#there was never room for OURs
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But somewhere over the last year I lost you, the person I still love deeply. Whoever you are now is someone else. I tried to reach you, find you again, but who you are now who you became I don't even consider as a friend.
#you got lost on the way#strange things can happen#when thinking about all the things that went wrong and all the hurt you caused it makes me think I might have loved a phantom#at the end of February you had already changed a lot#people can keep up with a wrong version of themselves for approximately two to three months#is that the explanation?#and still here I am dancing with your ghost#still you're not a hundred percent gone#there is still a tiny silly hope#but with some time I'll set myself free#even if it all was true the colors you showed me in the end didn't align with mine#you're satisfied with YOUR life#there was never room for OURs#feels like I was supposed to just fit in in yours#I mean if I would have gotten pregnant what did you expect?#a pregnant girlfriend who's supposed to give birth between two flats?#wouldn't have worked out like that#at least not for me#but that's what I mean by saying 'you are completely satisfied with YOUR life#feels like we never had a true chance because we never grew together#at least not in enough ways#we never formed our own home#maybe that's why we never got our little Braten#I miss what we had#I am in deep pain and at the same time kinda relieved#it's strange on one hand I feel like all our the troubles this relationship caused all the pain of losing my man in the end makes it hard to#breath and swallow#at the other hand I can breathe in way deeper than I could those last nine/ten months#a burden is lifted#the heart aches nevertheless
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None of our hands are clean
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#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#jin guangshan#mianmian#The secret meaning behind one of the jin members scuttling off is:#I couldn't make three people work out in the remaining panels and per my rule of '3 attempts and take a different approach' he had to go.#Sometimes there are meaningful reasons why something happens in the background. And sometimes it is like this.#Let's just say he saw what was about to happen and got out of there before mianmian started throwing hands.#Okay no more delay. The sheer boldness to call WWX a killer in a room full of people who wear their war body count as a badge...#It's about hypocrisy yes - but it is also about how the narrative shifts on the same action depending on the frame.#Because at the end of the day...the blood on our hands is still blood on our hands.#Both the deaths on the battlefield and the deaths of the Jin's abusing the Wen remnants are still deaths caused by another.#They are also deaths that - depending who holds the frame - are noble acts to protect others.#But it isn't supposed to be about who was right and who was wrong.#It is about the need to be seen as the victim to avoid culpability.#Because if you aren't responsible you don't have to be held accountable. You don't have to grow or change.#If someone takes all the blame then there is no need to reflect on your own faults.#We have to protect our fragile ego from the mirror lest it shatter and we have to remake it anew.#Horrifically enough...even if WWX spared the Jin guards or even never ran into Wen Qing#He wouldn't have been able to escape being the scapegoat. He downfall was set into motion a long time ago.#My goodness...What a deliciously tragic story Wei Wuxian's first life was.
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catch us if you can! ☆
#the drawings that made my ipad scream in agony#project sekai#polysho#polysho week 2024#emu otori#tsukasa tenma#nene kusanagi#rui kamishiro#pjsk#prsk#proseka#colorful stage#wxs#wonderlands x showtime#and tbh theyre pretty overt so#emukasa#ruinene#emks walk into a store in plain clothes and see rui and nene and emu goes Tsukasakun its the detectives we have to hide !!!!!#and tsukasa goes heh.. no need emu.. without our genius disguises snd hair extensions on they wont recognize a thing!!!#(both talking at 200db) (nene voice) Are they stupid?#ruis just a bit too happy about being consistently outsmarted to notice. emks is only winning at phantom thievery by looney tunes logic tho#Emukasa are just team rocket-ing it. and wxs miku much like the detestable Meowth#POLYSHOW WEEK IS KILLING ME AND I ONLY DID 2 DAYS#i drew this whole thing literally just bc i wanted emu in the phantom thief suit. everything else was secondary#my petition to abolish the costume gender lock#I NEVER WANT TO LOOK. AT ANY OF THESE FUCKING OUTFITS EVER AGAIN. EVERRRR. NIGHTMARE DRAWING.#COUGHS UP BLOOD AND GOES TO LESVE THE ROOM BUT I HIT MY HEAD ON THE DOORFRAME AND BLACK OUT.#this is gonna be a bitch to post on instagram with it's Stupid fucking Crop. Guh#FUCK I FORGOT TO PUT THE SHADOW ON THEIR STUPID HANDCUFF LINK dont care dont feel like it [coughs up more blood
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Dottore: *dies* Signora: Timer starts now! When is he coming back? I say two months! Crucabena: Bullshit. One month. Pierro: Nah, half a month. Pantalone, new to the Fatui, sobbing: WHAT ARE YOU DOING? DOTTORE JUST DIED! Columbina, scratching chin in thought: One week.
#They were all wrong#it was a segment and dottore came into the room 2 minutes later#so technically i guess columbina won?#genshin impact#incorrect quotes#fatui#fatui harbingers#columbina#crucabena#dottore#signora#pantalone#i wish they‘d release some more info on who joined when#so i could more accurately do these#like what if pantalone died after crucabena died??#that annoys me with her in particular- because she‘s a side character we‘re never gonna know more details about her#like how old is she?? is she one of the multiple centuries old humans? was she just a regular 40smth year old woman who joined??#I NEED ANSWERS HOYO#also was crucabena also ranked 4th? is she the missing 10th and we‘re all getting our hopes up for a secret harbinger for nothing?#pierro
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what draws you back to your country what draws you back to your land when i was a kid i told myself if i ever left iran i'd never go back 2 years into living in the UK i started looking at news on iran again 10 years in and i visited it for the first time again and today i heard an iranian mother talk in farsi to her child on the train to london the way my mother used to and i wanted to cry i wanted to ask her whether they're still cutting the mountaintops whether the lakes are still drying today i showed the person i was with pictures of waterfalls and palaces and forests and snow-white north something odd pulls me back with increasing force i can't ignore it ever again
#i just dont know how else to tell you everything !!! santoor from a different room the large family gathering the black tea with saffron#drank out of delicate glass and gold vessels cold marble on hot nights big stars big rivers big mountains#visible from busy tehran roads the ease of conversation tension eased by sarcasm tall tall cliffsides you drive by#rushing to put on headscarves before the head teacher comes in a rave by the base of damavand massive sun pastel purple skies#disjunct architecture trucks on road sides with fresh fruits pomegranates watermelons oranges everywhere#the smell of golpar on tangerines beautiful girls in tehran holding hands bautiful boys in kermanshah speaking kurdish the janky#cars on the verge of breakdown held together by love caspian sea lighting up in spring staying up into the morning on noruz#my friends uncle sang and played setar his son played the violin a little fear a lot of love remnants of something#grand carved into the cliffside everything feels bigger taller the landscape swallows you it smells like#illegally imported wine and orange blossoms and auntie's tahchin soaking your eyes in warm tea when youre sick#tomatoes and salt concrete and stone something mandmade and something raw new flag old resilience#the anger getting to us bruised eyes big grin all i know is the north i feel sorry my mother asks if id be okay#if they got a place in tajikistan we love each other enough dont we? when we look in the mirror we see each other. theres a love letter#across the border and it says I MISS YOU IM GLAD YOURE DOING BETTER itll never be the same im not okay with it at all there are no more#stars i miss jumping over big fires i miss our fireworks im sorry we cant be happy anymore everyone#leaves the mint and rosewater and sunlight for a reason.#it's not pride it's just generational regret
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they talk about testosterone gel like it’s the fentanyl of hrt
#after u apply ur dime sized dose of quickly-evaporating gel#make sure you put on at least three layers seal yourself inside a plastic bubble and don’t let anyone else into the room#for at LEAST 6 hours#to really make sure you don’t spread any of this miracle poison to any innocents#<<all sarcasm#if it really worked as well as people warn about#dont u think transmascs and cismen alike would be slathering themselves head to toe?#aside from the possibility that someone might have an allergic reaction (i have no idea how common that sort of allergy might be tho)#i have never heard a valid reason for all the fearmongering#like. my coworker should not be scared of *standing too close* to our other *also tmasc* coworker on days he’s applied gel#you guys could sit in each others laps and nothing would happen its fine#its all a bit silly i think
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#you#...#you...#Congrats with surviving... I hope it wasn't too bad...#We had something similar last year#We live in a kind of a distant village#And our streets are connected to one heating system#And it was so cold last year that this station just broke#Me and my sister have been without water electricity and heat first day *giggle* It was funny to wear 2 complects of cloths and jacket#It was... like... -14 inside of home? *giggle*#On the second day we at least got electricity back and got a little heater (We were separated from parents so the have been calling 3#times per day XDD) We closed all doors to not let the heat outside#Since we got sick and couldn't take a shower#We were able to go to school but we looked like shit XDD#Then we were lying next 2 days like potatoes in one room with a heater... it felt awful XDD#They couldn't fix the main heating system for almost 3 days#It was... funny.... never want to experience the same again and hope you will not too
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so… we did a thing today. feeling insane rn.
#the goldfinch#the goldfinch (2019)#theo decker#boris pavlikovsky#boreo#donna tartt#a complete out of body experience#literally felt like their spirits were in the room#asked the guy who worked there if he knew about it and he’d never heard of the film which was very funny#but we had the time of our lives#i need sedating
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Haru this Haru that.... Tenma will always be Endou's first child 🧑🍼
I have a serious beef with this kid, don't mind me
#Haru will never be such a beloved son#😈😈😈#i bet Tenma has a room in their house#our firstborn#inazuma eleven victory road#inazuma eleven#inazuma 11#inazuma eleven go
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Thoughts and spoilers (with screenshots) for Haunted Castle Revisited below.
The intro cutscene made me laugh. I wish it didn't, LOL. It's really awkward.
I'm really perplexed that they didn't adjust Simon's intro cutscene sprite. Selena's is totally different - they don't look quite right standing together.
Interesting choice to give Selena's sprite purple hair. Her dress is very pretty!
(He holds her........ that's a nice touch..... my blorbos........)
Simon's in-game sprite is very nice!
Gameplay feels fun and easier than the original! My only grievance with Simon's movement is that he sometimes needs a moment to register that I'm crouching (maybe it conflicts with a whip strike input?) The backgrounds in particular are especially beautiful. I love the spritework and parallaxing. It harnesses the dark gloom with high contrast colors I love so much from other titles like Bloodlines, Rondo, CV3 and ReBirth.
I'm perplexed by some of the choices... like gravestone crosses in the trees? Weird, but OK.
Climbing on chandeliers is very Super Castlevania 4 and I'm here for it!
They made some fresh and engaging changes to the tedious bits of some levels. All of the bosses are improved, too! Each were challenging in their own way (barring Medusa, maybe--crouch and strike and the fight will end quickly.)
The Frankenstein's monster fight had a lot of neat additions and cycles. Really enjoyed that one - it stands out in my mind!
Dracula's second phase is actually incredibly challenging in this one, as opposed to the original. It's a little hard to hear the remastered music over the sound effects. I listened to them afterwards from the menu and they're really good. Original Cross Your Heart is still my favorite! Can't be beat. But truly Bloody Tears sounds incredible with the electric guitar. Chills. I'm curious why they removed the bit where you go into like... idk how to describe it. Like an alternate dimension and fight harpies for a certain amount of time? I would have liked to see that in this version. Speaking of removed things: not sure how I feel about the part at the beginning where it's normally the rainfall/brick wall obstacle being replaced in the way it was. Its changed version is equally as tedious, in my opinion.
The Stopwatch was also removed as a subweapon. I can understand why - it made some fights very trivial. The fleamen... lol they're just so excited to be there, hopping around in a giddy, non-threatening way. The bridge connecting to Dracula's castle was much easier than the original. I didn't feel like one wrong move and I'd plummet to my death.
Dracula's coffin room has changed - poor Selena is laid out on top of Dracula's coffin, unconscious! She isn't present during the fight in the original game.
When Dracula's second form appeared I literally gasped out loud. It was totally unexpected! And to have Selena be part of the fight (floating behind) was a really nice touch.
Hahahah when I first played I didn't realize I could catch Selena after the fight ended. I let her fall to the ground (which was VERY funny to watch) thinking a cutscene would play... it's only when I watched someone play it on YouTube I realized that you can have Simon stand under her and he'll catch her in his arms. (I played it a second time just to make sure I caught her. I'm going to have to draw this... my dear OTP... I'm so df djfbgdfjfg)
Like the first cutscene, the final cutscene felt a little awkward, too. And Selena has blonde hair on her cutscene sprite, as opposed to the purple in-game sprite? She's so pretty, though. Q_Q Can't be mad about that.
Overall the vibe of this game is really amazing. When I first played The Adventure ReBirth, I thought to myself that it was a really amazing way to handle a Classicvania remaster. At the time, I told my spouse that I would love to get a new Castlevania entry--or another remake--of that style. Konami delivered in one of my very favorite titles. I'm so happy!!
Highly recommend this remake. Solid 9/10 from me.
( If you're feeling brave, try the original, too. ;) )
#imagine my surprise this morning as im in the kitchen making coffee and getting ready for my work day#my spouse is watching the Nintendo Direct in our living room#they go “BABE HAUNTED CASTLE REMAKE”#and my immediate reply is “you're fucking lying they'd never remake haunted castle don't pull my leg”#and they were like “NO IM BEING COMPLETELY SERIOUS COME HERE QUICKLY”#so i hurry over and proceed to lose my marbles#screenshots are from a youtube video btw
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Idk if it’s just because i’m not wearing my glasses and its late but i think that the humidity stain on my ceiling kinda looks like jerma
#i always see different things in there but never seen jerma#the stain was caused bc there was a hole in our roof#plus i have a humidity problem in my room lol#it’s kinda fixed tho so all good#might be mold actually#not black mold#jerma985#i think#jermaposting#jermacore#jerma#humidity#sun's (almost) coherent thoughts
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“they would never get together” this “they would hate eachother” that!what happened to shipping two people who have never even been in the same room! why do ships have to make sense now! who cares! we used to be a proper country!
#that ship would never work out so you’re embarrassing for shipping it#shut upppp#let me ship these two characters who aren’t even in the same universe in peace#let me ship these two characters who seemingly hate eachother in peace#since when did canon matter!!!#isn’t the point of fanfic to see whatever your imagination sees fit??!#i don’t care if they will never meet eachother#i want to imagine them in a room together being cute#ao3#archive of our own#fan fiction#fanfic#fandom#my post#fairytwles diary
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Ooh, you want to know what happens at the gay bar run by ex-pirates, ooh...You'll just have to read Tiger Tiger to find out...
(Inspired by this Disco Elysium comic)
#tiger tiger#remy bonnaire#Arno#jamis arlesi#f slur mention#(Remy is allowed to say it. Jury is still out on Jamis though.)#I love that disco elyisum comic so much. I have it saved in several places so I can find it to show people. I lost it once. Never. Again.#Hard lesson about redrawing/heavily referencing a beloved comic is that you will feel so inferior to its genius.#I did my best but I feel like I didn't hit the high notes I wanted. Such is art!#At the end of the day I have to remind myself that I'm still on a journey and not every piece is going to be my best.#Yeah I'm still on my Tigers propagana train. Toot Toot. All abord or perish to the Tigers.#I hear tigers are running the Olympics this year. That's right. It's tigers all the way down.#Obscure references aside; time to talk tigers spoilers:#I was absolutely losing my mind at Remy taking Jamis to the Starfall. He did *not* expect to be in a gay bar.#Jamis is our beloved bisexual lad but I don't think he's fully in tune with it yet.#How down right unfortunate that he is also the hottest cub in the room. Will he realize? What will he realize? Who Knows!#Thank you to everyone who checked out Tiger Tiger from my recommendations!#And thank you to my fellow Tigers fans for receiving my comics with open arms. Next comic will be about Rat Man.
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This but make it jarthur
#masked#private eyes#jarthur#god Arthur grabbing John and pulling him into the room#being the one to push against the wall#John giving just a hint of a nod cause he’s never wanted to be kissed by someone more in his life than in that moment#they kiss like its the first time#they kiss like its the last time#they kiss like they’re going to devour each other#its all too much and not enough#Kayne can sing la ve en rose#or Oscar#whatever suits your fancy#but there’s fireworks#and also…. fireworks 😏#look I miss our flag means death#might as well project onto my other ships#I still think about this kiss like…. once a day
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Exciting update on the "Making the House Awesome" front:
(The cat has already tried to use the mock-stonework as a scratching post, but not the door, which actually looks like wood. Cat logic.)
Anyways, this is looking great, and we're very excited.
#a tree; an enchanted doorway/portal (LOTR style); and a castle door#previously known as an unassuming wall; a closet door; and the door to the garage#the stonework turned out great#it didn't fight us nearly as much as the door decal did#and we had lots leftover so that's going in the kitchen too#our house has been declared 'nerd goals' by friends#which is the highest of praise#this is the kind of thing we wanted to do years ago when we first moved in#but never got around to#eternal thanks to the friend who's helping me make it happen now#we will all get to play D&D in a properly atmospheric room now#Making the House Awesome#may you all get to make your homes similarly cool#in the way that sparks the most joy
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*whispers*
Also, okay, despite the fact I disagree on the “physical strength and combat” and “emotionlessness” bit that whoever wrote the Tech entry in that new Clone reference book put down (I think the people who write the reference books tend to not always watch everything closely, and that people use “emotions” to refer to emoting, not internalized feelings, which is kind of annoying but in any case) I am looking at the wording of, “would give anything for those he cared about—even his life.” Because. That still doesn’t say Tech is dead. Still. Tech would die for the people he loves. That’s inarguable. That’s been inarguable since “Ruins of War.” Whether or not he died, though—that’s the part that still isn’t clear.
#the bad batch#like obviously they’re not going to spoil that he’s alive in a reference book most people won’t read#but it’s the way it says something that is true#but remains wholly separate from whether or not he died#it’s been over a year and a half of he’s never coming back there’s no reason to talk around it#like#come on#where’s our guy#the really weird thing is that if this is a ridiculously extended fakeout#fakeouts usually are treated like actual character deaths *out of universe*#its ’yep totally dead as a doornail* in interviews until the come back#this is just been a solid wall of euphemisms#that leave wiggle room#which is honestly very frustrating and is#I think#the worst part of this#but anyway#still has me looking#I don’t think the author knows anything at all#I just suspect ‘died on Eriadu’ is forbidden for. Reasons#being alive reasons but anyway#secrets of the clones spoilers
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