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Some gifs for the wtnv characters most likely to come up in my fics and my hcs!
...at least the ones with face claims.
#these aren't nearly as clean as I would have hoped for#but it is my first foray into anything with layered gifs#and the first gifs I have done in *years*#so I feel like I can give myself a bit of leeway with my exacting standards!#even just getting the names to work was a TASK#Kevin|character#Kevin|aesthetic#Theseus|character#Theseus|aesthetic#Vanessa|character#Vanessa|aesthetic#maddy|character#Maddy|aesthetic#The problem with having OCs is that while *I* love and adore them#they only exist inside my head#therefore if I want content for them#I have to be the one to make it!#As is the case for Maddy and Theseus and also Ted to a (minutely) lesser extent#he is technically canon!#When i eventually finish it#Maddy has a whole 12k+ fic in my drafts#her best friend in that ends up as Theseus
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Weird dream.
#art#tmnt#tmnt original iteration#tmnt au#tmnt au leo#leo#teenage mutant ninja turtles#tmta#artists on tumblr#Hi I came up with an AU idea like. Last November#*Oops October actually#And I'm only just posting about it on main. I'm so good at this#Tbf I'm quite happy to just work on it slowly I've got a lot of plot points to iron out anyway#Also I'm primarily doing this for myself#So sorry if the stuff I post doesn't have much substance to it. This mostly only exists inside my brain#Only thing I will share is that I've been referring to the setting as Teenage Mutant Transgender Allegories in my head lmao#They're not explicitly trans. But they may as well be because I am projecting Hard onto this#The turtles are also. Kind of dicks to begin with. Less so Donnie but he has other problems to deal with#The whole thing is about growth and learning to change. So yea#And obviously family too. This is TMNT after all.#ANYWAY. I WILL STOP RAMBLING IN THE TAGS NOW.#Gonna go through my drafts and post the other stuff I made before this one so it's at least in the right order even if I am posting it late
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#bellamyblakeedit#the100edit#bellarkeedit#bellaarke#the100daily#userkrislulu#usertimlucy#userleila#i can talk a lot about how this goes from blue to yellow#or how he exists the darkness (aka the blue) and comes back to the light (aka the yellow) but he does so#completely and utterly alone and broken in pieces#his heart bleeding#that's why i included the last gif where he watches her go#he takes a deep breath and goes back inside the ark (in the darkness of the metal walls) on his own and she heads to the forest#the other darkness (by herself) they only get a minute in the sun together#to tell each other how they feel and then they part ways each with their own anger to themselves and to each other but marching on alone#anyway sorry about that#my gifs
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uhhh um yuri 👍
#umineko#umineko no naku koro ni#beatrice umineko#beatrice the golden witch#shannon umineko#when they cry#wtc#jichanart#umineko spoilers ->#beatrice+shannon yuri as a metaphor for self-acceptance save me#bc to me. beatrice embodies both truth and desire (usually in a way that hurts)#she has the body shannon wants. she has power. but she's also a reminder of sin and the inescapable truths about oneself#shannon fights her and dies but like. if shannon could conquer her#if she could accept herself and even all the inescapable truths about herself... then she could be happy right?#she wouldn't even need the love that she'd wished for all this time. she'd be enough on her own#the maid becomes the master. a love between furniture...#shannon runs away with the gold and the woman who only lives inside her head#anyway. the yuri that only exists in my mind lol
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i knew you in a dream, once
#blaseball fanart#blaseball#chorby soul#clove jieun#chorbv#literally the most tragic love story in blaseball#and it only exists inside my head#my art#fanart#september 23
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[some oc drabble - fluff and massages - PriceRaven]
[note: it MAY sound suggestive on some part but this version is not focusing on that HAHA also sorry if bad grammar]
Price doesn’t know what to do when he’s cared for.
This is tricky for Raven, who wants to give Price massages. As much as she loves receiving them from Price, who never fails to loosen the tension along her shoulders and back whenever he can, working around the scar on her back slowly and gently, whispering soothing murmurs to melt away the pain, the searing discomfort, and phantom pain—she just, enjoys giving him massages.
But she has to fight him about it.
It always starts with a “Hey, can I?” followed by a “Not needed, Raven.”
Maybe it’s his ego that refuses to let others take care of him because he’s always been the caregiver. After all, he’s the one who provides care, the one who makes sure, everyone’s well, that she’s well. He wouldn’t know what to do if the roles were reversed.
But Raven is nothing if not stubborn, and she’ll nudge, push, and even physically drag him to the bed.
They’ll roll around. He’ll put her in a headlock. She’ll grab his legs and bend them awkwardly. They’ll huff and growl, then laugh and giggle until Raven finally pins him to the bed.
Only then does she get the chance to properly begin her “mission”—smooshing his face together and kissing his crinkled-up nose and beard, where some bits stick out strangely through the grooves of her fingers.
She’ll kiss down his neck and chest, her palm resting on his tummy. When he lays down, it’s softer, warmer, and she kneads it gently.
He’ll toughen up sometimes, flexing his core to prove some sort of point. If he does it too much, Raven bites his jaw or belly, usually earning a scowl, which makes her smirk and chuckle, palming and squishing his belly more.
“Relax”, is all she’ll say, Price will only grumble back defiantly.
But what Price refuses to admit is how good it feels when Raven works on his legs.
Her thumbs press, pulling and dragging down those taut muscles, easing the tension and tightness that fights against her hand, dissipating with it.
It’s finicky and sensitive because it’s either going to be extremely painful (and risk getting kicked, which happened twice—Price still feels bad about it, maybe that’s why he’s refusing the massages so much), or it’s going to feel heavenly.
And boy, does she love giving his legs the much-needed relaxation because the noises he makes? Divine.
The best part is when she rests his legs over her shoulders. For a moment, it feels... somewhat victorious? When she stares down and sees her man, eyes closed in absolute bliss, one hand fisting the sheet, the other either on his forehead or chest, breathing deeply with every knuckle and joint cracking.
She could get used to this, being on top and bending him over—but that’s another thought for another day.
It fills her with a sense of something— ah, satisfaction maybe? She’s not sure but it feels like it, eyeing his reaction closely like a hawk, and turning her knuckles on the right path and smiles when he goes “ahhhh yes yes right there— fuckkkk keep going—“
When the massages end, she peppers kisses down his thighs, whispering about how well he behaved (just to tease him) and feels his entire body practically melt onto the bed as she pat his skin with a small hum.
Bonus if he falls asleep and starts snoring.
She’ll crawl up beside him, brush his hair back, and kiss his forehead, letting him take a much-needed nap.
He won’t let her go, despite this. His hands will be around her waist, pulling her close when he feels the kiss and her hands, his face resting and nuzzling into in her abdomen, arms around her with a light grip.
Stay.
Price doesn’t know what to do when he’s cared for, but Raven is going to make him realize that all he had to do, is relax.
#ah#idk why i wrote this#i just felt like writing Raven spoiling Price for once#no there’s no second version it only exist inside my head unfortunately#late night thoughts#PriceRaven#[oc]Raven
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Ga On took a deep breath, knowing he had to apologize for how poorly he had handled the situation.
"I'm sor—"
That was as far as Ga On got before he felt a sudden but fleeting sting of pain against his forehead. He flinched and looked up at Yo Han, driven by equal parts surprise and disbelief. One of his hands rose toward the spot Yo Han had, apparently, just given a flick with his fingers.
"Did you just—"
Yo Han gently batted Ga On's hand away before brushing the backs of his fingers against Ga On's forehead, as if to soothe away the pain he had just caused. Ga On's stomach flipped as he stared up at Yo Han, eyes wide, having absolutely no idea how to react.
"Stop apologizing," Yo Han reprimanded. His hand lingered, the touch light — soft like a whisper — and yet intense enough to send a shiver down Ga On's spine.
For a confusing, breathless moment, Ga On just sat there, too stunned to move.
From Chapter 11 of Who Holds the Devil
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I guess I’ve taken it upon myself to provide everyone with a second season of The Devil Judge even if I have to write it and draw the fake screenshots myself. Because, as per usual, I’m incapable of doing things by halves, both when it comes to my writing AND my art. If you want something done, do it yourself?
I hope you’ll like it! :D
#The Devil Judge#Kim Ga On#Kang Yo Han#Gahan#Art#Fan Art#KDrama#This is what happens when you realise you can draw photo realism#And you want to find out if you can do that even WITHOUT an exact reference#I'm not sure if it's hubris#Or insanity#Or just having no regard for your own limits#Or all three#But#In my defence#It worked#It's not AS good as when I copy straight from a reference#But pretty dang close#Since the scene only exists inside my head#Though I won't lie#I'm high-key panicking#It was a long time since I've been this invested in a drawing#Both in a good and a bad way#But it was definitely worth it in the end#I learned a lot if nothing else
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#i've been thinking about this quite a lot on and off for a while#but to try to process it more i just wanna try to vent:#my sexuality is very messy. even inside my head. so scary. so complicated...?? so just thoughts of it are scary#and like there has only ever been one person who like just thinking about sex with has felt like good#not scary or terrifying. not with all of my avpd symptoms woven in (like one is that idk if i could ever have sex w someone#like actually be with them and be able to look them in the eyes and then also keep talking to them afterwards and not just run away and#never see them again. that's just one thing and this isnt abt that so anyway#like yeah just thinking about sex w him feel ok. safe and comfortable. and enjoyable and like i can and want it#which is smth like... with my other crushes before i've fantasized abt having sex w them but it felt bad and scary ://#and like i didnt actually want sex w them...#and with this person that isnt there. it's scary in a way since like im not experienced at all and idk how it feels irl 💀#but not in the way i usually feel abt it!!!!#so this just in my head#plus the fact that like talking and expressing some of my thoughts TO him ... felt good and safe and comfortable#is actually such a gift from him.... and i'll always treasure this (one of many things haha ^^)#bc he made me experience this and that i can feel good and ok and safe about it#i do feel sad that when this was current i was so cautious and shy bc it was so new to me#i was feeling smth real and genuine emotionally w him and i wasnt just saying stuff ... if that makes sense lmao#hmmm... yeah i've never felt good abt it before that w him. so it was so so new. and i couldnt quite get used to it fast#now im getting messy in my thoughts again sksksk#i just feel like this meant so much to me to just have had it#and idk im just so happy to know that these feelings are possible for me .. and i feel thankful for him that he gave me this not so little#thing/feeling/experience#now... the thing is... he is the only one i've felt all of the things with. like attraction/safe/comfortable/taken seriously etc etc.... so#umm what do i do now? 💀#ig either way im glad i know that this exists for me and that im not incapable of it. even if my avpd makes me feel that way#ok.. skurr skurr?#but yeah sexuality is so fkn scary for me idk it just gets too much i wanna cry T-T
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we Need to bring back the pg/kawhi explicit fic era .
#feel like it's been years since ive last seen my friend#like he only exists inside my head#(bttm paul georp fics)
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Inside we're beautiful creatures unofficial sequel where Ozai gives up his cosmic powers to be with Ursa and the kids.
#atla#atla au#ozai#ursa#urzai#azula#zuko#baby azula#baby zuko#royal fire family#turtleducks#zuko is a proud turtleduck dad showing off his babies#sketch#star's art#star's sketches#this au exists only in my head#inside we are beautiful creatures
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>It's you!
>Despite everything, it's still you.
#ff14#ffxiv#warrior of light#wol#first is his ARR look second is post-EW onwards#I'm really proud of his character development#even though it's a story that only exists inside my head#digital#digital painting
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RIP bc if THG came out in like 2019-2020 the You Should See Me In a Crown Clato edits would have ate and would have slayed me every single time 😔🫡
#clato#cato and clove#thg#the hunger games#these edits exist inside my head only#but that song? clato core
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Every time I listen to The Woodlanders on audiobook I get to thinking about that fix-it fic I’ve been planning since 2016
#kirky writes stuff#the fic that will only ever exist in my head#it’s a tough business giving people a happy ending in this book but I can do it!#the woodlanders#thomas hardy#I also know it inside out as it was our gcse English lit book
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ughhhh someone kill me i think i might like stay on the third floor today i actually cant deal with her today
#marble musings#vent#shes the only person in my 'friend' group who has the same free block as me#and shes actually a nightmare to be around#im always worried shes gonna take my stuff#(she likes taking my wolf from my hands and my cat ears off my head#and laughs it off as a joke even after i tell her not to??)#and i cant even escape her bc the new friend group that im kind of maybe a part of#she just shows up sometimes#and its awful bc ive seen her make some of my friends uncomfortable and is entirely unapologetic about it#and shes really loud and makes everything about herself and makes conversations impossible#and its annoying bc she kept complaining about not being able to talk to me during free block bc i have headphones on#to listen to music and/or do work#and i was like#'ok you can talk to me if you want idc'#and now she talks to me nonstop during free block regardless of if i tell her i need to get work done#and her existence just kinda stresses me out#but ive never found the right time to tell her to stop#and i cant sit inside where all the tables are bc we usually sit there#and i cant sit outside bc its prolly wet and also she'll find me#and idk if im even allowed to sit upstairs but i kinda have to bc i really dont want to deal with her today#i need like a proper excuse for why im wearing headphones#she doesnt care that i listen to podcasts#and i don have anything to edit#ummmm#i don actually have any hw other than like studying for my math test#fuck ok i guess ill do that#idk what class shes in#umm#if shes also in honors ill cry
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group therapy fs after i had an awakening with bfb sukuna <3
i'm with ya on that one
#liv got mail#i like when u guys are like 'this made me insane' after u read my fics bc like that entire story came outta my brain#one second it didn't exist and then the next it did but ONLY TO ME. INSIDE MY HEAD. can't even talk abt it bc NO ONE ELSE KNOWS#that's why i write fic tbh i am literally just incapable of suffering in silence and i'm making it ur guys' problem too#can u imagine the kind of stress i am under
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hmm. i think jon sims might have actually cured my mental illness. to a degree
#he gave me a different one called 'jon sims liker' but that's ok#this is only half a joke btw because i. i think some parts of me might have merged?#like the host used to be olly but they havent fronted in over a month and. im not entirely sure they even exist as how they did before#and it sort of coincides with the time i started loving jon#yk theres that one post that's like 'what's the media that changed u as a person' that but literally#im really confused about whats happening inside my head cause i wasnt keeping track before bc it just made me dissociate more#but now i think. i think ive sort of made peace with it? i dunno but the problem is that i have no idea who even EXISTS anymore lol#anyway hi i'm jude i like he/it and im bisexy possibly bi ace. i love metal music and red and black and alt fashion? is that the right word#yeah anyway i might be here to stay! might not idk. calling me olly is fine for the moment while i figure things out#just saying so u guys know why i did it if i change my whole bio
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