#this is about kin dysphoria

[xxxsugarcyanidexxx]

I am not my own.

Every follicle upon my skin, over my landscape of carbon, collagen, and oxygen, woven together by some power beyond comprehensible understanding, is not my own.

The way my throat moves, gummy and wet, nauseates me, synovial fluid in my joints. I'm peeling like a wall of lead paint, and it seems that I am just as toxic.

Aches in my bones, bones that betray me, holding up the meat draped over it, rotting and mealy.

You split open my marrow and drink me dry, you will find no sustenance. You may see me, you may shake my warm, damp hand, but my brain, sloshing around in it's calcium cage, was never there.

I belong far from here, and you, satisfied and fat on the fruit of your upbringing, can scarcely see suffering below the dermal layer.

I am not my own. But I am not alone.

[the-ultimate-tsbs-kin]

The fictionkin pain of being ripped away from your loved ones

Not looking how you're supposed to

Seeing yourself in your source

Getting dysphoric

Struggling with exotrauma that no one believes you have

Longing to be back in your universe

But knowing you can't

And you're forever stuck living this fake life

[kalvanreaped]

It's a different kind of pain when your species dysphoria turns to constant phantom limbs to the point where they would be (placement/where they start and expand into a limb) you experience low amounts of phantom pain (whether just uncomfortable or painful depends on different folks). And that just throws you off even more and worsens it?? Is that just me or ?? Ljjfkjfkf

[traumatizedjaguar]

My abuser used to make fun of me when we were kids for having a nonhuman identity that my brain was wired for that didn’t match my body. I felt like I had multiple things living inside me at once that didn’t match my human side on the outside. It made me feel uneasy in my body, depressed and anxious. She used to laugh at me, call me weird and call me a furry and she made fun of furries a lot as that’s what she thought I was (but I knew I wasn’t) because she’s cruel and thinks all these things are embarrassing (they’re not you just have internalized hatred for a vulnerable community of people). Furries are NOT therian. There’s a difference between having species dysphoria and your brain wired for something else that does not match your body versus people who are usually very artistic, who like to just creatively make characters and wear furry costumes for a simple hobbie.

[thecluelessdoctor]

kicks my legs every time I see a character with a cleft chin (I have one and for a long time I was super self conscious of it because at the time I was being forced to be hyper femme)

[rouge-the-bat]

shoutout to those with species dysphoria, hope yall r having a good week n that ur dysphoria stays mild or gone 🐾💖

[fr0zenballs]

I want to run on all fours. To bound through fields and chase rabbits. But nothing my feeble human shaped body can do relieves that urge. Quads only reinforce the fact that this body was never made for that, they make me feel like this body is a punishment. Shaking hands bearing the all-too-heavy weight of my body can never compare to the paws agilely trudging over the plains in pursuit. I just want to run, to do what I was meant to do, to be who I was meant to be. But I can't, and it's my curse to forever mourn that loss.

[adolfusraptor1985]

Another list of shout outs since you all liked the last one

This is for anyone who is alterhuman, nonhuman, therian, otherkin, otherlink, otherhearted, etc.

Shout out to:

Identities caused by trauma

Identities caused by delusion

Identities caused by neueodivergence

Identities caused by other psychological factors

Identities caused by reincarnation/past lives

Identities caused by other spiritual beliefs

Identities caused by gender/xenogender identity

Identities caused by religion

Identities caused by dysphoria

Identities caused by pet regression

Identities caused by shifts

Identities caused by urges

Identities caused by hyperfixations/interests

Identities caused by plurality

Identities that are for coping

Identities that are for fun

Identities to give you euphoria

Identities that don't have a specific reason

Alterhumans

Therians

Holotheres

Otherkin

Fictionkin

Physical alter/non humans

OCkin

Clinical zoanthropes

Object/concept kin

Otherhearted people

Copinglinkers

Transspecies people

Otherlinkers

Voidpunks and beastpunks

Those who are out/open about their Identities

Those who are keep it hidden

Alterhuman pet players

Alterhuman objectum people

Xenogenders

Petre people

Plural systems

Whatever folks I missed

I don't care how "weird" or "unusual" your identity is, you're still valid. If it's not hurting anyone, run wild! Be yourself.

I hate the amount of negativity and gatekeeping that goes on within the alterhuman community. People make lesser known or misunderstood identities feel unaccepted.

All. Of. You. Are. Valid.

I accept you all and this blog is a safe space.

Now don't forget it.

[zoppa682]

For any nonhumans struggling with species dysphoria, I want to help you all as much as I can. I've been experiencing it all week. It can be quite exhausting and put you in a lot of distress, in my case. X(

Here are some tips I'd recommend to help:

1. Mimic the diet of your kintype/theriotype. You are a shark? Eat seafood. A dragon? Maybe try to burn some food a little (or turn it black like my own preference if you want). You kin a character from [Insert source]? Try recreating foods/dishes from their world or dimension.

2. Listen to relatable music. I'd recommend making a playlist of any songs that feel species affirming/euphoric, or even echo that dysphoria further, therefore turning it relatable. (Few of my favorites are Bones by Imagine Dragons, Control by Halsey, Ancient Dreams in a Modern Land by MARINA, Momento Mori by Fish in a Birdcage, among other songs that feel therian coded to me).

3. Do vocals. Howling, barking, screeching, or roaring are very relieving if you are in the correct space to do them! If you are in a quite space or do not want to out yourself to anyone, try purring, growling, hissing, or other unnoticeable sounds. You have an object kintype? Mimic the sounds of the object, like beeping, clicking, etc. (I personally make microwave sounds just because it is fun). Recite voice lines of your kintype from the source they are in. Mimic their voice and volume to match.

4. Move and physically act like your kintype/theriotype. Quadrobics, mimic the flapping of wings, walk bidepedally, whatever you do, turn your mannerisms and motion to reflect your kintype/theriotype.

5. Dress like your kintype/theriotype. Is your kintype a character? Cosplay them, or mimic their clothing style, clothing color, hairstyle, etc. If they have tattoos, scars, or patterns on their body, copy them on your physical form with paint or pens. (PLEASE USE NON TOXIC MATERIALS. STUFF SAFE FOR YOUR HUMAN SKIN.) Are you a species of animal(s)? Dress in your species' colors, or, once again, paint or color yourself like it/them. Are you perhaps any other form of creature or object? You can use the same tips as the others, and another idea that works for all is that you can buy costume pieces of your kintype/theriotype. Masks, headbands, just normal clothing in general, the options really are infinite.

6. Express your dysphoria through artwork. I love doing art when I am heavily species dysphoric. Drawing, crafting masks, origami, painting, collages, all are forms of art. If you are skilled in music, then you could even create some songs of your own!

7. Go out and explore nature. This one is mainly targeted towards therians, whose types are grounded on the life on earth rather than other dimensions or universes, but just like the other methods, it can be universally used by any types of nonhumans. Collecting things is my favorite way of exploring nature. Collect rocks, shells, sticks, leaves, bugs, plants, anything that makes you feel more comfortable in your own (unfortunate) physical body. Stay grounded in the world around you and you may find the dysphoria slips away. Hiking and going on short walks can also help, building a den, smelling the scents of the outdoors. All great ideas that I personally recommend.

8. Write about your feelings. Whether you are good at expressing yourself through poetry, you keep a diary/journal, or you can project onto OCs for new backstory lore like I do, writing can truly help with any dysphoria. Not only that, but it is sometimes refreshing to come back later and read about what you were feeling before. It can serve as a great reminder that you are a powerful being and you will always overcome the feelings if you try.

9. Research about your kintype/theriotype. It does not matter if you are an animal, concept, or object from earth, a being from fantasy, or a character from the greatest book or show, you learn something new every day. So why not learn about yourself? Read books or watch animal documentaries of your theriotype(s), same thing for you otherkins and your fantasy species. Fictionkins can look up facts about themself as a character, their book, show, game, etc.

10. Talk and interact with other alterhumans/nonhumans. Remember, we are a community, and while you are experiencing horrible episodes of species dysphoria, there are many other beings going through the exact same thing at the exact same time. So why not talk to them about it? Share your experiences, help eachother cope, you may even connect with more individuals that way, building more relationships with others and meeting new beings.

11. Past life meditation. If you are a nonhuman who has a past life/lives, you may find comfort in meditation, where you can truly tap into what you once were, and still are in this life as well. Look to the forgotten, and turn in to remembered. Open up your past and live over again.

12. Listen to sounds. Nature sounds, voices of other characters you know from your world, vocals or sound effects of your kintype. These are all good options to turn to if you want to feel at ease with yourself.

13. Let your emotions out. Sometimes this is all you really need to do when species dysphoria hits hard. Cry, bite things, claw at pillows, LET IT OUT. There is absolutely no problem in being yourself and expressing your heavy emotions in your own, unique, nonhuman way. You may find you feel much better after.

That's all I've got, but I hope whoever/whatever reads this far has an amazing day/night. You are an amazing being, thank you for embracing yourself and living authentically. <3

[alterpathy]

Alterpathy: The practice of identifying, categorizing, and identifying with fictional and imagined illnesses due to a disconnect between your external and internal understanding of yourself - while also not intending to appropriate, romanticize, or cause harm to a minority group.

this is going to be a really long post because i want to cover all the basics. future coinings will not be nearly as long.

identifying, categorizing, and identifying with: making flags, coining terms, and posting about your experience. alterpathic conditions can also be divided into a couple of categories, which are detailed later in the post.

disconnect between your external and internal understanding of yourself: for some reason, even though you're aware that this isn't how conditions that affect the body work, you experience a reoccurring condition that is serious to you. this can be because of atypical dysphoria, delusions, alternate beliefs, delusions, or anything else similar.

appropriation, romanticism, causing harm: this doesn't mean that actions you take are automatically excused of harm, but it's a silent agreement and nodding between yourself and others that you're not trying to come from a place of ableism/bigotry.

ignoring/excusing bigotry: examples of ignoring/excusing bigotry would be implying that someone can "coin" a real mental illness/other condition in the same way you can coin a gender, implying you can "transition" into a congenital condition with subliminal videos or otherwise, and anything else that goes against science's understanding of illness and neurodivergence. there's nuance to this, of course, because the psychology field isn't an absolutely perfect field that can do no wrong - it's up to the person coining/the person identifying to look at the situation and act accordingly.

examples of situations that might bring you to identify this way:

being a fictive/kin/introject/etc of a character who had a disease or type of injury that was invented for their media, like zombie diseases, cyberbrain cclerosis, the cutie pox, hanahaki disease, etc, and feeling affected by it in any way

experiencing something in your system's headspace that's like a reoccurring illness

having limbs like wings, tails, horns, etc in your headspace with some kind of damage to them that causes you phantom discomfort

feeling anxiety/frustration because you're experiencing something on a metaphysical level which you know your physical body isn't experiencing, but it's still very serious to you and possibly even hurting your quality of life

grammar:

alterpathy: 1) the practice of naming/making flags/categorizing these, "here's my mogai blog and here's my alterpathy blog"; 2) this kind of condition. "my depression and my alterpathy make it hard for me," "i might have an alterpathy but i'm not sure"

alterpathic: descriptor that describes these conditions. "it's alterpathic," "how to cope with alterpathic..."

inspiration and some context on why we're coining this

this was largely inspired by the r*dqueer term of x*nomalady, because after the system looked into it, we did see a lot of cases of people who were genuinely experiencing something serious, but didn't seem to think that there was any space other than the rqc that would be accepting of someone identifying with a disease that technically didn't exist. these cases were mixed in with genuinely ableist people who displayed the behaviors i listed above in "ignoring/excusing bigotry," which feels wrong to me, and i think that people who aren't intending to harm anyone deserve their own terminology and space.

crossover

there is some crossover with dissodic, desirdae, intusui, ethix +etc good faith terms related to feeling like you have, internally have, desire, or identify with something you technically don't, and i think that's fine. you can identify with an alterpathic term and the equivalent of it in another term umbrella, that's fine. do whatever fits best to describe your experiences.

so, is this just x*nomalady but Good?

not exactly, i don't want this to be thought of as a 1-to-1 anti rq equivalent, because again, some x*nomalady people are just coining """disorders""" for fun because they think you can do that in the same way you would a gender. this is both an identity/experience, and a silent agreement to be critical of what you're putting out into the world. this is also not focused on "coining" new conditions unless that's really necessary. (not necessary = making up a new illness for funsies. necessary = putting a name to a reoccuring condition you've been experiencing in headspace, etc.)

in the same way that terms like dissomei and intusui aren't 1-to-1 tr*nsid but Good and are separate term umbrellas that have their own nuances and notes, this is a good-faith alternative for people genuinely experiencing this kind of thing.

can i coin my own?

yes, this is open to everyone to coin! though, i will be posting a couple of flags for some alterpathic things in a couple of days, so you might want to wait until those come out so you can see how i format the post.

TDLR: considering yourself to have a condition that's not possible in reality because of some internal identity, but not in a fashion where you ignore/excuse bigotry.

can i post this term on…

wiki/term definition sites: yes, and you don't have to ask, but i would like to be informed.

pinterest/other social medias: no, never, i'm not comfortable with someone else posting my term for me.

subtypes:

when a different self began working on this, he set out two subtypes of alterpathic condition. unlike something like the age ratings in nichelink, these are absolutely optional, and you don't have to include these in your term definition if you don't want to/don't find it useful. but i think that if you're like me and like lots of details, these could be appealing, so i will include what he wrote:

Fiction-based. This is aimed at conditions that are established some way in a work of fiction/media, such as:Hanahaki Disease Slender Sickness Radiation Sickness (as seen in the Fallout series, not the IRL version) Environment-Based. Specific conditions that you can recognize are happening because of things already in your environment, like trauma, alterhuman labels, existing neurodivergent symptoms and so on. As an example, I'll mention the specific thing one of the alters in my system has that inspired me to make this subtype. He is a fictive of an angel character, but from my perspective it is vary obvious that his wings don't work and cause him muscle cramps in our headspace as a metaphor for an injury we had when were a child that gave us severe muscle cramps and required extremely painful and traumatizing physical therapy. That's something that was in our environment, so I'd call it environment-based. Subtypes are an optional category though, and you might not be able to decide/understand if yours fits into one or both, and that's fine. Also, I acknowledge that just two subtypes might not be enough to cover all the bases, and also there are probably tons of conditions that fall into both or inbetween, and that's fine. I want to "cross that bridge as we come to it", and let people who identify with this tell me their thoughts about what other words need to be coined.

flag inspiration rambles

this flag went through a lot of design phases. it was originally much more inspired by the general disability flag, because we imagined that most of the appeal would be to people who are actually disabled (mentally ill people, etc). the final flag became more inspired by existing terms for people who experience a disconnect between themself and their conditions. i saw many examples of shades of purple and pink, scalloped stripes/rounded shapes, and specifically these flags were the biggest inspirations:

dissocogni and dissophysi by @/acetrappolaswife (deactivated)

desirsick/desirill by @shrubmogai

other stuff

tags: @antiradqueerguy | @radiomogai | @archive-of-form | @everythingarchive | @mad-pride maybe? | @plurality-faq | @anti-rq-gumi | @doomsd8ydevice // ask to be untagged

"would (thing) fit this?" ask, there's tons of room for discussion and nuance.

this post was written mostly by nichie.

flag template:

hanahaki disease example:

nonfunctional angel wings example:

[fictionkinfessions]

Its weird how similar fictives and fictionkin are.

Like obviously they're very different but they also overlap a lot

Like I have one friend who's a system, and we both talk to each other about memories, I talk to them about kin memories, they talk to me about fictive memories

We both understand the feelings of identifying as a fictional character, even if there is differences in how we identify that way

We both understand the feeling of memories from source, specifically feeling shitty about bad memories from there

Like we both understand the whole "why am I feeling like this, I feel homesick about a place my body has never physically been in, I have memories my body never physically experienced, I miss people who ice never physically met, ect, why do I feel like this I hate it" thing

And we both understand the whole "being called by [name] makes me feel really good rn, even though its not the name I normally go by, please call me by that name" thing. Like I can go "hey, can you call me [name] until farther notice today? I'm in a very strong [name] kinshift" and they can go "hey can you call me [name]? [Name] is fronting/co-fronting/whatever right now." And its a similar feeling we get when being called by that name during those situations instead of what you widely go by

We both understand the whole "I just got hit with a very big wave of dysphoria cuz I looked in the mirror and I didn't look like [character]" thing

Its weird how similar yet different they are

Theyre the only people I can talk to in person about kin memories and not feel awkward, and multiple of them has said the same thing to me about talking about their memories from source

-Serial Designation X

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[cinnamon-stixs]

TADC EPISODE 3 HAS DRIVEN ME INSANE SO HERES A REALLY LONG RANT ABOUT ALL THE THINGS I NOTICED!!

-The horror visuals fucking SLAYED. SLAY.

-I LOVE that Ragatha loves horror and Pomni HATES it.

-"Zooble turns straight" 10/10 line.

-2 new points of evidence for the NPC!Jax theory: He acknowledges the audience directly, and refuses to share what happens when he holds his breath. This could be shown as a similar clue to him not having a visible room on his enamel pin art.

-Caine made a scary adventure just to get zooble interesteddd 😭❤️

-Gangle's comedy mask can just be ripped off of her face??

-Ragatha's face, I love her

-Caine has a fundamental inability to understand other people's emotions and empathize. Neurodivergent coded king I love him

-Kinger says "I'm starting to think" when they first enter the scary room, and not only is it funny as hell, IT WAS ALSO FORESHADOWING?!

-Kinger is VERY aware of the game mechanics in the world around him

Oh how I love you, Pomni.

-I LOVE THE LITTLE 2D ANIMATED SECTION OF THE EYES

"You look beautiful honey.." KILLING MYSELF. AUGH. POOR BABY..

-"Any torture I inflict is 100% accidental! like any good war criminal!"

-Zooble's trans/dysphoria allegory with their digital body has my whole heart

THEY DID NOT DESERVE THIS.

"What you're saying could imply that I'm bad at.. they only thing I'm good at..." HE IS SO ME FR WHAT THE FUCK. I THINK I KIN HIM WHOOPSIES

-I think Mr. Mildenhall's story reflects kinger's more than we think.

-Living for Pomni and Kinger's father-daughter dynamic

She's hot.

Kinky! (looks like something Amy would do to him)

-THE POSSESSION SCENE WAS SO COOL?

-So he was hitting pomni! I remember a lot of debate about that.

-Kinger and Queenie were canonically married

-Kinger took 7 years of computer science

-Kinger has a SURPRISING amount of emotional intelligence.

-BEING IN THE DARK REMINDS OF HIM OF HIS LAST MOMENT WITH HIS WIFE I'M FUCKING CRYINGGG

-Kinger hated bugs, but now he loves them because they're a subconscious reminder of his entomology loving wife.

-The line "In this world, the worst thing you can do I make someone feel like they're not wanted or loved" paired with Mr. Mildenhall's story of mistaking his wife for the monster and killing her makes me think Kinger caused Queenie to abstract somehow.

"Don't worry about me. As long as you remember, things will be okay. You're very strong pomni." ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

Pomni canonically hates physical tough, but felt trusting and comfortable enough with Kinger to hold his hand.

Fucking sapphics

"FUCK-"

-Caine turning Zooble's therapy session into his own is so him omg

-"Welcome back my meowing milkmaids!" CRAZY.

-Kinger's new side wasn't actually all that surprising. Neither was him being the 'supportive dad' type. but i LOVE it

-KINGER VINYL FIGURE AHH NEED!!

This is my fave episode so far!! I love this show augh

[mimzy630]

Today, October 18th, I'm saying happy birthday to my favorite Psyncer, Kuruto Ryuki!

The incredible @vividcitrus illustrated my transmasc Ryuki headcanon comfortably showing top surgery scars on the beach!

More on my story below the cut :)

Ryuki is absolutely the Psyncer I see myself in the most. I love all the Psyncers and really tons of the characters in AI: THE SOMNIUM FILES and nirvanA Initiative dearly, but Ryuki is the closest one I have to a kin.

When I first met him upon starting the game, I resonated immediately; he plays the somewhat asexual-coded straight-man to Tama's sexy routine which immediately endeared me, and his fluctuations between needing to prove himself and be the one to solve the case to being severely depressed at not being good enough... Yeah! No, hello, that's me lol.

I wasn't really a part of his little fanclub before release, but oh boy did I fall hard and fast for the scuffly little cutie, and that love only grew stronger as the game went on- seeing Ryuki getting so absorbed in his job he forgets himself, seeing him so focused on one way to solve things that he has to make impossible choices, seeing him get paralyzed by choice when it matters most... Yeah! I mean yeah that's all me yeah. Not to his extreme levels of course but oh yeah no every scene with him only made me love him more.

He's just adorable... Ahhh I want to put my hands through his hair... Ahem, anyways, as soon as I finished the game I was like damn... I might have a kinnie... And I don't think I'm exactly a Ryuki Kin per-se, but I do very much see myself when I look at him.

I am also transmasc! Specifically, agender, but who knows where my journey will take me. I have a hard time struggling to think of what I want to look like; I don't have a real sense of identity much at all, let alone visual identity. Most of my self-image is a big ole void.

But I know there are certain parts of me I'd love removed LOL to I reached out to m, the artist, and we chatted- I've always had a soft spot for transmasc Ryuki and been kinda hoping someone would draw him someday, so fuck it, I decided I make it happen myself. In the process of this commission, I forced myself to really think about how I'd want to look, how my scars would look, if I wanted nipple grafts, etc., and m was super happy to work with me on all of that!

The final version, with the more understated scars following the natural curve of the pecs that go from below the armpit to mid chest and no nipple grafts, makes me actually feel good... Like, hey, maybe someday I too could be topless on a beach, smiling and confident... It's a far-off dream that I have to save a lot for, but hey... That murky swirling void in my head has cleared up just a little bit, enough for me to be able to see a happier future for myself, and that's everything really.

I know I'll never look like Ryuki exactly, there are a lot of obstacles to this, but at the very least, when I find money and a surgeon, I can say "that. That's how I want to look, and that's how I'd feel looking like that." Which is more than I've ever been able to do! Dysphoria is my constant companion, but euphoria tends to elude me... @vividcitrus turned the tables on that!

[proshippers-against-censorship]

its rly weird how antishipping creeps would do anything to tear me down because of my SELFSHIP by harassing and threatening and sending people to dox me. when im literally inserting myself and i only portray little in my character because mentally i am a child and there is nothing i, or antis, can do about it. sorry …. i dont know if anyone else relates. but my brain isnt grown up compared to anyone else,,, ALL of my self inserts/kins are little girls because thats the real me. im not romanticizing pedophilia. it is antis seeing it that way. this is me coping with all my SA experiences whether i was a child or teenager while also trying to cope with this “age dysphoria” thing i have. oh, im stupid? well im practically a TWELVE year old you are talking to. and the fact that when i was only SEVENTEEN irl i was sent harassment and RAPE THREATS because apparently seeing mettaton shipped with a cartoon girl makes them THAT ANGRY ???? like who is the real pedo here??? im literally attracted to ADULT MEN both irl and fictional . because of the heavy harassmnt for three years, i am who i am today, even more traumatized and i didnt deserve it. i will never forgive anyone that hurt me. i will always remember their faces. i will always be hurt over this. it is insane to think about what i experienced.

and no one ever cared.

fuck antis.

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[will-the-kin]

intro post cuz i can

Names, in order of preference: Will, Oliver, kaizo Nicknames: dunno any masc thing lmao Pronouns: they/them/theirs or he/him/his, pup/pups/pupself, star/stars/starself Age: 16 :D Virgo ♍️ Trans FtM / transmasc Sexuality: uhh i like ppl ig Status: single pringle :,) (im so lonely halp)

Kin/therio/alterhuman types: dragon, wild dog/mutt (défini a canine, just hasn’t figured it out by now), anthro dog + more but unknown for now

Likes:

Books

Fantasy

DRAGONS!!!!!!!

Rainy days ( i like being rainy wet)

my two cats

animals

the nature

eating ice cubes

quiet places

Art!!!

doing stuff with my hands (crafts)

sleeping

hanging out on vrchat/recroom

meditating/shifting

going to museums and zoos and biodomes and aquariums and planetariums

bugs!!

legos

KEYSMASHING :3

Dislikes:

loud noises

school

eating out

school (yes, again)

icky textures

my brother

saying i love you (i dunno makes me uncomfortable ig

trump (please someone off him already ❤️)

socks and shoes

just clothes in general. Feeling them on my skin is so icky

looking for a job

Random facts:

i do not care about your opinion on me, so keep it for yourself, ty.

i’m nonhuman in every way but physical (even though i wish i was):3 sort of dragon and a canine

i have adhd, anxiety and depression (all diagnosed)

I love love live crunchy things

i eat insects from time to time :P (ones that are meant for eating, not some random i find outside.)

i get major dysphoria from being trans and and otherkin

I’m hypersensitive for most of my senses, but mostly for light, touch and sounds!

i would die without music :3

i like reading all sorts of books; manga; manhua… ect

most of the time, i have/can feel a phantom tail (meaning i can feel a tail that’s not physically there)

DNI: any kind of discrimination :3 nsfw blogs/accounts

(#will’s barking) are the posts where I’m writing, so no reposts (I repost a lot n it’s nice to have a filter lamifeuxvfijcefbrwxbxe)

[sparklecarehospital]

If Barry Is a self insert for you, And Barry is vegan, Are you vegan?

I am not vegan. Barry was *originally* a self insert when I first made him, but now he's just a separate character I project on and relate to/kin. It's weird, but most of the characters I project onto/kin are basically nothing like me in personality or the way they behave and interact with others. The things I project are varied and complicated and it's not as simple as "this character is exactly like me" because none of them really are.

A lot of them are often act angry (like Ally for example), but in actuality I'm an extremely quiet and sensitive person that has a tendency to let people walk all over me. I think in a weird way I use it as some sort of outlet for the fact I'm tired of feeling like so weak and want to be stronger and able to get angry when I'm mistreated (which has been... often) but I'm not great at feeling anger in general about my circumstances or sticking up for myself. Weird way of venting I guess? Idk what to call it

I think the main OC kin I have that actually acts the most like me is probably Cream, and even then she has some traits that are a bit removed from myself and I don't even consider her a self insert or anything. I have ARFID and I'm objectum and I have the same sort of excitable nature. Sly is most like me in terms of things she does, being a furry artist and loving old internet/nostalgia stuff and her intrusive thoughts and dysphoria. Eve is most like me in terms of most interests and trauma (AND EVEN THAT IS VERY FICTIONALIZED). It's complicated!