#theyre literally making me go insane its crazy
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randomperson0k · 3 days ago
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jekyll andh yde jjekyln and yyde hdye hyde jelyl and hyde jekyll hyde
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every comment i get about these not being accurate to the og characters ill draw jekyll in a pink dress and cat ears dancing to taylor swift . i dont like taylor swift no not really i just find it funny to think that jekyll listens to taylor swift and britney spears . yeah. and lady gaga too. that evil 43 year old man would totally love that type of stuff
uh yes this was my old tgs headcanon world if you recognise these from that hi. but i kind of got out of tgs a bit due to personal reasons so i grabbed the previous headcanonned characters and flipped them upside down and made them into their own thing outside of tgs. i think i did a good job? i didnt really want to associate them with tgs anymore so i just took every creative turn that squirmed itself into my head. and it helped that my previous tgs headcanon world strayed really far from the og in the first place and was kind of already its own thing. so yeah i kind of like what i have so far im pretty happy with it . i really like uttersons character so far and im excited to start on emma and lucy [my hatred for the j&h musical has fuelled me to make my own version of them] im especially excited for emma i have so many ideas for her character and just. ideas to actually make her even a character and not just a plot role for jekyll. i love you emma you deserved so much better ill give you a gun and make you a werewolf and everything you deserve everything cool and awesome babygirl !!!! ill even give you a cool spiked jacket that your girlfriend gave you!!!! everything for you !!!!
basic story plot for this side of the story [since the story is split across multiple perspectives and these are just some of the many] uhhh jekyll goes crazy and fully stays transformed as hyde and falls into really bad habits and addiction as hyde . it starts small at first but when lanyon dies it hits the tipping point and they fully give up on trying. jekyll is considered dead due to being missing for a good chunk of months and hyde inherits the stuff from the will and takes over the life their previous persona had [very messily though since hyde is a complete wreck right now]
meanwhile utterson in the background is fully loosing her mind in depression [thinks he lost her two only friends. fair enough] but one day sees jekyll in the street running even though jekyll has been considered dead for like months by then. utterson then gets real bad tunnel vision on finding jekyll and dedicates everything to finding jekyll. spends all her time locked in her room just looking for leads. drops her job and everything to dedicate herself to this. his main lead and who he has to team up with to find jekyll?: hyde [said person very much so not wanting to team up with utterson due to who theyre hunting but only does it because theyre still clinging to and missing some of the old parts of their previous identity as jekyll with one of those parts being their old friendship with utterson] anyways they basically go on a big little detective goose chase until utterson gets pissed at hyde after figuring out some stuff and they fight and split off from eachother and hyde like gets kidnapped immediately after that because lets be real nobody really likes that guy they have so many enemys. what a loser
oh and yeah uh lanyon gets brought back to life frankie style and just becomes a minion for this guy kind of. im still developing them. basically theyre hunting hyde though because same as everybody they think hyde killed jekyll . and lanyon kind of lost their marbles from the whole getting brought back process and lost a lot of their memorys. ok guys cmon literally all my lanyons are sweethearts who just so happen to be friends with insane people [utterson and hyde] i deserve to make a adaptation where all 3 of them are equally insane. ok. i deserve it for all the normal lanyons ive made.
i wanted to make jekyll really creepy and also affected by the soul split thing and not just hyde so jekyll is kinda weird in this one. he looks younger in some images and thats done on purpose . when hes being creepy he looks younger. uh i have a doodle of what he looks like when hes getting 𝓯𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓴𝔂 and being very not normal . im not adding it. to the main post because i dont like the art it looks STINKY !!!
you can see all my design notes on the side lol i like to yell at myself in my notes
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feeling cute so ill probably kill them all as the storys ending yeah somebodys gotta humble jekyll and beat his head on the curve im just doing gods work yknow
kidding maybe
still deciding. vote to decide if jekyll gets beat in the street or not !!!
ok im ending this i gotta stop talking or ill never stop
im VERY tired right now. hit like and subscribe for more epic bangers from yours truely!!!!
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lunar-eclipseee · 5 months ago
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when the crackship actually gets me cooking
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itsalwaysdark · 6 months ago
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like a teacher liferally claimed lampstie. you know them. at age 9. like 4th grade. shoved the teacher to the ground in the busline and stomped on their head repeatedly while laughing. 1. no witnesses. in the bus line at pickup time. 2. the teacher was uninjured 3. they were 9 years old ? and not s super villain?
#what had actually happened iirc bc this was a while ago was the teacher who Treated lamp horribly all the time#<- yelling at them grabbing them judt being awful#was yelling and grabbing them in the busline and lamp had a meltdown bc theyre autistic Like evrybody else in this house MY MOM GOT DXED.#ITS JUST ME AND MY DAD NOW UNDXRD BC NEITHER HAS BEEN TEXTED ITS SO BAD FOR ME. anyways#but lamp had meltdown and at best pushed the teacher and rhe teacher mighrve slipped idrc#but they didnt jump up and down on their head while laughing and fucking sneering bc they were A child. GOD it pisses me awf#the worst part id i feel guilty bc so much of my childhood i viewrd lamp as like#Difficult and The bad sibling and i was The good one and shit bc rhats what i was told but now km older looking back like#lamp was literally just a kid snd everybody was openly talking abt how they were the bad one#idk. ive discussed it with lamp but i still feel so guilty abt it#we were close but def not as close as we are now and we had lots of bumps. idk it judt makes me sad i was so mean as a kid#like rhey tell me stories and ider them bc i. the memory loss girl. and i feel so guilty even when like..yk gesture. it wasnte#me. but it like. idk. i just feel guilty and awful abt it#bc were So insanely similar i just like#idk. i just mask more and lamp doesnt but its crazy bc like#lamp was so normal as a kid. like Autistic but they were judt a kid and i like#think abt things that happened and it makes me want to scream#like them being dxed with odd b4 even being considered for autism makes me so fucking mad esp bc like. ik lamps Not at all the only kid to#get that dumbfuck dx. and lamps an outlier even bc ik black kids r so much more likely to receive it. it just makes me so upset#idk ik this is like Wow connor great point but god theyre all just kids. yk. and obv theres a ton more stuff going on for black kids who r#dxed with odd . it just makes me so mad
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siinlight · 1 year ago
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They aren't comparable, but they are the
Omniman and Mark invincible fight and the Alucard Dracula castlevania fight
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bigender2 · 2 years ago
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the FFF (Freddie Florence Friendship) has to prevail always it means so fucking much to me
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laikinz · 2 years ago
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if you say i swear to god its probaly cause youre lying: no i say it cause its an expression of speech these people are really funnt and make no sense imagine someone learning this from these freaks videos and then they apply that to people in their own lives... god bless
#like these things they point out as deceptions are so fucking minuscule it makes me think if you blink wrong that means youre a monster and#a liar#especially in a interrogation scenario is that not automatically going to skew things..#not even accounting for the fact these people already know the outcome of these cases like theyve already been declared guilty in a court..#so theyre going to use that to their own perceptions. it doesnt make any sense to me#if you do xyz youre a evil person if you dont do xyz youre crazy#i cant stand these types of analyses. and theyre lauded as like great psychological entertainment.. youre insane#and they get millions of views it doesnt even matter which random man with no fucking clue what hes talking about puts out these people#eat it up#oh and its 'educational'.. lmao ok...just because the random expert you claim to be talking to doesnt mean that any of this is educational#and then when direct connections to people with mental disabilities or addiction issues or psychiatric problems are brought up people in#comments will be like omg you are so considerate and careful with these issues<3 im so happy you mention not everyone with x and x thing#are evil people<3 when its literally built into the very analyses that theyre doing.#god can you tell i hate these body language interogation analysis videos so much#OR if theyre like this can indicate theyre telling the truth and it usually does BUT in this case...it could obviously be that shes lying
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thinkingthingsthrough · 2 years ago
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would it be insane of me to try and go see ed sheeran twice in detroit next month after already seeing him in toronto this month
#the answer is yes but bc of family drama concerts are such a pain for me#so this bit while im living away from home makes it more possible#so like for example before this show i hadnt been to a concert in 8 years bc of that#and after 2023/24 it'll probably be another a few yrs before im in a living situation where i can do that again#so in THAT case. it feels worth it.#but i am genuinely worried about looking like an insane person#like i am being presumptious and thinking oh no what if he sees me 2 nights in a row and is like damn. this girl is crazy.#which is obviously totally a crazy thing to even THINK bc he sees literally millions of ppl over the course of a tour#so its not like he actually can recognize or remember ppl unless they are like stalker level obsessive#but yeah#anyways i doubt il even be able to get tickets to the smaller detroit show bc theyre sold out and resale is like 600#which is a no. but would honestly be willing to pay up to 300....which is also crazy but im justifying it bc im not a big spender otherwise#anyways i am definitely at least going to the detroit stadium show tickets already purchased just need to rent a car#im sure this post is insane to ppl who dont like him/only casually like him#i feel like ed has huge general audience appeal but less hardcore fans#which makes getting tickets way easier than taylor tickets for example but i think its also weird to be a superfan of him lol#but u dont get it he was the first singer i was a fan of this is an 11 year obsession#so even though i didnt like much of = he plays a good mix of all his albums (+ gets kind of neglected but he at least does give me love)#so it still feels worth it
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xianzhoualliance · 2 years ago
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my mom is such a bitch i hate her so much
#cheese *blush*#the other day i got my portfolio back and it was an A-#btw all my grades this semester were As#and she said wow he (my professor) couldnt have given u an A?#like u never finished and I just got all As on my finals so idk what shes so upset about#and then she keeps bugging me to fix my room which is fine except my room is like#so insanely clean like compared to literally every other teenagers room ive been in it looks like heaven#the only thing thay looks dirty is my clothes on a chair and its like#6 pieces of clothes MAX and theyre all clean#and maybe like 2 hair clips on the floor and plushies that fell off the bed im just frustrated#i know im not dirty and i know im a good kid so why does she always act like i owe her more#btw i finished this semester literally yesterday#and i was in bed for most of the day today because im freaking exhausted from school#btw my english class had the professor fucking leave 3 weeks in and i STILL got an A on my 3 essays#and i was on my phone but i was drawing for the most part#and of course there are other horrors… but its little things like this that drive me crazy#and when my dads home he makes a mess literally everywhere he goes and she gets mad when we tell him and says we have to go easy on him#like why does he get to half ass everything and throw out stuff of ours that isnt trash and act like a total asshole#but when i have a cup in my room i get berated#trust when i get the job im trying for im out because ill be getting payed what my dad is#and for 1 person its more than enough -_-…
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koolades-world · 2 years ago
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Demons and Humans not understanding each other
Inspired by several other posts I read about this same thing <3 honestly even if the brothers insisted it was safe, I would consult Satan, Lucifer or Barbatos
this is mostly mammon freaking out
Humans think the deadliest things are like, adorable, like Cerberus. Mammon especially does not understand why Mc wants to run towards the very dangerous, very mad three headed dog. A few times he has had to throw Mc over his shoulder to keep them from staying behind
“MC CERBERUS BEING THE BEST BOY DOES NOT JUSTIFY HIS ACTIONS HE WANTS TO KILL US”
“But he’s so cute! He just needs a snuggle buddy”
Humans can also be very stubborn if they’re too hot or cold but refuse to admit it. It’s fine with Lucifer does it because he’s one of the most powerful and therefore resilient demons in Hell, but not so much when Mc does it. Beel and Mammon love playing in the Devildom snow, but given that it’s the Devildom, it’s definitely a lot colder than it is in the human realm. Even after ten layers, Mc is still freezing but refuses to admit it.
“Mc, are ya shivering? I thought ya would be too warm under all that”
“I’m sweating with this one jacket”
“I’ll live! Let’s go back to the snowman”
“no I don’t think you will”
On the same note, sometimes demons forget humans can’t withstand crazy temperatures. Asmo will invite Mc to a popular bathhouse, sauna or hot springs, forgetting that the temperature would literally boil Mc alive
“Hey Asmo this is the place you wanted to go, right?”
“Yes! Isn’t is cute?”
“Everything except the part where I boil alive”
“what!”
Some foods can kill humans just by being near them so imagine how the brother would feel when they learned this, it’s giving that lunatic pudding incident with Diavolo from that one card
“Mc! You’ll love this. Open wide!”
“Asmo I feel funny”
“DO NOT FEED MC THE TAKEOUT LUCIFER SAID ITS DEADLY FOR HUMANS IN LARGE AMOUNTS”
“FUCK NOT AGAIN”
In retrospect, humans probably sleep a lot compared to demons. Some demons probably don’t sleep at all, except Sloth demons. Setting aside about eight to nine hours of the day just to sit idly might not make sense to them until they learn they will shut down without it
“How are you feeling about the exam we just took? Exam week is finally over.”
“Mc? Mc, Satan is talking to you. Why are you on the floor”
“MY HUMAN IS DEAD”
“No, I think they’re just asleep idiot”
“oh. wait, THEYRE ASLEEP IN THE MIDDLE OF THE HALL lucifer is gonna kill me”
I’d say both demons and humans are social creatures, but humans will go insane without social interaction. Yeah a demon would probably be upset if they didn’t talk to someone for thousands of years but I don’t think a human could last more than ten without losing grip on reality. Humans tend to copy each other, which is probably bizarre to demons. Humans don’t even understand yawning so demons definitely won’t
Going back to the food thing, demons can probably go ages without eating, besides Gluttony demons. Humans need to eat so frequently compared to them
“So you’re tellin’ me that if Mc doesn’t eat for a whole week, their insides start to eat themselves?!”
“Yes. But, Mc ate a few hours ago.”
(Mammon was already gone when Satan turned back around)
Demons probably also play game that would definitely kill humans. My brother and I used to play crazy games when we were little (our favorite game didn’t have a name but we would put Barbies in the toy train tracks and see what would happen when different Thomas and friends character would hit her. The train tracks would glow in the dark! I did not let him put my favorite doll in the train track and he had to listen since I was the older one, she was not a barbie and had bendy feet? that’s not for now) but we never seriously got at each other throats. I cannot imagine what games demons and demon children must play. Satan was born fully grown but imagine if he was born little and the brothers had to play his favorite games with him. I feel like they would find the Barbie game I played a little weird too. Like, they would probably tell me that I should’ve done it in real life since that would be better experience or something batshit like that
“Aww, Satan, do you remember all the times we played “Five minute eye stab” with Lucifer? You were so cute. Sometimes I think Luci let you win.”
“Do not talk to me Asmodeus.”
“I’m sorry, you played what?”
“One time we gave him an actual knife by accident and since he was good, he ended up stabbing Lucifer’s eye.”
“You’ll be next if you don’t shut up and let me read”
“HE WHAT”
“Oh he’s fine now, clearly. Only took him a few hundred years to regain normal eye functions”
“Can we not talk about this anymore?”
Babe it is a miracle Mc is still alive
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tomwaterbabies · 6 months ago
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LIVE REACTION (i was making a new dnd character when i witnessed this)
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Hugo's love language is being fucking annoying, it works on Varian, somehow.
These are sketches inspired by Hugo and Varian's Cosplays made by @kristoffs-lullaby and @tomwaterbabies!
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zombvic · 7 months ago
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SUPER RICH KIDS (marc guiu x reader) pt.2 here
summary : in which fans notice a familiar footballer in the likes of their favorite "super (humble) rich kid"
face claim : wolfiecindy (+ lissie mackintosh)
notes : frank ocean come back !!!!!!!!! might make this a series... this idea came to me in a dream so it might be a lil dumb. gave them a family name and made the dads face claim toto wolff (lmfao) bcs its easier so js ignore that !!! translated spanish is questionable..
pairings : marc guiu x fem!famous!reader
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y/n ramsay, the only daughter of peter ramsay, a man considered to be one of the most influential men in the world, the owner of mercedes. not just the formula one team, the whole ass car brand. he is considered a self-made multi billionaire and single dad of two. as a daughter of a man with such high status, it came with exposure. y/n had her own little fandom, girls and boys who admired her beauty, lifestyle and enjoyed her personality. the girl was beloved by many, even celebrities found her videos and instagram posts entertaining. she had a natural charm that drew people in, and amongst those people there was a certain footballer, a certain teammate of her brother known as the one and only, marc guiu.
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ynramsay monaco nights
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user rawrwrrwrwrwrrr
user HERMOSA
nateramsay wtf without me ?
- ynramsay yeah!!! loser..
user marc and jude in the likes lmao
- user i need to see nates reaction
user + 1000000 aura for her beauty
user idk whats prettier, the view or you
user felt the aura way back in december
judebellingham what a view 😍😍
- user shes not picking u jude (visca el barca!!)
- user marc fight back ???
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ynramsay read the spanish love deception and now im here
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judebellingham madrid is better smh..
- ynramsay visca el barca bitch
peteramsay wow i look good
nateramsay where am i ???
- ynramsay dw youll get a personal post ig
marcguiu9 linda 😻 (pretty)
- nateramsay yo marc.. ¿qué carajo? 😁 (what the fuck)
- hctorforrt_ eres marc bastante idiota (you're pretty stupid marc)
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ynramsay @nateramsay am i doing this right ???
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nateramsay eh.. could be worse
user okay guys.. y/n & hector OR y/n & marc..
- user marc & y/n definetly
- user nuh uh hector and y/n would make a cute couple
- user neither???? guys omg leave them alone
user barca girls stay on top
marcguiu9 the team's lucky charm !!
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marcguiu9 VAMOS !!! tres puntos están en casa !!
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user bro has the inlaws in his likes
- user and they claim theyre "friends" ... if my "friends" dad was liking my posts id assume were married with seven kids and a dog
ynramsay marcaría un hattrick 🤓☝🏼
- marcguiu9 me gustaría verte intentarlo
user were winning the ucl !! (im going insane)
- user were so back !! (we are not making it past the group stage)
user la masia boys have some kind of fine gene in them its crazy
ynramsay formula is still better sorry bro
- marcguiu9 you trippin dawg 😹😹😹
- user just get married lord...
- user theyre literally built for eachother i swear
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ynramsay meanwhile in my head
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user mother is mothering
user the prettiest
user an angel sent from heaven, deadass.
marcguiu9 ¿eres un rayo? proque eres mcqueen. (are you lighnting? because you're mcqueen)
- nateramsay WEAAAAAK. next
- marcguiu9 can you be the sally to my mcqueen??
- nateramsay better.. u got my approval
- peteramsay not mine !!!
user 11 million likes on ts post jesus marc u got some competition
user the finest girl in the world
user girlie got the whole barca roster in her likes
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ynramsay barca weekend things !!
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user mother is mothering
user wifey, are you cheating on me?
user IS THAT MARCS HAND ???????
user guys that's me please respect our privacy!!
user i think it's hector tbh..
- user nah thats so randon
- user they're clearly just friends
user wasnt expecting a heartbreak today
user im sorry but it looks like marc
- user a HAND looks like marc ???????
marcguiu9 vroom
- ynramsay vroom indeed
- user yall...
peteramsay aprobado 👍🏼👍🏼👍🏼
- marcguiu9 VAMOOOOOOOS
might be a series or whatever :3 just pls request something
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menofprogress · 28 days ago
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I saw someone say that Viktor constantly reaching out to Jayce and trying to get him on his side after he initially left him and after Jayce fought, rejected and shot at him makes no sense but i disagree.
Imho jayce and viktor are incredibly, INSANELY codependent, they were each others closest contact for nearly a decade, saw each other every day, single mindedly worked towards the same goal, etc. Their lives immediately take a nosedive once theyre even slightly separated from each other (viktor nearly dies, jayce kills a kid, viktor atomises sky and then nearly kills himself, jayce lands in apocalypse land and viktor starts a cult). They instinctively always act like theyre still partners, even when theyre clearly supposed to be enemies because not being together feels unnatural to them.
Jayce doesnt act consciously when reviving viktor using the hexcore and YES viktor is hurt and distressed bc he was essentially turned into rio and he feels like he needs to leave, but then what? He probably finds out about jayces disappearance a few days later and is like "oh no, oh fuck, i know I left HIM, but i didnt want this" i mean he probably thought jayce was dead.
So for a few months he builds his commune and deliberately integrates sentimental things about his and jayces partnership (his 'home' looks like the hexgates, hes still wearing the blanket, for some reason theres a forge in the commune) which, imho, shows hes mourning and missing jayce in his own way. (A special personal hc of mine is that he grew out his hair out of grief). And in the pit we have jayce sobbing and crying bc he misses both mel and viktor so much.
So jayce reappears and viktors like "heeeyyyy bestie, oh my god, i missed u come visit me!!!" And jayce is rightfully confused like "didnt YOU break up with ME?" and viktor is like "nooo, hahaha, i was crazy back then, just forget about it, pls visit me?" And is only mildly concerned by jayce killing one of his followers (and then hes also mostly concerned about jayce, not salo lol)
Then jayce arrives and shoots him and its very painful bc viktor fully didnt expect jayce to hurt him! Hes so shocked 😭
Anyways after that Viktor "attacks" (more like "does a mating dance for") jayce in the council room and AGAIN asks him to join his emo band and is AGAIN shocked and hurt when jayce genuinely fights back and rejects him. Viktor is temporarily hurt and gives singed the ok to start the process.
And then as the fully transformed herald he STILL talks about how happy he is to see jayce and doesnt really put any effort into neutralising him. Like he could have just shot him hbxhnxgkhfj
All the while we have jayce talking big talk about stopping viktor, but when it comes down to it?? He doesnt manage to take him out and still talks to him. And then he sees Viktor in the astral realm and once there is a SLIVER of hope hes immediately like "oh thank god i can stop trying to kill him, this was never going to work"
All of this isnt contradictory to me. It means that both of them actually know that they should be on opposing sides now, they start acting according to the idea that the other one is now an enemy, they make plans accordingly, but when it comes down to it theyre reluctant to actually follow through bc that would mean a life without the other and thats worse than staying enemies forever.
Viktor kept reaching out, hoping to be partners again after MULTIPLE rejections and jayce couldnt bear to kill viktor or to let him die alone. Being apart from each other is quite literally the worst thing for either of them, so the instinct to reach out to each other will always take over.
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itsalwaysdark · 6 months ago
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the difficulty of trying 2 explain to ppl that im Not being self deprecating or belittling my mental illnesses when i say something that could be perceived as overly critical towards myself but that thise things actually r true abt me. ppl did die.
#i wrote a whole post trying to explain and then i realized it judt wasnt particularly worth it so i out it in the drafts. so i wrote for#like 20 minutes and all i got is soooo insanely dissociated . can we kill connor im sick of this fucking guy#idk. i wish often incould just project my brain on a wall or sometjing abd ppl would get it and i wouldnt have to explain it#bc everytjing i say even when it sounds crazy or it sounds oike im habing a breakdown its like. its how it actually is its the truth but#nobody ever fucking understands bc i cant. word it in a way that makes it make sense to people#like my most prominent 'delusion' i cant fucking explain it to people bc theyre like Woah thats rly rly rly concerning and sounds like its#rly harmful for yourself to believe that but it literally isnt I have to believe it bc its one of the only things that actually is keeping#me alive but if i ever fucking talk abt it nobody understands it#sometimes it is very scary and it makes me miserable that its true but i know that it is true. ive woken up in terror crying abt it Multiple#times but ik that its true and its a good thing its true bc it means i am alive roght now. as alive as i always am at least#but wtvr. the post wasnt even originally abt that#it was abt dropout stuff and like. yk. bc when i say I dropped out bc i was lazy and whiny ppl think im being mean 2 myself and erasing like#the depression and the ptsd and the Identity shit and the dissociation and the panic attacks and the seizures and grief and stuff#but its like. yes all that also was going on but i also was just lazy. if i wasnt lazy i couldve judt fucking graduated and i wouldnt be#trapped now#<- That is only true for me . ik thats like a stupid thing to say but this is why i cant rlt Be honest abt how i feel abt myself dropping#out is bc i get horrific fucking guilt bc i Was judt lazy and fucking stupid and i Am a bad person for not graduating hs#but that is not true for other dropouts for other dropouts deopping out doesnt mean youre dumb or lazy and it doesnt make you a bad person#but its different for me ik everybody thinks theyre the exception but i am i Am just lazy i am just stupid and its my fault. specifically.#idk i need to go lke slam my head into a wall.#idk what happened i wasnt fucking doing bad and then i made like. a loghthearted post abt sometjing and derailed in the tags and now its#oh i remembered. i tried to sign up for a ged class and encountered 1 obstacle and fucking gave up . God. i loterally havent changed at all#we neeedddd to get rid of connor or at least get a bew one in so fucking sick of being rhe one im so sick of being Connor i dont want it#anymore . head on pike#idk. im fine. im just habing a momey. im.probably judt pissy bc i didnt sleep. maybe ill take an edible
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redamancy-and-daisies · 1 month ago
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DISORGANIZED THOUGHTS ON TODAYS SHOW 12/11
OH yeah dally also was like fondling cherrys skirt like ive never seen him get that close like actually put a hand on her really nasty
tilly almost fell off the car
just sitting there minding her buisness was soooo sad hes sounded so little😭💔
johnny braced himself like full arms up as if dally was going to hit him during his parents’ scene
his voice is so fucking good
kwp said that ur problem, chet (twice)
ace slapped sodas ass(and later when shes leaving the house it looked like he was thinking abt it but didnt lol GOOD ANSWER jason)
Daryl looked at the knife before jumping off the train and beginning of faft
maggie is SO DIANE LANE like real mean girl energy but then she opens up and shes actually just a sweetheart
(u were a hood or a collegiate) heard an older lady in the audience (that laughed just like my grandma :c) saying this during intermission
cried sm in faft
soda kept being like dw johnny hes just like this dw during ritfr
marcia neverrr stops looking at two bit
HUGE coke splash someone said “car wash” after
the car came down so far during the park fight u could see a lot more of johnny which was great
he seems so in shock like way less screaming fs
saw barton mocking steve it was sooo nasty white boy esp since pony and his brothers were the only non black people(minus johnny) in the gang today the mix was so great
also tilly is just such a stand out she’s so fucking good
the kids that came on a school trip here are going CRAZY
after ponyboy spit someone went “THATS RIGHT”
cherry couldnt stop smiling at the end of icttyan shes also taller than josh which is so cute
daryl was either too quiet or didnt say 16 so it sounded like they were both 14 lol
“its probably wrong to cheer when someone gets stabbed”(overheard at intermission)
darry was going so fucking hard like it was vicious like more than normal which is nice bc ive seen it 3 times but hes really turned it up today
also kwp AND barton seemed more drunk than normal
overheard someone else saying maggie is so diane lane
socs were so agressive after drive in
johnnys just a KID THEY BOTH ARE
they nod after faft like theyre gonna run away then oh shit too late
daryl johnny is soooo how i pictured him in the book (so is sky!!!!) sky might be closer to the book bc he has some edge to him but daryls just was soooo so sad and scared
also his wig isnt that fuck ass!! it was curly!
ACT TWO
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finally got to the fucking station after wandering in the dark and rain ok act two
cherry looked so sad at jft
SARAHGRACE MIC WAS ON‼️ SHE WAS SO CLEAR AND INCREDIBLE
“(back)to tulsa” was sooo sad he literally is just a kid
darry looked like he wanted blood w dally didnt get enough time to pull him on the car
jason was crying so hard at the end it was actually hard to watch just bright red falling apart he smacked brents shoe at “u get BITTER” and he was like hyperventaliting
and so was josh he cried smmm
saw tears in brents eyes i actually never have before
WHEN PAUL started sining in jft people like clapped/hollered his voice is such a slay it made people crazy
OH YEAH MAGGIE OPTIONED UP in “out looking for a fight”
paul throwing ace in the rumble never noticed that before
johnny hugging pony after damd and putting his head in lap 😭
ponys no after johnny died was devastating
HUGE laugh at “i got more inside me than just grease” but it mightve been brent’s “ok.”
this was the best brother’s fight ive seen like joshs first “shut up” was actually scary like a whisper
cant stomach little brother —theres actually no way in hell they snubbed his tony he deserves to break in and steal one bc he mf earned that he gets to this insanely devastating place 8 shows a week??? robbed
Josh’s high register in stay gold makes me cryyy
him hugging the clothes😭
soda kicking gravel on paul before the rumble
BARTON OPEN SHIRT IN RUMBLE never noticed/seen that before??
renniiiiii two bit was sooooo gooooood
maggie is SOOOOO pretty -ok ill leave u alone was so sad and frantic like she was abt to cry
titt jason sounded esp raspy early 00s country sooo good
i think joshs pony is soo believable as a 14 yr old bc of his height and vibe but i think hes my least fav pony😭but its more like u have 3 killer options & u HAVE to rank way not in a “trevor brody good josh bad” way yk
trevor is my fav pony and hes the only one i havent seen irl LMAO
oh maggies cherry wig is soo strawberry blond this is my second time seeing her shes fantastic
OH YEAH i never noticed before dally leaves the hospital he directs the ill snap a socs neck if i have to to cherry like whatever he was saying before that died on his lips bc he saw her and ive never clocked that moment before
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mofsblog · 4 months ago
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Uh oh, I got reminded TFGraves exist and I'm mentally ill and going to make it YOUR problem!! (Translation: I'm going to gosh about them)
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They just mean so much to me? And they just feel soo?? Special?? And unique on a meta level as well? It's already one thing that they are a canonised mlm pairing because historically those ones tend to be more controversial because it tends to make cishet dudes (aka leagues main demographic) more uncomfortable because cant fetishise it (also yes they're not Technically "together" but idc its explicitly canon they have feelings for eachother). It's another that both are surprisingly developed and nuanced charaters (could go on for hours about how theyre both self destructive and have abandonment issues and repress their feelings in very different ways) that are morally ambiguous and have a complex and multifaceted relationship with eachother and yeah i know league lore is subject to retcons and having differet writers but idk. i think its impressive we got two nuanced developed queer male characters WITH A COMPLICATED AND DEVELOPED RELATIONSHIP WITH EACHOTHER in a game known for its bigotted player base. Another thing i fucking love about this ship is how the riot writers were like "what if we subverted some tropes and made the more flamboyant one implied pan and we made the traditionally masculine one, who highkey has toxic masculinity, gay". BUT ALSO HIS TOXIC MASCULINITY HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH HIS QUEERNESS. like yes he cant express his feelings directly to save his life but the fact he's a gay man is completely not relevant to that and he's canonically had a bunch of ex boyfriends and is canonically a monsterfucker/hj. I'm not over how they took a pretty cishet masculine thing and made queer. Like the rough outlaw who hates talking about his feelings and is out for violent revenge on those who've wronged him..... except the guy who's "wronged" him is actually his best friend who he has mutual feelings for and also he fucks men. IDK THAT MAKES ME HAPPY. im insane.
moving on to other thing i like about them is that the sheer range this ship has??? Like yes there's gut wrenching fucked up dynamic that drives you crazy as you pyschoanalyse and unpack the layers of all of THAT. "that" being the fact a man thought he got abandoned by his best friend and got tortured and isolated in prison for 10 years and during those 10 years the only thing that kept him from killing himself was the sheer rage and want for vengence (towards someone he probably had repressed romantic feelings for) AND THEN WHEN HE GOT THE CHANCE TO KILL HIM, HE COULDNT BRING HIMSELF TO DO IT 💀 (im literally never going to be normal about that) and during those 10 years the other man actually got all of their mutual friends killed in an attempt to save him and the survivors guilt fucked him up so bad its implied he failed trying to drown himself so he changed his entire name and personhood instead to isolate himself from the soul crushing guilt of it. BUT DESPITE THAT ANGST, there's a surprising amount of domesticity and comfort with this ship??? No like you'd think these two would be friends to enemies to lovers BUT NO, theyre actually friends to enemies to friends to friends who are fucking pinning for eachother like crazy. Despite the angsty dynamic these two also have the best friends who have known eachother for ages and who everyone think is dating but both are oblivious or dont believe the other feels the same BUT THEY ALSO HAVE opposites attract bickering marriage couple who constantly tease and banter with eachother. like the range is crazy
No but I feel like something that makes me emotional about this is that they tried to kill eachother and badly hurt eachother unintentionally but like, instead of being homophobic about it and making them just hate eachother forever and never reconcicle (which like those ships are amazing and valid and also thats literally another league ship/hj), the writers made them make up???? AND LIKE? HEAL? KINDA? Like no they havent worked through everything and no neither of them like talking about their feelings but they're "partners" again and they have this really domestic understanding of eachother and theyre managing and theyre bantering like they used to and theyre literally so comfortable around eachother and look, graves isnt tormented by his time in prison as much anymore and hes just a genuinely goofy criminal dumbass who robs people and cracks jokes that irriate his partner AND IDK ITS SO DOMESTIC AND FUNNY? BUT IT DOESNT FEEL OUT OF CHARACTER. THESE TWO JUST ARE IN A GOOD PLACE DESPITE EVERYTHING AND IDK THAT MAKES ME HAPPY???? why did league of legends make compelling queer ship
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moonshynecybin · 8 months ago
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hmmm idk if this is anything, but rosquez as romcom co stars that keep getting cast together even though they hateee each other but the chemistry is too good?
this is fun because like. it keeps some of my favorite little rosquez saw traps and wraps them up for me like a little treat. forced proximity public pda and EXTREME media scrutiny kind of their bread and butter tbh. make them crazy make them kiss im watching like tashi in the hotel scene in challengers
like marc as a young tom cruise esque (sorry. SORRY. im sorryyyyy) action star who does all of his own stunts loves the physicality of acting loves getting to pretend to do crazy stuff and be a HEROOOO but still kind of plays the same exact character every time. BIG smile always standing on apple boxes to make himself seem taller as he attempts to generate chemistry with whatever actress is his badly written love interest of the day (marc would be SO good in the mission impossible movies im sorry he WOULD be like. can i parachute off of a motorcycle into a ravine please please please youre NOTHING. santi is his extremely stressed stunt coordinator. lmao.) versus vale who came up doing indie movies as a teen in the 90s (his lil face would DOMINATE gay cinephile gifset tumblr) before launching himself to super stardom with a string of successful comedies and sort of settling into that because its easy... secretly frustrated no one will let him bust out his drama chops... BIG chip on his shoulder here a la leaving honda for yamaha etc
so eventually both of them are getting a little tired of being pigeon holed. and decide 2 book a serious ass gay romantic drama. they are tired of being hailed as the kings of fiction for the masses and they want to win at acting!! they get into the chemistry read (marc is still pretty young i think) and its. insane. INSTANT. james dean and marlon brando levels of ARE YOU TWO FUCKING?? but they literally just met. and marc has been a fan of vale's forever but not just the comedies also his earlier dramatic stuff (apocalyptic little gay crush) and they have similar taste in movies and vale is sooooo funny and it is OFF to the races. like. i cannot emphasize this enough they are fucking the WHOLE time. every scene in this movie its just leaping off the screen... they go in to film and its like that BTS clip of the americans where the director was having matthew rhys and keri russell do a sex scene and theyre suspiciously comfortable pretending to 69 and he turns to his assistant and just goes. oh yeah these guys have fucked. they are wayyyy to comfy hitching the other's pussy into their face lmao. just fucking going for it. the director is like hey guys. can you tone it down a little. marc biggggg smile okayyyyyy :3
and the movie comes out and they attend the premiere all smiley and bouncy and feeling really good about the project and then, theyy watch it. and its like. uh oh! not a lot of acting happening there ! um. best performance of either of their careers and they both look at it an can identify all the points they werent acting like evil little signal flares.... and vale shuts marc out HARD yadayadayada the Usual Rosquez Breakup Ensues.... until they both get cast in a revival of the brokeback mountain stage play and shit pops off in the most nuclear explosion of horny heartbreak to ever hit the STAGE…
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