#this is barely coherent

[gothghostiie]

hear me out

I'm thinking about johnny eating wings

and obviously he can't eat like a normal person, hes messy and disgusting, his hands are dirty and his teeth are tearing into the meat and gnawing on the bones and I just wanna watch him do all that cause. god

[chaeul]

I'm having big big feelings about the fact that Cir's room in his mom's house was even darker and colder than his condo, but then Phu calls and Cir sits down in the only warm source of lighting from outside, on the bed. The symbolism!!! *balls fists and screams* Phu's literally the light and warmth in his life. Reaching him even here and staying with him (peep the couch being completely in the dark in the beginning but then the sunlight reaches it when Cir sits on it while still talking to Phu) Just- haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

Hhhhhh and they did such a good job making him seem so small when he gets back into his room, where his mom wants him to be. That room is huge and everything in it is so oversized that he literally seems so small and lost in it gahhhhhhhh What a tragically beautiful way to show how he feels

[aslongasitistold]

no but like the way that the ending of in the wind incorporates the theme from ends of the earth just makes me AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

[angrybubbles]

Bet: Loumand would've been so much healthier if Louis, seeing the plays at the Theatre, said "nah, I think I can do better. You want to write about death, let me introduce you to American Gothic."

So he opens up a rival theatre, start writing plays, or even makes friends with a playwright. Makes a business out of it, he's good at that. Hires Madeline for costume design, so Claudia starts visiting more to hang out with her, even though she's still exploring the limits of the coven.

Suddenly Armand has some challenge in his life. He's flabbergasted at the idea of a competing THEATRE but not a competing coven. He doesn't even really care about the plays, but he has to respond for the coven. And the coven? As theatre kids they're LIVING for this drama. Santiago is still pissed that Louis is hot and doesn't want to join, but competing against another leading man? It makes his blood sing in a different way. This is exciting and new, and as long as Louis isn't introducing more vampires for competition it's fine.

Of course once Madeline is turned things start going from dicey to minced.

Star crossed theatre managers AU.

[erinravenseeker]

Just had a middle-of-the-night “ohhhh” moment as I just figured out that Kim Dokja needs the Fourth Wall not because of the scenarios but because it was essentially his survival mechanism for life.

Now I have only read the novel once so I could totally be forgetting stuff & way off-base but this is what I remember. Inane rambling under the cut, major spoilers included.

We know he’s generally antisocial, placing himself outside of society like a reader, and he internally smoothed over Sangah’s rough points even before the scenarios, making her into a ‘character’ (a caricature of herself) that fit into an archetype.

Dissociating from reality & viewing himself as a reader is his coping mechanism & “WoS coming to life” provides a convenient excuse to keep ignoring that fact.

This kind of ties in with an idea I’ve been forming about the Fourth Wall, which is that KDJ is fundamentally incapable of believing that “The Characters” (read: everyone) can experience growth as a result of his actions. He exists outside of the story, he is in the audience beyond the fourth wall, so he cannot affect the characters.

Hence the paradoxical nature of the Fourth Wall. For as long as he is a Reader, the Fourth Wall is maintained. And as long as the Fourth Wall is maintained, he will continue to be a Reader.

(Warning this is where it gets incoherent and messy.)

Kim Dokja fundamentally NEEDS the Fourth Wall to be maintained. Not just because of the OD stuff, but because it’s the way he’s learnt to cope with existing. It’s also why dying is so easy for him—we know he cannot deal with the guilt of making people he cares about suffer, but if he’s just a Reader, that means he can’t really have any meaningful impact on their lives, so it’s fine for him to just… disappear.

Kim Dokja is not actively suicidal, he’s just invested himself so far into the worldview of himself being a Reader that to him, his temporary deaths no longer register as dying. More like… stepping out of the theatre for a bit.

It gets complicated when we hit OD. Because then we realise the KDJ we’ve been accompanying is essentially a self-insert OC. So we can ascribe the way he thinks to OD, including all the coping mechanisms and self-distancing. But where OD manages to escape the narrative along with SP, at the same time the KimCom Crew escape the narrative, KDJ actually kind of… doubles down?

Like, OD does what any Reader does and learns from the book. When KDJ says “I, someone of no redeeming quality, could be loved by the others.” It’s not just him learning this lesson. It’s actually kind of the opposite. OD is Reading this lesson so he learns that he’s allowed to accept the mercy of SP & the 999 crew. So they escape the narrative.

KimCom also manages to escape the narrative but KDJ… can’t. He comes to the conclusion that he was actually backstage all along. But that means he’s still not ON stage. A Character can’t feel for the Script Writer or Director or Stage Manager. So he doubles down on his separation from them, stepping into that role. And then then KimCom comes banging on his door backstage because they’re not just characters, they’re the Actors now, and KDJ disappears because he can’t deal with that, because he fundamentally cannot exist on the same plane as them.

I think that’s why I’m hopeful at a post-epilogue ending. KDJ The Reader exists at essentially a higher tier than the people around him, and so he believes he cannot be loved in a way that has a lasting impact on them. But he DID spend years being affected by WoS, by Yoo Joonghyuk. If he becomes the Character, and them the Readers… maybe, just maybe, he can actually accept that love.

[sophegg]

i’m reading an old mcyt fanfic that i bookmarked to read like 2 years ago and just got around to and there’s a part where tubbo goes on a rant about servers and how companies overcharge and this fic was written in 2022 so he was probably just like complaining on an alt stream or smth but it’s low key making me so emotional that now it’s 3 years later and is now running a free server hosting company that’s been so successful so far so that no one has to get scammed by these shitty companies again and like…….idk so much has changed in these past three years in this space but watching tubbo slowly learn more about server tech on alt streams and then hunting down cheap server tech in South Korea and then finally launching this project that he’s been low key dreaming about for years…..it’s cool to be reminded how much good the passage of time can be like things have changed and some are better and some are worse and some are just different but tubbo managed to realize the dream that started out as just a rant on some nearly forgotten stream three years ago

[catboyhawk]

something something everyone refers to Hawkeye like thats his Actual Name but. something about his real name being Benjamin. its such a vulnerable name its almost youthful. hes not ben anymore, he has to be the Hero. sometimes you still see Benjy crack through

[zylian]

The implications that Pangi being so confused and asking Red what he possibly could have done for Subz to constantly be backstabbing him for is ever so possible

Like this thought is running through my head

Subz on day 1 helped Rek with his plans to kill Pangi

Subz gave god apples to Pangi (you don’t just do that with anyone)

Subz helped Parrot multiple times with his plan to kill Pangi

Subz joined Leviathan’s side in the fight for the crown

It’s so sad from Pangis perspective that someone he wanted to trust from the beginning has been cutting him down just as easily since the start.

Subz never directly hurt Pangi until that crown fight and I swear it makes so much sense why Red cared so much more that he had to fight Subz in that fight over anyone else.

Subz, Pangi & Red are so tragic.

Red who’s completely loyal to Pangi not going after Subz, Pangi unable to understand why Subz did what he did but choosing to leave it alone and Subz not caring but when asked he does it anyway.

Subz betrayal was slow and built up so much that even after all of it when eclipse temporarily teamed with the Shades, they never acted as close as before.

Yah Woogie was tied into it as Pangis right man, he was also very against Subz but it never escalated. The thing is Red never wanted to hurt Subz, despite being loyal to Pangi.

Those 3 are so level headed that even if they try to ignore it the actions never stop.

I swear it can be comparable to a brutal betrayal, it’s constantly been built up and left them hurting every time the other is involved specifically.

[you-have-been-frizzled]

ok at least the spots hatered of Miles made sense, in superhero worlds. that’s a completely normal thing for supervillains to do, but miguel was just

“i hate you because you are me but better, it doesn’t matter you are a literal child”

which means he’s the worse villain here

[petercushingscheekbones]

Sometimes fucking off during your break, walking around a mall alone and getting a coffee can be more healing than you would imagine

[gothghostiie]

thinking about price telling you he has a big cock before sleeping with him for the first time. hes not bragging, hes not arrogant, hes simply telling you a fact that he thinks you should know beforehand. you giggle at him when he says it, but he insists that it's a necessity and that he won't be mad if you change your mind about sleeping with him. you laugh it off and tell him you can take it. you laugh until he pulls down his pants.

[t4ct1c4l-d1ld0]

Oh god that post is going around huh listen I don't know who he follows on that account but also he does NOT need to know that I'm alrrady this bad sooo maybe save the reblogging until hes not actively online thsnks

[mossy-aro]

sometimes finding aromanticism in media isn’t literally about aromanticism… sometimes it’s about the deconstruction of love as a concept and the subversion of its perception as inherently humanising. it’s about the decentering of romance as a driving force in the narrative. and also sometimes it’s about love being central to the narrative but in a way that defies all traditional categorisations of romantic / platonic / anything else. it is the secret third thing yet so much more and less at once. the point is aromanticism is everywhere for those with eyes to see

[mischievous-thunder]

It's a special skill set, Logan. Wade wants you to make good use of it over and over again!

[rosieofcorona]

"hunt well," who let solas dragon age say that!!!!! in the middle of a ball where he's feeling sooo cocky and sooo in his element!!! GOD

[bacchuschucklefuck]

doing chibi is a good design exercise bc it forces u to think on shapes n essential details, essentially thumbnailing ur designs. its also a terrible design exercise bc it ends up looking cute no matter what