#they would be non-binary transmasc

[zhakyria]

What if....

[banjo15]

I’m starting a poll

You are all anonymous btw

[soullessjack]

not sure if I’ve ever made a post about this before but the idea of jack being non-binary is truly so perfect for so many reasons. firstly he’s always existed in this taboo gray area between two rigid/opposing binaries (human/angel ; good/evil ; mother/father)

and there’s also some gendering in those binaries if you squint hard enough but I’m not a fervent genderstudiesnatural expert

neither side of these binaries can fully accept that jack is a sum of their parts (for lack of better phrasing); Lucifer and AU Michael both view his humanity as a weakness/malfunction or a phase he’ll mature out of, and several hunters—namely AU Bobby—treat Jack’s angelic heritage like the equivalent of rabies, a ticking time bomb that will inherently and eventually go off. of course everyone can acknowledge that jack is a Nephil in his own right, but he’s still viewed specifically as two halves instead of one Whole being. it’s probably worth adding that he literally will die or become a megalomaniac if he isn’t a mix of his two halves

then, jack is also exceptionally morally gray. frankly the writing of the show doesn’t fully portray this well, and while he does openly position himself as a Good Guy and a Hero and aspire to be such,…. So did the rest of tfw and look at all the shit under their belt. They’re antiheroes at best but that’s another post

in AlCal’s own words:

jack is all-encompassing. he shows various parts of the rigid moral dichotomy—he literally has a penchant for torturing enemies out of sheer hatred for them while being nicknamed ‘sweetheart’—but isn’t really confined to either one (although he does try and fail to confine himself).

lastly, there’s a very common experience among queer autistic people called gender indifference, which is exactly what it sounds like. We just..don’t care about gender. there’s no strong attachment between it and our identity. I know what I am biologically but I literally don’t feel it, so I wouldn’t and haven’t cared if I was misgendered. and I think for jack, someone who deals with the weight of being this archaic nebulous creature while having an extremely new relatively-human body, there would be similar feelings of disconnection and indifference.

also, whenever people ask him what/who he is the answer is literally always “I’m Jack.” like. That’s it. That’s the sum of it. he’s not entirely good or bad or human or archangel; he’s not 100% kelly or Lucifer. he’s just jack :3c

[flwrcrxwnlyon]

hehe, today is Sycamore Sunday? more like It's Sycamore summer

[e77y]

I really want to like being a woman but I don’t. But I’m not dysphoric either; I like my body fine and I don’t want to change my voice or my mannerisms or even my pronouns really. So I don’t think I’m transmasc. Sometimes I just really wish I was born and raised a man. But it’s more of an “in another life” dream kind of thing. I think it’s just internalized misogyny idk

[galmiahthepigeon]

On second thought, since my name is Gal I could have done the funniest thing ever by naming myself Guy

[bulldog-butch]

my tumblr cancelable opinion: (as a trans masc) so many trans mascs on tumblr are afraid to call themselves men because they don’t want to admit that they can be oppressors. especially if they are white

Gonna have to suck on this one like a lozenge

[asthedeathoflight]

Its so goofy but also really deeply annoying how people (mostly well meaning cis people but ive seen trans people do this too) have seen that in certain contexts women and men can be exclusionary oversimplifications and have overcorrected to... Never use those terms? Like yes its preferable to say "pregnant people" instead of "pregnant women" because not all pregnant people are women, but i just had to overhear with my own ears someone correct himself from saying women in a very neutral context to saying 'female-identified people.' Like. Female identified people are in fact women. I cant see how female identified people is different from women unless youre trying to include trans women but like. Transphobically. Men and women are in fact still useful terms you shouldn't be avoiding them ALL the time you should just be having like. A little bit of critical thought about what youre saying.

[lejay-the-impossible]

For anyone wandering, having sex with a transmasc non-bibary person is essentially just this:

"Hold on, let me grab my dick real qick-"

*destruction noises in the background*

"Ah, here it is"

[lazitoelgato]

I'm feeling conflicted, I always say I don't mind different HC for my idiots but I was wrong, I actually mind.

[birdiebats]

I swear, Insurance companies make an effort to be confusing

[willowsplinters]

3am

I want to dance in a quiet kitchen at 3am with my best friend, because we can't sleep but we don't want to do anything else.

I want to "watch a movie" with you on a rainy day, we both know that we aren't watching the movie but we won't turn it off because it's warm here on the couch, with you.

I want to rush about the house because I woke up late and the dryer never finished and I forgot to feed the cat and I haven't made my coffee yet and I can't find my keys and there you are, standing in the kitchen doorway with a blanket around your shoulders watching me run around like a madman, but I won't care that I'm late because I made sure that I kissed you goodbye.

I want to wipe your tears away when the world gets to you again, because I want to make up for all of the times I wasn't there to do it.

I want my ribs to hurt from laughing because you keep making that face and oh my god I can't breathe from how hard I'm laughing and there's tears in my eyes but I wouldn't trade this moment for the world.

I want to stand with you in the bathroom, holding your hand because after all these years, you still hate needles, but I'll be there telling you that you've got this; you've done this before, you can do it again.

I want to stay in bed with you because it's Saturday, we don't have to do anything today, the curtains are closed, the cat is sitting just past our feet, one of your hands is on my thigh, the other is intertwined with mine between us. I can't see your face but I know that you aren't asleep, I'm warm and I never want to wake up.

I want to stand with you in the corner because there's a lot of people here and it's loud and I'm on my second lemonade and I can feel my shirt tag and my earbuds are in the car and someone else just got here and the music's loud and we've been here for 53 minutes and my phone battery is at 56 percent and it's loud and you just grabbed my hand and we're leaving? oh my god we're leaving, thank you Love.

I want to lay with you on the living room floor on a Thursday evening and I want to whisper to you about my day and I want you to whisper back about yours and then I just want to lazily kiss you because I can and we aren't in a rush and you'd kiss me back because you know it too.

I want to watch you making dinner because you're listening to music and you're having the time of your life singing along and you haven't noticed that I'm watching you so I want to sneak up and give you a hug from behind and I'd scare you in the process but it'd be funny and I'd apologize by kissing you everywhere on your face.

I want to laugh with you, I want to cry with you.

I want to kiss you soft and sweet, hard and fast.

I want to be sick with you, and angry with you.

I want to share our lives.

I want to love you.

I want to love you in this life and every single one before and after.

and I want you to love me too.

I want to dance in a quiet kitchen at 3am with my best friend because we can't sleep but we love each other so it'll be okay.

[drawbudd]

(if you've voted, please reblog. Don't vote if you're not applicable to the group this is aimed at, thanks!)

[bisexualalienss]

my mom is such a weirdo. so yesterday she was talking about how transphobic her best friend and her kids were being at dinner a few weeks ago and she was like. how can she be like that when haleigh is *makes a vague gesture*

and then proceeds to be like “how could she be like that when my own daughter…”

like can you not hear yourself. if you know i’m trans (which you are implying), you realize that you’re being transphobic right now right

[loveless-arobee]

Hey, cis women who say "I wish I was a man but definitely not a trans way, haha! I would never be a man :)"

I say this with all the gentleness in my heart: It is okay for you to be a man. If you want to be a man, you can just be one. You also don't have to stop being a woman to be a man. Multigender people exist. You can be a man and a woman at the same time. Or you can be just a man, or a non-binary man, or non-binary, or something entirely different. You can do and be whatever you want and whatever makes you happy.

Becoming a man is not a betrayal of womanhood and feminism. And everyone who makes you feel like it is an absolute asshole, and you should not ever listen to them. You do not have to push your own happiness aside for other peoples' comfort.

If you want to be a man, try it out! See where it gets you. Maybe it turns out that you really weren't trans, or not a trans man but something else entirely, and that's fine, too. Maybe it turns out you are a trans man. In any case, following those thoughts might get you to a happier and better place in the end. And if you turn out to be happier as a man than you were as a woman, that is wonderful.

Please don't feel forced to stay a cis woman for feminism - any feminism that mistreats or hates trans men and transmasculine people is bad feminism. Being a trans man or transmasc is not a moral failure.

Trans manhood and masculinity are wonderful, and you deserve happiness. And if you find that happiness in manhood/masculinity, you don't deserve to be shamed or harassed for it, and you should not be made to feel the need to put yourself down for it, either.

[gor3sigil]

Before starting T, when I socially transitionned, I was surrounded by radical feminists who saw masculinity as gross and inherently evil, something to avoid, something to make fun of, something to destroy. The other transmascs in my friend group, sometimes, told me that they didn’t knew if they really were non-binary or if they just were scared shitless of saying “I am a man”. Because they saw this as a betrayal to their younger self who had been SAd and abused.

I saw many of my masc friends and trans men around me hate themselves, not outing themselves as men because it would imply so so much, it was like opening the Pandora Box. Even when we were just together, talking about our masculinity was always coated with bits like “I know we’re the privileged ones but…”, “I don’t want to sound like I have it bad but…”, “Women obviously have it worse, but last time…” and we were talking about terrible traumas we experienced while taking all the precautions in the world in the case the walls were a crowd of people in disguise waiting to get us if we didn’t downplay the violence we faced, or like crying and being upset and being traumatized and afraid and scared and to say it out loud would make us throw up the needles we were forced to swallow every second of every day living in our skin.

Most of us weren’t on T yet, some of us were catcalled every day and harassed in the streets or in abusive relationships nobody seemed to care to help them get out of because they were “strong enough” to do it by themselves.

I was using the gender swap face app and cried for ours when I saw my father looking back at me through the screen. The idea of transforming, of shedding into a body that would deprive me of love, tenderness, and safety, was absolutely terrifying. I knew I couldn’t stay in this body any longer because it wasn’t mine, but I also knew that if I was going to look like my dad, my brother, my abusers, it would be so much worse.

5 years later and I’m almost 2 years on T, and almost 2 months post top surgery.

I ditched my previous group of friends. I was bullied out of my local trans community. But let me tell you how free I am.

I was scared that T would break my singing voice: it made it sound more alive than ever.

I was scared that T would make me less attractive: it made me find myself hot for the first time in my life.

I was scared that T would make me gain weight: it did. But the weight I put on is not the weight I used to put on by binging and eating my body until I forgot that it even existed. It’s the weight of my body belonging to me, little by little. The wolf hunger for life.

I won’t tell you the same story I see everywhere, the one that goes “I started going to the gym 8 times a week, I put on some muscles, I started a diet and now I look like an action film actor”, in fact if you took pictures of me from 5 years ago vs now I’d just have more acne, I’d have longer hair and still look like I don’t know what to do with myself when I take selfies.

But the sparkle in my eyes, my smile, tell the whole story way better than this long ass stream of words could ever.

I want to say some things that I wish someone told me before starting medically transitionning.

It’s okay to take your time. It’s your body, it’s your journey, if you don’t feel comfortable taking full doses and want to go slow, the only voice you need to listen to is your own. Do what feels right.

If you feel overwhelmed, it’s okay to take a break, it’s okay to ask for support.

Trans people are holy. Everyone is. You didn’t lose your angel wings when you came out because you want to be masculine. You are not excluded from the joy of existence, from being proud of yourself, from being sad, from being scared, from being angry. The emotions and feelings you allowed yourself to feel while processing what you experienced when you grew up as a girl and was seen as a woman are still as valid as before. Nobody can take that from you. If someone tries to, don’t let them.

It’s perfectly normal to grieve some things you were and had before you started to transition, like your high soprano voice or even your chest. Hatching is painful. You can find comfort in things that don’t feel right, so making the decision to change can be incredibly scary and weird and you deserve to be heard and supported through this. Wanting top surgery doesn’t make the surgery less intense, less terrifying, less painful to recover from. When it becomes too much you have the right to take a break and take some deep breaths before going on.

You don’t have to have a radical, 180° change for your transition to be acceptable or valid or worthy of praise. Look at how far you’ve come already. It doesn’t have to show, you’re not made to be a spectacle, you’re human and it is your journey.

Oh, and last thing, you know when some people say “Oh this trans person has to grow out of the cringy phase where you think that you can write essays about being trans or transitionning or just their experience because it’s weird” ? If you ever hear this or see this online, remember all the people whose writing you read and, even if they were not professional writers, helped you more than any theorists did ? If you want to write, do it. It won’t be a waste. It can help people. Or it won’t, and even then, if it helped you, that’s enough.

Love every of my trans siblings, take care of yourselves. You deserve the world.