#this is a stream of consciousness post

[xyfanficarchive]

kill me or whatever but the more i think about it, i really like jimmy as a character and i do not get the people who pretend like he doesnt exist. hes a rapist and an all around awful fucking person but hes also the main character. hes the axis on which the whole story turns. i also think people who label him as a monster or pure evil are having a media comprehension moment because to me he is very fucked up in a very human way, and i think thats the whole point? he’s selfish and aggressive and demeaning and envious and resentful and guilty and has a massive inferiority complex and does heinous things but hes also just. a fucking guy. hes so real. he’s a massive piece of shit but not cartoonishly evil and thats why i like his character. he really could be anyone. you probably have encountered a guy like this in real life. and all in all this is a horror story and jimmy is the driver of the horror and if you go wahhhh im gonna pretend the horrifying things dont exist why are you playing a horror game?

[slushglow]

the price of your mercy

[plounce]

why was bashir a closeted homosexual in the 23rd century? like dude it's fine you can relax. actually wait the tense here is kinda funny. i used past tense because ds9 is from the 90s and i watched it in 2021 so in both cases it's from the past in my view. but when talking about a text you speak in the present: why IS bashir a closeted homosexual in the 23rd century? but the statement is half about how ds9 takes place in the scifi future: why WILL bashir be a closeted homosexual in the 23rd century?

[borealing]

the first time gihun nearly cracks a smile in the games is when inho calls him by his name and then goes oh i just wanted to try calling you by your name.. do you mind? which raises the two incredible questions of 1. was that a slip of the tongue and if yes, does inho call him gihun when he thinks about him? not player 456, even though that's how the frontman addresses him? and 2. was gihun actually suspicious for a second there or was he completely appeased by the idea that a random guy in the games is trying to speedrun being his bestie given what happened last time (everyone he was friends with died)

i really wonder how badly the games traumatised gihun, like hes meeting these new people and expecting them to die within days. he meets them and has mourned them before he knows their names. he nearly cracks a smile when someone becomes his friend despite the pre-emptive grief he must be feeling. it just speaks to the kind of man he is, trusting to a fault and desperate for any kind of connection

[magnificentmicrowave]

KLEPTOMONICA_002

[heartorbit]

revstar emu save me

[shalom-iamcominghome]

I've been doing a lot of reflection as of late, especially after this past class.

This past class was about the Torah and Tanakh in general, and the way the rabbi talked about the commandments (specifically the ten commandments) has made me really reflect on how I interpret them, specifically the fifth commandment, or honoring your mother and father.

This is a commandment I have wrestled with for a long time - in fact, it brought me away from g-d at multiple times. I was severely abused when I was incredibly young by my mother, and I used to feel insulted at the implication that I were to honor her while she got to live a better life. It was hypocritical, in my eyes.

But this rabbi surmised that this particular commandment was because parenthood is an act of creation, something that is like the g-d from which we come from. My realization is this: I don't think we're necessarily meant to take even these commandments literally.

I this particular commandment is more of a call to honor creation - creation is a gift, and like any gift, many people simply will not like it and will discard it. The person who abused me created me, but she did not honor creation. She didn't honor me, but I can still honor it.

I have started to honor creation much more. I'm too young, too unstable, not mature enough to be a father (though I fantasize about it), but I create all the time. I create relationships, I create with my hands through crochet. I create memories, I create my world. And I can honor who I am and where I came from that made me who I am. I've been learning one of the mother tongues of my family (Italian, since part of my family originates there) and it was judaism that inspired me to do this.

I don't think g-d wants me to honor my abuser. I think He wants me to remember the Holy action of creation. When I am a father, that act of creation will be Holy, and indeed, I am already joyful about the thought.

I have seen many people struggle with this particular commandment, but I think this perspective helps me personally. I don't think I ever have to forgive my abusers (plural), and I don't think I am commanded to simply because they happened to be family. I am commanded to recognize the holy, to elevate the mundane. In doing so, I will remember g-d. Through creation, I honor g-d and everything he has done for us, for me, and for our collective people.

[buckdiazlafd]

bucks widower arc for 8b…obsessed. eddies picture dangling from the jeeps rearview mirror. buck at maddies and they’re making dinner and he’s like I just cant believe he’s gone *sniff* and maddie gives him a.. sympathetic but confused look and eddies voice comes out of the speaker of bucks phone lying face up on the counter, exasperated sigh “buck i wish you’d stop saying that…. hi maddie, thanks for looking out for this one while im gone!” and maddies like hi eddie! :) no problem, i know you know how he gets haha and eddie laughs like oh yeah like that meme i sent u! And maddie starts laughing yes exactlyyy and buck rips open the pasta package with such force noodles go flying everywhere. “Careful bud..” eddie says over the phone and him and maddie laugh and buck is mumbling maybe I’ll just make EDDIE the widower see how he likes it , and eddies like, maddie is he making you his chicken florentine? best in LA ive always told him, I already said it’ll have to be the first thing I eat when I get back💘” and buck looks up from sweeping the pasta , blushing and smiling “really eddie? 🥹”

[kwonkissed]

“if kamala becomes president, israel won’t exist in two years time” hey now, don’t threaten us with a good time

[otrtbs]

in my perfect world there wouldn't be a mcd warning tag... there would just be nothing and then BAM! u get hit with the death outta nowhere because that's life... but alas.... i keep it niceys

[knightforflowers]

You are spontaneous, both in character and in origin. You set out on a mission to discover the world and discover yourself, and you have completed that mission with aplomb. So. Now I ask you...what do you want now?

I— want to help my friends.

[wolfsong-the-bloody-beast]

I'm kind of obsessed with Blackwall's idealized ideas about the Wardens. He was once picked up by a Warden and lulled by the promise of atoning for his crimes and turning his life around, only for that opportunity to slip away when the Warden not only saved him, but sacrificed his own life to do it. This whole experience makes our Blackwall become a Warden in heart, if not in blood, but with his own ideas of what a Grey Warden should be - noble, brave, inspiring, heroic, self-sacrificial. Everything he now wants to embody. He knows well that he's not there, but he wants nothing more than to start from scratch and be that.

In his beliefs, he reminds me a bit of Wynne in Origins who tells the Warden at some point that the Grey Wardens are supposed to be more than killing machines and weapons against the blight.

“There’s more to being a Grey Warden than killing darkspawn and saving the world from the Blight. Ultimately, being a Grey Warden is about serving others, about serving all people, whether elves or dwarves or men. As a Grey Warden, you are a guardian of men. And you guard them because their continued existence is more important than you are.”

However, we know that's not exactly how it works. That's what they want the Wardens to be. The light against darkness. The shield against monsters.

Although it's not entirely wrong, either, I suppose, all things considered. The more darkspawn they obliterate and push back, the more people are protected from them. Of course, sacrificing their lives to fight literal monsters, which means those same monsters don't eat everybody's kids, ultimately is heroic, and it's something that must have been born out of the need to protect the world and its inhabitants (from the Blight). But to have idealized opinions of the Wardens to this degree, you have to ignore all the other shady stuff and the mentality we, as players, also know the Wardens for. The fact that the Wardens are primarily weapons to slay darkspawn, prevent and end Blights, by any means necessary. The last part is important. After all, they are the Grey Wardens, not the White Wardens. They recruit from all walks of life and are famous for taking in criminals. Not to redeem themselves and get a second chance at life, but because they usually have nowhere to go and nothing left to lose. It's not a coincidence that each of the Origins gets chosen by Duncan, not only because he sees them as capable, but also because they are in a situation they can't escape from. Either they join the Wardens, or they're done for.

We know the Wardens from a few games now, but does the public in the setting even know? Does the average person have any idea how far the Wardens are willing to go? Besides grand stories of slaying monsters in the dark and preventing the end of the world? Probably not. The order is very secretive. And it explains a lot. The Wardens end up sounding almost romantic, when being a Warden is anything but. Is it ignorance talking out of these characters? Perhaps.

It once again shows us this aspect of Dragon Age where you can't take everything a character says as a fact, because the setting is full of people who have no idea what they're talking about, but who are absolutely convinced that they do.

And yet, I can't help but also like Wynne's and Blackwall's romantic ideas about what the Wardens are or should be, almost knights in shining armour and all that. They're fairy tales, but they're beautiful fairy tales. And I can't fault the characters for wanting to believe it or even live it. Especially in case of Blackwall, who sees it as a way to make up for the crimes he committed, somewhat. In the end, this might actually be a bigger draw to join the Wardens than, "Got nowhere to go? Come suffer horribly and probably die gruesomely with us!" It all sounds great on paper, though. I can't fault Davrin for trying to find purpose in life by becoming a monster hunter, either.

And maybe a little bit of idealism doesn't hurt. Not only it's good motivation, but in the end, doing things by "any means necessary" doesn't always pay off, either. It led the Wardens into all kinds of trouble, like getting tricked into employing dangerous forms of blood magic and demon summoning, basically into doing their enemy's work for them. In their determination to win at any cost, they helped trigger a cataclysmic event. Maybe having some principles isn't so bad after all.

In the end, I can appreciate that we get to see the clash of the old and new blood in Veilguard, where there's hope for the order to transform into an organization that's less secretive, less exclusive, and hopefully less prone to letting corruption spread through its ranks and make other devastating mistakes. Duncan once said that letting people join the Wardens isn't an "act of charity", and I like how Evka and Antoine go, "Yeah, you know what? Fuck that." And that likely inspires more loyalty. I imagine Blackwall would like that.

[yenforfairytales]

"LaRusso Twig 2.0"

Is it not enough that Sam has all the boys falling for her like Daniel but now she has her own 7ft obsessive and possessive karate man

You don't think Terry would have loved to have beat up a group of guys in the alley with Daniel?!

From a rival team lol. 🐍🐉

Axel was so jealous! Staring from across the room! Like Terry did for the past three seasons!

Somebody make a gifset of all the parallels I can't--

(gifset here. fandom move fast! thank)

I mean, Terry acted like the typical jealous ex-boyfriend with Chozen and Johnny.

Watch any teen, drama, Lifetime movie, and the jealous ex-boyfriend always calls their perceived rival a "pretty boy"

Karate Kid III was a Lifetime movie...

And Terry has this particular hatred of Johnny because of Daniel and Kreese lol. His two favorite people prefer this buffoon over him and it drives him bitterly nuts. I love it.

And I love Axel.

He reminds me so much of Twig. Just a sweet bby boi who doesn't quite know how to make friends and latches on to the first person to show him compassion after having an abusive mentor/father.

We haven't seen Terry defend Daniel's honor yet, but you never know...

The jealousy is what gets me. Axel and Terry can't keep their eyes off their tiny brunettes. The longing. The yearning. The anger...

It hurts. It's beautiful.

--

P.S. - Sam and Daniel in Pink and Red for their karate men. Daniel was even wearing Red for some reason when he sees Terry again.

And Tig said Terry has been trying to win over Daniel?? Hmm, ok lol. Many thoughts about that later

💙🖤

[salsedinepicta]

There’s no harm in wanting something beautiful.

[charaznablespeteevee]

When thinking about genderswapped Char and Amuro, as us lesbians often do, I usually default to "megahot femme Char, and butch Amuro who looks exactly the same but has boobs now. and is also covered in grease and dirt from fucking around with mobile suits all day, which megahot femme Quattro with her bright red lipstick finds irresistible. #yuri"

but ngl butch Quattro is now rotating in my head a bit. he's already gorgeous he just has to grow some tits. bam done. and she's still hot for Amuro but it's butch4butch now.

[uncanny-tranny]

A lot of cis people may not want to hear this, but here goes:

You are going to have more in common with trans people who have a similar gender identity to you than you think. Trans people are reliable narrators of their own experiences, and whether you like it or not, we will have similar or even identical experiences to yours. Cis people don't have a monopoly over their gender or the experiences people have as a result of their gender.