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holocene-sims · 5 months

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asking a bunch for grant bc im NOSY : 🌾 [RICE SHEAF] How picky is your OC with food? What will and won't they eat? 🍔 [BURGER] What would your OC put on their burger? 🥕 [CARROT] How tough is your OC against certain situations? How weak are they against others?🧅 [ONION] What is surefire to make your OC cry? Who knows of this information?

omg hi nectar 🤭 thanks for sending me some questions!!

🌾 [RICE SHEAF] how picky is your OC with food? what will and won't they eat?

grant is, like, negative picky. the only thing he doesn't really like is any kind of tea but he'll drink it if you give it to him and every once in a while, for a very special flavor, he'll approve of it. maybeeeee not like it but at least tolerate it more than usual.

so yeah!! he'll eat anything, he does not care. he enjoys cooking and baking, it's all very relaxing for him, and he likes trying new things.

however, probably large in part because he never got to eat anything fun as a child unless he was far, far away from his mother (who only ever served "rabbit food"), he does gravitate to classic american comfort cuisine as his favorite foods! stuff like macaroni and cheese, pizza, etc. he might be the #1 mac and cheese stan worldwide tbh

🍔 [BURGER] what would your OC put on their burger?

the absolute dream combo for him would probably be like standard burger patty and bread with sauerkraut and swiss cheese, maybe a fried egg for funsies, too

can you tell he's from the midwest

🥕 [CARROT] how tough is your OC against certain situations? how weak are they against others?

i truly believe grant is much, much tougher than people would at first give him credit for (or even than he would give himself credit for...)

he's been through a lot in his lifetime and he can be very critical of himself for having developed mental illness, a chronic physical illness, and for struggling with addiction in the past because he feels like it's all his fault and he wasn't strong enough to make it out "normally" (there is no normal, i just think he would use that terminology against himself). but the reality is that survival AT ALL is a huge deal and is worth celebrating, and he's very resilient to have gotten to the place he's at in life now. was it fair that he had to be resilient? no, not even remotely, but in a way, he had no choice.

so that said, i think as he's gotten a better handle on healing throughout his 20s and now 30s (yay!! we just had his birthday last update in the story!!), he's become much more unshakable. social situations are his weakest area - for example, it took him a long time to stand up to his ex and tell her to get out of his life, and it is going to take even longer for him to work out the situation with his father and confront him one way or another.

NOW what is he really good at?! handling emergencies! if you're in a car accident, he's the guy you want to be in the car with you at the time because he won't break a sweat dealing with it. he's very mechanically-minded and good with logic and problem solving, so any emergency is not even slightly going to bother him because he does know he's good at those things. he trusts himself completely as long as he can use those skills. plus, he has many years of experience in compartmentalization lol.

we could also think about his previous job (that he's attempting to get back now) here. aviation is very safe for the most part, but you have to be chill about any kind of crazy ass events happening as a pilot because the stakes are ridiculously high. grant has an advantage in the chill factor, though, because on any day of the week, he'd 100% choose flying an airplane that's on fire or literally falling apart over being in the same building, not even the same room, as his mother. in his mind, he's dealt with much worse.

🧅 [ONION] what is surefire to make your OC cry? who knows of this information?

remember the not as good with social stuff thing?

yeahhhh, it's raising your voice at him. you don't even have to yell, you can just barelyyyyyy raise it and his eyes will at least get watery. he can handle honesty, he can handle bluntness, but not anything with a tone or yelling 😥

and i think everyone knows because his emotions always show on his face. in this case, he'll get that kind of twitchy look and his face will look like it's just been completely drained of life

#asks #hlcn: oc info #hlcn: story extras #hlcn: grant #i know nothing about burgers thank you r/cooking and bon appetit for your help #you know what my dream burger would be? bun and ketchup no protein #no literally i used to take sandwich bread and ketchup to school when i was a kid *everyone immediately unfollows me*#i just love ketchup and hate when my food touches you know so i made my own cursed sandwich with only two things touching #btw one of the best days of my life was ordering imported ketchup chips from canada during the pandemic #i haven't bought them since because they were expensive as hell to ship to me but </3 i miss you ketchup chips #holocene-sims? more like holocene-adds-unnecessary-stories-in-tags

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goodnightwindy · 11 days

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mfw my fuckass crush decides to FINALLY show up to the one frequent event im almost always able to attend , tells me he's bringing me a late birthday gift bc he didn't get to see me on my birthday , and then does show up but tells me he forgot the gift and then vanishes ten minutes later and i only find out on the drive home that literally the whole time he was vaping outside the building with his fucking girlfriend

#WHY IS THIS MY LIFE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#i literally made him multiple things over the course of DAYS[!!!] that i was gonna give him tonite but i DIDNT GET THE CHANCE BECAUSE #HE FUCKING LEFT MIDWAY THROUGH.#btw i only found out where he was bc my mom told me she saw them. my MOM had to be the one to tell me where my goddamn best friend #was. are you KIDDING

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elytrafemme · 1 month

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my level of insanity over jhariah post-concert (bc ive been a fan of him for a while but seeing them live has really improved my skills in commenting on instagram reels fs) tells me that if i ever saw any other artist i liked live i would be insufferable

#i have made everyone i love listen to trust ceremony it is literally THE BEST album #and he posted a reel from a show i was at and im sooooooo normal about it #LIKE!!!!!!!!!!!! Literally one of the best days of my life ever #and i had two of my best friends there with me like RAAAAH #i need to see other artists live i have a list but like #so many either are really massive big (money :( ) or they're like. Never ever coming to my area #the day i see sarah and the safe word live ... Like might ruin me forever i NEED ITTT #(this is my first actual concert btw. I have been to two other ones but the circumstances were like severely diff)

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dimiclaudeblaigan · 9 months

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the idea of three hopes dimivain is also so funny to me tho bc dimitri goes and recruits miklan and then miklan just gets back only to find out his brother and king are Very Close and he's just like "oh god. oh no". he knows exactly what he is going to be subjected to for the rest of his life.

#DCB Comments #your king is in a relationship with your brother what do you do. nothing exactly bc u can't; ur on faerghus probation #there is nothing you can do when they start kissing on the couch in front of u #u just have to accept that the king who gave u a new life is also kissing ur brother #bUT ALSO. all the happy family stuff THINK OF ALL THE HAPPY FAMILY STUFF #miklan saved by his eventual brother in law and being able to call the literal king his brother in law #and ALSO you have all the routes to consider. sb where miklan is left with his brother in law but his brother died #gw where miklan is alive and sylvain and dimitri are together #ag where sylvain and dimitri mourn losing him together #best option: ag au where he didn't fucking die #bc even if u consider gw well matthias died so here in this house we just consider the happiest option #which is AG: He Didn't Fucking Die #miklan going into dimi's office to report smth and he just stands there dead inside when he walks in on sylvain flirting with dimi #tell me there isn't room for shenanigans with this family TELL ME THERE ISN'T #you CAN'T because there is SO MUCH ROOM. it will be HEARTWARMING and it will be FUNNY #and ONE DAY matthias will go to dimitri and be like ''thank u for helping this family recover''#AND miklan is going to be sylvain's best man at the wedding shut UP it's exactly what happens #dimivain in three hopes is absolute perfection for a lot of reasons but when u have to have miklan involved it's extra perfection #listen i warned y'all i woke up on the dimivain side of the bed (my cat was next to me maybe she woke up on the dimiclaude side)#this had nothing to do with the fic i was thinking of writing for months btw BUT that doesn't stop me from adding to my list of fics #also yes i am on the EDGE right now like i can tell i am going to sell my soul to gautier dimivain fam within the next few minutes #DCB Three Hopes Stuff

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autoneurotic · 1 year

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fuck you guys fuck everyone i’m employee of the month

#i work. fuckcjdbbdfnfj i work like fucking. at MOST. 8 days out of a month #this is so funny.#but also :)#‘our best friend rowan’ /)#i always sign off with hi it’s your best friend rowan am i good to skadoot orrrr #oh and it’s pride month? fuck yeah baby #i wanna go back in time to Rowan w a job at any point in my life and be like #check it out. you have a job. you work the partest of part time hours #at an art store (you’re an artist now btw) and you LIKE IT #you don’t DREAD going in. you like your bosses n coworkers #you’ve never had bad customer interactions and if anything have had extraordinarily sweet and fun ones #this is like. mind blowing for me. unprecedented. i’ve been working since i was newly 16 #and only just got a job that literally does not make me want to kill myself #only took fifteen years !

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reel-fear · 1 year

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one day I'll go insane and release a 234 page essay on why I love Wheatley X GLaDOS so much and its underrated and Love as a construct [link] is the best fanfiction I've ever read as long as u stop reading After chapter 26 bc imo after that it gets a bit repetitive and jumps the shark a bit and if u see the tags u might understand KJNSDFGKJNFDSD

but the very basics of it, is it's that two very bad people with a ton of truama learning to become better via each other <3. Also its weirdly disliked by a lot of portal fans for being... Abusive,,, which is hilarious considering both Wheatley and GLaDOS are canonical abusers who may regret their actions by the end sure but are still on some level very abusive people to Chell. I think that's also one of the reasons I love Gladley just bc it doesn't feel like Chell has to get into a relationship with these two people that canonically I think she's absolutely had enough of dealing with.

#ramblez #portal 2 #gladley #wheatdos #they are t4t they are both bi they both dont identify as those things bc they have no idea what they mean #they are both awful people and they love each other so much they become better #they are both the victims of their own stupid actions and truama and got countless people killed-#they both hate humans/generally do not care for them #Im just saying the fandom sleeps on it hard.#and its the like the number one portal 2 ship for me forever nothing else even compares #GLaDOS was in love with Chell and she treated her awfully time to move on bitch #Chell doesnt owe either of them a second chance shes going off to lead her own life now good for her #Wheatley is the cringe fail malewife and GLaDOS girlbosses every day #Wheatley mansplains and manipulates and GLaDOS gaslights and gatekeeps-#I literally could write an essay on that fic btw its like literally my favorite fic ever #not joking at all its one of the best pieces of fiction Ive ever read #that fic got me through so much in life #its handling of abuse both in the past and in the present oh its so good but not heavyhanded but not so subtle its unaddressed #theres so many plot points in it I just want to disect and talk abt but I dont wanna spoil it here so AAAAA idk maybe for another post-#I also wanted to rant on how Wheatley is in fact an awful and really mean person and the fandom doesnt really address that a lot #but like I've said omg this post is getting long already for another time maybe-

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iishmael · 7 months

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god im having a day where im very disillusioned with the human race as a whole (re: my research)

#people were just as shitty in the past as we are today #imagine ur enslaving a people. then the people figures out a climate adaptation strategy in their pastoralism #you realise ur slaves are doing much better in the changing climate than you are. what do you do? ofc! you kill them!#people literally suck so much #this is not about america btw #and its also not about present day climate change #i am currently doing my archaeology associations justice lmaoooo #but ugh hoenstly just throw the whole human race in the bin #im using this theory to frame my research that humans are just as important as any other part of the wider environment #which entails a LOT more than ur currently thinking #(human life is worth the same as the existence of a rock. think about that for a hot minute! its cool af but also difficult)#anyway im on the brink of saying the best adaptation strategy would be to just shoot the humans into space and let them suffocate #its one of Those days sorry #OBVIOUSLY I AM NOT SERIOUS ETC ETC I AM JUST VENTING #dear god i hope no one i work with will ever ever find my tumblr but i had to get this off my chest lmaooooo #shut up sam

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thelostboys87 · 8 months

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you know the writing session gonna be good when you gotta read through cleanness passages first

#researching oral sex BEST DAY OF MY LIFE #when i spent weeks literal weeks being like i wanna write the sex bit but i have to write the start of the bar scene first....bitch!#you can write the fun stuff first and then everything around it #one thing i love about garth and also brandon taylor btw is the way they draw attention to like #the little parts of sex people probably see as bridging moments. like how you have to step out of your jeans #the parts that feel like interruptions if you look at sex a certain way #like garth taking time to draw attention to the undressing process in a way that does feel intimate #brandon taylor does that too sometimes where i feel he draws attention to the after a lot. like sometimes #people dont really want to talk about how you have to clean up after. go to the bathroom. but he did that a bit in the late americans #INTERESTING TO ME!#WANT TO CHANNEL THAT

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theyluvkarolina · 2 months

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Pook I know this might be extremely detailed, but can I request one where its max and reader but reader and max used to date and now max is with a new girl? But reader is still in love with him? Social media type layout? Sorry if that's like heavily detailed, btw love your Lando x reader (specifically the one with the pizza date thing.)

𝐈’𝐋𝐋 𝐋𝐄𝐓 𝐘𝐎𝐔 𝐁𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐊 𝐌𝐘 𝐇𝐄𝐀𝐑𝐓 𝐀𝐆𝐀𝐈𝐍

Part One , Part Two `` 𝐆𝐄𝐓 𝐇𝐈𝐌 𝐁𝐀𝐂𝐊! ``

· . ୨୧⭒๋࣭ ⭑ ` ` one day, i will stop falling in love with you. ` ` ⊹ ‧₊˚

𝐒𝐔𝐌𝐌𝐀𝐑𝐘 ୨୧ Max and Y/N were the best couple on the paddock. Until, things came crashing down after Max says “I want to focus on my career” only to find himself with a new girl. And it hurts so much.

𝐒𝐎𝐍𝐆 ୨୧ Let You Break My Heart Again - Laufey

𝐏𝐀𝐈𝐑𝐈𝐍𝐆 ୨୧ Ex!Max Verstappen x Fem!Reader

𝐖𝐀𝐑𝐍𝐈𝐍𝐆𝐒 ୨୧ angsty? (I hope it is 😭), potential cheating, unrequited love, max is being a asshole (i promise i still love him @maxtermind)

𝐀/𝐍 ୨୧ ahhh tysm for the love! I appreciate it sm! i’m so sorry your request took so long, things have been hectic 😭 also, photos of kelly will be blurred because i won’t be using her as the new gf. I just made up some random girl name for the new gf (Annelise Beringer) lol. enjoy!!

part 2??? 🤭🤭

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y/n.l/n girls night :)

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alexandrasaintmleux 🩷 👭

→ y/n.l/n ✔︎ the love of my life 🥹 → charles_leclerc ✔︎ that is my girlfriend??? → y/n.l/n ✔︎ not anymore. my gf, my dog, and my house now leclerc. → charles_leclerc ✔︎ SINCE WHEN DID YOU TAKE CUSTODY OF MY DOG?? AND WE ARE LETTING YOU SAY HERE FOR FREE??

username1 if there’s a girls night, you know you fucked up.

username2 i hope y/n is okay :(

→ username3 i mean, leaving someone after 8 years hurts, i doubt she would recover from this for a while.

username4 stop the girls hanging out to cheer her up 🙁🙁

rebeccadonaldson ✔︎ we have to do this more often ❤️

→ y/n.l/n ✔︎ as long as it’s not under my circumstances i’m all for it 😩 → username5 Y/N 😭😭 → username6 what in the world did max do to her 💀 → lilymunihe ✔︎ GIRL. → fransica.cgomes ✔︎ i think another girls night is in order. → y/n.l/n ✔︎ @ pierregasly control you’re girl before she drags me to every store possible to cheer me up. → pierregasly ✔︎ sorry. kika wears the pants in this relationship. → charles_leclerc ✔︎ don’t worry mate, we can tell.

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username7 i’m so happy the girls are there to support y/n after what max did :(

→ username8 especially after the rumors now circulating… poor girl → username9 rumors??? what rumors??!? → username10 based off the rumors, Max’s dad wasn’t happy with him dating Y/N. Something about her being too “normal”. And instead wants Max to be with a dutch-german actress named Annelise Beringer. the whole “we want to focus on our careers” is a cover up story. This all being before Max’s home race in Zandvoort. → username11 that’s actually so sad if true… y/n deserves better. do you know if max ever put up a fight for their relationship??? → username10 that I don’t know… but I hope he did…

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lilymunihe ✔︎ men suck guys

Liked by y/n.l/n!

→ alexalbon ✔︎ uhmmm i’m right here?? → lilymunihe ✔︎ uhmm… i said what i said?? → alexalbon ✔︎ defend me here @ pierregasly → fransica.cgomes ✔︎ pierre literally stood me up in a restaurant? → pierregasly ✔︎ kika, first of all i did not stand you up, second of all, I left to go to the bathroom for 5 minutes? → fransica.cgomes ✔︎ he hates me guys 😭😭😭 → username11 I CAN’T WITH THESE COMMENTS

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maxverstappen1 another race, another podium! 🏆 (Might get Jimmy and Sassy a new sibling 😆 )

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username12 who tf is that second hand Max Emillian Verstappen.

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redbullracing ✔︎ once again! 👏

→ username17 how to make red bull stop winning 🧑‍💻 → redbullracing ✔︎ not possible! 😉 → scuderiaferrari ✔︎ crash into them → redbullracing ✔︎ … i think i’m going to stay far away from you guys next race.

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charlesleclerc ✔︎ oh how wonderful 🙂

→ username18 bro does NOT approve → username19 THE SARCASM…

alexandrasaintmleux how..lovely!

→ rebeccadonaldson ✔︎ …cute! → fransica.cgomes ✔︎ wow!! 🤯 → lilymunihe✔︎ awww!! (i’m puking) → username20 the bf effect 💀

annelise.beringer ✔︎ mijn liefje 💋

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username21 y/n is right there.

Liked by y/n.l/n! Unliked by y/n.l/n! → username22 UHMMMM??? y/n what are you doing here???

username23 anyone else feel like this is all a PR stunt??

→ username24 I THOUGHT I WAS THE ONLY ONE??? → username25 no bc max could never move that fast from a relationship… especially one as long as 8 years…

username26 not the hard launch 😬

landonorris ✔︎ who?

→ username27 LANDO.

username28 how about… no!!

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𝐀/𝐍 2 ୨୧ tee hee!

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dolene · 3 months

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GET BACK ON TRACK ; charles leclerc x reader

summary: after carlos's wedding announcement is everywhere and taking over your entire life, you decided to break the slump and getting back on track by moving on.

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yourusername Happy wedding to the beloved couple!! I wish you the best years of love and a great future together ever after 💗

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danielricciardo Congratulations, and don't forget to spare the wine! 😄

alex_albon Lily and I wished you both a joyful wedding and a happy life! Don't forget about Lando, though.

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charles_leclerc Congratulations to the happy couple! Glad to be there and watch the sweet moments unveiled.

pierregasly The two of you were looking so sweet together. I hope I can make a good uncle in the future 😁🤣

carlossainz55 It's far still away from that and you're already thinking of that is insane

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olivianyx · 6 months

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OMGG I JUST GOT RESULTS WITHOUT BEATING MYSELF UP WITH ROUTINES 😭 + RANT ✨

HEYY LUVS! I JUST WANNA SHARE MY RESULTS I MANIFESTED WITHIN 2-3 DAYS! THIS YEAR'S GONNA BE MY BEST YEAR Y'ALL ✋AND GUESS WHAT I DID? NOTHING. LITERALLY NOTHING. NUH-UH. PERIODT.

⚠ LONG POST AHEAD, SWEARING ⚠

WHAT I MANIFESTED:

🪄 PASSING MY FRESHMAN YEAR WITH HIGH SCORES

🪄 MY FAMILY BOUGHT A NEW APARTMENT WHICH WERE PREPARING TO MOVE IN 3 WEEKS

🪄 ME GETTING INTO THE VOID STATE 😭 AND MANIFESTED CLEAR SKIN! (DAYUM GETTING INTO THE VOID IS DEFO VERY EASY OMGG)

🪄 GETTING LESS ANXIOUS LATELY!

🪄 MY GASTRITIS AND ULCERITIS GETTING CURED

🪄 GETTING MORE COMPLIMENTS IN MY UNI!

🪄 GETTING TALLER! I WENT FROM 5'3" TO 5'7" IN 2 DAYS 😭😭

🪄 GETTING DREAMS OF ME SHIFTING TO MY WR 🥺 (ACTUALLY RESPAWNING LOL, AS THIS THING IS REALLY CONTROVERSIAL IN HERE, PLEASE DON'T GET ME CANCELLED- I'M DOING DEATHLESS RESPAWNING ✋)

🪄 MY MIND IS SURPRISINGLY CALM 😌 THERE'S STILL INTRUSIVE THOUGHTS THO (THOSE ARE ANNOYING ASS BITCHES) BUT I JUST IGNORE EM LIKE I IGNORE PEOPLE AT SCHOOL 🗿

🪄 GOT MANY CONFESSIONS TOO 😭 AND I REJECTED EM ALL, CUS I JUST WANT TO BE SINGLE FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE ✋🗿 JK

🪄 GETTING COOL CLOTHES THAT MY MOM DENIED A LOTTA TIMES! (ACTUALLY I'VE ORDERED EM BUT STILL HAVEN'T SHIPPED TO MY ADDRESS YET LOL)

🪄 MY CRUSH BECOMING CLOSE TO ME HEHE 🤭 LIKE SHE DOESN'T CARE ABOUT ME MUCH, BUT LATELY SHE'S BEEN TOO CLOSE TO ME AND ALWAYS WANNA BE WITH ME LOL, 3 DAYS BACK SHE AND I WALKED HOME TOGETHER, WHILE WE GRABBED SOME SNACKS, SPOKE ABT EACH OTHER AND ALL (I FELT LIKE BEING IN A SHOUJO MANGA 😩)

🪄 A NEW PHONE! THAT SAMSUNG GALAXY S22 😩

I MANIFESTED EVERYTHING WITHIN 3 DAYS 😭 I REALLY CAN'T BELIEVE MY EYES, JUST. 3. FUCKING. DAYS. GODDAMMIT.

HOW I DID IT:

JUST FULFILLED IT IN MY IMAGINATION

YEP, YOU HEARD THAT RIGHT. I LIVED IN THE 4D REALITY, I NEVER GAVE A SHIT ABOUT THE 3D AT ALL. OK LEMME BREAK IT DOWN FOR Y'ALL SO JUST PAY ATTENTION FROM HERE ONWARDS.

🪄 SUPPOSE SOMETHING UNDESIRABLE OR UNFAVORABLE CIRCUMSTANCES ARE HAPPENING IN YOUR 3D. WHO'S THE CAUSE FOR THAT? YOU. 'BUT I DIDN'T IMAGINE OR THINK OF THESE 😭' BABY, YOU'RE THE SOLE CAUSE, EFFECT, AND THE SOLUTION. THERE'S NO OTHER EXPLANATION TO THIS.

🪄 AS WE ALL KNOW, 3D IS A MIRROR. RIGHT? WHATEVER YOU THINK ABOUT, YOUR ASSUMPTIONS, YOUR THOUGHTS, YOUR FEELINGS, YOUR PERSPECTIVE EVERYTHING WILL BE REFLECTED. SO WHY NOT THINK THE WAY YOU WANT SO YOU CAN EXPERIENCE THE SAME? GET IT.

🪄 IF YOU WANT TO CHANGE THE 3D, CHANGE YOUR 4D FIRST. CHANGE YOUR PERSPECTIVE TO HOW YOUR DESIRED SELF WOULD SEE THE WORLD. KEEP DWELLING IN IT. IF THE 3D SHOWS UNFAVORABLE CIRCUMSTANCES, DON'T FUCKING GET TRIGGERED. GO BACK TO YOUR IMAGINATION AND DENY YOUR SENSES.

🪄 EVERYTIME YOU SEE SOMETHING ELSE IN THE 3D, GO 'BRUHH THIS IS MY OLD STORY, I ALREADY HAVE WHAT I WANT, THIS IS JUST FAKE' AND MOVE ON. DISTRACT YOURSELF. CUS THE 3D WORLD WHICH YOU SEE IS AN ILLUSION, IT'S NOT REAL. IT'S YOUR CREATION, WHY WOULD YOU TRY TO CONTROL WHAT YOU CREATED? IT'S ALREADY IN CONTROL. YOU ONLY GOTTA REALISE YOUR GODSELF. YOU ARE THE CREATOR, NOT THE CREATION. STOP FUCKING VICTIMIZING YOURSELF.

🪄 I GET IT THAT MOST OF THE PEOPLE ARE CONFUSED BETWEEN LAW OF ASSUMPTION AND NON DUALISM. EVEN I WAS, BUT SLOWLY I REALISED THAT WE'RE ALL NOTHING. WE'RE JUST LIVING IN OUR OWN CREATIONS. VICTIMIZING OURSELVES IN OUR OWN CREATIONS. IRONIC RIGHT?

🪄 THOSE THOUGHTS, ANXIETY, FEELINGS, EMOTIONS ARE ALL IN YOUR PHYSICAL REALM. YOUR MIND, YOUR BODY, YOUR EGO EVERYTHING IS NO REAL, WE ASSUME IT TO BE. WE'RE ARE SHAPELESS, FORMLESS, WE'RE NOTHING! AND EVERYTHING AT THE SAME TIME. CUS EVERYTHING COMES DOWN TO ONE THING, I AM.

🪄 K Y'ALL MIGHT BE SUPER CONFUSED, WHAT I'M TRYNA INFUSE IN YOUR BRAINS. SO WHAT YOU DO IS, LIVE IN YOUR 4D.HOW? IMAGINATION. NO MATTER WHAT YOU SEE IN YOUR 3D, GO BACK TO YOUR IMAGINATION, AFFIRM OR VISUALISE. ANYTHING IS FINE BTW. JUST STAY IN THE STATE OF WISH FULFILLED.

🪄 STOP RELYING ON METHODS, FUCK THEM. JUST BE. DON'T TRY TO CHANGE SOMETHING WHEN YOU ALREADY HAVE THEM. JUST STOP, SURRENDER, STOP FIGHTING, STOP TRYING SO HARD WHEN YOUR ALREADY IT. SO GO LIVE IN YOUR IMAGINATION, FULLY SURRENDER. DO THINGS WHICH YOU LIKE. GO LIVE YOUR LIFE. TAKE YOUR POWER BACK.

LIKE AREN'T YOU TIRED? TRAPPED IN YOUR OWN CREATIONS? YOU CREATED THEM, YOU HAVE THE POWER TO CHANGE WHATEVER. TELL ME HOW LONG ARE YOU GONNA LIVE THIS BULLSHIT LIFE? YOU'RE REALLY GETTING COMFORTABLE BEING UNCOMFORTABLE. SO LISTEN UP, DO WHAT YOU LOVE, AFFIRM, VISUALISE, OR DAYDREAM, ZONE OUT, WHATEVER. ALL I DID WAS DO THIS MEDITATION IN THE MORNING, WENT ABOUT MY DAY WATCHING JUJUTSU KAISEN LMAO. THEN RANDOMLY AFFIRM, LIVED IN MY 4D, NEVER PAYED ANY FUCKING ATTENTION TO MY 3D, CUS I'M GOD. I REALLY LOVE VISUALISING, SO I PUT ON A SONG AND START DAYDREAMING IN MY ROOM SMILING LIKE AN IDIOT. ALSO, I DID SATS BEFORE GOING TO BED. THAT'S IT. THAT'S ALL I DID FOR 3 FUCKING DAYS, AND GOT WHAT EVER I WANT. ALSO I MADE A CUSTOM TAPE TOO (IT'S A GENERAL SELF CONCEPT ONE) I LISTENED TO IT FOR 30 MINS AND JUST WENT ABOUT MY DAY THINKING I HAD WHATEVER I FUCKING DESIRE, CUS IT'S ALL MY CREATIONS AND I HAVE IT ALREADY. THERE'S NOTHING TO GET, IT'S ALREADY IN ME.

LUV YOU, BYE 💋

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⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀❛ 𝓢𝐎𝐌𝐄𝐎𝐍𝐄 𝓔𝐋𝐒𝐄’𝐒 𝓑𝐀𝐁𝐘. ❜

ઇ ˚ ݂ ֹ ꒰ dilf!miguel 𝓍 babysitter!reader ꒱ ! ۟ ׅ ♡

ׄ ׅ ྀ 𝓢𝐔𝐌𝐌𝐀𝐑𝐘. your next door neighbor is need of a babysitter for his nine year old daughter and you take the position. one day while babysitting, you stumble upon your neighbor’s younger brother. you two developed a close bond that your neighbor isn’t very fond of. in fact, he despises it.

ׄ ׅ ྀ 𝓒𝐎𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐍𝐓. modern!au, age gap (miguel is 29, reader is 23), love triangle, angst, jealousy, lowkey possessiveness, some fluff, swearing, heavy arguments, hispanic/latina!reader

ׄ ׅ ྀ 𝓛𝐎𝐕𝐄 𝓝𝐎𝐓𝐄. finally indulge in this idea lmao. btw i headcanon gabriel’s voice is pedro pascal’s because of this video. enjoy some gabriel content because he needs love too. ♡

miguel needs help. specifically, a babysitter.

his job at alchemax has been very demanding lately, leaving him unable to be with his daughter gabriella. he would ask his brother gabriel but he’s busy with his own life. there is only one solution left.

you, his lovely beautiful neighbor.

when he asks you to babysit, it was a surprise honestly. you didn’t expect from your neighbor to ask such a question since you two rarely speak. only say ‘hello’ or ‘goodnight’ when passing through the halls. miguel knew you were a responsible, caring woman due to your devotion to your job and how kind you are. he was captivated the minute he first saw you.

he promises to pay well, despite your many objections. you even said you’re willing to watch gabriella for free since your job is paying you well enough. as the stubborn man is he, miguel heavily insisted to pay you. unfortunately, you didn’t win the argument and obey his wishes. just this once.

“i should be home by 9:30, 10:00 the latest. gabriella should be already in bed by then.”

you nod with a soft smile. “no problem.”

footsteps can be heard, approaching quickly.

“hi! i made you a picture!” gabriella runs into the kitchen and holds of a drawing of a lotus flower.

your mouth drops and eyes widen in astonishment. “whoa. that’s amazing!” you gently take the drawing from her and examine it. “wow, you really drew this?” you flip it around and point at the drawing.

she nods eagerly with a wide grin. “yep!”

“dude, you have amazing artistic abilities. this is literally the best lotus flower drawing i’ve ever seen. thank you.” you hug the drawing to your chest.

miguel, on the other hand, has a big smile on his face as he watches you two interact. you already started the job and gabi already likes you.

“you’re welcome! do you like monster high?”

“oh my god yes! i loved it so much when i was a kid.” you said with much enthusiasm.

“yay! let’s go to my room so you can see my dolls!” without hesitation, gabriella takes your wrist and takes you to her room. running away like a princess and a queen to the castle.

miguel remains speechless but smiling, left alone in the kitchen. well, this is going to be just fine. how friendly you’re towards gabi and matching her energy puts a smile on his face. a warm sensation in his chest. he knew you were the perfect choice.

later that day, miguel arrives home exactly at 9:30 like he said. he comes home to a slightly dimmed living room. you sitting comfortably on the couch reading a book with just the table lamp as the only source of light. the sound of the door closing and keys jingling makes you look up from your book.

“buenas tardes. gabi is asleep like promised.” you flash him a quick smile before looking back at your book and continue reading.

“gracias.” he shows his appreciation with a smile. sipping off his shoes and hanging his jacket on the coat hanger, miguel ventures to the kitchen. “how did it go?” he asks while washing his hands.

“great. gabi showed me her monster high collection. she has way more dolls than i did when i was her age. we played with them then did some drawing and watched pixar movies.” you elaborate.

drying his hands with a towel then tossing it in the sink, miguel walks over and joins you on the couch. sitting on the opposite side of you. “that’s great. i’m glad you two had a great time.”

“we did. she’s an amazing kid.” you said sweetly, flashing a smile at him.

“thank you.” he replied softly. his eyes fall onto your book. “how far are you in?”

“halfway through. i just bought it yesterday and i couldn’t put it down. murder mystery is my favorite genre.” you glance back at your book.

“halfway? wow, it must be very interesting.” miguel is genuinely impressed. it looks like a thick book, meaning a lot of pages and you’re already halfway through it. you like to read, he takes note of that.

he also takes note of how comfortable you look on his couch. knees up to your chest to support your book. the armrest against your back so the lamp hits your book. you sink in the cushions so comfortably, making you relax. the sight makes his chest warm. a sight that paints a smile on his face.

so relaxed and peaceful.

after reading the last sentence and of the page, you place your bookmark and close your book. “welp, it’s time for me to head out. goodnight, señor.” you flash him one more smile before getting up and head towards the front door to put on your shoes.

“wait—“ miguel rises from the couch and quickly follows you. “your payment.” grabbing several bucks from his wallet, he hands them to you.

your eyes widen when you realize how much it is. “$200? no offense, señor, but you’re crazy. it’s just babysitting.” you refuse kindly, softly chuckling.

“no te procupes, querida. you deserve it, you helped me tonight and i want to express my gratitude so please, take it.” miguel pleads.

“señor o’hara, i can’t—“

“pro favor, querida. and it’s miguel.”

you quietly sigh, feeling defeated. it’s too much money, especially for babysitting. you can’t accept it but those brown pleading eyes make your heart flutter. they remind you of puss in boots. “$40.”

“$100.” he grins a little.

“miguel.” you said a bit sternly, raising a brow.

“querida.” he matches your tone, still grinning.

you let out another sigh. “ay dios mio, okay. but just this once, vale?” you gently take the cash from him and put it in your mini purse.

“can’t make promises, querida.” a mischievous smirk gracing his lips.

you shake your head, smiling. “well, thank you. buenas noches.” you smile before opening the door.

“buenas noches, querida.” miguel said softly as he follows you then stops at the door.

you two share a smile one last time before you walk to your apartment right next door. once you’re inside, miguel closes his door and locks it.

he can’t wait for you to babysit more.

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the more you continue babysitting, you and miguel get to know one another. a bond blossomed between you two. those late night chitchats continued. talking about what you and gabi did that day. discussing whatever book you’re reading. sharing about each other’s childhoods, families, high school and college experiences. ranting about shitty coworkers.

miguel learned you have older siblings with tons of kids. it makes sense why you’re more chill but still mature like an aunt would be. however, he still sees some motherly traits in you. how you panicked when gabriella fell off her scooter and scraped her knee pretty badly. how you tend to her wound with such tenderness like a worried mother. giving her a kiss on the forehead after reading her a story before bed. helping her get ready for picture day at school, dressing her up in a baby pink dress with daisies that you bought for her. oh gabriella was so happy that day because you helped her get ready. she loved the dress so much, her favorite. all those little things made miguel’s heart swoon. how attentive you are, providing kindness and love. it made miguel fall for you more than he already does.

you enjoy each other’s company. each night, you find yourselves sitting closer inch by inch. almost to the point of sitting right next to each other, faces merry apart. thighs lightly touching each other. those longing gazes, especially when one wasn’t looking.

miguel has been infatuated with you since he met you. his feelings grew stronger with this babysitting routine and late night conversations.

you are charmed by miguel. handsome, determined, intelligent and an amazing father. you admire his devotion for his daughter and intelligent in genetics. however, you remind yourself to not give into temptation. this is solely a routine to help out your neighbor, nothing more. you don’t even care for the money, you care about helping miguel and adore hanging out with gabriella. she’s like another niece to you. the o’hara’s are like a second family.

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you and gabriella are pretending to make food with her plastic kitchen set. you’re both in princess costumes from playing princesses earlier. while in the middle of playing, you hear the door open.

“donde esta mi—“

quickly turning around, you find a man who isn’t miguel but relatively similar standing at the door with wide eyes and mouth dropped open. he’s handsome, same level of handsome as miguel. brown hair accompanied with a pair of googles on his head. wearing striped scarf despite the hot ass weather of summer. you’re immediately mesmerized by him, and he with you. you two stare at each other for a moment before gabriella gets up and runs over to the man in excitement, snapping you both out of trance.

“tío!” she squeals, jumping into his arms.

“h-hola mija!” he quickly wraps his arms around her into a hug. “how’s my favorite niece?” he crouches after she lets go of him to be at her level.

“i’m your only niece.” she deadpans.

the man chuckles, patting gabi’s head which makes her giggle. “still, my favorite.” his eyes move to you, now standing back up. “uh… hi.” he said shyly.

“hi.” you match his tone, rising up from the floor. a wave of self-conscious hits you when you realize you’re still in the princess costume. hints of blush stains your cheeks due to embarrassment.

to gabriel, you look cute in it.

“i-i’m gabriel.” the man offers his hand, which is a calmly due to nervousness.

oh now you know who he is.

“oh so you’re the brother.” a grin spreads across your face as you gentle shake his hand.

“and you’re the babysitter.” he grins as well.

you softly giggle as you tell your name. so this is miguel’s younger brother, the famous gabriel. the brother gabriella is named after. wow, he is literally so handsome. of course he is, he’s related to miguel. but if you’re gonna be honest, gabriel is more attractive. it’s unclear why but you’re so mesmerized by him. just looking at him makes your heart beat faster.

you’re not the only one. gabriel believes the most beautiful woman stands in front of him. a literal fucking goddess. you are the definition of ethereal. your beauty stole his breath away. leaving him so speechless and utterly captivated.

quickly snapping out of trance, you awkwardly clear your throat. “well… since tío is here, i guess i’m not needed here anymore.” it makes sense since gabriel is here and possibly watch gabriella until miguel arrives so they can hang out as a family.

“no!” both gabriella and gabriel panic.

“please don’t go! i want you to stay!” she pleads.

“you don’t need to leave! i-i’m just stopping by to say hi. i forgot miguel works today so it’s my fault.” gabriel chuckles awkwardly, starching the back of his neck. “i’ll just come back another time.”

“no!” now you’re the one to panic. “you can stay until miguel gets home. besides, i think your little name twin wants you to stay.” you gesture at gabriella.

but you too want him to stay.

gabriel is utterly stunned. honestly, he doesn’t want to after meeting the most gorgeous being. “yeah, that sounds fine. i wanted to stay anyways.” he said wholeheartedly, staring into your eyes.

that final phrase makes your heart flutter.

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surprisingly, miguel got off earlier today. he was a bit confused at first but immediately agreed since now he can spend time with you and gabi. a bright smile on his face as he unlocks the door. he was expecting gabriella to come running to greet him like usual but she doesn’t. but what really captures his attention is two familiar voices coming from the kitchen. slipping off his shoes and hanging up his coat, miguel ventures over to the kitchen and his heart drops.

you and gabriel on either side of kitchen island, smiling at each other as you talk. you giggling at whatever the hell gabriel is talking about. he can see that hint of blush on your cheeks. how you shyly smile at gabriel. miguel knows his brother, he’s flirting with you and apparently you are into it.

a big frown settles on miguel’s face. a sudden burst of jealousy boils in his blood. oh he does not like the sight in front of him. part of him wants walk up and tell gabriel to fuck off or say he’s too much of a distraction. his fists curled up into balls at his sides as gabriel moves closer towards you, now almost next to each other. miguel silently seethes.

“papí!” the sweet voice of gabriella snaps him out of anger. the frown immediately vanished and is replaced with a smile when he sees his little girl. it also makes you and gabriel to turn around.

“hola, mi princesa.” miguel crouches and embraces his daughter with a tight bear hug.

“you’re home early!” she exclaims.

“si, i wanted to come home early to see you.” he was telling the half truth. of course he wanted to see you as well but not when his own brother beats him to it. he lets go of gabi and stands up, looking at you and gabriel. “i wasn’t expecting to see you, hermanito.”

“i wanted to stop by and say hi. i forgot you worked today.” the younger o’hara chuckles as he walks up to miguel and pulls him into a hug.

concealing his jealousy, miguel hugs his brother back with a aggressive pat on the back. “well, i appreciate you stopping by. it’s always nice to see you.”

not nice to see you snuggled up against my (girl) babysitter, miguel thought.

gabriel reciprocates with a back pat. “you didn’t tell me you have a literal goddess in the house.” pulling back form the hug, he winks at you.

“ay stop it.” you giggle shyly, blushing.

one of miguel’s eye twitches.

“¿qué?” gabriel chuckles. “i’m just being honest.”

you shake your head. “you’re being ridiculous.”

as much as miguel loves your sweet laugh, he doesn’t like the fact he isn’t the one making you laugh but his own brother instead.

god does he hate it.

“well, it seems you two got along quickly.” miguel said through gritted teeth, fake smiling.

“we really did.” gabriel stands beside you, his gaze locked on yours. “like a click of a button.”

you nod with a soft smile, gazing up at him. “yeah.”

you two stare at each other, utterly lost in one’s gaze while miguel seethes internally. he wants you to look at him like that. your gorgeous eyes meet his own. utterly mesmerized and dazed. at all the times he looks at you, he’s looking at the most precious gem in the world and wants to admire you for eternity. however, he isn’t the only one who thinks the same.

as shitty of a brother he is for thinking like this, miguel lowkey wanted gabriel to leave after he said he wanted to stay for dinner because you were staying. of course he loves his little brother but goddamnit he wants to slap gabriel on the head for endlessly flirting with you the entire evening. he offered to cook and guessed who helped him? you because you couldn’t deny those puppy eyes. oh miguel wanted to die. watching you and his brother cooking together as if you were a married couple. he wanted to be gabriel in that moment. deep down inside, he felt like a sad puppy.

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the nightmare continues on.

now gabriel visits more often just to see you and that pisses off miguel. of course he loves his brother visiting to spend more time, or more so making up time for not visiting often. but miguel wasn’t expecting to you and him get along so well.

a little too well, in miguel’s opinion.

when you weren’t babysitting and gabriel stops by, he immediately asks for you.

“donde esta la señorita?” the younger o’hara grins as enters the kitchen where miguel is, currently making breakfast for gabriella.

his jaw clenched, his grip on the spatula tightens a little. “trabajando, she won’t be off until later tonight.” miguel continues cooking, not meeting his brother’s gaze. he secretly hopes gabriel will be gone by the time you arrive home.

“well, i’ll just wait for her then till she gets back. imma go say hi a mi sobrina.”

the spatula could’ve broke if miguel applied more pressure on his grip. he lets out a breath he didn’t know he was holding since he hears gabriel’s footsteps fade away. now alone in the kitchen dealing with his boiling jealousy.

gabriel kept his word when you arrive home. he caught you walking up to your apartment and greets you with a smile. miguel remained inside but he can hear your excitement to see his brother, not him. you two babble about each other’s day while miguel continues seething in silence. he decides to distract himself by putting gabriella to bed.

“i think tío gabriel and her like each other.”

that statement makes miguel’s heart stop for a moment. gabi has witnessed the endless flirting between you and him. unlike her father, she likes the idea of you and gabriel together.

“why do you think that, mija?” miguel asks softly, concealing his jealousy.

“because tío gabriel is always making her laugh and smile. they hug a lot and sit next to each other all the time. they seem happy together.” she smiles.

goddamnit. it’s truth and miguel despises it.

“well, they’re good friends to each other.”

gabi shakes her head. “no, they’re like a couple. they like like each other, papí.”

his heart aches at that statement. he knows gabriel does but do you like like him? do you find his younger brother more attractive than him? are you more interested in gabriel than him? fuck, these negative thoughts consume his poor mind.

a soft sigh welded his lips. “well… maybe. buenas noches, mi cielo.” miguel plants a gently kiss on her forehead then lifts off the bed to tuck her in.

“buenas noches, papí. tell tío gabriel and miss i said goodnight too, please!”

he sighs, dreading to see you two possibly snuggled up together. but he’ll do it for gabi. “of course.” one final kiss on the forehead then he exits the room, gently closing the door after him.

is gabriella right? he hopes not.

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unfortunately, she was right indeed.

“i’m going to ask her on a date.”

oh miguel is fucking lost it. not only jealousy boiling in his blood but anger as well. he can’t do this. he can’t ask you on a date. miguel saw you first, not gabriel. as bad and weird as it sounds, miguel was infatuated with you form the beginning. it was just you and miguel, plus gabriella. it was a little trio.

those late night chats over coffee was what he seeks for after a long, exhausting day at work. step into his home filled with such coziness you provided. to see your pretty face at the end of the day. a face he loves to come home to. you’re everything he wants in a partner. the perfect mother figure for gabriella. he was afraid to initiate anything out of fear of overstepping boundaries. afraid you don’t share the same feelings. afraid you’d stop babysitting if he confessed. however, it was much more than that.

his own brother stepping in, replacing him. having those late nights with you. taking care of gabi together, as a new trio. it makes miguel’s heart ache. upset that you chose his brother over him. pissed off at gabriel for snatching you from him.

the jealousy continues bubbling inside of him. invading his body like a poison. he’s at the verge of exploding. he can’t take it anymore.

“no, you’re not.” miguel said sternly.

that statement confuses gabriel. his eyebrows furrowed. “what do you mean ‘no’?”

fists curled up into a ball at his sides. his frown deepens as miguel takes a step closer. “you’re not going to ask her on date. ¿entiendes?” he sounds so intimidating, almost threatening.

now gabriel’s frown deepens as well. “¿como que no? what’s your problem?”

he takes another step closer, almost face-to-face. “my problem is you’re too much of a fucking distraction. you can never leave her alone without your whiny ass following her like a damn dog.”

“i’m a distraction?! cómo friegas, miguel! she likes me and i like her! i want to ask her out so i can ask her to be my girlfriend!” gabriel exclaims.

oh that sentence broke hell loose.

miguel grabs gabriel by the scarf and yanks him closer, a little aggressive which elicits a groan from the younger o’hara. “she’s not going to be your girlfriend. she’ll never be your girlfriend and you’ll never ask her because she’s mine.”

he watch his brother’s eyes widen in shock. fuck, he realized what he said.

“you jealous prick. i knew you had a thing for her. all this fucking time, i knew.” gabriel yanks off his hand from his scarf and pulls back.

miguel was about to speak but gabriel cuts him off.

“do you realize how fucking crazy you sound? she’s yours? what the fuck is wrong with you, miguel?! that’s fucking creepy!”

panic begins settling in his veins. “i-i didn’t mean it like that, i was—“

“then what, miguel?! you’re so fucking in love with her but didn’t have the balls to say it?! you lost your fucking chance!”

“YOU ALWAYS FUCKING WIN!”

it immediately went silent. a staring contest between the two rivaling brothers.

“you always win.” miguel croaks, shoulders slumped. “you’ve always get the woman. you’ve always been in a good relationship and even ended on good terms after the breakup. a non-toxic relationship. you have always won and never let me win. dana was the fucking devil and i never knew gabriella’s mother.”

gabriel remained silent, utterly speechless but also feels immense guilt for his brother. it’s true, dana was a horrible toxic person and gabriella was left on miguel’s doorstep in a basket with no information about the biological mother.

miguel mentioned your name ever so softly. “she’s been the person i’ve been seeking for so long. someone who treats and cares for gabi with love and kindness, like a fucking mother would. someone that gabi can do girl things with, to have a mother figure in her life. someone who leaves me leftovers when i come home late because she thinks about me. someone who i can have a honest conversation with. someone who makes me feel appreciated and cared for. she’s everything i ever wanted.”

gabriel feels like the most horrible person on the planet. those tearful eyes makes his heart ache painfully. all this time, he never knew this is how miguel felt. god he feels so fucking guilty.

but the worse is he’s in love with you too. despite his last relationship was good, it felt more like friends than lovers. hence why it ended on a good note. gabriel also yearns for that love. so perfect and healthy, he found that with you. all those days with you, he never felt so happy. but now with this conflict with his older brother, it’s a fucking mess.

miguel remains breathless, feeling a little relieved to finally say what’s been boiling inside his body for two months. all he hopes is for gabriel to understand or at least have some sympathy. miguel knows he likes you too. they just need to find a solution, work it out.

“hermano, i’m so sorry…”

the string of hope tightens. miguel feels prepared to his brother’s words of sympathy.

“but i love her too.”

fuck. the string breaks, all hope gone.

“and i’m going to ask her.” gabriel is firm with his words. glaring at his older brother before walking away. slamming the door shut on his way.

the panic comes back haunting him. heart racing in his chest. his breathing growing heavy. his own brother fucking betrayed him.

gabriel is going to win again.

miguel is going to lose you.

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