#23/12/23

[kyouka-supremacy]

This is probably more of my personal headcanon / how I best like to interpret the characters rather than something canon based but... I have been thinking, at the end of the day most of the relationship bonds Dazai created in the ada span between rough and silently hostile. He doesn't get along with Yosano because of their shared link with Mori, and he doesn't like Ranpo because Ranpo being the only person he can't trick or manipulate probably makes him feel unsafe. It's not like he can exactly get along with the Tanizakis either, he's simply... Too distant from them to actually build anything positive with either Naomi or Jun'ichirou.

I think this explains why Dazai is so obsessed with Kunikida and can't leave him alone one second: because despite everything, I truly believe Kunikida is fond of Dazai (for reasons he himself would never be able to explain), and I feel like due to Kunikida's straightforwardness the tension between Dazai and Yosano and Ranpo would go completely unnoticed to Kunikida (whereas otherwise his seniors' negative opinion of Dazai could have negatively influenced the Kunikida's feelings for him). That's why Dazai loves to spend time with and torment Kunikida, because he's the only member that doesn't feel directly hostile / out of reach. Even better, you know Kunikida isn't happy with Dazai; but it's also all very superficial, kind of a game, and the hostility isn't personal. It all makes me reflect on how Dazai feels truly desperate for human connection despite what he makes it look like. It's maybe more of a gut feeling, but I do truly believe Kunikida cares about Dazai and is willing to play their game, because I feel like otherwise he would have already told Dazai off definitely.

That also explains why once he met Atsushi Dazai absolutely latches onto him. It's like he's saying, this is my dude, I brought him to the agency; he's under my wing, and he's on my side. Which is a weird thing to say, there's no sides in the ada, but be it relapsing to old habits, be it a deep insecurity of Dazai, I feel like he's trying really hard to create connections and find allies. And Atsushi is such an ego boost for Dazai, I have no doubt Dazai absolutely loves him. In the end, as crazy as it may sound, I'm convinced that Dazai is way more dependent on Atsushi than Atsushi is on him.

But Atsushi is in good terms with the whole agency. Well, because he's Atsushi, and he's kind and clumsy and just trying to do his best, I feel like everyone warms up to him sooner or later. It's very nice to think in the end it may be Atsushi himself to bring Dazai closer to the rest of the ada, by breaking sides that never existed to begin with and linking them all together.

[is-hinata-good-today]

december 23rd, 2023

hinata is absolutely wonderful today, more wonderful than ever before!!!!

[lcentretenimento]

Consolidados de Sábado - 23/12/2023, São Paulo

Confira as principais audiências da TV aberta no sábado, dia 23 de dezembro de 2023. Continue reading Untitled

[pedemarian]

Eu sonhei com você de novo essa noite. Acordei furiosa. Já é difícil lutar contra o que eu sinto por você, mas contra mim mesma? Impossível. Passei o dia todo rabugenta, querendo cair no soco com meu inconsciente. Não ajuda saber que você desapareceu. De novo. Eu e você gostamos de nos repetir, né?

Minha tia Bel queria lembranças. Nosso filhote de Golden Retriever era uma fofura. E que beijo, ein?

Maluquice. Maluquice.

Mas em 2024 vai ser diferente. Eu tenho dois meses pra viver outra vida, superar você, voltar diferente. Quem sabe eu me apaixono. Quem sabe a Marcela aceita sair comigo de novo. Pode ser até que eu aprenda a amar ela. Eu espero que você tenha um péssimo ano novo!

(eu ainda consigo sentir quão macia sua boca era na minha. A sensação do seu cabelo na ponta dos meus dedos. Como que eu posso estar viciada em um beijo que eu nunca nem dei? Vou sonhar com ele eternamente até me saciar. Espero que seja logo.)

(23/12/23)

[rovingsolitarything]

23/12/23

Knight of Pentacles

The Green Knight is the perfect Christmas film, right?

- CJ

[yesitsvjays]

Unfortunately, one of the most toxic men I have ever known also happens to be the only person whom I cannot restrict my energy to. It takes a considerable amount of strength to become the bigger person. Life has taught me a great deal of many things, but he alone teaches me the quality of character development through examples that I strongly detest.

So I’m forced, yet again, to reflect compassion to a man who is fluent in the language of aggression and malice intent; the man in question is the same one I call my father. Sometimes I blame my grandfather for turning him into the man that he became, other times I result to saying “it is what it is. Let’s try again.”

[saddragonhours]

i try telling jokes and then forget that my natural tone of voice is Not Conducive For Jokes so it comes across as a statement

[inkskinned]

Some of my favorite tarot cards from the deck I designed & illustrated as a give-away reward :)

** If you pre-ordered my book, Body's a Bad Monster, fill out this form :) the first 50 people will receive a 22-card deck alongside their copy! Thank you all so much for the support. I love u.

BABM comes out sept 24, 2024 :)

[jackalspine]

[poemsonmars]

you told me that daisies

are your favorite flower

and i had to fight the urge

to plant a bouquet

of them in my lungs.

i want to cough up

petals and stems

when you smile at me.

i want to be so full of

your favorite things

that i forget how to breathe.

-mars

[kyouka-supremacy]

Wait I just realized

Something about there being one person able to make their conscience emerge even in their most senseless state

[starrspice]

Have a Sun, Moon, and a StarrSpice!

I’ve been super busy with work and other stuff in my life so I haven’t had the time energy or motivation to really draw all that much, but with things settling down a bit I decided to stretch my drawing muscles and dive back in

And who better to do that with than sun and Moon? The most drawable boys ever

Very self indulgent but very much needed with the chaos in my life lately

It feels good to be back

[chonnysinferno]

makes sense that you got the cool operator ://

[whiteboarddavekat]

Davem... Davekat... Ddavket cookie

[alkylic]

that meme that everyone drew ten days ago

[deuynndoodles]

[ID: A colored, digital two page comic featuring Danny and Jazz from Danny Phantom. Danny wears a baggy hoodie over a shirt and jeans. Jazz wears a v-neck sweater and shorts.

Fentonworks, after curfew: Danny reaches for the doorknob to his bedroom, breathing out and gripping his shoulder.

"Where were you?" says Jazz, hands on her hips, making Danny jump. "Look, I know that Mom and Dad don't really care, but I do. You can trust me." She looks sad. "What's going on with you?"

"None of your business, Jazz." He looks irritated. He reaches for the doorknob again, muttering, "Just lemme sleep."

"Wait!" is written in all caps. Jazz reaches out, pulling at the hood of his jacket. Danny turns and raises his arm out of his hoodie, revealing an ectoplasmic injury. "Fuck off!" he yells.

Jazz pulls her hand away, startling backwards. Then, she looks sad as she says, "Oh, Danny…"

Fade out. They now stand in the Fentonworks bathroom, with Danny sitting on the toilet and Jazz hovering over him, cleaning a wound on his left shoulder. He's now in a binder and the original ectoplasmic wound has been treated. She scolds him and he grins nervously, curling in on himself. End ID.]

happy holidays @torscrawls !