#these are just things that give me gender envy
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Gender Envy
#it's just been one of those days yk#tw gender dysphoria#ftm#ftm dysphoria#ftm gender envy#pretty much everything found on pintrest or reddit#apart from the trans flag#found that on wiki lol#transgender#trans#these are just things that give me gender envy#they aren't inherintly “guy things”#I just feel like for me I could do them if i were cis#and i probably will do them#but hey#i guess i'll have to just wait and see#eyestrain cw#I want to look like this so bad
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when bitches bring up Donnie Darko and now everyone knows you’re autistic 😔
#donnie darko#jake gyllenhaal#donnie darko 2001#donnie darko movie#donnie darko x reader#favorite movies#movies#best movie ever#autism things#Im extremely autistic about stuff#especially Donnie darko idk#it’s just such a good movie and Jake Gyllenhaal gives me gender envy#i want to be Pilot Kelson and Donnie Darko
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At this point I think my ideal gender presentation would be to look transfem butch-esque. Idk is that weird to say lol? Asking for y'all's point of view on this.
I don't wanna demean transfem transitions since, well, this is a transmasc speaking here. I just really like how a lot of more androgynous transfem people look. Like the general silhouette, the way clothes fit on them, the way they do makeup (if they wear any) and how their hair looks when they've just grown it out. It looks really cool to me. I'm an androgyne/multigender/??? and the fem part of me aches to look like That. I would be so much more comfortable with the Woman™ side of my gender if I did...
#I'm not talking about like. feminine trans women just starting on their transition#Though you all look awesome too!!!!! That's just not the specific presentation that gives me envy lol#Also I don't want to imply all transfems look androgynous for obvious reasons#My brain only goes ''Woahhh...'' when they're like obviously fucking with gender..#Wearing a she/her pin with unshaved stubble and a biker jacket. That sorta thing#Idk. (kicks rock) Lmk what y'all think#transfem#transgender#trans#transfeminine#brain slop
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thinking about them..
#(effiebarty)#thinking about sugar mommy effie and pretty little thing barty#thinking about barty reading aloud to effie when they’re taking a bath#her scratching his scalp#thinking about effie buying rare book editions for him#giving him his own space in her library#thinking about effie cooking for barty and him absolutely not helping but hanging off of her the entire time like a piece of jewelery#thinking about him setting the table and doing the dishes#thinking about him lounging around in her house with boxers and a crop top that says ’i love milfs’#thinking about effie taking barty shopping and him playing dress up for her#thinking about him kneeling infront of effie as a sign of devotion#im so weak for them…#barty in effiebarty is just me projecting my gender envy and attraction for older Tall women#effie is taller than barty btw#they have matching robes#she feeds him chocolate dipped strawberries in the bathtub and he licks her fingers#she washes him in the shower#THEM…..#him sitting on the kitchen island dangling his legs trying to look seductive while effie makes breakfast#effiebarty#effie potter#barty crouch jr
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i want the same kinda genderfuckity energy that hermie has. the RANGE of this guy. dorky awkward nerd to sassy girly bitch to silly devious creature. i like to think of his gender as "genderfluid but in a fake way" and tbh me too
#copying from my insta story again lol#but do u get what i mean#like treating gender just like a fun little show to put on and not a real thing#this stupid theater kid gives me such bad gender envy i am shaking him like a ragdoll#hermie the unworthy#dndads#siren says
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omgg lol [guy who won't stop going "more like scapeGOATED" voice] now hold! on!! lmao [same guy just saw encanto voice] Hold on!!!
#& [it might be 5am but i'll still see if i can draw some] trackpad homemade reacts. inhales & hands to head/face x9 then walking off#site giving pretty random Suggested assortment there where i was like oh right sure. prob not tumblr keywords captures lmaooo#(plus happened to have it open in firefox) but my god Not the scapegoated literal seers lmfao. whoooo. my god#also it was just really good anyways like right nice. damn#the (queerrr) seerrr the perceiverrr the truth tellerrr the ruinerrr the scapegoat be-errr the internalizerrr the neurodivergerrr#& now i Know there is 0% chance ppl weren't putting ''always a gay cousin or it's you (avuncular edition)'' in that thing#family tree design not even leaving space for the hypothetical kids of this relative we mostly pretend is nonexistent hmm#also that necessarily. it's giving all intents & purposes Disability abt a dozen ways & it's saying [accept that] vs [we'd better fix him]#you don't cite said [it's giving disability] as part of the We All Hate The Horrible Little Freak scapegoating justification & then be like#''actually we don't have to do that anymore b/c he's sooo normal :)'' or not if you're serious about [don't scapegoat your family] anyways#which like oh ok they Are serious so The Weirdo's scapegoating / casting out / lack of support Isn't justified#so he's still weird & you just gotta get over that b/c otherwise. bye. having a natural rat affinity is such a slay btw#& we've all been there like ''you NEVER want two scapegoats talking it's Over if they do'' + littlest kid is like um. they're the best#plankton voice Correct! inhale i'm so impressed like. getting to go ''finally someone Normal'' (serious abt letting someone Be Weird(tm))#which also always counts as like mm hard time suggesting someone's Not queer & also autistic for a start lmao. an award#adding in suggested layers like talking to oneself; talking Oddly / w difficulty; physical uncoordination; rituals ; acting; animal friend#the layer of ''& all that's fine? like?'' again rather than him ever suppressing or even changing it so far as it's suggested#besides that it's observed as Weird like but so? or else what? nonrhetorical: hostility / rescinded support & driving someone off is what?#& that Truth like the [worse treatment / exclusion / scapegoat] oft recipe for someone giving the support they're not getting themself#again Never let the [ppl both experiencing this] talk oh it's So over. or the child who's all i like family support & kindness actuallyy...#obviously also like the complete opposite of billions. knowing what they're about & letting this Just As Beloved crucial guy be So Weird#but billions Also [hmm feels right for our scapegoated guy to Perceive / Tell Truths / openly want/need & then be hurt] now get his ass#anyway [guy who could always go way on could go way on but only has thirty tags & it's 6am & i still mean to try some drawing] voice#remarkable amt of So True & ''it feels like ppl on the same page w/exactly what they're doing are all behind this''#remarkable amount of concentrated My God That Is So A Slay located in bruno all at once. what a gift#sticking to ''sometimes someone In Your Group is Weird. Disabled. deal'' firmly enough there's no ;) oh u can bet we'll Fix Him in the end#everyone always assumes the worst so....me when i'm [always as a kid yearning for Living In Secret Passages]. emile gtmpota?#oh congrats to whatever rando who will be having his dramatic gay reunion w/bruno just out of frame obviously. i perceive#now imagine if That rando was....emile gtmpota! what a crossover event. haunting4haunting. do i have enough tags for this lmao. yea#& having 1 more tag to say: as though the [endless serving] isn't enough bruno's also as close to gender envy as it gets. incl rats; sure
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Ash. Ash we might be getting another friend to watch godkiller rpg :3
YOOOOOO!!!!!
also i just met someone today who's heard of it.... screaming
#my ass has been DEVOURING chaos protocol.#like. six episodes in two days#just MUNCH MUNCH MUNCHIN#rgghdhhh it's so good...#I'd started it a while back but dropped it bc i gor fixated on another thing.#but now it's back babeyyyy#just. ughhhhhh valiant and cai both give me SO MUCH GENDER ENVY#seir not so much#xainan YEAH#it's odd#also Connie......#they give me SO MUCH ENVY#ughhhh#and samm is just. ughhh i want to PAINT HER#like i want to put the silky softness of her voice into a bottle and keep it on a locket#not like *steal* it but have it with me all the time yo#*yk#ash answers#azurecake16#transplanar rpg#GOD#the chaos protocol#godkiller: last hope
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yk what would be great. being able to know like objectively and definitely what you were feeling at any given time
#like.#i would love to be able to just be completely certain abt stuff#like ‘i definitely have a crush on my friend’ or ‘my friend definitely gives me gender envy’ or ‘i definitely have a squish on them’ etc#hate hate loathe detest not knowing exactly what i feel abt sth#all those like queer books where they have like their little relationships with all the blurred lines and its like in between platonic#and romantic or like its its own third thing?#thats great. thats lovely for them#but me personally#i want to know What I Am Feeling#not a vent#rambling
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I see your true colors shining through, I see your true colors, and that's why I love you...~
Yeah, I know, Pride Month is already half over, but anyway. This is obviously a rather personal post; I know labels can be important to other people. It's just, I'm at a point where anything more specific than queer doesn't quite cut it, so it's like whatever. I dunno shit.
Also, I wanted to draw rainbow squiggles :3
#Happy Pride y'all 🌈#feeling queer about this#I'm a person with a severe case of gender non-phoria living in a world where most of my friends have gender envy#and keep telling me 'this is so gender' and 'I want their gender' and I. Just. Don't. Get it.#so. I guess *perhaps* female? perhaps not? *maybe* aro? *somewhere* on the ace spectrum? how tf would I know??#there are changes I want but mainly things I couldn't give less of a fuck about#and I hate feeling Lacking(TM) bc I have zero desire to dress in a more interesting way or experiment with make-up#or cut my hair#or wear this or that jewelry#just as I don't wanna be told that I'm Less Than(TM) for not trying to find out if I like people That Way#siblings under the rainbow#my drawing
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Adding Richard to the list of characters whose hair I love to draw, alongside Mikleo and Archie Dandelion
#i 💜 bishie hair it's so floofy!!!!!!!!!#they give me gender envy even tho my hair is lowkey like that already#so maybe it's just more like gender affirmation#but it's not about gender either it's just presentation. is presentation affirmation a thing?#dolphin noises#most of the dolphin noises i make while drawing said hair involve chanting the words 'prettyboy' rapidly#which is actually a reference to youtuber CallMeKevins LP of a wrestling game where he made a custom character whose name was Pretty Boy(x4)#oh god adhd im shutting up now
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Was stimming so hard I genuinely worried I managed to break my own neck for a second
#my back hurts now >:'(#anyways ive been feeling a special kind of mentally ill the past few days#as if spending $200 on sims 4 expansion packs doesnt say enough#BUT GUYS I USED TO BE SUCH A HORSE GIRL WHEN I WAS LITTLE AND THEY HAVE HORSES NOW AND MY INNER CHILD GOES YEAAAAAAAAAHHHHHH#*deep breath* dont make this about sims *more deep breaths* no sims no horses#I OWN A FFUFUCKING RANCH YALL IT REMINDS ME SO MUCH OF WHEN I WAS LITTLE#the horses! they are SO pretty!#sim 3 is still my baby though 4 is just a side bitch ✋🙄#tried to move everything to steam so i deleted origin and then... had to download it again#I FUCKING HATE ORIGIN RAAAAAAHHHHH#im feeling so very hmmnnhggnrggg#shitpost#shitposting#stimming#stimblr#forgive my tags i dont really explore much of Tumblr#i come to the restaurant and the menu is all tags for my hot elven boys i either crush on or get severe gender envy from#my dash is seriously just cats and elves and im not about to go change that okay#augh i have no idea what to tag this#like stimming is a thing for a lot of disorders and while i probably have some of them and just haven't been diagnosed i dont wanna give off#the impression that im part of that “community”#but hey im a real hit with autistic ppl apparently since pretty much all of my old friends were autistic and we all vibed good#probably just means im somewhere on the spectrum too considering one of them initially approached me BECAUSE they thought i was autistic#them: hey i know this might sound offensive but i mean this nicely. are you autistic too?#me with two chew necklaces in my mouth rubbing my feet on the carpet trying to focus and failing miserably: fuck if i know#look ive grown up with autistic ppl my whole life so ive never really thought to research. its just been... a normal thing to me?#so i dont know a lot but i do know either i fit the critera or ive just subconsciously snatched traits from my childhood bestie#the amount of times I've been asked if i am autistic though is... well its certainly made me notice my behaviors more#and WOW have the rants in tags seriously derailed today#i love writing in tags its like a little secret message for little secret tag readers
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I want to state, for the record: Julian Kostov is so fucking gorgeous it makes me self-conscious.
#I mean this in the most respectful way possible#Also I mean this lightheartedly#But Julian Kostov the man that you are#HE IS SO FUCKING PRETTY AND FOR WHAT#I AM GOING TO BE SO ANNOYING WHEN MW3 COMES OUT#BECAUSE IM GOING TO BE TWITLING MY HAIR AT THE SCREEN#HOW QUICKLY CAN I GET A HAIRCUT AND DRESS LIKE MAKROV FOR HALLOWEEN TO APPRECIATE HIM#BECAUSE HE’S ALSO GIVING ME SOME SERIOUS GENDER ENVY#I am looking at him with so much respect in my eyes#Not an inappropriate thought in sight#He is just#So fucking handsome and pretty and gorgeous#I just#I needed to say that out loud#ALSO#ANOTHER THING#BECAUSE IM FUCKING CRAZY#Have you seen that man’s smile?#That shit gives me butterflies I swear to god#AGAIN#RESPECTFULLY#And not to infantilize the man because that’s not what I mean#But FUCKING LORD IN HEAVEN#HE ALSO WENT TO THE FUCKING AZORES???#MY FAMILY IS FROM THERE#THIS IS A MAN AFTER MY OWN HEART WITHOUT KNOWING IT#FUCK#SOMEONE DATE ME SO I STOP BEING SO DELUSIONAL#Julian Kostov#Юлиан Костов
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#gonna ramble in the tags here cause i need to vent somewhere and twitter seems too personal for some reason idk#but man arsene gives me such intense gender envy every single time#and todays video was just So Much#like to the point where i added the song of his video to my gender envy playlist and am now listening to french songs and nearly crying#i just wanna be a pretty boy#but like i want to be one when im 18 and be like a young person growing up and having friends and makign music and dancing#and going to parties anf concercerts and just exist yk#and like i could still do that i guess but it doesnt feel the same and it feels inaccesible#and im just mourning something ive never had and never will because time only goes in one direction#and actually scratch the nearly crying i am properly crying now#why are things and i#i need a post for general ramblings
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Yes my womanhood is extremely important to me. Yes I get gender envy every time I see a moderately masc gay man. I contain multitudes
#hashtag just butch things#actually im pretty happy with my gender & expression right now but my best friend who is a gay man still gives me insane gender envy#i just want to be a butch lesbian who is a gay man who is a butch lesbian!! sigh
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maybe one day he/she will make a comeback. just maybe
#the way i want people to refer to me is always entirely dependent on how i. look? 😭#being genderfluid sucks and also rules like wdym it just changes. dude i don’t know#i’m impartial to they#pronoun order is almost entirely just to be perceived correctly 😭#they forward is like Hey i’m not. a dude btw. but i definitely do prefer he from people who don’t know me#so he forward usually takes precident#i think if i ever get top surgery suddenly she would be like. fine?? gang i don’t know#i mean she IS already fine in certain contexts. i definitely prefer it at work at least#like again it’s all a perception thing#pronouns to me are a form of expression rather than identity. how i ‘look’ and how i’m ‘referred to’ are both tied to how people perceive me#yk#so prns are sort of ‘part of the look’ in a sense?#whatever’s going on in this brain of mine is between me and whoever’s been unfortunate enough to hear me try to explain it LMAO#anyway. all this to say i’m getting gender envy from women again#universe give me one useless magical ability to let my hair be any length i want to to be Pleeeease please please Please#me and wigs are just not compatible sorry#that and its not really just about how *other* people see me i also just. want to Have It sometimes#just to myself#you know?#sometimes i want hair that falls right past my shoulders. real bad#but it’s usually more of a fleeting thing#more often i want it about how it is? a little longer if i can ever learn to maintain it but#sigh#i talk about my hair too much but it really is kind of integral to my identity and presentation#like when my hair isn’t cooperating i don’t get upset bc i look bad i get like. really violently dysphoric it’s wild
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on going gender revelations.... stay tuned for results...
#ive identified as a version of nonbinary for like 5 years but never really settled on a sublable bc i didnt want/feel the need to#then settled on genderfluid because yk gender is fluid#but i was talking with my cousin about general queer stuff and she asked about it bc ive got my pronouns in my instagram bio#and so i had to say my reasonings out loud for the first time in like years#and just wow#yeah idk it helped a lot#like i know how i feel and how i like to present#gender is a thing that is done To me#im like a clay blob someone could go hmmm could be a vase and make me into the shape of a vase but really id still be a clay blob#the mobius strip gives me gender envy#nico's thoughts
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