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odysseys-blood · 7 months ago

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ik i always complain abt it but i feel like its so over any time im out with my brother and he looks certifiably like a high schooler his age and i look like he just picked me up from middle school.

#cliffnotes/.txt #like 😭#i fear im not gonna start looking my age for like another 20 years considerinf my parents are now looking like theyre in their 40s #and both are past 50 #this is doing damage to me in many ways #bc i feel like no one takes me seriously already on normal things #but ppl def dont take me serious on my gender/sexuality #and i always feel like i am not a dating candidate bc ppl think im much younger than i am.#i am not turning to makeup to fix this thats never happening

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slavhew · 7 months ago

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you win. try again?

#homestuck #home2t4ck #hom3stuck #dave strider #bro strider #beta bro #abuse #blood #admin draws #fanart #uhh i dont usually say this but please dont tag as ship lmao #i usually live and let live but this is a domestic abuse situation. i wouldnt really be cool with that.#that out of the way. so many thoughts about these 2 #its like. bro is a bad guardian right. hes just more than shit at it.#but it never felt to me like it was malicious. hes doing irreparable damage but its something he thinks is necessary #or is unaware of the extent of it. either way.#i feel like in this situation he'd be proud of his little bro. lil guy did something impressive after all.#who cares that he himself got hurt for it. like even tho he might realize this is upsetting for dave. he might hope that its vindicating #but its not. dave is just horrified. because its just violence #defeating the villain and being the hero doesnt feel good. it never has #OUGHGHG anyways i drew more. today it felt like pulling teeth but i have too many ideas and theyre getting otu on the canvas one way #or another

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feelo-fick · 3 days ago

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Au where eating the demons desire makes Laios immortal

Demons Curse

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WHYYYYY WHY WOULD YOU SAY THIS TO MEEEEEEE WHYYYY SNIFF SNIFF IM SO SAD. IMS O SAD. I DREW THIS WHILE FALLING APART AT THE SEAMS. uaogh okay let me get my thoughts out about this

i originally was sorta happy in a bittersweet way cause i thought, well at least marcille has company, they have eachother to lean on now!

...but then i realized marcille isnt immortal. shes gonna live LONG, but shes not immortal. AND I GOT SO EXTREMELY SAD

can you imagine, trying to convince your friend not to extend everyones lifespans to a scarily long degree. and then having to help her deal with that fear and grief of losing her loved ones. AND THEN REALIZING YOURE IMMORTAL AND OUTLIVING ALL OF YOUR LOVED ONES INCLUDING HER. imagine being marcille as she gets older watching laios experience the same exact fear and grief she knows so well and knowing she cant do anything other than reassure him itll be alright. imagine being so scared to die and now suddenly you know someone who CANT die and realizing thats SO MUCH WORSE paces in circles. AAAAAAUGH

additional thought of this au, what if this was part of the demons curse to never allow laios' greatest desire to be granted? i mean laios is a very simple guy with simple wants, he wants to be loved, to eat good food, to study monsters, to be around his friends, and generally just live a normal life. being immortal would definitely complicate things... he'll be able to see and experience so many things but he wont be able to do it with his loved ones, not for long.

and also, being king, he'd probably be in that position for a long long time - maybe he'd willingly retire at some point but even after that where would he go then? what would he do? he cant go and find monsters to study, they all avoid him. i guess, explore the rest of the world? watch everything move on without him?

speaking of, imagine if he lived up until a time like modern day. so many years so many friends (gained and lost) and so many changes... that would be insane. THIS IS SPIRALLING INTO ME JUST GOING "WOULDNT IT BE FUCKED UP TO BE IMMORTAL" AJDNSJXBAH

anyways, final note, im reminded too of this "hand my my shovel, im going in!" animatic that haunts my mind forever AUGH its so good, and captures my immortality thoughts perfectly

#ARE YOU HAPPY... IM SO SAD. THIS FUCKED ME UP #I HOPE THIS MAKES SENSE #i was originally gonna do chilaios/whole party angst but then i was like “wait. marcille.” and got so fucked up about it that i had to do i #AJ. GRIPS YOUR SHOULDERS. WHAT PROMPTED YOU TO SAY SOMETHING SO CRUEL TO ME.... (<- silly)#but no yeah frankly i was really (pleasantly!) surprised to see this ask #anyways as someone who is both scared of death and scared of immortality i had many thoughts about this #thank you! i will be haunted by this forever #marcille #marcille donato #laios #laios touden #dungeon meshi #<- tagging just cause i need to hit people with psychic damage #im proud of this one! it looks pretty even though i struggled with the anatomy #big shout outs to that hand me my shovel im going in animatic by the way. crazy. i love it so much #dungeon meshi spoilers #I FORGOT TO ADD THAT

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myriam-draws · 1 year ago

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some starfires i’ve drawn a bit over time i miss her (i refuse to read titans 2023)

#first one inspired by that beyoncé picture 🤧honestly there’s so many pic of bey during her tour that i saved to draw starfire as but #i don’t draw as much as i used to i’ve got a gf now and gained new hobbies 🥲it’s kinda melancholic i miss drawing tbh #starfire #koriander #kory anders #titans #ntt #new teen titans #dc comics #dc #art #fan art #now that i think of it i don’t think i actually ever finished reading ntt maybe i should persevere just for her #i love ntt but it gets to a point where like okay marv is brined out and has no idea what to do😭which i can’t blame for me too #and i refuse to read anything that damages my perception of dickkory #if i don’t read it it doesn’t exist #and tom taylor and i have beef so i refuse to touch anything he writes 😒#i love tags man all social medias should have them #it’s like i can blabber about anything but don’t feel too loud about it #i use twitter way more and stopped using other social medias tbh but nothing beats tumblr tags

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emuchipmunk · 10 months ago

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19 | Jared McCann x American Teenager - Ethel Cain

Part 5 of the Spotify Wrapped x Hockey series

#Spotify wrapped x hockey #why has this man worn so many numbers #I’m face blind as hell why would you do this to me #happy new year this is my gift to everyone but especially to Baz #it was a very very close call between McCann and Spezza for this #but seeing that McCann primer a few days ago has done Damage #jared mccann #pittsburgh penguins #vancouver canucks #florida panthers #Seattle kraken #have you ever seen a team so motivated by love by the way #other than the 22/23 leafs #mine #hockey #hockey edit #hockey art

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ex0tic-butters · 1 month ago

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prompt: what was the worst gift you've ever received?

#this video is so funny to me in so many ways because of so many things #before phil even starts talking he's rubbing his face waiting for dan to stop yapping he's like bro this play is about you #the IMMEDIATE sass from dan when he realizes this story is about him just i got you like four don't misrepresent me like that #and again with the it's what you wanted #man is not taking any shit #DANYOUGOTMETHREELAMPS #the periodic annoyed cheek sucks from him are doing it for me too he LIKED THOSE LAMPS #phil trying to explain this to him like THREE LAMPS??? WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU #dan immediately coming back with the entire timeline of how he ended up with all these lamps #(law school comin through there for a second he was debating)#man really said FUCK YOUR LAMP and phil's just trying to do damage control while dan is fuming #dan and phil #amazingphil #daniel howell #dnp games #dan and phil games #phan

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bunnieswithknives · 2 months ago

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sorry if idk this but what do you think about Wordgirl now in 2024 do you still like it do you still want to make art or talk about it or are you just done with all of it forever and plus i seen that you haven't made art of it since 2022 so you just done with all of it oh yeah and what about The Magnus Archives + Wordgirl ao3 fic too like is that just going to be and i know that your working on 2 au's now just wanting to know that's all

My interests tend to come in intense bursts and then fade. Unless something like, big happens like it gets a reboot its unlikely I'll be coming back to it anytime soon. As for the fic I don't have any current plans to finish it unfortunately.

#Its so shocking whenever anybody mentions that fic to me #like its just such a specific combo of interests how are there this many people interested in it...#I have some fragments of unfinished chapters for it laying around but I was struggling to get them to work #and I definitely dont have the motivation to finish them now #If youre curious the chapters were going to be Slaughter avatar miss Power and Web avatar Mr Big #and possibly Flesh avatar Butcher but I never got around to starting that one #The Miss Power chapter was basically going to be about her having kind of lost her thread #I wanted to leave a lot of ambiguity as to what happened with her home planet #but she hadnt been in contact with them for agessssss and her radio is damaged and her ship is in bad shape #the chapter was just going to be her being like 'pfff I dont interpersonal connection Im doing great out here. Murdering. All on my own'#Well she has her little squirl thing but she treats him like an animal #mr giggle cheeks or whatever #anyway I wanted it to imply that whatever happened her bloodthirst was destroying her #The Mr Big chapter was from Lesley's perspective #She would have been one in a long long line of assistants that Mr Big went through like candy #Lesley is his favorite though because. while she is terrified of him. shes still willing to push him. to be honest with him #but she also knows exactly when to step off. when to lie to appease him #( its always a tossup as to whether he wants a sweet lie or the harsh truth that day. He can always tell either way #its a gamble he does to be cruel. She always picks right though. or maybe he's more lenient with her than he should be)#He likes that she knows exactly how to push him without ever stepping over the line #He likes that her guilt and revulsion are slowly eating her up inside but shes too selfish to leave #She likes being special. She likes the idea of ruling the world alongside him #She'll always be second in command but shell be so much higher than everyone else #and shes willing to do anything to get that #Mr big doesnt think shell ever make it that far #but he likes her anyway #shes the one assistant he'll be sad about dying #OK damn apparently I did still have things to say about this old fic DAMN #still not gonna finish it tho. they call me the struggler becaus.e writing is a struggle...

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bright-and-burning · 1 month ago

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EYE do not want to have kids . i have NEVER wanted to have kids (source: three year old me who lived thru my mom's very unpleasant experience having my twin siblings and literally made up deep lore for every doll i ever had to ensure that everyone knew they were adopted and did NOT come from my tummy (the tummy thing is also a direct quote)). HOWEVERRRRRR. when people are good w kids i turn into a fucking puddle of goo.

#like i do think being decent w children #(like. treating them like human beings. being kind and silly n attentive w them and taking their concerns seriously)#is a pretty key consideration for like serious dating for me #not in a 'well they need to be a good co-parent' way (necessarily. have not ruled out adoption/partner carrying. just pregnancy 4 myself)#but in a 'i plan on being a very involved aunt to my siblings' kids my cousins' kids my friends' kids the neighbors' kids etc' way #and in a 'if you cant be decent to children for even fifteen minutes there is something fundamentally mismatched w us' way i guess #i have drunkenly told MANY people like bro when ur kids r old enough i am showing up to ur house w a $400 lego kit #and sending u out on date night or whatever. idc get out somewhere. so me and ur kids can build some crazy shit #i ALREADY send my one hs friend who has two kids copies of my fave books from when i was that age #ANYWAYS. basically it's sweet AND it's also . hot ? so u can imagine how much psychological damage lando does to me on a monthly basis

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dukeofthomas · 4 months ago

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I will forever maintain that Jason would've been fine and Not a vigilante without Bruce making him Robin

#''bruce never recruited any kids for his mission/war'' falls apart immediately when u consider jason's backstory im ngl #jason todd #my dc posting #his whole character to me is breaking the conventions of the medium #batman #like i hate how ppl treat others like theyre ridiculous when they even dare to critique bruce in any way #i am capable of suspending my disbelief and accepting some things in fiction as okay even if they wouldnt be irl #its the viewers responsibility to meet stories whre theyre at #but its also the story's responsibility to upkeep that yknow?#''child/teen sidekicks are okay n not morally dubious'' okay :D yay :3 #then one of them gets brutally murdered by a villain and im like. yeah uhh no. cant do that anymore 👍sorry #''they all became vigilantes on their own bruce couldnt have stopped them'' yall under the impression bruce hates kid heroes n wants them #properly safe n is just doing damage control/harm prevention #when hes more the lines of encouraging them #difference between ''i cant stop u from doing this so ill make it as safe as i can'' and #''im actively going to encourage you to do this dangerous thing''#i have many opinions n im ngl theyre constantly shifting n they depend on a lot #im not gonna hate on lego batman for robin thats a goddamn childrens movie who tf gives a shit #comics are fair game tho. have u seen what gows on in there.#bruce couldve stopped jason from being a vigilante n instead encouraged him is the hill i will fucking die on #the victim blaming of jason has Got to stoppp its the worst thing ever #also just to remind everyone. ''a good soldier''.#wow a character blames themselves for the death of their child and to torture themselves they put the words 'good soldier' on their memorial #anyway if you even dare to think abt the implications ure stupid n #like do u hear urself whattt

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martyrbat · 5 months ago

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habeas corpus – detective comics #1086

(ID in alt!)

#loved this back up feature so much and seeing that bruce timm shit made me annoyed enough to actually transcribe it #first the way hes depicted as having to stand trial and ARGUE and fight for the rights of using the coin #rather than it just being a compulsion and something he must do before a decision....#like every time. every time when he's 'leaving it up to chance'—thats a time when harvey won. thats a time when harvey fought for the right #to use the coin and make it at least a 50/50 chance instead of 'crawling away until the hard part is done' like two face pushed for #every single time. regardless of the results regardless of knowing theres only a halfway chance of it actually achieving anything #or lessening the damage two face can/will do. every time hes fighting for and still believing in a fair trial and that everyone deserves on #it isnt him being weak. it isnt him avoiding responsibility. its him fighting and forcing and pushing for it as hes internally at war #with himself 24/7. even when two face wins he doesnt give up & continues to fight for what he believes in despite the injustice done to him #the way he tells Judge Janus that it isnt about HIM (himself!) while defending the right of existence to the jury of other societal rejects #the way he gestures to himself only at the very end. he asks the judge does that sound like anyone he knows and janus replies in two faces #voice but harvey keeps going. he keeps fighting for others. but at the end in actually acknowledging two face being part of him #(and by extension harvey being part of two face) and how harvey is fighting just as much to have a place as two face is #(but more within his own mind & upholding his belief system still despite knowing how it continues to fail them) and just FUCK #and two faces snaps! how theres no jurisprudence system above there either ! just no one will admit it!#how harvey knows!!! look what happened to him when he was doing the right thing!#look how many criminals and mob bosses paid their way out! look how the police are corrupt!#but still believing in it and how a system has to be in place despite being a direct victim of it as well and just GOD #I LOVE YOU GOOD HEARTED AND WANTING TO HELP PEOPLE HARVEY DENT YOU WILL ALWAYS BE FAMOUS TO ME !!!!!!!!#taking away how he genuinely wanted to help people and bring wrongs to rights takes away literally everything hes built on #it takes away the entire fucking tragedy of his character (and in many ways it changes how bruce himself operates and believes because #harvey WAS a good man doing everything by the books. he was trying to bring justice in the 'right way' and believed in the system. he was #what people tell bruce he should be and look where it got him. look how the system failed 'even the good ones' because the system itself is #corrupt. it isnt flawed—it was operated to oppress and thats why it cant just be fixed but must be entirely rebuilt and why bruce must #operate outside of it. it also gives more depth because harvey is one of batmans first and biggest failures. he didnt protect him.#he didnt save his parents as a helpless child (as bruce) but he couldn't save his parents as BATMAN.#it wasnt just random chance like his parents tragedy but this was calculated and something bruce didnt stop. its ALWAYS going to eat at #him if he could of prevented it by telling harvey his identity. by doing something different. by being more prepared or somehow #knowing it was going to happen. harvey is the face of tragedy in so many ways that cant fit in these messy rambly tags but its ALLL!!!!!!!#bc harv was (and still is despite it all! despite two face!) a good man!! because he originally was a glimmer of hope to bruce & the city!!

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bigweldindustries · 1 month ago

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forgot to share Diana's swollen wingbuds!!! should hopefully see him get his wings super super soon and then he can fully take his place as Ar Di 💖

#axel grinds on #mantisposting #he'll be the third mantis ive gotten all the way thru to adulthood!!!! AAAAA #im so proud of my little guy #he absolutely loves being handled #doesnt like wall time at all just loves hanging out on my hands and arms #which is funny bc both trent and arty love(d) wall time #arty also loves hand time but she likes to eat the salt off my skin which is a bit scary #like i can hear her mandibles fucking CRUNCH mealworm exoskeleton she could do some good damage to me #shes always very gentle but. bit scary LMAOOO #di doesnt do that he just chills #likes to sit on my thumb which is why i have so many photos of him doing that

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citrlet · 7 months ago

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very sad this morning seeing Ryan and Shane leaving youtube to start yet another exclusive subscription service :/

#this is a monumentally shitty idea #then entire comment section is UNIFIED ive never seen that before akfjsks #i had to say that early accessing like cc makers do here would have been way better #but now at this point the damage is done and a lot of people feel disappointed that they seem to care more about the money #and honestly i dont think they produce enough content to justify a whole new service #i love the mcelroys way more and what they do is so much better #youtube already has a built in tier sevice why cant they just do that???#anyway i have so many thoughts on this #i honestly watched ryan and shane way more than when they were on buzzfeed #i watched for their dynamic and how fucking funny they are together not for the quality of the shows #so many people do not understand that people watch them for them not for high value production is #first matpat then jacksepticeye soon and now this :/#im DREADING the day gab smolders inevitability retires because shes my comfort youtuber she and her content has gotten me #through some of my worst moments #ill shut up now #someone tell me how many dislikes their announcement has on yt im so curious akfkska #oh also and its like dont they get their fanbase is mostly young people who probably cant afford another streaming service #on top of bills and the cost of living now??

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bunnihearted · 5 months ago

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#i've been so good not complaining about this... so im gonna do it now :3 #early this week during my walk... a point in my shoulder / collarbone / neck started hurting so bad #it was at that level where your saliva production increases and you start feelings slightly nauseous #idk if it was bc it was so painful OR if the pain is at a point that puts pressure on certain nerves #and during the week i've felt it on and off but at a much lowe intensity #but this morning i woke up at 6am and couldnt fall asleep bc it hurt too much 🥴#i've googled sm but i just cant figure out at all what it could be... this doesnt fit any description #it isnt focused in my shoulder joint bc i can move my arm in all directions and degrees and it doesnt make it worse #anyway i read and read but i cant figure out at all what it is and that annoys me bc now idk what to do T-T #it could maybeeeee be that im so fkn tense and always have muscle tension in my neck throat and shoulders #it is possible that it now hit a specific pressure point and now i have a pinched nerve type of situation where my muscles are tensed up #or it is bc i could have done certain exercises wrong at the gym #im always so anxious and cautious abt exercising wrong but i still cant ever be sure if i do it correctly :(((#i might have used one of the machines for shoulders/biceps/back incorrectly #like maybe the seat has been too high or low :/// and now i've strained smth???#it made me so sad tho bc when i was at the gym this week i skipped all upperbody exercises bc im too scared 😔#i want it to pass bc like it actually hurts in such a weird and uncomfortable way like it makes me wanna puke and it comes in waves #but nothing makes it better like not heat not painkillers not stretches ... so im just not doing too much #and hope it will go away :'))) but also now im scared of exercising bc what if im doing it wrong and damage my body?!? 😭#i hate my body bc i have so many random unexplainable pains and it is so annoying >.<#ok now i've complained so i feel better ^-^

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evansbby · 6 months ago

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Not you supporting Chris Evans propaganda character who was israel’s way of showing people they are innocent and angels 🤢🤢🤢 and still thirsting over him

Shame on you

Before you say Ari is a jew you’re wrong he’s a zio

Ari isn’t real I hope that helps!

#and I’ve been so open about how damaging that movie is in so many ways #israeli propaganda in movie form #not only that but the portrayal of Muslims in that movie is so…. like seriously wtf #on top of that it’s not even a well researched movie since everyone knows the Ethiopian Jews were then forcibly sterilised upon arrival #arrival in Israel #I’ve also been open about being disappointed in Chris for being in that movie #but atp I do not care about him as a celeb or what he does #I don’t even care about canon Ari levinson #he’s just a face claim for me atp #and anyone with a brain has understood that #bc I’ve had multiple discussions about it on my blog #the question with you is do you wanna discuss that or do you just wanna mindlessly attack people?#without an ounce of critical thinking?#bc we are both on the same side here aren’t we #so why is your first gut instinct to attack me #anon

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sassmill · 2 months ago

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I just want to be allowed to scream at my sister the way she screams at me. I want to be allowed to slam doors and throw things and break things. I want to be allowed to react to the way she treats us and not be called selfish.

#hot fucking take but I don’t really see much dialogue on how fucking traumatizing it can be to live with an autistic person #whose autism outwardly manifests the most behaviorally #her not being able to help being dysregulated does not negate how fucking scary it is #to be on the receiving end of that behavior #and to be conditioned for your entire life that you’re bad if you react in any way #this is less about neurodivergence than it is about my fucking mother #especially because I’m likely on the spectrum as well #but if someone that wasn’t autistic did those same things it would be considered an abusive environment #I’m not saying that my sister is abusive #but I am saying that it is so incredibly emotionally damaging to live in this house #any harm done to me by the screaming and throwing and breaking things is not even allowed to be considered #because she ‘can’t help herself’#and the quotes there are again less about neurodivergence than my mother #because my sister actually has really solid coping skills… when my mother is not involved #my mother will make excuses and enables her in a way that is so frustrating #my sister would actually do much better if she were living in a dorm/group home like she previously was #but that costs a lot of money #and so she lives here with my enabling permissive mother #and is more dysregulated than she has been in YEARS #because so many of the skills and coping tools she learned at her resident program #she has completely stopped utilizing because she doesn’t have to #because instead of trying to work through it my mother will make excuses for her #so instead of trying to work through it she screams so loud my ears ring #and slams doors so hard they break #and throws things in a way that makes me scared she’s going to hurt one of us #but if I display any reaction to what in any other circumstance would be recognized as a frightening and harmful situation #I’m making things worse and I’m being selfish #I’m like. fine. in the way that I’ve had to be my whole life.#which is mostly dissociating and spending as little time home as possible #but every time it happens it makes me wish I was not alive

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joshuadunshua · 2 months ago

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I don’t know why this feels like such a hot take on this site (and in general lately tbh) but like.

I just think that if someone seems to be seeking or hoping for praise for doing the right thing, especially if they aren’t used to doing that right thing, you should praise them.

I really do not care if it “should be the bare minimum.” You want more of that good behavior? You gotta use positive reinforcement.

Punishing someone for doing the right thing just because it’s Basic Good Behavior to you (are you even as consistent as you think?) is a sure fire way to get them to do less of that thing.

Stop being so fucking resentful and start letting people know you appreciate their efforts to do good and be better.

#& don’t twist this to be something it’s not.#any social interaction discussed this way gets stripped of its context #and any form of social relation can be taken to extremes or otherwise weaponized #but in the vast vast majority of cases people just want a social signal that they did well #that they’re on the right track #what’s the harm in praising someone for doing the right thing. ever.#hint there is none. there is no downside to saying hey good job to someone who did in fact do a good job #there are however many potential benefits to doing so #and additionally the cost of not doing so can be very fucking high indeed #(see: pushing someone back towards dangerous/damaging ideologies or mindsets bc humans NEED VALIDATION #and if we try to escape toxic mindsets and ideologies only to be met with invalidation & punishment #well #there is already a whole group of shitheads waiting for me and they’ve got their arms wiiide open ready to comisserate.)

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