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what are your thoughts on nde for either eddie or buck in 8x08? me personally, im thinking buck is gonna get the nde, and i think he’s gonna be shot. tim recreating s4/5 when he originally wanted to do buddie, but what im thinking, is buck realizes his feelings for eddie but doesn’t want to/doesn’t know if he should tell him, then he gets shot and it’s all dramatic and eddie is there and freaking out, trying to save him and keep him alive (aka why they’re pushing medic eddie so much this season) and buck realizes this might be his last chance so he just goes for it anyway and while he’s bleeding out he tells eddie he loves him😭 i know this is probably not what’s gonna happen but lol i just enjoy theories and i always love to hear what you think!
adding onto this, i ALSO saw around twitter the theory that buck would get a nde, but he gets hit by a car or just in a car accident in general, and eddie is there and it parallels shannon’s death (obviously buck doesn’t die but you get the memo😆)
Hi, darling! Okay, I don't mean to shit on anyone's specs, but I think either of them getting shot again would be so uninspired. The show is slowly reintroducing new ways to pull the triggers they put down for buddie because they need to address the stuff that happened to them somehow, but a direct mirrored parallel to the shooting wouldn't work as well as everyone seems to think it would. Partially because I think that forcing Buck to confess because he (or Eddie) is dying is yet another way to take away Buck's agency and further attach Buck to the idea he's only worthy of love when someone bleeds. But also because putting one of them in the position to be doing the saving again won't really further their storyline. Eddie watched Buck in a nde twice, the bombing and the lightning, and Buck watched Eddie in a nde twice, the well and the shooting, and I think they need a combined trigger, aka a combined nde.
I am attached to my drown Buck theory, have them off duty, crash the car, end up trapped and the car filling with water, but I also think that the trapped dads theory also works a lot here, especially if you put them both in the situation while off duty, aka without gear or backup, and you can play with a lot of elements of every nde before that and create a catalyst for them to talk and figure themselves out. I also think everyone is getting ahead of themselves, I don't think they are in the place to get that catalyst yet, and 2 episodes are not enough to get them there when we are talking about an ensemble show. I feel like people are expecting a direct callback because we got a well callback and are getting a lightning callback, but while buddie was front and center during the well callback, they actually used it to further Chim at first. It works to get the audience thinking about different aspects of their past, which in turn makes it so that when they talk about it, it will be in our minds, but it doesn't explicitly address the implications with buddie. I think the lightning callback will be a lot about reminding Buck of whatever it was that he was supposed to learn with it the first time around that they never truly explored due to the network switch and Natalia not coming back. I also think that confronting the situation where Buck almost died and possibly watching a freshly heartbroken Buck be impulsive can push Eddie to look at some stuff that would push him into action to figure himself out.
Especially if @stagefoureddiediaz ends up right and the lightning callback ends up being a truck bombing callback too since the well callback is also a subtle callback to the kids on the cliff call in 304 and could be played into different directions when it comes to what comes out from it moving forward. Buddie has a lot to talk about, but they need a reason to think about the stuff they need to talk about on their own before getting to a point where they can actually have those conversations. I think they rely too much on how well they understand each other that they fail to consider the way they can't actually read each other's minds, and figuring that part out is important before pushing them to the catalyst. And please don't get me wrong, I'm like, 90% sure that the catalyst will be another nde, I just don't think it's gonna happen until 8b.
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although me getting exhausted saying yes to one date might be a sign of me not being ready i also think my last relationship made me a bit disillusioned towards dating
#like…i realize i am expecting the worst#gotta get out of that mindset#there is so much i have yet to experience!! and one of those things is actually feeling loved instead of just…lusted after 😲#also i think i’m so stuck on my ex because i don’t want to be wrong about him like yes he has all these bad qualities but there has to be#more than that#obvi it’s not only that i want him to prove to me that he can be the person i thought he was#there’s obviously feelings and attachment there too#hmmmm#it almost feels like we did our relationship wrong#like neither of us should have jumped into it#and now i almost want like a do-over? LOL but i know that feeling will#wane over time
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“men are always willing to believe two things about a woman: one, that she is weak, and two, that she finds him attractive.”
truly insane to have a character say this and then make them actually attracted to men in any capacity. btw.
#dragon age#morrigan dragon age#i know i’ve said this before#captain holt voice. and you’ll hear it again!!#like listen. i know it would change the implications of the ritual. but clearly they’ve already considered#that you can have sex with people you’re not attracted to bc she can sleep with an unromanced warden or alistair or loghain#yknow it just ties into the whole. my mother raised me to be a certain type of way but that’s not me#i really like her friendship w a female warden and feel like it’s a good romance on-ramp but it would also be thematically interesting#if she were asexual#but i know 1) leliana was originally supposed to be a lesbian and that didn’t fly#and 2) if it was on their radar even a little bit. they would have avoided it bc of Problematic Implications#ie discourse about corrective rape. even though she’s the one who initiates it and makes it very clear. if she’s not in a romance with#that character. that it’s just doing a job that needs to be done and there is no emotional attachment there#i also think. perhaps. they could have done something different for the ritual ESPECIALLY if they’re going to call it that#like obviously it’s a fade to black scenario but persistently calling it a ritual makes me think there’s something Else that happens too#maybe lean into that#anyway i’m just saying there’s workarounds for these excuses i made up lmao#mine#morrigan
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#the tags on fashionlouist’s post of louis’ selfie yesterday 😂💀#larries are fucking freaks and definitely NO fans of louis#there’s freaks wishing he would disappear completely and that we don’t hear from him or see him at all till he has new music#there’s freaks hoping that this is some sign of ‘something good’ cuz ‘we finally need something good its been too long’#BITCH HE JUST COMPLETED TWO INSANELY SUCCESSFUL WORLD TOURS AND A WHOLE ASS FESTIVAL RUN#there’s obviously freaks mentioning that zio ogre 🤢#on some petty ass level it also gives me so much joy to see them suffering#i feel bad for louis that he can’t exist without these freaks over analyzing his every normal move#but then i remember that he’s so fucking over them and so happy in his life and many successes 😌#theyre just background noise to him 🤭#any way#i hope he keeps giving us lots of selfies in clothing that they’ve attached insane meanings to so that they stay annoyed and anxious foreve#while louies can enjoy the regular louis content cuz we’d rather he keep us updated and keep showing us his pretty face 🫶🏽
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whats fun about barry as a protagonist vs other Morally Complicated Guy Shows is that he seriously has no ambition lol, his wildest dreams arent like becoming super rich or relishing in holding power over people, like all he wants is simple happiness, maybe career success, normal life stuff, his wildest dreams are like…. being able to have a wedding. having a kid or two. and theres something reasonable about that, it makes him relatable for a while until the show is very clearly like No dude, that is a fucking serial killer, you should not gaf! and you’re like oh right lol. it’s crazy to make such a simple desire seem so malicious but still human
#like the true success of the show is that he feels just as entitled as walter white even though what he wants is so much smaller#L + serial killer + you’re a war criminal + you’re abusive + kys#barry#but i think it threads the line a little where by s5 of brba i had 0 care for walt i did not feel any emotional attachment#and tbh by the end i didnt even find the whole corruption arc interesting because he was just so painfully malignant and annoying#but barry wants sooooo little. and he’s sooooo stupid. and hes soooo arrested development 15 year old boy#that it still manages to be compelling and he still manages to feel like a human being#not a knock on brba which is incredible television obviously just doing different stuff#idk. something about how it’s tragic but also held at an appropriate distance so as to be laughed at too#like: the irremovable mark doing violence leaves on you.. the inescapability of it… IS sad! it’s sad#and most often IS the result of social conditioning and masculinity constructs and your dads friend grooming you etc#but it’s not the prime sadness. which would be of course the victims of that violence#like. duh#walter my reaction is just. Well i wouldnt do that. I would never choose to do that so who cares#but with barry. all he wants is to not be defined by the hurt he has caused. which is something everybody wants!#but the extents of that hurt are so extreme and are teased apart so well in the show. like theres 0 apologia just exploration#anyway if im doing brba comparisons barry is literally todd
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I did not know you wrote fics I’m truly living here
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my fics are so delicious, you are SO lucky you get to experience them all for the very first time anon
#spideycablepool fic incoming... im devoting my ENTIRE saturday to finishing her. will not be thinking of anything else.#it's fuckigng. its freaking. 12k+ words. i don't know how it happened.#i never write fics that long!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#i just had a lot to say about nathan summers.#which is hilarious because nathan summers himself doesn't have a lot to say.#but he says some things. and i feel a lot about him actually.#i kind of really want to hold 9319 nathan summers in my hands and kiss his forehead. he's a nice boy. people don't know he's a nice boy.#he is pretty shitty too (all cables have to be) but he's a nice boy. and he loves a whole lot.#i hope people get as attached to 9319 nathan as i have suddenly become. i love him. i love him.#feeling a lot about him. like a lot. feeling a lot about his and peter's differences and similarities.#him and peter have a lot to talk about. like a lot.#i really really want all three of them to lie down and sit under the stars and have a soul-searching conversation.#obviously wade would dominate the convo and talk about very strange nonsense that doesn't make any sense.#so maybe peter and nate should distract him with a shiny toy of some kind so that peter and nathan can actually have a profound conversatio#but of course they'd both just love to listen to wade babble about nonsense . they love him. they love his voice. they love his weird ways.#what a simp circle. wade surrounded by two boys who just have Heart Eyes for him#and he acts so oblivious. like these guys aren't falling over themselves in love with him.
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everyone posting their unpopular opinions abt wha on twt and i disagree with them all… literally zero faults in the manga for me😭😭
#the only one i agree w is kinda the would like faster pacing but even then#i adore all the slow pacing too and the care given to the side characters and their stories#like shirahama is obviously going to go grand for the main characters and the plot is clearly cultivating into one large climax#but i like that it’s taking things slowly ?#never rly liked stories that would have ignore side characters it always makes the world building feel so incomplete#whereas witch hat is so immersive BECAUSE of how real all side characters feel#alongside the depth of the mcs#the writing is so good… world building is so interesting …#idk lowkey feels like people are making issues out of non-issues looool have yet to see a criticism i agree w lsndhekfndn#saw someone say that chapter of oru’s daily life as a commissioner was not needed but lord do i disagree it’s such a good chapter!!!#gives us so much insight into who oru is as a character outside of qifrey and the atelier#makes us more attached to him bec we know him better making qifrey wiping his memories all the more tragic#why are people so against slice of life chapters!! sometimes slow pacing is gooodddddddd#i wanna know and get attached to the characters i read abt man
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going back as an adult and replaying games you hyperfixated on as a kid and feeling COMPLETELY different feelings about certain things is crazy because why am i now sobbing over tilly jackson’s letter to the marston-roberts family in the epilogue
#i loved it when i was younger too obviously but i rly wasnt incredibly attached to tilly as a character specifically i just liked the lore#that’s my baby girl and now i feel so parental towards her because she was so young#and i am so proud of her#and i am so happy for her#and i want to protect her and make sure she’s safe and make sure she FEELS safe#and knowing she gets the perfect fairy tail ending makes me so absolutely proud and happy and PROUD#oh tilly jackson how i love you so#TILLY JACKSON GET BEHIND ME NOW#anyway this game never stops making me feel things </3#rdr2#text#hero's talking to himself again
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ahhhhhh i remember why i dont read comics & books and watch movies as much as I should. Because they make me lose it
#i get suddenly hit with a tsunami of inspiration and an urgency to Make Something#but the urgency isn't about the process of making it's about I Have Stories To Present Too. I have to See Them Realized.#and that hit of urgency is obviously far too short lived to make anything. esp since it comes in a set with a feeling of 'wow this-#-thing was so great' that transforms into intensified perfectionism of No No What Im Doing Here Isnt Good. What Is This. Disgrace-#-to my idea AND to what inspired it AND to my self proclaimed status as an amateur storyteller#which turns into artblock. so like low chances that ill even get a singular good drawing made during this#and the multiple comic or script or whatever ideas that appear in my head during this are out of the question entirely#oh and all of this appears next to the normal feelings caused by a good story like attachment to the characters and having to process it-#-for a while and if its very good then even sometimes rarely i get the need to make fanart#so all of this combined just leads to me not being able to do anything for a while and feeling awful about it.#fun./sar#i wish i was a normal artist people here are so resilient and do stuff even though they dont want to or they DO want to#because idk they enjoy being pissed bcs of a thing not turning out right and they dont mind how tedious it can get-#-and they enjoy sacrificing hours&days&months of their lives without a guarantee that anyone will appreciate it accordingly and itll pay of#its probably the resilience though#im weak like a dried twig both mentally and physically#this sounds like i never enjoyed drawing&writing ever. and to clarify thats far from true. i frequently enjoy it#just never frequently enough and consistently enough to actually make something more 'worthwhile' or linear#it's like a wind that comes & goes that i have no control over.#i try to keep telling myself that in the past i struggled to make anything 'bigger'....& know i even made animatic shitposts#this sounds so stupid god. an animatic shitpost being an achievement.#its not an art skill achievement its a fighting tooth and nail with my own self to actually finish it because its a struggle almost every-#-time achievement#what im saying is im trying to tell myself that i already improved. im doing more than i could have done in the past.#even if the process is so slow and i dont know when ill advance again#if ill advance again. i just gotta believe i guess? thank u parappa
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You know the absolute most fucked up thing. Is that Sharena really is at the center of it all. In. So many of my fucking projects.
#like. like. man. insane. insane how this is going.#like my whole not-written yet story between triandra and alfonse. obviously.#but the. moe side. of the dream realm bullshit.#moe is fine with loss. moe has Made Itself Fine with Loss. moe is fine on its own. moe has Made Itself Fine on Its Own.#moe will be fine. it will move on. it always has. everything is temporary. it's fine.#it can lose alfonse. it absolutely got too comfortable anyway. it can lose alfonse.#but can it bear to take him away? from her?#that's. what i meant. by that co-dependancy post i tagged w moe lore.#there is the obvious interpretation which also rings true. mileage may vary depending on how flighty moe is feeling.#but the. final boss of its attachment abandonment issues. so to speak.#moe just has something sooooo fucking wrong with it.#moe tag#moe lore
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[fic: wicked love] Soooo, iirc, Peter does call Tony "Dad" in bed. Tony and Peter, if that's ok to ask, - how does that makes you feel? Does it make the situation more awkward? Does it hurt? Does it feel right? Is it a turn off or a turn on? And just generally i wonder if you've discussed this aspect of your relationship at all.
Peter: Oh-- we really didn’t talk about it? It’s just… he’s my dad. I don’t even think about it, really. It got to where it didn’t feel weird calling him ‘Tony’ when I was Spider-man, but that was… It felt different. He didn’t see me as his son then, and now he does. And I… I mean-- don’t take this the wrong way, but-- I like that he’s my dad? That part is important to me, too.
…But I don’t know. I do kind of… Things did feel different between us when I was Spider-man, and I kind of miss some of that? He cared about me, but he wasn’t... trying to take responsibility for me like he does as my dad. Maybe changing what I call him at home could help us get back to that, but-- I don’t know if that’s even possible, really…
Maybe I should ask him what he thinks about it.
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Tony: He calls me that because I’m his dad. There’s not really any point to trying to pretend it’s anything other than what it is.
#fic: wicked love#wicked love: peter#wicked love: tony#ursa interlude:#I had them answer this one separately because they wouldn't be honest in front of each other#tony as always still requires further explanation#he both prefers that peter call him dad and would be resistant to changing it for the reason he said here#because he would see it as an attempt to hide from the reality of the situation#I joked on another post that if they ever roleplayed peter meeting wild young tony he would be super into it and then feel bad about it#for that reason of... of course it feels nice to roleplay something less complicated than what they have#but then that's not “”“taking responsibility”“” for it#so there's that like. self-hating aspect to not wanting to change it but then emotionally he also! loves peter as his son!#that relationship is super important to him! he doesn't want their romance to overshadow or subvert their familial one!#even if it was just an in-bed thing he doesn't want to deny their father-son bond out of a genuine emotional attachment to it either#so obviously the conflict there is that they CAN'T have a genuinely equal romance while they're both clinging to the familial tie as well#but while peter can feel the strain he's too young to realize how significant it is#and tony kkkknows but doesn't think the relationship will last long enough to justify jettisoning their father-son dynamic in favor of it#woof. big question!!!
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talked to a guy like all night last night and i went on snap to message him again and he fucking blocked me and i really dont know why like?? we were getting along so well i thought..
#i speakin#hate having attachment and abandonment problems#i get attached too easily and then they let me down and i handle it a lot harder than others#ive told my last therapist abt how i feel and react to this kind of styff and what it feels like#and she said i react to abandonment and relationships ending (no matter how messy) like how most ppl react to a family member dying#which is obviously. not good or healthy#its so fucking stupid this situation is stupid and how im reacting is stupid but like#am i really that much a fucking weirdo? am i that annoying?#did he only find me interesting or attractive bc im trans?#idk it just struck me odd how he didn't really have any interest in mm relationships but he liked fm...#maybe i dodged a bullet but like. DAMN!!!!!!!!!
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Any weather that isn't super hot is rather romantic to me
Like it may be heavily pouring but all I want to do is take you outside and absorb the rain like a cactus
Texas for the sake of my now single life make every day not hot so I can think about my otps
:) thank you
#kissing your beloved on a seat mext to a rainy window sounds lovely#....you could also make out with them too for added...ness..idk making out and having the sound of rain sounds nice#not for me obviously (kissing someone on the lips sounds rather gross and bad tasting) but like...for ao3 fics it would be good#deep down i am nothing if not a sappy romantic#writing things#romance prompts#idk if you like it im sure this could be a prompt#its one in my head for my otp...#mhhh thinking of a fic and nkt writing it because you dont know how to write down the movie your head made as a story#yknow i havekt really had anything to like...ship that wasnt canon in months and i love this feeling#ever since metal family i havent shipped anything that wasnt canon#(fun fact.when i was posting metal family k wasnt even hyperfixated on it.i was just posting it because people liked it and i have a sad#need to people please so people like me because i have few friends and attachment issues....haha anyways)#but like...i miss this feeling of love this kind of thing brings#(also jsut got out of a 5 year relationship...not much love feeling for me so maybe im overreacting)#...im rambling#rain>>>>
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Going through the miraculous ladybug tag is such a whiplash because one post is like “Marichat so cute!!! Uwu they held hands!! Cinematic masterpiece!!” followed by a ten page thread of how in that one frame in minute 56 second 32 the way they animated Marinette’s hair was outright offensive and a war crime
#it’s bringing me such flashbacks to when I watched the show there is no in between kind of cathartic if you ask me#personally I haven’t finished the movie I’m still watching but it’s alright#obviously feels rushed but I like the characters so it’s just a cute movie#I los attachment to the franchise a while back which is sad bc it’s not bad but too much back and forth#but I do keep up ovassionally so I do love them <33 I did like the songs lol I unfortunately am a musical girly#also why is adrien hearing careless whispers while depressed ALSKSK he just like me fr#ml#miraculous ladybug#not enough Luka I fear :( missed home boy
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I am very tired to coin, which is why most of our blogs are somewhat silent. I am still happy to work on these graphics, but there's not a lot of motivation either, so the queue can run out quickly. Very sorry if I go silent for a while. Not that I can control it, really.
#draedons log : speaking#for curious faces - I am in a bad shape obviously#i get physically sick from the smallest things#my mind is stuck in flashbacks#and I am trying to figure out the reasoning behind three mysterious symptoms I experienced in the past for no reason#plus not that I talk a lot to people again I just feel like I pressure everyone to answer me idk#gatekeeper answered too only when He got a hint that it's okay for him to talk to others#and I can't start interacting with anyone without feeling anxious so only when someone starts talking to me is the way to go#I am also in a huge identity crisis i don't fucking know who I am anymore despite several labels attached to me#oh and I am questioning OCD because of a huge amount of reasons but I am not sure at all in anything
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/ The fact that to this day only C.onstantine has a personalized bio
#;ooc#ooc#i have c.amazotz' one on my drafts but i never finished it#its that little 'about' next to his name on my pinned post#THO I DID make crack versions of j.ason and a.sclepius and mmmm i think someone else too;; I think o.dysseus?#BTW ALWAYS FEEL FREE TO ASK ME ABOUT THEM! it will never bother me!!#in my case if it werent for f.ate; i wouldn't know more than half of the muses i write here! so that's also why im just so attached to it#i think the only one who is hella weird and has a truly unique lore -here- separated from what u can google online is o.beron#but to simplify it; he's obviously only the fairies' king; of courseee!#the rest are pretty much still fictionalized versions of what u can find online/books/etc; the details u just find them along the way#my muses are just!! some guys- but they are pretty!
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