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trypo-p · 10 months ago

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not the usual, but I made something

I just had to. The stupid little dance they do at the end of the movie is my brain 24/7 and it's killing me. There's NO gifs of them doing this dance. I haven't watched this movie in YEARS, I knew it was good but not THIS GOOD.

#lego batman #lego joker #batman #lego #i made a gif #this is what it feels like when i stim #this movie is a masterpiece #for some reason i could only watch it in french and with french captions but i can read french so it was tolerable

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stimboardboy · 6 months ago

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do not pet | i bite | nervous

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unproduciblesmackdown · 4 months ago

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winston (quant kid 2) (billions) declining a hookup (or work shit) later to instead give himself multiple orgasms (or go to math meetup)

#winston billions #corned beef #what's on the agenda? being able to ever if not always prefer sex solo vs dyadic+. [oneself > others] being the best lay you've ever had.#ditching work demands for anything else #even in [au with jobs fairly different in at least some ways] like well it's still Jobs & you're still Autistique #depending on the hooking up proposer maybe it's like hey; if i stay outta your way.... <_<#many possibilities. this can be about Whatever You Want but no reason to not put forth my heart's truth (winston x his prostate)#literally goes and fucks himself. hell yeah #he is using a little stylus for his calculator watch btw. maybe doing fun sequences. my heart's truth: feels like a fun stim too #adding the little flair details here was also a fun sequence of my heart's truth &c #would also be funny for him to be citing alternate items on his agenda that don't exist to get out of Anything proposed. &/or pushed #ooh i have plans then :/ when is it. & such

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monsterfuckermilligan · 2 months ago

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i still cannot comprehend how u guys will write or draw or rb something of jack where he is present as a full grown adult and then call him a precious child….

#maybe media literacy IS dead like how can u not understand that his development is not like a regular human’s????#but nah i’m the weird one for thinking he doesn’t have a toddler brain in an adult body #DO YOU HEAR YOURSELVES?!#‘well he’s new to the world. he’s just a baby’ everyone regards him as an adult who is new to the world #he literally said right out the gate he is not a baby or child. you just go the baby jack tinted glasses on and can’t separate that from #what’s in canon. ‘they call him a kid’ yeah cuz they’re in their forties and have lived a lot of lives #like kid bc he is their kid but not a kid. ‘kid’ as a term of endearment. idk if u guys have heard of the concept #when does the narrative treat him as an actual child and not just new to the world? or comparison to a child when he doesn’t have his powers #which means child as in ‘weak’ or ‘incapable’ also don’t bring up anything that disabled adults and/or especially autistic adults have/do #like velcro shoes or stimming. focus on his storylines and actual characterization please and tell me how he is a precious child #is it because he is polite? yeah well he’s also bitchy and mean and commanding. it’s almost like he’s a multifaceted character #or something. you’d think considering the writers had written children before that they would’ve chosen child-like storylines and things #for jack’s character but no this is a fantasy show. it’s not just a drama. his age is played for jokes because he *could* choose to be an #adult. because he’s a nephil. because he’s a non-human character who doesn’t abide by typical human development. his physiology is #completely different than an actual adult or child. his fingerprints are even abnormal. and y’all wanna say he is a ‘literal child’#or a ‘baby in an adult’s body’ which if that was true wouldn’t he act like a baby? and wouldn’t the writers make that clear? like where are #y’all getting this from?? i feel like i’ve missed out on a joke. like i’m standing outside the echo chamber wondering where it even #originated from #supernatural #jack kline #supernatural fandom #spn fandom #fandom critical #spn fanfic #spn fanart #spn fanworks #the infantilization of jack kline #hw.txt

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waywardsalt · 5 months ago

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with my phantom hourglass replay, there are two things i noticed;

a possible theme you could glean from the game is action vs inaction, and i think it's especially prevalent before you even leave mercay the first time, with oshus frequently urging link to not go after the ghost ship, then to just wait until the broken bridge is fixed, and seems reluctant at every turn while link and ciela are more than eager to go and do something about this problem, and the people of mercay in general talking about things and their problems but never seeming to act on their fears or desires, as well as the mention that due to the ghost ship, very very few people are still sailing around, while linebeck is one of the only people we see in the game actively going after the ghost ship and still sailing around. i might make a longer post just talking more about the action vs inaction in phantom hourglass but i just noticed it a bit and thought it was a bit of an interesting sort of theme you could find in the game.

linebeck moves so fucking much. i think he moves more than any npc in the rest of the game. not just in his intro cutscene where he is very animated, just in how much he moves when just standing in his little idle post, it's damn near distracting when the camera is focused on him, he moves a lot. i don't think i've really acknowledged how much he moves, and it really gives the impression that he's antsy or eager to get going, both of which fit him pretty well with how he acts.

#phantom hourglass #linebeck #loz #legend of zelda #salty talks #imo the action vs inaction thing feels esp interesting to me when looking at oshus specifically. he and his world are in grave danger #and he knows it and he actively does nothing and even seems reluctant to let ciela and link go ahead and do something.#of course he comes around on it but it's very interesting. has he given up at that point? thats what it suggests to me #that hes like. joined the people of mercay in just lying down and waiting for other people to fix their problems or just. not do anything #otherwise on mercay you have that old guy in the bar who spends the whole game not leaving bc he doesnt want to face his wife #and she never goes to the bar to actually look for him and just talks about it if anything #the guy with the blue tunic talks a lot about linebeck and his ship and almost gives the impression that he really wants to talk to him #but yknow. doesnt. theres the women that tells you about docks being shut down and how linebeck is the only person who's showed up #the woman you see at the broken bridge who's just like oh well! time to wait til someone fixes it.#even the guy fixing the bridge iirc is like well fuck i gotta do it or else oshus is going to bitch at me abt it #everyone seems reluctant to act which makes for an interesting way in how our main crew stands out #it is less so oh theyve been chosen specifically for this its moreso they're the ones who are fucking doing something about this #for their own various reasons some of which are more selfish but theyre still doing something #will likely have more stuff to say when im done but ofc we have other characters in the game who have to do with this #anyways. linebeck is so animated all of the fucking time it's great i dont think theres any other character that moves as much as him #when he's just standing around to talking to link it's great. he's so ready to get going.#it works with him being an anxious mess and also with like. oh he's probably understimulated. you know he's got a nasty case of wanderlust #i can put it with the idea that he's understimulated and afraid to stim in public so he's just constantly moving #he probably drums his fingers on tables bounces his leg when sitting paces around switches the way he sits or lays down often #tbh this kinda fits in with him being one of the main characters who takes action moreso than a lot of other characters #his arc culminates in him taking action he's going after the ghost ship he's moving around the world the only issue is that one of the #actions he takes is running away from his problems literally n metaphorically (tho idk if facing the jolene problem is a good idea for him)

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angorwhosebabyisthis · 5 months ago

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watching fandaniel go is wild because he is just [vestibular stims] [vestibular stims] [vestibular stims] [vestibular stims] and yeah man that's a mood

#final fantasy xiv #ffxiv #ffxiv fandaniel #the cutscene where he's dancing and pacing in front of zenos in the armory while they talk genuinely startled me a little #with how accurately the editing and camerawork captured What That Stim Feels Like #i'm less inclined to do Large Amounts of Spinning and Bending; and the way i get my arms involved looks different #but something about the energy to it and the center of gravity and the way he Turns when he steps is just Oh Wow Yeah Same #on one hand; surface-level he's the type of Unhinged Manic Pixie Dream Boy that you'd think would be a bit on the nose for adhd headcanons #(which would be valid anyway to be clear but still)#but like. motherfucker has adhd just look at him #and honestly i like that a lot because 'surface level' is the keyword here. he Has Depth and is adhd about it #i need to find that post about how masking doesn't necessarily mean trying to pass for neurotypical #among other things; it can look like playing super hard into Look at How Megadifferent and Quirky and Weird I Am; and yeah that's him #and tbh he kind of vibes to me as having gotten into Being an Obnoxious Flamboyant Theater Kid #specifically because it's a useful cover for being his brand of ND #'those damn wacky rich gay nobles' as an explanation for your behavior is going to get you a very different niche in society #than 'that weird dude who talks strangely and can't sit still and whose social cues are A Little Off'#'and makes bizarre disruptive distracting movements with his body while he talks'#anyway diversity win etc etc i love him #ableism mention cw #ffxivtag #FF tag

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nanmo-wakaran · 3 months ago

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own recording!!!!!!!!!!!!! (<-delighted)

#stim #🌒 gifs #capsule toys #mechanical #turning #gachapon #coin #red #silver #chrome #idk!!!!!!!#i realized after getting my toy that it was supposed to take two coins. lucky! i feel bad for whoever left their money there though..#i have been eyeing this thing for maybe years now #the toy inside is really fun idk what its called it isnt really stimmy its more like a logic puzzle thingy a bit #well it is fun to hold when in ball form thats kind of stimmy #but the turning of the parts is a but awkward it is probably very cheap #i am not complaining

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unexpectedbrickattack · 2 years ago

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#chattin #nothing bad or spicy i just feel like peep peeping rn #📢🐀!#but there is talk of panic attacks and Bad Stims up ahead (not related to me dw) ->#i was thinking of autistic peppino bc i am planning out the vigilante comic in my head #and like the quick premise is that vigilante comes into the pizzeria and shoots a blank into the ceiling to get everyone to shut up #and quiet down so he can go ask for (demand really) to see peppino bc this fuckerhas a bounty FOR A REASON and hes here to find out why #bc u know; cowboy yeehaw shenanigans #only its like 5am and no one is there jdkdndjdndk he just saw the lights one and went BANGBANG #anyway peppino is in the back cowering bc someone came into his fucking shop and started shooting UNPROMPTED #and hes so fucking scared and unwilling to move and when he sees someone actually come through the back door he starts having a legitimate-#-panic attack and he starts doing the stimmy hands thing over his ducked head #and vigilante is like whoa whoa WHOA WHOA HOL UP WHATS HAPPENIN #like i dont think peppino has ‘happy stims’ he has ‘extremely self soothing’ stims #that include flapping but only if hes so unbelievably stressed that he cant think #or he has more violent ones like pulling at his hair and biting his hands #that on top of like a genuine panic attack where he cant breathe and he thinks his heart is stopping is 😵‍💫#vigilante is like christ almighty what the fucks got you so damned spooked?? like he doesnt even think of the blank he shot #he assumed someone came in before him or something #and hes like oh shit wait thats mE I DID THAT I SCARED HIM #i am still planning it out but yes. autistic peppino is on my mind 😊#in a more positive light hes very earnest; and good at his job bc cooking in an interest of his #and his responses in social situations are bizarre enough sometimes to wrap back around to endearing #also its an excuse to draw peppino looking very confused but happy and gustavo somewhere in the shot going-#‘the bad bitch i pulled in by being autistic’#swag #ALSO THE TAG IS BACK so i guess i can doodle again heehee

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brinnanza · 5 months ago

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I think it's important to resist the urge to pathologize ultimately harmless behavior like maybe you can trace it back to its parent disorder but if it's not harmful to you in any way that isn't a symptom it's just a trait

#part of disability praxis is uncoupling productivity from worth #so part of unlearning your own internal and unconscious ableism is like not speaking of neutral things negatively #like in the same way that real body positivity lies in body neutrality #where we don't assign value judgements to physical features #we have to unlearn that neutral behaviors like stimming or using a mobility aid or refusing to cover scars #are somehow shameful or wrong or that they can tell you about who a person is #just because something makes you feel uncomfortable doesn't meant you get to make them stop #it's a negotiation always always always #what are you willing to budge on and which boundaries are hard limits #anyway yeah it doesn't matter if I have a specific bendy joint thing I'm used to how my body works #I'll grant that it can be difficult to tell from the inside what things actually should perhaps be a little pathologized #you know the I though everyone just dealt with this recurring pain school of diagnosis #but that's why you exist in a community so you know when something is actually wrong #or possibly I'm just so used to having my perceptions questioned I just sort assume an authority somewhere is Correct Objectively #and that doesn't exist!#if there is a perfectly efficient method to life to maximize happiness it is impossible for human minds to find except by accident

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codacheetah · 6 months ago

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I can't believe I made a post abt Loop's biology and didn't talk abt their guts. Sad

#I have thoughts and opinions about what's inside that beast #i already disagree with the post i made diagraphing their loop goop #you kno how liek #when caterpillars turn into butterflies they dissolve all their guts into mush #i feel like loop is like one of thoss butterflies that came out the chrysalis 70 percent baked #theyve got weird masses in em that take the vague shape of organs but they barely connect to each other #and dont serve much of a function anymore. they can breathe but the air doesnt flow anywhere #they can get hungry but they cant eat and the feeling passes quickly #they have a heartbeat but blood doesnt flow inside of them. empty shell of a muscle pumping inside them #most of their insides is just Ambiguous Star Goop #have you ever cut one of those squishy stim toys open and poked the weird slime inside #it's like that i think #if you cut loop Something bright would come out but i would hesitate to call it blood #Ok anyways I want to vivisect that beast so badddddddd #Loop if youre ever outside of the screen and in my area. call me I can treat u right #(stick needles inside of you)#ask to tag #<-this post feels like it needs a tag but idk which one tbh #loops an interesting critter. im intrigued by their functionality

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front-facing-pokemon · 1 year ago

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#meditite #i never understood this pokémon. what do folks call it? a little angry psychic onion baby? that tracks honestly #the diamond mouth is whatever and i always found myself like. using its name as a vocal stim when i was a kid #bc again this is one of the bitches that was a shadow pokémon in colosseum so i know it pretty well. but it's also like not my fave #it's *really* just out here. floats and is blue and maybe a fighting-type? or at least it turns into one when it evolves #lemme check #okay yeah it's fighting/psychic and medicham doesn't change types. honestly in my mind i still see these two as totally unrelated pokémon #they just don't look the same at all. i get the general continuity bc they have similar-ish vibes but they don't look. continuitous #that's not a word i know but it expresses my thoughts well i feel. y'know. continuitous #i'll have more to say for medicham bc team charm but for now it's just this onion baby

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fernsensei · 1 year ago

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Could you draw V1 stimming? :]

maybe i'll do a high quality version of this bc i like to point on v1 and say "thats literally me" but for now please enjoy this silly sketch

#if v1 couldve feel anything it probably be exited that one of the biggest obstacles on its way to the deepest layers is finally down #or maybe itll be like 'oh man. my fav blood sack :'('#uhhhh idk but it def sounds like smth worth thinking of #id it feel emptiness when v2 its literal copy was obliterated? by its own blue hands?#and one red kjlJKLDJKLDJFKLD #theres so much potential to stimming v1. what if like. it uses all it hands and wings to stim?#or maybe it doesnt do it with hands! maybe it plays with its coins! or weaponry in general!#like the ammo is infinite anyway why the fuck cant it shoot some into the sky for its own pleasure #ok i need to go to sleep its 2:24am rn. shame on me #ultrakill #v1 ultrakill #request #thank you so much for the request btw!!!! i really appreciate it :)

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doctorweebmd · 6 months ago

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someone pointed out something I did the other day that I didn’t really notice I do and then I was like….. yeah why do I do that and turns out it’s stimming. And apparently I do it. A lot.

#discovering behaviors that you’ve been doing your whole life that people found weird and annoying is stimming is fun!#… haha. ha.#person at work last night: is your shoulder feeling ok? I saw you kind of holding it #me who is constantly putting my left hand on my right shoulder: uhhhhhh…. no. I don’t know why I do that #me googling it about 30 mins laters: 🧍‍♀️#I mean on the one hand it’s nice that they’re adhd behaviors rather than like…. moral deficiencies I guess #but now I can’t unsee it #it’s an innocuous behavior that is going to make me super self conscious now #I’ve seen… very few (I can think of 2 on the top of my head) docs that I know or work with #that I’ve seen do stuff like this. but they’re both men and they’re both clearly hyperactive adhd #maybe other people are medicated or just better at masking #it’s nice to have a nice to a lot of the struggles of my entire life honestly #but it’s not like it makes it not a struggle or makes people mroe sympathetic #like my husband has the classic hyperactive adhd #and my forgetfulness and messiness drives him absolutely crazy #but his hyperactivity and emotional volatility drives ME crazy #and telling my mother about the diagnosis and what it means and she’s like #’oh I totally have that too!’ yeah maybe you do #but see it was YOU that told me I was a bad person for forgetting things #and YOU that said I was lazy and a slob for having difficulty keeping things organized #and YOU that would smack my hands when I’d pick at my nails and tell me it’s a disgusting hav #and YOU that STILL tells people that your physician daughter ‘gives up on everything!’#…….. do I have some bitterness to work out maybe #🤔#what was this about?#oh yeah anyway. I hope people don’t notice I do this shit #and if they do they don’t know what it means #….uh.#personal?

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caffeinatedopossum · 2 years ago

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Me and my cat are exactly the same and it's hilarious. Like my gf just got a new rug to go over a cord we have on the floor (my autism along with some other factors make me really clumsy and I WILL trip over it so yeah) but she had me feel the rugs at the store because she wants one that's also an okay texture for me. Well she grabbed one and showed it to me and it's just *chefs kiss* very good texture. So immediately when she lays it down at home, me and the cat both sit on it before she's even done adjusting it XD

#weve both got a touch of the tism #also he gets sensory overload which i think is endearing #but also kind of sad especially when other people dont understand whats going on and make it worse #or just generally resent him for something he cant control #hehe also he has a lot of the same stims as me #like looking out the window and pacing (i walk but he zooms cause cat) and kneading things and feeling all the soft textures #and he eats weird by knocking one piece of kibble out of his food bowl at a time and eating it #unless hes famished. which i used to eat all of my food one piece at a time and would even get mad/aggravated when other people didnt #like seeing people just shove a whole handful of skittles in their mouth would give me this visceral disgust and hatred lmao #i was a weird kid. im honestly not sure why i grew out of that but it kinda makes me sad #i think it was my eating disorder. idk im not a fan of the disgust but the way i used to eat i think i enjoyed food more #more than i have in a really long time #i also think its funny that me and the cat both copy each other so weve just created this feedback loop of autistic behavior #its hilarious. sometimes he even tried to pet me by like placing his paw on me a few times and its so cute

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suave-hogan · 1 year ago

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A package from @kingcorvuscreations came in today! You know what that means!

Some little guys have arrived!!