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wexhappyxfew · 6 months ago

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i hope your having a great day!! i’ve just been think about the possibilities of annie and brady’s FIRST KISS. the slow burn😩 and ik it’s killing them(probs especially john) just as much as it is me. ik details are definitely something your keeping close to ur chest as a writer but i cannot wait to read what finally does it, who initiates it, etc.

HI SWEET ANON!!!! apologies that i am a day late to this!!!! was incredibly busy today (and yesterday…and really every day atp lmao) so thank u so so much for the well wishes!!!! i have some down time between evening classes so i was very excited to get to this! 🥰

THE POSSIBILITES OF THE ANNIE X BRADY FIRST KISS. oh dear anon i fear you have done nothing but make me INCREDIBLY EXCITED. i have the first half of it written actually 🤭 !!!!!! and i am *very* excited to get to the other half (possibly this friday, we’ll see i’ve been wayyyyy too busy i fear)!!!!

indeed my reaction upon seeing this though hehe:

we KNOW captain john brady is absolutely losing his mind - because he is and has been in love with annie for far longer than he has even known himself and the thought of him just makes him go a little crazy he’s found….. i mean we saw bucky with how he was with his and kennedy’s like…JOHN BRADY IS LOSING HIS MIND FOLKS!!!!!

hehe yes! u know me too well sweet anon! i have found i definitely like to keep the mystery there until i can post, but i do like to tease things for fics haha! u definitely get my vibe though 🤣 i will say ….. it is seemingly becoming a trend here and a john brady POV of the first kiss seems to be in the works for this 👀

AND I’LL LEAVE U WITH THAT! thank u again sweet anon! enjoy the rest of your day/night/evening!!!!! <3333

#HEHEHEHEHEH #can u imagine a john brady pov like it’d be him and his brain cells on fire going absolutely insane #i said what i said #he’d be in complete panic/losing my mind/is this real/OHMYGODTHISISANNIEBRADSHAW sorta vibes #LMFAO #anyways #yes yes yes #sweet anon #this made me both so happy and excited!#it’s hard to not get to write as much but know people are still thinking of the *possibilites* makes me incredibly excited!!!!#annie x brady #annie bradshaw #silver bullets #mota writjngs #the SB girlies!#WE NEED MORE ANNIE X BRADY CONTENT DONT WE

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mokadevs · 25 days ago

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be mine

#yumeship #rika pokemon #minifemslashfeb2025 #kiki draws #what..? a Yumeship for the last day of femslashfeb..?#thats Right ive drawn yuri every day for a month and its my BIRTHDAY so if I WANNA DRAW YUMESHIP... I CAN!!!!!!!!#ive never drawn yume stuff ever or even thought about it much #closest i got was having a “crush without realizing it was a crush” with hollyleaf warrior cats when i was like. in 4th grade #me imagining scenarios where my self insert riverclan cat stole hollyleaf away and made sure she was safe:#"yep things would be better if i was Friends with hollyleaf #“and as a Friend to hollyleaf i could make sure she was safe and happy”#anyway. ill make a graphic for all of femslashfeb after work #MINI AND I DID IT YAYYY #we made a pact that we would both do yumeship #cause cringe is dead. Yuri Forever #AND I ACTUALLY COMPLETED IT THIS YEAR GUYS #WAAAAAAAAA #EXCITING #WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

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purgatory-jar · 1 year ago

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ARE WE CELEBRATING OR ARE WE CELEBRATING

the face of a man who has had a huge ass epiphany about being a disaster bi (affectionate).

How are we all doing????

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#911 spoilers #this made me so happy #bi representation!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#I'm so excited to see how this develops #obviously all my hopes lie with buddie #buck/eddie #even buck buckley #911 abc #I related to him SO MUCH omg #loved the scene loved how he lost both his brain and his breath #totally gonna turn this into a gif

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somegrumpynerd · 7 months ago

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Before I forgetttttt

So color thinks Killer is brainwashed, BUT, what if one time when Killer's soul is normal and he can feel and think for himself again, what if they are chilling at Color's place and then Killer gets up and says something like "I have to go home, don't want to worry dad"

What would Color think ? Would he rethink everything because "wait, why did you call him dad ???" Or would he think that damn, this brain washing is even worse than he thought because apparently Nightmare makes them call him dad ?? Which is weird even for Nightmare that could be a manipulation method ??

Okay that's it byyyeee

OH I LOVE THINKING ABOUT THESE GUYS OKAY SO!!!!!

(I'm still new to Color so if I'm wicked super wrong let me know!)

I feel like no matter what Killer said about Nightmare, Color wouldn't believe it. If somebody's been held captive so long they no longer think they want to leave, of course they're going to say they like living there. No matter how much Color cares about him, I think he has to consider Killer an unreliable narrator as far as his own situation is concerned.

But! Color's main concern is giving Killer his autonomy back and helping him learn to make his own choices. This unfortunately means if Killer keeps choosing to go back to Nightmare, Color has to respect it.

I feel like the only way he would begin to slowly unwind and trust that Nightmare had good intentions would be to see it for himself repeatedly. It's going to take more than a few good turns to prove that he isn't just putting on an act when Color is watching and then turning the whip on them again when nobody's looking. That's going to be hard to set up though since neither of them want to be around the other very much lol

I do think a good start for it would be Nightmare giving Killer the choice though. Like, not that they don't get to choose things regularly, but Killer isn't really one to think much about what he wants or come forward with it so Nightmare kind of assumes he's content and doesn't really think to check in with him. So if he actually made a point of asking Killer what he wanted and he said he wanted to spend a day with Color, I think that would be a good start. Obviously Color's not gonna jump to trusting him after one day, but hearing that Nightmare is also giving Killer his own choices and actually respecting them might give him a bit more reason to trust him.

That said, the image of Color's face as he asks "he makes you call him dad??" is sending me lol

#UTDR #Ask #mikimakiboo #Trying so hard to keep it short and not type every thought I have for the next 3 hours lol #Thank you!!! I love thinking about these guys right now so this ask made me really excited :D #But yeah. I have a hc that none of them (at least at the start) are very good at saying if they want something #So Nightmare kind of uses Killer to find out what the others want and report to him with it #And it takes him maybe a but too long to realise he's forgetting Killer himself and ask what *he* would like #And after a long minute of silence Killer says he wants to go to the big timeline and hang out with Color #Which Nightmare absolutely hates the idea of because he could lose one of his boys forever but agrees to for Killer's sake #I think it starting like that would be a good foundation for both of them #Because Color gets to see Nightmare dropping Killer off as he wishes #And Nightmare gets to answer the call from Killer to come pick him up when he's ready to come back #It's going to take a lot more work for both sides to be happy but so help me god we're all gonna be happy in the end in this multiverse #Anyway!! Thank you again for this chance to ramble <3

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perilegs · 26 days ago

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shoutout to people working their dream jobs doing something mundane

#i work in IT and can i be honest. i might complain about my work sometimes but ive never #gone to bed and been like ''man i dont want to go to work tomorrow''#or like. i have had thoughts similar to that but it's always because of something non work related #like rn im excited to go to work and see my co workers tomorrow morning #but also i wish i didnt have work so i could wake up to play monhun #or sometimes i wish i could just sleep in. but i never hate my job #i enjoy going there. i can make a living with it. actually as soon as i graduate i'll be earning pretty well #though most of that will be going to student loans for some years but it's still more than what my parents made combined when i was a kid #pre taxes for both of us. not taking inflation into account.#i know i complain about management and complain at work but i genuinely really like my job #its always been my dream to have a job i dont mind doing. and this is it.#im not saying id feel the same in any it job. but here i get to manage like a billion different systems and device types #and i get to do so much different things and theres always something new and fun going on and i get to be a part of making it happen #and its a very seasonal job so im not doing the same thing all around the year. spring is the busiest but i fucking love spring #both in general and at work #days go by fast bc theyre busy but theyre busy in like ah. how do i say it. in a way i dont have high brain power work #sure i need to know my shit but its easy shit #and then winter is always projects and v much using my brain and less my body #spring and summer some work days are workouts gdvxhdns #also during some weeks in the summer. i can go on a walk anytime and get ice cream or something on the clock #and using the excuse of saying im patroling our systems gdvxhsj #theres a lot to do but the work environment is chill #a lot of IT work is. sure paying way more but also complete hell. not for me.#what im doing rn is like. i would not mind retiring here.#im not surprised lots of ppl do like 40 year careers where i work #sure managements been kinda shit but things are changing rn #and i feel like theyre changing for the better #idk im just v happy rn!#spring is coming and i can feel it #i love spring theres so much new things happening

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britneyshakespeare · 1 year ago

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My toxic trait is that I like how my incomplete drawings look better than the finished things

#im sorry i cant be her (my searching lines)#i cant stop thinking about this drawing i have a sinking feeling that im gonna be very unhappy when its done #or. not unhappy. but not as excited as i feel about it now!#i only worked in two short chunks on it but both were pretty productive #i have a feeling that when i take the time to really dedicate myself to it im gonna fuck something up #like i can see areas i need to/can improve already but the glaring flaws are ok! bc it's not finished!#it OVERALL looks cool and LOOKS like it has the potential to turn out well #but will it... WILL IT??? WILL IT EVER?#i have never been so totally completely satisfied w any finished drawing ive dedicated myself to fully.#tales from diana #this is also only the second time ive done a really deliberate self-portrait that wasnt in some for or another. practice #like of course ive drawn my face before. not that often actually. but since yes i do draw. i have drawn myself #i probably should've drawn myself more times for how often i think id like a nice picture of myself #but then again its not gonna be so 'nice' if i make it and am not totally happy w it?#see one of the ppl who inspired me to learn to draw is ned @sneez my dearest. he's spoiled me before #and drawn me very beautifully on several occasions and it's very much a thing to move one's heart #to see someone dedicate their talent to depicting YOU.#and i might say HE has made me look more beautiful in art than i think i'll ever look in the flesh #which is not to say he drew me inaccurately. but he's so talented that his art is more beautiful than life.#and i dont compare myself in skill to him bc he's been doing it for YEARS and way more trained than me in the visual arts.#like it simply wouldn't be fair so i only compare myself to myself. naturally #but i used to think. very VAINLY i might say. that if i could draw like him id draw beautiful pictures of myself all the time #well ce n'est pas ca mon ami. since learning to draw i've found im much more interested in drawing ppl i find beautiful #rather than myself. im not art. not through my own eyes at least.#i should really draw ned sometime. i really should.#actually somewhat embarrasingly i tried to draw him like 5 or 6 years ago. and i NEVER tried to draw then #i did show him tho and he thought it was very impressive but that's probably just bc he loves me. xoxox #maybe ill post that someday as a throwback just for the hell of it. lol. thatd be cute

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jaxyscreams · 8 months ago

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yo,, my voice allowed me to stealth in a convo today whilst cosplaying a female character!!!

Like!! I got to just be a man who was dressed up in a costume!!!

This person thought I was a cis man just from my voice!

#the makeup made him a lil unsure so he asked and I said I was a man #and like !! both are great #good makeup and also jfjdjd yes!!!! my voice is helping me pass!!! IM PASSING!!!#oh man maybe soon I can stealth more regularly #I do love being a visibly queer person but sometimes it would easier to just stealth ya kno #and the opportunity to do it is so exciting!!#jaxy babbles #yippie yippie hooray!! I’m passing more and more!!! I’m so happy!!!!!#trans masc #transmasc #transmasculine #I’m !!!! passing!!!!!!!!!

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floorpancakes · 26 days ago

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a banshee prima ballerina themed outfit i just freshly cooked for spectra demonica’s outfit contest!! the skirt really draws the eye, doesn’t it? it’s my favourite part.

#I’ve been a bit less online lately cause I #need to speedrun a bunch of deadlines for contests and zines and stuff #I had to push stuff I was working on aside to prioritise yk how it is #I feel a little guilty abt it but I don’t think anyone’s going to give me a hard time abt it I’m just stubborn #anyway this was an awful lot of fun despite trying to speedrun finishing it deep into the night #I wanted to work with this vtubers original outfit colours to an extent and was happy to find out she likes green so I went with a melty #jade accent on the skin #lore wise in context of the outfit it’s a spectacular performance where the more she spins the more her skin fades to ghostly pastel green #but practically speaking it’s a good way to break up and mix up the palette with limited colours and a little more of a minimalist approach #while still being exciting and having a lore reason for me to get melty stuff in there fnfjfnfjfj #it’s a similar colour scheme by coincidence to a design I made a year or two ago and the improvement is wild even tho I like both designs #anyway it’s cute right #I think it’s cute!!!#I’ll try to get back to uploading more memey content once my plate is a bit more cleared haha #being extra sick half the month means I have to shuffle arnd a lot yk the usual #art jumpscare #fashion design #balletcore #en vtuber #vtuber design #gothic #hopefully I place in the winners but if I don’t it’s ok! I did good work here #made several points. got a bit of my jam back after burnout

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lostinhyperfixations · 2 months ago

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I’ve had this clip of this Uncharted 2 mocap BTS in my head for WEEKS, I just had to share it.

Steve Valentine, the man that you are. 😩 The way he totally cuts Nolan off and excitedly goes up and down like that, I— 😭 He’s just like me, for real for real. 😭💕

Literally though, not a day goes by where I don’t have Steve going “Jump down like this! Then come back up! And then go like this!” in my head. (That’s basically me at work when I’m shelving. Very very relatable except more like for an hour or two.)

#steve valentine #nolan north #steve valentine video #nolan north video #uncharted 2 #harry flynn #nathan drake #RAAAAH!!!!#Steve Valentine makes me feel so many dang things bro #he’s everything actually #that shirtttt that pants chain and those necklaces—#I’m sat #I am so sat #the power he holds #he’s so cute 😭#this video made me so happy #it lives rent free in my head #I love both Steve Valentine and Nolan North so playing Uncharted 2 is a DREAMMMM #they’re my pookie old men 🥺💕#like literally how do they both look and sound that amazing???#I love them both #hehe though Steve is so valid for interrupting Nolan like that #he sounded so excited plus he himself had been getting interrupted the entire video #(I also just can NOT with this clip cuz idk man maybe it’s the blue shirt or something but Steve’s voice here is SO Minister of Spring #AND I LOVE THAT)#I’m sorry I’m such a mess in these tags

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doctorweebmd · 2 months ago

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accidentally* brainstormed a very complete outline for chapters 4-8 for eih, which should theoretically take us through Part 1. which is. you know. a godsend or whatever.

*accidentally meaning i was just eating delicious pancakes and the thoughts happened. usually its me crying screaming and shitting myself in front of an empty word document where ideas manifest. this is notably much more pleasant.

#that alone makes this weekend a good one #i also bought (leased) a new car yesterday!!!#which is exciting for me because i've been driving my first car for 16 years #even though its a base model its still SO much more advanced #hello how did i live without a backup camera of this long #also like. carplay. and auto windshield wipers. and keyless entry/start. and adjustable steering wheel #AND its electric! kinda. (a plug-in hybrid so has both engines but can run on only electric)#i've finally joined the 21st century #although tbh i thought my first car of my adult life may be something bougie. a BMW or some shit #alas i grew up to be too practical. so i bought a prius. because of course.#listen i live in california and wanted to go electric for forever #alas elon shat the bed by being elon so a tesla was an absolute no go #its funny like... you know that most of your customers for these cars were well-off environment-conscious liberals right #i've seen a tesla with a bumper that says 'i bought this before i knew elon was crazy'#which. like. yeah. fair #other fun events from last week. there was a fire super close to our house and we were in the evacuation zone #which is like. wow. i know its been dry and windy but i never thought it would actually happen HERE #everything is okay and we're safe and it was put out really fast #but definitely gave us a pause and made us think about whats important (our cat. everything else is replaceable.)#but another reason this weekend is good: it RAINED. last night and today.#listen i've been... extremely extremely extremely sad the past week #because of everything. because of 'allowance' of ice agents hospitals and thinking about what i would do and risk because FUCK THEM #suffering isn't moral and doesn't help anyone. just trying to find a way to help my community #and three nice things happening AND just hearing the border fire is under control...#its going to be okay. it really is.#anyway this post is about FANFICTIOn #fun fact i started looking into numerology that has to do with ying-yang #which is helping me decide on how many chapters per 'part'#its clever and unnecessary but makes me happy so whatever #chapter 4 of eih is ~2k works now as a mostly-outline

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darabeatha · 10 months ago

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/ I've noticed that at this point I'm not even writing on any blog anymore, I just come and yell about some blorbo and leave. Rinse and repeat my lieges

#;ooc #ooc #me: -sleeps-#also me: -SUDDENLY JOLTS BACK AWAKE- I haven't expressed my love for x in some time #/usually i would feel pretty guilty about this! but lately i've been zoning out in the sense of just vibing #/im not dropping writting; im just doing something else ! when i feel the inspiration i'll drop by #would like that to come soon; i do miss writting hehe #the power a blorbo can have on a person can be a very profound and moving energy truly-#recently one of my 8376733 m.octezuma fanarts got reblobbed from some artists from aaaall across to japan and #it made me feel so giddy like!!!! no way you also like this one character that isnt even on the game!?#i haven't seen other artists being obsessed over him! he's kind of forgotten in the lb cast; it was so fun reblobbing each other's posts!#we may have a language barrier but we all love m.octe and i find that to be a lil heartwarming moment #it made me thonk;; there are so many ways to bond with people; of connecting in general #even without speaking to someone directly; there is a bond there #like i knew this existed; but experiencing it again makes u go like waow! im not alone ! not in at least one (1) way!#that there are other people out there in this big big world that would enthusiastically talk to you about the same fictional character you-#like; with a lot of love and interest #i've seen people making their own t.ezca and d.aybit plushies and putting them in cute lil clothes #or people posting about museums they got interested on visiting bc they've done a collab with f.go #its all very cute to me #its like the same energy i saw from this tktk where two girls randomly met on the street #and saw that they both had the same ita bag and they got all happy and started laughing together #or that time i was selling my stickers and someone came in and said how glad they were to find h.ypmic stuff!#if hy.pmic is quite niche nowadays; its even more from where i live!#or how excited i get if i meet someone who also plays id.v #its all a cycle of fangirling; pure joy; connections are so important!#important to know that whatever you are facing; that no matter how 'weird' you think you might be; there are a lot of people out there that #are like you and me; and its also why i like roleplaying #its like we all pull our blorbos and talk about them and get excited about it all like dolls #the sweet thing about rping is precisely the part where u connect with others

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sillyabtmusic · 2 months ago

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it may come as a surprise to you all but im thinking about kingdom rn

#what is on my mind. well im specifically thinking about jahan just did the new bss song dance and it's reminding me #how jahan and arthur did the maestro dance with dino and afterwards jahan talked about how mortifying it was to ask dino to do it #then like two weeks later the maestro mushow behind was released and the behind of tkds challenge was featured in it. and #some of the svt members were talking about how happy it made them. outside of tkds range #and when someone pointed out to jahan how they made it into the behind he lost his shit #and i am also thinking about my dann jahan unit pola. and sometimes i don't realize how much detail is in a polaroid #and how lucky i am to have a signed pola of my bias line in one of my top fave stage fits. like how did the universe align like #that for me. that's crazy #and well im thinking about how much i like them. i think when i first got into kpop i didn't understand how people decided who was an ult #or a semi ult. or whatever. and the time just moved so fast and my feelings fluctuate so much how do you know but now i just knowwwwww #when i look at them and when their songs come on shuffle and when i gif them and when i look at my album shelf and i see the hok albums #line up and my photocards and how they're the biggest portion of my binder and how i felt seeing them in concert both times #and im also thinking of the concert im thinking about the shitty ada route for the venue. how the ramp was a solid 45° angle and i managed #to go up but i was so nervous to go down cuz i certainly couldn't walk my rollator down and i didn't wanna fall #and i had to be nearly carried down cuz i was so unstable and it was so embarassing and then i heard dann singing and it was just a really #grounding moment. his voice is so comforting to listen to on my phone and it was so invigorating to hear on stage but to hear it #softly up close. because he always sings back stage and the ada route was backstage and they were behind me to go back to #the green room and I didn't know and. it was such a surprise but it was so nice. so nice #so calming. and how i was so embarassed my rollator was taking up space when i was talking to ivan and when i readjusted it it got #stuck on a crack in the floor because of the angle and i apologized but he immediately told me it was okay and helped me get it unstuck cuz #i was shaky on nerves and adrenaline. and they're just sooooo. wow #ughhhhhh and hwons smile when i did polas with him first tour. and how he held everyone's hands despite the staff saying not #to touch the artist he always grabbed your hands first if you let him and i did cuz i didn't know what to do and he was just so excited #to be there and getting to talk to him while we waited for the pola to print. dude he's so tall like i knew he was tall going in but nothing #prepares you for How damn tall he is till you're right there next to him and god #they r the best. genuinely. :•( i love them so bad #speaking.txt

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fruitybashir · 11 months ago

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thank you for deciding one day that you should write holiday really it was the best fandom experience ever 🥺💗💗✨ i mean the waiting for sundays the screaming at you here in your inbox bc i'm just too emotionally invested in these two fucking idiots the shivering with anticipation part of it all regarding the chapters themselves ofc but also all the snippets and spoilers omg 😭🙏💖 and ofc the writing itself??? fucking BRILLIANT loved every single bit of it and also a little embarrassed that certain parts literally had me reacting physically at what was happening in the chapter but uhm. lets not talk about this lmao anywayyyyyyyyys i love you have a great day/week/month/year i love youuuuu 💕💕💕

^ literally me reading this, my friend can confirm bc im having this reaction on the couch right next to them djcmnsmd

#im so sorryyyyyy i fucking suckkk at responding to you guys in a way that does these messages justice bc youre SO FUCKING SWEET AAAAAHHH #i wont lie my winter has been pretty fucking awful both mentally and with my health just kicking the bucket like #this amount of flare ups usually has me going lowkey catatonic for weeks but writing and interacting with you all has been so much fun and #i always looked forward to the weekends like i was sooooo excited to be able to upload the next chapter and and and idkkkk #its just been so much fun it really made me so happy the whole time you guys will live in my heart forever and ever 🫶🏻💖💖💖💖💖#inbox #anonymous

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reflectionsofgalaxies · 7 months ago

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gonna do the stupid thing for my stupid mental health

#is is the right thing? who knows #but camping made me realize that being away from some of this stuff made me feel a whole lot better #camping is great at bringing back some perspective #does this make me kinda a dick? maybe #but also this responsibility shouldn’t fall solely on me #i’m gonna focus on my friends who make me feel good #and school that makes me feel productive and excited #and everything else can make the effort if it needs my time and energy and emotional investment that badly #god camping was so wet but so good #MANY cool plants and mushrooms #i got to be in the forest info dumping to a captive audience #surrounded by my friends and without the outside world being able to contact me #legit definition of my happy place #lots of cool people to spend my time with #good games and campfire vibes and goofing off with glow sticks #didn’t get as many photos or snuggles as past camping trips but that was bc it was wet #let opportune moments for photo-ops and cuddling while damp is just unpleasant #so no hammock naps but that just gets bumped over to the bucket-list for next year again #and i only had ONE mild bad brain moment #and ONE (separate) bad body moment (and that one was my fault i had two hits of some really strong weed)#(and had a very very bad time for the rest of that night but NOT as bad as last year)#(I swear to god I learned my lesson this year)#so yeah. gonna make a camping bucket list for next year and look at it when i need reminders that there are good things ahead.#personal #(Em and Kat if u see this i love u both so much thank you for including me in your tradition these past several years)#(it means the world to me and i love getting to spend the time with you all!)

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commanderfreddy · 2 years ago

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i never remember to explain shit anymore i just vaguepost and expect people to catch up but i finally have good news, we've made a lot of progress with my parents' estate (they both ran their own businesses and you know those images of nightmare cable management? well imagine that with bank accounts) and i actually have money now - im taking a trip to Aotearoa NZ with my mate Jules next week (dark sky reserve! lotr filming locations! snow! FOOD!) and then in august i will be moving to nyc to pursue a 2 year masters degree in library science with a focus on rare materials archival studies!! shits happening in my life!! im not just sitting in my house doing nothing all day!! and like i said i have money!! if you're taking commissions lmk bc while im focused on my getaway for the next few weeks i wanna support my friends and their art and when i get back i wanna throw u cash to draw my ocs!!

#fred says a thing #personal #i havent slept (its 8am) but not for sad reasons! i was reading a good book and then i just had a lot of thoughts!#invariably i will be sad again - probably soon! i will definitely see stuff on my trip that i will want to show my parents and have to #experience the strange nature of grief-for-what-never-was several times over during otherwise great moments #- but i will also be happy in the future too!#my therapist says i definitely have ptsd! im learning more about emotional flashbacks and how to manage them!#im a human being and i will continue to be one for the rest of my life!#i hope thats a long time!#but even if that isnt something my genetics allows i was happy now! and people were happy to have me in the world!#im realising that sounds rather alarming but i just have a lot of fears about my genetics considering. you know. the cancer orphaning.#im trying to manage both my health fears and my health itself in a reasonable way! i made a chicken tomato pasta sauce last night #just from ingredients i had lying around and it was pretty good!#i have a ripe tomato i picked from the garden yesterday that today i will fry up with bacon and put on some toast i think #there are so many books i want to read #there are so many books i want to write #in a few days i will be experiencing snow (a rarity for me) and i will probably be handling the cold very poorly and i will feel excited #and uncomfortable at the same time #and for much of my life i will experience a lot of contradictory things at the same tiem #and i will experience times of great boredom and inaction! we all have to stand in queues and wait for buses and go to the dentist #and wonder what might have been #but i will experience them. i will.

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cle-levanter · 1 year ago

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I think I’m going to Music Bank in Antwerp, Belgium next April? 😭

#istfg it still feels unreal #basically I knew a girl in uni and we both liked kpop so we lowkey bonded over that but not that much #then she switched uni so we lost contact bc we weren’t close like that but we were still mutuals on insta #and earlier this year I sent her a message bc I saw she was going to soooo many concerts of artists/kpop groups I like #so I was like ‘fuck it I’m messaging her for the plot and we’ll see if we can become concert buddies’#and she was happy about it and all so all is good #when I wanted to go see B.I (he’s fantastic please go see him if you can) she wasn’t that into his music so I went alone and it’s ok #bc I made new concert buddies during that B.I concert lmaoooo so win win bc I went out of my confort zone and made a pal lol #and earlier this week when they announced music bank in Belgium I was frantic and I texted her to ask if she was going #and she was!!!! well wanted to #and today was the ticket sale and I wasn’t home when they dropped so I wired her my money and she would do the buying #AND SHE DID GET TICKETS OMFG #we got cat 1 tickets 😭#it still feels unreal like omfg #I’m really going to see my man Soobin and TXT and ONEUS and ZB1 again and goejfizjd #i don’t think my brain is computing that info just yet #it’ll need time #I’ll give it until April lol #I’M SO FUCKING EXCITED OMGGGGGG #i almost cried when I saw her text telling me she got the tickets 😭#i can’t wait #lia.txt #irl stufff #music bank #music bank Antwerp

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