#they never even considered marriage
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Text
Of course as an advisor, the fae would be busy. And while they could have decided to come closer to their appointed time, Eriskyne preferred to be early. Less chance of overlap between them and their father, the better. Of course that left the older scribe but he tended to be overlooked when he wasn't actively attempting grace.
"Young lord, have you considered...marriage?" the man brought up, breaking the quiet of paging through one of the many books present within the library the Ăomharach maintained. They leaned against one of the table-like desks.
"That is a question for Lord Allanach, not myself," Eriskyne said, crossing their arms. The book laid to the side, "and do not call me that, you will confuse any passerby."
"You can be convincing when you want to be," the scribe reasoned, "and besides, you are the one that has to live with the arrangement."
"As we have witnessed with the farce of an engagement, he does not quite care as to the quality of life when it comes to those. Unfortunate for you, he likely will not settle for less than a Moireasdan at this point."
The man sighed, "He and every other gentry but he needs only one to achieve that and unlike Ruaidhri, you have your prospects open."
The mention of the other soured their expression, completely missing what they had over him, "Your aim is lofty but I doubt he would accept a common blood in the house."
"Oh no, I dare not think I could attain anything such as the Allanach family," he gave a wipe of his glasses. And Eriskyne could sense where this was going, "but the Oir--"
BAM!
A book slammed against the ground at the same time as the family name would have slipped out. It and its echo drowned it out. Eriskyne warned, "Refrain from speaking so casually in regards to our friend."
Honestly, they could understand the unease their father felt about the scribe. His ability to traipse unnoticed was impressive, certainly. But it was the keeping of his mouth shut and keeping other mouths from speaking was where problems developed. And they'd be damned it was loose lips that cost them that persona.
"...that is also a matter beyond myself and again to be deferred. But, and I mean this with the utmost care, Scribe Ăomharach, but your daughter is an eccentric even by the standards of the Court. Further accentuated by her usual grace that is found wanting even for a fae. You would have better success with her adopting a new pupil and setting them up for someone in the gentry. But now I must ask, why are you so desperate to have her marry?"
"Your words are harsh...but not untrue," the scribe ceded, "but the answer should be obvious. I want for my family, my position to rise. As anyone else would be looking to do. I dare not ask for the Allanach name for that's far too greedy and far too much at once. It is how one garners a reputation. It is also how one loses their low profile. So one milestone at a time. If I was the one to establish this position, then I have Ceilidh to raise us to nobility. Who knows, maybe with a grandchild or great-grandchild there will be a thought to court the Moireasdan but that will be long after my role."
Even a fool can make a point. Playing a long con, was it? Eriskyne called it such but with the lifespan as long as a fae's, it was possible this was merely the norm. They couldn't imagine such a span. They could however imagine schemes with even their own as a pawn. Thinking aloud, voicing their own curiosity, "Does it make it easier because of her heritage?"
Eriskyne wondered that for as well as themselves. The fact they were here seemed to tell of something with their father. Was it easier to assign them to all this dirty work simply because they were not of the 'correct' blood? Was it easier to the scribe to give away his child regardless of whom that may be because of similar reasons?
"Her heritage has little to do with it. This is a good opportunity for herself too, I just wish she would see it. Ceilidh is an eccentric, it's true but that eccentricity makes her brilliant. Why even the book you were looking at were from the collections she has been restoring for centuries. She has a vision for what it means to be a scribe. Now, I can't imagine the grandiose and strange things she says but I do know it will get nowhere without the push from a commoner to a gentry. If she put aside her foolish pride, maybe that'd come sooner."
The door opened and the scribe separated to see if someone was looking for a book or if it were the last component of this meeting. He gave a last quip, "Do consider the offer though."
Eriskyne watched the man. Though their expression bordering contempt, their thoughts were contemplative. How strange...
#{Eriskyne Drabbles#hilariously the first part#was all I had in mind#Just a random#'hey would you wanna marry my kid?'#and of course Eri balking#and also not wanting to admit#they never even considered marriage
5 notes
¡
View notes
Text
you ever think about how edwin got like. no warning, no time time to process, nothing, when he reappeared on earth faced with the fact that virtually everyone he knew in life is dead. his parents? probably died in the 1950s or so (at best) almost forty years prior to edwinâs return. if any of his classmates were still around, theyâd have been elderly, possibly senile, and in a few years theyâd all be goneâ except, of course, edwin. nothing looks the same, cars look like spaceships, there actually are spaceships, he can no longer see the stars, and everyone he knew is dead.
#he may be dead too but heâs certainly not gone. heâs a lingering relic. something lost to time#thatâs some existential dread on an incomprehensible level#like. he meets charles quite soon after returning from hell and itâs implied heâs pretty much just been haunting that schoolhouse in that#time right. so I seriously doubt heâd have visitedâ let alone even Foundâ his parentsâ graves. I wonder if he ever did that with charles.#maybe charles providing him enough emotional support to feel like he could handle it.#I know that he wasnât close to his parents in lifeâ nor was he close with anyone that we know ofâ and yeah I think thatâd definitely make#things a bit easier in certain ways; he never felt like he belonged in his time/place in life or amongst his family or peers#so being displaced from all that wouldnât feel like losing very much#in a way#but⌠I mean still#and he inevitably would have those lingering thoughts of what couldâve beenâ#yes he couldâve died in the war and his life likely wouldnât be very fulfilling considering heâd probably be forced into a marriage he#wouldnât want or if he was found out he couldâve been imprisoned and ostracized and disowned. plenty of ways his life couldâve been awful if#but also what if his parents loosened up a little as the times did? as in- what if he actually got to know them? what if they tried to#have a relationship with him of some sort eventually? itâs not impossible#itâd have to eat at him. that and wondering if either of them felt guilty#or felt a loss. or anything#hoo boy. fun stuff#edwin#edwin payne#rambling#dead boy detectives
203 notes
¡
View notes
Text
They actually took the BEST male love interest in all of the Bridgerton universe and made him into a woman destroying both his and Francesca's characters and arcs going forward.... Like I'm sorry but the gender roles Michael and Francesca have are integral to their story... The infertility, Michael inheriting all of John's estate and title....and the guilt that comes with it. They even give him John's old clothes to wear
#michael stirling#do they not realise the fucking money they lost by ommiting THE merry rake Michael Stirling#he coveted John's wife he could never do that#he got everything he never wanted from his cousin except his wife!!!!#anti bridgerton#i guess?#anyway cant wait to be called a homophobe because im sad my favorite book in the series got butchered#bridgerton#franchael#masali is stunning but essentially the only similar thing to the book now will be that john dies#thats it.#like is Francesca going to have John's baby after he dies? because Francesca would never even consider marriage or find love again if she#had a child already#that's why she choses to go to the marriage mart again!!! thats the angst!!!#Michael knowjing as her closest male relative through marriage#he has to give her away! he will lose her again when he never even had her!#and he's too guilty to let his feelings out
297 notes
¡
View notes
Note
Regency AU!!! anakin hoarding little things he bought for obi-wan and finally getting to give them to him!! its so sweet and fluffy! I'd love to know just how disappointed all the other omegas in town were when anakin stepped out with obi-wan on his arm.
All the mamas of the eligible omegas take one look at the way anakin skywalker looks at obi-wan as he goes literally anywhere and the smart ones tell their children to focus on more available prospects, like a minor prince. an earl. Etc. The duke is not going to truly be entertaining prospects this season.
but the smarter mamas split their efforts between making potential matches for their own children and finding matches for obi-wan because maybe if this obi-wan kenobi finds his match and marriage, then the duke Skywalker will be more willing to consider their children to be his match. Itâs a bit underhanded but one has to do what one has to do. and throwing alphas at kenobi until one sticks is what one has to do.
(of course they also have to be very clandestine about it because it would do their daughters and sons no good for anakin to find out that it was them that found obi-wanâs match. they know they may get kicked out of high society all together for it. the stakes are high.)
#asks#obikin#squick tag: a/b/o#regency au#cause you know alpha anakin would literally never consider the suit of another omega if that omegas mother was directly responsible#for obi-wans marriage to someone NOT him#but you also know that anakin would not truly consider a suit if thereâs even the slimmest possibility that obi-wan is available#like hey they could get married! as friends! in a few years! if theyâre both still single!#anakin (cuttingly): these alphas are only interested in you because I danced with you that night#all the mamas throwing alphas at obiwan so heâll find a match and anakin will look elsewhere: sure I guess
56 notes
¡
View notes
Text
welp⌠guess Iâm not coming out for the next four years either :)
#personal#us elections#may I just say as a queer woman and poc but most importantly someone who missed the age cutoff to be able to vote#I genuinely donât think Iâve ever felt more helpless than in this moment#like Iâm at the age right now where Iâm planning for things like moving out of my family home#That means in the next four years itâs very feasible for me to get r*ped and need my reproductive rights#Itâs very feasible for me to find another woman who I want to spend my life with for which I need my right to equal marriage#And itâs very feasible for me to want to walk down the street without getting fucking shot for which I need my right to fucking live??#And just sitting through the past 9 or so hours watching my country put a man in office#Who would look at me and probably not even consider me a full human?#Or think I deserve all those rights?#A man who I donât think is going to protect those rights?#Iâm the kind of person who will never stop having faith in this country no matter what state of shittholery itâs in#Because if you look at our history weâve had way bigger assholes than this guy and come out surviving#But Iâm scared yall#Iâm genuinely really scared
22 notes
¡
View notes
Text
Things that happened in Martyn & Cleo Double Life canon:
Cleo hoping to find her soulmate and start a life with them
Cleo dumping Martyn without giving him a chance to explain his side of the story, but hearing him out when he comes to her later
Martyn watching Cleo through his spyglass and telling the audience she seems safe and happy even though he thinks it's weird she's outside at night
Martyn, after he's had time to consider how he wants to play this, spinning a story about trying to be a provider for her and Cleo explaining that she wanted him, not things
Cleo not being remotely impressed by the "I was providing" sob story, lol
Martyn calling Cleo selfish for choosing to be with Scott because she's supposed to be HIS soulmate and he wants a partner
Cleo willing to forgive Martyn if he meets them halfway
Martyn refusing to meet them halfway because he doesn't think he did anything wrong
Martyn screaming about how Cleo's building bridges with Scott but "When will she think about mending our bridges???"
Martyn explaining to Cleo that he doesn't understand why his Session 1 actions bothered them
Martyn centering his character arc and roleplay on trying to win Cleo back without actually apologizing
Cleo giving Martyn a flower and stating that if he loses it, she'll be real cross with him
Cleo chasing Martyn out of her yard because he tried to put an HOA sign on her base and she wanted to make it clear that she wasn't associated with them and their hate for his base (even though she does think his heart base is strange)
Martyn attacking Cleo after she said attacking is a form of affection to her
Cleo setting boundaries with Martyn and explaining what he can do to get her back
Cleo sighing when Scar set her up on a date with Martyn, but taking the chance to talk to him instead of walking out
Cleo genuinely wanting Martyn in her alliance
Martyn and Cleo giggling constantly when they chat
Scar asking if Martyn wanted him to play a romantic music disc for him and Cleo (and Martyn getting excited and saying yes)
Martyn offering to take Cleo's armor and weapons to the deep dark so he can enchant them and bring them back while she stays safe
Cleo gifting Martyn diamonds, expecting nothing in return but not wanting him to die from lack of a good sword
Martyn and Cleo forming a secret alliance that allows Cleo to live with Scott while being on good terms with Martyn
Martyn expressing frustration that Cleo wants to keep this alliance secret because he wants them to be public allies; Cleo softly shushes him when people approach and might overhear
Martyn telling Cleo that she's putting out a lot of mixed signals because she keeps reeling him in and then pushing him away, claiming he is very confused about where he stands with her
Martyn teasing Cleo by punching her off a cliff and accidentally killing her and feeling so bad about it that he apologizes profusely despite roleplaying as someone who refused to apologize for Session 1
Martyn and Cleo immediately threatening Bdubs together when he said hi to them while they were hanging out, sdkfj
Martyn genuinely apologizing to Pearl for dumping her after Session 1
Martyn hiding under Cleo's bed while she defends him from an enderman attack
Cleo offering to let Martyn move into her house after Etho and Joel grief his base; Martyn saying he might take her up on that
Cleo and Martyn agreeing to move out and base together at Box
Cleo trusting Martyn with the location and resources of her red life base
Martyn rushing to Cleo's aid in the deep dark and trying to turn everyone against him instead
Cleo responding to Martyn's panicked shouts for her to eat by opening her inventory to get food (and drowning because she forgot she was in water)
Cleo hanging back and letting Martyn attack Scott while she does nothing to stop him from doing so, implying as much as she likes Scott, she won't kill Martyn (and herself) for him (and/or she trusted Scott to handle himself even though he ran away while Martyn was shooting at him)
Things that did not happen:
Cleo unwilling to forgive Martyn or consider being his friend and partner
Martyn and Cleo hating each other
Thank you for coming to my TED Talk
#Listen. listen. I understand. but consider... them#Zombiewood#ZombieCleo#Martyn InTheLittleWood#Limited Life canon: Cleo making Martyn godfather to her kids#I 100% support everyone taking their own interpretations from the episodes-#but I often see ''Martyn and Cleo hate each other'' and I wonder ''Did we even watch the same thing?''#and with so many POVs that only see them from the outside perhaps we did not!! So consider... them. Let's rotate them <3#This post is about the sheer amount of 'Martyn dumps Cleo for Ren' fics tagged Martyn/Cleo vs. minimal affectionate fics. help??#also fics where Martyn/Mumbo was canon but Martyn claims he was never attracted to him- only Ren?? Fascinating.#sir can the whole plot be about that because hold up I feel like we should unpack your loveless marriage before you date Ren#I will 100% read a story about you charging into marriage with Mumbo and then going ''Uh I just made a big mistake.'' hilarious#I mean I'm not Ren but if my crush confessed he never loved his husband in the first place I feel like I'd have Questions#To each their own! And I for one greatly enjoy how much Martyn will chase Cleo without humbling himself. lol. idiot. get wrecked.#but just to be clear I am a huge fan of break-up 'fics and choosing to be with someone you want. ergo my interest in Grian/BigB#This post is about Martyn/Cleo and Grian/BigB being fandom rarepairs despite having canon interest in each other#which is 100% fine because everyone should write what they want but!! Come rotate them with me because they are so fun and silly#Grian the man who deliberately cuts comments about Grian/Scar and Martyn/Mumbo from his vids but pursues BigB?? hilarious#In-universe this man went from ''Romance? I do not see it'' to ''Actually I want the cute cookie man'' and took the leap??#Yes king tell me more about this journey of self-discovery. I am aspec-beam'ing you.#Anyway. Need more Martyn/Cleo in my life which is why I'm writing fics of that and other people write fics about what they like <3#but sometimes people don't like it when I pair Martyn and Cleo because ''They hate each other'' and I laugh sfdlkj
45 notes
¡
View notes
Text
questioning sexuality is so exhausting
#(edit: sorry for the rant in the tags and i just. i want someone to talk to me)#i keep on doing it for no apparent reason#someone was talking about lust yesterday and i realised today that.#even tho id thought i don't experience it. i possibly do. but exclusively towards women.#i hate it here!#for a multitude of reasons i will never have a relationship with a woman but! i may be incapable of having a relationship with a man!#at some point in the last few months i have abruptly pivoted from definitely wanting marriage and kids to being ambivalent on marriage#and not wanting kids. that's such an outlier in my life that it might just be a mental health thing tho idk#but at the same time i. want to be loved.#i don't know what i want anymore and im tired of questioning myself#i definitely overthink it but idk how to stop it#and i hate hate hate how the moral obsessions have bee lately#this isn't entirely related but it kind of is#like Am i a terrible morally bankrupt person for having certain thoughts or is it just religious ocd go brrrr?? am i overthinking it?#i don't know. i don't know!#for a while labelling myself as arospec ace kinda calmed that down but. i don't know#i do't want to be attracted to women. i don't want to have to look away so often. i don't want any of that.#but i don't know how to stop it.#i don't even know if i'm attracted to men at all.#this is a cry for help and encouragement and prayers no matter what your views on these matters are#queer stuff tag#i nearly fessed up to my friend yesterday about same sex attraction and i might've except that it would have probably outed me as#the person who anonymously sent in a question several months ago about the side b movement to a church thing#ive only told one person at church about any of that sort of stuff and it was very vaguely worded#also see: this friend is the mother of the boy i?? i don't even know how i feel about him#i increasingly think it wasn't romantic at all. but i don't know#i would love any encouragement you got. anything at all.#i don't know how much this stuff is affected by the fact that i consider myself unloveable and think it highly unlikely any boy will ever#care for me#now im rambling. sorry
34 notes
¡
View notes
Note
Is it true that Elizabeth of York birth celebrated like she was a son? I have seen some historians say this.
Hi! Yes, Edward IV did celebrate his daughterâs birth as though she was a male heir (âa princeâ), iirc as per the Great Chronicle.
While we have no contemporary reports at the time of Elizabeth of York's birth, we know that Luchino Dallaghiexia reported that the birth of Edward and Elizabeth's third child, Cecily of York, "rejoiced the king and all the nobles exceedingly*, though they would have preferred a son'. Wanting a son (ie: an heir) was typical for their time period, likely enhanced by Edward and Elizabeth's unprecedentedly controversial marriage, her very unsuitable origins and his own status as a usurper. The fact that he was described as being "exceedingly" delighted at the birth of his third daughter in a row regardless does support the claim that he would have gone over-the-top to celebrate the birth of his first legitimate** child.
Hope this helps!
*Bizarrely, I have seen several historians and blogs using Dallaghiexia's letter to claim that he was bitterly disappointed at Cecily of York's birth. I don't understand how historical reading comprehension can be so poor that "rejoiced the king exceedingly" has somehow been rewritten as the...exact opposite of that. With no self-awareness whatsoever. **His illegitimate daughter Margaret (known as Elizabeth for some reason) was almost definitely born before his marriage. We don't know the birth dates of his other two illegitimate children: I think the likeliest conception date for Arthur was in early 1470, but it's unverified; and we know nothing about Grace (which was in fact her surname, not her name) other than the fact that Elizabeth Woodville seems to have been very attached to her.
#ask#elizabeth of york#edward iv#queue#speaking of which#did I mention how much I dislike historians who state that one of Elizabeth Woodville's 'advantages' was that 'she was fertile'#and just leave it at that?#or dumbfuck Anne Boleyn stans who argue Elizabeth was 'safe' because she had a son (she was literally deposed twice but okay)#That is simply incorrect and a complete erasure of her actual - presumably difficult - experiences#Elizabeth literally 'failed' (so to speak) to have a son throughout her first queenship#She had three daughters back-to-back#Her first son with Edward IV was in fact born seven years into her marriage after her husband had already been deposed and in exile#It does her an incredibly disservice to rewrite her very complicated situation according to your own whims and fancies#Particularly considering the very unusual nature of her marriage and rise to queen (+Edward's own status as an usurper)#which meant that Elizabeth - like H8's wives after her - was in a far more precarious position than sonless foreign royal queens before her#And while the lack of a son clearly didn't affect her personal marriage (her husband celebrated their eldest daughter's birth#as though she was a male heir and was described as exceedingly happy at the time of their third daughter's birth;#they decided to go on a pilgrimage - presumably to ask for a son - *together*; etc)#That doesn't change the fact that they were in a very very difficult situation that having a son could have resolved/legitimized#Worries that may have intensified even more after 1469 when George of Clarence (second York brother) rebelled against Edward#I also suspect their lack of a son affected the nature of Warwick's propaganda against them during his rebellions#but that's a whole other topic of discussion#Either way: What we should never do is erase and rewrite Elizabeth's (and Edward's) very complex situation in the 1460s#in favor of an inaccurate but more 'convenient' alternate history#It's a little odd tbh because I HAVE seen such discussions for Anne of Bohemia; MoA; and Henry VIII's wives#who all struggled to have male heirs#But for some reason Elizabeth's situation is not even acknowledged - let alone discussed#funny how that happens#anyway#ik I went VERY off track I'm sorry about that
16 notes
¡
View notes
Text
If anyone needs me, I'm going to be over here for the next week completely destroyed over the scene where Pisaeng kept saying that he was Kawi's loved one, but the doctor kept refusing to let him see Kawi because he wasn't legally his spouse.
#be my favorite#be my favorite the series#for the longest time I never even considered marriage because I wasn't allowed#this is a fear among my friends not being able to go to their partner in the hospital#i've seen it irl#it breaks my heart every time#but this is the reality without marriage equality#i hope this message reaches those who need to see that with this show#thai drama#thai bl#bl drama#gmmtv#pisaeng#fluke gawin#gawin caskey
129 notes
¡
View notes
Text
I haven't been able to find much on ace/allo dating, marriage and partnerships, especially not many positive stories, so I thought I'd share my own experiences. (This is ok to rb.)
So I recently realized I'm ace. 8 years into a committed partnership with someone who's very much allo. My partner's caring, understanding, patient nature is probably the main reason I didn't realize it sooner. I didn't have to put a label on it in order for him to understand. He just intuitively did. He listened and paid attention. That was all it took. He always saw me for who I was and respected that.
The only thing I really struggled with was knowing that I wasn't attracted to him in the same way he's attracted to me. We talked about that too and several points and he wasn't bothered by it, but I still felt guilty. I felt like it was unfair of me to be with him knowing I'm not actually sexually attracted to him. I think it was because read a lot of advice on long-term partnerships and something that always came up was that if the "passion" (usually interpreted as lust and sexual desire directed at the other person) is not there, the partnership is a lost cause.
My partner has always been my best friend. I like sharing my life with him and would still want that even if our relationship was purely platonic.
This makes sense to me now, knowing I'm ace. But when he told me the same thing, I didn't believe him. I thought I'd be making him unhappy on the long-term. Even if I myself was content, I didn't want to do that to him. I thought it'd be better if we broke up. Even when he told me that wasn't what he wanted, that he was happy with me, I didn't believe it. Losing him would've hurt me deeply, I knew in my heart that I couldn't do it, and I'm glad I didn't. There's so much more to our relationship than just sex and sexual desire. We both feel that way.
I guess my point is that aces aren't inherently incompatible with with all allos. Intimate relationships between allo and ace people aren't doomed to fail. You aren't "doing it wrong" if the sexual attraction in your relationship is one-sided. As long as everyone involved is happy, that's really all that matters!
#I kept seeing a lot of negativity surrounding sexuality in allo spaces#ppl saying they would never even consider dating an ace person and how they'd end their marriage over it if their spouse came out as ace#but there are definitely a lot of allo/ace couples out there who are doing perfectly fine and are very happy together#so if that's something you worry about - I hope this helped reassure you a bit â¤ď¸#ace#asexuality#relationships#dating#queer#lgbtq+#aspec positivity#aspec
266 notes
¡
View notes
Note
Haha I also used the dickless bore. I thought that only the two main characters came back didn't know he did as well. I still don't buy him ever being into her but that's just me I do wonder if he's going to try and kill her again. I do think Li Rong is treating him too well for my liking she should at least treat hit similarly or worse than she treated ML I want to see wet paper towel non stop suffer.
on one hand, imo a SRQ who is heartless doesn't work for the story the writer is trying to share with us. On the other hand, it's totally ok to decide to be a full-time hater towards a minor character, just because it's fun. I support haters! đ \o/ đ
One thing that I think is relevant when comparing LR's reactions: if PWX had killed her, the motive would have been as part of his mission to have his childhood love Qin Zhenzhen's son become the next emperor. (Remember, he came over to threaten her life over that right before she died and called his ex Zhenzhen lmao) THE AUDACITY. In contrast, LR is viewing her murder at SRQ's hands as part of the revenge plan for the Su family's execution.
Some passages of Li Rong's POV:
After a few moments, she whispered: âWhere did the scent on you come from?â
âIf I say it, you might be upset.â Pei Wenxuanâs eyes had a hint of gloating at othersâ pain.
Li Rong thought for a while and frowned, âSu Rongqing?â
âYes.â
...Li Rong said nothing. She blankly stared into the fire.
Pei Wenxuan turned the fish over and looked at her with a smile, seemingly quite happy. Li Rong found that he had a fearless, unabashed look of enjoying a good play and couldnât help but be a little fazed.
She believed everything Pei Wenxuan said.
---
Su Rongqing was someone that she saved with her own hands.
That year, Prince Su rebelled, and Su Rongqingâs elder brother spoke up for Prince Su. Later on, he was falsely accused of colluding with Prince Su, implicating the Su clan with treason.
At that time, Li Chuan was so furious that he fainted. He put the entire Su clan in prison without going through the Joint Trial of Three Divisions first and put the men to death and the women into exile. She disagreed with this decision and rushed to beg Li Chuan before the Su clan received their sentence. After being subjected to ten planks, with Pei Wenxuanâs intervention, she was finally able to ask for amnesty for the Su clan.
Even if the death sentences can be forgone, it was impossible to escape punishment while still alive. Even though the men of the Su clan could live, they would be subjected to castration. The others couldnât bear the humiliation, so they all committed suicide in prison. When she arrived, there was only one man âdesperate for life and afraid of deathâ left among the men of the Su clan, Su Rongqing.
At that time, she had told Su Rongqing that she saved him without the intention of asking him to repay her. She could give him silver and a position, so that he could continue to live a good life in the future.
Back then, she didnât have any special feelings towards Su Rongqing. It was just that he had saved her before, so after he took care of her, bit by bit, she felt grateful, andâŚvague sentiments towards him.
For the most part, she sought to save the Su clan for Li Chuan and her own conscience. The Su clan was a prominent, noble family. It was difficult for her to sit back and watch if they died in such an ambiguous manner.
At that time, Su Rongqing refused to go.
...It wasnât that she had never thought that Su Rongqing would not take revenge on her. After all, it was Li Chuan who ordered all the men of the Su clan to be beheaded and exiled all the female family members. It was impossible for anyone to forget this blood feud, let alone the formerly first and most outstanding gongzi of that year?
For so many years, she had never dared to give him real authority, observing him and guarding against him while still trying to help him live a better life. She couldnât actually kill him because of her own conscience, but she couldnât actually trust him and give him power.
In the end, he still decided to act. He killed her first, then successfully took her authority in the name of eliminating Pei Wenxuan. If she guessed correctly, he would not leave with the advisors. Instead, he would borrow the excuse of taking revenge for her and enforcing the will of the people to join forces with the Empress, assist Li Xin in ascension, and fight to the death against the remnants of Pei Wenxuanâs faction.
...
She had anticipated this possibility from the moment she took Su Rongqing in, but she couldnât help feeling a bit regretful when it actually happened.
#honestly i think their relationship is quite interesting#and srq is a tragic character who just suffers 24x7 so no worries there#like just imagine: besides the horrible fate of his family#if he truly had always loved li rong#how cruel that would be#the only chance to be with her was this nightmare#and though they accompanied enough other and had some good memories#she could never trust him and could never return his feelings#and she SHOULDNT trust him#and now he sees no other path available than the one he is on#directly opposed to her and fighting on her enemys side#as he gets to watch her marry pwx again#and be increasingly affectionate together#and realize that this isnt young pwx who is too confused and insecure to have a functional marriage w lr#this is the mature adult who might actually make his beloved happy#and how to even feel about that#cdrama#the princess royal#my personal feelings about SRQ evolved a lot as the story progressed but tbh i still dont know#i feel sorry for him#i cannot sympathize with some of his politics but he is also so damaged that#like LR i guess i feel he must be opposed but i wish he could be saved#LR would say he has his reasons (and he has more reasons than she knows)#now the reveal that they are all from the future is clear#he does not come running to her to explain everything and defend himself#he isnt justifying himself#he actually isnt trying to make this all emotionally harder on her than it has to be#but also i DO consider him as someone who betrayed her#and i dont think he can have a place in her life anymore#(fwiw i get the salt about PWX murdering her: he blew up their marriage over ZZ + now warring w her at court over ZZ kid + kills her for it)
16 notes
¡
View notes
Text
Not Fukuchi being the first person in the entirety of Akutagawa's life to recognize his humanity
#From dog to demon to devil he's never been considered humanâ not by othersâ not by himself.#Even the person he (supposedlyâ shipping lenses on) loves considers him a monster... Literally mai una gioia#bsd#bsd ch 86#bsd ch 84-88#mine#q.#23/09/22#I really like Fukuchi btw. In a perfect world he would have signed sskk's marriage blessings
90 notes
¡
View notes
Text
litmag reading is crazy cause when i submit i'm overthinking it like god i hope i didn't send a messy narrative or something i don't realise is actually unclear and not enough of a story and i hope the prose decisions i made shine through and i hope the readers at least enjoy it regardless of the decision and also i hope i handled everything sensitively and didn't accidentally write something harmful all of these being things i check repeatedly before submitting. and then there are writers out there who just submit misogyny.docx
#i never post these in reaction to a specific story but there are multiple that come to mind#male writers..........#all i will say - and again a general observation and not about any story in particular -#is that a lot of men will write stories about relationships and sex and marriage etc and not even think to like consider the woman characte#as a fully fleshed human the way the man is. and they will do this very comfortably
7 notes
¡
View notes
Text
the overturning of the law of daynos was kind of overshadowed by the complete clusterfuck (positive) that was book 3's ending, but can we back it up a second. they overturned the law of daynos. they didn't even really believe in overturning it, they just needed it to work one specific personal thing out. but that has massive ramifications. they showed up, decimated the current vanĂŠ social structure and then left. can you imagine all the problems they left behind my god
#a chorus of dragons#mutuals I was gonna try to explain the law of daynos to you in the tags but I don't know if I have the space. i'll try to be brief#(it's imperfect the vanĂŠ are complicated okay I'm fudging a few things)#law of daynos basically says once you die you are no longer legally responsible for the actions of your past life.#even once your soul gets transfered to a new body (VERY common. like everyone does it. its like faux immortality)#so any responsibilities agreements (like marriages) are void#but they overturned this law in book 3#meaning that now like their entire population's past lives are suddenly legally considered alive and valid#marriages are valid again. debts you owed are valid again. etc#because in this world dying is very different. and you can die and still be the same person#therefore death actually /shouldn't/ automatically invalidate marriages debts responsibilities etc#and the main characters didn't actually really beleive in overturning the law#they just needed to reinstate this one person to the throne via overturning it#so they did that. and completely fucked SO many lives in the process#and we simply. never see the consequences#the main characters have too much else going on that this clusterfuck doesn't come close to making the cut#but I keep thinking about it...
17 notes
¡
View notes
Text
the genuine pain Evangeline feels over standing complicit in her Fatherâs death destroys me. This man who has done nothing but strip her of her freedom and force her into (abusive) engagements and undermine her value within the Rift and sheâs still haunted by his death. She realized early on that the Cygnets want him as well for Maven and chooses to stay silent and when that passes and sheâs given a second chance to say stop his death she stands and simply watches it happen. She outright tells Cal she hopes Irisâs gods arenât real because she doesnât want to know what they have in store for her. She thinks that the act of her keeping this information from Volo is proof to everyone that sheâs a terrible person GOD
#evangelineâs relationship with Volo is deadly like#I just love that VA doesnât make relationships like Volo and Evangeline or Maven and Elara as simple as âtheyâre dead and iâm free from#their tormentâ like these kids are haunted by their parents because despite the pain and despite them actively stripping them of their#freedom theyâre still their parents and they still hold so much love for them#not even mentioning the whole situation with Evangeline being the better heir but because sheâs the second child she was never considered#and because sheâs a woman she was primarily seen as useful due to her potential marriages with the Calore boys#and guess what#SHE GOT THE BEST ENDING OUT OF EVERYONEâźď¸#red queen#red queen series#evangeline samos
29 notes
¡
View notes
Text
ive mentioned before how ive always thought it was a little bizarre that so many white people's first assumption when they see a white-looking person with a culturally unexpected surname is "oh they're adopted" despite how much more common a person being multiracial is compared to being the white adopted child of non-white parents - although of course it does happen, its just yknow. the people saying this are usually not thinking about the racial dynamics in the adoption industry so much as they are just assuming mixed race people don't exist LOL
but on that end, in my own mixed race bias I usually assume multiracialness first so i did completely forget about another decently common situation where a white-looking adult (often a woman) might have a last name from a non-white culture: i forgot that um. sometimes people (particularly women) change their last names when they get married? neither my mom nor any of my aunties did so you have to forgive me orz
#literally i completely forgot. genuinely#i met a woman with my mom she gave us her business card. she did not look japanese but had a japanese last name#and i was like mentally oh cool a whitepassing biracial sister. and then my mom who had chatted with her a bit longer mentioned later#the woman had changed her name when she got married. and i was like. ah. people take others names sometimes. i forgor#im like weirdly possessive over my extremely common last name in that i never considered changing it if i ever get married#like to the point where if i DID get married i also kind of wouldnt want my partner to take my name either. its mine.#like yes we're joining in a union representing everlasting love and companionship and tax benefits or whatever#but thats myyyyyyyy name :( LOL yeah i dunno either. i dont even feel right giving my name to my own art#but i like. genuinely blanked it out of my head for a while there. i genuinely forgot about marriage name changes#im so sorry. i think i nearly forgot that people get like officially married too (common law parents) ..... forgive me jfdslkdsdjkfs
3 notes
¡
View notes