#they try so hard in making it look like their bond is superficial/not as deep as Shadow and Amy

[edgy-back-creature]

I find funny how popular Shadow/Amy/Sonic as an OT3 are when the most hinted love triangle canonically is Shadow/Rouge/Knuckles lmao

[kyouka-supremacy]

This is probably more of my personal headcanon / how I best like to interpret the characters rather than something canon based but... I have been thinking, at the end of the day most of the relationship bonds Dazai created in the ada span between rough and silently hostile. He doesn't get along with Yosano because of their shared link with Mori, and he doesn't like Ranpo because Ranpo being the only person he can't trick or manipulate probably makes him feel unsafe. It's not like he can exactly get along with the Tanizakis either, he's simply... Too distant from them to actually build anything positive with either Naomi or Jun'ichirou.

I think this explains why Dazai is so obsessed with Kunikida and can't leave him alone one second: because despite everything, I truly believe Kunikida is fond of Dazai (for reasons he himself would never be able to explain), and I feel like due to Kunikida's straightforwardness the tension between Dazai and Yosano and Ranpo would go completely unnoticed to Kunikida (whereas otherwise his seniors' negative opinion of Dazai could have negatively influenced Kunikida's feelings for him). That's why Dazai loves to spend time with and torment Kunikida, because he's the only member that doesn't feel directly hostile / out of reach. Even better, you know Kunikida isn't happy with Dazai; but it's also all very superficial, kind of a game, and the hostility isn't personal. It all makes me reflect on how Dazai feels truly desperate for human connection despite what he makes it look like. It's maybe more of a gut feeling, but I do truly believe Kunikida cares about Dazai and is willing to play their game, because I feel like otherwise he would have already told Dazai off definitely.

That also explains why once he met Atsushi Dazai absolutely latches onto him. It's like he's saying, this is my dude, I brought him to the agency; he's under my wing, and he's on my side. Which is a weird thing to say, there's no sides in the ada, but be it relapsing to old habits, be it a deep insecurity of Dazai, I feel like he's trying really hard to create connections and find allies. And Atsushi is such an ego boost for Dazai, I have no doubt Dazai absolutely loves him. In the end, as crazy as it may sound, I'm convinced that Dazai is way more dependent on Atsushi than Atsushi is on him.

But Atsushi is in good terms with the whole agency. Well, because he's Atsushi, and he's kind and clumsy and just trying to do his best, I feel like everyone warms up to him sooner or later. It's very nice to think in the end it may be Atsushi himself to bring Dazai closer to the rest of the ada, by breaking sides that never existed to begin with and linking them all together.

[heizlut]

Insufferable part 1

cw: none

tags: switch fem!reader, switch!scaramouche, oral (m!recieving)

nsfw under the cut

m!list here

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Scaramouche is so annoyed when you approach him, scowling and mentally preparing himself for whatever bullshit you might spout as you usually do when you pop in for a visit, “What the hell do you want?”

You waltz towards him with a stupid grin on your face. Why were you always so damn happy all the time? “I was bored!” you beam at him. He grimaces, “Eugh… go bother Childe instead. I don’t have time for this today.” You raise an eyebrow and look at the room around him, “But you’re not doing anything?” Scaramouche scoffs and rolls his eyes, “That doesn’t mean I wasn’t about to be busy, you pest.” You wave him off dismissively and flop down on the couch, “Scara, have you ever had a girlfriend?”

His eyes widen as he looks at you, “Excuse me? Why would I even want such a thing?” He pauses then adds, “There is nothing in human relationships for me to desire or appreciate.” You look a little amused as you meet his eyes, “Oh yeah? Well I think it’s painfully obvious that you want affection and that you’re so clearly touch-starved.”

Scaramouche’s blood begins to boil, “I do not have those weaknesses. I am a being that has risen past the superficial limitations of humanity. And if you think I'm still chained to human desires like this affection nonsense you're obsessed with, you are sorely mistaken.” You cover your mouth, trying hard to contain your laughter.

He grits his teeth and lowers his voice, “What’s so funny…” You lower your hand, having a slight smile, “It’s just.. you wouldn’t be talking like this if you were still like your old self. You used to crave being around humans and wanted to form bonds-” Scaramouche cuts you off, striking the table beside him with his hand as he raises his voice, “I am no longer Kunikuzushi! Kunikuzushi is gone. There is no part of him that remains within me whatsoever!” You rise from your seat and approach him, unfazed by his outburst, “Are you sure about that?”

He clenches his fists tightly, knowing it wouldn’t do any good to get into a physical altercation with you, "Shut your mouth or I'll shut it for you." Your features light up and your lips curl into a teasing smirk, "What? You gonna kiss me to shut me up?" Scaramouche scrunches his nose, "I would never..." You carry on with your teasing, "Oh that's right... You've never kissed anyone before have you?" He blushes furiously at your words, wanting to deny it even though you weren't wrong, "I..I don't have a desire for such a thing." Scaramouche turns his head away from you only for you to place a finger under his chin and redirect him back to you. He looks into your eyes, feeling his chest tighten as you give him a little smile and lower your tone, "Are you sure about that...."

Scaramouche is lost in your gaze for a moment before he finally breaks the tense eye contact and steps away from you, "Are you done now?" You smirk and then let out an overly-dramatic sigh, "Hmm, guess I'll go to Childe instead~" That gets his attention, his gaze snapping back over to you as you slowly make your way to the door, "W-wait... Childe?" You grin at him from over your shoulder, "Uh-huh, you told me to go bother him instead, remember?~" He fumbles over himself as his mind races for his next words. You breathe out a small laugh as you notice his behavior, "Aww do you actually want me to stay?" His cheeks heat up again as his expression twists back to annoyance, "No! ...I mean..." Scaramouche releases a deep breath when you raise an eyebrow at him, looking at him expectantly, "Use your words." Your command stirs something inside of him and he relents, "Fuck... Just stay..."

You turn back to face him once more, a devious look on your face, "Ask nicely." He runs his tongue across his teeth, so fucking annoyed that you're turning him into a mental mess, "Stay here...please." Your smile grows as you saunter back to him, "See that wasn't so hard now was it?" Scaramouche glowered at you and crossed his arms, "What is your end goal here?" You tilt your head a little and give an innocent smile, "I told you I was bored. I'm just having a little fun~" He rolls eyes, "You're idea of fun is pestering and flirting with me?" You look quite entertained by his words, "Me flirt with you? You'd like that wouldn't you.." Scaramouche's expression hardens, "I most certainly would not. You think I enjoy flirtation and teasing advances? Hah!"

You look him up and down, looking devious as ever, "I'd say so since only a couple minutes ago you got flustered and your cheeks got all red." He runs his fingers through his hair in frustration, "Do you ever shut up?" You give a dopey smile, "Nope!" Scaramouche narrows his eyes at you, "Just tell me what you want." "A kiss", you answer immediately, still with that same smile on your face. He blinks, taking in your boldness, "Excuse me?" Your eyes go half-lidded when you look to him, "You heard me. Besides, wouldn't it be nice to finally be kissed?" He rolls his eyes again, "That is not something I need to accomplish..." You place your hand on his chest and give him an alluring look, "Come on~ I'll teach you how." His brows drew together, "How does someone t-"

His words are interrupted by the feeling of your soft lips on his and your body caging him against the wall. His cheeks burn red when he realizes what's happening. Scaramouche was about to push you away until he felt you gently bite at his bottom lip and then swipe at the same spot with your tongue. He groans softly into the kiss, making his lips part a little more, granting your tongue access to his mouth. Your tongue smoothes against his as your lips move in a slow rhythm. Just as Scaramouche was about to pull you closer and deepen the kiss, you pull away. He leans forward, eyes half-lidded as he chases your lips. You laugh softly at the the needy look on his face and he quickly scrunched up his face, blushing heavily, "That's not fair... I wasn't done..."

"Then use your words and tell me what you want", your tone low and teasing. Scaramouche pulls you close to him, looking at you with desire and a hint of frustration, "I want you to kiss me again." "Good boy", you drawl as you press your lips to his again. His cock throbs in its confines from your praise and he kisses you back feverishly. Your lips move together with haste and passion. Your body pressed hard against him, feeling his bulge against you. You smirk against his lips and roll your hips against his, making his eyes snap open in shock. Scaramouche tries to separate from the kiss only for you to bite his lip once more. You give one more kiss before leaning back just enough that his panting breaths mingled with yours, "Someone seems to be enjoying this~"

He opens his mouth to protest only for his words to morph into a husky groan as you roll your hips against this bulge once again, "W-what're you doing..." The corners of your lips curl up as your hand trails down his body, stopping right before you reach his aching cock, "I'm just having fun..." Your palm rests on his bulge and you squeeze with just enough pressure that draws a hiss from him as his eyes shut tight. "Does your cock need some attention?", you ask with that teasing lilt in your voice that frustrated him to no end. Scaramouche felt so humiliated but so desperate for something he never experienced before, "Please..." You let out a satisfied hum as you kneel down in front of him and tug down his pants. His cock springs forward, twitching with anticipation. You look up at him, catching his lustful and dazed expression.

You wrap your fingers around his length and begin to pump it languidly, running your thumb across his slit to rub the clear pre cum around the head of his cock, "So leaky already, how cute~" Scaramouche's nose scrunches at your teasing, wanting to tell you to shut your mouth, but he can't trust what may come out of his mouth. You stick your tongue out and lick at his slit, letting the salty taste of his arousal fill your senses. HIs hands fly to your head, tangling his fingers in your hair at the overwhelming sensation, "Fuck... Please... More" You look amused as you swirl your tongue around the sensitive head and without warning, you wrap your lips around his length and begin to suck.

The pathetic whimper that comes from Scaramouche is so embarrassing. HIs cheeks burn bright red, trying to comprehend how such a noise came from him. His thoughts are interrupted when you take his full length and swallow, having your throat constrict around his cock made his grip your hair tighter. Your tongue licks the underside of his cock as you move your mouth up to his tip and suck. Another embarrassing moan falls from his lips and begins to thrust his hips forward, desperately wanting to fuck your mouth. His needy behavior amused you, so you allowed him to feel in control for this moment. Scaramouche's thrusts are sloppy as he facefucks you; no longer caring about all the whiny noises he keeps making. You hollow your cheeks whenever it's just the tip between your wet lips, making the sensation absolutely wild for him.

His hips stutter and his cock swells; you know he's about to cum. With this knowledge, you take his length as deep as you can and tighten your throat around him yet again. Scaramouche cries out, throwing his head back and squeezing his eyes shut as he keeps his grip on your head. He empties his load, shooting thick ropes of cum down your throat which forces you to swallow immediately, lest you choke. HIs grip finally relaxes and you pull back off of his cock, coughing slightly and wiping your mouth with the back of your hand.

Scaramouche looks down at you with a glassy-eyed look and one corner of his lips upturned in a lazy smirk, "Too much for you?" You bark out a laugh as you rise to your feet, "I wasn't the one making all those high-pitched noises~" He rolls his eyes, slumping back against the wall, "Whatever. I bet you make those noises too." You give a sly smile, "Only under the right circumstances.." He raises an eyebrow, straightening up, "And what circumstances would those be?" You look him up and down and then smirk, "Guess you'll have to let me bother you later and you might just find out."

Scaramouche's eyes trail you closely as you leave the room. He lets out a breath and tugs his pants back up then threads his fingers through his hair that was now damp with sweat. If he could feel like this every time your insufferable self came to annoy him, maybe he could get used to your little routine. Besides, maybe, just maybe, he could keep you for himself and give into silly delusions of affection that he swore he would never let affect him again.

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a/n: i finally caved and wrote a fic for scarapookie

[elainsgirl]

"he would have NEVER questioned the caldron or her bond with Lucien because IT WOULD NOT MATTER TO HIM" the thing is the mating bond does matter. The main obstacle that Rhys brought up in relation to elriel was the unwanted mating bond. Had it not been for the bond, he wouldn't have interrupted them and forbidden Azriel from pursuing Elain. And of course it matters to Azriel who grew up believing that the bond was sacred. It was huge that he questioned the Cauldron despite his respect for it. And I doubt he would have questioned it if he truly did not believe that it was wrong.

We are told that males go crazy when the bond is rejected. But the only one I see going crazy because he has to stay away from Elain is Azriel. He's the one not able to sleep and looking at her headache powder every night. He's the one who has to train at night to distract himself. He's physically in pain when he sees Elain and Lucien.

How would it feel if the person you had feelings for was fated to be with another despite your strong connection? Despite the fact the feelings are mutual. If it wasn't for the mating bond, Elain and Azriel would already be together. And the only reason it hasn't been rejected yet is because it will happen in Elain's book from her pov.

Mating bonds are sacred gifted by the mother or cauldron themselves, its an important part of the fae lives - so to have Azriel stand there and question if his own deity was wrong when it paired elucien together is a big thing especially as this isn’t a sudden thought, it’s something he has been thinking about for a while - “he had never dared to voice the thoughts out loud”

If he simply wanted a mate - he never would have liked Elain, a woman with a mate yet he fell for her anywaysz He fell so hard for her, connected to her so deeply he genuinely believes she could be his soulmate, other half. And thats not a small thing. He was “in love” with Mor for 500 years. 500. Then comes along a sweet little baker - who has him blushing and laughing so joyfully and she managed to make him move on. I agree. Az would have never questioned the cauldron if he actually believed it was right. But he’s there, falling for Elain. Risking death for her, handing her TT - she’s smiling and blushing at him whilst pulling away from her own mate - her mate who hadn’t even realised she was kidnapped, who chose to live away and doesn’t understand Elain as a person. I think another significant thing to realise is - Az is not in the way of elucien. He was away from Elain for most of acosf YET she STILL isn’t getting close to Lucien. There’s still been nothing between them. And unlike elucien stans, Azriel understands that Elain is not interested by her own choice. Every mated couple have always been drawn together even at their enemies stage except from elucien. The only moment I can think off is the single step Elain took towards Lucien but even that was so insignificant it was never mentioned again

YES! does Lucien yearn for his mates’ acceptance? Sure. But its AZRIEL who yearns for ELAIN, the person. The simple fact he was avoiding her and moved away from Elain just bcs of how deeply he felt shows that this is genuine. Its not two people rebounding, its not some superficial feelings. Its raw and deep. Azriel is literally restless all because of Elain whilst Lucien is content to be on a whole other land apart. And even when he does come for the NC its not always to see his mate, not Elain, but his “mate” - The difference between the two men is so clear and only one is giving mother mate behaviour. Azriel 🤝 Rhysand after acotar.

Can you just imagine the moment Az looked at Elain and wished she was his mate? Looked at her and realised that she was perfect and felt like he had met his soulmate but ofc thats a stupid thought, she already has a mate so he pushes these thoughts down and down, trying to deny the connection he feels w elain bcs it shouldn’t be possible. Yet that one night, where she gives him offer and permission…the one night where Nessian became mates and it clicked to him that something might he wrong w the cauldron…the small little hope he had that Rhys might’ve agreed or understood where he was coming from only to have his feelings and thoughts twisted by his own brother and then told to stay away from someone he clicked w

All because of a mating bond neither Elain or Lucien asked for or seem happy about. All bcs a bond > anything else.

I actually think if Mass had Elain reject the bond early on that would have gone so well for elucien and given them an actually good, unique story but she didn’t. The bond will only be broken in elains book where we get HER feelings on the matter and WHY she is breaking it.

[idontmindifuforgetme]

Hi!! You mentioned in a post with a summary of what you’ve achieved in 2023 that you expanded your friend circle by making more friends. How did you do that? 🥲 I’m working and although my colleagues are nice, I keep them at arm’s length and most of my friends from school and college are in different parts of the country. I’ve always been introverted with a small circle of friends so loneliness hits me hard sometimes

thank you!!

Speaking as someone who was on both extremes of the spectrum (having no friends and lots of friends)—it’s genuinely about putting yourself out there. The moment I stopped thinking it was hard to make friends, making friends became so much easier to do. Aside from my uni friends, I’ve made friends in so many other places. Once I was studying at the library and a girl approached me. We exchanged numbers and are getting coffee soon. Made friends w the barista at my favorite boba place. Made friends w the girl who does my eyebrows (she’s my age and is also a stem major). I’ve made friends through other friends. It really is that easy if you’re okay w the possibility of rejection, and don’t allow your ego to stop you from approaching people in the appropriate context.

There will be bad eggs. That is completely natural. We move on. There is an infinite number of opportunities to make other friends. Internalizing this has saved me so much unnecessary stress.

Join a book club. Volunteer for a cause you’re passionate about. Join a class at your gym. These are all such easy ways to make friends, bc you already know you have at least one interest in common w the people present. Better yet!! You also get something from it, bc even if you don’t socialize that well, at least you’re working out or volunteering or engaging in an activity you’re passionate about. It’s a win-win. Just don’t operate from a place of “I NEED to make friends here or else it’s a failure,” bc you’ll end up taking things too seriously and not enjoying yourself. Enjoying yourself is the whole point. There are 8 billion people on this planet. Rest easy knowing friends are guaranteed if you’re willing to look for them, however long it may take.

Also!! An important thing I learned is it’s okay to compartmentalize friends. I have friends I pretty much exclusively party w, friends I only work out w, friends I only go on study dates w… and then I also have a core unit of close friends who go beyond just being friends for enjoyment. It’s fine if you don’t immediately make friends who are essentially your friends for life. That’s extremely rare, so just be patient. Don’t write off people you don’t have this cerebral connection with. Maybe I’m going against the grain here, but I think casual friendships serve a purpose in our lives too. Don’t force connection trying to break past the superficial stages of a friendship—deep bonds like this only form organically. Just relax, put yourself out there, and have fun doing it <3

[bloogers-boogers]

do you have any more yandere/possessive kyle brain juice?? 👀👀

Oh~ I see I got a risk taker here 💅

I wouldn’t say I’m into the idea of Kyle going all yandere on Cartman, cause I just don’t see that happening because I feel it’s too far off from his character unless it’s some gag then maybe?

However, I DO see him sabotaging alot of Cartman’s relationships like some crazy obsessive psychopath.

If Cartman were to marry somebody while he’s actually been around Eric for the longest time waiting patiently for an opportunity, then yes, you could bet he would try sabotaging the wedding and if he fails he’ll try to break their marriage somehow.

I see Kyle as this sly bitter man who wants things handed to him even if he outright says outloud that people have to work hard to get what they want to archive. And yes, you could see Kyle working his ass off for superficial things, to boost his imagine as a man who has got his shit together.

However behind walls he's far from that, he's a sad lonely broken man who's only goal in life is to pursue this image of what's considered normal for a man his age "follow the typical stereotypes" of what you're supposed to be doing instead of what he truly would want to do.

And the only mistake he's done is not working or even attempting to change his relationship with Cartman; the only person worth Kyle's wait.

The only person he'd dive deep inside a abyss for, actually make an effort to change, the only person who'll give him that life he so desperately craves; one that isn't planned, one that's unexpected, thrilling in a sense. He loves how unpredictable Cartman is and what chaotic things it'll bring alongside with into his life.

They're ladies that come and go; Kyle is shit when it comes to relationships cause he is a closeted cartmansexual! Jsjsjs he's so down bad for Cartman man, he subconsciously puts their dynamic onto the women he's dating sometimes just to make it 'spicy' and interesting, even being an ass and intentionally forcing them to eat more.

It's sad cause it's shown in canon that Cartman can move on from this obsession with Kyle but Kyle can't.

He so craves Cartman's soul to be only bonded to him even if denies it with a passion.

He'll preferred a hundred times over the choice of Cartman being just as alone and miserable as him than for Cartman to be happy with out him.

So I can picture him snapping at some point, photoshopping Cartman with some woman making it look he was having an affair and sending it to his wife and anonymously spreading doubts to her.

Considering in this au I see Kyle being still considered a "close friend" for Cartman and his family. I see Cartman's wife knocking at the door in the middle of the night with just her night robe and slippers on while her makeup was a pouring mess. Kyle feigned ignorance and added a small gasp which was completely fake, "what happened, Elizabeth?" He rested his hand on her shoulder to mimic sympathy, gesturing inside, "come on in, I'll make you a cup of coffee."

She explained with full detail of what happened as Kyle nodded attentively while sipping his cup of coffee.

"I just- why would Eric ever do this to me? I never thought he'd be the type of man that-" she began bawling once more; devastated. Kyle wince by the noise she emitted.

Kyle denies with his head now feigning disbelief despite wanting to kick her out and get back to bed, "well, it is Cartman and I did warned you before marrying him that he was— something."

She wiped her tears, nodding now "understanding" Kyle's "concerning" intentions before, "you always been such a great friend, Kyle," she smiled sadly standing up from the table as she approached him as he rested himself in the counter.

"I should've just listened to you from the start, you we're just worrying for me and I shoved all away your warning and I'm so sorry," she grabbed Kyle's free had in a pleading gesture.

Kyle had to hold back a mischievous smile, before placing his cup in the counter, "no hard feelings he's quite a good actor."

"So you do believe he actually did cheat? Tell me the truth, Kyle, you know him better than anyone-"

'You got that right,' Kyle thought shallow.

"You're his friend so you must know if he do such thing."

'Surprisingly he would not, but you should know that if you actually knew him.'

"Look Elizabeth," he shush her hand away courteously, as he touched the tiles of the counter with his fingers, "Cartman's my friend, but I can admit when he's a bigoted selfish lying dick. Trust me, he definitely cheated on you."

Elizabeth bawled even harder and smash her face against Kyle's chest, Kyle looked at her in disgust cause he knew damn well she was gonna leave all her damn snot all over his pj's.

After a couple of minutes she calmed down and immediately came on to him, grabbing his arm and pressing her knee against his crotch, whispering in a sultry manner, "maybe I should try paying him back with the same coin?"

Any man would've folded, however Kyle wasn't one of them unfazed and indifferent to her provocative touch.

Kyle thought for a moment, this would definitely guarantee Cartman leaving her. However if he ever found out he was the one to had slept with her Cartman would never forgive him for it.

Besides, a easy slut like her was not deserving of his body, so he pushed her away denying with his hand, "I'm not the type of man who'll volunteer in adultery. Besides, Cartman's still my friend whatever goes on with you guys isn't my issue to get involved with." He smiled lightly, "however I do wish you much luck."

And with that she left quite bitter for being rejected but took it as initiative to start packing her shit and leave Cartman.

Kyle smiled proud and accomplished of himself while taking another sip of his now cold coffee.

[letters4amira]

06th march, 2023 ; our second eclipse

But over time, you showed me the true beauty and power of love. In a million subtle and not so subtle ways, you let me know that love doesn’t have to be confined to grand gestures. Rather, it can manifest itself through everyday acts of kindness, compassion and affection.

My Love,

When I first met you, I had no idea what true love felt like. All I had were half-baked notions of what it should look like from movies, books and other people’s relationships. I was unsure of whether this intense emotion was something I was capable of.

I learnt that love means cherishing every single moment we spent together, both big and small. It’s a commitment to accept and support each other through all the highs and lows that life throws our way. That it’s not a superficial emotion but one rooted in trust, honesty and a mutual understanding of our relationship.

I long for you.

I am lost in longing as I think of how it feels to be in your embrace. With every caress of your hands I feel the warmth spreading through my body, bringing with it an intensity that fills me with desire.

I am yearning for your touch, craving it more and more with every second that passes. The thought of having you explore my body is electrifying, sending tingles down my spine as I imagine how it will feel. Your touch alone has the power to set my legs trembling, an uncontrollable force taking hold as pleasure courses through my veins.

I ache for you to show me the heights of pleasure that I have yet to experience. To fill me with a love and longing that I have been searching for. You have become a part of my heart and soul, a craving I cannot control and no longer try to resist. All I can think of is having you closer, closer to me. I want you and all the things you can make me feel.

I think of you.

In those short, seemingly insignificant moments between each second of my life, my thoughts naturally drift to you. Those moments are fleeting, but to me they represent a bond that’s stronger than I ever could have imagined. Even when we’re not together, your spirit lives in the spaces between seconds of my life, comforting me and inspiring me to be better.

Every time I am counting down to the start of a new day, the finish of a long project, or even the beat of a favorite song, I am reminded of you. In those times when my mind races ahead, sometimes to doubt, sometimes to anxiety, it is you that brings me back to the present. Even in the hard times, your presence gives me peace, providing the assurance that I can always be brave enough to push through.

No one else fills these spaces the way that you do. You may not even realize it, but it is in these silent moments between seconds when my love for you is most strong. Although it’s true that words fail to accurately convey the importance of this bond, my heart is brimming with admiration, gratitude and awe that someone like you could ever exist in my life.

I love you no matter what.

Even though we've had our share of fights and misunderstandings, it has only brought us closer together. Despite our moments of tension, I always manage to find a way to stay connected with you. Our arguments are proof that we are not perfect and we both make mistakes. Despite these shortcomings, I love you and your flaws unconditionally.

At times, I may feel frustrated and let out my anger, but deep down I still have the utmost respect for you. Through the struggles, I have come to understand and appreciate you for who you are and for that I'm thankful. No matter what we go through, I will always have a deep love and respect for you.

I have realized that I have become more open-minded and understanding as a result of our misunderstandings. We've had to compromise and see each other's perspectives. In our discussions, I have come to better appreciate what's important to you, and you have been understanding of my needs as well.

My love for you has never wavered, even when the conflict between us arose. Our willingness to continue the fight to love each other and keep working at our relationship has been worth it. It's something I will cherish for the rest of my life. I love you beyond our fights and misunderstandings.

It has been 2 years already, my love. My love for you remained constant as the sky above.

Happy anniversary baby! I hope to spend my lifetime with you. I love you so much wifey <3

My heart will always belong to you.

always,

mtcd

[pangolinheart]



@tk-duveraun

Hmmm... I'm not sure I expressed myself very well here...

I definitely know that the in-game story isn't the end-all be-all of most people's characters, and that things can be added or subtracted or changed to make the story closer to what you want it to be. I just don't have any idea what I want it to be.

And of course the nature of the game means that the MSQ is always going to paint the WoL in a very generic light (except for the "Strong Silent Type" trope) and that it can't focus too heavily on the relationships between the WoL and NPCs. When I said that I was hoping there would be more interacting with the Scions, it wasn't because I was looking for a change in dynamic, I was more hoping that we would get more insight into some of their backgrounds, perspectives, or inner thoughts and feelings about the things they've experienced. We get these kind of thoughts from the twins and a bit from Lyse but never really the others. It doesn't have to be "bonding" with the WoL, it could be shown between other characters without the WoL present/overheard in passing, etc. My thought was more that if I had more insight into their characters I could find a point of intersection between them and Rhiki that I could work in. I hope that makes sense! I don't think I conveyed it well in the previous post, so I apologize! ^^;

I'm also know that there are plenty of opportunities for characters to interact, bond, have adventures, etc. over the course of the game. I've definitely played out these conversations and scenarios in my head (I don't write them down because writing is hard and stressful and, as you said my takes are pretty shallow so i'm usually too embarrassed to share them) many times for other characters - Tataru, Alphinaud, Haurchefant, Edmont, Aymeric, M'naago, Ryne, Sidurgu, Rielle, etc. These conversations would be interesting to no one but me and don't fit neatly into a narrative, so I usually don't take the time and painstaking effort to record them.

I haven't really been able to do this with the three characters we talked about, not because they're not deep and interesting characters but because I just don't feel like their characters fit together well with Rhiki's? And I'm not 100% sure they need to fit together, I was just talking on that because you said that Rhiki's resentment of the Scions was a more interesting point than the backstory portion. If I misinterpreted that, though, you have my apologies! But this goes back to the problem being not "i have an idea but don't know how to make it work" but "i don't have any ideas." If you don't mind me asking, in your opinion, does Rhiki's relationship with these Scions need to drastically improve in order to make her a better character?

In regards to writing dialogue with these characters, I'd be happy to try (or at least try imagining them), but I would need help generating a starting point. Like I said above, I;ve done this with other NPCs before, but I've never done it to these three (except maybe a little with Thancred much earlier in the story) because I just can't for the life of me think of what they would talk about. Awkward small talk about the weather or other general observations would be the only thing I could imagine?

You're right that her dynamic with these Scions is very superficial, but I'm a little worried that there isn't any more meat to find there...

When it comes to Y'shtola, she and Rhiki just don't share any emotional character beats, common goals (beyond saving the world), or common interests. I've mentioned this in other posts but Rhiki has always had a little bit (or a lotta bit) of a crush on Y'shtola, and kind of views her like a cool upperclassman; she's mature and self-assured and confident and smart and pretty and cool. Rhiki still resents her a little bit because she feels unseen and a little used, but she also admires her. This is another reason I don't necessarily feel like it's in-character for Rhiki to start shouting at her. Tbh I don't really want them to end up in a relationship together, because I feel like they just don't have any chemistry (I've read a few WolShtola fics that I really liked, but I could never try to create a similar vibe with Rhiki.) So I don't need to find a way to justify that. Obviously you're right and Y'shtola is a very caring person, though she disguises it. And I'm sure she cares about Rhiki as much as she does the other Scions. I just don't think she'd enjoy spending time with Rhiki. Rhiki is impulsive, kind of immature, loud, overly-friendly, and a little bit annoying (affectionately). While she thinks it's cool and all that Y'shtola is such a scholar, she has no academic aptitude at all (and finds things like history and aetherology and research kind of boring.... So she's probably not interested in becoming better at being a scholar.) I don't think this means that Y'shtola would dislike a person like Rhiki, but I have trouble picturign what the two of them would talk about other than, like, the logistics of saving the world.

Urianger and Rhiki... barely share a common language lol. Once again, Rhiki is decidedly not a scholar so Urianger could talk at her about his theories or recent readings but all she would hear is a high-pitched buzzing... I guess they could talk about Alisaie, since they both care about her? That's kind of their only point of commonality. I actually don't think Urianger would dislike Rhiki, maybe he'd find watching her run around kind of funny or endearing? And Rhiki also doesn't hate Urianger, either. It's obvious that he feels guilty about the times he's lied to the WoL, and that he would protect them from harm if he could... but I think they both know he'd probably do it again if he felt it was what needed to be done. Rhiki could blow up at him and make him feel more guilt for his hand in the Sin Eater thing, but to what end? She wouldn't be telling him anything he doesn't already know, so it's not like it would be a revelation or a breakthrough. And while he does apologize, I don't know that that would make Rhiki an less upset with him. And really by the time Rhiki learns about his plot with the exarch she's less angry and more exasperated and annoyed. She does resent him for being pretty cavalier with her life, but I feel like that's not going to change anything about him. I guess I could write a conversation about that, though like I said I'm not sure it really advances Rhiki's character or their relationship at all. Trying to think of conversations they would have outside of that... I'm not really sure. I'm sure they interacted between plot points at least occasionally throughout the game, but I don't know that there's a way to forge some deep emotional connection between the two of them.

Thancred and Rhiki have the most in common but also have the most contentious relationship. I have thought about various conversations and scenarios of them talking, though I feel like they really drift apart between the beginning of Stormblood and the end of Shadowbringers. I could see writing a conversation with them engaging in some catty gossip during ARR. And through ARR and the end of HW he's probably the only Scion Rhiki would consider talking about her love life with. (This is almost purely because Rhiki does not care what Thancred thinks about her. She doesn't feel like she needs to impress him or make him think she's cool. She thinks he's a disaster of a person, so what's gonna happen if he thinks she doesn't have her life together? Even if he does judge her, it doesn't really matter to her.) That being said, they both go through a lot of heavy emotions in HW, but they really can't share in each other's experiences - Thancred wasn't there for any part of Heavensward and never met Haurchefant. If he was doing good himself he might be able to offer some generic comfort over losing a friend. But he's clearly not doing good during the post-patches. Rhiki can't offer any support through that because she's dealing with her own stuff and because she doesn't really understand his relationship with Minfilia or have any frame of reference from her own life to rely on. Plus, she has complicated feeling about Minfilia that she knows he woudlnt' wnat to hear. He's in Garlemald for most of Stormblood, and while I guess they could have sent messages to each other... about what? Then they meet back up in Shadowbringers and Rhiki is not impressed with how he treats Ryne and how bad his attempts to hide his own baggage are. I've definitely imagined Rhiki yanking him aside to tell him to pull himself together. Early on in the story they get along because they have the most common interests, but as Thancred grows and changes as a character, Rhiki starts to see a lot of the things she doesn't like about herself in Thancred and it drives her absolutely bonkers (though she has no insight into why this is.) Once again, she could lose her temper with Thancred, but what is going to change in their relationship if she does?

So, I guess my questions are: what would make these relationships better or more interesting? Like you said, you don't need a reason to cause a problem, but would Rhiki exploding at the other scions cause a problem that's worth fixing? Or would it solve any existing problems? I guess I'm not sure what the end goal would be. Does Rhiki's relationship with the Scions have to be good by the start of Endwalker for her to be a better character? If there's in-between moments from other parts of the story I could add to make Rhiki and her relationships more interesting, what are they? If I did write scenes or conversations like this, would they be interesting enough that someone who doesn't know anything about Rhiki would be interested in reading it (because writing it's hard to motivate myself to write something that only I'm ever going to look at it)?

I'm not saying any of these things would or wouldn't improve Rhiki as a character, I'm just asking if you think that would and, if so, how and why? I want to "Yes and" all of this but I'm kind of confused... like I said, I'm not really used to or good at creativity, character building, or storytelling, so it's not your fault at all!

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@endarr

Thank you for your input! As I mentioned above, I'm totally aware of and on-board with changing the plot to your own devices and I would happily do it if I had any idea of what I wanted to do!

Rhiki's personality and relationships are already very well-defined in my head, so it's not like I need help getting a feel for her character. Her character has definition, it's just not interesting. ^^;;; (It's a little bit interesting to me, but I can see why it's not to anyone else. I'm super supportive of people writing things just for themselves, I just don't like doing it for me... If it's not interesting to anyone else then i'll get more enjoyment from it in my head than I would on paper.)

Rhiki does have people outside the Scions that she can talk to about her problems, she just doesn't have any on the First. But I'm not sure if she actually needs anyone, from a character standpoint. She does have Ardbert to talk to, so I suppose he could give her advice if need-be. I'm just not sure if I should make fixing her relationships with the 3 Scions she's not particularly close with should be the endpoint.

I can definitely try to write/imagine some dialogue, though! I just want to understand the goal I'm working towards.

The Vishap thing is very interesting!! I don't really think anyone should have to justify non-canon compliance as long as they think it's cool and fun! And if it adds something to the story or character then it's 100% worth it! Like I said, it's not like I think I can't alter the canon in any way, it's just that I can't think of any ideas for altering the canon or making my character more distinctive. If I thought Rhiki doing X with Y character was a fun idea I would absolutely add it to her story, I just can't think of anything for her to do or anyone for her to do it with.

(I may have mentioned in one of these posts that there was a fic idea that I had for a brief moment that I abandoned because it wouldn't work, but the reason "it wouldn't work" wasn't that I couldn't change what happened in canon - this would be an AU anyway - it was that the idea itself lacked internal logic and consistency, and also i couldn't think of an ending lol.)

Thank you for your input, in any case! It is helpful to have multiple perspectives!

@pangolinheart

Why not forget backstory entirely for a moment. The angle of Rhiki's strained relationship with scions and how that ties into the DRK story is really, really good.

Lean into it, remember?

Focus on ShB because it's more or less non optional and later decide if she went home for StB.

Maybe when Rhiki overhears Yshtola and Urianger talking about Rhiki and the Light corruption, she confronts them about it.

She goes at Urianger for acting like things are fine when she's super definitely not fine.

Then she goes at Y'shtola for not caring about her as a person, only as the carrier of the Blessing of Light.

Even with low self-confidence, she can hit her breaking point. She can hear fray in her heart and want... She doesn't know, really, but she can't keep pretending and going along with being the "hero"

I've read many many books on writing and characters and one of my favorite pieces of advice that has stuck with me is someone from Pixar

Paraphrasing: you can use any kind of bullshit, flimsy excuse to CAUSE problems because the story is in RESOLVING them.

Rhiki doesn't need a good reason to start a fight with the Scions, she just needs good reasons for however their relationships end up.

[astrobydalia]

Astro observations👩‍❤️‍💋‍👨

❤️Relationship edition❤️

I was gonna hold off this post until Valentine’s day but I said f*ck it, just post it. 🤷🏽‍♀️Also thank you very much for the love on my last observation post! Hope you enjoy these.💕

****NOTE: when I say “couples” in this post I mean two people that have a relationship. Any sort of relationship: romantic, friendship, etc. 

Credit: Tumblr blog @astrobydalia

❤️ Honestly 7th house & 8th house overlays in synastry should not be taken lightly in my opinion. For better or for worse. It could make for a strong bond, but it also has a lot of potential to become a very unhealthy relationship. If there’s only 7th house overlay then the relationship could be very needy and dependent. If there’s only 8th house overlay there could be constant lingering magnetism and tensions of all kinds for better or for worse. So when you have the best of both worlds in a synastry….. well..... You’d have to look at the rest of the synastry and the composite of course but I’d say to try to handle this energy with care

❤️ When someone’s planet is aspecting your mars in a tense aspect that person may know exactly how to push your buttons and may even do it intentionally (synastry can go either way too)

❤️ I’ve noticed that mars in synastry can have something to do with how you got to know that person or were you met them

❤️ The people you had a deep crush on likely had their moon land in your 4th house. If not a crush you could have a tender spot for that person.

❤️ When someone’s sun lands on the same house your natal sun is this can create a “you are like me” type of vibe once you get to know that person, even if the suns aren't making a conjunction.

❤️ Virgo rising in the composite could mean that the couple met as coworkers

❤️ Libra rising in the composite:

very common in couples where people always asume they are dating even when they’re not or people always say they’d look cute together. This is the type of couple that you see is always together

This rising also means that the couple could have met through somebody else or they met by being formally introduced by another party. They could get together because they have a common friend or something and their relationship is a polite formality.

Also, Libra rising in the composite is said to be very favorable for romantic couples (duh) and I don’t disagree, but this can be a lot of times a very superficial placement (unless the rest of the chart says otherwise). This rising either makes two people inseparable or a lot of times the people stay as mere acquaintances or have a, again, a “polite” relationship or a casual friendship, etc.

Lastly, I’ve noticed that whatever type of relationship the two people might have, with this rising in the composite, ending the relationship comes easy, without any hard feelings or drama  

❤️ Aquarius rising in the composite could mean that the couple met online, in some sort of community like a fandom and/or they bonded over a very specific common interest. Also very common in people that share the same group of friends

❤️ Having someone’s mars landing on your 8th house could mean that you low-key hate or resent that person for no particular reason. Actually, there IS a reason but it’s usually something the person doesn’t want to admit, since the 8th house represents what we deliberately keep under lock & key.

❤️ On the other hand, if you have someone’s personal planets falling in your 4th or your 12th house, that person could give you millions of reasons to hate them but you always forgive them. In the case of the 4th house, this could be bc you have a soft spot for them, but in the case of the 12th house it could mean you idolize them or there could be some naiveness bc you see the “best” in them.

❤️ With Pisces rising in the composite I’ve noticed there’s like this constant dynamic of distance or separation and then being reunited. The couple may feel like their connection is so deep and genuine that it transcends distance and time.

❤️ I don’t exactly know why this is but I’ve noticed a lot of married couples that have their rising in neighboring signs

❤️ I’ve noticed that Saturn in the 7th in the natal chart experience rejection from lovers, like partners suddenly freezing them out, blocking or ghosting them. They could also be the ones doing this as well. These natives either find it hard to find a partner and stay single for a very long time or they’re the type to desperately hold on to someone for YEARS out of the belief that that’s all they have or all they’ve known. These natives could really be prone to just settling for less. Another scenario is that people with this placement are attracted to lovers that restrict them in some way, like partners that constantly tell them what they should or shouldn’t do and stuff like that

❤️ Scorpio rising in the composite could mean that the couple spilled their guts to each other the second they met lol. Could have a dynamic where you are each other’s therapists.

❤️ The house where Venus is in the composite indicates how and what area of life you guys usually get together (Check: Venus in the composite houses)

❤️ Personal planets in tight conjunction to the nodes in synastry could mean that you guys dream about each other

❤️ Air or Leo rising in the composite is common in couples that have a lot of inside jokes

Credit: Tumblr blog @astrobydalia

[thestupidhelmet]

More That ‘90 Show Ponderings

We don’t truly get the inner life of most of the characters. Hence, the hollowness and emotional disconnection I feel while I watched it.

Why isn’t Leia’s life awesome in Chicago? Beyond the fact she’s on the debate team and “not cool”. That’s superficial. Why does she have trouble socializing with kids at school? Does she suffer from social anxiety, or did she end up with a crop of kids in her class who simply aren’t compatible with her (it happens) -- or both?

Do her parents control her day-to-day too much for her to feel the freedom she finally gets when she’s away from them for two months?

Why is Jay a “man-whore”? We know exactly who is parents are. Why would Jackie allow her son to be raised with the Kelso mindset about women? She wouldn’t. Then again, she wouldn’t have married Kelso three times. Still, if Jay does have a deeper core than Kelso, what emptiness is he trying fill by treating girls (pre-Leia) the way he does?

Kelso has six siblings. His parents barely pay him much attention. His sense of entitlement, narcissism, and possessiveness stem from childhood wounding. T7S provides enough details through his actions and dialogue about him and his life that we can understand his inner life.

Gwen and Nate fair better than the other kids in T9S. Because their mother, Sherri, is the Formans’ neighbor and becomes quite involved with Red in particular, we understand her, which helps us understand Nate and Gwen. Also, the one episode where we learn about Gwen and Nate’s fathers and their general absence in their kids’ lives lets us into Gwen and Nate’s psychology.

But why is Gwen an outcast at school? Perhaps because she’s biracial and has a white brother and the kids at her school are narrow-minded idiots. She likes making people uncomfortable, as she states in “That ‘90s Pilot,” and it’s not hard to guess why: it’s a self-protection mechanism.

Nate, though ... why is he a Kelso without being a Kelso? Why is that part of his personality? He displays a sensitivity and an awareness of other people, and he’s monogamous and committed to Nikki despite his sexist and gross boys-will-be-boys bullshit with Jay.

Oz. He’s mostly the punchline-giver and observer of the group. Why does he care about his friends, and why do they care about him? Why are they connected? We see him interact with his friends, but that’s not the same as bonding.

Fez on T7S has the same issue with Eric. We never get any background or foreground of their bond. They interact. We know Fez cares a lot about Eric, but we’re never shown why. But we do see Fez bond with Hyde, Kelso, Jackie, and Donna (to a lesser extent) in significant ways.

Red and Kitty are mostly exceptions to the superficiality that runs through That ‘90s Show. Partly, that’s from us having two-hundred episodes of That ‘70s Show where they feature prominently.

Eric, too, and his relationship with Leia. That part might be the best written of the series so far (except for how hard the show leans into the Star Wars jokes).

The fact That ‘90s Show has only ten episodes doesn’t help, but the writing is the main issue. Within the first ten episodes of That ‘70s Show, we understand Red, Kitty, Bob, Midge, Eric, Donna, Kelso, Fez, Jackie, and Hyde (pre-”Prom Night” [1x19] version) and their relationship dynamics on a deep enough level that the episodes that follow build on what’s already established. That ‘90s Show mostly fails in this regard.

To quote Deanna Troi from Star Trek: The Next Generation, episode “The Loss” (4x10) when she loses her empathic abilities: “I look around me, and all I see are surfaces without depth. Colorless. Hollow. Nothing seems real.”

[abysscronica]

Heyy thanks for clarifying on day 26! I did have another question about his characterization and your take on Kidd’s mental and psyche as well. I noticed in one of your previous answers you said that Kidd and his crew thinks of birdie as “kidd’s stuff.” In that sense could Kidd be unable to legitimately bond with people beyond seeing them as his tools or property? Because I also saw in your Emperor’s story that even Law sees that his mom is treated like an object, so this aspect of Kidd never gets resolved, and his possessiveness over Killer can also be seen as Kidd viewing him as his object/property rather than as a person and that’s why he hates that he got married so much. Like sees him as his partner, but doesn’t accept/acknowledge Killer as a being outside of their partnership basically. Idk if it’d be narcissism or something similar, maybe ASPD/socio/psychopathy, but basically do you think that Kidd has one of those disorders, or lacks the ability to genuinely care about/love those close to him and not be about ownership and pride? For example when he sees that Law’s hurt and tries to hide with sarcasm, and “feels bad;” is that feeling because he wants to keep Law around and is afraid he’ll hate him and leave, or because he “cares” and wants Law to be happy? If so it makes the story incredibly heartbreaking imo but realistic, as birdie deserves better but just accepts the situation, and it reflects dv situations where victims never leave for various reasons.

Just realized that letting birdie go at the end kind of counters this but it has been something that is bugging me about his characterization; not that it’s bad at all lol I think I’m just confused and looking too deep in this xD and sorry that this is so long. I didn’t exactly know how to explain what I mean, so if it doesn’t make much sense I’m sorry 😅

Hey! Sorry it took so long! 😩

Okay, first of all I need to state that I am not a psychologist, nor did I study the subject. I only have a very superficial knowledge of the disorders you mentioned (and I'm sure there are others that may be ascribable to the situation), so I wouldn't dare to assign any of these to characters I write, not without the proper research on the matter first. I characterize Kid, and all the other One Piece characters I include in my stories, just through the observation of their demeanor upon reading the manga, and I follow through based on the interpretation that forms in my mind as a result. Most of the time I do not sit down and outline the story, instead I create a situation and I let the characters act as they please according to their personality. I hope this makes sense to you? It's hard to explain.

Now, coming to your actual question: no, I do not think Kid only views his loved ones as objects. Especially not Killer, whom I'm sure he deeply admires since he was very young. Sure, he's possessive with some of his closest people; yes, he longs to be the center of their world, but he does not wish to force them into something they don't desire. As you said, you have the ultimate proof at the end of Captive: he lets birdie go exactly because he couldn't think of another way to break the power dynamics that took form between them. That is the very opposite of viewing her as an object or his property, on the contrary, it's precisely the toxic relationship that he's trying to escape. If you read through the lines, at the end of the book, it's birdie (not Kid) who's willing to settle for such dynamic, and he's the one who refuses because he wants her feelings to be authentic. Kid puts her wellbeing (or what he perceives as such) above his needs.

The relational patterns in Emperors are probably a little more difficult to piece together at times, mainly because there's a prominent time skip and we don't see how the relationship between Kid and birdie evolves through the years. Being his woman, Kid does view birdie as "his", in the sense that they are in a very exclusive relationship, a jealous one where either partner cannot even look at someone else. And it should be stressed that this goes both ways. Birdie is no better than Kid, she just has more self control. They are aware of it and they accept it (they get off to it, even). But should either of them express the desire to leave, the other would never try to prevent it by acting against their will. They want to be together as long as they're both in love. There's something else I can add to their relationship, which I wrote through the lines (but not too much really). Birdie is slightly masochist, or a "sub" if you will (she can be a switch). Kid is obviously a sadist, so they pair well together. Over the years, they learned to read each other to the faintest signs. This is a key you can use to read the scene in Emperors where Kid hurts birdie's hand. They both needed a cathartic punishment for what happened, Kid to inflict and birdie to receive, so they could move on and leave it in the past. Whether this relationship is unhealthy, toxic, and to what extent, I leave it to the reader to decide. Everyone can bring their own moral compass to the table and read it as they prefer.

Killer is a very different matter, of course. The fact that he accepted Kid as a captain doesn't take away from his own personality and needs, and it seems that Kid never questioned it. For example, Killer's own insecurity (maybe even self-loathe) pushed him to wear a mask all the time. I'm sure Kid isn't a big fan of this idea, but he lets his mate do his thing. At Sabaody, when we are first introduced to the crew, Killer was walking around causing ruckus by himself, and Kid was nowhere to be seen. More than "his stuff", I think Kid views Killer as a staple of his adventure (life?) since the beginning. Add his natural possessiveness into the mix (I'd never deny that he is in fact a possessive man), and you see that he'll naturally treat as antagonizing whatever threatens to divide them, like Killer's wedding. He just needs time to realize that Killer isn't going anywhere and adjust to the new routine.

This post is becoming quite long so I'll quickly wrap it up by saying that, in my mind, Kid just wants his children to be happy. You're gonna see that distance is going to do quite good for him and Law.

I hope this replies to your question. If not, feel free to drop another one for further clarification!

[sams-fluffadise]

I got yet another wonderful ask for Comfort Prompt #32 but sadly I lost the ask. The prompt was “You’re allowed to be weak, you know.” for 00Q.

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„Bond?“

The only answer Q got were irregular puffs and pants that didn‘t exactly manage to inspire confidence in the young Quartermaster‘s mind. Nevertheless he kept talking.

„007, please come in…. A simple sign of comprehension would suffice.“

That got him a grunt that could mean everything between acknowledgment or pained last sounds.

„Fair enough. Perhaps a verbal sign as well?“

It took another few minutes until the panting decreased, the action scaring Q into pulling up the agents vital signs. But while his bpm was rather high, the rest seemed to be in the realm of normality.

Finally, Bond‘s side of the comm‘s crackled to life: „Can‘t a man get shot at in peace around here?“

Q sighed in relief, trying not to let any of it influence his voice. God knows, Bond‘s head was already big enough without knowing how much Q cared.

„Since it is my job to keep you alive, I am going to say no.“

For a moment, it was silent between them while Bond calmed his breathing and Q asked himself if his nonchalance had succeeded. If he could see the agent smirk, he would have his answer.

After a minute the Quartermaster cleared his throat, „I don‘t have eyes on you, 007. Do you know your location.“

„Not since I diverged from the main road down some ally about ten minutes ago.“

Q huffed a sigh and opened a map, feeding it the small amount of data he had.

„At least that gives me a radius. What do you see?“

„Nothing.“

„Nothing? Come on, I am not asking for a street name but at least the buildings around you?“

„I don‘t know. I jumped into some window and closed it behind me. Can‘t be opened from the inside.“

The Quartermaster started to rub his temples, a migraine already starting to settle in.

„Well, then find a bloody door, Bond!“

The agent mumbled something about impatient youth before hissing like a cat whose tail was stepped on.

„Bond?“

Another hiss, before: „Give- Give me a minute. I have a bit of a stab-wound-situation here.“

„What?! Why didn‘t you say anything?“

Frantically Q pulled up the vitals again and indeed, his blood pressure was very slowly decreasing, indicating that he was actively bleeding.

“Alright, put pressure on the wound, as much as you can.”

“Thanks, Q, I hadn’t thought of that yet.”, how the double-oh agent could still be sarcastic while his survival critically depended on the next few minutes, perhaps hours if they were lucky, the Quartermaster would never know.

“Shove it, smart ass. What does the blood look like?”

“Red?!”, Bond tried to huff a laugh that was immediately followed by a pained groan.

Q would never admit it out loud but it served him right for being so difficult.

“Light or dark? Is it pulsating or has bubbles?”

“Dark and neither.”

The Quartermaster finally took time to take a deep breath. “Okay, so neither a vein nor an artery was hit. Just keep the pressure on, find a clean cloth to do it with.”

Bond gave a grunt, that was followed by some fabric rustling.

“So…”, Bond sighed, “are you free for dinner after I get back, Quartermaster?”

Q gave a startled laugh. “Only you could think of that now.”

“Come on, give me a break.”, the agent smiled but there was an urge in his voice. An urge to talk about anything that wasn’t the - only superficial but still bleeding - hole in his stomach.

Q sobered and swallowed hard. To a lot of people the spies employed by her majesty’s secret service seem invincible but not to their Quartermaster. He sat with then, right in their ears, as they ran, as they fought and as they occasionally lost. He stitched them up, not just physically. Their safety was his duty and he would give everything he had before he would ever admit defeat.

“You’re allowed to be weak, you know. To admit you’re scared.”

Bond paused for a long time before replying: “I’ve had more stab wounds than I can count. It would be absurd to be scared.”

“Practice might make perfect at a lot of things, but not at getting stabbed. I won’t judge you for being human, James.”

“So, what? You want me to admit I am scared of dying? Scared of meeting my end alone in the middle of nowhere?”, Bond’s voice was drowned in ridicule, so much of it that the truth of his words would become clear to everyone with an ounce of empathy.

Q’s heart ached for the agent. Ached to be there with him, hold his hand and reassure him. They both knew Bond wasn’t going to die today, his wounds far too superficial for that. But they also both knew that the agent’s chances for dying on the job became higher every time he was send out to a mission.

“You’re not alone. I am here.”

Bond smiled softly. “That you are.”

[blackradandmad]

why blippi is rotting yr children's brains

preface: i literally expect no one to read this. it is an essay length, strong opinion piece critiquing a niche youtube-based children's show that i don't expect most of y'all to even have knowledge of lol. but like, i promise that even if you know nothing about what i'm talking about, in my incredibly, super humble opinion, it's a good piece of writing and interesting nonetheless. anyway if you read this whole thing for some reason yr really hot and we should kiss.

i thoroughly vet everything my child watches before he watches it, episode by episode. and we rarely watch youtube for entertainment; we usually just look up educational videos when he has a question about something and wants more detail than i can provide him. and that's mainly because children's content on youtube is so fucking troubling and distressing. i don't judge parents who give their children a tablet at a restaurant at all bc i've been there and sometimes it's easier on everyone to just put on a video and avoid a giant scene, but i do judge parents who just leave their children alone with youtube kids on autoplay.

take stevin john, a literal millionaire who got famous from dressing up as a silly character called blippi and going on tours of places like aquariums, zoos, construction sites, etc and posting it on youtube. this has branched into a whole empire of blippi videos, hulu shows and specials, live shows and tours (that he outsources to another character actor), merchandise and so on. this 30-something year old man cites his main influence as being mr. rogers, but i question if he's ever even seen an episode of that program.

mr. rogers had no background in early childhood development or media production, but he revolutionized the world of children's media, because he respected his audience and didn't shy away from real world situations, all while creating a show with an enormous heart. mr. rogers begins his episodes by inviting the viewer in, literally changing his attire to be more comfortable, and talking about/doing things he genuinely cares about. whereas mr. rogers calmly and maturely addresses the viewer, blippi puts on a high pitched, contrived voice, interjecting every other sentence with a forced exclamation such as, "teehee! we're having so much fun!"

i don't find it a coincidence that john (blippi) is a veteran, either. his videos are completely devoid of the absurd, abstract, childlike thinking that makes children's media fun, creative, and entertaining. his thinking and process is methodical, devoid of emotion, and very superficial. this line of thinking clearly shows the kind of creative sterilization and emphasis on sameness and conformity instilled in the military. blippi simply observes things and interacts with them in a stale, matter-of-fact way. "this ball is purple! this ball is pink! anyway... what's over there? teehee! a car! vroom, vroom!" objects are colors, toy cars don't do anything but drive, curiosity is simply not encouraged.

he uses the "it's educational!" excuse to hide the fact that his show lacks everything that makes media a valuable resource for children to consume in the first place. further than identifying colors, numbers, and the occasional letter or shape, there is just this total lack of children's need for social and emotional development. when mr. rogers breaks the fourth wall to address the viewer and let them know they're special, it feels authentic and natural, because we've spent the last half hour building whole worlds with diverse characters and unique stories in a pretend neighborhood, learning about and enjoying different musical instruments, being exposed to and making friends with (even if parasocially, it is still a real bond to children when done properly) children who are similar to us in character regardless of physical or environmental differences, feeding the fish, making art together, and so on. when blippi tells the viewer, "you are very special, and i enjoy spending time with you!" it falls completely flat and feels unearned, because the last half hour was spent running around a soft play center pointing at bright, colorful objects, visiting interesting locations like farms or fruit production factories while failing to acknowledge the humanity of the humans actually working there (everything is machine or product focused; the human workers are simply an extension of the machine), learning "fun facts" about elephants that just list attributes of elephants, not taking the opportunity to inform the viewers of elephants' intelligence, or diet, or matriarchal society. it is a loud, sensory overwhelming display of a man so disconnected from the social and emotional needs and desires of children that he assumes they're stupid, easily entertained idiots who only need some silly dances and fast-moving cartoon graphics to give their attention (meaning time and desire to purchase products meaning $$$). john clearly views his audience as a means to gaming the algorithm and ultimately a paycheck by the hollow way he addresses them.

the show is so narcissistic, so focused on all the fun blippi is supposedly having, but he lacks any of the character traits that make individual children's show hosts memorable, so much so that he was able to have someone else who doesn't even vaguely resemble him dress as blippi and impersonate him and host the show or appear at live shows, and it went unnoticed by most of his toddler and child audience. the show is so formulaic and the character of blippi is so unmemorable that instead of taking the blue's clues route of developing a story of the host leaving for college and his brother now stepping in, or making some sort of believable excuse for the change in actors, they can simply swap him out with some random guy and not acknowledge it at all. although a comedy show for older children, the amanda show in no way could or would try to replicate the show with the same name but swapping out amanda bynes with a random teenage girl who is clearly not amanda bynes. it's weird and nonsensical and shows that his character is so much of a farce put on for a paycheck that not even his dedicated audience is affected or even cares when he is replaced by a random, unknown person.

this is completely garbage content made by an opportunist with no experience with children who saw his nephew watching children's youtube content, took it at complete surface level and still hasn't realized that while children's content only looks and feels so easy, entertaining, and enriching because it is so hard to do well. even with outsourcing his music, that aspect of the show still sucks. famous and successful children's musician, raffi, is known for his song describing the life of a little white whale, called "baby beluga." it opens with a calm strumming of his guitar, followed by the lyrics, "baby beluga in the deep blue sea/swim so wild and you swim so free/heaven above/sea below/and a little white whale on the go." is it silly and kind of pointless? yes, but the point is that he is captivating children and showing them the fun of listening to music, dancing, singing, and appreciating art. the "excavator song" featured in an episode of blippi about construction vehicles opens with what sounds like a default garageband loop and the flatly sung lyrics, "i'm an excavator/i'm an excavator/hey dirt, see you later/i'm an excavator." i don't feel i have to meticulously analyze the aforementioned lyrics; the stark contrast should speak for itself.

i have a million more criticisms about both blippi specifically and youtube children's content as a whole, but this is already so long and i doubt many people will get this far anyway. it's an issue i was completely apathetic towards until i had my own child and had to wean him off these kinds of junk food shows because i realized the fast-paced visuals and bright colors and repetitive songs/lyrics were putting him in this spaced-out, fugue state, and he thought he could demand this show or that show whenever he wanted. the moment he started regularly yelling things like, "watch! cars!" or "no! click it!" i knew i had to be a lot more invested in the things he watched even if just for entertainment or as a soothing message. i showed him an episode of mr. rogers yesterday and feared it would be too slow to hold his attention, but he was mesmerized, greeting and interacting with mr. rogers verbally, asking me, "what's that?" to different objects on the screen. since purging this low-brow children's entertainment, he has had a noticeable increase in attention span and concentration, can focus on a task for longer amounts of times, is more likely to "read"/look through books without me initiating it, and doesn't throw a fit when the tv/my laptop is off.

i just know that for me, growing up with so much unsupervised internet access definitely led me to real-world pain and consequences, and it seems like now children are born with an iphone as an extension of their arm. if my child is going to be consuming videos, i'm definitely supervising every second and am going to be highly critical of the videos and the credentials (or lack thereof) of the creators and team behind it. but i also know, from pure observation admittedly, that parents letting youtube kids autoplay parent their children for hours at a time is not an uncommon occurrence. and it worries me that a generation of children are being raised on videos that rely on being as loud and bright and superficially enjoyable as possible. what's the use of a child knowing their colors and alphabet if they don't know how to treat people with kindness and empathy and respect? there is something wrong for a children's show host to plug the spelling of his name at the end of his videos ("well, that's the end of this video. but if you wanna watch more of my videos, just type in my name! can you spell my name with me? b-l-i-p-p-i!") after essentially rotting his audiences' brains for a half hour. there's something so insidious about the prioritization of naming different parts of construction vehicles over honest depictions of and conversations about dealing with feelings, or why someone with autism may act differently than you, or what to do when you feel lonely, or ways to make art and express yrself creatively. also, not to mention the blatant police propaganda and outright worship is seriously jarring; as a black mother to a visibly non-white child, i cannot sit there and watch blippi show kids how to be a bootlicker for the shittiest profession on earth, but that could be a whole essay in and of itself.

anyway, thanks for reading, if yr looking for quality children's content, i recommend, in no specific order: mr. rogers, sesame street, the electric company, molly of denali, daniel tiger, bluey!, blue's clues, the odd squad, word party, trash truck, puffin rock, uhh... that's definitely not an extensive list but that's just off the dome!!! ok bye y'all <333

[shinpredicts]

Pick a Red Velvet Member - What type of friend are you?

How to do this reading

1. Be calm and be comfortable. Close your eyes. Focus on the question. Then pick the member in the photo below for your reading.

2. Do not pick your bias. Just pick who draws you in the most from the photo. If you are drawn to more than 1 member, then check out that other reading too. This is a general reading so take what resonates and leave what doesn't behind!

Front to back

#1. Wendy/Son Seungwan

#2. Yeri/Kim Yerim

#3. Irene/Bae Juhyun

#4. Kang Seulgi

#5. Joy/Park Sooyoung

1. Wendy/Son Seungwan

You are like a parent to your friends. They like to seek you for advice. You also like to parent them a lot. You like to lecture them or share your knowledge with them. They enjoy ranting/complaining to you or sharing their feelings with them.

You look after your friends a lot. You genuinely care about them and will take time to listen to their concerns. You are patient with them. Sometimes you get tired of being an "emotional trash bin".

You are generally known as the mature one among your friends. You trust your close friends a lot. You can sometimes be too generous and people can take advantage of you. When you really think someone is your friend, they are like family to you. You won't ditch your friends for your lover. You are very loyal as a friend.

2. Yeri/Kim Yerim

You are the fun and hyper friend. You are very energetic and love to have fun. You light up the room. You generally have a lot of friends but not many deep friendships.

You love to try new things. You're often the one calling up or messaging people to hang out. You love chatting with others too. You love socializing with friends and just chilling with them. You love doing activities with them too.

3. Irene/Bae Juhyun

You are very independent. You have very few friends. You keep to yourself mostly. You either don't mind being lonely or do feel lonely with the lack of friends you have. You can sometimes secretly admire people who have a lot of friends.

You may be too busy to hang out with friends or meet friends. It's also possible that you are in an environment that's hard for you to make friends. Another possibility is that you have closed off yourself due to pain from the past. You may also are being bullied or have been bullied. It's also possible that you are or were a bully.

You tend to be more interested in your hobbies, career, school work and etc than about friendships.

4. Kang Seulgi

You have some friends, but not too many where your social circle gets messy. You like having deeper, more meaningful connections. It can take you some time to open up to someone fully. You take your time to observe someone before making sure they can really be your friend.

Usually others approach you first to be friends but sometimes you will approach them too. You often meet friends unexpectedly like through group projects, work, friend of friends, online platforms, etc. It somehow feels like fate to connect with them.

Your friends can sometimes feel you're sort of quirky or offbeat but they appreciate your humor and friendliness. They think you're pretty unique and interesting.

5. Joy/Park Sooyoung

Your friendships tend to be pretty superficial. You can hang out with people and have fun, but these sort of friendships are mostly just for fun or business. You have very, very few trustworthy and reliable friends. It's possible you have none too. Your friends are mostly there to use or gain from you in some way. The friendships feel very fake like those Instagram posts where people take photos of the friendship just to show off.

You can party a lot with your friends like go out with them to events, clubs, concerts, etc. You bond mostly with your friends via interests; however, nothing personal or deep is exchanged. Most of the talk is about gossip, drama, or the interests that you share. In some ways you can feel rather lonely despite seemingly having a group of friends.

[maschotch]

venus and taurus for hotch and derek!

venus: describe your ideal type

ugh. this answer’s gonna be kinda complicated for both of them, just bc both of them look for different things depending on what kind of relationship they’re trying to have. especially because neither of them are particularly shallow enough to base attraction simply on appearance. if they were at least a little superficial it’d make it easier lmao

hookups? derek’s pretty open about it. as long as there’s something about them that draws his attention in some way: whether it’s looks, style, physique, humor, charm, there’s gotta be some kind of spark to pull him in. hotch is a little more particular if only because he doesn’t necessarily feel that ~urge as often and can be more picky about it. which makes it easier and harder to nail down his criteria. he spends more time with them beforehand, so they’re either really attractive or they’re capable of holding their own in a conversation.

relationships? once again it’s kinda tricky for both of them. derek’s a little easier because he has pretty simple things to look for: intelligence, understanding, and endearing. see: spencer. as much as he likes being in control, he likes someone who will catch him off his guard. he likes it when someone will give him a hard time. hotch, more than anything, looks for someone with a gentle heart. he tends to surround himself with those kind of people anyway (like the whole team <3) but it is a quality he values that much. even if he feels kinda guilty about it, he wants someone who will make him feel loved. someone who makes him feel safe.

taurus: what’s your favorite food?

they’re both horribly sentimental lmao and even if they didn’t necessarily have the best childhood, the mournful way the past haunts them really amplifies a sense of nostalgia. derek feels the warmth of his mother’s apple pie deep in his bones. hotch feels the fleeting sense of security from his mother’s embrace when he makes any of the comfort food she would cook for him as a child. for both of them it expands to other foods as well, even if those are the most meaningful: derek loves hot dogs and hoagies; hotch loves biscuits and sausage gravy. sometimes its stuff that the team will sometimes give them shit for lol like deep dish or grits. they definitely bond over a shared love of fried chicken tho and have the others compare their regional recipes

they do have their own preferences for general cuisine that doesn’t have as much to do with their childhood (but you can still trace at least some aspect to it back to their roots). hotch likes chinese food (his affinity for spice draws him more toward sichuan, but he likes others as well). its why they end up getting chinese half the time when they all go out for team dinners lmao. morgan likes puerto rican food, especially things he used to pick up on the go from restaurants/food trucks like empanadas or sweet plantains—things that his friends’ parents would cook for him when he came over.

send asks :^)

[fortisfiliae]

Promised Part 15 - Tom Riddle x reader

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Summary: In this story, Tom didn’t grow up as an orphan, but with his grandfather and uncle. Reader’s sister got very sick and the Gaunts offer their help. But not without asking for something in return.

Disclaimer: Please be aware that I don’t condone any of this in real life. (GIF is not mine)

A/n: This chapter is written from Tom’s pov. Reader will be addressed in third person.

Warnings: Arranged marriage

Word count: 2k

Part 15 - A Dagger for a Devotee

Now that all of the ingredients for the antidote were gathered and added, the potion was as good as finished. It just had to simmer on for a while. If the instructions were correct, it would be finished on June 29th, which was the last day of school. Graduation day. One day before the wedding. 

The wedding. Tom thought about it a lot. It would happen. That, he knew. The plan was to give Elsie the antidote on their wedding day so that she would be completely healed and they could still keep a low profile towards Marvolo and Morfin. Their wish would be fulfilled then, and even if the Gaunts were going to ask for more, they wouldn’t know that Elsie wasn’t under their might anymore. Tom was sure they were going to try to pressure him by threatening to hurt Elsie someday, even when he was married. That was just in their nature. They would never be satisfied.

He wondered how long it would take them to figure out that she had been healed. Weeks, months, years? And how they would react then. Were they going to take out their anger on him? The more he thought about it, the less he cared. He had even fantasised about it if he was honest. That Marvolo would lose his temper and would attack him. Tom had waited so long for an excuse to pay his Grandfather back, his fingers were itching just thinking about it. Oh, the things he would like to do to him were unspeakable and the grin on his face only widened the longer he envisioned them. He would welcome the opportunity with open arms. 

Some nights, when he lay awake and couldn’t just fall asleep yet, Tom wondered if his life would have been different, if he would have turned out to be another person, had he not been brought up by the Gaunts. He didn’t wish for it, like his fiancée had mentioned so often, no, but he still couldn’t help but wonder. Was there a possibility for a different Tom Riddle to exist? One that would live with parents, one that wasn’t as cold and narrow-minded, one that could crack a real good joke to his friends? A funny, warm, kind version of him? His stomach squirmed at the thought. Disgusting. 

He could have turned out like Benjamin Hilt. Merlin’s sake, what a nightmare that would be. To act like him, so loud and bothersome. Head in the clouds, mouth always open and never thinking about any consequences. Hilt had it so easy. But nevertheless, Ben’s attitude was intriguing. Annoying yes, but intriguing. Tom wouldn’t have thought Hilt would be able to keep his muggleborn mouth shut and keep the pact a secret, but he hadn’t told anyone about it yet, as far as Tom was aware. And he didn’t seem to keep his word out of fear, but rather out of belief. Ben wasn’t the type to have deep thoughts, by the looks of it at least, but he had his priorities set. And for that Tom respected him. Everything Ben did seemed to come so easily from within, not wasting one too many thoughts. It was something so deeply ingrained that it must have come naturally. 

He was so different compared to Tom’s friends. Or whatever word one would use for people like Avery, Lestrange and the others. They were nothing more than followers, blind and mindless. They wouldn’t just offer their help to be a good person. They always wanted something in return, even if it was just Tom’s recognition. And he knew, if someone else were to take his place, they would drop him in an instant. Their loyalty was superficial and egoistic. Just as his own. He would drop them too if someone more useful were to show up and solicit themselves. 

That was how it always had been. How he had thought friendships were meant to be. A mutual agreement, quite similar to business. Be polite, make use of a person as much as you can, make sure they’re intimidated enough to keep their knowledge to themselves and wish them well on their way out. Simple, beneficial and most importantly efficient. 

But what his fiancée, Ben and Camille had was so different. He had waited for Camille and Ben to ask for something in return. Weeks had gone by, where he had anticipated for them to come up and ask for a favour. A note from the head boy to get out of detention, or something else. But they hadn’t. They had helped to steal the Banshee tears and were still tending to the potion in the Come and Go Room every day. For nothing? He couldn’t fathom it at first, and only when he thought about it again, it came to his mind that this could be what real friendship was like. 

He didn’t like how much it churned him, how much consideration it had taken to come to this conclusion, when apparently for other people, that was the most natural thing in the world.

Tom obtained a much greater deal of wit than Ben, without a doubt, but yet, Hilt possessed so much more emotional intelligence than Tom could ever dream of. And he was jealous of him. That Ben could just walk through life, listen to his gut and trust that whatever it would tell him would be with good intent. Tom could have made real friends too then. He could have developed that trust to his gut too, if he hadn’t been fed those vicious thoughts by the Gaunts his whole life. He could have even gotten to know a muggle for all he knew, if he hadn’t been told, day after day, how worthless and irrelevant they were. That’s what they had always said. But the Gaunts had lied so often, maybe they had lied about that too. He had believed them for so long that he couldn’t even tell which opinion was his own and which one had been planted in his head by someone else. 

And then came three people who acted against all his values, showing him a glimpse of what life could be like. Everything he knew, his view of the world, as well as his belief, had collapsed in a matter of months. He had learned so many new things, he wasn’t even sure if he knew himself anymore. 

Had he changed? He must have, somehow at least. It was ironic, how the Gaunts’ plan to marry him off to a pureblood witch, who they thought would bring their family safety and respect, turned out to result in the complete opposite. Nothing, not even Marvolo’s paranoia and obsession for being a step ahead had come of use. They all had turned against them in the end, and for what? The faint idea of power and reputation? What worth did those things even have when everyone who bowed down to you only did so out of fear? They would take the first chance they got to stab you in the back with the very dagger you had given them. If you can’t trust your devotees, why bother?

Trust was something he thought of a lot, too. Did someone truly trust him? His fiancée for instance. She had put her faith in his hands several times in the past, yes. But would she trust him with her life? Had he done enough to earn her deepest trust yet? Or would she let him fall too when the opportunity arrived? When the deal was sealed, her sister was free and the Gaunts were powerless. Would she leave him, or would she stay? It kept him up at night when he thought about being alone again. Not because he depended on someone to be there, he was fine on his own. But he couldn’t change the fact that he wanted her to stay. And only her. No one else would do.

No one else had ever awoken that part of him before. That part that wasn’t as selfish, as calculating and cautious. And he knew no one else could. There was something about her, that slight brush of a hand when she touched him, or that unintentional notion of a smile she wore so often that broke out a whirlwind of emotion inside of him again and again. And he still didn’t even know what it was that he felt. It was nerve-racking, this mixture of nervousness, excitement and joy. If he had been able to, he would have buried those feelings long ago, deep down somewhere where they could have never disturbed him again. But he hadn’t. And he was glad about that. No matter how irritating it was, he craved it now. 

He craved to see her as often as possible, the sound of her voice, the touch of her fingers on him. Her mind, her body and everything in between had him longing, thirsting for even more proximity. He ached for that bond so much, it had become a hassle and he needed to suppress it to prevent himself from shying her away. 

But it was hard to feign composure when all he wanted was right there before him and she was so willing to accept his bid. It took all his might not to do what he most wanted and lock her up in a golden cage, where she would remain for him alone. His secret, his very own jewel. But most importantly his.

He couldn’t do that to her, he knew, she wouldn’t allow it. And he wouldn’t dare. He would never dare to add imbalance to the fragile structure they had built over the last year. She had come back to him eventually, day by day. He just needed to remind himself of that. Wait and improve his patience. Trust that she desired him as much as he did her. And by all accounts, she must have. Why else would she treat him the way she did? The idealist in him feasted on the way she acted towards him. How fearless and comfortable she was. How her mood could swing from gentle to feisty in a second, never dreading his reaction. Her honesty, which was the easiest, as well as the hardest thing to give someone, was what he most cherished her for.

Never before had he experienced something so close to perfection. The purity of emotion, so vibrant and raw it nearly hurt. But its absence was even worse, like a bottomless hole that sucked him in and ate him up from the inside. He had become addicted to the feeling and he would do anything to keep it. 

He would marry her, yes, and willingly so. He would do anything she asked from him. But if she was to leave him then, if she would take that dagger and push it into his heart, he knew it would destroy him.

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