#this got long so fast lmao

[nephilimborn]

THERE IS AN ALIEN PART OF HIM THAT YEARNS TO RETURN TO THE UNSPOKEN MELANCHOLY OF SUNLIT PAST TIMES. the babysitter asigned to him by the clave, to control him and the deeds he must carry out under its wondrous watchful eye is irrevocably right, his stubbornness will be his downfall one of these days, yet mark doesn't give a single flying fuck. the days / months, years / blending together in a blur of grief and sorrow, killing mercilessly the young crying child, lonely and hidden in the utmost depths of his ribcage. that, is a crime the blackthorn eldest son cannot forgive. firmly, he stays facing the infinitely-high palm trees decorating the outside of the los angeles institute through mud-stained windows ( when was this last cleaned ? julian, for fuck's sake ) aurean glow follows the burlish brooding figure by his side, defiant and raging a storm whirls abyssmal in the darkness of his pupils.

DESOLATE DANCERS MADE OUT OF METALLIC SMOKE CLOUD THE DIMLIT ROOM AROUND THEM, making little dru slightly cough ( she is ten, is she twelve ? no way she's fourteen, not yet. ) if the tornado of his emotions had begun to spiral out of control with the older man's words, it is his actions which light the fuse of his usually remarkably calm temper. " must you have rocks for brains in every possible situation ? smoke that thing in the terrace, brute. " disdain colors his every punctuation as his pale lithe hand reaches out from its resting place above his knee to open up the ( still disgusting ) window. " or at least place that mug of yours far far away from my siblings. " he hisses the last part, uncomfortable with his own protective desires ; meanwhile he lends the free space by his side / onlooking the perimeter of the institute / with a swift motion, gesturing to the cushioned windowsill in which he spends most of his days. reading the book of the covenant, the institute's logs, anything to make up for the lost years. " the clave is never wrong. . . " the golden-haired nephilim utters unmistakenly, followed by a chuckle, dry as the hot desert air coming up in swaying waves. " i shall never become as you, for what they have done to my family is unforgivable. and so i shall never forgive. my sister. . . " helen, oh, poor helen. for so long the frightening sight burnt in his retinas at night was of her corpse yet now she is alive, exiled for her demonic blood. forlorn gaze travels all over the room behind them, and as his malnourished body faces his interlocutor for the first time his eyes drink up the view of the blackthorns, interacting, laughing, scheming. " do you see me as vicious, wild, menacing ? "

frost     grew     over     the     windows     of     the     boy's     exasperation,     ice     crystals     forming     upon     the     brims     of     such     peculiar          (     yet     so     unequivocally     perplexing     )          gaze          ⸻          the     shadowhunter     stood     behind     the     curtains     of     his     nonchalance,     pretentious-perceived     comment     not     more     than     a     statement     with     the     intention     of     guarding     his     back.          if     only     there     was     a     mutual     understanding,     mayhap     the     marbled     walls     betwixt     them     could     crumble     and     give     space     to     mere     drapes     of     acceptance          [     …     ]          the     one     under     his     wings     abhorred     those     who     cared     naught     but     the     safety     and     comfort     of     their     kin,     however,     and     what     could     have     been     a     pacific     mission,     turned     into     an     atrocious     warzone.

a     sigh     rolled     off     his     tongue,     shuffling     through     the     pocket     of     his     leather     jacket     until     digits     found     a     cool     metal     box     and     a     single     cylinder.          ❝     like     a     feral     kitten…     undoubtedly.     ❞          a     cigarette     sat     betwixt     thick     digits     with     ease     until     tiers     caught     it,     cap     flicked     close     to     the     tip     to     produce     a     little     flame,     smoke     trailing     upwards,     creating     an     art     piece.          ❝     i'm     not     here     to     provoke     you,     kid.     i'm     here     to     remind     you     that     i     do     have     a     duty     and     you're     constantly     putting     me     in     check.     the     clave     ain't     happy     with     your     childish     deeds.     ❞          with     every     inhale     followed     a     soft     exhale     of     wondrous     patterns,     carding     through     the     webs     of     his     patience,     hoping     to     hold     them     tight     before     another     quarrel     commenced.          ❝     i     might     not     know     you     or     details     about     the     reasons     why     i     must     be     here…     but     the     clave     is     never     wrong.     if     i'm     here,     it's     because     i     must     be     here.     ❞          aureate     spheres     glowed     under     the     grace     of     above,     the     night     hovering     sumptuously,     serving     as     a     blanket     for     the     gleaming     dots.          ❝     don't     think     we     can     ever     be     friends,     though.     ❞          a     chuckle     escaped,     head     shacking…     however     disappointed,     however     dispirited.          ❝     but     allies     we     could     be     somethin'     in     between.     i     don't     care…     i     just     know     that     you're     too     stubborn     and     that,     mark…     might     be     a     problem     later.     ❞               

[blossoms-phan]

guys can someone reassure me that you want to read phan smut

[causalityparadoxes]

With BOOM shaping up to be a darker episode, its interesting to me how little death these first 3 episodes have actually had.

There's the Goblin King (Janice also implied iirc?), Timothy Drake, and I suppose the unnamed piano lady. Sure we see the destroyed earth and its implied the Maestro killed other people. But very few named characters with lines or presence have died.

Its not unprecedented. Its similar to S5, which only had the deaths of unseen fighter pilots and Prisoner Zero. However, compared to RTD 1.0 it is a stark difference.

By episode 3, Series 1 had: Clive, Raffalo, The Steward, Jabe, Cassandra (technically), Mr. Sneed, and Gwneyth.

There was also: The Nestene, the passengers on Platform One, Mr Redpath from ep 3's cold open, and the Gelth. I wasn't sure if i should count those on the same level though (even if they are arguably on the level of some aforementioned S14 deaths). Also not counting implied deaths or Wilson as they were not seen.

Thats 1 important sympathetic character death per episode. 7 characters who were introduced, had a good number of lines, and died. A character death at least every 20 minutes. Kind of wild. You can see why no one dying felt so impactful in The Doctor Dances.

To be clear, death (or lack there of) doesn't mean anything about the quality of the stories. A bad story can have a lot of people die. A good story can have no one die. But its interesting to see how different RTD 1.0 and RTD 2.0 have started off.

I'm also now wondering if BOOM will be narratively similar to S5's Time of the Angels. Because that was a massive shift in tone. From light hearted stories, with rather fairytale endings, to a very stressful two parter where basically everyone died (Around 8 named characters with 2 especially important ones). It definitely marked a shift in the series.

So with Moffat writing BOOM and only a few hours until it airs, I'm wondering how the ongoing tone of series 14 will play out 👀

[daz4i]

grumbling grumpily bc i unfortunately have to admit that i am indeed getting better >:( like i actually feel excitement again for example. smh. i look forward to going out and being with people??? i am way more agreeable to trying new things and i let myself approach them with an open mind so i often end up enjoying them??? this isn't me this isn't my heart .

[freakinator]

If you don’t mind, I’m gonna yap for a second.. I think another problem with Kab is how sudden the turn around was. Like in the first convo where Kab was acting “evil”, Zam fought back with the argument that she’s wasn’t really evil at all and I think he did believe that at least a little. And if Kab slowly began to turn her path around then he would be a bit more trusting cause he would have SEEN her actual emotional growth but the turn around was so fast, it feels like there was no emotional growth at all and that Kab is still the same as before, cause she basically is. She still wants Mane dead no matter the cost and she’s still, intentionally or not, trying to manipulate Zam, but she wants to be treated as if she’s had that whole long term emotional growth

yeah ii think this is where her majority experience with short-term smps really bit her in the ass, i think there are two main directions that other ppl take it tho: 1. is as what you speculate in that some ppl think that she hasnt had genuine growth and hasnt changed at all and 2. that she genuinely changes too quickly and is therefore unreliable regardless of if shes being honest or not

i think the reason zam was so receptive to her in silent scream was cause this has been a recurrent plot point for a couple streams now, kab trespassing zams base to yap while zam tries to decipher her wants and motivations until eventually she just let it all out and in that instance i think he did genuinely believed that she changed even if it was slowly/just a little bit

....but then die for you happened lol

ssee the thing about kab is that shes shes all-or-nothing, going from one extreme to the next after just a little bit of change in character which can be jarring to some ppl to say the least (unless you thought she was lying and therefore any character development shouldnt be believed i suppose) but is something that was a great asset in shorter and arena-based smps where you had to get as much advantage against your opponent as possible without having to worry about the long-term consequences of these actions ie them not trusting you while still having to interact often in mundane ways even after messing with them. while she Can be swayed this only really works with things she was already unsure of which while a great motivator and trait to keep her on track with her goals (again another great trait for short-term smps), can be really jarring and distressing for other ppl if the things she was absolutely sure about goes against their own perspective like for example her thinking that derapchu killing her constitutes zam getting payback for her as the protector of the server (The protector, not A protector like zam insists, The protector of the server)

i think shes far too used to the fast-paced instant acceptance of changed personality in arena smps that is a natural consequence of them being short-term and having a revolving door of members and teams which is why she expects ppl to accept her growth and efforts so quickly even if realistically nobody would hand over their trust that easily esp after essentially being harassed in their own home multiple times, like even in normal smps where theres a baseline amount of trust ppl still wouldnt trust you after doing that, what more in a server like lifesteal where general trust is low basically all the time?

[impzone]

waaaughhhh i’m so excited for my ASL class. my professor is Deaf and is gonna be teaching the class entirely in ASL so it’s just gonna be 100% immersion learning AAUGHHH it’s gonna be tough but i’m unbelievably excited

[5231045]

attempting to map out 221b

[b4kuch1n]

done with the current dip pen comm queue (just in time for another Nib Accident too lol. I’m learning how to take care of the tools as well) so uh! it’ll take me two days to get a replacement and get some other stuff done. which means slots will be available again this saturday!

[keeps-ache]

i don't wanna take over the world, it sounds like a lot. but you know, laying siege to a golf course sounds really nice sometimes

[ozymoron]

i dont think i actually like shipping for like normal shipping reasons im pretty sure i only like ships cause i like seeing boys kiss and girls kiss especially if what they have going on is fucked up and weird

[or-did-i-dont-didnt-send-it]

I was watching Lando’s onboard during the race. He wanted to pit late for softs which would have worked out a lot better without the slow stop and had they pitted him before Lewis pitted. Really unfortunate but he still had a really impressive race. He really did everything he could.

[zeldahime]

country is going through a really interesting moment of syncretism with hip-hop and i'm so happy to be alive for it

they've been in conversation for a long time now, like, that's what you get when you have two vibrant music scenes from the same roots in the same place*, but it's gone past "c-tier country guys put in a trap beat and pose like soundcloud rappers"

(*country has roots in scottish & irish folk music and blues; hip-hop emerged as a distinct genre in the 70s and ultimately derives from soul and rhythm & blues. while i'm given to understand hip-hop started in nyc it's definitely a wide-spread thing in the south & atlanta and memphis (tennessee) are major centers for it—and atlanta and nashville (tennesse) are major centers for country. )

like i think it started to happen way back around old town road (ilu lil nas x) but ever since beyonce released her country record i've heard a lot of hip-hop artists crossing over, like jellyroll and shaboozy and even post malone. and like i said, country artists have been incorporating trap beats and rap verses for a while already

i don't know if anyone's crossing over the other way, since i don't listen to a lot of hip-hop? like i listen to it more incidentally, don't know a whole lot about it as a Scene. answers on a postcard.

and like my favorite part of this is that it's not like, elvis coming on the scene with all his dance moves (that he learned from black people) and guitar tricks (that he learned from black people) and awesome hair (that he got from gay people) and

actual black people are the ones coming in with their influences from the actual hip hop scene, and they're not in (much) country cosplay, they're crossing over and black artists are charting

and even when it's covers like luke combs doing fast car, which isn't a hip-hop influenced song in the slightest but is germane to the discussion of black people in country music, as far as i can tell every single time he played it he was like "this is by traci chapman MY PERSONAL ROLE MODEL AND GODDESS" which is 1) the exact correct amount of respect everyone should pay to traci chapman and also 2) puts her, a black lesbian country artist, back on the charts welllll after she's retired and makes her a gazillion dollars in royalties.

country's becoming more interesting and more diverse and more obviously, visibly diverse and i am genuinely thrilled to see it

[yarrowleef]

guess who finally got ✨✨medicated✨✨

[talesofwhimsy]

WHY?, “Sin Imperial" // Car Sear Headrest, “I Can Play the Piano”

[bikananjarrus]

two years of production between 8 episode seasons is killing television fr

[unproduciblesmackdown]

bonus thing i cherish in this shot is that it's the one time it's immediately noticeable that her hair length is uneven....let's go Cutting One's Own Hair (With Or Without A Mirror) look havers irl (b/c of cutting one's own hair with or without a mirror, maybe) & even when it's recreated on purpose like so