#there's a lot of stuff im leaving out though

[genderqueerdykes]

hi, im on partially diy hrt for nearly a year. i do not leave in the usa btw.

i buy the drugs from just some guy who deals it, i learned about him from one of my trans male friends, if you want to start diy hrt really consider asking if someone in your community does it also. i live in a country where lgbt+ and transitioning is practically outlawed, but there is still community out there, especially in big cities (over 1m people).

but if he dissapears i turn to resources for cis bodybuilders. idk it's pretty googleable, ive checked. again, always ask people in your country.

check your local laws, where i live buying t illegally isnt punished if the drug is bought from your country (its not contraband) and you do not plan to sell it. in this case if someone IS going to be punished, its your dealer.

for safety: check the ingredients of what's your buying, in the best case you should buy a drug that is the exact same as in drug stores, also ask what other people in your shoes are usually buying.

also if you can - buy in bulk. rn me and my partner have 9 months worth of t on our hands. this way you have more time to find other dealer if yours dissapears, and also it's much cheaper often.

also gel is generally WAY EASIER to buy without a prescription (even though you need it on paper)! many drug stores don't ask for a prescription to buy it, and you can go to multiple of them. also if you preorder it online and only go to the drug store to pick it up they are less likely to ask for the prescription. it's all still not 100%, but at least you don't have to look for a dealer or a bodybuilder website

needles are usually pretty cheap and do not require a prescription in a drug store. if you NEED to make something up why you need them - some of the common pain killers come in the form of injections

so, about the blood tests and stuff like that!

personally, i consult with an endocrinologist approximately onse a year, but i don't have any complications. you can make a visit online with a t friendly endocrinologist from another country - this won't show on any of your medical records and doesn't bare any legal weight. this way they can't write you a prescription, but thos us about diy hrt anyway.

ask about what tests you need to have done beforehand!

you can do all the tests in a private clinic and not tell them anything about your trans status. mostly they don't care. it costs money, but its more safe

but also you can tell some bullshit in the government clinic so they prescribe you some of the tests, at least the most general stuff. if they prescribe you to return with the results or go to an endocrinologist - you can just ignore that and JUST NOT GO. they are most probably very busy and understaffed, they dont care.

you should find a general guide to what levels of what you generally should have. id link what i use, but its all in a language other then english.

generally all of the things should be in the norm, except for testosterone and estradiol. prolactin should be in the norm.

of course it varies a lot and might be different for you if you have other health stuff going on, that's the reason you should consult with a doctor if you can. but it is possible on your own.

i really think people are way too scared of diy t many times. this therapy is often very straightforward, and there ARE ways to do it, you can even consult with a doctor while transitioning illegally. where i live transitioning, whether legal or medical is outlawed, but plenty people do it anyway. be careful and midfull, but go for it

sorry if my english isnt very good, i don't use it irl and its my second language

thank you so much for your help and don't worry, your english is plenty good for this kind of thing! thank you for all the help, if you think of any more information you wish to share feel free to ask!

[itsoutrageouss]

bae i NEED elliot smut where the reader has a hand kink PLEASEEEEEEEEE i need his fingers so bad

You got it babygirl ;)

something something Elliot’s hands are so mesmerising that when he talks all you hear is blah, blah, blah, backstory stuff.. and he lowkey gets more needy than you from putting his fingers inside… and dominant as hell???

—🧚🏼‍♀️

You couldn’t stop staring at them. It honestly wasn’t your fault- his hands were like magnets to your eyes, always finding their way back down to where they were in his lap, one of them clasped around a cold beer, condensation rolling down the bottleneck like sweat. It continued over his knuckles, dipping through the valleys of his knuckles and dripping onto his lap, little dark spots splattering over his pants where he sat next to you in the back of your pickup truck.

The beers were still cold from the gas station where you’d taken a pit stop before parking at an empty lot further away. His other hand fidgeted with a frazzled bracelet that fit snug around his wrist where the veins bulged and snaked up his hand. You gulped. Forced your eyes up to the twinkling stars instead. Slowly they slid down to the horizon. A little to the left. Down into his lap. Again.

“Doll you’re not listening” Elliot finally noted, his had lazily craning towards you, chin lifted as he leaned back against the back of the car. There was a small, amused smile splaying on his round lips, and his puppy eyes narrowed as he searched your gaze.

You grew hot, fire lapping at your cheeks and exposed neck. He waited patiently for a response, eyes never leaving yours and you broke the silence with an awkward clearing of your throat, lips parted softly like a fish out of water.

“No im listening, for sure” you said with a furrow in your brow and a rapid nod to try and seem like his insinuation was offending. It wasn’t, though, because you hadn’t heard a damn word he’d said. To your startling, mortifying realisation, his free hand came up to squeeze your thigh, and you gasped. You and Elliot were… well you weren’t just friends but… you’d never exactly- well- it was hard to explain, yeah? There was always something simmering there, and at parties you’d always end up making out in a corner until your lips were swollen and raw. But nothing more had ever happened- he always seemed to pull away with a wink and dissapear.

“Yeah? What’d I just say?” He asks, leaning towards you slightly, simultaneously making his hand slide higher up your thigh. Your jaw ticked. Was he doing this on purpose?

“Something about that… thing you did yesterday” you tried, deliberately turning your head away to seem distracted yourself, like you didn’t throb between your legs already. You tried to take a calming breath but his hand left your leg, leaving a cold feeling where it had rested, before it came up to the back of your head, grasping your neck tightly to force your head back to face him. Was he closer now? Your hands flicked down to his hand that flexed around the beer and placed it on the bed of the truck next to his thigh. He followed your line of sight.

He shook his head and grinned as his eyes shimmered with understanding. “Not at all what I said. But it’s cool.” He said, his hand staying on your neck, forcing you to keep looking at him. His fingers tightened slightly and a shiver ran down your spine. Visibly, you shuddered. He rolled his eyes.

“This really what’s getting you so distracted?” He asks, his voice teasing as his fingers slid down your neck, around to the front of your neck, gliding over your collarbone. You suppressed a whimper, his other hand trailing up the bare skin if your thigh. The summer heat was sticky around you, a light sheen of sweat over his temple, his curls messy in the humid air. He licked his lips unconsciously, both his and your eyes glued to his hand moving up to the hem of your shorts, long fingers skittering just under the material. Your eyes widened slightly at his boldness.

“Elliot- why- you never touch-“ you stammered foolishly, wanting to understand what had changed. He sighed softly, peeling his eyes from the sight of your thigh convulsing under his touch. He held it tight to stop them from pressing needily together.

“Didn’t want to overstep. Didn’t know what you… wanted. I might have a fucking clue now, though” he said, voice low as his hand dipped under your shorts, skimming the side of your panties in a dangerously light touch. Your eyes squeezed shut and thudded against the back of the car. He snickered and you spared him a side glance.

“They just- fuck they look so… good” you whined, inhibitions lowered at the way his slender fingers moved over your clothes cunt. God his ego swelled in his chest as he rapidly removed his hand, sitting up straighter, shadowing the stars from your view, one hand cupping your jaw as he frantically worked the button of your shorts. His veins pulsed, the matted blue bracelet you gave him adorning his bronze skin.

“You want them?” He asked in a breathy tone, the thought dizzying both of you as your zipper was undone, hips lifting so he could tug the shorts down just enough for hun to get to where he wanted like he had no time to spare, like a dog who was been waiting for permission and finally had it. Your eyes opened, snapped to his, down to this plump lips, where his mouth was open, hand hovered over your panties.

You couldn’t even speak, only nodding in a desperate manner and bucking your hips up slightly to try and meet his hand. But he moved it just in time for you to only graze the warm air.

“Have to say it or I won’t touch you” he stated and you pouted in embarrassment.

“Yes- yes I want them Elliot just fucking-“ you were cut off by the breath in your throat hitching, swallowing down a moan as his fingertips slid under your panties and slid down your molten, wet slit. He let out a low sound almost akin to a moan, and it was absolutely addicting.

“Jesus Christ did my hands make you this wet?” He asked, but not even in a mocking way, just un pure astonishment, maybe even feeling a little proud as he prodded around your went cut, mapping you out, spending extra time at your puffy clit. He bit down on his tongue at the way you whined and twitched when his middle finger slipped over the nub in messy, soft rubs.

“It’s not my fault” you protested. It was his hands that made you feel so unexplainable fucking needy, it was completely out of your control. He huffed, and in response slipped a finger inside of you. Your walls already pulsed around the sole finger as it curled up, feeling your scorching hot and creaming cunt suck it in. He was mesmerised as you both stared at where his hand moved under your panties. Your thighs clamped around his wrist and he tsk’ed at you, his other hand digging into the plush if your thigh and prying them open wide. It felt so exposing, here in this lonely parking lot, the way his eyes were burning holes into your went cunt like he was just as taken as you.

He couldn’t help himself to slip a second finger inside, stretching your walls to accommodate him in a delicious stretch. He moaned- he fucking moaned before you even had the chance to. Blatantly, whorish, unashamed as his pupils dilated, meeting yours.

“This all you wanted? Just needed me to stuff my fingers inside of you to keep you happy, hm?” He asked, voice suddenly more hoarse than before, curling his fingers and pressing them inside you over and over, as far in as they could go, the wet squelching making your lashes flutter.

“Yes- yes thank you, Eli” you moaned with a thick voice, not even hearing your own words as more than a distance sound.

“Fuckin’ thanking me for fingering you Jesus Christ-“ he muttered, more to himself than to you as his hand in your thighs tugged your panties down messily for more access, finally able to see where he dissapear into you, where his hand shimmered in your wetness. His other hand went down, spreading your lips to see better, the lewd action making your heart swell and stutter and another gush of wetness dripping to the bed of the truck. His thumb rolled over your clit in messy circles and your cunt clenched around his fingers rhythmically.

“That’s it- gonna cum already? I just started doll” he said, a little mockery in his tone that made you flush and shiver. His lips suddenly pressed to yours to swallow down your moans, and he sucked in a sharp breath of relief. You moaned into his warm mouth, breath intermingling.

“Gonna- elliot-“ you garbled out, the way your clit was so puffy and wet that his thumb moved even faster making your now free thighs choke his wrist as you pulse around him, locking down like a vice- his veins bulging from the efforts to keep moving. Your breath hitches before all the curses and whined you could muster tumbled out of your swollen lips.

“Good girl, good fuckin- that’s it- better than I imagined oh fu-“ he rambled on, apparently incredibly mouthy when his fingers were pressed into your wet cunt. You nearly blacked out, felt your thighs grow wet, his hand still moving to its last effort. After god knows how long he slipped his fingers out, pervertedly holding them up in the moonlight. You cracked an eye opened and your kith watered at watching those damned fingers shimmering with your cum.

“Now are you gonna focus on what im telling you?” He asked as he pulled your shirts and panties up over your hips again, wet fingers struggling with the button. You breathed out a soft giggle, looking over at him, all your limbs weak.

“Yeah. Go ‘head.”

[lilblucat]

How was it traumatic though? Can we see? (This sounds like a kid asking what happened and asks if they can see lol)

It's played as horror (and rightfully so). When I say "birth" I actually mean it. Uzi gets reinfected with Solver flesh and it starts incubating inside her. This leads to a loss of autonomy as it starts wanting more matter. By the time they figure it out, she's begging N to open her up and tear it out. "It" ending up being their daughter.

It's meant to contrast Colt's creation. Colt was a natural "birth" for them since they're robots. Their daughter being biological came with a creation very resembling of biological beings. Colt was just uploaded data into a premade body, but Uzi was pretty much pregnant with their (actually just her) literal flesh-and-blood daughter. It's a resemblance not lost on Uzi and naturally she doesn't take it well because it's Uzi and there's a billion reasons why she'd be uncomfortable about going through that. Because there's definitely some real life parallels you can draw here, I don't wanna joke about the topic - and that's been part of the reason why she hasn't been around in the comics.

[not-equippedforthis]

staring at the page of notes i need to consume for the mock exam tomorrow and i just cannot. be assed.

[silverselfshippingchaos]

ugghhh wintertime sucks!! I'm sad and tired and sad all the time.. I need a nap.. and f/o cuddles.. and another nap..

[skrunksthatwunk]

household enemy to the yyh watchthrough number one is the olympics. it's taken us a week to get two episodes into the gamemaster fight

[mcybree]

Random limlife Scott rant, GO!

I got this ask and decided that I’d give it my best shot but got so mad on my skim through some of the moments I remembered that I gave up.

[gaiaxygang]

perth / chimon series recommendations

are you a newer perth or chimon fan (probably from dangerous romance)? do you want to watch more shows with them but don't know where to start? well i have watched majority of the shows perth or chimon are in and i have a few i can recommend (shortened because once i start i wont stop):

the gifted (2018) and the sequel, the gifted: graduation (2020)

i think this is one of the most well-known series chimon is in but i have to bring it up. set in a high school with a mysterious "gifted programme", it follows the newest batch of "gifted" students as they investigate what's going on behind the programme.

season 1 is one of my top gmmtv series of all time and i think its definitely worth a watch.

the stranded (2019)

after a tsunami hits the island they're schooling on, a bunch of teenagers have to figure out how to survive on their own. not a bl, but perth's character (krit) is dating another man (jack, played by mark siwat). a very strong series overall, though not without its flaws.

i think perth is great here for what little screentime he gets (i also think he looks cute here with glasses). the production is also insanely high quality and the show looks gorgeous.

school tales the series (2022): episode 8

a horror anthology series based in high school. chimon is in episode 8, a walk in school. two friends sneak into school late at night to investigate the school's ghost stories. it is horror, though not exactly the scariest (in my opinion). the other episodes are decent but this one has the strongest writing.

its a short watch, just under an hour but i think both actors (there are only two characters in this episode) are great. the storyline also makes me feel like im being turned into spaghetti

double savage (2023)

two brothers who cared deeply about one another are slowly turned against eachother by circumstance. this one is full of writing issues despite the strong setup and premise HOWEVER!

i did enjoy it because of the strong acting, especially from perth. his character is so pathetic and i say this with love. he is worse than chopper on the Down Bad scale. perth himself seemed to enjoy filming this one quite a lot and he's said that it was one of his favourite roles because of the action scenes

other recommendations

please... siang riak winyan (2017). only 4/6 episodes are subbed but the reason i bring this one up is because perth and chimon we're both in this together! in 2017!!! they didn't have any scenes together so they weren't close but perth knew of chimon from here (and it's what he brings up whenever he's asked about how he met chimon)

home school (2023). i'm more hesitant to recommend this one because i didn't like the ending and messaging but chimon's performance as pennhung was incredibly strong.

vice versa (2022). perth is only in 1 or 2 episodes but i think his character is very pathetic. gmmtv seems to like casting perth as the most pathetic man in the show. i wouldnt say to watch this for perth but as a big fan of vice versa before perthchimon took over my brain i cant not put it here

this isn't a comprehensive list and it's far from everything i enjoyed with them in it (and some of this is very, very subjective lol). i just wanted to put this out here because i love talking about perth and chimon <3_<3

[httpiastri]

how about if... i just... don't do my work.....

[vaangoghs]

ok yeah i know rwrb is a longer book, just over 400 pages, i understand that. i get things would need to be cut for the movie, i'm no fool.

i just don't... i'm not understanding the creative decision behind cutting a major supporting character completely. in fact, i'm baffled. like????

[girlscience]

i hate that my brain is like this. i hate that it does this to me. i see so many people for whom their sexuality is a source of pride and community and finding their sexuality opens a whole new world to them and they become open and confident people who are more themselves than ever before. and that's amazing! i am so happy for those people!! but it has never been that for me and i despise myself for that.

[bandori-colorpicked]

if anyone wants a full list of which characters i haven't made flags for yet:

Kasumi Saaya Rimi Moca Himari Chisato Eve Kokoro Kaoru Touko Rui Pareo

[sexyleon]

🥲

[skrunksthatwunk]

just found out rascal (babycat)'s been with his owner this whole time instead of my roommate which is. something. :|

[britneyshakespeare]

i listened to the fall out boy version of we didn’t start the first (listing 1989-2023 world events) and can i just say. first of all the original song is silly and not that deep in its commentary but at least it was like an original idea. there’s a reason your 11th grade history teacher played it in your class in the cold war unit, right? it sets a scene and a mood without even having to do anything but listing a bunch of pop culture and political iconography. but there’s also like, a sequence of events. fob’s really just throws events and names of things together sloppily in no particular order other than if they kinda rhyme. it has a lot less impact when thinking about the recent historical or present moment bc it’s just like “thing you remember, other thing you remember, other thing you remember” but from one object to the next they have no particular connection to each other in space or time. it’s poorly associated. 

[star-ocean-peahen]

hi 😅