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tothesolarium · 1 year ago

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Avoiding finals by reading philosophy books instead of drawings - what kind of nerd am I?

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pepperpixel · 13 days ago

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I haven’t posted art in forever, (I am currently working on art tho!! It’s just taking me a bit cuz.. job..) but! But… what about if instead of the art u guys came here for. I instead posted pictures of the cool lil outfits I’ve been wearing recently that im rlly proud of… what about that???

#part of the issue w art is also for some reason. FOR REAL. the default shit I want to draw is just ME. IN MY VARIOUS CUTE LIL OUTFITS #I’ve become a narcissist… a fashion obsessed narcissist.. i just want everyone to see and admire my cool fits…#I struggle. so much more drawing shit that is not me nowadays. and I have so much less free time #but then I don’t FINISH the pics of me cuz I’m like ‘this is too self indulgent!!! stop!! draw fanart!!#like a normal person!!! ghgh-‘#ur rlly gonna come back from an art hiatus w just a bunch of silly pics of u being cute… get a fucking grip..#uhhh.. but anyway lol #I am still drawing. I’m currently working on some expiremental lineless digital art #cuz I felt shaking stuff up might help #we shall see if I finish it tho!#it me #pepper words #anyway look at my fits #my one. 2 curses r in bad at taking pictures #and I live in a dingy basement so the lighting fucking SUCKS #u cannot see all the detail…. u cannot make out All of my lil accessories #it’s sad…#all these outfits r very black and white i do in fact wear colors… mostly red. n green #but I am rlly In my aristocratic vampire / witch era right now… and I’m loving it…#middle 2 pics r the same outfit. just w and without cloak lol #also pls do me a kindness and ignore my messy ass room #lady outfit is actually my most recent and my room HAS gotten less messy! I cleaned it up!#but it’s still kinda. got some clutter lol #*last outfit. not lady outfit ghghg- these r gender neutral femme leaning outfits I’ll have u kno typo!!#also pls ignore the shit on my mirror!! the lil white speckles and stuff! I rlly gotta fucking clean that.. if I wanna keep taking cute #pictures of my outfits lol… I mean. it’s not MY mirror so I don’t think to clean it.. but it is in my living space…#mayhaps… I should clean it lol

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autisticaradiamegido · 1 year ago

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day 251

so like remember when i said i was gonna be mentally ill about utena

#day 251 #year 4 #aradia megido #jade harley #homestuck #arajade #revolutionary girl utena #so this is a wip but i dont have the time or energy to finish it today unfortunately #i do plan to finish it at a later date tho #this isnt really meant to be like #a fully realized au or anything #utena doesnt seem like the kind of thing that lends itself super well to this kind of au?#like the kind where you slot other characters into the roles or the setting of the og series #the characters that exist in it are too integral to the like. Point of the thing. to me at least #BUT there are some themes that cross over really well #into the things i find the most most most interesting about aradia and jade and the differences between them #and how they cope with an environment that attacks their agency and like. responsibility. and resisting the established narrative. and. and #and okay TBH? yeah i drew jade in the rose bride fit. but frankly i could say some shit about EITHER of them in either role.#the themes are absolutely there like theres a connection im making in my brain here i swear im just struggling to articulate it #maybe once i finish the drawing i will have finished my rgu arajade thoughts as well.

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toytulini · 4 months ago

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me, stupidly and weirdly resistant to listening to audio books vs reading a physical book for no real reason: man i wish there was a way to like, read a book while i crochet like i do with tv shows and movies and podcasts

#toy txt post #my reasons are irrational you dont need to try to talk me into it. i KNOW #its very silly of me #imagine how much reading i could get done. but alas. Feels Bad #even listening to a more. uh. Story type podcast or fiction like nightvale was a bit difficult to start for me. i like nightvale now i #listened. but i worry that is clocking in my brain as an Exception 😔 maybe it would be easier if i tried some nonfiction books? scary #i also struggle with single host podcasts apparently even tho im also ehhhh on the kind where the structure is the host Interviewing a #different person everytime? maybe it would be okay with a nonfiction audiobook tho cos it would be getting read by a narrator and not sound #so much like a guy ranting into a mic which makes me feel a little insane. altho propaganda doesnt necessarily always sound like a guy #ranting into a mic so idk. i could probably make it through if i can find a nice book about like. parasitic worms. i could tolerate #feeling like im falling into sigma male affirmations videos for worms i think. wormffirmations are allowed #*to clarify i dont listen to those but listening to better offline makes me feel like im morphing into the kinda guy who does and i hate it #which feels unfair cos he is RIGHT and the podcast is good but i need there to be like a cohost there to break the tension of the Ranting #sometimes he has guests on? but its not quite the same #i think the format i like best is either like 2 or 3 regular cohosts discussing things within a specific topic #OR. 1 host whos like infodumping to the other host who knows nothing about the subject. OR. 2 hosts info dumping to each other about #different aspects of the subject. OR. 1 host who brings on fun guests to infodump to them about a subject. and then obviously the subject #needs to intrigue me. ex. sawbones well theres your problem (I HATE THAT THIS ONE IS BEST EXPERIENCED ON YOUTUBE😭 I WANT THEM TO JUST DUMP #ALL THE SLIDES INTO A BIG BLOG POST SOMEWHERE AND I CAN CHECK IN AND FOLLOW ALONG THAT WAY WITHOUT HAVING TO HAVE MY PHONE SCREEN ON THE #WHOLE TIME!!!!!!!!! but. im listening for free so its unreasonable to demand more of them BUT ALSO I FEEL LIKE JUST COPYPASTING ALL OF THE #SLIDES INTO A BIG BLOG POST ISNT THAT MUCH MORE EFFORT THAN EDITING A WHOLE YOUTUBE VIDEO? WAAAAAH. THEY DONT NEED TO BE TIMESTAMPED OR #ANYTHING JUST THROW EM IN ILL FIGURE IT OUTTTTTT #anyway. also more than 3 hosts is really pushing my ability to keep track of voices.#anyway: sawbones wtyp tpwky behind the bastards scam goddess #(which is true crime adjacent but focuses mainly on scams and isnt copaganda and laci is funny and cool)#common descent pod completely arbortrary maintenance phase if books could kill #deep sea podcast has more bringing ppl in to interview them about shit than i personally enjoy but i put up with it cos i do like the hosts #and the subject

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vaugarde · 7 months ago

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pokeani moments that exist purely to make Me miserable:

the line where they call ash's oshawott a throwaway pokemon in the unova league so they're just flat out saying they think it's a worthless pokemon

to thine own pokemon be true (extra angst points for me bc ambipom was my second favorite on the team at the time)

the granddaughter of the guy who trains gliscor calling gliscor pathetic and weak to her face despite gliscor being an extremely sensitive pokemon

pretty much everything about that gible

blue episode (favorite color but they made it a fetish somehow and also dewott and brionne and meowstic are all there and its so bad)

boxing heracross immediately. also that battle frontier episode where it's literally the only returning ash mon (barring torkoal i think but i dont count it bc its native to AG) to get humiliated onscreen

pidgeot returning but gliscor didn't even show up in the miniseries despite being an Actual Character

#sorry ik i keep bringing up the throwaway line but like. its SOOOOOOOOOO bad holy shit #the heracross one isnt aaaaaas bad tbf bc they really make up for it in the sinnoh league #but aside from one ep in the miniseries we never quite get an episode where oshawott proves itself in a battle #i still love that episode bc it still kinda feels like an apology for all the oshawott bashing in bw but i am a little :/#that battling didnt even come up once #ive kiiinda eased up on gliscors benching episode bc at the end of the day it isssss pretty good to her. also its the best animated one #but its treatment like what i mentioned that still really drags it down to me #and also like. i know ppl praise gliscor being so powerful after the episode but i really dont get why we couldnt have just #had a gliscor training arc onscreen. but ig we wouldnt have that stupid ass gible plot that went nowhere now would we #but like.... we had such a huge stretch between that episode and the league. i really dont get why we couldnt have had a mini arc #where gliscor realizes shes not pulling her weight that well and really starts hauling ass #she doesnt really even sweep in the paul fight. she gets beaten immediately by ninjask #the drapion part was awesome tho yayyyy #but my point is that it wouldnt really change much if gliscor just stayed and got stronger on its own #have the bench episode be a wake up call for gliscor rather than a goodbye one and she becomes super competent #like im not just saying this bc gliscor is my favorite character in the entire show. i feel like its straight up kinda lazy and less reward #rewarding #imagine how the drapion fight could be EVEN MORE cathartic if we saw gliscor struggle and fight to get better throughout the show #as much as i like that specific battle and ash vs paul as a whole... it just kinda proves my point that sending gliscor away at all #was kind of a shitty move #like ohhhhh ash's team is all getting revenge for lake acuity yay!!!!! oh one of them was kicked off for the sake of a shitty gible plot th #which really only served to make shitty piplup bashing jokes and only actually had a conclusion in the league itself #by which time it was too late to actually do anything else with it. yeah we kicked someone off for that. but shes back now!!!#like it doesnt weaken the battle THAT much. in fact theres some value in how ash went out of his way to make sure gliscor could be there #so her defeat could also be avenged. and its still my fave battle in the whole anime. but it just proves to me how pointless that was reall #echoed voice

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schizowitchic · 1 month ago

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also like i partially found out i might be intersex because i was looking at trans stuff and there was like "(however many) months on t and finally seeing some bottom growth" and like pictures of t-dicks and i was like.... um.... that's kind of just what my clit looks like anyways. so i was like "hey google give me a quick rundown on this" and learned what clitoromegaly was and then i was like. hm. intersex resources. and it's like a sign? symptom? side-effect? of certain intersex conditions

#i mean like pcos runs in the mums side of my family but i dont have all the symptoms of that #i do also have like. more hair?? than the average afab person #like dark hair on my stomach and chest and back #and my face. whats disappointing about the face hair is that it isnt enough to be able to grow a beard #so i cant even fuck with gender that way #tagging as nsft just because of like genital mention #genital mention #nsft #shoutout to transmascs on t who show their t-dicks on the internet it was really helpful #also i dont know how to describe it but like. my natural face shape is kind of masculine??#like it would be plausible for a cis amab perisex man to have my face without looking feminine #if you get what im saying??#if it sounds like im reinforcing sex or gender essentialism please say i am struggling to find words #unshoutout to the boys in primary school who made fun of me for having hair under my arms and starting a whole decade of insecurity-#-about having hair on my body lmao #for the record i dont think certain face shapes are indicative of gender and all im just going by like. patterns?? in afab vs. amab faces #also not that i think afab vs. amab is the entire categorisation of human sex characteristics but um. working with what vocab i have here #i think what also really kicked it off. was relating to a fair few experiences intersex people have socially #particularly intersex ppl who were afab and faced a lot of pressure to make their bodies conform to feminine beauty standards #and it was like.... oh lol.... my mum did that to me!!#it comes from her own internalised shit bc she has pcos (idk if she identifies as intersex even tho she could if she wanted) but still.#dont project that onto a 10 yr old lmao. she keeps buying me hair removal products #ALSO floored by an experience i have. in which apparently half my friends dont feel pressure to shave their legs #because the hair on their legs is like. light and thin and barely visible and i was like?? huh??#what do you MEAN your legs don't look like your brothers/fathers if you dont shave??#im starting to think they dont shave their arms. their arms might just naturally not have a load of hair #i dont shave my arms though. cannot be bothered with that and also like. why would i do that #also you know that like. happy trail i think its called?? on “men's” stomachs??#yeah i have that naturally yeah thats right im naturally sexy #if you cant tell i am putting “girls” “mens” “boys” “womens” etc. in quotes to indicate that is just the normal society way of saying it

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nyerusnova · 2 years ago

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still thinking about how in the gotham knights video game it's implied that tim ignores his friends heartfelt condolences after bruce's death and instead decides he's going to go look for moth man

(and conner's the only one who replies with "lmfao yeah dude lets fuckin do it")

#gotham knights #video games #tim drake #dcu #say what you will about that game #but not only was it FUN it also had WAY better characterization than half the current dc writers can manage #bruce was so willing to sacrifice himself to protect his kids didnt even think twice #dick was a kind-yet-tired older sibling trying to keep shit together #jason was a young man who struggled with his anger but working to do better for ppl he cared about and his city #babs wasn't relegated to a nerdy know-it-all (and they even showed her wearing her back brace and stuff!)#(even tho i wish it was like cass or steph but oh well i understand why they chose babs for batgirl)#tim's youth meant he struggled to process the loss yet his genius esp when it came to hardware was never downplayed

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renegadeknight · 7 months ago

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ooooo so interested in Treacherous!!

Okay this one is still very much an outline/mess of notes so I don't have any snips to share and it's probably the one I'm most shy about, idk why exactly, just feels like it would be less interesting to other people, so I'm just vibing by myself lol.

Anyway! It is an Anna!Lives AU where she ends up as a FEDRA lab rat for ~10 years and escapes right after Marlene finds and sends Ellie off with the fireflies. So then Joel and Tess take Anna to try to catch up at the state house but they miss them. Tess still gets bit (sorry) and then it follows Joel and Anna across the country to try to track down Ellie and as they spend more time together Anna keeps telling him more and more about little Ellie from when they were together a few years before they got separated. By the time they catch up to Ellie, Joel's ready to level the hospital for a kid he hasn't even met, and her mother.

Fun fact, I actually mentioned this one in an earlier chapter of Stubborn Love. It's one of the books Ellie gets at the library 😁

Thank you for the ask!

#there I go plotting an entire novel length longfic... again #I just love the idea of Joel falling in love with this 14 year old he's never met and the struggle of watching another parent trying to #protect their kid and at some point you know she's gonna lose hope so then he's gotta be the one to say no we're gonna find her #even tho he low key thinks she's gone but also won't give up if there's any kind of chance that she's not #And! Anna really believes in the fireflies cause of being friends with Marlene and shit but then Joel is like fuck those guys so the whole #time they're at odds over that and then they get to the hospital and Anna has to confront the fact that Marlene was really gonna kill her #kid even knowing Anna was still alive and also immune so like there were options Marlene! you didn't need to knife a 14 year old #so they disagree over that and there is some casual homicide but still a happy ending for our faves #anyway I'm actually done now thank you for asking about this one that no one else probably cares about but I love it a lot #if you couldn't tell #writing things #tlou fanfiction #treacherous #wip ask game #asked and answered

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orcelito · 4 months ago

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You know, I used to be a genuinely nice person. I remember being a bleeding heart back when I was a young teenager. But over my elder teenage years, I just got so totally jaded. I think it killed half my heart or smth. Still working on getting all those emotions back. In the meantime, the kindness is a decision. I try my best.

#speculation nation #im a bitter little shit but i try to still treat people well. and that's what matters.#im for serious about the killing half my heart tho. like i think thats a lot of why id struggle to cry so much #crying only once or twice a year. going as long as 11 months between any kind of crying at all at one point.#ive been crying more lately. a lot more. and it's strange. but i think it's a good thing.#the sources of the crying arent good of course. but the fact that i Can cry again... it says good things for my healing i think.#sometimes u have a relationship that fucks U up so bad u dont have proper emotions for an entire decade+ after #oh well. ive lived fine enough with half a heart for this long. i'll just keep on goin.#negative/#kind of. tho im mostly just thinking aloud.

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megaclubdiolis · 7 months ago

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柄本佑 || 「光る君へ」 (2024) · 第十五回「おごれる者たち」

#柄本佑 #tasuku emoto #光る君へ #hikaru kimi e #1x15 #made by me #fujiwara no michinaga #藤原道長 #I know he's up to SOMETHING but the first scene is really fucking moving #the way he told michikane there's no need to be the fall guy anymore😭😭😭the soft 'aniue. I want you to be happy'. how I screamed.#and when he said that father's not with them anymore his eyes seem tearing up a little...just kill me pls #he swallowed and his adam's apple rolling..ughhhhh #also the last one he stared at sadaijin-sama's hand for a beat #I wonder if he ever thought about how he didn't get to do this with Kaneie😔#bc kaneie is that kind of fucking domineering guy who valued vanity & dignity too much to die as an ordinary man #the archery scene is A++#and I feel like he's sort of back to being Saburo after that scene like. saying it was childish to beef with his nephew #this is such a Saburo thing to say. something harmless and self-mocking. sometimes white lies #but dude you're dark as fuck. the last shot w the 'I'm gonna be Kanpaku' statement? scare the shit out of me #I'm gLAD michitaka stopped him😱#anyway they're just two dark souls atp #michikane wants to kill his older brother and michinaga's gonna keep him on a leash and let him be the fall guy like kaneie told him to #man...dairi is so fucked up. hardest place to survive #I get that it's the same with the forbidden city in my culture but still. this is way too dark #p.s. the 9th one's funny to me bc Tasuku-san's knuckles...like those are boxing knuckles! so out of time & place😂#(kaneie's out there somewhere in the stars and I still can't stop talking about him lol. I miss him :( )#(do I even believe that he's up not down? maybe. he did become a monk b4 he died.)#I've no problem with heavy power intrigue plots tho I've seen Tasuku implying his scenes lately were all about power struggles in dairi #I mean I do care about the mahiro storyline but the godfather -ish shit is just better

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arolesbianism · 1 year ago

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Another quick drawing from last night

#keese draws #eternal gales #oc posting #oc #ocs #oc art #experimented a lil bit with giving her some more visible dark fur #I think I like it but Im gonna have to draw her a few more times to make sure I think #my main concern is that it might make her look a lil too similar to mason pattern wise #which is already smth Ive struggled with in the past lol #also yeah I <3 using brushes incorrectly #idc what the creators of any given brush intended if I can use it for funky lineart I Will use it for lineart #also yeah Ive been grabbing a bunch of free brush packs lately so thats why Im actually drawing shit again lol #tbf the glory drawing was me wanting to use a base procreate brush Ive been meaning to mess around with but I used some texture brushes too #with all my new texture brushes making bullshit backgrounds will be a breeze 👍#oh also Ive been trying to use those dumb layer filter mode thingies for the first time lately with my shading #idk how Im feeling abt them tho tbh multiply is nice ig but I kind of dont like how it dulls out the colors sometimes #like I know it makes the shading more coherent but idk sometimes I like the more grading shading #idk can yall even tell the different dndmdkdndh #I might just be being too picky with my colors or smth I always tend to assume the worst abt my colors #anyways sceduled and now eepy time from the past and good morning future me

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separatismor · 6 months ago

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#idg the ppl who make fun of ppl who label bullying as a trauma #my mum was bashed every day at school as a kid #then had to go home to deal with religious/cult brainwashing #i was bullied during 'no tolerance' beginnings so they just learned to jab at my appearance and ostracize me #im still deeply affected to the point where i cant form relationships without feeling on some subconscious level #that im actually being manipulated #and then i do end up getting manipulated #(there was other bullying going on but that was 95% of what they found they could get away with)#so basically im rly struggling with still feeling like a joke and like im someone whose only worth is to be fucked with in every conceivable #way as i hold no value in being seen as beautiful or lovable or likable or smart or funny or a complete person #because basically 90% of the people whove been in my life have treated me with active hostility #the other ten percent include people who were paid to not be hostile #one person out of all ive gone on more than one date with #and three friends i have now #only one of whom is willing to emotionally support me when im telling them IM STRUGGLING #anyway bullying solidified that i was a worthless pos to everyone on the planet and i dont know what kind of charmed #life these ppl have lived to not have bullying be the piss flavoured icing on the shit flavoured cake that was their childhood #okay the bullying got so bad for me that i ended up going thru psych abuse further familial abuse #a really shitty 'friendship' i had which futuer entrenched how worthless i was #which made me anthropophobic which was an horrific nightmare #i barely left the house for almost 7 years!!!!#THIS is why pplthink theyre autistic #no actually im just deeply confused as to why you would ever tell me the truth about anything #as i KNOW that im worthless and should die #the shits who laugh at bullying being considered a trauma to some come off as tho yhey were a bully...

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cheapcheapfaker · 1 year ago

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Sometimes I spook myself out of wanting a kid but then I go out w my friends who have one and relax like “I do not live in suburbia the people who hate having children are reaping rewards in their McMansions”

#it is kind of crazy tho bc you will read the crazier shit #and realize they live in a cultural wasteland where Facebook takes prescendent #and I calm down like #I will have a sick ass kid who I take to the park #I will not struggle bc the city is my village in a way. there are resources.#I saw a post that was like ‘where do you source metal free dirt’#‘I want my kid to play in mud safely’#and my strategies is like. I want my kid to lick baltimore dirt. lead dirt.#I can’t even imagine. I microwave my leftovers in Tupperware.#I hope my kid eats dirt. yknow?

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cerasus--flores · 2 years ago

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oh btw mewtuals what do we think of hold it down

#personally i'm kinda eh on it #like there's some bars i REALLY fuck with #and melo's vocals were great #but i think half of this wava can't rap for shit and it shows 😭#also idk i don't really like that they had hex on his lower register #like i get it deep voice hot but deep voice only hot if somewhat poised and not struggling to hit the lower notes #like they're trying to do corp/se??? but ppl don't JUST like his music bc the vocals are deep as fuck #but bc he KNOWS how to use it and bc he knows what kind of sounds go well with it #also idk these last two songs were. mid lmao #stuck in the abyss left the bar SO high #blackout is my top song this year like it's not even the over the top edge that puts me off abt this one #it j feels like they're. trying too hard??? idk #some bars were great tho #and the “this the CONTRARY” fuckin HITS #but eh...#also the lyrics. what was that 😭#you can get away w like. somewhat nonsensical lyrics in shit like hope in the dark #bc i can't focus on the fact that being drawn by smell is fucking WEIRD if i'm focusing on how delightful the harmonies are #but rapping is 70% the lyrics #ESPECIALLY if some of your rappers. struggle. rapping.#visuals were cool but overall the song is a 5/10 for me #i j don't think the livers were reeeeeally fit for it #ciaran rambling on #ciaran kissing virtual avatars

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phagodyke · 16 days ago

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aouuugh my uterus......

#long long day at work codeine wasnt helping with cramps and my meds are less effective on my period :(#ive been doing okay most of the day tho just starting feeling kind of miserable omw home bc such a long wait at the bus stop in pain #and im kind of lonely at the moment but wont be able to climb tomorrow bc of cramps so thats my main social source gone :(#and it always feels worse at home bc if im having a hard time like in physical pain or feeling down my roommate cant rly handle it #like she cant rly be in the room with me the headphones go straight on. which is ok im realising its just how her type of autism works #so im trying not to get as upset at her abt it. with varying degrees of success but it just takes time #i mean i dont get upset AT her like ik its not her fault and i dont want her feeling like it is. I keep it internal + cry once im alone #just different social needs n boundaries innit. we're a bit incompatible is all #but its still hard. I'd like support from other ppl when I'm struggling i mean i think thats a fairly normal thing to want #but of the friends I would be comfortable talking to abt how i feel none of them have that kind of emotional availability #which again is ok like its not on them. and im very capable of dealing w my shit myself one way or another so its not a Need #but idk. it would just be nice. I feel like I've had to be so independent most of my teenage and adult life and I wish I could take a #break from that sometimes. even just a hug would be nice man #sorry i always come on here and talk abt the same problems... well youll see me do it again no doubt abt that 🫠#ughh and i feel so guilty for wanting things ppl cant give even though i know its not really my fault either and im allowed to want things #and i dont cross boundaries or make them feel bad abt it. i really hope i dont anyway. but still ahhh...#its so hard for me to feel connected to anyone if they cant rly engage w me emotionally at all like its a non negotiable #factor into closeness and trust for me and i get so frustrated bc i feel so distant and alienated from the ppl i care abt most #and ik i overreact bc of my rsd so maybe its just that its probably not even a real issue. but its real to me bc im the one who gets upset #man. anyway its okay just a really really long day. im gonna wash my dishes and then shower #and finish my book. maybe i should play some dead cells i miss it. i dont really want to think abt how i feel anymore #maybe ill see if anyones free to hang out tmr evening so i dont have to feel as lonely even if i cant leave the house after work #all good nice to have a plan anyway. done sniffling. my hot water bottle is helping thr cramps a littlr i think #.diaries #oh i dont think its helping actually ow. i took more codeine an hour ago why doesnt it do anything. not fairrr 😭

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thevermingod · 2 months ago

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Babysat my friends baby today cause they both had to go back to work. It was the first day so I was with the grandparents so if Baby didn't take well to not have mom or dad around we could figure something out together.

So like, here my childless dumbass is, taking the kid and rocking him to sleep and changing him and keeping him happy while the grandparents leave me to it. Thats cool, I like the baby and I wanted to hang out with him. noon rolls around and since my house is 5 mins away I hand off baby so I can go home and let my pets out for a little and feed them. I told them I'd be back in an hour cause I also wanted to eat lunch.

Baby was asleep when I left.

30-45 mins in, get a text. Babys awake and unhappy. Leave my lunch and rush over to the mom on the phone with Grandparents as they try to feed him. I grab the baby and burp him and feed him the rest before rocking him back to sleep and getting nap trapped for two hours.

Someone please tell me how some dumbass that never plans to have a kid is doing better then two adults that have had TWO kids??? losing my mind.

#not as bad as it seems just wanted to complain #I honestly spend more time with the baby then the grandparents do #AND the grandparents LIVE with the family #LIKE HOW #Honestly tho i do hang out with the kid a lot #cause hes cute and I love my friend #and I ended up just kind of getting use to him #asking to hold him so my friend and her husband can clean up or prep bottles and shit #and try to get him to sleep when its too much for them #i like kids but never want to have one #partly cause I aint ever gonna give birth #partly because the ecodomy sucks and im not about to struggle with a gov that wount give me any incentive to have a kid

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