#they are the bffs ever. they are the bfs ever. they are the ppl ever

[jaegerisim]

Hey El! I was just wondering, are you out to people in ur life irl (like ur parents, friends, ect)? If so, what was your process of coming out to them, and how did you deal with people who were a little homophobic or even a lot? If not, do you ever think you will, and why? I’ve been in the closet irl for almost a year and a half now because of homophobic parents, so I’d really like to hear ur story 🙂

Hi nonny! Well, I’ve officially come out to my mom, my brothers, my bff, my fiancé and a couple of other close friends. They know I’m bi, but they don’t know I’m a demigirl, and honestly, they never will. I don’t feel comfortable telling them that, tbh. I don’t rlly fancy the idea of me telling them that, especially when the concept of “gender” is something pretty difficult for many Asians to grasp (at least in my experience, don’t come at me, ok? 😭😭😭😭😭)

ok so I came out to my mom one day when I was still a teen. We were talking about one of my closest friends, at the time, my mom told me the girl had very pretty eyes and I went on this ramble about all the beautiful things things the girl had. My mom was just kinda staring at me like “😯”. So I just straight up went and said “Mom, I like girls as well as boys. I’m bisexual” and my mom (who I knew wouldn’t be homophobic abt it) said “cool, now go clean the dishes! 🥰 or ur lazy ass gonna get whooped” (typical Asian mom, smh). I never told my dad cuz his family is much more conservative and my halmeoni from his side think “gay” is synonymous to “mental illness”. I think my dad kinda guessed it, he’s never said anything about it, tho. My older brother came out as pan a few years before me, when he introduced his bf. Then a few years after me, my twin came out as aroace. They preferred to come out to my dad and I preferred my mom. That’s just how shit is. U tell who u wanna tell, and if ur parents are homophobic then they can go fuck themselves tbh. u can tell whoever u want to ok, nonny? And despite what the str8 media tells u about ur parents needing to be the first to know, it doesn’t have to be like that if u don’t want to. Your friends can be the first to know and ur parents could be the last. Your parents don’t even have to know if u don’t want to.

I came out to my friends and while all of them weren’t homophobic to my face or in that moment, many of them showed their true colors with time.

When you come out, you never really know how they’re gonna react. So you gotta learn to not gaf abt their say on this bc they don’t get one. Plus, at the end of the day, this is about u not them, don’t let them twist you’re coming out into something about them. You don’t have to even tell them and if u do tell them, u r doing it for u, not them. You don’t own anyone anything.

If you wanna know, I‘ve never really learned how to deal w the homophobia and I don’t think I ever will. Homophobia, is not something u assume and it doesn’t always present itself in the same way. Sometimes it’s a comment abt how bi ppl are sluts, other times it’s “joking” comment about being able to have as many threesomes as I want, another time it can be someone straight up calling u a slur. You never know, when or how or from whom the homophobia may come and personally I can’t live with having my guard constantly up. So sometimes I fight back, other times I feel like just ignoring them and maybe a couple of times I break down and cry about it. 🤷🏻‍♀️ sometimes the most “innocent” comment can be my breaking point while some days and don’t even mind them. Honestly? I find pretty scary the fact that sometimes I realize that I have assumed receiving homophobia and slurs to a very deep level.

Anyway, nonny, I hope this ramble answered ur question! 💕🌈

[mylilguy]

The importance of remaining calm observant and open minded.

My therapist insists we're in a relationship that will prepare me for friendships and/or relationships. She is demanding a close, deep connection. If I were to put aside my supposes lost memory, that I had been asked to recall and share.. then why not?

If it's a part of therapy and as I become more manageable and plyable it creates space for her to take a total grasp of the concept from the memory I'm struggling with. She'll take the time, moving quickly at times.. scanning, flipping films.. camera angles.. playbacks slowed down until it clicks for her.

She will begin sharing her best hypothesis of what it looked like from my pov and then what it means significantly as how it took an effect on my mind and how I perceive the world. How it causes me to respond to stimuli in my environment.

When I mentioned I lived in a rich American neighbourhood when I was 18 and my rich recently divorced neighbour knocked on my door in her nightie. She was a lingerie, phone sex operator who it was discovered her bff was banging her rock band manager husband. I was revenge. My therapist sprang up, demanding to know significance.

Who do these ppl think they are. They have a choice of lifestyle that is a becon for infidelity, but they think they're that one person that gets to have it all. Then they wake up one day devastated. They behave irrational. Women cause me to fight their bf bc the girl just announce my entrance into the room. "There's Trouble! Wooot!"

And I'm a target.

I've learned to stand upright in those moments and remain ever the gentleman. A simple acknowledgement of the cat call. However dismissive of having attention called to me. An air that says, "Please respect my privacy."

I've been keeping my therapist just out of reach.

[2005noroithecurse]

Also, let me just catch up with you rq! I remembered that I completely forgot to congratulate you on your birthday, so happy belated birthday I guess 😭❤️ Uni has been kicking my ass, especially the commute between my home city, the city I study in and the city where I am working on my doctor‘s study/thesis 🥲 Idek if I have ever told you, but last year me and a few other students were sent to the other end of the state to continue our education in another hospital there. All those years before I was living with my parents and just commuted to Uni (which is in the city where I am working on my thesis rn), but that was not possible anymore. Luckily I got an apartment in the student dorms there (which belong to an entirely different uni, but they were kind enough to offer us rooms as well), but it was so fucking bad. Not the apartment itself, mind you, just the rest. My student dorm was basically at the other end of the city, I had no car, and the buses drove 2x per hour and would often not come at all. There is no direct connection between the dorm and the hospital, so you have to take the bus to the inner city and then take another bus there. I had to walk to the hospital more times than I can count, and that‘s a 5km walk, so you can imagine how I arrived to my lectures. I had courses and training the entire day, and would often arrive at like 7pm in the evening, completely exhausted. Add onto that that it was winter (🫠), so the days were short, cold, and the weather was unpredictable, and I had to cook and keep up the apartment + the commute to my home and thesis city. The people there were SO unkind, some didn’t even greet me and would not even wait a few seconds to keep the door open for me, even though they could see I was carrying a big pack of water bottles. I was blogging from the trenches back then 😭 I applied for the other student dorm in the inner city, right next to the bus stop for the bus to the hospital, since all my friends live there, and to combat the loneliness I had experienced during the winter. They approved, and I moved in at the end of March/beginning of April. It’s sooo much better here, the people are kind (we even have a chat group on WhatsApp), the apartment is smaller and has an objectively better atmosphere, and I save so much time now. I also managed to get closer to my friends and actually go out with them/ invite them over for coffee.

On a more positive note, my friend and I managed to get tickets for Hozier in December 🎉 I told my BFF, because we discovered Hozier back in school together and have always promised each other that one day we will go to one of his concerts together, and she and her roommate (who also went to school with us) managed to get tickets as well, sooo we’re making the whole thing into a vacation 🫶🏻 (for clarification: My BFF lives in the same state as I do, just in a different city and often has to commute to Berlin for her studies/work since the program she’s enrolled in is a so-called ‘Duales Studium’, a concept that is, I think, exclusive to Germany. We rarely get to see each other, but we text almost every day.)

I currently just want to finish the exam season so I can have my two weeks of peace in Bosnia in August 🤘🏻

I think those were all the big updates on my life 😄 I should make more of my own posts so I can keep people updated in real time, just like you do 😵‍💫 I am so sorry for the way your bf’s mom treated you, that was so disrespectful and uncalled for. I also feel sorry for your bf for having to apologize for her actions. People who have no filter and no shame are the absolute worst 🫠. I hope her words didn’t hurt you too much, and that I am proud of you for getting to a weight where you are happy and content with yourself ❤️

omg anesa <333 ty for the belated hbd but im sorry schools been kicking u around that commute sounds so bad oml especially w rude ppl to deal with on top of it. its really good tho u were able to transfer somewhere way better and reconnect with ur friends! & OMG U GOT HOZIER TICKETS?? a lil concert vacation sounds so fun i hope u guys have an awesome time!!! ^⁠_⁠^

ahskahdsk my bfs mom is absolutely certifiable so it doesn't bother me too bad (and tysm for being proud too of my happy weight! being in recovery has been the best choice i ever made for myself) i felt so bad for my bf & his dad too it was like damn spending basically ur whole lives dealing with someone else's crazy behavior & constantly apologizing for it just sucks so much. But that's probably why he became a therapist lmao

[xxcrumbxx]

No not a bouther at all ,thx for the tag :> yap yap yap

LAST SONG~ If you wanna stay by Sweatcult

FAV COLOR ~ purple and orange ♡☆♡☆♡

LAST MOVIE~ I'd have to say Shrek4 ,Me an my bff where drinking an rewatching all the Shrek movies

u can skip this whole next part if yah want im just talking about drinking games and my alcohalic beveriges of choice:]

( also DO NOT turn the trolls movies in to a drinking game, every time they sang we took a shot and let me tell yah whisky is a hell of a thing lol. I dont get hang overs but by god my friend felt like they where dieing,we made it to the halfway mark of the second movie bf we couldent even pick up the glass lmao. Im saying dont bc if ur not carfull or dont have the body copasity you will probly get alcoal poisaning an i dont want that for ya'll. Its fun but be safe always drink water and its okay to tap out at annytime when drinkin in general ,yah thats right im goin all older southern siblin on y'alls ass'es oh an if u do plz try whisky an sweet tea as a chase its acctuly pretty good u just take a swig of sweet tea with an affter ur shot or as mutch as u want. It helps it go down oh an that stor bout sweet tea in a jug is ass. Get lipton ice ta bags make it stove top,put water in ur gallon pitcher about a qourter the way up add up hot tea then fill it the ret SS the way with water an add two cups on souger also dont burn the tea but leave it till u can smell it cookin an its a dark brown almost black:] an then take shots of black velvit whisky and then boom u got wat i drink lol xP also plz dont drink Under age it can an will mess with ur development and i dont want anyone gettin in trubble :v )

LAST SHOW~ legends of kora my friends finnaly goten me to watch it

SWEET/SPICY/SAVORY~ I love meat and I love sweets. So I gess savory an sweet, Icant pick one. Every time I eat chocolet I crave lightly seered still a lil bloody meat and every time I eat meat I crave chocolet . Oh an bone merrow. I like bieting and splitting the bone an sucking it out,if u do this be carefill not to cut or peinch ur self on the fragments.the merrow is like a rewird for finnishing the meat:]

RELASHIONSHIP~ ITS odd,ppl think me an my bff are dateing, we use too but were just friends agin. tho "just friends" dusent feel right,we've been bffs scents early childhood and had alot of ups an downs but idk its always been just us so its what ever,id like a friend group but were both anxcity riddled lol. Im verry protective of them too. Like im not overly protective anymore but I still cant help but be there "scarry dog" and they are verry attatced to me calling me things like Crumbyyyiieee and always wanting to hang out and trying to lean on me when we sit or stand still. Tbh its like @waverens slasher sun an moon. Tho im a mix of sun an moon an there sun in the relashion ship. Also I too would adore a giant celestual theyemd robot to hold an cuddle an love on an do silly acctivitys and sutch. Like i acctuly want that really really really bad :,[ ♡♡♡☆♡☆♡☆♡

LAST GOOGLE SEARCH~ Michal Afftion fanart, im workin on more fan art of sandman and doctor sunshine, i need to lurn how to draw glam rick freddy an make a few more drowing bc its a sillly lil meme comic / slide show thingy mabob about DJ an Leo. Its ganna be awile so im not ganna post wips bc "spoialers" lol :>> im trying to figure out how I wanna stylize/ what form I wanna draw Michal's ghost in

Getting to know your mutuals

Tagged by @driftingmoonmenace omg hiiii

Last song: don’t fear the reaper

Favourite colour: pink! :) I love pink. And then cyan, purple, black, and grey :)

Last movie: Electric Dreams! :) I’ve been watching it on repeat. Edgar my beloved.

Last show: such a hard to answer question because I dont actively watch many shows. Probably bluey? Unless we count tiktok series then Cafae Latte :)

Sweet/spicy/savoury: recently ive been a sweet fan. Chocolate, cinnamon sugar, maple, kettle, pralines, the likes.

Relationship: not applicable as im aroace 🥰🌸✌️

Last google search: what is sildenafil. Someone mentioned it in a thing I was reading and I got zero context clues

Tag youre it if you wanna play

@squibbles-gubwee @thelonereni @luckyyyduckyyy

[dizzybevvie]

Haha yeah Im ok why do you ask (visibly shaking)

[chickadeeee]

The problem with standing up for myself to my roommate is that this is my thought process:

> It really bothers me that she replaced my thick-cut expensive cheese with fine-cut less-expensive cheese. I should ask her to replace it with thick cut in the future. I’ll type this text out.

> This is stressful and my heart rate is rising, but it should be fine. She tells me things like this all the time. It is a low stakes text. My friends will be proud of me for saying this.

> But wait, if I say this, then she might get mad at me for not buying more hot sauce last time, or finishing the cookies, or…

> Well, that’s not fair, she makes 4x what I do. And this is happening now, so I shouldn’t worry about the past. Plus I bought that cheese as a treat for myself, and it was kind of a big deal for me. I should still send this text.

> No, because she’ll definitely counter with her own thing, every time I try to stick up for myself and ask her to do something differently she always has some response.

> But she shouldn’t be the only one asking me to act differently. I should be able to ask that of her too. And she’ll tell me to do something else different whether it’s now or later…

> Ugh this is just too much trouble. I don’t want to deal with her nitpicking again. I’ll go think about something else until it doesn’t bother me anymore.

[help-i-need-a-cool-username]

Ive been reading a lot of AUs for marvel (both mcu and comics) and im surprised no one's done this because the possibilities are amazing. So a character(s) jump the multiverse, but the verse they end up in is the equivilent of a soulmate AU. How great would that be like you could rip a character's mentality right out from under them.

And this can work with any fandom that has a form of characters meeting different versions of themselves/their friends

Some unconnected ideas:

Character that is married or engaged jump verses and find out their soulmate IS NOT their wife/husband. Que panic over life choices

Soulmate verse!characters not understanding a verse that doesnt have soulmate culture

Character's verse counterpart's soulmate is dead in character's world. Their bf/gf think theyre a second choice

Characters from canon hearing "soulmate" and only thinking of their definition of it, leading to huge misunderstandings (ex. "soulmate" = "one true love" when in this reality it means something like "person who will have big impact in your life")

One misunderstanding could be all soulmates are romantic, so when canon verse sees a "couple" with a age difference (ex. Hawkeye and Hawkeye) they freak out a bit and maybe start avoiding their friend from canon verse. Later they find out most pairings are platonic

OT3s. Character(s) seeing themself(s) in a polyam relationship. Soulmate verse counterparts not understanding how any one canon verse character CANT imagine their life as a triad (or how many ppl you want) and are deeply hurt by canon verse trying to brush off their marriage

The OT3 one but two of the canon verse characters are dating/married. This makes every interaction with the third person mega awkward or hostile/jealous confrontational. Avoidence happens and that impacts their efficiency in getting home

A villain and hero match. Canon character doesn't understand how they could ever match with THEM or if they used to be friends its very bittersweet because its conformation they'll be permently tied together forever at constant odds with one another (ex. Professor X and Magneto, Peter Parker and Harry Osborn)

The character finding out their counterpart's soulmate is their ex-wife/husband and that even in a world with literal proof and a culture to match they still ended up divorced

First Name!Soulmate AU verse character 100% believes they've found their soulmate. Canon verse character seeks this persn out because in canon they're their gf/bf. Turns out they have the same first name but are a different person. Soulmate character freaks out and their gf/bf gets majorily upset and confrontational

Character finds out their counterpart's wife/husband is canon character's best friend they have NO feelings towards (uh huh) or it gives them the push to ask out their bff

[olderboy]

CW long post about my current relationship drama?? idk what to describe this as

im putting this here because no one i know irl gets on here anymore and i don’t feel like i can tell anyone irl about it but I need it off my chest. so a week or so ago my freshman yr of college ex sent me a friend request on fb again. i feel a lot less angry than i used to about the whole situation now so i decided to read through a lot of our old messages to kinda see how things got so fucked up, and i ended up feeling kinda bad about how i acted, for the very first time. in 2019 she sent me a message apologizing for her part but I never responded bc I was still angry. so i decided it was time for me to apologize and spent a few days typing out a message and eventually sent it. we had a conversation abt it all and after that actually had a casual convo about our current lives and it was pretty nice actually. at the end i told her we can’t really ever be friends but if she has a burning desire to ask me something it’s not a big deal and if she ever saw me in person again it would be ok to say hi. this was like Thursday night. but she sent me a message on Friday and I sent a short response, and then she messaged me on Sunday too and I responded again today bc I don’t want to be a bitch bc I am determined to close things more positively, and then she messaged again and I just left it on read for now. but I feel like she’s gonna message me again. and now im kinda like was this a mistake? Bc she keeps messaging me and im literally in a 4-year long relationship and i did not tell my bf about this because I thought it would make him upset and I didn’t think it would turn into anything that I would ever need to tell him about. but she keeps messaging me and now I feel like i need to hide my phone from him and it just all feels very weird and bad and like im doing something wrong. BUT THATS NOT ALL!

like I said, me & my ex’s big convo was Thursday night. Friday night was my old housemates& bf’s current housemate’s (he and i shared a bedroom in the house but i moved out in may for a job in my hometown. This room situation is kinda relevant) Halloween party. my high school bff’s ex girlfriend (that she was with for like 3 years and then my high school bff cheated on her with a man) came cus we’re kinda friends now and my boyfriend actually really likes her so he’s the one that actually invited her. and i was wasted before she even got there but as the night goes on she��s like dancing on me a lot, touching me a lot, etc. I can sense even in my drunken state she’s kinda coming on to me but we’re all very drunk and I kinda get flirty like that when im wasted too so I just kinda let it happen. then later on we end up on the stairs to my bedroom (don’t remember now how we got there) and she very explicitly starts coming on to me. pulling on my shirt, telling me she wants me, trying to kiss me. i keep telling her no and that I can’t, and eventually she’s like “just once? And then I’ll stop” and so again in my drunken state im just like ok fuck it! And i kiss her. only for a couple seconds and then I pull away. only this did not actually make her stop and she tries to pull me in AGAIN, and actually puts her mouth on mine a second time, when one of my close friends comes up the stairs and clearly knows something was going on. so im like “no nothings happening come on [redacted name] let’s go downstairs” so we all go downstairs. then a lot of drama happens later on and she ends up crying about my friend who cheated on her and since im like one of the only ppl she knows there (and also bc I’m her friend too of course) i comfort her but she’s super distressed. so I take her up to my room (this is where the room thing is relevant cus this is me & my bf’s bed) for both of us to go to bed while my bf takes care of someone else downstairs and he ends up sleeping down there. and she starts coming on to me again, starts straddling me when im trying to get her to lay down etc. im more firm this time cus ive sobered up almost completely after the earlier drama and eventually get her to go to sleep. when we all go to breakfast the next morning, before she leaves she asks if she can talk to me privately and I assume she’s gonna say something abt coming on to me the previous night, but she doesn’t say anything about it and asks me about if she was crying about my old bff who cheated on her and about the other drama that happened. so im relieved and im like, ok she was really just drunk and lonely and upset about getting cheated on so clearly she doesn’t remember it and we’re all cool. but now it’s Monday and she’s been texting me a lot and asked if we could hang out, and I didn’t rlly think anything of it cus I just assumed that we became closer friends after I comforted her while she was crying/took care of her while she was drunk etc. so I said yes. then she was like “let’s go to this painting class” and now im kinda nervous again cus is this supposed to be a date? does she actually have feelings for me but she just won’t say it sober? (She was blackout by the end of the night when she started straddling me). I said yes to the painting class bc im not trying to jump to conclusions prematurely. and also she was literally cheated on and she knows I have a boyfriend so that would be kinda fucked up. so im not trying to make assumptions but it’s making me a lil nervous….

But anyway moral of my current dilemma is that both of these things occurred 2 days apart and now I suddenly feel like im hiding a lot from my bf and being very dishonest with him and it’s making me feel terrible! But I don’t feel like I can tell him about either of them until things are more resolved or clear. on their own I think both of these situations would be pretty manageable, like I don’t really think I did anything wrong apologizing to my ex but now i just think it might’ve been better to leave it cus she clearly wants to keep talking to me while I’m in a relationship (she doesn’t know that part but I only didn’t tell her bc i felt like it would distract from my point and also that she would act weird about it, but again now im like lol she think I’m single and is trying to keep talking but like I cannot keep chatting up my ex when I’m literally dating someone else obv??). and I think my bf would be upset about me letting [redacted name] at the party kiss me but I am not into her like that and it was really nothing, and when i was more sober i stopped her, and i was very wasted when it happened, so I don’t think it would be anything devastating to our relationship. but it’s like both of these at the same time is just TOO MUCH. like i feel like im hiding so much lmao. we also just went through a massive rough patch in September and only just got over it in October so it kinda makes me feel even worse. LMAO WHAT IS GOING ON IN MY LIFE!!! god.

[fearlessplatinums]

the worst thing i ever see is ppl saying i have no friends EXCEPT my bf or bff like NO stop stealing no friend culture when we say we have no friends we mean literally no one

[marionettedupaincheng]

okay au where everything is the same but juleka and adrien are best friends.

before juleka and rose got together, she constantly gushed about her to adrien via text and constantly asks for advice on how to ask rose out.

when she finally did, she immediately called adrien to tell him the news and him and her were both squeaking over the phone for five mins straight.

they spent five hours coming up with a plan for the perfect first date for rose.

adrien tells her to send pics.

(he stalks their date as chat noir just to watch over both of the girls and make sure nothing happens)

adrien is a constant presence in the couffaine household and him and juleka have weekly movie marathons and they’ll cuddle (platonically) and eat junk food together.

anarka v loves adrien and sees him as one of her own. she’s extremely grateful for his presence in juleka’s life as he’s one of the ppl (aside from rose, marinette, and luka) to help boost juleka’s self confidence.

luka and adrien surprisingly don’t cross paths until much later.

luka just be coming home and sees this blond boy passed out on their couch after one of his and juleka’s movie marathons.

juleka introduces them (after forcing adrien to wake up).

luka immediately gets a crush.

now visits for adrien are just him trying to have a good time with his best friend but failing bc luka just has to flirt with him ever 5 mins.

adrien be screaming at juleka via text bc he can not contain his emotions around luka. juleka telling him to get over himself and just ask out luka.

when luka and adrien start dating, luka begins to start noticing how bruised adrien gets sometimes (bc he’s chat noir) and he’s afraid someone is hurting his precious bf??

but every time he asks adrien insists he’s fine. so luka ends up going to juleka bc she’s the only person aside from marinette, nino, and chloe who can get adrien to truly be honest

juleka is worried?? how did she not notice her best friend being hurt??

she confronts him but adrien also manages to somehow wave it off as nothing. instead asking about her and rose.

cue the couffaine family finding out his identity and being extra protective over adrien.

just let me have bffs, adrien and juleka who support eachother so much.

[watermelonsugawara]

You should do the multiples of 2 from the lil prompt list to get to know you! 👀

oooo hell ya ok srry this might get long LOL

2. do you believe in soulmates?

hell mf ya i do, i think soulmates can also be bffs; not strictly romantic. i found 2 soulmate bffs i think:)

honestly i even think u have soulmates that fade away. like u have certain soulmates for who u are as a person; if/when u change, someone else might be ur soulmate for the “new” u, uk?

4. answered:)

6. do you enjoy driving in general?

yes and no, i like driving fast LMFAOOOOO but im DUMB and hate focusing so hard on the road. ik thats stupid but i wanna chill and not focus. im def a passenger type mf

8. whats your favorite cuisine?

dis basic but any noodles; u can make a billion things w pasta/noodles

10. do you play video games? if so, what games?

animal crossing on switch hehe

12. what other fandoms are you in?

fun fact this is the only 2d fandom im in LMAOOO; im 4ever a 1d/btr/jonas brothers stan, also a harry styles wh*re, i also love rupauls drag race and tiny meat gang (noel miller owns this pussy) uhhhh thats kinda it:)

14. do you have any pets?

yes i have a shih tzu named max hes a fat mfer

16. do you like the weather where you live?

i live in illinois so yes, i love snow but also hot ass summers so im vibin lmao

18. do you enjoy small talk?

uhh yes? i think? JDJJSD like with some people i actually care ab LMAOOO if i dont like u i prefer 0 speaking but if i like u then im down to talk ab anything shallow/deep

20. have u ever been to hawaii?

no but id love to uwu

22. name a fashion trend that you absolutely love

ummm theres so many i love!!! if i had to choose, its prob the whole trend of streetwear/athleisure

24. when it comes to making plans, do you like to organize or go with the flow when the time comes?

uh i think organize at first, once im more comfy its easier to just be more open n plan as we go:)

26. Answered

28. how often do you cook?

a few times a week, i still live w my family so my dad mostly cooks oof

30. do you ever remember your dreams?

actually no, its either i remember a SHIT TON or none at all; ill always call my bf right when i wake up to tell him ab it LMAO

32. would you ever wanna move outside of youd country?

my immediate response is hell yes get me outta here; but then i remember my teaching license will only work in america soooo i hesitate LMFAO

34. more peanut butter or more jelly?

ya girl is allergic to nuts soooo jelly JJDKSJJD

36. Answered:)

38. What do you want your wedding colors to be?

UMMMMMM it depends on the season IM ANNOYING DJDJDJDJ but i wanna get married in the summer so maybe (im basic ik)

also ik yall didnt ask but its my dream to design my own wedding dress

40. Answered already:)

42. Answered uwu

44. do u like it when you’re awakened by birds chirping?

uhh im a heavy ass sleeper so those bird bitches never wake me up lmaooo but it sounds nice JJDSKJSJD

46. how many people do you follow?

270 AJDLAJSJDJ i just like followin a lot of ppl i see:)

48. how many drafts do you have?

18 looooool

50. even or odd numbers?

my bday is an even number so even:)

[thvodora]

hello !! i’m luna, from the est, and i use she/her pronouns !! this is my baby theodora (aka dory but can also be called theo/thea/teddi/etc. skjdfjks) !! below i have a whole summary of her bio and personality, and also some ideas for connections if you’re into that !! if you’d like to plot, please message me on discord @luna#6219 or like this and i will come to you (most likely on discord, but tumblr im also works) !! if you have time to read things that are way too long, feel free to peek at her biography, statistics, personality traits, headcanons, pinterest, and playlist !! okay let’s dive in !

( lee ji-eun, cisfemale ) hey ! have you seen THEODORA KWON around ? SHE works as a ICE SKATING INSTRUCTOR at big bear resort, but they must be off their shift by now. well, if you do see them can you let me know ? they’re 20 years old & they’ve been working here for FOUR MONTHS. they tend to be +AMBITIOUS & +FASTIDIOUS, but can also be -DOGMATIC & -PREDICTABLE. the other employees have labeled them THE POLYMATH. thanks a lot ! ( delicate fingernails painted red grazing over a piano, wilted flowers resting in the sunlight, elaborate sand sculptures washed away by the tides, ripples in otherwise perfectly still water, & tea-stained book pages )

biography (tw: car accident)

theodora basically grows up w/ two controlling parents who are doctors, but she has a relatively ok childhood where she spends most of her time with her brother. she reads a lot, does well in school, takes some piano lessons, all that jazz

then her mother has an affair and so her parents divorce when dory’s 10 y/o and she’s pretty distraught, split between households. she’s especially spiteful of her mother and her mother’s boyfriend.

her brother leaves for harvard, which sets high expectations for her to excel similarly. but this absence + anger from the divorce + pressure to do well culminates into her accidentally falling into the Mean Girl™ clique at her high school. they basically rebel, party hard, and are super condescending to/basically bully others but all this peer pressure and social conformity is enough for her to ignore her Bad Behavior

she crushes on and later dates the whole ringleader of the clique’s/her bff’s crush. she’s so in love but then at a party she finds her bf + her bff kissing and its just rly bad. her bff has pretty much spread rumors about her, her boyfriend ridicules her, and dory’s effectively thrown out of the social circle.

now with an outsider’s perspective she realizes how terrible she’s been and succumbs to her guilt. she becomes super introverted and only sticks to studying hard and reading books and playing the piano. she tries to apologize to the ppl that she used to bully and tries to insert herself back into high school society but it doesn’t rly work 

so she carries on like this, fighting with her parents yet adhering to their expectations + virtually outcasted but sticking to her studies. then her brother comes home over break and gets into a really bad car accident. he ends up being hospitalized and paralyzed waist down. 

dory’s pretty angry so she ends up tracking the case and watches it happen in court, but the judge/jury/lawyers suck and nothing really happens to the drunk driver who caused the accident

this spurs her into an epiphany that she can right her wrongs and right these wrongs by becoming a lawyer herself, taking justice into her own hands. her parents hate the idea because they don’t think that dory has what it takes + try to persuade her not to, telling her it’s dangerous, unstable, time-consuming, etc. she doesn’t care anymore, though, and seeing how her brother has decided to take a gap year and travel, she frees herself from her parents and goes off to yale for pre-law.

then her dad is diagnosed with early on-set dementia and she decides to move closer to his home to take care of him. she transfers to a uni in colorado, and then gets a job at the resort to a) get that $$$ to help support her dad + her education and b) she’s gone to the resort b4 as like an annual family vacay and is a lil sentimental ! 

she visits her dad a bunch but it’s a lowkey secret, she feels slightly embarrassed and also is just generally quite private

so that’s it! she’s basically just a hell of a mess who still hasn’t forgiven herself for all her mistakes in high school and still feels like she needs to conform + control everything as much as possible + be “perfect” .... but more on that in the next part

personality

my gal dory is the . most . uptight perfectionist ever . she’s super detail oriented and will undoubtedly nit pick at everything she can, both about others + herself. she’s the type to always take control in a group project because a) it has to be done in a specific way for her and b) she doesn’t really trust other people with her grades.

she’s super pragmatic and is super frugal. she hates people who talk their way around things and would rather just have direct communication and be to the point. she’s so honest and brutally critical that it gets her into a bunch of confrontations but.. she doesn’t really mind it. she lowkey loves arguing and asserting her opinion (cause she thinks it’s correct), hence the whole lawyer thing

curious about everything and if you know her well she can ramble on about an insane amount of topics if you give her the time. but like if you know her well... don’t give her that time sdkjfnsk

stubborn and holds grudges, doesn’t forgive easily aka if you lose her trust it’s pretty hard to get it back. super hard to sway her in your favor/opinion. like try to get her to spontaneously go to a party night of? sorry she hasn’t factored it into her planner two weeks in advance and also she hates parties ksdnfgks

loves playing the piano!!! is currently trying to figure out how to dj!!! but she keeps it lowkey

learned to skate when she was pretty young!! by no means an olympic skater but she does like skating bc its v graceful and she loves 2 be on the ice

basically. self-critical, hates Fun, perfectionist who is the embodiment of an istj, enneagram type 1, slytherin, & capricorn sun so....... enjoy

this is a terrible summary please go read her headcanons + personality traits page its so much more well written skfnksndfvbs

wanted connections !!

here’s a link to a tag i have for some ideas and also here’s my connections page w/ some wanted connections but i’m down for anything we brainstorm!!

[kyufiber-moved]

I feel like u have a lot of amazing ideas. Can u list them all our do u wanna keep them secret? Like a big masterlist of all the types of aus u wanna write someday. I know i have like 3 pages of ideas. I've actually written down plots to a lot of them, but i don't get much father than that 😬 -🐖

wkjefkwej i do have lots of ideas ((idk about AMAZING damn ily) but most of them are just swirling around my head tbh,,, i have an 18 page google doc with old ideas but then i didnt keep writing ideas down there so ,,, it would be like 30 pages long if i had kept at it ksjdfkjefj

i do want to ((for the most part)) keep my ideas secret so that 1. ppl wont use them before i can SKFKJE and 2. so that if i do post / write / etc them, ppl won’t have alr seen them before !!! but i can post vague-ish ?? summaries of them !!!! also this turned out to be way longer than i thought so . apologies

modern cinderella sns au

hanahaki au 

ao haru ride au

modernized jane eyre au

love alarm au

stoic tsundere chef!kyungsoo (see here)

au based off of shinee’s view music video (which i alr kinda did with runaways but . still ive had this idea for years)

tatbilb au

teacher x student au

fashion blogger!y/n

bad bitch!y/n and nerd!main lead

false memories au ((a lot more complicated but hard to explain simply so,,, ill leave it at that))

au based off of the dawnguard quest in skyrim ((but just the ‘100′s of years old vampire locked in a crypt gets found by random human’ part))

au based off groupie love by lana del rey

something with the title “1-800-CUPID” ((if someone takes this i will literally cry just . dont do it . im gonna use it at some point))

something with the title “101 ways to get the girl” AGAIN DONT TAKE IT

guy takes nerdy girls and turns them into bad bitches formula au

ur new teacher / teaching assistant / boss / etc is the one night stand you had the previous night OOPS

secretly dating au

boarding school au

harry potter au 

au based off airplane by ikon

fuckboy!heejun

au based off she’s a baby by zico

halloween party costume... turns out to not be a costume :> im mostly a  romance writer but this could go a horror route idk

this svt series i was gonna do where each of them had a love story... i can list them if you want but i think i deleted the drafts bc im ocd and have a need to clean out my drafts smh... ok they are as follows ((ill prob end up writing some of these and maybe/probably changing the idol but who knows)) :

(minghao) ur bff tags you and the boy u like in an ig pic and the pic says “tag ur best friend and their crush to ruin their life” 

(jun) FAKE fake dating au ((aka guy gets girl to fake date him so his parents will back off of asking him if he has a gf except he actually likes her and its a plan to get her to fall in love w him LOL))

(jeonghan) ice cream shop summer job au feat. flirty main lead

(chan) girl and guy have a prank war that’s been ongoing for two years ever since he accidentally did smth to her and they’re rivals but then he witnesses a moment right after her bf breaks up with her and is like ok we r bffs now and yeah . its cute in theory

(wonwoo) girl is at a party and kisses someone but bc she was intoxicated she doesn’t remember who it was and the plot is her narrowing down who kissed her etc

(mingyu) best friends to lovers bc of a game of spin the bottle HAH ik its cliche but idc

(seungkwan) girl is a prim and proper student but parties over the summer and makes a whOLE fool out of herself in front of guy at one such party but she’s like eh im embarrassed but ill never see him again so its ok except . he turns out to be a transfer to her school

(woozi) guy and girl are main leads and romantic partners etc in play / movie / whatever and while they film / practice an actual behind the scenes romance develops

(dk) guy who is energetic and spastic meets rlly stoic and cold girl bc they’re lab partners and he melts her cold ass exterior

(hoshi) girl is the only daughter of a super rich family and boy is the son of the family’s maid / etc and they run into each other and end up falling for each other despite the class difference, which causes conflict later on when they want to be together yeehaw

(joshua) girl and guy are close friends n one time their friend who is an aspiring youtuber is filming and he’s like listen i want views yall should kiss . and the girl is like no ??? what . and the guy is like surprise ! and kisses her and it changes their relationship oop

(hansol) brother’s best friend!au . simple as that tbh skejfke

and lastly (scoups) famous idol!guy and company intern!girl who definitely shouldnt like each other but . totally do 

ok anyways continuing on bc my ideas never fucking stop . oblivious! popular boy taehyung and lovesick!y/n desperately trying to get it into his rock dumb brain that she likes him

i also had this idea for kim doyoung and kim gongmyung like . about the girl liking one of them and then him breaking her heart and its like a year later and she ends up with his little brother . yanno . ok

arranged relationship au BUT with a twist bc the girl also has a bf at school (basically,, something similar to my little bride??? but not the same,, just similar)

cute new boy vs bff boy who has a secret crush on oc

au based off boys by charli xcx 

au based off in your pocket by maroon 5

sugar daddy!au

then ofc i have ones ive actually started which are:

au based off mistakes like this by prelow

au based off leave your lover by echos

au based off the mv for view by shinee yanno yanno i mentioned that

royalty!dawon and bodyguard!y/n whose real identity turns out to b something nobody knew about oops

wow i didnt know i had so many ideas when will i chill

[doaholistic]

1) I live for the fact that you like dirk 2) can I get a Matt Eugene timeline? How did ppl know?

Dirk Gently is my favourite thing ever. I actually cried when I read the cancellation. Then I wanted to strangle Max Landis when I read the accusations. That being said, Season 3 and onwards without him, and with Arvind in charge, I will wholeheartedly 100% support.  Matt and Eugene... ah boy. 

I think I just assumed they were dating when I first saw a photo of them together at an event? It was during a hiatus in BF Try Guy time and I wasn’t really a huge fan at the time because they were still new and Ned and Zach kinda annoyed me. (Lol) I loved Keith because he’s Keith and I might be messing up timelines here but I love Alex and Chris my love for Eugene grew from Misheard Lyrics. (And his brief appearance in If Disney Princes Were Real)  It was the 2015 Unforgettable Gala. 

I don’t generally assume people are gay I just thought they were cute and I didn’t honestly care too much and I wasn’t invested so I moved on. 

Then I watched some older videos and he’s in a few early ones so I assumed they were BFFs or something... Then I assumed he was at least not straight because he made LGBT+ videos and this beauty that Matt is in. (Now we honestly don’t know when they started dating? Maybe someone does, there are better detectives in this fandom than me... I just follow the universe... but lets be honest, if they were dating when he filmed Types of Gay Guys I’ve Dated, they might have been dating for a while before that because to ask a new bf to play a reject in a dating video would... well it would probably be something Eugene would do. Bless.)   Plus there's a tiny cute moment in one of the dance videos where Matt is just smirking at him shaking his ass... WHAT AM I EXPECTED TO THINK?  I basically assumed they were dating from then on tbh. Oh and he was in the baby shower video!

He’s also just everywhere Eugene is? There are countless fan photos of Eugene with Matt chilling in the bg lol. Here is one. 

OH AND ALL THE BABY PESTO STUFF HAS MATT IN IT!  PUPPY SNEEZING ON HIS BOYFRIEND WAS TOO CUTE NOT TO BE ON THE GRAM.

The video of when Emma and Pesto first met too...  Here is a photo of them from 2013.  I honestly don’t know a timeline but he was at the family reunion and one of the family posted a photo on Instagram captioned ‘with the kids’ and Matt was with Eugene so he’s so much more to Eugene than we can even understand.  Of course, his privacy is important to him and should be respected. These are all public photos and he could have untagged himself from the ones he didn't want people to find easily. Most of them actually pop up in Davids insta stories because I never would have found them otherwise because I’m good at searching for dog content... humans bore me. ;)  Wow this post is a mess. I’m sorry. Lol.

[namelessstoryteller]

I'm not like her other friends

Recently got a message from friend I'm calling Linn. Linn was my first friend when I started High School, and I made friends with Anna and Joe, who were her childhood friends, and a chick I chatted to in homeroom named Freda, who was Linn's bff.

Two events started the downfall from me getting kicked out of this group. I felt like a taxi driver while driving Linn and Freda around on Halloween, and mentioned to Linn, hey I don't like being a third wheel afterwards. So whenever she brought up hanging out with Freda, as I was the only friend with a car, I always rejected it. The second was I brought us tickets to Impractical Jokers, our fav show that was touring in our town that year. She agreed to pay me back the 70 over time. This was the only time I ever asked her for money in the 6 to 7 years of friendship.

Linn never had much money so I hung with her and brought the tickets, the food, and the events. I hung out with her because I could always make her laugh and loved our shared interests.

However, turns out everything that was said, was shared between Joe, Freda, family, and others. I got a bf and wanted to ask her yknow girl/perverted questions, I wanted a conversation about this stuff with her as we been friends for years and I only knew her attempts at relationships. I made her feel uncomfortable with this open conversation. I apologized but I learned this was shared with everyone and I was a bad friend for not noticing the signs.

A group chat was formed later on, with Joe, Freda, Linn, rando, and a chick named Iris. I knew Iris but I really don't know what side she was on throughout this whole thing, she had conversations with both of us and sent me screenshots from Linn, so I suspect she did the same for Linn. I made a comment, like "what up b*tches" and that fucking broke Freda. Apparently I hated her and it was aimed at her. And Im insensitive (which is a bit true but I have said worst, and Linn brings this up a lot later on).

I wanted an overnight hangout for spring break, I invited Linn, Joe, his gf, Anna, Iris. Linn knew I smoked and drank, but due to the friend group, I was never planning on bringing those items along. They didnt know I only invited them, my bestie, and a HS friend. Only Iris ever drank. Only my bestie smoked.

After hearing no, I gave up and just went to the hotel with my best friend and our HS friend. I had a good time playing uno. But Linn asked to hang that night and I told her I was doing this as I had planned a long time ago.

Apparently I got blocked from the friend group (i had it muted so I never noticed), i only noticed when I got invited back and saw the messages.

"That's so messed up of you S to leave one of your real friends whose been there for you" said iris.

It been planned for a long time, it was even planned with everyone in mind.

"I don't wanna start anything bc she'll just try 2 play the victim lol" "I don't trust her with alcohol and weed. But now I kinda don't trust her with a lot of things" "I mean if you look how Savannah grew up, you see why she is the way she is...." "I didn't like her mom the moment I saw her"

No, I had party friends and a pothead cousin. The mom comment is because my mom smokes cigarettes and Linn hated the smell and called her mom to leave my house. And I moved to my grandparents years later.

"She's reckless and tbh I'm sorry to say this but she is also kind of a hoe" said Joe. The same guy who wanted me to sleep with him when I had a bf for over a year. And he even said if I slept with him (while having a gf) that he would put in a good word. Linn agrees "I only want to find a bf and sleep with him. Not sleep with the whole town"

"Ig when I hang with her again I don't want drama but I have 2 talk 2 her maybe steer her on the right path maybe she's secretly sad. And puts her pain into weed and drinking"

No, when Im sad, I talk to you or my bestie, but then that gets shared to everyone so I stopped talking to you about my feelings.

I don't remember when this happened, but I made a comment about her oversized bra as she had tiny chachas. My mistake. Everyone has body issues, and that was hers, and I spent an hour apologizing as sometimes I do run my mouth. I just felt like the bra didn't mean much if it wasnt padded, but just there for air for her body type.

Through months of talking. Getting mad at each other. Stopped talking. Unfriending each other. Of how Im not like her other friends. We agreed on a movie. I sent her a msg at 10am asking if 10pm was a good time to go see a random movie, she read the message. I never got a message back until 9pm saying she was ready. I told her, dude message me sooner I thought you ignored me and got ready for bed. And she got mad I didn't tell her I got ready for bed while she was prepared to go out. I said it's a movie we can reschedule, it's too late to drive to her home and movies especially when it's opening night. This, of course, got her mad. I said Im sorry for the miscommunication on my part.

I heard back from her 3 days later, 4 days before the Impractical Jokers. "Are you still taking me to Impractical jokers?" At this point, I'm over these issues and her so I finally stood for a battle.

I replied, "Linn, how things are looking like right now, probably not. And I don't really feel bad since it wasnt paid." I told her I didn't want to because she more focus on the tickets when we still had last arguement.

She had 5 dollars, I told her at least 25 (not even half the price but it was something) or least try to pay me in small amounts. She said she was saving up for something so 15 at most, and I repiled like you tried saving up for these tickets.

She said "Ur like my only friend who wants me 2 pay back a concert ticket. Everyone else has brought it out of just being nice. But I did agree to pay back $70 which tbh is too much. So I said $15 but Idek bc rn I have $5" "U want me 2 ask ppl hey can u give me money bc my friend wants me 2 pay her back 4 a concert? They aint gonna do that Bc they're gonna say that's ur friend's problem"

It's your problem, Linn. Not mine.

She said this should be her bday gift, and when I brought up how much I spent on her throughout the years, she said "you never had to and Plus u should kinda do that out of being a good friend not do it 4 money btw....but now ik not 2 ask u 4 shit bc ur gonna want me 2 pay u back 4 it. I wouldn't want u 2 pay me back but that's just me 💁💁"

She msg me on my phone. Went through the cycle of her saying hey I can make payments now, and me saying it's too late since I already invited someone else, "Im money hungry/i never apologized", she had family issues and is broke, stop bringing up things in the past she already apologized for (when she brought up things I apologized for). How she kept me as a friend, how loyal she was, when all of her friends and family told her to drop me, who knew every single bad detail about me, every bad secret. Yes, this came up a lot during our disputes. Even when I told her I didn't care what her friends thought cuz I wanted just us talking.

I thought we liked to hang out together, but maybe it was just me who enjoyed those times. She always wanted someone else there. Anna, Iris and Joe I was okay with just in small amounts because of gas. Plus, those guys never had money either and I can only pay for so many. Maybe I was her friend because I had a car and okay with spending money.

So yes, I'm the bad apple. I've been living with the same guy for the last two and a half years, clean from weed for the last one and a half (bf told his dad he would stay clean, i only smoked because i was always offered some by others), drinking once a month.

And then Linn messaged me on my bday, happy birthday we should hang out with anna she misses you!

Uhuh. Sure. Maybe someday.

Sorry I had to rant since apparently I always saw myself as the victim. I did fuck up with the uncomfortable questions and bra comment. I felt I had these conversations with my other friends, so why not with the friend I had for the longest. But the movie ticket, like come on seriously?

Tl;dr toxic friendship turned bad, got witchhunted by my "friends" and money hungry for a ticket I brought.

[an-ambivalent]

That happened to me recently. My "best friend", who is a guy, recently got into a romantic relationship with someone and just stopped talking to me as a friend, and I, that one teenage girl who emotionally invests in people way too much, am really confused because we were close. I find myself questioning why we were even friends to begin with. Now he only talks to me if he wants the answers to homework. I guess I'm just his nerd acquaintance who gives out homework answers like business cards now

I haven’t been in that situation because none of my friends have ever dated lol. But I did feel abandoned one time bc my bff suddenly became addicted to games sm she wouldn’t even talk to me my during lunch. Actually our situation is a lot more complicated than that, but I dealt with it by sitting with other friends and started hanging out with them. Its sad because this happens a lot. After bf/gf ppl sorta stop socializing with their friends and I feel for you as the one girl who invests tm. I’m like that with my friendships too and it back fires in my face, its not really worth it tbh, not if your friends do the same. Honestly girl you deserve better. Try talking to him maybe and if he doesn’t listen he’s not worth it. Don’t waste your time with ppl who only use you because that shit hurts and that hurt is not worth it. Get closer with other friends who would treat you how you deserve to be treated.