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How can I be expected to do exams when all my brain wishes to do is doodle silly little things about the Iliad????
#it's unjust#I donât care about graduating anymore I NEED to draw The Boysâ˘#It is the only thing I can think about#homers iliad#the iliad#the wait is agonizing#I cannot draw people#BUT THAT HAS NEVER STOPPED ME BEFORE
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I love herrr đ
Sieglinde Sullivan.
Original artist: https://x.com/haaaaaaaannn
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"little miss prairie faerie" is a cute name actually... (but I won't use it if she doesn't like it)
#neopets#illusen#aquanutart#thank you faerie festival for letting me support my childhood fave#even though i stumbled into the festival five days in and was randomly assigned a team because i was too late to choose#i was like yesss i can get rid of all my junk from the plot--wait i can get a faerie doll??#nevermind. i have to do this RIGHT#okay! time to rediscover my addiction to cheat!#...okay! time to restrain myself from spending all my free time on cheat!#i used to sit there obsessively playing cheat! on dial-up back in the day#also due to the festival i won at cheeseroller for the first time in my entire life. then i was too happy with my honey cheese to donate it#as a kid i didn't know how to play cheeseroller because i didn't know what cheese name to enter#i just sat there staring at the empty input box trying to think of a name of a cheese out of my head. it was very frustrating#i kept playing cheeseroller after i won because i was so happy i finally figured out how to play but i haven't won again since then#my one honey cheese remains my treasured prize. no i did not donate it#anyway my determination to farm 8-point items ended after one day when i realized how much time it takes to play cheat!#and i switched to 6-point but then missed a day and wound up with not enough points to get the staff#but i had actually been agonizing anyway over how i wouldn't end up with enough points to get the staff AND the faerie doll#simple choice now. i can have faerie dolls guilt-free
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"Shen Jiu, you really are a demon!"
in which yue qi saves an injured fox kit, which turns out to be an young fox demon. once he's recovered enough strength, he adopts a human form so that he can talk to yue qi properly, but ends up being caught by the slave traders as well. Since he can change form, it would be pretty easy for him to escape, but if he's discovered as a demon he'll never be able to return, and he has no home or family anyways, so he decides he would rather stay and help qi-ge, who will probably get himself killed without someone to stop him from doing stupid shit.
when shen jiu saves yue qi from death by horse carriage, and subsequently is bought by qiu jianluo, fairly quickly qjl realizes he is not human, and delightedly gifts him with a enchanted collar, which renders him unable to chnage forms, stuck in him demonic form and unable to change to full fox or full human shape. like this, he cannot leave the qiu manor at all without immediately giving himself away, even if qjl hadnt also locked him up. like this, he has no choice but to wait until yq makes his way back to the qiu manor at last, but when he's finally freed, he's initially almost feral from how he's been treated, and very nearly kills yqy...
#qijiuweek2024#partial nudity#qijiu#svsss#arts#shen jiu#yue qingyuan#79 or as i like to call it an excuse to spend an entire week spitballing fun ideas for 79 aus#and also playing around with art techniques#i think its fun to entertain aus sometimes where sj does wait long enough for yq to make it back to him#because it dont think it would have magically absolved them of Issues actually#both still coming out of this with grievous amounts of trauma#yqy still will agonize over how his actions made him so late when xiao was suffering so much#im undecided if yq KNOWS sj is a demon before he comes back#on one hand. the angst of sj not wanting qi ge to find out he's a demon on top of everything else#on the other hand i think its so fucking funny to imagine how yue âxiao jiu was only kidding when he tried to kill you with a rockâ qi#would happily defend his now Literally A Demon Xiao Jiu
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what, didn't you know most amphibians shed and eat their skin? what did you think was going on there, peppino? this is normal frog stuff. come on now.
many more sketches bc i had way too many thoughts about this to try and illustrate all in a comic. horrid beast fp agenda â¤
#every day i wake up & im like. what is the worst way i can introduce peppino and by extent the audience to something#pizza tower#fake peppino#peppino spaghetti#hey guess what⤠guess⤠im giving up on drawing their moustaches forever#jk i'll start trying to remember again on the next legit comic. but this is a silly headcanon post. so im not gonna agonize over it here#i seriously never remember ever. you've no IDEA how many revisions the others have taken just to make sure i didnt miss any damn moustaches#anyway if youre gonna try and call me out for that style of gif save yourself the trouble. i know. it's intentional. it can be our secret.#fp's lines are 'no no wait it's not-it's just mine!!' + 'do not make this harder.' in the comic; 'sorry sorry' in the image. thanx 4 readin#arting#Popular post#pizzaposting
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a bunch of assorted episode 7 stuff from the last couple of days! because they're still taking over my entire brain! (I keep forgetting that the diasomnia uniform has that weird spike...chain...thing on the back. do you think when they get bored they, like, throw balloons at each other and whoever pops one first wins? is this what the dialounge is like in the off-hours?)
hey when do we get to see maskless red Lilia. please Twst I'm dying over here
#art#twisted wonderland#twisted wonderland spoilers#twisted wonderland episode 7 spoilers#twisted wonderland book 7 spoilers#long post#i just really loved that sebek drags in a very upset silver who starts going off on a rant about how none of this is real#and dream!lilia is just like 'aw my baby' and starts fixing his hair#and this was sebek's dream! sebek's lilia was just being real sweet to everyone. adorable.#anyway SO LILIA'S DREAM HUH?#the soldiers wearing animal masks -- and ESPECIALLY the guy in the bird mask -- have made me so suspicious#the implications!#what does this mean for crowley!#WHO IS HE REALLY#auuuughhh waiting for the next part is going to be agonizing#i will continue to analyze each pixel of lilia's sprite to try to figure out how his hair is doing that while he's wearing a hood#speaking of#drawing serious lilia feels weird. he doesn't look like himself. :(#i straightened his bangs and i think that was a mistake#if lilia takes off his mask and his bangs don't still look like he cut them himself in the dark while in a rowboat during a storm#i'm going to be sad
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I was inspired by @imagineitdearies fic Perfect Slaughter to draw Astarion and Tyrus stealing a quiet moment together. Poor Tyrus was carrying the weight of the world on his shoulders for so long.
#bg3#baldur's gate 3#bg3 fanart#astarion fanart#astarion#astarion x tav#perfect slaughter#fic art#mine#woah this one really fought me#I started it back in March and am finally finishing it just under the wire before it ends#anyway if you havenât yet go read this itâs incredibly good#and lucky you youâd get to skip all the agonized waiting#my art
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âI know Iâm nothing precious. I know that no one loves a tool. But stillâ I hope you enjoy using me. I hope I serve my purpose well. I hope that when I finally break, you remember me once in a while, and that you hesitate for a moment before you finally throw me away.â
One last curtain call.
#took this from concept to finished work today#and after having a long day Iâm gonna send it out into the wild#so that I canât agonize over some composition mistakes in it anymore#go forth my childâ inflict angst upon the Narilamb shippers#better the wool au#cult of the lamb#narilamb#cotl#cotl narinder#cotl lamb#cult of the lamb au#cotl the one who waits#cotl toww#cotl au#cotl narilamb#stuff by sofie
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ok brain whipped up this concept & would NOT leave it alone today so here. have this. this is like âstarted making it. had a breakdown. bon appĂŠtitâ in a steddie post for me but alas <3 cw: talks of past sexual coercion
Eddie is mad at Steve.
Which, honestly, might be the worst thing in the entire damn world for all Steve cares. The whole world feels just a little bit off kilter when Eddieâs mad at Steve â because Eddie just loooves the silent treatment.
Heâll usually make a show of it. Pout and stick out his bottom lip, cross his arms, maybe even give a stamp on his big booted feet. Doesnât say whatâs wrong, just glares sulkily. Itâs a bit childish, they both know, but Eddie likes to be doted and Steve loves to do the doting â and it hasnât caused any proper fights yet.
This time, however, he can tell Eddie is more mad than usual, because this time he hadnât thrown the usual fuss. Instead, heâd just gone quiet. All glowers and glares. Not even a pout, and certainly not a peep. Â
And itâs just the worst because the version of Eddie that Steve knows best is a chatterbox. Canât shut up, wonât shut up. Steve normally loves it.
And alrightâ maybe Steve deserved it for not picking him up after one of Eddieâs gigs. Especially because Eddie had specifically asked him too as well, considering his own van was in the shop.
But itâs not like Steve could control when his parents decided to waltz back into Hawkins!
They always seemed to run on their own timetable, or on what seemed like an entirely different orbit. Yet, they had no trouble roping Steve back into their routine, stuffing him back into a place, without any regard to his opinion on the matter. Which was exactly what they had done that evening.
But that didnât really matter, Steve thinks with a sigh, because he knows itâs not really just because he didnât pick Eddie up. It was because of what Steve said.
Garethâs mom had swung by and while Eddie had gotten an eyeful of that suspicious look that followed him everywhere since the events of the Upside Down, Eddie had gotten home safely. Majorly annoyed but safe which was what mattered most.
He had then released his said-annoyance onto Steve.
But see, Steve was already tired from the prodding and lecturing of his parents. Theyâd been awfully disappointed to find he had yet to move on from his job at Family Video and worse, had badmouthed his choice of friends. Had brought up Tommy and the likes, asked pointedly why Steve hadnât been seen with them in a few months.
Steve had bit his tongue to not spew out the fact he hadnât been seen with Tommy for years and that was unlikely to change any time soon.
So, yeah, he was wound up. And Eddie was too. A bit too impatient, a bit too cut that heâd been on the receiving end of yet another scathing interaction because Steve had been so careless to forget to pick him up.
Heâd said as much, jabbing a finger and dramatically reenacting the tense conversation heâd had to have with Garethâs mother.
It had led to a spat, which led to an argument. Steve sat on the bed in Eddieâs trailer and toyed with a loose thread as Eddie pacing before him.
âYou shouldâve been there.â
âI know.â Steve ground out the words, eyes on the floor, feeling too much like he was still back home, still being lectured by his father about his good-for-nothing son. The thread was coming looser in his fingers with all his fiddling.
âYou know? Is that all youâre gonna say?â Eddie asked, exasperated, but the moment Steveâs lip part to respond, Eddie had steamrolled on. Garethâs awkward smile and his motherâs tight bunched up shoulders were still fresh in his memory.
âGreat! Thatâs just fantastic, Steve. You knew and you still didnât show up!â
Steveâs head shot up, brow furrowed. âThatâs not what I meant.â
Like a kettle coming to boil, Steve could feel some bitchy comment lurch up his throat with his growing frustration. It was easy to think of things to say to hurt Eddie, to lash out, to make it so Eddie was the one with his head bowed, voice quiet.
Steve had learned that the hard part in these moments, is biting his tongue. Swallowing back mean comments. He doesnât want to be vicious. Loathes the idea of falling back on snarky comments to win a fight, least of all with his boyfriend.
But... old habits die hard.
So, when Eddie had got all up in his face, firing himself up, and said, âOh, pray tell then Steve what was so important that made you fucking forget your boyfriend.â
Steve had snapped.
âFuck, do you ever stop? You are so much sometimes!â
The words had flown out in a harsh sneer and they hit their mark exactly as intended.
Because Steve knew all about that strange bubble of fear that lives inside Eddieâ the part that didnât care at all what strangers thought of him, but cared so much about those he came to trust. The part that worried that being big and brash all the time would be too much for people. That the reason they originally liked Eddie, would become the same reason theyâd eventually dislike him for.
Steve had once told him he couldnât ever get enough of himâ let alone too much. Itâs why heâd known where to strike.
Eddieâs expression has flinched, his eyes going from simmering to hurt in a few seconds flat. His fists unclenched at his side and Steve had felt the regret curdling up in his gut, a terrible sour feeling that had him shooting to his feet in an instant.
âEddie, wait, Iââ
âLeave.â Eddie said, voice dangerously low. There wasnât room to push it. Nothing left to argue.
But still, Steve had wavered, swaying as a tidal wave of shame burned hot up his neck. He wanted to fix it. He needed to fix this.
But Eddie couldnât look at him, eyes fixed on the ground and despite how much it had pained Steve to go, he knew he couldnât fix it, not then and there. The door had hit him on the way out.
That had been two whole days ago. The guilt of it makes it feel like it was hours ago, still fresh as ever.
Steve had been diligent in giving Eddie his space to cool off.
The call Steve made the morning after never got picked up, just rang endlessly until the voicemail kicked in. Even though Eddie was always home Wednesdays. It told Steve well enough that Eddie was still well and truly mad.
Which was fair enough. Steve had been an asshole. Let himself fall back on old habits and stab a weak spot he only knew because Eddie trusted him, then twisted the knife as well.
But itâs like he said â silent treatment from the guy who usually canât keep quiet is discerning to say the least. It itches uncomfortably at Steve who finds himself unusually eager to apologise.
Because, damn, if Steve doesnât hate apologising.
Apologising means pulling out the stops, means admitting shamefully everything youâd done wrong, means having to prove how sorry you were.
It had been like that living under his father. When he was seven, Tommy had accidentally pitched a baseball through one of the windows. It had smashed right through, completely shattered. Steve had taken the fall.
Heâd said sorry, head bowed, even though it had been an accident. And after heâd made Steve repeat his apology til it was a rigid phrase in his mouth, Richard Harrington had said; âWell, why donât you prove how sorry you are, Steven?â
Heâd ended up being his fatherâs personal beer boy for that week. Fetching them ice-cold from the garage at his fatherâs every call, from the moment he was home from school, to prove the apology was legitimate.
It had workedâ after a week of doting, extra effort into keeping his room clean and to keep his father happy, Richard had permitted his son a rare smile and ruffle of his hair. âSee? I know you were sorry now.â
Steve had learnt quickly in his childhood to go to lengths to avoid trouble with his father. To avoid the tumultuous apologies heâd have to perform, jumping through hoop after hoop for forgiveness.
But even then, Steve couldnât escape them with friends, and especially not with girlfriends.
Tilly had been like that too. Sheâd been Steveâs freshman girlfriend, eyeshadow baby blue and lips always glossy. When Steve did things she didnât like âspent Saturdays with his other friends, was late to datesâ sheâd pout her glittery lips and bat her eyes. âArenât you gonna make it up to me?â
Steve had â had pulled out the stops, emptied his pocket change to buy her flowers, went to second base because she really wanted him to, all to prove his apology. Until Tilly was back to her sugary smiles and fluttering hazel eyes.
It had even been like that with Nancy, though not quite to that extent. Forking out his savings to buy the nicest bouquet he could find, prepared to make it up to her, even if he wasnât quite sure if it was him who was supposed to be apologising. But sheâd gone silent treatment on him, soâŚ
So, Steve hates apologisingâ but even more than that, is how much he hates Eddieâs quiet. So, when his boyfriend calls the Family Video on Friday midday, when he knows Steveâs soloing, and invites him over, Steve prepares himself for the grovelling to come.
The mixtape heâd already made sits in the gearbox of his car, carried around with him since he finished it. Upon hanging up the phone, Steveâs eyes catch on the florist across the street. His mind spins with all his knowledge of Eddieâs favourites â should he get those sour candies Eddie loved so much as well?Would it be too much?
Steve scoffs at the irony of his worries, considering what he was apologising for. Besides, it was never too much. There were never enough things to show he was sorry.
And Eddie couldnât exactly be bought â not that was what this was. But Steve knew his boyfriend preferred all things in the manner of touch. That Steveâs affection was a far higher currency than anything bought with money.
Thatâs fine. Steve can do that.
Heâs got a whole speech planned, honest. The smudged bullet points scrawled on his palm are testament to that, there to keep him on track and Steve checks them over religiously as he drives over after his shift.
It all goes out the window when Eddie opens the door, because Steveâs heart hiccups, splutters, soars forward in his chest.
Eddie looks just the same, his usual ripped jeans and dark shirt with a band Steve doesnât know and yetâ yet.
Steve is overcome by how much he missed Eddie.
Overcome at how those two days felt like two weeks to him. His mouth opens and the words burst out, âIâm sorry.â
part two.
#normally i agonize over characterisation for a little while longer#but today NO SUCH THING#its this or nothing#there is INDEED an even ANGSTIER part two to come#the whole thing came about when i was like hmmmm.#steve apologising in s2 to nancy even tho he doesn't think he needs to#what if i#took that made it the angstiest backstory ever#its bout be whump in here BABEY#ruby writes steddie#steve x eddie#steddie#steddie fic#steddie ficlet#uhhhh yet again i am asking#gay pplâŚ..in my phone#u will find this#and if u like hurt/comfort like me for stevie#just u WAIT#hopefully the part bout apologising clues u guys into what might be coming
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i don't read fic too often, much less draw fic fanart unless its for friends, but !! i found human after all by @dunkalfredo and i keep thinking about it. aaaa cryptid sif... cryptid sif my best friend. we're gonna get you outta there buddy. please go check out the fic if you haven't yet :D
#in stars and time#isat#isat au#siffrin isat#isat siffrin#sammi sketches#i wanted to do a couple sif headshots too like with the shark teeth but my shoulders started hurting. some other time.....#hi dunkalfredo i hope you like this little offering to your au.. i keep thinking about the chapter 2 end and feel agonized (pos)#cant wait to see how loop factors in ouuuugh#okay everyone go read it okay? okay. glad we got that covered
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Kingdom Hearts 0.2 Birth by Sleep - A Fragmentary Passage
#kingdom hearts 0.2 birth by sleep a fragmentary passage#kh0.2#darkside#heartless#realm of darkness#my gif#i really do wish to learn more about these heartless#they're huge and intimidating although never particularly strong yet they still feel so significant#i'd like to think they're more than what they seem and are not just a reoccurring boss#waiting for the possibility to learn info on a very specific thing for an ongoing 20+ year old game series... agonizing#the fact that only this kind of heartless can create a giant evil ball of energy in the sky that consumes worlds means SOMETHING right?#whenever we have to fight one the camera always zooms out through the empty heart shaped chest cavity and i want that to Mean Something
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Hey, I just watched Dead Poets Society for the first time ever! Now, if you guys don't mind, I'm gonna go sit in the corner of my room and scream!
#me very politely asking whoever made this movie to revive Neil (i am holding them at gunpoint)#NO BECAUSE WHAT THE FUCK#what about my anderperry you cant do that... my anderperry you killed it... why âšď¸#no but literally i usually cling onto one character in every show or movie and the rest i could care less about guess who it was for dps?#NEIL IT WAS FUCKING NEIL AND THEY KILLED HIM#i am rotating his father on a fire like a rotisserie chicken and feeding him to dogs.#i hope his father dies a slow agonizing death. i will boil him alive.#me at the end of the movie waiting for someone to say psyche or people to jump out with cameras and tell me i was being pranked#me before: âhaha people seem to like this movie a lot it sure seems interesting ill check it outâ#me after: âwhat is life...â#no but all of them standing kn the desks was so AHHHHHH#and i qant to fucking fight that bitch whatever his face was idk i forgot most of their names#the chatterbox tattletale snitchy bitch#thats his name now forget his actual name#dps#dead poets society#anderperry#since i mentioned it in the tags#nuwanda literally was like âsure yeah ill get expelled but i wont rat you guys outâ#but chatterbox tattletale snitchy bitch mister âyou forgot about the homeworkâ over here is like âyeah so i told them everythingâ#i am exploding his head with my fucking mind#he deserved that punch so fucking bad
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Perfect summary of Phos and also the narrative of hnk itself
#hnk#houseki no kuni#hnk spoilers#hnk 103#i know it's not (always) on purpose but#i do think the constant waiting between chapters really enhances the experience of agonizing gradual change đ
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i didn't feel like making a whole set rn but i needed to get this one out of my system (image credit: @endofradio)
#[slaps the top of his head] this bad boy can fit so much manic depressive in him#lion.txt#my edits#dan stevens#herr kĂśnig#cuckoo 2024#cuckooedit#anyway everyone say thank you to steven for the cuckoo screencaps while i wait the agonizing wait for this stupid movie to come out aghhghg
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barty eating james cum from regulus cunt
this made me wanna write one shot like this fr
barty was fucking regulus' mouth while james was fucking regulus' hard and reg can't even breathe he is full and having the best time of his life, he is sloppy giving head and playing w barty's balls and barty is grabbing regulus' hair while hitting the back of regulus' throat and james is watching both of them and fucking him faster and he and barty even makes eye contact and it's all filthy, regulus is already covered in cum before so he is playing w his clit and james is literally lost in regulus bcuz he is so tight even tho they're fucking him 24/7 and he is still that tight on the other hand barty is just hungry for regulus' cunt and he also wants james to fuck his mouth but he is gonna have to reschedule that and james cums in deep inside of regulus and he pulls out so he can cum on his pussy too, painting it w his cum and as soon as barty saw it he hits it one more time and cums right down regulus' throat, he doesn't look away, he waits for james to walk away from reg's legs and he takes his place, suffocating himself w james' cum which is leaking from regulus' pussy regulus is so close but it's becoming torture bcuz he is exhausted as fuck, but barty and james doesn't care, all they want to do is fuck regulus until he can't remember his name and barty devours his pussy and james' cums and he gets hard again and now he wants to suck james' cock so bad and and
#agon answers#jartylus#jartylus brainrot#i had to wait for whole day to answer this lmao#sorry for spamming the dash guys#jegulus#bartylus#jarty
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yeah sorry dude your gfs a god of chaos now. yeah she got turned into a brightly colored anthrophomorphic animal. yeah shes been watching all your Ls. sorry
#golbetty#adventure time#fionna and cake#petrigrof#simon petrikov#furry art#golb#betty grof#my wifes been so agonized all week waiting for episode 9#this post goes out 2 him#0cto art tag
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