#this is about kin dysphoria

[xxxsugarcyanidexxx]

I am not my own.

Every follicle upon my skin, over my landscape of carbon, collagen, and oxygen, woven together by some power beyond comprehensible understanding, is not my own.

The way my throat moves, gummy and wet, nauseates me, synovial fluid in my joints. I'm peeling like a wall of lead paint, and it seems that I am just as toxic.

Aches in my bones, bones that betray me, holding up the meat draped over it, rotting and mealy.

You split open my marrow and drink me dry, you will find no sustenance. You may see me, you may shake my warm, damp hand, but my brain, sloshing around in it's calcium cage, was never there.

I belong far from here, and you, satisfied and fat on the fruit of your upbringing, can scarcely see suffering below the dermal layer.

I am not my own. But I am not alone.

[the-ultimate-tsbs-kin]

The fictionkin pain of being ripped away from your loved ones

Not looking how you're supposed to

Seeing yourself in your source

Getting dysphoric

Struggling with exotrauma that no one believes you have

Longing to be back in your universe

But knowing you can't

And you're forever stuck living this fake life

[not-really-all-that-human]

Wing dysphoria go BRRRRR

[the-mechanisms-system]

Overwhelming euphoria from discovering your otherkin identity vs overwhelming sorrow from realizing you're stuck in a human body: fight!

[kalvanreaped]

It's a different kind of pain when your species dysphoria turns to constant phantom limbs to the point where they would be (placement/where they start and expand into a limb) you experience low amounts of phantom pain (whether just uncomfortable or painful depends on different folks). And that just throws you off even more and worsens it?? Is that just me or ?? Ljjfkjfkf

[traumatizedjaguar]

My abuser used to make fun of me when we were kids for having a nonhuman identity that my brain was wired for that didn’t match my body. I felt like I had multiple things living inside me at once that didn’t match my human side on the outside. It made me feel uneasy in my body, depressed and anxious. She used to laugh at me, call me weird and call me a furry and she made fun of furries a lot as that’s what she thought I was (but I knew I wasn’t) because she’s cruel and thinks all these things are embarrassing (they’re not you just have internalized hatred for a vulnerable community of people). Furries are NOT therian. There’s a difference between having species dysphoria and your brain wired for something else that does not match your body versus people who are usually very artistic, who like to just creatively make characters and wear furry costumes for a simple hobbie.

[teenagedracula]

Silly posting over. Kin guilt

[rouge-the-bat]

shoutout to those with species dysphoria, hope yall r having a good week n that ur dysphoria stays mild or gone 🐾💖

[fr0zenballs]

I want to run on all fours. To bound through fields and chase rabbits. But nothing my feeble human shaped body can do relieves that urge. Quads only reinforce the fact that this body was never made for that, they make me feel like this body is a punishment. Shaking hands bearing the all-too-heavy weight of my body can never compare to the paws agilely trudging over the plains in pursuit. I just want to run, to do what I was meant to do, to be who I was meant to be. But I can't, and it's my curse to forever mourn that loss.

[xass4ss1n]

I do this all the time without realizing it! 🐺🌕. That moon is rising quickly.

i’ve been wanting more canine posts lately and someone once told me “if something doesn’t exist yet, create it” so heres my 10 tips on how to feel more doggy like

hold things with your mouth - make sure the thing your holding is clean ofc. i always hold my phone in my mouth when my hands are full but i occasionally hold clothes and light bags. makes me feel like a good boy fetching my stuff

eat treats! - im a domestic dog so treats to me look more like biscuits and crackers but jerky is also a great option. i like to make my own and shape it like little bones. if anyone wants some easy recipes just ask. i like to reward myself after doing a task by eating a cookie

wiggle wiggle - i dont have a tail so i like to wiggle when im happy. it doesnt look too strange to strangers and gives me species euphoria. i like to wag my foot when i sit down and shake side to side when im standing.

wear affirming clothes - im not just talking about collars and tails. anything that makes you feel more like yourself. i have this brown fleece hoodie in the colour of my fur and wear a bandanna around my neck like a collar. anything that makes you feel happy

make sounds - i like to make a little ʷᵒᵒᶠ under my breath like a sigh. some people find vocalisations weird so i like to blend it in a way it sounds natural like whining a bit when im feeling sad or bored or bark my words out by saying it loud and quick like HEY!!

walk near nature - i live in a city dense area where theres not alot of (safe) parks nearby. so i always hang around near trees and grass to feel more connected with nature. if you can go to a park or forest then thats amazing. taking time to admire nature feels good

act playful - this is more for puppies or domestic dogs. i like to walk around my friends when we talk and move around. i cant exactly play-bow in the middle of a busy sidewalk so i usually lean on a surface or wiggle around.

ask for affection - im lucky to be surrounded by people who like to show their affection. either by verbal praise or physical touch like hugs. if you dont have access to acts like this then ask (if its safe). sometimes i just ask my parents for a hug or show something im proud of. you can also write down some affirmations on a note and remind yourself that you are perfect the way you are ◡̈

sleep dog-like - most ppl cant roll themselves into a ball but you can definitely hug a pillow. i like to sleep in a fetal position and with my back to the headboard but thats cuz im smaller than my bed. just be careful and make sure your in a comfortable position and not straining. making your bed nest like also fun.

eat out of bowls - sounds like a silly thing to say but i always feel puppy like when i eat from a bowl and not a plate. small things to make you feel more in tune with your true self

[adolfusraptor1985]

Another list of shout outs since you all liked the last one

This is for anyone who is alterhuman, nonhuman, therian, otherkin, otherlink, otherhearted, etc.

Shout out to:

Identities caused by trauma

Identities caused by delusion

Identities caused by neueodivergence

Identities caused by other psychological factors

Identities caused by reincarnation/past lives

Identities caused by other spiritual beliefs

Identities caused by gender/xenogender identity

Identities caused by religion

Identities caused by dysphoria

Identities caused by pet regression

Identities caused by shifts

Identities caused by urges

Identities caused by hyperfixations/interests

Identities caused by plurality

Identities that are for coping

Identities that are for fun

Identities to give you euphoria

Identities that don't have a specific reason

Alterhumans

Therians

Holotheres

Otherkin

Fictionkin

Physical alter/non humans

OCkin

Clinical zoanthropes

Object/concept kin

Otherhearted people

Copinglinkers

Transspecies people

Otherlinkers

Voidpunks and beastpunks

Those who are out/open about their Identities

Those who are keep it hidden

Alterhuman pet players

Alterhuman objectum people

Xenogenders

Petre people

Plural systems

Whatever folks I missed

I don't care how "weird" or "unusual" your identity is, you're still valid. If it's not hurting anyone, run wild! Be yourself.

I hate the amount of negativity and gatekeeping that goes on within the alterhuman community. People make lesser known or misunderstood identities feel unaccepted.

All. Of. You. Are. Valid.

I accept you all and this blog is a safe space.

Now don't forget it.

[zoppa682]

For any nonhumans struggling with species dysphoria, I want to help you all as much as I can. I've been experiencing it all week. It can be quite exhausting and put you in a lot of distress, in my case. X(

Here are some tips I'd recommend to help:

1. Mimic the diet of your kintype/theriotype. You are a shark? Eat seafood. A dragon? Maybe try to burn some food a little (or turn it black like my own preference if you want). You kin a character from [Insert source]? Try recreating foods/dishes from their world or dimension.

2. Listen to relatable music. I'd recommend making a playlist of any songs that feel species affirming/euphoric, or even echo that dysphoria further, therefore turning it relatable. (Few of my favorites are Bones by Imagine Dragons, Control by Halsey, Ancient Dreams in a Modern Land by MARINA, Momento Mori by Fish in a Birdcage, among other songs that feel therian coded to me).

3. Do vocals. Howling, barking, screeching, or roaring are very relieving if you are in the correct space to do them! If you are in a quite space or do not want to out yourself to anyone, try purring, growling, hissing, or other unnoticeable sounds. You have an object kintype? Mimic the sounds of the object, like beeping, clicking, etc. (I personally make microwave sounds just because it is fun). Recite voice lines of your kintype from the source they are in. Mimic their voice and volume to match.

4. Move and physically act like your kintype/theriotype. Quadrobics, mimic the flapping of wings, walk bidepedally, whatever you do, turn your mannerisms and motion to reflect your kintype/theriotype.

5. Dress like your kintype/theriotype. Is your kintype a character? Cosplay them, or mimic their clothing style, clothing color, hairstyle, etc. If they have tattoos, scars, or patterns on their body, copy them on your physical form with paint or pens. (PLEASE USE NON TOXIC MATERIALS. STUFF SAFE FOR YOUR HUMAN SKIN.) Are you a species of animal(s)? Dress in your species' colors, or, once again, paint or color yourself like it/them. Are you perhaps any other form of creature or object? You can use the same tips as the others, and another idea that works for all is that you can buy costume pieces of your kintype/theriotype. Masks, headbands, just normal clothing in general, the options really are infinite.

6. Express your dysphoria through artwork. I love doing art when I am heavily species dysphoric. Drawing, crafting masks, origami, painting, collages, all are forms of art. If you are skilled in music, then you could even create some songs of your own!

7. Go out and explore nature. This one is mainly targeted towards therians, whose types are grounded on the life on earth rather than other dimensions or universes, but just like the other methods, it can be universally used by any types of nonhumans. Collecting things is my favorite way of exploring nature. Collect rocks, shells, sticks, leaves, bugs, plants, anything that makes you feel more comfortable in your own (unfortunate) physical body. Stay grounded in the world around you and you may find the dysphoria slips away. Hiking and going on short walks can also help, building a den, smelling the scents of the outdoors. All great ideas that I personally recommend.

8. Write about your feelings. Whether you are good at expressing yourself through poetry, you keep a diary/journal, or you can project onto OCs for new backstory lore like I do, writing can truly help with any dysphoria. Not only that, but it is sometimes refreshing to come back later and read about what you were feeling before. It can serve as a great reminder that you are a powerful being and you will always overcome the feelings if you try.

9. Research about your kintype/theriotype. It does not matter if you are an animal, concept, or object from earth, a being from fantasy, or a character from the greatest book or show, you learn something new every day. So why not learn about yourself? Read books or watch animal documentaries of your theriotype(s), same thing for you otherkins and your fantasy species. Fictionkins can look up facts about themself as a character, their book, show, game, etc.

10. Talk and interact with other alterhumans/nonhumans. Remember, we are a community, and while you are experiencing horrible episodes of species dysphoria, there are many other beings going through the exact same thing at the exact same time. So why not talk to them about it? Share your experiences, help eachother cope, you may even connect with more individuals that way, building more relationships with others and meeting new beings.

11. Past life meditation. If you are a nonhuman who has a past life/lives, you may find comfort in meditation, where you can truly tap into what you once were, and still are in this life as well. Look to the forgotten, and turn in to remembered. Open up your past and live over again.

12. Listen to sounds. Nature sounds, voices of other characters you know from your world, vocals or sound effects of your kintype. These are all good options to turn to if you want to feel at ease with yourself.

13. Let your emotions out. Sometimes this is all you really need to do when species dysphoria hits hard. Cry, bite things, claw at pillows, LET IT OUT. There is absolutely no problem in being yourself and expressing your heavy emotions in your own, unique, nonhuman way. You may find you feel much better after.

That's all I've got, but I hope whoever/whatever reads this far has an amazing day/night. You are an amazing being, thank you for embracing yourself and living authentically. <3

[fictionkinfessions]

Its weird how similar fictives and fictionkin are.

Like obviously they're very different but they also overlap a lot

Like I have one friend who's a system, and we both talk to each other about memories, I talk to them about kin memories, they talk to me about fictive memories

We both understand the feelings of identifying as a fictional character, even if there is differences in how we identify that way

We both understand the feeling of memories from source, specifically feeling shitty about bad memories from there

Like we both understand the whole "why am I feeling like this, I feel homesick about a place my body has never physically been in, I have memories my body never physically experienced, I miss people who ice never physically met, ect, why do I feel like this I hate it" thing

And we both understand the whole "being called by [name] makes me feel really good rn, even though its not the name I normally go by, please call me by that name" thing. Like I can go "hey, can you call me [name] until farther notice today? I'm in a very strong [name] kinshift" and they can go "hey can you call me [name]? [Name] is fronting/co-fronting/whatever right now." And its a similar feeling we get when being called by that name during those situations instead of what you widely go by

We both understand the whole "I just got hit with a very big wave of dysphoria cuz I looked in the mirror and I didn't look like [character]" thing

Its weird how similar yet different they are

Theyre the only people I can talk to in person about kin memories and not feel awkward, and multiple of them has said the same thing to me about talking about their memories from source

-Serial Designation X

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[cinnamon-stixs]

TADC EPISODE 3 HAS DRIVEN ME INSANE SO HERES A REALLY LONG RANT ABOUT ALL THE THINGS I NOTICED!!

-The horror visuals fucking SLAYED. SLAY.

-I LOVE that Ragatha loves horror and Pomni HATES it.

-"Zooble turns straight" 10/10 line.

-2 new points of evidence for the NPC!Jax theory: He acknowledges the audience directly, and refuses to share what happens when he holds his breath. This could be shown as a similar clue to him not having a visible room on his enamel pin art.

-Caine made a scary adventure just to get zooble interesteddd 😭❤️

-Gangle's comedy mask can just be ripped off of her face??

-Ragatha's face, I love her

-Caine has a fundamental inability to understand other people's emotions and empathize. Neurodivergent coded king I love him

-Kinger says "I'm starting to think" when they first enter the scary room, and not only is it funny as hell, IT WAS ALSO FORESHADOWING?!

-Kinger is VERY aware of the game mechanics in the world around him

Oh how I love you, Pomni.

-I LOVE THE LITTLE 2D ANIMATED SECTION OF THE EYES

"You look beautiful honey.." KILLING MYSELF. AUGH. POOR BABY..

-"Any torture I inflict is 100% accidental! like any good war criminal!"

-Zooble's trans/dysphoria allegory with their digital body has my whole heart

THEY DID NOT DESERVE THIS.

"What you're saying could imply that I'm bad at.. they only thing I'm good at..." HE IS SO ME FR WHAT THE FUCK. I THINK I KIN HIM WHOOPSIES

-I think Mr. Mildenhall's story reflects kinger's more than we think.

-Living for Pomni and Kinger's father-daughter dynamic

She's hot.

Kinky! (looks like something Amy would do to him)

-THE POSSESSION SCENE WAS SO COOL?

-So he was hitting pomni! I remember a lot of debate about that.

-Kinger and Queenie were canonically married

-Kinger took 7 years of computer science

-Kinger has a SURPRISING amount of emotional intelligence.

-BEING IN THE DARK REMINDS OF HIM OF HIS LAST MOMENT WITH HIS WIFE I'M FUCKING CRYINGGG

-Kinger hated bugs, but now he loves them because they're a subconscious reminder of his entomology loving wife.

-The line "In this world, the worst thing you can do I make someone feel like they're not wanted or loved" paired with Mr. Mildenhall's story of mistaking his wife for the monster and killing her makes me think Kinger caused Queenie to abstract somehow.

"Don't worry about me. As long as you remember, things will be okay. You're very strong pomni." ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

Pomni canonically hates physical tough, but felt trusting and comfortable enough with Kinger to hold his hand.

Fucking sapphics

"FUCK-"

-Caine turning Zooble's therapy session into his own is so him omg

-"Welcome back my meowing milkmaids!" CRAZY.

-Kinger's new side wasn't actually all that surprising. Neither was him being the 'supportive dad' type. but i LOVE it

-KINGER VINYL FIGURE AHH NEED!!

This is my fave episode so far!! I love this show augh

[proshippers-against-censorship]

its rly weird how antishipping creeps would do anything to tear me down because of my SELFSHIP by harassing and threatening and sending people to dox me. when im literally inserting myself and i only portray little in my character because mentally i am a child and there is nothing i, or antis, can do about it. sorry …. i dont know if anyone else relates. but my brain isnt grown up compared to anyone else,,, ALL of my self inserts/kins are little girls because thats the real me. im not romanticizing pedophilia. it is antis seeing it that way. this is me coping with all my SA experiences whether i was a child or teenager while also trying to cope with this “age dysphoria” thing i have. oh, im stupid? well im practically a TWELVE year old you are talking to. and the fact that when i was only SEVENTEEN irl i was sent harassment and RAPE THREATS because apparently seeing mettaton shipped with a cartoon girl makes them THAT ANGRY ???? like who is the real pedo here??? im literally attracted to ADULT MEN both irl and fictional . because of the heavy harassmnt for three years, i am who i am today, even more traumatized and i didnt deserve it. i will never forgive anyone that hurt me. i will always remember their faces. i will always be hurt over this. it is insane to think about what i experienced.

and no one ever cared.

fuck antis.

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[dykeulous]

about me.

hello! i am apollo and i am aspiring to be an author and an activist someday. i come from a small, underdeveloped “post-socialist” country. i hope my blog will be helpful to everyone, and i try to be as open-minded on most topics as i can be. this is how i would describe myself:

i am a butch lesbian with heavy sex (& social) dysphoria. i would refer to myself as transmasc, and i am still very much trans-identified, as dysphoria has caused me much trouble over my formative years, and it has been making my life a true agonizing hell :)). i approach trans issues with sensitivity and criticism. i try my best not to be black-and-white about things; and i always try to be well-informed before speaking on anything. i love gender acceleration, and i would describe my views as gender critical. i am explicitly anti-racist, anti-capitalist & anti-imperialist. my views align with marxist feminism/proletarian feminism & radical feminism– which is why i would describe myself as a dual system feminist. my analysis & beliefs come from dialectical materialism, rather than idealism, which is why i’ve found myself in opposition with most trans rights activists. i am for abolishing the prison system, and i believe rehabilitation should be the goal, rather than punishment. drug addicts & recovering addicts have a special place in my heart ❤️‍🩹. i’m not vegan, but i appreciate & love all my ecofeminist sisters: i try my best to be vocal about animal liberation & climate activism. i believe the bpd diagnosis is being hyper-sold to female people, and this is because of medical misogyny & institutional sexism– it is being used as new age female hysteria. oh, and i’m also autistic. i love autistic women, and i wholeheartedly want to smash medical misogyny whenever i see how my neurodivergent sisters are being treated. 🇵🇸 FROM THE RIVER TO THE SEA PALESTINE WILL BE FREE!!!

my special interest is gender abolition (i’m very very passionate about this!!!) and marxist politics. my current hyperfixations are harry potter (i’m a slytherin 🐍), greek mythology & mlp. i unironically use the word kinnie; my highest kins are severus snape, twilight sparkle and diane nguyen. i love punk rock music, and i love riot grrrl. ask me about ww2, i used to be very hyperfixated on it last year– i reviewed a lot of ww2-themed movies critically & pointed their historical revisionism out. i am a slavic patriot by heart, and will punch a westerner who chooses to ignore our beautiful history. tito, lenin, che guevara, rosa luxemburg apologist. also i’m very interested in soviet history (the night witches are so fascinating!!), north korean culture & cuban cuisine.

if you wish to block me, go ahead. if you don’t, cool. i don’t block people, i allow a wide range of people to interact, and quite frankly, i think dni lists are useless. won’t hold back if you’re going to attack me. will engage in respectful arguments, and also will engage in disrespectful arguments, with the same energy you give me.

check out @pokegyns! it’s a group blog modded by nuancefem discord server members, owned by our precious pikalay @tirfpikachu.

links to some of the posts of mine i find quite useful for people who are going to hate-scroll through my blog, and also for people who are interested in radical feminism, but are scared we’re a hate group.

1. Intersex People, Transitioned Trans Women & Transitioned Trans Men

Are Trans Women Privileged?; Gender Socialization & Transmisogyny, Transmisogyny & Transandromisogyny

Intersectionality Is Key: Our Issues Intersect, but They Differ

2. Feminist Praxis & Tactics: Separatism VS Proletarian Feminism; My Personal Critique of Radical Feminism

3. Transmedicalists VS Queer Theorists; Transmedicalism: The Sexism, Racism, and Classism

4. Listen to Dysphoric Voices

5. What Is Gender?; Gender Acceleration

6. The Word “Cis”

#ftminism is a tag i use to talk & ramble about transmasc-specific [or transmasc-adjacent] struggles that i feel can be connected to feminism in one way or another. i also sometimes tag transmasc positivity with this.

*Thread: Transness and Radical Feminism Can Coexist*