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How do you feel about TSAMS ships? All the way from Earth x Monty (canon/generally liked ships) to Sun x Bloodmoon (not canon/rare or generally not liked ships)?
Don't ask how I know Sun x Bloodmoon exists btw
Ooh, SAMS ships eh? Iâm gonna list all the ones I know about, if I miss one youâre curious about just let me know, k?
Again, I will list the ones I know about.
(This is gonna reveal my lurking habits on ao3 god fucâ)
Mearth, Monty X Earth - cute, I like the dynamic they have.
KidsCove, Foxy X Sun - I like this one. I do. I understand the vas are sick of the jokes tho, bit ironic considering theyâre still dragging the jokes around, but oh well. It could be cute to see develop, and lead to improvement to both characters general health. At least Iâd like to think it would
GlitterGolf, Monty X Sun - in SAMS? No. Monty is a jerk towards Sun, I donât like it when Monty is too rude to him. Generally hate that type of thing anyways. In canon Security Breach howeverâŚâŚ Ye :3 Is my otp.
Lumini, Lunar X Gemini - I feel neutral. Itâd be cool if it happened, but after all these three have gone through it probably wonât. And Iâm fine with that
EclipseXSun - I think this is the most popular one. I donât know how to feel about it. On one hand, thereâs canon, and canon says Eclipse is and always was horrible to Sun, and that makes it an immediate no. I like my ships healthy. But then comes in Eclipse Redemption stories, and I suppose itâd kinda make sense in those? I donât know man
BloodySun, BM X Sun - iiiii donât knooooooow. See, BM has done a lot of shit, theyâve traumatized the family so much. Sun hates them. It would never work out. But then thereâs this one fic, this one, where Sun finds Original crying in the vents over his twin, and he helps them. Andâ andâ and itâs a BloodySun fic, and it establishes character parallels so well, it shows their feelings so well, it makes it make sense! I- I donât KNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOW
SolarMoon- âŚâŚâŚâŚâŚ. Iâm scared of saying anything about this, I donât want to get death threats
MechShark, Solar X Ruin- YEEEEEEEAHHH CANON CANNOT HURT ME WHERE IM GOINGâ uhâ ahemâ I like it. I cannot explain why but Iâve shipped them since Ruin started messing with the arcade machines. I like to see people still shipping it even through the doomed angle, thereâs just something about this that makes it click, yâknow. I myself have an au where MechShark is somewhat canon, itâs one sided and stays one sided, with Solar telling Ruin heâs aro when it confesses, and then they stay friends. Because I donât care if theyâre lovers or friends, I just like the idea of them being buds.
Eclipse trio, Eclipse X Solar X Ruin- this is actually kinda funny? I donât know, this feels like a crackship, no offense to anyone, thatâs just the vibes Iâm getting. Donât feel in any particular way about this one
Earth X Nebula- interesting, I guess. We havenât really seen much of Nebula and I canât really build a concrete profile for her from what we know, but I guess itâd be cool?
KillCode X Sun- I donât like the sound of this one. KillCode caused (and helped cause) Sun a lot of trauma, it just wouldnât feel right. That said, there is a fic that has this ship and develops it in a healthy way, and that one I like.
PumpkinGuts- next question
KillCode X SolarFlare- I can see it, kinda. Donât hate it, but also donât love it
Eclipse X Moon- no. I donât care what you say about enemies to lovers, this one just doesnât vibe with me.
GolfDrop, Monty X Moon- ehh, no. Donât really like it, canât see Moon wanting a relationship with them (or in general), theyâre both fine as friends. I donât even ship this in Security Breach
Forkface X Ruined Monty- I am saddened I didnât see the content of them before the death, I wanted to experience this, I wanted to see them :(
Soppet, Solar X Puppet- sure? Donât think much about this one
ShadowPlanet, Earth X Eclipse- I donât really like it. I donât like how fast it turned into a thing. I can see the appeal and what dynamic they could have, but I just donât like this one
Solar X Sun- interesting pairing. Donât particularly like it. I just feel like Solarâs trauma would likely get in the way. They both werenât very close anyways, which is a real shame I wouldâve loved to see them be at least friends.
Lunar X Helpy- Ehhhh? Donât feel anything about this one :P
And thatâs all I could think about and remember.
No hate to anyone who ships these, these are just my opinions, and opinions are subjective. Letâs all just have fun with these characters, yeah?
Man
AO3 scares me
#ask#sun and moon show#tsams#sams#shipping related#not tagging everyone#Iâm tired#no really Iâm sleepy-tired#tell me if thereâs any i missed and ya want#imma be honest#my views on shipping have been forever ruined by an old fandom of mine#you know the fandom#probably#there was just so much debate#and so much content#I saw things#I saw many things#ânyways imma go sleep now k? k#oh and please donât kill me#these are opinions#of mine#you know subjective#like the vibes I feel#donât get mad at me#please#Iâm sorry if we donât agree on something#not everyone has to agree on everything!#letâs just enjoy the lanky jester twinks show#please?
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"jason is a knockoff watered down percy" NO hear me out, jason actually parallels annabeth immensely, sharing SO many similarities with her personality, not percy, in this essay I will-
edit: my full analysis is out now! here
#just adding that I think jason and annabeth are similar BUT they are SEPARATE characters with separate personalities ââ#and i don't think jason is anyone's knockoff!! so don't misunderstand me guys!#trust me ik how it feels like to have jason getting mischaracterized so I would never do that!#when I read about jason the first time I'm like wow he's gentler but similar to annabeth chase wow he could be her twin#they are both genuinely interested in learning stuff. they both mansplain and geek. they are both misunderstood as conceding when they do#they love getting involved in debates and discussions. they both have designed temples assigned to them by the gods themselves#they are both seen as 'scary and intimidating' when they're just softies who need love. they are both overthinkers with too many plans#they are both soft for ppl w silly humor. they both kinda give off an untrustworthy vibe at first bc they know too much info#they are both also pretty suspicious and don't trust immediately. they both love architecture. they both have a 'cold icy' stare#also they're both TALL#I could keep going on and on for ages actually#pjo#pjo fandom#percy jackson#jason grace#pjo series#pjo hoo toa#pjo hoo#annabeth chase
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Being a âFun Fact !â kind of autistic is all fun and games until you get halfway through sharing an interesting tidbit and realize that it probably wasnât appropriate to share in polite company and now you have to deal with the consequences :(
#autism#neurodivergent#adhd#fun facts#GOD Iâm such an idiot#anyways now a 10 year old is out there looking up swear words online and itâs all my fault :(#I got so excited by the fact that I knew a fun fact#that I didnât stop to think that maybe not everyone knows that fun fact for a reason :(#itâs like explaining how to successfully bury a body at a book club#or explaining the dangers of Scientology to your sisterâs boyfriend the first time you meet him#or debating gay sex positions with your best friend in front of your mom#no matter how much I wish to be a beacon of knowledge in this world#sometimes there are things others just donât want to know#and consciously thatâs valid but the autism ? I does not care
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I don't like this place. It's turning everyone edgy and sad.
FIRST - PREVIOUS - NEXT
MASTERPOST (for the full series / FAQ / reference sheets)
#undertale#deltarune#crossover#utdr#crossover comic#twin runes comic#twin runes au#my art#art#susie deltarune#chara#this will ignite the âchara did nothing wrongâ vs âchara is a murder hoboâ debate I just know it#fact is they gave up everything for their plan to succeed and asriel blew it#HOWEVER they were also forced to watch asriel die and they could do nothing about it#so what does a dead child do for who knows how many years all alone with no one else to talk to?#they rethink everthying that went wrong#guilt is a weird thing that lingers and festers in your mind#no matter how much you're actually at fault#I mean come on... they were an abused kid#all they wanted was to not hurt anymore and return the love they were given no matter the cost#but now they are CONVINCED it was their plan that kickstarted this whole mess#and it's eating at them#you can see it because they actually used contractions for once#i love subtle stuff like that#also hey#susie's feeling remorse for her whole âchara offed asrielâ comment#the two are more alike than she thought and now she feels bad#out of all people she should know what it's like to be falsely accused
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Jason's been pestering Danny about why he looks like a borderline walking corpse for ages and Danny has decided to put his lying skills to the test. (he has none)
rambling below cut
I've been playing w the idea that the more Danny transforms, the more his ghost form gets "lively" while his human form gets weaker and more sickly. He knows that if he keeps transforming like this then, one day, he's not going to have a livable body to go back to, but he really doesn't want to think about all that. He's more interested in the weird "totally dead but not dead" Wayne son who may or may not have a thing for his sister.
everytime i do one these im like "this time I'll keep it simple so I don't have to suffer through colouring bc I have zero foresightâit'll be greyscale at most" and then all of the sudden its 4am and i'm trying to finish a stupid comic but i decided to add "some" colour to spice it up and hide my shitty ink job and then SOME COLOUR ALWAYS BECOMES FULL COLOUR WHY CAN I NOT ESCAPE THIS STUPID CYCLE!!
(did this all stem from me not being able to decide between a super pale character design and one w a vibrant tan bc I love white hair + tan but I also love extremely pale albino so I forced myself to find a way to make both work? never! that's absurd!)
#digital art#artists on tumblr#fanart#illustration#comic#danny phantom fanart#danny fenton#danny phantom#dc x dp#dc x dp crossover#dc x dp fanart#if u couldn't tell from the rambles#i ended up colouring this comic bc of the stupid transition at the beginning#the things i do for a silly transition#they bring me joy#and oh so much frustration#as a multishipper i find it really hard to put ships in aus like this#im still debating whether imma have anger management in this or not#cause im down for the chaos they would bring as both platonic and romantic#also Danny is sus of Jason bc he thinks hes trying to get w Jazz#Jasons sus of the Fentons Jazz is so nice its suspicious and Danny just radiates uncanny valley#my art#my comic#dp x dc#psychiatrist Jazz au
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Currently, my favorite potential Forgettable!AU Gaster and Papyrus dynamic:
My personal favorite interpretation of what Papyrus and Gasters relationship (whether it be (grand)father/son, or just mentor and trainee) would be like, is them both being equally as enthusiastic about everything, and in general just matching each others energy 100% đ ITS SO AMAZING ITS ALWAYS A TREAT WHEN A COMIC PORTRAYS THEM AS SUCH
âGASTER!!!!â âPAPYRUS!!!â âGUESS WHAT I DID TODAY!!!!â âWHAT DID YOU DO MY SON?????â âI FINISHED THAT PUZZLE I WAS WORKING ON!!!â âOH MY GOD!!! I AM SO PROUD OF YOU!!!! GIVE IT TO ME RIGHT NOW!!!!â
and sans sitting on the couch like: :)
Its just so pureâŚ.
SO ANYWHO, taking that dynamic and shoving it into this AU is currently my favorite thing to think about
Then its even better with Wingdings being canonically unnerved by Papyrus, and being (ID IMAGINE) not too thrilled with being in the same room as Gaster for too long.
I wanna make a Seinfeld ass sitcom series of all 3 of them living in an apartment together and also Sans and/or Alphys visits periodically
Gaster and Papyrus are like staring daggers at the newspaper puzzles tryna solve em, and Wingdings comes in all tired with a cup of coffee and as heâs about to greet them they both go âSHH!!!â
Theyâd kinda be like Spongebob, Patrick, and Squidward
There would be a running gag where they would always find clearly unintentional hidden messages in the horoscope because of the letters that they correspond to in the wingdings font
Gaster would just randomly talk in like jokerman font because he can
LET ME COOK đđđđ id go on. And i probably will on my shitpost account
They should all have a group name like- âPapyrus and Coâ or âThe Three Skeleclonesâ
#I love them all so much all for very different reasons#seriously debating making a short comic#sans would come in and wingdings thinks hes gonna resolve the conflict#thats been going on the entire episode#but he just makes it so much worse#and wd has to call alphys who fucks up so bad it brings them all closer and ends up resolving everything#LET ME COOK#oh yeah and im writing all of this COMPLETELY ignoring how impossible it would be for any of this to happen#LIKE MAYBE GASTER AND PAPYRUS#OR GASTER AND WINGDINGS#not Papyrus and Wingdings#if that happens in the comics id be shocked#cause as far as I know#dead people cant talk to their replacements#EY IM OPEN TO IT IF IT HAPPENS#i just dunno how
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EDIT: someone wrote a fic based off of this and im holding you all at gun point to read it rn
i did noooottt mean for this to be as long as it is lmao!! I LOVE THESE PINK BITCHES !!!!!
and their. questionable father
#dreamworks trolls#trolls band together#trolls#viva#poppy#doodling#ive been debating whether i should write fic or draw comics bc the royal pop fam has been invading my brain ever since#i watched the movies. but i decided i do what i want so why not both#. so maybe expect something similar in ao3 if i ever get off my butt to finish that#OR MORE COMICS YIPPIEEEEEE#its also so funny bc i did write this first but then shit just got longer the more i worked on it I YAP TOO MUCH SO FUCK IT THE SISTERS#DO TOO
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me? i guess i was a shoulder to cry on
#any mel slander is instant block my queen didnât do anything wrong ever pls donât take this as Mel slander my life will b over#itâs meljayvik if you squint#or maybe Iâm just insane#I love all three of them so much OUGH#arcane#arcane fanart#viktor arcane#jayce talis#mel medarda#jayvik#jaymel#meljay#meljayvik kindaaaa not really#on insta I have this captioned as he want that cookie so bad#the cookie in question is up for debate#last Christmas redraw
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the dark sbi server had another secret santa this year, this was my gift :}
bit of lore i couldnt add bc it would be ten pages longer:
neapolitan trio are demon brothers, phil is their demon dad. techno is the oldest, and he was taken years ago by evil angels or smth idk, he had his memories supressed and for the longest time thought he was human and joined the war on the angelic forces's side.
tommy and wil are tasked to get him back, and tommy does so first, but he wants some time with his brother who is always busy!! so he pretends to be a human child and follows him around. techno grows fond of him and wants to protect him.
wilbur eventually finds him and tommy refuses to give him victory, so the gig is up!!
techno does spend more time with tommy later on ^-^
#debated a lot whether i post this or just leave it for the people of the server but tbh i havent posted much of anything in quite some time#so here it is#dark sbi#bedrock bros#technoblade#tommyinnit#wilbur soot#secret santa#dark bedrock bros#sbi#my art#tommyinnit fanart#technoblade fanart#wilbur soot fanart#comic#this started as a techno as a warlock idea#refusing tommy's deal#until he was against a sword and a hard place#which is why the sixth page has that composition
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âcould he daily feel a stab of hunger for you and find nourishment at the very sight of you?â is such a romantic line because despite cannibalism sustaining the illusion that hannibal can control everything and determine outcomes and reverse time, loving will has changed him so drastically that instead of consuming will, will consumes him. and hannibal hungers for him, yearns and aches for him, but is content to just exist near him. to stay in his orbit somehow, if only will allows it. hannibal, who needs to cannibalise others to stay in power, finds nourishment just by looking at will. he loves him so profoundly that he could be imprisoned forever and still it would be better than knowing he might never see will again. it sates him more than eating the pigs beneath him. in will, he finds religion
#no wonder will broke him out of prison#if he was uncertain before he wasnât after hearing that#and for some reason people tend to edit that line out so that bedelia just answers yes??#like I know itâs because itâs a roundabout way of saying heâs in love with you#and vague enough to be debatable#EXCEPT IT ISNâT#ITâS SO MUCH MORE ROMANTIC THAN SIMPLY SAYING YES#CONSIDER THE IMPLICATIONS#losing my goddamn MIND#nbc hannibal#hannibal#will graham#hannigram#hannibal meta#ghost speaks
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my new zine about queer ecology! researching this taught me that nature is cool af.
available in my shop soon :)
#zine#queer ecology#artists on tumblr#natue#zinemaking#zinestar#illustration#digital art#zines#art#artwork#theartofmadeline#really really happy with how this turned out!!#debated for awhile about where I wanted to just share a preview or the whole thing#but ultimately I researched this topic to share it!!!#and it was so much fun#anyways these should be in my shop next week!!#i hope they print cute#informational#queer#lgbt#lgbtq
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To the âthemes I am picking up on in Veilguardâ list, let's go ahead and add what I have a sneaking suspicion will actually turn out to be The theme:
â the world has changed and can never be as it was again.
â I have been changed and can never be who I was again.
â in this simple unavoidable truth there is endless grief and endless hope.
And I⌠may be getting a bit emotional about it haha. Let me show my work a bit:Â
if da:o is a game about people who are already dead or half ghosts in some form (through societal forces, psychologically, functionally, literally, in body, through the joining etc.) coming together anyway to save the world from being swallowed by total nihilism and despair (symbolized by the blight) through the power of love and friendship and also this sword/potential heroic sacrifice that I found, da2 is a game about people who have lost their homes and been set adrift finding and building new homes in each other (while completely failing to save the world. also through the power of love and friendship. as well as years of petty bickering <3 we must imagine kirkwall if not happy then worth having been because the love was there the love was there and that's the only sanctifying force we can ever have in this doomed world and city of ours), and da:i is a game about old stabilizing-but-unjust comfortable lies vs. disruptive but potentially liberating uncomfortable truths, and the power of friendship to help us distinguish the one from the other and navigate through them...
folks⌠I'm starting to think that veilguard might be a game specifically about moving towards recovery and acceptance after trauma â about how even in this flawed, severed, scarred state, what is here right now is worth loving and worth caring for. even in an imperfect and impermanent world and self, there is worth and joy. and of course the first real tragedy â and threat â of Solas is that he just cannot find it in himself to accept this and move on, to let go of what was, the regret wonât let him go or he wonât let go of it. which means that even though on the surface itâs Elgarânan and Ghilanânain (and the will to subjugate and violate they represent) who are the main villains, the real antagonistic force in this story beneath that is the Dread Wolfâs despair. A despair Rook must make an answer to by the end of the game, one way or another, compassionately or with righteous fury, triumphant or pyrrhic.
The world will change again and again and so will you â BUT the crucial element is that so will everyone else who exists along with you, you are fundamentally not alone in this existential truth. all weâll ever have is each other and my god that is plenty, my god that is enough!!! Which is the second thing Solas just canât accept, he keeps himself separate and completely alone out of an awful mix of fear and pride and feeling himself unworthy of anything else. Rook and the player want to save the world of Thedas because itâs where everyone we love lives, Solas wants to go back to the past because thatâs the only neighbourhood where he can still visit those he loved â and the person he himself was, before. A very sympathetic and human instinct/trap to fall into when touched by trauma, I think, if only it wasnât backed by godlike power, a fundamentally oppositional personality, and a catastrophic lack of therapy to make it literally everyone elseâs problem too lol. Itâs varric and solasâ banter about the man on the island and where meaning in a life comes from all over again, writ large and with detail work â and the added idea of âwhat if there are also other islands out there, though. With other people on them that you could find if you reach for each otherâ. Rook with the best of intentions has to make choices to which there are no perfect outcomes and live with what happens â and not cut themselves off from everyone else around them even when there is regret or shame. You get back up every day and you make a life with other people doing the same and you do your best, and thatâs the only victory this world will give you. In the end, that is more than enough, that is essential. And I um. I love that. So much. Itâs why some of the writing clumsiness on top canât hurt me because this thematic spine is so solid and so beautiful to me. Itâs DA2 all over again that way for me personally â I forgive this story for what it isnât and couldnât be, and I love it with my whole stupid open heart for what it actually is. Thank you for coming to my TED-talk and goodbye etc.     Â
(For my fellow TLT heads out there â you know what this story is reminding me of most of all, actually? It has some big Nona the Ninth vibes down there in the deep. Itâs about⌠the horror and unspeakable beauty that can only be found in liminality, and the role of love in making that basic fact of existence bearable. And also even more unbearable at the same time. I'm so sorry.)
#I told you all I was going to be extremely myself about this. I suppose we all hoped I was joking. even while knowing I was not#dragon age#dragon age: the veilguard spoilers#dragon age spoilers#dragon age: the veilguard#dragon age meta#solas#varric tethras#anyway. at the end of the day and despite everything varric won the 'I told you so chuckles' rights over solas in this philosophical debate#and isn't that enough in a way. I think so. the world and the story of the world is his legacy. people get to keep telling it#I want to say so much about how each of the companions play into the different aspects of this theme but I should uh#probably finish the game properly first haha#guys I literally opened my eyes this morning and wrote out most of this before even getting up. the pressure cooker brain is back#the lone brain cell in here boileth over with dragon age feels & thoughts#very little sends me deranged quite like this series I'm afraid. I'm just still so relieved that even if this story isn't for everyone.#it is for me. thank god. I needed it
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OUTER BANKS 2.03, âPrayersâ
#jarahedit#obxedit#john b x sarah#jarah b#jarah#obx#tvedit#outer banks#outerbanksedit#john b routledge#sarah cameron#sarah routledge#usercassidy#addys-beth#*#i love them so much it's just jarah and i against the world#i've debated posting this for months bc i hate how it looks but yk whatever#obx and it's shitty lighting 4ever
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I went to the eye doctor's yesterday and I, an adopted person, always feel like "oh no I'm failing the interaction" for some reason by not being able to relate. HOWEVER, I got praised for having common sense so it works out.
#fe three houses#marianne von edmund#hanneman von essar#i really debated if i should draw the interaction or not#then debated with what fandom and then was like you know what#i just played some thropes and marriane said the my adoptive father line so lets go marianne adopted buddies#also i cant stop thinking about how southern the man was when he repeated OH YES MY DOG#like yeah im in the south usa but bro that was SO much southern drawl
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Armand + "Bad Faith"
Sartre explained: From bad faith to authenticity, David Detmer // Interview with the Vampire // Being and Nothingness, Jean-Paul Sartre
[part one]
#my contribution to the 'does armand know he's a bad person?' debate#I think on some level yes#he's obviously lying about having no agency#but I don't think it always *feels* like a lie to him#and so much of armand's identity is built on the narrative of his own victimhood (both genuine and perceived)#to take responsibility would completely destabilize his sense of self#so i see the denial as self-protective#in the same way armand convinces himself that louis has forgiven him/didn't stay with him to spite lestat#it's bad faith!#iwtv#iwtv amc#interview with the vampire#armand#loumand#jean paul sartre#parallels#my post#also... it's so so essential that I could make an identical post about louis 'he's the love of my life' du pointe du lac#tbh I don't think either of them are particularly convincing liars#they're both just equally invested in this self-deceptive story about the life they've built together
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I genuinely don't think Curly would be as caring for Jimmy as some people depict him in aus where Jimmy gets stuck and burned rather than Curly.
I feel like the realization would truly hit in that moment of what Jimmy did and how bad it was as Curly desperately tries to get him out of the cockpit. He's trying to break in to save Jimmy, but is he? All the thoughts in his head; Jimmy's trying to kill them all, Jimmy's trapped in the cockpit, Jimmy raped Anya, Jimmy's going to die trapped in the cockpit, Jimmy trying to kill them all because of what he did to Anya, and sort of a final Jimmy did this. Is he trying to save him or trying to figure out why? Trying to finally make him take accountability? You can't hold trial for a dead man. Does he want Jimmy to die? Not really, but it'd be easier than figuring out where they go after this. After they drag him out and get his set up in medical and Jimmy refuses to look at anyone but him.
He's the only one who is truly willing to care for Jimmy. I don't think he's keeping him alive for the same reasons, just he can't bring himself to put him down. He wants answers, he wants to be mad. This is the first time he can talk to Jimmy and not have anything spun back at him but he can't get a response. He's never really been able to but for the first time Jimmy actually has to listen and he'll never know if he's actually listening to him this time. It reminds him too much of not understanding Anya. Anya has to care for him and he doesn't want her too, she shouldn't have to but they can't just let him die, can they? Should they? It's easier than hearing him in pain but that's a reminder he did this... even if Curly allowed it to happen.
No one seems to have thoughts on it but him and Anya. They know the reason he crashed the ship but they don't get the logic. Anya does actually, but Curly has to admit he does to. Has to admit he's always known Jimmy's logic behind things, things that need to be "fixed" but he's always taken responsibility and fixed it himself. The first time he really let Jimmy take responsibility and he couldn't, he can't fix anything and Curly know he can't either. He looks at Jimmy and sees every mistake but now he's wondering how many of Jimmy's he's been tacking on to his own. How different are they?
What should he had done to stop it? Maybe this should've happened to him...
Curly doesn't like those thoughts and how they only come when he's stuck with Jimmy, like he's always done to himself. He's way too gentle when he gives Jimmy his pills, too mindful of teeth that always gave him hollow smiles. A tongue that always told half truths, while he held his own. He holds his jaw too kindly and thinks about all the times he's clenched his and smiled for his friends sake. For Jimmy's sake. Jimmy still swallows the pills and struggles, whines like it's not his fault.
He hoped it hurt.
And he's a little scared that he's a little too okay thinking that.
#just i dont think hed sit and that med bay and remines hes staring Jimmy down with anger for the first time in their friendship#whatever tatters of it are left hes letting himself be angry at Jimmy and he cant even give a consequence he doesn't even know how aware or#lucid or able Jimmy is to really grasp all this the sentimental part of him hopes not at all but the part of him thats taken his crap for#all these years that let him get away with so much to him and sadly to others? He wants him awake and aware for every moment like I feel#like hed get close to hitting Jimmy like this and stop himself as he realizes he needs to talk to someone cause he has very no healthy#feelings about himself and Jimmy and the situation and the whole scenerio is defined by him being scared to do the same things that Jimmy#does and just trying to accept that Jimmy was never there for him and he was there for him too much and trying really hard to do right by#everyone else but espcially Anya who'd he have more guilt about than Jimmy obvi but how much of it is him taking responsibility for Jimmy v#the already extreme guilt of not knowing if his crew will get out alive is debatable like he'd want to kill himself but not think he's#deserving and its just him being like okay guys captain curly's got this and then crying while he locks himself in the cockpit#mouthwashing#mouthwashing game#captain curly#curly mouthwashing#anya mouthwashing#nurse anya#jimmy mouthwashing
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