#this got LONG LOL

[syn4k]

Pix was up late again as he often was, especially when the seasons changed to spring. The night flowers that bloomed in the Capital were especially nice, and perfumed the air gently while he shined his flashlight on a bit of dirt near the Catacombs.

Nearby, gravel crunched.

Pix kept poking around in the dirt. There were a lot of night creatures around here after all, and Winchester, who he was letting roam about tonight. He didn't have any meetings planned, after all. The gravel crunched again.

"Hello?"

Pix looked up at the sound of his own voice.

"Oh, hello," he said automatically, standing up and brushing the dirt off of his jeans. "Uh, can I help you?"

"You have my voice," said the other man in a tone that was a good mix of suspicion, wariness, and wonder. Well as he might.

"And you have mine," said Pix. "Please don't tell me your name is also Pixlriffs and you're an archaeologist."

"Well, you got the name right," said the other Riffs, scratching the back of his head. "Not an archaeologist, though."

"Thank the gods," said Pix. "Well, I was working on something, but if you need a place to stay for the night-"

"Oh, no," said Riffs hastily. "I don't want to bother whatever you've got going on here. I just sort of wandered in, and I'd like directions."

"Bother?" asked Pix, looking a bit closer. "Dude, you have no idea how rare it is to just randomly be met with another version of..." he waved one hand vaguely, "whatever this is. Besides, trust me, I have had much bigger bothers than whatever you may be. I can get you a map, but most of the server is incredibly dangerous at night. You can stay out here if you want, but I'm making some tea."

Pix turned around and walked towards the entrance to the Catacombs, half hoping that this Pix would follow him, half hoping he wouldn't. This was definitely not something they taught you how to manage in college. Something was definitely a bit off about this guy, but Pix figured that if he was anything like him (which he probably was), he'd like some tea at least.

In the lower levels of the Catacombs, Pix had a small electric kettle/coffee maker and a modest but well-kept kitchen. He may be sleeping in a literal crypt, but he preferred to have power for simple things like this. Putting some water in from a sink nearby and humming as he filled in the kettle and grabbed a teabag from the cabinet, he heard quiet tentative footsteps coming down the stone steps.

"Welcome to my humble abode," he said without turning around. "I have a few extra cups- if you're fine with a mug, all my teacups are dirty. I have a couple small containers of instant coffee, some chamomile tea, Earl Grey, black tea..."

"I mean, if you insist," said Riffs from behind him, sitting in one of the chairs surrounding a small wooden table. "I don't plan on staying for long." His voice was tinged with something strange, maybe guilt, maybe grief, and that was a tone so strange to hear in his own voice that Pix finally turned around to get a good look at his doppelgänger.

Pix didn't look in the mirror a lot, but he knew enough about his own face to see that this man had basically the exact same one as his, albeit a bit thinner in the cheekbones. Actually, he was a lot thinner everywhere. He wore a long sand-covered cloak embroidered carefully with- was that copper thread? alongside simple brown khakis, a light blue shirt and a set of wayworn brown leather sandals.

Riffs was looking at the table despite sitting sideways in his chair, and Pix figured it wasn't worth the trouble to try and make eye contact.

"So," he said, folding his arms and leaning back against the counter as the water behind began to steam. "What brings you here?"

Riffs shrugged, a small, embarrassed thing. "I wander around a lot," he replied. "Sometimes I end up in some... strange places."

"Well, clearly," said Pix. "It'd take a lot of strangeness for you to end up here of all places. Caffeinated or non-caffeinated tea?"

"Either works," said Riffs, looking up for the first time during the conversation. "I'm used to staying up late anyways." His eyes were a dark, stormy grey. Pix nodded and turned back to his tea, wondering if this was all some elaborate prank. Joel's work, probably.

Then again, Pix wasn't sure that Joel had the power to bring dead men back from the history books.

"My map's somewhere in the other room, but I can give you a brief," he said as he dropped the teabags into the cups. "Sugar?"

"No thanks."

Pix nodded. "You're currently in the Ancient Capital, which is essentially where I poke around in the dirt for fun and store a bunch of old artifacts in crumbling buildings. To the east is Gobland, headed by Emperor Fwhip-"

"Fwhip?" asked Riffs.

"Yeah," said Pix. He sighed. "And I have a feeling you might recognize some of the other names here as well, although most of them don't really care for history."

"Thank the sands," muttered Riffs under his breath. Pix, ignoring that, took the teabags out of the cups. Walking over to the table, he set them down- one for him, one for Riffs.

"Thank you," said Riffs, nodding before taking a sip. Pix nodded back and took a sip himself. There was a quite awkward silence of about 20 seconds as both men clearly tried to figure out how to start what was sure to be a mortifying conversation.

"So," started Riffs slowly. "You're obviously me, but also not me. You're different somehow."

"I've noticed," said Pix, taking another sip.

Riffs sighed and ran his fingers through his (rather short) hair. "How do you even talk about things like this?" he asked with a short laugh. "It's like, 12am. I'm not entirely convinced this isn't a fever dream of some sort."

"I think both of us are awake," said Pix, pinching his own arm lightly just to make sure. "I do have a question for you, though."

"Go ahead."

"Care to explain how the Copper King of Pixandria ended up 12,000 miles from this location in the dead of night when he's been dead in this world for over two thousand years?"

Riffs raised his eyebrows, but managed to keep his drink down. Impressive. "How did you figure me out so fast?"

"How about we exchange answers. I'm curious."

Riffs laughed again, a quieter thing this time. "Alright. When I said I was wandering, I meant the desert. I uh, did a thing I'm not too proud of, so I decided to go on a hike to think things over."

This sounded familiar. "A very long hike, hmm?" answered Pix.

"Okay, you answer me now."

"Well," started Pix, putting his cup down, "I've been studying you for roughly fifteen years now. There are records, you know, and I've translated them. I know about the demon. I know about the ancient emperors. I'm not sure if it's just some cosmic coincidence that the guy who ruled the Desert Empire happens to share my name and face, but I do think this may have happened for a reason."

"You, my good sir, are terrifying," said Riffs matter-of-factly.

Pix shrugged. "I try not to be. I call it being direct. I'm sorry if I'm pressing too hard," he said with a small laugh of his own. "It's just not every day that you meet the Copper King in the flesh. It goes against my nature to not ask you a bajillion questions."

"I mean, that's fair," said Riffs with a shrug. "But, fill me in a little. What do your books tell you?"

"Records are scarce and often very damaged," said Pix, "but those that exist say that the Copper King mysteriously vanished from his empire about 5 years after its height."

"And after that?" Riffs asked quietly.

"It faded completely into oblivion," said Pix. "All mentions of it had completely ceased by the time the Fall rolled around."

There was a silence of about a minute then, in which Riffs looked at the countertop, then the ceiling, then the countertop again, then the mug, wearing the expression of a man who had been wrestling with something very large for very long. Pix kept his eyes down.

"I'm sorry," he said eventually.

"No," said Riffs, looking up and looking him clearly in the eye. "I'm the one who asked. Would you like to know the real meaning behind that 'mysterious dissapearance'?"

"Fill me in," said Pix, leaning back.

"The Copper King," said Riffs in a grandiose but unfathomably bitter tone, "exiled himself 5 years after his kingdom entered its golden age for the harm he'd done to his people and his Vigil, deeming himself unfit to walk in its light, and never once looked back." He drained his cup of tea.

So that was it.

"Well, I'd need a citation for that," said Pix, "but that'd look great in a thesis paper."

"We even have the same humor," said Riffs, exasperated. "How did we turn out so differently?"

Pix took a good, long look at the man sitting across from him at the table, perpendicular to the counter. His voice was indeed filled with both shame and grief, but another thing now too- loathing. That was a question Pix could not answer over one cup of tea, anyways, but he did have an inkling.

"Records also say," he said softly, "that the people of Pixandria looked for their king years after his dissapearance, right up until the collapse of the government. Since official records end there, there's a good chance they kept going later than that."

"Did they ever say why?" asked Riffs, staring at the ceiling.

"Every year, it is told, they added another candle to his pile in the Vigil."

Riffs continued looking at the ceiling.

"If you're looking for closure, you won't find it here," said Pix. "I've got my own life going on. I can point you in the right direction, but not much more than that. Seldom do the annals of the past give satisfying conclusions to present problems, but sometimes they can give people ideas."

Riffs sighed and sat back up in his chair, hunching forwards a bit now. "Wise words," he said. "I'm glad you've found your peace here. I, in the meanwhile, am still looking for mine. Maybe I'm destined to wander forever, who knows?"

"If you end up popping up back here in another 20 or so years, me and my kettle will be waiting for you," said Pix. Riffs nodded.

"The uh, the map's in the room one level up and to the left in an item frame," said Pix. "You can keep it. I can always make another one."

Riffs nodded and stood up, looking up the stairs then back at Pix. "Well, this is goodbye then."

"Yep."

"See you around, maybe?"

"See you around perhaps, and may the stars light your journey well."

Riffs gave him a smile, the first one Pix had seen from him all evening and, with a rustle of fabric up the stairs, he was gone.

[thursdayinspace]

I want to know what your deal breaker is regarding books/movies/tv: not the great, big problems everyone can object to, but the personal ones that bug and bug and bug. :DD

THANK YOU FOR THIS QUESTION.

it's when characters communicate too much. and I'll explain why, lol.

so, I'm a big fan of angst through communication failure. I bitch and complain about characters not using their words, but I actually like it when they don't, because I think (if done right) that is way more realistic. quite often, we don't say the important things. we don't tell someone what it is that upsets us. we don't tell someone how much they mean to us. and we don't tell someone what it is that we need from them. so I don't want characters to communicate too openly. I want things to be implied. I want characters to fuck up because they didn't say what they should have said. I want words to hurt and the other person not admitting that they did.

I want tiny things to be blown out of proportion. character A making a big deal out of character B never taking out the trash instead of telling them: this is another small thing that makes me feel like you just don't see me. character B asking "hey, did you lock the door when we left?" simply because they didn't do it themselves, and character A hearing: "I don't trust you to remember on your own because you don't pay attention to important things." one person becoming irritable or withdrawing because they're jealous and the other person completely not getting it. I want those things to turn into fights instead of them fighting right away about the big underlying issues. how often do we actually recognize a problem and immediately sit down and say "I think we need to talk?"

this is not saying they can't address the big issues. but I need them to work for it. and I do want to know where the problem came from, but I want them to understand that a conversation often isn't all that's needed to fix it. sometimes we mess up relationships because instead of addressing one big issue, we let a myriad of small things accumulate over time. and that's what I want to see, instead of an easy fix through an open, honest conversation right away. I want it messy and complicated and multi-layered because people are complex and complicated and saying what we really feel is scary.

I want to point out that this is not always a deal breaker for me. there are certainly situations where it makes sense for characters to address things right away. but I think that's rare.

[baconpncakes]

Okay in Son of a Coma Guy (3.07), Wilson asks House "Why my pad? Foreman, Cameron and Chase's pads are just as convenient. But their association with you is involuntary. They're employees. I associate with you through choice and any relationship that involves choice, you have to see how far you can push before it breaks." House initially deflects but later ends up confessing that Wilson is right when he says "Maybe I don't wanna push this until it breaks."

This is a pattern with House, he's terrified of being abandoned. He did it with Stacy. He did it with his first team. And he's terrified that Wilson specifically is going to leave him. In Baggage (6.21) House tells Nolan "I can say whatever I want to him, and he'll never leave." And when Nolan replies that he's kind of leaving now, he's putting Sam first, prioritizing his girlfriend over you, House just says "For now." After they get married and divorced again, House can move back in.

It takes until season six for House to be this secure in his relationship with Wilson, over fifteen years, and even then he's lashing out and heartbroken because Wilson is choosing Sam over him. And in Son of a Coma guy, when Wilson says that House is trying to fast forward through what he sees as the inevitable– Wilson leaving– Wilson knows he's right because he's seen this before, he watched House do it with Stacy twice.

And my POINT is- I bet Wilson has also been on the other side of this before. After the infarction, when House is (up to this point in his life) at his lowest, he is angry and he is in pain and the person he loved the most is the person who did this to him, she went against his wishes and violated his trust and crippled him and then left. He's mad at Cuddy for letting it happen and he doesn't have a relationship with his parents and Stacy is gone, so now it's just Wilson. And House, in all of his misery and pain and self-destruction, would be cruel and try to push Wilson away too.

And I think it'd all come to a moment where House is telling Wilson that he doesn't need pity, or that Wilson has a wife to go home to and real patients to treat, and doesn't he have a nurse to flirt with, don't you have anything better to do than feed off my neediness- and Wilson finally interrupts and says "House. Just stop. We both know I'm not going anywhere. Can you please give it a rest? Just for now." And House just nods. And they don't bring it up again.

And later when Wilson has cancer, he is dying in House's living room and tells House leave him alone. He's pathetic and he spent his whole life being good and trying to offer empty platitudes to dying people going through exactly what he is now and "I should have spent my life being more like you. Should have been a manipulative, self-centered, narcissistic ass, who brought misery to everything and everyone in his life." Because then he'd feel like he deserved it.

And House just gives him the last of his Vicodin and accepts that. Because Wilson is angry and scared and in pain and House has been there. And the next morning after the treatment, Wilson doesn't remember exactly what he said but he tries to apologize and House won't take it because Wilson was dying he can't be blamed for it. And then Wilson lets House help him down the hall.

House and Wilson knock each other's hands away when they try to offer support (literally and figuratively), but in the end they always accept that help. And no matter what they throw at each other, they know that it's the pain talking. They understand. And they keep helping and keep loving each other anyway.

[true-blue-sonic]

🤎 + Espilver

🤎 multiple kisses / kisses all over / kiss after kiss

"Espio, wake up," fills Espio's world, as it has so often these past few minutes.

Yet, the chameleon stoically remains laying, eyes shut and hands clasped over his stomach. The ninja is timely and rises earlier than anyone else... except for Silver, clearly and unfortunately, as the hedgehog decided to go be a ninja-waking nag just shortly after six in the morning. And the ninja's timeliness stretches itself to getting up at six thirty sharp, and not a moment prior. "Espio," Silver grumbles at him, a cold wet nose prodding Espio's cheek in a most irking matter. "You know I know you're awake, right?"

Also that Espio does not grace with a response, or even a twitch of his facial features. Charmy would already have lost patience and buzzed off to go bother the next inhabitant of the house; surely if he waits long enough, Silver will do the same-

Though, the grunt as Silver's full weight crashes right onto his chest is not swallowed down in time.

"Ah-hah!" a most victorious crooning comes. "Gave yourself away, Espio!"

...Oh well. He can humour Silver for a bit, the chameleon decides, and thus he twists his features into a look of such stoic unnatural intense seriousness anyone can see he is faking it. Indeed, a snicker follows, as does...

Tender lips pressing against his brow.

"Don't frown like that. With how you're laying, you look like I should carry you right into the grave," Silver's unfiltered judgement comes. "So serious. Do allow me to help with that."

One eye shooting open before he can help it Espio huffs a breath into his heavy chest. "What are you-?! Oh."

"Gotcha," Silver smirks in victory.

Another kiss presses against Espio's brow... before Silver's lips shoot to his forehead, and then to the side, and then to his cheeks, left and right and up and down, so hectic and promptly that the chameleon can only yelp before snickering at the sensation. "Tenshi!" he protests, though Silver merely huffs a breath against his muzzle. That gets kissed next, and then his lips do in a rapid peck that goes by far too fast for Espio to return it, because Silver's already nuzzling all over his crest. Which feels nice, except then the hedgehog leans down again, mischief glowing in golden eyes, and-!

"Don't you dare," is what Espio wanted to say... except then a kiss gets pressed against the rim where his horn meets his muzzle and he very promptly sneezes.

"Good morning," Silver deadpans over the loud achoo! slipping past Espio's lips, pushing himself into the air and giving Espio space to draw a coveted deep breath with his chest free again. "Took you long enough to wake up. Jeez."

"...Rude." Sniffling loudly to clear the nasty sensation from his airways Espio shakes his head. "I do not need a personal alarm clock, momiji. I can tell the time plenty well by myself."

"I was going to make waffles. Guess you just have to miss out if you want to stay in bed till six thirty sharp, because I'll have eaten all of them already," gets callously shrugged back. That does catch Espio's attention, the chameleon raising an eyebrow. The ninja also doesn't say no to a tasty breakfast... but the ninja does object to coercion from beloved hedgehogs like that.

"In a second," Espio speaks up, and as Silver hums in confusion it's his turn to grin: strong arms shoot up to wrap around the other's body and pull him right into the mattress, and Silver squeaks before laughing and fussing at all the kisses getting pressed all over his head next.

A perfectly sweet revenge as appetiser for his waffles, Espio grins, and it's well after six thirty that they finally make their way downstairs to work on breakfast.

[helpimstuckposting]

I know this is a super unpopular opinion, especially in the ships I follow/write for, but I genuinely don’t think Steve/Nancy would be a back step in their character development and I absolutely don’t think the hints at it in s4 “came out of nowhere”

There’s nothing wrong with two people being bad for each other and then growing as people separately, and then being better fit for each other due to that growth they made on their own

S1 Steve was so concerned with appearances and his fathers approval that he never took the time to worry about other people, didn’t care to help nancy or worry about how she was handling barb

He grew from that, he acknowledged his bad actions and genuinely improved himself as a person. He’s no longer concerned about those appearances, only cares about keeping the party safe, and involves himself in Nancys plans immediately. He’s there for her, he wants to help, he puts faith in other people now

Nancy didn’t want to be stifled, she didn’t want to be put on the back burner or belittled and while s1 Jonathan was the support she was looking for, once they got together he was more concerned about his future and his opportunities, he disregarded her worries and ideas and theories and Nancy has learned to push herself forward even if it’s by herself (but we see that she’s way happier when people do support her, she’s just not afraid of them *not* supporting her anymore)

Genuinely I think their characters have grown in a way that makes them more compatible now than they were s1, and that’s not a bad thing

Do I obviously wish something else would happen ship-wise? Absolutely, but that doesn’t mean their character development is ruined or their relationship “came out of nowhere”

[henrysfox]

I saw your tags about Pez and Bea and I agree 100%.

Do you have any other things you wish they did/didn't do in the movie or things you wish were different? Or things/changes you didn't like?

let me start by saying i love both - the book and the movie, but i do treat them like two completely different media.

that being said, there are a few things i wish they kept/things i wish made it into the movie/things that were different, the main ones being:

i wish they kept alex's parents divorced - i understand the change bc matthew explained it but i think a lot of alex is lost this way if that makes sense? alex 100% has abandonment issues and it was so so prominent in the book and i loved this storyline/trope a lot

i wish the kept bea's additcion in the movie

i really loved the fake date with june and nora/kissing in the back of the car photo being leaked

i wish we could have gotten the super six

i liked the fact that alex had a whole ass bi awakening in the book bc in the film he was one step ahead of book alex (also liked the liam storyline a lot)

i don't really care much about the rafael luna storyline but it made a lot of sense in the book and it would have been cool to see

i do wish pez could have gotten a bigger role/could have gotten the book personality

maybe i wish the emails could have played a bigger role?

i think i also wish they made it clear that henry has been in love with alex since the beginning? because they used 'fancy' as in he fancied alex from the beginning which is also cool, but he admitted it already in the white house bedroom so it kinda lost its value for me

now onto the things/changes i loved:

it's not really a change but dear god tzp is the perfect alex, he looks exactly like i imagined him (just taller obviously lmao)

i really liked alex coming out to henry

turning texas blue made so much sense with alex's involvement in the movie

i liked that they made amy and cash into one character too

the paris scene is a MASTERPIECE, it's so so meaningful and so so beautiful

i really love that alex gave henry his key when hen gave him his signet ring

i also loved the addition of the scene where alex reached for henry's hand in public and henry flinched contrasted with henry taking his hand and buckingham and henry accepting alex's hand on stage

and i actually loved that they aged them up

overall, as i said, i love both the film and the book but for different reasons.

the one thing that doesn't change? i LOVE nick and taylor as henry and alex. they were absolutely amazing. wouldn't change a thing about them.

[erebius]

VIC & PARENTHOOD.

thought  about  vic  as a parent  for  20  seconds  and  then  thought  about  vandred  (  his  one  developed  instance  of  parenthood  )  and  now  i'm  ill  and  need  to  go  insane  a  little.  this gets long so i'll do a readmore somewhere lmao

one  of  vic's  honest  to  god  worst  nightmares  is  being  a  parent,  and  mostly  for  all  the  wrong  reasons.  and  its  funny,  because  it  could  happen  to  him  very  easily:  one  night  with  little  thinking  could  pave  a  direct  pathway  into  the  one  thing  he's  never  wanted.  a  big  part  of  it  (  at  least,  before  his  life  descends  into  madness,  )  has  to  do  with  his  own  immaturity,  the  idea  that  having  a  baby  to  care  for  ,  having  that  responsibility,  automatically  means  his  life  is  over  and  his  entire  existence  for  the  rest  of  forever  is  just  dad.  which  isn't  true,  you  can  be  a  parent  and  still  have  a  personality,  have  goals----he  just  struggles  to  see  it  that  way,  even  though  his  mother  is  the  perfect  example  of  this,  having  integrated  him  into  her  life  as  easily  as  breathing.  he  thinks  'parenthood'  is  synonymous  with  'the  end  of  all  fun  and  enjoyment  in  life  forever''  and we can't be having that , obviously.

as  well  as  this,  he  was  raised  with  one  less  parent  than  most,  so  he  doesn't  actually  think  he  has  the  skills  and  knowledge  to  be  a  good  parent  anyways.  while  jodie  to  him  is  the  model  of  a  near-perfect  parent,  the  other  half  of  his  experience  with  a  parent  is  the  complete  absence  of  one,  abandonment.  he  doesn't  feel  like  he'd  know  how  to  be  a  parent,  (  which  most,  really,  don't,  )  and  that  automatically  means  he'd  be  terrible  at  it.  he  worries  that  he'd  change  his  mind  somewhere  in  the  child's  life,  that  he  wouldn't  love  it  enough,  wouldn't  do  anything  right,  that  his  child  wouldn't  like  him-----that  no  matter  what,  he'd  ruin  a  child,  play  into  a  cycle  of  producing  someone  miserable  who  turns  out  like  him.

this  absence  of  a  father  in  his  life  also  introduces  his  gender  identity  and  lack  of  knowledge  thereof  into  the  equation.  victor  thinks,  because  he  doesn't  know  what  its  like  to  have  a  dad,  that  he  in  turn  doesn't  know  how  to  be  a  dad.  and  he  can't  connect  with  the  idea  of  fatherhood,  doesn't  know  how  to  be  the  stereotypical,  gruff,  super-masculine  dad-----because  that  identity  doesn't  suit  him,  and  he  doesn't  quite  realize  that.  his  identity  and  comfort  alike  align  more  with  motherhood:  this  realization  and  exploration  into  his  gender  identity  usually  helps  with  making  him  more  comfortable  in  parenthood,  realizing  he  doesn't  have  to  fit  into  the  stereotype  of  'father.'  this  is  why  with  his  son  vandred,  in  his  dnd  campaign,  he's  able  to  adjust  and  come  to  like  parenthood,  because  he's  thriving  in  an  environment  where  his  gender  is  explored,  left  to  his  comfort.  there,  he's  called  dad  and  mum  interchangeably,  and  it  feels  as  natural to him  as  his  name.

finally,  the  most  obvious  of  these  points:  vic  is  a  mess,  he's  an  addict,  he's  very  very  mentally  unwell.  he'd  have  to  be  in  the  right  health  and  headspace  to  be  responsible  for  a  child,  though  quite  frankly  suddenly  having  one  is  usually  enough  of  a  kick  in  the  teeth  to  straighten  him  out.  he's  just  defiant:  he's  used  to  his  misery,  he's  not  sure  who  he  is  outside  of  it  all,  so  for  some  time  he's  quite  unwilling  to  give  it  up.  for  a  child,  he'd  have  to,  and  he  would,  and  selfishly  he  does  not  want  to. 

all  this  to  say,  i  love  dad  vic  :)  it  happens  very  rarely  and  in  Most  cases  makes  him  absolutely  dogshit  miserable,  (  bro  gets  post-partum  depression  without  the  partum  part,  )  but  with  the  right  support  and  environment  parenthood  actually  can  come  to  suit  victor  very  well.  he's  kind  with  children,  he's  soft,  he  speaks  to  them  like  they're  little  people  with  fully  built  vocabularies.  he's  known  so  much  cruelty  that  he  doesn't  know  how  to  be  anything  besides  gentle,  once  he  comes  around.  and  of  course,  he's  incredibly  protective:  he'd  kill  to  keep  his  own  child  safe,  and  would  make  sure  they  felt  safe  with  him,  and  knew  how  to  look  for  red  flags  in  other  people----how  to  stand  up  for  themself,  to  avoid  the  mistreatment  he  found  himself  in.  vic  is  a  good  dad,  and  i  wish  he  hated  the  idea  of  it  a  little  less  </3

[webkinzpossum]

What disability struggle do you wish for people to know? Based on that one question I can't remember the wording exactly but I'm sure you get it.

My hair and clothing choices are limited. I feel like appearance isn’t a struggle that’s talked anout as much. To some extent it can be superficial but there’s amso an importance in being able to express yourself. As someone that is Black my hair is something really important to me. I’m unable to do any type of braid or style due to nerve pain. I can’t wear certain fabrics or types of clothes. Wearing even the lightest necklace is painful too.

The financial aspect of being disabled is super important too. The limits on money you can have in the US on disability/SSI is disgusting. The cost of meds and appointments and travel and over the counter items add up. Testing and procedures too. My meds out of pocket would be over 100k a year.

The mental toll disabilitiy takes is another thing. The time on the phone with insurance and doctors offices. The researching your meds and conditions. Trying to find good professionals. The financial burden. Questioning how bad things are going to get. Lacking a social battery but craving interaction. Living immunocompromised through a pandemic where people don’t care if you die. The list goes on.

disability pride ask game (ask me questions hehe)

[eyeswaitingfortuesdaynight]

thought about joining a big bang event for a hot second...form said no proship content and specifically excluded a pairing that i also don't personally enjoy, so...hard pass. vibes were off. i could take that kind of censorship if this was a big bang for a specific pairing or for gen fic or something, but this was a general fandom thing. and as much as i find that pairing unappealing, i completely understand why others would (and i would too if certain dynamics were not giving me the ick) and it's literally 25% of the published fics for this fandom.

it's like trying to ban roy/ed from an fma big bang or wincest from a spn big bang. like, yeah, i also don't like this pairing because the idea of something like this irl weirds me out but are you. are you for real. it's such a huge part of the fandom. just don't read it??? or don't have ships at all, have the big bang be gen focused.

i wish anon kink memes were still a thing, i could go in and randomly write for whatever prompt that caught my fancy, no judgement or censorship. and even a few hundred words in response to a prompt was enough to make someone happy. i could do it in my own time and not worry about deadlines and such.

i do remember writing some extremely wild stuff i will never admit to ever it does not exist what are you talking about

[ell-vellan]

12, 28, and 38 from the oc relationship asks!

Thank you for asking! <3

I'm just gonna do every relationship I currently have rotating in my mind, lol.

OC Relationship Asks

12. What is something their S/O does to make them flustered?

Ellawyn/Bull: Anytime Bull flirts or touches her in public. She's not used to it - since their relationship started as a secret - and doesn't know how to react in a way that's still becoming of the Inquisitor. But she likes it anyway, and Bull likes unraveling her sense of decorum. Bull would've figured the ability to get flustered had been surgically removed from him at birth - but when El uses her abilities as a mage to ease his pain, or her command role to take care of him in ways that isn't necessary to the war effort, he doesn't know what to do or say.

Anera Lavellan/Solas: I think anytime Anera touches him, Solas finds it unexpected. For her, it's so easy, but it's been so long that he's let anyone this close. It takes him by surprise each time, and he can't hide how much it makes him melt.

Alistair/Auriel Cousland: It's too easy to fluster Alistair; Auri finds it endlessly amusing. She's far more confident in her seduction skills than Alistair. He hates it when Auriel and anyone else - but especially Zevran or Morrigan - talk about their romantic experiences so easily. But, in private, Alistair has a way of saying the most gentle, genuinely beautiful words of love to her, and it stuns her into speechlessness at last.

Zevran/Lathlen Mahariel: Mahariel is un-flusterable. He's a rock. He never smiles, never blushes. Zevran tries to rile him up by being outrageous in public, but...nothing. Mahariel doesn't care about other people and can't be embarrassed. But he enjoys making Zevran flustered with subtle touches. Because Zevran acts so suave, but he's unused to real, intense affection that zeroes in on him and claims him entirely. So Zev might flirt poetically, grandly, for all to hear - then Mahariel will grab him by the belt or his chest plate, pull him close, and murmur something possessive with low, quiet confidence in his ear. Zevran makes a half-hearted attempt to laugh it off but he's shocked, actually how someone found a way to make him blush, after all this time. He's had many people in his life who's claimed to own him, but with Mahariel, he finds he isn't opposed to the idea.

28. Do they trust one another? Are they comfortable discussing their fears with one another?

Ellawyn trusts Bull with her life; she's learning, with some difficulty, to trust that he will stay. They're both very open about their fears, though Bull has a harder time admitting any vulnerability at all.

Anera trusts Solas...about 99 percent. She can tell there's something he isn't saying, but the things he does tell her, she believes. I don't think Solas talks about his own fears at all; if he does, it's very vague and in general terms. Anera freely admits the few things she's afraid of.

Auri and Alistair are completely open books with one another, and trust each other above all others.

Zevran and Mahariel are as well, but it takes them both much, much longer to get there. Neither of them trusts easily, but by the end, they trust only each other.

38. What would be their ideal evening in?

El and Bull - Bull really wants to see El drunk. At least once. Just because he doesn't think she ever has let loose enough. So, a party with the Chargers, where Bull can see El safely back to her room, take care of her, and she no longer feels the need to be so very guarded. But El would probably prefer not to ever drink Qunari booze again.

Anera and Solas would be in front of the fire together, each reading different books, and occasionally telling the other something they've read, either to debate the merits of it or just to share fun facts.

Auriel and Alistair passed out asleep, cuddled together with their dog after a feast and no need to get up early the next morning.

Zevran and Mahariel - probably a target competition (Zev's daggers vs Mahariel's arrows) with some kind of sexy consequence for whichever one loses. Then the nicest room at whatever inn they're crashing at. It likely involves blindfolds and ropes and maybe hot candle wax.

[susansontag]

anime recs? also love revolutionary girl was wondering if you could suggest anything else you’ve really enjoyed??

if you want more artsy/avant garde kind of stuff, ikuhara's other work mawaru penguindrum is very good, though not as good as utena imo. stuff for adults can be enjoyable - mushishi is episodic and very intriguing. serial experiments lain is a good 90s one that's worth a watch, and satoshi kon's (director of the film perfect blue) magnum opus was probably his only series: paranoia agent. both those last two are kind of psychological in nature

I feel if you like utena, princess tutu is worth checking out. it's similar in that it deconstructs fairytale archetypes and is quite thematically 'dense'. people write essays/episodic analysis of it in the same way they do for utena

as for more recent shows, I adored keep your hands off eizouken for its zany and nonconforming female protagonists (it's a love letter to wanting to create something), and from the same studio I really like heike story, based on a japanese epic poem I believe. that last one is directed by naoko yamada, and she's directed some other good stuff: first season of sound euphonium is good, but there's also her standalone film liz and the blue bird, that's fantastic, and much more understated than her great film success (a silent voice)

hyouka is also decent, it's great from a visual storytelling perspective however it's very naturalistic in its style, distinctly 'unanime' like in its cinematography I think. I enjoy its characters, it's one of the few unabashedly 'anime set in high school' shows I can actually stand. it was based on actual novels not like manga or something and it feels that way

my pet show/manga is chihayafuru, great if you want a lady-led sports anime

idk I mostly watch shows for adults so I can't recommend like shounen stuff. the only shounen I've seen and really liked was fullmetal alchemist brotherhood, which yeah, is as good as people say it is and treats its female cast very well. it was written by a woman after all

[stewykablooey]

how long do you think it would realistically take for kenstewy to get together after the finale?

i dont see kenstewy ever ‘getting together’ in a traditional sense i just think there’s too much history there for it to be that clean cut. they’ve been friendboyfriendhusbandfuckbuddies for 30 years, i just dont think there’s a label that could fit them at this point lol

that being said, the timeframe for them to reconnect after the finale — and i mean Properly reconnect, as in finally washing away everything that happened throughout the show and go back to where they were at that coffeeshop (well, as much as they can anyway considering they’re different people now which isnt a bad thing) — is kind of in kendalls hands. i dont think stewy would seek kendall out after what happens, would probably just give him some space knowing that even if he tried to do anything, if kendall is in a bad enough headspace then its not gonna matter anyway. i think stewy’s ultimately gonna wait for kendall to come to him, and i think kendall will. idk how long it’ll take, but kendall’s gonna show up at stewy’s door and they’ll talk about what happened but not really and they’ll just kind of reconfigure each other into each other’s lives. kendall’s got absolutely nothing to do now, whos to say he wont just spend the rest of his time (the rest of his life) with stewy? the one relationship that remained in tact after the board vote?

[rosyjuly]

If it's not too much: worked the blade, the bit where Mick says "show me" 👀

this got long so under the cut we go.

“Show me how you want me to fuck you,” Mick says, pulling away. when seb approached mick about this, he was very no-bullshit about it: this is 1) no strings attached and 2) he doesn’t like to be treated like he’s mindless during his heat. mick doesn’t know exact details of his history but seb made enough casual remarks over the last few years that he’s put it together that the alphas seb’s slept with were often using it as retaliation for being beaten by an omega. so he’s very mindful about giving seb the control over what he wants and how. Seb whines at the loss, sways without Mick’s strong hands holding him up. “Show me.” mick also didn’t expect seb to be so into it – he thought since it’s just a favor, seb’d kinda. humor him. but he’s so responsive and every time mick murmurs some little praise or tells him to move or turn over etc. seb reacts so beautifully. 

He feels stranded on the wide expanse of the bed. seb is touch-drunk and he didn’t really expect that mick would actually make him choose. Mick is sitting on his heels, his hands splayed out on his thighs: between his wrists, his cock is hard and flushed red. dear reader, he’s not touching himself because he’d come after five strokes. He’s watching Seb with intent eyes, a small, encouraging smile playing on his lips. he is VERY serious about sebastian and his intentions with him long term. also have you seen the guy around seb, that’s his constant face.  For all the slick his pussy has been weeping out, Seb’s body feels scorched; Mick his promise of an oasis. He wants to please Mick so badly, wants to be good for him with a desperation that throbs in his chest and between his legs alike. he’s actually very surprised at this. he usually wants to rile up his partners and make it into a push and pull, something that’s more rough and aggressive because then of course they won’t touch him lovingly and he totally wouldn’t even want that (he does). he feels safe with mick and suddenly he feels like he could earn that loving touch (he doesn’t need to EARN it but we’re not quite on that level of self-awareness just yet).

Seb sways again. On his back, maybe – that’s how he usually does it, when he’s in heat. So he can watch the alpha, track their movements. in ch2 this is elaborated a little more: seb doesn’t trust the alphas he spends his heats with, that’s why he wants to see them and what they’re up to, if they’re going in for the claiming bite. Mick would look good looming over him, the cross dangling off his chest with each thrust. tits. Or he could straddle Mick, lower himself on his thick cock and ride him, Mick’s hands on his thighs, his mouth on Seb’s chest. not to repeat myself but TITS - anyway. another position that would usually give seb more control over the depth of penetration and they’re again eye to eye.

That’s not how he wants it, though. His eyes dart back to Mick, who gives him a nod, still patient with Seb’s vacillation. he’s surprised at himself for not going for his ‘usual’ and also at mick for not giving him shit yet, for letting him decide. mick is rock hard but hasn’t focused on that just yet. Seb gulps and finally, finally gives into the molten need in his tummy: he tips forward, stretches himself out until his chest hits the bed, then with another exhale, he turns his head until his right cheek is pressed into the mattress. He doesn’t know what to do with his hands – if he was a good omega, he’d probably leave them lax by his sides, or even hold himself open for his alpha to see. not to turn this into a whole gender studies class here but for seb his omega status/secondary gender is… not part of his core identity because he feels like he’s the antithesis of what society expects of him. he’s the first omega in f1, he hasn’t settled down, hasn’t had very meaningful romantic relationships, chose to focus on his career instead of starting a family. he’s usually fine with that because he got to live his dream but mick’s earlier (natural, RATIONAL) assumption to get a condom kinda got to him and he’s listing all the ways he thinks he falls short as an omega: can’t give him heirs, he’s old, and he’s not that desirable either, doesn’t know how to be enticing enough. MEANWHILE mick is watching him, screaming internally like holy shit he wants this and he wants this with me. He’s not, though, so he just clenches his left hand into the sheet, his right hand coming to rest on the back of his head, fingertips touching his ear. lol i couldn’t pass up on including the self-soothing ear touch. With his knees spread wide, his dripping cunt is exposed, fluttering at the cold air in the room. i just think this is hot as hell.

[suppenzeit]

hi! do you have any dinah or coaches hcs? maybe also an analysis on the coaches costumes?

It's a bit tough to describe my coach hc as a lot of them are based on Vibes but here's a few!

Dinah used to be a bit old fashioned, but quickly changed her mind after becoming friends with Ashley & Buffy. In general just having friends who are outspoken helped her become more confident in herself too.

They try to have regular girls nights, where they just sit and talk, maybe play cards. Sometimes they put on a movie. It's just something to help them relax and get all their worries out.

Pearl gets quickly integrated in the group, Dinah in particular is a bit protective over her. Actually, Dinah is protective of a lot of people. She struggles standing up for herself but she's very eager to help others and make them feel comfortable (she was also protective of Rusty when they were both younger and Rusty hadn't transitioned yet).

As for costume analysis, I don't have too much to say, other than that the early Bochum costumes are really good, and that I enjoy Carries and Brandis costumes a lot too. I think Buffy and Brandi are my two favorites, design wise, they both have pleasant color schemes and I like that Buffy doesn't have a skirt.

Also Ice Show Dinah design GOOD. While I think that the pale blue suits her better, the red does also look good.

[meteor752]

How exactly did the couples get together? Like who started dating first, and we’re there ever other crushes (This is about the Double Life kids btw)

-💀

Oh yeah I figured

The coupling of the kids is actually a bit of a difficult question, because honestly I just kinda paired them up at complete random lol. When I couple my OCs I usually give it a lot of thought, but here I didn’t care because I thought nothing more would come of it after that first post

Boy was I wrong

But the one thing I have known is the order in which they got together. Firstly Liana+Jassy, lastly Jekiv+Wes, with Novo+Gertrude there in the middle

(Also the reason Johnny was the one without a partner is because whenever I think of these kids there’s always one I forget for a moment, and this time it was Johnny boy. Sorry to all the Johnny fans)

I do have some thoughts

So in the beginning of Double Life, Team Scarian and Team Smalletho were actually kinda bros. They weren’t like full allies, but they were pals ya know. Couple of guys being dudes. So I imagine that slipped into the kids as well

In the beginning, the care taking of the children was probably not the highest priority on everyone’s mind. Sure, they were just infants (or an egg in Liana’s case), but this was two weeks after the games started, everyone was scrambling to set up their bases and get as much material as possible before it ran out in their limited space

So sure, as babbus the kids got a lot of attention cause you can’t just leave an infant alone, but when the kids grew into toddlers certain parents would kinda collab in it, like one of them watches the kids while the other three grind

So Jassy and Liana have always been pals. They were naturally drawn to each other, as strange as it is. I mean, on first glance this silent ninja and charming business entrepreneur have nothing at all in common. But in the famous words of Selena Gomez herself, Everything is not what it seems.

Jassy is a dumb pun loving goofball at heart, who idolizes her dad to the point where he can do no wrong, and is a huge geek for horror stories.

Liana is an overthinking know it all with self worth issues, that has a bit of a sciency side and a curious it’s to always learn more, and a tendency for trouble.

So yeah they get along.

I don’t know how they would get together actually, but they feel like one of those couples who’s just always been you know. Like if you’d ask any of the others when Liana and Jassy started dating, they would probably just shrug because they don’t know, they’ve been together for as long as they can remember. Even the two of them probably forget how and when it happened from time to time.

Novo and Gertrude is interesting, because it takes the most eccentric and crazy of the kids, and pair him with the most laid back and chill one. I love dynamics like that.

Unlike Jassy and Liana, I doubt Box duo and Scott/Pearl would have had much collaboration with raising their kids. Scott had Cleo, Pearl would just bring Novo with her or leave him with Tilly, and Box duo had Martyn, who abandoned his kid.

So Novo and Gertrude would get together when they got older and got put on a longer leash, aka when the kids just did whatever. I feel like if the kids would ever do something they would pair Novo and Gert together because, well, she’s chill and can keep an eye on him. Also if he gets himself into trouble she can just carry him away from it.

So the two spent a lot of time together, talking and bonding. A common ground they had were their parental issues, with one of their parents looking towards others outside of the soul bond while the other was just left alone.

Gertrude has some built up issues there, and Novo was surprisingly a great listener. He was kind of the only other person able to relate to her problems.

(Well, Liana can relate as well, but she some problems with repressing her emotions, plus her and Gert aren’t exactly that close)

So yeah, smooching and forming a relationship was just the next natural step lol. They were like fourteen, what do you want from me?

And then there’s Jekiv and Wes. The two who just kind of…got grouped together in my mind. Looking at their personalities and their habits, there isn’t much that actually indicated that they would be a good couple. Jekiv is sarcastic with a lot of curiosity, and a real fascination with death. Wes is anxious with severe OCD and imposter syndrome.

They don’t click in the same way the other two couples do, and I think in universe that’s kind of true as well.

As I’ve mentioned before, Johnny is aromantic. Romantic love is not something he’s interested in at all, in fact it kinda grosses him out. He’s got nothing against platonic love, or sexual attraction, but he just doesn’t feel the romantic thing, and he’s okay with that.

As a bab he was probably a bit scared to tell others that though.

So when Gertrude and Novo got together, he would probably be the first to push Jekiv and Wes towards each other. Because, if those two are dating then oh no, there won’t be anyone left for him to date, whatever will he do???

And soon the others found out what he was trying to do, and gladly assisted, because hey they’re happy in their relationships, plus the two of them are perfect together! They are….they have….well they just are!

So yeah, Wes and Jekiv were kinda forced to be together 24/7.

“Oh sorry I can’t hang out today, I promised mom I’d help her upgrade the farm! But hey Jekiv is free!”

“I heard Wes is working on an extension to the pool, maybe you should go and help!”

“Jekiv is trying to capture a skeleton, why don’t you help him! You’re strong and stuff!”

And yeah, Wes and Jek didn’t mind each other’s company. Sure, they didn’t have that much in common, but they still had enough common ground to hold multiple conversations.

And yeah, when they both were tricked into going on a “romantic dinner” in the bowel of The Relation, why not just start dating?

It wasn’t a bad relationship. Jekiv is extremely patient (Something that kind of stems from sitting around half of the time just waiting for everyone to wake up so he’s not alone anymore), and is great support to Wes’ anxiety attacks. It doesn’t matter to him that Wes has to check every door three times before they leave, or it takes an hour to set the table just because everything needs to be precise.

The same goes for Wes, he’s good at listening when Jekiv needs to let out steam about his dad, or his mom, or Novo who won’t leave him the fuck alone. He’s not that creeped out by the death experiments, and will gladly assist Jek in getting any body part he can from a Zombie or Creeper. He’s a good fighter while Jekiv isn’t, so he will kick anyones ass who dares mess with him.

They’re good friends! Just a bit of an awkward couple.

They do romantic things, go on dates, kiss, the devils tango, they just…kind of stumbled into it.

And yeah, over time they probably grew to love each other romantically, but they both know that from the start their relationship wasn’t genuine. It was partly just to get everyone off their backs about it lol.

And as for crushes, well the kids have kinda crushed all over the place.

At least three of the kids has had crushes on Wes, Gertrude, and Liana. Hot people stay hot.

Novo used to crush on Jassy. She was dating Liana at the time so he never told her.

Wes has had a crush on Novo, who’s straight so yeah.

Gertrude has a crush on Johnny. He rejected her when she told him, and they still remained friends.

Jekiv is the one who’s had crushes on the most people actually. Only one he hasn’t felt anything for is Novo, but that’s cause they’re like pseudo brothers

[willow-lark]

🌈is there a fic that you worked *really fucking hard on* that no one would ever know? maybe a scene/theme you struggled with?

(I had one work where it took me FOREVER to write one conversation. Like I put it aside for 6 months until my brain finally figured it out)

oh, nonnie. i feel you. if there was a god of abandoning wips because i got stuck on one scene it would be me. i have wips from 2017 that i'm still working on i sweeeear but they will Not be coming out anytime soon. hell, i abandon things every time i have a new Idea. like, if i don't finish a fic in one burst of information it Will not get done. that's why i write so many oneshots and drabbles, lol.

anyways!! speaking of: just a curious speck that got caught up in orbit would definitely be that fic for me that i really struggled with. it's a sequel to a fic i had written previously. the sequel was always planned, but it took me 517 days (i calculated) to get it out. it's a 10k word oneshot. that's an average of like. twenty words written PER DAY. embarrassing for me. but like,,, this fic (especially the ending) is a lot fluffier than i usually write. i tend to stick with angst bc not only is it my fav genre, but i think i'm a lot better at writing it than anything else. it's easy for me. fluff does not come as naturally. and then the ending literally took on a life of its own as i was writing it, like mike was just like. hey! i'm gonna make out with will now! and i was like. ok! and had to go along with it 😆 he completely forced my hand, lol. plus physical description isn't my strong suit, like i really struggle to describe appearances & physical actions (most of my fics r literally entirely dialogue +the mc's inner monologue RIP) so. even though i KNEWWW what they were doing together i just. could not get it on paper. a struggle. hopefully it turned out ok 😅

(this issue is actually v much continuing to be a problem. like. in my upcoming fantasy au sequel byler r literally going to elope (spoilers!) & they do notttt want to keep their hands to themselves on opposite sides of the room, lol. i'm like, guys, come on. i see the vision. but u know i cannot write this well. but hey! it's coming.)

come ask me a question about my fics!!