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Since I've become aware of my intrusive thoughts the worst aspects of them have shifted a lot. I still don't feel comfortable talking about what specific intrusive thoughts I do get because I know that there are people who cannot fathom living with thoughts like these that you can't control.
#i used to worry most about somehow doing Things that I would never do to other people#now my most pressing intrusive thoughts thst stress me out are the ones relating to my speech patterns#like I'm worried that I'm gonna freudian slip a slur or something truly truly hurtful towards people in conversation#OR NIGHTMARE SCENARIO talking in my sleep or while drunk and not remembering it#have had so many intrusive thoughts about telling beloved friends that I only care about them because I'm using them like wtfff where do#they come from?? thats not true...
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Just because you don't love yourself it doesn't mean I will stop loving you.
#my art#goro akechi#persona 5#shuake#p5r#ren amamiya#persona 5 royal#akeshu#for some reason i wrote a dif caption on all socmed#i like them all#u know me and my poetry and shuake i cant stop coming up w lines so oh well collect them all#twt tumblr and bsky#twt and tumblr are similar#oh right i have never told ppl i have either of those here#tumblr is my true home so i forget#anw enjoy my tablet pen is dying and replacement is 350 euros cause its a wacom display tablet from 2013-17 and yeah. fuck me :)#cant even say i will do comms to pay for a new one cause its maddening to draw on it rn#idk how i managed to draw this one - passion for shuake ig#ok thats too much rambling even for me oops#its been a bad week lots of expenses for someone who quit her job to do a post grad on my savings lol#im getting better though
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Everyone take a step back and think, REALLY HARD
What does your VTM character's blood taste like to other vampires/ mortals they have ghouled. Like the answer is ofcourse blood but if you could assign "normal" flavor notes to it.
what would it be??
#-Exposing myself as coming from a muslim family- Rosa's blood has a deep floral taste to it#like rose water with underlines of really earthy herbs like tyme and sage but there is this hint of a sweetness deep in there#Drea I wanna say taste like smoke but thats not true she does have a smokey quality almost burnt but no quite that bitter like Clove#with a level of warm spices like cinnamon
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You should stay away from me. I'm no longer with the gang. I didn't agree. Our boss already agreed four years ago. Pull over and let me out of the car. I'm your boss!
KISEKI: DEAR TO ME Ep. 01 / Ep. 09
#kiseki: dear to me#kisekiedit#kdtm#kiseki dear to me#ai di x chen yi#chen yi x ai di#nat chen#chen bowen#louis chiang#chiang tien#jiang dian#userspring#uservid#userrain#userspicy#userjjessi#pdribs#*cajedit#*gif#again. INSANE that they opened the show with this and then were like. 'these are side characters' like. NO! (& wild how the finale was 90%#them being happy while zherui was getting stabbed. like. clearly the writers knew who the true main characters were lmaooo)#ok anyway i honestly really love the breath chen yi lets out once he gets the door shut. like. its real. its happening.#the RELIEF as well as the determination to have ai di for real in front of him again#and also insane that the first time they touch after four years is chen yi putting ai di's whole body over his shoulder#like. last time they touched was ai di touching chen yi's hair while he slept#does anyone else think about that. does anyone think about the fact that the last time they touched was when they slept together#does anyone else think abt what ai di is experiencing trying to keep chen yi from touching him#but also loving him for coming to pick him up from prison. do you think about the combination of ai di's desperation and dread#compared to chen yi's desperation and relief. like does anyone else think about the combination of gentle and rough or just me#i made half of this while on an airplane yesterday thats how insane for them i am <3
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Hot take but Caleb is at least a little bit justified in the way he's acting in the main story. Not completely of course. He definitely takes it too far and he SHOULD have told the mc what the hell was going on in skyhaven from the get go so she could be better prepared.
But the mc is actively acting like a goddamn dumbass. She throws herself basically blind into a situation which even her supervisor says is suspicious at best and dangerous at worst AND which they know next to nothing about, with no backup and basically no plan except for a vague "infiltrate the fleet and find out what they know about the aether core". So OF COURSE she gets caught the moment she steps foot onto the place. And of course Caleb has to step in and clean up the mess before his superiors, or worse, Ever, look too much into this girl who's throwing herself headfirst into anything and everything even remotely connected to the aether core. All the while keeping up his persona as a heartless colonel so that what is likely a year's long plan to infiltrate the fleet and ever in order to destroy them from within wont go to waste - though that's more of an educated guess from going through his material and some theorising built upon said material.
Honestly the mc's foray into the N109 Zone was also bumbassery at its finest but there you could excuse it with grief making her not think things through...but with skyhaven? There's really no other explanation than idiocy.
She should know by now that everything connected to ever and the aether core is dangerous business. THEY BLEW UP HER HOUSE FOR GOODNESS SAKE! But she keeps acting with all the forethought and grace of a bull in a china shop. Or a pumpkin magus in a flower shop if you will.
At the end of the day though, since LADS is an otome game and the mc is a self-insert, there will never be any lasting consequences for her ill thought out actions. Nor will they be properly scrutinised in the same way the LIs actions will be.
So I guess I'll just sit in my little corner and grumble about the way Caleb gets misinterpreted by large swathes of the fandom as nothing but the manipulative yandere type when in truth he's still a sunflower - he's just grown in rotten soil.
#i needed to rant#after reading all of the caleb materials i have FEELINGS#also can i at least once#just once play as a truly intelligent mc in an otome game?#no?#even if i say pretty please?#lads#lads caleb#love and deepspace#love and deepspace caleb#lnds caleb#lnds#for an otome game and a gacha one at that#caleb is pretty well written#xavier is as well but he suffers from the way the myths are integrated into the game#as do the other LIs#thoughts#also ngl i would lock the mc up as well#the fandom treats her as this battle goddess who's beyond capable of handling everything coming her way#but thats not exactly true to the text#like sure she's capable#but everytime she goes off on her own to handle stuff she gets kidnapped or injured#no hate its just the way the text treats her#she's still an otome heroine who needs to be saved by the LIs
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totally normal about the 'wedding?' response continuing to evolve even though it's only been 5 shows. at this point i'm convinced the grand plan behind tit is to convince dan via exposure therapy that he's allowed to want to get married
#going from being afraid of commitment and anti-traditional to not doing it because of spite and pettiness about peoples' expectations...#it's not weak to want it dan. you dont 'lose' simply bc our desire for you comes true#the only reason we *want* it is bc we want you to be happy#and while yes thats tied up in tradition for a lot of us. and theres a lot to unpack there about society and norms and whatnot.#it's rooted in this deep want for you to get your happy ending. and while life doesnt *end* after marraige.#it's a hell of a fuck you to everyone who thought you couldnt make it. it's a hell of a fuck yeah as a celebration of how far you've come#it means the walls you built to keep yourself safe. that maybe have started to feel claustrophobic these past 5 years. can come down.#idk. its up to you to decide.#imo it all comes back to that same thing. dan wants something. but he cant have it bc what will society say about him for wanting it?#so he has to play it down and partake in this convoluted dance to say he doesnt want it thatd be ridiculous#and then folds anyway. bc denial only lasts so long when desire is strong. and it feels like he should be punished for liking it#yk how wad was about carving the words into his head that we get to live? this is like him hearing over and over we want good things for him#titspoilers#dnp#c.text#dan and phil#phan#dnptit
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tried my hand on stancest meta but tumblr ate up my draft that was a fullblown essay like the functioning app that it is, so i'm just going to post my twitter screenshots here lmao


#stancest#tldr: ik alex said ford and stan desperately need each other and thats very very true#but my god is ford so much more vulnerable without stan#stan was such an important emotional pillar to ford that bill directly acknowledges that he isnt here to steer ford away from his plans#bill does a lot to try to gst ford to forget about stanley#from calling him inferior and saying if ford lets him back in#he would mooch off of ford#to “conviniently” forgetting to mention stan in the list of people ford can't turn to#as fiddleford abandoned him his dad doesnt want him and he has no other friends#like the lack of mention in stan in that was GLARINGLY obvious#stan being bill's biggest threat when it comes to ford is pretty gay but also just says so much about how much weaker ford is w/o him
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The escalation from "I'm going to graffiti motivational quotes" to "I'm going to play obnoxious sirens of my voice everytime you get close" to "I'm going to unite with the server to bury you alive with your home, and I'm going to plant trees so it looks like you were never there" is certainly something.
#original post#grian#hermitcraft#the introvert has spoken!#shitpost#as much as i want Doc to be his evil self i dont think he can come back from this#the prank was so powerful Iskall came on the server just to help#and the fact that Grian immediately disbanned the buttercups afterwards so Doc cant even destroy them#he'll find a way#you know how petty you got to be to bury and decorate someones base /j#there were rumors the season was going to end and if thats true im just convinced they want Doc to break it#the worst part of all this is that Doc's one supposed ally in all of this helped bury the perimeter#the best part was Iskall coming to help that was too funny for me#im not sure how this is going to go
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[<==PREV PAGES] [NEXT PAGE==>(not out yet.wait a year.or maybe more.imagine.]
saw alot of comments on prev pages; saying 'i HATE that mean teacher! im gonna FIGHT HIM!!' & i LOVE the energy!! it WOULD be nice. to have that catharsis. but the story of young tidestrider is Not one of catharsis. it is a story of being so small and so special and sucking so bad.
#jrwi fanart#jrwi show#jrwi riptide#gillion tidestrider#GONNA START FORMATTING MY COMICS BETTER. W THE PROPER 'PREV' 'NEXT' LINKS#REALLY DIDNT EXPECT TO CONTINUE THIS SERIES BUT AAAUUUHH MY BRRAAAIN MY BRAIN IS SO IDEASSS. I HAVE 3 OTHER PAGES SKETCHED OUT#NO PROMISES ILL FINISH EM ANY TIME SOON OR EVER. MY WHIMS ARE THEIR OWN BEAST AND I ONLY DRAW ON MY WHIMS#THAT BEING SAID IF U COMMISSIONED ME ILL GEEETT TO YOUUU IM SORRYYYY. ART IS AN EMOTIONAL RELEASE FOR ME N BABY I HAVE EMOTIONS.#ESPECIALLY ABOUT GILLION TIDESTRIDER CHAMPION OF THE UNDERSEA HERO OF THE DEEP.for the desc here i put smth that i typed up in the tags of#another thing i made. i gotta make a proper Baby Gillion tag or smth. eventually.. eventually...I LOVE DRAWIN THIS LIL BABY GUY..#i also LOVE depicting the teachers as just being so fuckin mean. ofc theres variation in that. just like in all things.like the teacher her#idk if itll be mentioned but the octo lady is named Ms Octburn.an octopus pun based off the name of an actual councilor i had#when i was in elementary school i got bullied alot but teachers never did anything. i hated adults and didnt trust them.#but this councilor o mine was so genuinely sweet. i remember spending alot of time w her. she doesnt work there anymore.#but that one school adult that actually earns ur trust and is there for you when they can be.its SO important for a child i think#i hope she knows how much she helped me.youll see in the next page that ms octburn isnt perfect either.but she tries. they all try.somehow.#ALL these comics are gonna be inspired by somesorta experience o mine in the school system. school is so fucked up u ever thing abt that#AND GILLIOOOOONNN IN THE MOST FUCKED UP LITTLE SCHOOL OF ALL. MAINTAINED BY A CULT. CENTERED AROUND HIM. OUR CHOSEN ONE#I IMAGINE ALOT BANKS ON HIS SUCCESS. THIS IS THE WORLD. THE WHOLE WORLD. THE PROPHECY IS GOING TO COME TRUE N UR TELLIN ME#THAT ITS THIS LITTLE IDIOT THATS GONNA BE SAVING US? WHAT IF HE FAILS. IF HE CANT GET THIS RIGHT THEN HE WILL FAIL AND WE WILL DIE#WE NEED TO TRAIN HIM. WE NEED HIM TO LEARN. AND TO SUCCEED. OR ELSE WE'RE DEAD. WE'RE ALL FUCKING DEAD. I IMAGINE THAT MUST BE STRESSFUL#in other news i hope ppl actually giggle when they read these. they ARE intended to be comical. dark humor or whatever. like its also sad#this is intended to be a sad comic series. but a funny one too. does that make sense? god i hope so.saw some1 say they had flashbacks-#-reading this. like YES!! THE INTENDED EFFECT!! YOU GET ME!! i love seeing ppl get upset on this lil baby boys behalf. i LOVE seeing ppl-#-wail n weep n cry in the comments. i LOOOVE seeing ppl RELATE to baby gillion. and i love letting u all know that this wont be a happycomi#gillion gets his happiness arc in the actual show. this series is one of unfortunate events. teehehehe. do u guys remember that show#i keep listening to the lil songs from A Series of Unfortunate Events for inspiration. GOOD STUFF!!#anyway uuhh uhh thats all i got in my brain. for now. feed me ur comments give me ur input i NNEEEEEDD THHEEEMMMM
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Sometimes when I'm planning comic stuff, these guys always happen to sneak onto the paper.
[Very dubious of them]
#thsc#thsc rupert price#thsc johnny panzer#the henry stickmin collection#art#planning comics for tha ask bloooggggg#i always go 'oooh for this ask ill make a short comic :^] ' no i wont#thats never true#i blink and then theres like 6 pages#where did these guys come from#dave sometimes appears on the pages too. but he is not as dubious
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i wasnt gonna make a post on this, but ive seen more people talk about it so i figured id say my peace. Ariane has hurt me, countless friends of mine, and many more mutuals. we have not talked in a few years at this point and i have not checked in on her as she blocked me every time she remade and i made sure to block her because of the bad blood between us. there are several screenshots in the callout post from ariane where she is vaguing and lying about me and my friends. when i was what i would call a friend to ariane (3ish years ago by now), i watched her harass, stalk, shit talk and bully many people. screenshots are not available because she deleted and remakes blogs and servers. even people she called a friend she would talk awfully about, sometimes even making locked channels in her discord servers where people couldnt see and then talking badly about those people in her mutuals server.
it has been hard to bring up these things because firstly, i did not want to get into it and put myself back on her radar. second, she has told many people, strangers and past mutuals, to block me. i can only imagine what she said to them but i have had people unblock me since to reconnect after she turned on them.
all of this is to say. if you support ariane, please unfollow me. i wont be mad. i dont want someone who supports her to be around me. that callout didnt even scratch the surface of her bad behavior.
#dragon's ramblings#pretty sure shes using my friend groups names to say we're threatening her safety and thats straight up not true#ariane if youre stalking my blog at all: never come back to tumblr and keep me out of your thoughts#ive moved on from my past experiences with you as have my friend group and so has river#leave us alone forever
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#AYEAAA the chapter art always delivers#tbh i was kind of neutral on kabru for a while bc i wasnt sure ab his purpose or much ab him really#to form a solid opinion but hes rly growing on me.I LIKE HIMM!!!#isnt that so interesting though. like thats kind of the role he plays come to think of it#hes an observer . he studies everyone he meets / sizes them up while simultaneously concealing his own true nature#adopting diff personas to best fit his prerogative so its cool that he genuinely is harder to understand when you meet him#and like toshiro / namari / his own party say- you can tell that hes not entirely authentic ab himself#but you cant really dissect much below that without having access in2 his internal dialogue#id known beforehand he was one of the more popular characters but i had a hard time conceptualizing why#given there was so little to be said abt Him!Kabru! but no i see it now he got me Guys he Got Me#i also have so much go say abt mithrun in retrospect but idk how to word it or rly what it means outside of the abstract#but i lovedddd … the goat.. THE IMAGERY WAS INSAAANEEE THE MIRROR OF DESIRES AND THE GOAT DEVOURING HIM#dude . dmesh symbolism is so great.#and i think his story in particular is just incredibly interestingn#the kind of person to bend to desire and then have it stripped from them completely#dunmeshi#dunmeshi 61#dungeon meshi spoilers#dunmeshi spoilers#kabru#mithrun
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it just idea .......
#not art (yet) babeyy#had the thought of '' ogh hyperfem barbarian!fig'' the other day and. well thats another design set#and adaine's our Hoodie Kid™ this time#but the specifics of these silhouettes are kinda tricky#esp. with adaine and like. how to differentiate her and gorgug (who still wears a hoodie the normal way in freshman year)#still straight up have No idea what fabian and kristen look like yet...#they and riz are like the self-seekers coming into this freshman year and riz true to form looks like Nothing. just Absolute Squat#so it makes a Little sense if they go that way too. but thats like. idk I dont foresee that being visually interesting#no actually I dont think I can make kristen look like just some guy if I actively try. so we'll see about her#just thinking a little bit abt adaine showing up at school with a bag full of clothes she can change into so shes not wearing#the damn hudol uniform the whole day. but no second pair of shoes so she's wearing That with the mary janes#fig offers to switch shoes with her every day at school until adaine ends angwyn's life#(still gotta actually put it down on paper but I dont think fig stays hyperfem the whole way thru I think kristen is her awakening to#more aesthetics. which is funny bc I think kristen is the most Character character of them all. shes like naruto shes got a closet#of just the same pieces)#(this is a liittle bit informed by my exmo friend's stories. but also its an adhd thing sometimes. from experience)
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if 9&10 were "dont wander off", and 11&12 were "the doctor lies", 13s rule #1 is "dont question me"
"have we not had a good time together" shes pointing yaz to the rule that yaz very well knows is there: we can travel if you dont ask me any difficult questions. yaz knows this is the rule - "because you ask too many questions", "this team structure isnt flat" - but she also was the one to invite the doctor into her home so im pretty sure she also knows shes not gonna kicked out that easily. she has some leeway. which she has been using between revolution and flux, which is why the doctor reminds her of the rules
i dont think she'd kick her out though. she wouldnt. i think it's just that the more you break the rule, the more unpleasant she becomes to be around, and eventually youre gonna walk out on your own. she doesnt want you to, she'd rather you stay and dont ask questions. but if youre gonna try to ask questions anyway, i think thats whats gonna happen
and yaz must think so too. because she does back off. because she doesnt want that to happen either. and it does anyway
#dont question me/dont challenge me. questions are the sore spot but the challenge is one she says explicitly once#because you see this in how she is with other people too. dont try her patience. dont act like shes smaller. dont challenge her or Die#based on the giggle - 'i thought i was clever' 'what do i say?! because im always sooo certain' - i dont think 14 is like this#also based on the expressions of affection#hes not that......reactive. to this. specific thing#so i wonder if it runs over to 15#he seems chill. i think? he seems fairly chill. but also i think we've so far only seen him mostly in control of things#faced with the maestro temporarily not entirely in control hes Notably Less Chill#but still bigger picture. hes mostly in control of things right now i think#or uhhhh based on how eager he seems to get out of the role of doctor#hmmmmm#13 didnt want it but like. was stuck with it i think#didnt want it but nobody else was gonna do it. thats why 12 regenerated#15 comes out 14 Literally Quitting#he doesnt want it and hes decided hes not stuck with it. maybe#none of this is true btw im just saying words recreationally#like those 13 moments are super cherrypicked and i havent rewatched in forever so#dont believe me gfkjghgjh#this is based more on how i write them than what ive seen basically#anyway in terms of 14/yaz i think it takes yaz a while to figure out how to deal with 14 Not being like this#bc she got soooo practiced at handling 13. most of which was abt like not tripping this rule too much#she'd keep it up with 14 and he'd just do stuff that like breaks the rule from his side and yaz wouldnt have any idea how to deal with it#he'd show her hes chilled out a bit. about this. over and over and it'd still take her moooooonthssssssss to start relaxing#just muscle memory at this point. doesnt help that shes also like this#i wonder if 14 - in a sort of compelte reversal - wants to be told what to do and how to do and#seeks out situations where someone else knows more than him so he can sit down and say 'teach me'#i think thats what he does. about all the human stuff. hes like teach me. all of it. show me how to do this
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Young K - 그대로 와 줘요 (come as you) (2021) // Seungmin - 그렇게, 천천히, 우리 (As we are) (2024) // Young K - Microphone (2021) // Young K - Guard You (2021) // Young K - let it be summer (2023) // DAY6 (Even of Day) - The Book of Us: Gluon - Nothing can tear us apart (2020)
#young k#seungmin#day6#day6 even of day#day6 eod#stray kids#skz#brian kang#kim seungmin#kang younghyun#tay talks#the protectiveness and tenderness and vulnerability to be such a safe space and comfort..........i'm so normal actually#true embodiment of 'i learned it from watching you' :')#long post#bc god. it sure is#anyways this was a post for me everyone else feel free to ignore this im just sooooo ill and emo abt them.............#i'm sure thats surprising coming from tumblr user briankang. shocking.
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#THIS WAS HARDER THAN IT LOOKS#i moved jean from butchy femme to butch because of peer pressure#but i guess its still true#and thea for a moment i thought she could fit in futch but then i remembered her one scene had her wearing a pastel skirt so#riko high femme i know is controversial but i feel like hes kind of fierce like that sorry#soft butch jeremy felt very correct no notes on that one#lets see. i had kevin in high femme but actually i think he wouldnt be so far in the scale#i feel like hes respectably on the femme side but not like. insanely high femme like myself#as in i dont wear pants and i buy wedding veils to use in my daily life#AND RENEE i wanted her in butch i really did but i dont think thats true for her in canon#i think actually in canon renee is really like a normal pretty girl which im obsessed with#remember when even neil said her smile was pretty. yeah#and jean's thoughts coming to a halt when he saw her face <3#so yeah. we need a real butch in aftg and andrew doesnt count#wheres the alvarez butch prayer circle#alvarez boy shorts and white tank top prayer circle#txt#foxes
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