know if I can make some of my own and I donât really know how tumblr works so Iâm sorry! I know that I already placed an ask too but I accidentally clicked on this instead of archive and wanted to try it out! Oh, and I think this is gender neutral. I guess I was going for a female reader but I donât think I used any gendered pronouns towards the reader! Just in case I did though Iâm not gonna label it as gender neutral. Iâm sorry from rambling I just donât wanna offend anyone and this is how it always turns out! - Existential Bean)
     "Happy hunting, Y/N. Iâll be waiting for you, my love.â
  A chill ran down your spine. That couldnât be him⌠right? If it was, you needed to run, fast. He was already too close as is. You couldnât afford to be caught.
  Running down the street at a brisk pace, unable to mask your anxiety as you nearly ran to your apartment. You wouldnât completely run so as to not attract any attention, though it was risky, especially with the fact he could be anywhere, though likely near you. There had to be a few things there you could pick up, and maybe a few would help. It would be the first place any yandere would look, though, so you had to hurry.
  You had your phone, a few knives, a set of clothes, and a gun from your standard purge kit given to all the unfortunate souls with a yandere. You didnât want to actually kill anyone though, yandere or not.
  Reaching your small but relatively decent apartment, you climbed several stairs before reaching the evergreen door you needed. Maybe this was a bad idea. It wasnât exactly the safest place, so you couldnât exactly hide out here.
  Opening the door, you entered the entry hall, passing multiple doors, the kitchen entry being the last, closest to the dining room at the end of the hall. There was a homely coppery wooden dining table and matching chairs, with black legs and backing in the small but cozy dining room, being the first and only thing you would see, as you had everything laid out in advance. The pepper spray, flashlight, and small stun gun in the guise of a small cell phone, had all been left on the table, as you were only allowed to bring your phone and keys to the purge announcement.
  There was occasionally a different punishment for not following purge rules every year, but usually with was being locked in a room with the yandere, with purge immunity included. Generally, it was never a good idea to ignore the rules, as it always backfired, even for the yanderes.
  The people who set this up considered this a game. The time it took for the darlings to go back to their home for anything else, if they chose to, would be used to help the yandere track their love. Thatâs why the ones chosen by the yanderes were only allowed to bring their phone and keys.
  Deciding that this had been more than enough time spent and you should most certainly leave, you turned around, only to find someone leaning in the doorway. They were turned away, so you couldnât see anything more than the back of their fur-lined jacket, but it didnât take much to hedge a guess.
  "Iâm glad to have found you here, as predictable as it is! Of course you would come back, you even laid everything out for your return! I would expect nothing less from my Y/N, though,â a hint of pride seeping into his tone.
  You recognized that slightly smug voice. It was the announcer, and your yandere.
  Your apartment was small. All you had was a small balcony to the fire escape in your kitchen, but youâd need to get closer to him.Â
  "Playing the quiet game now, are we? I expected more. Youâre not so much different from the rest of the humans after all.
  âYouâve disappointed me.â
  Suddenly, he turned around, and started walking calmly in your direction, a mildly annoyed expression on his face. You could see his admittedly handsome features- dark hair, brown eyes and a sharp jaw, set in determination.
  You wouldnât stay long enough to admire them.
  Darting in the direction of the kitchen, you slammed the door open and shut behind you, before darting over to the small balcony connected to the fire escape, making sure you shut that door behind you as well. Leaping over the rail, you heard the entrance behind you slam open and footsteps angrily march to the fire escape.
  "Oh, Y/N, you making this hard on both of us. Youâll have to be punished twice for that. It was a smart move, Iâll admit, but Iâve already considered this.â
  By now, you were already a few levels below him, but you werenât necessarily athletic, and you were running out of stamina fast. You could hear him catching up.
  Fortunately, you had by now made it to the ground, and was making a run for it out of the alleyway.
  You were yanked back. You had been caught.
  "It was pointless, you see now? I suppose itâs good for you Iâm rather bored, and Shizu-chan hasnât been any fun lately. I blame you for that.â
  And, as suddenly as you were grabbed, he let you go.
  "Oh, and donât take this as me letting you go! Iâll have you by the end of the day, Iâll just give you one more chance to make yourself different from the rest of the humans. Just make sure to be more talkative next time!â
 Booking it out of the alleyway just in case, you looked back and didnât see him again. By now, it was 12:00 P.M. and you knew you were most likely going to be taken. It started at 8:00 A.M. and if he already found you, then there was virtually no hope.
  But you had to try.
  You could run to another city, but even then there was a chance he could follow. Maybe the best option was just to roam for a while, sticking to the crowds and staying alert.
  For now though, you needed to find somewhere to eat. Something fast.
  Deciding that Russia Sushi would be the best place for now, you walked hastily, constantly looking over your shoulder. Several times you couldâve sworn you saw that jacket again, but it had to just be you. It had to be.
  Finally arriving in front of the restaurant, greeting Simon on your way in. Everyone who had lived here for a while knew him.
 "Ah, Y/N! Good to see you! Purge bad, sushi good! Come have sushi!â
  Nodding to him, a slight smile on your lips, you responded, âI think I will. I hope you have a good day yourself, Simon.â
  Opening the door and immediately walking to a table, you quickly figured out what you wanted and ordered it as quickly as possible. There was no fire escape this time, he could easily corner you and nobody could do anything, not even Simon.
  Practically inhaling your food, you looked up halfway through your meal and actually saw the jacket this time. He sauntered into a booth just behind you, but not before sending you a smirk, taunting you.
  Eating even faster now, it wasnât too long before you finished everything, paid, and literally ran out this time.
  You didnât know what else to do. By now, it was only 12:23 P.M. and it seemed the likelihood of surviving was next to none.Â
  Maybe the best option was stick to crowds, get no attention, and run if necessary.
  For the next few hours, you had simply wandered. It was fortunately 3:56 P.M now. You hadnât seen him again, not even his jacket, and you were starting to think you had lost him. You had even seen other unfortunate people being dragged off by their respective yanderes.
  Finally deciding it was safe enough to take a break for a few minutes, you found a bench, sat down and rested your feet.
  "I donât think you realize just how much trouble youâve been,â a voice breathed in your ear, before snatching your wrist and hauling you off to the nearest alleyway.
  You sent a pleading gaze to the people around you, but they simply averted their eyes and kept going. If anything, they helped by getting out of his way, knowing exactly what was happening.
  "Let go of me! Donât touch me!â
  Finally deep enough in the alleyway nobody would hear or see you, he turned around and said in a smug voice, âOh? so you finally decide to say something? It was about time. You had started to bore me.â
  You had tried to yank his hand from his grip, but despite his lean frame, he was rather strong.
  "What is wrong with you? I donât even know you! Why canât you leave me alone?â
  He shook his head, almost as if disappointed.Â
  "Oh, but you do know me. Donât you remember? You had stood up for me against a group of thugs. Not that I needed your help, but silly little you didnât know that, now did you?â
  That was⌠him?
  "Oh, youâre so forgetful! Iâll just have to make sure youâll never forget me again.â
  He tugged on your wrist and pulled you closer to him, wrapping an arm around your waist and staring sultrily into your eyes.
  "Iâve been watching you this entire time, you know. Youâre a bit of a hypocrite! You stare pitifully at the others being taken, but you make no attempt to help them, yet you almost expect yourself to be helped. I suppose itâs just one of the many things I love about youâŚâ
  He started to lean down, trying to force a kiss.. You squirmed and squirmed but to no avail.
  "Fuck you,â you said, headbutting him on the forehead.
  He groaned and turned away, holding his head. Unfortunately, he didnât let go of your wrist. If anything, he tightened his grip on it.
  "Iâm done playing with you, Y/N. Weâll just have to sort this out when we get home. Youâll regret being so disobedient. Itâs almost as if youâre asking for some fun.â
 âIZAYA! WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING NOW?â a loud and obviously very angry voice interrupted.
  The man now dubbed as Izaya looked back, still holding his forehead, and glared at you.
  "Look what youâve done.â
  Just then, a blond haired man in a bartenderâs suit turned the corner behind him and charged full force, wielding a street sign.
  Just before the man reached the two of you, Izaya scooped you up and darted down the allyway and into the street, still being pursued by the blond.
  "Come on, Shizu-chan! Canât you leave me alone? All I want for now is to take my Y/N home!â he taunted, obviously wanting him to follow.
  "You psychopath!â
Izaya only hummed in response. He weaved through the alleys, over rooftops and through streets, and you didnât dare let go, not wanted to be potentially killed by the blond behind, though halfway through you decided potential injury was better than being stuck with him all your life.Â
  Unfortunately, blondie seemed to be lagging behind, if his distant roars of anger and frustration were anything to go by. Izaya wouldnât be distracted at all soon.
  Soon enough, you couldnât hear him at all anymore, and your struggles increased tenfold.
  "Ah, donât worry, Y/N. Weâre here already!â
  He abruptly set you down and grabbed your wrist, dragging you along behind him.
  "No, please! Let me go! I donât want to-â
  "No. Youâre mine now. Youâve been disobedient enough. I need to put you in your place, and you will let me!â he rudely interrupted, far past his breaking point.
  There wasnât any point now. You were his.
  He dragged you into the elevator, yanking you around and slamming you into the wall, pressing his body against yours.
  You couldâve sworn you felt⌠something⌠pressing against you down there.
  "What will I do with you?â
  There was no sign-wielding man to save you now. He firmly pressed his lips against yours in a needy, desperate kiss, keeping your body pinned between him and the edge of the elevator.
  All you could do was squirm and whimper in the kiss, while he greedily stole your breath and forced his tongue in your mouth.
  Ding.
  The elevator saved you this time.
  He reluctantly pulled away, taking your wrist again and dragging you to his penthouse.
  He didnât waste a second in bringing you to a bedroom, slamming the door and releasing your wrist.
  You immediately backed up, facing him.
  He slowly turned around, excitement and⌠lust gleaming in those brown eyes of his.
 He slowly, purposefully walked towards you, keeping you pinned with that look of his.
  Suddenly darting forward, he snatched your wrist and pulled the two of you on the bed, twisting so he was on top, pinning you down and ensuring you canât get away from him.
  That something you felt earlier? You definitely werenât imagining it.
  Hooking his fingers in your pants, he announced, "Itâs time for your punishment.â
(He might be a little ooc though because itâs been a while since I watched DRRR!! but I think I still have him down decently. The only thing I donât really like about this is Shizu-chan, I feel like itâs kinda cheap and I donât like it but I donât remember his nickname from the dubbed version if he even had one. Oh, and this may not be important, but Namie wasnât there because she was chasing her beloved Seiji. A tad gross tho cuz sheâs his sister :\)
*looks at the fortunately-still-brother/sister relationship between Namie and Seiji*
*banjo music plays in background*
(oh and I want you guys to know this is 6.9 pages lmao)
((BEAN I LOVE THIS!! YOU DID SUCH AN AMAZING JOB!)))
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FanExpo Canada Interview: Actor and Host Bruce Campbell for Ripleyâs Believe It or Not.
Hereâs an interview that mostly covers Ripleyâs Believe it or Not!
If youâve ever watched a cop show, seen someone fight a Deadite, or stayed up late enough to watch offbeat flicks on basic cable, youâve probably seen Bruce Campbell. Campbell has a long history on screen, starting with his breakout performance in The Evil Dead, a small film he made with his buddy, Sam Raimi, that went on to spawn sequels, spin-offs, comics, games, and a series. Â Though horror fans most recognize him as Ashley âAshâ Williams from that franchise, Bruce has had a robust career. With the âface of a soap opera starâ, he went on to star in shows like Ellen, Xena, and Burn Notice. Â Now an actor and an author, heâs added âhost,â to his hyphens, having hosted the touring live show Last Fan Standing and now, Ripleyâs Believe It or Not.
The first season of this new show hit the Travel Channel this year, and so Bruce sat down with some of us at FanExpo Canada to discuss the show and his illustrious career. Â The show is different from the Ripleyâs of the past, focusing on the strength and perseverance of different people, what theyâre able to overcome in the face of adversity. Â The warmer side of the horror icon was fully on display as we pulled up some chairs to chat.
Youâve shot a few episodes now. Will you be back for any more?
Bruce Campbell: You need to call the Travel Channel and work that out. We donât know yet. I think they havenât decided because it hasnât even opened in Canada yet. So, I donât think you make those decisions until you figure out how itâs going to play everywhere.
And how did you get these hosting gigs? Thereâs obviously not something that youâd usually do.
Bruce Campbell: No, but other people get ideas and they pitch them out. And this one I thought was pretty good to do because it was a very reputable company thatâs been around for 100 years now, which is rare, especially in America. Â Companies donât last that long. They last 20 years. They think, âWow, Amazon, 20 years.â
This is FanExpoâs 25th year.
Bruce Campbell: That is impressive though. Thatâs a quarter-century but you know Ripleyâs is kicking your ass too. So thatâs why I thought it was worth exploring. I followed Ripleyâs. I read the books and watch the TV shows and I knew exactly what was going on.
[The Ripleyâs exhibit], obviously, they have this section, which is the props and movies and the film. Is there something for one of your movies that you would love to see in the Ripleyâs exhibit one day?
Bruce Campbell: Yes. Yeah, they should have some stuff in Ripleyâs, but Ripleyâs is kind of, unless itâs amazing, they wonât have it. Thatâs the thing. They donât just play it [as this] history game. Itâs got to be amazing. It has to be a strange animal, a strange device, something unique thatâs never been done before. So yeah, thatâs what makes their collection cool.
Will you be revisiting any of the [Ripleyâs stories] that were previously covered? Or like kind of a look back?
Bruce Campbell: Â I think over time, theyâll have to do everything to choke the airwaves of material. You know, if you get three, four seasons into something, you have to get clever. But the thing that this first season showed me is how many stories there actually are. We did sixty stories. This for the first season alone. So, can you imagine over three, four years? Thatâs a lot of stories. Which shows you itâs a big world out there, and thereâs a lot of crazy stuff going on. I feel like weâre playing catch up.
Any examples you can give us from those sixty?
Bruce Campbell: No, no, because itâsâŚI canât.  Itâs silly to single anything out.  But they are amazing. The show is higher quality than I had hoped for. You never know when you get involved in something, is it going to be something they slapped together? Or do they care about it? So, as an executive producer, it was important to, I thought on my part, to work on the tone so we treat these people with respect. Because not one of them are normal. Normal as in our traditional normal. But thatâs whatâs cool about the show.
And do we get to see you kind of going out and about on location?
Bruce Campbell: No, Iâm a studio guy. Â I tied all together. The crew goes out in films, the folks. Â They filmed themselves a lot. Weâre using their footage at the time. Everyone has a camera like you, weâre all running around filming their exploits. Â We found some of these people on YouTube. You know, they have their own channel. Itâs easier nowadays to find them than it was 10 years ago. Type in âweird shit,â and stuff comes up.
Would you ever like to travel in the future with the show?
Bruce Campbell: I travel enough. I, you know, last three years, I think it was thirty-five cities or forty cities. Â Iâm only twenty-five cities this year. Iâve got off easy this year.
This is Ripleyâs Believe It or Not. Is there anything that youâve come across that you just do not believe?
Bruce Campbell: I believe it. But it is amazing. Still, itâs believable. But you go âI donât know how but itâs believable. Unbelievable.â
And I was wondering just one of the exhibits that Ripleyâs is famous for is the hairball. Â Have you contributed to the hairball? Have you contributed a lock of hair?
Bruce Campbell: Â Screw that. Â Iâll bring my cat by and give it a furball. Where is it? Where is the big ball?
Here.
Bruce Campbell: Â In Toronto?
No, itâs downstairs. Itâs there now people are contributing their hair to the hairball.
[PR chimed in to let us know it got stuck for a while at Canadian customs]
You mentioned the longevity of Ripleyâs. Â What do you think it is about the exhibit that in this day and age where thereâs so much in terms of entertainment, this kind of old school form of entertaining is still popular?
Bruce Campbell: Â Well, you get to know the people. Â Anyone can find weird footage on the interwebs, but get to know the people thatâs whatâs different from us on a security camera. Showing weird things happen. Â We get to know these people and then we see it act out. We see what theyâre trying to accomplish, overcome. Theyâre always trying to meet some new challenge mostly. Weâre documenting that weâre taking their footage, weâre stealing their footage. Â
Itâs about a good story.
Bruce Campbell: Yeah, it is because most of it, itâs come from behind because people are born, you know, kidâs born blind, just wants to ride his bike. So how do you learn? How do you ride a bike if youâre blind? You just want to be a normal kid. So, he learned that bats can echolocate, and make little clicking noises and they can see and can tell things from the sound bounced back. Is it a hard surface, a porous surface? Is it closer or further away? Is that an alley? Is it open space? Is it dirt? He learned it all and he started riding his bike by making little clicking echolocating noises just like a bat. And he got so good. You can teach other blind kids. Itâs amazing.
Could you do it? Maybe? Could I do it? I donât know. But you know, itâs how we think someone is born with a negative what you see if you make it into such a positive, the kids like abnormally gifted, in my opinion, to overcome what most of us would go âwell, Iâm blind. Guess Iâm not riding that bike.â Itâs great to see someone go, âno, I think I want to try that.â Itâs great. We all get very convinced of our own limitations, and I think we could fool ourselves sometimes.
Do you think then in that vein, the show is quite inspirational?
Bruce Campbell: Â Itâs 100% inspirational. Most of these people have lives that kind of blew before good things started to happen. Or they had physical challenges or were hurt, injured.
You mentioned tone there. Had they ever run segments past you that you turned down?
Bruce Campbell: No, because as long as itâs real, and that is the most amazing thing about Ripleyâs itâs not faked. So we move kind of beyond the reality show aspect. Reality shows are manipulated, every single aspect of The Bachelor, every aspect is manipulated no matter what you think, itâs producers behind the scenes, pulling the strings, figuring out who would be the most entertaining to put together. We donât do that. Everything you see is completely real. The guy says he can cut an Oreo cookie and half in the middle of the air through the cream sideways, he can do it, you know, verified. We have a bunch of the Guinness World Records folks doing stuff to sell. So, thereâs a lot to look at.
You came a couple of years ago doing Last Fan Standing. What have you brought over or learned from Last Fan Standing that helped you host or what did you really have to change?
Bruce Campbell: Â I learned that people donât need that show. Otherwise, we would get the show on the air by now. Â Sometimes it just takes a while to learn things. It was fine. We had fun. But we tried to pitch it as a TV show and nobody wanted it. I think they donât want to white middle-aged guys running around acting like your crazy uncle. Itâs when we realized weâre a little past our demographic.
It was good in the â90s.
Bruce Campbell: Yeah, would have been great in the â90s probably.
Was there anything in the Ripleyâs warehouse that you were excited to see or are most looking forward to seeing?
Bruce Campbell: No, because I donât know what they have. Iâd love to see the inventory. Iâm sure thereâs stuff in there thatâs more amazing than you would think. Itâd be fun to do some shows where you just get the crates, get the crowbar. Get the curator, you know, come on, letâs show some stuff and tell the stories behind it. Â Because they wouldnât have it in the museum if it wasnât amazing. Theyâll have a two-headed goat. They wonât have a one headed goat theyâll have a two-headed or a four-eyed something. Smithsonian doesnât have that.
What do you want audiences to take from the show?
Bruce Campbell: Â Just a positive experience. Â Because you can sometimes see the normal side of people through extreme activity in a weird sort of way. Â Doesnât really make sense. But yeah, mostly a positive experience. The âit factorâ is not that hot. We donât want to turn people off, thatâs not the idea. Â But there are people who are doing stuff thatâs both amazing and repulsive, at the same time. So youâre gonna have to deal with that to.
Grannyâs not gonna want to watch everything and little Billyâs not gonna want to watch everything but, tough, thatâs half the fun. Thereâs no reason for us to flinch away from it because it is real. Â A guy wanted to become a parrot, so he did everything he possibly physically could to become a parrot. So what would that entail? Surgery tattoo on his eyes, removing your ears, tattooing your face, like the patterns of a feather. Â He wanted to fly, so he rigged up some crazy fly rig. Amazing? Yes. Horrifying? Potentially. So, some stories have a two-edged sword. Yet at the same time, you celebrate that personâs independence. âI want to be a parrot. Here I go. Fly a little bird.â
Certainly innovative.
Bruce Campbell: Â Letâs go with that.
Well, you can be whatever you want when you grow up.
Bruce Campbell: You can do whatever you want. I want to be a parrot. Â Some guys want to be a fireman.
You mentioned that you have been a fan of Ripleyâs for some time. So, what was your first experience?
Bruce Campbell: Â Their book, they had a leather, clothbound red book. It was a good-sized book. And then they have their very unique illustrations that they always had. That was just a permanent fixture on our bookshelf in the living room. Â Most people had a Ripleyâs book of some kind. Thatâs what you get with an institution
What do you think Ash Williams would make of the Ripleyâs exhibit?
Bruce Campbell: Â Heâd be like itâs cool. Â We did a story about a woman with a bionic arm. She has parts that she can put on, clip-on and clip off. Yeah.
Youâve done some pretty cool mutilation and gory scenes like being thrown through a glass window in Lodge 49 and cutting off your own hand in The Evil Dead 2. Whatâs been your most favorite gory scene to shoot?
Bruce Campbell: Iâm not a gore guy, so I donât have a favorite gore. Gore is a drag to me. Yeah. Blood is sticky. Blood is cold. Not fun, sticks on all your clothes. Yeah, Iâm so over it.
Youâre past it. Youâre in your host life now.
Bruce Campbell: Â You know, once you realize youâre in your late fifties, should I really still be lying on dirt floors covered in blood? Is that really whatâs on the agenda still, like still? Itâs having it off the floor.
Personally, I would love to see you return to Sam Axe.
Bruce Campbell: Â Itâs about time. People are starting to get nostalgic. Â All you gotta do is wait the right amount of time, which could be right about it now.
Quick letter-writing campaign.
Bruce Campbell: Especially when the worldâs going to shit, everyone wants to find the shows that make them feel comfortable. They want that meatloaf sandwich that made them feel good. Like everything was safe.
Do you have any characters that youâd love to do one last hurrah with?
Bruce Campbell: I never sort of play that game. But you know, I could do this Western again. The Adventures of Brisco Country, Jr., Brisco Rides Again. Â Could do that. Sam Axe, Burn Notice could be good. There are still d-bags in the world that need to be taken down. You know, come out of retirement. Yeah, thereâs stories in there. Â You know, these days with the structure of television. Everythingâs going that way, anyway. Everythingâs always a limited series, eight episodes or ten episodes. But thatâs how you get Kirsten Dunst for Fargo. One year obligation, itâs not a seven-year contract. Â All TV contracts were always seven years and actors, they really start to bristle at that. Â Why you canât get bigshot actors because theyâre like âseven years. You kidding me? No chance, Lance.â
So, itâs kind of interesting how the format of TV shows works professionally because now you can get someone like Kirsten Dunst because sheâll go, âGreat. I can do a whole season of a character study.â For an actor, itâs awesome. Thatâs the best part of Ash vs. Evil Dead, going back with experience now as an actor to that guy. To bring the character forward now and try and mess with it. Itâs a very appealing aspect of it. So, I donât know. Never say never about any remake. Â Everyoneâs got remake fever. But they always have. The first movie ever made in Hollywood is The Great Train Robbery. You see cowboy pointing a pistol at the camera. Â And whatâs the second movie? Itâs the sequel, The Great Train Robbery 2. Â That didnât take long. Thatâs how Hollywood works. Â I donât know Marvel themselves into the ground.
Are you hoping to get a call to appear in Spider-man to prove to Tobey Maguire that you did outlast him?
Bruce Campbell: Â No. Â I donât need that to prove my ability to outlast Tobey Maguire.
What is next for you then in terms of directing or acting?
Bruce Campbell:  I have stuff coming up thatâs not official so I canât really talk about it. But Iâve written some of my own stuff that Iâve just finished up. Because I realized that you canât⌠I want to get back into the movie game. Sort of where I started. I got diverted into TV for years, so itâs time to go back.  But you need material. So Iâve just been writing more books, stuff like that.
Will you be working with the Raimi Brothers?
Bruce Campbell: Â If it falls off the truck that way. If thatâs how it works, yeah.
Is it harder to get projects greenlit these days?
Bruce Campbell: Â Iâm going to find out. Â All the executives are twenty-five. So it could be easier, it could be impossible. They might go, âThanks, gramps. Nice meetinâ with you.â I mean, itâs time to find out.
On Ripleyâs, will we be seeing a Ripley-esque ability from yourself?
Bruce Campbell: Â I donât have those skills. Look, I got stunt guys for that. Theyâre there to make me look good. Itâs all smoke and mirrors, you know. Â But Ripleyâs is not fake. Iâd have to have a skill it was real. I donât have any skills that are real, other than riding electric bikes really well.
Was there any particular character youâve ever played that you really identify with and miss playing?
Bruce Campbell: Â Most of âem. Â But Evil Dead, Ash, Iâm done with. Â Iâve done that. Got that box checked. Because I think I played with enough to get my, you know, I left everything on the table. I donât know, usually, when Iâm done with the character, Iâm happy to walk away from it. Burn Notice, same thing. Seven years, itâs a long run. Hundred and eleven episodes. Thatâs enough. Yeah, so weâll see. Could be here next year. touting the Burn Notice movie.
Whatâs your favorite scary movie?
Bruce Campbell: Â Well, itâs the guy who sort of, persona non grata, Mr. Roman Polanski, The Tenant. A movie that haunted me for weeks after I saw it because it messes with your head. Itâs trying to make you think youâre going crazy and by the end of the movie you actually really wonder if youâre going fucking crazy and it really disturbed me. Â I found it completely disturbing and not a drop of blood in the whole movie. No gore, no monsters, no nothing. I mean, itâs creepy as shit because thatâs what Polanskiâs really good at. And heâs in it and so itâs really weird. Yeah, heâs a weird actor. Yeah.
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Finished BL Route yesterday
I am not okay. I want my cubs back already. aggghh
I did enjoy the final part. A bit miffed with how many open questions remain, that we are expected to collect the answers to from other playthroughs though. (mostly BE and church route it seems. ugh) Still canât believe nobody was aware of who Dimitriâs stepmom was (or that she was his stepmom...).Â
Do Empress consorts and Queens of Fearghus just not make any public appearances?? Even then, the chances of SOMEONE recognizing such an important person would be incredibly high. How could they keep that under the wraps? It���s ridiculous.
Anyway, plot contrivance aside. Next we have Edelgard. The way she lays out her plan of âEveryone follow my vision or be trampeled in the dustâ makes me side-eye her even more. And really, the ending makes all her efforts seem very out of proportion and ultimately futile.
The crest system gets reformed without any needs of burning churches and persecuting the faithful. Surely, a bit of cooperation from all three faction leaders would have achieved the same without as much bloodshed. But at least here I can see Edelgard as someone so fundamentaly damaged by her upbringing that she 100% believes there is no other way. She is wrong of course, but thatâs what makes her a solid tragic villain. If only there wasnât her route looming on the horizon.Â
Her turning herself into the final boss monster was so silly though. What was that supposed to accomplish? Hubert even said there was a good chance she wouldnât turn back, so what would have happened had she won in that state? Thereâs desperate actions when cornered and then there is acitvely sabotaging your own plans in order to kill off a rival. Â
Anyway.. all that aside, I got my ending with the gorgeous girl I wanted:
(sorry for shitty screenshots, my switch decided it wonât allow me to upload stuff to twitter anymore)
I legit teared up when she asked for marriage. I am not forgetting how shitty this game treats same-sex romance otherwise, but this felt good.
My plan for the endings really spelled out the gay agenda too, and it definitely worked out in this case:
Yeah, get your happy ending, girls.
In other ways though... things got a bit out of hand. I had planned to pair off Felix and Sylvain while letting Dedue and Flayn duke it out over Dimitri. I had very judiciously assured that no other girls or guys got in between that, except forgot one thing... which led to the boys having different plans than me:
Look at these two clowns, leaving a trail of broken hearts and promises behind them as they ride off into the horizon to enjoy their tragic romance, beard included.
I had totally forgotten that I A supported Dimitri and Felix. Given that Felix and Sylvain had been maxed in points, it apparently means that this pairing outranks Dimidue, Dimilayn and Sylvix in priority.. good to know I guess. The others will just have to live their lifes as singles I guess. or ask very nicely if they can join from time to time
This was quite a rollercoaster of emotions. I canât believe itâs over already, after just two weeks no less. Not sure when Iâll start the other routes. I think Iâll take a small break to let it all settle. Thanks for reading my incoherent ramblings so far!
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