#these 4 are on my mind forever and always

[emo-nova]

Jedi?

A tragedy that I will forever think about for a very long time.

If we completely disregard everything Palp says, and look at what Jedi do and say and even some of Anakin's line in AOTC about how they operate. You see that their unconditional love of life and balance is that of very mindful people.

Such as the idea of not acting in anger or ill will is something as someone of faith struggles with at times because emotions are messy and never going to be fully conculsive. But the Jedi are about doing what you can to deal with your actions, Jedi doubt but they still want to learn so they can make sure that they understand all sides. Take the scene of Phantom Menace where the Council are doubtful of Jinn's claim before meeting Anakin but still give him a chance as to explain and see for themselves as to make the correct judgement.

It may appear harsh to a child, but as an adult, you can see that they want to make sure that Anakin can have the best outcome given the circumstance that the Council is privy to. The Council ask Anakin how he feels, and Anakin takes this as an attack on his person because he was raised to keep everything appearing fine as to not be caught by his master. His anger at the question and his attempts to hide his emotions is what worries the Council. As a child, I viewed this scene as adults not being fair. But as an adult with more context, I can say they were seeing if Anakin would fair well with them.

The Jedi are aware of their emotions and frequently make sure to feel them, process them and then let them ease. Fear, anger and hate are not avoidable but they can be managed if you understand that acting within them does not help you. Anakin unable to vocal his problems with fear is shown in how he lashes out in anger to not be pressed on it. As a Jedi, as a teacher or mediator being heavily part of their culture, his inability to manage it or vocalise it is a concerning trait that they are unsure will be fixed with time with them.

The Jedi can help better those who want it rather than help someone who refuses they need it. This is something I see a lot in the prequels, and in the OG, they are always ready to help. Their help, in fact, instilled hope in the foundations of the Rebellion. The politicians, Bail, Mon Mothma, Riyo Chuchi to name a few, understood that the Jedi were figures and individuals that aided those.

You see it in the OG Star Wars Film, Episode 4, that the Rebel meeting ends with "May the Force be with you" a very Jedi farewell. It in fact made me cry when I rewatched the film, as you could see on my blog. But you can see it in the symbols of the Rebels being a reconfigured Jedi Symbol, the wings and the star moved up.

In the end, the action of taking in Anakin. Obi-wan's act of duty to master and child, something that could be easily disallowed by the Council but they allowed it. Backfired on them. They taught this child, then teenager then man, that they are encouraged to love, unconditionally to those that could labour ill will to them. They died by a betrayal that stung so deep. Not just because Anakin was the Chosen One. But because that was their friend, classmate, possible tutor and helped around.

The children saw him and saw safety. But he killed them. Those children in a similar position to him as a child, before an adult asking for direction and only be met with a gruesome end.

The tragedy of the Jedi is that their kindness and their way, of going down with their principles was their downfall. They tried to help the clones by not resisting the draft as to make sure the clones weren't subjected to unfair Admirals, they tried to make sure that they could help the planets they were stationed on as much as they could in their stay, they tried to keep eachother up when there was so much death. It was all difficult and a few slipped through the cracks because they couldn't be everywhere at once. And the amount of Jedi dying was happening at such a high number that the council wasn't the same number it was at the beginning of Phantom Menace. And that as before Order 66.

In the end, the Galaxy lost the Jedi Order and the Jedi Order died the way they lived. Hopeful and trusting. After it all, the rebellion had some Jedi around, such as Ahsoka, Kannan, and Erza, doing what the Jedi before them did. Helping those who needed it.

I haven't watched Andor but I've seen a few talk about the lack of Jedi showed how much the Galaxy needed the Jedi. So I will leave that comment at that.

But my god, I love the Jedi.

[leaawrites]

Later

Lando Norris x fem!reader

Summary: part 2 to Now Or Never

Warnings: angst, fluff, I hate this but anyway...

Wordcount: 1.2k

Masterlist, F1 Masterlist

The lights were already bleeding together as she stepped into the club Lando had told her to meet him at. The music could be heard from outside the venue, but inside it was deafening. Loud club classics coming from where the DJ was standing above the crowd and every speaker that was scattered across the room.

Near the entrance, Lando was waiting with a drink ready for her. Greeting her with a hug that lingered a second longer than casual. His voice already drooping a bit as he guided her to where the others were waiting.

"I've got this for ya," he said, giving her the drink in hand. "Max said yer liked it." His British accent becoming clearer with the alcohol. "We're this way."

Taking her hand in his, they pushed through the crowd, Lando stopping all too often to greet someone or take in their congratulations on the good season. Introducing her with her full name.

"She's the reason I look good in the media," he'd say, pulling her into his side with a smile plastered on his face.

Heat coming over her when his lips grazed the top of her head.

"I'm only telling what's true," she answered then, making him laugh to the point he doubled over.

Walking further into the room Lando now had his arm wrapped around her shoulders, keeping her close as he made sure she safely stayed by his side.

"Look who's made it for once," Max said, standing up from his place next to Kelly to greet her.

"Hello, Mr. 4 times World Champion," she greeted him back, gratefully accepting the hug he initiated.

"You're gonna put in a good word for me after what I've read so far?" He asked, pulling back and sitting back down. Arm wrapped around Kelly's shoulders.

"Always," she answered, trying to walk over to the empty places on the couch. Her movement stopping by Lando’s fingers tightening around her hand, pulling her back towards him again.

"What about me?" He asked, already feeling left out. A pout on his face. Big, wide blown pupils looking at her, his bottom lip slightly sticking out.

"As if I ever talk bad about you," she said back, patting his shoulder in assurance. Her hand quickly flying up to cradling his cheek. Fingers tracing over his jaw. Taking a sip from the glass he gave her at the start of the night.

That's how the night went on, filled with drinks, talking and lingering touches that should mean less than they did. His hands on her waist as they danced to the vibrating music, his breath against her skin as he leaned closer to her ear for her to understand him, her head head on his shoulder and her legs thrown over his lap as the night started to wear her out.

"You wanna go back?" Lando asked, drawing shapes on her hip where his hand laid.

"No, just a tired phase, I'll get over it in a bit and be wide awake and then you'll have to put up with my hyper-active for another few hours," she said, slurring her words more than one does at a decent amount of alcohol in their system.

"I wouldn't mind that, you know?" Lando said, his eyes flying over her face, down to her lips. "Forever."

His eyes stayed fixated, not noticing the way her eyes lost the tired look in them. But he noticed the corners of her lips moving down into a frown.

"What do you mean?" She asked, sitting up straighter. His hand slipping from her waist down on the leather of the couch.

"Nothing." Looking away from her, he moved his body further towards the wall next to them. The side of her body that was pressed against his suddenly falling cold. Like dead skin.

"Lando," she started, his eyes not looking at her but the liquid swirling in his glass. "I wanna go home."

Nodding his head, he stood up without another word,walking towards the exit of the club, saying his goodbyes, checking that she was always behind him. Close enough to keep her safe, far enough away to not touch her by accident.

The air outside was cold, the neon lights not keeping them warm like they used to on other occasions. People were still lining up at the entrance to the place they just left.

Walking side by side, the hotel they stayed in was just 15 minutes away.

Watching him walk in front of her she knew that it wasn't nothing he had to say. It was obvious by walking past him. Kicking rocks under his feet, his hands shoved in his pockets, sunglasses pulled over his glass-like eyes.

Taking a few quick steps to catch up with him,she slipped her hand into his, pulling him back under the streetlight, bright neon lights all around them.

"What was that inside?" She asked, not letting him pull away from her grip.

"A party. People were dancing and drinking like us," he answered the obvious. Still not looking up from his shoes.

Rolling her eyes at his answer, she tried being more specific with her question. She knew how good he was at dodging questions, she'd seen it happen all too often. It just never happened to her. "What did you mean when you said 'forever'?"

"Nothing," he said again, seemingly sobering up quick enough to organize his thoughts. "Just a slip up."

"What kind of slip up?" She asked again, not letting him turn away. "Lando, just tell me what you wanted to say. It can’t be that bad. I know the worst people say about you, what could possibly be so bad you can’t tell me?"

Taking in a deep breath, he finally looked at her. All too aware that she wouldn't let loose until she had an answer that satisfied her. One that was the truth. It was her job after all.

"I thought about, since we're in Vegas and all, that if I somehow didn’t lose the championship, I'd ask you to marry me," he confessed, his thumb drawing circles over her hand. Eyes widening at his answer, he continued talking, "It was just a drunk thought I had whenever I couldn’t think straight, don’t think much of it."

"Lando, I barely know you outside of interviews."

"It's insane I know, stop thinking about it." Trying to walk once more, he tried ignoring the small smile pulling on her lips.

"Lando," she said again, tucking him back in. Faces inches apart now. "I barely know you."

"I know, that's what you just said- could you stop making me look stupid?" He rambled on, not quite catching up to the intention behind her words.

"You seemed nice enough to ask a girl out a couple minutes ago. Guess things have changed, huh?"

"You wanna go out with me?"

"That's not how you ask that question to receive a yes, you know?"

"Can I take you out?"

"I'd love to."

"Let's see how I feel about saying yes in a year or two, okay?"

[whateverisbeautiful]

I love ur content🙂🙂 so my question is what are ur top 5 fav delete scene from Rick and or Michonne or both?

Thanks so much @theoneswholive32! Thinking about this question, I realized three of my Top 5 favorite deleted scenes were all from 9.03 lol. Wrote out my list below. 💗⬇️:

#5: Richonne at the doctor's office with Judith (9.03)

I love seeing Rick and Michonne in full parent mode during the scene where they both take Judith to Siddiq to check on her cough. The way they assure Judith they’re going to do a Family Fun Day right after is so cute, and I like that Rick can share a knowing glance with Michonne when Siddiq asks about Judith’s family history. When they learn that a savior is missing, Michonne seems unsettled by that, but I always like the subtle moment at the end of this deleted scene when it seems that just looking at Rick and how unconcerned he is seems to give her a sense of calm for now.

#4: Richonne talking to Maggie before the Final War (8.16)

There’s a pattern on this deleted scenes list of me loving whenever Richonne get to operate as parents. And it’s nice seeing the two of them offer up their take on what it means to fight for your kids with an expecting Maggie. It’s especially meaningful considering the child Rick and Michonne lost this season, too. And then I like that as Maggie walks away, Michonne and Rick have their own private moment, and Michonne gets to tell Rick that she honored Carl’s wish of getting his letter to Negan. 

#3: Rick talking to Carol about finding The Right One (9.03)

I really like it when Rick and Michonne get to talk about their relationship with other people, and it didn’t happen often. But it does happen in this deleted scene, and seeing Rick beam with pride in getting to affirm he found the right one for him in finding Michonne was great. I like how Rick’s Lover Boy spirit means that he’s genuinely happy when other people find love too, so it was sweet that he took note of Carol’s wedding ring and let her know she found a good person and the right person in this apocalypse. And then it’s great that Carol feels the same way about Rick, believing he found his person in Michonne. And again, Rick emphasizing that by saying, “Yeah, I did,” was nice further confirmation that he knows Michonne is his true love.

#2: Richonne’s Picnic Blanket Conversation (9.03)

I almost forgot this scene is a deleted scene because I’ve watched it so much lol. I remember being so glad that there was a dialogue scene filmed on this picnic blanket because I absolutely loved the short snippet we saw of Rick, Michonne, and Judith’s picnic in the actual episode. Once again, it’s great seeing Richonne as parents as they watch Judith and talk about the future. It’s sweet how they hear Judith cough, and Rick is quick to reassure Michonne, and how Michonne is such a mom, saying she’s glad they still checked with the doctor. There’s like an added weight to this to me because at this time, Judith is their only remaining living child, and it’s so important to them that they ensure nothing happens that could cause them to lose her too.

And then I really adore that Rick has the future so on his mind during this Family Fun Day as he tells Michonne he essentially hopes they can have a few more years like this for Judith’s sake and for theirs. I love that it’s another sign that he’s so ready to have a baby with Michonne. It’s a big deal for the characters to be able to think in terms of years now, after initially having to just try to make it to the next day in this apocalypse. And it forever elates me that when Rick thinks of his future, he most wants it to be spent enjoying peace and calm with his favorite two girls and the baby they bring into the world. Ending the scene with Rick taking Michonne’s hand is perfect too, as Richonne + hands is always gold and communicates how loving their partnership is. 

#1: Michonne’s pep talk to Carl (& Rick😋) (7.16)

This is my favorite deleted scene and the one I most feel should have made the cut and been put into the season 7 finale. I’m glad that at least AMC did air an extended version of the s7 finale one time, which included this scene. So that makes it all the more canon in my eyes. The reason I felt this would have been a great scene to have in the episode is because one; it shows the headspace Rick, Carl, and Michonne are in before they take on the Saviors which is important, especially considering they’re three of the show's biggest characters.

Two; It’s one of the few times we get to see the three of them interact together since Richonne became a couple. Three; Carl thinking about what might happen if Rick is put in a position to chop Carl’s arm off again would have made it all the more full circle when Rick really does come seconds away from losing Carl later in the ep when Negan nearly lucilles him before Shiva’s grand entrance. And four; most of all I love how much this scene paints the picture of the wonderful matriach Michonne is in the Grimes family. When Rick wasn’t quite sure how to respond to Carl’s questions, I love how Michonne was able to step in and perfectly address Carl’s concerns. Her winning mentality here is great and so true to who she is. She doesn’t fantasize failure and she believes so strongly in her and her family’s ability to overcome which is evident in her words to Carl.

Hearing her give this rousing speech makes it even more powerful when she’s fighting off that one Heapster later in the episode and trying to say their “We’re the ones who live” motto aloud. It was nice to see Michonne’s words resonate with Carl in this deleted scene, and especially with Rick. 🤭 Because the way that man Rick is riveted looking at Michonne as she speaks life into Carl - it’s such a nice depiction of how much he loves, reveres, and appreciates Michonne’s role in both his and Carl’s life. Her words clearly infuse a lot of confidence in Rick and make him feel ready to take on whatever may come because he's going to take it on with her.

I also love the way both Michonne and Rick kiss Carl in this scene. It was another great Richonne-as-parents moment. And then when Michonne tells Rick lets go get our army, I love Rick’s smitten response to that and the way he then looks over at Carl like he just couldn’t be prouder that Michonne is his wife and a vital member of the Grimes family.😊

[spideyjimin]

Bloodlines entwined: goodbye note

i couldn't end this series without leaving a little goodbye note ❤️

first of all, thank you from the bottom of my heart for all the love you've given to this series!! 🩵 even though i adored writing it, your love and support encouraged me to keep going so thank you very much!! 🥹🩵

honestly, i was terrified to start this series. i usually go for "normal" fics, i never tested the fantasy au and i didn't know at first how to approach this werewolf au 😬 i worked a lot to build this series because i wanted it to be clear and not too complex, and since i was doing it in a language that isn't my first one, i guess i worked even harder 🫠

but honestly, i never enjoyed this much to work on something. i loved every minute spent on writing bloodlines entwined. it was fun, i'd laugh alone while writing the teasing parts, and i'd cry with oc when she'd break down. writing this series never felt like a burden, i was always so excited to write it and to think about every single little details 🫣

it wasn't easy all the time because sometimes, i'd be stuck on ideas that i had that i couldn't translate in english or if i did, the translation wouldn't express what i wanted so there was a lot of working around to express my point. but the hardest part was with my hand 😕 it frustrated me so damn much, but thankfully, my will to finish this series never faded away

it's hard to say goodbye to this series and realize that it's over. it felt like i started working on it yesterday when it's been 4 months already! thank you for being there all along!! i got to meet so many fantastic people through this universe & i'll forever be grateful for that! 🩵🩵

this is a goodbye to this series, but i hope we'll get to see each other on other fics!! 🩵🩵

ALSO the fic was initially going to be named “royal moonfall”, but then, “bloodlines entwined” crossed my mind & i gave up the first title for the second one because it seemed pretty on the banner 😅

[piierogis]

they are everything to me

[javierduffy]

different.

[spaceratprodigy]

(palette challenge) PINK LEMONADE OR WATERMELON FOR DELIRIS ⁉️⁉️⁉️

@oldworldwidgets — [ palette prompts ]

WATERMELON LEMONADE DELIRIS 💖💚

[skunkes]

[best-enemies]

I've reached season 5 on my CSI rewatch and I'm a few episodes past "Swap Meet", where a woman is murdered after attending a swing party with other couples from the neighbourhood. Near the end of the episode there's a moment that made me jump from my seat:

(Grissom walks up to Sara and takes the seat next to her. He's holding two cups. He hands her a cup of tea.)

[INT. POLICE DEPARTMENT - BRASS' OFFICE]

Erin Brady: Everybody fantasizes about other people. (She glances at Grissom.)

Even you, Mr. Grissom. A neighbor, a friend ... girl at the office.

[INT. POLICE DEPARTMENT - HALLWAY]

(The door opens. Paul Brady walks out of the hallway. Erin Brady walks out into the hallway. Sara is sitting in the hallway chair watching them. She watches as they meet and kiss.)

(Grissom walks up to Sara and takes the seat next to her. He's holding two culps. He hands her a cup of tea.)

LIKE!!!!!!!

Right after Erin ends her sentence with 'girl at the office', the first time Sara and Grissom meet again, he brings her tea. This might be an innocent interaction but to me it seemed like a nod to this relationship they have where both are into each other, know about the other's feelings, but can't/won't do anything about it (although Sara has kind of given Grissom an ultimatum). I don't know if it was intentional - I'm guessing it is, because I picked it up immediately. I might or might not have squealed in delight.

[cerealmonster15]

it also occurred to me like yesterday that in my kali/sil fic I’ve been writing I think I like, focused so hard on figuring out characterization and relationship dynamic accuracy and also just fighting for my life with the plot that I believe I neglected to like. Mention silvers sleepy boy situation like,,, at all. Maybe once offhandedly??? Like I didn’t forget it’s a part of him but I think somehow I just forgot to work it into the fic at all when it’s generally a pretty big part of his character 😭😭😭 like maybe it’s bc we’ve been in book 7 and it hasn’t come up in the dream zone (I forget if he mentioned if he’s just not sleepy boy in the dream realms, probably lol) so maybe that’s why I forgot??? But even then I literally went to some of the vignettes to study how he talks with kalim and the sleepies does come up in those examples….. I feel like it’s just something I was like “yeah yeah that’s a given I need to figure out the rest of him rn tho cuz he’s more than just a sleepy guy” so hard that it slipped my mind completely….. I went too hard in the other direction….

[stuck-in-the-ghost-zone]

anyway!!! everything sucks forever I am going to start making my pd character playlists

[castielfucks]

every night when im cuddling my boyfriend and we are telling each other how much we love and appreciate and cherish each other, it takes every ounce and fiber of my atoms to not ask him to be my fiance. sigh.

[mistyechoes]

i feel dizzy

[plain-and-simple-ninja]

(tw: personal ramblings about my day and remembering my friend who died. <= something like this probably WOULD trigger me. idk if it'd trigger YOU, but better safe than sorry!)

today i listened to Korn for the first time since D passed away almost 4 years ago. she was the one who introduced me to this band, she was the one who managed to convince me to go to their concert together (by the train! to warsaw! through fuuuuuckin' sosnowiec lol). I've spent my late teenage years listening almost exclusively to Korn, usually with her.

and after she passed away, i couldn't stand their music. like, i wasn't even sad or melancholic, the mere thought of listening to them again was just making me physically sick.

i'm not sure what changed today. i was feeling nostalgic i guess. I'm just gonna assume it's a sign of my heart mending itself, healing. honestly it's amazing how music stores memories. because i remember every single remark she made about them, i remember the details from that concert years ago, i remember our (mixed) reaction when they released The Path of Totality (after some time passed, we both finally decided we liked it :P).

idk why i'm writing this down. i just thing this day today was... special in some regard. worth remembering. or something. idk. i think she'd be happy for me.

[kitchensinksurrealism]

spent an hour making a list related to That Fandom, followed by an hour listening to the haunting vibe playlist, followed by an hour reading the fanfic we wrote about my band and crying actual tears bc it's the peak of comedy, followed by an hour thinking about all the things I've ever created that will never be seen by anyone either bc I don't know how to show them to people or bc people just think they're bad but either way I'll never know the true answer, and now it's 10.30pm and I've basically experienced the full spectrum of emotions: autism, existential crisis, silly, and the feeling of being unseen

[elegyofthemoon]

ngl i didnt care for the theme song for lads when i was playing until i decided one day when youtube recommended it to me to actually listen to it begrudgingly and i went 🙄fiiiiine, only to get blasted by very very beautiful music what the hell are you doing in this game