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mythalism · 3 days ago
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i feel like all of my pondering and analyzing and criticizing veilguard over the past few months has actually truly given me a better understanding of what dragon age meant to me, what about it specifically was so meaningful, and why, as a result, veilguard felt so wrong. it took a while for me to figure it out. about three full months of relentless essay writing, actually. but i think if you had asked me a few years ago what the core of my love for dragon age was, whatever answer i gave would not have truly gotten to the root of it, because i think i had to experience the disappointment of veilguard to fully understand why i love dragon age. and ive realized that core is that i loved how the previous dragon age entries demand so much of the player, and deliberately prompt introspection and critical, often political, thought.
dragon age games have historically forced the player to be self-reflective and introspective about their worldview and beliefs. solas is obviously a fantastic example, as he was deliberately written to be a reflection of the player in order to prompt them to reflect on how they treat people, how our expectations of people influence their behavior, and how people are pushed to extremes and turned into monsters or saved by love and kindness. how do people become monsters? what drives them to blow up buildings or start rebellions or destroy the world as you know it? are they right or wrong? does it even matter? how did you contribute to this? are you innocent? it puts these insane, politically and morally charged situations in your face and forces you to confront them. slavery, a refugee crisis, poverty, class disparities, racism, foreign occupation, the list goes on, and you are not given the option to look away or be a bystander. you have to ACT. you have to choose, you have to make judgements, you have to take responsibility and explore your role in this world as someone with the capacity to act upon it, to make your will a reality, to fail, to make mistakes. i honestly can't think of any other video game that does this to the same extent? nor any media at all because the act of being IN the world as one of it's people through the act of role-playing is essential to how it provokes this experience in the player. its ballsy. they deliberately try to make you uncomfortable. these games are full of liars, deceivers, betrayers. the games themselves lie to you. its character try to deceive you. did you catch it? or were you fooled? what else might you be fooled by? who else might be lying to you? in the game? in real life? and then you get to play it again knowing the end, and what the game prompts changes with your new knowledge. now it asks, do you forgive them? what makes someone worthy of forgiveness? where do you draw the line? what do you think?
i dont think i realized until recently how impactful this was for me considering how i first got into dragon age at 16 years old. i dont think i had experienced anything up to that point that would put a situation like judging a war criminal who ordered the deaths of children or another war criminal who just left me to die and orchestrated a near-coup or a traumatized terrorist who just blew up a church right in my face, and said MAKE A DECISION. and i didnt know it at the time, but looking back i can see how valuable it was for me at that age to have what was effectively an avenue of exploration and self-expression of all of these moral and political issues that i was grappling with as a young adult. i played inquisition for the first time just months before i voted in my first presidential primary. i already had a political consciousness at this point, but it was nonetheless new and vulnerable and still blossoming into something more concrete. inquisition, then, almost provided a sort of political, moral and personal sandbox for me from ages 16-20 to better help me understand myself in relation to the world. the RPG-ness allowed me to put myself into these situations - like the mage-templar war and its metaphor for mass incarceration and police brutality - while i was also simultaneously grappling with and trying to understand these issues in real life. having dragon age to help me further unpack my own beliefs and conception of these issues was undeniably impactful. it provided a space, through a narrative i enjoyed and cared about, to make choices and judgement calls and better understand who i was, and what felt right to me. it asked, "what do you think?"
veilguard lacks this. completely. and lets be clear that the previous games did not always do a perfect job. many of these depictions are messy and harmful and problematic, but they at least, by extension of their own existence in a narrative that forces you to THINK and JUDGE and DECIDE, give me the space and opportunity to judge them as messy, as problematic, as harmful. i can confidently say that i think da2 is too sympathetic to the templars as an organization because the fact that da2 presents me with so many narrative conflicts regarding the templar organization allows me to not just make in-game decisions and play as a staunch advocate for mage freedom and circle abolition, but to form opinions on the game itself by extension. i can confidently say that i believe the qunari's portrayal is islamophobic because the game has prompted me so many times; what do i think about the qunari? what do i think about the oppression of the elves? what do i think about dorian being a seemingly good person but defending the practice of slavery? who should rule orzammar; the progressive asshole or the conservative traditionalist? do i forgive loghain? do i forgive anders? do i forgive solas? this in-world critical thinking about issues in thedas leads to meta critical thinking. further questions naturally follow -> what message did the writers intend to send through anders? how can i notice the echoes of how this story came into fruition in the shadow of 9/11? what do solas's endings tell me about the writers view of retributive punishment? how is bioware's portrayal of the dalish, as inspired by indigenous north americans, reflective of deep-seated anti-indigenous canadian sentiment? why did the writers stop prompting these hard questions at all in veilguard? did they only like it when it was about characters, not when it led to critical thinking about them and the company as a whole? through these processes of in-world interrogation, i am inevitably invited to analyze the effectiveness of their narrative portrayals and the writing itself. perhaps this is why dragon age is so famous for its discourse lol.
ive said before that im not sure that veilguard could ever have been as impactful for me as the previous games, partly because when you are 16 everything is more impactful because your brain is an eager sponge, unless it did something that really resonated with me as an adult. but what it should have been, at the very least, is something that could have been as impactful and formative on a current 16 year old that sees a gif on tumblr and decides to check out the game, as inquisition was to me 10 years ago. and im sure there are teenagers and younger adults out there playing this game and loving it and loving the characters and the world and thinking its great, good fun. thats great. however it fundamentally cannot have the same profound, developmentally catalytic experience it had on me because it simply does not challenge the player. it does not prompt them to question their own beliefs and the power structures within their lives. it does not prompt them to reflect on the political narratives they may have been fed all their lives. it does not confront them with the sorts of topics that get books on banned lists in florida and force them to bear witness, to think deeper, to feel guilt or horror at the outcome of your own poorly-made decision, to make moral judgements, to make mistakes, and to live with the consequences.
i think i now understand why veilguard was so disappointing to me and ultimately would be a failure in my eyes no matter if i enjoyed the combat or the exploration or whatever other shiny coat of paint sits atop it. veilguard does not ask much of you. it does not prompt any sort of introspection or interrogation of your presently held beliefs. it does not demand anything from the player except to dodge at the right moment. this is a fundamental, core departure from what made me fall in love with dragon age in the first place. if you love dragon age because you want "fantasy escapism" and fun characters to smooch, then i am happy for you. but i would remind you that can find fantasy escapism all over the steam library - farming sims, cozy games, a witch looking for her cat in the alps, etc. what you cannot find are games that are willing and brave enough to challenge and provoke the player into a better, more thorough understanding of themselves in relation to our world and it's many, complex and daunting political and moral issues. to have lost such a thing, when media like this has become so few and far between, and during a time when we need it more than ever, is a devastating loss.
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cookiesandbiscuits · 3 days ago
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Hi, there! :D
I saw the new event and it want to participate, If it is not too much trouble, I would like to request:
Type: One Shot Prompt: FRIENDS TO LOVERS: "But [Silver]… we are friends." "…Yes, but–" "But I would very much like to be more than friends." Character: Silver (Twst) x Fem Prefect
Idea: I was thinking of a scenario where Silver and the prefect become increasingly closer by spending time together in the forest behind the campus (where the ancient tree is)
It's just an idea, if my order doesn't convince you, you can discard it, but if not, take your time and don't pressured. Thanks. Bye! <3
Inexplicably Drawn to You
In which your unexpected friendship with the man you met in the forest turns into something more.
Pairing: Silver x Fem!Reader
Prompt: "But [Character Name]... we are friends." "...Yes, but–" "But I would very much like to be more than friends."
A/N: Hello! Thank you for sending your request! Writing stories is one of the main reasons why I made this blog three years ago, so I appreciate every request I receive in my inbox ^^
I apologize for posting this late. The editing part took a while since this became quite long. I hope you enjoy this story!
Other notes: Reader is Yuu/prefect; uses Y/N in place of a name
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It was purely a coincidence meeting him that day.
You have always been drawn to the forest��its lush canopy and the whispers of its inhabitants always leaving you in awe. So when you discovered the forest behind Night Raven's campus, you were so eager to free your schedule for a visit.
And when the time finally came, it was everything you've ever imagined. The forest was peaceful and quiet; a perfect place to take a break from the usual chaos surrounding you.
You were so busy admiring the place that you didn't notice what was in front of you and you tripped.
Something, or rather, someone, was lying on the ground where you were walking.
You wanted to say something to the stranger who made you trip, but the serene look on his face made you think otherwise.
Looking closely, the man, who was sleeping as you noticed, was quite handsome. Him, adding the tranquil backdrop the forest provided, made for a spectacular sight. Just like—
"Like a prince from a storybook..." you murmured.
Just then, the stranger opened his eyes and met yours, making you jump.
"...Um, hi?" you waved awkwardly as the man continued to stare at you.
He blinked for a few moments before sitting upright.
In a groggy voice, he asked, "What time is it?"
"Time? Well..." you paused for a moment to think. "I've been here for about 30 minutes now, and I came here at around 4 PM, so I'm guessing it's already 4:30 PM."
The man widened his eyes and stood up.
"I slept on for too long. I must hurry, or I'll be late. Thank you for your assistance."
He bowed, and before you could even say anything, he had already left.
You could only blink at how quickly everything had happened.
"What'cha up to, Prefect?"
You flinched when two hands suddenly grabbed you by the shoulders.
"Ace! You almost gave me a heart attack!" you shrilled.
"Haha, you shoulda seen the look on your face— ow! What the hell, dude! What was that for?"
Ace frowned at Deuce, who only sighed at his classmate's behavior.
"You shouldn't scare people like that, Ace." He then turned to look at you. "Anyways, what are you doing, Prefect?"
"Nothing much. I'm just drawing," you smiled, showing your sketchpad to the two.
"Woah, you're pretty damn good at this," Ace marveled as he looked through the pages.
"I didn't know you can draw," said Deuce.
You shrugged. "It's just one of my pastime hobbies."
"Ooh, who's this guy?" Ace pointed the latest illustration in your sketchpad.
It was the sleeping man you met in the forest.
"I don't know," you answered, taking your sketchpad back from Ace's hands.
"What do you mean "you don't know"?"
"I just told you. I don't know." You started to put away your stuff in your bag. "I never asked his name."
Ace raised a brow on your statement. "So you drew a guy you don't know? Like what, you got a crush on him or something?"
"Wha-?! No!" you sputtered. "I just thought he's pretty, okay? And I like drawing pretty things."
"Riiiight..." The ginger-haired teen smirked.
"I told you, that's not it!" you screeched, your cheeks slowly reddening at Ace's teasing.
But the boy only laughed at your reaction. Even Deuce couldn't help but laugh too.
You can only sigh in frustration. "Ugh, you guys are terrible!"
"I swear, those two..." you grumbled as you drew the wild anemone you found.
"Oh, it's you..."
"Huh?"
You whipped your head towards the voice. It was the man your friends were teasing you with earlier.
"Oh, hello..." you greeted.
"What are you doing?" he tilted his head as he asked.
"I'm just— drawing! Yes, just drawing this this flower here," you said, opting not to voice out the reason of your grumbling.
"I see..." the man replied.
The silence that followed was long. You thought the man had already left, but to your surprise, he crouched down beside you.
Unable to take it any longer, you spoke. "So, did you get there on time?"
"Hm? Oh, you mean the last time we met. Yes, I did. And it's all thanks to you."
You waved your hand. "There's no need to thank me. Besides, you've already thanked me before."
"But still... if it wasn't for you, I wouldn't have woken up in time for my club activity."
"Ah." You recalled tripping over him the first time you met. "Sorry for tripping over you, by the way."
"It's alright," he replied.
".........."
".........."
Another moment of silence.
"Say," you started. "Do you come here often?"
The man nodded. "I find the forest calming."
You looked down at the wild anemone in front of you. "I see... I hope I'm not causing too much trouble for you."
"Not at all. How about you? Do you visit here often too?"
"When the time allows me to," you responded. "Though I try my best to visit as much as I can."
You turned to look at him.
"Since it's most likely that we'll run into each other a lot here, it's probably best to know each other's names, right?"
Reaching out a hand, you smiled. "I'm Y/N, and you are...?"
"Silver. My name is Silver."
"It's very nice to meet you, Silver."
From that day on, spending your time in the forest with Silver became a common occurrence.
True to his appearance, he was nothing short of a gentleman to you, always making sure you were doing fine during your visits.
You learned that he was a second-year student from Diasomnia and that he was part of the Equestrian Club with Riddle, and along with a first-year named Sebek, he is training to become a retainer for Malleus Draconia, the heir apparent of Briar Valley.
You felt at ease with him, grateful that you found a person aside from your first-year friends to open up to.
And he would always lend an ear to listen to your stories.
You found his presence comforting, just like the forest that has now become a special place for the two of you.
It didn't take long before the feelings of friendship you felt for him had developed into something more.
"Alright, I'm gonna do it."
You announced, clenching your hands with determination.
"Huh? What are you talking about?" Ace asked.
"I'm gonna tell him I like him."
"Finally!" the gingerhead cheered. "I was getting sick of hearing you pine for him every day, to be honest— ack! Dude, you've gotta stop hitting me at the back of my head!"
"I'll stop once you stop being so rude," Deuce replied. "I'll be rooting for you, Prefect!"
You smiled. "Thanks, Deuce. I'll be off then!"
Giving them a small wave, you rushed to the second-years' classrooms, your heart pounding with hope and excitement.
However, that feeling will soon be crushed as soon as you reached your destination.
"This is it, right?"
You panted as you read the sign above the doorframe: "2-A"
You were about to knock when you heard people talking inside, making you pause.
"...Are you two dating?"
"...No, we're not."
You blinked, hearing Silver among the voices you heard.
"The Prefect and I are only good friends, nothing more."
Oh.
Your gaze fell on the floor.
Of course, what were you thinking? It's not like he was doing all those things when you were together because he sees you as more than a friend. It was you who gave those gestures a different meaning.
Laughing bitterly to yourself, you made the walk back to Ramshackle.
"So, how did it go?"
Along with Deuce and Grim, Ace greeted you with his signature grin the moment you walked in Ramshackle's common room.
You could only give them a bittersweet smile in return.
"What, don't tell me you got— mmph!"
Covering Grim's mouth with his free hand, Ace threw a bag of chips in your direction. "You know what? Screw that guy. He doesn't even know what he's missing out on."
"Y-yeah, Ace is right," Deuce chimed in. "Don't worry, Prefect. We're here for you."
After a moment, you sighed, feeling an immense gratefulness for your two friends.
"Thanks, you guys."
"Y-yeah, sure..."
"Pwah! Alright, that's enough! Are we gonna eat these snacks or what?" Grim exclaimed, having wriggled out of Ace's grip.
"Oi, Grim! Don't you dare eat all of the snacks this time, you hear me?" Ace turned to look at your furry roommate, who was already stuffing his mouth full.
Letting out a small laugh, you sat beside Deuce who only shook his head as the other two in the room continued bickering.
You really are lucky to have them as friends.
"Oh..."
You softly gasped as you bumped into the person you have been avoiding all week: Silver.
"Ah... hello, Prefect. You must be here for Professor Crewel's class."
"Y-yes, I am..." you replied awkwardly. "And you? What are you doing here in the lab?"
"Oh, you haven't heard yet? The first-years and second-years will be having a joint class today."
"Really...?" You felt your stomach drop. "I see..."
In that moment, Professor Crewel entered the room. "Alright, puppies, take your seats."
"As I have explained yesterday, we will be making Morpheus's Elixir for today's class. However, as this is a fairly complicated potion, I have assigned to your group a second-year who will guide you in making the potion. Failure to make the potion will cause you to take a remedial class, understood?"
"Yes, sir!"
"Then I will assign your guides now. Group 1..."
"For Y/N's group, Silver here will be your guide."
"What?!" you exclaimed.
Professor Crewel narrowed his eyes at your sudden outburst. "Do you have any problem with the assignment, Miss Y/N?"
"Ah— no, sir. I apologize."
After Crewel left your table, you sighed. Just your rotten luck, you thought.
"Are you alright, Prefect?" Silver asked.
"Huh? Oh, yes, I'm fine! Never been better!"
"Are you sure—?"
"Yep! We should probably start making the potion now. Let's see..." you cut him off, changing the topic to your current activity.
"We need one teaspoon of stardust powder, three dried lavender spikes, five drops of midnight blue extract, one moondrop piece, and one cup of milk."
Before you could put the ingredients in the cauldron, someone grabbed your hands to stop you.
"Wait! Don't dump them in the cauldron all at once."
"Huh?"
It was Silver. You immediately moved your hands away from his, as if you'd be burned if you don't.
"Ah, sorry. The instruction said to boil them together," you said sheepishly.
"You're right. But the ingredients won't mix together properly if you just put them together."
Pouring the cup of milk in the cauldron, Silver continued to explain.
"You have to heat up the milk in low heat first. Once it starts to steam, put the stardust and ground moondrop piece gradually."
He then gave the moondrop to your group mate. "Ground this and the lavender, if you please."
"Wow... you're really good at this," you marveled, watching the purplish blue potion sparkle as you gently stirred it.
Silver smiled. "Not really... I just happened to be familiar with this potion since I used to make them whenever my father gets his bouts of nightmares."
"I see..."
After a moment, Silver spoke once again.
"I haven't seen you visit the forest for a while now..."
"Oh..." you paused. "I was just...busy, y'know... between doing the headmage's biddings, schoolwork, and keeping an eye on Grim, I haven't found the time to visit."
That was a lie, of course.
You just simply haven't had the strength to face him yet after overhearing the conversation he had with his classmate.
You wouldn't admit that to him, though.
"Then... will you be visiting today?"
"I'm... not sure."
"Oh..."
"......."
The space between the two of you were filled with thick silence which lasted until the end of the class.
Silver sighed as he put the cauldron away in the cabinet.
For some reason, you've been avoiding him for several days now.
Did he do something to offend you?
Mulling over the possible reasons of your avoidance, he left the lab and found you talking to one of your classmates.
He was about to say goodbye when he heard the boy shout.
"Prefect! I-I... I like you! Please go out with me!"
Silver remained quiet as he saw the scene unfold before him. It made his stomach churn, much to his confusion.
His eyes then shifted to you.
"Oh— um... thank you, but I can't," you replied.
He released a breath he didn't know he was keeping. How odd...
Suddenly, the boy grabbed your arm, making you wince.
"C-can't you give me just one chance? I promise I'll be good to you!"
"Wait, stop—"
"Hey."
Before he could think, Silver found yanking your classmate's hand from your arm, inserting himself between you and him.
"I believe the Prefect had already given her answer."
"Silver..."
"Tch, fine..." the boy said, irritated as he raised his hands in defeat and walked away.
After making sure he was out of sight, Silver turned to you. "Are you alright?"
"Y-yeah... I was just a little surprised, is all," you replied, rubbing the arm your classmate grabbed earlier.
He frowned. Your classmate must've gripped too hard that it even left a mark.
"Has this been happening to you regularly?"
"No, this is the first time this happened, actually."
He paused, eyeing your arm before speaking again. "Do you have somewhere else to be today?"
"No, I don't. Why?
"Then let me escort you back to Ramshackle Dorm."
"Huh?! You don't need to do that!"
However, he only shook his head. "I can't let you walk alone after that. Please, I insist."
After a few more convincing, Silver finally persuaded you into letting him walk you back home.
He sighed in relief as the two of you managed to reach Ramshackle without incident.
"Thank you for walking me back," you said as you opened the front door.
"Of course."
Suddenly, the familiar gingerhead appeared.
"Hey, Prefect!" Ace greeted. "...And Silver?!"
"Wait, Silver's here?"
Another familiar face appeared. This time, it was Deuce.
"Hey guys."
"Hello."
The two Heartslabyul students exchanged looks before looking at the prefect, who sighed.
"He insisted on walking me back."
"Okay..." Ace narrowed his eyes in suspicion.
"Trappola, Spade." Silver turned to the two card soldiers. "Can I speak with you two? Please."
The gingerhead raised a brow before looking at the prefect.
"Do what you want. I'll be going inside and sleep." You waved your hand and went inside.
"Sure..."
"Say what?!"
The two blurted after Silver told them what happened earlier.
"I can't believe he did that..." Ace sighed.
"Yeah, that guy's gonna pay for that... No man should force a woman to do what he wants," Deuce cracked his knuckles as he spoke.
"Please, calm down, there's no need to retaliate. I will speak to the teachers regarding this. I only ask you to keep the Prefect company, in case something like this happens again."
"Say..." Ace suddenly turned to Silver, his eyes serious. "Why are you doing this?"
Silver's brow furrowed in confusion. "What do you mean?"
"I'm asking why are you doing all this effort for the Prefect? Don't get me wrong, we're still gonna do what you asked us to, I just don't get why you asked us for help too? Most people in this school would just tell the teachers what happened and go their merry way at best, but you even walked her home to make sure she arrived safely. What does the Prefect truly mean to you?"
He was taken aback at the first-year's question. "The Prefect is a precious friend of mine and—"
Ace scoffed, cutting him off mid-sentence. "Yeah, right."
"Ace! Don't be rude!" Deuce scolded. "I'm so sorry for my dorm mate's actions. He's only worried for our friend. Don't worry, we'll make sure the Prefect is safe."
Silver stared at Ace, who was scowling, for a moment before turning to Deuce.
"Thank you. And Ace?"
"What?"
"I know you're worried for the Prefect, but I promise you, I would never do anything to hurt her."
He then slightly bowed and left.
"Oh, Silver. Welcome back."
"Hello. What are you guys doing?"
Silver eyed his two dorm mates curiously.
"Oh, I'm just helping this guy write a love letter for his crush, the Ramshackle prefect," the first student replied.
"Hey! Don't tell him that!" the second student shrieked.
"...You like the Prefect?" Silver asked.
"Oh, he's absolutely smitten. Wouldn't stop talking about how cute and nice she is. I got sick of it so I told him to write a letter instead."
"I told you, stop! I don't need everybody to know my business!"
"Hey, speaking of which, you're a friend of the Prefect, right?" Student No. 1 smiled. "Mind helping this guy to ask his crush out?"
Ask the Prefect out...?
Silver felt his his chest twinge with unease.
As much as he'd like to help his dorm mates out, the Prefect is his friend. And she just experienced something terrible with love confessions earlier. If he helped them out, that might make her uncomfortable, and—
"O-on second thought..."
Student No. 1's voice broke him out of his stupor.
The man, who was looking paler by the minute, continued. "You must be busy with other things. Please, forget we asked!"
Grabbing his friend's arm, he rushed out of the room, leaving the unfinished love letter on the table.
Silver could only stare at the doorway in confusion.
"My, no wonder those two look like they saw a ghost. Why the frown?"
He turned to look at the new arrival.
"Father..."
Lilia smiled, before noticing the unattended letter on the table.
"What's this? A love letter?"
Silver nodded. "Those two left it behind."
"Young love... How nice." The older fae giggled. "Who's the recipient?"
"...The Ramshackle prefect."
"Oh... You mean your friend whom you met in the woods?"
"Yes."
Silver frowned at the letter in his adoptive father's hand.
"Are you upset that she's receiving a lot of attention from her admirers?"
Lilia waved the paper in his hand. "You've been staring at this like it's your greatest enemy."
"Oh..."
He let out a sigh. "I'm just worried about her."
Lilia raised a brow, urging him to continue.
"One of her admirers physically harassed her earlier. Who knows what might've happened if I wasn't there to intervene."
"Oh my..." Lilia scowled. "How distasteful. Is she alright?"
"Yes. I escorted her home to make sure she's safe."
The bat fae nodded. "That's good."
"And then there's that..."
Silver paused, unsure of what to say next.
"What do you mean?" Lilia asked.
"For some reason, I feel... restless." Silver ran a hand through his hair. "Like I want to hide her away from the others. Especially when I heard that student talk about her like that."
"Hoh..." Lilia hummed, his eyes filled with intrigue. "...Are you sure what you feel for her is only friendship?"
"What?" Silver furrowed his brows. "What is it then if not friendship?"
Lilia only shrugged at his question. "That's for you to find out! It would be less fun if I told you right away."
Grabbing his shoulder, Lilia ushered him to his room. "Now then, it's time for you to think long and hard for the answer, okay?"
"The answer, huh..."
Silver closed his eyes and opened them again, his line of sight never leaving your table in the cafeteria.
A few days had passed since the incident with your classmate happened. The teachers swiftly made an action with his report, sending the culprit into a two-week suspension and transferring him to a different section, making sure that the two of you never crossed paths during classes.
Your two friends from Heartslabyul also kept their promise, making sure you were never alone.
It's also been days since Lilia told him to go find the answer to his own question. Unfortunately, he still hasn't found the right answer to that.
He brought his attention back to your table.
You were laughing at something Ace had said.
Seeing you smile like that, unburdened with the troubles your life here had brought you, made him smile too.
He'd do anything to keep that smile of yours on your face.
And with that, realization slowly found its way to him.
Why he became downhearted when you said you were too busy to visit the forest.
Why he was so upset about the attention from your admirers.
Why he wanted to protect that precious smile of yours.
Ace and Lilia's questions came to Silver's mind.
"What does the Prefect truly mean to you?"
"...Are you sure what you feel for her is only friendship?"
The answer to those is...
"That's what you get for being overzealous," you said, still laughing at Ace's story.
The gingerhead only pouted at your reaction. "It's not funny! Don't you know how hard it is to catch those little guys?"
"At least that'll teach you not to use the school's resources to make a quick cash."
"Yeah, yeah. I get it, so stop laughing!"
"...Prefect."
You tensed as you heard that all too familiar voice. Taking a deep breath, you turned to look at him and smiled.
"Hi, Silver. Can I help you with something?"
"Are you free after class today?"
You eyed him curiously. "Yes. Why do you ask?"
"Then, can we meet in the forest today? I need to tell you something important."
You looked at your two friends and Grim, who gave you worried looks. You gave them a reassuring smile in return.
"Sure, I'll be there."
"I wonder what it is he wanted to talk about?" you said to yourself as you treaded the familiar path of the forest.
This is the first time you've visited this place since... that happened.
You shook your head and continued to walk.
Your feelings are still all over the place, although not as much as before. You've been trying your best to move on, but you are missing the time you've spent with Silver in this forest.
Speak of the devil, you thought, as you spotted the familiar figure lying on the forest floor.
"Seriously, it's a wonder how you can sleep in the cold hard ground so soundly," you chuckled, crouching beside him and brushing off the strands of hair blocking his face.
He must've felt your touch, as he stirred awake from his slumber after brushing off his hair.
"Morning, sleepyhead."
"Mm... Y/N..? Did I make you wait?"
You shook your head. "I just got here. I should be asking you that. Sorry I'm late."
Silver sat up from his sleeping spot. "It's alright."
He patted the space beside him, and you complied, sitting beside him on the ground.
The setting sun painted the sky in an array of colors, making you sigh in awe.
"Y/N."
"Yes?" you replied, taking off your gaze from the sky to him.
"I've been thinking a lot to answer a question I asked myself. And after a few days, I've finally found the answer to that question."
You remained quiet, letting him continue speaking.
"I am ashamed to admit that it took me to realize it after that incident, but I cannot bear to see you be with another man."
Silver looked at you with all seriousness.
You blinked. No way. Is he...?
"Y/N, I am deeply in love with you. And I promise to treasure you every day as long as I live, if you'll have me."
You gasped.
You thought there would be no chance, when you heard him that day. But here he is, laying his feelings out in the open.
Tears began to prickle your eyes.
"But Silver... we are friends."
"...Yes, but–"
"But I would very much like to be more than friends."
You laughed, your tears now flowing freely on your cheeks.
Silver stared at you in disbelief before pulling you in for a hug.
"You have no idea how much I've been wanting you to say that," you said between sobs.
Pressing your foreheads together, he began to wipe your tears with his thumb. "I'm sorry, and thank you."
Once again, you let out a shaky laugh before kissing him.
And as your lips met his, you found yourself grateful to whatever divinity watching you above in this world for letting you meet and love the man who was sleeping on the ground that day.
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ᝰ.ᐟ SERENITY | 022
FANDOM: TWTPTFLOB
WARNINGS: Kidnapping, sort of Stockholm syndome
AUTHOR'S NOTES: I've been waiting for this chapter ngl
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You wake up in an unfamiliar room.
Your breath comes in short, panicked gasps before your mind even fully registers where you are. The last thing you remember is speaking to Jeremy. But now-
The air is still, thick with the scent of fresh linen and polished wood. A chandelier hangs above you, casting soft golden light over the intricate carpets that cover the floor. The room is pristine, elegant even, but utterly devoid of personality - like a blank canvas waiting to be filled.
You try to move, but something tugs at your ankle, halting your movement. A heavy weight. Your gaze drops, and your breath catches in your throat. A chain, thick and unforgiving, links your ankle to the foot of the bed.
Your heartbeat pounds against your ribs as your hands fly to your neck. Another presence makes itself known - a collar. It doesn’t hurt, doesn’t squeeze, but it’s there. A foreign weight pressing against your skin, a reminder that someone put this on you.
Your stomach twists violently, panic rising in your throat. You were attacked just a week ago - bruises still linger beneath your sleeves, painful and fresh. Memories rush in, jagged and incomplete. Jeremy leaving. Dion stepping in. His gaze sharp, unreadable. Dion did this.
The fear still lingers, a phantom clinging to your ribs, but the moment you recognize him, it starts to fade, little by little. Your pulse slows, though the unease remains. Why did he do this?
You turn your head, and there he is. Seated on the right side of the bed, dressed in something softer than his usual structured attire. The sight of him like this - relaxed, at ease - clashes with the circumstances. You open your mouth, demanding an explanation, but before the words can fully form, Dion moves. His grip is firm but unhurried as he pulls you against him, settling you onto his lap.
The warmth of his body seeps into you, and his fingers draw slow circles on your back. The pads of his fingertips graze your skin, a ghost of a touch that sends a shiver up your spine.
This shouldn’t be comforting.
Your hands hover between pushing him away and giving in. Eventually, begrudgingly, you let them rest against him, pressing your face closer to his chest. His scent, clean with a hint of something dark underneath, surrounds you. The steady rhythm of his breathing is almost hypnotic.
“It’s to keep you safe,” he finally says.
You scoff. “Since when do you care about keeping me safe?”
His hand stills. “I saved you from Fontaine.”
“That was the first time,” you counter. “And he still got to me in the end.” His fingers twitch against you before his fist clenches, pressing lightly against your back. You feel the tension, the restrained force in the movement. He could hurt you if he wanted to, but he doesn’t. You choose not to acknowledge it. “How long am I staying here?”
He doesn’t hesitate. “As long as you’re alive in this world.”
Your heart pounds, but your voice remains steady. “That can’t happen. I have to change the manhwa, and I can’t do that if I’m locked away.”
Dion’s gaze sharpens. “I’ll change it for you.”
You blink. “What?”
“Tell me what to do,” he says simply. “I’ll do it.”
This is what I wanted, isn’t it? Can’t believe I forgot to ask him when I saw him at Yggdrasil. There was a lot on my mind. Now he’s offering. Willingly. You nod, carefully choosing your words.
“Before Cassis gets kidnapped, Roxana tries to hatch illusion butterflies, disguised as poison butterflies, to trick Lante into thinking Cassis is dead. I told her that every time she tried, something thwarted her progress, forcing her to start over. That was a lie.” Dion listens, unmoving. “In the original manhwa, she hatches them successfully after a few attempts. I told her that someone was sabotaging her and that it would be revealed three years later. But I never read that far. I don’t know who it was.” Dion tilts his head slightly. “She asked me if she ever succeeds,” you continue. “I told her yes. Eventually. But if she fails too many times, she might start suspecting I lied. And if that happens, she might kill me.”
Dion interrupts, stroking your hair. “She’ll never lay a finger on you.”
You exhale, a mixture of relief and unease curling in your stomach. His touch lingers at the nape of your neck, his fingers tracing absentminded patterns against your skin. The warmth spreads, settling in your chest.
“Am I doing too much?” The question slips out before you can stop it. “Is it even worth it?”
For a while, he says nothing. You think he won’t answer at all. But then-
“I don’t know.” His grip on you tightens just a little. “But I’ll cut down as many enemies as it takes.”
Silence stretches between you. A weighty, wordless understanding.
You rest your forehead against his shoulder. The soft fabric of his shirt is warm, and you feel the slow rise and fall of his chest against yours. His fingers brush against your jaw, his thumb grazing your cheekbone before pulling back, subtle but deliberate.
“Thank you,” you whisper.
No more words are needed as the day passes in the quiet comfort of his embrace. The steady thrum of his heartbeat beneath your ear, the slow way his hands move against your back, the way your fingers idly trace the fabric of his sleeve - it’s all unspoken, yet understood. There is a softness here, buried beneath steel, and for now, you let yourself sink into it. Damn… I’m falling for him. A character from a novel.
As time passes, his grip on you never falters. His fingers skim lightly over your shoulder, down your spine, a slow and deliberate motion that soothes the lingering anxiety in your chest. He is surprisingly warm, solid, unyielding - yet there is an unspoken gentleness in the way he holds you, a quiet sort of possession that makes your heart beat faster.
Your fingers tighten slightly where they rest on his sleeve. A question lingers in the air, unspoken yet heavy with meaning. You wonder if he can hear the unsteadiness in your breathing, feel the way your pulse flutters against his chest. He doesn’t comment on it, merely tilts his head, allowing his chin to rest lightly against your temple. The action is subtle, but the weight of it settles deep within you.
You let your eyes close, just for a moment, listening to the steady cadence of his breath. The world outside this room feels distant, inconsequential. For now, there is only this - only the warmth of his touch, the quiet assurance of his presence, and the strange, undeniable pull between you.
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hungermakesmonsters · 2 days ago
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Just want to take a moment to congratulate you on 500 followers! You absolutely deserve it and more! I love your ideas and your writing. Can I request a blurb with a headstrong reader who is always used to fixing things herself but Billy just wants to take care of her? I like the idea of PA reader, kinda like Donna & Harvey in Suits! Maybe something like reader gets “stood up” by an Anvil client whose interest in you got Billy clear on how he feels and jealous on someone else seeing your worth?
I used to love Suits... but I never finished watching it so I don't know what happened with the whole Darvey situation but I LOVED their dynamic in the first few seasons of the show (and also just how weird and awkward it was when Max Beesley's character was going out for Donna for a while). So, yeah, this was definitely fun to write and I hope I've managed to catch enough of the awesome Donna energy in the reader character here! (Also now I'm going to have to start watching Suits again)
Don't Have to Say You Love Me
Pairing : Billy Russo x Reader
Story Rating : M 
Warnings : [This is 18+ only, minors DNI] Smutty behaviour.  
You placed his coffee and lunch down in front of him, immediately drawing his attention upwards.
"Is that —"
"A large flat white and a toasted BLT with extra sauce," you said, knowing full well how he liked to take his lunch on a Friday. By this point you were almost offended that he dared to ask.
"And have you got —"
"The research on the Collins account and the two government contracts Senator Williams wants to discuss," you interrupted as you pulled three files from beneath your arm and placed them down.
His eyes narrowed on you, mind obvious racing, trying to find something you hadn't thought of.
"What about —"
"Yes, I've had someone from maintenance fix the AC in the meeting room because I know you don't like having the Senator in your office around the good scotch."
Everything was sorted. Everything he could possibly ask of you, and he knew why — he was just waiting for you to say it. You didn't want to have to say it, because you knew exactly what his reaction would be.
But you knew Billy Russo. You knew how fucking stubborn he could be.
It'd probably amuse him to keep you standing there all day like a lemon.
After a few seconds you let out a huff.
"You do remember that I'm leaving early today, right?" You asked, drawing attention to the elephant in the room.
You weren't even sure why Billy was so annoyed that you'd gone and gotten yourself a date — he was stringing along half the women in New York, so why did it matter that you'd finally found someone who was interested in you?
"Right, how could I forget?" He said and you could hear the disdain in his voice. "I still can't believe you're going out with Thompson."
"Why not?" You asked, really not in the mood for his snarky behaviour. You both knew each other better than that.
"He just so —"
"Rich?" You offered. "Handsome? British?"
"Boring. He's not right for you, he doesn't deserve you."
You rolled your eyes. "And what would you know about what's right for me, Billy?"
The question was met with the expected silence. You'd long since given up on any fancy notion of him actually seeing you or admitting to the undeniable tension that had permeated your relationship since you first started working for him years ago.
What had once been a will they, would they, could they, had be stamped with a big red absolutely not by him and his inaction.
"Enjoy your date," he said, like he was driving the final nail into the coffin.
You couldn't remember exactly what you told him as you left his office, but it didn't matter. The pair of you argued, you always had. You'd made it clear from the start that, just because you were his PA, you weren't there to take any of his shit. You did your job and you were damned good at it — he was lucky to have you, lucky that you still wanted to work for him when there were so many other firms that would love to have you.
But you were loyal if you had one fault. Endlessly loyal when it came to Anvil and when it came to Billy Russo.
The one thing you weren't, however, was an idiot. Davis Thompson was funny, charming and rich, and sure, you might have met him through work, but you at least owed it to yourself to see where it would go.
And, where it went, as it turned out, was absolutely nowhere.
You'd been stood up before — you were a big girl, getting snubbed by a man who couldn't even bother to text was not going to end your world. (Though it might give you the urge to key his car the next time he had a meeting at Anvil.)
You got to the bar early, and you waited.
And waited.
You ordered yourself a drink, and you waited.
You gave up on him showing, but you decided to have another glass of wine because, why not? And, while you were making bad decisions, you decided to add another to the list and text Billy.
Don't go getting smug, but you were right.
It took less than a minute for his reply to come through.
He bored you that much already?
You found yourself smiling, even as you rolled your eyes.
Didn't even show up.
Despite feeling somewhat embarrassed, you knew that Billy wasn't on the other end of the phone laughing at you. He wasn't like that. Not when it came to you. (He was probably planning on keying Thompson's car too now.)
You put your phone down on the bar and ordered another drink, only half-surprised when it didn't buzz with another message from Billy. It was fine. It was Friday, he was probably busy on a date of his own. You had your wine, you were happy, you'd maybe have one more, then —
"Well, here I am. What are your other two wishes?"
In any other circumstances the bad pick-up line would have had you seriously considering throwing your drink, but you recognised the voice immediately and before you could even turn your head, Billy Russo was sitting at the bar beside you.
"Please tell me you've never used that line on a woman you actually wanted to sleep with," you said, barely biting back a laugh.
"I have," he answered, waving down the bar tender and ordering a glass of what you were drinking.
"And did it work?"
"I'll let you know at the end of the night."
"Oh, ha ha, very funny." You rolled your eyes. "What are you doing here anyway?"
"Thought you might want some company since Thompson was a no-show."
For a few seconds you were willing to accept his answer, but it didn't exactly hold up under scrutiny.
"I text you literally five minutes ago; how did you get here so quick?" You asked, eyes narrowing.
"I was in the neighbourhood?"
He almost looked sheepish, embarrassed even, and you had no idea why. A dusting of pink spread across his cheeks and, for a second, he could barely even look at you.
"Okay, what the fuck is going on?" And, then when he looked at you, you felt an unsettling feeling in you gut. "What did you do?"
You'd always been good at reading him, at seeing right through him. And, right then, he had the look of a guilty man struggling to explain himself.
"Don't get angry —"
"Don't ask me not to get angry if you're going to say something that makes me angry, Billy," you warned.
He took a drink. "I might have cancelled your date —"
"You did what?"
Un-fucking-believable.
Actually, no. It was entirely fucking-believable. And that was what pissed you off the most. He'd ruined your date because of — what? Some selfish sense of jealousy and entitlement, because if he didn't want you, no one else should.
You start to move, standing only to find his fingers on your wrist.
"Wait —" he started, almost sounding panicked.
"I did wait, Billy," you said, admitting far more than you ever wanted to. "I waited for years. For you. And what were you doing? Fucking half of New York."
It was the first time you'd dared utter anything of the sort aloud, the first time either of you had openly admitted to the unspoken, unacted-upon feelings between you.
You tugged against his grip on you, but Billy held tight as you struggled against him.
"Let me go," you said.
"No," Billy answered, getting to his feet, standing in front of you. "I'm not letting you go again."
Before you could even think to question what the fuck he meant, his lips were on yours and your whole world seemed to come to a screeching halt. For a few sweet seconds, you were frozen, indulging in something you'd barely allowed yourself to dream about, but how could you trust it? How could you trust him when he was only kissing you because he'd been jealous, because he'd thought you were finally going to find happiness with someone else.
You pulled back from the kiss, enough to see the flicker of hurt in his eyes and the worry on his face.
"This better not be a game, Billy," you warned him. "I'm not one of your girls that you can pick up and drop whenever you —"
He cut you off with another kiss, his arm winding around you waist and pulling you against him. And you let him. You allowed yourself to melt into the warmth of his body, you fingers gripping his shirt at his waist, just beneath his jacket.
"No more games," he muttered against your lips. "I can't lose you. I won't. I'm sick of pretending that I don't want you — that I don't love you."
Your heart stuttered, knowing the weight that that word bore for Billy. He'd never used it when talking about any of the other women, and you knew it wasn't the sort of thing he'd say without meaning it.
Still, you couldn't bring yourself to say it back. Not yet, not when some part of you still ached over his treatment of you.
"Take me home," you said, daring to hope that this wasn't just some pipe dream that would vanish the moment he'd had you in his bed.
Not that you made it as far as his bed.
He'd taken you by the hand a pulled you out of the bar, into the cold New York air — his car was park a block over, it should have been a quick, short walk if it hadn't been for you pulling him back for another kiss. Then, before either of you could think, you found yourself in an alleyway, pressed back against a wall as Billy kissed you.
Years of tension quickly came to the fore, your fingers gripping his jacket, his shirt, his hair — anything you could get hold of, anything you could use to keep him close. And all the while, he kissed you. You couldn't get enough of him.
Things quickly reached boiling point, your fingers tugging at the fastenings of his pants while he lifted your dress. There was no slow build, no teasing foreplay, once you'd freed his cock, you found yourself lifted and —
"Fuck," you moaned against his lips, "fuck, fuck, fuck — Billy."
He buried himself inside you in a single fluid movement, stopping when every inch of him was hilted.
His forehead pressed against yours as you both stilled, already breathless, and both entirely overwhelmed.
"Billy," you said in a low whine, your fingers gripping his hair.
His eyes opened and he looked at you through the gloom of the alley.
"I love you," he said softly, like he'd finally realised the gravity of the situation.
He started to move with slow but deep thrusts, not quite making love to you, but doing all he could to show you that this meant something. He alternated between kissing your lips and your neck, and you found yourself leaning into his every touch as pleasure started to coil inside you.
Your legs tightened around his waist, keeping him close, never wanting to let him go. And when you came it was with four little words.
"I love you too."
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“A Bouquet of FoxTales”
to be honest this started out as a random doodle since I didn’t know what to draw lol :)
I finished this whole chilling in a 4hour road trip so nice, I started it 2 days ago though!
And then, I made a poem out of it lol, It’d mostly inspired by Aesop’s Fables, since I used to be really big into those lol.
will I release the Poem? Eventually yes, it’s just… not my BEST work, since it’s been like almost 2 years since my last poem 😂
actually, I realize that basically all my poems were kinda cruddy, but it still came from the heart and was inspired by something, so far what I have written is actually pretty solid, just gotta get it to Rhyme a bit more, instead of it basically sounding like a story with a bit of pizzazz.
isn’t that what rhymes are…? I don’t know lol, I haven’t slept much at all.
:3 I’m actually pretty proud of this… this feels different compared to my usual art… but like a good different :p
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trick or treat
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you get an old-ass drawing of camille desmoulins from a bigger project that I never finished!!
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"oh my god tlovm really said it's canon that vex tops" and? fork spotted in kitchen. no shit
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patience being tested. being forced by a bizarre unfortunate situation to adhere to university requirement technicality by taking this simple basic elementary "introduction to environmental history" class.
this class is from facilitators/program which do, like, "history of the American frontier" or "history of fishing and hunting" and still basically subscribe to that old-school twentieth-century idealization and celebration of characters like Teddy Roosevelt and reverence for a mythical arc-of-history-bent-towards-justice narrative of the often-clumsy but ultimately-benevolent US federal government and its mission to "save nature" through the miracle of "sustained yield," while heroic federal land management agencies and "heritage" institutions lead to way, staffed by exceptional individuals (appeals to nostalgia for the frontier and an imagined landscape of the American West; ego-stroking appeals to flattering self-image that center the environmentalist or academic). where they invoke, y'know, ideas like "ecology is important because don't you enjoy cross-country skiing in The Woods with your niece and nephew? don't you like hunting and fishing?" which makes it feel like a time capsule of appeals and discourses from the 1970s. and it invokes concept of "untouched wilderness" (while eliding scale of historical Indigenous environmental relationships and current ongoing colonial violence/extractivism). but just ever-so-slightly updated with a little bit of chic twenty-first-century flair like a superficial land acknowledgement or a reference to "labor histories" or "history from below," which is extra aggravating when the old ideologies/institutions are still in power but they're muddying the water and diluting the language/frameworks (it's been strange, watching words like "multispecies" and "Anthropocene" over the years slowly but surely show-up on the posters, fliers, course descriptions, by now even appearing adjacent to the agri-business and resource extraction feeder programs, like a recuperation or appropriation.) even from a humanities angle, it's still, they're talking at me like "You probably didn't know this, but environmental history is actually pretty entangled with political and social events. In fact, we can synthesize sources and glean environmental info from wacky places like workers' rolls in factories, ship's logs, and poetry from the era." and i'm nodding like YEP.
the first homework assignment is respond to this: "Define and describe 'the Anthropocene'. Do you think 'the Anthropocene' is a useful concept? Why or why not?" Respond in 300 words.
so for fun, right now in class, going to see how fast i can pull up discussion of Anthropocene-as-concept solely from my old posts on this microblogging site.
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I think that the danger in any universal narrative or epoch or principle is exactly that it can itself become a colonizing force. [...] I’m suspicious of the Anthropocene as concept for the very reason that it subsumes so many peoples, nations, histories, geographies, political orders. For that reason, I think ideas like the Anthropocene can be a useful short-hand for a cluster of tangible things going on with the Earth at the moment, but we have to be very careful about how fluid and dynamic ideas become concretized into hegemonic principles in the hands of researchers, policymakers, and politicians. There’s so much diversity in histories and experiences and environmental realities even between relatively linked geographies here in Canada [...]. Imagine what happens when we try to do that on a global scale - and a lot of euro-western Anthropocene, climate change and resilience research risks doing that - eliding local specificities and appropriating knowledge to serve a broader euro-western narrative without attending to the inherent colonial and imperial realities of science and policy processes, or even attending to the ways that colonial capitalist expansion has created these environmental crises to begin with. While we, as a collective humanity, are struggling with the realities of the Anthropocene, it is dangerous to erase the specific histories, power-relations, political orders that created the crisis to begin with. So, I’m glad that a robust critique of the Anthropocene as a concept is emerging.
Text by: Words of Zoe Todd, as interviewed and transcribed by Caroline Picard. “The Future is Elastic (But it Depends): An Interview with Zoe Todd.” 23 August 2016.
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The Great Acceleration is the latest in a series of human-driven planetary changes that constitute what a rising chorus of scientists, social scientists, and humanists have labeled the Anthropocene - a new Age of Humans. [...] But what the Anthropocene label masks, and what the litany of graphs documenting the Great Acceleration hide, is a history of racial oppression and violence, along with wealth inequality, that has built and sustained engines of economic growth and consumption over the last four centuries. [...] The plantation, Sidney Mintz long ago observed, was a “synthesis of field and factory,” an agro-industrial system of enterprise [...]. Plantation legacies, along with accompanying strategies of survival and resistance, dwell in the racialized geographies of the United States’ and Brazil’s prison systems. They surface in the inequitable toxic burdens experienced by impoverished communities of color in places like Cancer Alley, an industrial corridor of petrochemical plants running along the Mississippi River from New Orleans to Baton Rouge, where cotton was once king. And they appear in patterns of foreign direct investment and debt servitude that structure many land deals in the Caribbean, Brazil, and sub-Saharan Africa [...]. [C]limatologists and global change scientists from the University of London, propose instead 1610 as a date for the golden spike of the Anthropocene. The date marked a detectable global dip in carbon dioxide concentrations, precipitated, they argue, by the death of nearly 50 million indigenous human inhabitants [...]. The degradation of soils in the tobacco and cotton-growing regions in the American South, or in the sugarcane growing fields of many Caribbean islands, for example, was a consequence of an economic and social system that inflicted violence upon the land and the people enslaved to work it. Such violent histories are not so readily evident in genealogies that date the Anthropocene’s emergence to the Neolithic Revolution 12,000 years ago, the onset of Europe’s industrial revolution circa 1800, or the Trinity nuclear test of 1945. Sugarcane plantations were already prevalent throughout the Mediterranean basin during the late middle ages. But it was during the early modern era, and specifically in the Caribbean, where the intersection of emerging proto-capitalist economic models based on migratory forced labor (first indentured servitude, and later slavery), intensive land usage, globalized commerce, and colonial regimes sustained on the basis of relentless racialized violence, gave rise to the transformative models of plantations that reshaped the lives and livelihoods of human and non-human beings on a planetary scale. [...] We might, following the lead of science studies scholar Donna Haraway and anthropologist Anna Tsing, more aptly designate this era the Plantationocene. [...] It is also an invitation to see, in the words of geographer Laura Pulido, “the Anthropocene as a racial process,” one that has and will continue to produce “racially uneven vulnerability and death." [...] And how have such material transformations sustained global flows of knowledge and capital that continue to reproduce the plantation in enduring ways?
Text by: Sophie Sapp Moore, Monique Allewaert, Pablo F. Gomez, and Gregg Mitman. "Plantation Legacies." Edge Effects. 22 January 2019. Updated 15 May 2021. [Bold emphasis added by me.]
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Geologists and other scientists will fight over [the definition of the beginning start-date of the Anthropocene] in scientific language, seeking traces of carbon dioxide that index the worst offenses of European empire which rent and violated the flesh, bodies, and governance structures of Indigenous and other sovereign peoples in the name of gold, lumber, trade, land, and power. [...] The stories we tell about the origins of the Anthropocene implicate how we understand the relations we have with our surrounds. In other words, the naming of the Anthropocene epoch and its start date have implications not just for how we understand the world, but this understanding will have material consequences, consequences that affect body and land.
Text by: Heather Davis and Zoe Todd. On the Importance of a Date, or Decolonizing the Anthropocene. ACME An International Journal for Critical Geographies. December 2017. [Bold emphasis added by me.]
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From Aime and Suzanne Cesaire, C. L. R. James, Claudia Jones, Eduoard Glissant, through Sylvia Wynter, Christina Sharpe, and so many others, critical anticolonial and race theory has been written from the specific histories that marked the Black Atlantic. [...] Glissant also reminds us, secondly, of how cunning the absorptive powers of [...] liberal capitalism are - how quickly specific relations are remade as relations-erasing universal abstractions. [...] This absorptive, relations-erasing universalism is especially apparent in some contemporary discourses of […] liberalism and climate collapse - what some call the Anthropocene - especially those that anchor the crisis in a general Human calamity which, as Sylvia Wynter has noted, is merely the name of an overdetermined and specific [White] European man. […] [T]he condition of creating this new common European world was the destruction of a multitude of existing black and brown worlds. The tsunami of colonialism was not seen as affecting humanity, but [...] these specific people. They were specific - what happened to them may have been necessary, regrettable, intentional, accidental - but it is always them. It is only when these ancestral histories became present for some, for those who had long benefitted from the dispossession [...], that suddenly the problem is all of us, as human catastrophe.
Text by: Elizabeth Povinelli. “The Ancestral Present of Oceanic Illusions: Connected and Differentiated in Late Toxic Liberalism.” e-flux Journal Issue #112. October 2020.
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The narrative arc [of White "liberal humanism"] [...] is often told as a kind of European coming-of-age story. […] The Anthropocene discourse follows the same coming-of-age [...] script, searching for a material origin story that would explain the newly identified trajectory of the Anthropos […]. Sylvia Wynter, W.E.B. DuBois, and Achille Mbembe all showed how that genealogy of [White subjecthood] was [...] articulated through sixteenth- through nineteenth-century [historiographies and discourses] in the context of colonialism, [...] as well as forming the material praxis of their rearrangement (through mining, ecological rearrangements and extractions, and forms of geologic displacements such as plantations, dams, fertilizers, crops, and introduction of “alien” animals). […] As Wynter (2000) commented, “The degradation of concrete humans, that was/is the price of empire, of the kind of [Eurocentric epistemology] that underlies it” (154).
Text by: Kathryn Yusoff. “The Inhumanities.” Annals of the American Association of Geographers, Volume 11, Issue 3. November 2020.
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As Yarimar Bonilla suggests in regard to post-Irma-and-Maria Puerto Rico, “vulnerability is not simply a product of natural conditions; it is a political state and a colonial condition.” Many in the Caribbean therefore speak about the coloniality of disaster, and the unnaturalness of these “natural” disasters [...]. Others describe this temporality by shifting [...] toward an idea of the Plantationocene [...]. As Moore and her colleagues write, “Plantation worlds, both past and present, offer a powerful reminder that environmental problems cannot be decoupled from histories of colonialism, capitalism, and racism that have made some human beings more vulnerable [...].” [W]e see that contemporary uneven socioecologies associated with the rise of the industrial world ["the Anthropocene"] are based [...] also on the racialized denial and foreshortening of life for the sacrificial majority of black, brown, and Indigenous people and their relegation to the “sacrifice zones” of extractive industry. [...] [A]ny appropriate response to the contemporary climate emergency must first appreciate its foundations in the past history of the violent, coercive, transatlantic system of plantation slavery; in the present global uneven development, antiblackness, and border regimes that shape human vulnerability [...] that continues to influence who has access to resources, safety, and preferable ecologies [...] and who will be relegated to the “plantation archipelagoes” (as Sylvia Wynter called them) [...].
Text by: Mimi Sheller. “Thinking Beyond Coloniality: Toward Radical Caribbean Futures.” Small Axe (2021), 25 (2 (65)), pages 169-170. Published 1 July 2021. [Bold emphasis added by me.]
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Indigenous genocide and removal from land and enslavement are prerequisites for power becoming operationalized in premodernity [...]; it was/is a means to operationalize extraction (therefore race should be considered as foundational rather than as periphery to the production of those structures and of global space). [...] Wynter suggests that we […] consider 1452 as the beginning of the New World, as African slaves are put to work on the first plantations on the Portuguese island of Madeira, initiating the “sugar-slave” complex - a massive replantation of ecologies and forced relocation of people […]. Wynter argues that the invention of the figure of Man in 1492 as the Portuguese [and Spanish] travel to the Americas instigates at the same time “a refiguring of humanness” in the idea of race. [...] The natal moment of the 1800 Industrial Revolution, […] [apparently] locates Anthropocene origination in […] the "new" metabolisms of technology and matter enabled by the combination of fossil fuels, new engines, and the world as market. […] The racialization of epistemologies of life and nonlife is important to note here […]. While [this industrialization in the nineteenth century] […] undoubtedly transformed the atmosphere with […] coal, the creation of another kind of weather had already established its salient forms in the mine and on the plantation. Paying attention to the prehistory of capital and its bodily labor, both within coal cultures and on plantations that literally put “sugar in the bowl” (as Nina Simone sings) […]. The new modes of material accumulation and production in the Industrial Revolution are relational to and dependent on their preproductive forms in slavery […]. In 1833, Parliament finally abolished slavery in the British Caribbean, and the taxpayer payout of £20 million in “compensation” [paid by the government to slave owners for their lost "property"] built the material, geophysical (railways, mines, factories), and imperial infrastructures of Britain and its colonial enterprises and empire. [...] A significant proportion of funds were invested in the railway system connecting London and Birmingham (home of cotton production and […] manufacturing for plantations), Cambridge and Oxford, and Wales and the Midlands (for coal). Insurance companies flourished [...]. The slave-sugar-coal nexus both substantially enriched Britain and made it possible for it to transition into a colonial industrialized power […]. The slave trade […] fashioned the economic conditions (and institutions, such as the insurance and finance industries) for industrialization.
Text by: Kathryn Yusoff. "White Utopia/Black Inferno: Life on a Geologic Spike". e-flux Journal Issue #97. February 2019. [Bold emphasis added by me.]
#sorry for being mean#instructor makes podcasts about cowboys HELP ME#and he recently won a New Business award for his startup magazine covering Democrat party politics in local area HELP#so hes constantly performing this like dance between new hip beerfest winebar coolness and oldfashioned masculinity#but hes in charge of the certificate program so i have to just shut up and keep my head down for approximately one year#his email address is almost identical to mine and invokes enviro history terms but i made mine long before when i was ten years old#so i could log in to fieldherpforum dot com to talk about enviro history of distribution range changes in local reptiles and amphibians#sir if you read my blog then i apologize ive had a long year#and i cant do anything to escape i am disabled i am constantly sick im working fulltime i have NO family i have NO resources#i took all of this schools graduate level enviro history courses and seminars years ago and ran the geography and enviro hist club#but then left in final semester because sudden hospitalization and crippled and disabled which led to homelessness#which means that as far as any profession or school is concerned im nobody im a retail employee#i was doing conference paper revisions while sleeping on concrete vomiting walking around on my cane to find outdoor wifi#and im not kidding the MONTH i got back into a house and was like ok going back to finish the semester the school had#put my whole degree program and department in moratorium from lack of funding#and so required starting some stuff from scratch and now feel like a hostage with debt or worsening health that could pounce any moment#to even get back in current program i was working sixteen hours a day to pay old library fines and had to delicately back out of workplace#where manager was straight up violently physically abusive to her vulnerable employees and threatened retaliation#like an emotional torturer the likes of which i thought existed only in cartoons#and the week i filed for student aid a massive storm had knocked out electricity for days and i was clearing fallen tree debris#and then sitting in the dark in my room between job shifts no music no phone no food with my fingers crossed and i consider it a miracle#sorry dont mean to dramatize or draw attention to myself#so actually im happy you and i are alive
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deadmaidclub · 30 days ago
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could you perhaps draw a luh yasuke matsuda...........
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i dont really know him like that but he is fun to draw
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skunkes · 7 months ago
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#a doodley#okkk 2022: the torture chamber....i only sparsely drew al and developed talon (he was borned...) bc my mind was occupied with other things.#2023: exiting torture chamber; it took me a tiny little bit to get back to drawing and ''interacting with'' al again but i did it even#though it was a reminder of the Bad bc he's my copium#summer 2023: i view and witness media and suddenly have like 5 fictional men i cant decide on which to focus... and september (talon month)#comes along so I decide to focus on Talon after not touching him much at all throughout the entire year#(forced this btw i did not wanna do it LOL i didnt even remember how to draw him)#september 2023 to now: talon has infiltrated the brain. but i want to swivel back to al#now: i've forgotten how to Talk to al (just like i did in beginning of 2023)#(and just like i forgot how to talk to talon for most of 2023)#so ive kind of just been replaying the smunker cow al daydreams from when they first met#so I can find my way back...retracing my steps#in doing so ive kind of also forgotten how to interact with talon but still havent gotten back to al#so rn my life is so boring without imaginary bf interactions. just the before sleep plot rehashing daydreams...#or sparse visions of em Sometimes#nobody in my brain rn just like the short period last yr and its distressing#what do i draw without a love obsession.....#how do i pass time without it....! so boring. idk what to do#i miss the me of several yrs ago when i was drawing 50 different aus with al....ive downgraded in skill and imagination and creativity#so bad since then. idk. idk. i hope they come back to me soon#maybe i shld just draw al a lot which is how i kickstarted caring abt talon again almost a yr ago ?#hoping i can get him to come back before my surgery i need my big sexy boy nurse for recovery#(complaining abt things usually fixes em for me so im hoping thats the case here)
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rosie-kairi · 5 months ago
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A lil Lester from memory bc I reread my old fics recently lol
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ask-claus-and-ninten · 2 months ago
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Here's Fuelcas from the mod! Im old and tired but miss them terribly. Some of these have been stuffed away in a closet for YEARS now. Please enjoy them.
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marigraphia · 8 months ago
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Hey remember when Kory was a Justice League member with a bangin' costume
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