#also i cant stop thinking about how southern the man was when he repeated OH YES MY DOG

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I went to the eye doctor's yesterday and I, an adopted person, always feel like "oh no I'm failing the interaction" for some reason by not being able to relate. HOWEVER, I got praised for having common sense so it works out.

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AIGHT SO I’m like super high on caffeine and chocolate rn so I mighty write a lil Christmas one shot (it’s still December let me be pft)

But first a lil song I found a few days ago and has been stuck in my head ñon stop!

It’s from a musical called 35MM, they make up songs and stories from photos this one guy took, they’re amazing!

The song of called “Leave Luannne”

Warnings! There are mentions of abuse, r*pe, and such! So if you feel uncomfortable by that please don’t read this!

Now on to the song;:

Luanne's fat lip is drying, The bastard's bacon frying, The shiner on her eye's gone bust and bleeding. He shouts, "Girl, set the table!" But he knows she ain't able. Her arm's done broke, Hung limp like yolk,

AHHH we get the picture pretty clear from the beginning. i can always imagine Luanne on the floor, all bruised up and close to tears....

And softly she's repeating...

"Leave, Luanne. Why don't you march out that door? Southern woman, he ain't no good to you. Leave, Luanne. Louisiana wants war, But it's you dying on her ruby plains."

And yet, loyal Luanne remains. Ever since he got him laid off, His sanity's just made off. No, he was never nice, but now he's cruel.

So first, ahhhhfhrjehrn THE VIOLINS ARE AMAZING AND THE VOCALS TOO also we can see why Luanne doesnt leave the dude. I can see her internal debate, telling herself to leave but not being able to.

He rapes her, and he beats her, She don't 'fess how he treats her, 'Cause a Bible verse Says it won't get worse, And she won't be a fool. "You won't never leave, Luanne,

And then theres this part about the bible, i dont exactly know what verse theyre talking about, but we see that Luanne is super religious, which makes her internal debate even harder. Should she leave or stay? She has been taught probably her whole life with that idea, and probably doesnt want to end up in hell due to her beliefs and what she’s been told.

'Cause if you walk out that door His truck will be gunning for you.

No, you won't leave, Luanne, Or he'll give you 'What for?' You got heart where you should have had brains."

This part always makes me sad bc Luanne may still love that asshole, which sucks, but she still does and is pretty loyal to him makes it even harder for her to make a decision too

And so, loyal Luanne remains. Someone's howling, Screams like sighing with battered breath Grating, growling, Never dying In a fate worse than death. But months of such conditions Turn laymen to logicians And tonight the bastard's sleeping like a log. So she plucks the kitchen cleaver,

Creeps up toward his roped-up lab retriever,

DUDE I THOUGHT SHE WAS GONNA KILL THE DOG AND I ALMOST CRIEDD AHHH

AND THE VIOLINS MAKE THE TENSION AMAZING. It makes you so nervous about whats going to happen. You can imagine Luanne finally making a decision, tired of everything. Its dark at night and she slowly makes her way to the kitchen, trying so quietly to not wake him up.

And she cuts the rope, And hope on hope, She starts to shout, "Your dog's got out!" She's got her chance. With no back glance She runs out to the bog, Screaming, screaming: "Leave, Luanne!" "Leave, Luanne. You've got a life left to live In a house hanging off the Golden Coast! Leave, Luanne. You won't forget nor forgive, " And she don't feel the stings, the rips, and scrapes As finally Luanne escapes.

And the way you can FEEL the tension, the way you can see her running and your heart starts speeding up, wishing she can escape, that she can lead a better and happier life, shes doing her best, not feeling the pain. You can tell how desperate she is. You can see her running through the woods, leaves and branches getting tangled in her hair, sometimes cutting her, but she still keeps going due through sheer determination, ignoring how her feet hurt and how much shes running out of breath. All the way through shes making a promise to herself, that she will NEVER let go what the asshole did to her.

Swim, Luanne! Swim, Luanne! And in the swamp of beeches, Oh, as the preacher preaches, As the light In the night Holds through the marsh and brushes As the blood inside you rushes Left and right, Hold on tight—

And then you can feel the hope, the relief that she has managed to get out, the violins making a sort of country dancey song (?) pft and youre like YAS GIRL RUN AND LIVDE YOUR LIFE its amazing, its so happy from the depressing music we heard before, Luanne gets out of the place, some people help her, she becomes happy again, meeting people and dancing all night at parties, maybe she even finds someone new and starts dating them, having a new life with someone who loves her....but then....

—Until you reach the bank And you crawl onto the bank, 'Til you feel a little yank on your hair And, stricken, stare at the bastard Who beat you there.

DUDE THIS PART. THIS. PART. I CANNOT EXPRESS THE WAY MY HEART BROKE. YOU JUST START FEELING THAT EVERYTHING IS ALRUGHT, THAT SHES MADE IT, ONLY TO FIND THT THE BASTARD FUCKING MADE IT BEFORE HER. AH DUDE. THE INSTRUMENTS. THE WAY YOU CAN FEEL THE SADNESS IN THE SINGERS VOICE. AND THE WAY IT GETS SET UP, OH BOY I DIDNT, I LITERALLY SCREECHED THE FIRST TIME I HEARD IT. I SERIOUSLY CANT EXPLAIN HOW GENIUS THIS IS SO FREAKING AHH THE GUITAR, THE VIOLINS JESUS CHRIST

the guy just yanks her hair and gives her a horrible smirk, and Luanna can only look in horror, her heart breaking and all her dreams vanishing as she realizes that she...she didnt make it.

The bastard lies in bed now, Half-sad his wife is dead now. She drowned herself in a swamp in wild despair.

I actually want to know wether if he killed her, or if she killed herself. To make it more angsty i like to think she actually drowned herlsef, because its so heartbreaking to see how her hopes die and she just...gives up. Gosh its so friggen, ahhhh. Once Luanne sees the guy she shrieks and tries to pull away, falling backwards. Either the bastard hit her, or something but she ends up  being paralyzed and unable to move. She reacts desperatly but the bastard refuses to help, and then she slowly gives up, letting the water fill her lungs, and slowly closing her eyes and accepting her faith.

He thinks he used to love her, But push it came to shove her, A wife disposed, A wife case closed, And no one seems to care,

DUDE THIS GUY AGHHH

And the violins are amazing. He doesnt care. No one knows shes dead. Luanne is left without no one there to remember her, to grieve her. Its just....so heartbreaking.

To grieve Luanne. Now no one's on his shoulder, But his mattress don't feel colder,

And in fact, it's hellish hot, and the air is dank and steaming. Yet his body starts to shiver When the window cracks a sliver And a fiery fog From the miry bog Pours in the room In a sticky gloom And there the man Sees dead Luanne.

DUUUUDE DUDE LISTEN TO THE VIOLINS HOLY DIDDLY FUCK GODDAMN THIS IS AMAZING LUANNE GO GET HIM GIRL. 

Luanne makes her way to the house, fulfilling her promise of getting her revenge, of not forgiving the asshole for everything he did. And then, when she gets there, dripping, the bastard only stares.

He's terrified, But he keeps his pride, 'Cause he knows that he ain't dreaming. And he starts screaming, "Leave, Luanne. Hell sent you back here for more, 'Cause ain't no one ever loved you."

THIS, THISSSSS. ITS BY FAR MY FAVORITE PART. When hes the one telling her to leave, when its HIM. Just- the nerve of this man. And i know i keep saying this byt LISTEN TO THE VIOLINS. They are perfect, the tension, the way they just- the way they make you feel, the way they always give you shivers and make you go oh fuck shits about to go down.

He is just cockily smirking trying to act as if hes not afraid. And then he has the audacity to tell her to LEAVE. The thing shes been trying to do for so long, but now...its too late. Her eyes widen in rage and she stands straight, lifting her chin and glaring at him.

But said Luanne, "I've come to settle a score, " And she shows him her feet are bound in chains.

Shes stuck there. But this time, the roles are reversed. This time Luanne will be the one feared. She will now hold the power.

And loyal Luanne remains And remains And remains And remains!

AND THE REMAINS. GOD ITS AMAZING, NOW INSTEAD OF LEAVING SHE JUST STAYS WHEN SHE WANTED TO LEAVE AND I- THE REMAINS MAKE IT SOUND SO FUCKING GOOD, IT SAYS SHE IS STILL LOYAL AHHH

I like to think that shes also got it stuck in her head that she cant leave, and shes now torturing the bastard by STAYING, the way it just changes fro, what it was at the beginning, HOLY SHIT AHH. And as the remains get louder she gets angrier and the room start getting hotter and hotter, and Luanne just smiles and you see the bastard cowering more and more in fear.

Someone's howling, Screams like sighing With battered breath. Grating, growling, Never dying In a fate worse than death. Luanne, She cries her miserable wail So the bastards will never sleep again!

And she is CRYING. Tears make their way down her face, crying and asking how dare he, why would he, all she wanted was to be happy.

No, no reprieve, Luanne, She brings their souls down to hell, A caution to the cruelest of men: God loves Luanne! Praised be! Amen!

The ending is so good, she gets her revenge, makes the guy regret what shes done. i always imagine the whole place setting in fire and Luanne getting angrier and angrier, thr bastard finally realizing what the hell hes actually done. This is amazing, i love this song so much. Not only the story but also the way you can imagine and feel everything. this song is so freaking good istg

Theyre in HELL. She used to be so religious, and thats the fate she didnt want. She never wanted to be in hell, yet there she is, getting her revenge. I dont know if God went like aight here ya go gurl, get your revenge, or smth like DAMN, so good.

In conclusion, amazing song, so good, i swearrr. This musical is amazing, they have other amazing songs like Sarah Berry, or Piece of Me.

Some of them range from being depressing, to adorable, to HILAROUS like Caralee lmfao that one is amazing lol

I really hope yall take a listen hehe, im sorry for rambling so much, im just trying to keep myself distracted from everything going on at home and with my dog. Hope yall have a good day and ill write more things, I promise!

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SHDHDHHSHD DOES THIS MEAN YOU WANT ME TO ANSWER WHICHEVER ONES I WANT OR ALL OF THEM??? Fuck it, I’m done with stuff at this job so. I’ll do them all. Why not

1. What is you middle name?

Gerard

2. How old are you?

20

3. When is your birthday?

June 20th

4. What is your zodiac sign?

Geminiii

5. What is your favorite color?

RED but i also love black

6. What’s your lucky number?

6!!! I like this question’s placement. 6 because Grimmjow but also because HAIL SATAN 666 AAAAAA

7. Do you have any pets?

I have a lil’ black pitbull named Trixie!!!

8. Where are you from?

Georgia the state

9. How tall are you?

5’3

10. What shoe size are you?

uhhh i actually do not know my size in men’s I think it’s like a 5??? Technically in women’s I’m a 7.5 but I tend to buy a half size up A. because doc martens doesn’t do half sizes and B. i dont really like for my shoes to be tight

11. How many pairs of shoes do you own?

... a lot. I have a shoe fetish ngl.

12. What was your last dream about?

I think I had a dream last night..? About Invader Zim maybe???

13. What talents do you have?

I CAN SING LIKE ANY TWENTY ONE PILOTS SONG, i can touch my tongue to my nose, I have a pretty decent Kermit the frog impression, and I have other weird flexes but I cant remember them rn because my memory sucks

14. Are you psychic in any way?

Idk, sometimes I can predict what song will play next but I think I’m just lucky.

15. Favorite song?

Hhh this is so hard to answer bc I wanna pick something metal but tbh... Holding On To You by Twenty One Pilots

16. Favorite movie?

Either Ferris Bueller’s Day Off or Spirit: Stallion of the Cimmaron (I know the whole movie by heart and all the songs)

17. Who would be your ideal partner?

HBNGFHBB,, i dont know I thirst after many celebrities and fictional characters and they’re all kind of different. I guess someone who won’t make me be someone I’m not. Obviously my lack of adult qualities probably isn’t endearing but idk, someone who’s willing to let me be a lil’ childish. I’d like someone who takes the reigns when it comes to adult stuff, I wanna be a stay at home dad and manage our place and kids or pets and stuff. I like kinda being left to my own devices. That will include me constantly wanting to be in ur space LOL

18. Do you want children?

YEAH... REALLY BADLY... but idk if I’ll ever get to have any bc I dont think anyone would want to date me and marry me and have them LMAO so I dont think I should be trying ever

19. Do you want a church wedding?

My ideal wedding is in a graveyard, on October 31st, at sundown, we are being married on an altar of black candles and jack-o-lanters, the autumn colours are flourishing, and I am carried out to the walkway down to the altar in a casket. Everyone is required to wear black except for our bestmen/bridesmaids and me or whoever I marry. If they aren’t dressed like it’s a funeral I’m kicking them out. Deadass. I want the gothest wedding imaginable.

20. Are you religious?

I do kinda believe in stuff but I’m not a fan of organized religion. I mean, I’m a fan as in, the aesthetic and idea of organized religion is majorly sexy, but i feel like religion is really personal and not a public thing for me. Also 666 hail sa-

21. Have you ever been to the hospital?

Nope!!! Never broken a bone or had any kind of emergency LOL

22. Have you ever got in trouble with the law?

ONCE I GOT PULLED OVER FOR ROLLING THRU A STOP SIGN AND I CRIED

23. Have you ever met any celebrities?

I’VE MET HOLLYWOOD UNDEAD TWICE!!! And I’ve met Norman Reedus too. I also went to school with Chandler Riggs (not to put my location on blast HDYDUFHDGDGDD) uhhh I can’t think of anyone else if I have I’d probAOH. Shannon whatever her name is from Stranger Things. She was at my last TØP concert and I asked her for a picture bc my friends were too shy to say anything but since idk her i didnt care LOL

24. Baths or showers?

I like both but I take showers more often

25. What color socks are you wearing?

One is The Scream by Edvard Munch and one is The Kiss by Gustav Klimt

26. Have you ever been famous?

Not like BIG famous but like, people in my school all knew me basically because I was always Doing Shit

27. Would you like to be a big celebrity?

Maybe??? Part of me doesnt want all my shit on blast but at the same time idgaf

28. What type of music do you like?

E... everything... i lean towards punk, pop punk, rock, metal, alternative and whatever but i will literally go from Hannah Montana to Dethklok to Twenty One Pilots to Ghost to Katy Perry don’t test me

29. Have you ever been skinny dipping?

NO and idk if i want to i dont like to be naked

30. How many pillows do you sleep with?

I have 7 but i usually have 8. I like a lot of pillows. I want more.

31. What position do you usually sleep in?

... ur asking an active sleeper that question. I don’t even know what position i wake up in.

32. How big is your house?

Normal sized I guess???

33. What do you typically have for breakfast?

I DONT EAT IT BECAUSE I DONT WAKE UP IN THE MORNING

34. Have you ever fired a gun?

I think my dad let me once when I was a kid but that’s because he’s a bad father

35. Have you ever tried archery?

YEAH i sucked at it but in my head i imagine being good at it lol

36. Favorite clean word?

Salutations, Shenanigans or Hold

37. Favorite swear word?

hmmm would go with your classic fuck but tbh i LOVE to lengthen it to motherfucker. Think in terms of most used though, God Damnit.

38. What’s the longest you’ve ever gone without sleep?

Maybe two days?

39. Do you have any scars?

:/ I have a lot. Some are from me being dumb (the scar on my leg from melting tape) and some are from me being really dumb (scars on my wrist and arm and thigh) but I’m not ashamed of them, in fact I like scars and bruises. I just hate when people randomly ask about them in person (ie “omg what happened!?!?”) because it’s like... self harm scars are pretty obvious about what’s going on so when you ask like that... idk wtf to say.

40. Have you ever had a secret admirer?

PROBABLY??? But im oblivious.

41. Are you a good liar?

Hhjfguvghhh maybe sometimes??? I try not to lie though and i think its impossible bc im a gemini so there’s a little truth in everything I say

42. Are you a good judge of character?

NO IM STUPID

43. Can you do any other accents other than your own?

NOOOOOOO i can do Kermit the Frog and thats it

44. Do you have a strong accent?

I’m southern so yes

45. What is your favorite accent?

I LOVE YOU SWEDISH PEOPLE... also love irish accents but also i cant understand anything bc my ears are stupid

46. What is your personality type?

Rambunctious

47. What is your most expensive piece of clothing?

I have a $100 Ghost hoodie but I think my Big Boots were $148

48. Can you curl your tongue?

Yas

49. Are you an innie or an outie?

Inward belly buttons or perish

50. Left or right handed?

LEFT LEFT LEFT

51. Are you scared of spiders?

Hmhnghhhhnnnn depends, usually

52. Favorite food?

PASTAAA

53. Favorite foreign food?

I fucking LOVE udon

54. Are you a clean or messy person?

I am a messy person doing my absolute best to be clean

55. Most used phrased?

like ever? I start most sentences with “you know what i hate?” But mostly i tend to parrot memes. If I think something is funny I repeat it to myself over and over until it isn’t.

56. Most used word?

Probably “I” because I cant ever stop talking about my damn self

57. How long does it take for you to get ready?

... i dont wanna talk about it (a while)

58. Do you have much of an ego?

... I DONT WANNA TALK ABOUT IT (i simultaneuosly... hate myself but also think im the best)

59. Do you suck or bite lollipops?

SUCK WHO IS BITING THEM???

60. Do you talk to yourself?

SO FUCKING MUCH

61. Do you sing to yourself?

OBVIOUSLY

62. Are you a good singer?

... no but it doesnt stop me

63. Biggest Fear?

I HATE MIRRORS I HATE BATHROOM MIRRORS IN THE DARK THAT STUPID FUCKING CHANT I HATE IT I CANT SAY IT EVER ITS MY FEAR

64. Are you a gossip?

I dont want to be but I’m a gemini so it just HAPPENS

65. Best dramatic movie you’ve seen?

Man i dont even know just go watch Spirit Stallion of the Cimarron

66. Do you like long or short hair?

I prefer to have mine long but i kinda wanna cut it, i LOOOVE guys with long hair

67. Can you name all 50 states of America?

Oh definitely Not

68. Favorite school subject?

ART or biology

69. Extrovert or Introvert?

Introvert

70. Have you ever been scuba diving?

Nope!

71. What makes you nervous?

LOTS OF SHIT GOD BUT I HATE DOING A BAD JOB OR MAKING MISTAKES

72. Are you scared of the dark?

Sometimes, it just depends

73. Do you correct people when they make mistakes?

Hhhffudhdhhh only if I know I wont come off condescending

74. Are you ticklish?

YEAH BUT DONT TICKLE ME I KICKED MY CHUCKLEFUCK EX IN THE DICK ONCE FOR TICKLING ME, IT WAS AN ACCIDENT BUT U SHOULD STILL BE WARNED

75. Have you ever started a rumor?

Dont think so

76. Have you ever been in a position of authority?

Sometimes I told groups in school to just let me do all the work because I didn’t trust them with my grade.

77. Have you ever drank underage?

... like a few days ago but tbh alcohol is disgusting and i only wanna drink banana liquor or else i dont drink at all bc its gross

78. Have you ever done drugs?

I desperately wish i had more drugs in my life but i dont wanna come off as a crackhead

79. Who was your first real crush?

EITHER SPIDER-MAN OR YUGI MUTO

80. How many piercings do you have?

I WISH I HAD MY NIPPLE PIERCED SO BADLY... also if i HAD A DICK god nerf’d me I WOULD GET PIERCINGS UP MY DICK... also my (expensive) dream is to get like subdermal/metadermal? implants on my forehead and get devil horns

81. Can you roll your Rs?“

Yep

82. How fast can you type?

I type... so fast

83. How fast can you run?

Maybe kinda fast but not for long

84. What color is your hair?

Naturally its brown but the bottom half is bleached and one side is yellow and the other is green

85. What color is your eyes?

Bluuue

86. What are you allergic to?

FIRE ANT BITES AND AMOXICILLIN AND I HAVE HAD HORRIBLE EXPERIENCES WITH BOTH

87. Do you keep a journal?

Kind of??? I have a poetry journal and I write dreams down sometimes.

88. What do your parents do?

My mom does like marketing and my dad does carpet cleaning

89. Do you like your age?

No I wanted to die at 12 and I wanna die now. The difference is I didn’t think I’d live this long so now I have no idea what I’m doing.

90. What makes you angry?

FUCKING EVERYTHING IF YOU DATE ME OR BEFRIEND ME YOU NEED TO KNOW I WILL RAGE ABOUT ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING AND U CANNOT TELL ME TO CALM DOWN LEST I FOAM AT THE MOUTH

91. Do you like your own name?

YEAH I PICKED IT!!! But i also wanna change it but i kinda cant bc Johnny from HU called me Reimond and they all know me as Reimond. But also I wanna be Lucifer Slade Solo.

92. Have you already thought of baby names, and if so what are they?

TOBIAS JEREMY AND EMELE CECILIA

93. Do you want a boy a girl for a child?

I’d be fine with either but tbh!!! Probably a boy.

94. What are you strengths?

HDHDUFHHH,, I NEVER TRULY GIVE UP I JUST GET ANGRIER. I’M INDEFATIGABLE

95. What are your weaknesses?

yelling. if you yell at me i will get upset. if im yelling its fine but if you yell i’ll cry. also roaches.

96. How did you get your name?

Well i consider Reimond the “masculine” version of my deadname!!! Technically there’s Racheal but it’d just get pronounced the same and I still have to correct people on Reimond (EVERYONE KEEPS THINKING IM SAYING RAYMAN) and Gerard is my middle name bc MCR, and I would love to change my last name lol.

97. Were your ancestors royalty?

Not that I know of

98. Do you have any scars?

U ASKED THIS ALREADY

99. Color of your bedspread?

I have Star Wars sheets with Kylo Ren and storm troopers! I also have Spider-Man sheets.

100. Color of your room?

It’s like painted like a beige colour but most of my stuff is dark lol

[ryanbitchbard]

The New World

    Gasp!!!!   I wonder how long I have been walking.  My clock says ten hours but it feels a lot longer.  I cant see an end.  I’m not giving up!  I will follow through till the end.  I have plenty of food and water and as long as I make haste I will make it......I just know it!

    My family and I moved to the new world five years ago.  We wanted to see what all the fuss was about and we just got comfortable.  The new world was simple.  Just a giant housing track.  A mega suburb.  This is different than miles of sprawl......this was a new type of community.  Planned to the tee.  There were no restaurants, shopping centers, or jobs that people went to.  If you made it in these suburbs, food got sent to your house by these tubes that were connected to your kitchen, you shopped via the internet and the gifts would come through another tube in the chimneys.  The jobs you had were all in the basements of the houses.  I’m not sure what my parents did but I’m sure it was good.  We didnt have cars(which was weird for a giant burb.).  Families had pods that would take them from their driveways to designated parks for fresh air.  

    I was ten when my family moved here.  At first it didnt seem to different than the last town we lived in.  My family wasnt super outgoing to begin with os it’s not as if I missed amazing outings.  My father would much rather spend time surfing the net than taking us out on some physical adventure.  We moved here in June and I didn’t notice much except for the schools being a little smaller and the kids seemed more restless.  I would go to school, come home, and occasionally go to the parks with some friends.  At a certain point I wondered why we didnt go to malls or go out in general anymore.  This didn’t strike me as odd at first but at a certain point you notice the lack of restaurants and other signs of outside human interaction.  I don’t even remember the last time you saw a fast food place.  My father used to take us on vacations.  They weren’t much, but even him being a home body didn’t stop the occasional trip.  At fourteen I asked if we could leave the town for a couple days to see what changes have taken place in the country since we’ve been away.  They would tell me we could try but gettting out of here is kind of a hassle and wouldn’t tell me Moore than that so I would eventually just forget.  On my fifteenth birthday I asked, again, if we could leave.  I got the same answers.  Rather than push the topic I decided to just try and leave myself.

     My plan was to take one of the pods that go to the park and attempt to transfer pods with other people.  I would go to the park and hitch a ride to other parks in one direction until I reached the end of the new world.  After school I went to the park and searched for people who were willing to give me a ride.  I was nervous as this was a very unorthodox thing to ask.  I was relieved when I found my friend Jewel.  I approached her with the nervous excitement of a future parent.

“Hey J!  I was wondering if I could ride in your pod to a park in your south area?”

“Thats kind of weird.  Why do You need to go there?”

“I just want to see what other places are like.  You aren’t a little curious?”

“Hmmm.  A little.  Ive just never had a reason to go to other neighborhoods.  They’re just places other people live.  Why do you need to see that?  Do you really need to see more beige homes?”

“I don’t want to see other neighborhoods......I want to see the outside world.  I haven’t seen it in years.  I want to see how its changed.  I know we live in paradise but I’m curious.”

“Oh.  I guess I understand that.  You’ve been talking about this for a over a year.  Do you know where to go?”

“No, but i figure if i keep going in one direction i have to see the end eventually.”

“I guess that makes sense.  I don’t see any reason I cant take you to the park.”

“You should come with!”

“No.  I have homework.  Just get in!”

     Jewel took me the park near her house.  I thanked her and tried to find another person I could hitch a ride with.  Walking around I found a couple who appeared more free spirited than the rest of the community.  I walked up to them hopping they were as cool as they looked.

“Hey!”

I waved as i moved forward.

“Hello?”

I explained my situation to the couple and they seemed very intrigued.

“Thats awesome!  Its about time someone had a little balls around this community!  We have a couple days off from work so we might just go with you some of the way!”

“That sounds great!  I thought I was going to be alone most of the time.”

“It would be nice to get out of this place instead of drinking the wine we normally have delivered into our kitchen every weekend.”  

Just like that, we were off.

     We rode in their pod until we got to the couple’s southern park.  There they were able to find a friend of their’s who was willing to take us to his southern park.  Our plan was to repeat this as much as possible.  We eventually made it to the fifth pod.

“I’m impressed by your spirit!  This is one thing that the neighborhood left out.  The ability to nurture desire.”

 “Thanks!  You guys seem like exciting people.  Why are living here?  It’s so boring.”

“We decided to give it a try for a few years and just got comfortable.  At our age, we really don’t need to do as much.  We had our fun on the outside and now we are content with what we have.  We do feel bad for anyone who has to grow up in here.”

It was than that the boy friend spoke for the first time.

“That is why we are so happy to help.  We think its inspiring that you want to see parts of the world.  You might be able to teach us a thing or two.”

“Thanks.  I’ll try.”

“Here is a rice bun just in case you get hungry.”

     I managed to travel two hours in the pods thanks to the couple.  I was taken back as to how big this place was.  Two hours of driving and everything looked the same.  The couple’s friend could only take me another thirty minutes.  I left the pod and started walking.  I figured I would be able to walk at this point seeing as I have been in pods for at least three hours.  I walked for another two hours.  Everything appeared the same.  I might as well had been in my neighborhood.  I was getting tired and hungry.  The couple had given me water but I felt like I was about to keel over.  I went to the first house I saw and knocked at the door.   A tall man opened the door.  He looked as if he knew I’d be coming to this house.

     “Come on in.  You were quicker than expected.”

The man handed me some water and a rice bun.  I grabbed the bun and took a large bite.  I walked in an sat down.  Once I finished the food I turned and looked at him.

“How did you know I would come here?  Also.......who are you?”

“I’m an architect of the new world.  I have been watching you through the cameras.”

“Are you mad?”

“Not at all.  In fact, I’m intrigued by your curiosity.  In the time I’ve lived here I have yet to see anyone as bold as you.  You have the human spirit which most here lack.”

“I’m just leaving the community for a little.  I’m coming back.  I just wanted to see how the world was doing.  I haven’t seen it in years.”

“That’s what I mean.  People have been curious but know one has had the spirit to try and look.  The new world is a complicated system.  It’s meant to give you any need you could have.  Leaving is impractical so we didn’t think of making an easy exit.  You had enough curiosity to try and see outside.   This tells us that we need to work on our design.”

“How do we leave?”

“You can just keep walking.  You will eventually find the exit.  If you keep walking down the street two blocks south of here, you will find the way out within the day.”

“This new world is a big project!!”

“We are trying to make it bigger.  We want to deliver our services to the country.  You are making me think of adding a street bar to keep others content.”

“Thank you for the food.”

“Its my pleasure.”

    I left and walked to the street he told me to go towards.  I had a new excitement.  Like this adventure was for something.  I skipped once I got to the street and continued my journey.  I noticed the houses on this street were much larger and more entertaining to look at than the rest of the neighborhoods.  I wondered why the other houses couldn’t look like that.  I stopped to look at one house that had a gothic texture to it.  I almost walked up to the front door before kicking myself and forcing me back to the task at hand.

                                     *******

     It had been another four hours of walking.  I stopped at a few houses who were happy to fill up my cantina and give me a snack to energize me.  However, i didn’t feel that I was going very far.  In fact, not many people even knew what I was asking.  They had no idea they were closer to the exit.  Many have never even considered the outside world in years.  I continued to walk until I saw a man waving to me from an odd looking house.  I walked over.

“Hey.  Where ya going?”

“I’m leaving the knew world for a bit.  I want to see what the outside world looks like.”

“Jesus!!  I thought so.  I have bad news for ya.  You aren’t heading there.”

“What do you mean?  Ive been walking this way for ten hours now.  I have to get there sometime.”

“You are going no where near the exit.”

“I was told to go this way by the architect.”

“That explains why you’re here.  No one in charge wants you to leave.  They don’t even want you to think of the outside.  He sent you here on purpose.”

“Why do you think that?”

“It happened to me years ago.  I left my family’s home and was sent here.  I have no idea where anything is anymore so I just decided to stop looking and stay here.  This must be a tactic he has to trap people.  Send them to the weirdest neighborhood to distract them from noticing the prison they are walking into.”

“I don’t believe it!!  You’re lying!!”

“Nope.  I have been here for years.  There is no way out.  I mean there is ........but no one will tell you where it is and they will lie and send you down the wrong path in order to keep you from finding it.  More architects will sabotage your goal.  You won’t even know who is an architect.  So many lies that you wont know who is telling the truth.”

“.......mother fucker!!!”

“I know.  Shit’s annoying.  Come here and let’s find out how far away you are.”

I go inside this larger than average house and he shows me a map.  I went in some weird loop.  The loop turned in such a way that I thought I was walking a straight path this whole time.  I felt conned.  Worst part was I had no idea how to get home.  The path changes every day and it is a real trek on how to get back.  It makes sense as to why I saw so many different people.  I wasn’t going to stay here.  I wasn’t going to give up.  I needed to find a way.

     I walked up to my new friend.

“Hey.  Thank you for helping me but I can’t give up.  I need to keep trying other wise this trouble was for nothing.  I’m going to find my way to the outside.  I see the map and I will try and follow to the end.  I don’t care if I need to sneak through back yards.”

“Hmmm.  You’re crazy.....But I like your style.  Your human spirit and motivation.  This is the important thing the new world lacks.”

“You should come with me!”

“Nah.  My spirit is spent.  Your best bet is following this path.”

He points me to a path and gives me directions and some rice buns.  I was off.

                                              ********

     This is where I find myself now; walk-in in the dark.  It has been ten hours since I left that neighborhood.  I was beginning to get hungry.  I pulled out the buns I had in my backpack.  I heard a shriek.  It was another person outside their home pointing at my food.  

“Are those rice buns???!!!”

“Yes.  I got them from someone in a neighborhood ten hours away.”

“I haven’t had rice bans here since the architect gave them to me.”

“Yeah.  I’m not sure where you get them.  An architect gave me some and some other guy just had em.  Maybe they got another deal from the rest of us.”

“Ha ha.  No.  Only the architects get that food.”

“!!!! No!!  I got this from someone who couldn’t find their way home.”

“Let me guess......you’re looking for a way out of the new world?”

“Yes!  Are you looking to?”

“Was.  We all were.”

The man points behind him and four people come out of some bushes.

“We all got sent in the wrong direction by the same guy.  Curly hair?  Blue eyes?  Heavier build?”

“But!!!!  I was misled once!!  He gave me a map!  See?”

All of the strangers looked at the map and giggled.

“Let me show you my map.”

He goes into his house and comes back with a map.  The map he had looked very different.  The map he had made all the neighborhoods appear grid like.  The map I had made everything look loopy and creative.

“How??!!”

“He’s another architect of the new world.  They don’t want you to leave.  They will just keep lying until you give up.”

I realized how foolish i was to just believe a random person.  How do i know who’s telling the truth?  Another man spoke. 

“I believe the first architect was telling the truth!  The other one just got wind and tried to sabotage him.”

“I believe the second one was telling the truth and he wanted us to all meet.”

Everyone had their own opinion as to who was telling the truth and where to leave.  No one had a concrete answer.  This was not good.  I was out of options......I had to many options.  I’m not sure if I had a chance anymore.  I guess I had to make an educated guess as to where the tue path lied.....also........who lied.  

     At this time I remembered the free spirited woman.  She gave me rice buns.  If what these people are saying is true than I was ruined in the beginning.  I have no idea where the couple could have taken me.  I guess its time for me to start coming up with my own theories as to who was lying.  It was time for me to contribute to the discussion.