#the same page as me with this stupid project where we have to make the experience of Call of Duty without making Call of Duty essentially

[charmre]

I just wanna play bideo game and make my silly little drawings and blog and THAT'S IT

But instead, I gotta go to business school to (HOPEFULLY) get a job that pays well enough that I'm comfortable and am able to give to those in need

And that entails so many meetings/meetups for so many stupid group projects, and reading stupid books titled, "Playing to Win" where they talk about how you "win" at business

So you can see where the tension lies 😑😑😑

[mellowmadds]

Casual Study Dates | Peter Parker

(MCU) Peter Parker/Fem Stark Reader

Warnings - slightly suggestive

Summary - Avenger’s compound a usually busy place hustling with activity seems unusually quiet for the day. leaving y/n and Peter in a sticky situation (pun intended)

Word Count: 1,237

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Avenger’s Compound, a place that’s usually bustling with activities and combat training sometime’s has quiet days like this where super-powered humans who have insanely intense hearing can hear a pin drop from across campus. For you though being one of the youngest on the team you hated those days because it seemed as if everybody always wanted to see what you were up to. You weren’t necessarily an avenger but you were extremely smart and helped out around the lab and worked on some Stark Industries projects with your dad every once and a while. And that’s how you met Peter Parker and during those first two years of awkward conversations and study dates you two seemed to find some comfort in all that awkwardness.

“Are you nervous about MIT sending out their decisions soon?” Peter asked while getting comfortable on your bed while staring out at the beautiful city view.

“Why would I be nervous Peter? Most of my family are MIT Alumni.” You said a bit cocky if you really think about it.

“I- know it’s just I figured maybe you’d be experiencing the same nerves I was. It was a stupid question nevermind sorry” Peter stuttered out.

“You don’t have to be sorry Peter and you definitely don’t have to worry my dad put in a good word about you. You’re one hundred percent getting into MIT” You told him confidently.

You knew Peter was an anxious person and you’d do anything to take his nerves away.

“Now are we going to keep stressing about MIT or are we going to figure out these formulas that Bruce gave us to solve?” You asked while holding up the stack of papers labeled ‘Top Secret Formulas’.

Peter nodded his head yes while lifting his body off your bed to instead sit on the edge of the bed closer to your desk where all of your work was scattered across your laptop.

“But first I need to put some music on or else I won’t be able to focus” You said before sliding the miscellaneous papers off your laptop.

“That’s the Stark in you talking, how can you focus better with music blasting in your ears?” Peter asked while laughing.

“I guess you are right, that is a classic trait of my dads. But it just helps me focus better. I don't know, I can't explain it.” You turned on your playlist before flipping to the first page of the stack of formulas Bruce assigned you to solve.

Your speaker was loud but who cares it’s not like anyone cared or was listening everyone was off doing their own things. The first few songs were upbeat and fun but the farther you got into your playlist the more guilty pleasure songs started playing, but Peter didn’t mind he was blocking out the music anyways so he could focus better on the formulas in front of him. What you didn’t know was that Steve and Nat were standing outside your room listening.

“Knee deep where? doing what?” Steve said worriedly looking over at Nat.

“It’s just a song Steve stop being so old-school” Nat smirked back at him.

“But Peter’s in there with her, what if they aren’t actually studying?” Steve asked as any worried uncle would.

“The song is talking about having relations in the bathroom during dinner time, that’s not appropriate Nat” Steve said firmly not accepting any excuse now.

Nat wasn’t interested in continuing this conversation any further and started walking toward the living quarters where there sat Bucky, Clint, Bruce and of course Tony.

“What’s got you so tense Cap? Your boyfriends right here if you have to relieve some tension” Tony laughed making fun of Steve and Bucky’s unusual bromance.

“I think you should worry more about what your daughter and Peter are doing upstairs” Steve said, crossing his arms.

“What? What are you talking about Cap? His vigilant ass better not be corrupting my innocent perfect daughter” Tony angrily stated as his face turned a shade of red nobody expected.

“They are listening to a song about having relations in the car and bathroom” Steve said pointing upstairs to your room.

“And you didn’t shut it down the moment you heard that? What kind of uncle are you?” Tony asked running up the stairs to take a listen for himself.

“Oh my gosh the lyrics are filthy but it sounds so calming, how does an artist achieve that?” Tony muttered under his breath before harshly knocking on your bedroom door and bursting in unannounced.

“What’s going on here?” Tony yelled loudly only to be met with a view of you sitting at your desk and Peter sitting on your bed leaning against the headboard with a textbook and stack of papers sitting on his lap.

“What dad? We are busy figuring out the formulas Bruce gave us. Why the hell is everyone crowding outside my room?” You asked, pointing towards Steve, Bucky, Nat, Clint and Bruce all huddling in a circle outside your bedroom door.

“Well we heard the song you guys were listening to and were a bit concerned. You guys aren’t acting on those lyrics are you? You guys better not be under my roof” Tony questioned with a look of disgust on his face.

“What the hell are you going on about dad?” You asked looking over at Peter who looked like he'd seen a ghost.

“Are you guys having sexual relations?” Tony asked in disgust as your playlist suddenly skipped to the next song which would make your case even worse.

“Head so good, she's an honor roll she’ll ride your what like a carnival?” Tony repeated the lyrics.

“I am on the honor roll though, so it’s not entirely a lie” You replied back smirking like a smartass.

“This is not a laughing matter young lady, we are talking about something serious here, answer my question right now” Tony stated with a straight face not joking around anymore.

“Yeah we are and what about it?” You said, shrugging your shoulders.

“Y/n not in front of everybody” Peter said shyly.

“Who cares Peter they were going to find out sooner or later anyways, might as well just tell them now” You said looking back at everyone’s shocked faces. As you looked past your father behind him stood Bucky handing Clint a ten dollar bill.

“You guys had a bet going on about us?” Peter asked, looking back and forth between them but also keeping one eye on Tony just in case he might try to kill him.

“This conversation is not over and from now on this door stays open” Tony said sternly ignoring all the giggles and snarky remarks coming from his fellow avengers. Your playlist then starts playing a different song which lightens up the mood just a little.

“This one has a dance to go along with it, watch H-O-T-T-O-G-O it’s like the YMCA'' You said while doing the dance.

“I like doing the YMCA” Steve said, smiling now entering your room.

“Of course you do because you're ancient” Peter said jokingly.

As you can expect you didn’t think you’d be ending your day teaching Steve Rogers the Hot To Go dance however you wouldn’t trade the quiet days at the compound for anything because at the end of the day you’re just one big family and you wouldn’t trade them for the world.

[darqx]

HEEEY MACARENA (ALRIGHT!)

Here's some long overdue BP and HH asks :) I tend to combine the two since there's not as many as the RADs, so this starts with BP and then moves into HH/Gen qs.

BP

MUAH ~ (I actually doodled this some time last year for fun and whimsy, based on those long mouth kiss meme pics XD)

A very quick overview of these types!

Vescordem: Maneaters/cannibals, excessively tall and strong.

Aleores: Minor dealmakers (goods and services). Jaw can unhinge and has venomous bite.

Sollicio: Major dealmakers - soul stealing ability. Often very good looking, has ichor powers.

Voxter: Ability to project 'thoughts' into someone else's mind - you ever have an intrusive thought? Same concept. All have a unique mark across the top part of their face.

Caumacies: Maneaters/cannibals, very strong. Has a third eye which sees only in heat vision - rarely opened simultaneously with normal eyes.

Hmm M or MA15 i think 🤔

You know, i actually have an idea for a game that has nothing to do with anything I'm currently doing XD One day i'll actually have time to make it, maybe. But anyway currently my actual project is i'm planning on making a comic \o/

I AM PLEASED TO ANNOUNCE that i have thumbnailed like 70 pages of this bloody thing and i'm still only in the first quarter of the planned chapters lol OTL Once i finish thumbing the chapter I'm on I plan to go back and render the pages properly before starting to post them :D

...which should hopefully give me a buffer as i repeat the process for the next chapters |D

You know, the concept of my characs being comfort characs for someone will never get old for me. It just tickles me pink ᕕ( ᐛ )ᕗ This answer will have two levels to it.

It's fine to RP or ask blog with Rire - he's one of my more "known" characs thanks to BTD so as long as credit is given (and it's made clear I'm not running the blog so it's not canon) then it's cool.

I'd prefer if no ask/RP blogs are created for any of my other BP or HH characs, as they are not as known yet. This may be revisited once i actually get the BP comic out but for now it's a no, sorry! (Though, if you are RPing in like...a private Discord with other friends who know who the characs are then I'm a bit more lenient with that.)

The reason for the BP/HH level is that ages ago when I had started establishing my own characs more, I randomly happened to find a forum where someone was RPing as Izm and .D but no one else knew who the characs were and so they clearly thought the RPer was the original artist and creator. Said RPer was not dissuading anyone of that notion. That has stuck with me for forever because at the time i never anticipated that someone would...actually try and do that with an OC. Like, bro srsly?!

One pet peeve for everyone:

.D: Willfully stupid people

Izm: .D smoking. He could care less if anyone else smokes but .D is not allowed on his watch

Marcus: Having decisions made for him without his input

Zeke: "How's the weather up there?"

Wei Ren: When people think he can't understand English cos he has an accent and so they deliberately speak slower and louder

Geez Caleb why are you damn RUDE

Here's one i prepared earlier! 😌

I'm not sure why you included Marcus as a demon, he's a human lol.

HH/More Gen

There are clubs which are created by students but need approval from the adults to exist.

HH is one of the better boarding schools which generally turn out successful alumni. The "obvious problems" we see are not actually obvious lol.

He doesn't need such manipulations.

Thanks! I hope you are inspired to go forth and create stuff! :D

One of the only perks of being a prefect at HH, really :d

Absolutely not lol

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4. These types of qs are always amusing to me only because you guys expect me to know but i absolutely do not XDD. Do normal people actually have a fave animal?? I dont even have a fave animal!! Anyway offshoot aside sorry that i can't even randomly assign anything, but if you are interested here is what they might be AS animals lol.

They actually don't have names because they were randomly designed NPCs i drew as like, placeholders |D;

Not including Rire or Nurse Isla:

.D is asexual, Izm is bisexual, and everyone else is straight probably. Caleb and Desmond are violently straight (as in Des is like very 90s stoner bro adamantly vocal about being straight and Caleb will actually try and break your neck for insinuating anything).

I have some female characs but I dont draw them that often as they are more side characs in BP and HH. The ones ive's drawn at least once are Isla (who looks like this, also doodled above), Tish (Des's sister) and Kenzie and Kelly (Zeke's sisters).

Every once in a blue moon i get an ask saying this but whenever i go to check nothing is wrong, so...nothing is wrong they do work |D; As the age old tech saying goes have you tried turning it off and on again? :d

Aren't those kind of things supposed to be...based on yourself??

[bluiela]

You know what? Seeing some of the Elriels in TikTok comments really reminded me why I’m beyond relieved to not be part of that community. The sheer level of delusion and arrogance they constantly parade around is actually disturbing — and it’s always the same tired, toxic rhetoric:

“Gwynriels ship Gwyn and Az because they hate Elain.” “They just want Lucien to be happy.” “That one influencer brainwashed thousands into seeing something that doesn’t exist.” “Those thousands are just dumb and gullible.”

Do they hear themselves? The sheer irony of acting like their opinion is gospel in a book series that is literally subjective is laughable.

Most of them started shipping Elriel way back in ACOMAF. The same book that ends with Az almost dying and still protecting Mor and Elain being mated to Lucien. There was nothing substantial between Elain and Azriel then — they just latched onto it because it fed into their romantic fantasy. It’s been pure self-insert since day one.

Meanwhile, many Gwynriels were originally Elriels — until we started reading the actual text. We paid attention. We saw what the story was actually showing us. We grew with the narrative, not against it. But Elriels? They’ve been clinging to... potatoes and fantasies that Mor and Azriel have already had and done but better, ignoring canon development.

What’s truly disgusting is the tone — the condescending, cult-like idea that thousands of readers are too stupid to interpret the same pages correctly unless it aligns with the Elriel agenda. That’s not just arrogant — that’s toxic as hell.

It's rooted in superiority complex.

They genuinely think their interpretation is the only one that’s valid. That anyone who sees a different connection — based on the same text — must be an idiot. That’s not confidence in your ship. That’s arrogance masking insecurity. It’s the literary version of “if you don’t agree with me, you’re stupid.” That’s not fandom, that’s fascism.

2. It completely erases subjectivity.

Books, especially character-driven fantasy like ACOTAR, are meant to be interpreted. People relate to different characters and dynamics — that’s the point. But Elriels throw that out the window and label every opposing interpretation as delusional or “influenced.” So basically, they believe readers are incapable of forming their own opinions unless they match theirs. That’s manipulative and condescending as hell.

3. They ignore canon in favor of fantasy.

Most of them started shipping Elriel back in ACOMAF — a book where Azriel is still obsessed with Mor and Elain is literally mated to Lucien. But that didn’t matter to them. They clung to the fantasy of “shy girl x broody boy” and refused to grow with the story. Then Gwyn showed up — with actual, consistent chemistry and emotional development with Azriel — and they lost their minds. Not because it didn’t make sense, but because it threatened their fantasy. That’s not shipping. That’s fanfic delusion overriding canon.

4. They project and self-insert HARD.

A lot of this isn’t even about Elain or Azriel. It’s about readers projecting their own insecurities or fantasies onto Elain. They want to be her. And when someone prefers another character — like Gwyn, who is bold, brave, and actively healing — it feels like a personal attack. So instead of dealing with that discomfort, they lash out and accuse everyone else of “hating Elain” or being “brainwashed.”

Newsflash: Disagreeing with your ship is not hate. Seeing deeper, better-developed dynamics doesn’t mean we’re blind. It means we’re reading the damn books without a self-insert filter.

5. They attack fans, not ships.

I’ve never seen a Gwynriel mock Elriels as people. I’ve seen us disagree with the ship, yes — but the Elriels? They don’t just attack Gwynriel. They attack the fans. Calling us brainwashed, stupid, desperate, sheep. That’s not defending your ship. That’s cult behavior. If your argument only stands when you're insulting thousands of readers, maybe your ship isn't as solid as you think.

So yeah. I’m glad I’m not part of that delusional, toxic mess of a fandom. I’d rather ship something that’s actually supported by character growth and narrative development than sit around worshipping a glorified fanfic pairing from book two and pretending everyone else is insane for evolving past it.

The fact that Gwynriels don't even stoop to their level says everything. We don’t need to attack Elain. We don’t need to scream our ship is “canon” to feel good about it. We’re not insecure.But clearly, they are. And it shows.

[vi-for-vendetta]

Anonymous asked:

if youre still taking requests, id love to see something written about some smug rich girl being turned into a milky cow

This isn't much to go off, so I'm gonna do my best lol. I wrote kinda bitchy wlw hucow transformation. Again, I wrote this in second person, I am sorry lol:

She wasn't always this way. When the two of you were younger, she had no desire to shove her closet the size of your house, or the designer purses, or the sports cars in your face. But the second you two went to college, she became a whole new person. Her whole personality revolved around her wealth. You assumed it was just because she wanted attention, but you always felt that it was the wrong kind of attention.

You hadn't spoken to her since orientation, now you were entering your senior year and you two managed to get stuck in a class together. Unfortunately, this was one of those seminar classes where you're made to work on the same project for the whole year with the same partner.

You've heard from some of the other people in your major that she's a notorious slacker, the kind of person who always just skates by, a real "C's get degrees" kind of gal. Normally, you wouldn't care about this, but because you're grade is on the line here, too, you were fuming at the thought of her just making you do the whole assignment by yourself.

You were going to set her straight. One way or another, she was going to pull her weight in this project.

You decided to invite her back to your dorm to brainstorm ideas, but you already had one. You just needed to wait for the inevitable.

The two of you sat down at your too small kitchen table and stared at your laptop screens.

You both affixed your gaze on a blank Google Doc simply titled "Ideas."

Well, you did. She just had it open and was instead focused on her phone. Now was your chance:

"So, any ideas you think could be interesting for the-"

She raises a finger to you, "I'm gonna stop you there. I know you're, like, way smarter than me, so you can just do it and I'll, like, make the PowerPoint pretty in the end. Okay? Just do whatever you want, we can, like, meet up for 15, or like 20 minutes every couple of days to make it look like we're working, but beyond that I don't care."

"Okay, but why do you have to look like you're working? It's not like we're being checked on."

"You might not be, but I am. These stupid professors have me on academic probation, so they need to know where I am all the time," she groaned.

"Got it." You knew the answer already, of course. Gossip is common throughout the school about the pretty little rich girl who always manages to come out on top.

"Yeah, so just do whatever you want," she said with a dismissing wave.

You nodded, covering your mouth with your hand, hiding a grin that cartoon supervillains would be jealous of. You clicked open a new tab with a fully set up paper outline and data collection page. This was going to be the perfect paper. You called it, "Creating a Hucow: How Lactation Supplements and Subliminal Messaging Can Turn Anyone into a Ditzy Cow."

Of course you needed IRB approval for this, but based on your partner's nonchalance and overall dismissive nature, you could surely get her to sign all the papers you needed without her ever noticing what she was agreeing to.

So, off you went. For months, you slowly dosed her up with lactation supplements, offering to pick up her Starbucks and spiking it before each 20 minute meeting. You'd talk to her about how gorgeous she'd look in cow print, how soft her skin looked. After a month, she was letting you give her hand and shoulder massages. After two months, you were able to comment to her about how heavy her breasts looked, how tight her clothes had gotten, and how the cow print would help to hide it well. She started to let you grope her under the guise of "just holding them up to help her back." Each time she let you do this, you slowly introduced nipple stimulation. Then the day came.

It was month three and she was practically putty in your hands. But there was still work to do, and you knew just how to get the next phase started:

"Hey, you know, during some of my research for this stupid paper, I found that breast pumping, like the stuff new moms do, can really help ease the pain in your tits."

"Really? I never, like, ever heard that before."

"No, it's true! Here, I knew you were having a rough time, and I don't wanna see you suffer, so I bought you one," you say presenting the best pump to her, "Wanna try it out? I can get it hooked up for you."

She looked at you, puzzled, maybe moreso tentative. There was a long pause as she examined the device, "Okay. What not."

Success.

You peeled off her shirt, and hooked her up to the little pump. After only a few seconds, milk started to leak from her nipples into the machine.

"Oh my god! What the hell? Why am I-"

You shush her, cutting her off, "Don't worry, it's normal. Sometimes this just happens to girls with big tits like yours. It's the price to pay for beauty like that. But don't worry, I'm here to help."

"Okay, if you say so," her voice trailed off, it's the most concerned she's sounded throughout this whole process. You'd be sure to note that down. "But okay, I trust you. Thank you for helping me."

"Any time."

With that, you convinced her to come over more often, twice a day for an hour each session. Each time you'd pump her, you'd touch her breasts, rub her thighs. She moaned at the mear sight of your hands now.

By month four, she would come to your dorm and stop down to nothing but a micro cow-print bikini, which she now wore under her ensemble of cow-print clothes each day, and her cow bell collar. She'd then let you rip off her top and pump her. You'd run your pussy and your own breasts as you touched her, and she would beg for your touch all the time now.

It was month five now, and the semester was drawing to a close. She was a wet, milky mess the second she laid eyes on you. She would walk around on all fours, pumping her tits as she slurped up your wetness. Her favorite activity was rubbing your tits together.

She was the prettiest little experiment you ever saw.

And today was the day you'd tell her what you'd done to her. In front of the whole seminar class.

Your class' collective jaw dropped the second you walked in with her on a leash, walking on all fours in her micro bikini, leaking milk down her swollen tits.

You began your presentation:

"This semester, I turned my partner, with her consent, of course, into a hucow. Here's how I did it."

You spent your presentation detailing every step in your manipulative process, and not once did her face drop that ditzy smile it had. All she did was nod, smile and beg to be touched by you throughout your presentation.

As your presentation drew to a close, now was the time to ask your coveted question: "Alright, cow, here's my final question for this study, okay?"

She nodded fast.

"Knowing what you do now about what I did to you and how, are you mad, and do you regret what you've become?"

Without missing a beat, she chirps, "Absolutely not! I'm so happy being your dumb cow! I just wanna be your little milky toy forever! Please may I be your toy?"

You look at your classmates and smile, "Why yes, yes you can."

She jumps up from the floor and kisses you, groping your tits in front of the class.

You had made the perfect bimbo cow and proved that it was a more than satisfactory existence. This was the life.

[kimberly-spirits13]

Imagine You’re in School with Jason (AP Lit Style)

You’ve been basic friends for a while

Just the type that can have a good laugh but don’t know everything about each other

He’s probably not the first person you’d go to if you’re upset about something but he’s still considered a friend

That is until you start having all your classes together

I’d imagine that if you’re like me, your both taking the most AP classes that you like

AP Lit is the favorite

He loves Anna Karenina because it’s like a TLC show for the Victorian Russians

Jason is a stationary guy, so in class he’s got washi tape to mark chapter sets, non bleed highlighters, microns, little post its, see through post-its, book marks, nice mechanical pencils and refills, and it’s all in a brown leather pencil case

He likes Socratic seminars because he likes to talk about the books

He likes essays but always have to have a page limit given to him because he will write a full book about his thoughts on the book

In class, he’s always asking you what you think about something and he likes that you two can keep up with each other

I don’t think he’s the boy to be hyper concerned with grades, but because he understands his lessons, he naturally makes pretty good grades

You’re assigned a group project where you and Jason decide to partner up to do a poster of Anna Karenina

When you come over to his house for the English project, he has all the supplies and he suddenly realizes that he’s a bit embarrassed about it

“So Alfred (me) may have gone a bit overboard but we can do something simple if you’d like- or idk make it nice”

Please help this man decorate this stupid poster board

Alfred makes your favorite type of drink or gets it, makes food, you two put on a movie or some music, and get to work

“So what do you think is important about Karenin and Vronsky having the same first names?”

“I think it’s important for theme that Anna was introduced with a train and died by train”

“Betsy is a bitch”

He loves to talk about it with you

Once you’re done with the project, he asks you to come over and do homework together

If you’re a vigilante, you’ll do patrol after because you two connect the dots quickly

If you’re normal, suddenly Jason has to run off and says Alfred will take you home but we’ll talk about that another day

For time purposes, we’ll say that you quickly find out about his patrol life

I mean dude comes bruised, he gets called to the basement a lot, he’s a true crime buff, sometimes he goes missing for hours, and it’s Gotham like come on everyone might as well be a vigilante or smt

Dick teases Jason about you two, especially when you’re over

You can’t help that you get cold watching the 6 hour long Pride and Prejudice movie and Jason is right there like come on Dick

Jason is lokey blushing soooo hard if you cuddle up next to him or even if you’re on the same couch

You two start to become inseparable at school

Not in a pda way but like a “I mean we might as well just hang out all the time” kind of way

Automatically becomes your date to any sort of school function

Even if it’s an unspoken thing that you two will be each other’s date, he still gets you flowers and asks you to go with him

Dick eventually pushes him to ask you out because “for real dude we all know you’re crushing”

Jason is a tall dude, towers over everyone, bulked up, dark hair, dark blue eyes, he’s gorgeous and everyone else are the ones intimidated by him

But when he asks you out he is so nervous

I mean the logical part of him is pretty sure that you’ll like him back, but the irrational part is terrified that he is about to mess up your friendship

He asks you at the end of the school day on a Friday incase you say no, there’s a weekend to get over it and he won’t ruin both of y’all’s days by asking during first period or something

When you say yes he’s like “😱” and a part of him is reborn or smt dramatic like that

He basically speeds home and endures the lecture from Alfred on reckless driving

He’s even more excited that you asked if he wanted to go to the park or the bookstore

And he’s like YESSSSSSSSSSS

You two have enormous text message conversations and he likes to FaceTime

Please I think he’s a hot chocolate junkie

He’s got all sorts of mugs ranging from regular white ones to fandom ones

Sweat pants king and he’ll give you any sweat set you want

Or oversized t shirts

He thinks pda at school it gross (it is) so he keeps it on the down low but he’ll definitely hug you or run his fingers through your hair if one of you needs it

He likes playing with your hair because it’s soothing

Please watch documentaries and period dramas with him

Or book to screen adaptations that are good

[theninjamouse]

Now that I've officially cut ties, I can share some of the nonsense I've been dealing with regarding the camp I spent the last 3 years working with. This is gonna be long, bear with me.

I'm a freelance media producer. The last 3 years I've worked at this camp as the all around media guy, pictures, video, all that for roughly 6 weeks during the summer. From the beginning, the communication at this place was horrendous. I never knew where things were happening, I was never informed if the kids suddenly changed location, I was forced to walk around with all my gear and in that new York summer heat was unbearable.

But I learned the workings. And the last 2 years I was in charge of all media. So at the very least, I controlled what I deemed to be important. And I have an insanely high work ethic. One of the things I brought to the table was not only dashing around getting pictures of their massive sports day event, I filmed and put together a video of the day to present by the winner announcement that same night. This meant I only had about 3 hours to edit a 3-4 minute video, one that was GOOD. And it was good! Always! Because I am proud of my work and strive to keep that quality. All the time, people gushed over how good my pictures were.

But at the same time, I always ALWAYS felt like an outsider. Because I was still kept in the dark about most things. I had just learned enough to guess what was going on, and usually, I was right.

This last summer, it felt like I was finally starting to be fully acknowledged and welcomed. And even better! I was offered a year round position doing their social media. For a freelancer, that offer is gold. It wouldn't be enough to live on, but it would be more than enough to help me through the slower months.

So I said, cool let's make a contract, a plan. Let's get this going

"Later," I was told.

Later, I said, "Are we ready now?"

"Oh for sure, we'll talk soon."

The last 2 weeks of camp, I tried every single day to talk about the plan. The director was never in his office. But when I requested a meeting, he would always say it wasn't needed, I could come by anytime.

But every time I did, he was never there.

Camp ended. It was a welcome break. So I took that break, then reached out.

Again, brushed off. Later, I was told.

I trusted that it would happen. After all, I have the pictures. I have the knowhow. I was promised. These people value me. Need me.

Brushing off turned to flat-out ghosting. And all the while, I watched their social media page update every other day with MY work, work that while good, was unpolished. After all, if I have to upload at minimum 200 pictures a day during camp, of course I'm not going to edit each one. They don't need it for the parents to view.

But the socials? A little adjustment to the highlights, bumping up contrast would have turned them into absolute gold. Whoever was doing my job didn't edit a single image. Each post was another slap to the face

In the world of freelance, especially media, it takes time to secure work. Talks have to happen, contracts made and hours put in. If an opportunity for a project slips by, there is no guarantee that another will be around the corner.

I was stupid. I believed that this position with these people I've worked with for 3 years would come through. So I didn't do my usual mad scramble to find any work I could to last me the fall and winter months. Because, well, I had found one, right? With that, added to my real estate shoots, the odd dance comp here and there until the rush in January, I would be just fine.

Instead. It's been one dance comp. No real estate shoots since September. And not a single word from camp. And by the time I realized that I had been simply replaced, it was too late to find any of the more solid falltime gigs.

I'm tired. I'm so tired of working so hard and proving time and time again that I produce good work only to have the rug violently yanked from under my feet. I've been doing food delivery just to survive. And that sucks. This isn't what I want to do. I want to create, I want to tell stories with my words and my pictures and my videos.

But the world has shown time and time again that it doesn't care about one little photographer. Why pay a professional when phones are 'just as good'. Why display even a little curtesy and tell this person we promised a job to that we went with someone else because we don't want to pay the professional when we can just have any old Joe post the pictures said professional did?

I told them I was done. I'm not returning to camp next year. I can't do it anymore. And it freaking hurts.

Even this other massive project I have in the works has been heartbreak. Because they have taken two months to even begin to talk about actually getting started. And instead of being paid up front, like most grants are, I have been told that the expectation is a reimbursement system. That won't be accepted until March 2025. I've begged to at the very least work on a monthly invoice system. But I can't submit anything until the training of the system happens.

It was supposed to happen yesterday. And I have been left waiting with no answers since last week.

So. That's where I'm at. At the very least I will be flying home next week and I can get some hours in doing aid work for my brothers. But that is also the main source of work for my mom and my sibling. The hours and funding of the aid program are limited. I can't take it away from them, not when it's my own stupid fault for hoping that things would actually work out for me this time.

I can't do a normal 9-5. I have tried. It nearly killed me. I have conditions that make work like that nearly impossible to bear.

I'm so tired. I'll keep going, because I have to.

But I really, really don't want to anymore

[queenilyrian]

Hi. While I do agree that what people are doing are insanely stupid and immature like commenting all their hate into any project Henry posts about or harassing any makeup artist/staff he or Natalie interacts with to satisfy their hatred...YES,all these are absolutely ridiculous!! They SHOULD get a life!

But the pictures they post about her past, Natalie with her boobs out/blowjob position, Natalie's bff saying he is r*ping Meat while she laughs, Natalie's blackface, Model Mayhem escort pics, those are all true too right? Then why get angry about it? Isn't stanning someone means we accept the good AND the bad?

First of all “her boobs out”? Are you a nun? She was wearing a shirt not a turtleneck. Miss me with this Afghanistan “women must be covered head to toe” misogynistic shit.

“Blow job position” I’m sure gay men aren’t into that kind of BJ ,you clearly never had friends not had crazy pictures taken while being young partying with your gay bestie…

“Natalie’s friend raping meat”- FFS if anything like that was shown in the video humane societies around the world would call it out. It was a joke she said. No one even touched the dog. You created a problem simply because that was Natalie’s dog and she stole your man. Again it’s clear you’re living in a monastery somewhere.

“Her black face” was not a black face. She never put any paint on her face. Himba tribe (where she was staying and you have countless articles and YouTube videos about people with exactly the same experiences) painted her body with a sun protecting mixture which they use up to her neck. IT WASN’T DONE IN LA during Halloween but in Namibia by the tribe while she was staying with the tribe. Since you don’t understand the difference between racism and cultural appreciation you tried to blackmail Henry with this to break up with Natalie . I wonder how did that go?

“Model Mayhem escort pics”? I’m gonna be waiting here while you find me an evidence that Model Mayhem (a page still used by millions of models) is an escort company? Do you have any evidence of Natalie being an escort? No you don’t. You never did. This is what you did instead. Someone who was doing sex work had a page on Model Mayhem. She was making more money than working on the street. Apparently she encountered a sick man that unalived her. That was the only article connecting in any way Model Mayhem with “escort���. With that logic we are all escorts for having a FB/IG page cuz guess what? People use those apps for sex work too. And btw who is Micah Tesler? Why would Natalie use her pictures from Facebook which are literally her pictures wearing a dress and oversized hat to use a fake name and say she is studying law? Sounds a lot like catfish to me considering she was already on my sweet 16….

Again please find me where she was an escort ,did nudes ,was a sex worker,did porn rape her dog ,kill her dog, put a paint on her face as you idiots have been claiming for the past 4 years. Do I hold my breath? I don’t think so.

Btw even if you make lies bigger she is Mrs Cavill the mother of his child. She will always be a part of his life 😂

[bredforloyalty]

what were u studying? and why did you quit if it’s not too personal

of course it's not too personal! (this is my blog where i yap hdsgvy and i'm just touched anyone even asks)

short version is it made me want to off myself so i stopped / i stopped studying psychology because of my psychological problems ahaha and also i didn't want it all that much to begin with, and also i might have some problems with studying itself (some kind of brain problem), and also the circumstances because i'm back at home and it's not good, and also i'd just rather work and focus on anything else other than a "career" now. i don't want assignments i want something to do with my hands and people to see. i want to enjoy things again. and not have this hanging over my head

longer version: i was doing a psychology bachelor's, i had one course—a research project—to go and the final exam after that. this was my third time with this subject, because, well there are three types of research projects we have to do and the essay type was fine (no data, no stats, just theory), then the questionnaire research i failed in the 4th semester. 5th semester i tried to do both the questionnaire and the experiment research projects (both requiring like actual collection of data) and could only finish the one i had begun before, bc i didn't have to do a wholly different one of the same kind of questionnaire research, i could just pick up the one i had before. these are ~15 page scientific papers by the way, title page and sources and all not included. so i finished that, but i had to ask for an extension and then ANOTHER extension. and i cried most days. it was bad. i got a 5 (A). at this time i was still living in another city, where the campus is, away from home, and this helped, that i was alone in my apartment And i had a friend talking me through the whole process (!!). and it was easier research than the ones that would come after, genuinely. 6th semester (last one), you're not really supposed to do research, because if you want to graduate w everyone else, you have to hand it in about 2 months into the semester, because you have to compile all your research into a portfolio and upload it, so they'll let you take the final exam during the exam period of that semester

now, the first problem was i couldn't do it in 2 months, so i was gonna do the final exam and get the diploma next semester, so a whole summer later. and i moved back home. this freaked out my mother big time. i'll never forget the 3 hours in the car on our way back from the apartment, after we packed up. she was vicious. anyway not only did i not hand in my portfolio, i just couldn't finish the paper. worked a little over the summer, i tried again with new research this september, traveled there and back in the same day (mondays) to talk to the consultant. i finally got a student job, it was and is sooo important to me because i like the environment and the people there are actually normal. and treat me like a person. i was always told and i feared that i'd never get a job or i'd be fired because i'm stupid and incompetent and i can't handle a "real" job (→ i had to study and do something intellectual) and this was not the case.. all of my fears were unfounded actually everything is okay there and i'm not an unpleasant person that customers avoid. in fact i'm pleasant. and i get on well with everyone there. i really like making coffee, i'm kind of looking for a full-time barista job or something similar right now

um. for context my dad does physical work and my mom is white collar. they're getting a divorce now, both just unhappy people, my dad's a misogynist they really hate each other he's hurt my mom a lot. etc. my mom really really really wanted me to get a diploma, she thinks the only reason i would opt out is laziness and a general disinterest for all useful things in life (i think this is related, she wants me to have a better life than dad and to be a different, better person). i couldn't stand her breathing down my neck. two days ago she checked on me SEVEN times during the day, asking if i'm studying (i wasn't btw). my home life is frequently awful even without the added stress of studying, i just couldn't do it anymore. i never even liked studying, it made me miserable most of the time, to have things that i Must do by a certain deadline. some lectures/seminars were fun and stimulating and some weren't, some schools of thought i'm really interested in and others i think are horseshit, this is normal stuff. still, i didn't really find my place within psychology ? and anyway, if i decided i wanted to be a child therapist or a family therapist or work in adoption, it's a looong road there.

if i can only do a 15 page research paper with several extensions and while using up all of my energy to deal with the personal/mental health crisis that is "important project", Without actually ever dealing and resolving this crisis (because, i did try again and again and the same crisis would set in every time), the master's degree is just out of the question. psych BA is half a degree, it's useless in this country without the master's. except for being able to say "i have a degree", it's good for that, some employers ask for only that. and there are certain MAs you can do with a psych BA that aren't psych so of course it wouldn't have been useless. but that's just not reason enough to keep doing this, y'know? it was painful and destabilizing, i couldn't let go of this idea that my academic success or my output or my work is what i'm worth. intellectually, personally. so if i don't do well, i'm dumb or i can't think in complex concepts or my. executive functions are just subpar and i'll never make it in fields that require any studying at all (ofc as i saw it, this last thing would still be my fault because i should've learned to study better and should've worked on my attention span and should've just Wanted it harder and learned to stick with things, and learned to do stuff i don't want to do, or that i don't enjoy doing).

this was untenable, i worked myself into these states, my family couldn't deal with me or help me either. but the main reason i've decided to quit uni (for now; for at least a year i'm quitting and then i'll see if i resume the program) is i want to do something on my own terms. and not be obligated to finish this for my mother, or to be the kind of person she requires me to be. i can't be that person. i'm my own person. as long as i live here and i'm studying (and failing and trying again and failing and-), i can't be my own person. if i finish this program, it has to be because i'm in a better place and ideally getting more support and because i really want it. and it's my thing. currently uni isn't my thing, it's my mother's thing... so yeah i'm much happier now that i've let go of this, and promised myself i'd do what i can to be financially stable (somewhat) and to move out!

[cinder-rose]

Ugly Beautiful Reread: chapter fourteen

explicit constant ahead

(this chapter is the reason I'd love a chapter breakdown of hits on the stats page!)

Ahahahaha. You know when you've been working too hard and then you have an experience that reminds you what being alive is supposed to be like? That's what I was going for.

😏😏

You don't want to know how long I spent deciding what scent of cleaning products the housekeeping staff at this hotel should use. I was going for the gay connotation. This is why writing takes so long.

Bojan always taking care of his bottoms! And I was so proud of this stupid language joke.

I had this mental image in my head for ages before being able to write it

Aww I'd forgotten about this part 😍😍

He would learn his last name if they ever married 🤣🤣🤣 for real though, this is my favourite part of slow-burn-emotion-fast-burn-sex fics.

Little pauses in between the heat... I dunno, of course it's a fantasy but I do like smut to feel real like this. It's not all passion and intensity and being desperate to cum, it's these little moments of catching your breath and appreciating where you are. I love this

Fuck you guys, feet are sexy

Also never seen this in smut (maybe I just don't read enough). It's the intimacy of it that's hot.

He doesn't say that to all the boys, Jere! You're special! He loves you!

🥵🥵🥵

I wrestled with this for a while. I personally hate condoms and much prefer to ignore them in fic. But... a part of me was still concerned about writing responsible sex for a young fandom (obv this was not an issue by the time kinktober rolled around). But mostly, it gives them room to grow! They needed condoms here so that they can NOT use them later and have it mean something important.

MORE. APPRECIATION. FOR. THE. SKIN. UNDERNEATH. BALLS.

Does anyone else need this? Closeness so you can cum with him in your arms instead of between your legs?

I WISH I could remember which fic it was that I first read "his pleasure" being used as a euphemism for cum but now I use it all the time.

and a million miles from after fucking Eljas. Also - orgasm does not mean the end of sex! We just need a little recovery time in between haha there is always so much focus on an orgasm as the climax of sex but we're just playing!

It's not like that time in the park at all.

I don't even know if this word makes sense in this context, but I thought it was cute. Also, dicks do not have to be hard all the time. He's still feeling good.

The whole "working your way up to three fingers before using cock" thing is actually one of my pet peeves in smut. Maybe I've been doing it wrong, but that is not how I do anal at all.

Achievement unlocked: used the word "squelched" in smut

Just a little headcannon I have.

This is so cliche. It reads well but it's so overdone I'd probably take it out if I rewrote this.

As if there was any way these boys could make it through sex without making terrible jokes and falling apart laughing

There has never been a more "BoJere" line written in the history of fic.

He wants to be marked! MARK HIM

Oh my, is it hot in here 🥵

Aww Bojan wants them to come together

Jere still doesn't know if this will ever happen again 🥺🥺

Same, Jere. Same.

[gaydryad]

Ooh, can you elaborate on calls of the void?

Calls of the Void is a personal zine/chapbook :] it was supposed to just be a little project since at my uni, creative writing grad students get a chapbook published and my publishing / book layout special interest kicked in to be like "ok what do I want to actually have that be and how do I want it to look". it's the first project I've done where the format (length, page size, general printing limitations/requirements) came before the writing and this has been both fun and annoying as fuck (I've had to change the page size like three times due to being bad at math...).

I also was uh, having a lot of thoughts about Mortality due to personal stuff, which is part of where the title comes from. anyway here's a whiteout poem I made from an email my dad sent me after I came out to him with my new name (these would be on a recto and a verso respectively, so that the second page is on the back of the first):

[image IDs: two non-facing pages. the first one is titled "dear" in all smallcaps. the rest of the text is a block which has been selectively whited out, leaving only certain words visible. together the two pages show all of the text, but only the text on the first page is legible, as the text on the second page has been flipped horizontally so it appears to be backward. the text reads as follows, with parentheses indicating the backwards text:

'Void (I definitely don’t like. It’s negative; ok, I get you can argue it’s neither negative nor positive but we’re positive, and that makes it negative. We are the opposite of the) void. (You are the opposite of the) void. (You are not alone in the) void; (you have to at least admit that the rest of us are here with you in this world, facing the same) void. (And this world that I refer to, as you know it, every single thing that you may think of when I say “everything,” that which you know, is all within you. I suppose you feel you find yourself in a) void, (or with the) void, (but even in this solipsist view it’s you vs. the) void, (you are the negation of the) void, (you are the fill. If you are surrounded by the) void, (if you are the little that is, you are not the) void, (you are what is not) void. (No one can prove to you that solipsism is wrong but it’s a very stupid thing to believe, and the world will prove you wrong every time. And the truth is, you are the opposite of the) void. (You contain all of the light.)

(The) Void (is such an absurd idea; it can’t exist, it can’t be anything. It’s a self-contradiction!) It would be enough (to create the universe!)

(So I don’t know what dark mood has you identifying with The) Void, (but as your father,) I (cannot) approve.' /end ID]

[rudystree]

Thank God there are more people like you here. When I found your page I scrolled for hours and I was at peace. It is so refreshing to see Rudy's fans not hating on him, like others that calls themselves fans. I am fan of this show for almost 3 years, I still remember the first day I watched it and from that day jj was my favourite. Not only him but Rudy. You know when you feel so happy to see that person posted, to watch every interview of him and so. I then found about elaine and till this day I am following her, fell in love with her page, her photography and her love and support for Rudy. Then I saw people hating on her, wondered why and the searched a little bit abou it. And let me tell you there are some sick dumb people here. To do everything and try to destory his happiness?...

Then the rumors started about him leaving and man I don't blame him. I hate that jj died and s5 is not gonna be same, we would probbably have flashbacks but I can't stop thinking about all of the things he was supossed to expirience and do. He is doing such a good job in obx, his performance chef kiss. And after this I was like okayy didn't expect that but you know, juat one more season. Thank God it's not more season, cuz then I would be done. Anyway I am getting away from my point and sorry cuz this is soooo long. I just have to tell my thoughts, cuz you seem like a such a sweet person that understands what is happening.

I didn't think the "fans" would be THAT mad. I understand being sad and angry, I am still not over it. But calling rudy unprofessional? Like what. No one knows anythiiing what is happeing in his or others lives. Are they that bored to make stupid rumors. They got to that point that eveey second fp about rudy/jj is saying like omg he used stunt, omg he is so unprofessional, he can't leave his private life bla bla. Just stop. It got to another point where people are unffollowing obx page, making petition for rudy to get back and leaving hate comments on his posts. Whay do they think it's his fault, he did his job, he played jj for 4 years and that is how it was supossed to be. He was supossed to be dead weater we like it or not. He did soooo many good movies. Like so many people he worked with are always telling best about him. Everyome from obx always said only beautiful things about him, eveeytime someone talks about him I just think how he feels knowing this many people support him. This many people love what he creates and he did it. He did it. I will always support rudy even if there is no more obx. I watched every film besides obx with him just cuz I love him as a person. He really is something else. Maybe season4 coulve gone happier way but there is no reason to hate on him cuz he didn't anything. He did his part. I was waiting for his post but even if he doesn't post anything I think everyone would understand why. I know people are proud of him, he made it so far and he won in life. I will gladly support every other project of him. If people hate him so much then just scroll away, don't follow him and don't comment. Your page brings me peace from all of the hate outside. Thank you.

(And I am so so sorry for how long rhis is I din't mean to I just wrote everything I was feeling I guess. Tottaly gone thru a hundred situations in this paragraph ahahah.)

We stan Rudy 🤟

Don’t apologise!! I love these long messages and agree with absolutely everything you said. And I’m really happy that my lil blog is a happy space for other (genuine) Rudy fans! ❤️‍🩹

I am glad that so many people are angry. They should be, I know I am. I hope that the reaction resonates with Netflix and the writers. Unfortunately, a big chunk of this fandom is extremely immature (and borderline sociopathic) as demonstrated in all the past years. So much of the anger is completely misdirected, ironically at the actor who is actually the victim of all this bullshit. He just wants to protect himself and his loved ones from this crazy mob mentality, a toxic work environment and from being held hostage by restrictive contracts that don’t let him explore other projects. I completely get it and support him 100%.

[alyjojo]

October 🌹 2024 Monthly - Sagittarius

Preshuffle: You could be taking an impromptu vacation or break from work, just because people are driving you crazy or there’s a particular thing you’re getting increasingly impatient and unbalanced over. I’m hearing “let them deal with it.”

Meditation: A car driving away. You need a break, it’s just the same message repeating.

Main energy: 4 Cups

What’s going on in October:

Death, Knight of Swords, The World, 5 Pentacles & 2 Pentacles

Your energy is loud for being 4 Cups, in typical Sag fashion, I’m hearing someone yell “I’m BORED 🥱!” and I’m also hearing “quit talking about it & just fucking do it,” with extra sass, and this Page of Swords shows *verbal* irritation, the mood could be described as pissy, unsatisfied, unhappy and irritated. With every card I lay down it’s just more phrases I’m hearing and less of a reading. Sag commentary. “Fuck this.”

You’re tired of maneuvering around other people, especially work. If you’ve been planning to take off, that could’ve been moved or you’ve been waiting around on something to be finished so it’s a good time…don’t want to inconvenience anyone with your absence. What that’s turned into though feels like you’ve already put it off twice and incompetent ass people can’t manage to do basic tasks without you, you’re sick of it. Ready to abandon this, ready to PLAY, “all work and no play makes Jack a dull boy.” Here’s Johnny! You’re losing it fr, time for a much-needed break, it’s repeated throughout the whole reading that you’re right and you need one. A shit cycle you’ve endured, at the bottom the deck.

You’re done feeling like you have no control of your life, done feeling stuck and done being silent about it. Other people are going to get with your program whether they like it or not, and with The High Priestess I see you being very quiet about this, maybe hanging others out to dry a bit. Big project due on Tuesday, oh boy you took the whole week off, and turned your phone off too - don’t call me. You don’t care what happens, what goes wrong, don’t ask me questions, I don’t exist. By the end of the month you’re considering what to do to celebrate, maybe calling up some friends. A lot of them will be busy, and that could also frustrate you. You make time but most everyone else is busy with their own - same shit as you, same boat, and they can’t. Compromise shows a need to work with others and their own schedules & plans too. If romantic, this could be someone that always has an excuse why they can’t do something and you’re fed up over it, enough is enough. If there’s something you’ve been going back and forth about ending, discussing ending, you’re getting tired of the discussing. Less talk 💯 Or it could be someone feels that way about you.

Side note: If this is a relationship where someone talks about ending it a lot, the other person may decide to nail the coffin shut, call their bluff, ok & actually end it. Sick of this shit. Whew 😅 You’re missing the FUN out of life all around. But…a lot of these are minor arcana, free will is the moat important thing…go have fun then, love. Play is important, your sense of humor & optimistic nature keeps you sane, make it a priority 🧡

As I was ending the reading I’m seeing some guy throw up a gang sign or something and saying “straight up, NOT having a good time” and I had to laugh. At least it’s honest.

Signs you may be dealing with:

Heavy Cancer, Capricorn, Gemini, Taurus & Scorpio

Oracle: ✨

Nightmare 😰

Suffering - Darkness - Persecution

Compromise 🤝

Agreement - Reconciliation - Consideration

48 Play

Our work can and should take on the quality of play, for it is okay that stimulates creativity.

We enter into October as:

Sage 🧙🏼‍♂️

“Wisdom...is knowing the difference between risk, and stupidity.”

It is time to listen to what others are telling you. Is there some wise counsel that you have sought, only to ignore it? Are you trying to do things all by yourself? A solution to your problems may come from those more experienced than yourself. Trust that whomever you think to ask will be the right person. Sage can also indicate a time of surrendering what you have no control over. Wisdom only comes from experience, and we all have challenges because we need the lessons they provide. Remember to stay in today, no jumping ahead. This is an opportunity to start over and clean out the old, it’s the perfect time to do it. Rejoice! You are walking a path of Great Spirits 🍃

What is to be learned in October:

Saint Apricot 😇

“I’m sorry that I have to take care of myself.”

Saint Apricot comes to you when you have been (or are about to be) freed from a situation that has you chained. This is a lesson in taking care of yourself. It’s a reminder to not give away more than you can, or it will drain you. We are not giving from a place of love if we are giving only to get. People may not like it when we focus on taking care of ourselves, but it is necessary in order to have a truthful relationship with them. If you speak the truth from your heart, then any guilt you feel is from the fear of being disliked. Feelings of shame come up when we feel we are “bad”, guilt comes up when we feel something we’ve done is “bad”. If another person no longer chooses to be in our lives, due to what’s been said or done in total honesty, it’s not our fault, it is their choice. This signifies a turn in your destiny. You are moving in a new direction towards freedom, and this opens the gateway towards more rewarding relationships in life.

Orange may be a lucky color 🧡

[mylittlesecrethaven]

I Read Project 2025, So Here's A Rundown I Guess: Part 1.1

Idk if this counts as political, but I'm just reading the stupid book online and putting down what it basically says and some other stuff i Guess. (it could get political I guess? Idk. Just kinda wanted to make these posts since I'm reading the book and I kept getting annoyed with people just saying what the book says instead of writing down exactly what it says and what page to find it on in videos over the book)

(That's not saying I won't do the same thing, but for some things I'll rewrite what it says unless it just needs to be summarized. I will have page numbers though)

(also, if you want a faster rundown than waiting for me to give shitty interpretations of this, go to the wiki here. it sums it up pretty well, but it doesn't state everything.)

Intro: Part 1

(these are paragraphs from the intro I found that were.... interesting. these are word for word and include page numbers. this is likely the only time i will be using word for word in this series.)

"Today, the American family is in crisis. Forty percent of all children are born to unmarried mothers, including more than 70 percent of black children. There is no government program that can replace the hole in a child's soul cut out by the absence of a father. Fatherlessness is one of the principle sources of American poverty, crime, mental illness, teen suicide, substance abuse, rejection of the church, and high school dropouts. So many of the problems government programs are designed to solver - but can't - are ultimately problems created by the crisis of marriage and the family. The world has never seen a thriving, healthy, free, prosperous society where more children grow up without their married parents. If current trends continue, we are heading toward social implosion."

(Page 4) (basically, if a child grows up without a father, they're doomed to either go into poverty, commit a crime, have a mental illness, commit suicide as a teen, have a substance abuse problem, reject the church, or become a high school dropout. They also state that the world cannot be free, thriving, healthy, or prosperous if every child doesn't have married parents.)

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"The next conservative President must make the institutions of American civil society hard targets for woke culture warriors. This starts with deleting the terms sexual orientation and gender identity ('SOGI'), diversity, equity, and inclusion ('DEI'), gender, gender equality, gender equity, gender awareness, gender-sensitive, abortion, reproductive health, reproductive rights, and any other terms used to deprive Americans of their First Amendment rights out of ever federal agency regulation, contract, grant, regulation, and piece of legislation that exists."

(Page 4-5) (basically saying that terms like sexual orientation, gender identity, diversity, equity, inclusion, gender, gender equality, gender equity, gender awareness, gender-sensitive, abortion, reproductive health, reproductive rights, and other terms like these deprive Americans of their First Amendment rights and that any official piece of paper, like legislation or contacts, shouldn't be allowed to contain them)

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"Pornography manifested today in the omnipresent propagation of transgender ideology and sexualization of children, for instance, is not a political Gordian knot inextricably binding up disparate claims about free speech, property rights, sexual liberation, and child welfare. It has no claim to First Amendment protection. Its purveyors are child predators and misogynistic exploiters of women. Their product is as addictive as any illicit drug and as psychologically destructive as any crime. Pornography should be outlawed. The people who produce and distribute it should be imprisoned. Educators and public librarians who purvey it should be claimed as registered sex offenders. And telecommunications and technology firms who facilitate its spread should be shuttered."

(Page 5) (basically saying that porn should be outlawed, those that spread porn should be called sex offenders, and anything related to trans is porn. also that porn inherently targets children, is misogynistic, and is as dangerous as any drug)

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"The noxious tenets of "critical race theory" and "gender ideology" should be excised from curricula in every public school in the country. These theories poison our children, who are being taught on the one hand to affirm that the color of their skin fundamentally determines their identity and even their moral statues yet on the other hand they are taught to deny the very creatureliness that inheres in a human and consists in accepting the givenness of our nature as men or women."

(Page 5 (basically saying that critical race theory and gender ideology are bad for our children and shouldn't be in schools because it teaches kids that their skin color defines their personality yet they cannot use birth sex to define a woman or a man)

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"Allowing parents or physicians to "reassign" the sex of a minor is child abuse and must end. For public institutions to use taxpayer dollars to declare the superiority or inferiority of certain races, sexes, and religions is a violation of the Constitution and civil rights laws and cannot be tolerated by any government anywhere in the country."

(Page 5) (basically saying that letting kids get gender reassigned surgery is child abuse, then goes on to talk about how using taxpayer dollars to say one race, sex, or religion is superior or inferior is against the Constitution. I'm pretty sure they bring this up to say that by letting someone get gender reassignment surgery means they're saying one sex is superior or inferior, and they throw in race and religion for some reason)

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"Finally, conservatives should gratefully celebrate the greatest pro-family win in a generation: overturning Roe v. Wade, a decision that for five decades made a mockery of our Constitution and facilitated the deaths of tens of millions of unborn children. But the Dobbs decision is just the beginning. Conservatives in the states and in Washinton, including in the next conservative Administration, should push as hard as possible to protect the unborn in every jurisdiction in America. In particular, the next conservative President should work with Congress to enact the most robust protections for the unborn that Congress will support while deploying existing federal powers to protect innocent life and vigorously complying with statutory bans on the federal funding of abortion. Conservatives should ardently pursue these pro-life and pro-family policies while recognizing the many women who find themselves in immensely difficult and often tragic situations and the heroism of every choice to become a mother. Alternative options to abortion, especially adoption, should receive federal and state support."

(Page 6) (basically saying that overturning roe v. wade was a huge success for conservatives but they should still push to enact more bans on abortion while also recognizing the struggles for women who cannot get abortions who may go through difficult or tragic times. Also says that instead of getting an abortion, you should simply think of adoption, and I'm not too sure if that means they want you to adopt a baby or put your baby into adoption since you couldn't get an abortion. Also, they want to increase funding for adoptions)

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This is a page of 4 complaints I found. I will list them then put a summary for all of them at the end. "Bureaucrats at the Department of Education inject racist, anti-American ahistorical propaganda into America's classrooms" - "Bureaucrats at the Department of Justice force school districts to undermine girls' sports and parents' rights to satisfy transgender extremists" - "Woke bureaucrats at the Pentagon force troops to attend 'training' seminars about 'white privilege'" - "Bureaucrats at the State Department infuse U.S. foreign aid programs with woke extremism about 'intersectionality' and abortion."

(Page 8) (basically saying that 1. the department of education is teaching kids racist materials without given the entire context of the situation, and they call it propaganda, 2. the department of justice is undermining girls' sport and parents' rights in order to favor "transgender extremists," 3. the pentagon is forcing its troops to take training over white privilege, and 4. the state department is injecting foreign aid programs with woke extremism like oppression from gender, race, religion, etc differences and abortion)

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You can tell I had to look words up since they use really big words for some reason.

My summaries might not be exact, but I'm trying.

Remember, this is just the intro, I haven't gotten to their proposed policies.

There's gonna be a part 2 for the intro stuff, it's just that it's midnight and this post is long enough already.

Please let me know if I got anything wrong. I added summaries cause I barely understood what they were saying anyway.

(i did not check this post later as it's really long and I'm not doing that to myself. if you spot any misspellings or anything, please let me know and I will fix it)

[rraaaarrl]

Design for a Marketing Agency is a Hellscape

I am once again, about to lose my goddamn mind. I just spent two hours double-checking some QA, because my junior designer is confused by the feedback he got on this web project. Basically some BS involving missing images, should not actually be that big a fucking deal, it is not at the client review phase yet, but it is a stupid large site. Both the dev and the PM were giving him conflicting requests & tagging me in every stupid interaction. I finally sorted it out, and created an exact numbers and list of images to keep and images to fucking yeet and replace. Because nobody wants to take the time and responsibility to make these decisions, guess what. Apparently this is now my job on top of everything else.

It 's just an unfortunate mix of the designer being super green, and an ESL dev. I have mentioned "please be direct and leave no room for ambiguity when communicating with her". She's a great dev actually, but flounders on large, content-heavy sites (we are talking 90+ pages with longform content). I have mentioned in the past, that maybe we should not hand off these large scale projects to her.

What really fukcing set me off is that the PM said our boss was concerned about the length of time the initial design and content collateral collection phase (one of my tasks where I basically hand hold the client to assess their needs to get a fucking website built, for the love of all that is holy just send me pics that were not shot with a potato and a decent logo file), he is always always wanting to trim time estimates, yet at the same time, preaches about QUALITY.

Like, bitch, do I need to whip out that venn diagram which illustrates: you can get it fast and cheap and shitty, or you can get it at a realistic timeline at a reasonable cost and have it be quality? It is always DESIGN TIME and QA TIME that they want to cut FIRST. Oh sure, give the PMs all the time in the world to have meetings and dick around with spreadsheets and decks, as they do fuck all, but eliminate time where it really matters (design, and dev).

So they need to stop tooting their horns about what a goddamn unicorn I am, if we are going to continue down this path, fuck you, pay me (more).

[thetriumphantpanda]

Hey Charlie! I had a question, for the WIP Game, is this series Into The Trees, Find The Girl the same as In the Woods Somewhere? I know you said you weren’t finding the inspiration to write that series recently, i just wanted to ask if it’s in hiatus or is still ongoing.

If it isn’t, can you give us a snippet of that new series?

Lots of love!

Hi there! Thank you for sending this in!

They're different! It's confusing because they're both named after the forest! The new series is set in the years before Joel & Tommy reach Boston. I've put a snippet of the new series below for you!

As for In The Woods Somewhere, I've been having lots of thoughts about it, and I have ideas for it for certain that I'd love to get on a page sometime soon, I'm just overwhelmed with life right now, and I'm trying to follow where my muse takes me, instead of trying to force myself to work on particular projects! I promise ITWS will make it's return though!

WIP Tag Game

“It’s not too late, you know?” Tommy’s voice starts, the rain is loud so he has to shout a little to bear heard, “We can still make a break for it, find the Fireflies.” It’s around this time that you would scoff at him, tell him not to be so stupid. What would you want to be a terrorist for? You have to admit to yourself though, as you look down at your boots and notice the spattering of blood across them, that maybe it’s not such a terrible idea at all. If you’re going to commit atrocities like you had done today, then surely you should do that for the pursuit of something better? Surely you should focus your talent for violence somewhere that it’s going to make a difference. Focus it on the military dictatorship that exists at random points throughout the country.  “You really think that’s going to be any better?” You ask back, “You’re still going to have to kill people Tommy, still going to have to do terrible things, it’s not going to absolve any of the shit we’ve done before.”