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dizzybevvie · 2 years
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Haha yeah Im ok why do you ask (visibly shaking)
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jaegerisim · 1 year
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Hey El! I was just wondering, are you out to people in ur life irl (like ur parents, friends, ect)? If so, what was your process of coming out to them, and how did you deal with people who were a little homophobic or even a lot? If not, do you ever think you will, and why? I’ve been in the closet irl for almost a year and a half now because of homophobic parents, so I’d really like to hear ur story 🙂
Hi nonny! Well, I’ve officially come out to my mom, my brothers, my bff, my fiancé and a couple of other close friends. They know I’m bi, but they don’t know I’m a demigirl, and honestly, they never will. I don’t feel comfortable telling them that, tbh. I don’t rlly fancy the idea of me telling them that, especially when the concept of “gender” is something pretty difficult for many Asians to grasp (at least in my experience, don’t come at me, ok? 😭😭😭😭😭)
ok so I came out to my mom one day when I was still a teen. We were talking about one of my closest friends, at the time, my mom told me the girl had very pretty eyes and I went on this ramble about all the beautiful things things the girl had. My mom was just kinda staring at me like “😯”. So I just straight up went and said “Mom, I like girls as well as boys. I’m bisexual” and my mom (who I knew wouldn’t be homophobic abt it) said “cool, now go clean the dishes! 🥰 or ur lazy ass gonna get whooped” (typical Asian mom, smh). I never told my dad cuz his family is much more conservative and my halmeoni from his side think “gay” is synonymous to “mental illness”. I think my dad kinda guessed it, he’s never said anything about it, tho. My older brother came out as pan a few years before me, when he introduced his bf. Then a few years after me, my twin came out as aroace. They preferred to come out to my dad and I preferred my mom. That’s just how shit is. U tell who u wanna tell, and if ur parents are homophobic then they can go fuck themselves tbh. u can tell whoever u want to ok, nonny? And despite what the str8 media tells u about ur parents needing to be the first to know, it doesn’t have to be like that if u don’t want to. Your friends can be the first to know and ur parents could be the last. Your parents don’t even have to know if u don’t want to.
I came out to my friends and while all of them weren’t homophobic to my face or in that moment, many of them showed their true colors with time.
When you come out, you never really know how they’re gonna react. So you gotta learn to not gaf abt their say on this bc they don’t get one. Plus, at the end of the day, this is about u not them, don’t let them twist you’re coming out into something about them. You don’t have to even tell them and if u do tell them, u r doing it for u, not them. You don’t own anyone anything.
If you wanna know, I‘ve never really learned how to deal w the homophobia and I don’t think I ever will. Homophobia, is not something u assume and it doesn’t always present itself in the same way. Sometimes it’s a comment abt how bi ppl are sluts, other times it’s “joking” comment about being able to have as many threesomes as I want, another time it can be someone straight up calling u a slur. You never know, when or how or from whom the homophobia may come and personally I can’t live with having my guard constantly up. So sometimes I fight back, other times I feel like just ignoring them and maybe a couple of times I break down and cry about it. 🤷🏻‍♀️ sometimes the most “innocent” comment can be my breaking point while some days and don’t even mind them. Honestly? I find pretty scary the fact that sometimes I realize that I have assumed receiving homophobia and slurs to a very deep level.
Anyway, nonny, I hope this ramble answered ur question! 💕🌈
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xythlia · 1 year
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Also, let me just catch up with you rq! I remembered that I completely forgot to congratulate you on your birthday, so happy belated birthday I guess 😭❤️ Uni has been kicking my ass, especially the commute between my home city, the city I study in and the city where I am working on my doctor‘s study/thesis 🥲 Idek if I have ever told you, but last year me and a few other students were sent to the other end of the state to continue our education in another hospital there. All those years before I was living with my parents and just commuted to Uni (which is in the city where I am working on my thesis rn), but that was not possible anymore. Luckily I got an apartment in the student dorms there (which belong to an entirely different uni, but they were kind enough to offer us rooms as well), but it was so fucking bad. Not the apartment itself, mind you, just the rest. My student dorm was basically at the other end of the city, I had no car, and the buses drove 2x per hour and would often not come at all. There is no direct connection between the dorm and the hospital, so you have to take the bus to the inner city and then take another bus there. I had to walk to the hospital more times than I can count, and that‘s a 5km walk, so you can imagine how I arrived to my lectures. I had courses and training the entire day, and would often arrive at like 7pm in the evening, completely exhausted. Add onto that that it was winter (🫠), so the days were short, cold, and the weather was unpredictable, and I had to cook and keep up the apartment + the commute to my home and thesis city. The people there were SO unkind, some didn’t even greet me and would not even wait a few seconds to keep the door open for me, even though they could see I was carrying a big pack of water bottles. I was blogging from the trenches back then 😭 I applied for the other student dorm in the inner city, right next to the bus stop for the bus to the hospital, since all my friends live there, and to combat the loneliness I had experienced during the winter. They approved, and I moved in at the end of March/beginning of April. It’s sooo much better here, the people are kind (we even have a chat group on WhatsApp), the apartment is smaller and has an objectively better atmosphere, and I save so much time now. I also managed to get closer to my friends and actually go out with them/ invite them over for coffee.
On a more positive note, my friend and I managed to get tickets for Hozier in December 🎉 I told my BFF, because we discovered Hozier back in school together and have always promised each other that one day we will go to one of his concerts together, and she and her roommate (who also went to school with us) managed to get tickets as well, sooo we’re making the whole thing into a vacation 🫶🏻 (for clarification: My BFF lives in the same state as I do, just in a different city and often has to commute to Berlin for her studies/work since the program she’s enrolled in is a so-called ‘Duales Studium’, a concept that is, I think, exclusive to Germany. We rarely get to see each other, but we text almost every day.)
I currently just want to finish the exam season so I can have my two weeks of peace in Bosnia in August 🤘🏻
I think those were all the big updates on my life 😄 I should make more of my own posts so I can keep people updated in real time, just like you do 😵‍💫 I am so sorry for the way your bf’s mom treated you, that was so disrespectful and uncalled for. I also feel sorry for your bf for having to apologize for her actions. People who have no filter and no shame are the absolute worst 🫠. I hope her words didn’t hurt you too much, and that I am proud of you for getting to a weight where you are happy and content with yourself ❤️
omg anesa <333 ty for the belated hbd but im sorry schools been kicking u around that commute sounds so bad oml especially w rude ppl to deal with on top of it. its really good tho u were able to transfer somewhere way better and reconnect with ur friends! & OMG U GOT HOZIER TICKETS?? a lil concert vacation sounds so fun i hope u guys have an awesome time!!! ^⁠_⁠^
ahskahdsk my bfs mom is absolutely certifiable so it doesn't bother me too bad (and tysm for being proud too of my happy weight! being in recovery has been the best choice i ever made for myself) i felt so bad for my bf & his dad too it was like damn spending basically ur whole lives dealing with someone else's crazy behavior & constantly apologizing for it just sucks so much. But that's probably why he became a therapist lmao
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bcofl0ve · 1 year
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Obvs they'll b professional bt im curious to see how or if hunter/kaia interact. hunter unfollowed Kaia n Jacob elordi wen they were caught dating, she is bffs wit Zendaya n there was a rumor that he may hav cheated on Zendaya with Kaia, or may hav been an issue between him n Hunter n maybe Kaia got involved somehow lol. Sum ppl assumed that was why Rue/Jules barely interacted with Nate in s2, cuz the BTS actors dnt care for each other. Hunter r3followed both Jacob n Kaia wen they broke up tho 😭☠️ so mayb their all ok now bt just sum fun gossip lol
(Jacob Elordi also seems lik a mess of a man with his relationships lmao glad glad both Kaia n Z seem to b happy with their current bfs. his longest (public) relationship is with Olivia Jade who dsnt seem lik a great person either so mayb their a perfect match)
for some reason i actually think hunter and kaia would click really well- if they let bygones be bygones about any jacob related kerfluffle.
fwiw, the same old friend of mine that knew kaia also knew olivia jade and i only ever heard good things about her at least personality wise. of course there’s the whole ✨college scandal✨ but even privileged people who make severely poor choices can be sweet, lol. agree about jacob though. the gossip surrounding him has…never been good specifically in regards to how he treats women.
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azaleadynasty · 2 years
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i hate some el stans sm, like the amount i see who are like “will stans just wna steal everything on el (her bf, her dad, her bff, her powers, her trauma)” which is just so not true
byler is mostly built off of evidence and with respect to el n her character, it’s not meant to be taking it off of her
her dad (hop) is like a father figure to will too, n yous are alright “taking will’s mum off of him n giving it to el” 😭 like???? they are a family !!!
her bff (max), will n max knew each other first n got closer s2-s3,, like they are trio ma guy,, will, max n el 🫶 let them be,,, also they are fine with putting el n max with other ppl friends/bff wise but like when it has any mention of will they get all mad
the powers, like shut up, we can have our theories 🤭
the trauma??? never would i ever, will n el have separate traumas that are both v valid!
btw this is only abt the will hating el stans esp the 1s who say they don’t hate him when they acc do
el deserves better stans man ☹️
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mexicaan · 4 years
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hate being alone w my thoughts oof
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withincatalyst · 6 years
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polaris     &     lilith are narrators,   &     though their nature is very much unbiased     &     uncruel,   there are still very abstract variants as two of the same kind.     in a way,   i suppose they’re opposites of each other.     polaris is curious by the nature of herself,   but lilith is curious by the conditioning of her status of an individual.     she learned to be curious because of the very much different situation she was in as someone who didn’t grow up in a narrator’s perfect society.     polaris is very open with pretty much everything about herself     ;     lilith isn’t.     polaris is very open to every interpretation of the existence of narrators.     lilith was brought up by the pinnacles of narrators,   those who had formed the perfect utopian society all narrators lived in.     she was brought up fully aware of the lack of her own limits     ;     she was also brought up knowing that narrators held no true place in the world but to embody a concept that doesn’t involve their own existence.     while also growing up fully aware of her abilities,   she grew up very sure that narrators had no place in actual life.     they simulated life,   is the best way she could place it in her mind.     &     not only that,   she herself simulated the absorption of life’s place,   her existence to determine another’s existence invalid.
#:⦗ ♡ ⦘ .  ❝  theses .  ❞  ⦗ ♡ ⦘ .   ▬     gyeong   ∗ ⟦  lilith  ⟧ ∗   kaeun .#:⦗ ♡ ⦘ .  ❝  theses .  ❞  ⦗ ♡ ⦘ .   ▬     tan   ∗ ⟦  polaris  ⟧ ∗   aehei .#anyway this??? one of the best concepts ive ever thought of tbh....... SDAHJDSA#i feel like this is a very brief surface view of the back behind lilith and of what she feels/knows#like#ig this makes more sense to ppl who've followed my posts about narrators and typically how they are which like#only 2 of u do but DHSAJASDKA#i jus.....................#lilith is one of the literally..... wow my heart hurts thinking of her muses i have...........#like tbh polaris isnt much sad as she is like...... v clueless abt the concept and existence of narrators#and lilith is teaching her how to breach her limits rn like how to break past them and peer into her own capabilities like........#polaris is learning visual projection which.......... shes much better at auditory projection HDSAJKDSA#but theyre works in progresses and tbh lilith looks on at polaris so softly and tenderly like a child sister who knows no wrong in the world#lilith knows that polaris is very much clueless??? and lilith would rather keep it that way#lilith knows so much that keeps her from having her peace like itd be better if she had friends?? who know abt her.... things but#first like barely anyone knows polaris is an alien except for like ....... her bff and her bf DASHJASD#so that goes even LESS so for lilith like she . she knows ppl and has no problems interaction but her interactions go#so dull bc she doesnt see the point in making herself a focal point in anyones life????? bc of the lack of existence to herself?? idk like..#i need who nights to unpack this yall......... DSAHJDASK LIKE i ramble so much and this is literally jus surface TAG information#also if u ever interact with lilith or make it a focal point in her life theres a chance of polaris popping up bc#polaris seeps into so much of lilith's life ( not that lilith minds much bc polaris is basically all she has??? )#UGH/........... LIKE IM SO........... BRO ONE LIKE EQUALS ONE PRAYER ...
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chickadeeee · 3 years
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The problem with standing up for myself to my roommate is that this is my thought process:
> It really bothers me that she replaced my thick-cut expensive cheese with fine-cut less-expensive cheese. I should ask her to replace it with thick cut in the future. I’ll type this text out.
> This is stressful and my heart rate is rising, but it should be fine. She tells me things like this all the time. It is a low stakes text. My friends will be proud of me for saying this.
> But wait, if I say this, then she might get mad at me for not buying more hot sauce last time, or finishing the cookies, or…
> Well, that’s not fair, she makes 4x what I do. And this is happening now, so I shouldn’t worry about the past. Plus I bought that cheese as a treat for myself, and it was kind of a big deal for me. I should still send this text.
> No, because she’ll definitely counter with her own thing, every time I try to stick up for myself and ask her to do something differently she always has some response.
> But she shouldn’t be the only one asking me to act differently. I should be able to ask that of her too. And she’ll tell me to do something else different whether it’s now or later…
> Ugh this is just too much trouble. I don’t want to deal with her nitpicking again. I’ll go think about something else until it doesn’t bother me anymore.
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mindfulbrat · 2 years
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what was it like being in a fraternity??? :0
this wound up being a long one ahaha
so I was in a music fraternity so like my experience was very different from your standard Greek Life Experience but like…
once you’re a member it’s really just like being in any other social club, you pay dues, throw tailgates, have meetings, fundraisers (our go to was around Valentine’s Day you could hire a group of guys from our chapter to send your gf or bf or someone you were interested in a rose and we would serenade them with a song in 4 part harmony as we gave it to them), do charity events (we mostly sang songs and performed music for old ppl at retirement homes). We always made sure to go to each other’s senior and junior recitals and those for members of our sister sorority (music major things) which was nice because we always had a crowd—some of those recitals get very “by 4 bffs my professor and my parents are here”. A lot of it was music educators networking and we’d meet brothers from other schools all the time.
All the silly social stuff is a byproduct of the pledge process and every org is going to have a different process but generally it involves learning the ideals and mythology your organization is based on (these are the Secrets) and getting to know other brothers and teaching professionalism thru things like Formal Friday (pledges all had to wear shirts and ties every Friday while they were pledges. Very common even amongst the traditional Greek Orgs)
But there’s also silly stuff like, in our org, your big brother gives you a “Brother Name” once you get initiated (Mine called me Spock) and we had a party tradition of “brother actions” where older brothers who were initiated before you could make you perform an action at parties and fraternity events that had been assigned by your big upon initiation. Usually they were meant to be silly and fun and a little embarrassing (I had to rap a Childish Gambino verse with the lyrics changed to be about Spock).
The one thing I think is really neat about fraternities is the very gendered bonding experience esp. from a trans lense in that like I chose to rush as a like last ditch effort to affirm my masculinity and experience ritual male bonding. But at the same time a lot of our brothers were gay and my fraternity nowadays has a *huge* cohort of transmasc brothers who joined for gender affirming reasons. There’s actually a Facebook group im in with like a hundred or more brothers who have since transitioned after graduating or leaving the org (you can’t be an active member if you transition to female they send you directly to alumni status if you’re still attending school) or trans guys who are active members.
It was overall a fun experience and I’d probably do it again if I could.. technically there’s nothing preventing me from joining our sister sorority if I ever go back to school and where ever I’m studying has a chapter which could be a fun experience.
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Ive been reading a lot of AUs for marvel (both mcu and comics) and im surprised no one's done this because the possibilities are amazing. So a character(s) jump the multiverse, but the verse they end up in is the equivilent of a soulmate AU. How great would that be like you could rip a character's mentality right out from under them.
And this can work with any fandom that has a form of characters meeting different versions of themselves/their friends
Some unconnected ideas:
Character that is married or engaged jump verses and find out their soulmate IS NOT their wife/husband. Que panic over life choices
Soulmate verse!characters not understanding a verse that doesnt have soulmate culture
Character's verse counterpart's soulmate is dead in character's world. Their bf/gf think theyre a second choice
Characters from canon hearing "soulmate" and only thinking of their definition of it, leading to huge misunderstandings (ex. "soulmate" = "one true love" when in this reality it means something like "person who will have big impact in your life")
One misunderstanding could be all soulmates are romantic, so when canon verse sees a "couple" with a age difference (ex. Hawkeye and Hawkeye) they freak out a bit and maybe start avoiding their friend from canon verse. Later they find out most pairings are platonic
OT3s. Character(s) seeing themself(s) in a polyam relationship. Soulmate verse counterparts not understanding how any one canon verse character CANT imagine their life as a triad (or how many ppl you want) and are deeply hurt by canon verse trying to brush off their marriage
The OT3 one but two of the canon verse characters are dating/married. This makes every interaction with the third person mega awkward or hostile/jealous confrontational. Avoidence happens and that impacts their efficiency in getting home
A villain and hero match. Canon character doesn't understand how they could ever match with THEM or if they used to be friends its very bittersweet because its conformation they'll be permently tied together forever at constant odds with one another (ex. Professor X and Magneto, Peter Parker and Harry Osborn)
The character finding out their counterpart's soulmate is their ex-wife/husband and that even in a world with literal proof and a culture to match they still ended up divorced
First Name!Soulmate AU verse character 100% believes they've found their soulmate. Canon verse character seeks this persn out because in canon they're their gf/bf. Turns out they have the same first name but are a different person. Soulmate character freaks out and their gf/bf gets majorily upset and confrontational
Character finds out their counterpart's wife/husband is canon character's best friend they have NO feelings towards (uh huh) or it gives them the push to ask out their bff
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lanshappycorner · 3 years
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adonis is renes bf? i though renes already with shui or atleast shui is pursuing rene and he only has 2 exes.. or i may got all the names confused since i just got home from a long trip and haven’t been catching up so my mind is elsewhere sorry (^^;;
*leans onto expensive car* I am so glad you asked✨ dont worry you didnt miss anything
I've mentioned this before but! Every time I ship my ocs with another character, it's in different timelines, so theres no Definitive ships I have (I just draw a lot of Reneshui so ppl assume they're the Only ship I've ever made with Rene but. I do ship him with other ocs too, just in dms LOL). I will give u the quick rundown on the lore for that tho
So the oc lore has to do with reincarnation, and long story short, in his next life Rene dates Adonis, who is the reincarnation of his bf Vitale (a fellow second year at NRC and a pomefiore student...and my friend's oc!!). VitaRene/AdoRene r sickeningly in love and watching them interact is like eating 10 pounds of sugar, let me drop some art I didnt post until now for context🤩
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If u want to know more in depth abt their lore I will put it under the cut but otherwise ur all set to go <3
Vitale is a huge socialite and originally they met in school and he said Hi to Rene but Rene doesnt like social ppl so he just ignored him💔 one day rene was told by his agency to recruit more ppl for their next photoshoot and he was like hey that Vitale dude is kinda hot. And a pomefiore student, he probably works. Vitale agrees to model and so thru that job they bond a bit and become friends. Flash forward and Vitale has low self esteem and identity issues so he overblots and then Rene along with Ramshackle help to stop him
Afterwards Rene makes sure to be Especially attentive to Vitale to make sure hes always feeling fine and confident in himself etc and Vitale starts to get more comfortable with opening up to Rene and that's when Vitale ultimately realizes he is crushing on Rene...so he tells Rene he will confess to his crush (in which he describes as a heartslabyul student who's helped him a lot) and Rene is just straight up like "ohh trey right...good luck lol" and meanwhile Rene realizes he may be crushing on Vitale But he thinks Vitale likes trey so his bff NPCkun (...who knows full well those two r in love with each other and this is a misunderstanding) calls him a homewrecker 🤩🤩
In the end Vitale confesses and they get together and all is well ✨✨ in their next life, Vitale becomes Adonis and Rene...is Rene because I didn't put in the effort to think up of a new name. And anyways Rene is a Baker and Adonis is a teacher/voice actor (Vitale was also a voice actor!! Rene listens to his ASMR and buys all his merch and stashes it under his bed) and they 💯💯 speedrun date bc they have that Connection and in conclusion these bitches gay good for them
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olderboy · 3 years
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CW long post about my current relationship drama?? idk what to describe this as
im putting this here because no one i know irl gets on here anymore and i don’t feel like i can tell anyone irl about it but I need it off my chest. so a week or so ago my freshman yr of college ex sent me a friend request on fb again. i feel a lot less angry than i used to about the whole situation now so i decided to read through a lot of our old messages to kinda see how things got so fucked up, and i ended up feeling kinda bad about how i acted, for the very first time. in 2019 she sent me a message apologizing for her part but I never responded bc I was still angry. so i decided it was time for me to apologize and spent a few days typing out a message and eventually sent it. we had a conversation abt it all and after that actually had a casual convo about our current lives and it was pretty nice actually. at the end i told her we can’t really ever be friends but if she has a burning desire to ask me something it’s not a big deal and if she ever saw me in person again it would be ok to say hi. this was like Thursday night. but she sent me a message on Friday and I sent a short response, and then she messaged me on Sunday too and I responded again today bc I don’t want to be a bitch bc I am determined to close things more positively, and then she messaged again and I just left it on read for now. but I feel like she’s gonna message me again. and now im kinda like was this a mistake? Bc she keeps messaging me and im literally in a 4-year long relationship and i did not tell my bf about this because I thought it would make him upset and I didn’t think it would turn into anything that I would ever need to tell him about. but she keeps messaging me and now I feel like i need to hide my phone from him and it just all feels very weird and bad and like im doing something wrong. BUT THATS NOT ALL!
like I said, me & my ex’s big convo was Thursday night. Friday night was my old housemates& bf’s current housemate’s (he and i shared a bedroom in the house but i moved out in may for a job in my hometown. This room situation is kinda relevant) Halloween party. my high school bff’s ex girlfriend (that she was with for like 3 years and then my high school bff cheated on her with a man) came cus we’re kinda friends now and my boyfriend actually really likes her so he’s the one that actually invited her. and i was wasted before she even got there but as the night goes on she’s like dancing on me a lot, touching me a lot, etc. I can sense even in my drunken state she’s kinda coming on to me but we’re all very drunk and I kinda get flirty like that when im wasted too so I just kinda let it happen. then later on we end up on the stairs to my bedroom (don’t remember now how we got there) and she very explicitly starts coming on to me. pulling on my shirt, telling me she wants me, trying to kiss me. i keep telling her no and that I can’t, and eventually she’s like “just once? And then I’ll stop” and so again in my drunken state im just like ok fuck it! And i kiss her. only for a couple seconds and then I pull away. only this did not actually make her stop and she tries to pull me in AGAIN, and actually puts her mouth on mine a second time, when one of my close friends comes up the stairs and clearly knows something was going on. so im like “no nothings happening come on [redacted name] let’s go downstairs” so we all go downstairs. then a lot of drama happens later on and she ends up crying about my friend who cheated on her and since im like one of the only ppl she knows there (and also bc I’m her friend too of course) i comfort her but she’s super distressed. so I take her up to my room (this is where the room thing is relevant cus this is me & my bf’s bed) for both of us to go to bed while my bf takes care of someone else downstairs and he ends up sleeping down there. and she starts coming on to me again, starts straddling me when im trying to get her to lay down etc. im more firm this time cus ive sobered up almost completely after the earlier drama and eventually get her to go to sleep. when we all go to breakfast the next morning, before she leaves she asks if she can talk to me privately and I assume she’s gonna say something abt coming on to me the previous night, but she doesn’t say anything about it and asks me about if she was crying about my old bff who cheated on her and about the other drama that happened. so im relieved and im like, ok she was really just drunk and lonely and upset about getting cheated on so clearly she doesn’t remember it and we’re all cool. but now it’s Monday and she’s been texting me a lot and asked if we could hang out, and I didn’t rlly think anything of it cus I just assumed that we became closer friends after I comforted her while she was crying/took care of her while she was drunk etc. so I said yes. then she was like “let’s go to this painting class” and now im kinda nervous again cus is this supposed to be a date? does she actually have feelings for me but she just won’t say it sober? (She was blackout by the end of the night when she started straddling me). I said yes to the painting class bc im not trying to jump to conclusions prematurely. and also she was literally cheated on and she knows I have a boyfriend so that would be kinda fucked up. so im not trying to make assumptions but it’s making me a lil nervous….
But anyway moral of my current dilemma is that both of these things occurred 2 days apart and now I suddenly feel like im hiding a lot from my bf and being very dishonest with him and it’s making me feel terrible! But I don’t feel like I can tell him about either of them until things are more resolved or clear. on their own I think both of these situations would be pretty manageable, like I don’t really think I did anything wrong apologizing to my ex but now i just think it might’ve been better to leave it cus she clearly wants to keep talking to me while I’m in a relationship (she doesn’t know that part but I only didn’t tell her bc i felt like it would distract from my point and also that she would act weird about it, but again now im like lol she think I’m single and is trying to keep talking but like I cannot keep chatting up my ex when I’m literally dating someone else obv??). and I think my bf would be upset about me letting [redacted name] at the party kiss me but I am not into her like that and it was really nothing, and when i was more sober i stopped her, and i was very wasted when it happened, so I don’t think it would be anything devastating to our relationship. but it’s like both of these at the same time is just TOO MUCH. like i feel like im hiding so much lmao. we also just went through a massive rough patch in September and only just got over it in October so it kinda makes me feel even worse. LMAO WHAT IS GOING ON IN MY LIFE!!! god.
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fearlessplatinums · 4 years
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the worst thing i ever see is ppl saying i have no friends EXCEPT my bf or bff like NO stop stealing no friend culture when we say we have no friends we mean literally no one
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okay au where everything is the same but juleka and adrien are best friends.
before juleka and rose got together, she constantly gushed about her to adrien via text and constantly asks for advice on how to ask rose out.
when she finally did, she immediately called adrien to tell him the news and him and her were both squeaking over the phone for five mins straight.
they spent five hours coming up with a plan for the perfect first date for rose.
adrien tells her to send pics.
(he stalks their date as chat noir just to watch over both of the girls and make sure nothing happens)
adrien is a constant presence in the couffaine household and him and juleka have weekly movie marathons and they’ll cuddle (platonically) and eat junk food together.
anarka v loves adrien and sees him as one of her own. she’s extremely grateful for his presence in juleka’s life as he’s one of the ppl (aside from rose, marinette, and luka) to help boost juleka’s self confidence.
luka and adrien surprisingly don’t cross paths until much later.
luka just be coming home and sees this blond boy passed out on their couch after one of his and juleka’s movie marathons.
juleka introduces them (after forcing adrien to wake up).
luka immediately gets a crush.
now visits for adrien are just him trying to have a good time with his best friend but failing bc luka just has to flirt with him ever 5 mins.
adrien be screaming at juleka via text bc he can not contain his emotions around luka. juleka telling him to get over himself and just ask out luka.
when luka and adrien start dating, luka begins to start noticing how bruised adrien gets sometimes (bc he’s chat noir) and he’s afraid someone is hurting his precious bf??
but every time he asks adrien insists he’s fine. so luka ends up going to juleka bc she’s the only person aside from marinette, nino, and chloe who can get adrien to truly be honest
juleka is worried?? how did she not notice her best friend being hurt??
she confronts him but adrien also manages to somehow wave it off as nothing. instead asking about her and rose.
cue the couffaine family finding out his identity and being extra protective over adrien.
just let me have bffs, adrien and juleka who support eachother so much.
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You should do the multiples of 2 from the lil prompt list to get to know you! 👀
oooo hell ya ok srry this might get long LOL
2. do you believe in soulmates?
hell mf ya i do, i think soulmates can also be bffs; not strictly romantic. i found 2 soulmate bffs i think:)
honestly i even think u have soulmates that fade away. like u have certain soulmates for who u are as a person; if/when u change, someone else might be ur soulmate for the “new” u, uk?
4. answered:)
6. do you enjoy driving in general?
yes and no, i like driving fast LMFAOOOOO but im DUMB and hate focusing so hard on the road. ik thats stupid but i wanna chill and not focus. im def a passenger type mf
8. whats your favorite cuisine?
dis basic but any noodles; u can make a billion things w pasta/noodles
10. do you play video games? if so, what games?
animal crossing on switch hehe
12. what other fandoms are you in?
fun fact this is the only 2d fandom im in LMAOOO; im 4ever a 1d/btr/jonas brothers stan, also a harry styles wh*re, i also love rupauls drag race and tiny meat gang (noel miller owns this pussy) uhhhh thats kinda it:)
14. do you have any pets?
yes i have a shih tzu named max hes a fat mfer
16. do you like the weather where you live?
i live in illinois so yes, i love snow but also hot ass summers so im vibin lmao
18. do you enjoy small talk?
uhh yes? i think? JDJJSD like with some people i actually care ab LMAOOO if i dont like u i prefer 0 speaking but if i like u then im down to talk ab anything shallow/deep
20. have u ever been to hawaii?
no but id love to uwu
22. name a fashion trend that you absolutely love
ummm theres so many i love!!! if i had to choose, its prob the whole trend of streetwear/athleisure
24. when it comes to making plans, do you like to organize or go with the flow when the time comes?
uh i think organize at first, once im more comfy its easier to just be more open n plan as we go:)
26. Answered
28. how often do you cook?
a few times a week, i still live w my family so my dad mostly cooks oof
30. do you ever remember your dreams?
actually no, its either i remember a SHIT TON or none at all; ill always call my bf right when i wake up to tell him ab it LMAO
32. would you ever wanna move outside of youd country?
my immediate response is hell yes get me outta here; but then i remember my teaching license will only work in america soooo i hesitate LMFAO
34. more peanut butter or more jelly?
ya girl is allergic to nuts soooo jelly JJDKSJJD
36. Answered:)
38. What do you want your wedding colors to be?
UMMMMMM it depends on the season IM ANNOYING DJDJDJDJ but i wanna get married in the summer so maybe (im basic ik)
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also ik yall didnt ask but its my dream to design my own wedding dress
40. Answered already:)
42. Answered uwu
44. do u like it when you’re awakened by birds chirping?
uhh im a heavy ass sleeper so those bird bitches never wake me up lmaooo but it sounds nice JJDSKJSJD
46. how many people do you follow?
270 AJDLAJSJDJ i just like followin a lot of ppl i see:)
48. how many drafts do you have?
18 looooool
50. even or odd numbers?
my bday is an even number so even:)
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out of desperation I finally made bumble bff bc I have legit 0 friends (my bestie got forced into an arranged marriage lol and my other mate had a breakdown after her bf was jailed so rip to all that)
But OMG pretending to be neurotypical is exhausting. I'm saying cringeworthy shit and pretending I like going to restaurants and hiking and yoga lmao. I'm asking ppl about their pets names I want to die I don't even like dogs
I had to lie to one girl I don't drink often like lmao at sanitizing myself like this. Wtf am I gonna do with a friend sober am I 12 years old? I can't even make eye contact w ppl while sober. If we aren't drunk and passed out in an alley when the night's over why did I even leave my house. When we have nothing in common at least let me drink to fill the gap ffs
also nobody on this app smokes weed for some reason. It's literally weed it's not rat poison smh. Why is making friends so hard like way worse than dating tbh. And for way less reward bc it's not even like you're fucking them. The only thing my friends ever did was call me fat til I got an eating disorder meanwhile my bf legit kisses my feet and combs my hair. Contrary to what's said on here a lot of women are not nice to each other at all
I can't do this anymore send help I want to be neurotypical but omg this is too much I need my bf to come back and save me I need death I need liberation
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