#there is not enough time in life smh!!!!
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the more time goes on the more i relate to nagi's 'but i have so much to live for! so many games to play...'
#the horrors are endless but so is the list of games i need to play and replay#there is not enough time in life smh!!!!#<- started thinking about twewy again and how wow it's been almost 2 years since i last played i think?#well ok i guess i did start a file and play two-player with riya. think we got to week 2 day 3?#that was fun#peach rambles#save me video games
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hehe~~ i am soooooo sleepy and tired right now :3 i’m all cuddled up in all my blankets🥰 so warm and comfy hehe…..oh and also my past is haunting me😐
#girl help i tried to go to sleep but remembered the Anger™️#experienced a Situation recently that i have been very bravely and sexily ignoring#and - literally WHO would have known - ignoring it is not making it better lol#so now i lay down all comfy to sleep and my brain is just like: the thing😦#and then i gotta stay AWAKE😒 so i can distract myself from the thing#until im tired enough to sleep BEFORE my brain remembers the thing#smh#it sucks#also im good mostly!#it’s just hitting me worse rn because my period always puts my emotions out of whack😪#but im getting proper sleep and everything#and hope to take action to lessen the impact of the thing soon it just takes time ya know#like sometimes things ARE going to hurt you and bother you for a while#and that’s just how it is#but life will move on eventually and good things will come to steal some of the space those bad things take up#just gotta be patient😪#sorry for my nonsense rambles again#i just found it really funny#because tonight i really was legitimately more annoyed by the disruption to my sleep than i was about the life changing situation lol#sleep is my number one priority at any given moment fr#to be fair though i WAS so comfy and tired from cramps and really looking forward to sleep#so i think i was justified😤😤
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You decided to see the King.
[ACT 6 SPOILERS!!!! WATCH OUT!!!!!!!]
You don’t know why. Maybe you’re…curious! About what he looks like! Yeah. That’s it. You wanna know the face that almost caused Vaugarde’s demise. Why?
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You don’t know. That’s ok, though! You don’t have to!
As walk towards the hall he’s (supposedly) frozen in, a chill runs through you. Huh. Weird. Well, it probably does tend to get cold up here. It leads to an outside area!
You keep going.
You’re here now. No one else is here. The King’s imposing figure looms over you. He’s…much shorter now, but it’s still an unsettling sight. Frozen, shades inverted, just like you were not long ago.
Something tugs at your mind. You feel…odd, like there’s something missing..?
Hm. Probably nothing!
Your gaze moves up to his hair; once a striking darkless shade, now completely lightless. It perfectly obscures his face, almost like it was cut that way (well, not cut, more…grown..?)
…
…
Hmm.
You reach a hand up and brush it. It moves. Not like normal hair, but you can shift it. Underneath, you see a sliver of a face. Some of his cheek.
The tug persists.
No going back now. You move more. You see a nose, eyes, cheekbones, a mouth, a-
You…stop. It’s all visible now. His face…you’re probably the first one to ever see it.
You can’t stop staring. You try, though your eyes stick like glue, firmly in place. The tug has grown into a throbbing pain.
You’re…frozen, almost as he is.
You…know that nose. You know those eyes. You know that shape you know that mouth you know those ears you know that light stubble on his chin. You know them all.
They all.
Look.
Exactly.
Like.
Yours.
#hhey guys marilou lore drop#i love marilou her life is full of nothing but greatness and joy (<- liar)#i dont post her nearly enough smh#ima have to hurry up w that drawing#marilou#in stars and time#isat#isat spoilers#in stars and time spoilers#isat oc#in stars and time oc#hero screams
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Was thinking about your au and realized that whichever neighbour wakes up last is in for a very awkward reunion
Imagine waking up to your entire neighbourhood being in an apocalyptic scenario, and you’re the last to find out about it-
technically the last neighbor is Sally BUT Julie is the last "normal-sleeping" neighbor to wake and yeah! she sure has a hell of a time! i mean tbh it's kinda her And Barnaby? they wake up within a week of each other (the neighbors wake via Pacific Rim kaiju rules) so their breakdowns overlap <3
#julie wakes up just in time for the situation to Start Deteriorating At A Rapid Pace#like 'welcome back julie! frank is very close to dying the neighborhood is quite literally beginning to crumble'#'tensions are very high and everyone is starting to lose it <3 also your memories and siblings and life and world was a lie <3 good luck!'#she and barnaby have it the worst smh#well. kinda the worst#cause sally wakes up to an (arguably) Even Worse Scenario and also tons of guilt etc etc#sally: oh so its my fault my friends are injured and/or dying/dead. cool. im going to cope with this so gracefully (lie)#(side note: the death(s) are Not her fault. they were going to happen no matter what)#(well. i say no matter what. they'd have been prevented if the lights had been turned back on but we all know that wasnt really an option)#rambles from the bog#wh lights out au#and julie does not really get time to adjust...#shit is already going down#but only a week or so after she wakes up Shit. Goes. Down.#the transition into act two occurs and thats a whooooole enchilada in of itself#and trust me a week is Not enough to adjust!#especially when frank passes out halfway through and then never wakes back up smhhhhh#julie: at least i have frank! right frank? frank? frank-#julie: ....#julie: at least i have eddie! and wally!#julie: wh- whats that? mhm. mhm. oh. really? oh...#julie: at least i have eddie!
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something something as evil as he is about owning and subjugating her for eternity shes twice as insane about being the only one for him
#yugioh#ygo#art tag#seto kaiba#kisara#blueshipping#ill say it!!! I THINK SET'S SOUL HAS BEEN REINCARNATING NON STOP SINCE HIS FIRST LIFE. lost bitter. its so angsty because#hes destined for the same game same shame same loss for hundreds of lives. i think he had many wives many children#I KNOW IT SUCKS BLUESHIPPERS BUT LISTEN: none of those souls binds to him carried into the next. UNLIKE SOME INSANE WOMANS#WHO DECIDED TO ANCHOR HER SOUL INTO HIS BECAUSE HE WAS NICE TO HER ONE (1) TIME#kisara is more insane agenda. she just didnt have the screentime to show it!!!#as if any normal woman is suffering this guy for 5000 years for a single moment of kindness. miss me with that idiotic bs#only kisara is crazy enough for that smh#he had many wives and my sons and many families and his bitter angry long suffering soul only knew her light!!!!!!! shut up#anyway so i think we should be freaked by her coveting gaze
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gosh i am really loving the return to blanket weather i will tell you. when it's too hot not only is there the heat but there is the total dysregulation that comes from not being underneath another object for a significant portion of the day. my friends the weighted blanket and the regular blanket who tell me that i exist in space <3
#whenever i am sitting down in my living room u knowwwwwww i have a blanket!!!!!!!#and weighted blanket for sleeping......#no wonder i always used to be so balaaghieoihoahlshoghapohoehaaaalgh. like there was simply NOT enough blanket time in my life!!!!#how was i meant to function under those conditions smh#whenever i am Out u know i probably have my backpack on my lap :P or my me. i need the DATA from EXTERNAL FORCES acting on ME.
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They diagnosed me with liking comics disease
#i don't think ive ever thought about anything more in my entire life#genuinely it's probably right below thinking about food#I'm sick with it. there are gutters dividing the moments of my life#there are gutters dividing the weeks#it's like if i just get a little bit closer to the medium I can step inside#it's like I can understand a language but can barely speak it#my first language. I'm trying to speak it.#the panels crawl under my skin and the speech bubbles writhe in my gut and can someone die from this#can someone shed their skin and spread their wings from this#I'm heady with overexposure and waiting for a turning point that will never come where it somehow all falls away#stops being hours of my life and starts being one pure point of knowledge#no idea what's supposed to happen then. time shouldnt exist.#if I read enough comics -- *dissect* enough comics -- practice the language of scriptwriting --#if I process it all right I'll turn it into a diamond of certain knowledge. and then the perfect comic will pop fully formed out of my mind#the comic that all the others were building up to. the holotypical comic.#<- I forgot the right word for the version of something that is the best. but this is funnier#either way idk why my mental illness has decided this is actually going anywhere.#all I've got is a document titled “KILL THE FAIRY QUEEN” and 430 xmen comics in the past 3 months#and a bookshelf that's a little bit past capacity#dont even have a good grip on the language yet smh#i feel like im going to die Alien chestburster style and it'll be a speech bubble bursting out of me instead#you can spend thousands and thousands of hours on comics without even scratching the surface#and I haven't. i haven't scratched it yet
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psa: brushing teeth past wisdom teeth removal is kinda sucky, but for reasons one might not expect.
can barely open mouth wide enough to get the dang toothbrush in
can't feel most of my lower teeth
reaching all the way back = impossible with a jaw that refuses to open any wider
immediate exhaustion post-attempt
#it's been a day and a half... and it certainly continues to be quite a day#smh (is what I would type if I could move my head sideways without making everything worse)#4 at once was the right call but fuck if I don't hate it here. I look like sb melted a wax head and it all dripped down#except it's also all bruised and blue and only going to get worse. fingers crossed for little enough swelling tomorrow#so I can at least still fit a spoon in and eat something#I'm already so over it I stg. can barely concentrate on processing words/visual for more than an hour at a time#and afterwards I have to lie down and sleep for 3 hours. fml#a day in the life of..
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genuinely i cannot Stand bsd gachatubes takes on dazai-akutagawa-kyouka i think my mutuals should explode you
#these mfers never heard the word NUANCE in their entire lives#no there is no excuse for how dazai handled akutagawa but y'all cannot be blaming him for#continuing a cycle and then using kyouka as an example of it being possible not to#kyouka was able to find outside support & leave!!!#you can hold accountability and not be stupid about it at the same time#like idk guys it just makes me so upset#like i cannot state enough dazai was Wrong#but you also have to understand he was taken in by mori at 14 Years Old#we don't know what his life was like before that either#he was already described as having become worse Because Of Being In The Mafia by 16 which is when he picks up akutagawa#the mafia is a Bad Place. it is especially a bad place for Children#which is what both dazai and akutagawa were#and dont get me wrong this whole thing goes for akutagawa too like#i will state again DO NOT GET ME WRONG!!! the child abuse is bad.#that is objectively wrong. regardless of anything it should not have happened#but y'all cannot be acting like its something that couldve been instantly remedied like look see kyouka did it why didnt you smh#idk if i explained any of this right its past my bedtime#aethers rants
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anyone else incapable of feeling things lately or am i just That Messed Up
#everything is just like. in a fog lately#it all feels so distant#all the joy of starting hrt has kinda worn off and while i'm still happy about it i'm like. unlocking new kinds of dysphoria and jealousy#starting to worry i'll never be comfortable enough in my own skin to actually embrace this whole girl thing#turns out being fat and awkward your whole life doesn't necessarily just get better with time and it sticks with you forever whoops#i can only present myself int he most Neutral way possible and hope nobody notices me or god forbid comments on me in any way shape or form#my living situation makes this 10000 times worse but between average rent in this city and my current set of job prospects i'm stuck with i#ugh. i'm slipping back into that “maybe i can't get better and this is as good as it gets for me” mindset. i hate that place#didn't even get weed today like i was planning smh#rambling
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if you think that fluff cannot make you want to chew glass the same way angst can, you have not seen/read good fluff
#i have tried ripping my hair out while watching a very cute scene multiple times in my life#y'all don't appreciate happiness enough smh#archer speaks
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I want to scream just saw your response and it was so cutee 😭😭😭 him lulling both of us to sleep is so cute😭😭 I don’t want to send him back to the see I know that I usually write fluff ask for this au but what if the reader has to move somewhere WITH NO SEA like Sweden bc if their work 😭😭😭 they would never be able to see each other and I am extra sad for the reader bc nobody would be as good as Suguru he would ruin their love life forever 🌙
HEHE I’M SO GLAD U THOUGHT IT WAS CUTE <33 i think mer!sugu would sing u to sleep all the time!! it’s his love language …….
but 😭😭 my sweet 🌙 anon …. how could u do this to me…… reader moving from mer!sugu’s beach would be sooo heartbreaking :((( if they moved anywhere he could follow i feel like he would, but if it was somewhere too dry for mer!sugu to live at i’d be so sad :’3 …. sigh. for my own mental health i’m just not gonna think abt that LMAO but it’s a very tasty angst scenario……. AND YES SUGU RLLY WOULD RUIN THEIR LOVE LIFE silly hot fish man is the new standard…. no other person could make them as happy 😔😔😔
in return for the treat i’ll offer u an angst thought of my own …. >:3 ok so. i imagine that merfolk age differently than humans right…. as for mer!sugu i feel like he’s around the same age as reader (probably a lil older mentally but physically the same)…….. but he would definitely outlive them :(( and i keep thinking abt that!! how tragic it is. mer!sugu would treasure their memory so dearly though… maybe there’s an intricate burying ritual for merfolk that he’d follow? like. collecting their bones and burying them by the beach… or down in the deep sea….. or maybe he makes a necklace with some pieces of their skeleton and wears it. so he always keeps a piece of them with him. Kinda Fucked Up but it’s a merfolk thing ok just roll w it 😭😭 they’re sinister creatures but also very devoted….
idk just. mer!sugu grieving reader for as long as he lives without them…. the idea of that makes me so so sad. imagine him swimming up to the surface when the moon looks the same as it did when they first met…… shedding a tear or two before returning to sea……. and his tears end up turning into a myriad of sea glass, covering the beach in green and blue and purple…….. or so the folktale goes <3 yeahhhh i just like the idea of their love story becoming a local fairy tale decades after reader has passed. it’s so bittersweet … T—T
sigh i got carried away again. tysm as always for chatting w me 🌙 anon!!! <33 i don’t think my heart can handle thinking abt mer!sugu angst…. i just want him to be pouty and cute all the time……… :(((
#there was this one house i lived at for some time a couple years ago#that was like. righttt by the woods and super duper close to the sea !!#so i used to walk there every morning… it rlly made me love the sea a lot more :’3 n i kinda imagine that location when i think abt this au#tbh i think reader would stay there their whole life partially bc of Lore reasons that i have planned for the fic lol……#but also to be close to sugu T—T#they stay together all that time and even after reader dies suguru stays. that’s Their beach… sniffle sniffle…..#ENOUGH ANGST i need to come up w some fluff… hm hm hmmm……. 😵���😵💫😵💫#… my brain is out of juice. just imagine sugu angrily flopping away from reader bc they made him mad LMAO#he’s pouting and frowning flopping his way to the sea while reader follows him and apologizes#”suguru can we please just talk this ou —” (splash noise)……………. aaaand he’s back in the sea smh. silly lil fishy#ask tag ✩#🌙 anon !! ✩#mer!sugu <33
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life of a loser is so good
Thank you 💚
I have a lot of fond memories of my TDI 'fics and how they helped me grow my love for expanding on canon, writing large casts of characters, and playing with the friendships and conflicts that arise due to forced proximity because you're literally stuck in a 5-star hotel with these people and can't do anything about it... I certainly wouldn't have the 'fics I'm writing today if I'd never written Life of a Loser!
Honestly, it's SO tempting to polish my drafts for the other elimination 'fics I wrote... My Staci one didn't survive the draft because of a specific plot twist I wanted that turned out to be too ambitious, but I love Leonard and how his 'fics were coming. There are some gut-wrenching things I wrote for the Leonard-Tammy dynamic in my Ridonculous Race draft (and a lot of manipulative Topher in both that and "Beatin' Path") and if opportunity arises to spare the time & motivation, I'd love to post more of that :)
I did have some early Mario drabbles I used to post, but I consider Life of a Loser my first "official" fanfic. Take me back to the days of writing Noah and Eva just constantly dunking on anti-hero Ezekiel and bonding over it. NoVa being besties who are canonically down to split a million dollars with each other, my beloved...
#Total Drama#TDI#TD Noah#TD Ezekiel#TD Eva#TD Leonard#TD NoVa#Noah and Eva: /bully each other affectionately. Ezekiel: /accidentally bullying for real because he is a FRAUD#All three of them: /stuck for 8 weeks. Next season: /stuck with each other AGAIN. Only 3 days of break between. wild.#Listen Ridonculous Race was nice but my unpopular opinion is that between Playa Des Losers and Total Drama Action-#Noah spent WAY more time with Eva than either Izzy or Owen. They're canonically close enough that she teases and he calms her#and it's SO sad not many people explore their dynamic [or at least weren't often in 2013-2016 when I was in the fandom]#Noah and Eva spent 3-4 months straight in each other's company and were willing to share a million dollars#We were ROBBED in Ridonculous Race. do u see my vision? smh.#Anon#asks#ridwriting#Life of a Loser
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First day at my new study/work place:
It’s really nice, colourful, we have a kitchen and a court, where I’ll spend most of my time writing and drinking coffee
My supervisor’s a cute little man who whispers when he speaks and grunts when he laughs
And we’ve to meet only once a month to keep him updated on my research
It’s in my favourite neighbourhood of Paris 🥰
The Irish Cultural Centre is in front of it 🍀
#i’m so happy#a bit far from my house but it’s worth it#i hope i’ll meet a lot of interesting and beautiful people there#in spring and summer it’ll be a joy#sadly my laptop won’t last enough time to let me work outside#but i’ll make it work smh#paris#sorbonne#university#university stuff#university student#student life#phd stuff#phd student#love#beauty#good vibes#aesthetic#mailmiocuoredipietratremaancora
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new guy at work today made a mistake telling me i could put my music on
first of all this was his last training shift and we got absolutely slammed and because he's never worked a barista job before he was so so slow and then because we were so busy i didnt have time to queue songs, so after my playlist ran out it went to the 'radio' thing that spotify does and it just kept being kpop
during russian roulette he turned to me like 'so... is this ur jam...'
later when we had a breather i asked if he had any song requests and he said 'anything but kpop'
#it was so bad like i didnt mind of course because i liked most of the songs that came on and it was busy enough that the#ambient cafe noise made sure the music wasnt distracting#but i nearly had an out of body experience when nct127 love on the floor came on and i was in the middle of making like 3 lattes#'i cant do anything about it i cant do anything about that right now'-- mark interrupting my thought with LIFE IS A BASTARD...#i just put on my actual cafe playlist after that !!!! ive been working by myself a lot lately so nobody says anything to me about my music#but it's kind of worse because the last time we worked together i asked him what music he liked and he said indie rock and KAGLSJCHADGKJHDG#like girl (boy) me too!!!!!!! okay!!!!!! but also red velvet!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#but when people say 'anything but kpop' it's usually hopeless.... man said he listens to all genres.... smh....#m
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okay so silly but me and my friends were looking for chill games that we can play together remotely now that we live in different countries.. and one of them said "hey what about keep talking and nobody explodes???" and i was like "omggg i never played it but i know it, it looks so fun!!" and i genuinely could not remember where i knew that from tbh! and just now, youtube recommended me a video called "dan and phil play keep talking and nobody explodes". weird
#well... what if i share those vids like this is how i know the game btw#hahah jk... unless.#anyway i will rewatch them when i return home lol#from 2017!!!!!!! psychic damage time!!!#my posts#^ cant even remember these stuff so u cant expect me to remember things correctly from the show smh /lh#truly my autobiographical memory absolutely suckkksssss#weirdly enough content that ive been into for so many years (such as dnp) help me remember stuff from my own life too LMAO#anyway.
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