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ik i always complain abt it but i feel like its so over any time im out with my brother and he looks certifiably like a high schooler his age and i look like he just picked me up from middle school.
#cliffnotes/.txt#like 😭#i fear im not gonna start looking my age for like another 20 years considerinf my parents are now looking like theyre in their 40s#and both are past 50#this is doing damage to me in many ways#bc i feel like no one takes me seriously already on normal things#but ppl def dont take me serious on my gender/sexuality#and i always feel like i am not a dating candidate bc ppl think im much younger than i am.#i am not turning to makeup to fix this thats never happening
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me n moze say good morning to the world !!! ᕙ( •̀ ᗜ •́ )ᕗ
art by @rabbbitseason of course <3
#🐦⬛🐕 .#<-#hehe i took inspo from kai’s rb of my mb:>#MY FIRST MOEVIE COMM#this is queued#im asleep (at least i should be by the time this is posted) but it’s a mystery as to how i will fall asleep knowing i would have to#close my eyes and not actively stare at this for the rest of my life#full factory reset i really don’t know what i would even say to this 🥹 im just#things i would do for bitti : anything! i cannot think of something i wouldn’t do for her#i gave her the most cursed ref known to mankind and she came up with this im so 🥹 thank you so much … your art blows me away every time ….#i may pass out seeing him in your style … the way you did his hands and he’s so big#this is me -> ໒꒰ྀི o̴̶̷̤ ̯o̴̶̷̤ ꒱ྀི১ at this HSJDNCN aaaaaa 🥹#i will also state the very obvious and say that bitti is such a pleasure to work with ajsnxnkck ….. please im on my knees#when i saw this- my stomach literally flipped inside out and my ears were ringing .. and my heart was beating a million beats per second#if bitti’s comms were open for eternity & i won the lottery- i would commission so many mozes ….. the world would be full of bitti’s mozes.#^ though that sounds terrible for bitti … im so sorry#i swear that won’t happen i would never do that to you#he is sooooo yum in your style (severe & outrageous understatement)#but what i can do is stare at this all day#THANK YOU BITTI UEUEJJSJS 🥹🥹🥹 I HOPE UR PILLOWS R ALWAYS COLD !!!#not even aventurine’s shield can protect me from the 100000000 damage i took from this /pos#such a shield doesn’t exist in the hsr realm or the real world !!!#evie.ss#IM KIND OF ANGRY THAT I KNOW THERES NOTHING I CAN SAY TO EXPRESS HOW I FEEL !!!!! WHAT COULD I SAY >:#WHAT AN ODD FEELING WHERE I AM reduced to my knees but from positive emotions alone …#im so dizzy /pos let me stop here this is already so long omg 🥹#edit: dude /gn my screen time is gonna skyrocket because im still staring with such a dopey smile on my face ahsndnxkc gosh im happy :’) th#thank you so much bitti …. this means so much to me#i literally can not put into words how much this has made my entire year :’)) im so soft im so happy
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you win. try again?
#homestuck#home2t4ck#hom3stuck#dave strider#bro strider#beta bro#abuse#blood#admin draws#fanart#uhh i dont usually say this but please dont tag as ship lmao#i usually live and let live but this is a domestic abuse situation. i wouldnt really be cool with that.#that out of the way. so many thoughts about these 2#its like. bro is a bad guardian right. hes just more than shit at it.#but it never felt to me like it was malicious. hes doing irreparable damage but its something he thinks is necessary#or is unaware of the extent of it. either way.#i feel like in this situation he'd be proud of his little bro. lil guy did something impressive after all.#who cares that he himself got hurt for it. like even tho he might realize this is upsetting for dave. he might hope that its vindicating#but its not. dave is just horrified. because its just violence#defeating the villain and being the hero doesnt feel good. it never has#OUGHGHG anyways i drew more. today it felt like pulling teeth but i have too many ideas and theyre getting otu on the canvas one way#or another
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When the only person who might understand what happened- understand. Not sympathize or empathize or comfort you but understand what happened, isn't there anymore. Or: 'A Man Made Me Do Something I Didn't Want To', for when you can't talk about it or look it in the eye [Patreon | Commissions]
#Tuvok#Kes#comix#idk how to tag this bc of the allusion#st voy#star trek voyager#bea art tag#comix page#star trek#this is not a one to one allegory nor is it meant to be - I am specifically focusing in on the loss of bodily autonomy that occurs when#Kes and Tuvok have their bodies taken over purposefully by men for various reasons which all boil to power. 'Because I could' and Because#they thought Kes or Tuvok wouldn't be able to stop them from doing so. Because they thought they had the power to do so so why wouldn't#they? But again this is not one to one - I interpret and will continue to interpret these instances in many different ways#But something that sticks with me in canon is how 'impervious' Tuvok is made - There is that scene at the end of Warlord which#shows that Kes is affected by what just happened to her - she's confused and hurt and doesn't know what to DO now that the in-the-moment#fight is over and it's time to just keep living and Tuvok comforts her but when he will go on to be taken over again and again and again#there will be no one to comfort him - no one HE can go to - and the narrative doesn't say that there should be. Even when he's#taken over by the BORG (an experience which had a lasting traumatic impact on characters like Seven or Picard - granted they were connected#for a lot longer) this is only mentioned offhandedly. One wonders why it occured at all. There's also how the other two main Vulcans#T'Pol and Spock - when they are forced to act emotionally or are in situations that affect their emotional equilibrium there is a big deal#made about it and they are hurt and ashamed and given some degree of care and comfort by those around them but when Tuvok#is forced into similar situations it is simply assumed he'll get over it - not even just by the other characters but the narrative itself#takes it for granted Ex: 'Workforce' where he forgets ALL his Vulcan training or 'Meld' where Suder's influence#unintentionally makes him lose it and try to kill him...THOUGH I think Suder hugging an unconscious Tuvok is perhaps the closest we get to#someone comforting Tuvok after he's been through that sort of ordeal. I'm not saying Tuvok would WANT others to be hugging him#and offering him emotional comfort etc (he's Vulcan) but I find it interesting that the narrative assumes that the black body (even alien)#is more 'durable' than its white counterparts. 'Stronger'. Assumes that there is no interiority which recoils and sustains the damage#when hurt. That there is nothing worth exploring because there is no impact from the impact. A crater lands and the Soil beneath it is#untouched
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Au where eating the demons desire makes Laios immortal
Demons Curse
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WHYYYYY WHY WOULD YOU SAY THIS TO MEEEEEEE WHYYYY SNIFF SNIFF IM SO SAD. IMS O SAD. I DREW THIS WHILE FALLING APART AT THE SEAMS. uaogh okay let me get my thoughts out about this
i originally was sorta happy in a bittersweet way cause i thought, well at least marcille has company, they have eachother to lean on now!
...but then i realized marcille isnt immortal. shes gonna live LONG, but shes not immortal. AND I GOT SO EXTREMELY SAD
can you imagine, trying to convince your friend not to extend everyones lifespans to a scarily long degree. and then having to help her deal with that fear and grief of losing her loved ones. AND THEN REALIZING YOURE IMMORTAL AND OUTLIVING ALL OF YOUR LOVED ONES INCLUDING HER. imagine being marcille as she gets older watching laios experience the same exact fear and grief she knows so well and knowing she cant do anything other than reassure him itll be alright. imagine being so scared to die and now suddenly you know someone who CANT die and realizing thats SO MUCH WORSE paces in circles. AAAAAAUGH
additional thought of this au, what if this was part of the demons curse to never allow laios' greatest desire to be granted? i mean laios is a very simple guy with simple wants, he wants to be loved, to eat good food, to study monsters, to be around his friends, and generally just live a normal life. being immortal would definitely complicate things... he'll be able to see and experience so many things but he wont be able to do it with his loved ones, not for long.
and also, being king, he'd probably be in that position for a long long time - maybe he'd willingly retire at some point but even after that where would he go then? what would he do? he cant go and find monsters to study, they all avoid him. i guess, explore the rest of the world? watch everything move on without him?
speaking of, imagine if he lived up until a time like modern day. so many years so many friends (gained and lost) and so many changes... that would be insane. THIS IS SPIRALLING INTO ME JUST GOING "WOULDNT IT BE FUCKED UP TO BE IMMORTAL" AJDNSJXBAH
anyways, final note, im reminded too of this "hand my my shovel, im going in!" animatic that haunts my mind forever AUGH its so good, and captures my immortality thoughts perfectly
#ARE YOU HAPPY... IM SO SAD. THIS FUCKED ME UP#I HOPE THIS MAKES SENSE#i was originally gonna do chilaios/whole party angst but then i was like “wait. marcille.” and got so fucked up about it that i had to do i#AJ. GRIPS YOUR SHOULDERS. WHAT PROMPTED YOU TO SAY SOMETHING SO CRUEL TO ME.... (<- silly)#but no yeah frankly i was really (pleasantly!) surprised to see this ask#anyways as someone who is both scared of death and scared of immortality i had many thoughts about this#thank you! i will be haunted by this forever#marcille#marcille donato#laios#laios touden#dungeon meshi#<- tagging just cause i need to hit people with psychic damage#im proud of this one! it looks pretty even though i struggled with the anatomy#big shout outs to that hand me my shovel im going in animatic by the way. crazy. i love it so much#dungeon meshi spoilers#I FORGOT TO ADD THAT
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some starfires i’ve drawn a bit over time i miss her (i refuse to read titans 2023)
#first one inspired by that beyoncé picture 🤧honestly there’s so many pic of bey during her tour that i saved to draw starfire as but#i don’t draw as much as i used to i’ve got a gf now and gained new hobbies 🥲it’s kinda melancholic i miss drawing tbh#starfire#koriander#kory anders#titans#ntt#new teen titans#dc comics#dc#art#fan art#now that i think of it i don’t think i actually ever finished reading ntt maybe i should persevere just for her#i love ntt but it gets to a point where like okay marv is brined out and has no idea what to do😭which i can’t blame for me too#and i refuse to read anything that damages my perception of dickkory#if i don’t read it it doesn’t exist#and tom taylor and i have beef so i refuse to touch anything he writes 😒#i love tags man all social medias should have them#it’s like i can blabber about anything but don’t feel too loud about it#i use twitter way more and stopped using other social medias tbh but nothing beats tumblr tags
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19 | Jared McCann x American Teenager - Ethel Cain
Part 5 of the Spotify Wrapped x Hockey series
#Spotify wrapped x hockey#why has this man worn so many numbers#I’m face blind as hell why would you do this to me#happy new year this is my gift to everyone but especially to Baz#it was a very very close call between McCann and Spezza for this#but seeing that McCann primer a few days ago has done Damage#jared mccann#pittsburgh penguins#vancouver canucks#florida panthers#Seattle kraken#have you ever seen a team so motivated by love by the way#other than the 22/23 leafs#mine#hockey#hockey edit#hockey art
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prompt: what was the worst gift you've ever received?
#this video is so funny to me in so many ways because of so many things#before phil even starts talking he's rubbing his face waiting for dan to stop yapping he's like bro this play is about you#the IMMEDIATE sass from dan when he realizes this story is about him just i got you like four don't misrepresent me like that#and again with the it's what you wanted#man is not taking any shit#DANYOUGOTMETHREELAMPS#the periodic annoyed cheek sucks from him are doing it for me too he LIKED THOSE LAMPS#phil trying to explain this to him like THREE LAMPS??? WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU#dan immediately coming back with the entire timeline of how he ended up with all these lamps#(law school comin through there for a second he was debating)#man really said FUCK YOUR LAMP and phil's just trying to do damage control while dan is fuming#dan and phil#amazingphil#daniel howell#dnp games#dan and phil games#phan
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Okay, but do people not understand that some people love to spend time with the children of the people they care about?? That people can love kids who are not their own?? This whole weird fucking narrative that keeps getting spouted in this fandom about how Eddie is supposedly a bad friend because he "uses Buck as a babysitter" is so fucking obnoxious. First of all, Buck "babysitting" is not actually something we see all that often in canon at all.
But also, spending time with a kid you love while helping out a friend you love is not a fucking burden, and it is kind of infuriating that people treat it that way.
#my best friend is not 'using' me because she needs asks me to watch my nieces#i love those kids with everything i am it is not a fucking burden to spend time with them it is an absolute joy#so i am probably biased#but i would argue that is very much how buck sees spending time with christopher#and also this attitude that parents should do everything completely on their own and never ask for help in general is so damaging#we should care about the people we love and we should be happy to help them#acting like people are selfish for needing support is such a terrible way to view existence#and i know i'm technically talking about fictional characters here but this is how so many people seem to view actual people now too#and it is so very sad to see#anyway#that's my controversial opinion for today i guess#911 discourse
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sorry if idk this but what do you think about Wordgirl now in 2024 do you still like it do you still want to make art or talk about it or are you just done with all of it forever and plus i seen that you haven't made art of it since 2022 so you just done with all of it oh yeah and what about The Magnus Archives + Wordgirl ao3 fic too like is that just going to be and i know that your working on 2 au's now just wanting to know that's all
My interests tend to come in intense bursts and then fade. Unless something like, big happens like it gets a reboot its unlikely I'll be coming back to it anytime soon. As for the fic I don't have any current plans to finish it unfortunately.
#Its so shocking whenever anybody mentions that fic to me#like its just such a specific combo of interests how are there this many people interested in it...#I have some fragments of unfinished chapters for it laying around but I was struggling to get them to work#and I definitely dont have the motivation to finish them now#If youre curious the chapters were going to be Slaughter avatar miss Power and Web avatar Mr Big#and possibly Flesh avatar Butcher but I never got around to starting that one#The Miss Power chapter was basically going to be about her having kind of lost her thread#I wanted to leave a lot of ambiguity as to what happened with her home planet#but she hadnt been in contact with them for agessssss and her radio is damaged and her ship is in bad shape#the chapter was just going to be her being like 'pfff I dont interpersonal connection Im doing great out here. Murdering. All on my own'#Well she has her little squirl thing but she treats him like an animal#mr giggle cheeks or whatever#anyway I wanted it to imply that whatever happened her bloodthirst was destroying her#The Mr Big chapter was from Lesley's perspective#She would have been one in a long long line of assistants that Mr Big went through like candy#Lesley is his favorite though because. while she is terrified of him. shes still willing to push him. to be honest with him#but she also knows exactly when to step off. when to lie to appease him#( its always a tossup as to whether he wants a sweet lie or the harsh truth that day. He can always tell either way#its a gamble he does to be cruel. She always picks right though. or maybe he's more lenient with her than he should be)#He likes that she knows exactly how to push him without ever stepping over the line#He likes that her guilt and revulsion are slowly eating her up inside but shes too selfish to leave#She likes being special. She likes the idea of ruling the world alongside him#She'll always be second in command but shell be so much higher than everyone else#and shes willing to do anything to get that#Mr big doesnt think shell ever make it that far#but he likes her anyway#shes the one assistant he'll be sad about dying#OK damn apparently I did still have things to say about this old fic DAMN#still not gonna finish it tho. they call me the struggler becaus.e writing is a struggle...
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Five Minutes
|| CONTENT WARNING || Deep hiccups Yawn-hiccup Hint of Arousal So. Much. Kisses. Overwhelming and endearing moment Cuddling Spooning Mention of guilt Grunts and groans Pet names Case lasted for 15 minutes
|| KEEP IN MIND: Bedroom Setting A-Sleepyhead B-Morning Buddy
"Darling. Mmrr...time to wake up." [B spoke in a velvety, yet gruff tone, lightly rubbing a hand on A's arm]
"Mmm." [A shifts their legs] "No..." [Grumbling, scooting away from B]
"Come on. It's morning. Time to get out of the bed." [B whispered, moving closer to their spouse]
Wrapped in their shared blanket, A huffed, groaning as they stretched and scratched their cheek, eyes closed whilst B brushed their hair.
[A spoke in a murmur] "Mmmrr...Says who?"
"Says me, dove." [B kisses A's neck, their stubble grazing A's skin] "We can't stay in bed for long."
"Yes, we can." [A replied lazily, restraining to squirm from the tickling sensation of B's stubble]
"No. I know, but no." [B gruffly chuckled]
"Let's go to bed." [Reaching for B's hand to pull them close]
"We ARE in bed, darling." [Once A found B's hand, they cuddled]
"Under the covers. Just for a..." [Interrupted with a long yawn, smacking their lips]
"You said that many times." [B said in a gravelly tone, softly chuckling]
Engaging in a playful banter, A snuggled closer to B's front, seeking their warmth.
"You know how I get in the morning." [A's eyes are still closed as B looks down at them]
[B hums in feigned thinking] "Do I now?"
"You doooo." [A dragged their word in feigned disbelief, then dozed off again]
[B notices, a deep chuckle escaped their lips] "Babe." [B coos to them, trying to gently rouse A awake]
"Hey." [B softly uttered close to A's face, feeling a hand scratching their stubble, leaving them to chuckle more]
"MMMmmm...Hey." [B said again, now capturing A's attention as they slowly opened their eyes to look at B, eyes half-lidded]
"Hhh...hi." [A replied in an incoherent mumble]
[B took a deep breath, leaning close to A's scratches] "You slept in early."
"Then...I woke up." [A grumbled, groaning at the thought]
"Nightmare?" [B grew a slight concern in their tone]
[A shook their head lightly, bringing relief to B] "Toilet...and some water."
[B leaned in, breathing in A's signature and addicting scent, letting out a soft chuckle] "Ooh, I see. MMmrr...I suppose I should've let you sleep in a little longer."
[B presses their lips on A's forehead, A giving a reply] "Yeah, you should've. Just five minutes. Unless...you are considering to make it into hours then-"
"Now that's tempting. At the same time, no can do, dear." [B reasoned, finding A's request endearing]
"Why not?" [A softly asked, slightly pouting]
"Because you have done that before." [B brushes A's straying hair in front of their face as they converse]
"Mmmm...yeah? Well, sorry...mmm-not sorry." [B chuckled, shaking their head at A's laid-back, yet straightforward reply]
[B leans in to give A morning kisses, one on the forehead and one on the lips] "MmMmm..." [One last morning kiss on the forehead, hearty hums escaping both lips] "MmMMm..."
A stretched their legs, groaning as they lay flat on the bed, B gazes at them with endearment.
"Hmmh..." [B catches A again in their arms, A looking at them with half-lidded eyes]
"Hi." [B said again]
"Hey." [A chuckled at B's greeting, then scratches B's growing stubble again]
[B chuckled at their small playfulness in assumption] "Enjoying yourself there?"
[A nodded, letting out a big yawn] "HUAAawh...'scuse me."
"Big yawn." [B acknowledges]
"HHhh...you were...moving around in your sleep." [A mentioned]
"Was I now?" [B asked, A humming in confirmation] "Too much moving around? I hope not."
"MMmmno-no. Not too much, dearest." [A leans in to kiss B's lips, B accepting it, letting out a low grumble]
"You WERE half awake." [B replied in a gravelly tone, remembering as A did visit the bathroom]
Small moments like these are always appreciated in bed, specifically. Trouble getting up, a bit of conversation before starting one's day, A and B are enveloped with each other's solace. Despite the time running, A continues to scratch B's stubble, and the room is quiet for a few seconds.
"You love that, huh?" [B innocently teased] "Keep on playing with it."
"It feels good, right?" [A asked]
[B nodded in contentment, grumbling as if they were purring] "I'm glad..." [B lets out a deep, long yawn, smacking their lips together]
[As A continues to give a hearty scratch on B's stubble, B realizes something.] "Is this just your excuse to make me fall right back to sleep with you?"
"Is it working?" [A cooed, rewarding them for their quick deduction]
[B lets out a husky chuckle] "You rascal. Mmm...I'll let you have your fun, for now."
[A took a deep breath, sighing longingly as they enjoyed their sweet time while it lasted] "Being in bed with you is something I didn't expect in my life."
"Well, expect the unexpected, dear." [B leans in, giving a whiff of A's signature scent]
[B swallowed a lump which was audible for A to hear] "We'll have to get up in a little bit. M'kay?" [B brushes their fingertips on A's haggard locks]
[A huffed, still wanting to stay in bed, changing the subject] "Up to anything for today?" [A questioned, leaning to B's caress]
"Mmm-mm." [B shook their head gently] "Oh, I'm visiting the food bazaar later downtown. Want to come along?"
[A thought about it] "Hmm, I guess it wouldn't hurt to come. Sure." [B smiled, their hand now rubbing A's back to give some warmth]
"I went there yesterday. Lots of snacks, delicacies, meals, drinks..." [B paused to let out another deep yawn] "From around, hooah-nnnghhh...mmm-the world. 'Scuse me-"
[B was taken aback when they earned a deep hiccup on their chest after yawning] "Mmrr. HhhhHMP!-guh. HUP!" [B's eyes widened as they realized they were having a deep case, grumbling]
"Owh, my poor love." [A chuckled softly, kissing B's lips, receiving another deep hiccup that rocked their chest and stomach]
[B snuggled close, their head resting on A's shoulder as they continued to hiccup] "HUHMP!-mhmm. HMK!-MMK!" [B would let out soft grunts, smacking their lips to keep them moist]
[A closed the gap between them, rubbing a hand on B's back for comfort] "There, there. I got you." [A was flushing up]
"As I-HMP! I was saying. HIMP!" [B utters] "food and drinks-H'GULP! Nnn..."
[A kissed B's head, feeling a bit flushed] "They're quite...deep today, huh?"
[B tried to take a deep breath, snorting a hiccup halfway, letting out a long sigh] "HMMP!-buh, they a—" [B's head tucked in quick] "—are. Geez."
[B backed up, letting out a deep hiccup] "HUP! Sorry! Sorry, that was sudden-HMMP!" [They chuckled, rubbing their caving chest subconsciously]
"No-no, it's okay! Haha." [A rubs B's chest, a hand tucked under B's] "Uh...hiccups in bed. Again." [A said in a concerned, yet content tone]
[B notices A's reaction, how they are comforting B, who was hiccup-prone] "Mhm. A-HU'UHP! Again...they're going HMK! all out. What have I done? HMmMK! To deserve this?" [B said in feigned grumpiness]
"Big yawns." [A smiled softly at the thought, but they couldn't help but pause every time B hiccups]
"Relishing-HINK!-uh...in them?" [B whispered, another deep hiccup escaped their lips close to A's face]
[A could've sworn their ears are steaming, feeling the gears crank up] "A little. M'sorry." [They spoke in a slightly guilty tone]
[B shook their head, pulling A close to their spasming body] "Shh. No worries-HMmMP!" [A deep, silent double hiccup rippled B's body which A could feel every second of it]
[B looks down, seeing A's guilty face etched, giving A a warm embrace] "We can st—stay like this for a bit. HIMP! If you want."
[A looked up to B, pouting a bit] "You could use a cure right now." [They suggested]
"And HUMK! miss out on this? [Murmuring] Your HNK!UH!—Your darling flushed face? HMMP! Rubbing my chest?" [Chuckle-hiccuped, leaving a heavy grunt, but reassured A with a sheepish grin]
"I can deal a little de-HMP'MK! Deep case. [Grunts] Just five-HNK! five minutes of it will DO!" [Silent hiccup]
[A could feel B swallow another hiccup, their chest thumping once] "They are certainly making their presence known."
B arched their body, leaning to A's hand rubbing their sternum and stomach
"Mmmrr. You take such GUCK!MmHP! Mmm...good care of me-hhhHMK!Uh!" [B purred lowly, A could feel the rumbling on their chest against their palm]
"Just five minutes, then let's cure them." [A firmly said, feeling content and concerned for their beloved]
[B couldn't help but let out a croaky guffaw-hiccup, letting out a guttural groan after calming down] "We stayed in bed HMMMP! a little more than we agreed-" [Swallowed a deep hiccup, groaning at the action] "agreed on."
[Murmur-chuckle, feeling the thumps against B's chest and stomach] "I honestly can't complain." [A admitted, flushing rosy]
B's smile widened, giving hiccup kisses on A's face. The case persisted in deep rhythmic successions, leaving B to groan and grunt to a few, but it didn't made them uncomfortable. Just taken by the abruptness. In their shared bedroom, their bodies touched and cuddled under the covers, relishing in the cool room, rays of the golden sun peering through the curtains. A couldn't help but enjoy B's presence, alongside the hiccups, which B finds endearing to know and explore this side of A.
They felt appreciated. They both are.
#minors dni#no minors allowed#hiccups#hiccups kink#hiccup kink#hic content#non-kink blogs do not reblog#It's odd but had a nice time with this take.#A and B can be anyone you perceive them as. I certainly placed two characters from my Hicvember Collection into this.#Apologies for my wording. It must be giving you a stroke as you read. Look away if it is not to your favor.#Getting awfully self-conscious with my grammar. I know I have said it so many times.#It just aches me since I keep thinking that it causes brain damage. Even word applications are having a seizure from it.#I try to view every writing I made in a “contentment” point of view but I guess I'm still blind to see it that way.#"I wish but I know I can't have this endearing moment specifically.”
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7am, eating cold leftover teriyaki stir-fry for breakfast and crying over blorbos
#normal Saturday morning behavior#redacted spoilers#redacted audio#redacted sam#Seven.txt#rp audio stuff#well. crying over one singular blorbo in particular. Sam's still got me in an emotional chokehold#and i'm too sad to even make a stupid little joke abt how i wouldn't mind if it was a physical one too. ayeee *insert sad eyebrow wiggle*#no but seriously. i have so many feelings abt him and i can't even say it all bc some of it isn't public info yet#eh fuck it i'll just draft this until the audio goes public and then i'll post it once it's no longer Exclusive Info#bc i dont wanna leak Early Access stuff but i have to get this out of my system rn and the new audio is part of what sparked these thoughts#which is funny bc i. literally haven't even listened to it yet. i'm not Ready 😭#where's that tiktok screenshot that's like. 'hyperfixation so bad that i can't even engage with the source material' bc that's me rn#like bro Sam only won the poll like. 2 or 3 days ago and Eric is Already dropping a new Sam audio?? hello? Mr. Redacted i wasn't prepared#anyways i was spoiling myself by perusing the comments last night trying to get a feel for if it's gonna be more angst or comfort#and i saw a comment that absolutely shattered me. and it reignited all my sad thoughts about Sam's eventual. uh. y'know. death.#apparently they plant a tree together or smthn in the new audio (which already has me & my beloved 10y/o orange tree feeling some kinda way#but to the individual in the comments who brought to all our minds the image of Sam sitting beneath that tree in 30 or so years time#when he's decided that he's ready to die and sits out there waiting for the sun to rise..................... 🥲#i'm gonna need u to compensate me for all of that unexpected emotional damage /j /nm#i'm Still not over what he told Darlin' while they had their talk about the future up on his roof together. that audio killed me#then yesterday i was listening to my Sam & Darlin' playlist while cleaning. and Malibu Nights by LANY came on. which i always skip bc Sad#but i let it play and just started crying. standing in the middle of the room all disheveled and holding a broom. as one does.#iirc that song is one that Eric himself said is applicable to Sam which is why/how i found it and put it on the playlist. and god. g o d#hm. i hope that wasn't Patreon exclusive info. i can't remember if it was a public post where he said that or not. hope it's okay to share#but if we can take that song as like. unofficial canon for Sam then that also confirms my idea that he used to drink to cope#which makes the opening lines of Fix What You Didn't Break by Nate Smith even more applicable. i should go edit that post actually#anyways i'm just. feeling a lot. and i love Sam very much and i don't want him to die. but i want him to do what he wants at the same time#Alexis took so fucking much from him. he deserves to live - and end - his life on his own terms. ... i think i need to go write something#*casually fishes this post out of the drafts 3 and a half days later* hi so uh. i wrote a 4k oneshot :) and will hopefully post it tomorrow
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I will forever maintain that Jason would've been fine and Not a vigilante without Bruce making him Robin
#''bruce never recruited any kids for his mission/war'' falls apart immediately when u consider jason's backstory im ngl#jason todd#my dc posting#his whole character to me is breaking the conventions of the medium#batman#like i hate how ppl treat others like theyre ridiculous when they even dare to critique bruce in any way#i am capable of suspending my disbelief and accepting some things in fiction as okay even if they wouldnt be irl#its the viewers responsibility to meet stories whre theyre at#but its also the story's responsibility to upkeep that yknow?#''child/teen sidekicks are okay n not morally dubious'' okay :D yay :3#then one of them gets brutally murdered by a villain and im like. yeah uhh no. cant do that anymore 👍sorry#''they all became vigilantes on their own bruce couldnt have stopped them'' yall under the impression bruce hates kid heroes n wants them#properly safe n is just doing damage control/harm prevention#when hes more the lines of encouraging them#difference between ''i cant stop u from doing this so ill make it as safe as i can'' and#''im actively going to encourage you to do this dangerous thing''#i have many opinions n im ngl theyre constantly shifting n they depend on a lot#im not gonna hate on lego batman for robin thats a goddamn childrens movie who tf gives a shit#comics are fair game tho. have u seen what gows on in there.#bruce couldve stopped jason from being a vigilante n instead encouraged him is the hill i will fucking die on#the victim blaming of jason has Got to stoppp its the worst thing ever#also just to remind everyone. ''a good soldier''.#wow a character blames themselves for the death of their child and to torture themselves they put the words 'good soldier' on their memorial#anyway if you even dare to think abt the implications ure stupid n#like do u hear urself whattt
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habeas corpus – detective comics #1086
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#loved this back up feature so much and seeing that bruce timm shit made me annoyed enough to actually transcribe it#first the way hes depicted as having to stand trial and ARGUE and fight for the rights of using the coin#rather than it just being a compulsion and something he must do before a decision....#like every time. every time when he's 'leaving it up to chance'—thats a time when harvey won. thats a time when harvey fought for the right#to use the coin and make it at least a 50/50 chance instead of 'crawling away until the hard part is done' like two face pushed for#every single time. regardless of the results regardless of knowing theres only a halfway chance of it actually achieving anything#or lessening the damage two face can/will do. every time hes fighting for and still believing in a fair trial and that everyone deserves on#it isnt him being weak. it isnt him avoiding responsibility. its him fighting and forcing and pushing for it as hes internally at war#with himself 24/7. even when two face wins he doesnt give up & continues to fight for what he believes in despite the injustice done to him#the way he tells Judge Janus that it isnt about HIM (himself!) while defending the right of existence to the jury of other societal rejects#the way he gestures to himself only at the very end. he asks the judge does that sound like anyone he knows and janus replies in two faces#voice but harvey keeps going. he keeps fighting for others. but at the end in actually acknowledging two face being part of him#(and by extension harvey being part of two face) and how harvey is fighting just as much to have a place as two face is#(but more within his own mind & upholding his belief system still despite knowing how it continues to fail them) and just FUCK#and two faces snaps! how theres no jurisprudence system above there either ! just no one will admit it!#how harvey knows!!! look what happened to him when he was doing the right thing!#look how many criminals and mob bosses paid their way out! look how the police are corrupt!#but still believing in it and how a system has to be in place despite being a direct victim of it as well and just GOD#I LOVE YOU GOOD HEARTED AND WANTING TO HELP PEOPLE HARVEY DENT YOU WILL ALWAYS BE FAMOUS TO ME !!!!!!!!#taking away how he genuinely wanted to help people and bring wrongs to rights takes away literally everything hes built on#it takes away the entire fucking tragedy of his character (and in many ways it changes how bruce himself operates and believes because#harvey WAS a good man doing everything by the books. he was trying to bring justice in the 'right way' and believed in the system. he was#what people tell bruce he should be and look where it got him. look how the system failed 'even the good ones' because the system itself is#corrupt. it isnt flawed—it was operated to oppress and thats why it cant just be fixed but must be entirely rebuilt and why bruce must#operate outside of it. it also gives more depth because harvey is one of batmans first and biggest failures. he didnt protect him.#he didnt save his parents as a helpless child (as bruce) but he couldn't save his parents as BATMAN.#it wasnt just random chance like his parents tragedy but this was calculated and something bruce didnt stop. its ALWAYS going to eat at#him if he could of prevented it by telling harvey his identity. by doing something different. by being more prepared or somehow#knowing it was going to happen. harvey is the face of tragedy in so many ways that cant fit in these messy rambly tags but its ALLL!!!!!!!#bc harv was (and still is despite it all! despite two face!) a good man!! because he originally was a glimmer of hope to bruce & the city!!
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forgot to share Diana's swollen wingbuds!!! should hopefully see him get his wings super super soon and then he can fully take his place as Ar Di 💖
#axel grinds on#mantisposting#he'll be the third mantis ive gotten all the way thru to adulthood!!!! AAAAA#im so proud of my little guy#he absolutely loves being handled#doesnt like wall time at all just loves hanging out on my hands and arms#which is funny bc both trent and arty love(d) wall time#arty also loves hand time but she likes to eat the salt off my skin which is a bit scary#like i can hear her mandibles fucking CRUNCH mealworm exoskeleton she could do some good damage to me#shes always very gentle but. bit scary LMAOOO#di doesnt do that he just chills#likes to sit on my thumb which is why i have so many photos of him doing that
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watching Heathcliff and Catherine's whole toxic codependent mess is so deeply funny with Edgar, Catherine's actual husband, standing right next to them being entirely normal about loving his wife
#Universe Ends Posts#Wuthering Heights#i am sure this is an ice cold take to long term wuthering heights enjoyers but as someone who just read it#truly the transcendental experience of heathcliff and catherine being weird as all fuck#whilst Edgar. is mildly miffed at his wife being so obsessed with another man.#tends to be gentle with her bc he knows she's a bit unstable at times especially after getting sick.#mourns her when she dies and processes grief in a normal way and moves on to take care of his child and household.#you know. how people love other people.#i just deeply enjoy that we've got so many completely fucked up blorbos running about and to counteract them A Normal Man#also i gotta say it. hareton and catherine the second are cute. im glad those crazy kids made it out okay.#OH also i AM obsessed with Catherine and Heathcliff dont get me WRONG#they are THE definition of getting on like a house on fire- the amount of livelihood and property damage those two caused-#iconic. whos doing it like them? the OG problematic favs
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