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Love how its less than a week before uni starts and our tutors literally havent told us fucking anything. Like complete radio silence, we dont even know what days we're in
#theyre worse than useless#my friend has to tell their job what days theyre gonna be available in advance#and for the past two years we've always had wednesdays free. thats always been a consistent thing#but now we find out through the grapevine that someone told someone else that a tutor told them that we're in on wednesdays now#and its fucking my friend over since they already told their work that theyd be available on wednesdays#we also found out we have a class trip next week. not because they told us but because they made an instagram post about it#like. we shouldnt have to be playing a game of telephone and relying on rumours to get our fucking information its ridiculous#ive lost count of how many times we've put in complaints about this as well
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notice how everyone who replies to anti-cop stuff with "well who are you gonna call if someone attacks you?!" has never had to ask for help from the police
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I need to try harder to get out of bed but augh
#🤖.txt#aghhfjg i really need to catch up on sleep. but i also want to do stuff but idk. this is dumb but nothing i do really feels worth the effor#anymore. Thinking like this is sad bc drawing is one of the few things i like doing and make me happy but idk#i might just go back to the way things were before. Just wait for the weekend and spend as much time drawing then#genuinely dont want to do anything at all this is so frustrating and im so tired and sad all the time#i know i should be using my break to focus on studying but with what time#Idkkkk i just really hate living like this#thinking about dropping out again but that would just mean house chores + babysitting full time while job hunting and idk if i can handle#that. I cant handle anything anymore and this is making me so sad . I want to be useful and do so many things but i reached my limit months#ago. I just wanted a week or two to just rest its all i need . But i know im never gonna get that again and at this point i might as well#just die but i cant do that neither bc i have shit to do#Everyone is always talking about how i have it so easy and how things are just gonna get worse bc they think me being home = me not doing#anything and idk. I cant take anything anymore and i think the most upsetting part of this is that i know theyre right#im not doing barely anything and i dont know. How to do more im just useless and ungrateful for the things i have#Really stressed and tired and literally nothing happened. Its gonna be 2pm soon and im supposed to wake up Earlier#But yeagh. this wasnt supposed to be this wall of text i just wanted to say that i might give up on art again for a while#aughhh i dont know how to do anything right idk how to live or take care of myself how am i supposed to raise someone .#this is. too much i think. I reallyyyyy need to relearn how to just talk to myself . I cant keep dropping these everyday and being . This t#evsryone around me. Everyone in my life deserves so much better than ill ever be#vent
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i genuinely need to be put down like a dog i cant do this anymore man holy shit
#yall dont know the meaning of terminally online til u meet me#i hate myself so much its not even funny i am the most miserable worthless scum#my sleep schedule is 7am to 3pm all i do all day is rot on the couch and sometimes draw if i have a drop of motivation#depression is completely kicking my ass and im not even fighting back i give up what the fuck man#theres not even a point for me to keep trying i just want to stop feeling such deep despair 24/7 please#i dont want to die i just want the pain to stop so i can peacefullylive out the rest of this year before i turn 18 and its all over for good#but i cant even have that! im just gonna suffer the whole time thanks great#i wish i could just get better and fix all of this but i cant its not working we dont have the money to#actually get me the help i need to make it work. i just have to figure it out or die#i just wanna go back to ***** ** *** i just want to stop being lonely and useless#i dont know why im posting this shit to tumblr. its so stupid i should just be journaling or something#probably because im worthless selfish scum. idfk.#the last 6 months have been a complete blur. just rotting on the couch or in bed occasionally seeing friends once every other month or so#ive already wasted half of being 17 abd im probably gonna waste the rest too. ill do nothing of worth before i die.#even my art is ugly and horrible and not worth leaving behind. people tell me to work to improve it but i dont have the time left#ill never create any of the things i wanted to create ill never be a good artist im just going to die exactly like this#an absolutely terrible person.#the only people i can talk about the things that make me a terrible person with are people who are terrible in even worse ways#no one can comfort me except them because theyre the only people who know what ive done and actually do see it as less than absolute evil#because they know absolute evil because it is them. but i actually don’t believe that i think theyre bad but could be good#idk what im saying anymore#someone shoot me#please im not kidding#just make it stop#tw vent#tw sui#delete later
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Pussy smells weird but the tampon smelled normal so idek
#no matter how rank my pussy is my nb will always tell me it smells good so theyre useless for pussy inspections#ive got no other symptoms aside from smelly pussy so i think im fine its just. dank#all my period undies are polyester so that probably contributes#i know polyestee undies are bad 4 u but are they Worse than lead in the pads or tampon induced TSS? 🤔#pretty sure at my age a uti is the least of my issues#also barring whatever this pussy funk is ive been fucking every day for 4 months with no utis#thats dope as shit imo
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Bruhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
#it doesn't' really matter if biden does horrible things cause if a republican candidate wins u dont seriously think theyre going to do#better do you? ok so biden sends weapons to israel and u think if a republican wins then theyll just stop sending them? at least biden#implemented some environmental protection and reversed some of the policies that trump made but i cant believe some ppl really think that#republican winning would be any BETTER than a democrat winningn no itd just be worse so stop being stupid#im talking about u leftist tumblr people... if u want things to not be worse then why dont u just fucking at least vote for a democrat beca#because literally no a third party candidate is not ever going to win and i dont understand what exactly ur even trying to say when ur sayi#saying dont vote for biden ok so then vote for trump instead? or dont vote at all even though u have the power to? or vote for a 3rd party#which is useless and wont do anything?#thats literally ur 3 choices if u can vote and one is better than the others sorry *shrug*
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Don't you think it's a bit sad how socially if you're bad at something or something doesn't go your way you can talk about it freely and everyone is sympathetic and when something finally goes right everyone cheers
But if things usually go well for you you're supposed to shut up about it lest it sounds like you're bragging or trying to make others feel miserable and when something finally goes wrong everyone calls that "karma", is happy about your misfortune or tells you to suck it up because "everything else goes great for you why do you care"
I don't know I suppose I'm just a privileged whiny child that is upset that something isn't as good as she wanted it to be
#my post#babbling blue#personal#do not reblog#stars its just#i got some news that i should be happy and proud of but here i am thinking#'thats all?'#its like with little children when people remind themselves#'well its the biggest problem they had to face YET of course theyre treating it like ots important even when its not'#except the older you get the less it still applies#because im just an adult who has never had anything bad happen to them in their life#and now every little inconvenience is a disaster to me#so yeah the best answer i can count on is 'its not such a big problem dont worry <3'#if thats not privilege than i dont know what is#stars there are people my age who have to fight every day for survival physically and mentally#and here i am crying because im actually useless and not as smart as i thought i was boo fucking hoo#thats a reason why others would cry about me not i myself#stars why am i narcissistic enough to see everyone as worse than me but not enough to not notice my flaws
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Love being in so much pain we consider going to the ER
#we're proooobably not gonna go. today.#but this is a daily issue and it gets worse with each passing day so if it keeps up we're gonna be in the ER screaming in pain#we're already yelling with every wave of it#oooooh thank gods the painkillers + ice pack are working#still hurts but we can exist now#really the only reason we're reluctant to go is that the ER has never actually helped us#theyre so fucking useless man. they never do anything. they'll tell you to stay overnight at best and maaaybe they'll give you saline#painkillers? oh they'll give otc meds that you know dont even work for you. nothing more than that one dose of it too#treatment? whats that?#they WATCHED us have a heart episode on the monitors and didnt offer anything more than a 'huh. neat.'#if youre not bleeding out theyre useless#fuck ERs
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(bighugemassive isat spoilers vvv)
thinking about loop in the sif is out au has me experiencing a very special kind of agony
just. just. siffrin, alone!! looping completely alone, none of their party members, not a soul in all of dormont, no star under the favor tree. only them, for years-decades-thousands of loops, until they finally, finally give up. until they can't do it anymore. and then waking up. in a world where their entire party is stuck in that time loop EXCEPT for them.
having to watch themselves over, and over, and over again, messing up and being utterly useless and holding every single one of the others back. the only idiot who doesnt remember. loop, working with a party that is no longer theirs to save a version of themselves who has never known a day of real hardship or suffering. a stupid, aimless traveler trapping each and every one of them here, loop included, who doesnt even have the decency to know theyre doing it! funny how there are two of them, now, and yet BOTH of them have completely and utterly failed their entire party in such drastically unique and awful ways. forcing them to relive this for eternity.
at least none of loop's party remembered. at least loop was useful in that they could take away the other's pain, shoulder it all on their own. siffrin can't even do that. all they're doing is hurting everyone more. and they don't know.
they're the reason, they're the key, it's their fault everyone is suffering and they dont even know!!!! useless. worse than useless. if only one of these loops they would just stay dead. it'd be better for everyone, that way, for their party and loop and even themselves. loop knows how it feels. loop understands. yeah the others have each other and loop had no one but at least loop is capable of helping the others now!!! at least loop can remember!!! siffrin doesnt deserve this he doesnt deserve the love and care and affection (affection he doesnt even RECOGNIZE, doesnt appreciate or cherish, takes for granted over and over and over again) he doesnt deserve to wake every day in blissful ignorance of the way hes ruined everything and everyone around him!!!!!!
loop who knows it all and who gets to watch the entire party except for siffrin work together and support each other. gets to see just how much better off they are without sif in the way. loop isnt even siffrin, anymore. theyre Good now theyre Useful now they Understand now. siffrin doesnt and never will. watching the careful, quiet way siffrin falls further and further behind. another timeline and still completely alone. thats just what the universe wants from them, loop thinks. for every siffrin out there to suffer.
and ohhhh if/when they break the loops depending on how that goes... siffrin who did nothing to contribute who did nothing to deserve this who shouldnt even EXIST being handed victory and unconditional love on a silver fucking platter and loop who just has to watch............
#isat spoilers#siffrin? more like sif is out au#I FEEL SICKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK#JSUT. JSUT. being compeltely alone. for ALL OF THAT.#and then watching everyone you wanted to protect everyone you left behind. leaving You behind.#all helping each other all of them together the way it should be. you shouldn't have ever been a part of this.#or. well. YOU should be. youve EARNED it. youve gone through so fucking much you GET IT !!!!!!! you get it.#THEY shouldnt be a part of this THEY dont deserve this not your party not the victory always held out of your grasp#im jsut repeating myself now but lord. i m so. im so. im so.#WHATEVER !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#alyalyoxenfree
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okay 2 questions....
do you think its more likely that illumi kills hisoka or hisoka kills illumi and how do you think it will go down?
what would you WANT to happen with one of their actual deaths?
You're not really going to like my answer here because it completely negates both questions.
I don't think either of them will die or kill each other.
I think it's natural to think so considering the current setting of the arc and what was revealed and their characters, but how I see it, their relationship has proven to be very nonsituational. As in, they aren't really hanging out and helping each other just because they happen to need each other here and there. They hang out and help each other because they unironically see each other as friends.
Illumi had no reason to help Hisoka out in the hunter exam, yet he did anyways. And they stayed together most of the time. Illumi had no reason to help Hisoka out during the yorknew dilemma, yet he did anyways. It's not even in his area of work to just disguise as people for a few hours before leaving. He's an assassin. Hisoka didn't have to help Illumi out during the election arc, Illumi was more than capable of finishing this entire mission alone. And yet he did anyways.
Goes without saying that Hisoka constantly calls Illumi his friend behind his back and also did so in front of him, and Illumi made no move to correct him.
So I can't really imagine, with all this said and done, that they'd actually have a reason to hunt and kill each other on the black whale. I understand the doubts with the stuff Illumi said in their marriage chapter but im still much more inclined to believe theyre working together against the troupe, as that would make much more sense. They've done nothing but work together against everyone in the entire anime and both Illumi and Kalluto worked against the troupe with Hisoka in yorknew after all.
I also feel like this is a general Hisoka misconception but-- Hisoka doesn't want to die. I feel like people think he hired Illumi to "hunt him down" because he wants Illumi to actually kill him and I have to disagree. Yes, it does speak volumes about what Hisoka thinks of Illumi, as in he truly is capable of killing him because theyre equals. But does Hisoka actually want Illumi to kill him right now? Negative.
Some people even say Hisoka has always wanted to go out in a huge fight or whatever-- I genuinely have no idea where tf they get that from lol. Hisoka brought himself back to life for a reason. He wants to live. He never planned on dying against Chrollo. He never ever plans on dying against people he fights. If Illumi and Hisoka were to ever truly fight, Hisoka would never let Illumi kill him without giving it his all. He WILL fight for his life.
And the same goes for Illumi. Illumi doesn't want to die and has no reason to want to actually die by Hisoka's hand. He has duties and responsibilities as a Zoldyck eldest and he's not going to throw it away in the name of... twisted love? lol
And I think lots of people find all of this hard to believe because theyre very used to villains getting bad endings or getting "what they deserve" in anime which is completely fair but let me, no, ALLOW ME to point you to one of my favorite villain groups in hxh that had a good ending despite being complete pieces of shit that would've deserved worse than death.
Genthru and the bomber team.
Genuine shitty people that scammed lied massacred people. They only cared about each other a lot but saw everyone else around them as lower than useless scum. They would've deserved to be left for dead. And yet, what happened? They were healed and they lived. They went on with their lives. Togashi could've very much made Gon just kill genthru to show how powerful he is and his sense of justice blablabla but that just isn't what the anime is about. Everyone in hxh is morally grey. At the end of the day Gon, Killua, and Bisky just wanted the cards from genthru and his friends and moved on.
A lot of people fail to realize this when it also comes to Hisoka and Illumi. They can just get a good ending like that. Do they deserve it? No. Does it matter whether they deserve it or not? Nope! This is hunter x hunter. And as far as I see it, its an anime about the power of platonic and romantic love. And Hisoillu are a specific type of love that is going to get a happy ending despite not even remotely deserving it. We got the meruem and komugi sad love ending. And we're getting the gay version of it except theyre unredeemable and horrible and they still get to be happy. Those are my thoughts.
Also in general I just genuinely cannot see Togashi continuing the anime without his favorite babygirl Hisoka being alive. Like even when he killed him off he revived him like 2 pages later in the same chapter he can't stand the idea of even letting his death marinate for a single chapter lmfaoooooooooo
#call me mr yapperoni because man do i love to yap#yeah sorry for not answering the actual question i just find the thought of them canonically engaging in a death fight ridiculous#at least in the current arc. they have no reason to. itd make no sense. if togashi gives a proper reason for them to then i wont complain#but until then. let them kiss#hxh#hunter x hunter#hisoka#hisoka morow#illumi#illumi zoldyck#hisoillu#hisoka x illumi#asks#my analysis#hxh analysis#hunter x hunter analysis
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I think the part I hate the most in Mockingjay Part 1 is how after the District 13 bombing, when theyre trying to film the propo, Katniss is like, "He's gonna kill Peeta if I keep being the Mockingjay!" because in the book, she breaks down for literally, and I mean LITERALLY, the exact opposite reason.
“Try the line again,” says Cressida. “ ‘Thirteen’s alive and well and so am I.’ ”
I take a deep breath, trying to force air down into my diaphragm. “Thirteen’s alive and so —” No, that’s wrong.
I swear I can still smell those roses.
“Katniss, just this one line and you’re done today. I promise,” says Cressida. “ ‘Thirteen’s alive and well and so am I.’ ”
I swing my arms to loosen myself up. Place my fists on my hips. Then drop them to my sides. Saliva’s filling my mouth at a ridiculous rate and I feel vomit at the back of my throat. I swallow hard and open my lips so I can get the stupid line out and go hide in the woods and — that’s when I start crying.
It’s impossible to be the Mockingjay. Impossible to complete even this one sentence. Because now I know that everything I say will be directly taken out on Peeta. Result in his torture. But not his death, no, nothing so merciful as that. Snow will ensure that his life is much worse than death.
Up until then, Katniss had been terrified that Snow was going to kill Peeta. It's during the bombing that she finally realizes that Snow would lose his leverage against her if he took Peeta out of the picture.
It’s on the third night, during our game, that I answer the question eating away at me. Crazy Cat becomes a metaphor for my situation. I am Buttercup. Peeta, the thing I want so badly to secure, is the light. As long as Buttercup feels he has the chance of catching the elusive light under his paws, he’s bristling with aggression. (That’s how I’ve been since I left the arena, with Peeta alive.) When the light goes out completely, Buttercup’s temporarily distraught and confused, but he recovers and moves on to other things. (That’s what would happen if Peeta died.) But the one thing that sends Buttercup into a tailspin is when I leave the light on but put it hopelessly out of his reach, high on the wall, beyond even his jumping skills. He paces below the wall, wails, and can’t be comforted or distracted. He’s useless until I shut the light off. (That’s what Snow is trying to do to me now, only I don’t know what form his game takes.)
Maybe this realization on my part is all Snow needs. Thinking that Peeta was in his possession and being tortured for rebel information was bad. But thinking that he’s being tortured specifically to incapacitate me is unendurable. And it’s under the weight of this revelation that I truly begin to break.
Peeta's death would mean she had nothing left to lose. But the idea that her actions as the Mockingjay would result in Peeta being tortured? THAT is what makes her fall apart, which is what the Rebels were afraid of happening and is what motivated them to finally arrange the rescue mission. They were very much aware that Peeta was intentionally being kept alive and tortured to punish Katniss and, aside from Finnick, they were all actively trying to keep Katniss from figuring that out.
“Cut,” I hear Cressida say quietly.
"What’s wrong with her?” Plutarch says under his breath.
“She’s figured out how Snow’s using Peeta,” says Finnick.
There’s something like a collective sigh of regret from the semicircle of people spread out before me. Because I know this now. Because there will never be a way for me to not know this again. Because, beyond the military disadvantage losing a Mockingjay entails, I am broken.
The movie just completely ruined it by having Katniss think Snow was warning her that he was going to kill Peeta. The whole point was that she realized Snow was NEVER going to kill Peeta. Death would have been a mercy, and Snow was not merciful. He was going to keep Peeta alive to torture him in response for everything Katniss did for the rebellion then stick him on TV to show her.
#the hunger games#katniss everdeen#peeta mellark#I mean they even kept the scene where she talks to Finnick about it and then completely undercut it a few minutes later like what???
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follow up to the bad driving post from yesterday. explanations under cut also feel free to argue with me lol
So basically top left = characters who drive badly but not in a way that will cause a crash, top right = characters who are actually all things considered good at driving, bottom left = characters who should not be behind the wheel ever, bottom right = characters who are good drivers in theory/most of the time, but certain factors can make them become car crash material.
Dalv: In my mind, Dalv is the most cautious and safe driver ever, to the point where he loops back around to being a shit driver. You do not want to get stuck in a lane behind this guy he will not go even CLOSE to the speed limit. He will probably let you through when he has right of way. etc etc. Ig on the bright side he doesnt get into enough situations where a car crash could really occur? yay?
El Bailador: Kind of guy who drives windows down music blaring probably speeding slightly at all times but somehow has never had anything bad happen to him. he is being protected by higher powers because he is sooooooo nice and cool :)
Ace: Ridicules all his friends for being bad drivers then actually gets behind the wheel and he sucks almost as bad. Yk, given how his whole thing in the Wild East is facepalming at the five's antics while arguably being worse than a lot of them in that regard. Why are you encouraging a child to gamble. Why are you tormenting blackjack with mooch. Whats his problem
Edward: Okay I didnt really know where to put Ed.. Hes in a weird situation where,, i think his biggest problem would be finding a car thats actually suited to him. Like how he wants to play the guitar but his hands are too big to actually play any of the ones they have. After that though, I think he'd be pretty good, at least decent! He does have some anger issues to deal with (beat up blembino that one time lol) that could cause problems but hes working on it :)
Moray: Pretty self explanatory. The most normal feisty five member. Probably their designated driver 90% of the time. The only reason theyre not completely top is bc their one weakness is whilst they ARE the voice of reason, they do ultimately go along w the group most of the time even if they feel whats happening is wrong. Maybe picks up on the five's bad habits a bit? Overall still a trustworthy pick for driver i think.
Flowey: Ok.do not take this too seriously..............Ik he doesnt have feet for th pedals but consider. Its funny. He can use his vines trust me (also even if he cant physically drive i feel like he'd have a really good understanding of driving. guy who has read every book is bound to have useless knowledge on topics that arent at all relevant to him. and you cant crash the car if youre not driving i guess!!!!!!!!!! but also. funny.)
Ceroba: Similar case as Ed. Actually good at driving but holy fuck the road rage. I feel she'd be worse at responding to it than him bc she has so little self respect. very "I will kill us both😳" attitude abt tailgating and shit like that. Usually better at keeping it in when shes driving with someone else.
Martlet: Maybe she should be furthest down bc she is the only one to canonically crash a vehicle…, Idk I feel like she’d be sliiiightly better w a car where her focus has to be constantly checked, she cant get distracted while filling in questionnaires with clover if she’s driving. That being said she is still. Yeah.
Mooch: similar to mart. Just cannot see her being a good driver. Sorry girl </3
Starlo: starlo.
Axis: faceplanted right in the center bc hes a wild card to me. Would he have insufferable road rage? Would he actually be pretty chill and responsible? Can he even drive if his foot is a singular wheel? Who knows.
#i didnt feel like doing every notable character but you can tell me to add someone and i will.#just do not ask where I would put chujin I genuinely don’t know.#undertale yellow#ALSO BEFORE ANYONE TELLS ME IK THEY DONT DRIVE UNDERGROUND!!!!THIS IS HYPOTHETICAL!!!!!!!!!
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KUPRUM: >OBEY.
FOLYKL: what
FOLYKL: dude you look worse than usual and that pastel godtier outfit was already gay enough whatever that word means
FOYLKL: the fuck did you do to him
)(IC: isnt he beautiful
FOLYKL: i know u want to be wrapped in her tentacles and all but cmon dude shes right beside you its your chance
)(IC: he wont listen to u gurl
)(IC: hes all mine now
)(IC: like how he always wanted to b rite?
)(IC: theres nofin u can do u disgustin voidrotten garbage motha fucka
FOLYKL: no wonder youre called the batterwitch
FOLYKL: this coming from me a witch myself
FOLYKL: also im not even voidrotten anymore see my eyes theyre back im godtiered
)(IC: ya still gutterblood carp sides ur psionics weak as fuck
)(IC: ur useless as shit gurl u have no use for ma ass
)(IC: bitch u should be dead
)(IC: i aint cullin yo bulge buddy here cuz hes actually a powerful psionic
)(IC: always wanted to be a battery, whale hed make some fintastic use
)(IC: and hes under ma control now, right buoy?
KUPRUM: >ALL HAIL HER IMPERIOUS CONDESCENSION.
KUPRUM: >ALL TRAITORS AND MISTAKES MUST BE ELIMINATED.
KUPRUM: >AND THAT INCLUDES YOU.
FOLYKL: holy shit dude
FOLYKL: im gonna sound like a fucking normie right now but kuprum dont you recognize me? folykl?
)(IC: already told ya bitch )(E WONT LISTEN TO U
)(IC: a loyal soldier to da empire now, like how he was always destined to b
)(IC: and YOU
)(IC: soon dead, like how u were always destined to b
)(IC: what u already were supposed to b
)(IC: now buoy
)(IC: get dat stinky ass DEAD
KUPRUM: >yes, your highness
KUPRUM: >folykl darane, i was wrong by helping you. as a loyal soldier to trizza and the condesce, i should have ELIMINATED you the first moment i set my bulbs on you.
KUPRUM: >BUT NOW YOURE DEAD LOL
FOLYKL: oh fuck
doc text, i had the idea for this interaction and i knew i had to write it
#mareys dump#hiveswap#homestuck#folykl darane#kuprum maxlol#the condesce#her imperious condescension#crockertier#pesterlog#long post
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a sorta weird thing that's been happening in the background over the last few weeks is that my left eye is dying.
The inflammation around the optic nerve has gotten so significant that signal just isn't getting from it to my brain. It still, I was going to say works, but dear God no it doesn't. It still does as it has been doing, it's just not like. being heard. and eventually, that pinching will cut off the nerves ability to talk to my brain permanently.
The thing is is that. This can be stopped. Steroid injections and some pills taken daily. Nothing I haven't done before but I've made the decision to just let it happen.
Steroids cause cataracts. I don't know enough about this shit to explain How, but they do. Theyre why I have cataracts in both eyes.
The inflammation is caused by the amount of damage that my optic nerve has been dealt over the years of having tumors in that eye causing blood clots. It's not in good shape and there's no chance of it ever healing, just being given more time. The inflammation will keep coming back
So I have the option to take the steroids, and have one eye that barely works, and one eye that works but is eventually made useless by cataracts. or to just Not, and lose the barely functioning ones function, and not have to worry about my cataracts getting worse until I'm much older.
For me the choice felt easy but it's one everyone in my life has pushed back against.
And I guess the point, the weird thing, is that my vision is better today than it has been since I was nine because of my brain no longer trying to make the bad signal from one eye match the other.
#like im still going to need glasses for the good eye but like. thats not a big deal#and the cataracts will be a fact of life but whatever its not a big deal#so far the worse part about this is that im favoring my right side more now and its screwing up my neck
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I’m not sure if America does this much, but from where I am, a grade is able to travel to a different country for around a week or two for educational purposes (e.g Italy, France, Etc.) So,,, any Papercut Hcs for that? (Taken that they were able to make up the money for that, maybe Pony took up extra jobs to earn the money.)
ik what ur talking about!!! i dont think its common for a WHOLE GRADE to do it, but ik wym!!!!
OK SO
•lets say they’re traveling to france (ewwww🙄🙄 but trust me, makes sense later), their language class was french and they were like “man y dont we all travel to france to test out skills n have fun”
•gonna b frank w u, pony, curly, and their families were hesitant on it, MOSTLY bc of money restraints but when it comes to pony, its bc he just never traveled out the country before, let alone all by himself
• curly rlly has no aspirations to travel anywhere but then he realized that if pony left, he would b bored out his mind cayse who else can he annoy as well as he does w pony??? so he was on board!!
•look, getting that money was a hard time for all, tim and curly did more jobs, darry and soda worked their asses off and so did pony, but at the end of the day, they did it (also some of it was covered for everyone bc of some soc’s rich ass dad)🙏🏽🙏🏽
•when the packed, they damn near packed everything they had bc they just dont have much, it was like they were going away forever😭
•look, curly (and angela, shes here too!!! :3) r haitian immigrants, they knowwwww french bc they HAD to learn it in haiti to get through the education system, hell theyre probably one of the few ppl who even know it fluently out this whole grade, everyone else was lowkey bullshittin
•curlys basically ponys translator for everything, and curly WILL use it to his advantage, ponys always smarter than him but HERE??? HEEEE has the upper hand, plus, this means pony being clingy
•but his french was a lil rusty bc he wouldnt rlly speak it a lot, even in class he wouldnt rlly speak
•pony had this “introduction to french” book darry gave him bc darry can actually speak french bc of the class!!!
•curly and angela CANNOOTTT see the eiffel tower as being romantic btw, that shit was built w haitian money they hate france man (YES, im airing out some of my grievances i hate france dude🙄🙄), if pony mentioned the tower near curly he’d roll his eyes, ALSO BC HE FOUND IT TO B CORNY
•curly and pony keep getting lost dude, its like hell on earth, YES, france is walkable, but that probably just makes it worse for them bc theyre walking far in the wrong way😭
•u can def tell theyre american tourist, but i dont think curly would care, ponys trying to keep a low profile tho
•i dont think they rlly, like french food that much, not even that it taste bad or anything just not their cup of tea, honestly
•if i remember right, france has a problem w pick pocketers and i PROMISE u that wouldnt slide w either of em, they WILL fight u over it😭
•angela was excited to try the macarons!!! honestly like top thing she liked there probably, maybe she also flirted w some guys in french, got some perfume, she treated it like a vacation more than like something educational, she knew french already this was USELESS to her
•pony loved the museums, and wouldve liked it MORE if curly didnt RUSH him all the time bc he was bored, curlys the kind of guy to only go to museums for the gift shop and tbh??? so real
•they were able ti get a room together at a hotel thankfully, and half the time in it was NOT spent sleeping, it was spent w curly making stupid jokes and pony laughing so they were tired in the morning
•let them have some souvenirs, they deserve it!!!pony tried to get something each for the gang, curly got something STUPID for tim, angela got a cute gift for herself
•pony promised to take pics while he was there and he did, but some of the pics had curly being a dumbass in it🙄🙄
anyways i went through this whole post without making a kanye west joke, im truly growing to b more mature
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Round 1
Propaganda why Navier is insufferable:
"Endorses slavery"
"Being cheated on sucks. Yeah. But her anger at Rashta feels so tasteless. Your husband is taking advantage of the desperation of a SLAVE because slavery is legal in your empire, where you do most of the work ruling and making decisions because said husband is useless. You can't allow slavery to be legal and be a good person at the same time, even if you don't degrade said slaves for being enslaved under your rule, which of course Navier does. She treats Rashta's circumstances like theyre a moral failing on her part, and not y'know, horrific. Furthermore she befriends one of Rashta's former abusive masters, and allows her to talk shit about her all the time. Aside from that, she has little personality outside of being "better than Rashta". She's just so good and pure and never ruffled by silly schemes and she gives to charity! (Ignore the legal slavery) And is kind to animals! (Ignore the slavery) And doesn't want bad things to happen to her Empire! (IGNORE)
She's so bland. I can't think of any standout personality traits aside from the obvious classism. She's the human embodiment of the :| emoji."
"Classism. Empress of a place with slavery"
Propaganda why Clary Frey/Fairchild is insufferable:
"Here we go again: She found out she was part of a race that opresses pretty much every magical being ever and immediately jumped onto being as racist as people that were raised in that cultist lifestyle. She calls a man "Warlock" the way people say slurs.
Terrible friend. Poor Simon never gets a break. And she's an even worse girlfriend to him. He is understandably upset when he finds out the person she most wants to kiss isn't him and asks for some space, but no, not on her fucking watch. She won't stay away from his place all of a sudden. Despite never really having time for him prior.
Goes up to a closeted gay man and tells him all smugly she knows about his sexuality and acts like he's the problem for not owning it. He lives in a homophobic society where violent punishment and exile is normal.
Speaking of exile, almost gets a woman that was nice to her exiled so she can break the law.
Demands aforementioned warlock do necromancy and when he tells her about his trauma, she throws a tantrum. She never apologises. That and, she and her friend always go to him for their problems, and are never grateful when he helps.
Has the ability to wish for one thing only once ever, wishes for a shitty man to come back to life.
The incest thing. She wanted to fuck a man while thinking they were fully biologically related. Yeah. And technically they're still adoptive siblings. True love.
Her cringe evil arc.
Apparently she's worse in the books. Great to hear."
"I don’t remember much from the books but she was kind of annoying"
"She finds out about a magical world she's been unaware of her whole life and it takes her five seconds to jump onto the fantasy racism train. Constantly demands people do dangerous stuff for her. Causes so many problems and when someone points out that she's going to hurt someone they're treated like they're an asshole. Walks up to a closeted man like "I know what you are". Is a terrible friend to her childhood 'bestie'. Falls in love with her brother, one the worst men alive."
"Worst case of Main Character Syndrome you'll ever see."
#navier#remarried empress#clary fray#clary fairchild#shadowhunters#the mortal instruments#insufferable protagonist poll#insufferable protagonist tournament
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