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I hate the #Black!reader tag🤷🏾‍♀️ nobody knows how to hashtag if I am looking for earthy black girl reader or a gamer black girl reader or anything like that I would not be able to find it cuz all people do in the hashtag black!reader is slap a black reader hashtag on the bottom of their story and then that's it. It gets lost in the thousands of other black reader stories instead of just tagging it what it is now I'll have to scroll through thousands of posts just to find one post that I want nobody shares posts/profiles that write those stories quite frankly the community for blk readers suck. Y'all love to say they're there but never share the info on who and where.

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(Not posting this to discourage anyone just need to rant MY FEELINGS feel free to read or not😁)

Shifting is not easy it's not TO ME PERSONALLY if it was would it really take 5+ yrs🤷🏾‍♀️ if it was I wouldn't feel like I've wasted 5+ yrs & nothing & quite frankly I'm tired and a little bit over it. It's not easy to relax my brain, it's not easy to visualize, it's not easy to taste & smell & feel. It's not easy to get my brain to shut off & stop overthinking. It's not easy reading these posts saying do this or that & nothing. It's not easy seeing these posts say "well you actually don't need anything" it's not easy not knowing what posts are misinformation. 5+ yrs of feeling like every attempt is pointless. It's not easy to "only need yourself" like wtf does that mean? It's not easy to ignore your own body. It's not easy reading posts & feeling like everybody apart from the shifting community regurgitates the same exact thing over & over again. It's not easy to try method after method subliminal after subliminal affirmation after affirmation. It's not easy seeing posts say "what works for others might not work for you" when you've been trying for yrs & NOTHING IS WORKING. It's not easy seeing some random person posting saying "you're pathetic" it's not easy seeing others shift & nothing for you after yrs cause what am I doing wrong? It's not easy feeling like you're doing something wrong but also being told you're not & it will happen for you someday & still nothing. It's not easy feeling like you want to give up and erase every bit of shifting from your life but still wanting to cause you know you can. It's not easy. So while I do want to finally have my first successful shifting and to feel like after 5+ yrs all I've done has worked & made a post about how excited I was to finally shift and maybe finally find a community to talk with. I unfortunately feel like it's time to close this chapter🥹And honestly I really don't want to I want to shift really I do but I hate the thought that as yrs go by I'll hit yr 8, 9, 10, 11, etc & still nothing. I hate the thought that I'm stopping just before I've finally shifted. I hate to say but this is my last time trying to shift I've even cried while typing this 😭 which seems so unnecessary but I hate feeling like I'm failing right at the finish line. Maybe one day I'll try again but as of today 2/12/2025 at 6:06 am I'm saying goodbye to the shifting community, to all my scripts, to my DR selves, & to my Pinterest boards. It wasn't easy but honestly I can still say it was a good run & a lot of fun making my scripts & boards. But hey maybe I'll accidentally shift now that I'm stopping that would be a slap in the face from the universe for sure😂😅. Goodbye everyone and good luck shifting 🙏🏽

(Once again this post was not to discourage anyone just a rant I've needed to say for yrs no hate towards my personal feelings plz)