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Don't think you understand
Summary: Quinn can't get ahold of his feelings, which leads him to push you away unintentionally.
Track 8 of short n' sweet - dumb & poetic
Warning! Slight miscommunication
A/N: This does have a happy ending :) and it's short. I apologize for that!! I just wanted to post something for the short n sweet masterlist(been delaying it)
And I gave you guys a bridgerton love confession kinda so enjoy that lmao
You haven't talked to him in weeks. The man was your best friend and you haven't talked to him in two months, how did this even happen?
Hmm, maybe when you had confessed your feelings to Quinn around the same time, you left without an answer, analyzing the blank look on his face, bringing enough of one for you.
This was your fifth tub of ice cream in two weeks, while on a call with Luke(and Jack, who also joined the supposed gossip session).
"Wait, so let me get this straight." Jack said, collecting his thoughts. "You told him you were in love with him, and he didn't say anything or have any reaction which led to you two not talking anymore?"
"Well, it certainly helps hearing it out loud." You grumbled.
"Sorry! I just need to recap so I know why I have to slap him when I next see him." Jack mutters the last part.
"You know, for him being the oldest, he sure is stupid." Luke chuckles.
"Pretty sure I'm the stupid one here, I mean, I thought he actually liked me back." You smiled Sadly.
"You think he doesn't like you in that way?" Jack asked, you nodded.
"Yeah, no, Quinn's definitely in love with you, Y/N. Have you seen the way he looks at you? The way his eyes seem to shine brighter when he talks about you." Luke shrugged.
"Okay, now you guys are feeding into my delusions." You rolled your eyes. "I lost my best friend because I couldn't control my feelings about him. And now I'm sitting on my kitchen floor, crying to Conan Gray while eating Ben & Jerry's."
There was a sudden knock on your door. Who could that be? It was late in the night in Vancouver.
"I'll be right back guys, don't hang up." You warned.
You walked up to the door and looked through the peephole and saw the man of the house standing on the other side. You unlocked it. How could you not?
"Quinn? What are you doin-?" You were cut off with Quinn kissing you passionately. You melted in the kiss before slowly breaking apart.
"I'm in love with you too." Quinn confessed. "I think I've been in love with you the moment I saw you falling off the swing when we were kids, if I'm being honest. It's very easy to fall in love with someone as special, charming, kind, heartless, caring, and comforting as you. I can't imagine being with anyone else other than you. And I don't even want to think about how sorry I am for not realizing it until now. But I love you Y/N, and I don't think I can ever stop - No, I know that I can't and won't."
Now it your time to be in shock.
"I understand if I'm too late, I just wanted you to know. I'm sorry for kissing you. I just wanted to know what it felt if it was the only time -" You cut Quinn off by kissing him.
"I love you too." You whispered. "Gosh you're so dumb and poetic."
Quinn chuckles. "What does that even mean?" He followed you into the house.
"Y/N!!! Did you get kidnapped? Omg Luke what if we gotta call the cops and tell them what happened and we gotta tell them she was crying about our idiotic brother-"
"Jack shut up." Luke looked at his brother bewildered.
"I'm just saying, could be a possibility." Jack mutters.
"I'm not dead guys." You picked up the phone.
"Y/N! You're alive. What happened? Who was at the door?" Luke asked, Jack chuckling behind him.
"Oh you know just this really hot guy." You answered simply.
"Okay? How hot was he? Is he gonna make you get over Quinn?" Jack asked.
"Very hot and no." You answered.
Quinn came into frame behind you, kissing you on your neck.
Jack and Luke's jaw drops. "No way!" "What the hell?"
"There are children present in this conversation, you guys are disgusting." Jack gestured to Luke who shoved him in response. "I'm 21!"
"Bye guys." Quinn hung up the phone.
"That was rude, you know." You looked back at him.
"I know, I just wanted to kiss you without them bickering." Quinn mumbles.
"And to think I was just crying over you not too long ago." You recalled.
"I'll make up for every tear you shed for my stupidity, I promise." Quinn's nose brushes yours.
"I know you will." You leaned in closer.
#luke hughes#nhl imagine#nhl#nhl hockey#nhl players#jack hughes#verycoolusername1#quinn hughes#quinn hughes fanfiction#quinn hughes blurb#quinn hughes x reader#quinn hughes imagine#qh43#vancouver canucks
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Is it just me or is N always turned on when she is next to L? I mean the lovey dovey behavior is there as well but I feel like we don't talk enough about miss N being so dirty minded.. Is this a common thing for her? Because when I rewatched some of the interviews I picked up on stuff and saw it in a new light. Remember the dating profile interview? Question was what is Colin biggest secret? L was all like well let me think about a meaningful answer and N's thoughts went straight to a certain topic, like her eyes and body language..i can't. And the thing is she could not hold it back. She was like, well I wanna say something so inappropriate but I can't say it, it is too much. L with his I read it as boner can definitely match her freak. They are insane, period.
Bianca, have we all gone mad?!
The World Tour™️ was horny period.
But no, we’ve not all gone mad. The reason we’re all here to begin with is because we all saw what was happening right in front of our eyes.
Whether they meant to show it or not, their connection and love for each other is an undeniable, irrefutable fact.
We’re going to get confirmation one day. It’s just a waiting game. They’ll let us know when they’re ready.
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Adam and Lucifer stood to the side as Charlie was about to start another group session. Lucifer looked a tad nervous, because everyone seemed to be looking and pointing at them.
Adam: You seem tense.
Lucifer: I-I think they know...
Adam: About us? Nonsense. Let them fester in their curiosity. I do like some good gossip~.
Lucifer chuckled: You're so bad.
Adam: I had to get my reputation somehow~.
Charlie: Alright, everyone! Shall we start-?
Angel throws his hand in the air, Lucifer doesn't trust that smile he has on his face.
Charlie: Oh! Uh- yes, Angel?
Angel: Toots, we've learned about "Traits of a Good Person" three times already. I have an idea for another topic~.
Vaggie: We don't want to know, Angel.
Charlie: It's okay, Vaggie. I trust him. What's your idea Angel?
Angel: "The importance of telling truths and being open with other people"!
The room was stunned into silence.
Adam: Wow. That's a great topic, Angel. I'm impressed.
Angel: Oh, you won't be, baby~.
Adam tilted his head. He's definitely concerned and he feels a tad threatened.
Charlie: Okay! I like that idea, Angel ! Shall we each ask someone a question, and that person had to answer honestly. I'll go first as an example. Adam: what's your favorite thing to eat?
Adam: Oh! That's easy. Venison~.
Everyone was silent again. They definitely forgot how creepy Adam could be. Lucifer, on the other hand, was staring lovingly at Adam.
Charlie: Great! Now, Adam, you ask someone something.
Adam: Hmm. Oh, the possibilities- Peter!
Peter sat up straight and smiled widely at his boss. He wasn't a gest but he loved participating.
Peter: Yes boss!?
Adam: Who is a fantastic cleaner and most loyal employee of mine?
Peter: Oh! Oh... uh... m-me?
Adam: Very good~.
Peter: Me! Lute-me! Me!
Lute rolls her eyes. Stupid bastard.
Charlie: How sweet! Okay, Peter, you're turn.
Peter: Boss!?
Adam perked up: Yes, Peter?
Peter: Favorite colour!?
Adam: Gold.
Angel: My turn- Adam~. Baby~.
Adam narrowed his eyes as Angel, he didn't like where this was going: Yes, "Angie"?
Angel: Who ya fuckin lately~?
Lucifer blushed but managed to remain composed.
Adam: You're mom. Next question.
Adam smiled at Angel's offended expression.
Lute: Boss.
Adam sighed: Yes, Lute?
Lucte: What's going on between you, and the king?
Adam: ...Nothing.
Charlie: Adam, you have to be honest- and come to think of it, you and dad have been spending a lot of time together. Do you like to dad, Adam?
Adam: I- yes. He's very kind and sweet. Next question.
Peter: Can I watch you two have sex!?
Adam: Peter- we've talked about this. You can't ask people that.
Peter: Sorry.
Adam: Next question?
Vaggie: Are you in a relationship with him?
Adam: With who?
Vaggie: Don't play dumb! The king!
Adam: "the king" has a name. Thank you. And yes, technically i do have a relationship with him.
Angel: You're so fucking him. Come one Adam! Tell us!
Charlie: Are you sure you're not with my dad?
Vaggie: You're highness, I thought you hated him- he hated you Adam.
Adam: Not a question, Vagatha.
Lucifer watched everyone through questions at Adam. He was handling it pretty well, but Lucifer could tell he was going to lose it.
Lucifer: ...do you love me?
Everyone stopped and looked at Lucifer. Even Adam. His expression was shock and maybe a tad of offense.
Adam: Of course I do. Have I not shown you? What more do I need to do? Tell me- and I'll do
Lucifer: Tell them. About us.
Adam smiled and grabbed his hand. The whole room was duiet: Of course. Lucifer and I have been connecting for a few weeks now. We have it official last night.
Angel: ...wow. I was expecting you to fight back a little.
Adam: Perish the thought! I only fight when I feel threatened~.
Lowkey want an au where Adam has Alastors' powers.
The tentacles
The eyes
The changing size
The shadows
The sass
The deal making
Him owning Husk and Nifty
The musical numbers
The radio control
The tentacles- have I mentioned that before?
The rivalry with Lucifer
Maybe he replaces Alastor entirely. No Alastor. Only Adam. It's always been Adam.
Thanks for coming to my tedtalk.
Only Adam lol This is good! His Husk and Nifty could be Lute and Peter.
He doesn't have to smile all the time does he?
Yessss, and he plays rock instead of jazz lol And yes of course there is a rivalry lol
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I’m honestly really worried right now with how nasty this has all gotten so fast.
I feel so bad for Oliver. His entire storyline he’s waited years to tell has now completely been hijacked from start to finish thanks to Lou and his cult.
The disgusting things being said about Oliver. About Ryan. The show itself. All with Lou liking and engaging with them playing up the poor me card with them.
Like they are literally demanding Oliver be written off the show as punishment and any future Buck scenes they already filmed scrubbed out. I saw a few say deport Ryan back to Mexico and then write Eddie off by sending him to Texas permanently and send Buck with him. Some saying Lou should have been kept on and Oliver let go.
Like it’s all insane. And none of them deserve it because they didn’t do anything wrong. No one misled or promised or lied. They have been open and transparent about BT from the start. Tim literally said at the very beginning this was an entry level relationship. No wedding bells.
I’m also getting worried the network is going to pull the plug on buddie because even if it’s not us doing it, they might not wanna deal with the insane blowback these people are causing and will cause when buddie happens.
Don't worry Nonny. Like I said before, Oliver will be fine. Ryan will be fine.
Oliver has disabled comments on his post on Instagram because he knew exactly what was coming. They are both probably avoiding social media right now, but I'm also certain they'll be back as soon as the worst is over.
The show never made any promises about BT. On the contrary, they made it very clear, since day one, that Tommy was there to be a plot device. Eddie was all over the BT narrative in both seasons. In season 8 BT were still in the same place they ended in season 7. There was no growth whatsoever. Also, there was no buildup at all for them. Tommy just existed next to Buck in episode 5, but there wasn't one single sign of physical affection. Even in episode 6 there was only a cheek kiss. It reminded me of Eddie kissing Ana when he returned home after the shooting. A single cheek kiss. We all know how that relationship ended.
I wouldn't worry too much about the network. It seems bad right now, because they are all being loud and obnoxious, but the BT fandom is actually quite small compared to the Buddie fandom and the general 911 fandom. Their voices will be drowned out by all the positivity in the end. These BT stans will stop watching the show, but it won't even make a dent in the ratings. There's only a few hundred of them.
I checked Instagram and I've already seen so many positive comments, saying it was one of the best episodes of season 8, praising all the actors and crew for their hard work.
So don't worry. ABC knows exactly what Buddie could mean for the show. It would most definitely increase the popularity. Bi Buck already brought in a lot of people (some of them who have already left us again since Thursday evening), but a lot of them are here for the bi representation and they are here to stay.
So imagine how crazy things would get if Eddie would turn out to be not so straight after all and very much in love with his best friend? And Buck finally figuring out who he really wants?
The episodes leading up to them finally getting together would draw in so many new people who heard that those two 'gay firefighters from 911' are finally getting together after 7 loooong seasons.
ABC doesn't care about a few hundred people throwing a tantrum under a social media post. They do care for ratings and making a profit. That's it.
¯\_(ツ)_/¯
Tell you one thing though: After what he has done? Lou will never ever work on anything for ABC again, which means that we won't ever see him back on 911 and that's a beautiful thing. 😏😆
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Sometimes i remember a comics moment i randomly came across somewhere, where Sam Wilson mentiones a musical and Steve Rodgers says he doesn't like musicals, to whitch Sam goes "Guess that means you really are straight" and even tho i don't care about Cap America or the Avengers, the moment stuck in me for that quote by Sam. And like....Sci, any ideas if straight men actually don't like musicals or is that bullshit?
actually i think i know more gay men who hate musicals than i know straight men who hate musicals. i've had a drag queen stop me point blank when i was about to sing a barbra streisand song, and i know so many gays who pointedly hate abba. so based on my experience i think the inverse is true. most of the straight men i know are kind of impartial about musicals, but gay men? hate.
my theory is that a lot of gay men don't want to fall into stereotypes, maybe. but thaaaaat's just a theory! a gay theory.
#sci speaks#i'm trying to understand the gays. they are a mystery to me.#i've seen a lot more toxic masculinity coming from gay men than i have from straight men.#i think it makes sense. they have less women in their lives. so they reckon with a lot more masculinity. more dick measuring.#also gay men have some of THE most unhealthy romantic relationships i've ever seen in my life.#this isn't a blanket statement on everyone but just from what i've seen. it's such a strange pattern i've observed.#lesbians? healthy. straights? usually healthy. gay men? universally a tire fire that makes me say “if you hate each other so much ??”#“why are you together??????????”#i have never met a cis gay mlm couple in real life that was healthy. every single one of them made my eyes widen in horror.#i want them to be healthy. please treat each other better.#the number of bitchy bitchy fights i've seen between mlm couples in public that make me so terrified#but i know mlm relationships in general are usually less... affectionate than wlw relationships. even and especially friendships.#just an observation.#i hate to say that there is a definite difference between amab vs afab experiences when it comes to relationship dynamics but.#of course there is. there is. as much as i want to say gender and sex do not matter. it really does.#it makes a difference. it does.#which is kind of why i'm glad i was born in the body i was. when people say “trans means you feel you were born in the wrong body”#im like.. i don't think that's true. i don't think that's true for me.#i wouldn't be me if i wasn't born the way i was. and i want to be me. but i'm a boy. i'm a boy but in the body that i have.#my body is still a boy's body. because i live in here.#sorry this went off on a tangent.#but yeah i know my brain would be different if i was amab. and i don't want all those other issues.#i think the only reason i'm so peaceful and serene is because i'm afab. and afabulous.#i see cis guys and im like.. yeah i don't want what you got.#once again! lucky to be me! i'm lucky. im lucky i have a vargooba. thank fuck for that!#couldve been so much worse off. could've been born with a dick and would be fighting for my life right now.
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One of the more heartbreaking episodes of this show was released on April 28, 2019: "This is Not A Drill", featuring Drill Man (...and his absolutely abysmal excuse for a father). To commemorate it, I drew him over the weekend (and touched up the shading today). As always, the poor guy is not having a good time.
no background version under the cut:
#mmfc#Mega Man Fully Charged#Drill Man#Drillman#this episode is an interesting one#because it was definitely framed to be more lighthearted than how it ended up#and the ending corroborates that#but even from what is explicitly stated it ended up really frickin dark#Before i actually watched this episode when I got into the show in 2022#I assumed most of their dynamic was extrapolated or leaned into for interpretations#but nope his father is just straight up abusive onscreen#not to mention all the subtle details that cause me emotional harm#aside from the dissonance and the fact that once again Drill Man has gotten screwed over by opening up to people#one of the worst parts is that it could have been a REALLY GOOD way to connect with kids who don't have such a great home life#and subtly introduce that idea to kids who do so they have a better understanding when they brush up against that irl#Like at the end when Dr. Light goes into that monologue about how parents ALWAYS love their children and he's SURE Drill sr secretly cares#what if instead they had acknowledged that his dad did not really care about Drill Man's feelings and hurt him for his own personal gain#and that treating your kids like that isn't right and isn't loving#IMAGINE IT#we were kind of robbed tbh that could have been groundbreaking#no pun intended
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i need to lie down and curl into a ball and tuck myself into a box and be gently lowered into the earth i think. and just stay there for a few days... years... however long it needs to be until i can exist without feeling like i am a prey animal being hunted for sport every day !!!!!!!
#And Suddenly Everything Felt Overwhelming Again. And Suddenly Reality Opened Its Eyes And Gazed Into My Own.#I can't even think straight like... how do people live entire lives#how do they exist without forcing themselves to continue every day and ignore the clanging bells of how Bad it all is#how do ppl ignore the siren song of how fragile the body is and how easy it would be to break the thread keeping the self alive#like i do think maybe death should not be such an easily obtainable thing. its so tempting and i hate it#I Don't Know !!!! head in my hands. i did not eat lunch today because I felt so bad so maybe that has made things worse#it has definitely made things worse. i want to have an existence where I do not feel this bad so often.#this is not a life to live. this is an existence to endure. i am tired i am tired i am tired.#but it will be okay again soon after I eat and distract myself. life is happy and wonderful when i do not Remember it All. god.#please ignore me as i throw a tantrum fdsjkl i am embarrassed in advance honestly. something is not right in my head right now.
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i feel like not enough people use writing fanfiction as a way to like... study and learn? outside of it being more practice and things. like sure, this is for entertainment first and foremost, but for me keeping the writing tone and characterization as accurate as i can to then transform it more into a writing style to create something good just ends up in me like, intensely studying the source material. i don't ever go off of memory i fucking break that shit down, study dialogue patterns and write down literally everything the characters i'm writing for say, observe the structure and themes and tone of whatever i'm looking at, watch and analyze things until i'm sick of them and come out a better writer because of that hands-on observation and because i simply fucking hate when other people go off of memory while writing characters i like ❤️
#talk#like what better way to study something you like than to work within it's bounds for the most part?#i can't enjoy something if the vibes are too off... if it doesn't have the same level of cartoonishness...#same reason why a lot of fan characters are uninteresting to me#if i can't make things look straight out of the show i don't see a point#i've become such a stickler for canon EXCEPT for when i think i can do better (often)#sometimes i definitely need to make vibe adjustments but i can't imagine straying too far from things unless i'm being artsy on purpose#definitely a lot of reslly great more transformative stuff don't get me wrong. lots of ways to do that right#cus i think something being really cool can easily outweigh accuracy#just as everyone has their own style#but for the most part i like to color within the lines#it's weird though because i'm always a lot looser when looking at other people's drawings and things#like i love a good shitpost but for some reason writing just isn't made for that to me#i just feel like for a lot of people it's more just playing with dolls than creating art#which is fine! but i'm too much of a perfectionist for it
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first of all, the duffers absolutely didn't have the full series planned out from the start because Stranger Things was originally pitched as a limited series with 1) the potential for a direct "sequel" that would follow the younger kids as adults (basically, they pitched "It") or 2) an outright sci-fi horror anthology. second of all, even if the duffers did have everything mapped out from the start that doesn't mean that plan isn't garbage.
#strangerthoughts#sorry ST reddit is driving me INSANE. please crawl back out of the duffers' asses#these guys literally lost the plot back in S3 and course corrected so hard that everyone collectively experienced whiplash#if they had any kind of plan in mind it definitely wasn't until after S2#I would argue it wasn't until after S3 tbh#like. S1 was definitely intended to stand alone#S2 was a direct continuation that only happened because netflix saw the show as profitable#and the duffers scrambled to yeet something out in a little over a year#which is why the justice for barb plot is a thing and el's plot is so disconnected from the rest of the season#they had no idea what to do with her when she was SUPPOSED TO DIE#S3 feels like the duffers pitched an anthology season and netflix said no#like. I could have liked S3 as a standalone campy action comedy#but it being a wacky season in the midst of non-wacky seasons makes me wonder what the duffers were smoking#and if the duffers had a solid plan for vecna before S3 I'll give them my left kidney free of charge#because S4 is a messy season. they crammed things in there that did not need to be crammed in#they bloated the cast and clearly had no idea what to do with 75% of said cast#and when I talk about the episodes being too long I'm directly referring to how in the last episode the kill vecna crew are being#STRANGLED BY VINES and PINNED TO A WALL for like thirty minutes straight#at that point someone should have suggested they reevaluate what they just wrote. because what they wrote sucked#I genuinely don't think the duffers will ever be show runners again#I think they'll continue to direct. which they are pretty good at. but I don't see them ever writing anything majorly successful again
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probably doesn't look that great but i attempted to draw Valarie Bronev and Clayton Bronev from the How Things Change au by @multiversal-madness
also i want to point out i attempted to make their poses be similar to some poses done by a certain top hat wearing professor that Luke is missing very dearly, cause i think it's neat and sometimes you just gotta make a child cry
#myart#notmyoc#how things change au#professor layton au#professor layton oc#not reblog#hey i did an art#also no idea if the at-ing worked#never really had to do that often on any of my tumblr blogs#(because this is specifically a side blog not my main blog-#-which is why you(Multi) don't get comments or likes or asks from this account-#-i just straight up don't know how to do that on a side blog so infodumping via tags it is!)#anyways i probably missed some details but i tried#also quality is shit due to having to take a picture of it via phone#also i want to point out that since his name is Clayton#and he's an archaeologist#one could definitely make some joke of Leon mishearing Luke saying Layton as Clayton and thinking he knows Leon's dad#so whoops#oh and don't feel rushed about answers any of my questions about the aus#take your time with it (especially since it gives me time to think of more questions)#anyways i look forward to seeing more of this au#:)#professor layton spoilers#<- just in case
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One day I'm going to finish my FFXVI mega essay, but for now I think my thoughts on the game can be summarized like this:
When making FFXVI, the developers sure knew what they wanted to do, and by god were they going to do it.
Were they also going to do other things that would make those first thing better? Were they going to do other things that make a good game overall? Ehhhhh...they were going to do what they wanted to do, and invest all their time and effort into that, so surely that would be enough! Surely!
#i saw someone call FFXVI the most disappointing 8/10 game they'd ever played#and i agree 100%#it started off SO STRONG#and then. and then!!!#ffxvi#my overall rating is in fact an 8 out of 10. maybe 8.5. definitely not a 9#i enjoyed many parts of it but by god were the lows low#some of the highs were very high too! i don't regret buying or playing the game! i'm glad i did#but yeah most disappointing 8/10 i ever played is an apt description#my opinion might be slightly impacted by my uh. mental state at the time#2023 was not a good year for me. for several months ffxvi was the only thing i had to look forward to in life#and that's really sad but that was just the place i was in. life was absolutely miserable#i played the demo and was over the moon. good things were coming! it was way better than i anticipated!#then i played the game and while i enjoyed a lot of it a lot was just tedious in a bad way#so many repeated plotlines and so much whacking you over the head with the points they wanted to make#like come on guys i am not an idiot do you really need to tell me this exact thing 18 different times#and have me go out of my way to get. reward which is just a slightly different flavor of that same thing 18 times#that's what i mean by them doing a few things very well. by god were they going to do them. and only them#graphics? beautiful. i had to stop at several points bc i was stunned by the quality.#but after you've seen a few forests and some fallen ruins it gets boring when that's it. the world was just so small and empty#yes i do support the rise up against your oppressor plotlines because that is a good thing to do but that was like. 90% of the story#(including sidequests) and it just kind of got old. why did i just spend 3 hours straight doing sidequests that gave me nothing new#made some of the sidequests feel pointless. especially because the rewards in this game sucked#uh oh i'm getting too negative so i'll end it here#ffxvi was a good game but it is not one of my faves. glad i played it but idk when i'll play it again.#erurandomness
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hardwood comb project
I forgor to buy a lighter colored wood for the spine/core so I can't keep working on it tonight cause all I've got is the walnut.
#woodworking#alt text#Ford's art#I made a bamboo comb in high school and I've always wanted to make another comb but better#and I don't need a really broad toothed comb cause my hair is straight and not massively thick#but my gf has very thick curly hair and so I think this would be very cool and also useful#she lets me braid it when she comes over so it stays out of the way when we kiss and it's very gorgeous and beautiful#anyway apparently my being aroace is canceled because damn she's very cool and I'm feeling sappy again#(don't get into ace exclusionist discourse on my diy comb post aroace is valid so stay off my lawn please)#I'm debating whether to stain the wood I think I will but I definitely need to test a patch of scrap first because#because I'm not very familiar with staining hardwood#feels like every art project I do is always just “uh oh I've never done this before I hope it works out okay”#but ugh I have a vision in my head of how I want it to be when finished and I hope to dog I can make it close#I don't add text id to other people's posts but since I have the option here I kind of feel like it's responsible posting to add descriptio#I will update as I continue the project if I remember to.#plus hair has always been an important part of my gender recognition (and is for a lot of trans women in general)#so making and giving something that supports that aspect of her feels really meaningful yaknow?
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@outofangband @main-to-outofangband is the recreation of the post you were asking me about. I tried to keep it as close to the original as I could, so I hope what you wanted to comment on is still there
Something I really admire about Tolkiens writing is that he manages to write m/f relationships that don't bore me but actually make me interested and invested in their story.
I am sure that many of you can relate to this, but I would like to say it regardless: Growing up queer with basically no media representation makes me want to throw up whenever I see a generic female lead start fluttering her eyes at a generic male lead who is ten years older than her and just tried to kill her.
So why am I so excited about, for example, Beren and Lúthien?
Let me explain. What Tolkien does is simple yet genius: he switches up the powerdynamics. He takes a guy, drags him through the most traumatic shit possible so he is permanently covered in blood and tears, makes it seem like he has grown unapprochable and dangerous because of it (Think Beren fighting armies of orcs completely on his own), and lets him run wild for a bit.
Then he takes a woman, who is one of the most etheral and powerful beings in general and who also seems unapprochable and dangerous, not because of what she has gone through, but because of who she is.
Now he takes both of them, drops them in a 10 mile radius of one another like a chemist would drop sulfur and salpeter acid into grape juice, and lets them react. And then the magic happens.
The man immediately turns into a himbo ("Can you teach me how to dance?") and the woman into a girlboss who WILL tear apart the world if anyone dares to hurt her man. They fall in love, and it feels so real.
They are so passionate and honest about each other, so much so that the narrative eventually grows bored of it and throws an AND THEN CAME CELEGORM WITH THE SPEAR at the two (which set off the funniest fight scene I ever read).
And throughout it all, while the main plot is going on, Beren is just kind of... there. He tries to go off on his own two times and Lúthien just shows up and makes it clear that "Yes Beren, I understand you want to keep me safe, but I am half angel and you are a himbo, if I don't come with you, you will die with a 100% certainty, and I would rather be tortured by Morgoth than let that happen. I'm coming with you, you fool."
And after the second time, he is fine with it. He doesn't feel threatened in his masculinity or whatever any Tom Cruise character would do, but he respects her wishes and is just thankful that she is with him on this journey.
She has to save him multiple times and he is nothing but thankful. He falls asleep while she fights Morgoth (and I know why, but it feels like Tolkien saying: Alright, Lúthien is being epic, fuck I forgot to write what Beren is doing, errrrr, he's under her spell too. Yup.) But the best part is that, while the powerdynamics are switched up, there is no moment where he is afraid of her in a "Fuck you could literally tear me apart", kind of way.
He simply loves her and she simply loves him. That is a given fact.
We need more pathetic man/powerful girlboss relationships guys, if a white english guy could do this in the 20s then so can we!
#silmarillion#m/f ship#beren and luthien#ship dynamics#they are straight by definition but they don't feel straight to me because straight (in media) in my mind equals boring and toxic#not because the pairings were necessarily toxic but because the way it was forced on my like THIS IS NORMAL BE THIS YOU CAN'T BE ANYTHING#ELSE
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#bro seeing the positivity asks like six times on the dash and not getting even one is straight up not a good time#if y'all were wondering how it feels. b a d.#and i got to thinking about it more bc my husband noticed how upset i was and was cheering me up#i came to the conclusion that social media should not effect my mood so negatively#because there is definitely a part of me that is bitter. angry. like what did i do to be excluded?#but it's not a matter of active exclusion it's just that people don't have infinite memory for blog names nor infinite energy to send#it is just. hard to keep saying it while being smacked by 10 instances of these asks a day#tbd.
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FUCKED UP THAT SOMEONE CAN SEE THEIR FRIEND IN A VULNERABLE POSITION AND THEN USE THAT TO THEIR ADVANTAGE!!! FUCKED UP THAT HE WOULDN'T TAKE KINDLY TO HIS OTHER FRIENDS HELPING HIM GET OUT OF THAT SITUATION SO WE CAN'T HELP AS MUCH AS WE'D LIKE TO. FUCKED UP THAT SO MANY GOOD THINGS WILL BE TAINTED FOR HIM NOW. FUCKED UP THAT HE'LL LIKELY BE SO CLOSED OFF TO EVERYTHING NOW BECAUSE OF THEM!!!!!
#went to bed angry and woke up angry#yesterday was so good because I love my friends but so bad because. this situation makes me so sad.#it's so sad when my friends fucking hate themselves.#and it's a different hate than it was when my friends hated themselves in middle school#like I know how to deal with that sort of self-hatred but this is Different.#and I need to help differently but I don't know How#it's quiet and constant and just little comments that could almost be missed but.#those of us who Did hate ourselves in middle school (loudly and sporadically and yelling about it in the hallways)#we see this quiet hate and I don't know what to do. nobody has ever known when I've hated myself quietly and I don't know what would've-#-helped me so I don't know how to help them.#how much can I hold them until it's uncomfy. how much can I tell them I love them until they stop believing me.#it doesn't help that they're Men. I get how men feel this sadness but I don't know how they can be helped with it#(because again I was never helped with it. I'm so good at helping my Women friends but my Men friends I don't Know what to do)#it's not fair that they're so beautiful and kind and funny and attractive and they can't see that.#and I can't like date them to make them see it because I'm not good for a relationship and one of them is straight and the other just got-#-out of what is a horrible situationship THAT DEFINITELY DIDN'T HELP. with someone I was really close with in middle school and like I-#-didn't Raise them but I was more present and helpful than her parents in middle school and I feel like I raised him.#and I raised him better than this better than hurting your Close Friend by taking advantage of him. using him for the attention your real-#-parents wouldn't give you. leave him the fuck alone.#and like the situation is over but the effects are still present. and will be for a long fucking time.#I DON'T UNDERSTAND HOW YOU CAN BE INTIMATE WITH SOMEONE AND NOT LEAVE THEM FEELING BETTER ABOUT THEIR BODY.#I DON'T KNOW HOW YOU CAN SEE SOMEONE BE SO LOW AND LEAVE THEM THERE. OR BRING THEM DOWN FURTHER.#NOBODY EVER LEFT YOU WHERE YOU WERE UNTIL YOU GAVE US NO OTHER CHOICE. AND EVEN THEN WE KEPT TRYING TO BRING YOU UP.#BECAUSE YOU WERE OUR FRIEND AND WE LOVED YOU. AND WE EXPECTED YOU WOULD DO THE SAME.#HE HAS ALWAYS BEEN THERE FOR YOU AND YOU HAVE ALWAYS BEEN ONE OF HIS CLOSEST FRIENDS. NO HE HAS NOT ALWAYS BEEN PERFECT BUT HE WAS IN-#-MIDDLE SCHOOL. HE WAS A BABY WE WERE ALL BABIES AND WE ALL GOT BETTER. AND YOU DID NOT AND YOU MADE THAT HIS PROBLEM.#maybe you just didn't fucking listen to anything he's ever said maybe you were too busy thinking about how you could use him.#but he cares so much for you and he shares himself with you and you don't notice how much he hates?#AND THE TRUST ISSUES YOU AND ANOTHER PERSON WE USED TO HAVE INSTILLED IN OUR OTHER FRIEND.#HE WILL NOT BE ABLE TO DATE AGAIN WITHOUT BEING SCARED OF WHAT SHE MIGHT SAY ABOUT HIM.
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rep please! :)
the best song on the album: new year's day
my favorite song on the album: new year's day
my least favorite song on the album: so it goes...
the most overrated song on the album: look what you made me do
most underrated: end game
banger of all bangers: don't blame me
rate from 0-10: 9/10
#ask game#arwen <3#okay so i feel like i need to explain myself#because this was very hard#ik saying new year's day is the best song on the album is a Take#especially since it has a much different vibe than the rest of the songs#but i truly think it's just a very good song and it's a fantastic closer#and then as for so it goes... it is in no way a bad song i hate picking least favorites but i guess i listen to it the least unless i'm#listening straight through the album#lwymmd is a bop but it's definitely popular enough and other songs should be hyped up more#and i am an end game stan!! i don't care how much people hate on that song it's good!!!1#and then don't blame me being the banger of the album is a given imo
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