#there's a lot going on rn but yknow what its how i function

[2lim3rz]

Y'all are thirsty fucks for the Volatile Hearts AU and Lorgar X reader content

Working through some older requests so once I catch up, you'll get part 2 on Gulliman's tax filling

[thirdmagic]

yesterday i finished reading a fic that left me emotionally devastated and in tears when i finished (a p5 akeshu postcanon fic because thats the mood rn) and it was genuinely on the level of like. real professional published writing i was utterly shooketh and destroyed by it. and i thought that. and instantly thought of how it is a story that would never ever ever work as a novel and could not exist or function outside of the fanficiton context. because not only is it postcanon meaning it doesnt work at all if you dont know all the relevant events of an entire completed existing work of fiction, you really do kinda need to be an shuake person already bc we kind a have a shared ship subfandom and our own headcanons of their relationship and the dynamics of what its like as a romance. and also a lot of what makes the fic so good is the specific goro characterization that is lost without the og canon context.

anyway not sure where i'm going with this im actually generally not really against the serial numbers filed off practice for fanfic to novel like, in theory, yknow. it really is a morally gray area and its messy, but i get it. you pour hours of your life into making something, it is well received, many people tell you it holds up to the quality level of published writing, why not make that effort also help you support yourself, like if you can turn a labor of love into a labor that gets treated as labor that seems fair. but also maybe you should really only do that in cases of AUs where a lot of it really is your own original ideas and the canon is only a vague baseline and it can actually be divorced from its original context. because like yeah there really is fanfic that is genuinely that good and yet it needs to stay fanwork because thats the medium and its deeply entrenched in that medium. and also yknow even in cases of extreme aus or something thats very original there is still the inherent Putting Your Fave In Situation draw inherent to fanfic so you ought to consider how much losing that will also take away from your story. like in theory nothing wrong with that it can work but it has to be a very specific kinda fanfic that most fanfics are not.

[bubblyernie]

Can we get more Milo and Charlie lore? I just like em a lot.

YES ABSOLUTELY YUH HUH!!!!! this is about to be so long I might break tumblrs post word limit

So I have a few drawings in my queue that relate to lore, but I'll do my best to like cover most things ;w;

Okay as an OVERVIEW, Milo and Charlie were two characters I made as like throwaway designs because I wanted to try the concept of a marble statue earth genasi muse for a charcoal earth genasi artist. Which was this. Also toyed with the idea of heavy heavy heavy bod mods because you know how statues break or have unfinished parts.

Cut to my DM wanting to run a 13 episode miniseries for our campaign as a prequel in a bard-reskinned-strixhaven (so. art school. instead of wizards, its bards) and I was like oh I could play the earth genasi artist I have because the bard school is like all types of art (martial, visual, music, performance, culinary, and written). I ended up going with Milo rather than Charlie because I always imagined the marble one being more brash and jockish, which balanced the party more.

Long story short, redesign after redesign and I made him who he is rn — bod mods everywhere, the BIGGEST doofus, the ultimate bare minimum burn out student doing pot out their dorm window energy. He's such a people person (bard of valor lessgooo) and basically is the most 90s anti-bullying punk ever. Char's his boyfriend, he's there also but as an NPC

OKAY LORE TIME

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Milo's actually two years younger than Charlie is so lets start with him. He's intersex and also trans — trying to skirt around tumblrs censorship here but — so born with female and male reproductive organs. Presented more femme (kinda tomboyish though) before growing more comfortable with a male identity maybe like right before getting into this bard college. FUN FACT: I originally based his design off two different statues — The Venus De Milo (....Milo Venn Mason) and Sleeping Hermaphroditus. Milo's also, like the Venus De Milo, 6'8" tall.

Charlie's also transgender, T4T lol, but does present more androgynous than Milo does just because he likes the style. Always been kinda quiet and reserved but he's actually really quite blunt, like has a snarkier tone to him than people would expect — and though Milo is more vocal with standing up for himself, Charlie is also just as ready to knock someone's teeth out but he's doesn't like causing a stir hsdfjhkkdfjk

Physiology is one of my favourite topics with dnd. So Milo and Char are both genasi, NOT constructs — I had this debate with the whole marble statue business. So there's other elements in there. Milo's like an abandoned statue, he grows moss and mildew when he's sad, it comes out of the cracks in his head (we'll get to that) and his piercing holes. He's also....all clay on the inside. Throat ends at the neck, no idea whats passed that, magic probably. He bleeds and blushes terracotta. Charlie on the other hand is solid diamond. Charcoal/carbon outside, but if he gets a scratch, it scrapes off the top layer and reveals diamond — that's actually the case with his fingernails. And Eyes. And Teeth. He's hot running too...charcoal and all. Charcoal Cinders... (I also find this fun, and there's a comic in the works of this, that Milo is softer than Char despite being brasher, its just the density and hardness of the rocks. I was interested in the Mohs scale and gemstones as a kid so....marble<diamond) like if Milo punched a cinder block, his hand would shatter, but if Charlie punched it, his condensed ball of brooding would scuff that thing)

This is so silly and kinda gross but that meme of like "......what if stones are soft but harden when we touch them" is what I think these two rocks are like. Because they have to move and function for yknow. logic and game mechanics and stuff. So I think Milo and Charlie feel like semi-hard modelling paste when they're not in "rock" mode. Like firm muscle or dense clay. Milo "Rock Hard" Mason, as my discord name was for a while

Backstory wise there's not much. They had pretty standard childhoods (didn't write that part yet oops). Met up in the bard school, first year Milo did a tat for Charlie (and lob enlargements, which they both have) and Charlie did Milo's tramp stamp. Anyway both were like :3c and thus, dating.

OKAY also trauma because...everyone needs a little bit. So Milo is/used to be a cheerleader — bard of Valor, yknow — and there's this whole...thing. I'm gonna post an excerpt from me raving to my friend about this but "milo's like sooo comfortable with being adequate. like he straight up said right before his exam his roommate was like "youll do great!" and hes all "well im not aiming for great, im aiming for passable!" because like...burnout and also hes surrounded by really snobbish and exemplary bards, its like a top notch school and he doesnt like how all that kinda gets to peoples heads. Plus he's really really heavy yknow, made of rock, so one time in a martial training soemone flung him and hes like OH GOD IVE NEVER BEEN ON TOP OF THE PYRAMID HELP!!, basically like the "yes im at the bottom of the pyramid, but thats because everyone needs someone to support them, and also its an essential part of the formation. I like being supportive even if it means i dont do anything glorious". All that is to say, he was at the bottom of a pyramid, someone on top of him fell, fell on him, his head hid the ground and he was just missing 1/4th of his head. I don't remember if my comic of this posted yet, I don't think it did.

So yes. Basically. Milo's got a massive crack in his head/missing half his face because of a horrible head injury. Charlie probably had like a 3 day long anxiety stomach ache about it. He's fine now. Also the unfinished face is because there's not enough clay to put that back together yet (matter cant come from nothing) — his chest being unfinished is irrelevant. He was just doing top surgery at home, got bored, and didn't finish that half.

I think that's about all I have at the moment for them together!!

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Trivia fun facts!!

Milo's adopted. He has three moms, they're all tieflings. Charlie's got a bio dad and step dad, one looks pretty much just like him, the other is a satyr

Milo's 6'8" and while Charlie looks short as hell in comparison, he's actually 6'

Milo's tattoo guide — includes my fave Flete Puellae (Latin for "Cry, girls!", taken from Roman graffiti "Weep, you girls. My penis has given you up. Now it penetrates men’s behinds. Goodbye, wondrous femininity!"

Milo's missing an index finger because he tried doing knuckle tattoos

Milo's more 80s British punk, Charlie is more 90s-2000s grunge/scene/Harajuku

Charlie, and Im debating on this, might be part bard part wizard. Scribes if anything.

Charlie smudges everything he touches.

Milo's expertise is in deception because if he wants to blend in, he just strikes a pose, nude, in the school courtyard. He's a nude model for the life drawing courses so it's actually not that absurd for him.

Charlie calls Milo "Mo", short for Mosiac. Milo calls Charlie...Charlie. everyone else has to call him Charcoal.

Even though they transitioned, I think they would use the same names as given — both are fairly neutral in terms of gender. Charlie may have gone by Cindy before (Charcoal CINDers). And again, both are kinda loosely goosey with how they present anyways

Charlie plays the shawm, Milo plays drums. In modern day, Milo used to play guitar (not anymore, oops there goes his finger) and drums. Bards!!

Moss beard (30 years in the future probably)

[coldresolve]

So I've read a lot of your posts and replies about torture apologia and I wanted to ask you what you think the best way to educate people is without throwing books at their faces and how best to signal to readers that you're writing unrealistic torture.

I'm asking this as someone who is moderately educated on torture and its effects. But I do enjoy reading and writing some of the more outlandish tropes like brainwashing in over-the-top settings for a variety of reasons I'm not going to mention here because explaining that would take ages and risk my anonymity.

Because there is a way to tell people that you're writing erotica that shouldn't be used as educational material for safe sex or bdsm etiquette (because its purpose is to be fantastical and unrealistic) and while it's going to be way harder with torture since people are less educated on it, there should be a way to go about it, right?

for the record i'd prefer the torture discussion sorts of questions to go over to @dark-audit, but im too tired to copy this over rn lol

i'll say this: if you're going to knowingly perpetuate myths and/or make themes that inadvertantly justify the use of torture, a good handful of which are so accepted in public discourse and fiction, a good portion of your audience believes they're factual long before they read a single thing you've written - you better make sure you signal that that's exactly what you're doing, and systematically shut down any suggestion that treats your depiction of torture as realistic, or, yknow, thematically moral in the context of real world politics. one thing is disclaimers, another is having regular conversations with your readers about how torture actually functions, which means you're gonna have to dip your toes into reading up on the topic. this is the bare minimum for handling this sort of thing responsibly imo. the current conventions for depictions of torture are misinformation and justifications. if you want to change that status quo while sticking to harmful narratives "for a variety of reasons I'm not going to mention", you're gonna have to put some serious effort in out-of-text. apologies but you dont get the good boy points for free lol

the better option would be to maybe perhaps not indulge the myths, no matter how compelling they are to you? it requires a bit of effort but if the alternative is turning a blind eye to apologia, maybe it's worth that effort. imo torture is an interesting and cathartic thing to write about even if you stick to depictions that are in line with reality. there are so many facets to it you could dive into, i don't really see the point in engaging with war on terror/reeducation rhetoric. but maybe thats just me

[trenchcoatsbi]

Racer IS my guy fr!!! He's my silly idiot who can't say the word 'oyster' ans I love him so so so much!!!!

I'm hoping and praying that one day I'll at least meet a Racer. If nothing else then I want somebody simluar to my friend to torment /silly

like all my other friends I wouldn't torment. besides maybe Hels. but he was basically my nephew so- However the shared love laungagw of the newsises was a) violence and b) physical contact. I need to make a friend I can just drop by for the sole reason of starting shit. Please its good for my health-

Uh anyways. I will not be over Racer for a while :D

Hope you're doing good Phil! I'll probably send in another ask at some point, just to share a project i'm planning in Minecraft, but until then I wanna hear how you're doing :D - Voidling Anon

haha yeah I get that! My mumbo lives walking distance from me (or uh they live walkin distance from my house they're further away rn cause we go to different colleges) and I did not do it often, but being able to just go over and text them like "hey bro let me into your house rn" so i could go be annoying was so nice sajkfhl rahggh i almost miss them now (no one tell my friends but like god i love them so much...)

anyway i've been chilling? not chilling but I've been getting into some other media because i've decided I don't want to just be the mcyt guy in my friend group. Unfortunately in doing that I've somehow ended up being the vtuber guy & the one crying about video characters every other day (IN MY DEFENSE IN STARS AND TIME IS SO GOOD THAT I CAN'T HELP IT) but ehhh they'll get used to my new rants eventually.

uhhh most of what I do now is just like school work, hanging out with my roommate. and trying to work up the courage to make friends with my second roommate. She's cool and we like vibe but she's like really cool and responsible and I'm honestly just slacking in comparison to her so I just try and stay outta her way haha... So yeah it's mostly just like hanging around the dorm room or going on walks for me! I've also been watching anime with the roommate i'm buddy-buddy with already! wasn't much into anime or manga before but all my friends are slowly dragging me into it with them finally lmao

Other than that uhmmm I've been working on art for my art blog again recently! kinda lost motivation to do that when I was mainly doing requests, but we're so back babey! I posted there for the first time in like a month so that's nice :]! I'm trying to figure out what I'm doin over there cause tbh uhhh idk I'm just between a lot of things rn and I don't know if I want to keep the blog like it's been or if I wanna change things up.

idk I'm just goin with the flow for now but i do have work to do too yknow? i've bumbled my way into being the serious business guy (geez im so many guys... i wear so many hats) in most friend/social groups I'm in so even though I'm a massive goober who's usually goofing around I'm the one who deals with serious stuff and uh I can't take a break from that ever sooo... it's like vibing with a side of having to but on my business man pants every now and then to keep things functional haha

[sleevesareforlosers]

DISCUSSION GROUP!!!!

i’m looking forward to having some more free time at some point 😭 hopefully i’ll have more time to do sewing and stuff i haven’t gotten to in ages 🤞 & i’m really gonna try and continue my mandatory happiness mindset!!! (<- read abt it in laura jane grace’s book it’s like. maybe everything sucks but u can often choose to look at things in a positive light it’s really really helped me!! like. i can go into things w a positive mindset instead of a miserable one and control that at least yk?)

i’m currently out of town & it’s around the 30s. not bad wish it was snowing but i’ll take what i can get, i can wear my $10 80s windbreaker which i’m happy about!! and if i could be anywhere i’d want to be somewhere with snow but honestly? i’m quite content where i am i love doing big family christmas together.

and. i will be honest as much as i try to seek out new stuff to read/watch/listen to. i love rewatching &c. it’s rly nice and comfortable yk? i’m restarting how to train your dragon actually which is. so lovely <3 and i just did my semiannual big hero 6 watch which was delightful

uno reverse!!!! hope ur doing wonderfully :)

!!!!! fingers crossed for more free time! i've been doin a lot of sewing recently and i forgot how NICE it is so im rlly manifesting you get some more time w ur arts too! and YES thats a good thing to bring w you! i love ljg thats a rlly good philosophy. i should read her book huh

oh thats so fun! not bad weather and ALWAYS a bonus to be wearing a nice windbreaker. im glad ur havin fun doing family + xmas stuff! its one of my fave holidays for like exactly that reason

also okay SO fair of you. i feel like im rlly the same except im not even consistent w my rewatches lol. i SHOULD watch httyd again though. i never watched the third one but ik a lot of my friends rlly liked it

also i AM doing wonderfully thank you!!! for the uno reverse:

im lookin forward to getting cracking on a real job search again in the new year (not gonna start too far out from my current contract ending) and also my boyfriend is gonna come up here again at the end of january so thats like. SUPER exciting. and i think im gonna try and bring forward just like. idk i guess just trying to work on my communication and stuff ive def been working on that lately and i want to keep doing so!

it is currently cold as balls here (-11) and sunny today but its been snowing the last few days so we got like. two feet of snow. which i DO LIKE. i love snow even if its a little functionally irritating. idk where i would be if i could be anywhere rn. itd be nice to see my halifax friends again but itd also be nice to be [where my boyfriend lives] so. yknow. hard choice

and i think it kinda varies actually! im def better at reconsuming whatever media kind but i think i reread books a LOT less often and i try to do the same w movies. but i hardly EVER listen to new music and shows r id say a 50/50? i started derry girls today tho its fantastic

hope you're doing well too matt!!!

[wellnoe]

only sending this ask bc i was talking abt something similar to something u said in the tags of a jean post recently with a friend, but they were like 'its low-key sexist that jean never/rarely gets to lead an x team" and i was like. ok so yeah maybe it can reflect the writers own misogyny in terms of what they think her role should be within any given dynamic but also. isn't it kind of interesting to think abt her as being Leadership Avoidant? like not that she doesn't make decisions or have opinions on her own but that she doesn't seek out positions of direct absolute authority within groups despite being uh Jean Grey™ with all the power that goes with it. idk if im making sense rn but i guess i mean characters who actively seek out leadership positions in x comics are equally as interesting as characters who avoid it bc like what's the motivation i want to study their brains etc

yeah...i think like. there is definitely room to talk about misogyny in regards to who gets to lead x-teams. and especially in terms of like. big ideological leaders. despite characters like storm and dani moonstar (and even like. lorna and brand) leading teams, they aren't often really positioned as ideological leaders the way xavier, magneto, and sometimes scott, are. and that's bad! it often is like. a way of minimizing the meaning of their leadership, despite these characters leading the teams for significant amounts of time and through significant eras/events.

in regards to jean specifically, idk. like. there are other female characters who can lead x-teams yknow. and personally, i really have no desire for her to lead an x-team in canon? there's potential for it to be done interestingly, but usually it is very boring to me, and does not really engage with the things i think could be interesting about it (what makes jean's leadership style different from others? how is her perspective on the x-men's long term goals different from others'? how is her leadership informed by her history with the x-men, by her telepathy, by the social tactics she uses?). a lot of the time there's like. this self-congratulatory air to making jean a leader that i dislike, where it feels like the creators saying 'it's about time' jean got to be leader, and then refusing to actually engage with her character with any depth? that is very irritating to me. if jean is going to be a leader i want it to be meaningful for her character yknow. and there are other women in the x-men who have interesting and compelling stories about leadership! and other female characters who have the potential for interesting stories about that!

the things i find really interesting about jean, like her connection to charles (that precedes the x-men and that she seems to be less-than-open about), the way she functions as a secret keeper, the way she navigates her social role on the team and the way she DOES exert influence on the leaders of the team, the way she supports or criticizes them, are all things that are maybe? not best served by her being in a leadership role? necessarily?

but! then again a lot of these things haven't really been brought up or addressed in canon in a while! it's not like stories that address these details are actually being told. like. jean leadership stories i find interesting aren’t really being told but neither are stories about jean NOT being a leader. so.

anyway. yeah i think the reasons jean might not want to be leader, her perspective on what her role within the team actually is, and her hopes and goals for the x-men within that role are all very interesting. idk it took me a while to come up with an ok response to this ask bc i think the fundamental problem is that jean isn't really. treated seriously as a character? and i think misogyny is a REALLY big part of that but i also think making her a leader does not inherently do anything to fix that.

[dyklopces]

*pays u attention* hiiii I only go here(here being pjo) for the valzhang . Feel free 2 use this ask as a hc dump :}

lee i owe you my first born

it doesn't take leo long to say he's in love . if he makes eye contact with someone and then they smile at him ?? game over . he tells everyone he knows that he's found The One

this being said . when he sees Frank for the first time . he doesn't feel any romantic attraction

mostly cause Frank thinks he's annoying and talks 2 much . also yknow Fire Powers and franks life force being dependent on a piece of firewood

frank is seemingly the exact opposite . he falls in like a lot slower (demi Frank rights) so when he meets Leo his first thought is "why is this tiny person screaming "

don't get me wrong . Leo thinks frank is Beautiful but like , not anything to ride home about . so what if he can nail a bullseye from 100 yards and turn into a lion . Leo doesn't think he's cool or scientifically interesting or kind of funny in that weird dry way grandmas are at all, shut up

I cant remember the books plots exactly cause i haven't read them in years but like , over time as they almost die together for the millionth time , they start to trust each other instinctually. they talk to each other now , and joke around

side note, when leo makes frank laugh for the first time , he has to almost immediately run away to piper to talk thru how he APPARENTLY has a crush !! how . when did this happen . piper why are u laughing

(she tells him that she's the daughter of love and she knew from the start and leo almost lights her room completely on fire from how embarrassed he gets )

the more leo talks it thru the more he's like. oh he thinks im annoying huh . im in way too deep now ! shit !!! he hates me and im in love with him !!!!!! why do the gods hate me piper . im too sexy for this help

she comforts him cause like , she knows frank genuinely doesn't like him rn . she has Vibes but romantically speaking she knows that atm it's one sided

frank , having been Abandoned , talks 2 Hazel for a bit (they are best friends ) and is like . is this what having friends My Age is ? laughing and leaving and nearly dying ?? huh . wild.

leo decides to be himself about the whole situation and Ignore It . it is fine he is fine he's just in love with someone who hates him . he is Okay and Stable and Normal and Not Upset About Anything , Hazel , Why Do You Keep Asking .

this goes on for a few weeks and franks confused cause whenever he makes a joke leo laughs really hard and then says he has "Very important and Shipley duties to attend to . not crashing and such . bye"

and then . Leo gets sucked up or whatever and is on calypsos island for a week .

in my world they're found family and LOVE EACH OTHER , thank you very much , so they all are desperately searching for him everywhere they can think, and Jason says "he's nowhere .. " cause Jason is a repressed emo and percys like hm . Well

frank, being Distinctly upset, immediately sees when percy puts the pieces together, demands he explains . so he does , and as upset as everyone is, they decide to try and help stop the end of the world or whatever.

leo has been having a Week on calypso Island . no one's looking for him, the only human company he has hates his fucjking guts , he has no way out . its literally His Personal Hell and he spends it damning every god he can think of cause like . what are they gonna do . put him on an island where he's functionally alone and can never get off and none of his friends even care ?

as is in canon, he and calypso reluctantly bond over lost loves and dead moms or whatever I can't remember .

eventually, he tells her about Frank, and how Frank could never like him like that, let alone love him.

calypso laughs in his face .

"first of all, I bet 100 drachmas he's in love with you too . second of all . so what . I would kill to have friends like that."

this time, when he promises to find a way off the island for her, she says "Good luck with your boy, boy. May the gods be on your side"

when leo shows back up on argo II everyone's like :-D !!!! LEO !!!!!!! and piper has to Hold frank back from tackling leo in excitement . they just hug rly hard :-) (BTW at this point she knows it's requited and if she weren't so thankful leo was back safe she'd pull his ear and call him stupid)

in the final battle , yes I am skipping ahead my hands hurt , Frank gives leo his firewood and says "don't be stupid, leo . people love you . " Which is as good as a confession you're gonna get before you almost certainly die

when leo Does die, frank goes fucking insane .

he doesn't leave his cabin at the roman camp for a week and when he does, he spends all his time at the archery range . he doesn't talk to anyone but Hazel.

he and annabeth have a conversation about losing someone before you can say you love them , but he barely responds cause like . percy came back . Leo won't.

about a month passes like this , and eventually he goes to chb to pray to hades / Pluto whatever who cares, ans be like . treat him well.

leo then shows up out of the sky, on a Dragon, carrying a Random Girl who immediately hugs leo, punches percy on the arm then hugs him too, and frank faints like the KING he is

when he wakes up in the infirmary, leo is at his bedside, still w the random girl, holding a cup of nectar . he hands it to frank and starts rambling nervously, explaining where he was for the past month and apologising

frank just . grabs his hand . says "I told you to not be stupid."

leo then reaches into his belt and pulls out the firewood

they confess and kiss :-)

[fungifaggot]

Smoking Kills

Peter Parker w/ a Male Reader Who Smokes. [Hcs]

A/n: Wowie, sorry for disappearing yall. I was planning on returning with a long fic, but my brain feels like straight up juice right now and my writing is just not it rn. So instead heres a lil trashy hc type thing that i felt like doing cause its all that my brain is capable of writing at the moment LMAO.

Requested: Nah (working on some requests tho i stg) 

Warnings: Pot usage, swearing, and sex is mentioned once

(Additional info: You’re a year older than Peter so he’s a senior and you’ve graduated high school and now share an apartment with friends)

Peter knew exactly what he was getting into when he started dating you. 

I mean...discretion with your pot usage wasn’t exactly your thing

When you still attended Midtown, you’d always be showing up to class stoned out of your fucking mind

Which (despite you not caring) made the boy terribly anxious.

Causing him to  complain to you, saying some stupid shit along the lines of

“(Y/n) you smell awful, you’re so gonna get caught!” 

Or

“Oh my god (Y/n) your eyes are so red how much did you smoke!” 

You never did get caught, but you thought it was cute that he cared so much nonetheless. 

-

Eventually he got used to it, and even found it kinda funny watching you try to function during class. 

He always enjoyed watching you mumble your way through presentations (that you honestly probably finished the morning of) 

or watch you try to answer a teacher after they called on you when you clearly didn’t know what was going on. 

He even enjoyed helping you on your class work during the times you felt as though you were incapable of doing literally anything

(or if you had chem with him he’d try to partner with you to make sure you didn’t blow up the building during labs) 

-

Now of course, being the way he is, Peter sat you down and gave you a long lecture about drug usage and its effects on the brain. 

Telling you about how it can “ruin your memory” or “screw up your grades” 

He made some very valid points, and you listened to what he had to say, you really did. 

You just happened to not take any of his advice.

, but still. You knew that Peter was precious™ and that all he wanted was whats best for you and you honestly did appreciate that. 

Over time though he eventually learned to stop worrying so much, because at the end of the day you managed to pass all of your classes and kept a steady job, and if you weren’t worrying about anything, then why should he.

-

After you had graduated you made the decision to take a gap year. 

Which as a plus allowed you to (depending on your work schedule of course) occasionally pick Peter up from school and even spend a few hours with him. 

Which one day just happened to lead to a rushed love confession on Peters behalf. 

And then to a sloppy makeout session in a playground parking lot.

-

After you had officially started dating, his first time smoking was with you of course. 

Despite Peter being a smart boy, sometimes he lacked common sense. 

When you first introduced him to weed, he tried to out smoke you, thinking that he’d look like a loser if he didn’t (despite you telling him that he should stop)

“I can handle it don’t worry!” he said...

No he couldn’t. 

The poor fool ended up getting so paranoid (and probably greening out.) 

but you were able to reel him in by holding him in your arms and peppering kisses onto his pretty face, all while in the warmth of your own bed. 

That night ended up in plenty of food, movies, and cuddling, and Peter kinda started to understand the appeal of it. 

-

Eventually, you did end up cutting back on how much you got high. 

Not only to help you out with work or to prepare for whatever type of schooling lied ahead

but also to help you in maintaining a steady relationship with Peter, in which he wouldn’t have to worry about you so much. 

because despite Peter denying it every time you attempted to bring it up, you knew deep down that he still did. 

-

Peter occasionally smoked too from time to time (like pretty damn rarely, and If he did, it was most likely with you.)

He loved to facetime or talk to you over the phone when either of you did so.

or play video games with you

and watch movies with you

and cuddle.

also high sex? Yessirrrrr. 

-

Dating someone as ditsy and ‘reckless’ as you were was seriously the last thing he would’ve expected. 

But being with you has introduced him to so many fun and just straight up stupid adventures that he never would’ve experienced otherwise. 

And although at first you weren't his ‘ideal type’, that boy has managed to fall so deeply in love with you. 

The two of you balance each other out perfectly (like yin and yang yknow... except in this case it a nerd and a druggie.) 

You’re the exact type of laid back giggly energy that he so desperately needed in his life, its perfect. 

[aro-aizawa]

suprisingly not that many people ship them, but the thing is. the "&" is literally in the top 3 relationships!! i have not been in a fandom where a "&" is one of the most popular rships. (im not exactly.. against them? i prefer brotp in general but there are a lot of uh racist antis against that romantic ship so i like it on principle for the ~spite~)

i think theres a difference between a ship fic and a ..normal fic(?). like. usually in ship fics the plot and the focus would be their interactions/getting together. whereas for regular fics u can kinda balance plot and rship, but the main plot isnt actually getting together. do u kinda get what i mean haha

no no feel free to rant! its kinda funny that they taught u to swear in yr6 but rip for not being able to censor urself. and also. broke up. over facebook??? better or worse than text lmao.

the only rship ive had started off... not great. like it was an online friend from south america, and they asked me out literally the day i rejected my friend. so... i said yes out of guilt for rejecting my friend bc it didnt look like my friend was taking the rejection well ^^; not a wonderful start rip. went well for 6-8 months then we broke up bc the honeymoon period wore off and i havent talked to them since! ✌🏻✌🏻✌🏻✌🏻✌🏻✌🏻✌🏻 it was fun tho, but it felt honestly just more online friends tbh (....interesting decisions all around yknow? )

it be how it be. i was still id'ing as panromantic ace at the time. but still. im wondering if i could eventually "work" with someone? or is that just. allonormative asgsggshshd

i see enemies to lovers but what i Rlly want is enemies to friends to lovers. the friends is necessary!! at least in a long fic haha. ...and love at first sight sounds really fake to me? it sounds just like a hyperbole tbh. like maybe it was first wow u seem like a great person and then u like, get to know each other and then fall in love, etc etc

(👀 oop i type a lot. Rip)

oh yiiiikes i hate when fandom gets those racist fans. i’m kind of,,, dense?? about that kind of thing (abt a lot of similar things too), so whenever i see it, it’s like. mega bad. but nice! i don’t ever pay attention to what’s the most popular in terms of ao3 because when i get into a fandom i’ll blacklist every thing i’m not comfortable seeing in said fandom and then save that for when i’m gonna check out said fandom. for example [here is my atla filters], [here is my mha filters] and [here is my ml filters]. (i also use an extention called ao3rdr which has a blacklist function and my blacklist is SO LONG. but it’s an essential so that i don’t feel like my brain is going to rot by trying to find good fics.)

ye!!! i always think abt it in terms similar to genres. i hate watching films and regular books because genres are so....stilted? and ridgid in what it involves? so in fandom terms i think there’s two main kind of genre categories that have sub categories. there’s ship fic, then there’s genfic. no clue if these are wide spread terms i’ve just kind of understood it that way lol. but within those two categories, there’s sub genres like canon divergence that focus on said ship but with a focus on the plot as well so there’s two plots going on rather than just the main plot. usually there’s always equals in both sides. i think that’s what you’re thinking of. the difference is how the authors approach their fics, whether they think it’s a ship fic explorating the how do they get together of relationships or if it’s the genfic of exploring the relationship itself.

lmao yeah it was like. the only way we’d communicate in non-irl fashion because we were both like. 12/13 so we’d have like. pay as you go plans for our phones so i at least, hoarded my credit and primarily used alternate communication methods. so idk if this is wide spread but at the time we never got into the habit of communicating via text. it’s why still to this day i never ever contact my irl friends via texts, and always through social media (the only time i ever use facebook nowadays is to message my friends tho i’ve been,,,, rather lax abt that. i need to respond to one of my group chats but i’m,,, procrastinating). and we were both awkward people, so i wasn’t bothered by the online breakup, if he didn’t break up w me that way i’d have guessed we just,,, wouldn’t address the relationship ever again and still technically be together but not at the same time lol

oh man that sounds rough. never had any experiences w online relationships, but i can definitely see where it could feel like an online friendship. because,,, idk maybe it’s just me but there doesn’t??? seem like there’s much?? romantic-esque stuff you can do exclusively online?? it’s why long distance relationships are hard, and they only fit certain couples. and lol i deffo understand that feel of internet friends dropping out of your life suddenly. i still think of nearly all my internet friends fondly...except for the bad ones. yeah some of those ones ten years ago were p bad.

it is!! i think that people always shorten it to just enemies to lovers though because it’s easier to say lol. i’m MUCH more interested in the genfic varient of enemies to found family because it goes from “god i want to kill you so bad” to “god i need to kill for you like rn”. it’s just,,, *chef’s kiss*

(dw i type a LOT too lmaooo and sorry it took so long for me to reply, i didn’t feel like talking to anyone for a few days ahah i just get those kinds of moods sometimes. as evidenced by my also ignoring of my friend group chat of over seven years, that i’ve been meaning to reply to for over 24 hours and i haven’t yet. yay.)

[ask-shakespearehigh]

Q&A post with the Mods!!!!

This is going to be a long one oh boy

How strict is the delineation of creative control vis-a-vis characters/plays between the mods? (@pedanticlecturer)

We generally have the plays split up along lines of “what we know”— we have a list at the very beginning of the blog. Sometimes we’ll draw the others’ characters (mostly me drawing some of Star’s…) but even then the final say on characterization is up to the “main” mod for that play — mod aster

what aster said -- mod star

What is your favorite play? What is your favorite character in terms of how they were written in the source material? (@pedanticlecturer)

I think my favorite play overall is Macbeth, just because I like the vibes (and the fact that I too could kill Macbeth), the fact that you don’t say it’s name in theatres, and the fact that it’s a play I did a full read through and analysis of in class. Favorite character? Puck from Midsummer. — mod aster

uhhhh,, hmm. ive always had a soft spot for midsummer since i saw it with aster esp bc of how fun the costumes were. of the comedies it has the largest potential to be the most visually pleasing bc of the concept of fairies,,,and im gay and dramatic so i love that. id die if i got to costume design for midsummer,,,or be in it,,,yeah. fav character. hmm. probably mercutio?? i recently saw a version of romeo and juliet where mercutio was played by a woman and oh my god it was amazing!!! not to mention mercutio’s portrayal in baz luhrmann's INCREDIBLE version of r n j!!! (I based my mercutio design on him) he just spends the entire time making dick jokes. love that. -- mod star

How do you answer asks so fast? I mean it's great but I'm impressed 😂 (Anon)

Personally, it’s a mix of: notifications on, quick drawing speed, and using the blog to avoid my class work — mod aster

aster is fast and (as you can see from all of my answers) im lazey -- mod star

Are there any elements/characters of the plays you're covering that you would have liked to work into this blog's plot, but couldn't due to the constraints of the setting or the synthetic nature of the blog? (@pedanticlecturer)

I wanted to make everyone gay but unfortunately due to plot constraints we have to have some hets but that wont stop me from making it lgbt as possible. -- mod star

I did want to make The Tempest more of a central play, but it just didn’t translate well. Similarly, other supernatural elements like the witches in Macbeth. This isn’t so much a constraint mentioned, but my own time/energy means that I want to show the Macbeth backstory, in a specific format, but I can’t right now— mod aster

Is there a hierarchy of import when it comes to each play's individualized impact on shakespeare high's general arc? If so, what plays are crucial to the foundation of the story? Which ones did you do mostly for shits and giggles? (@pedanticlecturer)

This is phrased like an ACT question and i might not answer it right so sorry in advance but: mod aster and i only selected a few plays for each of us to do given we dont know all of shakespeare’s works, but we tend to put more emphasis on the the more well known. But it also comes down to 1. How much we have plotted out for each play and 2. What the followers ask about most. Our two most popular are hamlet and macbeth bc people are familiar w those but around march caesar always becomes relevant again. I didnt even have designs for some of the characters until someone asked about them. -- mod star

I would say the same as star— it generally comes down to what people ask about. I will say that the overall plot is sort of separated into “has happened” and “is happening”. Like, the human potion of Midsummer, Julius Caesar, and Macbeth are all in the “aftermath” portion, while Twelfth Night, Hamlet, and Romeo and Juliet, among others, are happening. We’re trying to incorporate as much as we can, and I don’t think any of them were really put in without some thought.— mod aster

What personal significance does shakespeare hold in ur guys' lives? (@pedanticlecturer)

I go to a theater school rn and so ive dealt w shakespeare (although not all of them) it also helps that i was in loves labours lost last year as moth and that i read hamlet and r n j. Theres also a theater in my state that always does One Big Shakespeare per season and they always do them super well!!! My love for shakespeare probably started w seeing midsummer at that theater w mod aster!!! So. Theater kid rights!! -- mod star

To be honest, I got back into Shakespeare Because of the blog. I’ve been friends with some people that got really Pretentious about Shakespeare, and it kinda put me off of it. I did have a book of abridged plays (the plays’ plots written out in prose, basically) that I read as a kid, which is what got me into not only the plots of a lot of the plays, but also the idea of having them illustrated. And, same as star, the theater in state does the One Big Shakespeare— and they tend to do some really cool things with the costumes, setting them in diff time periods. I haven’t been able to see any lately since I’ve moved, but they still slap. — mod aster

🥰😘💙🥰🥰💜💟🥰I 😍💗💚😍😍LOVE🖤🖤 YALL ♥️♥️🧡💛💚💝❣️💕💘💖💗💓💞💝❤️💛💜 okay now i have a question i swear— how long have the two of you been doing art??? and what were your first shakespeare plays??? (@hellaghosts)

Uhh i started drawing when i was like idk 12 and i have the giant boxes of sketchbooks to prove it!!! I moved to digital art at abt 14-15 but mostly stayed traditional until this yr when i got a Neat New Tablet so some of my sketchbooks are sitting abandoned rip. My first shakespeare was either romeo and juliet or midsummer nights dream and i love both of them v much!!! I have a very old piece of art that i did for r n j for my freshman class assignment on it and it hasnt aged well alsdjfjafd circa 2016 i think??? -- mod star

Oh man. I started drawing when I was about 10, but it was Bad. I don’t think I got much into drawing again until I was about 14? Sometime around the end of middle school/beginning of high school. I would say I started getting into drawing as more than doodling/coloring edits sometime around 2015-16? I would draw on my iPad with my finger, then I got a tablet for my computer, and now I pretty much stick to my iPad with an Apple Pencil. My first Shakespeare play was….. uh…… probably Midsummer???? I have No idea. We would go to plays when I was little, so I honestly don’t remember if I saw others before. It may have been Romeo and Juliet— I had that book where it was the original and the “modernized” with the little dog that explained things— which, if you know it makes sense, but if you don’t is probably a bonkers answer. — mod aster

Do you think this blog has like? An overarching thesis (be it b/c intentionally or simply b/c ur own take on the world has bled thru to the point where u believe it’s central to the piece at this point)? (@pedanticlecturer)

Not gonna lie, I had to read that like three times AND dm you to figure out what you were asking from us and all I have is “be gay, respect women, write your own happy endings”. — mod aster

This blog started with an ides of march shitpost and you think we have enough brain energy to write a whole thesis? I projected feelings of found family onto my half of the blog but idk if that counts. Be gay do crime 420 69 -- mod star

What’s the nature/rough dynamic of ur relationship? How do y’all know each other? (@pedanticlecturer)

Met mod aster when i was like 4 and even tho we didnt live close we became like, best friends although the Best part didnt start until we were like 13-ish and eventually we talked like non stop (about anime and homestuck. Yknow. 13 year old kid things) and we didnt see each other a lot bc of Distance and now its even worse bc aster is in colleg.,e but we consider each other siblings regardless of family bc we’re adopted into our own respective families so that bled over into our friendship and it would feel weird calling him anything other than my brother now. We’ve seen each other at our best and worst and if you really want a good insight on what we’re like as siblings watch griffin and justin mcelroy’s overview video of catlateral damage wherein i am griffin and he is the long suffering justin. -- mod star

Star is basically my long distance sibling and functionally the only cousin I recognize bc like their parents are basically an aunt and uncle and like our dads look enough alike that we’ve both accidentally gotten the wrong dad for a hug or similar so like. Anyways yeah Star is the Griffin to my Justin, complete with our absent middle brother who we love dearly— mod aster

Dubiously relevant q but what kind of music do y’all listen to when u do art (if that is indeed a habit either of u partake in) (@pedanticlecturer)

It can depend on the piece? I was working on some (unrelated) oc prints that were song-focused, and for those I just listened to said song on loop. Sometimes I have playlists. Sometimes I’ll just be in a Mood and throw a song on loop. But a lot of time for the blog, I’ll listen to The Adventure Zone for the billionth time, because I have Too Much Attention. I’ve also, on request from Star, linked the most recent “loop song”.— mod aster

I tend to obsess over the same like 3 songs every few weeks so those get listened to on repeat but it also depends on the tone of what im drawing or who im drawing i might genre switch bc of that. If im drawing ophelia i stick to lana del rey and if im drawing hamlet its the neighborhood, horatio is sufjan stevens etc. i have categorized,. Most of the characters i draw into different songs/genres/energies of music but not like i ever follow that. Sometimes i just pull up a really long nonsense video and forget to draw. Essentially: ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ -- mod star

How’d y’all come up with ur pseudonyms? (@pedanticlecturer)

I love space so much and my main blog is starryeydsailor space gay rights!! Im also tiny and full of energy and bright so basically i;m star -- mod star

Uhhhh i was like “hey i want to do uhhhhhh flower?” And then I google searched flower names until I found one I liked —- mod aster

How did you end up deciding the rough timeline of events in canon? (@pedanticlecturer)

It’s mostly determined by like. How we choose per story? If that makes sense. Like, we just take story by story, and decide “is it happening, has it happened, and when?” And then we fit them together in relation to each other just by dint of. All existing at once. Like, I knew I wanted Macbeth to be in aftermath, because like, even though there’s no murder, the way I’ve translated it to the AU is still kinda heavy, and it’s something that I don’t know that I could do properly if it were happening right now. Also, it’s more interesting IMO to have them at different times. Tl;dr we wing it per story and slot them together— mod aster (mod star agrees I just can word better, in theory)

If you could tell the story of shakespeare high in a different format than an ask blog, would you? Obviously y'all are making very good use of the format, but would you want to write this as a animated series or like? a comic book? or is the form inseparable from the story? (@pedanticlecturer)

I kinda wanted to do a webcomic or maybe to plot develop through like, animatics but the element of surprise comes from the asks we get and really makes us think so the blog is a good start. We didnt think we’d get this far -- mod star

Pretty much what Star said— there are certain elements where it’d be neat to do as a comic or as an animatic. Like, the fantasy dream is like, an anthology webcomic of each story, where you can like, see other characters in the background and stuff. But to be honest, we develop a lot by what we’re asked— there was a post about developing worldbuilding by being asked questions and then pretending you’ve thought about the answer, and it’s not far off. Personally, it’s hard to just lay out a story, because I have a whole WORLD and what’s relevant? What are people interested in? It’s by getting questions that I can then focus in on an area to develop. And yeah, we Super didn’t think we’d get this far lmao — mod aster

Any headcanons about your characters that you don't think will ever come up on the blog through asks or plot posts? (@pedanticlecturer)

I could make a whole separate post for this!!!!! Mostly its voice headcanons (and by mostly i mean like 1 or 2) or relationship hcs!!!! -- mod star

Honestly same. I don’t think I have voice headcanons for mine, though I bet I could find some. I’ve got a bunch of miscellaneous headcanons that just kinda float around, but like they’re scattered, too numerous for this post, and also not always things I’m sure are canon yet.— mod aster

[itsmyonlydaytobefancy]

11.16.17

Im feeling things again and tbh, I drank a bit too much champagne.

Im feeling things about the boy again. We share memes every once in a while and we even shared surrealist memes which is AMAZING. But I still feel like he's trying to get rid of me Yknow? But I can't tell. I can't tell if he needs a bit of a push type thing, or maybe needs some space , or if he's trying to get rid of me. Hhhhhh just still really feel like we clicked so much!!! And even if we arent romantically involved,I still think he's a great person and want to keep him as a friend. Or like, a cuddle buddy?(He seems soft enough to be one lol) He seems so good and polite! I could melt!!! I did melt going on the two dates with him.!!!!!!

Hhhhhhhhhhhhh I still hope we could have a little something more, even though it doesn't seem like it.

Anyways, I'm trying to think more about myself and bettering and making myself happier, but it's a bit hard to make yourself happier when you feel so lonely. Sure, I have some friends, but they're pretty distant (physically or otherwise).

I feel like I need someone to hug me. Someone who really gets me. Like, even ppl I call my Friends don't really get me. And even the person I call my sister is like, not totally getting me (I don't think. Even though she tries. And I try to understand her.i love her so much jfc).

Like maybe what I'm looking for is a real functional romantic relationship? Maybe even one that gets me out of my mom's house? Idk, i just.... It feels stupid to say but I really want someone to love me rn. I want a partner. Romantic+ (+ not necessary;get atleast the romantic part together). Like, hhhh it feels like I shouldn't be looking for someone bc I'm trying to focus on myself, but at the same time, someone else should be a part of me, and I a part of them y'feel?

I feel like everyone is sad, but at least a lot of them have someone to keep them a float . IT SOUNDS AWFUL KINDA RELYING ON SOMEONE, BUT IT'S NOT RELYING ON SOMEONE IF YOURE IN LOVE YKNOW? Like, I feel almost picky, but SoMe ppl I find on say, okcupid or whatever, just, I don't feel a connection with.

I haven't talked to anyone since this guy from bumble found me on Facebook. Like, I deleted my bumble and he.found.me. And he made an excuse! To see me!!! Two times!!!

He took me on two dates and I felt like it was time to go in for a cheek kiss!! And he was like "oh no, I was afraid something like this was gonna happen" and he continued to say that he's been going through a lot( Which I agree with, the poor boy.) But he brought up how we both seemed to not being doing well in school. So maybe that was a real turn off for him!!!

I don't want to be a turn off. I mean TO BE REAL, I DON'T HAVE MUCH GOING FOR ME BUT STILL. I'm just.... My heart is totally snatched by this boy whether he likes it or not.

U hhhhhhhhhhhhh I just. I REALLY FEEL A CONNECTION WITH THIS GUY. I JUST REALLY DO. ITS SO S T R O N G ITS CRAZY. I just wonder if he feels the same thing and he's trying to fight it or something?

I guess only time will tell. EVEN THOUGH I LIKE TO THINK I HAVE STRONG INTUITION AND STUFF. But like srsly I feel like it's almost like a magnet. And he kinda feels it too.

MAYBE IT'S JUST MY MIND BUT OH MY GOD. THREE WEEKS LATER AFTER OUR FIRST DATE IN STILL S H O O K.

[vampire-crimson]

I can't find the post cus I didn't save it but it was about characters (Steven universe/ Sheldon / big hero six / and another one I can't remember) and how they are hc as ace from asexual viewers and the post I saw reblogged said they can't be ace cus two are gay, ones autistic coded, and the other is a minor. Maybe it was a glitch on my phone that it said u reblogged it- sorry I just got really confused with the situation

okay i know the post you’re talking about now, but cant find it on my blog. tumblr’s search function likes to eat my blog so i would have to manually go back and find the post. i dont even know if i reblogged it myself, i might not have. so im answering from memory,

the gay part isnt because theres a problem with “gay aces” but because a lot of people hc canon gay characters as asexual as a form of erasure, apparently. (note that ive never seen an ace person do this, though i dont doubt that some do) i guess its a way of forcing “purity” on gay characters? because yknow. sex is sinful or whatever. and gay sex is apparently gross idk its a complex issue and i dont wanna get into it completely, but a lot of people who arent ace (straight people) see asexuality as the “opposite” of other alignments because theyre “too broken” to be straight and, as plenty of other posts on here have brought up, when str8s think of same-gendered relationships they immediately think of sex (as opposed to str8 romance like hand-holding or whatever) when in reality every relationship is different etc.

the rest of the post comes from a similar perspective. “dont hc kids as ace JUST BECAUSE they dont think of sex, of course they dont, theyre kids” or “autistics just because contextually oblivious/dont pick up on social signs”. its anti-purification and (in the case of gays/autistics) anti-desexualization.

having said that, im generally cautious about posts like that, because while there’s a lot they have to say about how people view gay/autistic people and also how people view asexual people, i feel like a lot of the time those kinds of posts are also really.... how do i say this? aphobic isnt exactly what i mean. it’s like, rarely do i see actual asexuals making these specific headcanons, and when they do they do it differently (maybe its the people i surround myself with, but none of us have ever been like “if ur a gay ace ur not ace enough” and we wouldnt actually erase other attraction or gender alignment/s.) its like theyre blaming asexuals for allosexual people’s ace headcanons. idk. again, i dont have the actual post on me rn, so i dont know that specific post’s tone. but tumblr has a lot of casual aphobia on it and i wouldnt be surprised if there were posts that are “wolves in sheeps clothing” if u know what i mean

[kade-06]

Story time fuckers-

who wants to hear about my shit life? no one? alright here it is-

so i got my tRaGiC bAcKsToRy~

basically my bitch ass brother tried to commit suicide like the fUCKING PUSSY HE IS- like the casual depressed teen (20 year old) he is. and yeah im Ever So Slightly Depressed- anyway, i told one of my fucking bitches friends that i thought i felt comfortable with

and this fUCKING BITCH- concerned friend reported me to the fucking counselor (after i asked him not to bc im not going to fucking kill myself im too much of a fucking pussy) but yknow thats fine right? shes not going to tell my parents unless she thinks im going to harm myself or others, all i have to do is act okay, right? yeah this is fine. i said all the right things i think, which was mostly all accurate

but fucking

NOPE

this mother fucking bitch concerned counselor calls my fucking mom. even though i tried my fucking hardest to express how uncomfortable i feel telling my mom about this and how i dont want my parents to know because i dont need therapy and we arent financially prepared for that and blah blah please dont tell my asshole parents

but no

its fucking (please read this in a high pitched, mocking voice) "required that i tell your parents that i met with you and how you feel" AFTER SHE EXPLICITLY SAID THAT SHES NOT GOING TO TELL MY FUCKING PARENTS. *deep breath*

NANI

so im sitting in the counselor office waiting for my parents to get me, literally having a mental breakdown and trying not to cry or show how fucked up i am, and posting all of it on Tumblr because i dont have friends available rn hahdj

anyway thats that sorry for that entire fucking book over what has happened in my life in the past fucking hour

i should post more art soon and sorry, i might delete this later or smth idk

i might post a lot of art bc yknow stress/anxiety reliever, basically keeps me functioning-

ive got sketches and stuff i might post soon

sorry this isnt/wont be my usual content i just wanted to yeet something at someone and if that explains anything about me

if ya have questions, ask, i wont get offended, no matter how you word it or anything, and if ya ever need anything, feel free to spam me! i literally have no life at all! :) i love you all so much!! you are all amazing and everything's gonna be okay!!!

see ya later, guys, gals, and nonbinary pals! (-Thomas Sanders)

until next time, you lovelies! 💙💙💙