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no gatekeeping
here is my list of patch ideas
● there is a war on the poor
● fund the NHS
● end law. take your rights by force
● trans and intersex bodily autonomy now
● nothing about us without us
● dead men don't rape
● queers hate cops
● no child deserves to live in fear
● biology was never binary
● not every disability is visible
● people not puzzles
● From the river to the sea, Palestine will be free
● this is a patch
● vaccines don't cause autism. I do
● nd nb (ACDC style)
● I'm here I'm queer and my joint pain is moderate to severe
● United we bargain. divided we beg
● I do not think. therefore I do not am
● the poor pay tax but the rich pay politicians
● the only hope for me is you
● there is no gender only rage
● easily distracted by shiny objects
● elect a clown expect a circus
● thick thighs save lives
● stop animal testing
● Good people disobey bad laws
● don't die wondering... transgenderism could be for you
● talk to your neighbours not the police
● it's never too late to be who you might have been
● they lied. hard work has killed people
● slightly burned out but still smokin'
● no fault divorce saves lives
● no more second homes
if you like some of these quotes, you may also like @grlofswords and @sweatermuppet
#for inspo#these arent all from my brain#not trying to claim anyone elses ideas as my own#this list was originally in my notes just for me#but i thought there should be more posts like this for people making#patch pants#crust pants#punk#queer punk#cripple punk#some of these are Palestine related#and autism related#if ive quoted you feel free to ask for it to be removed or credit to be given
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sometimes i wish i was one of those artist that make people go "this is a PAINTING???" or "with WHAT programm/medium???" but its just not what i can do or find fun :/
#ganondoodles talks#personal#not really for the attention thing but more for .. work being recognized?#im not sure#to feel more like people actually stop and look at sth instead of skipping over it?#maybe its jsut an internet phenomena(?)#like the way everything is just consumed within seconds and never lasts long and if you miss the trend you are irrelevant#the sort of weird pressure to have to subvert expectations or be exceptionally exceptional just to be recognized ?#(which i know isnt always a good thing lol)#also this isnt a complaint per se more like a thought#like i sometimes wish i was into the popular characters instead of the niche ones etc#that kind of thing#also like i wish i could make art that really speaks to people .. like those that are just so .. interesting and strange and poetic#bc (while i know fanart and silly oc projects arent worhtless) those feel more worthwhile? more worth really being called art?#for soemthing to be truly art it should be either exceptionally skilled or profound like the greatest poets?#im just doing whatever my brain allows me to do- which i know is fine#but i also dont think its inherently wrong to wish for being more than that sometimes#(... maybe its mostly just loneliness without knowing how to find friends)#(especially where i am and especially as i just want a friend to live with - not a partner... i dont want to be this alone forever ...)#(actually ....... what if all my art self consciousness comes from wanting to feel less lonely .. oh dear- no time to unpack that omg)
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My farmer arc
#yeah its way to late in the year to be hatching but this is florida where crackheads and repu-#anyways it doesnt get truly cold until january and they will be fully feathered by then#they have a mom#and she is UH WARM#shes a silkie so you know brooding powerhouse#my mom's silkies actually#these guys arent mine but she dont mess with them and Sarah wanted to brood on a clutch so i let her#FIRST TIME TOO SHE DID GREAT the other 3 eggs are a little younger so they will probably pip tomorrow#only one death and it was from an unobsorbed yolk#being medicated has been fucking fantastic i have a normal relationship with the internet so far and i have been like....idk healtheir?#still haveing heath problems like CURRENTLY RIGHT NOW AS IM TYPING IM IN PAIN but like overall mental health is FANTASITC i dont feel manic#anymore at all its just nice and good and ive gotten out of the years long brain fog ive had for the most part it seems#sorry for the turbo haiatus but i said before i post on my own terms for drwwings and comic#i have to thank you all with being very patient with me so eveeyone gets a cute Chick picture
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#i never really thought about a person being a finite thing. you can see the effects of a person after they die. in the unfinished projects.#in the rooms of clutter. in abandoned closets. in pictures and in mermered phrases. and you can see time#chipping away at those things. eroding away the evidance that a person existed. clothes move into other people's closets. projects are boxed#away. and a person becomes confined to photos and memories. and thats existentially terrifying but its not a bad thing. time erodes away all#things. that's how life works. matter and energy transforms.#we arent made to last forever. i dunno. i guess im still just rattled from being home even tho ive been back a week and a half.#and my brain tends to fixate on the wrong things. nearly 27 years of knowing someone eclipsed by a visual sequence lasting less than a day.#bc i just cant get over how scary it would be to die like that. to start losing control of your body. to not be able to feed yourself or get#to the bathroom. to have your mind be overcome by the toxins building up in your mangled and broken body.#and it could have been worse. it could have been a lot worse. but its still not fair. theres no good way to die. i dunno. i guess i just#miss my mom in some abstract way but i find it more viscerally upsetting to think about the people that have to deal with her absence.#it makes me sad that my dad is alone now. i dunno. grief doesnt feel like i thought it would. most of the time i dont even know what im#crying about. its undirected. it doesnt feel like: i miss you. it feels like: youre gone. how can you be gone? why does everything feel the#same? and its not that it doesnt make sense. its that nothings changed. the terror of that.#and im walking around in an acumulation of my dead mother's clothes. and no one knows. theyll never know.#and there's nothing to be done about it. so it goes.#i guess im just sad. and its hard to breathe at the thought of returning to school at the end of August.#unrelated
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luo binghe better than me fr i think i would've gone fucking apeshit if the person i loved with my entire soul pretty much said "fuck you" because of my race and pushed me down into literal hell for me to suffer for years
i've said it before and i'll say it again, i really don't think we give binghe enough credit. that man was on concerning levels of forgiving all the way from the start
#this would all be without xin mo eating at my brain btw#were the things he did wrong? of course. can you blame him? absolutely not.#like lets not act like at least half of us wouldnt go insane#i would be devastated#just.. place urself in his shoes ok#like he was able to still change for the better despite all the shit he went through#able to realize his wrongdoings and make up for them#thats fucking amazing and we should not discredit him ok#my ass would probably do the same thing as him tbh. or have a whole mental breakdown. or both#also same goes for bingge i wouldve done the same shit too probably. id fuck shen jiu up#again#not excusing his actions but i feel like people seem to focus on that part of him way too much when we literally see his character growth#and yeah hes still just a little unhinged but arent we all#hell some people are WAY more fucked up than binghe and they didnt even go through#i love him so much can you tell#so anyways yes if he were real i would date him hes so relatable#because then id now that he would actually change for the better and make things up and learn from his mistakes#yeah haha yes hes a red flag whatever all jokes and fun but are we just gonna ignore his development???#im not a binghe apologist. maybe.#svsss#mxtx svsss#luo binghe#luo bingmei
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"We can get through this by working together, reach out to your friends, community is all we have, a social network will be your security in the world, now is the time to lean on others!"
I do agree, and it's scientifically sound (pretty sure there is data about how people with better social networks live longer and etc) but also....augh..... what about the severe social issues, difficulty to leave the house, physical issues which lead to like zero socialization energy a majority of the time, etc. etc. Social support can be a replacement for structural support, but.. I guess I just wish it didn't have to be. Community is extremely difficult to build, even moreso if you're someone who has issues with social cues or group conversations or even just being around others in the first place. And blah, nuance, of course I'm just complaining or maybe being too negative or maybe misunderstanding, but, I hardly have the energy to brush my hair once every 2 months.. how am I supposed to maintain a wide social network and be active in a Community and Join Groups lol... sometimes it kind of feels like "er.. well if thats my only option then...... ruh roh". It's overwhelming
#Kind of like some post I saw a long time ago talking about how even the meanest shittiest most difficult to get along with#elderly people or whaever still deserve to have some sort of systems in place to support them so they're not just relying on the#grace of relatives or etc. who may not be able to deal with them. Not saying that I'm like mean and cruel or anything#but the fact of the matter is in most social situations either I am compromising or the other person is. Not in like an ~`ouuu im so weirdd#nobody willever understand my quirky swagg hee heee~' way but like a.. Just factually the things that make me happy and comfortable#are often incompatible with people. The way I communicate and process things is different from the way other people do and that#is always a barrier. I cannot have ''easy''' interactions. Even with 'understanding' people there is nearly always a significant#amount of effort. You can't walk into a group of people and then be like ''okay you guys all have to wear#masks and you also cant play music too loud and also we should communicate turns of speaking very clearly so group conversations#arent too stressful. and also i need this and that and we have to do this and that and '' etc. etc. You CAN. And some people will#go along with that. but they will ALWAYS secretly resent you for it. You will be the one person they're relieved to not have to be around.#theyre glad when you dont show up since they can go back to doing things however they want and not masking and all these boring#annoying things. OR you can say none of that and just deal with the loud music and the talking and the unmasked people. but then#YOU'RE compromising. and no matter how nice they are it's exhausting to be around and youre just further alienated#while in the presence of people and uncofmrtoabel the whole time.#Which I'm not saying the only form of community is a group setting specificially but just giving that as an example lol#I just wish there were a better option than ''well learn to socialize normally or just suffer then'' . Which I know is not what people are#saying. I guess I just always feel a bit scared when 'community is the answer'. Since its not like 'oh im just socially anxious and need to#get out of my shell~!' or something thats really that remedy-able. It's like.. my mostly unchangeable physical health issues combined#with the mostly unchangable literal way that my brain processes sensory informationand other things means that interacting with#others in a normal and easy way is incredibly difficult and often exhausting especially to maintain in any longform fashion. So then#when it's like ''the answer to staying safe is to maintain longform social connections!! :3 just reach out!!'' then.. ermm... O_O#also I'm not even one of the cutesy shy emotional hermits that's nervous. I'm the Bad Stereotype emotionless robotic cold seeming#looms in the corner of the room type of thing so people have less pity on you in that way. -_- ANYWAY gghj#I need like.. a designated social representative or something.. When I did work in that bookshop forever ago they gave me a#person who basically was just with me to help communicate with others on my behalf and supervise me and stuff. I need that.. Some#more extraverted person I can latch onto and they can maintain the Social Support Network for me and I can just be their +1 to all#of the Social Things and community. I have helpful skills I can contribute to other people and stuff it's just like.. I cant socialize lol#I cook food or something for you.. then you keep me in contact with Community.. a deal. (but then what about when I'm too sick to#contribute? as is often the case. there's not much place for people like me in communities sometimes i fear.. sigh.) ***
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can russia and north korea just nuke us already this is hopeless
#sorry to be so fatalistic on main i just have zero faith in the american public atp#i just rly wanted to believe that more americans couldve used this opportunity to prove to the rest of the world that we arent all a bunch#of sensationalist/conspiracy-driven/aggressively braindead/violent/bigoted alt-right lunatics#& i never had much faith in kamala & walz to begin with obviously im incredibly cynical towards these status quo gatekeepers and the#downright impotence of the neoliberal democratic party#but this wouldve been an easy swerve away from dozens MORE of horrible awful inhumane policies that will ultimately vanquish#the quality of life for the entire american working class like myself and our already pisspoor education system and our lousy#climate change policies and impossible living standards#but no unfortunately there is no way in hell for americans to prove even a modicum of intelligence or worth we're all basically suicidal#and despite my own immense yank bashing tendencies and complete disdain for our government i really wanted this country & my ppl to defy#our own reputation of being so fucking stupid and backwards i really did. in the tiniest little place of my heart was legitimate hope#& a tiny bit of patriotism thats now been squashed completely & this was just another large-scale international humiliation that we legit#voted that guy BACK IN after everything that has happened the last four even eight years. its unbelievable.#again obviously i dont like kamala but it still wouldve been a grand opportunity to stall against what the gop is already destroying#and with push and shove we could have made slight progress forward as a country and try to protect our social programs#be it as flawed as they are and with enough support we could have strengthened them a little. make drugs less expensive. continue forward#with clean energy decreasing our use of fossil fuels even more.#protect our education system so the up and coming generations could receive higher standards of learning than what the rest of us had#NO ABSOLUTELY NOT. im too poor to continue living here and im too poor to fucking leave !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#SORRY THIS WAS EXTREMELY EXTREMELY EXTREMELY LONG THANK U FOR READING IF U DID MY BRAIN FEELS LIKE MUSH RIGHT NOW SO I DONT KNOW HOW#INTELLIGIBLE THIS MAY OR MAY NOT BE#and if this makes anyone mad @ all then ill just delete it cuz by god i dont need more grief and self hatred !#txt
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btw guys can we all just finally agree to stop making jokes about zato one being blind please im at my fucking limit can we just stop with trying to be funny about it. can we maybe think for like 3 fucking seconds before we make a joke about a characters blindness when the series itself loves to just conveniently forget about it and hand wave it away and make it a joke. please. im literally begging. like lets maybe think about why joking about him not actually being blind or haha isnt it so funny hes using a computer or whatever arent actually funny. i dont even like zato one dont make me be the guy to put my foot down and say this shit is annoying.
#every day i see something about zato that makes me so mad i feel like a teenage boy on xbox live but the jokes on his blindness r the worst#like. LOL. you arent funny. this sucks.#txt#sorry still fuming about something from earlier. and from yesterday. and from a few days before that.#<- ALL DIFFERENT THINGS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU ARENT FUNNY!#literally arent any better than the 20 year old comic compilation jokes.#what if i fucking microwaved you with my brain.
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i'm writing a speculative short story for this writing class i'm taking where a cleaning robot witnesses a bloody mutiny and its aftermath. (why? no clue, i just love the idea.) for a long time, i only knew what i wanted the robot to be named and just had placeholders for the humans involved, but yesterday i finally went in and gave them all names. and halfway through the naming game i had the VERY amusing (to me) thought of giving the ship officers all names of historical ship officers involved in deadly ship crashes that ended in cannibalism. (the mutiny that serves as the plot is based on a lack of food resources after their ship gets attacked lol.) so the ship's first officer is named fitzjames. i'm rubbing my hands together eagerly waiting to see who will expose themselves as terror fans in this class or if i'll get away with my easter eggs.
#liveblogging life#this story has lived in the back of my brain for MONTHS so im glad i'm finally pushing myself to finish it#as i was outlining it i was like 'oh. this one's actually pretty bleak whoops' ah well my angst demon is coming out i guess#i named all the other ship people after historical ship officers lmao it was pretty fun#also i'm doing this from the pov of the robot so like. all the fic prose is formatted as code#but i am not a programmer and do not even know basic coding language beyond like. html.#so as i'm writing i'm going: huh should i try to make this more like real life code?#but i think i'm falling on the same of a) i don't have the time to learn code before this story is due anyway and b)#if this is in a fake future it's possible code has shifted enough to look significantly different and c)#using real life code would likely make this story harder to read and the plot harder to follow and be too repetitive tbh#i'm also hoping there arent any comp programmers in this class who will call me out on my shitty completely fabricated code lmao#anyway i wrote a big chunk of this yesterday and i'm hoping to get the rest done this weekend so i can edit before submitting weds
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are you like a cinniter or reg c!Tommy apologist because I can never tell with your posts if you think c!Dream was obsessed with c!Tommy or not.
No offense you're not the first c!Tommy apologist I've asked.
c!tommy apologist but my best friend irl was a c!dream apologist so often I would hear all these different perspectives, so it put me in this grey area. I don't think c!dreams obsessed with c!tommy, however I think he enjoyed harming him and separating him from others as that was even said by ccdream not verbatim. And, I believe that narrative wise it makes a lot of sense that c!tommy would believe he was after him considering c!dream put that idea in c!tommys head so the idea of c!dream saying, "why do you think I am obsessed with you?" doesn't track, like this guy repeatedly made it out that he was targeting c!tommy. He should know why c!tommy believes he's after him.
Early days; even once their war is finished c!dream continues to try to get the discs and targets c!tommy despite other people causing more damage.
L'manberg era; he targets c!tommy over anyone else even over c!wilbur.
Pogtopia era; he gives c!tommy mars and despite claiming to hate chaos he destroys a building with c!tommy.
Exile era; despite this being off the back of c!tommy liking c!dream, c!dream still goes around the server destroying things with c!puffy then frames c!tommy for it with the goal of wanting everyone against c!tommy then later on he taunts c!tommy and provokes him then in actual exile he makes c!tommy dependent on him. At the end of it during l'manberg dying again he says 'you're just too fun' despite c!tommy wanting to move on.
Prison era; not only gets c!tommy stuck in prison with him, but also tries to bond with him like 'back in exile'
Break out era; chases c!tommy down with an axe claiming that he will kill and revive him over and over, later on has signs up of smiles and 'watch your back' further making it look like that he is tracking c!tommy down.
Like if you were in c!tommy position, you would 100 percent believe this guy was out to get you 24/7.
i wrote every instance here V
#ask#late reply sorry#dsmp#cprime derogatory lol#Im not looking at c!dreams reasons for doing these things#I'm looking at his actions#this is not saying c!tommy didnt have moments of going after c!dream#but a lot of his reasons for doing that was out of fear of cdream targeting him#which is mad cuz I'm sure c!dream might claim that the reason he targeted c!tommy was because c!tommy targeted him#so now its just a loop#i have so much more to say aobut this but the words arent wording from my brain so thats all
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in my hc Chongyun's parents are kinda mild. He has the "only child with many many cousins and extended family members" vibe and I think shenhe's release also supports that—exorcist clan with random branch families people didn't know about etc.
I also think his parents honestly wouldn't be super toxic about the yang energy thing idk. not sure how yang imbalance works in traditional xianxia besides that you can become an immortal by cultivating enough of it. They probably found out pretty early on and like just decided they'll see how it goes and support him through it.
important questions to consider when coming up w this hc:
does chongyun consider this a disability? (could see both ways—it certainly sounds like it fundamentally affects his life enough, but he could also view it as just an inconvenience/a bad challenge that he must overcome in order to achieve his goals)
do his parents? (also probably not lol) do they consider it a blessing tho?? not sure yet
how much guidance did they give him in managing his condition when he was growing up? (imo: a bunch of thick medicine books on managing the body, a map of the qi meridians in the human body and ways to increase yin, but they didn't treat it like something he was at fault for )
how much of chongyun's belief in "Exorcism uses thaumaturgy and martial arts to conquer evil. There are other means to the same end, but they are not the true way" is from his clan and how much is from himself—being someone who is diligent and seems to value work
my thoughts aren't quite fleshed out but I think they probably treated him like any normal kid wrt training and martial practice, with the sentiment that "your yang energy doesn't give you an excuse to slack off in sparring or training". could've led to his view of anything besides "real exorcism" as illegitimate
How do his parents or clan feel about his exorcism technique and the fact that he hasn't seen a spirit?????????????????? depending on their attitude a lot of mental complexes about this could be created
also i feel like theyre rather traditional, and combined with cy's ig honest? straightforward? idk uprighteousness i suppose, i dont think he's imagined a way of doing things outside of the standard method of talismans + spirit wards that his clan uses until xingqiu suggested his way. xingqiu's entire choice of secretly becoming a wuxia hero instead of devoting himself to the family business is also a p big contrast to cy
#oh my god this was a word vomit bc my own thoughts arent clear. and even tho this was supposed to flesh him out in my brain#i'm still not sure of many things#people who do have thoughts feel free to chime in#interesting that the liyue 6ang's parents are all mentioned somewhere or another#eg xiang.ling xing.qiu and hu.tao (grandpa) yun.jin's dad (i think) and xin.yan (from 2.8 GAA event domain)#cy exorcist lore when#chongyun#genshin impact#teyvat thoughts
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#character here is (yet AGAIN) reinhardt from branch-wdk53#art#ik it was said wrist cutter isnt fitting but ough the art potential#shrimply cant resist drawing blood. its so fun#enjoy the abyss!#cant really remember my reasoning for this outside of banger design; very fun to draw#but something something into the abyss#and well. points to the lack of feeling. tbh i think i overuse it with things like this but man there is so much potential in it#the dissociative disorder W as i call it#my ideas arent very defined and again wc isnt truly fitting of reinhardt#but slaps some thoughts here:#'Only when it is sliced as if one were simply cutting a mere slab of meat can they achieve this.'#'The blood is always kept in equilibrium; it never overflows. Only despair can be found in its sunken depths.'#really all of this goes back to: s/hing just to feel something#and the nothingness itself; go far down enough and you reach a void - nothing#over time and repeated attempts it gets duller as scars compile. it doesnt give you any feeling anymore. it all just becomes nothing#so hm#in genuine consideration i feel like reinhardt wouldnt s/h bc of the clear logic in the way of 'there are way better solutions than this'#but its fun to think about it ig! and plus the design goes hard i couldnt not draw it#blood on pristine white >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>#......yknow every single time i draw reinhardt i have so much to say about him#no 1 blorbo of all time. hes literally in my brain now
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right so, summer term is in less than a week and in the words of another tumblr post, this is for the wiggles; i need to get this out of my system before i implode. enjoy :)
greetings yall. this is essentially a list of my current ocs that live their own lives in their respective universes in the back of my mind. ill start out with a list and expand elsewhere later to avoid overwhelmingness
i will update this with links to individual oc fact files and posts in the future inshallah
・゚*.・゚✧ .・゚*・゚
✧ le fandoms and their respective established characters as of writing:
harry potter: anisa (tbc)
percy jackson: Hilal
the apothecary diaries: Maymuna
demon slayer: Siham
my hero academia: yamama (tbc)
✧ fandoms ive dabbled in that dont have established characters (yet):
spy x family
bungo stray dogs
hunter x hunter
the anne shirley serires
detective conan
inuyasha
the addams family
more that ive temporarily forgotten lol
✧ fandoms that dont get ocs for various reasons :
hamilton and other musicals
real life people (i find it weird)
childhood favourites like movies, shows, etc. (like tmnt, coraline, disney princesses, spacetoon classics like romeos blue skies...)
please kindly note that the way my hyperfixations work in terms of fandoms is that when i come across said fandom, i obsessively read every wiki page in existence and watch compilations and scour the interwebs for memes and sometimes fics, and proceed to avoid (for reasons unbeknownst to me) actually consuming the media itself (original books or its adapted versions). i believe its because i dont have the capacity to be emotionally attached to new characters and suffer, but whos to say :P
also note that these characters are in many ways inspired from my own experiences and i occasionally draw from people and places im familiar with, so in instances where things 'wouldnt work' for whatever reason, (firstly im aware, hence their existence) remember that these are works of fiction, and that with the right writing (mostly) anything works. and creative liberties mwahahaha >:)
this is one of the reasons this blog exists; for me to dump the contents of my mind to make way for other (hopefully more useful) stuff, so if u stumble on here feel free to partake (as per the guidelines stated in the pinned post), otherwise move on. this before anything else is for me and my amusement, i wont be catering to anyones interests.
this post and its contents is sponsored and made possible by maladaptive daydreaming and my other less than healthy coping mechanisms :)
me @ this post
#oc galore#yay i did it#this is going to be fun#and also emotionally draining#whatcha gonna do#ngl it does feel a lil vulnerable to have my children in the wild#but i trust they will thrive in their new homes#with their found families#bc it is *the* best trope#shoutout to whoever wrote the spacetoon list of programs wikipedia page complete with airing dates thank u for ur service#i just found out the difference between oc and persona#welp#im still calling them ocs becasue they arent me#although i read personas arent self insert theyre just versions of the authors identities personified (abridged)#im using oc bc they are fully fleshed characters where i as the writer benefit from my background and experiences to make them come to life#yes literally all of them are middle eastern hijabis#but thats because i want the representation lol#thats where the similarities end#hopefully#because i havent written anything since 2014#oc#looking forward to see how my writing grows :)#if u see typos no u didnt#my brain is melting
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he wasnt my father in law bc he was my sibling's but oh man. i miss the guy. i didnt get to see him a bunch but i really enjoyed what time i did have and get to know him. damn man this sucks.
#something happened to his heart. from a low risk surgery. god man it hurts. thats not fair. thats just not fair at all.#vent.txt#i cant think about it too hard i feel like i dont have the right to feel so upset but i just do. and it makes me think so much of what#happened with my dad even though it's very different circumstances. just the suddenness of it all. severe brain damage. life support.#hurts hurts hurts a lot to think about it. it's not fair. it's not fair that ppl who arent ready to die just die. in such unfair ways.
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#(( ooc. ))#.... so#if youre wondering why ive been so absent lately. ots bc im dealing with stuff like that. on top of handling everytuing around the house#and additional super stressful family drama#health scares caused by stress#the works. i feel like im a constant state of mindfuckery and i have been since we moved#thoght things would improve after getting away from MIL but apparently not#ive been so exhausted and stressed and pain has bee. spiking so bad#im really trying to be here bc writing has always been a calming thing for me like a fun distracting hobby#to get my mind off irl things but everytime i open up a reply i start crying#bc the words arent there and im too tired to even tupe bc im running myself ragged#and on top of that im dealing with hubby and whatever the f is up with him and the weird#180s he does where 1 second hes the sweetest most attentive guy ive ever known and the 2nd#im crying and apologizing for doing sometjing weong and i dont even inderstand what i did but hes upset at me#and somethings suddenly my fault#or im begging him for help around the apartment or smth#idk. i am really trying to be here i swear i am. i miss you all. i miss the stories we're writing together#i miss by bbys and wanna weite with them bc theyve been loud and active but i iust cant type what i want to#a single paragraph is taking me hours to get out no joke#idk. sprry for dumping all this on the dash out of nowhere im just kinda flailing right now and offkilter#gonna head off to bed and see if an actual good nights sleep for the first time in a week helps with my brain and makes things make sense#hope you all have a goodnight. sorry again for this#negative tw#negativity tw#venting tw#personal tw
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don’t mind me, being cringe on main (there are some dlc spoilers here)
...this is. an outer wilds taco truck au
why? Brain is Bad
It’s Outer Wilds Tacos and Outer Wilds Mechanics- despite the names on paper they’re unrelated businesses. Slate owns/is the primary mechanic for the Mechanics. They’re usually pretty busy, but they do all the work on the taco trucks. Esker is their secondary mechanic (when that gets too busy) or the cashier/phones/general ‘I’m here what do you want’ person. They used to help out with the taco trucks, but since the trucks have gotten more people they’re not called on to help as much anymore they’re not lonely sh
Feldspar and Gossan co-founded Outer Wilds Tacos and generally run a truck together. They’ve gotten a lot more popular than they planned, so they’ve expanded a little- they have a few trucks now a days. Gabbro was the first helper- they’re a professor at Local University (...college town) (Physics and philosophy, both) and they’re part time with the trucks for weed money. You cannot call Gabbro to come in on a day off. They are either at their day job or probably stoned.
Chert was next- they work at the local observatory outside of town, and they’re part time for extra cash. Riebeck is a full time archeology student at Local University and full time with the trucks to help pay for that. Hatchling is newest hire, they’re full time while they figure their life out.
Hornfels is a part time astronomy professor, but also is kinda the manager for both Outer Wilds businesses- they do all the payrolls, orders, shifts, booking appointments for everything, all that. Slate Esker and Gossan can (and will) handle that but Hornfels is good with numbers and they’re happy to let them do most of the heavy lifting.
Hal is at Local University and working at a library both; they start frequenting the taco trucks when Hatchling starts working.
Porphy runs ‘Sap,’ a brewery with a huge wine list, and a frequent Outer Wilds Tacos spot; the truck’s there four days out of the week generally, and Gossan’s always there. Both of them think no one has noticed them flirting. Everyone has noticed they’re flirting. No one wants to say anything. Someone put together a ‘this taco goes best with this wine’ menu specifically for Sap days.
(After talking about it with Friend Feef on and off all day) The Nomai run franchised food trucks- I do think their name would just be ‘Greek Food’ but that’s what they sell. It’s really good, though, and they tend to have a bunch of vegetarian options. And really good baklava. One of their more popular items is ‘Eye of the gyro-verse’ which, among the normal ingredients, has whole olives on it. If there’s an even with a bunch of food trucks someone from Outer Wilds will be sent over to the Nomai truck with tacos to trade for a gyro and baklava.
The Owlks (mostly) run hot dog carts with tons of available toppings- Stranger Sausages- that people think is a front for something. They never go under, despite never making a lot of visible sales. They also seem to take ‘vegetarian options’ as a threat, but they do generally have something. Despite the name and overall demeanor, the sausages are high quality.
The Prisoner runs their own buisness- like, a drive in movie theater type thing. It started perking up once Outer Wilds Tacos started working there once a week- they’re doing better than the hot dog carts now.
Finally, Outer Wilds Tacos has a signature dessert taco- waffle cone shaped like a taco shell, chocolate, toasted marshmallows. Optionally ice cream (...Feef is gonna make that, and tell me how it tastes). Getting those is Porphy’s excuse for wandering over every half hour when it’s slow.
#Poisonhemloc’s rambles#outer wilds#i did not proofread this#...this is due to a tumblr post and a fall out boy song and. ya know. happens.#if you see me on the discord. and want to talk. feel free to ping me this is all my brain will focus on rn#extra notes down here- Feldspar and Gossan are still half siblings. With this au Porphy is now Gabbros younger sibling#just for the au you understand. Gossan still lost an eye- Feldspar was in a coma for a while from the same accident (brake issues#not Slates fault but that doesnt stop the blame for a while)#My hatchling starts as a new hire and then becomes Gabbros new roommate/tenant#...also. if theyre hearthians? all good. if they arent. no one is cisgender. i wrote down everything but this is getting too long so
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