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I wrote a Pacific Rim AU
#sk8 the infinity#renga#reki kyan#langa hasegawa#my art#my fic#pacific rim au#DUUUUUUDE DUUUDE yeah#this was plaguing me and had to be written
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The Curse Of Hope
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Danny is in another universe. He had a reason, but he doesn’t remember anymore. He can only stare, horrified and disgusted, at the sickest city spirit he’s ever seen. Shivering and swaying with every step, core exposed, and ectoplasm leaking from wounds that are decades old. A ratty blanket was thrown over their shoulders, barely hiding the spirit’s pale grey skin and protruding black bones.
The spirit didn’t even sense him until he reached out to touch its wispy shoulders. The spirit flinched, clutching at the dozens of trinkets hanging from their neck and tucking in on themselves like they were expecting a blow.
“Oh, shit,” He swore, floating back a few feet, hands in the air, to show he meant no harm. “I’m sorry. I promise, I’m not here to steal from you.” The spirit shivered again and rolled a pearl necklace in between their fingers. A nervous habit. “Uh, I like that pocket watch? It’s very nice.”
That got their attention. They peeked at Danny, and he saw that more tattered cloth was covering their eyes, blending in with the stringy hair that reached the ground. Their blanket fluttered weakly, revealing hundreds of thousands of tiny marks etched into their skin. Scars, really. Scars that wrote out curse after curse onto the spirit’s very being. They burned with evil intent, and even reached inside the spirit’s body and wrapped around their core.
Occasionally, blinding specks of color raced across their body, temporarily erasing the writing, but it always returned quickly. He watched, a little detached, as one particular line rewrote itself across their rough forearm, drawing fresh ectoplasm like someone was writing it with a thin knife.
“Are you…alright?” Danny stuttered. A stupid question.
The spirit cocked its head. He couldn’t see their eyes, but he felt their burning gaze as they pondered the question.
“The pain of others becomes mine own.” They rasped. “The lights of the city dim as rotten wealth clogs mine veins. Magicks long forgotten have eaten mine skins, pulled mine cloak, and darkened mine skies. Helios has refused to grace mine doorstep, and the seasons of the Earth have revoked their kindness.”
Danny held his breath. It felt like he was the one with the exposed core, not the spirit.
The spirit shivered once more. “Tell mine soul, little lamb. How could this Forsaken City know peace, when it was long since ripped from mine hands?”
Shit, he needed Frostbite. And maybe Clockwork. Now.
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Danny meets the spirit of Gotham City. The villains and rogues that have plagued the city for decades are literal curses that are taking quite the toll on Gotham, and honestly, Danny isn’t sure how much longer they can hold out. The heroes seem to be doing some help, and are probably the reason Gotham made it this far, but the poor city needs help from the Realms if they want to get better.
Luckily, Danny can provide that help.
But only if he could get Gotham to leave their city behind. Because recovery is going to take a very long time.
#dpxdc#pondhead blurbs#Gotham is very lanky and tall and had dozens of necklaces around their neck#the necklaces are just cords filled with lost things the citizens have lost over the years#like bits of glass or wedding rings or hag stones made from a destroyed gargoyle#actually I have a weird picture of Gotham in my head I might draw it#it’s giving Bloodborne to me but idgaf#basically Danny meets Gotham and is trying to convince them to go with him for medical help because what the fuck#those curses are the equivalent of leaving hundreds of leeches stuck to your body for ten years#Danny is BEGGING Gotham to come with him#there’s potential for angst but if you want crack then Danny probably replaces Gotham#I think there’s already a similar fic where he becomes the new spirit of Gotham but I haven’t read all of that#anyways the Batfam are like#invasive animals that are actually helping the ecosystem recover from an even WORSE invasive species#but they aren’t supernatural heroes and they don’t understand that the issue is deeper#I’m calling this the Curse of Hope because Danny is offering hope to Gotham#but Gotham is just so tired and sick and hurt that they don’t want to risk it#they think Danny is another curse come to plague them#should he just straight up adopt the city at this point?#idk it probably depends on how it’s written#sad course is to let Gotham die. happy ending is where they are treated and returned#crack ending probably has Danny adopting the city and introducing them to his own city spirit Amity Park#oh shit is that a new ship#guys please I can’t keep doing this#Gotham City x Amity Park#how the fuck do you come up with a name for that#Burger Joints?#Wet Pavement?#bro idk I’m putting this down before I make something I might regret#low key wanna write this but like. I have so much to do
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with the year coming to a close, i hope that anyone who's reflecting about how the year went remembers to be kind and fair to themselves with how you evaluate the year as a whole.
i think there are definitely times when life throws things that are... Not So Great at you. whether if it's some external circumstance that surprised you, or maybe your mentality wasn't at it's best. i wish for anyone who's encountered those kinds of challenges to be able to triumph over them and be able to say that they got through it.
heck, it might still be a work in progress even though you've kept chipping away at it, and that's ok! the results will show themselves eventually as you work through it! and i hope that we can all remember to be patient with ourselves as we go through these processes (learning, healing, etc.), because damn, it can be frustrating when you feel like you're "not there yet."
knowing that life can be rough at times, i think it's unfair to yourself (and others) to discount and downplay any progress you've made this year- whether if it's something that you did for the first time, or maybe you came to a new understanding and insight that you didn't have in the previous year.
it's not to say that you should undermine the validity of your experience with hardship, but to take the time to remind yourself what makes life worth living. to recall what moments were the most satisfying to you- and use it to strengthen your resolve for the next year and beyond. no amount of hardship will ever take away from the fact that you deserve to have hope that things will get better.
i hope that looking back on the year, you don't leave out the things you cherish. that you can remember the good that came this year. whether if the small victories are things like meeting someone new, trying something out for the first time, or making some strides in a long-term project/obligation...!
i wish everyone a happy new year! may it be prosperous, and that your life can move in a direction that's close to what you want out of life. you're all going to do great! remember to congratulate yourself for what you did well! despite everything, you're still here, and that's wonderful. never forget that!
#lizzy speaks#hello everyone. i know that there are *checks calendar* still 20 days left of december and 2023#but i've had a lot of strong emotions and feelings i've had to sort through as i've been thinking about how 2023 went for me#so a lot of what i've written here comes from the perspective of someone in their early 20s#it's like... a crash and burn from when you were a teenager thinking that you know everything#and realizing how big the world is and how many responsibilities there are#all while a feeling of overwhelm looms over as you try to sift your way through the world and adjust your understanding of it#for me i've definitely had an underlying thought that 'you should have your shit together by now why aren't you there yet'#and it's! not motivating! at all! to think that way. and it's made me more than ever want to be a friend to myself. to extend a patient-#kind voice to myself that reminds me that others are also trying to navigate these feelings and to accept that i'm not going to have an-#instantaneous understanding of how one goes about adulthood. and neither will they. even if they look 'put together.'#like... these people have also undergone similar stresses and along the way figured out how to navigate through that space#and personally i've found peace in knowing that there are people who are older than me. trusting that they've dealt with these things too i#some shape or form and that them living... being here.. is proof that we shall be fine in the end and that we will move past what plagues-#our mind. there's definitely been some... anger i've had this year that. school didnt teach me these things or skills!! i was so mad lol#but hey if we are little guys who are living on planet earth for the first time we shouldn't condemn ourselves to an unrealistic standard-#of going through life and being able to instantly do everything 'correctly' and know how everything works#i'm still working on improving that patience... and also trying to put in the work to understand these things.#in the midst of a very tough week for me i was tempted to say that 'nothing happened this year it was not productive'#but then i was like. that's. objectively not true if you just look at other things. also theres worth in life outside of 'productivity'#...i think i passed 20 tags at this point. but like. my favorite thing about 2023 was meeting so many cool awesome people!#who would've known that funny lil squid game could bring so many connections and friendships i cherish!#thank you so much! for being a part of my life and changing me for the better! for giving me many fond memories!#and i'm very grateful to anyone who supported me and my art this year... for sticking around even though i wished i could do more#it means the world to me knowing that there's proof that i exist and have touched someone's life in a positive way! thank you! truly!#ANYWAY. happy early new year. i hope everyone can nourish a friend in their head that extends acceptance and patience to themselves#as we try and make sense of the world together. there will be things that we don't understand yet! but one day we will! and it'll be like#wow! look how far i came! i'm okay! i'm alive! yipee! thank you for reading this post i made to get my feelings out! have a nice day!
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me: this is too much exposition. you should not directly tell all the time. let dialogue and tone/body language descriptions do some of the work
also me: this isn't exposition it's literally the second paragraph of chapter one you're setting up the plot you gotta drop a little exposition
also also me:
#I go back and forth back and forth back and forth and then I do zero actual writing and it's bed time 🙃#I need to STOP fucking myself up but I can't. I used to trust myself. at least a little. when I'd write.#like I never approached it with a big ego. I was always sick to my stomach when I'd hit 'post' on ao3.#I was always like IS this good though?#but now I can't even get a rough draft out without sabotaging myself which is 🙃🙃🙃🙃#I don't know where this extreme self doubt came from. It's been plaguing me for over a year.#I abandoned 2 massive major wips in the last year that I had poured WEEKS into. FILLED notebooks.#and my self doubt consumed me and I was like I cannot do this. scratched out the notebooks.#deleted the word docs entirely#now I KNOW I have one that's good. I KNOW it is. I KNOW this cause I've thought up the WHOLE fic. all the way to the end#and I wanna read it so bad#and that's how I know like. I got a live one on the line baby#I just. freak out. and quit. and that's not me. I don't know why this is happening.#but it's really discouraging and tough#and I just wish I could drag myself outta this weird self doubt spiral#and write this damn fic cause I KNOW I CAN. or at least I COULD. a year ago? this would already be written#all like 9-10 chapter of it. it'd be done and up and I'd be like ha I did it!#now I'm fucked.#I'm now done venting for the night I give up sleep meds time 🤷♀️
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The greatest kindnesses you will ever receive are from absolute strangers. it will mean nothing to them and everything to you
#I just had. A transcendental experience#I’ve had a huge amount of medical debt due to referral shenanigans that has been plaguing me for the last year and a half#And this woman. She fixed it. In less than an hour#She was the kindest person I’ve ever met. She was patient and kind while I was crying & got righteously angry on my behalf#And then fixed EVERYTHING. In an hour. I have been trying to get this fixed for over a year. I work in the field.I know how much she did#She already had gone way beyond her job function and THEN she called the debt collectors with me to make sure everything got smoothed out#Like. It sounds so mundane written out but I am so serious that this meant everything to me#Never ever forget the kindness of strangers#Jesus I’m actually crying over this. I hope she knows how much she’s helped.#whispers from the ally
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no offense against baby anthony but riverdale was already being ripped part for it's 'nonsensical' choices that were a feature and not a bug so they should've just ignored vanessa's pregnancy vanessa's a tiny ass lady ya'll had options
just like several episodes of toni just pushing around her motorcycle everywhere she goes with zero explanation
school hallway? motorcycle. vixens practice? coaching from behind the motorcycle. pop's diner? how did you get that motorcycle through the single door. town walkthroughs? the feral dogs avoid me cause i'm a cool cat with.... a motorcycle. town council meeting? in case you forgot i am social working guidance counseling leader of a biker gang -motorcycle *jazz hands* 2bdr apartment with a 3 floor walkup and no elevator? why are you still with the questions m o t o r c y c l e
fangs at some point: yea i don't know how she got it in here either- no i know - it's just yeah no cheryl's still rping sarah winschester-yeah i know -no it's that's her emotional support motorcycle-look it's easier to just not question it
#honestly i dont even think the motorcycle would totally block a pregnant belly from sight vanessa's tiny but not that tiny still#the image amused me and would not leave my brain so it's y'alls problem now#but also outside of my dumb motorcycle jape#riverdale is one of the few shows i would've trusted to do this in the most unhinged way possible [complimentary]#and even without a beloved rivedalian spin#like there are so many in character options for this#not that toni's character being in character was something that was given much consideration throughout the series#but still giant bag not toni's style ok np#we got boxes of student files and alcohol crates both easy to make weigh nothing#we got guidance counselor desks and bar counters friends#hilariously over sized pom poms anyone#giant floral arrangements from her beloved#ooo a giant beehive for her queen of the bees [like the crates not like a natural one]#idfk some literal snakes? will they cover the belly? no will anyone be looking at her belly if toni is draped snakes?#idk i guess some ppl have pregnancy kinks but mostly no cause snakes *makes will smith gesture meme hand motions*#honestly compared to the vast amount of bullshit storylines that have plagued me bc an actress' real life pregnancy was written into a show#i will never complain about giant bags boxes or floral arrangements from runners and writers who are like#yeah ya know what this just isn't right for the character because yea yes thx my undying love and respect#i'm not even saying that toni's pregnancy was bad but i'm chewing through drywall thinking about what we could've had instead#toni topaz#oh riverdale you precious beautiful compulsive piece of trash
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HI TUMBLR late footnote posting before i go to bed (i took a nap today........ ate up most of my time)
not a lot to talk about with footnotes today since i was Busy and my brain wasnt working pfndkmlfd i blame seven hours of modded oneblock
#haunted ecosystem#haunted bookshelf#i might make a tag for these footnote posts? i think its a fun way to document what ive written about without sharing All of it#also yes thats a random crack au that i've have in the back of my head for a bit what about it#i dont think its canon in the slightest its just a funny little thing in my head for writing random bs#honestly i might start trying to work on more wtds stuff. this is kind of a perfect excuse#also! i think how i might work this is that if i work on a larger project during the day then i'll just do the daily prompt#since its a good exercise and an excuse to keep some kind of writing streak going#i actually asked one of my partners for a prompt since i was struggling to find an interesting one#ended up with 'last man standing' for spoke... very fitting tbh#i might write a more canon take for that. the concept i wrote down was much more set in an au than anything since i was also thinking#about asomatous zam at the same time so i kind of just incorparated both of them into it with it being paracosm-era#OH did i ever mention that i have a general title plan for the other parts of that kind of. world#its very set in stone that if i do write more it'll be two more parts#metamorphosis (5 part) and paracosm (1 part with multiple scenes. functionally 3 part maybe?)#asomatous goes in the middle of that. i need to kind of plan all of them out better and see how it wants to flow#metamorphosis was started as a concept because i had a few bad things happen bingo prompts i wanted to be used for asomatous#but didnt end up using. so metamorphosis is my excuse for that. paracosm is just a Concept thats been really plaguing me basically since i#originally wrote asomatous... i should probably come up with a temporary series title. i think something about shattering skies?#its a reoccurring theme and symbol throughout all of them....... i just think its neat#ANYWAYS goodnight to you especially if you actually read through all my tags :)
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Hello hello! Sorry to bother you, but it's been a few days after February and my writing for Villiantines hasn't been posted here yet. Should I @ you again on the post?
Hey @chaoticgoodthief!
Unfortunately both Codex and I have been foiled! Between work (smh villains gotta pay the bills somehow thanks to those pesky heroes interrupting our visit to the city bank 😒) and catching colds, we've fallen a bit behind on our reblogs.
We're hoping to have everything reblogged by Friday now that I'm on the mend and can focus on words😎
- Mod Spectre 👻
#black rose events#heroes and villains#WE'RE SO SORRY!#an answer for an ask#this is literally on me because Codex had her replies written last week and I just...kinda...slept all last week#like i worked (remotely. i might be a villain but i draw the line at spreading plagues) and then crashed hard#thank you for your patience!!
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I think I accidentally copied how my crush laughs...
#morningtalks#not the same one as my previous post. another one. I can't catch a break#but like. damn#the neurodivergence is very present#also this reminds me: I wrote a small thing last year for school about imitation and love#because I had also copied a little gesture (and some words) of one of my previous crushes (and now banished them away)#but I could try to make it into a proper thing#I honestly lied at school when I said I forgot what I had written. I just want to kinda forget it#but making it better. making it more than a thing I was forced to write in two hours for a dumb test while very very plagued by gay#that could also be very nice because what I wrote is a nice concept#well. let's add that next to my amatonormativity text I want to redo because it's a huge mess
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I know you said the message didn’t mean anything (referring to that dm you just got) but I just wanna let you know that I’m really glad your blog is here. I love seeing all your creative ideas and fics and discussing the games with you! You’re a lovely person with such a lovely brain, and I hope your day isn’t too mean to you ❤️❤️❤️
Oh Anon ;w; thank you so much!! I’m so happy you like my blog, and everything I put on here/everything that the community shares on here!! And I’m happy to have you around on this blog as well! ^^
Your message means a lot, thank you so much for the kind words and the birthday wishes!! ^^ <3
#wayward’s asks#that message came at quite a time#I was trying to remember the word ‘absense’ for the sick email I was writing and looked back up at the start of my#message and saw the notification for that#and I honestly thought part of that was something I had written for a second#why was I telling my professor to change their personality#??#occular migraines are not fun#but it’s better than it was this morning#thankfully#I MISSPELLED ABSENCE#forgive me my headache is still plaguing me haha
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in my quest to correctly explain in my lab report that the stuff we made smelled exactly like almond jello, which is apparently an english misnomer, to me, i have given up.
#the professor's wife is from china he can just ask her if what i've written is true#bc this lab was so short i now have like two hours before i have to submit it so that means i can fuck with the font A Lot#as you can see i have inserted a bunch of hyphens so that the words aren't all spaced strangely#but i will probably make the hyphen breaks happen at ugly places in the word#the worm speaks#and then i'll probably go around changing random font letters#i even have nmr data this time around so like. he better be fucking grateful#the reason i worded the final sentence as 'differences in the subjective human experience' is bc like#i didn't want to go on a tangent in the paper where i explain that the chemical probably didn't remind me of pears#bc the literature is usually written by europeans who have their nasty little soft pears#which smell different from those crispy yellow asian pears#and that almond jello does not actually smell like almonds but in fact rather fruity. bc it is not made out of almonds.#if anything i can also just be like 'well. my sense of smell just hasn't been the same since i had the plague a few years ago.'#(not really true anymore since everything smells n tastes the way i remember by now)#(but he doesn't need to know that)
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I do maintain that, if emily and tara ever got together, they’d take over the world.
#cm shit#it's fine tho the show has a strict no inter team romance rule and i respect them for enforcing it#(like. genuinely. respect for following their own self imposed law. no sarcasm.)#i can still imagine their steamy affair during the barnes era tho and nobody can stop me#it's not Romance see.#... can you Imagine how worse the shipping discourse would have been had they Not ruled out team romance??? bc yike#and as much as i'd loved to have seen luke and penelope during that date#well. i'd prefer we keep the rule.#i can Also headcanon that it went super well. so well. they ended up having Really good sex and#both of them were fairly embarrassed by this#luke got over it really fast#it took her longer.#she's still put out by this and to be petty wishes it wasn't as good as it was#insists it wasn't. it's fine he knows she's lying.#the rest of the team all kindly not mention that they know this happened#and garcia distancing herself from all the nonsense got in the way of it all and also the plague but like. yeah.#yeah i have absolutely written a backstory for their interim period in my head. no i am not ashamed.#they should get 8 german shepards and start a dog sanctuary together#it's the endgame.
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i'm not saying people shouldn't do fandom however they want, but why would you subscribe on ao3 to a fic that was clearly a standalone, published 18 years ago (in a fandom the author hasn't written for since that time)?
#fandom is serious business#fanfic i want to be better at you#yes this IS about the soppily sentimental r/s fic that plagues me; until recently it had the most hits of anything i've written#and STILL has the most kudos and gets the most consistent attention#multiple people are subscribed to it! why! it is 1/1 chapter it is completed you will never get a notification for it!
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May I just say, you're so sweet and respectful and kind and your words have made me feel a lot less alone in all this. Thank you for giving me the space to vent and discuss all these whitewashing issues and taking the time out of your day to respond. It's truly appreciated
Awwww thank you! You are very welcome anon. I'm Black, and this is my blog, so I'm not going to not talk about my lived experiences and how things like representation, whitewashing, and racism in both media and fandom affect me and others. We deserve a space to talk about these things, and I'm glad you feel comfortable doing so here :) You certainly aren't alone.
#ask#anon#bookish rambles#although I love book one and Feylin#if someone had warned me about the racism and abuse apologism and bad writing#plaguing Sarah's books I probably wouldn't have read them. As it is#I *did* read them#and although I like book 1 I don't want anyone to have any misconceptions about the kind of nonsense Sarah has written.#So I'm trying to spread awareness and give other people a heads up before they read these books#especially because I know that these issues can be triggering to some people.#and doing that involves touching on and dissecting a lot of the deeper issues such as whitewashing and a lack of representation#that plague sarah's books and fandom alike
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i want to write a play again but idk what to write it on. i run sound for this play festival that produces original student plays and oh mein gott they're so good. i NEED to get something i write produced
#does anyone have any ideas?? for me playwriting is usually something personal that reflects where i am with my life#when i had mommy issues guess what the play was about. when i was going through a breakup guess what it was.#when i had anxieties about my best friend. And so on.#idk what's plaguing me right now... me and said best friend haven't spoken in forever (since november). i miss our phone calls#but i'm not sure if that's a relationship i want to pick up again yk. maybe that's an avenue? idk#i have written many poems about the situation but i have got to write a play holy fuck
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Had a dream this morning that Archive of our Own had a Random button which would simply take you to a random fanfic, like Wikipedia has. (AO3 does not appear to really have this, I checked and couldn't find one, but I kinda wish they did.) Someone had started a game where whatever fic you got, that was your new fandom, which is very fun! I would love this meme in real life.
The problem came in where so many people used the button that it broke and just started sending everyone to Stealing Harry, and like...I have fond memories of Stealing Harry but it's not my best work and nobody should be assigned to be a Harry Potter fan in this day and age.
So I decide to go off and find Astolat and demand she fix this but when I finally did (there was a whole quest) she turned to me like the baddie in a horror flick and said, "But that's the most random story there is" in a dark voice and I was terrified and woke up.
In the cold light of day I know there are more random stories by me on the archive, let alone by others, but I'm not going to try to get back there to argue my case. Pretty sure whatever I spoke to was actually the demon specifically assigned to plague fandom and not Astolat at all.
I'd say "get thee behind me, demon" but I know just how many porny fics on AO3 begin with that premise. (I've written some.) Begone foul spirit, and take your Satanic Panic with you!
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